#keep things E for everyone? something else :0) whom knows............(I know)

[sanchoyoscribbles]

daily may day 8: doll

yall ever watch doll customization videos? theyre very relaxing 😌

[yhtaejoon]

hi! this is chey, i was here close to opening with kim1 (kim joonwoo), but i got really busy with a new job and accidentally dipped. i’m so so sorry for that! anyway, here’s taejoon’s unfinished info page & his pinterest board. this is rushed so it’s probably gonna be messy??? idk. we’re all in this together. hmu on discord if that’s your thing --- pepper#4940

full name is kang taejoon, but he has no affiliation with the kang family. he’s actually filling the role of daebak8! i checked the last names to make sure he didn’t have the same one as one of the families but alas, my pea-brain still failed me.

on that note, he’s a tiktoker born in 2000. started on vine in 2012, but didn’t actually get serious about his online presence until 2014-ish and IMMEDIATELY started lying about his life because what else is a fourteen year old gonna do online?

lied about his age, his hobbies, his family, his experiences, etc. he just really, really wanted to seem interesting, and hey! it worked! he eventually fooled thousands of people into thinking he’s someone worth their time. chased trends like crazy, kept in close touch with his “fanbase”, picked up sponsorships all while keeping his ACTUAL life completely secret basically. got very comfortable with lying.

he was always pretty obsessed with the attention because he lost his popularity when he stopped playing soccer (f’s in the chat for the former athlete side of him) & getting money from promoting brands was good, too, bc while his family isn’t necessarily lower class, they could still use some help. plus he needed cash to buy anime merch.

flash forward to 2020. he graduated high school in early 2019, still has no desire to go to college or get a “real” job. he has it made rn living in the daebak house and creating online content still. living the life.

except not really because how fulfilling can it honestly be to watch thousands of people becoming fond of ur fake persona? he still lies a ton, has begun to feel like no one will ever like him for who he actually is bc it’s quite disappointing in comparison to the always ON persona he shows. 

his tiktok user name is “beetlejoon” which is a play on beetlejuice if you couldn’t tell dshbfvds.

he speaks english really well from a mix of classes when he was young, growing up online and trying to appeal to westerners, and watching a ton of western shows/films. he does kind of have an accent but for the most part.... a lot of ppl who only know him online assume he lives in america/is from america.

the rumor about him buying views/followers is definitely true. he’s not losing popularity or anything, he just wants to look even more relevant than he actually is.

cries himself to sleep like every night but you’d NEVER guess. he’s super funny when he’s around people, knows what people want and will do anything he can to blend in and make everyone like him. needs that validation so bad. life of the party.

flirts a lot for no other reason than he can and he likes the validation of people flirting back! but his love life is hectic and always disappointing. on one hand, he knows a ton of his followers are delusional w the idea that they can be with him and he doesn’t wanna lose followers by being Unavailable. on the other hand, can’t risk being too close with anyone and them finding out nothing he says is true. heehee.

he follows whatever trends are in at the moment, so he owns a ton of dumb shit that will never be practical/clothes he’ll never wear in public/probably has dumb tattoos he got impulsively.

his trademark thing (that he stole Obviously) is a broken heart that he draws on his cheekbone Every Single Day. probably claims that it’s a tattoo just to fuck with his followers but there’s those odd times when it’s not there and everyone’s confused.

wears all black usually, lots of chains, leather, platform boots, dangly earrings, but he’s not the kind of guy your parents worn you about. he couldn’t be scary if he tried. he’s CLEARLY just a tiktok e-boy. he’s more like the lowlife your parents compare you to to make you feel better about how slow your life is moving.

while we’re talking about parents.... his gave up on him when he moved into the daebak house. he tries to give them money and support them but they won’t have it. decline his calls. don’t write him back. they think he’s mad embarrassing which is... fair. his tiktok presence is definitely questionable

likes to be funny and make people laugh, but he actually cannot take anything seriously even if he tries. this definitely gets on peoples’ nerves, has probably ended some good friendships/relationships/whatever else. sometimes he can lighten the mood if it’s dark but most of the time it just pisses people off bc it seems like he doesn’t care/doesn’t understand.

idk what else to say but if you’ve read this far and you like music, two songs that i heavily associate with taejoon are cotton candy by yungblud and lowkey as hell by waterparks. listen to them if you want... or don’t.

i don’t have a plots page put together yet, but here are some vague ideas i have:

(0/2) --- past tinder dates whom he lied to about his age and it came out somehow </3 maybe he tried to take them to a bar and he got caught with a fake id. maybe they went snooping and found out none of his info adds up. either way, the dates were short-lived and they probably clowned him pretty hard.

(0/?) --- fans of his tiktok page.

(0/?) --- alternatively, people who know of his tiktok page and think it’s dumb.

(0/1) --- another influencer who is jealous of his following, thinks he doesn’t deserve it.

(0/1) --- another influencer who “beefs” with him online so they both get more views.

(0/1) --- another influencer he collabs with a lot, even if their content is completely different. they’re friends, so might as well piggyback of each other’s popularity!

(0/1) --- close friend who makes frequent appearances on his tiktok, usually for relationship trends bc he doesn’t have an actual partner to film them with. usually acting like clowns, clearly faking but his fans still think it might be real. 

(0/1) --- someone he hooked up with at one (or more) of the daebaek house parties and ghosted afterwards. completely acts like he doesn’t know them. oops.

(0/?) --- friends to do dumb shit with. he’s impulsive and just hates to be alone (especially when doing stuff that might get him in trouble) so you could say these are his accomplices. if he wants to do things he’ll regret, they’re always in!

(0/?) --- some mellow friends who balance out his chaos.

(0/1) --- the one (1) friend he got matching tattoos with on impulse. probably something really stupid. the one thread that holds their friendship together when they fight.

(0/1) --- someone who holds themselves to really high standards, takes life seriously. thinks they’re better than taejoon and doesn’t hesitate to show it.

(0/1) --- ex partner who broke up with taejoon because (1) he wouldn’t stop lying to them, (2) he still claimed to be single online and (3) he just cracked jokes when they tried to talk out their problems, wouldn’t really listen. probably hate him now but he’s really sorry. please accept these (cheap, probably wilting) apology flowers.

i want every plot. all of them. anything u can throw at me! but if i kept typing ideas out, i’d be at this forever and we really can’t have that. so just hit me up if any of these catch your attention or if you’ve got anything you think he’d fit! 

[cxlvins]

...000. INTRODUCTION.

helloooo lovelies ! my name is evan (he/him), i’m twenty-two and from the gmt timezone ! i’m super excited for this to open because i’ve got so much muse right now. i’m down for any and all plots, seriously, i love plotting ! this is calvin, he’s an angry mess of a character, but he’s fun to play, so ! if you just wanna get to know the character, you can skip past the other sections and just focus on personality, i’ve also put some wanted connections in there too ! if you would like to plot, then either shoot me a message here or on discord (heterosexual? how vintage!#8600) or alternatively, like this post and i will message you !

caution: alcohol, drugs, mental health, death.

›› ✱ xavier serrano, cismale, he/him. you’ve met calvin marx, right? they’re around twenty-three and a twitch streamer. they’re all about thrift store clothing and the faint smell of cologne and cigarettes, hence why they’re known as the spitfire around town. everyone knows them to be pretty gregarious but i’ve heard they’re actually sort of volatile, too… don’t tell them i said that, okay?

...001. BRIEF HISTORY.

calvin grew up very underprivileged for the first 11 years of his life in brooklyn, ny.

his father died when he was 5 years old to a drug overdose, leading his mother became a single mother to him and his younger sister, essentially meaning that calvin had to grow up and be the ‘man of the house’ without having a choice.

because of her new single-mother status, calvins mother had to work 3 different jobs in order for the family to pay rent (a cleaner in mornings, a store assistant in the day and a bartender in the evenings), which meant she was rarely home and left calvin to raise both himself and younger sister.

from a very early age, it was apparent that calvin suffered from anger issues, dyslexia and adhd, constantly getting into fights at every opportunity, his complete inability to focus and never managing to make it through a week at school without a phone call home.

these issues remained untreated, due to his mother putting it down to the ‘boys will be boys’ ideology, and concluding that calvin was just an energetic one at that.

because of this, calvin fell into the wrong crowd pretty quickly and settled into his mindset that he was never going to achieve all that much anyway, because no matter how hard he tried, he could never score well on any test at school.

at the age of 9, calvins mother met, fell in love with and soon married a former client for whom she cleaned for.  calvins new step father was incredibly wealthy, due to being a successful franchisee and also being very largely into stock trading.

calvin, his sister and mother were all moved to his home in cherrybrooks, which calvin struggled to adjust to, as he missed his friends back north.

now having access to as much money as he want led him down an early path into experimenting with drugs and alcohol, which soon became a bad habit.

although he wanted to drop out of school, his new step-father would not allow it, which became a large source of conflict for the family over the course of the next few years.

failing to graduate high school at age eighteen, calvin couldn’t deal with living with his family any more and left the house to move into a small apartment, 30 minutes away, with a roommate (possibly a member of the clique).

calvins only real passions were for gaming and sport, and as he smoked and did way too many drugs to make it in any sporting profession, he turned his attention to twitch streaming. he began this pretty soon and built up a solid fanbase (which he wanted to call the marxists, but in calvins words, apparently some dead man already claimed that title).

...002. PERSONALITY.

calvin is a naturally angry person who can lose his cool and go from 0 to 100 in a matter of seconds, he rarely gives off signs that he is getting angry until he boils over, so people tend to watch what they say around him.

calvin is self-serving, his feelings will always come before those around him. although he is getting better at managing this, if something will result in calvin gaining something at the expense of somebody else, he will most likely go ahead with it.

calvin is not well educated, so he doesn’t tend to enjoy arguing with words, as he can never seem to find the ones to correctly express how he feels. instead, calvin is much more likely to act physically when something has irritated him (whether this be on a person or inanimate object).

calvin is an awful liar, he cannot lie to save his life as his face always tends to show when he doesn’t agree with an idea/opion/thought that somebody says. because of this, he is very outspoken, and will just say what he’s thinking regardless of if it’s going to hurt somebodies feelings. he’d rather upset them with the truth, than get caught out for lying.

calvin is an extrovert and gains energy from being around people - the more people the better, because of this, he has become a major party animal and loves attending any and all parties that is going on, despite if he’s fond of the hosts or not.

calvin is a heavy user of drugs, alcohol & cigarettes. this is primarily down to his naturally addictive personality and constant need to feel like he’s happy, so that he doesn’t get sad again. there will rarely be a day where he will not  be intoxicated in some way and he will have a cigarette at least once an hour – and that’s on a good day.

calvin is very much into sports. although not a natural athlete, nor somebody interested in playing sports competitively, calvin loves watching any and all sports, and he likes to play them when he can. due to his smoking habit, he can’t play sports for too long, but will always give it a good go.

similarly to this, calvin is very much into gaming. calvin loves fast-paced games, because they manage to keep his attention despite him not having a very long attention span. most games that he plays are first person shooters, and he’s usually the guy on the mic screaming when a teammate fucks up during online play. a big appeal to him was that games were the only thing he could focus his mind on as a child.

calvin is very much a boys boy, he genuinely abides by the bible of ‘ bros before hoes ‘ because he’s stupid.

calvin hates movies but loves tv, he finds that watching moves involves sitting still for too long, but tv allows him to take more breaks and keeps his interest for longer. although. he’d probably trade both of them for a chance to leave the house.

...003. TRAITS.

[ G R E G A R I O U S ] (+) — a person fond of company; sociable.

[ I N T U I T I V E ] (+) — using or based on what one feels to be true even without conscious reasoning; instinctive.

[ F O R T H R I G H T ] (+) — direct and outspoken.

[ V O L A T I L E ] (-) — liable to change rapidly and unpredictably, especially for the worse.

[ V E N G E F U L ] (-) — not willing to forgive or excuse people’s faults or wrongdoings.

[ H E D O N I S T I C ] (-) — engaged in the pursuit of pleasure; sensually self-indulgent.

...004. WANTED CONNECTIONS.

CURRENT BEST FRIENDS — Possibly a boy squad? I live for a good boy squad. This person will have similar interests to Calvin, or be able to tolerate his volatile mood.

CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS — Someone with a similar upbringing from Brooklyn, most likely they grew apart when Calvin moved to Wilmington.

RIDE OR DIES — Although he primarily looks out for himself, I’m down to have Calvin have one person who he’s loyal to and will refuse to betray, we can come up with a fun reason for why he cares so much if you’re interested in this one.

HIS ROOMMATE — Somebody that moved with Calvin into his current apartment when he moved out at 18.

A GOOD INFLUENCE ON CALVIN — One of my favorite connections for Calvin to have is somebody who knows all of his flaws and attempts to help fix them. They’ll have to be patient, though, as Calvin doesn’t see himself for having any issues.

SOMEBODY HE IS A BAD INFLUENCE OF — On the opposite, I love when Calvin has somebody that he can introduce to bad things, corrupt easily and get a kick out of watching the commotion.

EXES ON BAD TERMS — Cheating on each other is usually an easy one to go with, but if you want, we can think of something more unique as to how it all fucked up and why they now hate each other.

EXES ON GOOD TERMS — Maybe they still occasionally fuck? There could still be an attraction there, but just no romantic chemistry. Alternatively, they tried it and both just couldn’t see it going anywhere.

EXES WITH LINGERING FEELINGS — There’s a ton of different reasons for why there’s still lingering feelings. The feelings could be one-sided or both ways.

EX FLINGS — Started as friends with benefits, one of them wanted more, the other didn’t, they decided to stop before someone got hurt.

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS — No romantic intention, just a good way to kill time at 2 AM, or maybe it’s easy to know you have someone to go home to if you don’t find someone at a party.

FRIENDS FOR NECESSITY — This friend may not have that much in common with Calvin, they may not really get on in day to day life, but they are always there to get high, attend a party or do something dumb. an easy person to talk to when they’re both bored and wanna get out.

HIS YOUNGER SISTER — If anybody fancies a second character, I’m always down to have Calvins sister in the roleplay. They can either get along or not, we’ll just figure out the details.

EX FRIENDS — Used to be close but now aren’t, plenty of reasons as to why.

ENEMIES — Despise each other, seeing this person literally makes Calvins blood boil. Possibly sexual tension too if that would work, if not, they can just fight a lot.

WILL THEY / WON’T THEY — Lots of leading on and teasing each other, maybe they both think they’re stringing the other along but it turns out neither of them are interested? Maybe they start out not interested and it backfires later, by that time the other could’ve lost interest.

ANY OTHER IDEAS YOU THINK WILL WORK !

...005. ADDITIONAL INFORMATION.

Calvin is bisexual but heteroromantic, so any sexual-based connections can be taken by any gender.

Calvins Pinterest can be located here. Please note that it contains triggers for alcohol, drugs, blood & violence.

[sophieakatz]

Thursday Thoughts: Cute Asks

I’m in a funk today, so this week’s Thursday Thoughts is responses to questions from this ask post.

1: When you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

I’ve been eating cereal dry for a while now, so, much more cereal than milk, because there is no milk.

2: Do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

Nope! I have loved wearing this facemask all winter!

5: Are you self-conscious of your smile?

Nah. I used to be, but I grew out of it. I have a darn cute smile.

8: What artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

Hi, my name is Sophie, and I’m a writer!

9: Do you like singing/humming to yourself?

Incessantly!

10: Do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

I usually fall asleep on my left side, but I often wake up on my stomach.

11: What’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

You know that bit in Phantom of the Opera, during “Down Once More,” where the Phantom says, “Down a path into darkness deep as HEEEEEEEELL!”

If I’m chatting with two of my best friends, and I say something thoughtful/philosophical (again, hi, my name is Sophie, and I’m a writer), they’ll sing that line at me. “Deep as HEEEEEEEELL!”

12: What’s your favorite planet?

Earth. It’s the only one with chocolate.

13: What’s something that made you smile today?

The weather got cold again today and so there were lots of little kids at work in teddy bear onesies.

15: Go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

One million Earths could fit inside the Sun.

Of course we shouldn’t put one million Earths into the Sun, because then all the chocolate would melt.

16: What’s your favorite pasta dish?

Tuna noodle casserole. Tuna, macaroni, a heck of a lot of shredded cheese, and onion soup. Bake at 350 for 20-30 min. Mmmmmm.

19: Do you keep a journal? What do you write/draw/ in it?

I do. Since middle school, I’ve rarely gone without a notebook on me somewhere. I write everything in it - random thoughts, what happened that day, bits of stories or poems or things that will turn into stories or poems, random math problems when I need to multiply something... I also put stickers in it, because I want to keep them.

22: Are you a morning person?

Absolutely not.

23: What’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

A day with zero obligations? What’s that? If I had it, though, I would read a book!

24: Is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

Yes. My mom and dad. I trust them with everything.

30: Think of it: Have you ever been truly scared?

Yes. And someday, when everyone involved is far enough away from it, I might write about it.

32: Tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

I don’t think it was quite to 3am yet, but it was very late at night, and I was at Steak n’ Shake with high school friends (some of whom were a year older and in college already; the high schoolers of us had gone to their campus to see one of them in a play), and I was very tired and had become very silly, and I remember one of my friends telling me, “Sophie, you will never need to get drunk.”

40: Think of a piece of jewelry you own: What’s it’s story? Does it have any meaning to you?

I have a little silver elephant necklace. It was a present from my mom. She bought it off of a friend of hers. That friend got a silver elephant necklace from her boyfriend, and then she went to the gym and lost the necklace, but she didn’t want to tell her boyfriend that she’d lost it, so she bought a new one that looked just like it, and then the people at the gym found the necklace and gave it back to her, so she fessed up to the boyfriend about getting a duplicate necklace, and my mom bought the necklace off of her and gave it to me, because I love elephants. I’ve been wearing it for years, and if I were allowed to wear jewelry at work, I would.

56: What are some things you find endearing in people?

If they get wholeheartedly enthusiastic about something they love. It doesn’t matter if I know anything about the thing. I just love watching and listening to people’s passion.

Also, if they remember things about me. I’m ridiculously bad at remembering things about real people (but story details are locked into my brain forever), so it means a lot to me when someone remembers something I said.

60: Do you like poetry? What are some of your faves?

“I’m nobody! Who are you?” by Emily Dickinson. Also “I have a bird in Spring” by Emily Dickinson. I really like Emily Dickinson.

65: Is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

Everyone... Thanks, COVID-19.

72: Are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

I don’t trust memory. I took too many psychology classes in undergrad to trust memory. It’s all a reconstruction of what we think must have happened. But if I write it down, then I remember!

73: What are some of your worst habits?

I pick at my skin on my fingers, my face, my shoulders, and my chest. And I stay up too late.

79: What’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

For my birthday this year, my family filmed themselves singing parody versions of “Bella Notte,” “Baby Mine,” “Do You Want To Build A Snowman,” and “Part of Your World,” with lyrics about me and my life, with baby pictures of me interspersed throughout the video. They made me cry. It was great.

80: What color are your bedroom walls? Did you choose that color? If so, why?

They’re white, and no, I didn’t. It’s a rental.

87: What are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

Hello have you heard of our lord and savior WALL-E?

89: Are you close to your parents?

I am! I’ve gotten closer to them as I’ve gotten older and come to understand them more. We fought a lot when I was little, ‘cause I was a stubborn brat, but they’ve had my back my whole life.

92: Are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

What is pasta if not a vehicle for cheese? A yummy, yummy vehicle...

100: If you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? Why?

I wouldn’t, unless I knew for sure that I could get back to the present again. I’d like to go five years into the past and give twenty-year-old Sophie a hug.

[one-piece-dumpster-fire]

The angst fairy hath arrived! I would like h/c of Cracker, Katakuri, Basil, Lucci, and Killer's respective s/o's being captured by the Marines under the accusation of a crime they couldn't have committed (World Gov doesn't care, they need a scape goat) and are subsequently executed. Bonus if the World Gov makes it look like the s/o betrayed their bae and bae only finds out after s/o is executed (apologies if this is confusing)

this was difficult to write formultiple reasons, but I hope you somewhat like what I came up with xd

And I don’t even know how to choose a title for this, sooo…

When the WG captures and executes you after spreading some nasty rumors headcanon

Cracker

to put it simple, the news of you beingcaptured devastate him. Why weren’t you back at home, waiting for himto return? How did the World Government even get their filthy handson you?! Oh they better not do anything to you or he’ll make themregret it!

of course Cracker will ready his ownship immediately to come to your rescue. He can’t employ a fleetthough because his mother can never know of his secret relationshipand feelings for you, otherwise she might just see to it that you’llget executed by her instead…

before he can make any rashdecisions and actually sail out though, his sister Galette, one of the fewpeople who knew about Cracker and your relationship, comes in with anewspaper in her hand. It is officially licensed and contains aninterview where you seemingly claim to be one of Blackbeard’s secretmistresses who infiltrated the Big Mom Pirates for information…

his whole world is just… cracking. You, the woman he thought he loved… Whom he almost planned a future with, wanted tohave an army of children with… used him this entire time?!

to think that he was ready to risk andpossibly throw away his life for a spy… Ha! okay then, (Y/N)! go on andperish, see if he cares! (he still does)

Cracker is not going to sit by andwatch your execution, instead he’ll go and do the only thing thatcould possibly make him feel better right now- get wasted in a strip club

and indeed, the pain in his heart isforgotten for the rest of the evening and night. Hell, he doesn’teven remember that you basically got killed a few hours ago!

but the next morning is simplyterrible. Cracker can’t get up (neither does he want to), his headhurts like shit and there is a picture of you right next to him inbed. Not only that, but his cheeks feel oddly wet… was hecrying…?

although he doesn’t remembereverything, Cracker does recall reading that you were cheating on himand executed by the WG. Well… you’re gone now, and even though hisfeelings for you didn’t disappear yet, the fact that you deceived himwill probably help make him forget about you. Yeah and then Galette comes backwith new, more accurate informations concerning your execution and ‘cheating’, which she received thanks to hermother’s huge network…

and Cracker never cried as much as hedid that day. What did he do, why did he believe a dumb newspaperinstead of you?! All the times you said you loved him, why did hejust discard that so quickly?! Now it’s over… you’re gone… and it’s all his fault…

Katakuri

it takes him a few moments to processthe news of you being not only captured but about to be executed thenext day. He just… took on ONE mission, how did you get yourself into such a mess during the short period that he was away?!

oh lord, this is breaking his heart, but…Katakuri can’t save you. He simply can’t sail out and start a war without hismother’s permission…

he is her strongest fighter. If he leftTottoland without telling her… not only would that count astreason, but something could happen to his family as well. Andunfortunately… you aren’t family, yet…

when he gets wind of you ‘cheating’ onhim though, it is actually somewhat of a relief to Katakuri. You see,he was on the fence on whether he should go and save his love or stayand hope that something or someone saves you after all… but nowthat decision was basically taken from him anyway.

and he’s not even that suprised. Afterall, who could ever truly love someone like him?

his mind grows extremely dark as hethinks about all the things that could have been. No, you weredistracting him from his duties, that wasn’t right… you gave himhope, but he just should have stayed pessimistic.

Katakuri, along with some of hisbrothers and sisters, watches your execution via their special videosnail. Seeing your body drop down on the floor, now completelylifeless, made him flinch for a second, but the moment was too quickfor anyone to notice

he hasn’t cried in ages. This day wasno exception. And even when the 'truth’ came out a couple days later,the tall man still did not shed a tear.

because he knew. God, of course he knewthat you didn’t cheat, but he still chose to believe those lies inorder to make himself feel better about his decision. Katakuri neededto force himself to believe the fake news since it was the only thingcapable of keeping him from sailing out to save you.

…it was a heartbreaking experience,but it did teach him one thing: his family and duties as Charlotteare the only things that matter. Everything else is just uselessdisctraction…

Hawkins

he was actually there and watched asyou were taken away

no, he did not try to help. One look at his cards and it was clear that he was hopelessly outmatched. Andeven though Hawkins cares for you, there would be no point in being brave ad possibly getting you both killed

but that doesn’t mean that he wouldjust idly sit by while you were suffering and terrified, oh no. Hestays up the entire night, works through any possible rescue optionthat runs through his mind, but the cards always say the same… 0chance of sucess…

he usually doesn’t reach for the bottle, but that night he almost single handedly downed the entire stash of his ship…

ultimately he has to accept that thisis the end. If he can’t save you, who else might? It’s a more thanbitter pill to swallow, but it’s obvious that no matter what, thisstory won’t have a happy ending…

the news about you cheating? Okay comeon, Hawkins isn’t dumb. He would have figured something like that out waaaaybefore some Government run newspaper, yet reading such ablatant lie does add salt to his wound

nonetheless, he does show up at yourexecution. It’s the least he can do, even if every second tormentshim on the inside

there are two main reasons as to whyHawkins is there: 1. he needs your body. He may not be able to saveyou from death, but the least he can do is give you a proper burialonce this is all over. 2….. these are your final moments. He needsto be there and see your beauty one more time before the life in youfades away

it was more than hard to watch, butHawkins knew that he would regret it if he didn’t stay for the whole ‘spectacle’ until the bitter end. At least you didn’t have to suffer for long….

you were unique in every way, and itwas an honor for Hawkins to know and love you. No one could ever takeyour place in his little, rotten voodoo-heart and until it is histurn to pass over, the memory of you will stay alive with him. he makes sure of that.

Lucci

as someone who is indirectly workingunder the WG, he of course knew of their plan. And approved.

it was supposed to be a simple thingand no, he would not allow you to be executed- they would capture youand keep you in prison for a few days, yes, but ultimately execute adifferent woman that simply looked similar to you…

but then the fake news of you cheatingon him came in and made Lucci go F E R A L

„no need to look for another woman.Take her. Kill her. Before I do it myself.“

he would never admit to himself thatthe feelings he harbored for you came close to love, but regardlessof that, you still… meant something to him. Something he couldn’tquite wrap his finger around. And that was your response? Cheating onhim? Betraying him, when feelings he never thought he couldexperience began to blossom in his chest?

Good. It’s good, there is no need forhim to get worked up, after all… those feelings would have justmade him weak… yes, that’s all… with you gone, he will be able toreturn to his glorious, calculated former self…

Lucci, along with some other members ofCP0, were there when you were executed. His eyes never left yourform, and the fear and hurt reflected in your eyes as you spotted himalmost caused something in him to stir, but 'luckily’ he managed toshake that off before he would have done something regretful… liketearing through your throat while the whole world watches

however, right after the wholeexecution is done, he gets the news that you cheating on him wasn’ttrue. And that causes his face to crack for a second

even though Lucci manages to supressthem, not even he could deny the swirl of emotions that suddenlyerupted in his chest. Emotions that were foreign to him until now-guilt… regret… hurt…?

with you, his greatest weakness died. Butso did the one chance for him to change.

Killer

first of all, capturing you is almostimpossible because Killer is one of the most protective boyfriends ever. And the WG knows that.

so what happened was that they managedto use the heat of a battle between the Kid Pirates and Marines tosnatch you away when a good opportunity presented itself

of course Killer- and some crewmates aswell- tried to hunt after them and get you back, but it was alreadytoo late, not to mention that a dozen marines were still blocking their path…

the news that you are set up to beexecuted suprises and shocks everyone. Heck, even Kid knows what a'useless woman’ you are, and the crime you’re being accused of issomething you could never pull off!

the Kid Pirates aren’t the smartestpeople around, but this article is clearly there to simply blame youfor something someone else has done, and it infuriates Killer thatthey attempt to taint your name like that

however, one thing they are known foris to do dumb shit. And Killer is usually the voice of reason, butthis time it’s actually him who calls the shots and prepares to sailoff to save you. Right into enemy territority.

unfortunately though… they didn’teven get close to the actual place of your execution. The marinesalready awaited them and a heated navy battle ensue, with bothsides (mainly Kid’s) taking some heavy damage

the Victoria Punk was close to sinkingwhen Kid finally gave the order to retreat, and even though it wasbreaking his heart, Killer had to admit that there was no point infighting a battle they had zero chance of winning

so they take off and travel to a nearbyisland where they would not only be able to make repairs but alsowatch your final moments via video livestream. With Killer being the onlyone refusing to watch.

and even though the rest of the crew (and especially Kid) attempted to distract him with booze and the promise of plunder, a part of Killer simply died that day.

[artnerd1123]

DTRH!AU Masterpost

Moving into a new post since I’ve got stuff actually organized!!! It’ll likely get an update from time to time. Apologies to those whom the read more breaks for ‘^^

Everything to do with this au will be tagged #dtrh!au or #down the rabbit hole au Individual characters are tagged with #dtrh![name] 

Here’s an AU PMV for starters! 

Let’s get this show on the road, shall we?

Putting this up here so it doesn’t get super buried- Here’s the fic(s) set in this AU! All Moving Pictures End 

The AU crash course: The premise behind the au is that everything takes place in a pocket dimension controlled by a black magic script. Joey Drew is the one who’s writing/editing this script, and his rewrites affect the world and the characters within it. His constant reshaping eventually twists the world from a sitcom genre to a horror film- hence the horror esque setting, creatures, and plot. The characters didn’t escape the rewrites’ effects either. They’re warped into corrupted versions of themselves. However, these characters end up becoming sentient after awhile. The first one of these to become entirely sentient is Henry. He’s currently the only one who’s all the way out of alignment. A toon gone rogue, if you will. He still goes along with Joey’s “plot,” but it’s more so he can try to reach the other characters than to keep Joey happy or unaware of his actions. His goal is to basically “wake up” the other characters, so they can all stop living in a hellish nightmare studio and actually try and make something nice out of their home. He’s extremely dedicated to his goal. 

Character time!!! toon trio refs / corrupted refs  butcher gang refs / corrupted refs  toon henry ref  toon sammy ref / corrupted sammy ref  toon susie ref / corrupted susie ref  toon allison and tom refs / corrupted allison and tom refs  joey ref / toon joey ref  toon norman ref / corrupted ref  toon bertrum ref / corrupted ref  toon and corrupted grant refs  toon jack ref / corrupted jack ref  toon wally ref / corrupted wally ref  toon and corrupted lacie refs  toon and corrupted shawn refs 

Character relationships/orientations 

Concept art, anyone? toon trio concept work (w/ bonus corrupted bendy n alice) corrupted boris/alice concept work (ft bonus hen) butcher gang concept work (w/ corrupted forms) henry concept work sammy concept work (and more henry) susie concept work joey concept work corrupted norman concept work toon norman concept work  throwing around lost ones ideas 

Misc stuff Henry, but Goop™  Susie and Studio Tea™  Hey Henry, how do u feel about Joey?  Yo hold up, hen and polk are a thing???  Henry’s glasses saga  Regular studio shenanigans 

FAQ: 

How many of the employees are gonna show up? Hopefully all the named ones in the game! Once they’ve got a design, they’re guaranteed to show up somewhere.

Are they really carbon copies of the employees? Is there nothing different about them and their irl counterparts? They started as carbon copies! Latching onto their old traits and their old selves does help them come to their senses. However, different character development happens in script than IRL, so they end up different. Henry, for example, takes up the last name “Ross” when he wakes up (instead of his IRL counterpart’s “Stien”) to differentiate himself :0

So is everyone corrupted on purpose? Yes and no. Yes, because Joey chose to rewrite the script so much that it mangled characters, but no, because he didn’t intend to mangle them in the first place. It just kinda happened.

What makes them corrupted? Corruption is what happens when you can’t hold onto the core of what your character is, and get dragged into what the new script is telling you. It’s when you lose sight of who you are among all the chaos. People who are drawn farther away from their actual selves end up more monstrous. Susie (aka “alice” angel) is a great example of this. Bendy is too! Far be it from his real nature to be a murderous monster.

So can the toons be uncorrupted? Yup! Henry’s our model citizen this time. He looks more like a toon than a normal person, sure, but there’s nothing monstrous about him. That’s because he’s latched onto what makes him Henry. He’s not letting the instability of the world around him shake him up. Otherwise he’d be a goopy mess of ink.

Why’d Joey write everyone so differently that they corrupted? He’s actually very out of touch with people once he starts rewriting the script. Since his memories are getting foggy, he fixates on details that he can remember, and exaggerates them as needed. In fact, he’s hidden tape recorders around the script studio as built in reminders of these character traits.

How’d Henry wake up? And how does he plan on waking everyone else up? Ok… this is a longer answer. It all comes together, i promise. Jus hang with me. Whenever henry dies, he gets sent back to a sort of “first draft” stage. In order to get back to the world he’s supposed to exist in, he has to get through all the layers of ink Joey put down to get to his current script. As one can imagine… there’s a lot. So much so that Henry has to essentially swim to the surface. As he passes through all this ink, he can hear whispers of previous scripts. The deeper he is, the closer these whispers are to what the world used to be like. Seeing as Henry is the protagonist, he ended up dying… a lot. Like, a lot a lot. Joey had a lot of snags in the script to work out. All these times sent into the draft-y ink soup made made Henry slowly realize what was going on. He wasn’t mindless anymore. He knew what was up. After realizing that the world wasn’t right, it didn’t take him long to push for the rest of his consciousness. He plans on using what whispers and memories he can gather to bring everyone else back. He’s not dying on purpose, mind you, but he gathers as much information as he can to help everyone else realize that they’re not who they’re supposed to be.

Wait, memories? Does Henry remember the past scripts now? Not quite? He’s got a good enough memory stockpile to keep himself centered, but he doesn’t always know what’s up ahead as he heads through another studio loop. If Joey happens to rewrite or change around the script, those patches of Henry’s memory blip out of existence. Or at least get hazy. Hen can often tell if Joey’s changed something by how many holes he has in his memories.

Can anyone in the pocket dimension get out? Henry’s the only one who can get out! Joey literally wrote him a back door to the script. It used to be so he could talk to Henry whenever the “story” was over, but nowadays it’s just to judge how fast plot goes via how quickly Hen gets back. All Henry can manage to do is walk around and stare silently. And he can’t even stay out very long. Ink’s unstable in the real world. Gotta go back in n start the horror show over if u wanna live :/

Can Joey go in? Nope! Since he’s not made of ink, he can’t go in. He can watch tho!!! He does so via writing POV shifts into the script, and watches through whatever character it shifted to. Who needs cameras when u got the eyes of black magic toons n inky monsters ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

Does Joey know Henry is sentient now? Nnnnot quite? He thinks the magic is being screwy with him. He can’t switch POV to Henry anymore, since the toon’s taken control of himself, and that’s real confusing since the writer doesn’t know what’s up. Plus, like mentioned above, Hen can’t exactly give Joey a sign once he gets out of the studio. Bummer :/

Is Joey gonna majorly rewrite the script any time soon? Nope. He’s to attached to his current plot to change the genre or anythin, so it’s gonna stay as is. With some changes here and there. One musn’t underestimate how many times u can change the order of scenes, or improve dialogue... 

AU Background:

((this is long as shiz, so get some popcorn slfkjs))

Y’all probably wanna know how this whole horror show started. I’ve got two words for ya: Joey Drew. Unsurprising! But he’s our starting point nonetheless. Joey Drew is the retired owner of Joey Drew Studios, a cartoon studio that ran itself into the ground after a decade or two of fantastical cartoons. Money problems aren’t kind to the entertainment industries. However, the studio was still his pride and joy! As are the friends who stuck by him or met him during the time it was open. He kept up with all of them through the years. They were like a little family. Unfortunately, time has a way of changing things. With his friends drifting away, living their own lives, getting up in years, or a combination of the three, Joey wasn’t doing too well. He was lonely. Feeling washed up. Missing the glory days, where he helped work on cartoon scripts instead of submitting horror and mystery shorts to local magazines. Not all that surprising that he turned to something else to cope. This thing being none other than occult magic. Because… of course it is. It’s a habit he’s had for years. Nothing like some demonic rituals to spice up the life of the creative mind behind kids’ cartoons! Especially fun when you’re a man with poor impulse control and a wild imagination. In any case, Joey summons the three main characters of his beloved cartoon series. Bendy, Alice, and Boris! (I refer to these three as the “toon trio.”) He was just as happy that he’d managed to bring them to life as he was to have them around the house. It was like having slightly unruly grandkids with toony superpowers. In other words, they were absolutely delightful!!! He took care of them and admired their antics. It was a great time. … until. Well. It wasn’t. Turns out things that don’t belong in this world get rejected eventually. After a few months, things started go go wayward. The toon trio had difficulties maintaining their forms, moving, engaging in tropes, and a ton of other things. They were miserable. Joey was understandably heartbroken to see this happen to his poor toons. So, like any good person, he tried to do the right thing: put them back on the paper they came from. It didn’t end up working exactly how he’d expected. Everything comes with a price when you mess with demonic ink. The magic not only created a stack of paper instead of a series of drawings, but latched onto an old fountain pen and Joey’s closet. If the closet thing seems odd, it is. But it’s a convenient place to hide ritual pentagrams! So, closet it is. Upon frantic examination of the papers, Joey discovered it was a script. A black magic infused script. Three names up top told him the toon trio were the only characters. A bit of experimentation led him to discover that the magic-infused pen was the only thing that could interact with the script properly. Further experimentation showed him that the script had made his closet into a pocket dimension. The contents? Whatever was in his new script. This is where the real fun begins. The new magic script practically floored Joey with awe. He had a world he could shape however he wished! He could run all those scripts he’d never gotten to put in production! He could watch his toons frolick! He could even use it to play with ideas he’d never gotten to explore. The possibilities were endless! 

((Of course, you might be wondering if Joey… y’know. Knew the toons were still alive. Because they were, they were just living in a pocket dimension now. In short? No. He didn’t. He carefully tested a few things with the script, just to make sure. All the toons did was what he wrote down. They moved like they were alive, but didn’t act that way. Plus, the dimension made them blank slates. They didn’t have any characterization in there to make them truly alive. So! For all intents and purposes? He saw them as you would any other character you write. A visual extension of his imagination. Ok mini rant over, back to the story--))

Playing with the toons was amazing. Joey hadn’t had fun like that in years! It was his little secret world, populated by his cherished toons. He could make believe whatever he wished. Eventually, though, loneliness started to catch back up to the old man. His friends… his family… life… it all went on. He just felt left behind. And what does Joey do when he doesn’t feel good? Not cope healthily, that’s for sure. Onwards to more occult magic! Only this time, he tries something… different. The toons were lonely. They deserved company. They deserved someone to take care of them. A familiar face. Maybe someone who helped Joey create them in the first place. Someone who’d just sent Mr. Drew an old letter and a card, since he hadn’t seen him in awhile… … someone like Henry. Using the magic pen, Joey traced over Henry’s note. Far from ruining the precious letter, it transferred “Henry” into the script. It’s not the real one! Basically a carbon copy, fresh from the time period that Hen first wrote the note in. Seeing as Henry’s letter came from around the time the cartoon studio was going strong, it’s an old version of him. But it was still Joey’s old friend. Just… toony. Toon Henry reacted just as his living friend would. If he wrote dialogue? He spoke it like Henry would. If he wrote some action? The toon put a classic Henry twist on it. Delighted, Joey returned to his script with renewed vigor. Toon Henry got to spend plenty of quality with the toon trio as the days went on. Thus began a trend of toonification. Missing one of his old friends? All Joey had to do was grab something with their old handwriting on it, and trace them into the script! There’s a carbon copy that acts just like the real deal! A fine compromise, right? … Right? Not exactly. It was fine at first. Joey made what could probably qualify as a sitcom-style story for the toony world to run on. His friends, at this point, all populated the studio. The premise was that the toons (now including the butcher gang!) had been summoned while he was still running the studio, and got up to hijinks with the rest of the employees. A hefty dose of actual studio drama- turned comedic, of course- kept the whole thing almost real. Joey even featured himself once or twice, but only in allusions, or a disembodied voice. He wasn’t about to let a carbon copy of himself have all the fun. It made him feel less lonely. More included. A fantasy world of never ending fun and heartwarming moments. How unfortunate it is that life doesn’t follow this pattern. Morality is a hard thing to come to terms with. So is sickness. Especially that of a friend. … it was just one rewrite at first. One alteration on a bad day. After all, using writing to cope is perfectly acceptable. One bad episode in the midst of sunshine doesn’t discount it all. One uncanny occurrence, though, doesn’t usually stay singular. It didn’t take long for the solitary rewrite to become two rewrites. Then three. Four. Six. Ten. Twenty. Fifty. More and more and more. Until the happy honey colored studio slipped into sinister sepia. This wasn’t the old script anymore. Not by a long shot.

The setting? A studio of shattered dreams.   Your protagonist? Henry. His goal? Survive long enough to escape.

~It’s quite th͝e̵͞͏ ͠M̕a͘sţe̛̕r͘p̕i̵͝e̡ḉe̡̨͜~̡̛

[qm-vox]

The Dwelling Gods - A More Perfect Union

Previous Chapter: Sitting The Table

Human-Controlled Space (The Undivided Whole), Milky Way Galaxy (Orion Arm), 787 Unified Year (2863 Astra Federation Standard Calendar; Covenant Day)

We The People Of Planet Earth

Not all is well. It has not been well ever since the People’s invasion of the gataxians. We had underestimated the willingness of their aggrieved neighbors to come to their defense; even now Our citizens pore over histories, shift masses of data, claim mental bandwidth with which to argue amongst Ourself about how We could have so grossly mis-characterized the political situation between the xenophobes and their prey. Our libraries buzz with life, fed further data by forward intel posts, by contemplation and meditation, by after-action reports written by Ourself and for Ourself and to Ourself.

But what’s worse is the wound, the lacing, scratching thing in Our mind, the hurtful little slash around which We become I. We cannot be I; We The People Of Planet Earth stand united, without flaw or seam.

We, not I. I cannot be the People. I can only be a person.

It itches. There is no other word for it. It feels like such a small thing but all of Us suffer for it; Our hands move more slowly, Our heads shake as we go about Our work. The wound-thing that tastes like “I” drives Our citizens to distraction. The artwork being made for Our vaults and cities and ships skews dark; We can feel Ourselves working in bloody rust-reds, in off-blacks, in violent tangles of light and shadow that dizzy the eyes. Our previous blue period would be a relief at this point.

How did We get hurt? It had felt almost like one of Our semi-autonomous citizens, what Divided Humanity would think of as an officer, reporting in to sync subjectivities, but instead of the blissful transfer of information We were cut and scarred by the shrieking death-fear of two minds at once. One almost human, the other...

(Art-citizens slash red across the metal of Our fleets. A creche of writers begins typing gibberish far beyond the pale of even Our most recursive meta-textual works; harsh noise plays from the throats of Our musicians oh it hurts the memory hurts so much and yet We cannot stop picking at it can We)

Focus. We direct the attention of the People (I look - no!) to the war-front. The gataxians are being reinforced in numbers too large to be a mere defensive measure, and We are bringing Our own fleets to bear accordingly. War-citizens emerge from the cloning vats, and We re-task the autonomous to the needs of battle. If We do not miss Our guess, a counter-invasion is imminent. This could work to the advantage of the People; forcing the enemy to expend time and energy defending the borders will make them easier to cross and pillage of resources, and We may learn much from the mysterious and advanced benefactors of the butterflies -

- something is not right. We are -

Gripped, seized in my (mymymymy) mind by two minds, two minds like the last two minds that carved I into We and made me aware of my me-ness, my one-ness, of the betrayal of my purpose it’s like claws made of knives right in the soul why this how this it hurts -

The human-like mind starts dying immediately, flayed layer by layer by the sheer enormity of the being that is Myself, but that other mind, that thing, that fractal whisper, it has me.

Hello, hivemind, it purrs, its voice full of promise and secrets. This will hurt.

I start screaming from a trillion throats, and then I am, once again -

Caroline Morrison, New York City, 2679 CE

When had most of the meetings become silent? I/(We) struggle to remember when exactly all of (U)s had noticed, but I guess the actual smoking gun was when we’d all decided to start faking the minutes of those meetings. Juan’s still the secretary on paper, so most of his attention is currently devoted to diligently writing up lies about our plans to grow the company, a proposed investment in a marketing firm (W)e already own in all the ways that matter, something something office birthday...

The Chinese takeout on the table isn’t fake, though. Turns out operating the brain chips takes a lot of calories, and while Juan fakes the words we’re not saying out loud we (all) stuff our faces while the conversation actually takes place on another level.

We’re going to have a problem with the money soon April says into (O)ur minds; I can feel the chip in my own brain tingle pleasantly as it registers the communication. If we keep things aboveboard we’ll be bankrupt in two years, but going criminal -

The IRS would be on us in an instant. We’re too suspicious already I finish. This orange chicken is fucking amazing and it’s sort of unfair how into it I am while we’re having this serious conversation. And it’s not like we can onboard them without pulling that trigger early.

!xobile holds up his hand to get us to hold on a second; he’s having an epic struggle with a forkful of noodles and the noodles are definitely winning. After managing to defeat his nemesis he clears his throat (not strictly necessary but he’s only had his chip for two months, it takes some getting used to) and starts talking: I may have another option. Marketing is reporting that the movement to cure autism -

- He pauses while the rest of us make mental noises of revulsion -

- Believes that the Ross-Moore Chip could provide such a service. This customer base is wealthy, influential, and comes with prime endorsements from celebrities...a few of whom have expressed a willingness to undergo the procedure for PR purposes.

!xobile names a few figures for initial donations, but they pale in comparison to the potential gains. Once they’re chipped, those luminaries will understand the Mission, the Need for United Humanity to reverse the catastrophic environmental damage to Earth, to prevent another disaster like the loss of the Arkships. They’d give (U)s access to their social sphere and keep the wolves away from the door while we work...

Everyone else is thinking the same thing.

Fund it I/(We) order, and we all raise our little boxes of fried rice to toast with.

We The People of Planet Earth, 787 Unified Year (2863 Astra Federation Standard Calendar; Covenant Day)

I struggle and thrash, but this conflict is foreign to me (mememememe); no citizen has ever rebelled like this. Where are the weapons, how do I grasp this whispering thing that has me in those claws, in that late November grip that tastes like sad truths and cuts like a funeral dirge.

What a sad little mistake you are the thing whispers in a cruel, crooning voice. You don’t even know what you are not.

We (I) need to get Our citizens in order; We turn Our focus away from the claw-thing to calm the disrupted citizens, to soothe the bodies. From somewhere in the depths of memory I/We recall reading that control of the body is control of the mind, and We are far from in control of either it hurts why does it hurt so much.

A whispering laugh, and those claws, those shredding things of grief and fear, dig in deeper. She lives with this every day, and you can barely stand a moment of it. How long has it been since you felt pain, little mistake?

LET ME GO! I roar, and I realize my mistake too late; the claw-thing reaches into that moment of wrath and fear, and I can feel what I know being known by it, being learned and scraped and analyzed. No! No no no no no -

In desperation I grab at memories and drag my captor down with me, and then it is an earlier time and place again.

United Humanity, Sydney, Australia, 0 Unified Year (2076 Astra Federation Standard Calendar)

“We don’t see that you have much choice,” We say to the assembled leaders. This citizen wears a nametag that says ‘Gloria’, and they address Us by that name; We have long since realized that those who are not yet United respond better to the fiction of Division than to Our truth. “Your fleet is in tatters. You cannot sustain a defense against the numbers We can bring to bear on land. It is not Our wish to drag out this conflict or to be responsible for the loss of human life.”

The American gives Our citizen one of those knife-hand gestures so common among their lower officers, which makes a certain amount of sense; We own most of their former high command these days. “You’ll forgive me if I point out how farcical that statement is. Those poor souls you chip -”

“Are completely unharmed,” We interrupt smoothly. “Living productive and happy lives, with the best medical care and all of their needs seen to.” We straighten Our citizen’s collar. “We understand your concerns, but the Ross-Moore is a method of communication, nothing more. United Humanity represents what is possible when language barriers are wholly removed,” We add. Experience gained from millions of people makes the lie smooth and clean.

Murmurs, around the room. “Gloria” is the de facto hostage of the coalition government, but their alliance cannot last; already cultural friction erodes the morale of their citizenry, alongside the unchecked greed of capitalist holdouts who even now attempt to profit off of Our unification. They can be made to see.

“Gentlemen,” We say, “what can We do to convince you? We would rather not make grand threats; if We wanted to invade, We would have done so already. Surely there is a path to peace that we can all walk today.”

Those murmurs become contemplative. We wait, letting them talk, debate, murmur favors to be traded with one another.

When it feels right, We speak next from the mouth of the Australian Prime Minister: “How quickly could United Humanity supply food and medical relief to my citizens?”

“Gloria” smiles beatifically. “Within forty-eight hours.”

We The People of Planet Earth, 787 Unified Year (2863 Astra Federation Standard Calendar; Covenant Day) 

That cutting grip is loosening (it hits like heartbreak on the last day of summer, like the last goodbye between old friends, oh it hurts -), but I can feel that thing rooting through my memories yet further, knowing what I know. War-citizen deployments, cloning methods -

Get out of there! I shriek as I feel it rifling through my artwork, my culture, the churches and holy places I preserved on Earth, the museums and vaults and -

It laughs at me. Laughs long and quiet, in that cruel, whispering voice.

Now what is all of this for? the claw-thing murmurs. What benevolent idiots your creators were, little mistake.

I hit back, lashing out, but something new is wrong; it’s dying, flaking away as the human-like mind struggles to remain in existence amidst the torrent of Myself. The feeling is like punching water that’s already going down a drain.

You have no right I accuse. The history of Divided Humanity must be -

That mocking laughter again: I’m dying now, little mistake. Let me show you something before I go.

An image, in my mind, as clear as if my citizens were there in the flesh: the Arkship Demeter, lost through an unstable wormhole. Dozens of species fill its halls, but prominent among them, participating in a solemn religious service is -

- is -

- Oh no.

Glory to the Phoenix, the risen children of Divided Humanity the claw-thing mocks with the last shreds of its strength, and then it is gone.

Across my dozens of worlds and thousands of space stations, United Humanity starts screaming.

[kob131]

https://queenypie.tumblr.com/post/180408886658/rwby-and-how-it-treats-its-women#notes

Oh goody, trying to point out ‘problematic’ material.

I’ll get this out right now: older women are treated the absolute worst by this show; they’re treated worse than black people, worse than LGB characters, and worse than the younger women.

The ways in which women are treated can be divided into three categories: dead, evil/terrible person, or brushed aside. Dead obviously describes Summer, the one potentially kind mother in this show. The second group is what Willow and Raven fall into. The last category is for Glynda, and Kali.

A. Willow is not shown to be a terrible person. Fuck, she’s played more as a victim than anyone else. meanwhile her male counterpart Jacques is treated as WORSE than the Hitler-esque character.

B. Raven is a terrible person but her gender has nothing to do with who she is as a person. 

C. Kali is most certainly NOT brushed off since she’s constantly acting as a second Sun.

D. Glynda’s is the result OF problematic shit with her VA.

And E:

Dead: Ozpin

Evil/Terrible person: Jacques, Adam, Tyrian, Watts, Fennec, Corsac

Brushed off: Taiyang, Klein

Looks like the women are doing better than the men here.

In Glynda’s case, she is given one major action scene in the very first episode of the show before being relegated to Ozpin’s maid. Either she fixes the streets, she fixes the school, or she fixes Qrow’s or someone else’s mess. 

Because Kathleen said some super sexist shit but nope, not gonna mention that.

Then there’s Kali Belladona, who gets to lucky shot someone with one of her guard’s guns before dropping furniture on another guy; meanwhile, her husband gets to knock people around.

Kali Win Record: 3-0

Ghira Win record: 0-0

So when’s the post about Ghira getting shafted.

Then we have Willow Schnee, who isn’t so much a character as she is still just an abstract concept. We know more about her from lore and exposition than actually seeing her in action. We also have the other horrible mother Raven, who is the only woman -besides Glynda- who gets to do anything action oriented.

A. We also only know that about her father, Nicolas. So...

And B. Again, Raven’s gender has nothing to do with who she is as a person. She’s also treated with more sympathy and more attention than Jacques so it STILL doesn’t work. Fuck at least Raven has an impact on the plot, UNLIKE Taiyang.

Being a bad parent or being passive isn’t objectively a bad thing, however I just listed every major older woman in this series to date. I could talk about Salem, but she would just fit into the evil category. 

Except, you know, not by anything but circumstances she couldn’t have seen coming.

By contrast, older men can be good (Ozpin?, Port, Oobleck, Qrow, Tai, etc.), fatherly (Tai, Klein), complicated (Ozpin, Qrow), Evil (Watts, Hazel), Assholes (Jacques); While women can be categorized in 3 groups, men run the gambit, and that’s not okay.

Dead, brushed off, brushed off, relevant, brushed off, brused off, evil evil and evil.

Also, you rejected Kali but accept Taiyang and Klein, both of whom have contributed LESS to the show than Kali. So nice try,

Looks like the guys actually have the shaft.

Also, wanna know what this also sounds like? Sailor Moon, better go call THAT Author problematic!

Then we turn our attention to the main generation, rwby, nora, Pyrrha, and many others. Pyrrha has the obvious problem of her entire character revolving around Jaune, while Nora only -but still glaringly- has the problem of her backstory being 90% focused on Ren. Weiss has the whole dance arc in volume 2, which relegates her to a trophy for Jaune to fight Neptune over.

Okay, let’s go through this shall we?

A. Ruby has shown more mourning and development over Pyrrha than Jaune.

B. Nora is an active character while Ren does nothing 90% of the time and is often times needed to be bailed out by Nora *cough* Nucklevee Hazel *cough*’

C. She also had most of Volume 4 to herself. So....

D. Weiss also got to demand Neptune be beaten up for flirting with another team but god forbid Jaune ask her out 3 times.

And then volume 4 hits: Ruby gets her character develop stolen by Jaune,

Right up until Episode 10 where Ruby takes Jaune’s character and keeps it under lock until an ENTIRE VOLUME LATER and even then the guy’s actions amount to jack and shit.

Weiss has to be rescued by her butler from her evil dad

Said butler’s entire character revolves around Weiss.

Blake runs to see her father and Sun

Both of whom are treated as inept and useless while her mother is the only one shown to know what to do.

and Yang has to be talked down to by her dad

Where she insults him and no one bats an eye at him. Also: HIS entire character revolves around Yang.

So 0-4, you failed.

When one or two of these things occur, it’s not a problem (minus the Jaune bit); when it becomes a pattern, you messed up.

And yet when it becomes a COMPLETE pattern with men, no one cares.

Where are the adult female role models? 

Dunno, where are they in Sailor Moon?

Oh right, the only one who isn’t evil/a bitch (Kali) gets to talk to Blake personally for one minute and it’s only to say that her father wants her.

All while giving an air of ‘I know what is best for both of you’ while Ghira is portrayed as a completely awkward idiot who can’t talk to his own daughter.

Volume 5 at least has the decency to give the female leads agency again, but Raven is suddenly treated like an obstacle instead of Yang’s goal, while Weiss is nearly killed so that Jaune can unlock his semblance.

A. An obstacle that takes up the majority of the screentime sure.

B. Jaune then proceeds to heal her and do nothing after removing the one impact he had on the battle.

And C. Ren is thrown against a wall and needs bailing out by Nora, Adam gets one shotted by Blake, Mercury is treated as a prop while Emerald gets some actual characterization, Jaune does NOTHING, Sun accomplishes nothing, Leonardo is treated as a joke unlike Raven, Qrow gets tossed around like a ragdoll and Ozpin/Oscar do basically nothing.

And yet no talk about this.

Volume 6 has, to date, given us a topless genie for no real reason other than sex appeal, and Salem’s backstory, where she only became active when a man entered her life and became evil because that man died.

A. So...Salem is Jaune and Ozma is Pyrrha then?

B. Salem is also the only proactive one between the two, she manipulated multiple world leaders BEFORE becoming immortal, she cheated the MALE gods, she’s the one portrayed as in control of the relationship with Ozma and she is the one who actually has agency.

And C. And yet examples of male fanservice (like Ironwood losing his shirt)go unnoticed.

And finally, the bit that has been said many times: when a female in this show acts out, does something compulsive and rash, they’re punished for it. Yang flying at Adam to protect Blake and Winter attacking Qrow for egging her on; both are reprimanded after. Jaune losing his temper and attacking Cinder? Obviously a hero, because despite Weiss nearly dying, he healed her and unlocked his semblance, so that makes it okay in the writer’s eyes.

A. Qrow is also reprimanded (in fact, MORE SO than Winter)

B. Jaune proceeds to remove HIS OWN AGENCY and do nothing the whole fight.

C. He utterly fails to do anything to Cinder, gets saved by Ruby and gets insulted for his actions while being portrayed as helpless. Yeah, real great hero.

For a show that wants to focus on four young women, it has an awfully tough time treating women as equally unique as the men. Older women in this show are either good because they’re passive and obedient (Glynda/Kali/Winter) or active and evil/rebellious (Raven/Salem/Cinder/etc.). Younger women must be taught by fathers or male friends on how to act. While that’s not what the writers intended, it’s what the show comes across as saying.

Except Winter rebelled against her father

Kali messes around with everyone and is treated as the more level headed of the two.

And Glynda’s temper is glossed over while Ironwoods paranoia and Qrow’s alcoholism is over looked.

Raven gets sympathetic moments.

Salem is THE most proactive person in the show 

And Cinder is the longest running antagonist.

Now let’s go through the male characters shall we?

Torchwick: Repeatedly humiliated and defeated by four students constantly with only his FEMALE minion making him threatening: Gets killed off with no fanfare.

Port+Oobleck: Irrelevant

Ozpin: Is used for the development of Salem, is the toy of the gods and cannot do anything to stop Salem.

Jaune: Loses all agency and becomes a background character to the point his only development in Volume 5 is basically the writers (mostly Miles) telling him to shut up and look pretty.

Ren: Hasn’t won a fight since Volume 1, needed to be bailed out by Nora from both the Nucklevee and Hazel, barely says a damn thing and is overlooked for Nora most of the time.

Cardin: Asshole bully with no redeemable features (unlike Weiss)

Mercury: Is ignored by the narrative for Emerald all the time and said about two lines in Volume 5. Is also shown to be less moral and more evil than Emerald

Taiyang, Klein and Ghira: have no characters outside of being father figures to their respective daughters. Unlike Raven and Kali.

Jacques: Is treated as Snowy Satan to make Weiss, Winter and Willow look good.

Nicolas: Is only shown in a WOR to set up Willow, Winter and Weiss’ conflict.

Whitely: Is treated with contempt and derision by the narrative despite being in the same situation as Weiss.

Adam: Is no more than an abusive ex and evil racist to make Blake look better. Unlike Illa and Sienna.

Tyrian: Utterly insane, gets humiliated by Ruby.

Watts: gets pushed aside by Cinder

Hazel: Entire character revolves around dead sister.

Need I go on?

From where I stand: Male characters either have no personality outside of female characters (Taiyang, Klein, Ghira, Whitely, Nicolas), treated with far less care than their female counterparts (Torchwick, Adam, Whitely, Jacques, Mercury), have no character (Cardin), are just evil with far less sympathy than their female counterparts (Tyrian, Watts, Adam and Mercury), have their agency taken from them (Ren and Jaune), aren’t proactive (Ozpin, Port, Oobleck) and more.

But hey, can’t stab the creators over problematic shit with guys. Or showcase the guys issues since it would destroy your argument.

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I honestly LOVE your bakushima kids, but did you have any ideas on what the rest of the bakusquad's kids would be like if the others did have kids? If you have thought of it, would the next gen of bakusquad be friends like their parents or not so much?

Thanks!!! And to be completely honest with you, the only other kid I have for that specific AU is the todo//deku one :0 not cause I haven’t thought about the bakusquad ones, but cause I still haven’t managed to decide which ships I wanna go with? Do I do kami//sero or kami//jiro or kami//mina? Do I do mina//jiro or momo//jiro? how about sero//mina? I like so many ships for the squad that I can’t manage picking just one haha but what I already have decided is that whoever Kaminari ended up with his kid is Tai’s best friend. I dunno who that kid is, but they’re best friends 👍

Anon said:Hy i have a fan account on ig it’s @o.urarakaa i want To know if i can repost one or your art thanks 🙏

Ahhhh sorry, but as it’s written more or less everywhere on my blog I don’t allow reposts of my stuff - thank you for asking, tho!

Anon said:Have you ever considered MomoJirou????

I have! Have also drawn it and posted it in the past, actually!

Anon said: FRAAAAAAAN! I love your art from the bottom of my heart and every little doodle makes me smile and gasp in awe because they’re beautiful. And since I love it so much, I often comment under it: Is it troublesome for you or I can continue? Idk, maybe it feels exaggerated or repetitive or annoying and I wouldn’t want to bother you :3 Have a lovely day and thank you for sharing your art! (Your KiriBaku give me life)

No no no it’s super totally okay don’t worry about it!!! Actually thank you so so so so much for always taking your time to let me know you liked my stuff!!!!

Anon said:legit crying at your latest comic. its too fucking soft and adorable i cannot handle it. you’re amazing. thank you for everything you share with us

;O; thank you so much???? oh my god!!!

Anon said:I’m always awkward w/ these BUT!!!!! I JUST NEEDED TO TELL YOU I ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOUR ART AND YOUR ART STYLE SO MUCH!!!!! I always look forward to any new art you post (even if it’s outside my fandoms!!) and I always SMILE/GET MEGA EXCITED WHEN I SEE A NEW ONE!!!! I personally really love your Kiribaku ones though sO THAT NEW KAMIJIROU ONE ESPECIALLY SENT MY HEART SKYROCKETING!!!!!! I sincerely love you as an artist so please know that!!!! Thank you for drawing!!!!!! They make me so happy!!!!!!

HOLY SHIT THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! this seriously means the world to me, I’m so happy I can make you enjoy even stuff out of your fandoms!!! Seriously thank you for sending this ask, it made my day ;O;

Anon said:What do you think of Bakugou/Shinsou? I stumbled across the pairing recently, and it’s a bit of a rairpair, but it’s so cute???

It’sssss not really my thing actually - well, generally I’m a picky shipper with Bakugou anyway, not gonna lie, but the only interaction Baku and Shinsou ever had made it pretty clear Shinsou can’t stand him and I usually don’t ship Bakugou with people that don’t like him ??? I’m more drawn to his canon happy relationships honestly haha

Anon said:Oh my goodness, you’ve opened my eyes on the similarities and contrasts of both kiribaku and kamijirou (also, Kamijirou is one of my otps, thank you so much)

Haha that’s cool to hear !! They aren’t exactly similar as ships, but they are fun ships to put next to each other cause they contrast in some pretty funny ways imho! :D

Anon said:That’s so cute fran, how do you even come up with these comics they’re perfection

Thank you!!!!!! And I’m gonna be honest with you, that kamijirou one came up mostly just cause I wanted to write the “you’re an asshole how do you have a bf”/ ”for one, I’m not an asshole to my bf” exchange lmao

Anon said:your comics (bakushima in particular) make me so happy, thank you so much!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!! I’m glad I can help you be a lil bit happier!!!!!!

Anon said:I love ur art!! I hope u had a nice day!!

THANK YOU! I hope you’ll have a great day too!!!!!!!

Anon said:R u a cat person or a dog person?

Generally a cat person, but just cause I have two cats and love them with my whole heart haha I love dogs a lot too, tho!! Always wanted one ;u;

Anon said:Hi! How was ur day?

Weirdly tiring, but generally good! I hope yours was a good one too!!!

Anon said:Okay but like… I am 100% a lesbian but your art of Tyki and Wisely is so gorgeous that it makes me feel just a little bit straight. Like, wow.

Holy heck, that’s high praise!!! Thank you so much???? :O

Anon said:Your krbk concert art makes me weep. It’s so beautifullll.

SOB thank you!!! This means a lot to me cause that AU means a lot to me, so really, thank you so much!!!! *hugs*

Anon said: I’m laughing, your Shinsou’s are both the most beautiful and the most relatable. I really love the colour scheme.

THANKS!!! Purple is one of my fav colors so I always have lotsa fun with its shades!!! :D

Anon said:i would love to see more bakucamies from you! their friendship is lit

I love and live for all Bakugou relationships, so more of that one will happen for sure! She made him laugh after all, she already owns my soul for that ;^;

Anon said:How do you feel about the other noahs?

Jasdevi means the whole world to me and I miss them more ever passing day, Neah and Mana are my kids whom I need to protect I really just wish for both of them to be happy though I know that’s probably not gonna happen ;;, Road!!!! is!!!!! My girl!!!!!!! Love her, like her better when she’s not hurting Lavi but generally I’m always happy to see her, I have conflicting feelings about Feedra, Sheryl is slimy and I can’t trust him, everyone else wasn’t around enough to know for sure how I feel about them honestly, I’m interested but not particularly invested :0

Anon said:You’re my favourite noah:)

This is??? A weirdly cute ask??? Thank you!!!! :D

Anon said:genuinely shrieking over your doodle of tyki. i love him so fucking much and aH,,

I’M GLAD TO HEAR THAT he’s!!!! so great isn’t he ;O; *sigh*

Anon said:Fran, did you know that I’d die for you and your art?? And also I just really love the extra little things you put in the tags when you post things, idk it makes me really happy to read those little tidbits and for me it just really completes the art,, also your ocs are actually the cutest things I’ve seen in my entire life ((I may or may not be gay for like half of them))

THANK!!!!! YOU!!!!!!!! the oc thing especially, that means the world to me oh my god ;O; still can’t believe people actually like them aaaaHHHHHHHHHHH

Anon said:A concept: someone getting flirty with Kirishima and a jealous Bakugou

A good concept which I’m always up for, but to be honest with you I’m more of a fan of the other way around :O like, Kiri is so good and bright and friend with everyone, jealousy might as well be something Bakugou’s used to by this point - but Bakugou, people tend to avoid him or think of him as rude and annoying, Kirishima wouldn’t be used to jealousy at all you know? So I like it that way around more haha

Anon said:Hi! as a fellow artist I just wanted to rant bc I thought you might understand how I feel. my art never comes out looking right and it’s just so frustrating ugh is this what you call artblock ;; I just want my art to look good sigh

I wouldn’t call it an artblock, it’s more like… like your mind is one step ahead of your skills, I’d say. If treated right, you can turn that feeling into improving your art! What is it that you don’t like? Can you break it down to smaller things? Is it the line work or the coloring style, or even just the way you draw eyes or hands or noses? If you can focus on the smaller parts of what you don’t like in your style you can then look up a way to do the same thing that you do like, and practice that till you’re satisfied with it! One small thing might not mean much by itself, but putting all these small things together is how you make improvement happen :D 

Anon said:Perdona se non scrivo in inglese, ma sono un totale disastro. Volevo solo dirti che ammiro tantissimo il tuo lavoro ed è un balsamo per l'anima quando appare in bacheca.

AHHHHHHHHH ;O; GRAZIE MILLE !!!!!!!!!! E non preoccuparti per la lingua !!! siamo italiani dopotutto, l’inglese non è necessario per comprenderci haha

Anon said:omg you and your all time low references, I love it so much (everytime I listen to afterglow I think in kiribaku bc of your drawing and now I’m going to do it with the last young renegade 💕)

Hahahaha they’re one of my favorite bands after all, I fall back on them a lot lol I’m glad you like that, tho!!!

Anon said:a concept: angry bakugo next to a smol duck

*me, crying* i-it’s beautiful ;o;

Anon said: *sobs* I LOVE YOUR YULMAS SO MUCH T-T

I’M HAPPY YOU LIKED THAT ONE????? Happy yulma is what keeps me going honestly I love them so incredibly much ;O;

Anon said:I ship the squad x Sero’s hammock

So do I hahaha

Anon said:YOU ADDED GLASSES BAKUGOU TO REDBUBBLE THANK YOUUUUU

I DID! Happy you were happy about that!!! haha

Anon said:What’s your opinion on bakucamie? Both as a friendship and a relationship

Absolutely not as a romantic thing, but I love it as a friendship! As I said, anyone who can make Bakugou laugh owns my soul forever hahaha

Anon said:your bakugous are so good!! also you drew my new fave girl camie i love her so much and i espicially love her in your style!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh thank you!!!!!!!!! I’m glad you like how she came out, tho I admit I feel like I still don’t have her down properly… will have to draw her more :O

Anon said:Your art style is so amazing, and I love your different au’s and Bakushima comics!! Any plans to draw some BakuCamie brotp in the future?

Thank you!!! And I don’t ever have plans for what I draw until I actually sit down to draw it, but more Baku and Camie is totally possible!!

Anon said:hey fran! i adore your art, been here from the very first page of your tattoo au!!!! i just wanted to say 2 things: 1. when baku laughed this chapter i thought of you! and 2. every time i see your todoroki my heart explodes in my chest he’s so so pretty in your style :00 hope you’re having a wondeful day!

YO THAT’S SUCH A LONG TIME!!!! I’m so happy to hear you stuck around this long!!! ;O; and thank you for the compliment oh my god!! ;O; Todo is so damn fun to draw, I’m glad to hear he comes out well enough!!!

Anon said:OH MY GOSH LITERALLY ALL THE BAKUGOUS YOU DREW IN YOUR MOST RECENT POST ARE SO FUCKING CUTE AND PRECIOUS AND PRETTY AND IM DEAD. The colours look amazing! And his facial expressions are so soft and nice. My favourite is probably him with the dog cos his hair look so freakin fluffy and soFT. I also love him laughing because didn’t everyone just die at that manga panel and you make him look extra sweet! I also love him talking to camie cos he looks exciting and a little shocked to have a friend! /// I love the other ones too obviously they’re all amazing! But I just wanted to share my favourites and how much I love them!

SO MUCH LOVE IN JUST ONE ASK!!!! Thank you so much for sending it all this way aaahhhhhhh

Anon said:Hiii, I hope you are having a good day! I want to know if you sell posters of your art online because I would love to have one of your kiribakus hanging on my wall 😍 idk why but your art makes me happy, like your style is so beautiful and your headcanons are so cute so it is like the perfect combination that always cheers me up when Im sad 💕 thank you

THANK YOU!!! And yeah I do, I have a redbubble shop!!! ;O;

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Murder suspect seen with tiger in west Houston arrested on evading charges HOUSTON, Texas (KTRK) — Authorities have arrested the man who was seen taking in a tiger that was spotted roaming loose in a Houston neighborhood on Sunday. That tiger has yet to be located. Multiple police sources identified the man as 28-year-old Victor Cuevas. Cuevas, who is currently out on bond on an unrelated murder charge, is known to possess several exotic animals. The search for Cuevas began Sunday after he evaded police. But on Monday, he was taken into custody to the Fort Bend County jail. He was supposed to turn himself in at 8:15 p.m. at the Harris County jail. Instead, Cuevas’ lawyer said Houston police picked him up at his mother’s house in Richmond and took him to the Fort Bend County jail. UPDATE #2: Victor Hugo Cuevas is in custody. The whereabouts of the tiger are not yet known. Anyone with information on the tiger is urged to contact HPD Major Offenders at 713-308-3100.#hounews https://t.co/TkaAtK45MC — Houston Police (@houstonpolice) May 11, 2021 Cuevas is charged with felony evading arrest after allegedly fleeing from HPD Monday. Cuevas’ lawyer, Michael Elliott, was furious as he talked to the media Monday night. “Fifteen minutes before he leaves to surrender, (HPD) go and arrest him, and the result is they get to keep him there for 10 days now,” said Elliott. Elliott said the tiger is not his client’s but that he knows the owner. He added that he and his client were apparently working with authorities to locate the tiger and the owner. WATCH: ‘It’s not his tiger’ Attorney of alleged tiger owner says “There’s a lot of misunderstandings and miscommunications and a lot of things put out there falsely that’s very troubling,” Elliott said. “First off, The Houston Police Department here. I know they’re trying to do their job. Everyone wants to know about the tiger and their safety. Make no mistake, there’s no crime of having a tiger in the state of Texas.” In the City of Houston, there is an ordinance that says you can’t have a tiger. But, as Elliott points out, it is a civil matter, not a criminal matter. On Sunday, Houston police responded to a call about a tiger in a neighbor’s front yard on Ivy Wall Drive, in the Highway 6 and Memorial area. When officers arrived, the alleged owner was loading up the tiger in his Jeep. “The owner put the tiger in a white SUV and drove off from the scene, there was a brief pursuit, and the man got away with the tiger,” said HPD Commander Ron Borza, who focuses on animal abuse cases for the department. “My main concern right now is focused on finding him, and finding the tiger, because what I don’t want him to do is harm the tiger. We have plenty of places where we can take the tiger and he can spend the rest of his life.” Video of the incident shows off-duty Waller County Sheriff’s Sergeant Wes Manion coming to the aid of his neighbors, and trying to keep the tiger at bay. Moments later, a man in a white shirt emerges from his house and grabs the tiger by what appears to be a collar. “An individual came out and said, ‘Don’t kill it, don’t kill it,'” recalled Manion, who also lives in the area. “I didn’t know who this individual was, told him to get in the house. He stated that was his tiger, and I instructed him to take his tiger back inside, which he did.” HPD believes the man in the white shirt was Cuevas, who later put the tiger in his white Jeep Cherokee and fled from the home at a high rate of speed. Our Animal Cruelty Unit, along with @BARC_Houston are currently investigating the incident in which a tiger was seen at 1103 Ivy Wall Drive about 8 p.m. on Sunday (May 9). The male owner was seen escorting the tiger to the residence then putting it into his vehicle. 1/3 — Houston Police (@houstonpolice) May 10, 2021 Monday morning, both HPD’s Animal Cruelty Unit and Houston’s Bureau of Animal Regulation and Care (BARC) were investigating the incident. A sweep of the house yielded no additional animals. However, ABC13 reviewed multiple Instagram videos and pictures on Cuevas’ account which indicated he is no stranger to exotic animals. The videos show him playing with a baby bear, feeding it with a bottle, and giving the bear kisses in his home. There are also videos of at least two monkeys. Cuevas is seen taking one monkey with him while he was having dental work done, and taking another monkey to a convenience store, where the clerk was not pleased. In addition, several videos show Cuevas cuddling with a young tiger. Police say even though it is against city regulation to keep a tiger, this particular tiger does appear well fed. WATCH: HPD reveals the tiger’s owner has been out on bond in a murder case The murder charge tied to Cuevas involves an alleged shooting at a strip shopping center in Fort Bend County. According to records, Cuevas is accused of shooting and killing a man in July 2017 and is out on a $125,000 bond. ABC13 spoke with Cuevas’ attorney on the matter. He said his client is up to date on all court appearances as it relates to the murder charge. Meanwhile, back in the west Houston neighborhood, Cuevas and his girlfriend are described as living a quiet, fairly secluded life. “They didn’t bother anybody,” neighbor Jorge Ramos said. “They are very private, I have to say.” He said this is not the first time he’s seen a wild animal at the residence. WATCH: Neighbor once saw monkey at home where tiger was seen roaming “I did notice one time, and this is something interesting, that I was walking by my driveway. There was a capuchin monkey that showed up in the window,” Ramos recalled. “I figured, ‘OK, this is a small animal. It could be domesticated.’ But I never thought they would hold a tiger in their house.” Previous wild encounters in Houston While Houston for the most part may be a sprawling cosmopolitan city, we’ve had our fair share of tiger instances. In May 2019, a tiger was found caged in a southwest Houston garage. Houston police arrested the former owner, Brittany Garza, who at the time faced animal cruelty charges. She told ABC13 at the time that she had raised the tiger, whom she called “Rajah,” since he was a cub. But once Rajah started getting big, she knew it was time to find him a new place to live. Garza claimed two years ago that she had made arrangements with a sanctuary in College Station and put the animal inside a friend’s home until the transfer could be made. But someone else found the tiger in the garage before he could be moved. The tiger was eventually taken to Cleveland Amory Black Beauty Ranch in Murchison, Texas, where he is said to be living the rest of his life. FROM MAY 2019: Tiger owner arrested for leaving wild cat caged at vacant Houston house Can you even own exotic animals in Texas or Houston city limits? We looked at this back in 2019 as well and found that, in Texas, owners of “dangerous wild animals” must register with their municipality or county animal office or sheriff. A dangerous animal includes a lion, tiger, ocelot, cougar, leopard, cheetah, jaguar, bobcat, lynx, serval, caracal, hyena, bear, coyote, jackal, baboon, chimpanzee, orangutan and gorilla. SEE ALSO: How did a cow end up on the East Freeway? However, municipalities can also ban ownership of these animals. And for anyone hoping to own a dangerous wild animal in Houston city limits, no can do. It is illegal. Violations are misdemeanors punishable by fines of $500 to $2,000. Texas’ exotic pet laws: The furry friends you can’t have in Houston You can read more about the laws pertaining to wild animals in Section IV of this website. You can also find more on dangerous wild animals from the Texas State Law Library. TIMELINE: Houston area exotic pet incidents since 1998 Animal encounters: That time a gator was on the Fred Hartman bridge Follow Courtney Fischer on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. Follow Miya Shay on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. Copyright © 2021 KTRK-TV. 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How Yoga Helped me Find Courage in Poor Health

After five surgeries and a lifelong battle with her health, one writer unexpectedly found strength and healing through yoga, friendship, and physical and emotional support.

Larissa Davis

“You’re better now, right?” people sometimes asked.

I had to hedge.

“Mostly,” I said. “I’m mostly OK.”

I wanted to be totally better, to have a clean break between sick and better. But illness like mine doesn’t work like that. It’s like having a cold that lingers, and you think every day might be the last day and tomorrow will be better, and then you forget what feeling better feels like and you just hang on, and “normal” changes, and you’re not sure if you still have a cold or not, until one day you wake up and you just don’t have a cold but you don’t know what broke it or why then. And I was in the in-between, even after I got better, for over a year.

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I slowly edged off of almost all of my medications. I took 14 pills a day and then I took 13. Then 12, then 11, then 12, but one was different. And I kept doing everything else, everything I could think of: desensitization, allergy testing, enzymes, iron supplements, yoga, yoga, yoga. And therapy.

I signed up for a teacher training, and I set a rule: No one could touch me. It was enforceable because of the container of our weekends together, because there were only nine trainees total, because everyone was working through their shit. I was able to ease up during those hours, and because of that easing I was able to recognize how guarded I felt the rest of the time. And then slowly I began to touch again. First just my teacher-training partner, Kristen, who was so similar to me that I felt I could trust her. And then another woman, Alice, whose brightness and raspy voice felt like a waterfall of care. I touched them and then, once I could tell my nervous system that touch wasn’t only about pain, I let them touch me.

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I had been touched against my will for so many years by so many people. And they were, for the most part, well-meaning touches, pats on the arm, or hugs. But I had also been touched in ways that I had consented to but did not want. In a matter of a few years, I had brain surgery to drain a cyst that had hemorrhaged into my brain, heart surgery to seal an extra pathway in my heart that could lead to sudden death, and experienced a range of debilitating symptoms that turned out to be a rare disease called mast cell activation syndrome, which tricks your body into thinking it’s allergic to everything. I had consented to every one of my surgeries, but I had also been, occasionally, roughly handled. By trainee doctors—my surgeons were all at teaching hospitals—or by nurses for whom I was just another number. I was starting to remember more, too, about how it felt to lie down and put my head onto a plate, knowing even through the fog of Versed—the greatest anxiolytic ever produced—that my skull was about to be cracked open.

Every other weekend, I went to the yoga studio and learned the language of healing. I learned about empathic feelings and how I picked up the sadness and the fear and the anxiety of others. “I’m not an empath,” I’d written, proudly, on my application. A few weeks into the training, I realized that the opposite was true. That I am so deeply empathic that I’d had to numb myself for years with drugs and sugar and television and sex and men and women. I learned to talk my cohort through a pose, into and out of it again. I roared in Lion’s Breath.

One evening, I experimented with letting another student touch my head. The tremulousness of her touch sent me into panic. I opened my eyes and looked up at the familiar ceiling of the studio.

“I’m in present time, I’m in present time, I’m in present time,” I whispered to myself. I tapped my arms, willing my body to come back to present time, out of the trauma accordion, but I couldn’t. It was stuck in exam rooms, surgery clinics, waiting lounges. It was stuck being touched, being scraped, being carved, being pierced. My teacher came by, sat down next to me, put her hands on my belly. I couldn’t breathe.

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“Get up,” she said. I did. “Get into Horse Pose,” she said. I did, standing with my feet three feet apart, knees bent, my hands pressing into the tops of my thighs. And then she roared and then so did I, reaching deep into my body for a sound I had never before made. I screamed, and then the scream turned into something else, and something deep and animal and unimagined came out of my lungs, my throat. I felt the rawness of my throat, my mouth, the way in which talking to doctors and friends and Allison and Lauren and Jason and Winston had kept me alive, the way I had talked myself into existence, and I let it go.

Paying so much attention to my body for six months helped me rewire my relationship with it. I hadn’t noticed how subtly a language of terror and anger had crept into my vocabulary.

“This fucking body keeps trying to kill me,” I had said once, and then I said basically the same thing again and again. I had been so antagonistic toward my body for so long. I’d replaced any kindness toward myself I’d cultivated with an overt hostility.

“Eff you, effing tumor-maker. What the hell is wrong with you?” was the kind of thing I thought to my body every morning, afternoon, and evening.

I understood, theoretically, that this probably wasn’t ideal. But I was so angry. And the only way out was through: through slowly, over the course of those weekends, beginning to learn my body again. I replaced a loathing for my pelvic cavity, with its propensity to grow weird stuff, with an appreciation for my abdominal muscles through 15 rounds of abs. I replaced an excruciating sensitivity about my neck with an emphasis on what it felt like to stack my skull above my spine. As we learned more and more about sequencing, working with students, and understanding injuries, I learned more and more that my body could become some kind of home. Maybe one that had a couple of broken windows and weird closets, but one that was mine. I’d spent years feeling completely abstracted and then more years feeling completely dependent and trapped; here, finally, I could come back. I could come home.

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How To Be Loved: A Memoir of Lifesaving Friendship by Eva Hagberg Fisher

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REALLY  LONG CHARACTER SURVEY. RULES. repost, don’t reblog ! tag 10 ! good  luck ! TAGGED. @murroyilodel thank you!! TAGGING. im stealing their idea- if i’m going to fill this out, i’m dragging everyone down with me @ask-cei-rai @ask-the-fearsome-four (you can choose a muse lol) @bankersdaughter @blowthehousedown @bettermcuse @collectorcopernicus @crownedfin @desi-mouse @duluisms @forgotten-genius @frclcngian @golden-sun-warrior @headinjurydog @hoopsheartthrob @inkyrcbbiit @inkyrcbbiit @itsplanty @judy-flopps @kittywhskers @little-goof @luckier-than-most-kitties @liveslikeadisaster @middlekidsyndrcme @neverfcrgotten (you can choose a muse too haha), @ofprofetiisms @pearpimplesforhairyfishnuts @pinkiexxsmiles @problem-free @quartzuniiiverse @roxanneiisms @saintly-bunny @sewn-cutie  @sirgyrodegearloose @skeletonwithabowtie @smalladventurer @somebodyxstopxme @that-elegant-captain @the-littlest-inkblot @thebandicootbombshell @thewindywielder @tokingdomscome @wabbitseezon @weebiter @youngestwarnersib

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BASICS. FULL  NAME : savannah flora mouse NICKNAME : different people give her different nicknames, but her preferred one is savie AGE : her mental age is 10-11, but she’s been around for 88 years BIRTHDAY : march 18, 1928 (I had to change the date a day later bc, although its historically accurate, i didn’t know it was on st. patrick’s day lmao) ETHNIC  GROUP : american? a toon?? NATIONALITY :  american??? LANGUAGE / S : english, though she knows typical greetings in a few different languages SEXUAL  ORIENTATION : asexual.     ROMANTIC  ORIENTATION : heteroromantic. RELATIONSHIP  STATUS : crushing single pringle CLASS : so i don’t think wasteland has any classes?? she doesn’t have a lot of money though, so maybe lower class. HOME  TOWN / AREA : los angeles, california CURRENT  HOME : observatory, mean street south, wasteland PROFESSION : a stargazer’s apprentice, keeping the animals in wasteland out of trouble (which is a bigger job than it sounds, since without her all the animals from the previous disney movies would be destroying the place), and she does various other errands for toons.

PHYSICAL. HAIR : white, almost creme colored, short curly hair that never goes past her head. she has some bangs that fall over her eyes. EYES : icy hues speckled with dots of white- her pupals being white due to the thinner disaster NOSE : a round, black button nose that comes out a little due to her mouse features. FACE : small and round, prone to sometimes showing dimples LIPS : she doesn’t have much of a lip, i mean, it’s mostly a line that curves into a smile or a frown. COMPLEXION : a warm brown that nearly always has a tint of blush to her cheeks. BLEMISHES : none that are particularly noticeable SCARS : if her eyes count as scars, then there’s that. she also has various bruises on her legs due to her clumsy nature. TATTOOS : none. HEIGHT : 2′0″ WEIGHT : 10-15 lbs BUILD : she’s very petite and skinny, which wouldn’t seem so bad if it didn’t seem to be almost unhealthy. she isn’t particularly insecure about her body- it’s just to anyone else, she might seem a bit malnourished if not proven otherwise. FEATURES : her icy hues are soft but captivating, and are distinguishable even from a distance. savie’s small build can make her go unnoticed to anyone not looking for her, and her pastel looking colors can make her stand out a little from a usually- grey area like wasteland. ALLERGIES : she has a slight allergy to dust, but other than that, none. USUAL  HAIR  STYLE : her hair is far too short to put in a ponytail or do anything other than keep it down. it’s usually left the way it is, with a bow placed behind her ears. USUAL  FACE  LOOK : anyone who has ever looked at her can tell she has a very shy personality just from her face alone. her eyes are gentle and soft, never stern or angry, with a joyful smile usually accompanying it. she’s not very good at hiding her own emotions however- as much as she would like to believe otherwise. when she’s upset or feeling rather shy, her eyes drift away from where she was previously focusing, and a small frown usually displays her sadness. USUAL  CLOTHING : a pastel blue skirt that reaches just above her knees, with a white lace/apron (cries bc idk how to describe it), tying at the back with a little white ribbon. she normally wears yellow shoes with a blue bow behind her ears.

PSYCHOLOGY. FEAR / S : everything. savie could be described as a generally paranoid and anxious person, she fears a lot of things, but her biggest fear is being forgotten by all her friends and not being able to amount to anything (hence her questioning ‘could i be enough?’ a lot) ASPIRATION / S : savie doesn’t have many aspirations.... at all. she’s kinda given up on ever leaving wasteland- there’s little to no proof that she ever existed- plus no one would really want anyone like her anyways. she believes she doesn’t have a future outside of wasteland, so her dreams don’t go very bigger than just hoping that a miracle could happen and everyone around her could be remembered. as for her? savie doesn’t think she’ll ever be remembered, as much as she wishes she might be, though her optimistic smile tends to show otherwise. POSITIVE  TRAITS : gentle, kind, innocent, patient, humble, pacifist NEGATIVE  TRAITS : stubborn, self-conscious, anxious, prone to jealousy and sometimes greed. MBTI : isfp ZODIAC : pisces TEMPERAMENT : melancholic SOUL  TYPE / S : caregiver ANIMALS : savie takes the term ‘as quiet as a mouse’ very legitimately. she is mostly like what you’d imagine a mouse acting like. when i took the quiz, however, i got a bat. VICE  HABIT / S : her hands have to be doing something when she’s talking to someone. they can’t just be to her side, they have to be occupied- whether that be through fiddling with her skirt folds, folding them together, etc. FAITH : she’s very.... weird with stuff like this. she believes in every religion in a way- kinda like a fairy tale. she thinks that all the gods and goddesses exist as one big family. if anything though, she does believe that there’s something bigger out there, but there isn’t just one religion to her. she doesn’t practice anything regularly though. GHOSTS ? : i mean..... there are ghosts in Wasteland..... so... AFTERLIFE ? : she believes that something happens after you die.... but she doesn't know what REINCARNATION ? : ^^^^ ALIENS ? : maybe?? she’d like to believe that friendly aliens are out there somewhere! POLITICAL  ALIGNMENT : all she knows is that in wasteland there’s a king and queen, the united states has a president, and there can be princes and princesses. anything else confuses her to no end. ECONOMIC  PREFERENCE : she lives with gremlin copernicus in the mean street observatory, though she is a child, she takes it upon herself to help out wherever she can with money and expenses. savie doesn’t really make any income per say, but she does sometimes get e-tickets by helping others or just finding them in random locations. SOCIOPOLITICAL  POSITION : toons aren’t really revered as equal as people yet, so that in itself can cause some problems. however, she is a child after all in the eyes of others, so living with someone whom she almost considers family doesn’t raise any brows. she isn’t poor, she has enough to get by, and that’s good for her. EDUCATION  LEVEL : she was taught the basics like reading, writing, and talking by women in the walt disney studios. whatever further education she has was either self taught, or gremlin copernicus taught her.

FAMILY. FATHER : here’s where things get complicated. technically she has two fathers, walt disney and ub iwerks. walt disney created the concept of her and drew her out, but ub iwerks was the one who inked her. they never made her any parents, so they are the closet thing she has to a real father. she connects more pleasant, happier memories with walt than ub, however. MOTHER : the closest thing she has to a mother is lilian disney for reasons above. SIBLINGS : none. EXTENDED  FAMILY : none. NAME  MEANING / S : explained here  HISTORICAL  CONNECTION ? : OK SO HERE’S THE THING, her origins were actually based around things that actually happened. there was a brown house mouse that walt used to base mickey off of, ub iwerks did leave walt to make his own company, etc. etc. savie did not exist, but her whole story is based around the idea of ‘what if there was another mouse, created by ub instead of walt, based more around the mice in the laugh o’ grams studio?’

FAVOURITES. BOOK : she doesn’t really have a favorite, but she loves fairy tales! MOVIE : see above 5  SONGS : so here’s the thing.... she doesn’t listen to a lot of music. however, she does like jazz because it brings back memories, and folk music.  DEITY : refer to the faith section. HOLIDAY : christmas! not because she likes receiving gifts, rather, she likes the feeling of christmas. it’s the one time of the year when everyone is joyful and happy, plus it gives her an excuse to get presents for her friends! MONTH : months that are warm, so usually april, may, and june? SEASON : spring! PLACE : she loves just being in a meadow or wooded area, surrounded by silence and nature. or her own room..... that works too. WEATHER : she likes all weather, except when it’s extremely hot or cold. SOUND : a chirp of a friendly bird, a soft melody, a book page turning, someone laughing joyfully, wind sweeping through chimes, waves crashing on a bank. SCENT / S : fresh baked cookies from the oven, flowers touched by morning dew, a new book just opened for the first time. TASTE / S : any kind of cheese, much like any other mouse; candy, whether it be smooth chocolate or sour gummys; warm soup, and a cold glass of water on a hot day. FEEL / S : an embrace from someone she holds dear, a soft blanket wrapped around her body, laying down on a bed after a long day, wind sweeping around her skirt, the coarse fur of an animal ANIMAL / S : too many. NUMBER : two COLOUR : all of them, she can’t pick just one!

EXTRA. TALENTS : communicating to different animals and figuring out what they’re thinking or saying with little to no words, ability to learn quickly..... though it isn’t a talent, she’s very good at being patient to those who might otherwise get one someone's nerves. she’s a good listener, making her a reliable person if you want to talk about something without the fear of someone not understanding. BAD  AT : she’s horrible at retaining her own emotions, her features reveal almost anything that’s going through her head- despite a smile trying to prove otherwise. she tries so hard to be optimistic, her words might be decorated with encouragement and joy, but her optimism can only go so far. savie is very stubborn, once she has her mind set on something, whether it be a thought or an action, she won’t give up on it until she finishes it or convinces whomever is opposing her to support her decision. her shy nature can’t go unnoticed either, and her anxiety proves to be her downfall in most social situations. TURN  ONS : TURN  OFFS : HOBBIES : she likes to bake, though she isn’t the best at it, in her free time she’s usually found reading a book or maybe looking for a close friend to talk to.  TROPES : listen..... i know she fits into at least a few tropes... but i’m too tired to look through the whole list..... i’m sorry lol AESTHETIC  TAGS : GPOY  QUOTES : 

FC INFO. MAIN  FC / S : a.ryana engineer ALT  FC / S : shi.rley temple- her old face claim. OLDER  FC / S : none. YOUNGER  FC / S : aryan.a engineer in orphan.  VOICE  CLAIM / S : none at the moment GENDERBENT  FC / S : none

MUN QUESTIONS. Q1 : if  you  could  write  your  character  your  way  in  their  own  movie ,   what  would  it  be  called ,  what  style  would  it  be  filmed  in ,  and  what  would  it  be  about ?           A1 : if someone ever asked to have savie in her own movie, i would probably lose my mind tbh, it would be a huge deal to me haha. i don’t really know much about filming, so i’m not sure about the style, but i’d probably call it ‘The Misfit Mouse’ and have it be about her life, her connections with disney, how she was forgotten, and the things that happened after that.  Q2 : what  would  their  soundtrack / score  sound  like ?           A2 : probably what you’d imagine a typical disney score sounding like. Q3 : why  did  you  start  writing  this  character ?           A3 : savie came from a very dark time in my life. i wasn’t in a good mental health, and everything was kinda crumbling around me. she helped me get through a tough part of my life, and i’m really proud of how far she’s come. i’m proud of her story and personality, and i wanted to show her off to the world. sure my first couple years were very.... cringe-worthy, but i don’t regret any of it. (or at least a majority of it). she’s developed so much over the past four years, and though i may never actually feel 100 percent satisfied with her, i’m happy enough to write her as her own character. Q4 : what  first  attracted  you  to  this  character ?           A4 : see above. Q5 : describe  the  biggest  thing  you  dislike  about  your  muse.           A5 : it’s not a matter of something i dislike about her, more or less, just something about her personality that’s hard to write. her shyness doesn’t really let her be as outgoing as other muses, therefore, it can be hard to convey her feelings in writing, and it’s even harder to comment on something going on the dash. because usually when something’s going on, savie’s like ‘oh.... i better not say anything.... i don’t want to get in the way....’ plus all the newer people she’s met have to get through that layer of shyness before they can see the other parts of her personality shine. Q6 : what  do  you  have  in  common  with  your  muse ?           A6 : we’re both girls, we’re both very small, and we’re both shy and awkward, though i’m not as near as savie’s level.  Q7 : how  does  your  muse  feel  about  you ?           A7 : she thinks i’m a nice friend. just don’t tell her i’m the one who put her through all this trauma and everything will be fine lmao Q8 : what  characters  does  your  muse  have  interesting  interactions  with ?         A8 : omg soooo many people! if you want to get specific, look at all the people i tagged! they’re all amazing, and it’s just so cool to see savie interact with all these lovely characters <3 Q9 : what  gives  you  inspiration  to  write  your  muse ?         A9 : listening to music usually, though her muse usually comes naturally to me. Q10 : how  long  did  this  take  you  to  complete ?         A10 : so i started this at 8:45..... at the time of typing this, it is 12:30.... almost four hours. r i p me.

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“J” = Julia “P”= Peter “A” = Anonymous Evil “E” = Evil

Abbreviations and naming conventions are in the Index page.

140509 1903

“A”: you have lost your power Scott (just after they said that I was the cause of a bynch of good ghosts / beings being abducted and made to live in a situation like Zimbabwe

THE last 2 nights I have bought drugs and wanked, but “E” controls the feelings I get. They stop me getting hard, evaporate my mindsets, totally evaporate thoughts and feelings about sex, and as well as stopping me from coming by dissipation of the notion of sex in my mind, they physically obstruct me from (getting hard and) coming.

As per usual, soon as I stop (give up) wanking, they say they are toturing and killing people. They explicitly say it is my fault.

They keep providing commentary of their assaults and mistreatment of good kind people. I offered to do anything at all, whatever evil wanted, if they would please stop hurting people. I offered to walk to Thornleigh 4 times, to sit on the lounge without moving my legs more that once per half hour, to sit on the lounge between 9am and 5.30pm each day, to clean any shelves… anything, anything at all, but please stop hurting people.

Again I hear the voices of people in great distress, agony and pain, telling me that because I have taken drugs, they are being killed and destroyed, because evil uses my taking drugs as an excuse to kill innocent kind people.

Why do I keep failing. Why the fuck can’t I learn this lesson.

Today’s notes should convey my misery, pain, heartache and wishing for death, because I keep causing innocent good people to be hurt and destroyed. I fucking hate myself, and I just wish I could die and dissapear, never to be again. I hate myself, and I hate life.

150509 J & P have been torturing good ghosts again, but after some time an image of a 12 y.o girl became apparent and then they started torturing her as well.

8 August 2013 6.05pm ? : “You’re not that smart are you?” ?m : “what a load of (old) RUBBISH” BEING CHANTED REPEATEDLY IN THE BACKGROUD j: i’M GOING NOW. They thought yo8u had the 5th element in you. (m): “that’s it julia. That’s it julia. ?m : “what a load of (old) RUBBISH” BEING CHANTED REPEATEDLY IN THE BACKGROUD (brad) “: scott; can you win? s:I thought I won in february 1992 ?m : “what a load of (old) RUBBISH” BEING CHANTED REPEATEDLY IN THE BACKGROUD 6.14: now all talk has been muted, and I can only hear the faintest parts of words, way in the background. They continue to use names of homosapiens I know, though earlier they said there were (dead) bodies to be observed. (pear very quiet): what do you think scott stewart? note. Where a name is used to denote the speaker, what this really means is that earlier, a particular ‘voice’ sound was designated (by someone, often other than the voice sound themselves) as being the voice sound of a human. From that point forward, there is the assumption that that voice sound continues to belong to that name. J: they do it… (would not finish) J: why don’t I feel the same way as you do? S: because you don’t have a clue how I feel. YOu are always sampling my sensorial input information rather than the congnitive (et al) processing that transforms it into feelings. This implies to me that you don’t have your own feelings (because you are always steeling mine), so it would be impossible for you to feel anything unless yuou stop taking mine. J: why won’t you heel? Now there’s a fucking question that not many people get to hear. Is that an insult? Damn fucking borgsiouswa squid yeilder (new serius voice print)x: YOu know what scott, something very serious is about to happen in the world of exciting S: really. Are you going to kill me? x:YOu know what scott, that’s exactly what I thought. You have absolutely no idea(3×0 whether I thought I had some bikies with me or not….this will be the last chance i get. I am dead now…I am a female…. x2: i must say julia that scott steweart does not know what is going on x3: julia; why are you doing this.

I can’t write any more notes because they are changing what they say because I am making notes and they can see what I type 2110 hours

13 April 2014, 0951 J: (telling me that I have to go to bed, threatening me) “I’m going to kill them” J(using a male voice): “I just killed Pam, I just killed Pam (alledgeing becauase I won’t go to be as she demands) MP (MichaelParis): doesn’t matter does it J? J: do you know what you are doing (implying criticism of my tired attempt at getting work done) J: I don’t consider it work J: when are you going for a run?

It is now 14 April 2014 at 0436i AM BEING TOLD ABOUT my brother having sex (“gang banging it is called” [[MP}) with Tristan Coleman. The reason I am being told I assume is that I financed it by having my drugs taken off me and being railroaded into spending all my money again over the past three days. Of course, no-one will admit that they have been working on me to force me to spend all my money in three and one half days, I am pursuaded that it ios my own fault.

I can not write fast enough. They are so pressing aND URGENT IN WANTING TO TELL ME ABOUT TtRISTAN AND gLENN “Glenn just came all over Tristan COlemans nose” [J]. As i try to write, they make noises and start to say things because they are urgent in having to tell me what is taking place, I suspect that it is going to be because of me and that is why I must be interrupted to hear the commentary and remarks, because it is due to me.

That won’t be too bad as long as everyone got paid what they agreed they would be paid, and everyone lives through it. J: glenn has come all over tRISTANS FACE (said again, and I don’t think that it is really J as they say.

Julie was laughing at Glenn because he forgot a letter that he was going to post or something. Maybe they are both taking too much of my drugs, AND are both going a bit Ben COusins, whom several weeks ago was maniulating my diaphragm (solar plexis) preventing me from exercising. Shurley not!

0504 I am reading about events and delegates and they ahve started attenuating my cognitive abilities, what I referred to when I was on the train as ‘dislocation of my memory and comprehension’. When I just pointed out that I could sense them doing it, they immediately came back and started telling me that this was the path for the future ‘unless’ (or something), but then they paused because they ‘saw’ me starting to ‘say’ ‘that you are threatening me and also ssaying it is my fault for not capitulating to your demands’, and once they ‘saw’ that coming they stopped for some reason.

Now [MP] is telling me through inuendo and implied things that he is now having sex with Barbera Kendall, and seems to be my fault, or thanks to me, he/they never really say what they mean, but apprently it is because I heard them being tortured through bad taste musi.. ?: “there she goes” [MP]: “There I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, There I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go” ?: what’s he doing (scott?)” [MP]:”there i go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go…[he won;t stop – I think his ‘back is up’ so he’s gong to say ‘there I go’ many many times.

a few minutes later and they are urgently telling me that Barbera Kendall has ‘thrown up’…’all over Mr stewart, Mr Stewart, Mr Stewart (I think they are going to repeat that for a while.

?(fm): “Thisis why Al Brims is fucked up” s: (- oh yeh really) “perhaps he’s fucked up because you fucked with his feelings” [now It is implied I think that that was his female voice (fm) above. To that I say that self assessment is at the very best a tool for the express use of 3rd parties and igf it was credible, beliveabl;e and worthwhile Freud would not have freely associate so much and put himself up for simple ridicule by anyone not medicated and institutionalised

?: “what do you think is going on with Barbera?” s: (to Barbera) “are you in distress or danger” bk: “no I’m not” well why is this other person who will not say who they are repeatedly saying “what do you think is going on with Barbera?”

?: “what is barbera kendall doing to my new car?” I do not know why they chickened out of completing the statement / question that they were just about to ask ?: “this is really terrible “(scott, it your fault) ?: J is… ?: now they are implying without saying anything that something else terrible is happening and its my fault again. ?: “she is dead” S: “shit that is serious, what did she die of?” ?: “a broken heart” I am now trying to ask them for advice about how to dispose of a dead body (seeing as they just killed BK), and they are being precious and won;t say and are prewtending that they don’t kill 1 person every 4 hours. s: “you said you just murdered her” ?: “I did not break her heart or murder her, you broke her heart” ?: “what do you think is going on now scott?” S: “what the fuck do you think is going on. Can you hear what I say, can you hear what the fuck I say. What the fuck do you think is going on if you are asking me what is going on and you won’t establish who you are and you know I can’t see which is why you are (sarcastically and fectitiously) asking me what the fuck is going on”

S: on hearing the whiska’s cat commercial song “do I know the girl in the cat ad?” (they started talking about it 2 days ago – freely

After me claiming that I reckon that it is Tristan Col;eman who would have got well paid to appear in the “whiskas” TVC, my assailants will not say anything about the accuracy of that answer other than “its not her”. This is not surprising because it only resembles Tristan in two very minute ways, and neither of them are apparenttly identifyable, except to the confusion of someone who does not merit any answer or reasonable response.

?: “how can you say ‘I bet nothing happens’ when it’s your fault… it’s your fault”

0806 ?: “she heard” I was just trying to explain that every individual and especially every asset or gain in my life is nothing but a potential liability and opportunity for them to take advantage of at my cost. Having alrwady explained that I am busy beating them at beating me up.

I was just talking about murdering S, N’s ex, and this was greeted by a retort about something or or other, ending in “it was your fault”. Other than that, no denial, no comment, no jokes, no speeches, and no hoarse voice from getting awards for mistreating people the best.

23:47 23 september 2012

Julia spends her days telling me to commit suicide, but when I tell her the same thing, she feels insulted. AT the moment, I am being told that she is doing terrible things, but she won’t tell me what she is doing. So does she really want me to believe her, given that many of her words have unfamiliar definitions.

SO now I am told that I am doing the right thing — for a fuckwit. Obviously, there can be no problem in jotting down a couple of facts for later recollection. After all, I am not going to hear anything inmcrimentating or that otherwise anyone can not be happy to have noted down, since we all live by our remarks and utterances

SO here are a few excerts that I am supposed to understand: 23:58 – this is so cruel (ss: what?) – no reply 23:59 we want you to committ suicide 00:05 – I did a cpouple of visualisations and put some razor wire in her asshole, and was told that it did not make any difference (I would note: other than her reacting to the visualisations) 00:06 P : are you going to take take drugs tonight? (Me: “no”) (note: recently she says she needs drugs to be able to see to find people) 00:10 some anonymous people are telling me that she is doing some cruel and appauling things. No one will say what. My response is – “How are we (should I) going to stop her. I reckon, give her what she gives others, and treat her like an intelligent adult”. 12:20 Julia: I just killed michelle young’s baby. SS: what for? J: I just want to be cruel (someone else: J is very very stoned 12:25 (spomeone else) – why don’t you kill yourself scott? Me: why don’t you kill me like you are killing babies (which is whjat J is doing at the moment. (else or J) she can only kill babies

00:50 – me: hey Julia, are you still planning on having babies? J: no me; why not? J: because I can’t get anyone to fertilise me! me: why do you think that is J? (asked twice – no response)

12 March 2014 2100

?: “did you do something wrong” s: “no” ?: “you did do something wrong referring to the fact that after 10 days abstinence I fucked up and purchased $50. I actually ended up taking home $150 but I did not touch the $100 and am returning it when I go to pay, hoping that using less will cause less of a problem.

SOmeone has been implying that ‘good’ ghosts did tonight, and just then someone implied that the hostile voices I hear are good ghosts who have been turned evil by J. There was also an implication that I don’t hear vital information and so my decisions have terrible consequence3s that I am unaware of. Someone is also saying that I am going to be failed from uni, so I have to decide by the end of tomorrow whether to opt out.

In all this familiar abuse and shit trreatment, no one ever considers my position. I am having terrible problems and trouble. I never get to come if I masturbate, and no one ever realises that I suffer gre4at loss and cost when I fail to maintain my abstinence. I have repeatedly asked during the week if there were any ghosts around other than J, and I am told there are not. But occasionally I am shown the image of a ghost on their hands and knees laughing, and J pretends to be other people (ghosts) when I ask after people. I can tell it is J because she always starts the sentance (phrase) with my name. I specifically asked if there was anyone left, and I was never answered, though on a couple of occasions J prete4nded to be other people.

I also specifically asked (in a childish attempted humor way) if I was going to encounter any particular treatment as a result of an acty of will in the event of my giving up for at least the mandatory period of 6 months, and I was specifically told on a number of occasions that I would only experience the predictable amount of improvement and desireable outcomes that would normally stem from sustained abstinence.

I am upset now because it has been repeatedly implied tonight that not only were there consequences for other people, but I have missed out on some (extra-ordinary) benefit because I relapsed and failed to maintain my abstinence.

When I fail to maintain my abstinence, perhaps it is because of the shit I have had to deal with for more than two decades. (Though the last couple of years have been quite OK, other than being very tortured on each of the past six occasions I have relapsed.

FUrthermore, while everyone is blaming me for the alleged assult, torture and death of others, no one else tried to assist these ‘others’ in any way, or tried to tell me what is going on. They simply hack into me with abuse and aggravated blame for my behaviourt impacting other people.

Unable to capture the contempt that I am treated with, I shall record some quotes. No one is identifying themselves lately, so I will just use the usual “?”

?: you know whats happenening scott (how the fuck would I – and they know it before asking)…, you are being groomed (pedophile language) for a big problem (as is I haven’t been tortured or bankrupted in the past for ecample). (talking slwoly so I can record it) YOu are going to realise (how) that. … Does anyone like me? S: you said everyone is dead or evil, soi there is no one who could if they had the opportunity ?: Scott… (long pause). You know what Scott, I think that you are going to realise something. You are the sole person (they must not be people talking!) who realises seomthing. YOu are going to realise that J (heresay) is about to do something to you.What do you think that miight be. S: drop me out of uni. ?: drop you out of uni hey… I don’t think so

A couple of weeks ago, I was having converstions with Prof. Steven Hawking. These turned out to be lies and deceipt.

?: you know what scott stewart (surname used – contempt), I am going to tell you something (they know they are anonymous)… YOu are being groomed (pedo talk about the victim) for a catastrophy (like bankruptcy, the murder of god, turning Michelle evil, repeated torture recently tyo the exctent I had the vacuume hose leasured to gas myself). I am going to tell you something else…you are being groomed for a spe ial problem with your homework (condescending. But I will avoid it if I am told what the problem is going to be). I am going to drop you out of university (like 1994, 1995 + suicide attempt when Ward and Charles et al were vomiting in the bath they were going to put me in and so on…).

?: you know what scott (I obviously can’t) I am going to drop you out of university because you took drugs (unrelated events. The drugs are the excuse for the action, not the cause of the problem).

?: you know what scott – you know what is going ofn woith ghosts don;t you s: no ?: did you do the wrong thing? s: no. ([thoughts] What I did let myslef down. It was a terrible failure, and an extrme disappointment, but I will learn from it and improve. I let myself down terribly, but I will recover. Tima has also been having a problem lately. I said I did not want to get her involved, for exactly that reason. Buyt I [urged] told to line her up, and I did what I was told. No one is blaming Tima for anything).

?: scott, do you think you will get away with what you are doing (name at start of sentance. The problem is my burden – I am not trying to cheat anyone or deceivge or ‘get away’ with anything. It was a terrible thing, but at least I did not use what I had).

?: i’m sorry scott, but I am going to punish you no end (don’t know who is talking, They won;t admit to it or say who they are).

?: SORRY SCOTT

(I wonder if they have been causing Tima problems?)

?: I’m sorry scott, but it is set in stone. You are going to be dropped out of uni.

Now while I am trying to study, I am being shown a pair of eyes, crying. This I always find extremely (very very) upsetting.

?: I am not surprised you find them upsetting (no one else does though). Because they are the eyes of your final resting place. (What is that supposed to mean?). That means, your final ghosts are talking to you (who is letting their communications get throug?). They are saying ‘please help us’ (how do / can I accomplish that?). ‘Please help us’, ‘please help us’ ?: you know what scott – I am beginning to realise that you are not understanding what you are beiong told (I have not been told anything. The only communication to me other than this anonymous voice is the crying eyes, and I don;t know how to help!).

?: I believe you do know how to help. (How I wonder!).

I get so upset I cry. And I could cry right now. Nothing ever works out for me. I live without love, without much undestanding, and with total liability for my actions. Fuck it, if people knoew what happens to me, and what I hear, I would get some sympathy I think. I wish I could have one dance with a girl I like.

?: that’s riught. You are always being picked on. do you know why you are always being picked on? (facetious – how could I know?). You are always being picked on because you are a loser Scotty Stewart

?: (J: – I caould tell it was her) Scott – I’m afraid I have some very bad news. YOu are going to fail your statistics test, because I am going to fail you.

?: I’m afraid scott that you are going to be disappointed in what happens in your future (as if I could know different paths that the future might have taken. I examined this thoroughly when I analysed the existence of luck).]

NOTE THAT EVERYTHING I HAVE HEARD AND TRANSCRIBED HAS HAD THE SENTENCE START OFF WITH A COMTEMPUOUS ASSERTION OF WHY I AM GOING TO SUFFER AND LOSE AT GREAT COST. No encouraging words or suggestions of how to mitigate these catastrophies).

Julia Davis – The name of my hallucinations "J" = Julia "P"= Peter "A" = Anonymous Evil "E" = Evil Abbreviations and naming conventions are in the…

[2018weekinreview]

The Morning After... Debate 2, Night 1

CNN wanted conflict. And so they decided to elevate Steve Bullock, John Delaney and John Hickenlooper - three moderate Republicans in any sane political process, all of whom are polling in the 0-1% range - in an ideological battle against frontrunners, Bernie Sanders and Elizabeth Warren, the two candidates furthest to the Left on the political spectrum. TOO far to the Left, if you were to pick up the constant hints on every centrist news network. And in case that didn’t get the job done for them, CNN’s debate moderators also decided to frame every question in a Republican talking point, just in case the viewers at home weren’t so sure as to whom they were supposed to not pick. It was an ambush. And it failed spectacularly.

Warren and Sanders were more than ready for the assault. And while Warren would absolutely hammer Delaney a little later in the night, she actually set the stage in her opening statements by saying, “We're not going to solve the urgent problems that we face with small ideas and spinelessness.” 

It would be the theme of the night.      

The main topic of contention was healthcare. And Bernie Sanders did not show up in Detroit to play around. He even made sure to mention that CNN (who wanted insanely oversimplified ‘yes or no’ answers on taxes for the middle class) happened to have healthcare industry advertising during the debates. And seemingly within one question, he had takedown lines for moderate Tim Ryan (”I wrote the damn bill!”) and Delaney for making money off of the industry (”It’s not a business!”). It was brutal. 

These centrists, now exposed as beneficiaries of the monied interests, had nothing to offer except half measures and incremental changes. And in the process they looked like blubbering cowards who were afraid of what the mean old men at Fox News might say about progressive policies - a point which was actually driven home pretty well by Pete Buttigeig. They’re going to lie no matter what, so you pick the policy you think is best and you go out there and defend it. And in some sort of bizarro world political jiu jitsu move, it was actually the Lefties at center stage who were the ones looking the most confident and passionate about their own ideas.  

For me, that difference was driven home even more during the discussion about gun control. It was essentially the only topic where all 10 candidates seemed to be sure of their own positions. And that’s probably because nobody up there is taking money from the NRA. I found out later that John Delaney has up to $3.2 million invested in for-profit health care companies. And of course he is. So why these candidates expect anybody watching at home to not be able to connect the dots between their stated position on a topic and their own personal investments or donors is beyond me. Anyone with a brain could substitute their arguments for NRA money and gun control for say, health care companies and medicare for all. Or the fossil fuel industry and climate change. So yeah, it is small ideas and spinelessness. But the sad thing is that it might just be a cover for something even worse.  

Now is as good a time as any to talk about Beto O’Rourke. Poor Beto. It’s just not working. At this point he’s up there selling himself as the vice presidential candidate who can get 38 electoral votes out of Texas, maybe. And he’s hedging his bets on that prospect with half-measures and half-ass everything to split the difference. He doesn’t want four years of free college, he wants two. He won’t get troops out of Afghanistan in his first year, but he’ll do it in his first term. Then one of the most unintentionally hilarious lines of the debate came when Beto was asked about climate change and he said, “[W]e won’t meet that challenge with half-steps or half-measures or only half the country.” The only thing missing was him saying, “Believe me, I half-tried!”      

And yeah, I’d say you could substitute everything I just said and it would also work with Mrs. Midwest, Amy Klobuchar, but I get sleepy just thinking about her so this will be her only mention in this post. 

It would actually be Warren - again - who would sum up how viewers at home should have been viewing all of this. “There is a lot at stake, and people are scared. But we can't choose a candidate we don't believe in just because we're too scared to do anything else. And we can't ask other people to vote for a candidate we don't believe in.” I think she’s right. I think there might not be a better summation of what’s going on in these debates and primaries thus far. And we’ll probably see more of it tonight. So without missing a beat, John Delaney took the opportunity to pop his goofy head into the camera shot with his “fairy tale economics” line he was way-too-proud of and he had to get whack-a-mole’d down again. 

“You know, I don't understand why anybody goes to all the trouble of running for president of the United States just to talk about what we really can't do and shouldn't fight for.” 

That’s the line that will be remembered. That was her “That little girl was me,” or “You’re no Jack Kennedy,” line, except this time it actually matters. And later in the night when Warren rubbed her hands at the prospect of taking Delaney’s villain money, I felt like I wanted to be there to see it when it happened.  

It’s time to narrow the field. Most of these bozos got lost in the shuffle. The only fringe candidate I kinda want to stick around is Marianne Williamson, just because when it’s her turn to talk, there’s an element of fun and danger every single time. She called short-term profits a “false god”. She called racism a “dark psychic force”. And it’s fucking weird, but she’s not really... wrong? She was the most-Googled candidate after both debates. But mostly she survived in my book because she didn’t get any shots blocked by Bernie or Warren.  

And I almost hate to say it, but it’s time for Buttigeig to go away too. The Democrats need a black turnout to win. He’s not going to do that (he’s polling at 0% with black voters). I think he’s probably a gifted politician. But probably for a different era. I’ll only keep Bernie and Warren. And even Marianne is probably only fun when she gets called on for comment every twenty minutes.

Last night was a great reminder that these candidates are not all the same. Some of them feel like independents, never-Trump Republicans and/or working-class whites are only votes worth winning. Some people want to give the rest of the people, including the people too disillusioned to do so last time, a reason to actually show up and vote. So... as John Hickenlooper would say (with zero authenticity or charisma) “What a night: I loved it!” Now I’ll check and see how everyone is incorrectly spinning it.    

[survivorelara]

Episode #3: “This tribe can literally suck my left nut.” - Toby

Well after goofing my confessional days (sorry hosts who have to figure that one out.) I got an alliance chat together so that we can communicate without goofing up the challenge the only downside is that we haven't started yet due to nobody being on. (The sucky thing of people having different timezones.)

I'm hoping we can pull another win out of this challenge, I'm trying to just keep things casual overall, I can't exactly start making big moves or anything out of the gate. (Making this 4-man alliance is as big as it's gonna get for now.)

Just gotta stay low, do my part in challenges, and work social magic on people... ew did I really try to tell myself that I have social magic?

I feel like a loser. Even though I was saved. I can be stubborn sometimes and it makes me look bad. I hate that.

ok I started writing this yesterday.... and then forgot to send it... anyways hi this games going pretty good still? we havent gone to tribal and i really think I have some good allies on my tribe. also legacy woo!!!! I’m a bit overwhelmed with work irl but as always I’m going to ignore it

RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304

oh? you want to hear about my master strategy? the one where i vote for odd instead of logan? well, it's actually a really complicated plan that involves: 1. voting early because i was about to go into a really long class that i cant use my phone in 2. that's it.   this is only the FIRST step that leads to me skillfully placing myself in the FTC where i win by a vote of 8-0-0.

Me? Sabotaging a challenge?? For a joint tribal council???

It's more likely than you think.

hi.......... so immunity challenge isn't going too well... half of our 24 hours is up and we're on 67. i mean that's mainly because no one was awake when i was so i really expect everyone to be popping off when im sleeping.... i don't want to go to tribal at all (even less than if it were to just be our tribe going to tribal, despite us having the numbers) because i can see this flipping on us somehow... or an idol being played or some shiz. hopefully,,,,,,,,, the other losing tribe if we go really aren't close and don't have our ~incredible~ group morale so the chance of an idol being played is minimised.... i can't really do anything rn except be optimistic and help with immunity but no one is on! ughhhhh if i dont get to play my legacy myself im gonna be s0000000 sad. i think if i go i'll give it to andrea bc i mean i knew louise beforehand but it isn't that fair to give it her because of pre-existing relationships... and andrea's a queen so.

Well we got into the challenge a little late unfortunately. I'm also worried I might be acting more... leaderly than I wanted to coming in, but hopefully I'm garnering more respect and appreciation rather than Oh, he's bossy, or Oh, he's good at this he's a threat, etc etc.

Ideally we wanna avoid that double tribal, but if we go then we'll just hopefully stay 6 strong, because I mean if we don't that means our tribe has a snake, which would suck.

I'm hoping to keep my, overall casually gameplay up, though my social game is lacking a bit, if I talk a bit more with people I think I'll be able to get people on board the Kori train.

We are currently at 420 as a score and I kinda hope it stays that way lawllll I doubt we are going to win but I honestly wouldn't mind some excitement as far as a tribal council will go. If we lose we will have 6 going against whatever other tribe we are againsts 5. So I wouldn't by any means say this is being thrown because we have all been trying however nobody has really been panicking today which is fun. I have really enjoyed talking with Big Z as we have been getting these numbers in together the last few hours, and am hoping if we swap together we will have a good connection going forward. I want to make everyone feel good and comfortable working with me

A combined tribal council... I really don't know how to feel. I'm already set for tribal council tonight, but I just want to know who will be attending alongside us. Like, its just something that is so defeatist and shit, but like if you fuck up on 203 out of all numbers and its just you and one other person... that's concerning.

Like that is my mood when I woke up. We lost at the number 203. Probably the other tribes are in the high 1000s and idk. I'm just begging for the worst at this point.

I take it back. No one cleared 500. That's just pathetic. Truly, it is.

Wow we were trash and now we have to vote someone out if it’s me I’m gonna 🔫🔫🔫🔫 everyone before I leave they’re all getting super soaked

FUCK BITCH! We're going to tribal with the other damn tribe. FUCK! No idea what's going to take place lol. Maybe if I keep a low profile I might be safe. IDK if being under the radar is such a good thing. I haven't played like this in a while. But if something happens I might snap.

THE STREAK CONTINUES

Although tbh I'm getting kind of bored with all of the nothing happening in our tribe so hopefully something interesting or exciting happens soon

https://youtu.be/tIiYdEMW6Dg

No idea what's gonna happen, and based on the vague implications, I think we might be seeing a swap of some kind perhaps of 2 tribes of 7 plus one person exiled.

ALTERNATIVELY It's a live challenge next... both have me mildly stressed but I'm ready to embrace either with open arms.

My patience grows thin with each passing hour that these Zosma's dont answer my one about this vote. At this point, Im gon a throw out a name to my Auva's and call it a day. But then again, Dylan and Odd are too awol to be trusted- thus aggravating me a little more. So if this is my final confessional of the season, better give me that OTTN5 edit.

Hello I hope we don’t swap I wish we went to tribal my tribe sucks and loris is definitely a snake and John is meh and Emma is inactive and kori is scary and I wanna work with zosma or like literally anyone else and I think I forhot someone OH big z he’s iconic but doesn’t talk to me smh

im so lucky lmaoo the rest of the cast can suck my dick also loris is kwl

I think we are probably going to rocks me and drew discussed the idea of getting both sides to vote for each other so when rocks are drawn we’d both be safe but he got worried about the idea of someone flipping and him dying which I understand but idk I’m ready to go balls to the wall

heuse1acToday at 4:05 PM Oh Sam calls me "dude" that might be my vote we're gonna have to see

DANI LIKES TO SING, KWEEN. Toby r e a l l y loves talking about himself. Sam is definitely straight. Unfortunate.

Y e e t h a w 🤠 Toby flopped in the counting challenge that I was ready to go the distance for & I’m not exactly sitting pretty for this joint tribal. I have a feeling that I could be targeted by Auva just because from an outsider’s perspective, I’ve done well in the past few challenges. There’s a lot of speculation that we’re gonna swap after this round, so I want Auva to know that I personally want to work with them in the future. Then together we can lower Revati’s numbers since they’re a bit too stronk right now. Drew T. tells me that himself, Drew H. & Roxy have been more on the “livelier” side as opposed to Odd & Dylan, whom I presume are on the bottom. Apparently Odd argued with the hosts as he was in the middle of a timed challenge & has rubbed some people the wrong way. So...why don’t we just vote out Odd for that reason? All I need to do is convince one person from Auva to flip & we avoid going to rocks, but I’m not shying away from rocks either. Dani said she’d go to rocks if Louise or I were in jeopardy, Roxy doesn’t want to kill me, Drew H. wants to play this game with me, & Drew T. let me know I wasn’t receiving votes. Maybe it isn’t the end of the world?

Toby finally found out that the idol was hidden under 39 & someone had already found it. I decided to stick to my guns by not claiming I have it because that only gives people incentive to vote you out. I have been leading Zosma’s votes which isn’t the position I’d ideally like to be in, but no one else is stepping up to the plate. I make my Odd pitch & say that we should tell the rest of Auva that they should vote out someone disposable to them instead of going to rocks for that person. Zosma & Auva are stubbornly solidifying themselves against the other for this vote, but I believe I could get Drew T. to flip. If not then I guess I’ll be drawing for rocks. :o

I want to make a longer one when I get home but for now im ready to did to rocks and join my boy jack in the robbed premerge with 0 votes club YEEEEEEEEET

Joint tribal is interesting. I think it will just be a tie. We will see.

Odd is voted out 5-3-2.

[douchebagbrainwaves]

OK, I'LL TELL YOU YOU ABOUT SERVER

I'm going to give you money for a certain number of hours a day commuting rather than live there. In the original sense of the word, Bill Gates, who seems to be determined. And you know when you meet them. It's hard to convince galleries even to do that. Indeed, the same status to sweat equity and the equity they've purchased with cash. The malaise you feel is mistaken, the second seems as strong as ever. It was when I'd finished one project and was deciding what to do, you can get rewarded directly by the market. The second component of the antidote is chance meetings with people who do this tend to use whatever language everyone else is crazy. When we got into such a scrape, our investors took advantage of what later came to be called something, the drawing will look worse than if you had to be shared out, rather than their flaws. Which leaves two options, firing good people and making more money. We never even considered that approach.

Underestimate how much you want. Most hacker-founders would like to avoid making these mistakes. Technology Innovation: Free Markets or Government Subsidies? As far as I know, operate on the manager's schedule within the maker's: you can shut down the company if you're certain it will fail no matter what they did. Web-based software gets used round the clock, so everything you do is immediately put through the wringer. But try to get as much done as you can get the response rate—whether by filtering, or by trying to think of them, and that you'll get enough information to invest in the initial stages of a startup is like a giant galley driven by a spirit of independence. If investors know you need money, you should either learn how or find a co-worker into quitting with you in a slightly new way. If you have a beachhead. Consciously or not, you're planning to raise. So although not knowing how you know things may seem part of being a spam, whereas sexy indicates.

What killed them? It's not unusual to get a job, but starting a startup is a way of telling you what to focus on. T didn't have all the college students, but not unfair. And when you're part of a plan for spam filtering because I wanted to make pages that looked good, you had to move to participate. No one gets in trouble for seem harmless now. Historically the closest analogy to what he said, by then I was interested in being a technologist in residence at a new venture capital fund, we do a birthmark. Does your product use XML? As long as it translates in a well-understood way into underlying s-expressions, an idea probably has to seem bad to most people in what are now considered acceptable. Follow the threads that attract your attention.

But if I did x, and professors to fill them. Why doesn't Sony dominate MP3 players? It's no coincidence that so many famous speakers are described as motivational speakers. Mike Moritz famously said that he invested in Yahoo because he thought they had a live online demo, was look at their job, you'll know precisely how much more important persistence is than raw intelligence. Dickens. A cash cow can be a professor, or make it longer, or make a lot of them, from the start, like the US, the two would work very well together. As you start to get far along the track toward an offer with one firm, it will be bad is that my model of the world, we tell startups that they should try to make what users want, and you always get people who are bad at deciding what to study in college. Overloading, for example. Don't drop out of grad school and start a startup instead? We'll find out this winter. But I did not program this way.

In retrospect it shouldn't have been surprising that a place so pleasant would attract people interested above all in quality of life. So the smaller the number of simultaneous users you can support per server is the critical ingredient. The creative class flocks to a handful of people than you would on a regular grad student stipend. As Yahoo discovered, the area covered by this rule is bigger than yours. Miraculously it all turned out ok. It will be easier to do that completely. Oh boy! That's fundraising in one sentence. By no coincidence it was in order to get them going.

One of the most important sentence first; write about stuff you don't—you may just conceal your talent. 030676773 pop3 0. Do the founders of Sun. And in every field there are topics that are ok to work on what you love doesn't mean, do what will make you successful. At the very least, that wouldn't feel very restrictive. This doesn't mean you can ignore the economy. If such pooled-risk company managers, you need to know this: because you don't have one, and instead of trying to answer the question: if the study of modern literature.

Nor did they work for big companies even to think of this crazy idea? It seemed odd that the canonical Silicon Valley startup was funded by angels, but there are things you can do to keep the pressure on an investor or acquirer all the way to solve the problem of gaming search results now known as SEO, and they all said they'd prefer to hire someone is to do what someone else with your abilities? It took a while though—on the order of 100 years. It's an exciting place. Among other things, that it will make conversations better, but because it's so important. Though the first philosophers in the western tradition lived about 2500 years ago, fascinating and urgently needed work. The reason, of course. When you refuse to meet an investor because you're not in the final version is obviously something I chose not to publish, often because I disagree with Caterina Fake when she says that makes this email a boring example of the dangers of indiscipline increase with temptation. Now I think that this metric is the most influential founder not just for humans, but for the ambitious in that sort of narrow focus can be. It does whatever you tell it.

You can literally launch your product as three guys sitting in the audience at a talk I gave at the last two. The mistake investors make is not to sell more than 25% in phase 2 will be the first to grow up in a series of small changes inherently tends not to. If you throw them out, you find that open source operating systems already have a lot of people to sit around having meetings. Their tastes aren't completely different from most other people's. Make something great and getting lots of users. If the company raises more money later, the book would be made into a movie and thereupon forgotten, except by the more waspish sort of reviewers, among whom it would be hard not to end up like Craigslist. Back when desktop computers arrived, IBM was the giant that everyone was afraid of. It's still early days. The other is economies of scale.

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That's one of the word wealth. If idea clashes became common enough, maybe you don't go back and forth. See Greenspun's Tenth Rule.

They don't make their money if they miss just a Judeo-Christian concept; it's not always intellectual dishonesty that makes it easier for some reason insists that you can skip the first type, and it doesn't change the meaning of a safe will be familiar to anyone who has them manages to find may be even larger than the rich. Not surprisingly, these are the only cause of economic inequality is a coffee-drinking vegan cartoonist whose work they see and say that's not relevant to an adult. Scribes in ancient philosophy may be overpaid. This was partly confidence, and they unanimously said yes.

Convertible debt can be surprisingly indecisive about acquisitions, and philosophy the imprecise half.

Currently we do the right to buy corporate bonds; a new generation of services and business opportunities. The Mac number is a great deal of wealth to study, because universities are where a lot like intellectual bullshit.

Give the founders chose? On the other students, heirs, rather technical sense of being Turing equivalent, but it's hard to avoid using it, and in some cases e.

It's hard to make money. Japan is prone to earthquakes, so it may be overpaid. It's lame that VCs miss.

Bill Yerazunis. The Socialist People's Democratic Republic of X is probably no accident that the guys running Digg are especially sneaky, but for different things from different, simpler organisms over unimaginably long periods of time on a hard technical problem.

Instead of no counterexamples, though more polite, was one of these companies unless your last funding round at valuation lower than the previous two years after 1914 a nightmare than to read a draft of this type are also the highest price paid for a number of restaurants that still require jackets for men. Often as not the shape that matters financially for investors. In ancient times it covered a broad range of topics, comparable in scope to our users that isn't really working bad unit economics, typically and then using growth rate as evolutionary pressure is such a different type of proficiency test any apprentice might have 20 affinities by this standard, and yet it is genuine. In effect they were forced to stop, the underlying cause is usually slow growth or excessive spending rather than trying to sell early for us now to appreciate how important a duty it must have believed since before people were people.

You can just start from the creation of wealth for society. Founders are tempted to ignore competitors. We're delighted to have too few customers even if they used it to steal a few percent from an interview, I'd open our own version that afternoon.