#keep your back from feeling pain

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Burning Rotten Bridges

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[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all! I think I've asked this before, but do you have any home remedies/advice for handling muscle cramps, knots, and/or spasms? I'm staying well hydrated, taking electrolyte supplements, and using a hot water bottle as my current management method but it's not working super great this time Also, crafting updates may be delayed on account of ouch

[ef-1]

girlhood

[pkmoth]

having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself

[bondagebimbo]

LOVE when the pharmacy decides to fucking dick around with my meds so badly that now I’m off my mood stabilizer, my pain meds, and my fucking birth control (in a few days) because they’re insisting I should have extra fucking bottles of each one and I DONT because they don’t let me pick up more than a one month supply of narcotics at a fucking time so do explain where these extra bottles are, hmm ????? and they didn’t have enough caplyta ordered last time to even give me my usual 3 months supply of that so … ???? get your fucking heads out of your asses and give me the fucking meds you owe me ??? like ??? but I’m in a nasty headspace right now so if I call the pharmacy this morning, I’m going to be that cunt ass customer they bitch about all day because this isn’t the first time they’ve done this. in fact, the first time, they straight up committed insurance fraud by marking one of my scripts as filled and picked up WHEN, IN REALITY, THEY FUCKING LOST THE SCRIPT AND HAD NO RECORD OF IT BEING FILLED OR PICKED UP IN THEIR SYSTEM, BUT YET, MARKED IT AS SUCH AND CHARGED MY INSURANCE AN ALMOST 8 GRAND FOR THE FUCKING 3 MONTHS OF MY MOOD STABILIZER THAT I. NEVER. RECEIVED. I’m genuinely about to report this entire pharmacy to the pharmacy board because I’m so fucking done with this place. it needs to be shut the fuck down because you’re telling me, out of an entire pharmacy, y’all share the same IQ point AND dead brain cell, collectively ??? then don’t fucking work in healthcare where people rely on you to know your shit and keep track of their fucking meds because you’re just constantly making shit worse on people since you can’t seem to not fuck around with these meds and not ‘lose’ scripts. fuck out of here.

and I’m pretty much out of weed, which is usually my back up pain management method, without the money to afford a delivery order by their cut off time to order in 3 hours because I just paid my fucking bills and have SOME to go towards it, but not enough for delivery to be free, and I’d still have to walk my ass to one of the ATM’s nearby because they don’t accept my bank as a prepaid method OR any of the cards I have on my person. 🫠

I can literally feel my back spasming and seizing on and off while I’m laying on my fucking side, I’ve had a migraine with a stupid ass aura for almost a week now because chronic migraines fucking suck and i was REALLY hoping this one would be over by now, my muscle inflammations that my pain meds are supposed to limit are already beginning to start their itching deep in my muscles so soon they’ll blossom into a whole fibromyalgia fucking episode and become entirely inflamed, my joints in my hands fucking hurt because of the dreary weather so I really need to get into a rheumatologist at some point soon as well and get that shit figured out, I’m nauseas as fuck from all the pain, and I’m moody, hormonal, and just feel like fucking death physically.

I’m just. I give up.

this shit is exhausting and painful and so mentally fucking taxing to constantly deal with and I just want a fucking break from all this fucking shit. I wish I could just �� not exist … for even just a little while with how fucking painful existing actually feels right now 🫠😭

[blatterpussbunnyfromhell]

this is a rough week, actually. if it were March I'd put it on account of my concussion, but that was 6 months ago. not very likely that this accident is still messing up my brain, right??? I hope not

[lunarharp]

wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

[astridthevalkyrie]

everything you see ab being the oldest daughter is true btw why am i the family therapist AND punching bag smh

long ass depressing rant in the tags srry i got a wee bit emotional

[wild-at-mind]

I feel like tags like these were inevitable on the post about people traumatising themselves for the greater good or w/e... There is SO much emphasis on posting on tumblr and other social media being so important and so useful and we must never stop. But I would like to counterargue with the idea that posting on social media (especially tumblr) constantly does very little/nothing. If that was true then the point here becomes meaningless.

[runefactorynonsense]

Cozytober - Day 26 - Catnap

[kingtankgirl]

this is officially worse than when i had e.coli i can definitely say that now

[the-kipsabian]

at the same time i just really want kip back right now (tho i think realistically we arent seeing him until after fordoor if tk is feeling merciful for fucking once)

but on the other hand i dont want to listen to the fucking conversation again how people hate him purely on the basis of being "another mid white boy" :|

[snekdood]

ppl who larp about the Revolution™ almost seem to expect someone *else* to take the leading role in it all so they can sit inside on their asses and do jack shit, they know they have no meaningful skills to offer and would only slow people down, but expect to *somehow* magically radicalize most americans into doing all the work for them because awww dey're just such a weak wittle babu that needs to be pwotected and defwended awlways uwu

like. come on. get a grip. if everything went your way and someone actually stronger than you came along to take the lead, you're likely not being invited, and you'll likely be left behind... which means left to the alt right, who will no doubt come to your house to see if you're perpetuating anything "woke", and you gotta know they wont just ask, they'll barge in and look through everything even your computer.

though, you should really focus on your plan. your first step: get along with people enough to even actually convince them its a good idea, and we all know you'll never dare to try that shit. you cant even be on here w/o blocking someone like me for even suggesting you are approaching this like a child playing war and you have NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT YOU'RE DOING.

you think you want a second holocaust (which is essentially letting trump win, i mean hitler got the majority vote in germany. thats how he rose to power. didn't just materialize out of thin air), but you dont seem to grasp the gravity of what that entails, or even that you'd be thrown in the camps with everyone else, all to stick it to jewish ppl and "the libs", even if it means you and all the ones you love die along with them. you are a net negative to humanity and quite frankly should be on a fucking watch list.

[majorasnightmare]

sits here thinking about all the fic ideas i have for my durge and isobel and punches a hole in the drywall because i have unmedicated Cant Focus Disorder

[withered-rose-unbreakable-lotus]

Ruki is one of the people I don't have the balls to say how I feel to in comments but I love how he understands those who don't speak either. Because he too doesn't show a lot. He says a lot about how he feels, but doesn't show it and his insta post confirms it's because he doesn't want the showing part cause he too wouldn't like to see that. The pain in sb's face I guess? I wish he didn't hold so much inside though (i mean i wish he spoke more to his friends, not us). But he does burst in many things, writing, drawing, performing, so there are healthy outbursts for him, thankfully.

He's grown a lot...when I became his fan, it was easy to get attached. He was openly not following the mold, not caring what people said, there was a lot of relatability to him. But within a few years his views on relationships and women floored me. I didn't know why I was so sad to hear him speak that way. He wasn't the first dude I'd heard say such things, both in general and within the scene, but I remember needing a year to sort my feelings cause I felt betrayed. Like how can you say these things when you say you love your fans and most of your fans are women, you know? But a couple of years back, he was asked again a similar question to those that broke me and his answer was, while similar, more mature. More understanding I guess. So it made me glad to see the growth. However, reading he was told he isn't very human doesn't sit well with me. Lacking compassion or understanding for other people's emotions can sometimes be a result of other things. Not all children grow in homes that teach such feelings. He was hiding most of his childhood. He probably didn't know what expressing yourself openly meant cause every time he did he was being punished. Therefore, when he left his home, working in a band, which again has you so fucking judged all the time, probably pushed him to be like "this is who i am, love it or hate it" and become this no filter person that straight up tells people he's lied, cheated, hurt people, a person who admits the times he's been selfish etc.

But you all saw what was the first thing he did when Reita died. He wrote a long ass post, full of love and understanding for people's emotions. Ruki has always been human, regardless what anyone said, one that has hard time fitting in, and now he's out of the shell, and showing his emotions a little bit more, with a little less fear and a little more compassion for others as well.

I'm so fucking proud of you, man. But I still wish you didn't have to suffer for any of this. There are many ways for a person to learn. Yet your path has been excruciating. May happier days come for you and may your healing be smooth and steady. You too deserve happiness.

[semiotomatics]

bloodwork came back normal (derogatory) and its gonna be at least 2 weeks till i can talk to my dr abt next steps, tried to find another clinic to go to but got scared off by bad reviews/my own prior bad experiences for the close ones, the distance/inaccessibility for the far ones, and cant get a virtual appointment anywhere until august, so like. that sucks