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Because I might not always have you but I’ll have the feeling of you for the rest of my life.. @simplymarge

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Obey Me Characters During Break Downs. Part 2

Characters: Satan, Asmo, Beel, Belphie.

Satan💚

Satan has always felt like a replacement.

He feels like he’s only there to make up for the loss of another.

That other being Lilith.

He hates the thought of him being in this world, because of Lucifer.

But more than that he hates himself, and his anger.

But anger and sadness are very alike.

Both can be mistaken as the other.

And both can make you break.

Satan’s anger always got the best of him.

He tries so hard to keep it down.

He knows he needs to.

To prove he’s more than just pure hatred.

But it doesn’t always work.

He has tried spells, potions, and even tea to keep himself calm.

But the one thing that does best, is you.

He doesn’t know why, but being with you just seems to make his anger fade.

You’re his remedy.

He can’t even count how many times you’ve calmed him down after a fight with Lucifer.

Or just things not going his way.

Holding you in his arms just makes everything else fade away.

He loves to hold you while he reads a story to you.

It calms all his nerves.

After a long argument with Lucifer, Satan was close to blowing the House of Lamentation up.

Before things could escalate too far, Satan rushed to his room, leaving Lucifer to sigh.

You bolted right after him, running to his room.

As soon as you stepped foot in there, Satan tackled you.

You thought it was out of anger, but it was such a gentle tackle.

He clung to you, his feet giving away. He rested his head on your shoulder, unsure what to do next.

You hugged back, rubbing small circles on his back.

You were scared.

Not of Satan, but of what Satan was doing.

He never acted like that.

But, even the toughest stone can crumble.

You gave his cheek a kiss and sunk into his chest.

He gave out. a sigh of relief.

Relief that you were still there.

But, you would never leave.

Asmo💖

You were the very first person that Asmo loved more than himself.

And that says a lot.

He’s known as a perfect individual.

But perfect is a strange thing.

Asmo always wants to be the best he can for you.

The skinniest, the prettiest, the most attentive being you’ll ever meet.

But with all of that time and effort.

There are flaws.

Flaws that only Asmo sees.

Flaws that are beautiful to you.

Scars, freckles, marks.

It’s not perfect.

So it has to change.

Asmo wants to always be your top priority.

So he feels like he needs to better himself, for all the wrong reasons.

He sees others, and compares himself.

His confidence can fade within seconds.

He’ll change, change to suit you better.

Change to be the very best.

To be adored by all.

But the only one he cares about, is you.

You’re the one he does this all for.

But he doesn’t realize that you love him for him.

Asmodeus.

The one who will laugh and spill secrets.

The one who loves sweet treats.

The one who is always there for you.

And know it’s your turn to be there for him.

The scent of vanilla and orange was filling up all the rooms.

The culprit being Asmo’s room.

You went in to see what Asmo was doing.

Maybe a new perfume, or bath bomb.

Perhaps even a lotion.

But scattered on his bed was Asmo and a mountain of tissues.

You walked over slowly to see what was wrong.

Asmo tried to hide himself under his pillows, but you wouldn’t allow it.

You wanted to get to the bottom of what was happening.

Where was your always smiling Asmo?

The one who could light up everyone’s day?

You grabbed Asmo by the face and made him look at you.

His mascara was running, eyes red, and lipstick smudged.

He couldn’t stand you seeing him like this.

But you didn’t care, you pulled him close to you.

You kissed his whole face.

His puffy eye, his drained cheeks, his swollen lips.

And that’s when it finally clicked to Asmo.

He loves you, and you love him.

You love him, for him.

Beel❤️

Beel was always a smiling face.

Nothing seemed to bother him, but seeing his family divided, it broke his heart.

He was torn between his twin and everyone else.

And his beloved sister.

She was gone, and he thought he was to blame.

He thought it was his fault that everything was the way it was.

His fault Lilith was dead.

His fault that they were cast out of the heavens.

His fault that Belphie was distant then gone.

He believed it was all him.

If only he was faster.

Then he could’ve gotten both of them.

Everyone would be happier.

No one would think that Beel could have these thoughts, but he does.

Constantly.

He doesn’t talk about it, sure, but that doesn’t stop him from thinking about it.

When Belphie left, his heart was shattered.

He didn’t know what to do.

His best friend was gone.

And he doesn’t exactly know what happened to him.

He would’ve imagined that Belphie was just asleep somewhere and not gone.

Just not available at the moment.

But reality hurts.

Even after Belphie came back, he still had thoughts about Lilith.

And you were there too.

Always in his thoughts.

He’s so happy that you came to the Devildom.

That you're somehow connected to Lilith.

That she still lived a happy life.

But it sometimes becomes too much to handle.

It was Munch time for you and Beel, and you were on your way to his room.

But it didn’t feel right.

You stepped in and a blank expression was on Beel’s face.

You paced the snacks and drinks down, and walked over to him.

You sat in front of him holding both his large hands.

You looked up at him and smiled.

He engulfed you into a hug.

His large frame covering yours.

No words, just a simple hug.

And it seemed to fix everything.

Maybe all that happened was for the best.

Belphie💜

Belphie could never forgive himself for what he did.

Yes, he acts normal, be he knows he made a grave mistake.

He doesn’t feel he deserves your trust and affection.

He tries his best to earn it, but it’s never enough.

Tricking you 3 times, then killing you upon that.

How could he forgive himself.

Without you, he wouldn’t be where he is.

Lilith's death would’ve been for nothing.

Everyone would be even farther apart.

His connection with everyone would be gone.

But you fixed everything.

He is so grateful that he has you.

You’re there to help with his nightmares, and to back him up in arguments.

What more could he ask?

But he doesn’t feel he does enough for you.

He doesn’t deserve you.

All the work that you did for him.

Why would you stay with him?

A lazy demon, who has hurt you in so many ways.

He has dreams of you leaving him, or finding you dead.

That everything is terrible.

Worse than the hell hole it already was.

Dreams that Lilith was ashamed of him.

Disgusted even.

He would be disgusted at himself too.

Sometimes he can barely look at you, for fear that you’ll go.

Fade away in the blink of an eye.

He was asleep on the couch when another one of his nightmares had happened.

He had snapped for whatever reason, and had killed you.

For good this time.

He was crying.

He can’t believe what he had done.

You were gone.

Your blood staining his hand.

Your eyes blank, but filled with anguish.

Your red blood pooled on the white floor.

He could see his reflection in it.

He couldn’t face himself.

Everyone left him in seconds.

He was alone again.

And know forever without you.

He awoke in tears.

His head was on your lap.

You were playing with his hair, trying to calm him down from his nightmare.

He laid down holding onto your waist.

Apologizing over and over.

He didn’t know what else to do.

You wiped away his tears, and gave him a kiss on his nose.

You pulled him close to lay back down.

He drifted asleep again whispering your name.

A small smile plastered on his face.

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“They love versions of me…”

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And after a while you just stop. You stop watering your plants. You stop watching netflix. You stop reading. You stop replying to your friends as fast as you used to. You stop buying yourself nice things. You stop putting an effort into how you look. You stop taking care of yourself like you used to. You stop sleeping. You stop eating healthy foods. You stop petting your dog. You stop socializing.

You stop with everything. You find yourself sitting in your room for hours on end, without doing a single thing. Days feel like years. And you think you can’t do it for much longer.

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Joan Bauer; Almost Home

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Told you we would see each other again (:

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