#keyboard abuse

[applysome]

Alex Turner losing his sanity during Pretty Visitors, AKA, I want to be reincarnated as a keyboard.

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Bonus

[myershorror]

Lol. The keyboard survived my abuse, (so far). 😂🙊

[lawva-girl]

silly draft i forgor to post:

Law being such a nerd he sometimes just stares at his figures/memorabilia, you’ll find him from time to time doing so

Maybe !!! You find him and reach up to his shoulders, he always jumps just a bit

But you continue, grabbing his shoulders and gently squeezing, trying to get his stubborn muscles to relax.

Law doesn’t exactly acknowledge you, at least not with words. He’ll sigh and lean a tiny bit into your hands, to attempt to let you know he likes it.

The first couple of times you thought he wanted to push you away, so you would retreat and drop it.

but one day law started staring at his figures, and you walked in. you didnt come close, since you wanted to respect his space.

but law grumbled, turned to you, and said "my shoulders hurt."

you just stared back at him, unsure of why he would sudden- oh

you laughed a little, to his protest, and walked over to start massaging his shoulders.

he stopped whatever mumbling had been going on and sighed in relief, saying how he felt like a kid throwing a fit.

you chuckle, and answer with something about how he was acting like a kid.

but every time he stared at his collections, or you wrote in your journal, you both were there.

rubbing each others shoulders :D

[roxannepolice]

Out of all the literary quotes that can be thrown at the Master and thoschei, this one from A hero of our time always struck me as a particularly accurate. Like, when the Master rushes over to keep the Doctor from falling in EoT, this is what popped up in my brain. Why?

Well, A hero of our time is up there with Shamela as earliest cases of recuntruction of a genre. Except where Shamela deconstructs stories that are generally regarded as sham - the mindbogglingly noble innocent girl "fixing" a guy, with none of the introspection to be found in Bronte sisters' works - A hero of our time deals with a more regarded - and objectively artisticly more meritorious - genre of byronic heroes. The main character, Grigory Pechorin, ticks all the boxes of a byronic hero - handsome, young, tragic, romantic, what have you - except unlike his predecessors like Byron's Giaour or Pushkin's Eugene Onegin (that Pechorin is a direct parody of, with both having river-based surnames)... he's aware he's a bastard. Like, there's always a part of him that can look at himself from outside and recognize that he's ruining himself and others, and that there are very easy ways to stop this. If you provided a critical analysis and called him a spoiled rich white boy who needs therapy, he'd be the first to agree. He's an homme fatal in the way of quality noir femmes fatales, who - again, in actually good noir films - strike the audience as much, much more than just sexy objects that can't control their sexuality and selfish impulses.

Which is why the above passage strikes the reader so hard. Yes, it's all written in a memoir convention, but we're still not at the point of deconstructing the peotic frames, what is written is to be taken at face value. And what we find is a flood of emotion, of deeply honest love and desperation that's hard to be brushed aside as a pose. And yet it's the pov character/main character that does so. He even goes for biologization of his state, dismissing it as possibly litte more than exhaustion. He recognizes spleen for a endocrinological imbalance that the name suggests.

The book is perfectly, openly unpreachy. There's no moral here to derive about how to live. It just presents the reader with a character that we are deeply confused about: he's clearly capable of deep, beautiful, noble emotions, yet chooses not to act on them, the moment a single physical obstacle (such horse dying from exhaustion) cuts the stream of consciousness. There's something no longer unsentimental as much as anti-sentimental about it. "People are, by nature, good, and if they just followed their natural empathy and feelings"- no, nothing good would come out of it, at least there's no guarantee.

And yet there's an honesty to it. An honesty that's specifically lacking in usual romantic heroes. There's an awareness that this level of dramaticness in life has to involve an element of cynically orchestrating it. And it's not the case of preachy "and therefore we should dismiss all delusions of such emotional rushes as fake", because there is no fakeness. It's the case of even manipulation being stragnely honest about itself, moreseo than truth could ever be. It appears to be saying "the only way to resolve the mystery of Mona Lisa's smile is to scratch all the paint off the beechwood, do you really think you'll find something truer underneath?". In a way, yes, wood was there beofre da Vinci, but I don't really think that's the reality we're looking for.

That's why when either fandom or the source material goes for getting to the Master "undearneath all performance" it strikes me as empty. No, it's not the Doctor knowing the truth of the Master, it's the case of the Master exposing truths about the Doctor.

Like Pechorin of byronic heroes.

[naferty]

There's no sound more romantic

[gordontheengineswifenirmal]

I’m going to state the obvious here, but apparently it needs to be said -

I have been falsely accused of zoophilia by an utter pervert, simply because I say I snog cats. I find ANYTHING sexual regarding animals beyond repulsive. I do profusely kiss cats, but there is absolutely NO sexual attraction involved. This is another thing that makes me more repulsed not only about sex, but about humans - most of them can ONLY think in terms of sex. They cannot imagine anything other than that.

Animals are innocent creatures. While they do procreate, most dont derive pleasure during from the process. If you have ever witnessed cats mating, the process is extremely painful. The female yowls in pain when the male is finished. Also, cat genitalia is much smaller. To theoretically engage in a sex act with an animal would cause them harm. I’d never want to cause a cat harm, and I honestly can’t imagine seeing a cat in such a light. For me, that would be a sacrilege, deeply offensive to the purity of a sacred being. In fact, I’d harm anyone I catch who abuses a cat in ANY form - sexually or otherwise. You don’t deserve dignity for harming an animal in any form, or using them for ur selfish depravity in any form.

Anyone who so much as dares to accuse another of such acts should be suspect themselves. This is not something normal human beings generally go around thinking about, whether for ourselves or others. It’s extremely disturbing. Also, it shows that person has their own deeply disturbing mental health concerns -

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissistic_perversion#:~:text=Narcissistic%20perversion%20is%20a%20psychoanalytical,See%20also

Here are some characteristics of narcissistic perversion: 

* Defense mechanism
Narcissistic perverts use a defense mechanism to expel internal pain and contraindications elsewhere while overrating themselves. 



* Idealization of oral sadistic urges
Narcissistic perversion idealizes oral sadistic urges but not erogenous pleasures. 




* Hates moral qualities
Narcissistic perverts hate noble sentiments, generosity, or any moral qualities. 



* Interested in hurting others
Narcissistic perverts are interested in hurting the other person's morality, perverting them, and breaking the law.


in the case of my accuser, there is a clear narcissistic presence. They hype themselves as being morally pure to a grandiose degree. They have a malicious intent, going off whatever they think they can find as evidence, no matter how desperate they are. They are also incredibly angry, and is yet another characteristic of their own weakness -

https://www.charliehealth.com/post/borderline-personality-disorder-vs-narcissistic-personality-disorder#:~:text=For%20those%20with%20BPD%2C%20these,angry%2C%20anxious%2C%20or%20impulsive.

https://www.charliehealth.com/post/the-long-term-effects-of-narcissistic-abuse#:~:text=Narcissistic%20abuse%2C%20a%20type%20of,this%20kind%20of%20emotional%20abuse.

Narcissistic anger towards a victim is a powerful, often explosive reaction stemming from a narcissist's deeply rooted insecurity and fragile self-esteem, triggered when they perceive criticism, rejection, or any perceived threat to their inflated sense of self, leading to aggressive behavior aimed at devaluing and controlling the victim to maintain their own image.

* Triggered by perceived slights:
Even minor criticisms or disagreements can trigger a disproportionate rage in a narcissist, as they interpret them as personal attacks on their character. 




* Lack of empathy:
Narcissists struggle to understand or care about the victim's feelings, leading to callous and cruel behavior during outbursts. 




* Manipulation and gaslighting:
To maintain control, narcissists may use manipulative tactics like gaslighting to distort the victim's reality and make them question their own perceptions of the situation. 




* Devaluing phase:
Once a narcissist is angered, they may switch to a "devaluing" phase, where they actively belittle, criticize, and undermine the victim to punish them for perceived transgressions. 




* Projection:
Narcissists often project their own insecurities and flaws onto the victim, blaming them for the issues within the relationship.

 • Verbal abuse: Yelling, insults, name-calling, and threats

* Passive-aggressive behavior: Withdrawing affection, ignoring the victim, or making subtle digs

* Public humiliation: Embarrassing the victim in front of others to assert dominance

* Physical aggression: In extreme cases, physical violence may occur, although not always present

* 


With that in mind, I’ve been accused of this by people who are into furries, my little pony, and hybrids between engines and animals. These things on their own are not necessarily bad. There are people who can be into any or even a combination of these things, and they are perfectly fine. Some of the folks accusing me have their own questionable reputations, and don’t like that a nerve is being struck, exposing their own behaviour.

https://michaelgquirke.com/the-target-of-narcissistic-rage-steps-to-take-now/

If you regularly interact with a narcissist, you already know what narcissistic rage is. A highly sensitive individual like that requires a steady supply of positive feedback. If they perceive a slight, it will trigger an angry outburst. With such thin skin, it does not take much to set their defense mechanisms in motion.

What does that look like? Well, it could range from gaslighting to verbal abuse. You could find yourself standing there alone because they stormed off. Just as easily, you could find yourself in physical danger. Needless to say, it’s important to know more and to cultivate methods to deal with this situation.

What Triggers a Narcissist?

Of course, this can vary widely. That said, there are some very common triggers, e.g.

* Getting caught doing something dishonest or mean

* Being held accountable for their actions

* Not being the center of attention

* Any form of criticism — no matter how constructive or accurate

* Being exposed as a manipulator or liar

* A sense of not being in control

* Not getting special treatment or getting their way

Any or all of these triggers cause the narcissist to experience an “injury.” Almost without fail, the next step will be an extreme expression of rage. How you deal with this rage is crucial to your mental and physical wellbeing.

As mentioned previously, they feed off trying to weaken their victim. When their victim doesn’t give into the attempts to control them, this frustrates and infuriates the narcissist. They HATE a strong person who won’t take their shite.

Oh also, they’d love to think that I’m A) a Zionist toad. B) that I’m sobbing over their remarks.

So we r clear, so you get it from the source:

I have nothing against Jewish people, as I’m not prejudiced against them or their religion, unlike some. Their state is NOT me business. I’m NOT for OR against it. I do not approve of the genocide going on, and I feel bad for victims of both sides, as I don’t hate genuine Palestinians either.

I DO hate scammers and sex bots. I hate anyone who takes advantage of others. THEY are who i said should pay me. I have never asked other actual tumblr users for money, and I won’t. I may occasionally pass on fundraisers for ACTUAL people who deserve it.

I do NOT do or have depraved thoughts/actions to/about animals. That is beyond sickening to even consider.

I’m laughing me arse off over how they are getting furious over things that aren’t even true. They r putting in a narcissistic cirque du soleil here. The best part is that they are actually speaking of themselves when they pull this bollocks. Their mum taught them morals? Must b communal shower day at the trailer park

So, with that in mind, keep up the show. The only tears I’m shedding r those from laughing so hard at this.

Oh, and next time you spout this drivel, this will be useful -

[babybeel]

if you support ai work (in any form, be it art or writing) pls unfollow me!

[bronx-aro]

One thing i think is really interesting with both the Undertale and Deltarune fandom is that even though the characters are quite developped, everyone i see seems to have the felt the same way when they experienced the story. (Alphys and Berdly seems to be the exeption to that for each game, but i will get into that later).

And while it's really cool to see everyone share their feelings and how much they love these stories, i never actually see discuss the way it made them feels outside of in the moment let's play, and maybe a joke about photoshop flowey, the genocide run/snowgrave and killing toriel.

So, and bear with me here, because i'm going to rant a bit about how my experience with both IT and deltarune chapter 2 seem to differ from most people's.

I DID NOT LIKE PAPYRUS AND QUEEN WHEN FIRST PLAYING.

Queen especially, Papyrus i like better now but he's still probably at the bottom of the list of my favorite "main" characters for UT now.

Okay, before you bring out the pitchforks for the Papyrus slander, i want to explain a few things.

When i first played UT, the only thing i knew about it was the "wanna have a bad time" meme, Sans apparence and the fact their was multiple routes deoending on your actions.

So i played a bit, killed toriel, felt really bad and reset because there was no way this was part of whatever "good" route i knew existed. Flowey gave me an existantial crisis so bad it made me reconsider my entire life choices and made me aware to my core that everything here actually mattered, that what i did mattered, if not to them, then to me.

Needless to say that was ingrained in me whenever i played UT and afterward DR.

So here i was, freaked out, and then immediatly introduced to the squelbros. I knew there was more to Sans that met the eye but his demeanor was so chill i knew he was a companion i would enjoy to have along.

Do any of you remember meeting Papyrus for the first time? Because it was with him having been described as a human hunting fanatic.

Not a good start to my already nervous ass. To say i was apprehensive was an understatment. Because even if he seemed aloof, you dont need to be smart and collected to hurt someone. Even if it became obvious quite quickly he wabted to capture me and not kill me, it took me until i fought with him to realise that he actually wouldnt hurt me even by accident.

I DID enjoy all the puzzles and interractions before snowdin, but i probably wouldnt have been as relaxed playing it if Sans wasnt out there keeping an eyesocket out for me.

So! First impression of Papyrus? A bit nerve wacking, but it was still funny so it can only go up from there? Right?

Right?

...

Okay, let's go about the date.

I didnt want to be there. At all. I purposfully didnt flirt with him the whole fight because the entire idea made me uncomfortable to my core. I was SO relieved at the end it. The actual date was alright, i guess, but it made me feel bad more than it made me have a fun time.

Okay, a rough patch. What's next?

Him introducing us to Undyne!

And that was when i realised why didnt like him all that much. Yeah, he's good hearted and all, but... He just pulls me everywhere assuming that this fine. He kept projecting his own wants onto me, and everyone around him, and never took the rejection well. Sans being a sentry? Hil and Undyne's whole thing? Clear exemple of that.

And yeah, they might have went along with it because they cared, but the game didnt give me that choice, either. And even outside of that, he clearly had trouble considering other peoples points of view and accepting them.

All of that, combined with the mask of the great papyrus he puts on making it hard to know what is true, exageration, or something he might have deluded himself into thinking was true, made it pretty hard to connect with him.

...

So! That's it with Papyrus! It's a perspective i have wanted to share for a while but seeing how the fandom could fall into the whole "if anyone says anything bad about this character ever i would murder them" thing i wasnt really comfortable doing it unless in longpost format.

...

So now, let's talk about Queen!

Unlike with Papyrus, i was actually really freaking surprised to see that seemingly nobody felt the same way about her than i did. Like, i was downright gobsmacked. So, unlike with UT, i will begin this by the end of the stories: me interracting, ith the fandom after i played.

I started with the classic route of watching let's plays. After switching between a few different people's first episode, i thought the reason why thay didnt seem to take her seriously in any kind of way was because they were, well, youtubers. It is their job to both play games and entertain. Of course they would focus on the jokes if the hundred game they played this year, it made sense.

So i switched to analysis/commentary videos and hanging around on tumblr. And realised that, no, actually i was the outlier here. It felt like getting punched in the gut.

So! Here i was, watching the while fandom proclaim how much they loved queen, how funny she was, ect. As if her entire personnality was just to make bad computer jokes and race tracks.

Because that was NOT what i saw.

I saw an unstable person (who kept drinking so i also assumed drunk/alcoholic) that had kidnapped and was stalking a kid. I saw someone out of touch with reality that could go from being happy and playing a game to trying to kill you. I saw an obsessive, looming figure that was always around the corner.

I saw someone who saw proceeded to, depending on the character, try and entice them by promising them all they wanted, ignore them completly even when they wanted nothing more than a shred of attention, and just generally took advantage of what she perceived to be other peoples emotionnal weakness to try and have them do what she wanted to. Wether that was creating a dark fountain, being her minion or stopping their attempts at stopping her.

She was one of the most menacing villain i ever met. Manipulative, Obsessive, Unpredictable and otherwise seemingly Unstable. Each of her apparenced filled me with dread.

The only time i saw someone acknowledging any of this was a video essay about how she could represent a different kind of mother to each of the charaters (absent, overbearing, negligent, love bombing...). It made me feel SO much better about my experience with it.

...

So yeah, i really wanted to share my perspective on these characters since most of the UT/DR dont seem to have shared that particular kind of analysis before.

Also, since i mentionned in the intro: I feel like Alphys and Berdly suffered from the fact that geekt people are seem as annoying. Like, i saw SO many people get angry/annoyed at seeing Berdly when they only saw less than 10 pieces of dialogue before. He's such a fun character but get immediatly cast asside because he can be a bit prickly. He's ridiculous and over the top, but so are so many characters. He's just a kid who is bad at social interractions and thinks being better than everyone means he will get more love/attention. I wish more people would actually give him a chance instead of writing him off right away.

As for Alphys, a lot of the people who feel negatively about her do so after playing the pacifist ending and being angry at her actions. But i feel like even before people got to that point, the whole "texting everywhere" in hot land made some people annoyed enough that they disliked her for it. I wasnt in that case and actually quite liked the whole thing but i get where people are coming from. It's honesly the only section i can think off where i saw the fandom being really split in how they felt about the her when first encountering her.

If anyone wants to share their own experiences and how it affected them while playing, PLEASE do so! Especially if you feel like it's not a commun one!

[maliciouslycreative]

For the first time in like 6 months I have my AO3 inbox empty of new messages. I replied to all the comments on my work, dealt with all my wrangling stuff I needed to deal with and marked the rest as read.

[psijay]

i'm back to work for the school year and i bring bad news. the children of Disney Adults are reporting to school and they are named appropriately.

[waywardsalt]

i have planned to write a pseudo-essay or some kind of detailed look at linebeck in phantom hourglass and how he can be interpreted as autistic but thats not going very well right now so here are some autistic linebeck headcanons

He has low empathy and as such has a hard time responding very well to emotional situations, but he can take advantage of his lower empathy in situations where empathy could make things harder, like tending to wounds or rationally handling emotionally-charged situations

His coat is a comfort object and he made it specifically to act as a very slight accommodation; it’s heavy and barely lets any light through it, and he can keep all kinds of little things in pockets sewn into the inner lining, but larger objects do make it more uncomfortable to wear at times. It’s mostly good to carry around things to fidget or stim with and can be helpful in trying to recover from overwhelming sensory experiences

He doesn’t usually stim in public, but taps his fingers on tables quickly and tends to rhythmically snap his fingers when excited, and on his ship is more vocal and more willing to stim, even if around others. One of his main stims that he’ll do for no particular reason is that he’ll hold his arm or back of his wrist/hand up to his nose and mouth for the smell.

He masks frequently to please people. His default mask is that arrogant and brave front he puts up for islanders and other he may come across. Usually, if that mask doesn’t work, he tends to double-down because it usually works and, in his experience, dropping the mask has usually gone badly (non masking he’s rude and blunt but more outwardly excited about adventure and his ship and all of that, i consider it where overseas in the game is when he usually isn’t masking. this shifts his arc to be about him learning to stop masking and feel comfortable being himself)

His special interests could include stuff related to treasure hunting but it could really range from stuff about adventuring or the ocean or engineering (relating to his ship) to stuff not at all touched in the game like music. He really enjoys music, listening to it, playing it, and writing it. He also enjoys and is fascinated by shellfish.

When busy or otherwise occupied, he doesn't usually notice when he's hungry. He doesn't have as much of a problem noticing thirst or exhaustion, but feeling hunger is a problem for him, and often leads to him going a long time without eating. On the other hand, he doesn't mind eating the same thing repeatedly and is perfectly fine with blander foods, so handling food supplies for when he'll be overseas for a long time is easy for him.

He knows he's autistic, he's known for a pretty long time, and he has books on it; he also knows that Link is autistic, but doesn't say anything about it and instead waits until someone else tells him. Until (and after, I suppose) Link actually learns that he's autistic Linebeck just makes sure to keep note of what accommodations he might need and if there are any textures or tastes or smells he can't stand. He doesn't have much of a problem helping out during sensory overloads, even soon after meeting him. It's more out of understanding how it feels to not have your needs met and a sort of solidarity rather than actual friendship.

[myershorror]

Me: *Slams fist down on keyboard because it crapped out & was beginning to delete everything that I had worked on*

Also me: *Keyboard now broken, having to go buy another soon; going onto my third keyboard from breaking two others* 😂🙊

[anachrosims]

TBH I’m really weary of this “purity culture” stuff. People have sex, get over it. Learn to curate your online experience instead of shrieking at people about daring to discuss mutually consenting adults gettin freaky or producing fan content that’s NSFW. As long as that shit is tagged as appropriate, the burden is on YOU not to go looking for it.

I completely understand the ones who are concerned about fan content that glorifies toxic/ab*sive/exceptionally triggering behavior though. I do understand that. HOWEVER, it helps absolutely NO ONE to police what fans produce--the real goal we should be having is creating fandom spaces that help provide SAFE and PROFESSIONAL resources for fans who might need help dealing with certain issues, or to help acquaint people with safe sex practices and other safe, good online resources they might not get anywhere else in their life.

EDIT: The best you can do with the above is to quietly reach out to someone about whatever it is they’ve posted or written or drawn and just fucking talk to them about it. They might flip out at you and go nuts, but that’s what block functions are for. Just say, “hey, I saw (post) and I feel it may be harmful to post that because (reasons)” and if they don’t respond well? LET IT GO. Just say “thank you, I just wanted to reach out, but I’m sorry to have bothered you.” Some people are going to be wild shitheels because they have baggage and we can’t expect to control that.

I hate toxic shippers just as much as the next person, but as someone in her mid-30s--and I hope the older folks agree with me--it serves nothing and nobody to thump folks over the head with holier-than-thou callouts. Newsflash: That shit makes you just as toxic and it only alienates people further. What you need to be doing is providing better messages that help fans, old and young alike, to come to understand what healthy communication and behavior look like--to help support fans in times of need--and to foster COMMUNITY in GOOD FAITH.

And for those who are worried about the genuine creeps hiding with us? I guarantee you, the healthier a community is, the more supportive and communicative and compassionate we are with each other? The less spaces those creeps have to hide.

Learn to curate your online experience. Treat each other with respect and dignity in good faith to the best of your ability. Help others in need. Get in the habit of reaching out to people and engaging with them when you’re able. And learn to stay in your lane, because while your experience matters, it’s not the only one that does.

[doukeshi-kun]

hi yall. i actually just travelled back to my uni and it's been a very long and exhausting day. i'll reply to asks later okay ヘ⁠(⁠￣⁠ω⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠)

anyway take care and thank you for enjoying the fic! sorry i really can't communicate rn im so tired (⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠)

[nando161mando]

This asshole, doesn't know or differentiate their shit from their brains and its obvious. Keyboard commandos... @sockpuppet1

[liskokasa]

Some absolute batshit drama in a thing I'm involved in came up and I'm glad it was discovered but holy shit this will be a mess to untangle...