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I am rewatching first season of Demon Slayer and I just noticed something and can't stop thinking about it. So I have to share it.
You all remember that scene (S01E23) where Sanemi stabs Nezuko and holds his bloody arm in front of her nose. Later surprised that she turned away. I read some great interpretation and analyzing posts about how he probably thought about his mother in that moment
But I never saw someone pointing out this particular scene here. How he slowly lowers his arm and his eyes down, looking more sad than disappointed.
If I could make gifs than I would, but I suck at these so here are the screenshots.
"Why couldn't our mother be like her too. Then I would not had to kill her..."
#look when I am in pain I need to share it#just to make it more worse 🙃#sunny talks ☀︎#demon slayer#demon slayer hcs#kimetsu no yaiba hcs#kimetsu no yaiba#sanemi#shinazugawa sanemi#sanemi hcs#sanemi shinazugawa#sanemi shinazugawa hcs#kny#kny hcs
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if i suddenly become a thousand times more annoying on here it's because i'm trying *really* hard to spend less time on twitter because iwtvtwt is nothing but the same stolen gifs being reposted over and over again without credit in between the same mind-numbingly dull discourse recycling itself with the phases of the moon and it's becoming incredibly grating to witness lol
#i'm super hormonal so that's making it worse but twitter fandom has no concept of etiquette it's just... endless clout chasing......#i'm not tagging this and will in fact most likely delete it very soon but 🙃#fandom has always been annoying and idk if i'm just getting old but it really does feel like everything is so much worse now#anyway i am unfortunately very addicted to twitter so... we'll see how this goes lol#if i wasn't on twitter as much tho... i would get so much more writing done.... i would perhps be unstoppable...............#ANYWAY tumblr fandom you're swell don't change etc 💖
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Just when I think the day's going well, I crash a golf cart
#summer camp tag#ace is a mess#i do not have a drivers license and i havent even been behind the wheel in like 4 years since i stopped lessons cus of the pandemic#the day was going fine i got loads done didnt feel like i was irritating my director too bad#doing some paperwork for her and she says when im done well take the golf cart out while its not currently raining#im like ooh fun never been in a golf cart before i see the higher up staff in them im not gonna say no to chilling in a golf cart#i did not realise that meant i would be driving esp when she asked if id been in one before and i said no#she then asked if i could drive and i said not really thought that would be it#cus i was supposed to be studying for my theory before working towards my practical#but no she insists im driving and first off i gotta reverse outta this bay now at least i didnt have to think about gears#but i hate tryna figure out how to turn whilst in reverse in mess with my brain im not great with shape visualisation#we do all our stops its fine for the most part a lil too fast going down some of the hills#and some tight turns but my turns were always like that cus im too busy focusing on the most immediate thing#we get back i park fine and then shes like oh actually there are some more stops we can make so i reverse and turn back out#do our two stops with only minimal confusion about direction then as i go to park into the bay we came from#shes like oh actually park in the bay closest to the health centre and what i should have done was reversed and adjusted my angle#instead i drove directly into the supporting beam separating the two bays 🙃😭#i immediately turn the cart off and expect her to switch with me instead shes like laughing it off oh it was just a little bump it was fine#im like it was not that was a loud ass bang i feel so bad and then she lifts up the light cover i broke off saying its just a scratch#and i feel worse so pf course thats when the camp director comes out to check on the noise and i dont think ive ever worn a guiltier look#but theyre both laughing it off oh just having a little driving lesson :) and i am mortified#she gets back in the cart and shes still insisting that its fine and i should still park after that which i do with great trepidation#but there are no more problems and the lights still work but the cover does need fixing and i just oh my god#ive never crashed before never clipped or scratched a car so of course id crash the golf cart trying to park of all things 😭
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So that IGN interview with the BG3 team somehow soured my perceptions on writers and designers even more than they already were. Incredible, lol.
#how about stop including evil options in your games as some sort of moral gotcha to your players how about you respect them more than that#you're telling me minthara only has the semi conscience that she does to make players feel even worse about what they did to get her??????#if you're going to have evil options then do it with the same care and attention as good/default ones or just dont do it at all#bg3 vent#idk what to tag this as otherwise because the rabid fanbase might find me and attack me otherwise 🙃
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The amount of critical corporate processes that are entirely reliant on Excel For Some Reason is truly depressing I'll tell you what
#''''critical'''' as though my job actually matters to anything#anyway our entire deparment inventory is run off an Excel spreadsheet/VBA script. 700 reports. Excel.#I hate it here 🙃#there is literally not a worse way we could be doing this#like at some point#making us hobble along with these cludgy solutions is MORE EXPENSIVE than just hiring another IT person for $90k to do it properly#anyway this post brought to you by it's my turn to wake up at 5am to babysit a VBA script because THAT'S a valuable use of my time
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I feel like the good lord granted me the ability to write and then woke up one morning and decided to take it away and now I can't write anything and everything I've ever written seems like shit
#🙃🙃🙃#i feel like absolute garbage#like i just want to WRITE i just want to EDIT and i CANT#i might just dig myself a hole and die in it#if im not a writer who am i#WHO#😭#and i keep seeing these successful writers who make really amazing stuff and it makes me feel worse#cause ill never be that good#my brain is literally not working any more its so frusturating#ugh#writing#writer stuff#personal
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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload?#me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃#listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook#i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort#to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop#being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol#i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like#let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and#make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works#ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil#ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations#bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess#its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively#health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by#medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary.#like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think#of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf#my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its#bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror#when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the#most me coded character to ever exist#unrelated
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#personal#soo ive discovered a giant hole in my back tooth because medicare doesnt cover dental except for children#and so i havent been since i was 21 and i try to maintain tooth health at home but im not very good at it#due to being raised wrong about it and also autistic and i cant afford even a basic clean and checkup#which is what i was actually looking in my mouth and deciding i need which would be about 300 bucks already#and now im scared to eat anything because i definitely cant afford to make this worse 🙃#genuinely so much bad shit has happened and every time its like. ok ill pick myself up cause no one else will and dust off and things#will be fine in the end they always are and my heart believes this will be fine too but i dont remember the last time i was#this genuinely legitimately scared. im so scared and i dont know what to do#i know the next steps is to call dentists in my area tomorrow and check if they do medicare but i feel i already know the answer#idk if its better to have looked or to not and be able to live my life but its food time and i cant make myself eat#im scared to make it worse im scared of the pain that might cause im scared of the upward 2k damage costs if it gets worse#fuck#fucking fuck#okok panick attack over i have a two step plan: part one call around tomorrow and see if anyone takes medicare#part two: i have pliars and towels and painkillers and a lot of conviction in both my diy skills and my caring for my own wounds skills#in the mean time just be more dilligent to brush immediately after eating and ill grab mouthwash too as soon as i can as im currently out#i have a family friend whos a vet maybe theyve ripped out a rotted dogs tooth or two before and could help. but ill cross that bridge#when i get to it fir neow i should check with real dentists before making assumptions. and eat because ive been crying and shaking#and was already hungry and now am exhausted. from the aforementioned shaking and crying and need to eat even more#in all cases. dentist on medicare being the best obviously but in all cases im gonna ask to keep my tooth. unless i do it i dont need to ask#but i forgot when i had my wisdoms out a a few years ago. holy fuck that was like a decade ago actually wtf#ima make a necklace out of it since its just the one and not a pair#and just like that things will be fine. as expected as they always are once the panick mode is done im ok i have a plan and im good
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I hate that I've been sitting here for hours and I have nothing to show for it. I hate that I've been writing this thing for weeks and I still am like what's the point of this?
#i write sometimes#I feel like I'm kinda losing all motivation on this. the actual act of thinking abt Them is fun.#the act of writing it now is.... complicated#the thought of sharing it does not make me feel great. like worse than I usually feel abt sharing my stuff#which I always feel 🥴 abt but this one like idk man I have much more apprehension abt#I mean it's absolutely no different from stuff I've written before in terms of style or theme#it's just... idk man I don't even want to openly name my hesitation abt it cause I just don't want to invite any drama or anything#it's just 🥴🥴🥴 all the way around man. I have no one to foam at the mouth over these blorbos over either so#the whole 'create the content you want to see!' sentiment is high but again at the same time 🥴#there's like 13 fics for them total. the characters have been off tv for like 15 years bro. the series has obv flaws.#idk idk idk I'm over thinking it to death like it's killing any enjoyment I got out of it analyzing every fckn aspect of it#I'm too deep in my own head. I gotta let it lie for the night. maybe for a while. idk why I'm even posting abt it#it doesn't matter no one else is into these blorbos 🙃🙃🙃
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I fucking hate kamala btw like I voted for her but so begrudgingly just because trump is objectively worse. but I think we would still have almost the same amount of work to do as a society if she won, just hypothetically a democratic leadership would be easier to push over than the darling of the elites. we would still be fighting for gender-affirming care, to stop the genocide in Palestine, to stop fracking... etc. etc. kamala basically ran as a traditional republican which is why she fucking lost.
#unfortunately trump is also a darling of Netanyahu so we've already lost some battles with him in power vs kamala holocaust harris#neither of them were going to stop supplying weapons to israel or put an end to this us-funded genocide#neither of them were going to make significant strides towards environmental wellbeing (tho trump is worse)#(rolling back science-backed regulations for clean water and air is FUCKING INSANE and only a trump thing...)#(hope you dont like nature if you voted for trump🙃)#(but kamala being pro fracking is fucking disgusting)#neither of them were going to protect trans kids#(though again...trump is worse bc he's going to open doors to persecution and exclusion from society)#(which is significantly worse and more hateful than not providing care (which is definitely still a form of hate tho btw))#i think i was in a haze the last four years and didnt realize how far right we drifted under sleepy joe#over this country#i want peace and climate action and universal healthcare and women's rights and lgbtq+ rights#these didnt even feel farfetched or radical in the 2010s and its crazy how we're actually getting further from it#back when i still had hope and naiveté to get by on i suppose#t#i need to be done with this and go think about something else for awhile#kamala harris#imagine if i could just vote for a candidate that i actually kinda agreed with and it mattered#it wouldve been the socialist party
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Petition to let ACOTAR’s frequent resurrections enter the TOG realm just so every character & fan can get the chance to kill Cairn at least once
#I hate Cairn#KoA#Kingdom of Ash#currently reading#normally I’m so excited for Aelin chapters but I just don’t wanna see my bb girls hurt anymore between her & Fenrys nope stop it now my bbs#these chapters are destroying my soul#I think I hate him more than Erowan or Arobynn or Dolores Umbridge or any other despicable character possibly including Maeve#also my audiobook calls him Karen and he has the vibe of the worlds worst Karen’s on crack#I would like a breaking dawn pt.2 style moment for Fenrys like how Jane meets her end with the twins#sorry this is a fangirl morbid moment I just hate him and he makes me nauseous🙃#Cairn deserves worse
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trump could say word for word that he wants all non white people to be fired at and people would Still say that he's 'for everyone'
#yeah hes for everyone. hes taking away everyone minorities rights almost equally.#the comment sections of erb sure are something. ig its equal in some cases lmfao.#this isnt even a disagreement that democrats arent racist. but saying people that call Themselves nazis arent racist.#well. i think the psych wards have some openings.#the rise in fascism and the rise in spiritual psychosis and the fall of intellectualism. it all goes hand in hand.#its kinda tiring hearing 'democrats are the True racists. anyways nazilovr63 said trump was good' almost word for word lmao#and with biden finally dropping out we have more people saying 'trumps the way! you KNOW you want youre rights revoked more than today!'#its. truly something 🙃#i dont think these cryptoracists understand that the people saying they dont like trump or biden Genuinely dont want either in office#theyre not playing. were fucked.#its also just the thing. people Have forgotten how bad trumps was bc bidens was also terrible.#the most amount of people in History turned to voting when they never did before bc they wanted him out#i could also make a post about biden supporters but truthfully theres bery few diehard supporters for him.#while trumps is more 'well he Says hes doing this and historically has Not done it but in fact made it worse. hes telling the truth!'#critical thinking. we need you.#mega racist 1 or barely less racist 2. apparently one has to be racist while the other cant. which is a terrible thought process to have.
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i know it doesnt have to be "as bad" as it used to be for it to still be impacting me severely. i know others suffering doesnt make my pain any less real. and yet i am sitting here feeling severe guilt over smthn thats supposed to be "natural" bc it causes such excessive pain (even when i am medicated & take pain meds to help it) that i may have to completely rearrange my Saturday bc i am in no condition to do what i had planned and if the pain doesn't stop I'll have to cancel and ik its important to prioritize my health but also i wish i could just grit through the pain bc i feel so guilty cancelling 🙃
#personal#being intersex is fun (':#<< heavy sarcasm rn if u cant tell#and b4 anyone says 'oh everyones periods are lainful just do xyz' pls consider i have been experiencing this for 12 years now#and Do know medically that i am intersex and that my condition impacts the function of my body and puts me in a level of pain that is so big#that at its peak when on my period my body starts mimicking labor bc it thinks smthn is trying to leave#and if you have never experienced a labor pain level cramp pls look it up or get one of those electric box thingies that let u feel it#bc my cramps are a solid 8-9 on those every time this happens#the sad thing is i say its “not as bad as it used to be” too but the reality is it is Just as painful#i have just been living with this long enough and have just enough hormones in my body from getting an implant to make it less frequent#than 3 weeks in a month 🙃 but its not less painful at all!#(yes i used to have my period for 3 weeks at a time)#im also worried bc like. it seems like my period is coming more often than when i first started this version of hormone treatment#I've already blown through pills being effective and my junk is the wrong shape inside for an IUD to fit properly#(like i could but it would likely cause other pains and worse side effects)#so im already at my second to last resort (BC implant for continuous hormone release) and it works to a point but its getting less effective#the longer im using it and im so scared bc i think im already at a point where i have to get my stuff removed w/in the next 5 years#and i already knew i would and i want to really#but there's a large part of me that is still devastated by that and grieves this bc its a Requirement for me after a certain point to be in#less pain ): and like... idk i didnt want kids ever but also now as an adult ive experienced multiple miscarriages#(bc my condition makes my body hostile essentially)#and so its like..... extra grief.#idk im rambling in these tags
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Sleep anxiety should kill itself I think
#what do you MEAN im too scared to sleep???? youre telling me the act of sleeping is whats causing anxiety????#it happens like once every two or three months i have a four or so day period where i just. wont sleep#even though id love nothing more than to sleep right now. im exhausted. it was 4am this morning before i was so exhausted i just crashed#and then i was up at 630 for appointments. and i wasnt able to nap because of the sleep anxiety 🙃#so im stuck in a feedback loop. and my melatonins are making it worse i think#sigh. ill see if i can doze at all. just a little shut eye would be okay#jet jabbers
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"Louis unreliable narrator" =/= "omg Louis master manipulator twist, poor little Lestat!!" 🫥
#TVL Lestats Version. if what you get out of it isn't -okay so maybe louis was intentionally making lestat look extra bad now and again#in his telling because he was pissed off. while lestat is just fully saying anything to make himself look better but then the truth#sometimes shines trough because the way he's (not) coping is through emotional immaturity and repression. more than -lying about lestat#being worse than he is- or whatever the fuck. louis is taking being justifiably spiteful by going. oh darling there was never anything#there to begin with <3'#HOW is this Louis Version when we aren't seeing lestats truecringe personality. wasted roast.#my point is. i hate them doing this to the uminekoian nature of the original trilogy. it isn't about trying to prove who is lying. they#both tell the truth AND lie. and their accounts are in many ways. true to their recollection of the time.#edit. wait. i thought i had posted this before. i guess my finger slipped in drafts? no memory 🙃
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Astrology observations #3
These are my personal observations and should be taken in the context of the whole chart, never isolated 😊
Some of this is 18+, no minors allowed
♦️Mars-Uranus aspects can indicate a liking for risky activities and extreme sports, like motorcycling or base jumping. They can even like to put themselves in danger as they need the adrenaline. Routine is super boring for them, they need to try new things very often. They should be careful to release this nervous energy with sports, work they're passionate about or things like that or it can backfire. This aspect can be tempered down with Saturn aspects or a lot of earth energy in the chart.
♦️Venus square mars aspect: can often be mean to the person they like, classic "if he pulled your hair it's because he likes you" stuff. Can be very passionate, might have difficulty to separate feelings from lust. They might have talent for artistic sports like dancing or ice skating. For women, they might like a more sporty fashion style.
♦️Sun-saturn aspects: especially for harsh ones, this can really change the expression of the sun sign. I know someone with sun and several planets in Leo, but they are all square to Saturn and you could never tell she's a Leo; she is very reserved, shy and restrained in life. But as with all Saturn aspects this can change with age, the personality coming through more and more while keeping an amazing sense of discipline, wisdom and grounding.
♦️Moon-uranus aspects: with harsh aspects (conjunction, square, opposition), the mother might have been emotionally cold during the childhood, and she might have been a bit erratic and unpredictable. This could have showed up as frequently moving places, or having a mother considered weird or crazy by society. With soft aspects like trine or sextile this could show up as an untraditional family, maybe having two fathers or two mothers, or parents very into technology, but this was not hard on the person and it helped them develop their individuality and independence.
♦️Taurus mercury: these people can learn much slower than other people (this does not mean they are not as intelligent, their rhythm is just different). At school they might have felt behind their schoolmates or felt like they didn't have enough time to finish their exams/homework. It is important that they don't feel bad about this and take the time they need to do their work. This might be less strong with Uranus influence on mercury. ♦️ Aquarius moon natals and their need to always read and watch self-development content without ever actually feeling their feelings 🙃
♦️ Venus conjunct moon: these people are so kind, they have such a big heart and do not wish harm on anyone, please stay mindful of who has access to you as many people might want to be in contact with this energy but sometimes also energy vampires.
♦️ Mercury conjunct/square pluto and their dark humor! I have this in my chart and one of my colleagues actually said to me three days after she started: "your jokes can be really dark sometimes" 😂 it gets worse when I'm tired as I don't filter my jokes so much before saying them. These aspects might also think a lot about death and dark themes, they can be the type to think "what happens if I die tomorrow", or "I could die if I do this" but not in a worried way, just thinking rationally about what is possible.
♦️ Leo mars women and their secret backup plan of becoming a stripper or an exotic dancer 💃 these women often have a talent for dancing, and performing can make them feel desired and confident.
♦️ Aries moon/mars placements and their road rage! Both my parents have these placements and my god the number of stressful rides to school I had when I was a child 😂 this can also apply to the other fire mars.
♦️ Lilith conjunct ascendant: these people often provoke reactions everywhere they go, they rarely go unnoticed whether it is positive reactions or negative. The women with this aspect might get sexualised a lot, and the men with this aspect might attract animosity from other men. ♦️ Sun-jupiter and moon-jupiter aspects: they might always see the bright side of things, "it will get better", "this is temporary", seeing the glass half-full. A lot of optimism, faith in a higher meaning, maybe too optimistic sometimes and too trusting that things will unfold in the right way.
♦️Mars square pluto women often attract creepy men on the street, interactions with aggressive men might be unfortunately common. It is important to not repress their anger and channel their power in something like martial arts.
♦️Gemini moon/IC: they might love to talk with their loved ones at home, a lot of communication and learning in their private life. If they live alone they might be a lot on the phone or always have music or tv or radio on.
♦️Mercury square saturn: they might doubt their intellectual abilities when young, their learning style might not fit the classic school system. It is important that they are encouraged by their family, and with time they will gain confidence and master the learning techniques that fit them best.
♦️Mars in virgo might care too much about pleasing their partner in bed and have a hard time receiving pleasure without giving anything. They might also feel self-conscious if they do not feel "clean" like not fresh out of the shower. It is important for them to practice letting go of their thoughts and doubts and be present in their body. They deserve pleasure as much as everybody else!
♦️ Jupiter in the 2nd house might have a very good self-esteem, if the moon and venus are not too afflicted. And if it is the case it helps the native deal with the harder aspects.
♦️ That's why it is so dangerous to interpret an aspect in isolation of the rest of the chart, a challenging aspect might be very beneficial in a chart and less in another one. For instance moon conjunct saturn might be more challenging for a Capricorn moon which is already quite controled and closed off, but in the sign of Aries it might help the native tame their impulsivity and control better their emotions.
♦️ Or moon square Uranus might be beneficial for a Capricorn moon or a Taurus moon as it might help them break out of their routine and become more adaptable and flexible to change.
Thank you for reading!
@lunaa007
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