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hate when people feel the need to woobify and make akaza more of a 'moral' character so they feel less guilty about liking him and writing him as a complex character. he's a murderer. he has murdered and eaten innocent people. hes not a savior or genuine outseeking protector of woman, he just doesn't kill them and expresses some semblance of disgust at douma targeting woman to kill specifically. he does have a weird set of morals unlike most of the demons (ex: him refusing to turn people into demons without their consent) but him having some semblance of morals that he abides by does not make him a justifiable person. HES CANONICALLY AN ASSHOLE AND A BAD PERSON. STOP BEING A COWARD AND LET HIM BE AN ASSHOLE.
#my post#akaza#kny akaza#hate the portrayal of akaza as like a very 'honor abiding' character. like the he only wants to fight an entirely fair undirty fight & gets#-pissed when other people dont abide by that#like. no. nooo.#this guy would ABSOLUTELY throw dirt in your eyes or aim for the dick if he got cornered. he is very much a feral fighter#he ENJOYS a 'fair fight' and seeks out opponents he thinks are on his level but his definition of a fair fight is NOT the no 'dirty tricks'#-kind#he likes a good fight to the death and whatever shit that entails because hes an adrenaline junkie and enjoys fighting#i can see him hating POSION and thinking its cowardly but thats because of a trauma response not any morals or specific ideals of his#anyways LET HIM BE AS HE ISSSSS. STOP TREATING HIM LIKE SOMETHING HE ISN'T.#HIM BEING A BAD PERSON IS INTERESTING. LET HIM BE INTERESTING. STOP MAKING HIM LESS INTERESTING CUZ YOU HAVE A GUILT COMPLEX ABT HAVING-#-FAVS THAT ARE BAD PEOPLE. PLEASEEEEE#ahem. anyways. apologies for the rant but i felt like complaining 2nite#demon slayer#demon slayer manga spoilers#just vague ones ig#akaza demon slayer#hakuji soyama#youd think a manga that has such interesting portrayals of morality and good and bad people and sympathy wouldnt have such a boring view of#-character morals. but alas#ALSO ALSO i will say im not against the akaza helping and protecting woman plot becuz its very potentially interesting but its not a canon-#-part of his character and acting like it just is is boring i feel#when a situation where he ended up doing that could be an extremely interesting exploration of his morals and amnesia and relationship to-#-humanity#and portraying it as an already innate part of his character is just boring
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time to make your choice only you can be the one
#undescribed#bonk.png#ggg#great god grove#great god grove spoilers#ggg spoilers#<- bc of king n hand gesturing stuff for the au this one gets the spoiler tag#caption is a line from legend of everfree from eg movie of the same name bc its now linked to ggg for me bc of brainrot#first au stuff i dont like have anything really planned out n also dont really plan on doing anything with this beyond doodles#settled on inspekta being a horse bc i want him capochin patty n king to all be earth ponies bc of like permanent having it ingrained from#being an mlp fan as a kid that earth ponies are seen as less special bc they cant use magic or fly n that fits for story similarities#bc inspekta n capochin hating on patty for projection reasons AND inspekta's replacement anxiety n envy of king who in the au#is the only other earth pony lined up to become an alicorn (bc again being specifically an fim fan since i was a kid ingrained in with fanon#that ponies that become alicorns are almost exclusively pegasus or unicorn bc of earth ponies not having as clear of a connection to magic)#in my mind patty is the main character like the bizzyboys are also main characters but its like how the mane six are the main six but#twilight is the MAIN main character its like that n then godpoke is her sidekick (like spike ig but like mysterious stranger style <- idk#what i mean by this) she gets to be the protag bc the type of character godpoke is in the game n how im fitting them to be in the au doesnt#really work for a protag role while patty can be more readily slotted into mlp protag shes the only bizzyboy who cares about solving in the#game (as shown in hobbyhoo) n i like her so she gets to be the protag v-v inspekta is still doing the whole like shit from the game just in#a different way bc of mlp related restrictions n tone differences. the episode where luna goes to nightmare night after being freshly reform#ed walked so milldread section could run however cobigail's deal does run closer to that episode that to the game counterpart but like witho#ut cob having been banished for a thousand years theres no rift in the au bc its. mlp so sort of vague direction is related to the tree of#harmony n like maybe thats how inspekta powers up for the two parter transformation. a thought i had for a workaround for how inspekta keeps#king isolated was maybe turning king to stone n hiding her in plain sight but while that would slide in mlp (they turn a child to stone in t#he series finale apparently??) it leaves a bad taste in my mouth from the ggg angle so probably gonna do something else#art comments both inspekta n cobigail's pony names are taken from ponies i already had inspekta's comes from a different mlpied thing#n cobigail's comes from a fankid (spelled like kandi corn tho bc fankid's a rave girlie) the rest of the gods get to keep their names aside#from maybe bauhauzzo (whos role is undecided) huzzle n click clack arent ponies bc i felt it suited them more huzzle gets to be discordesc#bc i think its fun if like this versions god of chaos wasnt evil BUT that angle is used as slander against huzzle by inspekta#n click clack's a breezy bc small n bratty (we will be ignoring that breezies are mortal if i remember right bc thats not relevant)
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I love Steph's origin as told in the Secret Origins 80 page giant- I just overall think it strengthens her character by giving her a lot of pathos and adding to her heroism (which isn't something writers were focused on in her actual intro in detective comics #647 since she was just meant to act as a plot device back then) BUT there is one tiny detail in it i will begrudge, and that is the portrayal of her having a minor love at first sight moment for tim
Secret origins 80 page giant, ID in alt
(or well, technically this was their second meeting in that story (the brick was the first) so...love at second sight?)
Mostly because Stephanie showed no interest in her introduction and only showed romantic feelings towards Tim AFTER this moment here:
Robin (1993) #4, ID in alt
Straight up the progression here goes:
The adventure in 'tec where they first meet -> Tim investigating the same crime scene as Steph -> she beats him up not knowing it's him at first, apologizes but says he shouldn't have scared her -> he remembers her/the moniker she goes by -> they talk about plot for a few pages -> Stephanie starts flirting
Robin (1993) #4, ID in alt
Which...is so fascinating to me and says so much about Stephanie. She highlights the fact that Tim "remembered" her. Like. Steph. Girl. This is our bar? It's sweet but kind of speaks to how much Stephanie is ignored at home/how little and sporadically she's shown interacting with her peers (and rarely ever the same kids twice). Her idea of peak romance is just...being on someone's mind even when you're not there.
Kind of also adds layers to Steph's proclivity towards jealousy later on, a manifestation of her insecurity and loneliness (though don't get it twisted, she's not written this way bc Dixon and co think it's an interesting character flaw, they wrote it bc they think it's an inherent character flaw of (particularly young) women/girls, which is very apparent in how he approaches Ariana's character as well from what I've read)
Also the fact that Steph becomes so smitten for Tim almost immediately after this is (a few issues later she aggressively flirts with him during AN ACTIVE HOSTAGE SITUATION. WHERE SHE'S THE HOSTAGE) again is kind of a mixture of kind of funny and sad. One boy is nice to her once and she's fully ready to wife him. Girl you are deranged (affectionate) (concerned)
#ramblings of a lunatic#dc comics#stephanie brown#tim drake#timsteph#meta#< ??? ig#robin 1993#made this post and forgot to finish. saved it in drafts. saw posts that annoyed me. proceeded to finish it#the subset of fans who think they're doing a righteous feminism by giving steph more flaws than she has in canon...headaches#yes flawed female characters are important representation no i dont think you projecting chuck dixons conservative values onto her-#-is doing her character a great favour. if so you need to commit to the bit and make tim a stone cold nark /j#sorry okay im done vaguing. there's real things going on in the world that matter. the bad take is the mind killer etc etc#anyway the zero to 100 progression of early timsteph is fascinating. on the one hand i know it's mostly a product of its time#both in terms of portrayals of romance (esp teen romance) and partially of women and girls by dixon (not extremely boy obsessed-#-but there's a. dark shadow of the boy crazy trope. a gentle whiff of it in the air. just a little)#but bc this aspect isn't blatantly/egregiously author bias i choose to analyse it#i could also analyse how steph in general is portrayed as liking guys she can't/shouldn't have a little#(her crush on the much older detective in bg2009 and also tim a little bit w/ the secret identity thing)#(but that's a whole other discussion. also that aspect of the romance in bg2009 is. also a little sexistly motivated-#-and also dropped part way through to an extent so like..not exactly ripe for analysis)#ANYWHO i love you Steph <3 you're unwell and yet so adorable and compelling Steph <3
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if i see one more post about how solas/mythal/elgar'nan had a weird love triangle thing going on i'm gonna scream
#probably gonna annoy some people by saying this#but i think it is really telling that taash's response 'they were doin' it'#is positioned in a way that strongly implies it's the immature response to take#not to say i'm 100% right bc they left it deliberately vague for a reason#you're meant to make up your own mind#and i personally do not see this as a stupid love triangle bc a. i fucking hate love triangle plots they're overdone and boring#and b. it's stated multiple times that the ancient elves felt things in different ways that can't be fully understood by mortals#so deducing that it was a romantic bond is an oversimplification of something that's actually very abstract#falon'din and dirthamen were called both twins and lovers by legends but it turned out to be neither of those things#they were just one spirit split into two#the only two that i think were actually romantically involved were ghil and andruil bc it's stated that they fell in love in the abyss#and there are statues of them naked holding hands apparently#we didn't get enough info about sylaise and june to really say much about their relationship#the actual regret memory of solas and mythal meeting in secret#is the memory that the inquisitor gives to rook#and it appeared after the ritual was interrupted and solas killed varric#when varric told him to stop#when varric expressed his love for his friend and died for it#the parallel is not of lovers but of solas taking mythal's place and varric taking his#ugh i'm just so uncomfortable with the solas/mythal romance stuff#like it actually nauseates me#not out of jealousy but bc his whole story is him dealing with the horrific trauma bond he formed with her#and those are so often borne from family bonds#like mythal is just one big mother wound to solas#i honestly think if they were lovers they would just state it as such#but people have a hard time imagining devotion as being anything other than romantic ig#sad bc platonic relationships can sometimes be more intense than romantic ones
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tablet died right when i finished that wanda doodle but i still wanna doodle what if i ended it all
#snap chats#'snap thats a bit much dont you think' I KNOW KJARLKFJAR#whatever ill play rivals then ... its fine .... im ok .... i just wanted to draw tonight WHATEVER#i am once again having that 'problem' where Now That I Have Time i want to draw so many things#its so nice being excited to draw and not worrying about stuff i have to draw.... so cool i should have breaks more often vjALKJAKJ#I Want To Draw So Many Things OK PLAN OF ATTACK FOR RN#dont look if you dont want spoilers for what im gonna post in the coming days ..... or.. be disappointed when i dont jvlKAJLK#theyre vague as hell wtf am i on. i never reveal the plots for my drawins...... most of the time... 'plot' such a strong word girl shut up#theyre all comics because i can only draw comics ig idfk i hate myself. but i love cherik ... and thats what theyre all about. ofc.#i already started sketching one so maybe ill finisht aht tomorrow and theeene the other comic i have in mind shoudl Also be short#prob like. a page or two.. if i dont get extra with it..#and then Last One which'll prob take me back into my semester starting that one.....#i keep thinking it'll be a Big Grand Thing and maybe the nsft version but safe for tumblr ...#maybe like a page or two. three maybe.... or four.. idk we'll see#OR DONT HAHAHAHA i should be shot. ok BYYYYEEE im gonna go get shot <- playing marvel rivals
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I love it when I'm so hungry I'm nauseous and I wanna eat stuff. I have food right there in front of me but I can't eat it. And that's making everything worse
#i just wanna explain what happened on my end. and yet im too terrified#like the two people that reached out to talk about it? thanks. means a lot#like did i mess up? yeah sure i did but not to that extent. and its so vague too like#i didnt like ONE trans headcanon. despite having trans and nonbinary f/os. i didn't like the mindset of people regarding m/f ships as#-only being good when they're dumbed down to a certain sexuality. it was poorly worded snd I'll admit that. nowhere did i intend to say-#-that i didnt like bi4bi or t4t relationships irl. or if people do it to their ocs#i mind it when people say thats the only reason theyre good. not about chemistry or how theyre written or anything else like that#everyone else was fine with the brok.ebac.k mount.ain gifset i posted and tagged as a self ship. like i took it down when an anon said to-#-do so. then mutuals said it was fine. star.cake is a ace4ace relationship too. so like#the lesbophobe thing is an ex mutual who hasnt been a mutual in months. nuff said. quit bringing that up#i couldnt say anything cuz I felt backed into a corner. trying to say anything to get out of that situation#and I wasn't contacted about that for MONTHS. It was in november when i made that poorly worded reblog and wasnt told anything till early-#-January. like ya just sat on that. didnt even ask for clarification. just. blasted it in one day#yeah im not happy#im not gonna be happy for a while#this is the best way i can share what happened on MY side#take it what you will. now you have both sides#have fun ig#(oh yeah forgot to mention about the gifset thing. i reblogged another gifset earlier and no one said a thing about that one. so what gives)
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if ianto jones (NOT gareth david-lloyd. actual ianto jones) walked through your door and said he wasnt dead and he needed a kidney and you were the only match what would you do
i am holding his face in my hands, kissing that man on the forehead, and asking him if he wants the left or right one
#babygirl it would be an HONOR to be rendered immunocompromised for the rest of my life for you#you need a kidney? it’s yours. blood? i got that universal donor shit baby!!! i got liters of sweet sweet O- on tap for you#plasma. marrow. various snacks and soft drinks. you need a few quid? no fucking clue what that is. here’s 50 dollars. i love you#no questions asked. partially because i know it would get me nowhere. gotta assume the reasons are absurd and way above my pay grade.#when dealing with TW and its operatives understand that you will never understand.#you can seek out the truth but don’t try to wrap your head around it.#ianto jones is alive and in your doorway and saying he needs a kidney transplant and that you are the only match in the world? yeah alright.#side tangent: the clarification that this is not GDL made me imagine if it was him and it’s such a funny fucking visual#i hear a knock on my front door. get up and go to it. open it up and it’s fucking Gareth David Lloyd.#i’ve only ever seen him on TV/films or IG but this is a whole ass dude in front of me. and then he says he needs a kidney transplant#and he keeps talking and says that i am the only person on earth who is a donor match so would you please give me your one of your kidneys#just the image of some grown ass man that i vaguely know of spawning outside of my house and asking me to give him one of my organs#it’s so funny to me. how did you find my address? why am i the only viable match? how did you get THAT information? i love torchwood btw#he’s an actor who played one of my favorite characters but he’s also some random man#ianto jones#torchwood
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lings the kind of guy you would think would be the first to die in a horror movie, but actually he just fucking. lucks out the entire time and is the only to make it out unscathed
#his habits include: running off randomly without telling people. passing out on occasion. making deals with supernatural entities#(usually to help him out. sometimes just to be besties with the vaguely demonic being)#chasing after supernatural entities that 100% can and will kill him. and then doing it again once they get a power buff#like king W H A T are you doing#hes the guy who walks down the creepy stairs to the unlit basement#he just walks back out covered in blood (not his own. no one followed him. where did it come from)#hes just the narratives specialist little guy ig#hes the type to get out of the car to offer assistance to the vaguely person shaped lump in the middle of a dark empty road#ling yao#fmab#moss' madness
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The Heishin mer au! Info dump part one!
Includes the beginning of this au smirks
Later on when I do write part 2 (which ig includes the separation arc then omgies reunion </3) which is current events! But at the end you do get a taste of part 2 ish! But like I said will go more in depth. On top of that I will do another post ig talking about more on the seafolks n etc.
Shinichi and Heiji actually meet when they are both children and spend with each other for a whole month together. How they meet is when kid heiji had a scuffle with his dad so he wanted to get out of the house so he kinda grabbed a few of his things and left because he just don’t want to be in the same premises so he just wonders about until he reaches to a beach which is the farthest away until he finds yknow entrances to secluded era. Which funny enough that’s where shinichi is.
Shinichi was technically left there from his parents because the Kudos wanted to wonder and got tired of being in the ocean traveling around and never staying in one place. So shinichi is kinda used to them traveling around the ocean until they stop at cove. Which he thinks oh we are taking a break from the constant traveling. Until his parents tells him to say here until they come back! Which isn’t the first time they left shinichi alone, they go for a few hours then they’ll come back. Unfortunately for shinichi his parents didn’t came back because they left to travel on land. Until the first day during the late hours of the night that shinichi realized they are not coming back so he stays where they left him thinking they’ll come back to him and just continue what they do… He kinda scraping by because he knows how to hunt but is more left to his parents. That’s until he sees a creature? No that can’t be right…probably a kid like him but in two legs and just going about like his frustrations and crying while at it.
Heiji kinda tired himself out so he’s just head in his knees not really focus on his surroundings at the moment so he’s not seeing shinichi dragging himself out of water then tru sand to him. When he feels someone is like watching him, he raises his head but funny enough shinichi was super close to heiji so they kinda bump faces. So they both go oweww…then shock because alone to a space for burst of emotions then the next second of legit in front of you is a creature of the sea just cladding your face, which his palms are super soft, caressing for comfort and some low chirping? because you dumped faces is kinda crazy for afternoon. Minus the insane emotional breakdown you had a while ago with still tear marks on you but wow! Vs shinichi interest in the kid in front of him like woagh…pretty eyes….and 100% feeling his life source via his palms and trying to comfort him because he saw Heiji very distressed sooo shinichi copying what his mom does to him when his upset.
So funny enough they try to communicate but sadly there’s a language barrier between them because the mermaids have their own language going on while on land has its own. Shinichi does know a few words but not a lot because the Kudos didn’t really teach him (when they know a lot about it) they would until he was ready to shift into yknow “having two legs and looks human passing” so they can all travel together but sadly didn’t happen but we get omgies teaching each other language and heiji brings books to shinichi so he doesn’t get bored, this where shinichi fascination starts and becomes a bookworm, obviously he likes mystery books n etc. He also brings stuff to makeshift a tent and other things! Bc Heiji does sometimes sleeps at the place with shinichi! Gets to a point they cuddle/sleep together under the tent. heiji does start a routine with shinichi to like see him everyday and etc. There’s a time Heiji didn’t came to visit Shinichi because he was introduced to Kazuha bc his parents kinda noticed that Heiji would come very late or even in the next day so thought needed like a friend because they legitimately didn’t know where so talks here and there so evil meet up. Heiji didn’t like the idea at first bc he does have shinichi but he can’t do a lot of stuff with him because he’s stuck at the cove. So funny enough kazuha and Heiji goes along well but unfortunately shinichi kinda having the doubts about Heiji never coming back like his parents but this didn’t last long, Heiji did appear and shinichi kinda burst emotionally because the friend up to perhaps crush abandoned again but is fine!! Heiji was like what I’ll never abandon you ever. I just was making a new friend and I can’t really take her here. Kazuha does get the shinichi this and shinichi that but never seen this other kid that Heiji talks about a lot.
There is another scene that a festival does happen in Heiji’s town, he does mention to shinichi and that he would love to take him with him but he doesn’t know how but is fine! He’ll spend the time with shinichi! Shinichi kinda doesn’t want to see Heiji sad/disappointed so he kinda focuses hard to shift/removing his pelt which he kinda succeeds but not fully (you can see his ears, hands, teeth and a few markings that didn’t fully shift into human) which to surprise Heiji which he did and was like blinks and stares we can go! But let me get you something… so YAYYY they go out and is the best time shinichi ever had and they have holding hands all the time because shinichi the fear of loosing Heiji but Heiji is like just hold my hand! So we don’t get separated(like otters and while holding hands all the time shinichi feels very safe and comfortable because he can feel Heiji life source moment so he having the best time of his life) Funny enough Kazuha does meet shinichi and likewise but shinichi kinda shy away but they had fun!
Gets to a point where shinichi actually likes likes Heiji to where he gives his special gem aka a proposal gem that you give to your mate, mind you Heiji doesn’t know this he knows that’s is important and he’ll keep it until he dies BUT Heiji likes likes shinichi too!!! was gonna tell him that <- already proposed to fiancé in a sense because he did accept shinichi’s gem! Then heh this where I rip you apart they get separated because the kudos comes back to get shinichi and leave the place. Shinichi was very reluctant to leave but he left without saying goodbye to Heiji. Heiji comes to see shinichi and tell him something important but when he got there he wasn’t there and he checked the only thing he has from shinichi is the gem he has and shall treasure it until they meet again. Which they both forget each other! Heiji only thing to remember is the gem while shinichi remembers vividly his eyes, the festival date and the cove he stayed.
Shinichi when he gets older he goes to port to port, town to town just to read all the books in the bookstore and to remember that night (aside from Heiji eyes he vividly remembers the festival he spent and the cove) so he ask around n stuff after he’s done he disappears to leave for the next town funny enough the time the lands on heijis port town he kinda remembers the street n stuff and ask the question and get a yeah we do celebrate said festival n stuff and ironically enough he gets a glimpse of Heiji in the crowd bc that person looks very familiar moment to he trails after Heiji (even when Heiji leaves with a small vessel from his town shinichi follows him and that’s how shinichi legit saves Heiji instantly)
#dcmk#detco#dcmk au#kudo shinichi#hattori heiji#heishin#heishin mermaid au#the part one lol will eventually drop the designs for this au which includes before n after is that erm ha uni moment even though yes#shinichi mer design is still a shark 100% but he has a cool thing too waves hand around which was mentioned but I’ll go a bit when I ever do#re arrange my notes about the seafolk in this lol#I <3 heishin mer au!!! and its nefarious shenanigans that comes with it#part one in summary is just you get a sweet childhood love and etc until I rip it apart instantly and both of them forget of each other#and part two is reunion aka meeting again but they remind me of someone vague and yayyy meeting again!!! so evil loving again and slow burn#also other characters do come along mind you anyway yeagh <3 will I make a fic of the au mayhaps shrugs it has the content#but idk how to put it on paper to make it chapter base so like L on me so you guys get massive info dumps plus silly scenarios on top ig!#to be fair I’m posting aus n stuff because really is just for me moment but if other people also enjoys this n etc then that’s a win tbh!!
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it's so weird to see posts like "this is my rook, hes zevran's son and an antivan crow" bcs I'm not the one to be mean about the headcanons but...
is... is the child in their rebellious phase? Do they hate their father? I mean, have you even played the first game? Because the entire character arc of Zevran revolves around how much he hates the Crows, their cruel methods and that, besides being assassins, they are also a bunch of degenerate assholes. When he sees a bloody altar he's like "OH WE DID THAT SHIT IN THE CROWS TOO :)". They killed his father (something hes probably not aware of). They made him kill his lover, just so he remembered that he was nothing to them, that he was disposable, like everyone else. He dedicated a significant part of his life to killing off the guildmasters (not only of the House Arainai, as I felt Lucanis suggested? The whole banter with Harding proves the writers were too lazy to even, idk, read a wiki page). So I swear, the only explanation is that the child just got pissed at his father and was like "that's it, im joining the crows. Yes, dad, out of spite!", which I don't even think is possible, but. ok kiddo, that's a bit harsh.
Crows literally ruined his life. Singlehandedly.
and i mean, again, these are just headcanons so i shouldnt judge it but I feel like DAV is to blame here, bcs it twisted the Crows order so much, it's... bizarre. Someone just saw Zev's uniform and was like "how about we bring these guy's back, people will thirst over this, I think they're assassins or smth, so it's hot. Also make the uniform fucking ugly this time"
and i wouldnt have a problem with that, if it was supposed to shed a new light on the Crows. But that's absolutely not what they're doing, they straight up retconned it and I know DAV is a huge fucking retcon, but still why
(ps. I know Lucanis was not introduced in DAV, but the post isn't about him, but the Crows in general)
(also now that i think about it Zev would make an absolutely horrible father, so maybe his child really does hate him)
(its supposed to be more about the crows in dav in general and I assume that some people actually have a story about that crow thing. which could actually be interesting, fr)
#of course the crows in the veilguard are a laughing stock#but again what should i expect from people that dont remember zevran who serves as our source of information#in the games hes actually the only one to ever talk about the crows in detail#maybe except ignacio#leliana and josie's remarks dont count bcs they are vague af#also obviously theres a matter of grey wardens just... being unable to produce a child but in this case ig fiona did get pregnant#obviously it had to do with the architect but you can build some story around that#as of why would you want ur warden to have a kid? dont get it but im not the one to judge#dragon age the veilguard#zevran arainai
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Spirit animal SQH
#svsss#shang qinghua#but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but#but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee#also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but#I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg#oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left#I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something#or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird#LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm#I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either#I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself#eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it...#I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up#I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa#man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong#cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk#its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment#with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig#and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down#but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀#irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living...#just the ol regulars yknow?#and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want?#I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what?#whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate?#so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it?#that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications#and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly#man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk
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i feel kinda bad for shirase for being like the villain of so many fics. poor guy didn't do anything wrong other than being 15
#i mean he did stab and poison chuuya in betrayal but that's like bsd's equivalent of someone stepping on your foot#also he was 15#from what i remember he's relatively chill in sb. he's just a scared kid yknow?#but 😭 ig it's easier to use a character ppl at least vaguely know rather than invent a random oc#in one fic i'm subscribed to he's actually a good friend to chuuya! but he also died before the story started. so. not great
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#okay maybe not this year exclusivelt but i went through the poems i posted and there are 8 moon references#plus tons of them in my wips and songs and abandoned snippets#i keep being told i give moon vibes even by people who haven't read my poetry based on *gestures vaguely* how i am#my stage name i've been thinking of since i was like 11 was moon because i thought it ate and melissa moon sounds nice and fits me#before y'all go 'ah one of those fangirls' i didn't know of keith moon then ok i just vibed with the word moon but now things make sense ig#you are not ready for when i drop my songs. since i started writing whenever i didn't know what to write i threw some moon metaphor in#the holy trinity of things to mention to fight writer's block is cigarettes + alcohol + moon#mel talks
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not to bring tiktok drama on tumblr but like every time a ‘scandal’ comes out with one of these ‘production companies’ that make fan films i always hope we’re finally gonna discuss how they professionalize something that should be an hobbyist endeavor… and yet every single time i’m disappointed.
#like I know we’ve been talking about it here on tumblr and i remember seeing like one or two videos on tt about it#but other than that creators really don’t seem to be engaging critically with the impact that the very nature of what they’re doing has#and look i truly do love the art that some of the people involved in the project make#like arone is truly one of the most talented cosplayers i know#ethan is an amazing actor and I’ve followed him since before he was even in the marauders#dorian is a great writer and idk the others as well but I’m sure they are all great artists#((naming the just cause i feel like being vague would be worse in this case))#and i do believe they engaged with the project with the best of intentions#without knowing or trying to afford grace on past controversy#and it truly is a horrible predicament to have your work be tainted like that for something you had no control over#but like i do think we should be questioning the very idea of how this fanfilms have been made is inherently a problem#like fanfilms are essentially fanfiction on camera#so as long as a few cosplayers want to get together with their iphones write a script and shoot at the local park I don’t have a problem#but if you are putting in place a product that somehow requires you to fundraise consistently for two years then I have a problem with it#ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE SELLING THE SCRIPT TO DO SO#cause even if that script hadn’t been ai generated#that script is fanfiction and you do. not. sell. fanfiction.#seriously like… do we need to go over our abc again?#like fanart and cosplayers are a bit different in the sense that people sell fanart/do commissions and they can be professional cosplayers#but for any other fanmade project that requires you to put pen to paper (or keyboard to chatgpt ig)#you need to be engaging with several ethical questions regarding any exchange of money#and personally i don’t think that there’s been engagement with those ethical reflections#and this isn’t about any of the people involved and not even about mischief productions specifically#it’s about a wider issue in how we have been collectively normalizing a way of doing things that should not be normal#and like yes star using ai and being overall not good is bad but like can we talk about EVERYTHING ELSE please
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Come on guys.
#puyo puyo#sig puyo puyo#calamity (oc)#puzzle pop#im not vagueposting btw#if youve done this im not mad at you or smth I know its not common practice to tag the title of any one game in the puyo fandom#but Im not going to lie and say it isnt frustrating seeing how there's no good way to protect myself from spoilers#and Im worried about what that means for future mainline games. if Im still hyperfixated on puyo by then#because I havent been in the fandom long enough to know how that gets handled#but thats a problem for future me ig. I'll just avoid the tag for now#shout out to that one person who did tag it though I do see you#actually Im adding more tags because I left the picture vague on purpose but jic#puyo puyo spoilers#puyo puzzle pop#puyo puzzle pop spoilers#puyo spoilers#if someone who DOES tag their stuff as spoilers see this lmk if I missed any for future ref#bc obviously I know more than one person has been tagging spoilers but just from what I saw before I noped out n all
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am also playing this dumb chatting game where its like a dating app so u can “match” w characters and go on their individual storylines but all i gotta say is fuck this app and fuck the doormat mcs they write bc wtf 💀
#like nawww how do u forgive a man thats left u for weeks on end fucking doormat ass mcs my god STAND UP#after one ‘im sorry’ MESSAGE MIND YOU the mc FOLDSSSS fuck right offfff#also i swear this app uses AI bc wth its SO bad and theres literally no quality control LMAOOO#but it did kill time. but also made me want to kms so. pros and cons ig#i keep gaslighting myself into thinking ‘some ppl out there are more forgiving than you. and also some ppl dont lie when they say sorry’ but#like nahhhh these stories are so bad in good faith i recommend the devs to just delete the whole game altogether#i mean what who said that#i like to think im doing ppl a service by my cryptic vague posts abt these games i play so ur welc
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