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#man i’m way too stoned to enjoy music properly#shit is too slow#but maybe cuz i’ve been multitasking#kinda difficult not to though#the meatsuit executes various instructions simultaneously#parallel processing is the way to go#gotta wait til i’m normal then i go home#loitering in a stairwell rn#oh right this song#hurts to listen to ngl 🤣🤣#and all i do is sit and think about u#your song mf#eyeroll emoji#wojak mask meme#i hate weed paranoia#although this is nice enough#i just need to be alone with my thoughts. being with other people creates loops upon loops#it’s a real bother keeping track of them#wow cigarettes after sex stoned is really something else#bass is loud asf#i keep thinking there’s someone behind me#but mid-tempo songs become too slow#and another one of your songs#ford everest audio system#long time ago or yesterday#electrical midterm today was pretty good#computer organization not so much#reading fanfiction again lately#art is the weapon against life as a symptom or whatever it is mychem said on danger days#feel alive babeyyy
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the mortifying ordeal of being known
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I think with Yor being so perceptive, she picks up on little things often (like we saw in ch 103). i believe this would impact loid more so than the usual person, because he is a spy and fakes every part of himself, so to be seen is simultaneously desirable and horrifying. like, it makes him torn between wanting to accept and reciprocate the love, or distancing himself so that it doesn't happen again.
thats mostly what the last panel is about, that dichotomy between 'omg this person noticed this about me, is this love' and 'oh shit this person noticed this about me, is this Doom'
just some thoughts i had🤪
#unrelated but i kinda dont like how this comic turned out 😭 its like the first time i actually made a full rough draft first#and it somehow made the final product messier#and idk they just dont look like themselves???#it was more difficult to do it this time even though its mostly just them standing idk#maybe the lack of action was what made it difficult because#how many ways can you frame the same scene#for six pages#Anyways#spy x family#my art#loid forger#yor forger#sxf#twiyor#sxf loid#sxf yor
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- and the tension finally snapped.
#ghostsoap#soapghost#cod fanart#watercolors#artists on tumblr#my art#fanart#soap mactavish#ghost cod#call of duty#romance bc oh my god#hi I hope you like this art I had fun doing it and I think it turned out kinda sweet and nice even though sometimes it was difficult#<3
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My take on a sonadow fankid💥💥
#Been working in this creature for a while i luv em#also been seeing a lot of sonadow fankids popping up lately which is pretty epic i think#love making the characters who would never ever be parents by choice parents yippee#btw they got left in a box in front of tail's lab#eggman was not gonna bother in taking responsibility for the thing he made. he was not gonna bother tracking either sonic or shadow#sonic and shadow are kinda weirded out at first but do end up getting attached to her#though they are obviously not gonna be parenting 24/7 so each one of their friends end up taking turns in babysitting her#hoping to draw more of this stuff later on cause they are literally so fun to draw (so difficult to color tho idk why i did that to myself)#sth#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#sonadow#sonadow fankid#sonadow fanchild#sonic fankid#chili bean the hedgehog-hedgehog#cacturniart
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Announcement: GOAL!
Hi! So we finally made it to day 100 - the goal I set out to do from the start but had no idea if I could actually reach lol.
I made this blog in the middle of dealing with art block. I hadn't really been feeling inspired to draw or create much for about a year.
The longest I've ever lasted on a daily drawing challenge before this was day 3. Now that I've made it to day 100 and I'm finally starting to get ideas and inspiration again, I'm satisfied :]
This is NOT the end of the blog. Just a hiatus until the next art block, which (let's be real) will probably be sooner than later lol.
Thank you to everyone who's been following along so far. I really, genuinely appreciate all the tags and comments and familiar faces.
Until next time! <3
#gonna keep the rambling in the tags ->#i've also kind of been hit with something similar to the ao3 author curse in the time of this challenge#i found it really difficult to keep up sometimes because of all the stuff going on. to name one i got hospitalised. and as a result of#what happened im now working on getting a diagnosis for multiple sclerosis lol#i have a lumbar puncture scheduled soon so i hope that goes well#it's funny looking at some of the days on this blog knowing the context behind them lol. but the fact that i did it anyways makes me feel#kinda proud you know? but i definitely need a break for a minute lmao#ill definitely revisit this blog. if anyone reading this is struggling with creative block i would recommend daily challenges. it helped a#LOT for me. though 100 days might not be for everyone hahah#anyways everyone say good job toast#zelda daily announcement
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actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.
he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.
a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).
but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.
and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.
he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.
and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal
#i had a really big fundie snark phase a year or two ago so that's part of like. this. but im still not used to actually talking about#religious stuff so if it reads kinda awkwardly uhh forgive me orz idk#maybe it sounds dumb but i like that the message isn't 'religion is evil'. it easily could have been. but i think the show's points about#how fundie wasp culture in particular treats christianity and itself and others would be less poignant if they were like. and jesus sucks#btw >:] like. this feels more nuanced to me. i guess there's probably a way to maintain that nuance with an ultimately anti-christian#piece of media but i think it'd be like. wayy harder and it's difficult for me to imagine that bc i think a lot of it would bleed out into#the tone. + why focus on only These christians when They're All also bad? so you'd get jokes about them in general#and i think that's kinda less funny than orel and doughy screaming and running from catholics lsdkjfldksj#i think the specificity makes it more unique and compelling as comedy and as commentary. but that's just me#like moralton represents a very particular kind of christian community (namely a middle class fundie wasp nest)#you're not gonna be able to get in the weeds as much if you're laughing at/criticizing all christians. but they accomplish it so thoroughly#and WELL in morel and i think that's because it chose a smaller target it can get to dissect more intimately. anyway#moral orel#orel puppington#(OH also when i say wasp here i mean WASP the acronym. as in white anglo-saxon protestsant. in case the term's new to anyone <3)#maybe it's also relevant to say that i'm kindaaaaaaaa loosely vaguely nonspecifically christian. so there's my bias revealed#i was never raised like orel but i like to think i get some of what's going on in there y'know. in that big autistic head of his#but it's not like i can't handle anti-christian/anti-religious media/takes. i'm a big boy and also i v much get why it's out there yknow#christianity in specific has a lot of blood on its hands from its own members and from outsiders and people have a right to hate it for tha#but religion in all its forms can be positive and i appreciate the nuance. like i've said around 20 times. yeah :) <3#(<- fighting for my life to explain things even though my one job is to be the explainer)
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hmm yeah
#this is kinda what i thought when i saw her limping. she'd never pull out again even though we were meant to be all 'health over everything'#i understand but like#does this not negate the point#but like. i get it#i would find it very difficult not to think the same in her position#(especially if i were active in the online spaces full of the people who would call me a quitter)#but idk.#it's tricky
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#wailord#the ultimate Biggun. you can't even see their eyes. this is just a blue and white sphere. couldn't even tell what this is#there's no face to be found. the prey eyes are in full swing. this is just. chef's kiss. it's beautiful#everyone was talking about how it's a travesty that they made wailord small in newer pokémon games whereas it was big on the spinoffs#aka. y'know. games that were on home consoles and therefore powerful enough to handle bigass wailord#as opposed to tiny screens that would make it a little bit difficult to perceive an entire wailord. but we got it back in swsh (which was on#switch‚ aka half of a home console‚ even though i guess nintendo kinda still sees it as a handheld)#i dunno i'm posting this at 8 AM the morning of the june 21st direct. planning on catching that later. we'll see what they announce#nothing pokémon related obviously bc it's not a pokémon presents but pikmin 4 will be there. i didn't play 2 or 3 but i played 1 so. i care
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Hoffman is definitely the kind of lad who flirts like an awkward teenager 💀
#hoffrigg#shockshipping#daniel rigg#mark hoffman#hoffman kinda looks like an anime girl lmao#hes very difficult for me to draw…sigh#which sucks because he’s one of my(guilty) favorites#shitpost kinda#saw#saw iv#fanart#sawposting#rarepair#this isnt the best sorry fellas#it wasnt really intended to be good though#i just felt silly i guess?
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part two of redswap AU chaos (first part with blossom + frisk here)
first we have ceroba! she swaps with toriel in this au or uh. appleroba. yeah (if you have questions about her, ask away. i think i have a general idea of how her character is so)
and we have the pleiades! equivalent of the ruins in rswap
these are the full concept arts that i did for pleiades! also a color test though, to get a sense of the atmosphere
and, little doodle teasing one of the characters i’m making a ref of next :)
yeah i am. fully down this. rabbit hole. help
#🖼️#redswap#redswap au#undertale yellow#uty#ceroba#ceroba ketsukane#redswap ceroba#uty au#undertale yellow au#undertale yellow fanart#god this au. help. i’m kinda dying i’m surprised how much i’ve made for it#also ceroba’s characterization was DIFFICULT at first#but once i had another character’s ideology down it made it a bit easier#her design though.#the palette is just. apple. help#uty fanart#uty spoilers
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thank you everybody who crossed their fingers and toes bc aventurine AND acheron are now both safely at home:3333333333
#the amount of tickets i went through?#let's not talk abt that#i also got six sampo's#and like eight (??) pela's#(i was about to fucking kill somebody i don'T EVEN USE HERRRR LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEE LITTLE LADY)#and then tingyun and hanya and yukong (2x)#and gepard#who is cute but at the moment i was not that happy bc he was standing between me and my wife😠😠😠😠#i feel like i'm forgetting someone lmao#anyway#acheron was playing hard to get i do feel just a bit sad bc i am so low on tickets now and i kinda wanted her lc too#and idk whether i should still try to get it or not............................#my brother pulled her for me btw😭😭😭#i was losing hope but then he came into my room to talk abt his day and i was like okok . i need you to just push this button for me#AND IT ONLY TOOK TWOOOOO PULLS#😭😭😭😭😭😭#everybody say thank you mickey's little brother we love you mickey's little brother#i can't even use her rn though bc i can't get a good relic set for her lmao#I CAN USE AVENTURINE THOUUUGHHH AND HE'S SOO SOO GOOD EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE ITTTT#mmmm i should probably level up tingyun too right i've heard that she's good#i'm facing another very difficult decision now though bc................. i love jy...........................#but how many lightning charas do i need...................... if firefly is really getting a rerun at the same time........................#i might....................................... prioritize her.....................................#I HATE ITTTTT:(((((((((((((((#BUT I WANT JY TOOOO:(((((((((((((((((((#genuinely feels like i'm betraying him wahhhhhhhhh#anyway i'm in (what i hope) are my period feelings so hhhhhhhhhh#dying over and over again but dw i'll be back on my regular bs soon:333333#mayor of loserville
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I feel both honored and terrible whenever someone tries to come to me for advice about making their own indie animated thing because I have to try and keep it professional while restraining myself from saying “God, don’t do it. Just don’t do it.”
#evan bleats#tbd#I could type out an essay about how absolutely draining and difficult it is but ppl have done it plenty of times before w far less bitternes#then me. though ofc I don’t want to be bitter— it’s just my depression kinda seeping in and making that feeling worse#but augh. it’s difficult and draining and so much and I’m honestly surprised I made it to the end of 2024#w out just.. shattering into a million pieces#I’m glad I decided to take a break but the burnout… is a lot. and even doing short animated things feels tiring#but maybe things will change when I’m not in this mood#I’m just kind of talking out loud here
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"Kneel before death."
#jrwi#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#just roll with it#jrwi apotheosis#thanatos jrwi#jrwi thanatos#idr if mending was a thing but#hc that when his cloak got torn in battle Rumi would teach Peter how to sew#but Peter still wasn't the best at it so it would come apart#Thanatos wouldn't mind though#the different stitching would always be there as a reminder of his friends#anyways painting with a pencil brush is kinda difficult but fun lol#bizly fanart#bizly
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not sure how happy i am with this but. s5 jon with locs
#i based this mostly on images of loca with 2c hair since thats the closest to how i draw jons#locs*#but its difficult to find references based on hair type in styles like this#and so its not perfect#plus my style w the thick lines kinda messes w it anyways#idk#the concept fucks though so whatever#jonathan sims#tma s5#tma#the magnus archives#tma spoilers#kinda
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The Flash Suit went though quite a few changes over the years but which suit did you like best?
#the flash#barry allen#grant gustin#dctv#arrowverse#arrowverse suits#I kinda like s4 suit but like i can barely sit though that season#I'm so certain one of these won't get any votes I've prepared another poll for it lol#gold boots suit why you so difficult to get a full shot off?#This isn't even all the changes btw. From my research there may be one or two more that are only had minute changes I didn't add#cw the flash
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weird green triangle thing
#can you believe SU fans still exist in the year of our lord 2023#I'm trying to work out how to combine my style and the su style when drawing su characters#it's pretty difficult#anyway enjoy this sketch of the neurodivergent ace space triangle#i honestly preferred her pre-redemption arc#i loved her limb enhancers they were so cool#though redeemed goofy peri is good too#and that weird inbetween where she was cranky but kinda coming around was good#rant in tags#long tags#triskelion soda art#triskelion soda fanart#steven universe#peridot#steven universe peridot#su#steven universe fanart#su peridot#peridot su#sketch#fanart sketch#fanart#doodle
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