#just venting lol don't mind me

[riddlerosehearts]

sigh

i feel like the older i get the more i just get worse and worse at life lol. i only have online friendships and even most of those started to slowly fall apart over the years since the pandemic and now i've become just straight up too nervous to really talk about my interests or try making plans with them. i had two close friendships that didn't fall apart during the pandemic but i feel like these people have grown distant from me too and i don't know what to do. idk if anyone has ever valued my friendship half as much as i've valued theirs except for one single person who is often very busy. and all of those posts that go around on here about how friendships as an adult are about making time to talk for 20 minutes every 3 weeks and hanging out once every 6 months just make me feel worse because that... sucks and honestly sounds more depressingly lonely than just Not having irl friends, and makes me feel like i irreversibly missed out on life by not having friends as a teenager. and i know i'm not being particularly fair to any of my friends by posting this instead of saying it to them. this is one example of me being absolute shit at life!

[deoidesign]

I’m a trans man that recently got diagnosed with hyper mobile eds, so now seeing Steve makes me extra happy, because cool disabled ftm rep. Thanks for making the radical dude bro, he’s funky.

same disability (waving hand emoji)

Always extremely fulfilling to know my work makes people happy in some small way, it means a lot. Thank you for sharing with me

[suddencolds]

.~

[sentimental-dog]

OKAY FIRST OFF IT'S FINE EVERYTHING IS GREAT I'M THE PROBLEM. BUT IF I SEE ONE MORE ROMANCE SHIP THING I'M GOING TO FUCKING CRY godddd what do I have to do to make friends who care about platonic ships like I do!! I'm sick of browsing the actual ship tag for crumbs, I just want people to feel sick over their friendship with me...they care about eachother so much but THEY DON'T HAVE TO KISS ABOUT IT EVERY TWO SECONDS OR FEEL THIS STUPID DEEP CONNECTION THAT MAKES THEM ONLY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER RAGHHH

and browsing the fandom tag is hard too because everything is ship. you have to wade through piles and piles of romance to find one not-explictly-romantic post, and even then the only people who interact with it are people who ship them so it becomes romantic. I GET IT. I DON'T CARE THAT PEOPLE ARE ENGAGING WITH WHAT MAKES THEM HAPPY. BUT FUCK!!! FUCK!!! I DON'T KNOW

[aquarianlights]

How do you keep going when it looks like 99% of your country has joined a cult whose soul purpose is hatred of everything you & everyone you know & love are when all you're doing is existing just like everyone else?

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

me facing off against the same paragraph for the third night in a row:

[ravendruid]

I love that Percy decided to re-cultivate Lady Melanie de Rolo's poisonous garden with the help of Keyleth. I can totally imagine that conversation between them.

"Keyleth I need your help planting deadly blooms." "You wha--- WHY? WHO ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL?"

Bonus points if Percy, at some point, told Keyleth about the story of how Lady Melanie used those flowers to slowly murder her husband.

*Concern for Vex'ahlia intensifies*

[sysig]

He’s my little meow meow, my darling, my bbygirl (Patreon)

[soupmanspeaks]

silly salvaged and its greg interviewing everyone (all the animatronics) for a marketing class at school or something

[vincent-sinclair-deserved-better]

hm

thinking of my blorbos but not in a "i love you you love me all is well" way but a "i love you hope you kill me" way lol

[babacontainsmultitudes]

[just venting a bit into the void you understand you understand 😌] Lately I've been feeling very caught between "I have a lot of thoughts on Sparrow and Normal and all that with the ending and teen talk and feel like I need to get them out and voice them for my own piece of mind and resolution" and "I am lacking the strength and energy to actually sit down and write it all out and kind of really just want to fully move on to other things (AUs, fics, anything else)" but my brain can't seem to commit to either and that's quite frustrating cause it's just left me very restless. *Sigh*. Idk! Just needed to complain about that a bit ig, it's silly but this is what has been ailing me as of late.

[mxanigel]

the timing of the AO3 site-wide slowdown relative to me actually updating fics is, uh, not great for my mental health

[bloodydeanwinchester]

ughhh i can't decide if i should change the way i make my bloody dean sets. i feel like the posts would get more notes if i just focused on 2-4 close ups from the scene (also the sets would be way easier for me to make). but from the start i really wanted these sets to give a good overview of what happens in the scene. i can't keep spending so many hours on sets that barely get 100 notes tho 😭 idk maybe i will finish up s3 the way i've been doing it and start doing the easier way when i start on s4 ☹️

[optiwashere]

I've gotten two or three asks to this effect over the course of the month, so. People are very pleasant and well-meaning when they say things like, "don't feel bad if you stop writing for the fandom!"

But you also don't know how deep my fixations can run.

Hope ya like Shadowheart.

[miallurk]

In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!

[heartfulselkie]

"You shouldn't complain about your hair so much! Long hair is so pretty and cute! I like it!"

Well then bitch why don't you grow out your own hair so you can deal with it. I am one very bad day from just cutting it all off myself cause I don't give a fuck if it'll look bad at least it'll be gone