#kelly rambles

[deadpt2]

How do I manifest myself into becoming talena atfield

[effelgence]

does anyone know how to write a professional resignation letter?

[dragonflybeach]

TW: death, LGBTQ+ issues

A friend of mine passed unexpectedly a few days ago. It's absolutely pissing me off to see their family and "friends" misgendering them. They preferred non binary pronouns but never felt comfortable telling their religious family, and especially not with all the political BS going on in FL.

[charlieism]

[chrliekclly]

When Charlie is covered in dirt and grime and trying to fix the wiring on the tv. Yeah.

we love filth and sweat and blood here

also s8 charlie goes crazy n general tbh

[pick1e-party]

something about how Charlie would rather feel something familiar than something different even if the familiar is terrible it’s almost comfortable, going to bed every night with a bad feeling in his stomach as a kid and laying really still but when he doesn’t have a reason to be scared anymore he eats cat food and drinks beer and huffs glue so he’ll feel sick because feeling rotten is what feels familiar and going to bed without a stomach ache feels too different and even if the alternative is feeling sick and nauseous at least it’s the feeling he’s used to

[vampyreblogger]

:3

[lonelychicago]

no but imagine being eddie diaz and you get shot on the street and as you're bleeding out, you have your OH realization about how he's in love with your best friend. and its too late and he's dying and buck is asking him to hang on and its all so fast and chaotic and intense.

AND THEN when he finally finally can come home, there's a welcome back party with his family and the girl he doesn't really like anymore and..... taylor fucking kelly.

eddie diaz is stronger than me bc i would've walked out and start screaming for the sniper to shoot me again and to not miss this time lmao.

[lostlavenderer]

Current TMAGP theory that I'm lowkey obsessed with: Alice used to be in Lena's managerial position

NOW HEAR ME OUT.

Starting off, we're immediately informed that Teddy and Alice have been working together at the OIAR for four years, and it's implied later that Alice has been there for longer.

In the same scene, we learn that Alice recommended Sam for the job, which Lena sounds rather delighted about. Judging by her tone, I'd say she values Alice as a worker surprisingly more than she does Gwen. Why is that, when Gwen actually really values her job and tries to do it with meticulous accuracy?

Next, while she tries to downplay it, you constantly get small hints that Alice knows really bloody well how the OIAR works including the response department they used to have. With everything she says, to me she really carries an attitude that screams 'goofing around but I know more about this place than any of you ever will'. That's the feeling I get too when she's on about the categorization when explaining it to Sam in the first episode, too:

It's all very 'I know exactly what happens with these categorized files and I know what does and doesn't matter'.

So. What I think, is that she used to be the manager before Lena, and that she was the one to hire both Colin and Teddy. I think back then, there was still a response department, whatever the fuck that means, and that the three of them were involved in it and went through some shit.

(Sidenote- I'm also convinced that the old response department is responsible for locking up whatever that creature in the Magnus Institute in ep10 is)

Anyway, they went through some shit together and Alice personally made sure the response department was shut down. Freaked the fuck out or maybe even overwhelmed with (Entity-related?) power, she steps down, instead hiring Lena, ambitious and clever Lena, as her replacement. After all, Lena claims she started at the bottom too:

Yet Alice still decides to stay at the OIAR, because knowing what she knows, she wants to stay closeby in case anything like [REDACTED PAST TRAUMATIC EVENT] ever happens again, especially because Colin and Teddy are still working there as well.

(MAYBE, but this is digging really damn deep, maybe somehow Colin and Teddy forgot said Traumatic Event for some perhaps Beholding-related reason, and Alice stays to protect them from it happening again. It's why she's almost glad that Teddy finally gets another job)

Now she's just another worker who claims she doesn't give a damn. Because she's been there; she knows what happens when you care, when you let incident files get to you. She won't go there again, and she won't let Sam either.

Anyway. Ex snarky office manager Alice is canon TO ME.

[egonkula]

these r the same photo 2 me

[deadpt2]

⚠️ this user hates that they need you

[effelgence]

The one thing is dislike about learning psychology is always second guessing my own thoughts.

I was texting my sister today. She was concerned for me because of what happened recently. She said “I’m worried about you—I wish you came to me first not x”. I sat there ready to type an “aw thanks” only to stop midtext and go “omg why do I feel uncomfortable by this?”

I didn’t text her back for hours. I kept thinking about why I felt off about her concern. She’s just reaching out because this is her unconditional love, right? Except her following texts after that were “You can’t find a job there now. It’s been tainted! You’ve been fighting an uphill Sisyphus battle to find a job…that’s horrible!”

I just fell into a spiral about what is considered unconditional love and what’s considered controlling and abusive love.

I realized I felt off about her text because it was more like an apologetic “that sucks, move back”.

It’s as if they think I’m not ready to be an adult. That’s clear to me. I also thought, kinda funny that x shared it with her and she had the audacity to go “Why didn’t you tell me” when I just found out that I had a bad reference within the last few days.

Anyway, I overanalyze and it protects me. I also overshare. Which doesn’t…

[vanmarkus]

oh I love her

[maygrantgf]

aka 911 characters as memes I keep seeing on tiktok 🙈

more 911 as memes!

[charlieism]

[chrliekclly]

Mac teaching Charlie to spell his name as cat <3333 Also Mac teaching Joyce how to spell her name

did this rly lazily but this ask made me go WAUGH