#kinda feels like wasted potential idk LMAO

[sophfandoms53]

Anyway shout out to Dewey who constantly looked like he was having the worst time of his fucking life in the pitches

Just an 11 year old pissed off at the world it seems😭

[nobodybetterlookatme]

nah cuz I would pass away if someone asked me if I was into them 😭 but CONGRATS ON GETTING THE DATE!! I hate to say we told you so, but we definitely told you so 😌💅

Bro I literally short circuited lmaoooo like it was not cute and I almost died fr. But yeah, date secured ahskaksk y'all were right 😭 it still feels so surreal lmao I'm still vibrating about it

[mimikyuno]

my yuriful summer 2024 watchlist 🏖️☀️

now that i checked out the first episode of all the yuriful shows i was keeping an eye on, here’s my first thoughts and impressions

Mayonaka Punch

tags: comedy, supernatural, vampire

thoughts on episode 1: LOVED IT SO SO MUCH!!! i love the mc already she’s such a mess and i already love the dynamic between her and the raging vampire lesbian. my favorite from the ones on this list tbh!! need more cancelled youtubers and horny for blood lesbian vampires. also i have a weak spot for anime with adult characters who can drink alcohol and get wasted lol. WILL be watching EAGERLY.

yuri thoughts 🌸: the yuri looks solid!! there was verbal mention of lesbian romantic feelings. and as in most vampire shows, blood drinking is metaphor for sex but it’s made quite explicit in this one which increases the yuri score. the protagonists have already a v interesting dynamic im invested.

(EDIT) POST EP 3 THOUGHTS: i love this one more and more!!! still my fave out of these 5 for some reason? i just like masaki and live’s dynamic a lot, i hope they kiss

(EDIT) ALMOST END OF THE SEASON UPDATE: only one of these im still watching lmao ep 9 and 10 were really good! i hope masaki and live make out by the end. yuki best girl

Na Nare Hana Nare

tags: sports

thoughts on episode 1: LOVE the colors and art style in this one! love that there’s a girl in a wheelchair!! love the brazilian girl who keeps kissing everyone!! the parkour girl is turbo autistic fr… also a ninja lmao. im v interested in this tbh!! will be watching.

yuri thoughts 🌸: im v interested in the possible yuriful dynamics, especially between the girl in a wheelchair and mc, and between parkour ninja autistic and tall girl. i think the brazilian girl and girl who follows her around are also supposed to be shipped.

(EDIT) POST EP 3 THOUGHTS: yeppp turbo autism ninja is a huge lesbian i love her sm 💌. very sweet show!

(EDIT) ALMOST END OF THE SEASON UPDATE: on hold. it got quite boring at the ep 5 mark and i cant will myself to continue. might drop

Senpai was Otokonoko

tags: crossdressing, love polygon, romance, school

thoughts on episode 1: this counts as yuriful and i Will fight u on this. bisexual girl x closeted trans girl x closeted gay childhood friend love triangle? discussions of gender identity? yes pls. will be continuing it!!

yuri thoughts 🌸: makoto and aoi are cute 🥹

(EDIT) POST EP 3 THOUGHTS: idc about whatever happens later on, makoto is a trans girl, episode 2 and 3 are an insane confirmation. even if she never breaks through her eggshell throughout the whole series, she’s trans. no like fr. i love her so so much and i hope she’ll be able to transition (either at the end of the series or afterwards). egg of the season 🥚🏳️‍⚧️

(EDIT) ALMOST END OF THE SEASON UPDATE: meh. dropped lmao

Shikanoko Nokonoko Koshitantan

tags: comedy, gag humor, school

thoughts on episode 1: “shiiiika 🦌!!!” okay y’all know i love me some gag humor anime but tbqh im feeling kinda lukewarm on this one. maybe it’s bc i had rly high expectations for this but idk most of the gags did not hit as nice as i hoped. tho some of them were brilliant (also looove the constant breaking of the fourth wall). not looking forward to the siscon character that’s gonna be introduced. will be continuing but might drop if i get bored. however i loved how they Did mention that only male deer have horns sooo… noko transbian 🦌🏳️‍⚧️?

yuri thoughts 🌸: the two protagonists have great yuri potential!! torako has already shown she’s a huge girl kisser and noko just keeps teasing her, which is a great dynamic imo. also torako’s va is hatsune miku’s voice provider, and we all know hatsune miku is transbian goddess so!

(EDIT) POST EP 3 THOUGHTS: okay nvm i actually love this!!!!!! and the siscon character is such a caricature and parody of the siscon trope that i love her too (also she’s voiced by mafuyu project sekai uwu).

(EDIT) ALMOST END OF THE SEASON UPDATE: dropped lmao (gags got boring, i have seen too many similar shows)

VTuber Nandaga Haishin Kiri Wasuretara Densetsu ni Natteta

tags: comedy, otaku culture

thoughts on episode 1: once again maybe unpopular opinion but im not completely sold on this one. yes it’s fun, yes she’s unhinged, yes they’re all absolutely raging homosexuals BUT idk how to explain it but it feels very much male oriented. idk i think i feel this way bc it’s my personal pet peeve when otaku shows focus mostly on men as the intended audience (for example, when they showed her audience, all the viewers were men which like. they could have shown at least one woman who likes watching her videos yknow?). so anyway. at least it’s incredibly gay? and once again, love characters gettinf drunk lol. but idk i feel like this was made to ride the wave of hololive and get men on twitter to share funny clips idk. i like how they use actual vtuber avatars in certain scenes, and i get the vibe they’ll want to make these girls real vtubers, hence why we dont see what they actually look like but just their vtuber persona. will be checking out more ep but will drop if it gets too meh.

yuri thoughts 🌸: as mentioned, all the girls are RAGING homosexuals fr. asking about favorite lesbian porn scenarios to each other to possibly act them out. hello?!

(EDIT) POST EP 3 THOUGHTS: again nvm, i like this one too now lmao tho i’d rank it last out of these 5 tbh. but it’s so unhinged and deranged that it’s a super fun watch

(EDIT) ALMOST END OF THE SEASON UPDATE: the wii fit -like episode was the last drop. burnt braincells i’ll never grow back. dropped byeee 0/10

[rhytmrocket]

hey all! so that post about po ship names got more support than expected, and i see at least two people would like to know the names i've come up with. so, here are some of my better works!

note that i don't ship really any of these that much, mainly cuz the only ship ive definitively decided so far that yes this is my yaoi is kaijoe, and also because a portion of these are crack-ish ships that i haven't seen anyone ship like at all (although i haven't checked out po ao3 yet so some of these might actually exist and i just have a blind spot). so if that fact degrades the quality of the names for you, sorry i guess

bulldozer, for bull/sandman. coming from bull, and to "doze" is to fall asleep, and also bulldozer is a word. kinda surprised i haven't seen this ship around, to me it feels like at least someone would ship it.

chocolate milk, for bull/doc. chocolate for doc, and bulls are male cows and female cows produce milk. this is a ship i'm pretty sure exists, but i haven't seen a name for it yet, so maybe this is already an accepted ship name for it like with the glass cannon situation. who knows

bullrush, for bull/hondo. it's a pretty obvious name, but it sounds really good so it's staying here.

redbull, for sodabull. redbull is a carbonated energy drink, which is basically soda. also bull in the name. i know this is one of the bigger ships in the tumblr po fandom, and i cannot believe no one calls it this. i can't have been the first person to come up with this! but everyone calls the ship sodabull so i just gotta live with it but now i'm breaking my silence!! sodabull should be called redbull. i mean maybe not in tags cuz that could get it mixed up with the energy drink but like you know!

popstar, for soda/macho. pop from soda pop(inski), and star because macho is a hollywood star. i feel the exact way about this one as i do with redbull-- it's a good fucking name but i haven't seen any macho/soda shippers use it and it drives me nuts

russian roulette, for soda/aran. soda's russian, and aran has a theme of luck, thus roulette. i haven't seen this ship much recently but scrolling back a while on the soda tag shows that this ship has existed. and i have not seen it be called russian roulette. what is it with soda ships and not reaching their name potential?

piña colada, for hippo/soda. piña colada is an often-alcoholic drink (soda has references to alcohol, and also his name used to be vodka) with pineapple in it (hippo has a lot of connexions to pineapples). ok, this ship i have not seen anyone ship (yet). this name i really just randomly came up with, but i like it and i think it fits and sounds good

dragon dance, for dragon/heike. this is mainly a reference to the move from pokémon of the same name. i am just about certain this ship exists, but i just! haven't! seen it yet!

pizzapie, for pizza/clown. pizzas are sometimes referred to as pies, or pizza-pies, and clowns are known for throwing pastry pies as physical comedy. ok guys hear me out! uh! uh. ok i got nothing, this ship just entered my mind one night and hasn't left since, like a prophet recieving a vision from a god except the god is dionysus wasted off his ass.

spaghetti and meatballs, for pizza/ref mario. i have no explanation for this one. i am so sorry. idk why so many pizza pasta ships come into my mind, that fucker has 0 canon personality

pineapple-shaped disco ball, for disco/hippo. i think the name's pretty obvious. i uh once heard the word cluster "pineapple-shaped disco ball" and immediately thought "lmao that sounds like a ship name for disco kid and king hippo" and promptly put it on my note of ship name ideas. i really like it for them because it's verbose and clunky, it sounds like something their collective braincell and a half would come up with.

oh and! if a name i have here already exists, please do tell! especially if it's redbull or popstar, those two drive me mad. clown.

[real-total-drama-takes]

im bored and kinda high so heres my opinion on all the reboot characters

caleb - is a character

axel - im just as gay for her as the next guy but there's no way in hell she's final two next season lol but i wanna hold hands w her

nichelle- yass girl give us nothing 🥰

scary girl - idc idc she was funny asf but i am glad she went early bc if she stayed any longer i wouldve hated her lol

damien - one of the best things to come from the reboot and yall are doing him a huge disservice shipping him w priya 🥴 that shit is so boring but honestly? there might be something there somebody's gotta make me a believer tho. CONVINCE ME

mk - as a bitter, annoying, sarcastic individual myself i could not stand this bitch omg 💀 her character has a ton going for it but all they did w her is make every single one of her lines sarcastic n shit and i was BORED

raj - dumb gay man i love him

wayne - dumb ace man i love him

ripper - bro just wasnt funy. i dont get why they make characters who just pride themselves in being nasty n shit kind of a waste of development idk

zee - we can all agree that he was great but he gives me early boot vibes for next season bc like if we're demanding development for all the first season early boots then he's just gonna be there ig. dumb can only get you so far yknow?

chase - him and emma both are such wasted potential like BREAK THE HETEROS UP OMG their relationship dragged the second half down so bad like chase is just bad for the sake of being bad. like he wasn't even funny either just a waste of space by the time he was gone 😭

emma - first i'll say im glad we got a plus sized girl w some fucking athletic ability beCause THEY EXIST yay happy but anyway she was so funy until she got back with chase and that whole shit w him throwing that challenge for pizza was so DUMB like she honestly thought he did that shit for her 💀 like she was CONVINCED bro the straight delusion was insane

julia - she was the bad bitch we all needed and deserved but i cannot sit here and let you mfs say that she played the game well bc she absolutely DID NOT. girlie had no actual strategy other than winning and thas not even a strategy. even her trying to "manipulate" chase that one time sucked too lmao. bro her goal was to get everyone to hate her and win out of spite that shit is so dumb but it's so her so idc we love her anyway

millie - there were so many times where i lowkey forget she existed lmfao i don't even dislike her it was just "oh yea she here too lol" but i gotta say it kinda feels like they used her as a scapegoat to make writing her outta the finale easier idk maybe it's just me. but her crying after bowie clowned her ass when she was eliminated was the funnies bit in the entire show i was giggling n shit bc she honestly did that to herself lmao rip

priya - people compare her to zoey and sky way too much honestly (its me, im people) but when you look at it we have a mary sue that was infuriating to watch , the same girl but olympic flavored whos existence i have to be reminded of every two months, and priya. priya is perfectly fine and she was a nice winner even if i knew she was gonna win the second she was onscreen lolZ but when she read millie's notebook and absolutely demolished her ego i was living. like girlie ate her up w absolutely no crumbs left idc

bowie (the real winner) - i was fully prepared and ready to hate this twink istg. like i was in my homophobic era and ready the second his name was called but omg i love him sm. he was the queen i never knew i needed in my life. and to all the mfs who say his gayness is his entire personally have never met an fem black man and it shows 💀 idc what anyone says he's the best writer character in the entire show 🤭 as much as i love him i cannot let his fit slide. the pearls can stay bc those were a serve but the pants??? THE FUCKING PANTS??? THOSE FUCKING FLOOD WARNING HIGH WATERS.?? why would they do him like that omg. fits like that are why we get hate crimed 😔

ok im done good luck to anyone who actually reads this lmao

.

[evilkaeya]

I'm getting to actually believe that this was somewhat an anime original ending idk

Like sigma is asagiri's fav character right? There is no way he would end his arc that easily, like tf happened to him joining the ada?? and and dazai promised sigma to get him out, there is no way that he would just ignore him it just seems kinda ooc for him idk, I mean sigma reminded him of atsushi right? and also in 106.5 it was obvious that dazai cared about him, it just seems really odd for him to just..leave him. Tf happened to him wanting to save sigma so bad..wtf

And there is more...there is no way that sigma got ahold of fyodor's secret and just...died?? I mean weren't fyodor's secret that important that dazai wanted sigma to read his memories so badly and asagiri dedicated 2 chapters to it??? They were that important that before he passed out he said he should tell the ada about it only for it to just get thrown away and become useless effort??? WASTED POTENTIAL FOR REAL

ALSO FYODOR'S DEATH WTF?? Wasn't he the second most important villain in the series and a parrarel to dazai??? And we didn't even find out wtf was his ability and his backstory?? He fucking died that easily? Imagine all the things he could do...his rivalry with dazai was one of my favs tbh....WASTED POTENTIAL 2.0

Also Also do you remember bsd volume 24 cover? Where all of the ada were in the cover? They did almost nothing in this episode...it just doesn't make sense...I mean why the main characters of the series shouldn't be involved in the finale of a arc as important and long as DOA arc

This must be an anime ending idk asagiri won't just ignore his important characters right? Bones would but I don't think asagiri would...Asagiri pls fix this I beg you

Anyway don't get me wrong this episode was quite entertaining with skk typical plans, it was pure gold, I laughed out loud when I saw dazai's cockroach ass entering dramatically as if nothing happened lmao and ofc CHUUYA and sskk and AKUTAGAWA and old man yaoi and Bram and aya and...Nikolai...holding fyodor's severed hand *sobs*

But it just didn't feel like the suitable finale of the DOA arc..idk it seemed really off...I will be disappointed if it is the real events of the original manga, DOA arc was highly entertaining to me and if this was the ending of it....AAAAHHH

Man i miss old bsd ending arcs ( *coughs* guild arc *coughs* )...Haha sorry for ranting too much in your ask box I'm just purely mad

I get you. A lot weren’t answered in the last episode and I'm hoping we'll get them in the next chapters. As much as I wish it was an anime only ending, I don't think that's plausible. But this is asgr so who knows, maybe he's cooking something.

My guess is that this is the end of DOA arc but not for the members. I'm 100% sure Fyodor is alive. He's too smart to die this easily, and his last line was what Jesus said in bible before he got crucified and that fella came back 3 days later! The religious symbolism is too coincidental and strong on this one to ignore. He is coming back. And considering how dramatically the villains are defeated in bsd? Fyodor died like a fly on gluetrap. It doesn't make sense.

Sigma too, I'm pretty sure she's just in a coma. She's fine and skk went back in to get her. Dazai promised to save her and I believe in him. Plus she's too essential to the plot. We'll see more of her for sure.

The thing is, like every arc, this arc too is ending with sskk fighting side by side to end a conflict. That's what the main focus of this series is yk, it has been since the beginning. We often seem to forget that Atsushi is the main character of bsd.

The only thing I'm a little disappointed about is how skk were handled. Sure, it was funny and I laughed too but it flushed everything that happened 101-110 down the drain. Was hoping for a different outcome from them this arc.

Anyways yeah I get your frustration anon! Anime is rushed, always has been. I honestly don't think this was a bad arc ender tho. It was pretty good imo. The old man yaoi was delicious.

[togalnu]

Do you have any specific hcs for fem togainu or just fem nitrochi as a whole? I'd love to hear them! ^^

Oops I meant to answer this earlier. Anyways yes! I will be putting this under a read more because. Lol. Enjoy!

You wanna know a secret? Earlier this year I was researching parodies and the legalities of them because I had the grand idea to make a togainu remake but yuri and with some story changes. A whole ass visual novel. I was seriously planning on making it. Suffice to say I have put in some thought in turning these yaoi boys into yuri girls.

We will be here all day if I list every little thought and headcanon I have! I'll def make more posts about my visions in the future, but for right now I need to talk about Shiki. I NEED TO TALK ABOUT SHIKI.

First and foremost, my overall thoughts about Shiki: wasted potential. His route was a huge disappointment when I finally got to it. It was fumbled so fucking badly and it pains my soul because Shiki is hot and I love the concept of his character but.. man. What a let down. I ended up thinking about him a lot because of this. What I would do if I were in charge of writing his route, parts of his characterization that I'd rid of or ameliorate, and maybe even giving him some new quirks to not make him so one-dimensional-evil-villain type. And then along with this, I started thinking about what if he was a woman. because I am attractdd to women. Typical thought process.

First, his design. I am a sucker for black haired red eyes bitches. I love black and red. I'm dying my hair black and red at the end of the year. The majority of my wardrobe is black and red. I do not play around #EMO. I love the almost leather gothic look he has but unfortunately it is not enough for me. I felt that he needed more unnecessary accessories and belts and other clothing items, as any goth should have. I've had a few ideas in mind for Shiki girl outfit and they all lean into these more, like giving her extra bracelets, belts, necklaces, crosses, whatever. I want her DECKED OUT!!! But I also struggle coming up with outfits so I can't really decide what looks good LMAO

Things I love about Shiki's outfit:

- The gloves. UGHHH gloves are so fun. The longer the gloves are the better.

- His stupid coat

- The spikes and crosses. The silver adds a lot to his appearance

- Turtleneck<3

Things I don't like about Shiki's outfit:

- those stupid ass notches on his pants. I can't tell if he has insane thigh-high boots or strange pants, and neither can a lot of artists it seems like? Though it seems pants are the consensus. SAD!

- Turtleneck should have long sleeves

- Or his coat should have long sleeves. One of those two

- What the hell is going on with his belt. It'd look fine if it didn't have those strange hanging.. circle... things

NOW MY IDEAS

I like the idea of her having a corset and fishnets, so I've been including that in whatever iteration of her design I'm working on. I gotta keep the coat too as it's like, a Shiki classic. I've also been trying to decide how a skirt for her might look (I love the idea of it having a slit so you can see her fishnets and thigh high boots).

But I'm torn on including the turtleneck as much as I love it.... I feel like it kinda clashes. Idk maybe i should just move her skirt up so it's not hanging off her ass but also it's fun to draw it that way.

Although adding another belt with the skirt could work too, and have the fishnets peaking out from the skirt slit... not gonna draw that rn though im just brainstorming here

Like I said earlier I'd love to give her way more accessories than base Shiki has but I need to definitely play around with outfit ideas more bc I don't want her to look too cluttered either. Also sorry all the pics are torso only because for some reason I struggle HARD with drawing calves and feet

I don't have much to say for hair ideas.. I just like the idea of it flairing out + two long.. idk what to call them... strands of hair? Down her cheeks?? Okay well u see what I mean in the pic. Bangs pretty much stay the same

And ohhh my god I know togainu is set in the post-apocalyptic future, but considering it came out in 2005 I feel obligated to rework some of the designs to be a little more y2k.. Akira with low waisted flared jeans... making Shiki even more gothic... it's so fucking fun HOW CAN I NOT!!

Also the other day I saw this one corset that I LOVED and wanted to see if I can Shiki-fy it but hmm... idk... I definitely need to play around with the idea more but here's a quick sketch i did just for funsies so you get the idea

Okay moving on

Second, his characterization. I love the idea of what they were going for in terms of his relation to Nano. I wish so badly they had expanded on this past Shiki just hating line users and killing them because he's unable to kill Nano (although I do think this is a pretty good bit of characterization). I'm pretty sure the Chayamachi manga goes more into this but idc we are talking about the game so I'm gonna pretend it doesn't exist.

Shiki is smug and cocky. Incredibly so. But a big part of his character is how hateful he is, so much so that it's this hate that motivates everything he does.

I love it. I love his hatred. I wish the game went more into it sooo badly and like if he found out Akira had anti-line blood before the end of the game and there was time given to show his reaction? Would he hate Akira for it??? Would he feel any kind of resentment?? If I was Shiki I'd definitely feel complicated as fuck over it!!!

Anyways I'm still working out how fem Shiki could be improved upon in terms of this, and I LOVEEE LOVE LOVE LOVE writing personality and backstories and relationships with other characters and how they all interact with each other. I have very deep oc lore because of this but i will not get into my ocs rn because they have nothing to do with togainu.

This post is already long enough however and if I were to talk about all the ideas I had for Shiki characterization upgrade... well it'd take even longer. To say the least. One day I'll talk about it though! In a more comprehensive post including other characters and whatnot. It's something I definitely also need to work out in my head more tho

It's been a pretty fun project so far that I hope to do more with in the future. Side note that doesn't really matter but there's this song that I always imagine fem Shiki amvs too oops.. RIDE IT by LustSickPuppy... this part especially.......

(the part is around 1:17 if you don't feel like listening to the entire thing. But u should)

Urggghhhh I love lsp ugh ughhhhhfuhrhhcuuhfhuufghh sorry for posting lyrics and a spotify link. It will happen again

OKAY. AMYWAYS

I do not give a fuck if all of this seems too self indulgent. If anything it's supposed to be!!! It's a labor of love!!!

Thank u to anyone who read this far. I appateciate it

[appreciatingtokrev]

For the character bingo:

Hanma, Shinichiro, Takemitchy, Senju

first of all ty for giving me characters to talk abt i was excitedly waiting for someone to send me some lmao

also i will give explanations for some things i ticked off bc i cannot contain myself. okay i am insane about hanma that is technically all you need to know but i am a chronic over-explainer so. in my head he’s a timeleaper okay i am still 100% sure that wakui intended for him to be one idc that is his wasted potential n why he was done dirty by the creator. i would never wanna meet irl hanma bc if he liked me (similar way to kisaki) he would be like a little brother to me and i don’t think i could brotherzone hanma and end up on good terms still so no ty. and if he wouldn’t like me chances he beats me up or even worse are way higher than i’d like them to be so no ty. also despite that i am still a simp for hanma and do not see him as a brother or anything i just i’d view him v different if he existed irl. also he does wrong in his life <3 and i love that about him. and yes one day i hope i will write a fic about him getting homo-erotically stabbed to death by kisaki because i want to see him bleed and die and suffer

the love of my life what am i to say. in my head we are married i am just as insane abt him as abt hanma and i’ve seen one too many god awful takes by the fandom on him </3

no clue what a too big part of the fandom is doing with him but it’s WRONG i am not even really insane abt him there’s just so many bad takes idfk anymore atp 😭😭 ig protagonist issues. anyways i love him but ngl i don’t think abt him much. also i hate/dislike nearly any takemichi ships except for any of the mizo mid, hina, and mikey but maitake is something only i am right about too. as well as maitakehina. i’ve warmed up to takefuyu and takenao they’re both okay to me but no ty to any other takemichi ships is just. no.

i kinda dislike her and i feel bad about it 😭😭 i also don’t care about her for some reason at all idk. all my love for the akashi siblings fr is stored in sanzu adhjfhgs tho i think she was rushed/wasted by wakui. also ngl i forgot most abt her but i plan on re-reading the whole of tokrev and one of my goals is to try and stop disliking/start liking her so i will give her extra attention whenever i do bc really i have no reasons to dislike her but i still do 😭

[pwnyta]

LET LOOSE i wanna hear your thoughts on the writers!!

MAN FUCK THE WRITERS. (tl;dr tbh)

Not really I do like the stories over all but especially with their treatment of female characters on the show... I just wanna strangle them... just a little! Maybe a small dose of no oxygen will clear up their brain fog!

Besides Shannon dying right as she seemed to have made an epiphany that could have had her grow as a character, Nadia dying just as she and Sayid to be happy, Danielle dying without any fanfare, Naomi just getting executed without anyone really caring...

KATE was a good character when she wasnt egregiously forced into her Jack<-->Sawyer bullshit... and she was forced into that SO FUCKIN MUCH... I remember complaining to my therapist about it (cuz she also liked LOST)... Like when she was with Clair she could be the strong protector or she was with Sun and she was a good friend to Sun... or when she was with Cassidy and they were fun little criminals together... or with Sayid just off doing shit and judging bitches. LMAO Ya know... just Kate with the girlies.

But then she'd be like 'ooh Jake!' 'Oh Sawyer~' and it would just change so much depending on which dude was with her more... like which ever one was not paying her attention was the one she wanted.

AND IT WAS SO MUCH WORSE WITH JULIET JOINING IN. UGH I know Kate and Juliet became friends after but... *STRANGLE*

THEN CLAIRE!!! UGH!! Honestly I woulda been fine with Claires story if Kate wasnt stuck in that dogshit love triangle.. she was young sorta forced into a pregnancy without like any help cuz her boyfriend was an asshole... but her going darkside... coulda been fun but (like with Sayid) it just didnt have enough time to cook and wasted her screentime not really doing much. BOO.

Ana Lucia and Libby is a bit more... understandable & woulda been somewhat excusable had it not been for everything else. I think they (at least Libby) got written off because something with the actors? But... like they didnt need to have Ana Lucia fuck Sawyer before she died and then have no one really care too much after... like Libby got some care since she was connected to Hurley and we love Hurley...

But like Eko didnt get much with Ana Lucia after she died, Sayid didnt despite their weird tension... UGH.

Sun was the only female character I think had a mostly satisfying run. Good for... if anyone deserves it.

Charlotte died & I wasnt connected enough to Daniel to care that much, Nikki(WHO?) died and it was mostly a funny/dark joke, Danielle died and the only one who got to care was Alex who also died shortly after (at least have Sayid and/or Claire also care), Ana Lucia died and like no one cared except Eko who also dies shortly after (ghost Ana Lucia pops up so), Libby died...

Kate Juliet Sun Penny Libby Nikki Charlotte Shannon Rose etc are all pretty much entirely wrapped up in some dudes story... IDK its just kinda annoying..

Suns story was very good regardless and Penny wasnt on the island and she was still cool regardless BUT STILL.

Theres also the treatment of non-white characters that are super questionable. ESPECIALLY MICHAEL OMG... (THE FANDOM DOESNT GET A PASS WITH ME FOR MICHAEL EITHER JSYK! AINT NO WAY YOURE GOING TO TELL ME MICHAEL WAS ANNOYING AFTER, WHILE ON A BOAT IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE, A GROUP OF MEN KIDNAPPED HIS CHILD AT GUNPOINT. THE VITRIOL THAT MAN GETS FOR ACTING COMPLETELY REASONABLY IN THE CIRCUMSTANCES HE WAS IN GRINDS MY NERVES. AND ESPECIALLY HAVING LOCKE NOT BE A PART OF THE WALT GOING MISSING THING IS EGREGIOUS... BUT...we'll move on, im totally normal about it.)

But I mean it was the early 2000s whatre ya gonna do I guess...

Danielle and Kate I feel the most about cuz they were/could be so GOOD. SO JUICY.

(I also lament Ekos potential because he was so good... I really wish the actor stayed longer at least I get to watch him go crazy in OZ as Adebisi.... tho its not quite as pleasant...)

All this isnt even getting into the treatment of the (female/poc) actors...

ANYWAYS I LOVE LOST...

edit- I forgot to mention Ilana.... Which was also just horrendous. Why did she die like that... (admittedly I did laugh because it was just so sudden...)Whyd Jacob let that happen to her...(or more importantly the writers... wtf.)

[bandofchimeras]

religious trauma diaryposting

nah you don't get it. in my house growing up the kids would actually CRY if we heard someone say "oh my god" or cuss. even trying to briefly touch on White Jesus and Jesus actually being a Middle Eastern man got my fam so freaked out about potential blasphemy (????? idk, guess you can't criticize any portrayal of Christ) they shut down this whole conversation we were having about Palestine that was actually constructive.

when I say I grew up Catholic I mean, devout, convicted, delusionally Catholic to the point we engaged in cult behavior. and I want to, and try to respect other people's cultural Catholicism and understand my own family's cultural ties to it but bro....it's ridiculous.

I can't even imagine saying "What if Jesus kinda sucked?" to my dad. Like I do not have a mental picture of what would happen. With my parents you can criticize them, but you cannot criticize the Church. You cannot cross the line of blasphemy. It's draining to try and have a normal conversation bc in order to do so I have to pretend that sex doesn't exist, everything the Catholic Church has ever decreed is 100% absolute truth, and bodily functions are deeply shameful.

I am 28 years old. I cannot waste anymore of my life navigating this insane bullshit.

Cult recovery is so weird when the rest of your family is still in it, I'm just figuring out you can be a person without following some complex set of arbitrary rules. Like you can just exist. I constantly feel like I'm about to be struck with lightning. When I'm around my family they can be so sweet and we can have some fun but there's always a trigger line I have to mind so they don't self destruct and shut down or lash out at me. Neurodivergent religious people are incredibly fragile. And being homeschooled, that orientation was normalized to the point, along with having OCD, I have had to teach myself how to interact with the public without praying in my head for their souls or to God to protect me. It's terrifying, at first, and I still don't really understand people who just exist and don't feel a wracking pain in their core all the time from losing that delusion of absolute certainty in a belief. It's comparative to being told the Sun isn't actually real, it's a big prop in the sky created to manipulate you.

Anyways forgive the drama on main. I feel like a constant outsider and a dogged sense of aloneness, and worry that no one whose out here engaging in pop culture and living their lives actually understands the extent of the psychological damage that comes from being 100% immersed in a harmful cult for all of your formative years and leaving it to become the thing they taught you to hate and fear, and realizing you are hated and feared for having been part of the harmful cult as well.

The only time I've felt close to being seen is reading Hell Followed With Us. I related a lot to Benji's soldier like mentality of adopting new language and concepts immediately, and his hard-line dedication to destroying where he came from to prove he is not on their side, not dangerous, etc. it's fucking torturous. So that book was not fun to read at all. I barely can recommend it and will never reread it even though I am very glad to have read it. Felt a lot like watching the Passion of the Christ.

So yeah fuck off with "why aren't you over that by now?" I don't think I will be over it until I'm brave enough to publicly blaspheme and bathe myself in pigs blood or do a burlesque number on the altar of my home parish lmao.

[stfu-im-thinking-abt-blorbo]

Thoughts on each TDI Reboot episode, almost halfway finished with 6. SPOILERS UNDER THE READMORE.

Had to take a break for food and other things, but I'm back for a few more episodes. Probably gonna have to finish it tomorrow tho lol.

Damn Chris is going off on the annoying fans lmao. Chef Hatchet really is the angel on his shoulder lol.

Oh wow they kept the continuity of Damien blowing up the kitchen. Tbh I didn't expect that.

Millie got bullied in school for the autism, I can feel it in my bones.

Ngl Millie and Zee are the most autistic people in this cast. Idc if Zee is meant to be the weed guy without the weed bc kids show, he's just a silly guy with autism to me.

OOOH Julia lost 300K followers. Again, I feel like is she originally had over 300K followers, then she definitely should have had bragging rights to say she was well known online. Even if she did call herself an influencer 🤢. Maybe I'll actually like the real Julia.

Never mind she slapped Bowie, that's another crime.

Wayne why do you eat hockey pucks. Honey, do you need therapy too?

Catapults are back...

Catapult camp 😰 Priya, get away from your family.

Crab rave in the crab pit

Damn Emma has a SCREAM HOLY SHIT. Rivaling Lydnsay ain't she.

GO BOWIE SAVE YOUR BOYFRIEND

Mutants are still a thing??? Does that mean the Tapioca sharks are also mutants?

RAJBOWIE ON SCREEN KISS WWAAAHHOOOO

EVEN THE SHARK SAYS GAY RIGHTS AYAYYYYYAYAYAAAAYY

Zee is so stupid, I lob he. Also Ripper now has a crab friend, hope it stays.

Rip Zee's spare leg.

Priya and Millie besties for real now!!

I'm glad they're reversing the gay character is a joke trope to the straight ally character is a joke tope.

Seeing Chris playing with a smartphone is such a weird thing to me. Like a fanfic thing, but it's real.

Despite all the stuff with MK and Julia, Bowie is still happy about getting kissed by Raj.

MK gone already? Bye I guess? Idk she wasn't too interesting and I forgot she was there half the time. Which I guess is the point, but kinda not great for a memorable character. But I would have preferred for her to stay over Julia.

Chris making an ET joke and MK calling it an old man joke is making ME feel old. I'm Gen Z, but I've watched ET at least once as a teenager.

Episode was kinda meh? RajBowie was the highlight, but as much as I love the queer rep, it's definitely shallow. Which I guess works out since most of the other het couples for this series are also super shallow. Equality lmao.

Also plot with MK and Julia already over? Man, wasted potential.

[diaryfullofsparklesandkisses]

Downsides to working:

I get nothing done

Zero creativity

No time or motivation for basic things

Tired from physically working

Upsides to working:

Not feeling guilty for being unemployed and failing at being creatively successful

Rent is easily paid

Health insurance

Saving money

It’s worth it. Unfortunately I’m still pretty convinced my actual purpose in life is to be creative and have a career with that and benefit ppls lives. And the failure will continue to make me sad, I mean what do I expect lol I’m just average at everything I do which is fine, it’s normal. But ya know, it’s not great to always be knowing your dreams and giving up on them.. actually executing some and having them flop because getting lucky would be so strange and slim. I mean like knowing u have something unique to offer but knowing u won’t be able to get a seat at the table because that’s just the way it is being small. Normal and fine, it happens to ppl every day. We have to expect it and be ok w it. It’s just nice when ppl interact with ur creativity, or u know it made their day better, or that ur painting is in their house and they look at it and like it all the time. It’s like ur adding something worthwhile to the world w ur gift and talent. That seems cooler than working every day monotonously just to come home and be too scrambled to get it together to work more.. the guilt of being unemployed was horrible, it’s so burned into our society. Like forbid u take a day “off” when unemployed to do nothing, that feels even worse. It feels amazing but the internal judgement of “laziness”. It weighs a lot. Idk I don’t care about my life that much but fuck this world that would make a setup where someone like what I’m describing can’t fully express their gift. I distance it from myself cuz idk about my gift lol I’m kinda weird and uggo. But artistic identity placed on someone else, I would want them to go full potential mode. I guess for myself working is absolutely a million degrees below my full potential but it’s what I have to do to survive. I have to kill my dreams (that aren’t even that farfetched lmao) and I knew this would happen, I knew I wouldn’t like it.. this sounds so silly probably like I don’t want to make it sound like I’m a martyr. I fully have to not care to get through the day. I try to not think about it. It does make me extremely pissed that so many others are likely in the same position and may never get their moment and connection with the career they could have. I think wasted creativity is sad, not everyone has to do it but for those who can and want to it should be encouraged. Like go be prolific, go be awesome. Obviously that’s near impossible to do for a variety of overlapping factors depending on the person. But also kinda, fuck art from a wealthy privileged person like it could be good obviously but I think we all know some really intensely interesting and valuable art and music comes from people who are not that. But u have to be at least somewhat wealthy to do something creative full time that’s more ur own thing. Idk it’s so weird, I like my job rn, fuck having a society where creative ppl are forced to like kill that part of themselves, kill their inner child right. That makes me so mad it’s fucked up. Literally the world would be a better place, so it seems like I’m pinpointing a problem. Dunno how to fix it.

[cherryys]

The thing about his personality is that he's not mean or disrespectful or thinks himself better than anyone. He's pretty down-to-earth and rational most times. Hell, the reason we're in this mess to begin with is because he saw a good person and didn't want him to die. He doesn't think himself a lone wolf or does any sort of dramatic "i'm going to do it on my own". He's always worried for his teammates' safety at all times but not too overbearing where he thinks they can't handle themselves, so i'm really confused on why people dislike his "cold, distant act" even though it's very clear he's distant due to his upbringing and his friends even help him out of his shell. He's just chill most of the time lmao

As for the Potential Man (augh) jokes i feel it's kind of meta irony. Kids are always told they need to reach their "potential" and that if they haven't done so yet then they're not trying hard enough. I kinda relate to it on a personal level cause I was also told i had so much "potential" to be great and i feel it's wasted on me, and this is a common occurence between gifted kids in general: burn out. That's also symbolic of what Megumi is experiencing right now in the abyss: he's been told he could become great so many times that he lost the drive to even do good at this point. So for people to keep making jokes about it feels like the point went right over their head (or maybe im reading too much into it) but for Megumi he COULD've become great. Hell, he already was reaching that point as we've seen in his Culling Games Arc, but unfortunately it was cut short by Sukuna taking over his body. How the hell is that his fault? He didn't even take it lying down or anything, he still fought tooth and nail anf saved Yuuji and Maki until the bath, when Sukuna FORCED him to give up. But sure the 15 year old should've just brought a towel and dried himself off or something lmao

Also, you are 100% right about the Shibuya thing. idk why it's an unpopular opinion considering Sukuna literally says "I'll kill every human in Shibuya." So he was gonna do it regardless. Hell, Megumu even unintentionally saved 60 meters worth of Shibuya because Sukuna reduced the radius for Megumi, which also happens to be where the main cast was. (Maki, Nanami, Nobara, Kusukabe, Panda, ETC.)

Anyways I really hope gege gives Megumi a W for once 😞🙏

Some characters I feel like are impossible to genuinely hate unless you just have no heart.

[jademight]

[birdantlers]

10 for the ask game

10. The Dragon Ball series isn’t exactly known for being consistent with its story, its characters, and various other things. Which inconsistency irritates you the most?

Omg . This question.

Okay, there are a hundred million things I would change abt dragon ball if I could, but the thing that pisses me off the most is definitely inconsistency with Gohan's characterization. Namely,

[deep breath]

Gohan should have stayed/become the main character after Cell Saga what the hell.

I'm really tired rn so I can't elaborate as much as I want to but holy shit Buu saga really dropped the ball on this and it's one of the reasons I don't like that arc much. For a while before I knew what the arc was actually about, I got duped into thinking it would be largely Gohan-centric. Focusing on his relationship with humanity and his peers when he attends school / his old trauma/fears/idk.. anything negative or introspective?? Resurfacing when his dad comes back and shit inevitably hits the fan again.

(mandatory "thank for for existing, the Red Boy fic" statement. Look it up it's great I got derailed while reading the last chapter and I feel bad abt not getting back to it yet h)

But instead..... No? Gohan frustratingly gets yanked off center stage halfway through Buu saga, thanks to Toriyama's unfortunate authorship situation at the time. And after that he just....... Stays there. In the wings of Goku and Vegeta's story instead of taking the mantle of MC. It's really disappointing to me, and it's one of the reasons I still haven't watched Super lmao.

Ik I talk about piccolo for 172783736 hours at a time but Gohan's character arc is really the one that carries Z for me up to Buu saga. I consider Cell saga to be an infinitely superior end to his character arc, and I think the way it sticks the landing there is another reason why Buu saga gets on my nerves so much.

I've talked abt this with friends, but current Gohan also feels largely void of the gamut of emotions he was shown to have while younger, and that bugs the hell out of me. Obviously he's matured, but the fear and insecurity and loss he struggled with pre-buu arc feels strangely muted. Like he isn't allowed to cry now that he's an adult or something (though Goku got hit with this same problem, sigh). This doesn't help his already bad sidelining.

In Buu saga and Super, his repeated cycle of "BAMF fight where he comes out on top as strongest Z fighter→ peacetime→ complacency and domestic life→ uh oh he's weak now→ gets admonished for it and wins the day again" could be SUCH a good foundation for a compelling character arc, but they just. Don't do it! So it comes off as redundant and uncharacteristically negligent on Gohan's part. For as much as I love it, Super Hero drops the ball with this too.

I'm just gonna port my messages from discord and let y'all glean the gist

Basically Gohan feels kinda McGuffin-ized at this point and it makes me sad. He literally had a CELL clone in front of him and had no visible reaction or even an acknowledgement. He's verbally passionate about things like the saiyaman gig or entomology or his family, but the plot and writing don't allow him to actually struggle with the obligation his power gives him.

Like. He might on the surface, sure, but ultimately he just rolls over whenever someone goads him into fighting again (I have seen that part(s) of super don't @ me). I just can't help but see wasted potential and a character with somewhat weak writing. It really is like they just don't know what to do with him now. And that's a real shame because he still is my 1st/2nd favorite character and I am still interested in his arc. Way more so than Goku or Vegeta's. I just wish they would DO something with it 😭

Anyway. Can you believe this isn't even all my thoughts on the matter hdhdhdkdjdj

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Agents of SHIELD S4E08-S4E09 reaction

Agents of SHIELD S4E08

-Of course Daisy and Inhumans are the ones being blamed for Eli's crime...I'm not surprised but I'm still pissed off

-I've missed yoyo and her super-speed.

-mmm I have missed the Daisy+FitzSimmons scenes. They were so innocent in season 1 and now they are all grown up

-I love the idea of Daisy's power being able to predict earthquakes. Her power is so versatile.

-i feel like the bad guy motive of Eli is kinda weak. He's just...on a power trip? Or maybe very influenced by the book.

-Love the fact that Daisy can absorb earthquakes. That is so impressive to see

-I love Yoyo. I feel like her power scenes are all super badass

-I still haven't figured out the director's inhuman power. I thought inhuman power is more complicated than just super strength?

-OMG I love this scene of Daisy flying super high in the air. Just how cool is that. Daisy basically has the potential of learning to fly

-Mmmm I have to admit that the director is a good politician who can lie well. Does this mean Daisy is gonna be back to shield?

-waiiiiitttt Coulson's line is basically saying to Daisy's face that she should be the next director??? basically??? with all that "next face of shield should be an inhuman" talk

-Is this foreshadowing for Daisy to become the director in the future?

-I would be so excited if that happens

-Mack and yoyo's kiss is pretty hot

-"turtleman" is such a cute nickname

-mmm I feel like Radcliff wouldn't want to just surrender the Aida project.

-Holyfuck Aida just killed this guy ugghhh I knew that this is gonna go wrong but...why would she just... kill this guy? Just because she doesn't want to be controlled by shield?

-Why is May here???? I thought May was celebrating with the team at the base?? wtf? How did Aida kidnap May?

-but omfg why is May so freaking hot. She's just sitting there being passed out and somehow she's so hot.

-???? May is at the base drinking with Coulson? How are there two Mays???

Agents of SHIELD S4E09

-What does Aida want from May? like I literally cannot understand her motives here

-the way that there are two May is creepy

-The anti-Inhuman senator's own brother is an Inhuman lmao the irony.

-It's nice to see this scene between Jemma and Daisy. I still kinda wish they have a ship. Maybe a friendship but still. It is nice to see them talk to each other

-Idk about this conversation between the director and Daisy. I can understand his reasoning logically. But emotionally I still don't like him lol

-omg is this the episode where Aida goes crazy because I thought for sure it's gonna be dragged out more than this

-lmaoooo I laughed way too hard at Daisy's line "Simmons have been kidnapped three times but only two on this planet"

-Daisy said it so casually and the pure terror on the new director's face lmao

-This senator is gonna kill her own brother? even if she didn't do it in the end she's still pretty crazy for threatening it

-Oh fuck May has a doubleganger Andriod twin. Should have thought of that. Everything suddenly makes a lot of sense

-This ethics debate between Fitz and Radcliff is making my head hurt

-If base-May is just a robot how come she knows all of May's memory???

-is robot-May flirting with Coulson mmm it is sus

-The way Mack cut off Aida's head was pretty epic lol

-mmm I feel like they're wasting good villain material by killing Aida so fast. But if Aida's head was chopped off, what would happen to May's robot? she can't be really dead?

-omfg this senator really just shot her brother. The anti-Inhuman hate in her is REAL. I feel bad for her brother. He seems like a good guy.

-Righttttt. Radcliff is the bad guy and Aida is still alive. They make interesting villains. I would say better villains than Hive.

-It's a shame that I don't have time for more episodes but season 4 is getting more and more interesting the more that I watch