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animeyanderelover · 6 months ago

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Hi hope it’s not too late to request from yandere Noragami separate hcs please! For

Yandere Yato , Hiyuri , Yukino , Daikoku , Kofuku , Kazuma , Bishamon , Rabo, Nora and maybe Tenjin please(if that’s to many Yato , Hiyuri , Yukino , Daikoku are fine 💗) if possible can reader be female if not I’m fine with gn 💗

I left out Tenjin in here because unless platonic, I can't see myself writing for him.

Tw: Yandere themes, toxic relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, delusional behavior, stalking, clinginess, manipulation, blackmailing, guilt-tripping, gaslighting, controlling behavior, violence, isolation, abduction, death

Noragami Hc's

Yato

🪙Yato certainly enjoys indulging in his fantasies at times. So far those fantasies have always been centered around his dream of finally becoming the popular and beloved god he has been working to become yet more recently his imagination has shifted. There is a new focus whenever he allows his mind to conjure up his dream scenarios and in every single one of them, there is you. Whether you are the one cheering him on in his fantasies or are the one showering him in your love and affection, there is no dream anymore where Yato doesn't find images of you popping up. Despite those tendencies of his to indulge in his daydreams, Yato is painfully aware of the stark difference between him and that you don't even know about his existence. As a god he has always been forgotten and despite his optimistic and hardworking demeanor, for the first time he finds himself openly experiencing anxiety about the fact that you are unaware of the fact that he exists.

🪙Cue for constant stalking and a newfound pushiness he exhibits. Yukine thinks of it as frankly embarrassing when he has to tag along when Yato follows you around whenever he doesn't have a job to fulfill but there is no stopping Yato once he has made up his mind. You receive his business card as he encourages you that he will do whatever job you need him to do and that you should definitely call him when anything comes up, although chances are that you will subconsciously forget him as soon as he is gone and have cramped his card in your wallet. Yato knows that best so he makes it a point to bump into you as often as possible and act as if it is but a pleasant coincidence. The enthusiasm of his is truly unmatched whenever you give him a call as he all but grabs Yukine and drags him to the destination where you are waiting for him, no matter the time. Behind his smiles and hard work is the hidden desperation for him to become a conscious memory of yours though as he dreads to be forgotten and to be stored in the back of your mind.

🪙All the awareness of his sad fate as a forgotten god doesn't help the jealousy he feels though whenever there is someone else you are currently with. His childish impulse has often gotten him that close to do something extremely petty if it wouldn't have been for Yukine or Hiyori stopping him, leaving him to sit there with a pout on his face. It may seem pretty immature but the anxiety definitely rises whenever he sees just how forgettable he is to you and if he has by that point already your number, whether you remember giving it to him or not, he suddenly bombards you with messages and tweets. Perhaps this is why he is the biggest attention seeker the moment the both of you spend time together and he is actually a conscious part on your mind. Then there is really no stopping his pettiness as he becomes the biggest annoyance for whoever threatens to make you forget about him. He has spilled ice cream, drinks and other stuff on people before to embarrass them and perhaps the only good part about people forgetting him is that by the next day they don't even remember his cheeky face anymore. Let's not forget how he whines you your ears full as he drags you away either.

🪙The former god of calamity has been trying to hold back from cutting down people as if it were a simple game even if he has little tolerance for people he views as either weak-minded or as bad people. Most of the time he just messes with people as he takes advantage of the fact that humans forget about his face quickly to satisfy his often childish anger. He has a unique way of determinating which people he tolerates around you or not and if they are in either a category where he deems them as weak or bad influence, Yato will see it through to cut their ties with you. As much as he knows that he has obstacles in his way in regards of his obsession to you, he still believes that a god can't do wrong and will at the very least justify some of his actions with this mindset. As much as he respects you after all, you are still only human whilst he is a god and it is the job of a god to protect their subject. Although to him you are more than a mere follower. You are someone he wants to protect because you are very dear to him.

🪙He has neither the capacity nor the willpower to pull an abduction through. There is no place where he could keep you in and partially he knows that he wouldn't be really capable to provide for you as good as he would like. He's working to attain more publicity and a bigger shrine though and one of his new goals is to achieve all of those things so that one day you can move in with him and he can provide you with the needed space and other things so that you can live a good life. Until then he has to content himself with your own home though and it isn't like he doesn't enjoy it. Through countless times of stalking he has found out where you live pretty quickly and he often peeks through the windows to catch a look inside, especially into your own room. Yato is often trying to convince you to let him inside your house as he wants to take a better look, reinforcing the pushy personality of his as he is begging you. Once you have given in to that wish, the begging doesn't stop though as he now wants to spend regularly time in your home and even pops up in front of your door.

🪙Most notable about Yato is his outstanding clinginess and need for attention. All of his whining and pouting is always expressed in a way that will not scare you but deep down he is constantly anxious and afraid. You never know how hurtful it is when he pops up and you need a couple of seconds before you remember who he is, only reinforcing his awareness of his lonely fate. Chances are that sometimes he might do something very risky or extreme in hopes that such an intense experience will stick with you better than something else. He also leaves a lot of gifts such as drawings from you or a piece of clothing he has tailored you himself. it is partially flattering yet also partially disturbing since some of the drawings capture moments of you that happened in real life and that he just happened to witness as he was once again stalking you in that moment. He is highly affectionate with you and definitely very giddy if you return his affection in any way, shape or form, especially though if you also prepare something for him which shows him that you thought of him even in his absence.

Iki Hiyori

🩷Hiyori is a very sweet and selfless girl, although in regards to her own obsession she still tends to be rather naive as the bigger picture of the somewhat disturbing infatuation with you is something that rarely crosses her mind. If it does, it is rather briefly before she turns her attention elsewhere. She goes out of her way a lot to help and assist you in whatever way she can though and similar to Yato she will do it no matter at what time you ask her. It could be the middle of the night and she'd help in whatever way she can. Hiyori has always been an individual who is willing to help after all, even if it comes with the neglect of her own health and safety in certain situations so she is on a rather selfless side in comparison to a vast amount of other Yandere. She has a frighteningly good memory in regards to you as well as she pays very close attention to every word that leaves your lips and even if you only remember something very briefly, she won't forget about it.

🩷Still though, Hiyori's world is rather different from the world that you perceive. As a half-ayakashi who has already gotten greatly involved with the affairs of gods, especially since she is friends with Yukina and Yato, Hiyori is rather protective at times. So whilsz it certainly will be uncommon, it isn't impossible for her soul to leave her body at times to trail behind you and protect you if she should be informed that there is potential danger that may even end up involving you. She wants to protect you herself but knows that she isn't as strong as some of her other friends are which is why she will let others allow her to help as she is not selfish in the regard that she thinks that she is the only one who can protect you. Mostly of good nature, she can't fully deny that sometimes she is tempted to use her half-ayakashi form even if there is no threat she knows if simply because Hiyori is a rather clingy person herself, though with overall more self-restraint than Yato.

🩷Not one to subdue her own emotions which means that she will be open when she feels jealous, Hiyori isn't anywhere near petty or possessive level. Her darling's happiness is something the girl highly values and even if she will be exposed to jealousy, she can hold herself back. Her reaction does depend on the relationship though. If she is your girlfriend, she has given you her trust which means that she won't doubt your loyalty whilst also making sure that she will clarify it to the other person that you two are a couple and, if necessary, put a foot down if they do not learn their place. If you two aren't official, she will be a tad bit depressed if she notices that there is someone you are interested in before getting fired up by Yato and Yukine and deciding that she will have to try harder herself. Yato's childishness tends to be a bad influence though as she has sometimes, but only sometimes, caught herself hiding when she sees someone she has felt jealous of before abruptly deciding to follow them for a bit and to spy a bit on them.

🩷She has a fixation on martial arts as she idolises the martial artist Touno and likes to copy his attacks and in her half-ayakashi form her agility, speed and strength increases. It is not like Hiyori is a damsel in distress by any means, especially since she is very brave and fully ready to throw herself in danger if it means protecting someone she loves a lot. On the other hand she is also a very kind-hearted individual who wouldn't hurt people just like that though. Whilst she is not overly fond of it, she does tend to blackmail people if they have gone too far as her combined skills of stalking someone with her soul or even her abilities to read memories are something very suited to uncover some embarrassing secrets or moments others do not want to be published. Whilst she refuses to let Yukine or Yato interfere when it comes to dealing with normal people, when it comes to threats such as other gods or ayakashi she won't reject their help.

🩷Even if her infatuation keeps her from acknowledging the somewhat more questionable aspects of her love, Hiyori wouldn't consider doing anything remotely close to an abduction. Despite some of her actions such as stalking you or others in her half-ayakashi form, she values mutual consent in a relationship. Whilst she does dream about living together with you once both of you are older and can finance your own house, she won't force the scenario upon you. What she does though is romanticising it to you though as she does indulge in her own dreams too, especially if both of you wind up as a couple somewhere along the lines. If there is one glaring flaw involving Hiyori's infatuation it is perhaps her tendency to see everything through rose-tinted glasses as anything involving romance and you is something she immediately finds herself gushing about as she tends to neglect to see stuff through a more realistic perspective which makes it all the more heart-breaking for her if reality should come to crash down on her.

🩷As weird as it is, Hiyori probably grows more used to stalking you in her half-ayakashi form as time passes by. Whilst she still possesses enough respect and responsibility to leave when she realises that you are currently sleeping, undressing or taking a shower, she does find herself growing fond to watch you in your daily life. Occasionally she even finds herself forgetting the time as she starts daydreaming whilst she watches and follows you until she either has to return to her real body or until she realises that she should now give you your privacy. Yato is terribly pushy as he wants to get to know you whilst Yukine takes delight in the fact that it is so frighteningly easy to fluster Hiyori when he teases her about you. Without a doubt she will eventually introduce you to the duo as both of them are dear friends to her, although she knows that you'll forget about them pretty quickly. Given her air-headed attitude, it is quite easy for you to never suspect that she may be up to some questionable stuff when her physical body isn't with you.

Yukine

🟧Yukine is someone who is easily led by his emotions which does nothing but add unnecessary force to an obsession that already threatens to overwhelm him at times. Everything just crashes down on him and he is left dealing with the consequences as he tries his best to not get blighted again as his feelings threaten to get out of hand. It is a rather delicate situation that only serves a growing resentment he holds against you as he doesn't know against whom else he is supposed to turn his feelings. A part of him doesn't want to be attached to someone who could easily be his downfall yet another part of him is extremely possessive and holds too tightly for him to ever hope to forget about you and to let you be. That is how he extends his frustration and bitter outbursts against even those who just happen to be around you, jealous that they get to spend time with you whilst he doesn't before he instantly has to snap out of it before dwelling too strongly on his emotions.

🟧Even whilst he maintains a rather tsunderish attitude at times, Yukine is very protective of you. He likes sneaking away from Yato when the man doesn't need him and usually finds himself spending his free time stalking you and trailing right behind you which is extremely easy as people quickly forget about him. His thoughts during such time perfectly encapsulate his conflicted feelings. In one moment he is silently seething and cursing you as he blames you for everything you are putting him through and in the next moment he finds himself begrudgingly admitting that you are rather cute when you smile or when you space out. Considering his rather brash and impulsive side, it isn't often pleasant to spend time with him as he will often lash out as soon as he is agitated which happens very often as his emotions are already far more intense than what he is used to and trying to deal with them gives him a splitting headache. He barely understands himself what is going on.

🟧Resentment and bitterness he thought he has gotten over crawls back and clings to him like a slimy monster. Why can they spend time with you whilst he is constantly being forgotten and overlooked? Such thoughts constantly fill his head when he happens to stalk you when you are with friends as his hands bawl into fists in a desperate attempt to hold back his seething jealousy. Quite often he turns sharply around and walks away before he snaps as he spends a good time calming himself down afterwards. Through such continuous experiences he learns that he is more comfortable simply observing you when you are alone as his existence then doesn't get poisoned by any jealousy and anger. He'll wind up hurting you though if you two spend time together as everything just bursts out then in the form of rude and hurtful words as he storms away and wishes you bitterly to have fun with the people who really mean something to you. Yukine doesn't want you to witness the wet shimmer in his eyes.

🟧Sometimes in the heat of his impulsive thoughts thoughts about simply killing someone have crossed his mind. Yukine has never acted on such thoughts though as he would not only harm himself but also Yato and by extension Hiyori. He defends you against ayakashi that should try to feed from your negative feelings and against other things that your eyes can't perceive but against humans he has to hold back. His possessive and jealous attributes have led to violent thoughts against people that do not deserve it and admidst all of the chaos going on inside of him, at the very least Yukine is able to acknowledge that some people do not deserve the dark ire he occasionally can't hide. When his protective side emerges though in the face of a person who makes you uncomfortable or threatens you, he still struggles to hold back. He might push them harshly away from you before running away with you or he might do something else such as throwing whatever is in his vicinity at them, whatever his impulsiveness leads him to basically.

🟧He has no such place where he could keep you and even if he had, he doubts that he would want to torture you with the constant presence of Yato. Whilst he has fully grown into his role as Yato's shinki and has forged a strong bond with him, he knows firsthand just how much he can be. He feels undoubtedly most comfortable if he can just spend time with you himself, especially if there are no triggers that could possibly elicit any negative reactions out of him. Whether you two spend time at your home or go outside, he is fine with it as long as he has your attention on him. That is at least until someone has to interfere and instantly sour his mood. Given his reckless decisions though that blind his sight so that he can't comprehend possible consequences for his actions, it is highly likely that in the heat of the moment he might lock you away somewhere though if there is any immediate danger he hasn't expected. He usually lets you out of the place he locked you away as soon as he has calmed down and the danger is gone.

🟧Yukine normally doesn't like showing any weakness in front of you but his trauma and his last moments of his human life have led him to fear the darkness and even if he tries to hide that when with you, it is obvious even to you. He doesn't reject your reassurance and comfort in such moments though when he finds himself in a rather raw situation where his most vulnerable fears are exposed as he doesn't have the willpower to do so in such a situation. On the one hand Yukine tries to act like a protector of yours yet on the other hand there are still a lot of things in this world he does not understand about the world of yours anymore as his own death tore him away from it which is why he needs a certain guidance from you. He isn't fond of it as it makes him feel immature and like a child but he grows less irritated about it with time as he eventually reluctantly accepts that he needs the knowledge and experience that you have about the human world to not embarrass himself a second time.

Bishamonten

⚔️Bishamon is fiercely protective of her darling, especially since they are only a human. As a goddess her task is to fulfill the wishes of those who pray to her but surprisingly even if you shouldn’t be someone who believes in her, she dedicates herself to protect you and watch after you. Yet it is the fact that she is a respected goddess that cuts the time she has significantly as she has many other tasks to look after. She has a large group of shinki loyally working for her though and it is quite likely that a lot of them will gladly assist Bishamon in her festering affection for you and volunteer to look after you. Obviously there are shiki like Kazuma who are even despite their loyalty to the goddess realistic enough to point out the many obstacles of her love for you as well as the obsession itself that the woman is developing for you. Bishamon’s own awareness is a half-half situation in itself as she has already lived for over a thousand years and for that is cognizant of her duties and her position yet is partially overwhelmed as she ventures into romantic feelings for the first time.

⚔️There is something exciting and alluring about her new feelings for you and even despite her own better judgement occasionally she can’t help but indulge in her feelings by seeking you out. She is no stranger to loss as the past has robbed her of a great amount of her shinki when she was blighted and that experience of grief and desperation not only elicits a rather protective but also possessive side out of her. She, a goddess, may commit a downright blasphemous act yet she won’t allow you to choose someone else as your lover. If you are still single she will see it through that there will be no one you can choose and if you should already have a partner she will be thrown into the depths of sorrow for a certain time before rising once again to scheme how to tear you and them apart. It is a highly selfish plan and the dwelling guilt is a sign that a part of her is aware of that yet Bishamon wants you to be protected. A job that a mere human is ill-equipped for, no matter how good they may treat you.

⚔️There is no such thing as jealousy as there is an underlying possessiveness with the goddess of war. She thinks poorly of those who just flirt with others as she views it as a rather distasteful action to do and she feels the same for those who seem to have too much time to try their luck with you. As beautiful as she is, Bishamonten has a fierce and dominating presence that would easily make someone a couple of heads taller than her shut up swiftly if she were to ever reveal herself. If she would have it her way, she may be tempted to simply intimidate such people as this is what she has always done as an ancient goddess yet she holds herself back, additionally a few of her closest shinki do the same. Those who do treat you well and give you happiness are the ones she respects and yet envies at the same time as she desires to give you the same joy they give you. Even then she still views them as ultimately unfitting to fulfill their role as your partner as they could never provide the protection and safety that she could give you.

⚔️Kindhearted to those she has taken under her wings and to those who have earned her respect, Bishamon may initially not fit her title as a goddess of war. Yet it is this fierce sense of attachment and protection for those she holds dear to her heart that makes her ferocious in times where a battle should arise and she needs to protect. This is after all a woman who has been holding a grudge against Yato for eons and has been hunting him down because she blamed him for the death of her shiki. Her wrath is only fitting of her title as the loss of so many of her shiki has already forced her through the experience of loss she refuses to endure again. Whilst she does restrain herself whilst dealing with mortals who are unaware of her existence, she believes in punishment so that someone learns what it means to harm you. Strict and unforgiving, she has little to no problem to cut off connections between you and someone else if she deems them as a threat.

⚔️As a famed goddess with a huge amount of followers in the human world, Bishamon is faring very well. She has shinki and she has her own shrine where she lives with all of the souls that she has taken in. Technically speaking, she has the space as well as the means for an abduction. What is holding her back is the shred of awareness and guilt embedded deeply within her. The reality of the situation is too grave for her to completely ignore after all. You are human and you do not deserve to get involved in her life to the extent that she wants you to be involved. There are so many dangers involved after all and even if she is confident in her abilities to guard and protect you, she knows that it would be perhaps best for you to never let you be exposed to them in the first place. If there should be an event where she should snap for whatever reason though, not even Kazuma would be able to hold her back as she would take you to her temple and keep you confined, although she will eventually calm down and discuss the future with you now that you know of her.

⚔️Probably because her obsession is something she has never experienced before does Bishamon initially choose to hold back with her feelings. She provides protection and safety but she appears every bit as tough and fierce as you always imagined the goddess of war to be. It induces intimidation and slight anxiety within you when you are around her as you feel too nervous to even talk to her. Things eventually figure themselves out as she slowly lets her walls down around you. Bishamon knows that she shouldn’t keep you permanently within her shrine even if the darkest part of her wishes for nothing less so even if she should have abducted you before, she will let you go after a while. You are under strict surveillance from that day on though as you now know about her existence as well as everything else that involved her world. She’s somewhat controlling as she has to find the balance between her duties and you which requires you to follow a few rules she gives to you.

Kazuma

🌸Kazuma as a shinki that could potentially blight his master if he were to commit any sins should be in a similar position to Yukine but perhaps the centuries of experience he has combined with his composed attitude have taught him how he can avoid inflicting any harm on Bishamon. The solution is really quite simple. By suppressing his own emotions, he avoids the feelings of guilt he would under normal circumstances experience and via that he not only doesn't feel like he is committing a sin but can also continue with his obsession instead of stopping it. Kazuma makes himself quite familiar with his obsession so that he can work everything out beforehand to not let his emotions get the better of him which also means that he will do some extensive research on you as you are the trigger to his obsession. He makes himself familar with everything that triggers his feelings and analyses how to avoid said triggers and only after he has done all of that will he approach you.

🌸To your occasional dismay Kazuma's special situation does force him unfortunately to be more strict with you at times as he has to find ways around triggers. Whilst his self-control is not that fragile and he can definitely endure some triggers such as jealousy, he knows that there is a limit to it all as he can't let anything blight him or his master. More than often he resorts to subtle manipulation instead of acting as a rigid dictator though as he wouldn't want to appear as unlikeable in your eyes. Since he is a very strategic and analytical individual, his skills in regards of influencing and manipulating you are frighteningly good as he can wipe up a plan pretty quickly as soon as he has a certain amount of information. Those tendencies to always have a rough idea of where you are and what you are doing are not only because he simply desires to control you though but it also helps him vastly if there are any reports of danger near you as it enables him to act swiftly in such situations.

🌸Jealousy is a categorised trigger of his but only if it goes on for too long and goes too far. Kazuma is by no means a very insecure individual, at least not in such a way that he would think of it as a sin to even be near you. Being in control means after all to be confident and this is a motto that he goes by even in regards to his obsession. There is no need to fall victim to petty jealousy. As long as someone doesn't test him, there is no need to interfere but it is going to be thoroughly unpleasant if someone does pick a fight with him or gets on his nerves. He's not like Yukine who lashes out and spews harsh words. Instead his voice is calm and steady and his gaze rather cold when he eventually speaks up. Because he remains in control, he is usually the one who quickly dominates the situation as he can and will point out quickly every little flaw he can deduce from someone's appearance or behavior without any shame. It normally ends in a short and brutal battle of words which he always wins before he calmly walks away with you.

🌸There are criteria needed for Kazuma to make such a rather heavy decision but theoretically he is capable as well as prepared to end the life of someone if they pose a significant threat to you. It is certainly an event that can haunt him though, although that rather depends on your reaction to their death as he will only feel that way if you would be struck by grief and despair. Emotions are pushed away though as he approaches everything with a rather logical mindset that is set on protecting someone he loves and cherishes. He has already slayed shiki of Bishamon when she was blighted to save her life as he deemed it ultimately as a tragic but right thing to do and this applies exactly to your situation. If there is no turning back and nothing else he can think of, Kazuma will see it through to end someone's life and if it can't be avoided he will even be the one who will murder them himself. Typical for a schemer and analyst of his though, there is always a plan and a plan b he works out beforehand.

🌸His home is Bishamon's shrine and whilst he has learned to live with his obsession, he knows that not everyone would feel that way about it if they would fully realise how deep the hole of his feelings really goes. I can see him teleporting you to Bishamon's shrine in a case of emergency where your life is in danger and no ordinary force on earth would be able to help you. The procedure that follows is rather similar to the one of Bishamon. He will properly explain everything to you by revealing the truth to you and he will let you go back to your own world after everything has been sorted through. Afterwards he will see it through though that he keeps a closer eye on you after everything has been told to you to see how you are dealing with the news. Whilst he is never one to think of himself as superior, if a situation arrives that is out of what you are used to he expects you to head his warnings and his advice as he sees it as logical that you would listen to him who actually has experience and is overall centuries more familiar with the problem than you are.

🌸As a very tidily and punctual individual, Kazuma will never miss a meeting with you nor will he ever look messy as his appearance is always clean and neat. In fact he is the one texting you if you are a few minutes late, worried if something has happened to you. If you ever do let him inside your house, be prepared that he is probably going to start tidying things up as soon as something is too messy for his taste. There is a whole file on his phone that only includes pictures of you, whether they are solely of you or are cropped pictures where he cut everyone else out until only you were visible. Whilst he wouldn't openly admit it, Kazuma enjoys it when you rely on him for certain things as it fills him with pride so sometimes he finds himself purposely searching for situations where you will have to seek him out more simply to experience that feeling again. As someone who plans behind the scenes, you probably never suspect that he is the one at fault when some people suddenly disappear from your life or when relationships crumble he deems as toxic for you.

Kofuku

💓Behind the appearance of an air-headed dunce, one should not underestimate Kofuku's insight. She is very aware of every event going on outside, whether it is of good or bad nature and knows about all the threats and risks that exist. So you'd judge poorly if you were to assume that she is oblivious to her obsession for you. In fact she is very lucid of it all, although I do admit that with the bubbly and lovingly behavior she exhibits around you one would be rightfully fooled to think that she remains in the dark about what is a glaringly clear infatuation. It is just part of her nature to treat the people she is close to very lovingly and she is just extra clingy with you. As bad as those feelings should be, they are also rather exciting and she loves the rush and the thrill when she is with you and witnesses all of your cute expressions and habits. As an unnamed god, she doesn't have exceptionally much to do anyways so she may as well spend a large portion of her time with the person that she clearly adores.

💓Misfortune follows wherever she goes though which puts Kofuku's obsession into a very special position. Daikoku often reminds her of the fate that she brings to everyone she spends time with and the goddess knows about that better than anyone else. She should stay away from you for your own good yet this is a hard task as she finds herself dwelling in sorrow and boredeom when she isn't with you. There is no real way to protect oneself against the poor luck she always brings with her and whilst she tries to help where she can and attempts to save what there is to save, she only makes everything worse somehow. Still, she tries to brighten up your day as good as she can even if she is the cause of all of your current predicaments. It is quite the blatant act though as she hides her true identity from you and that she is the one who makes everything worse in your life whilst simultanously cheering you up as good as she can. She is good though as her personality does cheer you up which somehow leads you into thinking that she is currently the only good thing in your life.

💓Whilst Kofuku is to a certain degree an attention seeker, she isn't like Yato who is constantly jealous when you pay attention to someone else. Whilst she is as a god of poverty wildly scorned amongst other gods, she isn't as petty as Yato. She actually encourages you to go out and see your friends when she realises that you are in a bad mood because of your pitiful situation she has caused due to her strange powers. A part of her actually wants to meet your friends herself but she is reminded from Daikoku that she would only end up dragging them into a similar situation as yours if she would spend too much time with them which is why she limits her interactions with people you care about as if repenting somehow for being unable to do the same with you. Do not let yourself get fooled though as she has a mischievous vein in her body and might mess with someone if they end up seriously fueling her jealousy, even if it ends up bringing them a lod of misfortune.

💓Her sweet appearance aside, she isn't shy to threaten and intimidate others when it involves people she holds dear to her own heart. Gods usually avoid her due to her abilities to cause misfortune and she and Daikoku, a begrudging accomplice in this all who tries to save what he can save, can defend you against other things such as ayakashi by themselves. In regards to humans though, Kofuku doesn't find herself needing to use any violence. As lonely as her abilities have made her, she uses them when she needs someone to stay away from you and all she really has to do is spend a bit of time with the person before catastrophe after catastrophe strikes their life. It is then that she deems that she has hung around them enough and just leaves them in the dust whilst they are too busy being a danger to you as they struggle with debt and the loss of their job. She does all of that fully aware that the repercussion will end like that but she does it with a sweet smile on her face nevertheless.

💓Honestly, Kofuku's entire life has always been siginificantly defined and reduced as everyone has avoided her due to her strong misfortune and that misfortune brings you into a very peculiar spot as well. With the amount of time she spends with you it is highly likely that you will lose your job as well as your house and it is then that you wind up working in her shop as well as living together with Daikoku and her. Deep down Kofuku has always known that if she wouldn't stop herself, it would end that way yet she couldn't help herself. She feels partially still quite jolly now that the both of you can live together as she gets to spend even more time with you but there will always be her guilt that will dull that joy of hers and that leads her to be even more sweet to you as if trying to make all the suffering you had to go through up to you. The most sinister and worst part of all is that you are genuinely stuck now because even if you were to try to rebuild your life from scratch, as long as Kofuku is around you your situation will always end the same way.

💓Kofuku often drags you outside or just takes you in general with her so that you don't end up dwelling too long on your own life that has been turned upside down. She likes to have fun and is an adventutous spirit after all and she wants you to participate in the joy that she feels. As she gets easily bored when she is stuck inside the shop for too long without doing anything even remotely interesting, she always finds herself giddy to leave with you. A lot of dates she has planned probably failed due to her bad luck so she finds herself often organising everything herself in places where she can't bring misfortune to other people or where the chances of bad accidents will be lowered and won't be too severe. Daikoku often helps her with her plans. She already likes giving people close to her nicknames and you have a whole bunch of cute and silly nicknames she likes to call you by. As soon as you have moved in with Daikoku and her, she is basically already acting like you two are married as she feeds you, holds your hands and sometimes even ends up sleeping in the same bed as you.

Daikoku

🪭Daikoku may intimidate people on first impression as he appears to be a rather unsmiling individual but he cares very deeply for the people who are important to him. Similar to his master Kofuku, Daikoku is on a lucid spectrum concerning his obsession. Differently from the god of poverty though, he restrains himself far more than Kofuku and chooses to stay away from you even if it hurts his feelings. As a shinki the risk is always to accidentally blight his master which is why he chooses to suppress his emotions in order to not sin and accidentally blight his master but that path is a double-edged sword. Whilst he does avoid a good portion of guilt and shame as he feels less like a creep by staying away from you, negative emotions still fester within him. Mainly a silent longing that he refuses to act upon. Partially he wishes that he could just push you away when you are around but he never has the heart to do so as he instead just treats you with kindness and attentiveness.

🪭Kofuku is unironically the one who kindles his feelings as she is suprisingly supportive of his feelings despite knowing that you are a human. It is no surprise that she finds out about you as Daikoku has been her shinki and companion for centuries and both of them have a strong bond. In her mind Daikoku deserves happiness, especially after they had to let Daigo go. She supports his love as she encourages him to visit you or even seeks you out herself so that you can visit the shop both of them are working in so that he can spend more time with you. He's a very protective and caring individual who has zero tolerance for anyone who is trying to mess with you and in public he usually can't help himself but always take a protective step in front of you as soon as anyone faces you, even if they are friends. It's somewhat of a bad habit of his that he can't seem to shake off. At one point he eventually gives up trying to act like he doesn't care that much about you as you always manage to break all of the fragile walls he has tried to build and instead is open about his affection.

🪭Jealousy and protectiveness are two things closely intertwined in Daikoku's soul which means that envy rarely comes without his instincts to protect and defend. You would know best that he always is a tad bit wary around people he doesn't know yet, even if they should be close friends and family of yours. Upon first meeting someone, he is always inspecting them and observing their interactions with you closely and it usually needs a bit of time before he loosens up around them when he decides that they are no threat to you, though he is still fully committed to kick their ass if they should mess up. He's definitely a tad bit more aggressive when he gets jealous though and that only aids his intimidation skills. Daikoku will be more scary when he glares at someone with a clearly agitated expression and he hates people who have the audacity to just flirt with you. He's not shying away from grabbing such people by the collar and jerking them away from you or really going for a kick that sends them tumbling down, although he does restrain himself in public space.

🪭Whilst certainly not one to mess around due to his protective nature, Daikoku has more shame about killing than other shinki like Kazuma. There are certain actions he is willing to take in order to keep other people who are dangerous to you away and that without any overwhelming guilt. He threatens them, he intimidates them and he is also ready to get more aggressive if it comes down to it but death is a step too far for him to just comfortably do. Kofuku as a wing woman is willing to offer her own help if it comes down to it and the bad luck she brings with her requires no fists or weapons to drag someone down if she just spends enough time around a person. Daikoku often refrains from informing her though as he doesn't want to get his master involved in his own problems, especially since he knows that Kofuku would be a bit too willing to lend her help to assist him in his love life. If it comes down to it though, he has the capabilities to murder someone without blighting his master as he would see it then as a last and unavoidable resort.

🪭He would never abduct his darling but since he is the shinki of Kofuku who is going to meet you sooner or later, the question is rather if her exceptionally bad misfortune will lead you into a tricky situation. Daikoku knows best that his master has no control over the misfortune she brings to others and he knows that she is scorned and avoided by even other gods as a result of her unique powers so he would never blame her. That doesn't help you though the moment you get affected by Kofuku's abilities and your life suddenly takes a turn for the significantly worse. Even Kofuku will feel guilty though as she apologises to Daikoku and you, although you obviously will not know why she is apologising. Considering that though, you may as well end up in the same situation where you would end up if you were to be Kofuku's darling. Living together with them and working in their shop. Daikoku would be extra attentive after all the drama you had to endure because he got you involved with their life and even Kofuku would be very affectionate and doting to you.

🪭As a shinki, Daikoku is even through his doubts a rather stable person. He's most likely a tad bit too harsh on himself at times, especially if your life did end up badly because of his involvement in his life. Sharing a home with Kofuku and him though makes you unironically realise how much house husband material this man has. He ends up doing pretty much all the chores for you, especially the first few weeks after you have moved in and are still in the process of digesting everything. He does the laundry for you, he cleans the rooms for you and he cooks your favorite meals for you all in attempts to cheer you up and give you the time you need to process everything. Kofuku is more mindful too, although she still hasn't given up on making the two of you a couple now that you live together with them anyways. Yato constantly tries to tease you to get to Daikoku as he knows how protective the man is and in a way he gets what he wants when he gets a kick delivered to his ribs whilst Daikoku warns him with a pissed expression to keep his hands away from you.

Rabo

🐦‍⬛Rabo is a character shrouded in darkness and mystery who has accepted that he is a God of Calamity unlike Yato who is actively trying to change his fate. Perhaps it is this acceptance that leads him to never question his feelings for you. Even if he would practice some self-reflection, the end result would remain the same. He doesn't care. He doesn't care if his feelings scare you nor does he scare who he has to kill in order to keep you. He is acting on his selfish and possessive desires freely as he has no morals nor anything else that could hold him back from committing all of the atrocities that he does to ensure that no one else will find you so that he may keep you forever. Why should he care in the first place? You are completely right by labeling him as a cruel and cold person. He has always killed, no matter what species his victims belonged to so killing people you love is no different than what he has been doing already since eons. So stop whimpering and get used to it.

🐦‍⬛His possessive character aside, Rabo is a very cautious and observing individual who likes to inspect and gauge your reactions and your gestures in order to get a better grip of your personality. The careful nature he mostly reveals when he is fighting enemies to determine their abilities and their strength even shows itself in regards to his obsession, although it is less because Rabo sees you as someone who might physically best him. Partially it is because after so many eons of fighting, this has simply become a habit of his. On the other hand it is a conscious decision he makes as an obsession is something he doesn't know how to deal with. Those feelings are new and foreign and the lack of experience he has makes him a tad bit unsure. He only knows how to fight, to kill and to bring suffering to others but not how to love and care for someone and even if his facial expression doesn't give it away, there is a slimy unease resting in the pit of his stomach as the normal solutions he has been using for ages do not solve the problem.

🐦‍⬛Jealousy is yet another emotion the God of Calamity can add to the list of new sensations and feelings he has never experienced before he found you. Although jealousy is probably one of the most unpleasant sensations for him. He feels threatened but not in the way he is used to. He doesn't fear for his life nor does he have to fear for your life as he could simply murder anyone who would even think about taking your life or stealing you physically away from him. There is another fear, one he can't grasp nor explain and it only further feeds into the growing agitation. He doesn't understand why he feels threatened when you smile whilst thinking about someone else or when you express your grief as you miss the people he has either slaughtered or stolen you away from. There is a strange pull in his chest as he wonders why you keep thinking about them even now when he is with you and why you never give him the same amount of attention or thoughts you give to those puny mortals.

🐦‍⬛Death is as natural to Rabo as breathing is to you. It is the one thing he was created for after all, to wreck everything and everyone that crosses paths with him. it is his fate as a God of Calamity and he has resigned himself to his task. Killing has always been the sole solution and task for him which is why you have any right to fret for anyone as soon as you have encountered the grim fate of becoming the victim of his obsession. Even if murdering family or friends of yours is not part of his job, a personal grudge is reason enough for him to stain his sword in blood. It annoys him when you lament about the people you aren't able to return to anymore and it agitates him when he is standing right in front of you but your mind is elsewhere as you indulge in thoughts about others. If he were to serve you all of their corpses, would he be able to remove them permanently from your mind? If your mind were to be empty if you have no one to think about anymore, would he be able to claim your every thought like you have claimed his? There is only one way to find out...

🐦‍⬛You are definitely getting taken but it is not an immediate abduction. Mainly because whilst Rabo doesn't care about the trauma and suffering he will put you through by satisfying his own obsession, he sems to care at least enough to inform himself of your needs and the basic care that a human requires. You get by that everything you need to fulfill the minimum that you require to look after yourself when you eventually get kidnapped by him but the life you lead is nothing overly grand. You have everything that he deems as necessary and you won't get more either as Rabo has never grown up with the concept of spoiling others. The only solace you have, if you can even call it one, is that he leads the same lifestyle as you. He gets by with the bare minimum. Your life is after the abduction pretty involved with his own as he spends a lot of time with you. You take all your meals together with him, do the chores around the place whilst he is watching you and are even forced to sleep in the same room as him.

🐦‍⬛Rabo is an incredibly tactiturn god and silence quickly becomes your most loyal companion when he is around you. It isn't the relaxing kind of silence though but the heavy and awkward one that has your heart constantly on edge. He has a prominent habit of just staring at you and following your every movement as he prefers having you within his sight, perhaps a sign of his controlling nature as he wants to always be informed of what you are doing. You don't think that he knows what private space is as it happens that you turn around and find him standing eerily close to you and it always gives you a heart attack, especially because those bright yellow eyes always look at you as if they are about to plunge into the deepest and darkest parts of your mind and soul. Honestly, Rabo doesn't fully know what he is supposed to do now that you are stuck with him. His heart still desires something but he struggles to understand what it is that he wants from you now. He'll figure it out though.

Nora

⚪Nora knows neither good nor evil which leads to her having no comparison that could help her to properly determine how exactly she should think about her growing feelings for you and what would be the proper way to handle her obsession. She simply was never taught and as that is the case, she has no reason to even pretend to care or to hold back which ultimately leads her into openly deciding to pursue you and act according to her desires. She enjoys being your personal shadow, the one that follows you around wherever you go whilst neither you nor anyone else around you notices her. It is rather amusing, especially since she likes messing around as she takes advantage of her abilities. It is entertaining to see you growing slowly more paranoid as you hear her voice whispering behind you, feel her tapping your shoulder or realise that things disappear only to appear elsewhere all whilst not being able to see her. You are after all only human and you will never be more.

⚪Nora is quite manipulative and her clear enjoyment in tormenting and frightening you indicates that she has a sadistic vein in her too as she likes torturing you psychologically. She eventually does reveal herself to you but then she doesn't tell you the truth about everything you do not know as she instead decides to make things more interesting. She presents herself as someone you can talk to and trust as you have so far not told anyone about the strange things that have been happening around you and in the few cases that you have, no one has believed you. Sick of realising that everyone would probably think that you have lost it, you have instead decided to keep everything to yourself so the relief to know that there is someone who doesn't judge you and actually seems to believe you soothes your soul. You poor thing remain unaware that Nora wants you to feel comforted with her and wants you to trust her. She probably ends up manipulating you into isolating yourself from family and friends until she is the only one who you have.

⚪She is rather displeased when you try to maintain relationships with others or when someone else attempts to take her plaything away from her. It is likely that she only shows herself to you when the both of you are alone. There are many masters she serves which does keep her busy at times but when she has tie, she winds up stalking you and following you around throughout your entire day. Nora knows what you do in your daily life and she uses that information against you whenever you two spend time together in subtle ways that will not have you think that she is stalking you but rather make you feel like she just understands you better than anyone else. Normally she winds up manipulating you into cutting ties with the people she doesn't want anywhere near you but if that doesn't work she decides that she has to hurt you by influencing the other person until they end up pushing you away which only reinforces her words to you that no one will believe you and stay with you. Only she is there for you.

⚪The shinki isn't someone who would take things into her own hands but she will definitely use whatever she has to kill people when she starts seeing them as too pesky. Depending on how much fun she has with her victims, the time until death can vary greatly. Sometimes she torments her victims for weeks on end by being even more extreme than she is with you. It is always so pathetic to see a human going crazy and turn constantly around, paranoid that there will be someone behind them. She never lifts a finger to do anything but she doesn't have to do so as she has caused some humans to commit suicide as a result of the induced fear and paranoia. Other times she may get bored midway and decide to end things on her own instead of entertaining the person any longer. In that case she may use her Ayakashi manipulation to control masked ayakashi and order them to attack the person and to end their life for her so that she can pick up the broken pieces of your heart later on when you find out about their death.

⚪She has no interest to put in all of the work to abduct you only to be left to care for you then. Nora is very much comfortable with the way things are shaping themselves right now. She already has you depending on her very often as she is the only person who hasn't betrayed you or died on you yet which makes you quite desperate to keep her by your side. There is rarely a rejection from her side though when you invite her over to your own home where she makes herself comfortable for the time being. She doesn't plan to settle down anytime soon either. There are a lot of things and plans she has to do and fulfill so she values her freedom to wander around without having to look out for you all the time which would be the case if she were to abduct you. She expects you to look out for yourself whilst she is gone without seeking out anyone else in her absence as she wants your dependency on her to stay. Just wait in your home for her until she is done with whatever she has to do.

⚪Nora sees friendship, family bonds and every other form of love as a game where you pretend to be someone that you are not and that partially implies for all of this too. To her, this is a game where she pretends to be someone you can trust and rely on when in reality everything is a lie. She just waits for the right time to shatter your last hopes and your naive belief but until that moment happens, she will continue being what you think she is. There are times where she messes with you though simply because she thinks that it is funny to see you getting all anxious and frightened when she is gone for longer periods or times or when she gives you the cold shoulder because she wants you to grovel to her like a pathetic worm. Physically she will never harm you but emotionally it is a free game for her where she breaks and molds you constantly to her current liking yet you do not realise it or decide to ignore it. What a pitiful, dumb thing you are.

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Never ending song (Yato x Reader)

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ᴄᴢᴇɢᴏ ᴘᴏᴛʀᴢᴇʙᴀ ʙʏ ꜱɪᴇ̨ ᴢᴍɪᴇɴɪᴄ́? ᴄᴢʏ ᴊᴇꜱᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴡ ᴏɢᴏ́ʟᴇ ᴍᴏᴢ̇ʟɪᴡᴇ, ᴊᴇꜱ́ʟɪ ᴡꜱᴢʏꜱᴄʏ ᴅᴏᴏᴋᴏᴌᴀ ᴍᴏ́ᴡɪᴀ̨, ᴢ̇ᴇ ᴛᴡᴏᴊᴇ ᴘʀᴢᴇᴢɴᴀᴄᴢᴇɴɪᴇ ᴊᴇꜱᴛ ᴢ ɢᴏ́ʀʏ ᴢᴀᴘɪꜱᴀɴᴇ? ᴊᴀᴋ ᴡʏᴍᴀᴢᴀᴄ́ ʟᴀᴛᴀ ᴏᴋʀᴜᴄɪᴇɴ́ꜱᴛᴡ, ᴋᴛᴏ́ʀᴇ ꜱɪᴇ̨ ᴜᴄᴢʏɴɪᴌᴏ? ᴛᴇ ᴘʏᴛᴀɴɪᴀ ᴋᴏᴌᴀᴄᴢᴀ̨ ᴡ ɢᴌᴏᴡɪᴇ ʏᴀʙᴏᴋᴜ ɪ [ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ]. ᴏʙʏᴅᴡᴏᴊᴇ ᴢɴᴀᴊᴅᴜᴊᴀ̨ ꜱᴡᴏᴊᴇ ᴡᴌᴀꜱɴᴇ ᴏᴅᴘᴏᴡɪᴇᴅᴢɪ.

Czerń nocy spowiła zaścielone trupami pole. [Reader] miała wrażenie, że spogląda na żałobny całun. Pod nim kryły się zmasakrowane twarze ojców, matek, córek, synów, braci i sióstr. Wszyscy patrzyli na siebie pustym wzrokiem. Ich oczy niczym szklane paciorki, które mogłaby nanizać na nitkę. Splecione krwawymi, nieschnącymi strugami krwi. Ziemia nie mogła już stać się bardziej czerwona. Być może dlatego niebieskie oczy Yaboku zdawały się wołać ją z daleka. Odcinały się na tle masakry. Jak niebo przed burzą. Jak błyskawice przecinające horyzont sekundy przed uderzeniem pioruna. Nie był jednak głośny. Jego katana nie wydawała nawet najcichszego dźwięku, zatapiając się w kolejnym ciele.

Ciche jęczenie wydobyło się spod dawno martwego konia. Przygnieciony ciężarem rumaka mężczyzna wykrwawiał się w powolnym tempie. Pochylając się nad nim, w jego wzroku odnalazła jedynie bezbrzeżne przerażenie. Kimono wyglądało na podarte i postrzępione jeszcze przed walką. Odcięta ręka wciąż trzymała zaciśnięte w niej grabie. Musiał należeć do jednego z panów, którzy tę wojnę rozpętali. Nieważne, po której stronie konfliktu stał, skończyłby tak samo.

— Jesteś — rzężący świst próbował przedostać się przez usta — shinigami? — spytał, drżąc.

— Nie, ale śmierć to najlepsze, co mogę ci zaoferować — odparła bogini.

Mężczyzna nieznacznie kiwnął głową.

[Reader] nie musiała wzywać swoich shinki. Prawie nigdy nie wracały do swoich ludzkich postaci. Nie w chwilach, gdy wiedziały, że będą pracować od nocy aż po świt. Co przez ostatnich kilkadziesiąt lat zdarzało się niezwykle często.

Czarne skrzydła zatrzepotały tuż przy jej uchu. Świat na moment zamienił się w chmurę piór. Kruki zabrały się do pracy. Przecięły skórę i wprawnym ruchem dzioba dobrały się do arterii. Głośnym skrzekiem oznajmiły koniec pracy. Zaraz potem zabrały się do zjadania padliny.

Bogini omiotła spojrzeniem pobojowisko. Wszyscy leżący byli już w Yomi. Krwawy siennik, na którym złożyli głowę po raz ostatni. Miała ochotę odwołać shinki. Dlaczego ona musiała się tym zajmować? Czemu musiała patrzeć dzień za dniem na możnowładców walczących o ziemię? Wysłuchiwać modlitw ludzi błagających, by kruki zjadły trupy ich wrogów? Patrzeć, jak rzekomo honorowi samurajowie i córki hańbiące rodziny stają się padliną?

— Ten był mój. — Oczy Yaboku pobłyskiwały niebezpiecznie.

Wpatrywał się w mięso pokryte stadem much.

— Błagał o łaskę — odparła kobieta z wahaniem.

[Reader] dobrze wiedziała, co bóg Klęsk miał na myśli. To nie była sprecyzowana modlitwa, ale nie powinna na nią odpowiadać. Łaska nie leżała w jej gestii.

— Jesteś związana z nieszczęściem tak jak ja. Musisz się z tym pogodzić. — Słowa cięły niczym naostrzona katana, ale były prawdziwe.

Yaboku westchnął i usiadł na skraju masakry. [Reader] poszła za jego przykładem. Oparła głowę na jego ramieniu. Wydawała jej się wyjątkowo ciężka. Jakby natłok myśli rzeczywiście stał się fizycznym ciężarem, który trudno było unieść samemu.

— Wciąż się nad tym zastanawiasz. — Odgarnął kosmyk włosów z jej czoła.

Palce zbrukane krwią pogładziły jej policzek. Mimowolnie wtuliła się w znajomą dłoń.

— Sama już sama nie wiem... Czasem myślę o tym, co by było, gdybyśmy byli kimś innym. Bogami Fortuny albo... po prostu czegoś innego. Szczęśliwszego.

Te rozterki kołatały jej w głowie już od jakiegoś czasu. Patrzenie wciąż na ludzkie krzywdy odbijało się echem w jej umyśle. Nawet jeśli patrzyła na ich szczęśliwe momenty, nigdy nie mogła brać w nich udziału. Nie miała jak się do nich przyczynić. Zazdrościła tym, którzy obdarowywali ludzi przychylnością. Ich festiwale były głośne i radosne. Niczym fajerwerki rozświetlające noc. Ona przyjmowała ludzi w obdartej kapliczce. Zawsze ze złymi intencjami. Nikt dobry nie życzył innym bycia zjedzonym przez kruki.

— Spójrz na mnie.

Yaboku złapał ją delikatnie za podbródek. W jego głosie jednak tkwił cień rozkazu. We wzroku zaś stalowa pewność, że to, co powie, jest prawdą.

— Jesteśmy bogami. Nasze przeznaczenie jest z góry zapisane. Nie ma sensu z nim walczyć. Wystarczy mu się poddać i wykonywać swoją pracę.

[Reader] pokiwała głową. To był bóg, który się nie wahał. Ona też nie powinna.

Kwiaty wiśni tańczyły w chłodnym powietrzu, poruszane przez łagodny wiatr. [Reader] patrzyła na nie, jakby ujrzała je po raz pierwszy. Być może dlatego, że od dawna nie miała czasu naprawdę na nie spojrzeć. Wydawały się jednocześnie bardzo właściwe i tak bardzo nie na miejscu. Z tymi swoimi delikatnymi, białoróżowymi płatkami. Z dumnie powyginanymi, ciemnymi gałęziami. Kontrastowały z tym, co widziała w ciągu ostatnich kilku lat.

Czym właściwie było kilka lat w boskim życiu? Powinny wydawać się niczym. Ulotnym trzepotem motylich skrzydeł. A jednak zdawały się jej ciążyć. Niczym grube, objedzone ludzkim mięsem kruki siadające jej na ramionach. Jej shinki plątały się obok w swoich ludzkich formach. Zdawały się być zdumione własnym ciałami. Czuła ich niepokój. Ich prawdziwe postacie wydawały im się niezwykle obce. Krążyły między drzewami i chłonęły wszystko dookoła, jakby widziały świat na nowo.

Te oczy. Niczym chabry pośród wirażu kwiatów wiśni. Zawsze dostrzegała je już z daleka. Yaboku pośród tego ogrodu wyglądał jak zwiastun wojny. Tej, która nie tak dawno została zakończona jakimś traktatem. [Reader] jednak dobrze wiedziała, że ludzkie rozejmy nie trwają wiecznie. Zawsze przyjdzie ktoś, kto takowy złamie. Prędzej czy później zawsze przegrywają z własną chciwością. Wyciągają broń, dokonują krwawej masakry, po czym się godzą. A ona jak zawsze przychodzi posprzątać ich bałagan.

— Wyglądasz niemrawo. — Yaboku przekrzywił głowę.

— Jestem zmęczona — przyznała.

Złapał ją za dłoń. Jego własna była niewiarygodnie chłodna. Jakby ciepłe promienie słońca nie mogły jej dosięgnąć.

— Twoje imię nie zniknie z dnia na dzień. Możesz odpocząć. — Yaboku pociągnął ją za sobą. — Nie powinnaś się dręczyć.

— Może masz rację. — Pokiwała głową, z wolna ruszając przed siebie.

Nie mogła zapomnieć. Właściwie nie chciała zapomnieć. W trakcie wojny wzywało ją wiele osób. Stosy trupów rosły w takim tempie, że nie nadążała z pozyskiwaniem nowych shinki. Nie dawali rady ich przejeść. A jednak krzyk tej jednej matki zapadł jej w pamięć i palił umysł niczym gorące żelazo. To, co zrobili jej córce żołnierze, nie było możliwe do ubrania w żadne słowa. Dla zmasakrowanej, dygocącej z zimna i przerażenia dziewczynki, śmierć wymierzona przez Yaboku była niczym łaska. Gdy kobieta zrozumiała, co miało miejsce, padła przed kapliczką [Reader]. Niech kruki zjedzą te potwory w ludzkiej skórze — powtarzała w kółko jak mantrę. Bogini odpowiedziała. Żołnierze mieli jednak swoje życie. Własne rodziny pragnące zemsty. Powiadali, że czerwona nić symbolizuje miłość. Głęboko wierzyła, że to nieprawda. To był sznur nienawiści w kolorze krwi. Łączący pokolenia, przechodzący ponad podziałami i zaciskający się na szyjach kolejnych ludzi, gdy kruki wydziobywały ich wnętrzności. Niekończąca się historia.

Hiro popatrzyła na [Reader] badawczo. Zaraz potem skierowała wzrok na Yaboku. Skrzyżowała z nim spojrzenie i odeszła w sobie tylko znanym kierunku. Bogini wiedziała, że shinki za nią nie przepada. Nigdy nie dogadywały się zbyt dobrze. Nora robiła wszystko, by przypodobać się ojcu. Nie miała czasu ani luksusu, jakim było zastanawianie się. Czasem zazdrościła jej tej zdolności. Do wykonywania zadań. Tak po prostu. Bez rozkładania ich słuszności na czynniki.

— Prawie mogę zobaczyć trybiki obracające się w twojej głowie. — Yaboku stuknął ją prosto w czoło. — Taka jest nasza rola i praca. Zostaliśmy stworzeni do przynoszenia ludziom nieszczęść. Też czasem myślę, że chciałbym wywoływać ich radość z innego powodu niż mordowanie...

— Naprawdę? — spytała w niedowierzaniu.

To był pierwszy raz, gdy bóg kiedykolwiek dał po sobie poznać, że coś takiego krąży mu po głowie. Kilkaset lat temu nieustannie nad tym rozpaczała, ale teraz po prostu akceptowała obecny stan rzeczy. Jako coś, czego nie można zmienić. Z rzadka, w czasach największych tragedii, dopadała ją jednak melancholia. Co, gdyby była kimś innym?

— Naprawdę. Jednak lepiej tego po prostu nie roztrząsać.

Pocałunek by�� słodki. Zupełnie jak zapach dookoła nich. Jak gęsty miód spowijał zmysły. Pozwalał zapomnieć. Przynajmniej przez chwilę. Znajome wargi, w kąciku których wciąż kryła się reszta zaschniętej krwi. Czarne włosy, w które z taką łatwością mogła wpleść palce. Niebieskie oczy, w których tak łatwo było utonąć. Wystarczyło tylko zrobić krok.

Yaboku przewrócił się na drugi bok. Rozejrzał się po małej chatce. W delikatnym świetle dało się rozpoznać kontury. Nie żeby poza futonem cokolwiek w niej było. Nie miał zbyt wiele materialnych przedmiotów. Z zewnątrz dotarło do niego ciche krakanie. Zapewne shinki [Reader] wracały zmęczone swoimi zadaniami.

Przyjrzał się swoim dłoniom. W mdłym świetle wydawały się niemal krwiste. Jakby posoka, którą zmył wczoraj, wcale z nich nie zeszła. Był do tego przyzwyczajony. Do drobinek pod paznokciami. Do nieustannego trybu czuwania. Do bezrefleksyjnego ścinania głów. Tymczasem teraz cień na ścianie przypominał ludzkie sylwetki. Szuranie dobiegające spod podłogi zdawało się szeptać. Jego własne ciało wydawało się nie należeć do niego.

Potarł powieki z całych sił. Byle odgonić dziwne uczucie sennych mar kryjących się pod nimi.

[Reader] wciąż spała. Oddychała miarowo. Blask wschodzącego słońca delikatnie rozjaśniał jej oblicze. Odruchowo wtuliła się w jego klatkę piersiową, co przyjął z dozą ulgi. Wyglądało na to, że śniła spokojnie. W przeciwieństwie do niego.

Yaboku po raz pierwszy w życiu czuł strach. Był rozdarty. Nigdy wcześniej nie miał poczucia, że to, co robi, jest niewłaściwe. Przeżył setki lat swoim monotonnym życiem, pogodzony z przeznaczeniem. Teraz jednak w jego głowie kotłowała się myśl, że wcale nie musi tak być. Dojrzewała w nim przez ostatnich kilka lat. Tylko po to, by zacząć kwestionować wszystko. Słuszność nauk ojca, rad Hiro i jego własnych decyzji. Niczym wschodzące nad horyzontem słońce. Na granicy, jeszcze chowające swoją głowę, ale ukazujące pierwsze promienie, nie dając się zignorować.

Chciał więcej. Pragnął czegoś lepszego. Dlaczego niby nie zasługiwał na przynoszenie ludziom radości? Czemu zawsze musiał oglądać ich tylko i wyłącznie w najgorszych momentach życia? Nie wiedział, czy to kolejna już wielka wojna przywiodła go do tych pytań. To, czego jednak był pewien, to niechęć do stanu zawieszenia. Musiał coś z tym zrobić. Podjąć jakąś decyzję. Czy dałby radę się zmienić? Czy w ogóle jest to możliwe?

Był prawie pewny, że już chwyta się odpowiedzi na własne pytania, ale kilka dni temu zamordował cały klan Ma. Jeśli nawet shinki, które powinny być czystymi duszami, nie mogą uniknąć skażenia, to jaką szansę mieli ludzie? Czy są z natury skazani na bycie złymi istotami? Skoro jeden z Siedmiu Bogów Fortuny potrzebował jego pomocy, choć zajmuje się szczęściem, to czy to w ogóle miało sens? Może nawet na końcu takiej drogi czekałoby go jedynie rozczarowanie.

— Coś knujesz — zaspany głos [Reader] dobiegł go jakby z opóźnieniem.

— Skąd to przekonanie? — spytał.

— Znam to spojrzenie, Yaboku. Wyglądasz, jakbyś walczył, ale nikogo tu nie ma, więc pewnie walczysz sam ze sobą — skwitowała bogini.

Tak właśnie było. Czy jednak ta bitwa powinna ujrzeć światło dnia? Czy powinien jej powiedzieć? Wahał się jeszcze przez chwilę.

— Muszę zniknąć na jakiś czas. — Waga tych słów dotarła do niego dobitnie dopiero po tym, jak je wypowiedział.

— Co dokładnie przez to rozumiesz? — [Reader] podniosła się na futonie. — To ma jakiś związek z Bishamonten? Przecież wiesz dobrze, że to nie twoja wina. Wykonałeś to, o co poprosił cię Kazuma. To był twój obowiązek.

— Muszę przemyśleć kilka spraw... Ojciec nie może wiedzieć, gdzie będę — zakończył niemrawo.

— Yaboku, taka jest nasza rola. To do ciebie niepodobne, żeby nad tym rozważać i...

Bóg posłał jej błagalne spojrzenie, pod wpływem którego umilkła.

— Proszę, nie mów mu, kiedy zniknę. Przynajmniej przez jakiś czas.

Wiedział, że jeśli ojciec zacznie go szukać, ona będzie jedną z pierwszych osób, do których się zwróci. Jako jedna z niewielu miała szansę szybko go znaleźć.

— Obiecujesz, że znowu się spotkamy? — spytała [Reader] niepewnie.

Nigdy, w ciągu kilkuset lat, nie miała miejsca taka sytuacja. Nigdy nie rozstawali się na zbyt długo. Nigdy nie rozstawali się z myślą, że to właśnie robią. Zawsze jakoś do siebie wracali. Nie potrzebowali planować spotkań. Nieuniknione było przebywanie na tyle blisko i często, że nawet nie przychodziło im to do głowy.

Bogini gorączkowo zaczęła szukać czegoś w swoim kimonie.

— Masz. — Wcisnęła mu do ręki drobną monetę.

Pięć jenów odbiło się słabym blaskiem w świetle brzasku. Była to marna stawka, ale życzenie było życzeniem. Dlatego, próbując opanować łamiący się głos, powiedział:

— Twoje modlitwa została wysłuchana.

— Więc to tu się chowałeś, Yaboku. — Nawet po kilkudziesięciu latach wciąż poznałby ten głos.

Kofuku chciała coś powiedzieć, ale Daikoku wymamrotał coś niezwykle poważnym tonem i posłusznie zostawili go z [Reader]. Z chatki dobiegał zapach świeżo ugotowanego bulionu. Pewnie zjedzą ramen. Przyjemnie łagodne kluski w towarzystwie dodatków. Pobrzękiwanie misek zaczęło się zlewać ze śmiechem. Światło na górnym piętrze zgasło. Hiyori zapewne skończyła już uczyć Yukine. Wnętrze wabiło ciepłem. Jak przyjemny, rozgrzany piecyk pośród wieczornego mroku. Jesienny chłód dawał się we znaki. Resztki szarobrunatnych liści drżały na drzewach zupełnie jak bóg. Okrył się szczelnie chustą z nadzieją zatrzymania ciepła jeszcze przez chwilę.

— Yato. Nazywam się Yato — poprawił ją. — Nie jestem już...

— Tak, wiem. Przyszłam tu tylko i wyłącznie dlatego, żeby cię ostrzec. Hiro cię szuka.

Nie były to dobre wieści. Jeśli szukała go nora, to zapewne ojciec również. Nie wiedział, co się z nim działo, ale miał nadzieję pozostać poza jego zasięgiem. Miał teraz nowe życie i nową rodzinę. Tę, którą wybrał sobie sam. Dla niego nie było w niej miejsca.

— Dziękuję — odparł lakonicznie. — Nie musisz się martwić, dam sobie radę.

— Właśnie widzę. Miałeś odejść na chwilę, a tymczasem zbudowałeś sobie całkiem nowe życie. — [Reader] wskazała głową w stronę chatki.

Słowa niosły gorycz i wyrzut. Pozostawiały obrzydliwy posmak, choć to nie on je wypowiadał. Nie czuł się dobrze z tym, co zrobił. Zostawił ją samą. Choć się na to zgodziła, kilkadziesiąt lat bez odzewu nie było w porządku. Nie mógł jednak do niej dotrzeć, nie narażając się na bycie odkrytym przez ojca. A może też nie chciał? Powstrzymywała go niepewność, jak zareaguje na jego decyzję. Potem zaś wszystko potoczyło się w innym, lepszym dla niego kierunku. Wcale już nie miał ochoty zawracać.

— Jestem teraz bóstwem szczęścia. — Wskazał na siebie palcem.

Jego chropowate od pracy dłonie i śmierdzące potem dresy dowodziły, że zrobił coś ze sobą. Zapracował na to, co ma. Nawet jeśli nie było to wiele. Nie miał w końcu jeszcze własnej kapliczki, miał jednak coś równie ważnego. Dach nad głową i ludzi, którym na nim zależało.

— Nie bądź śmieszny! — rzuciła [Reader] ze złością. — Byłeś i zawsze będziesz związany z nieszczęściem. Sam mi to mówiłeś. Dlaczego nie możesz po prostu zaakceptować tego, że nasz los jest z góry zapisany?

Korony drzew ugięły się pod naporem silnego wiatru. Dawniej zaraz po tym nadszedłby kruczy skrzek. Bóg wiedział jednak, że [Reader] nigdzie nie ruszała się bez swoich shinki. Nie sądził, by wiele się w tej kwestii zmieniło. Mogło to znaczyć, że wcale ich już nie miała. To nigdy nie wróżyło dobrze. Wiedział, w jakich sytuacjach zwykle tak się dzieje. Liczba jej wyznawców zapewne spadła. Obecnie, w czasach względnego pokoju, mało kto życzył sobie tak konkretnego bezczeszczenia zwłok, jakim było zjedzenie truchła przez kruki. To zaś mogło oznaczać tylko jedno. To, czego on sam najbardziej się bał i od czego tak rozpaczliwie próbował uciec. Zniknięcie. Zostanie wymazanym już na zawsze. Zapomnienie. Śmierć.

— Myliłem się. Jesteśmy bogami. To my ustalamy, co jest właściwe. Dlatego mogę wybrać swoją własną ścieżkę.

Ścisnął w kieszeni stare, wysłużone pięć jenów. Ciągle mówił sobie, że nie może nimi zapłacić, bo obecne monety wyglądały inaczej. Gdzieś w głębi serca jednak wiedział, że to nie jest jedyny powód. Nosił je cały czas przy sobie. Jako przypomnienie tego życia, które pozostawił za sobą.

Wyciągnął rękę z kieszeni. Wcisnął pięć jenów w dłoń [Reader], po czym ją zamknął. Nie wiedział do końca, po co to robi. Może chciał w ten sposób przekazać jej tę część siebie, która pchnęła go do zmiany. Przecież dawno, dawno temu, też ją w sobie miała. Zanim zabiła ją ludzka złość, lata chciwości, zazdrość i morze przelanej krwi.

— Yatooo! — Do jego uszu dobiegł głos Hiyori. — Jest potwornie zimno. Wchodź do środka. Wszyscy na ciebie czekają. — Wybiegła przed chatkę, by zaprosić go na kolację.

Gdy się odwrócił, [Reader] już tam nie było.

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