#just- god. so cullen

[fuckmeyer]

Jasper as a character is so interesting because he ends up a Confederate because he can't actually empathise with the slaves and because he simply accepts cruelty around him, and then when he becomes a vampire he literally can't ignore others suffering because it hurts him, but even decades after he becomes a Vegetarian he still can't get a hang of it partially because he still can't see humans as *people*. Idk there's smth to be said about him becoming a vampire because of his own cruelty and then being eternally in horrific pain because of said cruelty that fucks.

Jasper's whole life is a curse & i love to see it

here we have a Confederate supposedly so empathetic that he acquired a "gift"... yet not so empathetic as to recognize he was fighting for the enslavement of an entire race. despite seeing the consequences of slavery literally every day. now, the man who spent his last human days denying the humanity in others is forced to spend his immortal life being slapped in the face with their emotions. forever. hueeueueueu-

yeah, i would call that "gift" a curse, actually.

if Twilight weren't a horror story, we might see a discussion between Jasper/Bella about how immortality forces you to confront the darker side of your nature (e.g. "there will come a day when the societal beliefs imbued unto you leaves you standing on the wrong side of history"), & Jasper's journey with finding love & humanity. OR, y'know, he could've just had ONE (1) line where he says "yeah i'm not proud of my service." simply, if Twilight weren't a horror, Jasper could see the error of his ways & change for the better.

HOWEVER. Twilight vampires are "mentally frozen" when they turn, so Jasper is likely still a racist who does not regret his service. no matter how many times he is confronted with his cruelty, he won't change. meaning whatever life he chooses, his gift dooms him.

wow! eternal curse!

we see evidence of this frozen mental state in his decision to go vegetarian. he doesn't switch bc he feels bad about killing humans:

"I could feel everything my prey was feeling. And I lived their emotions as I killed them. [...] You've experienced the way I can manipulate the emotions around myself, Bella, but I wonder if you realize how the feelings in a room affect me." (Eclipse, Ch 13)

note the dehumanizing term "prey" & the focus on himself. he laments not that the human lives he's taking have value but that their dying moments harsh his vibe.

the irony! trapped as an empath while never possessing the ability to be an empath! CURSE CURSE C-

herein lies a bigger, juicier curse: Jasper is, himself, (hot take) enslaved in the sense that he will never know freedom, philosophically speaking, due to the choices he made in life. the series tries to paint him as a master tactician & competent leader; fanon often paints him as a free-thinking amoral black sheep. in reality, he simply obeys the commands of higher authorities & abides by their worldview regardless of how toxic it is to himself or others.

in the beginning, he had María.

he entered the Southern Vampire Wars not by his own volition but stayed because he was content not having a choice. however one feels about María, the fact of the matter is 1) as a newborn he was stronger, bigger, & faster than her & could have run away or overpowered her, 2) had the "gift" to identify emotions & could KNOW when/if she was malicious or manipulating him, & 3) could have escaped by influencing her emotions to make her disinterested in him. at any time in the 100 years they were together, he could have left. he talks about never knowing a life outside the war & discovering "options I'd never dreamed I had." ok???? run 100 miles in any direction & you would have seen a life outside of war. BOI-

instead, he took comfort in being submissive & adopting someone else's ideology. not only did it remind him of his past, but it meant he had no need to reflect on his actions or beliefs. he prefers others dictate his worldview & order him around even if it means being unhappy. he only left because he was going to be assassinated, & even then, it wasn't until someone else told him another life was possible that he "realized" another life was possible.

notably, the period where he's most free— living with Peter & Charlotte— is his rock-bottom where "the depression got worse." but, again, not because he realized the value of human life: "I was so wearied by killing [...] even mere humans."

then he meets Alice.

Alice, who has visions of being vegetarian & converts him so they can live with the Cullens. Alice, who dictates how her family should live their lives to the point where she manipulates them. Alice, who goes so far as to dress the Cullens, who orders Jasper to wait in the car while she & Bella go shopping, who Jasper refers to as "truly [...] one frightening little monster" because for all his experience she can still beat him in combat.

his eternal soulmate is authority.

despite being unhappy with his vegetarian life, as it makes him feel weak & coddled & a liability to everyone around him, he follows the lifestyle because Alice tells him to.

then there's the Volturi, another authoritative body. "We owe the Volturi for our present way of life," says acclaimed bootlicker Jasper Hale, who in the same moment shudders at the atrocities they committed, yet strangely sees no other way for a governing body to keep the peace... so... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

but, since Carlisle outranks the Volturi as an authoritative figure in that he more closely aligns with Jasper's new worldview, Jasper sees no problem deposing the vampiric governing body if it means his sister-in-law of like 2 months can keep her demonic spawn. so i guess we don't really owe the Volturi that much

to his credit, we see glimmers of him questioning his leaders: 1) his decision to leave Maria, 2) his considering switching diets to defeat Victoria, & 3) going against the Volturi. but, again, these decisions are all just a result of his self-preservation & submitting to the higher authority du jour.

in the end, he has the perfect storm of conditions that would allow him to escape the prison he's created, to find freedom & to love humanity unconditionally... but he won't. Jasper's ultimate curse is that regardless of whether he realizes the enslavement of his own self, he will never leave his cage because it's cozy & easy & allows him to never think for himself.

AAAANYWAY Jasper's life sucks & he's trapped in an eternal prison of his own making. lol

[leahclearwaterdefensesquad]

rereading new moon because i miss jacob and bella's dynamic but bella is so frustrating!!!! WHY would you call billy's house every half hour until ELEVEN PM????????? it was a kindness of him to only treat her with pity when jacob rejected her

[casperth3ghost]

guys how do you explain to your friends who have suffered for months hearing u yap about one specific character that youre losing intrest in said character

[asexuallucanisdellamorte]

if bioware do make a dlc for veilguard i will only accept a mass effect citadel style one. Rook and co can't go back into the fade so the inquisitor gifts them skyhold and the entire dlc is just inviting every single one of dragon age's previous characters to a massive party

[qaanngi]

Practice with the man who convinced me to work on my male anatomy all those years ago 🥲

[gravedigg]

I cant even explain how much i love him

[callmegaith]

BACK IN DRAGON AGE HELL CUZ I MISS CULLEN SM AND I WANNA TRY THE MALE INQUISTOR ROMANCE MOD WITH HIM! please he's been my one true love in this game for so long 😭😭💜💜 every day I wake up and I thank modders for their service. They doing god's work for free.

Also uh oh my inquisitor, named Ulisse, has puppy dog eye syndrome. DONT U TRUST THIS CUTIE TO SAVE THE WORLD?!

[pinayelf-archive]

me telling people that my favorite spiderman is the depressed one who didn't want to be spiderman and was essentially forced into it but did it anyway to try to be a better person but at the same time it took so much from him and is also daughterless and also has claws

[mondaymelon]

I will never rest well with this.

HELP OMG... BELLA fROM TWILIGHT IM SOBBING IM SCRYING

my irl FORCED me watch half of that at a sleepover and it was the most CURSED EXPERIENCE LMAOOOO

you have my condolences, white.

[starlight-bread-blog]

"I've stalked you to protect you against your consent".

[lichposting]

i hold the rarest dragon age opinions of neither hating nor loving anders and cullen

[spanishinfluenza]

Happy birthday queen!!! Wish you have a wonderful year! Keep rocking and being gorgeous ✨ Here's a young human Carlisle boy for you.

TJANK YOU SO MUCH OMGFGG

Im shaking im crying, Look at him! Look at how gorgeous he is!!!!! His shirt is literally beautiful, his soft boy little eyes god damnnnnn. This kid had all the village pussy in the palm of his hand and aint never took a bite god BLESS america

[casperth3ghost]

As someone who has not seen/read Twilight- how much do you think the books/movies would have improved if Edward and Jacob got together?

i think they wouldve improved

and by improved i mean bella probably wouldnt be getting as much spotlight considering the books focus on the romance aspect(aka, the books would MOST LIKELY be told from jacob & or edwards perspective) and both their perspective are actually so amazing, in Breaking Dawn jacobs perspective is so funny, and Midnight Sun has to be my favorite book from the saga js bcuz it IS edward(& he may or may not be my favorite lol)

in the event that bella was still the narrator, i think itd be hilarious, in a good way, i think it would immensly improve, just because bella when shes genuinely pissed is SO funny, and i do think she would be if jacob & edward got together

[allegoryofthebeast]

Once again it shocks me how much better Twilight could’ve been for Edward and Bella’s relationship if Edward had leaned into the teenage experience he had spent the majority of his recently eternal life shunning. Instead of immediately whisking Bella away into His life and His otherness ultimately completely isolating her from her peers I wish Edward could’ve made a genuine effort to be more of a teenager himself. I feel like with the right amount of effort there could’ve been more of a balance - as well as seeing Edward activity attempt to enjoy and remember his humanity would’ve let Bella generate more fondness towards her own mortality.

[persephoneggsy]

maybe i should just. not look in the da tags ever again lol

[zialinart]

the worst part about my tendinitis is that I can’t make dragon age comics when that’s all I wanna do right now