#just some rambling into the void

[maryymaruu]

Trying to work on bringing in the rest of my itty ocs, but it's really hard all things considered. Outside and inside factors-

I thought I had ADOE figured out, but suddenly I don't think I know who they are as a character anymore. At least IR is not giving me much internal troubles, she's full of personality~

[chalkrub]

thank you for a great art fight! here's some of my final attacks. had a blast, already missing it - see you next year!

[cent-scratchnsniff]

hoptal

[apartmentwhereikeepallofmyswords]

I wonder if passive ever wanted to rename himself (before the apple incident)

Like, Nim legit named them ‘dream’ and ‘bad-dream’. Not only the favoritism (using that loosely cause. nim. Just in general) but the fact he’s been demonized from the start by his own name. Having his twin brother who’s the golden child and loved be the ‘good’ version while he has to be the bad one? That had to hurt, on top of everything else.

His bullies probably used that fact too. “Oh you’re the bad one, it’s literally your name” kind of bs

But then what would he name himself?

Maybe after a character in a book? someone he looked up to/didn’t treat him as badly? maybe even after a plant since he was in nature all the time

Idk. just thinking about the fact passive might have wanted to be named something else, but then when he died and was corrupted Nightmare took on the name as a defining part of himself. It’s his name, it’s what he is so it has to be who he is

And if he was ever reformed/fixed/stopped being evil, would he change it then? Shed the name in order to feel less like the monster he’d been?

[mistermalaprop]

I’ve talked about this just a smidge in the tags of a previous post BUT here is a main post. I’m in the car so I don’t have any art and this will probs come out weird.

[EDIT: HERE IS FULL CONCEPT]

it makes sense that Knock Out in earthspark would be based off prime, like, we get that. every KO is prime KO. At the very least it’d be one of the comic iterations.

but I think it’d be so much cooler if an es KO was based more heavily on his actual g1 character. because think of it— most want an es KO for the KOBD ship. That’s very real, I get it… but Breakdown in es took the place that a prime KO would’ve. BD in es is already the fast racer with ambiguous ties to the Decepticon faction… and flirts with Autobots—

SO! Why don’t we just… flip-flop the dynamics? Prime KO’s character is put into es BD, and— hear me out— prime BD’s big brute yet genuine character is put to es KO. Breakdown in earthspark gets to race and be all cool and in the spotlight, while his doting yet aesthetically-minded, construction-framed partner Knockout follows him around! it’s not totally balls to the wall crazy to think of a design for a g1-inspired earthspark KO, especially when we have this guy to work with-

There was already an attempt (that I think is pretty cool) of a g1 inspired look for KO, while still keeping the idea of prime KO in mind!

anyway… I think it would make for some neat diversity for Knock Out’s character lineage. To me, he’s gotten pretty stale because every version of him is pretty much… prime… and while that version of him was revolutionary and amazing, I want different interpretations :( I wanna see him change and grow like other characters…

[lilbitosunny]

So this is in the very very early stages rn; But I'm in the process of making a fnaf dating sim! These are the sprites I'm working with rn

From left to right, Tall Adult, Average Adult, Wheelchair Adult as playable characters/npcs. Then there's Pre-Teen and Child for npcs

Working on a plus-size character sprite; but this is what I've got so far!

[basementstalker]

I don't want just anyone. All those posts crying about how they'll take anyone, if only someone could just love them, or even just pay attention to them- I understand the pain of not having someone. I'm not trying to poke fun and I'm sorry if it comes across that way. I can't just want anyone though.

I want you. You're not replaceable. I want to learn all about you, slowly, whatever piece I can get. Your insides and your outsides, the top of your head to the tips of your toes. I want to spend time with you, soak up the atmosphere around you. I want to seek you out and find you and collide with you and collapse into you and we can shatter into a bunch of pretty shards of glass, glue ourselves into a new shape.

Such big words for some rando online, huh? I want to prove the truth of them to you though. I want to at least try.

[rambling-robot]

the difference between comic and movie agent stone is so funny bc in the comics he frames a woman for money laundering, takes over her coffee shop, and then calls her when she's in prison to use up her One Phone Call; in the movie he looks like he's going to burst into tears while making coffee in that very shop. the duality of man...

also it seems that his dedication to robotnik isn't because he's just a loyal lackey who takes abuse from any authority he's subjected to--he makes 3 people disappear within a week (all of them his superiors in this workplace) and keeps the last one as his own assistant. robotnik himself acknowledges that stone is "practically a genius" compared to the general population, and his manifesto addresses stone as still beneath robotnik, but above everyone else.

(that is a really weird thing to say, dude.)

this is a man who is better than everyone around him and knows it. he earned this sense of superiority, not because robotnik bestowed it upon him, but because he has the skills to back that claim up. immediately upon removing the boss, he advertises a drink named after himself and kicks his feet up with a disposable underling at his side.

this is a guy who is following the orders of an evil genius because he likes them and wants to do it. this isn't a long-game of wanting to usurp or succeed robotnik, this is him still following along with the doctor's plans, even though he's gone. even though he's a cheerful and funny character in the movies, he still says things like, "you need to lighten up, shadow. we're about to rule the world," with a smile on his face. it's really easy for me to forget that he's actually also a villain and isn't just neutrally aligned as "robotnik's assistant."

which!! is also important because in sonic 3, we meet robotnik in a terrible place in life. and stone is still there, not just at the doctor's side but acting in what is likely the doctor's best interests even without robotnik's say (ie destroying the imposter badniks). he's still working, even if things have come to a standstill on robotnik's end.

agent stone stays with robotnik because as capable and skilled as he is, he knows that robotnik is better. this isn't just "he's a freak and is into robotnik being an invasive HR nightmare," nor is it "he's just a villain sidekick in a kids' movie who doesn't need motivation or purpose beyond the villain." this is, "his loyalty to robotnik is borne from genuine (and, dare i say, mutual) respect."

[chaotic-minds-think-alike]

Well I was going to hop on the pressure oc trend with actually making my avatar into a monster buuuut the information we might get to hear about the vacula void mass is stopping me because I want to be canon as possible grrrrrrr

[voidrantss]

my regime is never over

[maryymaruu]

Big yawn

[windwenn]

Obsessed with how good wtnv is at manipulating you. They'll tell you that you feel as though youre staring into the void at the end of an episode and you will truly be feeling as though you have gazed into the dark abyss and seen no distant light at all. And you WILL NOT realise until the last minute.

[voiddrawss]

ooooOoo I do have these doodles I did while I was gone! HUGE RANT AHEAD UH OH

SoooO from time to time invision either Seph or Cloud as trans for some comfort and to explore myself through them. Buuttttt, with everything going on in the U.S and also just my mental health, AND DYSPHORIA IM LOOKING AT YOU EWWWWW, my brain decided to trans man beam both Cloud and Sephiroth!!! (I am a trans guy myself, this AU is EXTREMELY personal to me and heavily based on my experiences, and is for my own comfort.) It follows the canon of ff7 but obviously they are both trans so I have tweaked and added moments in their life that I will make drawings off :)

Sephiroth is a lot based off of my experience of being a trans guy, he does not want to present in a binary manner or uphold all the expectations of being a man placed on him, but is happy being a man in a more non-conforming way. He liked to dress up as a kid and didn’t have a problem with feminine things until he hit puberty, because his role as a “woman” was placed on him heavily. When he was a kid he viewed dresses/girly things (lol directly inspired off of me) as just pretty things to accessories himself with and not a gender marker ascribed to him. In his teens he leaned androgynously, (Hojo was an unaccepting douchebag and is just focused on biological stuff, he was never religious) and Seph got baggy tees and snuck clothes to express himself. (In this AU everything in ff7 canon world is canon, so he still wore the SOLDIER uniform and stuff but just was referred to differently). Seph struggled in his teens with his identity when he found trans videos on YouTube and had an identity crises for like 2 years, wondering why he wanted to have testerone and the changes that went with it. He came out to his father at 17 and started transitioning, Hojo only accepted Seph because he knew Seph wouldn’t continue being a SOLDIER otherwise, and ShinRa quickly just changed their adds for Sephiroth and covered up old adds that were gendered (because they didn’t want society to know Seph was trans).

Cloud on the other hand was just always himself, never cared about gender and upholding to it but just playing outside and having fights with other kids. He always wore baggy tees and cargo shorts, and put up his hair in a rat tail to look cool, but also to pretend it was short. Tifa never batted an eye at Cloud’s expression and just considered him her best friend. As Cloud hit is teens, he was very stubborn and never wore any bras or conformed to society, and his mom always just said “Oh that’s just Cloud, and I love my kid regardless”. (Cloud chopped his hair short here) Cloud grew up in Nibllehiem isolated, so he never had any words to express his identity or feelings, but it didn’t matter to much because he never cared about them in the first place. Tifa tried to invite Cloud to “girl sleepovers” but Cloud just was not interested and said he would rather wrestle with her or something. It all changed when Cloud went to ShinRa at age 14, and was gendered a lot by his coworkers and the company. Cloud grew out his hair again and put it in a rat tail to try and comform a little more, and even got his ears pierced. He really was disgusted but started wearing bras, but ofc he knew now something was really wrong and he didn’t feel this wrong in his entire life. He started hanging out with Zack and became his best friend, and later started dating. Cloud got access to the internet through Zack’s phone and starting googling stuff until he finally came across the word trans. He immediately explained it to Zack, and Zack grew up with a super accepting family so Zack didn’t mind. They dated for a couple months but there was a barrier between Zack being cis and Cloud trans, so they split up. Cloud always viewed himself as just himself, but know he desperately wanted to be viewed as a man and nothing more. He never transitioned until he got out of ShinRa at age 20 and immediately did all he could to be the most passing as possible. Tifa was very surprised by his changes when she first met him (again in their mission to bomb the reactor). She had trouble accepting him since she viewed gender in a very conservative way because of her isolated upbringing. But, she did finally understand why Cloud was so adamant about somethings in their childhood together and was empathetic.

Now in the present times, (the events of FF7 remake and rebirth), Cloud secretly meets up with Seph because of an attraction to him (I am a sefikura after all LOL!) While Cloud tries to be as binary as possible, his insecurities make him avoid physical contact with Seph. Seph accepts Cloud and loves him dearly, as they both explore parts of themselves and learn new things. Cloud learns he is man because he just is, and doesn’t have to prove anything to Sephiroth. Cloud feels insecure he can’t be “a real man” which Sephiroth teaches him is bullshit and that they can explore ways to make themselves comfortable without having to uphold whatever people ascribe to them.

ANYWAY I will definitely post more about this since I’ve been ruminating over these ideas for a long time, but I love this AU dearly since it encompasses so many parts of myself. Sorry for getting sappy but it means a lot to me. BIG RANT HUH!!! (Expect more of them heheh)

[rotating-pebbles]

guys do we think we vilify ford too much

Look I KNOW the 2015 stan wars lore. I know the IMMENSE amount of ford hate that existed (and still exits somewhere) when not what he seems first aired. I know. i KNOW.

But with the modern fandom I feel like a lot of people make Ford a lot more crueler in fanart, fan fic, any type of fan work, specifically to try and avoid making him seem like a 100% good character.

I don't know if that makes sense, but i feel like so much of the modern fandom want to avoid the "trap" of worshipping a character that has done morally grey things, in this case Ford.

I'm not quite sure if my point makes sense here, but the over villification I've see in SOME fanworks (no disparaging!! They are still all so good don't stop) and I'm not talking about the evil ford aus, I'm talking about canon adjacent fan works that make ford more mean than he is. To the point where when I rewatch the actual series, I get whiplash from how silly canon ford actually is.

I have no examples and I actually don't think this ramble makes too much sense, but I just think a lot of the fandom over vilified ford to try and avoid making him seem over heroic.

Also I think a lot of people do this in fear of making twink ford. Which. Ok fair.

Fors is a flawed, sometimes morally grey character. He is led by paranoia and insecurity. But he isn't mean or cold or kid hating, (especially post weirdmagedon) he's just a lil autistic

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[iiep-wop]

THE SIMON PEGG ARMY GROWS‼️‼️

[newtafterdark]

No matter how today's election goes, promise me you'll persist. Promise me to stick around and live a life worth living. Care for the people around you who you love and love you in return. Be gentle with yourself but also be loud to make your voice heard. It will be rough, it most likely be painful, but don't stop loving life - and the big and the small joys of it. Living to spite the ones who want you gone is one reason to keep going, but also think of yourself as a stressed animal in times like this, a little beast - that is you - that requires warmth and love. Look after it with care, will you?