#just some mental chats
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
having an absolutely ludicrous conversation with my friend rn
#just some mental chats#anyway we're gonna start a club in parramatta square where we sit about on the grass with a sign saying only queers can approach#with the sole purpose of recruting queer people as friends and lovers to hang out with in western sydney#so homophobic of parramatta to have no gay bars#happy 47000th post with this one
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
One of Shadow Milk’s many prop replicas of himself, left behind. Even though the eyes are forever staring straight into the distance… Oddly enough, you still feel like you’re being watched.
But surely, though, it won’t hurt to take it home and touch up the colours, right? :)
#oh. my god chat. do i have a lot to say now#IM LOVE HIM#oh my god#fhis is the only time ur gonna see me say i love shadow milk directly and not his art HAHAHA#FUCCKKKKK#this one rlly has me messed up#ive been sitting on this concept for a long while!!! i just cant rlly nail the vibes that i want for it… but mroe than anything i want to#show him to you guys.. so issok if yall see the flopfail before i learn how to better capture my mental image#oh it’s so possessed. btw. like not even a second of thought has to be put into it#LMAO#physical vessel for the shreds of his essence that managed to avoid being sealed up. it’s not enough of him to do anything crazy…#but just enough to put you on edge :)#golden freddy pose shadow milk (i will be drawing this some day)#his ability to move is really sporadic#sometimes he’ll be right in the middle of attempting to make a gesture and then he’ll collapse mid movement… darn#(kicks him) fuck you#i think he’s….. cute.#haha.#okay#shadow milk cookie#cookie run kingdom#mystuff#cookie run#crk#crk fanart#cookie run fanart#fave#is it egotistical to put a fave tag on MY OWN ART yeah probably BUT U GUYS DONT. GE T. HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS VARIANT#doodled an oc x canon w this concept in class 2day n realized too late someone wuz watching me draw…………… man.#IM AT TAG LIMIT????? FUCK MY LIFEEE I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THAT WAS A THING. BYE LOL!!!!!
225 notes
·
View notes
Text
btw this is probably one of the most insane and telling scenes in regards to stewy nd kendall. like the stewy-marcia interaction first off. the way it’s so clearly paralleling kenstewy with logan and marcia. stewy and marcia literally watch their respective persons in silence. also important to note that stewy was one of the first ppl to greet logan when he arrived probably bc he knew that one of the first things logan was going to do was approach kendall and he wanted to get in there first to gauge the situation + logan. but stewy’s concern for kendall in regards to what could happen when he’s in close proximity to logan is so clear and almost synonymous with marcia’s own concern/love for logan at this point. like it seems intentional that they were shown to be like. logan and kendall’s respective partners here
#kenstewy#succession#stewy hosseini#stewy/marcia interaction just in general is insane. like she greeted him with such warmth. you can tell she genuinely fucking likes him.#like that’s soooooo . us brown ppl always win btw !#but also it’s like. the loganmarcia kenstewy parallels you could make…#marcia was the only one to completely understand and unequivocally love logan while knowing exactly who he was and what’s he done. and she#supported him stuck by him etc until he betrayed her#like he grew careless of her and took her for granted. and does that sound familiar? like that happened to my guys kendall and stewy. insane#ALSO throughout this scene you see stewy greet logan and marcia -> watch kendall talk to logan -> see him walking kind of fast in some#direction until caroline approaches him (and even then he doesn’t chat for long at all) -> then finally he finds kendall and sits down to#talk to him. like throughout this whole scene he’s just following kendall around😵💫 like it’s literally a party and he’s like. running after#kendall the whole time. and when he sits down he’s like. hey heard you talked to your dad lol. like he wasn’t 8 feet away watching kendall#intently stood next to marcia while it was happening. like that’s super insane#kind of unrelated but not really but stewy has the worst case of anxiety i’ve ever seen like he’s sooo anxious. he’s mentally ill fr and#i love him with all my heart#stewy#kennystewy#p
708 notes
·
View notes
Note
Obsessed with how u draw Erik's dumptruck thighs. Shocked that man can pull any clothes over those chicken drumsticks
these compliments are getting more and more colorful thank you so much my friend i do my best
#snap chats#jlAKJWLEKJ#i was chilling with my dog and i coughed too loud and scared him i need to be SHOT#but thank you ... i try to make erik look like a whole fridge unit for the wellness of my mental health#see im cursed to remember erik has like. a weird clothes beam(?? its not a beam they just flash on) or some shit like maybe thats the ticke#he doesnt have to worry about physically putting on clothes when he can just. materialize it ig.#we're moving on now point is Thank You i will continue to draw erik with tree trunk thighs
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
Anyone else just not feeling like a real person much lately?
#'lately' he says#as if he's not been feeling this way for the last 28 years#idk man#maybe it's bc I'm getting older and so are the people i hang/chat with#but it feels like everyone else has a real life and real interests and experiences and things to say#and I'm some kind of hollow scarecrow person just full of memory loss and sadness#i feel very stupid and very boring#which i know is too harsh. and i know i should be kinder to myself bc life and covid and shit can't have helped the brain situation#and i should absolutely believe my friends when they say they wanna hang with me bc it's mean not to take them at their word#but I'm still like... why though?#genuinely what's the appeal of being around me. my head is empty i have nothing to add and I'm not interesting or that funny#it's been creeping up on me. this feeling like i just genuinely have nothing to offer.#i don't even know who i am#except for a person who like. lives vicariously through fictional characters experiencing feelings I've never had cause to feel#i can relate to emotions SO vividly except i myself haven't even felt the half of them#i just sort of quietly exist somewhere on the spectrum between content and discontent#with occasional drops into the despair zone#and even if the stuff i think is keeping me here went away tomorrow. like if mum stopped being an issue and i was free#like... what would i even do?#i don't even know how to want something#anyway. this has been morning mental breakdowns with newt#I'm going to go make some made up guys live the life i haven't now#mr. bees speaks#negative
31 notes
·
View notes
Text
Actually the thought only strikes me now that of all the Punch-Out characters the one that's the most likely to be able to bridge the language barrier is, of all characters, Bear Hugger.
I mean, while it isn't explicitly stated, French is a pretty widespread language across Canada (I mean hell, Glass Joe's VA was a Francophone Canadian rather than needing to actually get someone from France), and while it's most prominently centered around Quebec, there are still sizable French-speaking populations in both Saskatchewan and British Columbia (his two given places of origin in the games). There's a markedly nonzero chance that, while maybe not full-on fluent, he'd at least be able to understand some decent conversational French and carry a chat without too much difficulty. Granted it's still just two languages out of idk eight the fact that one of his languages is English means he can translate like a third of the contenders
#and tipping more into headcanon territory but I like to think he'd pick up on a smidge of the languages he's around a lot#Keigo might be a bit of a tall order but he'd probably pick up on a bit of Japanese from Hondo#some spanish is straightforward enough to translate based on context#and I could see him trying to learn a bit of Spanish and Hindi#if anything just to see if it'd make beating his opponents easier if he can understand what they're saying#idk had the mental image of him and Joe having a friendly chat and my brain sorta liquefied (positive)#punch out!!#bear hugger#op back on her bullshit
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
hi i havent made art recently because i've been playing a mind numbing amount of minecraft. and then when i'm not playing minecraft, i'm taking care of my base human needs that i neglected whilst playing minecraft (e.g food and sleep). ... i really love minecraft. would anyone like to see my builds as i go
#its an smp that started a few days ago#the organiser is a rly sweet person (twitch.tv/jasminekazooie) i used 2 know from smallants chat haha#i never use twitch these days so its nice to see what shes up to some other way!!#but also i think im just like. severely mentally ill about minecraft#i think my bf is discovering what it looks like to see me Really Obsessed w something
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
lonely sad and so so poorly so think I'm gonna work on requests until I get sleepy :)
#🧚🏽♀️ — luxe chit chat#ive had such a sore tummy all day :(((#and im a lil down bc i saw something i wish i hadn't but#im trying not to let it get to me too much#i don't rly have anyone to talk to though so that's a lil upsetting!#contacting a mental health service tho bc i don't want to spiral abt it#ive had a lil cry!! i managed to hold it together for a while but i started thinking too hard and had a lil weep#but im not crying rn and i just wanna be proactive abt it so i dont end up feeling worse#but yeah since i got no one to talk to rn i have some time to write so i thought i'd try and get through some requests!!#sorry ive been so sucky with them#i love u all very much and sorry im not as active these days#thank u all who still support me and reach out tho ily all a whooooooooole lot :3#i hope ur all having lovely days and nights mwah mwah
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
~a vampire at dawn~
excuse the quick sketch, for this post is less about the art and more about the idea behind it... i have this headcanon from when geralt's company was trekking with the beekeepers through the wilderness:
although they were initially very grateful to have three meals a day prepared for them, they quickly got sick of having honeyed porridge served for all three of them. "Everything was sticky from the honey, even the young women." milva began to get nauseous at mealtimes, and cahir, usually ravenous at mealtimes as befits a strapping young lad such as he, even turned down a few bowls.
regis, however, was quite happy with it.
because, as is mentioned later in the book, about saovine traditions: "The spirits of the dead (...) should be given honey and groats, all sprinkled with vodka…" i imagine some confusing night where he went into a villager's hut to drink blood, but, it was around saovine, so they were even expecting someone like him to arrive and to even be looking for such a thing. prepared for such a situation, they handed him some kasza with honey. he didn't really know what to do with it, but they instructed him on how to eat... it was surprisingly pretty good, so he started pulling this on all the other villages, like hey i;m "undead" (whatever that means) do you have any "porridge" with "honey." yeah also put a little vodka on it while you're at it.
so honeyed groats turned out to be the first human food he ate, and over time, became like a comfort food to him. now he has it without the vodka though
#i also have just been thinking of like. the company travelling together is almost downright domestic#except for the part where they don't have a house lol#you know what i mean. that they 'sleep under the same blanket at night'#they all sleep and wake at the same time and have to get dressed in the morning#we see their night routine more but they must also have morning routine#and i know geralt wakes everyone up early to cover more miles lol#this is probably why they enjoyed beauclair so much because their breakfast on the road was always hasty#but yeah like... i mean they don't have pajamas i'm assuming but it's like in a little sacrifice when dandelion takes off his jerkin and ha#like ... i don't know maybe because only child syndrome and i did not do sleepovers except once or twice#but you're just going to coordinate your sleep routines and like get undressed and dressed and stuff together#and then on top of that from the perspective of 'hey remember one of your company members is a vampire'#regis flipped his entire circadian rhythm upside down to live amongst humans#regis is the friend in the group chat who is in the opposite timezone#and also. to me it is just funny and weird to think of a vampire waking up and eating breakfast like a human#i mean i know it's regis so it's not surprising. it's just a somehow interesting mental image#like so you're telling me he doesn't just manifest like that in dark cloak and all. he's got to tie his shirt up and pull his boots on#i blame the discussion of beach episode hanza some weeks prior. the regis in a tanktop image is haunting me. in a good way#me: 'well it's just like ive never seen him wear a tanktop' ... 'i guess ive never seen him bc he's a fictional character but'#'ive never seen your arms above your elbows before and it's kind of weirding me out'#it's weird i'm curious like a child about it. maybe i have mental problems that come from american media sexualizing any nudity#my art#c: regis#emiel regis
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
i can't speak for every mentally ill person but i don't think "don't self-deprecate! it makes everyone around you feel bad :(((" is necessarily the all-encompassing bandaid slam-dunk you think it is.
#'you feel bad about yourself? well now you're making ME feel bad too :('#wow not only do i not hate myself less i might hate myself for a few bonus reasons! cool. thanks 👍#i just think that this toxic positivity trend of making one person's mental illness everyone else's problem#and the answer to mental illness is to just think of everyone you're inconveniencing/hurting by being mentally ill#which will absolutely motivate you to stop being mentally ill#is............ well! i'm sure it works for some people!#aster chat#i'm not saying that mentally ill people should not or cannot take responsibility for things#but i think people don't realize that some mental illnesses' problem is that it makes people take Too much responsibility#which is in fact. overwhelming.#you can't guilt someone into not being chronically guilty
36 notes
·
View notes
Text
this poll inspired by me waking up 2 hrs earlier than usual and still being so nauseated about it 4 hours later
if you wanna elaborate in the tags i'd love to hear!! If I could have more options I'd have added in with/without POTS/orthostatic intolerance options to this, that's something I'm curious about.
#myalgic encephalomyelitis#mecfs#chronic fatigue syndrome#sleep deprivation#updates on my boring life#my family's gossip/chat is fully half just updates on all our medical stuff this is interesting to me lol#clarified physical cuz some people see chronic illness and assume that includes mental illness#which... lots of ppl get diagnosed w mental illnesses when their illness IS physical but even so#chronic illness means physical
50 notes
·
View notes
Note
THIS IS GONNA SOUND SO MEAN BUT WHY DO U LIKE RYO AOKI/MASATO
masato hot
#snap chats#just like me... heh ... my ac has been broken all month im melting for the love of god send an iceberg im begging you#him turning into aoki is incredibly funny to me like jesus christ. what a lack of self love does to a mfer#but anyway 1.) please do not yell i scare easy 2.) meaner has been said its ok 3.) very reasonable to ask why anyone would like aoki#and 4.) to be Cereal he's inch resting to me. also his speech to ichi at the end hit a lil close and i was reminded of high school#5.) i really like his eng dub voice sorry im american. BUT HIS JP VOICE IS EXCELLENT TOO IM JUST SAYIN#rgg doesnt give an Exact on his disability so looking into lung diseases/conditions has also been interesting#esp post-lung surgery cases and care too so i thank rgg for the opportunity to do some reading#i also do In General just like cases of someone wanting to be loved and changing drastically to get it only to still be unhappy#granted. he sucks so LMAO can only have so much sympathy but it's still interesting to watch#the arakawas is also a part of why i like him because they all work as a big machine. if that makes sense#like the arakawas in general are such an interesting bundle i love all of them a lot because of what they mean to each other#in the case of aoki none of them mean anything to him at most resenting arakawa and despising ichi#meanwhile sawashiro's just. There LOL im so sorry king thats the truth of it all ... i love you tho ...#oh but back to aoki. i also really like politican characters- or at least characters who can have a 'public' persona#its fun thinking about what they have to do mentally to present themselves in public versus when they can 'be themselves'#like aoki's 'intro' scene where he's pleasant to his secretary and then a second later is conniving with ogasawara... peak i fear#OR THEEEE CAR PARK ONE i love that scene so much ...#very fun.. aoki being a politician just makes it infinitely funnier like guys we gotta bully the governor#plus i live and breathe by a glass analysis/comparison a twitter mutual of mine did ... i love glass imagery .......#uhhhh is that all ... idk prob im literally sweating my skin off i cant think right. my clothes are sticking to my skin i hate summer#i dont hate summer im so sorry i didnt mean it .... summer is beautiful .. i just wish this heat wasnt murdering me
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
first day of class and they askin my favorite movie on the spot like PLEASE i need five minutes to decide which flavor of cherik i like today you cant spring this on me
#xmen#cherik#xmen dofp#xmen first class#snap chats#i just rewatched dofp so thats what i put !!!!#now everyone gonna know i love yaoi …….#i cant even say the full title cause we had to walk around and tell people it#like thats such a long ass title CMON WHY DID I PICK DOFP#NO CAUSE MY PROF ASKED MY FAVE MOVIE AND I WAS JUST ALL MEEK LIKE ‘i like xmen <:)’ AND SHE GOTTA YELL THAT#‘XMEN??? THATS A WHOLE FRANCHISE’ i KNOW and its made me mentally ill like PLEASE#ACTUALT announcement at 9AM im crying laughing#double cryin cause someone before me said the dark knight#and my prof afterwards was like ‘we got a lot of movies yk some comedies some romances some marvel stuff’ and i screamed like Truly
43 notes
·
View notes
Text
#Technoblade25
Heeyyyyy am I late to the party? I hope I'm not too late, been working on this thing for the occasion
hebe hebe HEBE amiinm'enbimikta HEBE AMIINM'ENBIMIKTA AMIINM'ENBIMIKTA HEBE HEBE HEBE AMIINM'ENBIMIKTA
Ne yhdeini sy caera, Tommy? Meku AMULVHT VID LIIN!
For the record, the ripple thingies are from Tsevhu, aka the funni koi fish language :D I've been studying the conlang lately
Anyway, the red Tsevhu is a translation of "you want to be a hero, Tommy? Then DIE like one!", while the pale red are the voices chanting "one of us" and the closest the Tsevhu Discord could approximate for "blood for the blood god" in a phrase (the actual thing translates something to like "start giving completely and involuntarily", which in Tsevhu is kinda like chanting for sacrifice, which is fun and very much chat :3)
("blood for the blood god" would've translated to a straight-up sentence that I'd have to frame in koiwrit, which I felt would be too cluttered, as much as clutteredness is very in-character for chat)
Anyway hope I'm not too late haha, happy 25th birthday, Techno.
#technoblade25#technoblade 25#technoblade#technoblade fanart#technoblade never dies#one of us one of us#tsevhu#no the red ripples weren't originally supposed to be blood what're you talking about#I had to change the layer to an add layer because the ripples were hard to read with the red background#but it's still cool looking so I went with it#fun fact when I posted it to the tsevhu discord koa (the creator of the conlang) was like#“that is so cool but you might wanna swap the hand that's up and the direction of the hair. maybe even flip the image”#and only then did i realize i accidentally drew the entire thing the wrong way#i accidentally pulled a “your zuko costume is really good but the scar is on the wrong side” o<-<#and i was basically already done with everything on it haha#so i just#mirror flipped it and opened photoshop for the first time in six months to use the liquify tool to make some tweaks#off-topic but i was watching jaiden's newly released adhd video and she describes the adhd mental experience as “the voices”#like “the voices aren't getting quieter” and “the voices are quiet” and “you guys don't have loud nonstop voices in your head”#upon hearing that. i. a voice in techno's chat#looked at the whole setup#and was immediately like#“wait is the idea of the voices in techno's chat based on the adhd experience of one's brain rattling around nonstop like a pinball :0000"#so that was fun :D
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
ok erm. halloween animation meme lowkey postponed until next year (because i know damn well i'll need a whole year to finish this with my motivation 💀) because i have another much more invigorating and fresh idea that i wanna draw for the mtt. inspired by these 3 fuckass monkeys
#my bad chat i forgot how shit my procrastination is...... erm#KEEP AN EYE OUT. next year. and i lowkey just dont have the motivation rn school is pissing me off#blame my math teacher its because she caused me to crash out resulting in a hormone imbalance#which resulted in my loss of motivation for that. TRUST 🤞#anyways i think these monkeys suit them a lot. killer dust horror in that order#i feel like dust is the most obvious because like hearing you cannot turn off compared to sight and speaking#to get through the genocides he would need to forcefully push through it while horror and killer already had fucked up mental states#i would say that killer COUKD be see no evil but i thought it would make more sense for him to be speak no evil#because he's constantly plagued by his guilt yet struggles so damn much to ever confront it or even talk about it#also i think it fits more to have his hand over his mouth bc like. when a authority figure wants control#they usually order people to shut up. like imagining a teacher telling their student to be quiet#your voice is one of the most important forms of self expression and killer's autonomy and self have been beaten so bad#he cannot talk about it anymore. he knows its shit since stage 1 exists. he cannot talk about it#and i gave horror see no evil because until dust he didn't have control over what happened to (some) of what happened#and unlike killer he's perfectly fine with expressing how shit things are. but he just refuses to#he rather delude himself and believe that this was all justified even if its shit. he refuses to see the reality because itd destroy him#i love that the saying was originally meant as a way to avoid doing and thinking evil things#but now its associated with turning a blind eye to wrongdoings. like the world's shittiest coping mechanism#USGAH!!!! they all used to be completely normal sanses b4 they got fucked up........#and now theyre all broken and changed and not morally just anymore..... just like the saying's associations!!!!!!!#and i remember that one ancient ddlc offical art#where all the girls were connected into one big piece. and i wanna do something like thst#and make it one big piece. maybe like as a final know no evil thingy#who knows i need to shower and brush my teeth and then i can get to drawing the sketches for this#tricule rant
3 notes
·
View notes