#kinda feel like thats the least you can ask for for ppl on here that many ppl dont even live up to

[pineapple-psychic]

Trans Shawn Lesgo

(for @movietonight)

shawn was always kinda eh about being a girl. hed wear dresses at maddys insistence, and socialize with girls, but really it was telling that his first (and only, for a while) friend was a boy

he came to the idea of being trans all on his own, although he didnt know the terms for it, when he was 7

i have a flashback in my fic Occam Was WRONG about what happened like right after he realized (cut his hair, panicked, came out to gus)

afterwards, when shawn was found by henry, shawn told him that he didnt feel like a girl and wanted to be a boy instead, henry told him to think on it during bed and if during the meorning he still felt the same theyd do smth about it

henry, ofc, asks maddy about it, and maddy has the Right Terms

shawn still feels the same in the morning, they decide to use he/him and let him pick out a new name

he chooses Shawn James Spencer :3

basically yeah gus is chill his parents are ok everyone else sucks

this is his main source of bullying tbh

physical dysphoria gets significantly worse around puberty, starts using medically safe bandages for binding (that stuff from the hospital that you use to compress) . also he totally like broke his leg so theyd give him that, at least once

i have maddy leaving like, the last year of middle school, for more drama! this makes it harder to really be confident in himself since part of his support system is gone

so basically ppl who support him: henry, gus, some odd officers that henry works with

in high school, befriends dennis and abigail

is the 'cool kid', almost no one knows hes trans. this is, ofc, on purpose

after running away, finds a couple odd trans people to relate to and definitely a lot of transphobes 😬

he starts T, kinda here and there since hes moving so often. also he cant afford it a lot of the time (he was definitely homeless a lot, prioritizing his bike and t over shelter)

comes back to santa barbara

wow! nobody really gives a shit anymore abt him being trans (i mean it has been like. 11 years)

i feel like hes comfortable with his own body now that he can theoretically grow a beard. like his body looks outwardly male to cis ppl.

so he doesnt get top or bottom surgery, and doesnt plan to (shhhh im not projecting (im projecting))

aaand thats mostly it! :3

[dirtbagcore]

HELLO im thinking about your saiki k / spyxfamily au...... im so fascinated by this family dynamic. does kuriko still have all her powers, or just telepathy? in your comic it looks like she still does the telepathic communication which i LOVE. pairs well with anyas constant yapping...... also, if kuriko does have all her powers, how powerful is she? id imagine she'd be about at the level of 16-year-old saiki with limiters, since in the time travel episode he was a bit older and a bit stronger (but he also didnt have glasses so i guess he didnt have the power to turn people to stone yet? i wonder if there are other powers he unlocks later. its probably in the manga but im only halfway through 😭). man, just imagine the shenanigans those kids would get up to..... even just putting kuriko in anyas place would be hilarious, but then also throwing anya AND kuusuke into the mix???? these kids are gonna accidentally destroy the world lmfao

but im also fascinated by the dynamic of. anya and kuriko being siblings and knowing about each others powers, but no one else knows about them (except probably kuusuke?). cause like. kusuo originally can use his powers at home, so now he can use them less freely, but anya originally had NO ONE who knew about them and now she has 2 siblings who do, so she can use them more freely. which would probably result in an even more reserved kuriko and an even more outgoing anya. plus kuusukes inferiority complex would be doubled..... loid has no idea what he just got himself into lmao. just absolutely insane family dynamics all around im obsessed

ANYWAY sorry for yapping in your inbox but i would love to hear any other thoughts you have about this au..... if you wanna share.....

^((TLDR; [in my S×F / Saiki K crossover AU where kuriko & anya are twins] what are kurikos powers? what's the new family dynamic?))

HIII! ( ≧∀≦)ノ THANKS 4 THE ASK!!! v happy to answer, i was thinking kuriko would:

1. still have all her powers, and

2. they would be weaker than in canon since she got her limiters early⬇️

this obv includes the fact that she can remember all her time as an infant, so thinking of that (considering the vague experiments anya went thru in canon) i deffo think ur right about her being even more reserved ( ´,_ゝ`) </3 tho tbf anya being kuriko's voice and seeming (from an outside perspective) to always just KNOW what she wants, no matter how specific, sounds really freaking cute ( T∀T)

i imagine her other powers coming up in little scenes (+ prob main plot stuff but im not writing allat for a thought experiment lol)⬇️⬇️

overall, i think the family dynamic would be like this⬇️⬇️⬇️

kusuke wouldnt be threatened by anya cause all she can do is read minds, shes no genius on top of that. his relationship with kuriko tho, i feel like would be similar to how it was in canon, except that since kuriko is more fragile here, id imagine that she'd be less willing to indulge kusuke's games- leading him to harbour more genuine resentment, in turn leading her to kinda fear him. it'd make their dynamic more angsty than the og, but tbh i feel that that lends well to the new setting/kusukes new role.

i dont think kuriko would mind loid or yor, but since she can remember their bio parents (kuniharu & kurumi) better than anya, i dont think she'd be able to accept them as her parents right away, especially yor.

the only other thing i wanted to mention was:

how did kusuke get into eden without parents, you ask? (you didnt but--) YOU ASK?? well obvi its cause he's a super genius and probably achieved something so crazy that the schoolboard REALLY wanted him as an alum, so he completely skipped over the regular admission process. he would live in the dorms and probably avoided talking abt his parents entirely (cause who would share their personal trauma with ants??), leaving a very convenient spot for loid to slip into lol

anyway! thats basically it!! thanks again for the ask, hope at least some ppl appreciate our wall of text!! (me n you are like this 🤞 btw. YAPPING 🔛🔝🔥) ☆(゜∇^d)!!

[notmyprey]

Ok, kinda sad idea but has a happy ish? ending (not sad in the fatal kinda way, just emotional lol)

So, 2 ppl are living together. Can be relationship or not. But, one is abt 4× the hight of the smaller one.

The taller person, as far as the smaller person knows, is just a bit strange. They still care for them, just some things they do weird them out. They constantly see the taller person staring at them and sometimes licking their lips. Its strange, but they brush it off.

One day, the taller person finally snaps, and decides to tell the smol person what's been going on. They say that they have been feeling the urge to eat the smaller person, but they dont cause they know they would hurt them and they wouldn't be able to live with themself if they did.

Of course, the smaller person now feels bad for the pred, so they start to think of things they could do to help.

Soon, the smaller person starts doing a few things to help the pred feel less hungry.

- they sit on top of the preds stomach under the preds shirt.

- they let the pred keep the preys hand in the preds mouth for a bit.

- they overall just stay closer to the pred cause the pred says it helps.

This continues for a long time, at least 5-6 months or more. The prey starts to get attached to the pred now, too. They secretly wish that the pred could eat them, but dont tell the pred since they know it would just make them feel bad.

One day, the pred comes home as happy as all can be. The prey asks why they are in such a good mood, and the pred responds that they have found a prey that wouldn't get hurt if they ate them. They continue, saying that the new prey is going to come over tomorrow for them to eat.

This is absolutely devastating to the prey, but they try to keep a smile on their face.

Tomorrow comes, and the prey has to watch as their pred eats someone else. The pred does nothing but talk about how wonderful this new prey is and how they are so happy to have met them.

The original prey can't help but go to their room and cry, feeling absolutely worthless, like the whole time they spent caring for the pred was not appropriated. They hate how easily they were replaced and want to do nothing but be in the new prey's place.

Now from here there are 2 separate endings, the second one has reform in it though, so I will put that under a cut.

Ending 1:

The pred, still full of the new prey, finds the old prey crying in their room. The pred comforts them and asks whats wrong, hugging them and trying to bring them closer. The old prey wants none of it, shoving themselves away. They cry as they tell the pred to leave and to enjoy their better replacement.

The pred didn't expect that. In their mind, the old prey was happy with what they were doing and didn't want anything more. They now realize, though, that the old prey did want more than what they had been doing for months.

The pred gets up out of the room and quickly throws up the new prey. They tell the new prey thank you, but they have something to do thats important and that they need to leave. After that, the pred goes back into the old prey's room. The prey is still crying. The pred once again pulls them into a hug, but this time lifts their shirt and places them where they normally go to help the pred.

The pred and prey sit like this for a while before the prey slowly calms down. The pred picks them up, holding the prey close still, and goes to the preds bed to fall asleep.

Ending 2:

(Tw: digestion with reform + a bit of suicidal thoughts in reference to wanting to be eaten and digested)

The old prey hides in their room for the rest of the night, even after the new prey leaves. The old prey can't be replaced, they desperately think to themself. They would rather die than be replaced. They find the pred, who does happen to be a deep sleeper, asleep. They force the way into the preds mouth and down their throat.

The prey nearly cries from joy when they reach the preds stomach. They let the stomach do what it wants, sinking into the plush folds. That's where the prey stayed, slowly melting away.

That was until they woke up in their bed the next morning.

Disappointed, thinking that was a dream, they go through their day, waiting for it to be night again. They continue to avoid the pred, still heartbroken from the betrayal. The pred tried to talk to them, but they were having none of it.

Finally, night came, and once again, the prey snucking to the preds room to get eaten. They slowly digest and can't be happier.

Morning comes again for the prey, with them again waking up in their bed. Now, they realize something is up.

For a week, the prey continues this pattern. Waiting for night, getting eaten by the pred, and waking up the next morning to do it again.

One night, they prey sneaks into the preds room again. But, when the prey shoves their head in the preds mouth, the pred wakes up. The pred pulls the prey away from them, not only shocked by them being in their mouth, but also that the prey is so close to them, even though they've been avoiding the pred all week.

The prey breaks down crying, and the pred brings the prey to their chest, hushing them and saying kind words. The prey reaches up to the preds mouth with their hand, pleading eyes fixated on their destination.

The pred shakes their head, saying they dont want to hurt them. The prey, without thinking, tells the pred its alright and that they will just reform by morning.

This shocks the pred, and they ask what the prey means by that. The prey sheepishly admits to sneaking in to be eaten by the pred each night. The pred has a look of horror as they realize what the prey had been doing. The pred holds the prey closer, crying, whispering that they are so sorry, over and over and over again.

[aropride]

thinking about therapy again bc i knowww i need to be in it. but i think one of my inarguable needs in a therapist is that they see me as an equal? i guess is the best way to put it. and thats not really something you can Ask it's more of a vibes based thing. but like. i hate playing stupid with doctors psychiatrists therapists etc i want to be like This is what im experiencing These are the resources ive looked into This is what i think is going on. where do we go from here. and like i know a fair amount about psychology and i dont want to have to pretend i dont. or for them to assume i dont. and like id look into peer support and stuff but i feel like thats more short term and less intensive than id need to unpack my childhood stuff. Oh i completely forgot to post and also finish typing this. anyway idk like what are even the chances of finding a provider in my area, who takes my insurance and is willing to work with me abt the copay, whose main modality isnt cbt, whos experienced in cptsd/dissociative disorders, and also who i click with as a person. idk. it feels completely hopeless lol and i know its not but like. maybe im fine rn like maybe i dont even need therapy really (least fine guy youve ever met voice)

but the other problem is i also need like, a social worker who isnt school-related and extremely overworked (god bless her tho omg) bc i need a lot of help getting like, case management and applying for disability etc. and just normal therapy isnt gonna help me when i also need those things. but i feel like most long term therapists arent also social workers and vice versa

and i dont even know what modality would be helpful for me. i know dbt WAS when i was younger, but now i know like. the basics, ive learned the coping skills etc. so idk if it would still be helpful? and i know like, somatic focused therapy or whatever would probably be helpful, because actually understanding what my body was doing and why and how that effects my mental health has been really helpful in the past. but also i feel like a lot of somatic therapists are... whats a nice way to say this. like a lot of the ppl ive seen either on like psychologytoday etc or on instagram reels are. the type of guy to buy dreamcatchers on shein and use cherrypicked parts of other cultures without understanding their cultural context. and, like, try to cure my dissociative disorder with reiki or something. Sorry im thinking abt the therapist i had in early 2020 now

idk i just dont really know what to look into even. bc ive heard good stuff from a friend abt emdr but im skeptical of emdr like, casually. like i havent tried it and i dont know a huge amount about it, but on the surface it kinda sounds like bullshit- yeah just look between these lights and think about stuff and thatll fix you. but i also understand how repetitive movement can be calming (#autism) and it makes sense that being exposed to those memories and also in a safe place would be helpful? and i like that u dont have to talk abt the traumas in depth out loud. but i also feel like thats more for single-event traumas or at least trauma that u like, remember

and i feel like being able to talk out loud abt stuff would help me. like having another person to bounce my thoughts off of whos not like. a friend. and is able to deal w that kind of thing. and is also paid to do so. And can also help me like. recognize when im being insane. but also Wont assume im being insane and that all my thoughts are fucking cognitive distortions

idk its just exhausting trying to figure out What i even want from therapy other than to Feel Better and stop losing entire months of my life sometimes and to be able to like. make phone calls and talk to people and not feel evil and insane all the time. and to be able to live away from my parents and have a life, whether that involves Employment or not. one of my short-term goals in therapy w a long term therapist would explicitly be to decide my long term goals and how i'll know i met them. bc i think talking abt the therapeutic relationship w my therapist up front is something that would benefit me. due to the avoidance.

idk. wgat everrrr.

[thatdeadaquarius]

With your language AU, I remember watching a video about a guy speaking angrily nonesense in an Indian accent and people thinking he was very angry. Imagine this as the Creator speaks angry gibberish to people and they just assume that the Creator is cursing them or something. (Or like when they speak gibberish to babies and everyone's like, "Aw the Creator is teaching that baby their divine language")

*AUDIENCE DRAMATICALLY GASPS.

✨️I look pretty good for a dead bitch✨️

She's alivveee!!!

Whats up i almost passed away from sheer academic workload, but im not in the ground yet 🥰 And with drafts outta my ass! :D

Hope yall ready for ur regularly scheduled Bullshit Genshin Sagau <3

SANDBEES THATS SUCH A GOOD USERNAME & ALSO SORRY I ANSWERED THIS SO FUCKING LATE JESUSSSSS 💀💀💀

SORRY ABT THE POLL I CANT BELIEVE I COULDNT FIGURE OUT HOW TO DELETE IT IM FUCKING CRYING I WOULD DO THIS-

Well at least i can do polls thru this in the future?? Idk tumblr is ass so we'll see how this accidental test works out...

☆

So these were the first thngs i thought of and its not super long bc ASKERS R GENIUSES OKAY

SOMTIMES I JUST WANNA PROFUSELY THANK U GUYS AS A REPLY FOR SHARING WITH THE CLASS THRU MY BLOG 💖💘💫

Saw the gif and couldnt help but think this is how ppl like Alhaitham or Diluc would react to u "speaking ur langauge"

"Our langauage" aka being a SIM 💀

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Stop Albedo would ask you to teach him ur lang/grammar rules 😭

What u gonna do when Zhongli asks you to teach him some words-

OH NO

NO DONT PASS ON YOUR BULLSHIT LMAO

U GIVING ZHONGLI SOME STUPID SIM WORD LIKE

Your ass: "GIGGLABAH means beautiful :) "✨️

Zhongli: "Oh thank you, how different from our own version, so excited sounding..."

You walk by him strolling the harbor and he just smiles at you and says

"You look gigglabah today my liege."

HIS REGAL FACE AND FANCY WALK WITH HIS HAND BEHIND HIS BACK AND EVERYTHING

(honestly ppl paint him as oblivious but he kinda seemed like the type of bastard who seems like he's not aware but sometimes he secretly knows the truth, he's just getting too much amusement out of it to stop doing it, LOL he does shit like the above to see YOUR reaction- LMAO)

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You're a maniac pls tell me u dont pass on simlish to all the serious characters-

XIAO WOULD SECRETLY THINK IT SOUNDS GOOFY BUT WANT TO BE INVOLVED BC ITS YOU ANYWAY LMAO

SO HE'S JUST SLIGHTLY SQUIRMING AND GETTIN PINK EVERYTIME HE SAYS A STUPID SIM WORD BC HE FEELS LIKE A GOOF HAHA

(& he's not the only one, others too like Kaveh, YELAN, Ningguang, Nahida, DILUC, AYAKA LMAO-)

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Some ppl i could see taking ur gibberish bullshittery and whether they believe its real or not is irrelevant bc theyre using it anyway-

And i dont mean in a good way 😭

LIKE IM THINKING OF VENTI.

CRAZY BARD INCLUDING SIMLISH ASS GIBBERISH WORDS IN HIS SONGS BC OF YOU

"Be cheerful like the hugkukie,

and may your cup never leaky!"

And Diluc loves you.

Really he does, deeper than he thinks-

But his eye is twitching LMAOO

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(Ok but if you did like multiple of these language shenanigans thruout the asks ive gotten, Kaeya would literally grow so fond of you and associate you with goofy funny shit that makes him laugh so hard that everytime he sees you he automatically is beaming with a smile, or trying to supress a warm grin- this got away from me but its 1:44am for me rn so i would love a smiley Kaeya rn -)

♡

Speaking language bs I have my 2nd oral exam for spanish tomorrow, pls send whatever good vibes u got and i am also really open to prayers from any religion as well. sobs

Hope anyone got any enjoyment out of my response bc tbh the ask is what rlly matters to me atp lmao

Until the next shenanigan-

Safe travels,

💀♒️

♡the beloveds mwah ♡

@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist

[tinukis]

(OKAY. I KINDA GOT CARRIED AWAY (i got REALLY carried away.) AND NOW I WILL PROVIDE VERY FEW INFO ON SABOSAN HISTORY AS EARLY AS 2014.)

sabosan existing on here since at least 2017 is crazy

(it's ask blogs and im lazy to know the lore but all ik is that sabo and sanji have kids while sanji is in extreme denial abt being gay)

i wanna know how far back sabosan goes... like at leasT 2015 or 2016??? (anime timeline) and maybe 2014 (manga timeline) idk im just guessing bc i dont know what year sabo returned so

OK BUT THE SLIM CHANCE THAT SABOSAN BECAME A THING LIKE ALMOST A DECADE AGO DRIVES ME INSANE I NEED TO INVESTIGATE WAIT

on pixiv in the sabosan tag (サボサン) the oldest works on there is from 2015. (i mean when u look up サボサン you get this cactus mascot which is p hilarious)

i theorize that sabosan became recognized because of zou/wci. bc thats when we learn about sanji's history. i notice that it seem to be more recognized by a few fans as early as 2016 (when wci started)

so those big brained individuals were onto something then. they saw two blonde characters that shared similar histories and went. "wait a minute. i can cook something with this"

and you know what sanji's good at? taking any ingredients and making something amazing out of it. thats what early sabosan fans did

there are Very Little content of them/i cant read japanese and i just mostly find the cactus mascot, but they were there. at Least as early as sabo's return. and at that time, fans did not receive sanji's past. they just took these guys like barbie dolls and made them kiss... anyway i need them to meet and i want to see the longtime fans react as theyve waited nearly a decade for that very moment

(kinda doubtful but let me dream!!!)

OKAY ANOTHER UPDATE (YES IM TYPING EVERYTHING IN ONE POST) i learned how to search dates on the bird app once more and. im seeing posts from jpn about sabosan !!!

one of my favorite ones:

the people understanding since 2016... that sanji goes well with ASL brothers :'D

ok found another tweet (and the users are still active !!) and translation seems butchered so im not gonna share but from what i could understand, this other user also likes sanji with ASL... this is amazing. LIKE im aware of the impact acesan had, especially bc of the anime including ace in alabasta (i understand deeply. i mean have you SEEN the way ace acted around sanji⁉️⁉️ lighting his cigarette... smirking at him when sanji turns his back... i know what you are. they Definitely spent an entire night (or more) alone together <3) but for sabo to be included to since this long ago, esp considering the two never met?!?? and the one connection is being royal blood...

again i cannot include everything, esp long posts bc the translation gets butchered but aaahh just ppl talk about the pairing, any potentials about it makes me happy... and gives me hope for the agenda to spread wider lol. what looks like that has been said is that a couple of people really like pairing sanji with multiple characters, esp ASL... and i understand so well. theres just something about sanji being so shippable

there are also fans speaking to other sanji ships fans, and they ask/say "i want to see your sabosan !!" it's great...

ahahhaa AHAHAHA FOUND ANOTHER POST I CAN SHARE:

sabo POP figure from 2016 (aaah i want it so bad...)

and the suit he wears in this figure, it does look like sanji's fit now that the user mentioned it 👀👀

okay i dug a little more and found another sabosan fan! at first i was unsure as they could be talking about another user or a cactus or something. but as it turns out, they are indeed a sabosan fan! they've said things like "i wish sabosan was more popular"/"i wish for sabosan" and this is dated back in 2016! plus one of my favorite posts (translated into deepL as i had a feeling that twt had butchered the translation and...)

they get it. they got it. as i mentioned earlier, the fans definitely knew what was up when wci happened. THEY WERE COOKING BACK IN 2016!!! which... i believe i should now start digging as early as i can. maybe for zou or dressrosa years!! bc certainly, this pairing was actually talked about during 2016-2017. it was wonderful to see!

oh my goodness... i decided to look from start of 2015 to the end, and so far in late 2015, the same user from the above translation, has been talking about them still! they mentioned sabosan fanworks, and how they read a heartbreaking fic⁉️⁉️ i cant tell you how happy i was to read that. sabosan being a thing and having angst works, even if i can't read them. (never mess with one piece fans, especially if they are fujoshi !! they'll find their ways. im honestly fascinated. i love fandom history if you couldnt tell by this post!)

plus, some fans calling themselves delusional for thinking of this pairing... if only i could be there with you, longtime fan.

and i'll be real here, i dont know of the popularities back then but the comparison of sanji and sabo being nobles are great :] (maybe bc i've just seen ppl being mean to sabo recently 😔)

okay im sure this post is getting wayyy too long so i'll try to wrap up my investigations. bc there are many posts to look through but sabosan being talked about as early as 2015 (as i write this) is just... very joyous news to me ;w;

im sure i will be missing lots of good posts (despite the horrible machine translations) but i am shaking hands with 2015-2017 fans in solidarity... at most 9 years later

!!! GREAT NEWS. 2014 posting!!

original tweet and deepL translation... dated mid december 2014. nearly a whole decade ago. i swear sabosan will go viral, way more than when zou/wci was in progress. im sure of it

i really cant put into words how im feeling or what im really thinking. just know im happy to find fans from 2014 !!

OH MY GOD.

⁉️⁉️⁉️ AUGUST 2014 BTW. and im assuming its supposed to be "sabo started with" or something but... the content. sabosan content. 2014. it's out there. SHAKES YOU. THE CRUMBS (also this user is a sabosan fan and i think acesan fan too as i did see mentjons of them... so this just...)

THEYVE BEEN HERE FOR A LONG TIME AAAAAHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭

NOW IM CURIOUS WITH HOW MANY POSTS IVE BEEN MISSING⁉️⁉️ yall the agenda must spread farther

ASL/sanji mentioned! august 2014

omg again from the same user

shaking your hand in spirit (april 2014!!!)

there have been fans of this pairing as early as april 2014!!!! and have been manifesting for their popularity for awhile 😭😭😭 (plus this user is still active! im not sure if theyre still into one piece but... i hope for the longtime/past fans to see it all soon)

i think my investigation into sabosan history ends here after a long post and hours of searching... unless i somehow find something earlier than april 2014, the earliest moment that sabosan was first talked about was in the year 2014. Q2 2014. back when dressrosa was still ongoing. do you know how insane that is? before wci.

i think we can come to a conclusion that sabosan was a concept as early as 2014 was all becaude of acesan. thats the pattern i noticed. ace/acesan was often mentioned. and i believe it's bc not only are ace and sabo brothers, but bc sabo aimed to eat the mera mera no mi. and if sanji were to meet sabo, sanji would be reminded of his late lover, ace. and the angst potential is so real... sanji looking at sabo... just as a replacement for ace? ouch

i know the fans were having a field day when they learned about sanji's blood family :']

side note: there are likely things lost due to users deactivating or whatnot... and i doubt i'd be able to search via wayback machine. and as much as i dont like pinterest for reposting art, there are pieces of the two ive never seen before

[kevinsdsy]

just saw that ither ask PLEASEEEEE keep lucas in the twt au... please my baby boy hes fucked up in the head but THATS HIS BROTHER!!!! sorry hes my favorite character he is NOT that bad ppl just have no reading comprehension 😭 dont cast him out hes only in six fics on ao3 and half of those he has like one line the crumbs in ur au are keeping ke alive while i put off writing a character study about him 💀 i mean. ok if you dont want him in there take him out. but also dont let the haters get to u he would NOT have done that shit if he had known literally anything like of COURSE he believed his brother thats HIS BROTHER. sorry to be a lucas apologist in ur inbox but like free my man 😭 ‼️ he did different shit than that ‼️

SKDHDJDN no dont worry, being a lucas defender in my inbox is okay <33 i also went a bit deeper into it in the replies because i’m not at all a lucas hater. (kinda unrelated but) i also saw someone post a lucas x quotes about brothers here on tumblr which made me sob.

i was just thinking maybe it’d be triggering for someone to have him included in the au because honestly aftg can be such a hard read where u have to take breaks for ur own mental well being (at least thats the case for me idk how others feel about it)

but i’ll definitely keep your message in mind too for future references <3333

[liquidstar]

🔥🔥🔥🔥

For drinks, fandom, character design, and uh free choice for whatever you feel like bestie

Ok for drinks, I've actually been thinking about this all day- I saw a poll that said something like “have you ever been to a house party (with alcohol; no family parties)” and, well, maybe op meant it as two separate points of clarity but… it's normal to drink at family parties? Right? Ik it's totally not the point of the poll, but I've never been to a family party where there weren't drinks. Why would there not be drinks???? There should be drinks. Those don't have to be mutually exclusive.

I realize that you were probably asking me about drink preference opinions. I don't have any strong unpopular ones. My grandpa makes a mean moonshine though. We have it at family parties, you see.

TBH whenever I’m at parties, family or otherwise, or just at the club or a restaurant, my drink of choice is usually just “bring me something with 2 or 3 shots of vodka idk im just trying to get drunk.” im going somewhere this week that has once rejected my id bc i look young, so this time i’m bringing my whole passport. I think it’s at my parents house but i will get it. And so help me god i am going to drink this time. Thats not even an unpopular opinion just a personal grievance lol

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For fandom…. My unpopular opinion is that actually it’s best to just get into stuff a couple years after the peak popularity. I know some ppl feel like they missed out, but I think it’s better. You don’t have to deal with The Fandom People, but theres still stuff to engage with, and still a following of fewer dedicated ppl who weren’t just riding a fandom hypetrain. It’s more chill. Like, I am so sorry, but rn it’s dungeon meshi. I was really enjoying it at first, but the fandom made me wanna stop, at least for now. Mostly because I dislike the way people in it seem to look down on other works within the same medium, and that also does the work itself a discredit. But yeah, I wanna try to get back into it, but I need people to, like, relax first. Thats also why im able to peacefully enjoy rezero on tumblr, where theres like 12 ppl into it, so i dont have to deal w the annoying nerdboy fans who just talk abt "waifus" (its funny that my issues are "too pretentious" and "not pretentious enough" lol)

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My 3rd unpopular opinion is that fart jokes can be kinda funny but they have to be done well. im fresh off the heels of watching a movie with the kids, so thats why im thinking abt this. You can't just throw it in randomly it's about timing. And it has to know it's stupid. I think the key is it has to know it's stupid. BUT NOT GROSS. gross on its own its nothing. Adventure Time and Regular Show understand. Very deep opinions only here

[multiplicity-positivity]

hi uh i could use some advice :<

im a host of a recent system of 20-ish and guh i am t i r e d

im mainly looking for advice on how to switch or just retreat into the headspace/leave front or even just kinda stop being fully aware while still being in front for awhile bc id rlly like to take a break and the realization that im most likely front attracted/frontstuck is kinda making me more tired of being in front

also if it helps at all my(&) system is parogenic + traumagenic in origin (specifically parotraumagenic) and theres kinda iffy communication between members (some of them i have clear communication with and they randomly pop up to say stuff, some i have no idea where they are and some of them i can usually only hear when im directly interacting with them).

afaik (as far as i know) only three?? ppl have rlly "fronted" per se, and the rest have been co-con

i apologize for the long and mildly depressing ask but any help is appreciated also dont forget to hydrate

Hello! We have some posts that might help you that we’d like to share if that’s okay. The first is a post we wrote a while back with some tips on switching from our own experience:

We’d also like to share this post by @rin-and-jade on being frontstuck or frontlocked, and how to go about unsticking yourself!

Our own system host (Parker) is almost always fronting to some extent. It can certainly be exhausting and disheartening fronting nonstop, especially when other members of your system can seemingly come and go as they please. He’s going to put some info under a cut for how he copes with fronting constantly, in case you want some advice on coping with being genuinely unable to switch out!

We hope something here will be helpful for you! We’re wishing you the best of luck with switching out or at least learning how best to cope with fronting in your future!

(Host here - I’ll just write this bit if thats okay. Anyway here’s some stuff I do to deal with The Horrors of perpetual existence)

Meditation

Taking a few moments to sit in comfortable silence can be useful for me when I’m feeling stressed or overwhelmed or straight up exhausted. Here’s how I meditate (I’m no expert and I’m sure there’s better ways to do this… this is just what I do)

- get in a comfortable position in a quiet place where I’m not likely to be disturbed

- set a timer on my phone for 5 minutes

- close my eyes, focus on my breathing

- don’t dwell on any thoughts but also don’t push them away; acknowledge them and let them go

- try to stay still and calm until my timer goes off

And that’s it. Sometimes I get interrupted by an alter or something outside, but for the most part, this is how I’ve been able to meditate effectively.

Rest

I take naps whenever I can. I sit down whenever I can. I’ll literally just close my eyes for a few minutes whenever I can. Our body has issues with chronic fatigue, and fronting constantly can sometimes exacerbate our exhaustion. So yeah I am a huge fan of naps and will often set a timer for like 15-20 minutes and snooze whenever the opportunity arises. Even just lying down with closed eyes can help replenish some energy.

Distractions

Reading, watching something on TV, or playing video games can help give me somewhat of a break even if I’m still fronting. I do tend to try and keep us distracted as much as possible… sometimes to our own detriment. But if you find that you really aren’t ever able to switch out, or if your system is specutien and that’s just the way your system functions, finding things you enjoy that can serve as distractions may help you as well.

Saying No

This one’s tough, but I’m trying to learn to say no when I’m overwhelmed or have too much on my plate. This means sometimes I’ll cancel plans, hand off a responsibility, make a compromise, or turn down an opportunity if I don’t have the energy for it.

Honestly idk how much my addition can help you, but if you find that you’re not ever able to switch out at all please know there’s other folks out there in similar positions. Hoping you can make the most of your situation, anon /genuine

[zai-doodles]

What are your ship hcs for fairytail

Or more specifically I guess what canon/implied relationships would you keep/get rid of and what relationships would you add

This is another long one omg I'm lving my best life rn

Ok for those who care, I separate my rewrite/ rewritten version of the characters from canon, so unless I specifically say like "I hate the canon version of this ship" calm down its not that deep

My canon adjacent ships that I like (meaning its the canon version of the characters) are:

Nalu, gajevy, erzajane, freed/laxus (idk is it fraxus??) And that's kinda it

ONTO MY REWRITE

Ok ok so obviously I've been very vocal about acearo natsu so he's vibing with all his friends he's living his best life.

Erzajane is still here being the best bc I live for the like, knight/demon dynamic of early them and then the slow healing and just jsnfnsknd

And of course we have lucy/lisanna/juvia, the must self indulgent nonsense ever let's go

Cana has kissed like everyone in her age range at least once and had a one night stand with most of them (her and loke had a strong situationship going on before lucy showed up)

Speaking of loke, he still has a crush on lucy but it's much more like, lowkey and doesn't really go anywhere other than maybe an awkward date where they agree to stay friends

Loke and gray r very much fwb idc don't look at me

Elfman and evergreen are my token straights but it's ok bc they r t4t

Lucy is so bisexual and has had a crush on so many of the ft members, specifically mira and erza like if they ever asked her out she would be on the floor sobbing but it's a v puppy love crush so it doesn't go anywhere it's just cute

High key everyone is in love with erza and mira at least a little bit, like if u like women u have a crush on at least one of them fr

This also leads to levy who def had a small thing with cana but I feel like she realized that romance is a big part of relationships for her so it didn't last long

Freed is still very in love with laxus at first but after the battle of fairy tail he learns to let go and move on as a person and THATS who laxus falls for and idk if I'd make them canon bc I kinda like that growth for freed but also I love gay ppl so idk im cooking

As u can see I'm a huge multi shipper and kinda just go off vibes so if u have questions about specific ships and my thoughts yall can always ask as long as we r respectful and remember this is all in good fun and no one is a above Crack ships leave me be❤️

[j2zara]

YAAAAAAY EHEH I GET TO SEND YOU A BUNCH OF ASKS 💖💖💖💖💖(<- these ones are just me being excited)

💖📥👀📊🍰🌝💻🧠

HIIIII SORRY THIS TOOK ALL DAY im so exhausted which is why i feel like my answers are not the best but here u go

💖 What do you like most about your own writing?

Argh…. Ngl i sent this one to more than one person in the circle of perverts bc I want to force ppl to say nice things abt themselves and now i gotta do the same thing. I feel like my answer before this year would’ve been my dialogue!!!!!!! Like. I do think i’m good at that. It’s hard to even say that because I feel like when I do enjoy a good quip and i feel like whenever i reread my original stuff im like “oh. I’m so marvel brained”. I don’t think dialogue is my strength in cloneverse tho.  At least. I don’t think it stands out. But otherwise that’s what i would land on.

Maybe it’s bc i’ve been in a very sorry for myself slump lately bc my current wip is giving me such a struggle but i don’t even know. Before now and my latest wip driving me crazy I would’ve said. Maybe coherence or theming? Like i don’t even know if thats a thing i CAN say like is it possible to be good at themes? Sorry im being so hard on myself rn I think if i were to look at my writing i would say i think it’s halfway decent but i don’t know the answer to the question…

📥 What is your fave fic to receive comments/messages on?

Oh this is an interesting one. For such a long time the answer would’ve been my old Talentswap fic for DR, tbh it always was like. Surprising and honestly kinda nice to get like a random comment of someone being like ‘hey i just discovered this! Sad its not updating but i really enjoyed it!” something like that. And I think b/c it was multichap it was very interesting and different when ppl were reading Almost for sure.

My secret weird answer is IYWD. Like. I’m at peace with the fact that its practically dead and nobody is gonna find it again i guess but a small part of me still considers it my favorite thing i’ve done in a long time so nobody does comment anymore but. That would be the thing i secretly kinda want. I’ll take literally anything tho obviously i love anybody that ever comments on anything.

👀 Do you have any WIPs that you would never let see the light of day? If yes, what are they about?

I have a Love is Blind au for a fandom I’m not gonna mention. Idk i might’ve mentioned it somewhere but eh. Its like ten chapters but only the first 5-ish are done i’m kinda 

And i’ve talked abt this this isn’t really a. Like. Oh I’m hiding this forever thing but. I have a DR Togakure hookup fic that’s written like. To take place during a naegiri wedding like in the post first game canon. And it is one of my favorite things i’ve ever written even tho it is smut, ngl my friends have been trying to convince me to post it and i might but im genuinely terrified nobody is gonna read it and im gonna be. Sad about it

📊 Current number of WIPs

Lol um… lj3porter fic. I’m two sentences into twelfth night coded j2 wooing Jace for Porter fic. Unfinished creeper Jace + j2porter fic…  a Jace topping Zara zarajaceporter fic. A fic that is in the IYWD verse that’s like a prequel that’s normal SB related. And if we could old fandoms I have semi abandoned talent swap (the ch 3.3 doc is like 10k lmao). Love is blind au.

If we’re counting original projects. My fantasy pseudo taming retelling. Horror comedy / locked room mystery called Date / Die. I have a. Sports romance (don’t look at me). And my weird lofty rom com thing that is this decade spanning story and used to be abt a “platonic” romance but idk I was like. They’re best friends they’re the most important ppl in the world to each other and they like having sex does that make this a normal romance. Maybe. Maybe not.

So ten. Yikes.

🍰 Name one of your fave comfort fics (doesn’t have to be your all time fave).

This is such a weird pull b/c i haven’t read it in years but Wing Man is a Bokuaka fic thats one of my fav of all time that makes me so happy idk its so like. Sweet and tbh i feel bad i never commented on it i really should bc they deserve to know i still think about it. but i just don’t reread fic all that often even my favs.

Actually that’s a lie i just remembered! I’ll cite something recent and i’m a little shy to cite something from the circle of perverts but also this is completely sincere i know i jokingly call @innskeep bambi’s LJ3 fic the perfect piece of fiction all the time but i do reread it… I just like them. I think it’s really cute and i like my little guys…  I love getting J3’s pov so much like i genuinely think its so comforting and special…

🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

I won’t lie I have a total DurDawn soft spot so like. I do think it wouldn’t fun to write something small for them. Also fucking hilarious as zukkacore that I’ve never written zukka and like. In my heart I would like too but they’re almost too precious for that? It’s hard to explain. Actually another answer might be for Mailee I actually think Mailee is soooooo underrated as a ship bc they have so much potential to be good for each other that wasn’t able to foster under azula’s thumb so I like that slightly toxic edge 

💻 Do you do research for your fics? What’s the deepest dive you’ve done?

I do a little bit of research but honestly not at much as i should. Last super deep dive i did was on the different filipino mythologies and history throughout the different regions bc ithink that subject is so interesting. but that has nothing to do with the sb circle that was for my own stuff. Lately I had to look up a little bit of elvish for something sb related lol. im such a fake fan of LOTR i love it but i’ve never actually read the books

🧠 What’s an idea you have that you can’t quite call a WIP yet?

A few! I’ve talked abt Jace hireling au I think that would be fun. And I joke abt Clone gamechanger au all the time and I SAID I wanted to try and make it work so like. Maybe. I’d love to try clone gamechanger au i think its funny and cute and i wanna do something indulgent.I feel like i’m forgetting something. Jess has real estate in j2porter vegas roleplay so i kinda wanna try maybe doing J2porter 50s housewife roleplay as a sort of sequel? I still like the idea of doing a You’ve Got Mail Shop Around the Corning fic. And. I feel so so so so indulgent wanting to write LJ3 stuff but like i just like them. I don’t know what i would wann write for them but i just like them

[sanchoyo]

2, 8, 13, and 24 :3c

2. 5 favourites of your own work?

umm picking absolute favs is very hard but heres some I like a Lot. def click for bigger size on these ^^; also, the 4th one is a comm for a friend, whos sister is a PROFESSIONAL MERMAID, LIKE AS A LIVING?? and it was a gift for her sister (THE MERMAID.) very very cool story behind that one. :)

(and the original posts these were from: (1) (2) (3) (4) (5) )

8. What do you like most about your own work?

...I feel like the thing I get complimented on most is the colors, but tbh? i like how ..flexible? I am sometimes. like I feel pretty good saying I can switch up my style pretty drastically when I feel like it, which is a nice thing to be able to do. (I owe it to yrs of trying to imitate very specific anime styles LMAO)

13. Show your favourite drawing from last year

...this is gonna sound SO conceited but I had a hard time picking bc I liked a lot of drawings from last year (which is funny considering I dont think I did that many compared to other years...)

i kind of want to say one from my ekleipsis illustration series just bc they are SO different from my regular cutesty style, it was FUN doing smth so out of my comfort zone!

like, whos style is this? certainly not my Usual, does not feel like a ME drawing but thats kinda why I liked it a lot...felt like I was proving a point to myself 😭 all of them in that series are kinda like this bc the story had borderline horror fantasy elements lol

24. How do you deal with artblock?

it Depends. the thing abt art block is that it happens for different reasons (at least in my case) and its easier to fix when i know WHY its happening. dont feel like working on a comm? thats a self-discipline issue, gotta prioritize it, its a job I am being paid for, so Gotta do those. (even if usually fun, art block has been known to happen w them before lol) not liking a drawing and getting frustrated so I dont wanna keep working on it? skill issue or lacking technical knowledge probably, time to dig for refs or do studies. bored of looking at the current drawing? well now the issue is I Need to figure out how to make it more interesting, or go work on smth else for a while. and honestly a lot of the time it personally helps me a lot to just...step away from art for a bit. maybe a few weeks or even months before...during that time I focus on other art forms (like, I'll not draw but write or craft or smth) OR just try to find new artists, and sit and analyze THEIR work. what do I like abt their styles? what makes it work? i find it helps me appreciate my own art more when I love other ppls, esp when I see speedpaints or smth and can appreciate their processes too ^_^ and having fresh eyes after a while of not drawing is...nice? refreshing...weirdly enough lol.

tysm for asking!! this was rly fun to answer :D

[attourney-at-lycan]

TELL ME EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUR OCS. NOW. GO!!

I GOT LIKE TWO OTHER ASKS ABT PRESONALITY AND BACKGROUND SO I MIGHT AS WELL JUST ANSWER THEM HERE

genesis was born into a basically a military family that prides themselves in being the best at providing o’khasis w/ strong knights/guards/bodyguards- some of the ppl of their family serve directly under Lord Garte himself- so she was raised in a way that taught her how to fight and serve those above her. she was taught from the moment she could wield a sword how to be the best weapon for anyone, a sword unable to have their own opinions, beliefs- she passed at the top of her class in knight academy and when zane cane around to build the jury, he chose genesis to be one. she’s pretty much what you can expect from someone who was raised in this way, she doesn’t seem to show any emotion or sympathy, she can be cruel and has convergent thinking, she’s not… cold or mean? but sort of monotonous? in a way? she has zero social skills so she does not do well alone in a public setting. she’s extremely obedient to authority figures and uhhhh thats all i can come up w/ for her? she has a bit of a strange relationship with jeffory? by that i mean, jeffory tries to stop genesis whenever she does something cruel when zane’s not around. he has to spend a while to convince her to out her fists down and just jgnore it bc zane’s not gna care. he sorta feels bad for her since she never really got that freedom at all? kinda like an animal born in captivity who even if you give them a way out, they probably wont take it bc their little area is all that they know. if that makes any sense, its so weird to compare my ocs to animals but thats sorta the best way i can explain it.

CONNIE- ohhhh connie connie he’s great. originally i had planned to make him some sort of deranged scientist/inventor who was stuck in the dimension of a different god for years and while thats not completely off what i want to do, i’m kinda not set on that now. but anyway, connie is basically con man extraordinaire but also a coward at times- he’s an alchemist, also doctor also surgeon also herbologist also scientist also researcher also archeologist also historian also he used to work in a circus for half a year if that can add anything to his resume- when he’s not getting himself killed trying to discover the secrets of the dead gods, he’s creating medicine to help those who cannot pay for a healer or expensive healing potions, or he’s out stealing shit from zane or he’s doing some other shit. anything other than getting a good night’s sleep. i do plan on- it’s a bit of a funny little “spin off idea” where its aaron and connie traveling together before the events of mcd, where connie hires aaron to accompany him on a small bodyguard job turned years long adventures with aaron keeping connie from joining the souls in the nether. he’s sm fun ik telling u-

ares i dont really have much tbh? in my rewrite meteli’s a port city that has a lot of run-ins with pirates and so ares was picked up by pirates and dropped off @ meteli where he basically grew up there before something happened that caused him to die? maybe he and some other riff raffs were too close to the nether portal and boom shit happened now ares is a shadow knight- ALSO i forgot to mention he is half elf, my only non human oc (FOR NOW- i tend to go apeshit w/ ocs) his personality tbh is kinda 🧍i dont know actually- the closest i can get is like a chill dude that likes to do the least work possible but if forced to he will be pretty cruel? im not sure on him yet but he’s fun..

also here are picrews (bc i cant draw for shit im so sorry) of them w/ the order being the same as how i mentioned them

[10-dutchies-12-bicycles]

(bolded certain words to make it more engaging to read for adhd brains)

ok so. this is all a big fucking mood T_T but i do want to give ppl some hope?

basically (as i said a few mins ago in the replies) i HEAVILY suspect that what i used to call RSD a few years ago, was actually more of a combination of emotional dysregulation (an Actual adhd thing) and post-traumatic stress symptoms (caused by being bullied as a kid, in my case) rather than a separate thing in and of itself

the thing that changed my mind a few years ago was uuhh.... getting PTSD treatment :') which lowkey baja blasted both my RSD and my social anxiety in general into oblivion lol

(note: not all at once, it took a while. but the treatment removed the emotional and physical power that the PTSD/anxiety/etc. had over me. and once the intensity of the emotional aspect of all this bullshit gets decreased, it gets a LOT easier to logic your way out of these kinda RSD spirals)

"but im not THAT traumatized tho????" and general info on how PTS(D) develops:

1. yea thinking that is a big mood huh? T_T

2. developing PTS(D) depends a LOT on everything going on around the traumatic event(s), so for example emotional support from the people around you, your personality, how sensitive you are, also how powerless you felt during the event, if the event keeps happening to you repeatedly, etc. etc.

in my (not-a-medical-professional) opinion, i think that the societal idea of PTSD happening only to for example veterans who lived in awar zone, is just,,,, aarghh its just so much more nuanced than that in real life!!!! ANYONE can experience a shocking (traumatic) event!! and many people do

and even if we're not war veterans.... that repeated emotional hurt over an extended period of time during our childhood sure did something fucky to our brains (and self-esteem) didnt it.... :/

how does EMDR work (or at least for me)

you know how when you think about like. lets say for example the thoughts running through your head when you're experiencing RSD, it scares you? it scares you to think about (possibly) getting rejected, and what if it happens again in the future? thinking about it kinda hurts, its as if youre mentally touching broken glass and getting a cut on your hand, and you reflexively shy away from thinking about That Stuff....

yea sooo...... EMDR rly helped with that for me :') for example in my case, the BIG thing that bothered me was less so a single traumatic event, but the belief that i wasn't worth it, and if i did something """stupid""" and ppl rejected me for it, they'd be completely in the right to do so

which is... pardon my french... a FUCKED UP THING TO THINK ABOUT PEOPLE?????? INCLUDING YOURSELF????? so yea.... :')

anyway here goes:

Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing treatment (EMDR) works by

1. you and the therapist working together to make you remember the traumatic experience(s). this feels intense and scary and it SUCKS

2. the therapist will start waving their hand from side to side in front of your face lol. and you need to stay focused on their movement and try to keep up because the movement is quite fast. (shoutout to my therapist asking me at the start like "is this speed okay?" and i said "actually i must say its a bit too fast for me to follow :/" and she cheerily replied "great!! :D" like,,,, dhsgdjsjhdjsh okay!)

3. because your brain's working memory (i like thinking of it as similar to a computer's RAM) is now dealing with both the intensity of the traumatic memories AND this stupid fucking hand thats moving too quickly UGH

your working memory starts overloading like an old phone battery. it needs to yeet SOMETHING out because overheating uuuhhh. Sucks lol. the hand waving business is more urgent right now, so the thing that gets yeeted out of your working memory is the fear you feel attached to your traumatic memories

4. your working memory gets more and more exhausted, and starts paying less attention to the fear you're feeling. so eventually (at least in my case) your feeling of "wow this is really scary!!! T_T" gets replaced by a feeling of "UGH im so exhausted im literally not even scared anymore PLEASE TELL ME WE'RE ALMOST DONE I JUST WANT TO TAKE A NAP SO BAD" fjsghdjajdgha

but yea basically:

RSD is collateral damage from adhd and shit experiences and anxiety and just,,,, a bunch of shitty brain bullshit soup stuff

but its NOT inherent to adhd, and you DONT have to be stuck with this bullshit the rest of your life!!! EMDR was something that helped me personally, theres ppl in the notes who have other experiences with decreasing the amount of RSD they experience, like taking antidepressants or sth else. heck go take shrooms (safely!!!) for all i care!!! but PLEASE know that its NOT all doom and gloom and you CAN get rid of (at least a part of) this RSD crap 🫂

so yea if this helps just ONE person and gives them some hope or some ideas for things to try in the future or helps them understand EMDR better then like? mission accomplished so far! and feel free to DM me with more questions abt what EMDR was like for me anytime btw!!!

TLDR: getting EMDR treatment really fucking helped me to make my RSD less intense and less frequent, and hopefully y'all might find it interesting to look into as well 👀👉👈

ive made peace with most of my mental illness shit but i need whoever invented rejection sensitive dysphoria to be in hell no matter what

[nadeeta]

TL:DR version: mom showed me cousin posted this. so WE must drive to her and call her,BUT she and her mom must never reciprocate that. people have lives outside of u. hypocrtical family.

long/detailed version: see this is what i don’t understand. so my mom showed me what my cousin posted earlier,and this is what she shows me. like she made a similar post a few weeks ago about how her aunt she hasn’t seen in 6 yrs won’t see her. and i asked my mom that day of the post were u and her talking?and she said no,so either 1. she was lying or 2. she was talking about her other aunt,and like i told my mom. she probably says yes cuz she has a life. she has children to take care of,dogs to walk and feed,a family to feed,a job. heaven forbid she wants to take care of her children and animals. the nerve.

but its funny how she says we make it excuses why WE can’t visit HER. but she DOESN’T need to come to US. its just as bad as my aunt(her mom). WE must call,WE must drive or find a way up there. but THEY never have to do the same in return. why?how is that fair?why must we only do it,but u never have to? i’ve said it before and i said it again,my aunt has visited my brother and ONCE since in our lives. so out of 18 yrs,u visited us once?wowwww. kudos to u. and all we did on that visit was meet her bf at the time,eat out at a resturant,he drove us back up,she hugged my brother and i,gave us $20 and then she and her bf left. wow,such a fun moment. we ate,and got money and u dipped. great memories. but hey,i’ll give it to my aunt,that she at least visited. my cousin who posted this on the other hand has visited us ZERO times. and if my cousin or aunt don’t feel comfortable driving up here or they aren’t able to find a way up here,then fine. like i can’t find a way up there either as 1. don’t drive and 2. no-one would drive me up there. but like if they don’t wanna drive up here or they can’t find someone to ask, to visit me or my family then DON’T say my family and i don’t. thats hypocritical for starters,so. but yeah like if they don’t wanna do the driving thing,we can 1. write letters to each other,2. email each other,3. videochat with each other,etc. did they ever both asking to do any of those things?nope. for someone it was either a physical visit or we’re bad ppl. kinda like how i was a bad person for not going to my grandmothers funeral,cuz at the time my work was understaffed and they need advance notice about pto but my cousins response was “they’ll understand, since its for a funeral”,and its like thats not how that works. i’m not going to make the rest of my workplace suffer for 1. and for 2. i didn’t have a lot of pto days left. just cuz YOU like wasting them on concerts,and anime cons(which i don’t get why she goes,considering she doesn’t even like anime,manga,or vocaloid and the only thing closest to liking it is pikachu so not only is she wasting time and money to go,she is also taking a spot/ticket for someone that actually likes it. i mean i guess furries go there and she’s one,so that might be one. but a lot of furries are also in the anime fandom,so. but i digress.) srry i like keeping my pto’s. i mean yes it was important but my mom and step-dad got lost,so i would’ve taken off for no reason,as i wouldn’t have been able to even see it anyways,so.

but yeah,basically cause my mom and i don’t wanna waste our PTO’s to visit a family that is hypocritcal and hateful(minus my grandfather. he would be the only reason to go),and because we don’t drive,nor can we find someone willing to drive 6 hrs for the visit we’re bad ppl. yet this is the same cousin and aunt who won’t write a letter,write an email,videochat with us,won’t drive to us or find someone to drive the 6 hrs either, won't video chat with any of us,etc. also i know i’ve said this before, but i’ll say it again as well. like i never expected anything from my cousin as she was a child growing up,until a few years ago so this is mainly directly targeted at my aunt. so out of 18 yrs no birthday/christmas cards/gifts. heck not even a phone call to wish me a happy birthday/merry christmas. this is kinda why i never did one to her back. and same goes to my cousin now that she is an adult and all that. i find it funny how she always posts like these gifts she makes for her friends kids,her mom, or like her co-workers but she won’t ever do the same to my mother,my grandfather, myself or my brother.

but yeah here are reasons why we and your other family members can’t visit her, that somehow are excuses 1. i RECENTLY got PTO. i don’t feel like wasting them for a hateful family(minus my grandfather) 2. my moms job, needs WEEKS notice before u can use a PTO day. she can use PTTO days,BUT she already had things planned on what to use them for. she shouldn’t have to not do what she wants, just to please YOU. 3. people get sick. heaven forbid ppl aren’t healthy and aren’t in the mood for travel or talking to u. how dare they? 4. ppl have children to attend to and/or food. the nerve of some people to have a family. 5. they have dogs to feed/attend to. i know, they should either get a pet sitter and hope they come to an alive animal or force it into a crate, or even just to sit normally in the back of the car for 6+ hrs. cuz u know that's not mean to animal, and defiantly won’t cause any stress what so ever. 6. people have jobs. i know its so awful, that people have jobs. 7. doctors appointments. i know ppl should just cancel their appointments and go to u instead 8. school. how dare ppl have an education?(she was always this way, even when i was in school and she wanted me to go up there. i mean granted this was back when she was in Illinois, so it was a lesser drive, but 1. i didn’t drive, and 2. i couldn’t find anyone to do it. but also this is for ppl like in high school/college and stuff) 9. anxiety/depression. considering ppl have anxiety(myself included),i doubt they’ll do well in a car for 6+ hours as well as in a state where they know NO-ONE, is going to be a fun time. and the reason i said depression is cuz depression makes u not want to do things, and i know several ppl on my side and her side have it,so i mean. 10. already having plans. i see so many times by both her and my aunt how they’re sad,cuz they asked a friend to hang out and they said no cuz they had plans. and then they’re upset that they see them with another friend and stuff,and its like. u ever think maybe,just maybe THATS WHAT THEY’RE PLANS WERE? like heaven forbid ur friend has more than just u as a friend. the betrayal that ur not they’re only friend. the nerve.

ironically enough everything i listed here is just like those posts on fb where its like there's 24 hrs in a day and if i don’t get a hi, that shows how important i am to u and stuff like that and its like huh?people have depression/anxiety where they don’t wanna do things/talk to ppl for days/weeks,people have jobs which means ur hours aren’t going to mix, people have children and pets to attend to, people have other friends, people sleep, people get sick,etc. hell i have friends who i talk to on and off for YEARS. and u know what happens when 1 of us messages the other? We say hi and we TALK for HOURS cuz its nice hearing from them again. we’re close friends and just cuz we don’t talk 24/7 doesn’t mean i’m gonna cut them out of my life.

like heck my brother lives in Australia and we don’t talk a lot or anything, same goes for his fiance. we don’t talk on a daily basis, BUT that doesn’t mean i love them any less. they’re my family and just cuz they won’t get on a plan to visit me or vice versa that doesn’t mean he and i going to hate each other. like would it be nice to see them? Obviously. but i’m not going to hold it against him and say he hates me and that i’m going to cut him out of my life. just like i’m sure the reverse could be said. heck i have other family members i have yet to even meet, as we meet via fb so that's our interaction atm and does that mean they think i hate them and vice versa? Obviously not. its kinda weird how out of EVERYONE in my family, the ONLY ones who think my family and i not driving or finding a driver for a 6+ hour drive while they proceed to not drive up here or find a driver or call us means we hate them is my cousin and aunt. so out of like 10+ family members, only 2 of them think this way. that says more about ur character than it does anyone else.

[calumhoodgoss]

Hello, first I want to say that I’m part of the hunnis discord in fact I am a big amh fan, we collectively decided to send and ask here to ask people who are joining our server to lurk and to try to find private info about Brandy to please stop. I’ve seen someone mention a few weeks ago how the chat is very “boring” that’s bc we made rules about not asking Brandy anything personal/related to her relationship most of us are in the server to talk about her music and our daily life we share there a lot of personal stuff and it’s feels kinda weird to have random ppl lurking tbh and it’s quite uncomfortable. Whatever u guys are looking for in the server u won’t find it, all the hunnis there respect brandy way too much and we dont come here (to this blog) to start shit so please leave the discord out of this.

We get that everyone has different opinions and we literally do not care if yall like Brandy or not whatever ur opinions are about her are irrelevant to us but we just want to have at least a small space where we can chat freely without the haters, the server was made specifically for us (the hunnis) to have a nice safe space to chat without starting any drama.

Mods are working on finding who is the person sending all those asks about our conversation and stuff and they will get immediately banned.

Brandy is very aware of what’s happening in the discord so ofc she won’t send anything for yall to gossip about she isn’t stupid lol

hey girl, thats so fair. more than happy to share this here and ill make an effort not to insight people to interact with the discord; especially if its more just a place for fans to talk about their own lives etc. i only ever started mentioning the discord when i started getting random hate anons from people in there lol

just want to make it clear ive never tried to start any kind of interaction with any of the people i post about. im here to connect with other fans. thats all. you dont have to like my content but we're just here for community as well at the end of the day. im on tumblr specifically because its a dead platform that i know celebrities are far less likely to find. im genuinely not trying to start any kind of shit with the people i post about. anything i post is purely opinions formed from strictly publicly available content and all anons should be treated with discretion

wish you all the luck to reach your community goals