#kill in the end... i love. teenage girl blood craziness)

[rustystars]

lot of thoughts on my heart is a chainsaw need to read the sequel when it gets to my library but also man. man!

[klausysworld]

Hi I was wondering if you could make a Klaus Mikaelson Love one shot where the reader is Carolines twin sister and also Klauses mate but Klaus don't want her to get hurt by his enemies so he spends his time on Caroline and the reader is a vampire so she can feel the mate bond and doesn't understand why he hates her so much to ignore their mate bond so she goes into depression and doesn't eat or drink blood she doesn't leave her room and she is in pain all she wants is Klaus but she thinks that Klaus doesn't want her and Caroline starts worrying about her so she gets Bonnie to do a spell to see what's wrong with herand they figure its because of Klaus rejecting her.

ends in smut only if you want to it doesn't have to!!!

Resisting the truth

The concept of soulmates wasn’t something Klaus believed in. A ridiculous theory really.

And when people claimed to have had them he took pleasure in killing one just to watch the other crumble at the sight.

Even when Rebekah insisted that Marcel was hers, he wouldn’t let them be together. It was a stupid idea and he wouldn’t condone it.

He didn’t believe it in any respect.

So when he felt that odd pull, well he didn’t know how to respond.

Looking at her, he didn’t understand. She wad his type yes but from what he could tell she was only a vampire, she couldn’t have been a witch. So he didn’t know where the pull was coming from.

Even in Alarics body he could feel it. At first he thought the teachers body was attached to her but then he bumped into her in his own form and the attraction was even stronger.

Klaus didn’t like new things and didn’t like feeling things but he also knew if he killed her now then the bloody Salvatores would retaliate and most likely would grab their precious doppelgänger and run. So he left her be but kept a close eye on her.

Following her when he got the chance and learning things about her while trying to find out what kind of trick she was playing on him. She was meant to have been used for the sacrifice, first Caroline replaced her and then Jenna.

And then once he left Mystic Falls with his good friend Stefan, for whatever reason, all he could thing about was her.

Countless dreams haunted him and the urge to draw her face was driving him close to insanity. To begin with he thought perhaps killing her was the best option and then Stefan had to go find Klaus’ stash of sketches of his dear friend Y/n’s face and decided to tell Klaus all about her.

And somehow, hearing about her made him feel less crazy. He found himself asking pointless questions and listening to stories from Stefan. Until of course one of them realised that they were talking about her a little too much and they both awkwardly avoided the topic.

Having her walk straight into him yet again at senior prank night only made his thoughts worse. He loathed how his body reacted so quickly to her, just one inhale of her freshly washed hair and his dick was pressing up against his jeans. His hand grabbed both her arm and the doppelgänger’s before dragging them both back to the main hall. He proceeded with his plan as normal with minimal glances to the girl although he could feel her eyes on him the entire time.

He was entirely unaware she could feel the bond just as well. But she was less cautious about it, she was a teenager and experiencing new feelings. Ones she didn’t understand but she wasn’t a paranoid control freak so she leaned toward the feeling rather than away.

In fact she even followed him occasionally. When she had nothing better to do and wasn’t needed by the group, she tried to dig into his persona. But he was a difficult man to pick apart and she often just went back home when she got bored.

Sometimes she tried to talk to him, or just smile at him but he wasn’t the easiest to communicate with unless he was running the conversation. And she often felt like she was just annoying him so she tried to leave him alone but something just kept leading her back to him and she found it easier to go with it than resist it.

He found her a bit of a nuisance but at least she was a pretty one. And the more she was around him the more he warmed to her. The more beautiful he found her and the dirtier his dreams got.

Eventually he couldn’t handle the amount of time he was spending fucking his own hand and made his way to a witch formation. Only to be faced with the impossible truth.

And then he saw her in a different light. She had both a target on her own back and his back. So he did the one thing he knew how to do really well, push her away.

And god did he push hard. Ignored everything she did or said, avoided her like the plague.

He assumed she had a silly little crush on him and nothing more but he didn’t know she was taking the rejection of the bond so harshly.

Being a vampire it was massively increased and quite frankly it was soul destroying.

He didn’t see the way her skin was greying;the emptying of her eyes. He wasn’t there to see how her mother had to cradle her in bed like she were a small child again. The look in Caroline’s eyes as she tried to get her sister to be excited for their birthday.

What was even more cruel was Klaus coming over to her house to heal Caroline without even checking on her. Giving her twin sister a birthday present but not her? He never spoke to Caroline before, how could they possibly have formed a better friendship than them?

Had she entirely misread everything? Had he not smiled at her with that same look in his eye? Had he not initiated flirtatious interactions and inched closer to her?

She didn’t feel the hunger she used to feel for blood, almost as though it weren’t appetising at all any more. Repulsive even.

Caroline worried beyond relief as she witnessed her sister fading right before her. Stefan and Damon couldn’t get her to eat, Elena and Bonnie couldn’t entertain enough to get her out of bed, nothing was working.

Not until Bonnie offered to do a spell, with Liz’s reluctant permission she performed it to find what was wrong. And the answer both shocked the group and sort of made sense. They had all noticed at some point the strange need they had for each other. But through Damons research in the past when he believed Katherine was his soulmate, he knew what the ultimate result of a rejected mate could be. And as much as he hated Klaus, y/n was like a little sister to him and if she needed him for a little bit then he would push back his revenge for a moment. Plus it would put him in Elena’s good books and Liz’s.

So he let Caroline go and beg Klaus to save her sister.

Klaus wasn’t sure how to respond when Caroline came in with a white oak stake held to his chest while she yelled every offensive word she could at him. He had her by the throat quickly, throwing her off and to a wall but she was straight back at him. Screaming at him asking how he could have done this.

And after a very long back and forth argument, he realised what he was doing to the Forbes girl. But he wasn’t exactly sure how to react.

He knew he was no good for her, he would only be the cause of her death but apparently he would be that anyway. Which he found to be ridiculous but whatever.

But the second Elena let it slip to Rebekah that her brother had a soulmate, she had him by the hair dragging him to the Forbes residence and forcing him inside. Caroline and Liz left the house and Locke them in, despite Klaus being able to break it down.

While in there he couldn’t help but feel the forceful tug towards her room. Her heartbeat was so weak and her scent was fading. He tried to resist the pull like he had forced himself to for so long but hearing her pain filled whimpers as she shifted onto her side had his leg bouncing. Her dry coughs and groans had his teeth biting at the skin around his fingers and finally when she gave a cry out for her sister he got up to go and see her.

His heart hurt seeing her halfway desiccated and he reluctantly came to sit at the edge of the bed. Her eyes were heavy as she peeked up at him, her brows furrowing before a sadness filled her

“Are you here to kill me now?” She rasped and he frowned

“No my dear, no I won’t be killing you” he whispered, he felt bad now that hr had considered doing so in the past but better knowing that he no longer desired to.

“Why not?” She asked confused “you don’t want a soulmate…” she trailed but neither of them said anything because they both knew she was right, he never had wanted a soulmate.

She nodded weakly, sighed softly and relaxed back against the bed. He hesitantly shifted further into the bed, gently pulling her a little closer so her head lay on his lap.

Slowly he brought his fingers to her hair, just gently stroking her as he silently went over his options, wondering what was truly best for each of them in this scenario.

Would she really be better of with him as a soulmate?

[insufferableprotagonistpoll]

Propaganda why Dean Winchester is insufferable:

Really mean to Cas (called him a child, zero respect for him, calls him family and casts him out when the angels are looking for him), and an absolute dick to Jack (threatening to kill him CONSTANTLY)

>Was a misogynist (loved to call women skanks, bitches, hoes)

>Used gay as an insult multiple time during the show's run (idc if he's gay an homophobic, that's still insulting)

>Beat up his brother for being possessed

>Beat up his brother for losing his soul (not his brother's fault)

>Used dubious consent to get his brother possessed in a different unrelated possession incident after possession was being used (badly...this is supernatural after all) as a metaphor for SA

>Threatened to murder his brother when he was hallucinating (yay we aren't ableist)

>Locked a child up in a box

>Threatened to kill the child he locked up in a box

>Made a creepy, sexual comment about a barely-legal high school girl

>Got the woman and kid he was living with memory-wiped

misogynistic scumbag. theres also a few different times that dean finds teenagers sexy with the most recent and prominent example that i can recall being the scooby doo crossover episode in season 13 where hes super into daphne who in the version they chose for the episode is 15-16 and is interacting with her as if shes a real person cause they got magicked into the episode. he treats everyone around him like shit and the only time the narrative agrees that thats a bad thing is when he has the mark of cain put on him and hes acting no differently than he does usually its just now acknowledged that hes treating others like shit. ive been rewatching the show for shits and giggles with a friend and wow he really does not treat anyone well but i wanna focus on how he treats sam for a second cause dude's hobby seems to be ignoring what his brother wants and lying to sam about doing stuff that directly concerns him the demon blood and souless things are reasonable cause those were both Bad for sam but theyre still part of a wider pattern and the most prominent example of this being when dean tricks sam into letting gadreel possess him and actually gaslights sam about it with the whole ordeal ending when its revealed gadreel lied about who he was and while possessing sam murders a friend of theirs. his voice is just also stupid as fuck im sorry this is just petty but he just sounds like hes trying so hard to be gruff n intimidating but he just sounds like a kid pretending to be batman

Dean’s list of sins is crazy long because of how long the show ran, but the key thing for me is that post-locking Sam in the bunker (season 4 I think?), I just can’t enjoy their relationship anymore. I normally love their sibling dynamic, but Dean’s ultimate worst past-the-point-of-no-return moment for me was demonizing (pun intended) his little brother for being “addicted” to demon blood, which only happened because of a series of events that were either Dean’s or someone else’s fault, not Sam’s. I also really dislike how the fandom treats Dean like this angel (pun intended) who has done no wrong and even tries to justify the MULTIPLE times he’s beaten up and otherwise abused his little brother. Canon Dean is like the polar opposite of fanon Dean: he’s homophobic and racist (jokes about a Black man being sexually assaulted in prison), misogynistic (take a shot every time he calls a woman a slur and you’ll die of alcohol poisoning), and abusive.

Propaganda why the Tenth Doctor is insufferable:

They’re so *edgy*

That one time he committed a genocide by drowning the last children of a near-extinct species (Racnoss) because their mother was evil. The closest anyone ever got to calling him out on it was when Donna noted that his take on a *different* set of weird alien babies (the Adipose) was a lot nicer than last time.

A combination of hypocrisy, sanctimony, and an equally insufferable fanbase. And the dissonance between what he actually does and how the narrative presents it.

[chaos-grimlin]

Intro: No one truly knows what happened that night in Woodsboro, California. All the public knows was that two teenage boys, Billy Loomis and Stu Macher, went crazy. That the boys killed with no motive, that it was a case of crazy and peer pressure. Sidney Prescott, the "girlfriend" of Billy Loomis,Y/n L/n, the girl both boys were deeply obsessed with, and Gale weathers, a news reporter, where 3 of 5 witnesses that were willing to talk and tell their sides of the story to the public while Dewy Riley, the deputy sheriff of woodsboro, and tennager Randy Meeks refused to talk to law enforcements at the time. All the stories told to law enforcement seem to differ from person to person, but...in this tale, we will focus on Y/n, the obsessions, side of the story...

Marked (Poly! Billy Loomis and Stu macher x reader)

Word count:1061

Chapter 1 - new girl in Woodsboro..

(!!!TW!!!!THIS STORY WILL CONTAIN! SEXUAL JOKES, SEXUAL CONTENT, MENTIONS OF NUDITY, UNDERAGE DRINKING, UNDERAGE SMOKING, CHEATING, MURDER, BETRAYAL, SAD STUFF, DRUNK PARENTS,MURDER, GORE, BLOOD, SELF HARM, RAPE, TORTURE AND THATS ALL I THINK- ENJOY THE BOOK!)

^^^3rd person P.O.V^^^

It was late August, 1996, when a new face showed up at Woodsboro high school. A face that showed both beauty and grace, a face of innocence and tenderness.

The girl became an attraction for all the teens. They'd ask her where she was from, what car she drove, if her mom was hot, and anything else their simple minded brains could think of.

“Hey look! It's the new girl” Tatum Riley whispered to her friend, Sidney Prescott. 

“She finally not swarmed for once” Randy Meeks said with a side smirk as he chimed in on Tatums and Sidney’s conversation. “Let's go say hi Sid” Tatum added, ignoring Randy. 

Tatum stood from her place beside Stu Macher  and started walking, not waiting for Sidney. “I'll be back” Sidney said quietly with a small smile as she looked at her boyfriend, Billy Loomis. Billy flashed a small fake smile to Sidney.

“Alright, be quick now Sid” he whispered as Sidney jogged to catch up with Tatum. Tatum walked quickly walked up to the new girl who sat alone on the outside bench, writing in a notebook. “Heyyy new girl” Tatum said, the words dripping off her tongue like honey.  

The new girl lifted her head and looked at Tatum and Sidney with a shy smile. “Hi” she said, her voice barely above a whisper.

“You're quite the topic around here! Everyone seems to love you” Tatum added as she sat beside the girl, Sidney slowly sat down after. “I am?” The girl whispered. “YES! You're all everyone talks about! You seem like a cool person. I'm Tatum..Tatum Riley and this is Sidney, Sidney Prescott.” Tatum said as she held out her slender hand to the girl.

“Im Y/n, Y/n L/n” Y/n said as she took Tatums hand and shook it, then held her hand out to Sidney, who took her hand and gave it a firm shake.

“So, Me, Sidney and a couple of other people are going to hang out later…you wanna join us? It'll be a good time for us to get to know each other” Tatum asked, raising one of her thin eyebrows.

Y/n sat there for a moment before smiling. “Um… if I wont be intruding on anything i'd love to go, i have nothing better to do” Y/n said. “Alright! Meet us at the park by…5:30..sound good?” Tatum said as she flashed a toothy smile. “Yeah sounds wonderful” “See ya there then! Come on Sid” and with that both girls walked off, saying goodbye to Y/n.

“Well that looked like it went well” Stu said as Tatum sat down next to him and Sidney sat down next to Billy.

“Yeah it went well..she's coming with us tonight” Sidney said as she played with the end of her shirt.

“Really?” Randy asked. “Yes you guys can meet her and we can all get to know her better. She seems like a good person” Tatum said as she put her hand on Stu’s thigh. “Alright then” “Sounds good to me” Both Billy and Stu said. 

~~~~5:37 that night~~~~

Y/n walked down the sidewalk, the cool night air gently brushing against her face as she walked. Y/n let her mind wonder as she walked. Maybe Sidney and Tatum actually wanted to get to know her other then keep her around till she's no longer the new girl.

Y/n had only moved to Woodsboro due to her best friend, Casey Becker, who convinced Y/n's father and mother to pack up their things and leave their old house for the much better one in Woodsboro. 

Y/n eventually stumbled upon the park that Tatum had told her to go too. Y/n looked around, her face dropping when she didn't see Tatum or Sidney …”did…did she lie to me?” Y/n asked herself. Y/n sighed, she thought she was either lied to, or left due to her being 7 minutes late, but when you have to deal with drunk parents, sneaking out of the house isn't easy.

“Y/N! OVER HERE” A female voice screeched out. Y/n turned her head to the left and saw Tatum waving her arms at Y/n, a smile painted on her lips.

Y/n smiled as she looked at Tatum, then Sidney, then three other guys who loomed around the girls. Y/n soon walked up to the group, all of those negative thoughts that swarmed around in her fragile mind left her brain. “Hi guys” She chirped out.

 “Heyy! Oh also this is Stu, my boyfriend, that's Randy, and that's Billy, Sidney's boyfriend” Tatum said, introducing all of the guys.  “Guys, this is Y/n the new girl” Tatum added, introducing Y/n for her. Y/n lifted her hand and gave a small wave to the guys. With that the group started to walk and talk.

^^^Y/n P.O.V^^^

I let out a giggle as Randy and Stu started joking around. For once, other than with Casey, I finally felt a part of something… a part of a friend group that wont use me for everything I have to offer. Everyone, even Billy, who was quiet and scary looking, was nice although he didn't say much to me.

As we walked I felt eyes staring into the back of my head. I felt a feeling rise in my gut, a feeling that made goosebump rise on my skin. I looked behind me and saw Billy, staring at me, and he didn't look away when I looked at him, he just locked eyes with me, his wide, dark brown eyes staring into my e/c eyes.

I flashed a nervous smile before looking away and joining back in on the conversation with Stu and Randy.

After a 10 minutes of walking and funny conversations we had made it to a Baskin-Robbins, the ice cream shop with 31 flavors...

(BASKIN ROBBINS WAS AROUND IN 1996 DON'T FIGHT ME ON THISSS).

[ctrl-alt-deleting-yr-face]

rudimentary (actually very complex) post about Hikari

so Hikari yeah? My oc who i’ve been working on for over a year now! Just a note, i don’t have the greatest grasp on the lore of the series, so if I get anything wrong or i come up with something a little too crazy PLEASE CORRECT ME! (I’m always wanting to learn and I can always rework things to fit canon! ^^) I’m gonna be going off so I’ll probably put a little break here. Enjoy the ramble!

🌼🫧—🫧🌼

DOCUMENT NO. XXXXX

Name: Hikari [N/A] Species: [N/A] Gender: F; uses She/They pronouns Age: [N/A]; appears to be in the late teens Height: 165cm (5’5”) Weight: 69kg (152lbs) Blood Type: AB+ Documented Natures: Likes rock music and the ocean, speaks highly of Bedman, dislikes sleeping, willingly self-destructive

This subject is fascinating. She appeared to us suddenly within the ruins of the documented showdown between Venom and the figure known as Bedman. However, she seems to have shown up on our radar as one of the late Bedman’s anti-matter gear bombs. Yet somehow, she still takes this form, a form that appears to be a simple teenage girl.

The subject is most recognizable by her appearance. Not by her vivid blue hair or sickly pale skin, but by the appearance of cat ears and a forked tail on her body. Due to this, her species is unknown. Her form is human, but she certainly isn’t one. At least not fully.

The subject, Hikari, appears to have no memories from before mid-2186. After much talking, she admitted that the earliest memory she had was waking up in the middle of a forest, surrounded by overgrown grass. She does not remember her own last name. No known family members. Hikari showcases many unstable behaviors, ranging from self-sacrificing behaviors to extreme mood swings. Most notable is her documented insomnia. She spends nights on end not sleeping, barely even letting herself take naps. We have observed her sleeping habits, and after witnessing her getting to sleep, she proceeded to wake up crying while sobbing Bedman’s name.

After much rehabilitation, the subject returned to a state of emotional stability, and was discharged from permanent surveillance after many requests from her. She has stated that she has a goal to complete.

…

“But that’s just her government report file, now isn’t it?

Hikari is a force that cannot be stopped. I will not let her be stopped. She’s a Magical Foci. She may not have memories, but she has powers beyond her own imagination.

She embodies love, love that she shows via her connection with this deceased man. She was born with love in her heart during the Crusades and she died with love in it as well. If it were not for that mutated yokai- Shiro Nekomata- falling for her and fusing with her, she would have remained dead.

They revived her. They saved her. They made her immortal. They gifted her with her powers. Even with the weakness of her own negative emotions that remained in her Backyard data, Shiro found ways to combat it. Locking away Hikari’s traumatic memories, creating her limiter, and turning into her failsafe- Who happens to be me.”

“I am Nekomata. Hikari’s failsafe. I exist to eliminate anything that reminds Hikari of her locked memories… After all, that would get in the way of her goal. Perhaps even kill her.

And unfortunately, that seems to be you.

Hikari’s goal is to revive Bedman. She will see that goal through to completion. Goodbye.”

[hacked-wtsdz]

I hate it when a show or a film has insane symbolism potential but does not touch it. Like. You have perfect metaphors. Perfect symbols. Perfect narrative echoes and ouroboros circles. But they are just lying there for me to go crazy about and not mean anything.

I hate to say it but vampire diaries is a great example of this. Because. Man. Maaaaan the symbols and metaphors you could pull out of that are insane but instead everyone just… talks. And this potential is why I like it.

It has interesting characters. Stephan turns into a vampire after fucking eating his own father. His own dad who shot him. His own dad who hated his own brother who hates Stephan for turning him into a vampire. Tell me this wouldn’t drive you crazy in any other fandom.

It has interesting plot devices and settings. Three doppelgängers quite literally haunting the vampires. Stephan who falls in love with Elena because she looks like Katharine who Stephan loved and who also turned him and who also looks like Amara whose blood cursed the first vampires. And Stephan is hardwired to love her doppelgängers but the “first”doppelgänger is the reason why he suffers with his vampirism and also the reason why he can’t be with Elena, who he is still hardwired to love. This is insane if you turn it into a narrative metaphor, instead of it remaining simply a part of the plot.

It has great character dynamics, enhanced by the fact that vampires live forever. Stephan, being the compassionate and kind person that he was, goes off the deep end and rips people’s heads off as a vampire, which is why he doesn’t feed, turning his base nature into a ticking bomb. Damon, on the other hand, being the cold and uncaring brother, does not have the problem of ripper-ism. Unlike Stephan, he treats people like blood bags, however that lack of inner constraint prevents him from giving in to temptation and going on killing sprees the way Stephan does. Who is better? Come on, the complex questions that the narrative could ask with this duet are making me vibrate a bit. Instead they are there, ignored by the narrative.

And I get why. The target audience of the show is teenage girls and young women. The romance is a huge marketing goal and strategy, and the more controversial or consciously grim you make a show, the harder it becomes to market widely. So of course they would concentrate on the romance and make it easier to digest. Props to them for leaving all of that insanity in, at least.

And you can’t even blame the people who haven’t watched it for thinking that it’s simply vampire-boyfriend drama, because that is how it’s presented, that’s the main focus, that’s what most of the fandom enjoys and discusses. And it is vampire-boyfriend drama. But all those other things are also there and are sooo eating through my symbolism-seeking brain. But because the narrative doesn’t go deeper into them, they often don’t mean anything in the narrative, which is the most annoying thing, because I have to resort to half-fanfictioning, half-metaing them.

[parkerpeter24]

bloody love . part 2

pairing ➳ peter parker x reader

warnings ➳ hanahaki!au, unrequited love, no happy ending, heavy angst, mentions of cancer, please read at your own discretion.

w.c. ➳ 1.7k

summary ➳ who said love couldn’t kill?

don’t judge me for writing this messily i have my exam tomorrow 🥹

part 1 | part 3 | part 4

“i-i gotta go.”

peter and gwen watched you leave, a concerned look etched over both their faces.

you ran back inside the complex, coughing as you did, a hand tight over your lips. peter followed you, not caring the moment as he followed you into the “girls’ washroom”, ignoring the disgusting looks and comments he got from some girls by the sinks calling him an absolute freak.

when he found himself alone with you in the bathroom, his knuckles erratically tapping the door to your stall, “y/n, what the fuck is wrong?!” he demanded as the sounds of your coughing became prominent, no longer muffled by the palms of your hand, “please open up!”

peter’s voice was starting to sound helpless now. there were those blood drops again as he roamed his eyes around the white bathroom tiles, “it’s not that easy, peter.” your voice sounded from the other side, “p-please go away.”

“is it cancer!?” peter’s heart clenched at his own question, not really wanting to know the answer, “please say it isn’t cancer, y/n.” his voice cracked, repeatedly tapping his head against the door.

you were leaning against the door too now, your back to it. the place filled with silence as your hand slid outside through the gap between the floor at the wood. peter noticed instantly and placed his hand in yours, wrapping his fingers around yours, “it’s not cancer.”

peter felt a wave of relief wash over him but found himself asking, “what is it then?” he waited for you to speak but heard no reply, “please tell me. i need to know what’s wrong.” his grip on your hand never faltering.

“not here.” you pulled your hand back before peter felt you shift, standing up as you did too. you opened the door, finally meeting peter’s warm; and now tear filled; eyes, “i can’t tell you here, peter.”

“w-we can go wherever you want!” peter offered, taking your hand in his again.

you nodded, avoiding his eyes, “my place?”

“okay.”

“you two! my office. right now.” the two of you, as soon as you turned to leave, the met with the fiery eyes of mrs. foster– the principal of your school.

the two of you sat on the chairs opposite the ginger woman who kept going and going about how it is normal for teenagers your age to have urges, but to break the decorum of the school isn’t helping anyone. however, you two were asked to leave with just a notice for the time being.

“your place?” peter asked timidly as soon as the two of you were out of the school building, taking a deep breath when you nodded and started to walk towards your apartment building.

once the two of you were inside your room, you closed the door and faced peter, “peter, please tell me this won’t make things weird between us.”

“nothing could.” peter promised.

you took the brunette’s hand, leading him to sit on the bed. you sad beside him before you started speaking once more, “peter, i.. i have this condition.” peter waited patiently for you to continue, “since two months, i have been coughing up… b-blood and these petals.”

“petals?” peter asked, “w-why?”

“we went to the doctor, and she said that it was a rare condition. i-it happens when you fall in love. unrequited love.” you completed your sentence, letting each syllable settle in.

“what? i- y/n, that’s crazy!” it took peter– the smartest guy in all of midtown– about five to six minutes to understand your whole sentence, “y-you love somebody?”

you nodded, staring at the floor. you could feel his eyes fixated on your and you didn’t wanna risk looking into his eyes.

“who is it?” he asked.

“it’s you.”

to say that took peter by surprise was an understatement. all colour was starting to drain from his face and he processed those two words, “it’s me?” he mumbled.

your eyes brimmed with threatening tears this time, “i-i’m sorry, peter. i never wanted it to-”

“*i* caused you this pain?” peter cut your statement short.

“what? no, no. it’s me, it’s my fault.” you finally looked up to meet peter’s eyes, the same shade of red as yours.

peter nodded, though he could feel the guilt rising up his chest. your fast heartbeat synchronized with his own, an indication that you were as scared and uncertain as him. peter didn’t ask you any more questions. all he did was get up and walk towards your window, “i wish i could love you back, y/n. i really do.” he said before stepping out the window.

you didn’t make any move to stop him, hot tears running down your face.

the moment peter was out on your fire escape, a realization dawned upon him. he wasn’t wearing his spider-man suit. it didn’t seem right walking back inside just to use the door, the brunette sighed and opted for the stairs.

that night on his routined patrol, peter passed by your house but didn’t stop by like he usually would. you weren’t waiting either.

you had stopped coming to school again and peter felt as if it was his mistake. the school seemed lonelier without you, not like he had a huge circle of friends, but you used to be the highlight of his day. he brought you milkshake and in turn you’d promise to get him a pb&j sandwich– like you’d done the previous day– but now you weren’t there anymore.

“hey, pete!” gwen chirped, then noticing the glum look on his face, “everything okay? you didn’t make it to dinner last night so i thought something came up.”

“it’s y/n.” he answered shortly. “she’s not well.”

“oh. what happened?”

“it’s complicated.” peter said, stuffing his hands into the pockets of his jacket. it was getting colder as the days passed and peter’s mind wandered to how you would always complain about it being the worst weather. you really hated the cold and every time you were at his place, you’d manage to sneak one of his hoodies out of the closet, saying it’s warmer.

“maybe you’d like to talk about it over coffee?” peter snapped out of his daze, looking at the blonde girl in front of him.

“oh, uh yeah, coffee sounds nice.” he gave her a tight lipped smile.

“great, i’ll text you.” she smiled before walking away, leaving peter with his thoughts.

to even peter’s surprise, the thoughts were yours. if this was any other day, he would have jumped in the air and danced his little victory away inside his head, but all he could think about was how you told him that you loved him.

later that evening, peter reached the coffee shop and found gwen already sitting there, waiting for him. he rushed inside and sat across her, “sorry i’m late.”

“oh, no. you’re on time!” she smiled sheepishly, “i was actually early.”

the two of them ordered, feeling an awkward silence settle in. it was never like this, at least for peter. he always found talking to gwen so easy, but everything felt different suddenly.

the palpable tension was cut short by gwen clearing her throat, “so, y/n?” she asked, taking a sip from her chamomile tea.

“what?”

“you wanted to talk about her.” she clarified, watching peter stir the coffee in his cup.

“right. well, yesterday i was over at her place.” he averted his eyes, knowing that gwen would be disappointed he never showed up at her place, “i’m sorry for ditching your plan.”

“you mean our plan?”

“right, sorry.” peter took a deep breath before continuing, “i was with her and she told me… she told me that she loves me.”

“what!” gwen bore the same dumbstruck expression peter expected her to. for a moment it was silent again before she asked, “do you?”

“n-no. i don’t.”

“are you sure, peter?”

it was peter’s turn to stay mute. he didn’t know how to answer that question. he wanted to be clear about his feelings but he wasn’t. the more he thought about it, the more twisted it became.

“i don’t know.”

another week passed like that. peter didn’t see you at school, nor after his patrols. he just couldn’t muster up the courage to crawl up to your window and confront you.

he’d stopped hanging out with gwen too. or maybe it was the other way around, the vigilante wasn’t sure anymore.

it was as if you were holed up in your room all the time. whenever he passed your apartment building, he saw the light to your room turned on but never saw your shadow, or any silhouette moving about.

however, today the case was different. your room appeared dark and quiet, the streetlight peeked into your room through the window just like peter’s curious eyes. he finally landed on your fire escape, one week after the events that led you to confess to him about your love.

the house felt lonely. peter pulled out his phone and shot you a text, then another and two more, asking about your whereabouts, but you gave no reply.

peter decided to ignore it even though his heart was telling him to wait there, frozen at the spot, until you returned back home.

the next day he saw you in school by your locker. he couldn’t believe his eyes, thinking it was a dream. even though he was uncertain, there was a pull between the two of you that led him towards you, his feet stopping only a meter away from you, “y/n?”

you looked up from your locker, lips parting, “peter.” your face remained stoic.

“i- uh, how have you been?”

your eyes turned towards the floor, “i got the surgery.”

“w-what? what surgery?”

“i got the flowers removed surgically.” you closed your locker, clutching the books over your chest almost protectively.

“why?” was all peter could whisper.

“i’m sorry for getting in between you and gwen. now you can be with her.” you gave him a little smile, taking a few steps back, “maybe we could be friends again, peter.”

with that you left.

peter stood there, staring at a ghost of you in front of him, wishing you would come back and hold him in your warm embrace. but that seemed like a distant dream. peter’s chest tightened at the thought of leaving you. a feeling of pain blossomed within his lungs. he gasped for air and coughed, cupping a hand over his mouth.

to his horror, when he pulled his palm back, resting over it was a petal covered in blood.

you left with peter, the pain that your heart suffered through once. and his own that never got a chance to win your bloody love.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

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Things that really ANNOYED THE FUCK OUTTA ME while watching OUTER BANKS SEASON 3:

First things first: Big John AKA big old crazy dude

Let's just say that besides being a shitty father figure he also is selfish as fuck. He only decides to appear in John B's life whenever he needs him to do something treasure related, like ok big John, you love your son so much *cough cough*

In other hand, he also is willing to do ANTHING to find el Dorado, and by ANYTHING I mean killing people, tell me that's not what a psychopath would do.

And all the fricking screen time dedicated to the relationship between John B and his father???? Like we get that they need to bond again but DO WE HAVE TO WATCH ALL THE PROCESS?

No thank you Netflix, do better next time

I saw a tik tok that went something like this: Who said Ward is a bad person? Big John? cause if we wanna talk about someone BAD let's talk about Big John...

And yeah, that tik tok literally summes up my opinion about this individual.

Me roasting Big John with this post:

2: Rafe and the girl named Sofia who came out of nowhere

Ok. Don't misunderstand me; the idea of introducing a new character who's gonna play the girlfriend or fuckbuddy of Rafe is super super interesting to me BUT

Can you elaborate more their relationship????? Give more CONTEXT????

They could even use her apparition and do a BOMB ASS side story like idk maybe her being more cruel than Rafe or her having some kind of business relationship with Singh and betraying him in the process... WHATEVER

But I'm just saying that that would have been more interesting than the parental issues between Big Dumbass John and John B

A video of me crying while scenes of John B and his dad appeared on my tv non stop:

LOOK AT HIM HE'S SO CUTE LOVE HIM

3: Sarah and Topper

Don't even get me started on this shit.

When I saw that Sarah went back to flirting with Topper I was like WHA- WHE- WHO

But I'm not gonna question her that much because they are supposed to be playing teenagers, and that's what teenagers and (also) some adults do:

STUPID SHIT

And Topper... I really don't know how to feel about him.

He's like a shark who's ready to attack if he sniffs some blood (Sarah and John B breaking up or having relationship turbulences), but I can't even blame him that much because I feel like he really loves Sarah besides everything, and he really demonstrated it this season by helping the pogues out.

What Topper was replaying in his head when Sarah promised him that she would stay:

4: Sarah's thoughts when she was left with no family, no money and nowhere to go (she was homeless for like a day and decided to cope with it by drinking beer from an abandoned beer tap, ok)

Um... When I say I was expecting her to say something philosophical and life changing and SHE DECIDED TO CONCLUDE HER SPEECH WITH: I really don't know if I'm a pogue or a kook...

SIDE EYE

Girl I KNOW you are 17 but GROW THE FUCK UP.

You've been betrayed by your OWN FATHER and SHOT and nearly KILLED by your BROTHER and that's what you're thinking about???

Jesus Christ have mercy on me

All the build up story around pogues and kooks is really interesting (even tho it's like another form of saying rich and poor people) but when characters say shit like that it really makes no sense.

You have no home, no family, you argued with your bf and he left, and your friends are not there at the moment and YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT THAT IRRELEVANT SHIT? Damn

Ok, I think I am done with most of the things I wanted to say. There are MORE for sure, but these are the most important ones.

I have to be honest with you, I still haven't watched the last episode bc I really got tired of their bullshit. I love the show and I really love the characters, but this season just wasn't it. I am gonna try and finish it today with hopes that they will end it in a decent way (I don't think so but whatever).

It's not a secret by the end of this post that I'm a spanish native speaker so, yeah, I tried my best to write down correctly the ideas that I had about the show, so PLEASE don't come at me.

I'm also writing a fanfiction about Rafe, but I'm doing it in spanish because I feel like if I wrote it in english I would fuck it up.

Maybe I will try and start uploading Rafe imagines or smth like that, bc they would be shorter and easier to write for me.

PLEASE if you have any thoughts or a comment that you wanna add after reading my rant, just do it, I'm for sure gonna be answering y'all because I love to talk about the show and the characters.

BYE P4L

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the NO-SKIP albums: a tag game 🎶💖

rules: share the albums that you can listen to nonstop. those lightning in a bottle-albums that scratch ur brain just right. every single track, an absolute banger. u could not skip one if u tried. no notes. stunning, show-stopping, immaculate. ur no-skip albums.

🔎 bonus & optional (but imo, v fun) rules: 1) add a track rec for us to listen to! AND 2) share ur favorite line(s) from that track! 👀

This was so hard!! There are so so so many albums not included but I think 15 albums is enough to where I look crazy but not tooooo crazy (doubtful) and I wanted to make it somewhat varied genre-wise. A lot of these artists have like multiple no-skip albums as well so picking between them was extra difficult—on some I went with the underrated favourite of mine to mix it up. I don't know! It's kinda all over the place. Thank you so much to @ventiswampwater, @visceravalentines, @avrilsboy, & @actualfucking for tagging me!!! 🥹 I think there were a few others who tagged me but then removed my tag, probably because they saw I was tagged by others lol, so thank you to those ppl too!!<333

Tagging: @xoxo-gossipghoul (& anyone else! I think most people have done this at this point? But if you’re reading this and haven’t been tagged yet then this is me tagging you!!! lol) Album List & Track Rec:

🏴 Damaged �� Black Flag (1981)

track rec: Police Story

↳ This fucking city / Is run by pigs / They take the rights away / From all the kids

🪑 Songs from The Big Chair — Tears for Fears (1985)

track rec: Mothers Talk

↳ It's not that you're not good enough / It's just that we can make you better / Given that you pay the price / We can keep you young and tender / Following the footsteps of a funeral pyre / You were paid not to listen now your house is on fire

💀 Collection I & II — Misfits (1986/1995)

track rec: Mommy, Can I Go Out and Kill Tonight?

↳ Rip the veins from human necks until they're wet with life / Razor-blades love teenage flesh, an epidermoty / I'll bring back a souvenir, for it's my mommy's dream

🍊 No Doubt — No Doubt (1992)

track rec: Trapped in a Box

↳ Ah trapped in a box my life becomes void / And all of the thought for myself's now destroyed / Controlling my mind, what to eat, what to buy / Subliminal rules: how to live, how to die / Trapped in a box

🌙 Dreaming of You — Selena (1995)

track rec: God’s Child (Baila Conmigo) (Ft. David Byrne)

↳ God makes us dream / But won't set us free / Hey, hey, hey, hey / God calls us dance to songs we can't hear / Hey, hey, hey, hey

🌊 Tidal — Fiona Apple (1996)

track rec: Sullen Girl

↳ And there's too much going on / But it's calm under the waves in the blue of my oblivion / Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion

🦷 The Distillers — The Distillers (2000)

track rec: Red Carpet & Rebellion

↳ The palace dialed in the streets were burning / The red horizon came crashing through the morning / There was no contentment, only bloodshed / Red blood and social discontent / Bruised by puritan, oh, puritan exempt / It's like a peasant uprising

🦋 Greatest Hits — Mariah Carey (2001)

track rec: When You Believe (Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston)

↳ They don't always happen when you ask / And it's easy to give in to your fears / But when you're blinded by your pain / Can't see your way clear through the rain / A small but still, resilient voice / Says hope is very near

😈 Antics — Interpol (2004)

track rec: Not Even Jail

↳ I pretend like no one else to try control myself / I'm subtle like a lion's cage / Such a cautious display / Remember take hold of your time here / Give some meanings to the means / To your end / Not even jail

🌆 The City Sleeps in Flames — Scary Kids Scaring Kids (2005)

track rec: The World as We Know It

↳ A virus known as rage / Is brutal in destroying / And spreading all over the place / Bleeding culture / The dying nation / When the money controls the tide / We won't get another chance this time / We won't get a second chance this time

🎺 Back to Black — Amy Winehouse (2006)

track rec: Some Unholy War

↳ If my man was fightin' some unholy war / I would be behind him / Straight shook up beside him with strength / He didn't know, it's you I'm fightin' for / He can't lose with me in tow (With me in tow) / I refuse to let him go (To let him go) / At his side and drunk on pride / We wait for the blow

🎸 Favourite Worst Nightmare — Arctic Monkeys (2007)

track rec: Teddy Picker

↳ And it's the thousandth time that it's even bolder / Don't be surprised when you get bent over / They told you, but you were gaggin' for it

3️⃣ Three Vol. 1 — Joel Plaskett (2009)

track rec: Gone, Gone, Gone

↳ In the middle of a lonely night / Got caught in the hallway light / For a minute you were gettin' close / I suspect I've seen a ghost / In the middle of a highway dream / You got caught in the headlight beam / Down the road with your tired eyes / Good old boys with your old goodbyes

🫙 Ignore the Ignorant — The Cribs (2009)

track rec: Emasculate Me

↳ Spent all this time chasing happy / But happy is boring to me / So put walls around our misery / And gently emasculate me

🧱 Brutalism — IDLES (2018)

track rec: Exeter

↳ It seems like no-one cares / I think I'll take the stairs / 'Cause nothing ever / He punched himself in the face / To prove he wasn't gay / 'Cause nothing ever happens

[ginger-snap-talkin-nonsense]

Parks and Rec anon again. I got a follow up relating to the last one. But first…

“the fellow agreed to the game and then blew up after losing, that’s still on him. He could’ve chosen not to participate and calling someone a bitch for beating you in a game is grounds to be punched by their husband iyam.”

I never thought of it in those terms, but that is a good point. So yeah, still agree he acted inappropriately

There’s a later episode that’s basically the same story, but this time Leslie has a mirror held up to her behavior, and it’s one my favorite moments.

Swing Vote. Ron has proposed shutting down the local mini golf to stop wasting tax payer money. Leslie loves places like this, so this means war. And in this episode she’s particularly grouchy, probably because the oppositon is from a close friend and colleague, even if it’s not the first time they’ve clashed. The deciding vote in the matter will be from good ol Jeremy Jamm.

She basically pulls the same routine as last time, inviting him out to a night of mini golf with lots of snacks and prizes, and losing deliberately to him to convey its value. She goes as far as to keep the teenage snow cone cart girl late into the night even though she has homework to do. Though she does whisper to her to keep up with schoolwork.

Ron shows up, predicting she was gonna pull a stunt like this, and calls out what’s obviously happening. He outright asks Jamm how he’ll vote, and he’s still undecided, so Jamm proposes the opponents play a game for his vote. Ron wins, and of course she’s a sore loser. And in a laughably petty sore loser move, Leslie snags the stuffed dragon he won as a result and gives it to a random kid.

But wait, even more pettiness! She puts a display gorilla from the mini golf in Ron’s office to say its blood is on his hands, and also that his principles are wrong. (This moment has one of my favorite Ron lines “You may think so, I do not.”) After that, Jamm pays her a visit to say she could still sway him. She points out he gave his word on the matter (a very serious thing for Ron), and Jamm says his word is garbage and he’s always open for swaying.

“Wow Jamm, even for you this is kinda low.”

“Oh don’t play so high and mighty, Leslie. You made a trade with me in a previous episode for something you wanted, and now you kept a teenager late to give me snow cones.” And then he says it, my favorite line of the episode beside’s Ron’s. “This is simply how people like us operate.”

And the look on her face is so damn satisfying! This is what she needed in the bowling episode!

She goes to Ron and rants about his code that drives her crazy and how mini golf got shut down, and only cuz she made Jamm stick to his word, though ofc she’s gonna fight to get it reopened. BUT she also admits to being at fault for the shut down (not in as many words, “twas Leslie killed the beast” I just assume she means her actions lead to the challenge she lost, losing Jamm’s vote, and thus the shut down. Jamm may have voted against it had she left things alone). And despite Ron’s code driving her crazy, it makes him someone she’s proud to have as a friend and she doesn’t want him to change.

It ends with something of a low note, with Leslie and Ron sharing a drink while she laments the crappy situations that her job entails, assuming it’d be more like dealing with Ron, who points out that there’s a lot of Jamms on the path she’s on and she needs to figure out if she relly wants to walk it.

It’s not quite a favorite episode, but it is a favorite resolution to a Leslie story. Her less than ethical and honest behavior gets called out, and it takes Jamm pointing it out and claiming their alike for her to fully realize it, she takes an L to get back on track^, admits fault, and alologizes to Ron for assigning him the blame while also reinforcing that she values who he is and his friendship.

^It may be a temporary L, since she’s gonna try and get the place reopened, but I don’t think we ever see or hear about it again. So it’s ambiguous as to whether she accomplishes that. I wouldn’t be surprised if she did, even years down the line, but I really like the idea that she may not have and just has to accept it.

Oh well yeah if that's your issue-that Leslie can be too intense and too laser focused on what she wants that she behaves rashly then...yeah!

That's her primary flaw. She has a hard time letting go when something is important to her, and there's multiple episodes about how she needs to get okay with things not going her way, or she needs to learn to compromise.

When most of your opponents are viscerally against positive changes or out to spite you for a personal vendetta like Leslie's often are, it's hard to hammer in the lesson that sometimes the opposition isn't doing something specifically to make things worse or to hurt you.

It's one of the reasons I like her I think that's a really interesting struggle for a character consistently trying to do the most good, and it's one of the reasons Ben and Ron are so important to her character.

[blairpuffs]

RANT INCOMING

summary of my new au but its not the well written coherent one so its just me normally talking and being not so normal

theres no happy ending here btw all ansgt. so basically! :3

eclair and roguefort cookie are born to a royal family in the kingdom known as Elixir. they're just these silly siblings born to a royal family, but eventually they get bored of the royal life yadda yadda, so at 4 am roguefort wakes up their brother and is like . "hey bitch U wanna run away?" and hes like "slayy ok!!!" so they put on hoods to stay mysterious and shits and run away! they also change their appearance a bit. so basically skip to the busy early morning in the town square and zoom in. theres two teenagers running around grabbing random stuff. they are having the time of their life seeing as they were never allowed out of castle bounds before this so they're HYPED. everyones looking for the two children that belong to the king, King Camembert!!! and they are just goinh absolutely silly. the sun begins to set and OH I FORGOT TO MENTION! the twins were born from a magical family but eclair was born without powers for some reason. anyways they giggle and goof off then run to the top of the roof of some building and they sit and talk. then they get into a bit of a tiff over Eclair being homesick and saying how he wants to go back home and this pissed off rogue so the tiff evolves into a full blown fucking fight and rogue starts throwing stuff with their magic and eventually they lose control and. whoop! eclair gets pushed off the rooftop and falls to the ground and. rogues like "well shit i just killed my brother in front of like 13 different townspeople" and starts freakinf out. so now rogue is wanted and accused of being a witch so they are on the run with eclairs blood on their hands and a criminal record ((mind you their identity is still unknown))

so king camembert is pissed of since his kids disappeared. but theres also a criminal on the run that actually fuckingkilled his son so he's going batshit crazy -- then rogue changes their appearance to avoid the drama and changes their name, now disguised as "brie cookie" and guess who they find while totally not being a wanted criminal on the run? this bitch named ALMOND COOKIE!!! and hes also this little teenage kid who is deeply traumatized and not having a good time and brie is like "hey girl are you good" and he's like "yourhoteannakiss i mean. wanna be my friend :3" and brie is like "wtf your deranged. okay!! bestie" so they go frolic in the fields and are absolute best friends. brie and almond do silly stuff like foster random animals, steal food for funsies stuff like that they do in books and shits. they falled in love

brie and almond are besties ofc. one day the go on a rooftop. that EXACT SAME ROOFTOP THAT BRIE WENT ON WITH THEIR BROTHER THEY MURDERED!!! and almond is FOCKEN clueless and then brie and almond are giggling like little kids and they do silly gamers stuff then go back to the floor to go and find a place to eepies again and brie judt goes. "hey bbg ihave a confession."

and almond nods curioudly then they reveal their identity and they go "im thst one bitch who killed eclair" and almonds like . shocked and hes like speechless and he gets all scareds and panics and rogue goes "WAIT NO STOP IM SORRYS IM NOT GONNS HURT YOU BBG" and then almond just watches as rogue is taken away by royal guards and tackled by townspeople since he has a fight flight or freeze instinct and he chooses freeze all the time. so rogue is gonna die and suddenly almond snaps out of it and starts to run after them in a panic . since his bff is a murderer but he doesnt care cause hes like. thats my bbg 😾

(warning for being burned alive below and also death) ⬇️⬇️⬇️

so rogue is to be killed because they are a witch and a murderer apparently BUT IT EAS A FUCKJG ACCIDENT and btw magic is prohibited unless its used by royalty in this kingdom and nobody actually knows that rogue is the kings child yet . so the dude about to burn rogue alive is like . "YOU FOCKEN WITCH YOU ARE A DIFFERENT SPECIES I HATE YOUR KIND!!! >:(" all meansies and rogue just looks down and starts crying a bits . then he lights the torch and throws that bitch in and rogue starts burning. they csnt run because their tied up and they cant scream because it wont help. theres a crowd with pitchforks and torches calling them mean things like "witch" "freak" and "outcast" THEN SUDDENLY rogue looks up happily as much as they can and sees almond emerge from the crowd yelling and pleading they keep rogue/brie alive. but. hes too late. and that's the end :3

no happy endings

[starkwoes]

My Daenerys Stormborn-Targaryen Thoughts

Before I go ahead I feel like I should mention this won't be validating to people who hate her or the people who think she is on a quintessential hero-story. I still hope you read it and maybe get something out of it, and if you don't then don't be mean about it.

Peace, Ancestry and Victimhood

Something people overlook is how much grooming Daenerys has gone through, how she is still a young teenager, and as a result it has forced her to act through fire and blood. She's basically a child soldier. Despite that, her compassion, and desperate desire for peace has been in her. Negating that part of her is my least favourite thing to see from the people who hate her. Its a hallmark of her character, and to say that she doesn't care for the people of Mereen, Yunkai, and Astapor when GRRM had to expressly tell an artist that she wants to be on their level while she is ruling is disingenuous literary analysis. I am also firmly on the side of Daenerys killing the slavers is no indication of her as a villain. Her actions are in direct contradiction to her Valyrian ancestors, who introduced that very region to slavery. Her marrying Hizdhar, also negates the way Targaryens conquered Westeros and decided to marry amongst themselves as a preferred practise. In addition, Daenerys desires the Red Door in the Free City of Braavos, which was created by slaves who escaped Valyrian dragons by sea in the fog. All the more interesting when we are told how often Daenerys desires to escape by the sea.

The political turmoil around her led by male slavers, is not entirely her fault which people love to say, but it is her responsibility, which she does not take lightly. Daenerys is so desperate to stabilize the region but she does not know how because all the men around her except maybe Selmy do not view her as human. She's a dragoness, they want her to burn her enemies and shower them with riches and validation. Daenerys absolutely could be successful in her mission to end slavery if she were surrounded by the right people, but she never was.

I want to mention Daenerys, her namesake, and her parallels to other Targaryens. Another thing people mention is that of course she is crazy her family are the Targaryens, which is like, okay, but who are the actual Targaryens the text says she's like? The first Daenerys Targaryen, was Alysanne and Jaehaerys ' child, she was added later by GRRM. Elio Garcia said GRRM wanted to change the birth order of J and A's kids. This insertion is so interesting because Alysanne wanted her to be Queen, but Jaehaerys completely shot it down. The text showed every indication that she had the temperament and potential to be a great ruler, but circumstances dictated by men, and then the shivers destroyed her. The next Daenerys was used as a pawn for peace, but ended up being the face of a pointless war. Whether you believe Daemon Blackfyre and her were in love, (he had nine kids with another woman so I firmly believe it was not real love) he still idolized her with no regard to peace, or her own wishes as a person. Daenerys was adored by Dorne, and she started a tradition that let lowborn and highborn children play together in the Water Gardens. Daenerys Targaryen I is named after her by her mother Rhaella. Daenerys Targaryen-Martell's mother, Naerys Targaryen, is expressly said to have looked like the future Daenerys I. By all accounts, another gentle woman, with a desire for peace, and stripped of her agency by men around her. Though it might be a reach because they are separated by a few degrees, I also think her connection to Rhaena and Helaena Targaryen is worthy of note. Daenerys' dragons are the children of Dreamfyre.

When looking at the Targaryen ancestors she is actually connected to, the books drive the fact this is a girl that does not want to default to fire and blood. I think this is all the more harrowing because of how many times she is surrounded by it. Now, this stuff is uncomfortable for a lot of people. Especially if they are more familiar with show!Daenerys, who was absolutely victimized, but it was not shown to be internalized as much as canon Dany. People very much want to see a hero as her defining quality, and while she has heroism, the victimization as a part of her character takes a back seat. It's like the opposite of Sansa, where all people seem to see in Sansa is a victim, but never interrogate what her internal dialogue is actually saying as her character progresses. I think it's easy for people to lose the lost child she is in her action sequences.

Flights of Fancy, Stories, Violence, and Displacement

Knowing all of this background, and where things leave her in ADWD, I want to go back to her brother Viserys' role in abusing her, while also giving her the romantic tales of Westeros. In my opinion, GRRM really drills the fact that Westerosi romances, lead the characters astray, and prevent them from gaining any sort of growth or peace. I'm not going into any specifics about the characters because this is about Dany, but you can find tons of meta about this concerning: Rhaegar Targaryen, Sansa Stark, Jamie Lannister, Brienne of Tarth, etc... so its a repeated theme.

Everything Daenerys knows about Westeros is through her abusive brother. So when we have her alone (A Targaryen alone in this world is a terrible thing) and dreaming about Westeros' stone houses. This scene almost sinks into a sort of dream sequence delusion. Her greatest mistake is absolutely not her quest to free the slaves, and stabilize a region she has more in common with than Westeros, it will be her leaving it to a land she's never really known, with Viserys' direction in her head. Her time in Westeros will not be glorious, fulfilling, or give her a sense of home. Hence what I said in the beginning for people who are into the Targaryen restoration happy ending. Whether she'll burn King's Landing (I really don't think so at this point) or not, Westeros is not her home and it does not bode well for her true desire for peace.

Final Thoughts

I used to be in the Queen Daenerys I of the seven kingdoms camp when I read them when I was 16, then I changed my mind and thought she might go mad, and then after the show I changed my mind again because her madness was so contrived and to be honest it was boring to me. Wow another woman too crazy to rule things very unique guys. To be honest I don't know what GRRM has in store for her because she's always caught in this duality between peace and violence. What I do know is that she will not be some mad caricature villain in Westeros. But she will also be extremely displaced, and more alone than she ever was before. One last thing I will note is her comment while naming Viserion:

"Viserys was cruel and weak and frightened, yet he was my brother still. His dragon will do what he could not."

She believes in growing things, and whatever mistakes she might make, unforgivable, or not, I think she has a chance to grow into a really powerful, and peaceful woman like the other characters we talk about.

[chaosturnsbeautiful]

When I was a teenager all I did was fawn over boys, a lot of my friends would call me "boy crazy." I hated it, no one really understood that I was just wanting a human connection from someone other than family. I had friends and lost friends, that's what happens in high school. Well after graduation, most of my friend group drifted off and went to college. I stayed in my hometown and attended trade school... While doing so I had one friend that I grew up with attending with me. We'll call her Krissy, we were friends for many years. Her and I were inseparable, or so I thought. She had became a popular girl, who knew trade school had cliques. Well I decided I wanted to find a boyfriend. (the thought of this makes me sick, since I'm now married and I have a child). So I got on multiple dating sights and sought after "men". I was very self conscious, hated my appearance, but loved the attention. When I found the guy I thought I wanted to date. I was with this guy for a little over a year. We did everything together.... He was a couple years older than me, didn't have a car, could barely keep a job, and lived in his parents house. That wouldn't have bothered me if he didn't try to claim it as his own house until I finally met his family. He started getting into drugs, I was against it, but before I could do or say anything he broke up with me. I wasn't really sad, I was mad. Mad I spent all my time taking care of him, finding him jobs, lying to my family, and acting like he was better than he really was... You will see a pattern. Well I graduate trade school and start working with Krissy and we were doing just fine in our friendship, we hung out all the time, we both were striving and doing so well. I started noticing things off about her, she seemed like she was drinking on the job, strung out, and all around not a good person. Years of dealing with this and being around her, I distanced myself. Decided I wanted to get back out in the dating pool, turned out to be the worst/best decisions. I started to date this guy and for this post he will remain anonymous, Within the first week I should have seen the red flags, trying to make me leave my family, telling me we were going to get on a cellphone plan together, reading my texts from my parents, he made me call my mom and tell her I was moving in with him. Yes there were threats made with it, but I blocked that out of my memory. My relationships with friends and family continued to diminish. I never moved in with him, but I continued to date him. He had no job, lived in a sketchy neighbor hood, always told me about how he was in the military and made up a big lie about some top secret thing he did with them. He drained my accounts, all of my money I had been saving was gone within months of dating. I felt stuck, with no way out. He ended up threatening to kill me all the time, when I was at work he would sit at a table outside of my job (I worked in the mall) and watched me. If he saw me talking to other men, he would send me vulgar texts. Month's go by and I have to go in for a well woman exam, he forced me in to letting him go. My doctor never noticed anything wrong, except a couple days later I get a call from the nurse with blood results.... You guessed it, I was pregnant. The tears came streaming down. I didn't want to be with this person..., To be continued.....

[insufferableprotagonistpoll]

Round 2

Propaganda why Dean Winchester is insufferable:

Really mean to Cas (called him a child, zero respect for him, calls him family and casts him out when the angels are looking for him), and an absolute dick to Jack (threatening to kill him CONSTANTLY)

>Was a misogynist (loved to call women skanks, bitches, hoes)

>Used gay as an insult multiple time during the show's run (idc if he's gay an homophobic, that's still insulting)

>Beat up his brother for being possessed

>Beat up his brother for losing his soul (not his brother's fault)

>Used dubious consent to get his brother possessed in a different unrelated possession incident after possession was being used (badly...this is supernatural after all) as a metaphor for SA

>Threatened to murder his brother when he was hallucinating (yay we aren't ableist)

>Locked a child up in a box

>Threatened to kill the child he locked up in a box

>Made a creepy, sexual comment about a barely-legal high school girl

>Got the woman and kid he was living with memory-wiped

misogynistic scumbag. theres also a few different times that dean finds teenagers sexy with the most recent and prominent example that i can recall being the scooby doo crossover episode in season 13 where hes super into daphne who in the version they chose for the episode is 15-16 and is interacting with her as if shes a real person cause they got magicked into the episode. he treats everyone around him like shit and the only time the narrative agrees that thats a bad thing is when he has the mark of cain put on him and hes acting no differently than he does usually its just now acknowledged that hes treating others like shit. ive been rewatching the show for shits and giggles with a friend and wow he really does not treat anyone well but i wanna focus on how he treats sam for a second cause dude's hobby seems to be ignoring what his brother wants and lying to sam about doing stuff that directly concerns him the demon blood and souless things are reasonable cause those were both Bad for sam but theyre still part of a wider pattern and the most prominent example of this being when dean tricks sam into letting gadreel possess him and actually gaslights sam about it with the whole ordeal ending when its revealed gadreel lied about who he was and while possessing sam murders a friend of theirs. his voice is just also stupid as fuck im sorry this is just petty but he just sounds like hes trying so hard to be gruff n intimidating but he just sounds like a kid pretending to be batman

Dean’s list of sins is crazy long because of how long the show ran, but the key thing for me is that post-locking Sam in the bunker (season 4 I think?), I just can’t enjoy their relationship anymore. I normally love their sibling dynamic, but Dean’s ultimate worst past-the-point-of-no-return moment for me was demonizing (pun intended) his little brother for being “addicted” to demon blood, which only happened because of a series of events that were either Dean’s or someone else’s fault, not Sam’s. I also really dislike how the fandom treats Dean like this angel (pun intended) who has done no wrong and even tries to justify the MULTIPLE times he’s beaten up and otherwise abused his little brother. Canon Dean is like the polar opposite of fanon Dean: he’s homophobic and racist (jokes about a Black man being sexually assaulted in prison), misogynistic (take a shot every time he calls a woman a slur and you’ll die of alcohol poisoning), and abusive.

Propaganda why Erika Shinohara is insufferable:

Doormat of a character

Impulsive liar, would rather take candid picture of a boy she didn't know than to admit friends that she's single, Naive to the point of being stupid, worst masochist rep since the 50 Shades of Grey protag

[justanisabelakinnie]

YES THANK YOU OMG

It really bothers me so much because like. Women are still underrepresented in media even now. And even if they weren’t, sexism is still a historical thing and the vast majority of media throughout history has centered around men. So even if women had more representation now it would still fail to catch up to the vast majority of male-centric media that already exists out there! I also agree about the lesbophobia and transmisogyny part because often wanting to erase female representation erases them as well. Which is no coincidence since lesbians and trans women are like the least “male-centric” group. Because lesbians don’t like men and trans women want to escape being assigned the label of “man” which the patriarchy detests. Which is why people always complain about characters being canon lesbians or even headcanoned as such, and why they always want to insist that trans female characters(Alluka and Snapdragon come to mind) are/should just be gender-fluid or feminine boys.

I remember in I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou, there was a chapter(page 75, if anyone’s wondering) where she talked about how she was ashamed of being a girl and wanted to be a boy for so long because she was an avid reader who constantly escaped into books and related to the heroic protagonists, but all the stories were about boys. And she felt like a failure who would never amount to anything no matter how smart, brave, and heroic she was because she was “just” a girl.

And like…? Point to ANY boy or man out there who has EVER felt that way from watching or reading media. Who has felt ashamed of being a boy because as a child all the stories they read had female protagonists doing amazing things. IT DOESN’T EXIST. The only people who complain about boys feeling ashamed to be boys because the media they like is too “woke” are whiny soccer moms and right-wing MRA men who are threatened by every work that doesn’t have five men for every woman and lets its female characters be more than just Smurfettes, girlfriends, and damsels in distress. Meanwhile their sons are just enjoying MLP and Ever After High with no problem.

Also even if the protagonist is male you will still see this complaint. Like with Steven Universe people whined and threw a hissy fit and complained that there “weren’t any male Gems”. There are! There’s Steven! Be content with that!

And also while I’m not in this fandom, I saw an AU of The Owl House where they made Hunter the main character instead of Luz and made Amity straight to be his love interest which BOILS my blood beyond belief.

And yeah those idiots making AUs of Jennifer’s Body with men in them are so dumb. I have to wonder why they are into the movie or what lessons they got from it if they’re out here saying shut like “what if it was about BOYS”. Like the first line is literally “hell is a teenage girl” and the movie makes sure to show why. Plus it’s all about female objectification, rape/virginity culture, and lesbian/sapphic longing in a patriarchal society that shames women’s sexuality while also telling them that they just appeal to men. Plus, how did they forget about lines like “PMS isn’t real, Needy, it was invented by the boy-run media to make us seem crazy.” Or Needy standing up to the leader of the band when they slutshame Jennifer(unfortunately it got Jennifer in a load of trouble but still). Or all the themes about the Madonna-Whore Complex? Or Needy killing the band(I don’t remember what they’re called, they’re frankly irrelevant to me EDIT: They're called Low Shoulder I'm dumb as all hell) at the end of the movie? Like, why do they think she did that? Seriously??? I also can’t forget the “‘are you guys rapists?’ ‘God, I hate girls.’” Part either. The entire story is about women’s roles in society in multiple ways that I can’t even go into now but HELLO?! WAKE UP!!! Misogyny exists you know! Women are still an oppressed and marginalized class! Our stories deserve to be told!

These guys are the type to tune into shows like this and only focus on the male characters and then wonder why they’re getting “shafted” lol.

But I’ve talked enough so I’ll stop here. Anyway I’m so glad you agree with me. I promise to those guys that their balls won’t fall off if a show that’s not about them exists. The world doesn’t revolve around you and that includes fiction.

Nah but it's the way every time a story features or is about women or a woman's story, people always want to try to make it about men or say "what if there were men instead?"

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic and Six: the Musical both have parts of their fanbase(although thankfully in Six it's not the majority) saying that there should be a version with all men or going "what if this female main cast had a male main cast instead"? Even though the point of both is to provide representation for women, MLP is about how there's no wrong way to be a girl and changing the way girls'/girly shows are seen as shallow and less good, and giving girls multiple strong female characters to see themselves in instead of just one token/cookie cutter archetype, while Six is all about REAL-LIFE women whose lives were destroyed because of misogyny, it is all about girl power(same as mlp) and women getting to reclaim their stories from a patriarchal society that shortchanged and silenced their voices throughout history, but no let's make it about men lol.

The same is true for Sailor Moon, I have seen some people say that it's sexist or "misandrist"(as if that's even a thing lol) because it's all about women and the women are more powerful and how Tuxedo Mask "always needs to be saved" like goddamn let the girls be the heroes who save the world for once.

And for that matter PRECURE. Unpopular opinion that will surely get my head bitten off by fans but I don't think Precure NEEDS male Cures and it's not "erasing" feminine boys or saying boys can't be feminine or "reinforcing gender roles" to point that out. Precure is a franchise about female characters being the heroes and main characters who are powerful while also being feminine, it's supposed to place the women center stage and give them the spotlight when most media doesn't do that, trying to fit boys in it is just ruining that message imo. Tbh I would be happy if there were no male Cures at all, idgaf about your "but let boys be feminine" shit cuz I mean yeah but like go watch Cute High Earth Defense Club Love or something, that show seems more your speed(@ sexist Precure fans who say this, not you). I once got my comments removed TWICE for trying to point this out to someone, to the point where I just blocked them lol. One person even went so far as to make a petition for Toei Animation to make an all-male Precure season, again, just go watch Cute High, bc clearly that's what you're looking for.

I also saw some people complaining about Project MC^2 being "sexist" against boys and making them out to be stupid just because it's about girls being smart spies and good at math/art/science, one review even said "teach girls that boys matter too!" oh rly like they don't know already??? Like the world doesn't already tell them that each and every single day??????? The second girls get the spotlight everybody acts like boys are being attacked, but when boys get the spotlight it's all crickets and shit bc boys are supposed to take center stage like no one cares about girls getting attention. Your seven-year-old son isn't going to enter a self-hating misandrist crisis because one wee show said "women do run the world!" we still live in a patriarchy ffs.

Also in Cardcaptor Sakura the main character is a girl and the story has many female characters and is very empowering to women in general(while also having a great deal of powerful men and even a canon m/m couple), and yet I still saw this one annoying guy write an entire screed about how Sakura sucks as a character and should never have been Cardcaptor, the cherry on top was them saying that Syaoran should be the Master of the Clow Cards instead...because it's not enough that this show has multiple representations of positive men/masculinity in addition to women/femininity, it's still not good enough if it's a girl power fantasy, it MUST make a boy the hero!

I also saw someone say that Touhou, which has an all-female cast, needs more men. Wonder if they'd say the reverse if it had an all-male cast(correct answer: they wouldn't).

And then there's the Encanto fandom's entire can of worms where they went through that phase of wanting the female-dominated cast to be all about Camilo and Bruno, sidelining the women in the process. Like bruh. 😕

I really do wish that people would stop this shit, female-centric media is really never allowed to exist without people wanting men to be prioritized in it and take away from the female representation even though men have enough representation already lol, people can't handle when not everything is about men. It's why I will never listen to or take anyone seriously when they complain about shows like these being "sexist against men" and say that anything I write is too female-centric. Like. GOOD. The world needs more female-centric casts to shake up the status quo! You guys love complaining about shows being gendered and wanting gender equality in fiction only towards female-centric works, because you don't want to see women playing central roles without men also being there. Sucks to be on the other side of the playing field now, huh?

Anyway, I was inspired to write this to you rather than make it an original post because of your comment about people wanting Jennifer's Body to be about men(with Miguel as Jennifer) and yeah that is so disgusting and irritating. 🤢 I didn't even know that was happening but I'm not surprised because nobody ever lets shows about girls just center girls first and foremost. It truly is everywhere and I'm sick of it. Not everything needs to be about men, just let the women have something. Please.

Sorry this was long lol. 😅 Thanks for reading this far lol. You're a trooper! Have a nice day!

THIS ASK IS SO REAL ON SO MANY LEVELS!!

this also extremely effects lesbians and trans women because with lesbian women you’ll have people being like “do they really have to be gay? Why can’t they just be normal?” And with trans women it’ll be like “why can’t we just have normal nonqueer characters” or even “why can’t men just be men anymore” it’s like they hate any and all women and girls no matter what we do and it’s so insane to me

also I talked a little about this same phenomenon happening with Jennifer’s Body (2009), where there were people making aus of that movie with mainly MALE characters which downplays the whole message and plot of the god damn movie and it’s so ughhh

anyways sorry I took so long to get to this ask but everything you said is extremely true and I’m glad you brought attention to it!

also btw RADFEMS AND TERFS FUCK OFF THIS POST IS NOT FOR YOU

[hotch-stufff]

A Kiss Makes Everything Better

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Hotch x f!reader

Warnings!: Blood, violence, death, angst, crying, cursing, but ofc a fluffy ending

Description: you get taken hostage on a case and Hotch is trying to hold it together

Author's Note: this is the longest fic I have written so far, I love how it turned out, but it's literally an emotion roller coaster, so enjoy ;)

Of course it was you. Why wouldn't it be you. Crazy gunman targets the precinct, and its you that was taken hostage. You sat on the cold floor staring daggers at the man holding the gun. The witness for your current case, a teenage girl, sat next to you, crying into your arm.

"Shut her up, or she won't make it out of here." You were quick to pull her closer, trying to keep her quiet.

"Just let her go and keep me. I'm a federal agent. You will get plenty with just me, let her go." Your pleas fell on deaf ears. This man wasn't listening. It was clear he was having a psychotic breakdown, and you were running out of time. There was no way the team could get in here without risking yours or the girls life.

You slowly stood up, praying to God you could talk this man down.

"Listen I know exactly how you feel right now. I know whats it like for a parent to just walk out. Your mother left right?" He pointed the gun at you angrily.

"Shut up! She would never leave me." You took another step towards him.

"But she did leave. She couldn't handle your dad's beatings anymore, so she left you to take them all yourself." He paused.

"No, he killed her. H-he killed her. She would never just leave me." You took a deep breath.

"But she did. She left, just like my mom did. And it hurts a lot. But you can't keep killing people. I know you think that you are saving them from their husbands. But your not. Your doing exactly what your father did." That turned out to be the worst thing you could have possibly said, because the next thing you knew was the searing pain in your stomach. You heard someone scream, but you couldn't tell if it was you or the girl, or maybe it was the unsub. You couldn’t tell.

All you could feel was the pain. And getting shot was NOT like the movies. You didn't just pass out. No, if the shot didn't kill you, you had to sit there feeling yourself bleeding out with an unbearable pain overtaking your whole body. You couldn't move. You couldn't breathe. But you prayed and prayed that the team would make it in.

--- Hotch ---

Hotch paced and paced. Thinking of anyway to get you out of there safely. They were running out of options.

"There has to be another way to get in. A backdoor? A secret exit? Emergency exits?" Hotch asked one of the officers.

"The only other exit is an emergency exit on the South side, but it's bolted from the inside so no one breaks in." Hotch shook his head.

"Dammit!" He slapped the hood of the SUV in front of him.

"Aaron you need to calm down." Rossi, along with the rest of the team, was concerned for his friend. None of them had seen him act like this since, well since Haley. Hotch was just starting to calm down a bit when the gun went off. The sound echoed through the air silencing everyone.

"No!" Hotch began running towards the building. Morgan and Rossi had to physically restrain him from just running in.

"Let me go!" He attempted to pull his arms away but their grips were strong.

"Hotch, you need a vest, and we need a plan before we go barging in." He knew they were right. He knew he needed to wait. But something in the back of his head reminded him that you could be hurt. You could be dead. And that scared the hell out of him.

He walked over with the rest of his team and geared up.

"We are going through the front doors. Reid and Prentiss, I want you to go to the emergency exit and find a way in. JJ, Morgan you take the left, Rossi and I will go right." They made their way to the doors. Hotch opened the doors slowly as he cleared the front office.

He would find you, no matter what.

--- You ---

The pain overtook all of your senses. You barely registered the man pointing his gun to the girl.

"No. Don't sh-shoot her." You begged. "P-p-please don't shoot-t her." She was crying. You could hear her small sobs, and you prayed the team was on their way. "Let h-her go. You have m-me. You d-don't need h-her." You were struggling to say anything, but he heard every word. He nodded slowly, and told the girl to leave.

"I'm sorry. I just wanted to help them. They needed my help." You knew where this was going. He turned the gun to his forehead. You closed your eyes, not able to watch as the man fell to the ground. Tears falling down your face.

--- Hotch ---

"Clear!" Another room cleared, where the hell was this guy keeping you? Suddenly another gunshot was heard and footsteps echoed down the hallway.

A girl emerged from a corner, running as fast as she could. Hotch instantly recognized her as the witness and he quickly ran to her, scanning her for injuries.

"Wheres Y/n?" Her face fell, more tears gathering in her eyes.

"He sh-shot her!" Hotchs heart fell to his feet. He quickly instructed Rossi to tell the others where he was going and to escort the girl out. Hotch followed the hallway the girl had come out of, slowly inching down the hall, until he came to the interrigation room. He pushed open the door slowly.

The sight before him knocked the air out of his lungs. You were lying on the ground blood seeping out of your body, the unsub laying close by, dead.

--- You ---

You layed there on the ground, accepting that this was it. You would never get to see your family again, never get to see Morgan picking on reid as he spews another fact. Or Rossi inviting everyone over because he is SO the dad of the team. You would never get to have another girls night with Jj, Penny, and Emily. You would never even get to tell Hotch how you felt. This was it.

But then you heard it. Faintly, you heard voices and footsteps, and then he was there.

"No! No, no no." He ran to you as fast as his feet would take him, falling to his knees beside you. He instantly put pressure on your wound. You whimpered in pain, and that sound broke Hotch just a little bit more.

"Please, it h-hurts." You cried out in pain when he applied more preasure.

"I know, I know it does. Just hold on y/n." You could feel yourself slipping. "Dont do that y/n, don't you dare die on me. You are not allowed to die. Please." You were trying so hard, and Hotch applied more pressure, making your eyes snap open.

"There you go, just stay with me. Stay with me." You opened your mouth to speak, but he shush you, running his hand through your hair to soothe you, while his other hand continued to press on your wound. You needed to tell him. Right now.

"Hotch. I l-love y-you." You chocked out. "I'm s-so sorry." He shook his head.

"Dont apologize, just please don't die. I-I love you too. So much. So don't die." Your heart hammered out of your chest, and you managed a weak smile.

"Aaron." He looked into your eyes. "Kiss me, please." And he did. He leaned down, pressing his lips to yours. Everyone always says their first kiss with someone is flawless and perfect. But that was far from true. Your noses bumped every time he moved, and you could taste both of your tears on his lips. This kiss was passionate and messy. It wasn't perfect, you were bleeding out on the ground. But it was meaningful. It could quite possibly be the first and last kiss you two ever had. But this kiss, this breathtaking kiss made you want to hold on. It kept you there, with him. He pulled away as he heard footsteps approaching.

"O-okay. I won't-i won't die." He managed a small huff of laughter, kissing your forehead softly. And thats the last thing you rremember.

--- Hotch ---

Waiting was the worst part. Waiting rooms were the worst rooms to be in. Hotch felt like he was going to explode if someone didn't tell them your condition soon. He had already yelled at the paramedics and a poor nurse before his team arrived pulling him away.

"Hotch, we gotta get you cleaned up." He looked up, seeing Jj with his go bag in hand.

"I have to stay, they could come out here any second." But Jj fixed him with one of those mom looks that she had perfected and he found himself standing and walking towards the bathroom.

He removed the clothes covered in your blood and slipped on a spare t shirt and some sweatpants. He washed your blood of his arms and it brought another onslaught of tears. But he cleaned himself up and made his way back to the waiting room. Back to waiting and waiting and waiting.

--- You ---

You opened your eyes slowly, taking in your surroundings. You heard the beeping coming from the heart monitor and felt a heavy weight on your hand. Realizing it was another hand, you squeezed tightly. A head of black hair peaked out from the side of the bed, and you began running your fingers through the soft locks, waiting for him to wake up.

Hotch, ever the light sleeper, woke when he felt you shift. He slowly leaned up, taking in your tired state.

"You're awake." He stated the obvious, although you're sure it was just so he could really believe that you were actually sitting in front of him. He pressed the a button bringing a nurse, who checked to make sure everything was alright. She walked back out saying that she would let the doctor know.

Then his arms were around you, and his face was buried in you neck. You felt the tears as they slipped down his face, and you wrapped your arms tightly around him. You had never seen his so vulnerable.

"I'm alright, I'm okay. It's okay Aaron." He began peppering your neck with kisses, finding your pulse point, and pressing even more kisses there. You realized it was so he could feel your heartbeat. To remind himself that you were alive and sitting here in front of him.

"I told you I wouldn't die, didn't I?"he pulled away gently, leaning his forehead against yours.

"Yeah. I know, its just, they took you back and they wouldn't update us, and you haven't woken up in 5 days. I- I just-." You cut him off with a gentle kiss. His hands cradled you face, while one of yours wrapped around his neck. The other ran through his hair, tangling in the short hairs at the nape of his neck. This kiss wasn't as passionate as your first, but it was still as meaningful.

A whistle from the doorway was what broke the two of you apart. Morgan, as annoying as he was being, was a sight for sore eyes.

"Guys!" You exclaimed, the joy of seeing your team again evident on your face. You watched as Hotch wiped his tears off his face, smiling at your joy. Each team member came and hugged you gently, telling you how glad they were that you were okay.

"Soooo, how long has this been going on?" The shit eating grin on Emily's face as she asked made you roll your eyes.

"There is nothing like a near death experience to set your priorities straight right?" Hotch let out a huff of laughter as the rest of the team laughed. An hour or two went by before you felt yourself growing tired. They saw you yawn and dispersed, but not without promises of seeing you tomorrow.

You turned towards Hotch after everyone had left.

"Can you stay? Please?" He nodded slowly.

"Of course." He leaned in once again, and gave you a small peck.

"I knew I had to come back, if just to kiss you again." He smiled, the first real smile you had seen from him all day. And of course he leaned in to give you yet another small kiss. Which turned into a couple more small kisses. Which then turned into your lips passionately sealed together. You only broke away when the need for air became too strong.

"Well you know what they say." You smiled, knowing exactly what he was going to say. "A kiss makes everything better."

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