#keep me AFLOAT TBH
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his facial expressions tonight 😭🤏 i love him sm
#toronto maple leafs#auston matthews#mood but also hes so cute n kinda soft spoken today like god#losinf sucks ass but im glad if im watching anyone lose its him and mitch#keep me AFLOAT TBH#smiling abt pontus n his english fbndjd#thinkin abt needin jarny to translatw bc he and mitch love to talk on the bench n want him included
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*Getting back into an old fandom and getting inspired to draw fanart fills you with determination
Happy 8th anniversary to this amazing game!!
#undertale#undertale anniversary#ut#frisk#frisk undertale#ut frisk#undertale frisk#been going through a rough time recently#and this game and this fandom has been one of the things keeping me afloat#for that im so thankful#tbh im even deeper in this rabbit hole of a fandom than i was when i first got into it#so maybe more art hopefully???#fanart#myart
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If i see one more person taking their anger out on boyd im gonna lose my shit
#from#from epix#rain for ts#tv shows#boyd stevens#like he’s doing his best me tbh he’s the only person keeping this place afloat
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i swore off bettas after opal passed, but this koi stole my heart..... i took her home. my fiancée and i named her stevie :-)
so far she's got a lot of personality. she's not at all afraid of my hands in the tank when i rearrange things. she hates my phone. she likes hanging out in corners a lot. weird beastie..
#txt#🍂#<- her tag. falling leaves bc the runner-up choice for her name was autumn :D#i've been wanting a betta again for a whileeeeee. surprised i held out this long tbh#i have 5 enclosures in my room now HWHSJF. fl kingsnake 40galB + rosy boa 20galL + 4 bdfbs 10gal + shrimp n pygmy gourami 10gal + betta 4gal#it sounds like so much but it's all easy for me to care for pft...... i love my beasties very much#n i won't lie they're one of the few things keeping me afloat w my mental health. the town i live in is so fucking lonely and isolating
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i hate it that watching aew doesnt make me happy
and yes i know theres alternatives. yes i have rather easy access to most of it. no i dont have the spoons to try to get invested into anything new i havent been keeping up with in forever. yes i would like to try but im in a spot where its just really difficult for me to do that personally
i just. i just want something to get excited about about a product that im already familiar with and that im watching. thats it
#swerve might be the one thing keeping me afloat right now tbh. and come revolution that might change if he doesnt win the title#and then they dont know what to do with him anymore. and its gonna suck ass again#i dont know. theres just a lot i cant get behind and i just dont find interesting#i know this is very much a me issue but its making me sad and i dont want to be sad about a thing that i want to like#this isnt even just 'oh i miss my faves' issue. its just like. everything. this product just doesnt do it for me right now. and thats sad#i should sleep my head hurts ough#wrestling musing
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i had a thought abt how if spectra let their hair down itd probably make them look completely unrecognisable and i churned this out in like an hour maximum
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the seconds in command have opinions
#bakugan#bakugan new vestroia#mira fermin#keith fermin#spectra phantom#gus grav#ace grit#my art baybeee#i was hesitant to put this in the tags but fuck it why not#i couldn't figure out where to put baron im sowwy baron#fluffy hair fermins is one of my favourite hcs btw#gender is stored in the spectra#i drew everyone from memory and u can tell#u can also tell ive never done a comic thing before but i tried#the amount of hair products the fermins use... they could singlehandedly keep the entire industry afloat#the vestals are very gender tbh ngl#u can also tell i cannot draw men. bc i cannot. i am a lesbo i like women.#actually this was secretly me confessing that i hate ace's hair. why is it like that. spectra's hair is also a pain in the ass to draw.#god bless mid 2000s anime hair#OKAY im done rambling now byeeeeeeee
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the data science stuff i'm working on doesn't even rlly have anything to do with what v gets up to but it's making me ride the v brainwave even harder rn so icon change to feature half of his face at least 🩶
#ooc.#also i am Sorry for how quiet i've been;#i've been goin through it tbh fjsdkfj. the past half year's worth of anxiety etc. has caught up to me and some work stuff has rlly#kicked my ass mentally so atp i'm just kinda doing what i can to keep myself afloat#which unfortunately doesn't leave me w a lot of energy to socialise / a lot of ??? gusto to chitchat if it's not abt a v select few topics#anyway i'm alive and kickin and italy at least has been LOVELY so far so i'm going on walks to enjoy my surroundings#and just try to Here – like 'in my body' ( the dissociation has been so real buddies i'm ngl )#i adore u guys and i'll be back to my more chatty self once i feel a bit better / have an idea of what my work future will look like 🫶🏼#tag rant //#mental health //#dissociation //
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#had to listen to ttpd out of plain curiosity because everyone was saying how much it didn't deliver and well they weren't lying#they weren't lying about the lana comparisons either! who's afraid of little old me sounds like born to die in the verses#it's very flat tbh like you're listening to the same songs over and over#it's very hollow like the album was just made just to be made in order to keep her name afloat and relevant#not because she had something to actually say and express. her song delivery is very flat and unemotional idek how to properly express what#i mean. like she sings with no actual emotion behind the words no nerve no nothing. like she can't actually convince me that she's feeling#all that she's singing. also like the music is all the same and the way she sings them. there's no fluctuations no diversity. it's the same#song over and over. also sometimes i feel like the lyrics and the delivery don't really go together with the music#like they don't compliment each other#But Daddy I Love Him is supposedly over her fans trying to dictate her life (i have all sorts of opinions on that but it's a diff convo) an#it had 0 nerve and anger in it. i needed a little more intense a little more angry. i liked down bad and Florida (thank god for Florence 😭)#and all the breathy low vocals are not it either. it kind of makes the album flatter. there's no tension no passion in the album#definitely feels like she's trying to recreate 1989 and maybe folklore/evermore and it's not working#also people comparing this album to midnights are not wrong either#it feels like her last few releases all sound the same with no creativity or bringing something new and amazing#she really needs a break and to take a step back re-evaluate and try to create something more inspiring and fun instead of trying to#recreate the same sound over and over again. releasing album after album in such a short period of time is bound to hinder creativity and#the quality of someone's work. and maybe she does need new people to work with that will push her creatively#also i feel like she doesn't need to create such long albums. especially if you're using the same sound in every song. like one song morpths#into the other and it gets boring! especially if there's little to no build up and tension holding the song and having breathy vocals that#lead to nowhere during each song! anyway it could've been a whole lot better and she has better songs than this
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wren and lancaster. have u heard of them
#the only thing keeping me afloat sorry i have become an oc guy#infinitely more happy than doing any fandom stuff tbh
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not even joking i would kill for some kind of beyond evil sequel focusing on jihwa. it doesn't even have to be a full time drama. a mini-series, a movie, anything is fine i just need it
#she has so much potential as a character but the show just didn't. have. time for her#and i'm always sad about it#jwds don't need to be there like they can be referenced or make a guest appearance idc#jihwa works in a violent crimes unit#you're telling me there can't be a compelling story about a woman with decades of unpacked trauma#encountering worst of humanity everyday but desperately trying to believe in the goodness of it and through it in the goodness of self#you're telling me we can't have an arc of her finally forgiving herself for leaving for doubting for wanting more for herself#there's so much that can be explored#literally do none of you ever think about you're better than me you're all better than me i hope jeongje did it i'm a monster right#do you never think about i'm sorry but what i wanted was to run away not to be consumed by your desires#do you never head in hands over i never got in your way once i let you do whatever you wanted and now you're telling me not to cross over#she's always delivering lines of all time and for what#actually i take it back#dongsik can be there#series focusing on jh&ds's relationship would slap#also kim shinrok and shin hakyun as leads#their sheer acting power alone would blast brain outta my skull please and thank you#have not had interest in watching anything recently beyond evil let me fucking go let me care about something else PLEASE#promise of upcoming shim nayeon thriller drama with two female leads is the only thing keeping me afloat tbh#whenever that happens
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more jjk 217 leaks discussed in tags below
#jjk spoilers#jjk leaks#jjk 217#avoid everything after this for spoilers#the only thing I liked from this was sukuna himself#all the discourse was unavoidable last week (and tbh validated this week)#and I think a lot of people thought sukuna would use yorozus crush like he did Hana#but it’s a relief he’s just annoyed and makes it more tolerable#this chapter sucks but it’s the only thing keeping me afloat abdhdjskajf#(rape tw) I also have seen people assume that sukuna (since he canonically had zero wives or children) was a rapist#and it’s not like I’d be surprised if he was (not the first time that topic was in jjk)#but I’ve always preferred that it meant sukuna wasn’t interested in anything but eating and killing#I like the idea that Uraume was the only person sukuna tolerated being around
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hm. maybe trying to spend $100 each on my family members for christmas was a bad idea
#most of them are frugal like me so none of the items on their lists are too bad but truly....#the family members with like 4 things on their list are the only thing keeping me afloat trbh#*tbh....#why did i decide this#idk i've had a full time job for 2 years and it's the first full time job in my life i want to spoil my loved ones >:(#j.txt
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keep accidentally writing poems about things i should actually have conversations with people about.
#i should probably maybe have a conversation with the person last nights first one was about about it#however. firstly am unsure if they read it. secondly how tf do i start that conversation#like. hi man. you know those conversations we’ve had about my mental state recently? what if i told you the current thing keeping me afloat#is not wanting to not send you a message but not wanting to send you a message bc last time i did you were inordinately anxious#anyway hi if you’re reading.#there’s actually two people it could be about tbh. i wrote it about one but it also applies to a second.#and both of them have my tumblr so yippee for that ig#might try and have the conversation(s). probably will get too stressed to actually bring it up.
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An adage that my parents told us growing up was when we started to get jobs, to go above and beyond our job descriptions, and a slightly older friend spelled it out more bluntly and said to become indispensable to the company, to the point where they can’t fire you without having to work twice as hard to replace you.
There’s some merit to that, but I think more about how both my dad and my friend, for a long time, were pretty much on call all the time. My dad made his peace with it until they switched him from hourly to salary, therefore undercutting the overtime pay that kept his paychecks comfortable enough to pay off debts and splurge a little on stuff like a lawnmower and a new car that wasn’t built the year I was born and my parents’ first-ever house (in their twenty-fifth year of marriage). Swap to salary and he’s still working the same overtime hours, but none of the extra pay. He considered quitting but after talking it over with supervisors, moved one department over doing something a little more stable and when he’s done, he’s done, no forced overtime. His manager is better to communicate with and does his best to force my dad to take time off, and overall my dad likes him better and so performs better. Things don’t fall apart without my dad there but he’s secure as houses in what he brings to the table anyway.
As for my friend, she poured everything into her job, moved several times for it, and gave up many of her hobbies and sacrificed her mental and physical health for this place. She was fired after one low-performance month in two years because—you guessed it—Covid was starting up. She picked herself up, made herself some promises about work-life balance, and worked her way up in another job—still on call but with a firmer boundary in place that her superiors mostly respect—and she’s about to lose her job due to forces outside of anyone’s control or due to any fault of her own. She’s outstanding at her job, has been told by many supervisors and people under her that she’s good at it. The specific job she does is just about to not exist because the relationship between the companies she liaises between is dissolving. Nothing she did wrong and nothing she can do about it.
The moral: if your conscience compels you to be outstanding at your job, then be outstanding. But always remember it’s just a job and no job is ever completely secure. And so no job ever deserves your entire life and soul.
#if it sucks: hit da bricks#as the old wisdom goes#I could’ve talked about me and my job#but tbh I’m there right now and depressed about it#I occupy a position that is a little tricky to cover for completely#but not impossible with a little training and instruction#and mostly I rely on perpetual turnover and understaffing to keep my bare minimum butt afloat#and also the very basic rule of don’t abuse or neglect the kids#but even working a desk job for six months in 2020 was so different#weekends were no longer sacred#I got called and texted outside of work about things in the office#felt weird. felt bad. didn’t like it.
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still feeling guilty like i'm being selfish because i cut ties with a friend
#it doesn't help that they are depressed but i can't be there anymore#we've been friends for so long but they've never had a good moment apparently and they don't even seem to want to get help despite all my#efforts to help and it was starting to take a toll on me#i realised i almost couldn't even be availabe to my own need bc all my energy was directed to them#to be there for them all the time#it started to feel like i was responsible for their well being#or at least for keeping them afloat all the time#and i can't do that to myself#but i still feel guilty and i still feel like i'm the one thats's wrong i'm the one that's being selfish#bc they are sick you know#but i dont think they want to be better tbh we've been friend for almost 10 years and i have been saying the exact same things from day one#i know i'm doing what's best for me but it's so hard do put boundaries
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#Tbh the only thing keeping me afloat was Kat visiting at the end of this month#And she had to cancel because her company is doing lay offs and canceled all travel#This S U C K S#It was the only thing keeping me going after having to cancel my trip#And just like fuck dude another L#And now I'm just worried about whether my friend is going to have a job lol#Anyway#Back to isolation#Enjoy the queue as I've kept it stuffed for months now
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