#keep suffering losers

[onetimetwotimesthreetimess]

prompt: hiadt alec & chairman ☺️

“I’m tired. This isn’t fucking fair,” he exhales, running a hand through his face.

“Finally,” Jace mutters.

Alec raises his head. “What?”

“You’re finally admitting that this isn’t fair.”

“Of course this isn’t fair. Did you think I was having the time of my life or what?”

“We didn’t,” Izzy sighs and brushes his hair off of his face, smiling sadly. “But this is the first you’re acknowledging that this whole thing is fucked.”

He sighs tiredly.

Of course this isn’t fair.

Not of a single fucking this about this is okay. He knows that. He’s angry about it too. He just doesn’t know who he’s supposed to be angry at.

Magnus? No.

God? Possibly.

It’s been a horrible day, it always is this time of the year but today, without Magnus by his side, the pain is boiling like a hot lava. It thrums under his veins, his every cell, every breath he takes.

Alec just needs today to end.

Just then, his doorbell rings.

“I’m not moving,” he groans.

Jace goes up to open the door and there are a few hushed hushed voices before something crawls up his feet. Alec looks down and his eyes widen as they land on Chairman.

“Chairman?” Alec says, surprise evident on his face as he picks up the cat and brings it against his chest. “What are you doing here?”

Alec lifts his head up at Jace questioning.

“Magnus came.”

“He’s here?”

“Yeah. Outside.”

Magnus stands in the hallway, a sheepish expression on his face. “Hey.”

“Hi.”

“You don’t have to say anything. I know you were having a bad day. I don’t know the reason for it but I guessed that you’d like having Chairman for a while,” Magnus explains, breathlessly.

Oh.

That’s the Magnus Alec knows and loves.

Not the version that’s been acting like Alec’s existence is causing him an inconvenience.

This.

This is his Magnus.

“You’ll be okay without Chairman?” He asks.

“I’ll survive,” he replies. Magnus turns to leave but then he stops again. “Are you okay?”

“No.”

Magnus exhales. “Is there anything I can do?”

You forgot the most important thing in the world. There’s nothing you can do to help me now.

“Chairman helps. Thank you.”

[triglycercule]

dust and horror angel and demon themes,,,, they could totally parallel each other...... :3

dust=angel of death described in the delta rune prophecy (self declared) (i DEFINITELY elaborated on this one waayyyy before but anyways dust with a fucked up savior complex SAVE ME SAVE ME.... death is a blessing ass guy. life is torment and he will be the one to liberate monsters from their bodies and with the strength they provide to him be able to take down evil evil creation of pure misery that is the human ✨✨✨ dont worry his evil cackles are to HIDE HIS PAIN of saving everyone....... trust)

horror=demon that dragged everyone in horrortale into hell (as perceived by everyone else) (i think it would be a cool hc if everyone outside of snowdin viewed horror as literally a demon. maybe undyne preaches that. anyone outside of snowdin might be WAYYY worse because they starve for longer and literally take part in cannibalism so they might not have the same sort of mild sanity that snowdin residents do,,,, besides he DID kinda bring them all eternal suffering. kinda. nobody but undyne knows what happened at the core so she could totally just paint the story to blame horror fully)

ANYWAYS i like the possible dynamics this could have :333

dust to horror (please let me kill you PLEASE let me kill you i can end it all so peacefully wouldn't it be nice??? i promise ill make it quick just for you),,, horror to dust (i want you to live and suffer with what youve done i want you to watch all of your choices hit you one day and i'll be there and laugh at you. i'll keep you alive just to keep you suffering ok?)

OR dust to horror (you dont deserve to die you dont deserve to even be hurt by me. not because youre the exception but youre the Exception i absolutely loathe you so youll never get the sweet release of death :3) and horror to dust (just let me die already i dont wanna be here. youre supposed to be a savior right??? an angel?? then why don't you save me already when i need it more than anyone else)

[whos-tanya]

One of the most interesting things (to me) about Cicero is how, no matter how you treat him in-game, he always has this persistent sense of loneliness

[shivstar]

why do u hate wolfstar lmao like u saying ur getting harassed is funny as hell it’s just a ship 😭😭

For me to explain you that, I have to explain a bit of psychology.

In psychology, reactance is an unpleasant motivational reaction to offers, persons, rules, or regulations that threaten or eliminate specific behavioral freedoms. Reactance occurs when an individual feels that an agent is attempting to limit one's choice of response and/or range of alternatives.

Reactance can occur when someone is heavily pressured into accepting a certain view or attitude. Reactance can encourage an individual to adopt or strengthen a view or attitude which is indeed contrary to that which was intended — which is to say, to a response of noncompliance — and can also increase resistance to persuasion. 

In crux, my hate for wolfstar stems from reactance.

Wolfstar works on the structure that it is a canonical ship because jkr was playing hide and seek and sprinkling around crumbs of clues that Remus and Sirius are boning each other. (Or should I say Sirius was getting f*cked by his moony, because that is what 90% of wolfstar is about. A top Remus and a bottom Sirius- add this to my reasons for dislike list)

But anyways whenever anyone says to (most) wolfstar side of people why the literal soulmate guys - James and Sirius are not much famous as a ship, the reply is 'ew, why would you want to downplay the importance of a friendship' ' I can never see James and Sirius in a romantic setting' 'but there is no chemistryyyy!!!!! '

But when the same reply is given that oh I see Sirius and remus as casual friends who dont know each other well because they distrusted each other, the fandom and it's defenders comes bearing weapons.

My point is I was pretty neutral towards the ship.

Then i went looking for Jegulus. Because I was interested in marauders side kf stories. I found jily to be bland. Wolfstar was downright signaling towards toxic relationship I was never interested in. (I believe that canon Sirius deserved so much better than canon Remus, who is such a rag tag kf a guy) ( you guys have found a cure to that too by innovation of fanon Remus. The macho man. The alpha leader. The casanova. The sex guru. But the problem is that his name is still Remus Lupin and I have read hp books with all devotion. I can only see him as a guy shirking away from his personal responsibilities. Not checking up on Harry. Running away from pregnant wife. Naming a 17 year old kid with the biggest target on his back as the godfather to his child. Hitting Harry when he was trying to explain to Remus that he is a coward. Not telling Dumbledore about Sirius's animagus status. {Please do not romanticize his reasoning, I beg you. It is about hundreds of students's life. Including James's son. Also do nit say that he thought that Sirius didn't do it. Then he should have done a better job in helping Sirius out of azkaban. Atleast found him in yr 3 and helped him than. CLUE - he is the co creator of marauders map, don't tell me he didnt know where Sirius was} You get it....

Still I was pretty neutral towards wolfstar. I never interacted with it because I was nit interested.

But reading Jegulus comes with the added bonus of free wolfstar. All the time.

I left the fandom not liking how the marauders I loved were never found in either jegulus nor wolfstar. Disappointed.

But then i entered the World of Prongsfoot. Found mostly writers doing justice to the James and Sirius and Peter and Remus I was initially intrigued as a kid.

Also I am not talking about following canon plot in the fics... I am saying the wibe is always off. Like my hc is Sirius and James as top dogs and then Remus and peter. While the basic given in wolfstar and jegulus is Sirius+James + Remus and then Peter, if they are feeling charitable. Otherwise it is Remus and then James and then Sirius and then Peter.

Then tumblr through - 'you may like this because you like this' and extra excited wolfstar and jegulus fans through wrong tagging decided that I should see these incorrect marauders era post . Where Sirius is always dramatic or stupid or idiot and a combination thereof. That was the day where this intense dislike begin.

Now this unnecessary shoving in my face something I am not interested in, made me hate wolfstar.... The reactance theory I explained earlier. I am just reacting to this incessant need to believe wolfstar is canon. That Sirius only belongs to his moony and no one else. That Remus and Sirius are soulmates. ...

PS - do not comment or message me etc to make me change my opinion or make me see things from your side. The truth is that i cannot suddenly make you like a ship say Prongsfoot in the Romantic light when all you see is two friends. Similarly I won't suddenly start liking wolfstar Or Remus Lupin. This is my post with proper tagging so that I am nit hurting sensible feelings of anyone. I have right to have my own views and opinion. And that in this case is that I despise wolfstar and Remus Lupin. I am not inviting people to make me see light. I am just answering to a simple ask.... 😊

[buttercup-barf]

Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

[bark4it]

need someone who loves me so much they have to lock my collar to their belt. love me so much you can't let me out of your sight.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

That pic made me cry suguru is so 😐😐 to me I think suguru and Gojo would be jealous of your plushies but for different reasons like when you wake up with either of them you dont have your plushie anymore, but for suguru it’s cause he tosses it to the floor and then Gojo ends up taking it halfway through the night and you wake up to him cuddling it instead he’s unreal

PHDJDHDH THIS IS KILLING ME REM……. no one understands stsg like u do i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again 😭😭😭 THEY’RE SO SILLYYYY sugu has zero sympathy for the plushies i think he’s such a possessive little man…. not in a toxic way to be clear but like. why would you hug a plushie when his soft pillowy chest is RIGHT there 🤨❓probably glares at the plushies when you’re holding them lmao HE’S SUCH A POUTY BABY 🥺🥺….

AND SATORU….. oh my goddd that’s so perfect 😭😭 i feel like he does it just to give you a taste of your own medicine at first but then he’s like… oh….. this little plushie is so soft….. oh…… it’s kinda nice to cuddle……….. and now suddenly you have to fight your silly little bf for the custody of your own plushies 🤨🤨 he calls himself their papa and everything. claims that he has a right to cuddle them bc he ”carried them for nine months himself”… sigh. he’s annoying but he’s too cute to get mad at. imagine him all sleepy hugging a fluffy sheep plushie :((( he’s just a little baby!!

obviously the solution here is just to have a big ol cuddle pile with plushies and blankets and entangled limbs <33 and luckily for you that’s satoru’s favorite thing ever!!! :33 …. gl with sugu tho LMAO he is NOT befriending your plushies… they’re his enemies…. (mightttt be more lenient if the plushie you’re cuddling is one he got you himself… just pull out the puppy dog eyes and tell him that you like hugging it bc it reminds you of him and he’ll get all mushy. he’s a Loserboy at heart <3)

[hauntingblue]

I'm still scared in sabaody

This is crazy...

THS IS LIKE 300 CHAPTERS AWAY!!!!! THE SMILE... and mingo being the owner of the slave house for the tenryuubitos... OF COURSE

Look.... luffy enablers vs normal rational people

I was like yeah sure luffy was saying he wanted to become king of the pirates but rayleigh didn't explicitly say roger wanted to become pirate king just that people called him that so I am SURE shanks is saying luffy has the same dream we don't know about as Roger. Which lines up bc luffy said shanks knew of it and then in wano ace tells yamato and he says roger said the same thing and ace also knew of it!!! Which is crazy that it's set up this early but EVERYTHING is being set up here

I need to frame this btw.

Shakky the mother that stepped up.... also new conspiracy theory shakky is Hancock's mother bc she is a fan of luffy and hancock is too.... she was busy being a pirate to take care of hancock so she feels incredibly guilty about what happened to her so shakky either hasn't told her and hancock doesn't know or they have a difficult relationship. Yeah sure whatever. I dont care if rayleigh is her father or not bc as you know I believe in asexual reproduction in one piece thank you.

🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️what can I say

😳🫣

Here we fucking go again..... I can't do this

Incredible face sanji

SHE KNOWS!!!!!!

Luffy tearing up...... christ

Sanji getting away from his group with nami to save zoro will never get old like jesus christ look at this

CHOPPER 😭😭😭😭😭😭

CRAZYYYYYYY IM GOING CRAZYYYYY

LUFFYYYYYYY NOOOOO

NAMIIIIII NOOOOOOOOOO nami asking for help and luffy not being able to help her this time.... this is so sick and twisted

THE WAY THIS GETS WAY WORSE MAKES ME SICK!!!!!!!!!!! SICK!!!!!! TWISTED!!!!!!!!

[clockworkcheetah]

kinda realised that suzie/the mages convo in 2x06 is similar to the brotzly on in 2x07

[shehsart]

Ah yes he abuses his wife, kids and even his no. 1 fan.

[kenobster]

damn the more popular quinobi gets, the more often im seeing authors start to join their codywan counterparts by using obiwan's ship partner as a tool to character bash anakin 🙄

[mythvoiced]

-. me: i'm so very normal about platonic ships @stillresolved 's Aeri: *gives a half-hearted swat to Hyun’s arm* me:

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also given that the logic of said superiority authoriority is an entitlement to deny someone's personhood & use them as an object for your purposes, from obviously getting to direct what they must do & can't do, to enjoying whatever gratification from lashing out / demeaning which is also going to serve as an affirming exercise in authority when one can do that from an insulated elevated place....a crucial part of whatever form of this violence, from the most nanoscopic triangle in the sierpiński triangle pyramid scheme hierarchy, to the hypothetical largest (zoom in or out to whatever degree: the same shit also), being that indeed the superior parties need the deserved insulation from any Consequence to exerting their superior status, including indeed from having to witness the consequences For the "inferior" parties, such as whatever externalizations of suffering they recognize as such, which either (a) need to be put away (b) are manipulative performances or otherwise exaggerated (e.g. being a pussy / not even having the sense to realize how little suffering they're Really experiencing) or (c) can be fun to witness if you decide you enjoy that as an affirmation of power as per your ability to completely detach from any avoidance of causing pain, harming for its own sake, b/c you Can

all which is to frame how Interesting it is that after all those moments of going "well, they keep bothering with reaction shots of winston noticeably feeling hurt & expressing it, sometimes also verbally. it's like it could be setting up something" it set up Nothing; while once again just like has been done dozens of times a scene just Ends on winston being rejected &/or hurt, no resolution then, no resolution ever, and in the case of 7x03 was so significant an attack that just like in 4x11 when mafee gets to take out his own Loyalty Insecurity on winston while everyone else hangs around in tacit to overt approval, everyone just leaves the room & we get winston staying behind in the Most distant position aaand scene's over! thread's over! david levien get back here after you Liked that 4x12 livetweet of mine pointing out "so see & winston was right anyways??" like....that is: we are given the Perspective of someone who is also now Leaving winston behind, thus immune to the consequences of however that treatment could actually affect him or how he might struggle to deal with that now (who cares! the answer is: Alone) like Whatever, next time we see him he's completely fine now. and i'm just so happening to think that all the little moments of getting to see winston wither & withdraw & etc in reaction to being shitted on was also us being granted the perspective of Gratification that he's punished for speaking or existing or whatever, without it ever going anywhere or mattering beyond that instant. we too are the ones who surely get to relentlessly bully the autistic person & damn if we don't at least enjoy someone getting to go off the rails restoring their ego by doing absolutely whatever they want to him, which just so happens to be perfectly aligned with getting him Back In Line. pull yourself together winston! the only consequences you're experiencing we wanna deal with are the ones where you give us the algorithm we decided we want, actually. and now let's look across the rest of the season where the consequences for wags for being this way (or anyone else for standing by, ready to benefit, with philip bafflingly declaring as well how actually it was brutal in a good way) is approximately fuckall even as of course nobody's pretending he's one of the personal growth guys out here: rian is though, and didn't have to "grow" out of abusing winston or thinking that was fine & good or that of course she's inherently superior! and in the end we have more affection and interest for the Epic Asshole than their Cringe Targets

[ann-raincloud]

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[ablog]

Just found a BUNCH of cool fabrics someone was throwing away, maaaan if only I didn't hate my body and would make cool shit with it🫠

[angelofsmalldeath011]

its kida crazy that i felt that i wqs gonna cry and puke and pass out on my way to school tiday but as soon as i got home i immediately felt better, really says something about the school system huh