#just so i can write ONE FANFIC SCENE ACCURATELY

[the-2nd-random-kid]

Bitches be like "casually gets a business degree in order to more accurately write their old man fanfiction"

Its me, im bitches

[astro-g0re]

Genuinely AI and character ai will never replace the absolute joy and excitement of planning out a whole plot and story with potential reactions, ideas, concept, and art with the other person

The people only using character ai really don't know the soul and fun that comes with doing actual roleplay that stays consistent and won't repeat the same sentence/motion a million times over

[bethisblogging]

It’s really funny to me that everyone is talking about fanfiction in an almost mainstream way.

When I was in college (c. 2016/17) I wrote an essay on how it was an underrated form of media that had a lot of benefits for both the creators and the consumers, and discussed that basically authors had been writing fanfiction of other works for hundreds of years.

Flash forward to 2024 and I could not tell you the last time I read or wrote fanfic. The desire is just. Gone.

[andhumanslovedstories]

chapter eleven of what feels like the most soap opera ass fic I've ever written and then just a bunch of thoughts about writing it, which contains vague spoilers for my plans:

The inception of the fic basically went like this:

haha lol i'd be fun if sqq got real mad at the state of education

what would need to happen in this fic that doesn't happen in canon to motivate him to do something about it

oh shit he didn't unlock OOC so he has to figure out how to be his coddling indulgent self (which he's in denial about) while also being shen jiu

But the thing that really made the story get so much bigger in scope was when I was reading a fic with yqy coming clean to sj, and sj being like, "GASP. I forgive you." And I was "I simply do not believe that this is how it would happen." And I would have moved on with my life, but then I thought, "but like how would it happen." And more importantly, how could this conversation happen within the canon timeline but still involve Shen Jiu, the person this information affects.

The OOC idea and the need for Shen Jiu to be present in this fight scene came together to be like "what if sqq got sj's memories so he could rules-lawyer his characterization more accurately, and ends up being furious on sj's behalf?"

(This, btw, is why I knew I had to get much fonder of YQY and get a much better understanding of his character. When a pillar of your fic idea is a character getting ripped into for his choices, it is sooooooo easy to for it to come off as the author yelling their personal opinions or for it to be completely flat character bashing. Neither are interesting to read or write! Hence the crash-course in YQY appreciation, so now he gets his own emotional arc too. Everyone gets a goddamn plotline.)

Meanwhile I was also thinking about the implications of downloading another person's life into your head. If you have their memories and their body, are you them? What makes you not them? I didn't know! I sort of just kept writing and posting with the assumption that I'd figure something out, which I've finally nailed down btw. That's a relief! Also kinda the fun of WIPs where you're building the railroad track as you're on the train. I end up fanficing my own fanfic. Once stuff is posted, that's the canon, and I look at it and think, "if this was a book I was reading, what is the way I would extrapolate what's there to make a new but coherent story?"

That's why my outline becomes pretty useless after a while. The big picture doesn't change too much--I know roughly where all the major characters are going to be emotionally by the end of the story--but I discover the path I'm going to take there. Which usually means adding stuff. Liu Qingge wasn't going to get a POV, and now every chapter I'm like "fuck am I building a throuple". Ming Fan will have waaaay more a story line than I originally conceived. Early on, I was like "eh I'm not going to go too far into the brothel stuff," and can you guess what is going to be coming up prominently in the next few chapters? God help me.

Actually, there's only one major part of the outline that I cut: Shang Qinghua. He was originally very prominent early on, but turns out having the literal Word of God in a story about slowly discovering backstory is difficult to reconcile. So sadly, he doesn't get a real role. If you're curious, the original plan for him was that SQQ would realize he's a transmigrator much earlier in the canon, but the System would be like [shen jiu would not tell shang qinghua he is a transmigrator. ooc] which would lead to this series of SQQ trying to figure out how he can communicate around this. SQQ at a peak meeting being like, "do you think these DEMONS are PROUD of having made their WAY to us IMMORTALS?" while SQH is like, "AM I HAVING A STROKE?"

What's some other stuff about this fic? I've got a lot of thoughts bottled up, in part because I'm kinda snobby tbh in how I post. I'm like "*pushes glasses up my nose* the author's takes on the story should not be unavoidably present when reading the text" so I don't like to use ao3's author's notes. It's ridiculous and not a standard I hold anyone else too, but whenever I find myself wanting to address something in the notes, I know I must feel insecure about that part of the story. So either fix it or don't draw attention to it. But this is fine, you have to come here for this. This is DVD commentary.

My favorite part of writing this fic has been balancing Shen Jiu's character. As I'm fleshing out his sad backstory, I've been wary of essentially woobifying him. Reducing him to just someone who greatly suffered is so boring and flat. He NEEDS to suck. Or more accurately, he needs to be a very imperfect victim. Exasperating at his mildest, despicable at his worst. (Truthfully, I do think I can and should make him worse. Luckily this story is nothing but flashbacks to him at his worst so there's plenty of opportunities.)

This whole mental breakdown section has been an interesting balancing act because it's explicitly about how bad Shen Jiu's life was and now how bad Shen Qingqiu's is. It's the point at which I had to decide how torturous his time at the Qiu manor had been (me and Shen Qingqiu really discovered that together). On a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being the absolute worst saddest brutalist ideas I had for this era in his life, I'd say I settled on about a 7. Most of it is backstage in my head, but once I locked that down, I could start figuring out how much was bleeding through.

Anyway, it's been fun writing the angstfest of the last few chapters, but oh my god am I ready for a tone shift. There's usually jokes in my works, even the saddest bits, but jokes relieve tension which is the opposite of what I was going for. I didn't want any humor in the YQY conversation, then you have to keep not joking for a while to get the point across. There's still a lot of planned emotional shit, but I'm happy to not be wallowing for a while.

AND GOD AS MY WITNESS THIS STORY WILL NOT BE LONGER THAN 20 CHAPTERS. MAYBE IT'LL EVEN BE LESS!! IT IS DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO BE A WHOLE CANON REWRITE. PROBABLY!! IF TIANLANG JUN HAS ANY SIGNIFICANT SCREEN TIME, PLEASE KNOW THAT I HAVE FAILED.

[kyri45]

Hoi there!

You are so talented and creative. I love your art so much, the style is adorable ^^

I do have a few questions, as one creator to another. I don't post at the moment, but I do love making art, especially for my fanfic/original projects.

Can you tell me how you do it? Like how can you stay motivated and be able to post almost every day?

Any tips maybe on how to deal with artblocks and burnouts?

How do you pratice certain art styles and be able to do them accurately?

1. It’s because I really really REALLY like what I’m drawing right now. (gay monkies). Plus I have- an endgame lets say. I have a clear ending for my comics and reaching that point is what keeps me going, but I also ONLY draw what I want to draw, not EVERYTHING that needs to be shown for the endgame. This actually helped me go throught my ISAT AU comic.

It’s like- narrating a roadtrip. The ending is your destination, you can’t wait to arrive there, but first you know there’s a long road ahead. But you don’t actually need to describe/draw every single town / city / landscape to go there. Not every single kilometer of a roadtrip is a mouth-dropping view.

That’s why you can just-skip it. Stay 4 chapter at one diner if you like the set, focus a chapter on the protagonists looking at the stars, start a scene somewhere completely different, completely skip 30% of the road. As long as you can imply with details what was in between, you don’t need to show/write it in details if you feel it would be hard to make interesting, or just not your thing.

Also if you start to grow an audience and people ask you to draw/write certain things that you don’t feel like to, or just feel like they are extras, don’t do it.

Not because you can’t, but the MOMENT something that you create starts to feel like you are doing it for the audience, then you are not actually doing something yours, and from then on it’s gonna be harder and harder to do things. Like, I have hundreds of fanarts that I did on my IG that were mostly directed to my audience, and not something that I just did because of fun.

All of this is also- answering to your second question - for not burning out. All of this is for keeping your passion up. I’m not talking about mental or physical energy. You could be dead tired (like I am many times) but still be fueled do draw for hours. Because you’re drawing only exactly what you want.

It took me 4 years to understand. I used to do this in high school. Draw something just for the hell of it. It was harder back then, because drawing was hard. I arrived to a point where drawing is much easier (also cause I draw almost everyday for 6/8 hours.) and after I was healed from my broken arm this july, it became my drug. I understood I can’t live without drawing what’s in my head, and that (unless it’s specifically for work) I don’t wanna draw something that’s not only what I want.

I want you to arrive to the point that your drawings / fanfictions are so much exactly what you envisioned /wanted that you fangirl about them. That you read/watch them and squeak in delight. Because even if no one likes them, you must be crazy about them.

(I’ll make a post about this in the future, because it literally changed how I draw after years and it brought back my passion for art after 10 years, but rn it’s a little late and I wanna draw my LMK au so I’ll stop now)

3. I keep some reference to look at every now and then. I also draw a L O T. ( a ton shit of things that I draw are not posted anywhere bc of work)

[kaledya]

HIIIII @marquisev first of all I'm so sorry for the late return!

And how are you? I hope you are well! And I heard that school is back in session and if you are still studying I wish you a good school year!

The Prince and the Spy

This episode was simply amazing I loved the way Serenity and Constantine's relationship was written Even I don't think I could write them that accurately Your description of the scenes and the writing of the dialogues are excellent. Also the description in the episode was very nice. And  Serenity's interpretation of the overlord meeting from her perspective, where she expressed her opinions about Alastor and how she found it strange that his act had changed so much, was also very well written.And I was really glad that we got a little glimpse of Hürrem.In one word it was great

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Assistant and detective

YIPPE MORE HÜRREM AAAA!!!!

Hurrem's dialogues are really fun to read.I've already warmed up to his personality.Hürrem has self-confidence and wants to achieve the glory that lies before her.Even though she is a little nervous on this path, she is someone who does not let herself be crushed and chooses her words well in a conversation.

I really liked the writing of the dialogues.And my god, you really write and describe Constantine wonderfully, every move and every speech is written wonderfully, it's just perfect!!He has an extremely calm demeanor, speaks with care and never tries to crush Hürrem, he shows her kindness and respect.

The part where Hurrem wanders around hell looking for the meeting point was nice, and her little dialogue with Gio already gives a nice preview of their dynamic!

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It's really fun to read about Gio and Hurrem's relationship, they have a really great dynamic.I really liked the jokes in between, it makes the reader warm up to the characters quickly.its like A spin-off series like Helluva Boss , although the main series is more story-oriented, here we get to know Hell much better thanks to the characters.Seriously great write up

And I think that the duties of the two are well explained in the chapter and Hurrem's situation as Goetia is also well touched upon.You captured that serious and playful vibe perfectly.And I really liked Gio's inner thoughts too.In general, the way you wrote him is great. The Judy and Nick vibe between Hurrem is very nice!!

*It's so cute how Hürrem makes parrot sounds when 

she gets angry!

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Popcorn

My eyes are blessed, Maid Verdelet is so beautiful

And congratulations on 200 kudos!!! Honestly you deserve so much more!!

And I don't know exactly what kudos is too, but I think it's something like ‘ like’, which means "thanks for writing this fanfic.”

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And yes, the introduction of Baxter! It was really fun to watch that little animatic. I'm really curious about the impact Baxter will have on the story.

I think the interactions between Baxter and Lolica would be really interesting and I think they could be friends. Lolicia could be one of the people Baxter talks to the most at the hotel.

LOLICIA'S NEW OUTFIT OMG IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL!!!YOU SERIOUSLY DESIGN GREAT CLOTHES.LOLICIA'S NEW HAIR STYLE IS GREAT TOO SERIOUSLY READY FOR BATTLE!

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Before battle

The scene at the beginning of the episode where Alator was hallucinating was really nice. I think it added a great air of mystery to the episode, and as always, it was great to read Alastor's inner thoughts.I find the details you put in your dream really clever. It's nice to see such small details for both the future of the story and Alastor's own story.

I really like the way you portray Charlie, her interactions with Alastor are so beautiful to read.And I liked that she talked about the hotel's condition, so we can learn what the hotel is currently like.

The detail of Alastor not liking Precious really made me laugh.

Alastor's interpretation of Charlie's movements was really nice, and the dialogue that Charlie talked about caught my attention.

‘’I can understand that! she laughed heartily. I made mistakes for a long time and a lot of people don't want to see me again either’’

Charlie??

YAAY the part where Alastor remembered Serenity's memory was so cute!!

Alastor's advice to Charlie was also great!

The part where Alastor discusses his strategy with himself and thinks about his enemies and allies was really good.

I can't wait to see Charlie's reaction to him after this little massacre he's about to commit.

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IS IT AN EPISODE FROM LOLICAN'S MEMORY??? WHAT IS HAPPENING???There were too many details, too many descriptions in that memory section?? That part was really well written.Who and what is coming for her!???

There are so many questions, I can't wait for this scene to be illuminated in the future!

First of all, it was great to read Alastor and Lolicia's conversation and planning as always. You really write their relationship wonderfully. 

And is Vittorio okay?? Please don't let anything happen to the little guy, there's no need to cause emotional damage to Lolica like this….

And yipppe they're finally heading towards the forest I'm already so excited for the chaos those two will cause.

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I'M SERIOUSLY GLAD YOU LIKE THE DRAWINGS!!❤️❤️

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Chapter 77 Fairy Ointment

It was really nice to get to know Lysander in this episode, I liked the parts about his childhood or the little fairy ointment story. And again, it was great to learn about Lysander's personality traits, his likes and dislikes, and to see his perspective on hell.The episode had a slightly mysterious and really nice atmosphere, the descriptions were good as always, I can picture all the scenes.

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Chapter 78 nettle breeze

The action scenes in the episode are very clever, even though Lys is the weak than the two in the book he know How to use forest for himself, and I think it's very nice that poison and mushrooms come to the fore in the war.I really think the war scenes are  well described, it's really fun to read.The internal dialogues between Lolicia and Alastor as they interpret the events are also really nice.And despite Alastor killing sinners, they’re resurrected again and again.And the mushroom effect on them reminds me of Last of Us

 I Imagine the sinners turning into more mushroom zombies every time they die.It was a really good episode, action-wise.

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Pt2

OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING???????First of all, I am amazed by the general culture you have with each episode. I did not know that nettle had such an important place in Scandinavian mythology.And everything is so detailed, from the type of tree Leiv died on to the meaning of the braids he knitted for fishing. Just wow I seriously learn new things in every episode thanks to you.

And DRAMA AND PAIN I NEVER THOUGHT THAT LEIV AND LOLICA WERE HUSBAND AND WIFE WHAT????

And the scene where Lolicia finally recognizes Leiv and reveals her identity was so beautiful and the way s Leiv shed tears was SO BEAUTIFUL

I really liked the dialogues Lolicia used there 'You called yourself my guardian  but you died before me’

And for God's sake how did Leiv make enemies that they impaled him on a tree with a sword????

Also in the previous episodes Lolica was being chased by someone, what's going on?And why did they both go to hell, what did they do?

Overall, I really liked the emotional atmosphere of the episode. I think you did a great job of introducing the connection between Leiv and Lolicia.Seriously lolicia's confrontation with Leiv was so sweet

Yeeey finally Alastor's shadow brought news!!

WAIT WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S BROKEN, NO!!!???

And the water rising in the last scene AAAA I'M SO EXCITED

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Popcorn: I think Leiv's design is simply amazing and very creative, he really has a great design.And it was really cool to read the details about the design!

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chapter 81 The bear,Gold &heir saga 

YAAAY YOUNG  LEIV AND LOLICA 

This episode's atmosphere was very nice, it reminded me of old folklore animations.The animations and storytelling are made by the studio that made Wolfwalkers.

I really warmed up to Leiv as a character. Even though he made the people under him work like slaves, his interactions with Lolicia were really fun to read. It was sweet to see Leiv get embarrassed or excited in front of her. 

AND this episode left me with a lot of questions about Lolica having the Snow White passive 

And ‘'and the girl with the amber eyes and golden halo’’

Facts like the color of Lolicia's hair, the fact that animals don't attack her, and the fact that she came all the way from New Orleans without a boat make the event really interesting.

So was Lolica an Saint l before and then she fell? Or was she in New Orleans when she died or was she never human?What's going on right now?

The song between Lolicia and Leiv was really beautifully written lyrically, I really liked the song

And it makes a lot more sense why Leiv referred to Lolicia as an angel.

Seriously, I have so many questions in my mind and thanks to your writing style , I look at every detail again and everything can be related to the story.

The episode was great for both getting to know Leiv better and learning more about Lolicia!!

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Popcorn

DAMN LEIV IS HANDSOME Seriously your design talent is amazing Leiv's design is really beautiful And it was so much fun reading the information you wrote about him.

I think you have really great drawing skills. 

THE SKETCH YOU MADE IS SO GOOD!!! IT WAS GREAT TO SEE THE HUMAN LOLICIA AND LEIV'S JUMPS ON HIS WIFE'S LAP AND SEEKS CONsolation IS SO CUTE TOO

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Chapter 83 The calving of glaciers

THIS EPISODE WAS SO AWESOME

I love everything about this episode so much

First of all, I've said this a few times, but I love the way you write Charlie,  she stands her ground and also worries about her friends and tries to protect those around her.But she also knows that she can show her power to take control of the situation if she wants to.

Charlie talking to Husk about Angel was really nice, I really liked the dialogue between them.And I love The way you write Husk, as the depressed old but wise bartender, even though he's had too much to drink, sometimes he gives the best advice.

The scene where Charlie notices the water on the ground and tries to call Vaggie but her voice doesn't come out was really nice.

And Constantine's warning to Charlie was really very logical, as a reader I said, okay, something must be going very wrong.

And I think the warning system is really creative and logical!

I really liked the confrontation between Charlie and Alastor. Charlie not giving in or retreating despite Alastor's objections really suited her character.

In general, I liked the episode very much. The descriptions are good, it is a preparation for the other episodes, the general atmosphere of tension and mystery is very good.

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Episode 84 The Calving of Glaciers

HOW CAN YOU INCREASE THE QUALITY SO MUCH IN EVERY EP?

I don't know where to begin praising this episode.

Lolicia's reactions to the events were SO good Fitzroy's betrayal was really effective in the story, and Lolicia being cornered for Vittorio  really increased the tension in the story.

I really loved the dialogue between Fitzroy and Lolica, there was great tension and I really wondered what Lolicia's next move would be.

VITTORIO DID NOT DESERVE THIS. HE WAS ONLY PROTECTING HIS FRIEND. DISHONORABLE FITZROY I HOPE LOLICA BEAT HIS ASS

Also, the scene where Fitzroy throws Vittorio's severed arm in front of Lolicia is very impressive.Also Fitzroy's purpose in entering the Maze actually made sense and Lolicia remembered Serenity's words where it was really nice.

LOLICIA'S DEVIL FORM????? A VERY HIGH-QUALITY ACTION IS COMING, BABY!!!!

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I really liked how Charlie was so worried about Lolicia and it makes perfect sense that Alastor was trying to hold her back 'believe me my Dear , as someone who has experienced it, I advise you not to do this’

IT'S SO COOL THAT LOLICAN'S SONG IS A VERSION OF GET IN THE WATER AND I LOVED THE LYRICS YOU WROTE

Every stage Lolicia goes to her demon form is so cool, you described it perfectly

NOOO LOLICIA HAS TRAPPED THEM IN A BUBBLE OF SILENCE CHARLIE DO SOMETHING GIRL!!…Your friend  losing her control a bit…But of course, as a reader, I wouldn't say no to cool scenes and I'm very excited right now.

I really liked Charlie asking if Alastor was manipulating Lolicia. The fact that She made a move with the information she had and questioned Alastor was really nice.

And I really love how you added Precious to Charlie's scenes, it's a nice reminder that she's there too.

It was nice that Alastor laughed and rejected the question 'who am I to manipulate her’

And Constantine gives another warning message 

things are getting worse.’

YAAAAAAY DRAMA AND ACTION

And Alastor says he's seen Lolicia like this before YIPPE FLASHBACK IS COMING!!

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Chapter 85

YEEEY FLASHBACK I think Alastor made the mistake of his life by going after Lolicia, but we'll see.

I can understand Alastor's questions, why is Lolicia so powerful if she's not doing the things the Overlords do to gain power?

AWWW Alastor remembers him trying to comfort Serenity because of her fear of the dark.

The scene where Lolicia appears from the darkness is so cool!

+I liked her dress

The indifference and ego that Alastor showed before he was defeated by Lolica was really funny I mean, with all this arrogance, it's a great chance not to lose to anyone today, you know what they say, radio demon, arrogance and pride are the things that blind a person the most.

Did he grab her chin? Alastor seriously where is the gentlemanliness in war? Tch tch tch

Okay, I loved Lolicia's cold and professional attitude in this war, it was very cool.It was also very good that she said 'you are too weak' to him specially when she had all the cards.

The poetic words that Lolicia said were really beautiful, I thought they were all very meaningful.

The last 3 warnings Lolicia gave to Alastor were really cool. In general, I really liked Lolicia's attitude in the episode. It was very fun to read.

She acts very noble and mysterious and You are very good at describing the environment and characters.

Then, the part where Alastor walks around injured and questions his actions and mistakes is really good.Then, in the part where Zestial comes to Alastor and gives a speech,It's always nice to read Alastor and Zestial's dialogues.And at the end of the episode it was nice to finally have an alastor who had suffered losses and probably learned from his mistakes.Because if he hides that ego, he won't be able to stay there for a long time.

In general, I really liked everything in this episode, the character dialogues, Lolicia's writing, Alastor's writing, the events, everything.

10/10

and I have gifts for you!!! and first of all I think you are a very good designer I really think your outfit designs and character designs are great please don't stop drawing you have a really great talent!

fanfic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/55936840/chapters/142045639

[yoonia]

🖋️ I just finished Blooming Wallflowers and felt so sad that it ended so soon! Can we have a snippet of what happens after? are they going to continue seeing each other? will OC's daughter get to be closer to Mista Joonie? 🥺🥺 I want to see them hang out again in a less stressful time (because poor OC always stressing!). it would be cute to have Joon helping her out with the girls again. he can finally have a taste of OC's homecooked meal and she gets to make him dinner for once. that'll be sweet. I just love the concept of home date night 🥺

💌 for my love letter, I just want to say happy belated birthday 🥳 I've been following you for a long time. even if I'm no longer around much on Tumblr, I still come back from time to time and wonder what you'll be sharing this time. It's always exciting to find out that you post something new. your stories always feel so comforting, even when they are the most heart-wrenching angst ever! Your blog and your presence have always felt so positive too. just like how you are creating this lovely event 🥺 I think that's the reason why I still stick around no matter how much negativity has grown on Tumblr, because I know there's at least one writer here who still spreads positivity and exudes a comforting aura just by being here (and that's you!)

I love how you touch on real life issues and how you present them in your stories. even in the short ones, we get to feel the character growing through your fic and it feels really fulfilling to experience it 💜

For Blooming Wallflowers, I loved how you wrote the characters. even the daughters. often fanfics aren't so accurate when it comes to writing children (how they speak, behave, etc) yet you always make these characters feel so real, and I love that 💜🥺

Thank you for sharing your talent with us. I hope you have a wonderful birthday 🎂

Thank you so much for reading Blooming Wallflowers! I'm glad you enjoyed the story and are loving the characters. Your idea made me think of cute moments between Joon, OC, and the girls, but as always, my mind think otherwise the moment I began writing the ficlet haha. Anyway, enjoy your moodboard and this "little" snippet, love!

— title: Dinner with Mista Joonie | pairings: Namjoon x female reader| genre: firefighter!Namjoon, single mom!reader, mature, friends with benefits!au | word count: 1,150 words — summary | Namjoon comes to join you and the girls for dinner.  — ratings & warnings | +18 / M for mature; allusion of a one-night stand, memories of hooking up, sexual tension, implied smut scene: public sex, kitchen sex, morning after sex, food play, implied oral sex. 

— original: Blooming Wallflowers by @yoonia — fic drop date: Oct 28th, 2024 — song companion: sleepless

“You should’ve let me help.” 

His deep voice draws a smile to your face, yet you make no move to turn around. Not even when you can feel him approaching you from behind. 

“You’re doing enough to help already,” you answer him as you rinse the last of the dinner plates under the running water. A large hand takes the plates out of your hand right as you are about to slip them into the dishwasher, taking over your work. 

“I don’t see how I’m helping,” Namjoon says as he continues setting the dishwasher to do its work so you can get to rest. 

You wipe your hands dry using the kitchen towel before handing it to him. “For one, you took my distractions away from me,” you answer with a whisper, nodding towards the living room where your girls are busy flipping between their assortments of storybooks. “What did you tell them so you could escape?” 

Namjoon grins. “Hana asked me to read them a story before leaving. I told them to pick a book each that I could read for them.” 

Shaking your head, you let out a soft chuckle. “You shouldn’t fall for their puppy eyes. You were only invited to join dinner, not to babysit the girls.” 

“It’s well deserved. They’ve been so proud about helping their Mom prepare the delightful dinner tonight,” Namjoon says, shrugging. He moves to rest his hips against the kitchen counter and crosses his arms over his chest, drawing your eyes towards his toned muscles, his t-shirt straining over them, and a flutter rising in your chest. “Thank you for inviting me, by the way.” 

The damn flutter goes wild when he says this with a smile. A dimple appears. Your skin grows warm. “It was a pleasure. I’m just honouring a promise I made to you.” 

It truly was. Ever since the night at the supermarket, you have wanted to cook for him. Imagining him eating TV dinner after working to save people’s lives—or pets, maybe?—makes you feel bad.

But seeing him tonight at dinner was a whole other matter.

You had expected it to be awkward. A single man sitting with a single mother and her two kids shouldn’t have seemed so normal. And yet, he blended in so nicely at the table. He even didn’t blink an eye every time any of the girls left vying for his attention. From bragging about their roles in helping you set up dinner, to showing off their artwork from today’s class. Even Suzy came out of her shell and chatted with Namjoon, asking him about his job and if firefighters really do get called to take kittens down from trees. 

“Well, I’m honouring the meal I received tonight. Step one is pleasing the princesses over there with good storytelling.” 

Shaking your head, you turn back to the kitchen sink to wipe down the mess. “I swear you’re too good at this.” 

Namjoon comes to you with a deep chuckle, surprising you when he wraps his arms around you from behind. 

“What are you doing?” you hiss at him while looking over his shoulder, afraid that your girls would catch their special guest hugging their mother. 

“They’re still busy, don’t worry,” he whispers to your ear, deep voice vibrating from his throat, and those harmless flutters travel down south, settling right between your legs. 

“Since you said that I’ve done good—” he whispers, his lips brushing at your skin. “Does that mean you’ll finally agree to go on a date with me? I told you, I’m okay if we’re out on a weekday. I’m not always on night shift, and might be working on the weekend anyway.” 

You swallow down your words and the tightness in your chest. You promised yourself that the night you spent with him on your bed would be the only time. With so many things going on in your life, this would be the wrong time for you to start anything. Not even with the first hot guy who managed to catch your eye. 

But Namjoon has been insistent. Exchanging numbers had given him the chance to text and call regularly, from catching up with your day, to flirting, and often ends with him asking for a date, or a quick hook-up, a quick repeat of your first night. Yet you have been resilient so far in refusing him.

Some part of you have been expecting that he would eventually give up and move on. Another part of you has always known that you will regret everything if you ever let it happen. While the rest keeps reminding you that he doesn’t deserve to be pulled into your mess, even if you really, really like him. 

Feigning your disinterest seems to be futile. But then again, immediately continuing your hookup the next morning after you first brought him to your bed during the morning after breakfast might have sent a different message. Because having him finally have a taste of you on the kitchen counter that morning, with him lathering maple syrup on your bare breasts to lick off of your skin instead of pouring them on his pancake, was not the right way to show each other that there was no passion between you once the alcohol wore off. 

But, maybe, just maybe, you have always known what that would do to a man who is so persistent in his chase like Namjoon does. 

“Will this Wednesday be good?” you find yourself asking once the fight leaves your body. “I’ll be off work early and it’s my Mom’s day to bring the girls to her shop.” 

It’s too easy to give in, after all. And you are surprised to find how quickly the weight is lifted from your shoulders once you stop denying your feelings. 

You can feel his smile on your skin as he presses a kiss on the side of your neck. A promise. It draws a shudder through your body when you are reminded of what those lips on your skin did to you last time. “That’s my day off. So it’s perfect.” 

You open your mouth, ready to turn to face him, when Hana’s voice calls out, 

“Mista Joonie!” she yells from the living room, and both of you are quick to separate, right as your little girl comes barrelling into the kitchen with her books. “I found my book!” 

Chuckling softly, Namjoon steals a quick peck on your cheek before stepping away. “Duty calls,” he says with a wink, and off he goes to follow Hana back to the living room. 

You watch their receding back as they leave you in the kitchen, smiling to yourself as you watch Namjoon listening with rapt attention as your youngest blabber on about her favourite book and how her sister had chosen something just as good for them to read together.  

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Anonymous asked: I have a few questions as an aspiring writer and a current fanfic writer who publishes.

Okay! But if you write fan-fiction, you're already a writer! I'm guessing you mean an aspiring author? ♥

How would you help with distractions and writer's block? I try to dedicate myself to writing, but then I wander off to other stuff and my motivation wanes.

This is not uncommon and there can be a lot of different reasons for why it happens. Understanding the reason behind why it's happening is important for knowing how to fix it. I have a couple posts that will help with this:

5 Reasons You Lost Interest in Your WIP, Plus Fixes! Feeling Unmotivated with WIP Writer’s Block

How do you advise me outlining a huge original story plot with world-building in an organized way that isn't just scattered?

Outlining is really just any method that helps you get all the important pieces of the story out, in order, so that you can use it as a reference while writing. Some people use one big beginning to end summary. Some people like scene lists or timelines. Other people like scene cards or mind maps... Different things work for different people, so part of the work you need to do as a writer is figure out which method/methods work best for you.

I often find, though, that the struggle people have with outlining is less about what method to use and more about how to actually fill out the details, which brings me around to plot and story structure. All stories have structure. Fan-fiction is often short, character-driven fiction, which gives it a different structure from the average novel. That said, even if you're a prolific fan-fiction writer, you may still need to take some time to learn about plot and story structure. I'll link a few posts that will help, but once you understand story structure (all the specific plot points a story should go through), it becomes much easier to know how to outline it.

Guide: How to Outline a Plot Guide: Starting a New (Long Fiction) Story Basic Story Structure Beginning a New Story How to Move a Story Forward Plot Driven vs Character Driven Stories Understanding Goals and Conflict

What advice would you give for writing fictional religions and mythology?

First and foremost, it's important to understand the role religion and mythology play in your story... how do they feed into your characters' beliefs? How do they influence your characters' actions and behavior? How do they guide the forces of power in your story's world? How do they impact the story's conflict/s and plot? Ultimately, you don't want to put a lot of time into creating and fleshing out a religion or mythology that's ultimately unimportant to the story. It helps to focus most on the aspects that truly matter.

Also, you might consider using real world mythology and religions as inspiration... just be careful about cultural appropriation. It's best not to use anything that belongs to an active culture or religion unless it's yours, or unless you do intense research and consult with sensitivity readers to make sure you don't do anything harmful.

And lastly, what sources do you recommend to accurately describe buildings (especially castles and manors) battlefields, geographical locations especially when it comes to mountains and rivers, etc), dresses and clothing especially if it isn't modern, and fighting techniques that are believable (for example, how a smaller woman would fight a larger man without being unrealistic)?

1 - Find Inspiration Sources - No matter when and where your story is set, it's important to find inspiration sources for the places in your story, whether that's buildings, towns, regions, whatever. Not only will this help you imagine and describe what you're envisioning, it will help you immensely with research on specific details.

2 - Time and Place Are Important - Many descriptive details are specific to time and place, so make sure you know that about your inspiration sources and/or the elements in your story. You can do a Google search for layout, architecture, and design (along with relevant location and era information) to find the details you need. For example, "medieval European castle layout" or "Victorian era manor house architectural details." Likewise, you can look for "Tudor era menswear" or "Victorian era dress details."

3 - Fighting Techniques - This again will tie into the time and place when your story is set. However, some fighting techniques will be somewhat timeless. I would strongly suggest heading over to @howtofightwrite for the best information and resources about portraying fighting techniques in writing.

Happy writing!

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Big thanks to @olnfsecretsanta2024 and @olnfsecretelf for organizing this super fun event

A/n: sorry for the late ass post I was so busy today and with all the different time zones I got lost and forgot pls forgive me 😵‍💫. I hope I portrayed the two characters accurately and I apologize if it seems OOC! Thank you to both my guitarist friends who helped a lot with guitar scenes. A specific thank you to the friend who came up with the lyrics and melody used for the fanfic, instead of doing their essay (appreciate your sacrifice🫡) . Biggest thank you to @justhallu for being with me the entire time in the process, creating the drawing for the cover image, and spam calling me when I forgot to post this 💀 I really appreciate you 🫶🏾. OKAY IVE YAPPED ENOUGH! PLEASE ENJOY “Caught On Camera” BY YOURS TRULY ͙͘͡★

Step two Luca Montoya x Qiu Lin!

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8/26/14 17:26 battery: full

“Shit, why isn’t it staying upright?” a voice exclaimed while fidgeting with the lens. As the camera finally became steady, the frame before it came into focus.

Luca was sitting with one leg close to his chest and the other stretched out in front of his grey comforter placed on his bed. He was wearing a black button-up shirt with a long-sleeved white shirt underneath. His jeans were dark navy, acid-washed, paired with a worn pair of red Converse shoes.

“I’m going to write a song today!” he exclaimed while running his hands through his dark charcoal hair.

“I’m not quite sure how exactly this is going to go. I just kinda of woke up and decided I was going to do this. Also, why not film the whole process as well?” Luca said, reaching out toward the camera as a way to explain its presence.

“It’s kind of just like writing a poem? I’ve already written down some common topics most songs are about,” Luca explained while holding up a notebook with his chicken-scratch handwriting on it. “It doesn’t need to rhyme or anything, it just needs to have some sort of rhythm.”

“I think I’ll start with the chords to find that rhythm, and once I get something I like…I’ll then come up with some lyrics to go with it, you know?” he muttered while looking down at the notebook once more before settling it down and reaching for his black Squier guitar.

As Luca strums the guitar, finding the right chords, the sun follows along. Before he realizes it, two hours have passed of finger-picking, jotting down chords, and talking to the camera when he remembers.

“Okay,” Luca groans out with a stretch. “I think I’ve come up with a progression.” He places the guitar on his left leg, tilted upwards toward him, and leans his head down.

Luca places his pointer finger on the first fret of the B string, his middle finger on the second fret of D, and his ring finger on the second fret of the G string. He switches between the chords: C, Em, G, repeating it several times before coming to an end.

He looks up at the camera and gives a full smile, showing his braces. “It’s, uh, really simple, but it’s something! I also tried coming up with lyrics, but…I couldn't come up with anything.” He tilts his head, reaching for the back of his neck, giving the camera a bashful smile.

“But I can come up with lyrics another day, and I’m tired—“ Luca’s eyes abruptly widen. “Oh shit, my History assignment is due tomorrow! I’ve got to finish it!”

In one swift movement, Luca reaches out for the camera, and suddenly, things go black.

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8/29/14 13:48 battery: half

“Why are you recording?” A muffled voice asks. Before the camera is someone whose face is unable to be seen due its angle. Leaning back on the couch, the person is wearing white spotted sweater with black jeans.

“Cause,” Luca’s voice starts from behind the camera as he lifts it up, finally giving a clear view of the person’s face. “I can! Is that a good enough reason for you, Qiu?” He laughs out a response.

Qiu looks at Luca with an annoyed face and rolls their dark brown eyes playfully.

“No, it isn’t. Are you going to film the movie we’re going to watch?” Qiu leans forward reaching for something that’s not in frame. “Cause I’m pretty sure that’s illegal to do!” They suddenly flick their hand at the camera, releasing a few pieces of popcorn towards the camera.

“HEY!!” Luca exclaimed, laughing behind the camera as he dodged the makeshift ammo Qiu made, still getting hit by some pieces. “So not cool or fair! I’m holding my camera, I can’t defend myself properly!”

“Yeah? Sounds like a personal problem to me!” Qiu declared, grabbing the bowl with one hand and throwing popcorn with the other.

“STOP! STOP! STOPP!” Luca shrieks out laughing, falling on his back on the couch, causing an earthquake for the camera. “You’re gonna waste all the popcorn! What did the popcorn ever do to you?”

Qiu suddenly comes to halt, hearing Luca’s pleas on behalf of the popcorn. “You’re right. The popcorn's life shouldn’t be wasted on an idiot like you.” They chuckle out while getting back to how they were originally sitting settling the popcorn bucket in their lap.

Luca let out a relieved sigh “Thank god, I thought you were going to empty the bowl onto me.” He leans up slightly, settling the camera on the table fitting both of them in the frame.

Qiu pops a few pieces in their mouth and snickers at his comment. Luca brushes stray pieces of popcorn off of his black sweater, onto his lap and places them back into the bowl.

“Hey, what’s that notebook for?” Qiu asked, using their head to point at the table where the camera was on.

“Hm?” Luca pulls a kennel out of his hair, turning his eyes to where Qiu had pointed towards. “Oh, that’s the notebook I used to write down the chords of the song I’m working on.”

“Song?”

“Yeah! On my guitar I got a few weeks ago? I’m writing a song on it.”

“Oh? How is that going?” They tilt their head.

“I finished the melody. It took me around three hours to do, but I wasn’t able to come up with any lyrics to go with it. So, I’m kinda gonna come up with the lyrics as time goes on, you know?”

“Can I hear what you have so far?”

“Yeah! Let me just get my guitar and clean my hands real quick.”

“M’kay.”

Luca comes back into frame, guitar in hand. He sits on the left of Qiu and props his guitar up on his left leg, adjusting the amp cord.

“Is it hard playing the guitar?” Qiu asked, looking at Luca curiously.

“Mmm,” Luca mumbled, fiddling with the tune heads now. “It’s not necessarily hard, but, like with any instrument, it’s new and unfamiliar. Once you start getting familiar with it the easier it becomes.”

Luca looks up at Qiu’s face with a mischievous look and they return with a wary one. “Here,” he nudged the guitar towards them “Try it!”

Qiu’s curious expression turned into a surprised one.

“What? I don’t even know the first thing about a guitar,” Qiu countered.

“You don’t need to!” He countered, grabbing the bowl from their lap and placing it on the table. “Here,” Luca moved the guitar towards Qiu’s lap. “Cross your legs and hold it.”

Following Luca’s words, Qiu tenses and crosses their legs and takes hold of the guitar. “Am I even holding this right?” Qiu questions, looking down at the instrument.

“Yeah! Here just put your thumb against the neck of the guitar and you’ve got it.” Luca says while reaching toward Qiu’s thumb and placing it in the right spot.

“Okay,” Qiu says, still looking down at the guitar. what do I do now?”

“You wanna learn the song I came up with?”

“Yeah.” They said, while nodding.

“Okay, move your hand to the very top of the guitar and put your finger on the 5th string.”

“Like this?”

“No, like,” Luca drapes an arm around Qiu, bringing them both closer. He gently places his hand over theirs and moves it to the correct place.

“Like this, and put your middle finger on the third string, ring on fourth, and strum. Yeah, you got it!” He softly cheered, being close to Qiu’s ear.

Qiu smiles and lets out a small hum noise in response. “Okay, what do I do now?”

“Now play a C chord”

“C what?”

“A C chord.” Luca giggled out, “It’s fine! I’ll teach you”

With his hand still on Qiu’s, he places their hand in the right spot. They continue on playing the notes: Am, C, Em, G. Before they come to an end.

“You did it!”

“Yeah, it wasn’t as hard as I thought!” Qiu admits.

“Really?” He inquires.

Luca looks up at the same time as Qiu and their noses brush together. Luca hadn’t realized just how close he was to Qiu, while teaching them the instrument.

“Oh, um,” Luca stutters and stumbles away from Qiu to the far end of the couch.

“Are you-?”

Luca cuts them off “Yeah, yeah, I just, umm,” his hands fleeting for his neck. He can feel his face burning. Qiu’s expression is mixed with worry and confusion. “You wanna watch the movie now?”

“S-sure, I guess?” Qiu awkwardly hands the guitar back to him.

Luca grabs his guitar and reaches for the camera to turn it off.

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8/31/14 13:41 battery: full

“My feet feel like they’re getting amputated,” Luca groans in agony, standing in front of the camera in a place that looks similar to a gym. “And it’s cold!”

“Pfft, if you think this is bad, you should try dancing pointe!” Qiu chimed in, stepping out from behind Luca.

“How am I gonna skate in this?” Luca whined.

“I think the real question is how you’re going to skate holding that camera,” Qiu corrected.

“I’ll find a way!” Luca declared, grabbing the camera off the shelf where it was propped and shakily turning it toward Qiu, who stood perfectly straight, smirking without a problem, with their hands folded. They were wearing a dark navy checkered jacket that hid their small figure and dark jeans. “Like this,” Luca said.

While his words seemed convincing, it wasn’t too convincing to Qiu. Qiu soon took hold of the camera and held it towards the ground, showing off their bright blue ice skates.

“I think it would be better if you sat this one out and filmed later, Bambi,” Qiu teased.

“Yeah, I like that idea,” Luca admitted, letting out a laugh. “Just close it, it’ll turn off.”

“Kay,” Qiu’s voice muffled slightly before everything went black.

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8/31/14 15:21 Battery: Full

It took a second for the camera to adjust to the warm bright lights where it was placed, but soon became clear. The camera was on a table between Luca and Qiu, who were sitting across from each other. The table had two drinks and a single plate with a medium-sized funnel cake on it.

“My legs hurt so bad!” Luca said, dramatically throwing back his head and sliding down into the booth.

“Maybe you shouldn’t have tried to copy my spins,” Qiu snickered, ripping a piece of the funnel cake off.

“You looked so graceful while doing it! You can’t blame me for trying,” he said, looking back down at Qiu.

“I’m not over the face you made when you fell,” Qiu began, trying to stifle their laughter with their hand. “It’s like you saw your life flash before your eyes!” They laughed out, unable to hold it in any longer.

“That’s because it did! I swear there was something wrong with my skates!” Luca attested, laughing.

“Or maybe you’re just ass at skating.” Qiu smirked at him.

Luca dramatically throws his hands on his heart, making a pained expression. “Your words can hurt a person, Qiu.”

“You’re so dramatic.” Qiu rolled their eyes, reaching for another piece of funnel cake.

“Hey! Save some for the rest of us!”

“I haven’t even had a lot!”

“You’ve had several pieces! I’ve only gotten one!” He complained before tearing a chunk out of the funnel cake and eating it.

“Dramatic,” Qiu scoffed at Luca’s antics. Luca only chuckled at Qiu’s reaction to him.

“You have powder all over your face,” Qiu told him, looking back at him.

“What?” Luca wipes his face, trying to get the powder off. “Did I get it off?”

“No, over here,” Qiu said, pointing to the left side of their face.

“Now?”

“No, like here—let me just—” Qiu quickly turns to their bag and grabs the yellow bandana off the strap. As Qiu leans in to wipe Luca’s face, he quickly moves back into the chair with a shocked expression.

“Oh, I’m sorry—”

“Nono—”

“I should’ve asked—”

“I just wasn’t expecting you to,” Luca says, bashfully gesturing to his face.

“I’m sorry,” Qiu mumbled, awkwardly leaning back in the booth.

“No, you’re fine. I—”

“My mom is here.” Qiu cuts him off, sliding out of the booth, grabbing the shared plate and their drink.

“Oh—” Luca quickly looks over at the camera and slides it over to himself before things suddenly go dark.

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9/9/14 16:33 battery: Half

“How haven’t you run out of storage on your camera yet?”

“No clue, and I’m not going to question it!”

In the frame of the camera, Luca and Qiu stood several feet apart in Qiu’s living room. It looked like the items usually in the center of the room had been pushed to the side. On closer inspection, both teens were holding something in their hands.

“Do I have to do this?” Qiu groaned, throwing their head back.

“Switch me controllers; I’m going to be player one!” Luca declared, switching the devices in their hands.

“I guess I don’t have a choice,” Qiu muttered defeatedly, glancing at the now switched controller. They turned their head to look at their best friend. “Why are you so far away?”

“It’s ‘Just Dance’! We have to have room to dance,” Luca answered, not taking his eyes off the TV.

“Yeah, but we don’t need to be this far away. You’re probably not even in the frame anymore.”

Qiu made a good point—the few feet they were originally apart had turned into several, and Luca was mere inches away from being out of the camera’s sight.

“I’m still in frame,” Luca replied, sparing a quick glance toward the camera before looking back at the TV. “What song do you wanna do?”

“It doesn’t matter. I’ll still beat you,” Qiu said smugly, placing their hands on their hips.

“Yeah, right. This time you’re not winning!”

“Didn’t you say that the last two times we played?”

“I let you win those times!” Luca sputtered, looking at them. “This time I’m not going to.”

“Yeah, right. You just can’t accept that I’m a better dancer, Luca,” Qiu teased.

“Really? Just watch—you’re going down today, Qiu,” he declared, facing forward toward the TV. “We’re doing ‘I Kissed a Girl.’ We haven’t done that one yet.”

“Fine by me,” Qiu replied.

With that, Luca pressed start. The fast intro of the song moved along with time and quickly ended as soon as it started.

“What was that about me going down again?” Qiu said, smirking toward Luca.

“It was the first song!” he countered. “Again. Next song, you’re going down.”

And again, and again—another song, another dance. The outcome was always the same: Qiu wins, Luca gives another reason why he lost. It was undeniable that the pair was having fun, dancing to overplayed songs from the previous year. They danced so much that layers of jackets and sweatshirts had to be abandoned to the side as they played into the evening.

“My controller wasn’t registering this time! One more round, I swear I’ll win this time, Qiu,” Luca huffed.

“That’s what you said last time,” Qiu said, pulling their shirt away and back in as a makeshift fan. “We’ve done almost all the songs in the game, and I’m hungry.”

It was clear, even through the frame, that the duo was tired. Qiu was overheated, and Luca was winded. They’d been dancing almost nonstop, taking small breaks between choosing songs. The clock behind them had gone from 16:00 to 18:00 before they realized.

“I swear, it’s the last song! We haven’t done ‘One Thing’ yet! Pleaseeee,” Luca pleaded.

“Fine. One more time,” Qiu gave in, holding up a single finger to emphasize that they were serious. “After that, I’m getting something to eat.”

“Yes!” Luca cheered. “I promise I’ll win this round.”

“Yup, totally,” Qiu agreed, sarcastically rolling their eyes as they tied their hair back with an elastic band.

Luca hit the start on the controller. Both of them got into motion at the same time, giggling nervously as they tried to avoid eye contact while spinning around each other. While Qiu danced with a level of gracefulness, Luca felt his movements were more awkward in comparison. Each time they linked hands or held each other’s waist, it felt fun and overwhelming all at once, like he was drowning in Qiu’s presence. It was different—and somehow similar—to what he’d felt with Tamarack-but that couldn’t be right, could it?

The song came to a dramatic end, snapping Luca out of his thoughts. The ending pose had Luca holding onto Qiu’s shoulder, facing each other, with Qiu’s hand on his arm. When their eyes met, their laughter at themselves couldn’t be contained. They eventually untangled themselves from one another, giving each other a better view of the other. No words were exchanged; they were both in the moment.

While the feeling was thrilling, it was also confounding. Luca had felt something like it before, but… not with someone like Qiu. It was similar to what he felt with Tamarack, but that couldn’t be right, could it?

“I gotta go home!” Luca blurted out.

“What?” Qiu’s smile dropped as they looked confused. “I thought you were staying for dinner tonight?”

“I just remembered I have to do that assignment Mr. Wilson gave us today,” Luca lied.

“He didn’t give us an assignment today,” Qiu said suspiciously.

“I mean, not the one from today,” Luca replied, shaking his head as he tried to sound convincing while walking toward his jacket. “The one from last week! I forgot tomorrow’s the last day to turn it in.”

“Are you just using that as an excuse to leave?”

“No, no! I just, like, remembered I have to do it,” Luca replied, turning to face them.

“You can just tell me if you wanna go home,” Qiu said, folding their arms and looking upset.

“No, I really just need to get the assignment done before he plummets my grade.”

“Fine,” Qiu said, crossing their arms. They weren’t going to make Luca stay if he didn’t want to. Why force him to stay somewhere he clearly didn’t want to be? “You can leave if you want.”

“I’m sorry,” Luca continued walking toward his camera. “I just want to get it done.”

Luca grabbed the camera, flipping it toward the coffee stand it had been resting on near the TV.

“I said it was fine,” Qiu grunted.

Luca’s voice was the last to be heard, a small “okay,” followed by the words “Player one wins” on the TV.

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“Why does this camera never wannato sit up right?” Luca said, exasperated.

Luca was towering over the camera, causing the only thing in view to be his yellow, washed-out button-up. After stabilizing the device, he scooted back, revealing his familiar bedroom. He wore grey jeans and a belt to match his shirt. His guitar was propped up next to him, and he sat in the same spot in front of his bed on the floor, just like he had a few weeks prior.

“I did it, I finished the song,” he said, giving the camera a big toothy grin.

“Well, finished is an overstatement. I’ve only come up with a chorus, but I had nothing before!” he explained, grabbing his black guitar and plugging in the amp cord. “I wrote it late last night. I was having trouble sleeping, and I had nothing better to do. I would have filmed it, but I didn’t want to wake anyone up with the sounds.”

He placed the guitar on his leg to support it. He closed his eyes, put his first three fingers on the strings, and strummed. Though, unlike other times, instead of just the same four chords progressing alone, it was accompanied by lyrics.

‘I'm drowning in your presence, and I'll never get tired.

Dunno about you though,

So I swallow till I choke on the tears that spill,

But I won't let you see,

'Cause I want you to be happy.

I'm the least of your worries.’

He opened his eyes, looked at the camera, and nervously laughed. “The lyrics came naturally to me. Honestly, the reason I was having trouble sleeping last night was because I couldn’t stop thinking about what happened on Tuesday with Qiu. We haven’t spoken much since,” Luca admitted, his face tensed as he looked down. He gripped his guitar tighter and continued.

“I couldn’t stop thinking about the way they looked then and the awkwardness between us now, but the reason I left in such a rush was because I’ve never felt the way I felt with somebody like Qiu.” he breathed out.

“It just confuses me because I’ve only felt this way recently with Qiu, ever since the start of the new school year. I watched back some of my recordings from the start of the year that had Qiu in them over the last few days. When I watched them back, it hit me that the way I felt with Qiu is how I’ve felt with people I’ve had crushes on.” Luca looked at the camera, feeling gutted, finally admitting how he feels. “What does this mean about me, then?” he whispered in a soft voice, barely audible.

“I can’t even tell Qiu how I feel because I’d be risking the entire friendship, and they have bigger problems than me and my dumb feelings,” he loosened his grip on his guitar, looking down.

“The feeling I have with Qiu isn’t bad, but I want things to go back to normal, when things were easier. I’m honestly probably just overthinking my feelings, and in a week, this’ll all blow over,” he rationalized, looking back up at the camera.

“Luca! Time for dinner, come down now!” a loud voice called from off-frame, presumably a parent.

Luca jumped slightly, then looked over his shoulder and called back a response.

“Okay!”

Luca quickly turned back, extending an arm toward the camera.

“I gotta go now!”

With that, the camera’s lens shut.

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9/17/14 17:014 battery: full

The camera lenses fluttered open to reveal a woodland scene. The warm autumn light danced on the trees, and the crunch of the leaves could be heard. With each new step came a new scene to behold.

“Why are you recording?” The camera turned to face the person who spoke. “We’re not at the creek yet.” Qiu came into the frame with a stoic expression, looking towards the camera. They were wearing a dark brown fleece jacket with skinny black jeans.

“Because the best things are filmed unintentionally.” Luca’s response could be heard from behind the camera.

“Right.” Qiu agreed mindlessly, turning to face forward as they walked with their hands in their pockets.

This was going exactly how Luca had worried it would. Both Luca and Qiu had been assigned partners for the joint English and Biology semester final. It consisted of a two-page research essay and a video that had to be at least 5 minutes long, focusing on a specific type of ecosystem of their choosing.

While Luca felt relieved to finally have a reason to spend time with Qiu, he knew another problem would arise. Ever since he had rushed out of Qiu’s house, things had been undeniably tense and dry between them. Although Luca had tried apologizing afterward, Qiu had sort of just brushed him off with a short reply—just like they were doing now. He’d felt terrible knowing how his actions had caused this rift in their relationship, and he didn’t know how to fix it.

Luca, unsure of what to say, continued filming their walk through the forest, with the leaves crackling beneath their feet. Eventually, they arrived at the creek. The creek was a familiar place for them, having visited it a few times when they were 10. It was on an incline, covered with orange and red leaves. Water flowed down the slope, and many rocks covered in moss surrounded the creek.

The two of them had already discussed who would do what part of the final. While they both had to write their own essays, they would be using the same information they gathered together. Qiu was going to make a list of the organisms and gather notes for a food web and chain, while Luca was going to create a timelapse using his camera and take pictures on his phone for the video.

Luca soon found a tree branch to place the camera on for the timelapse. The camera faced the creek as the pair worked together. As more pictures and notes were taken, the tension between them lessened. Although things weren’t perfect, it was more bearable. Slowly, the shade began to take over the creek, and it was getting time to leave.

Qiu walked over to where Luca was, after sitting their bag down near the camera. He was near the left of the creek, toward the incline.

“What are you doing?” Qiu asked, confused.

Luca, who had been standing normally, was now on his tiptoes on some moss-covered rocks, stretching out as if trying to grab something.

“Snail,” Luca croaked out.

“What?”

“I’m trying to, uh, get this snail so I can take a picture of it, and then we can go,” Luca said between grunts, stretching even further.

“You’re going to end up falling into the creek and busting your head like that,” Qiu said, getting a little closer, worried. “Get down; we can also come back and find another snail.”

“I’m not, ugh, gonna fall in. I can almost grab it!” Luca grumbled, determined.

“Fine, but when you fall in, I’m not helping you get out,” Qiu said, putting their hands in their pockets.

“That’s fine with me, ‘cause it won’t happen. I think I touched it—WOAH!”

Luca’s foot slipped on the rock, and he was sent tumbling toward the creek. His quick reflexes kicked in as his hands latched onto the nearest object, pulling himself up from falling. He didn’t realize what he grabbed wasn’t a branch or a stem until he heard a big splash behind him.

“Qiu!” Luca cried, turning to face the creek. “Are you okay?!”

Qiu was soaked head to toe, sitting waist-deep in the creek, still processing what had just happened.

Luca rushed over to Qiu at the creek’s edge, extending a hand to them. Qiu hesitated, looking at Luca’s hand before a glint appeared in their eye. Using both hands, they grabbed Luca’s arm and pulled him down into the creek with them!

“What the hell?!” Luca exclaimed in shock, wiping water from his eyes.

“That’s what you get for pulling me into the creek!” Qiu said, laughing.

“Qiu, this isn’t funny, we’re both soaked now!” Luca tried to sound serious, but he couldn’t help but giggle a little too.

“Yeah,” Qiu said with a mischievous smile. “How about you get even wetter?” Splashing Luca with their arms.

“HEY!” Luca gasped, covering his face with his arms. “Oh, you’re going to regret that!” Using his legs, he created a bigger splash aimed at Qiu.

As they continued splashing and chasing one another in the creek, with the sun setting, Luca couldn’t help but feel that, no matter what happened between him and Qiu, things were going to be alright.

Post A/N: “I’m probably just overthinking my feeling and in a week this’ll all blow over” I say as the drag me to take my medication.

@lov3-from-loserlane I realized when I was half way done with the fanfic that you never explicitly said Luca likes filming only that he likes films which could mean he just likes watching it. I apologize if I misinterpreted what you mean😭 feel free to Dm if you want! There’s so much lore behind this fanfic if you’d like!

[neyafromfrance95]

Many shippers are moving on from haladriel. There is no fanfic or fanart from the second season. We have all given up.

no, not all, anon! sauron will always be writing and drawing that self-insert x galadriel fic even as he floats as an disembodied spirit!

lol, i mean, unfortunately, now we have the third of what we had in s1, fanworks-wise. which is sad bc haladriel has a great fan content potential.

but some big brained people shipped sauron x galadriel even before trop, so i don't see why people would stop shipping after a season of s/g mirroring each other, it being confirmed that galadriel has taboo feelings for sauron and that sauron is obsessed with galadriel and nothing will ever replace her for him.

tbh, this is why i say endless "discourses" and doom & gloom mentality are poisonous to a fandom's longevity. "how can you ship an immoral/dark ship?"' - link them this video essay, or better, remember the essay and don't feel the need to make excuses for yourself, so just ignore the rage baits! "but what about celeborn & celebrian?!" - don't care, period. "it is not lore-accurate!" - we are talking about trop and it's its own thing, period.

they don't kiss or become an official couple? hannigram wasn't freed from a "queerbait" accusations till the very final scene yet we still shipped it. each tried to kill the other, hannibal was an evil incarnate who tormented will, will was married with a kid, hannibal hooked up many times and tried to "replace" will. yet the whole show was about their power play that was er0tic in subtext! the same as it is with haladriel! the whole show is one big haladriel parallel and a metaphor about the light and the dark having an eternal battle and dance!

anyways, if you do ship haladriel and do want fans to create for it, then please interact with the works! hype them up! let's not sustain our fandom on the frustrated screams into the void, but on the common enjoyment of the material that we are given and the potential it has!

[snorlaxlovesme]

my problem recommending Link Click to people

clearly, i love Link Click. i find the show emotionally compelling, the characters are well-written and interesting, the complex/convoluted plot is very crunchy for my adhd brain to chew on. LOVE that. however. i have yet to find a person irl who Sees My Vision when i recommend the show to them, and i think it's the fandom's fault.

not in bad way! but i think this show is a good example of media that exists for FANS and not casual viewers.

season 1 is by far the most accessible. a straightforward story about two guys solving crime by time travelling in photos. don't mess up the past, it could mess up the future, etc etc. everything is linear, the character motivations are pretty clear, the plot is seriously gripping. the only accessibility hurdles are the piss poor subs we had to deal with and the lack of on-screen text translation. and i suppose if you don't like shows that are episode-5-level heavy then this probably isn't the show for you.

season 2 already starts off on a very niche foot with the fact that there was a pretty big spoiler (or a hint at one) in the XETROVERTHINK music video that released before the season aired. fans who knew about that video were already speculating, and by the first 30 seconds of season 2, theories were running RAMPANT. NOW everyone was intentionally looking for hints of time travel mid-season. they were predicting how and when cheng xiaoshi might die. it made an extremely confusing season FUN because even when we didn't know what the hell was going on, we could always fall back on the lu guang timeloop theory to chew on.

but if you didn't see the XETROVERTHINK video? well, you probably weren't paying as close attention to what lu guang was saying in the first 30 seconds. the shot of cheng xiaoshi dying lasted for only a second or two. blink and you miss it. if you didn't rewatch the episode, you probably wouldn't notice. in a show where so many things don't make sense, that could have just been one more to add to the pile.

cut back to all the people that I've forced to watch the show, I can say that they did NOT have the same watching experience that i had as a fun following along on tumblr. which is fine, but they do look at me like i'm insane when i try to explain that this is the most fun show ever created.

after one of my friends finished season 2 i sent him a draft of the fic i was writing for some feedback and when he got to season 2-spoiler specific part, he didn't fully understand that lu guang had gone back in time to prevent cheng xiaoshi from dying, and therefore didn't understand what i had written. he didn't have the fandom, who had been speculating about that for 12 full weeks before the reveal, so as a casual fan, the first time he received that info was in that last 2 minutes of the season, and he didn't full understand it

my younger sister has made it to yingdu, and every time i try to talk to her about it when get to talk about shiguang a lot, but i don't have much time to sit her down and show her frame by frame analyses of why the lu guang vs vein interaction in episode one looks like it might be in two different timelines. she's not seeing that there's morse code in the books or interpreting sonnets or pausing to check the eye color of characters, so when i talk to her about it we're scratching maybe 3% of what the show is truly communicating with us.

and again, it makes me look like a total headcase when i try to explain to people that this is the best show ever and so much fun because if you're not INTERACTING with the show and with the fans, mulling over the minute details in a scene or asking for a more accurate translation of something, it's like you're missing out on most of the show

i once tried to recommend my sister one of my favorite pokemon fanfics of all time. she'd read some others and seemed interested, so i sent her the link and then told her that to fully understand it she'd need to have knowledge of basically every major character in the entire pokemon anime, from kid trainers to gym leaders to Champions to villains to rivals to professors. she'd also have to know how they all relate to each other, PLUS some game characters. i sent her a list of episodes she needed to watch for character and plot relevance and links to wikipedias for other main characters. after she absorbed all this information then she could truly understand why this was the greatest fic ever!!

that's what recommending Link Click is feeling like, currently. like i want you to like this show, i want you to understand this show like i do, but that means you HAVE to be insane about it. there's no other way to appreciate it if you're not in the fandom.

[theoriginalcrossjumper]

so i forgot i can probably like. announce like a normal person that i finally wrote a tau fanfic, huh? on somewhere that isn't just the tau18 server?

wild.

anyway if anyone wants 26k of a transcendence au fic that includes outsider pov of alcor from a perspective we don't often get, gratuitous references to tau mutuals, tons of little sentences and phrasings that i added in specifically because i think i'm hilarious, numerous cameos and references to other tau fics/arcs, a lot of fake legal stuff that sounds accurate if you don't think about it too hard, a sneaky crossover with one of my own original stories that hasn't been written yet, and so many metric tons of worldbuilding that i did behind the scenes that it'll probably force me into writing more in this 'verse: this might be something you can look at!

or not. up to you. have fun!

[trees-be-drawing]

Okay… so I started reading @annzy-bananzys-corner ‘s “Snettles” as I was scrolling through Snufmin fanfics to read on AO3 back in early December, and… holy cow is it good!!!

Not only did the art cover from one of my favorite artists drew me in, but the writing was just 👌✨ GORGEOUS!!

All the characters written had such good chemistry towards each other, and Snorkmaiden ended up being the funniest to me. I couldn’t stop laughing so hard at her trying to be the voice of reason to the two lovable idiots that are Moomin and Snufkin in the early chapters.

So as typical fashion, I felt a great need to draw it. Cuz honestly, long-haired Snufkin was not something I thought was going to make me go feral but hot damn does he look so pretty in long hair!

Okay so…

SPOILERS TO THE FIC!!!

It’s pretty blurry but 1. I don’t have the best camera quality, and 2. It’s a bit faded since it took me a whole month to do this. (Update: I got a clearer picture. Sorry, I was rushing to get this out for a whole month)

But anyway, I had absolute gender envy every time I drew Snufkin with long hair. And there was definitely a lot more I wanted to draw, and felt bad I didn’t draw Little My especially.

I’m actually glad for the cover art too, it acted as a perfect reference to use but unfortunately I’m not very good at drawing Moomin and I’m envious at how @hanekdrawsmoomins draws them! They’re so fluffy and pretty!!

I definitely had to draw Snorkmaiden calling Snufkin a twink. I couldn’t resist. What I didn’t intend was for it to be right next to Snufkin having a breakdown over the overpowering song in his ears 😅 I also decided in order to differentiate Moomin and Snorkmaiden, I gave Snorkmaiden more rounder and fluffier features like her tail and ears. It’s subtle but I was pretty happy with it.

I get giddy every time I drew Moomin and Snufkin, but Snorkmaiden and Alicia needed some love too. I wanted to try some perspective which… I’ll admit I’m not very good at, but I did my best. I normally don’t draw backgrounds but I wanted to give the scenes more character and it was pretty fun, even if it’s not perfect.

I also thought to myself “maybe the reason Moomin didn’t recognize Snufkin was because he’s never seen Snufkin’s hair deflate in the water” so I drew the comparison to Snufkin and “Snettles” for that one scene where Moomin realized how similar they were. I also imagined his hair gets longer in mermaid form.. hehe! :3

I was also very excited to do my interpretation of the Lady of the Sea but I’ll be honest… I did procrastinate on it for a while which is why it took so long. I know the description said “seaweed green hair” and not the fact it’s actual seaweed but… I hope you don’t mind but I gave her seaweed hair. Made of different types of seaweed too :3 I actually want to colour it at some point but if there’s any changes I should do to her design, you can let me know. I’ve loved to get an accurate idea on her :3 I also used the mermaids from the 90’s as reference to give her fins on her head, although Snufkin doesn’t have any but I’d argue it’s cuz he’s only half mermaid.

It’s a very scattered looking comic kind of page but man! There was so many moments that were genuinely so good I felt tempted to even draw a full comic book on this!!

But no… unfortunately I am very easy to lose motivation and I’ve been and will be pretty busy for the majority of my current life cuz of college and stuff so I’m afraid I can’t draw often.

Good thing I’m on break at the moment :3

But anyway, it was super duper fun drawing these!! I’m actually super duper proud of them :3

Actually…. You wanna know how much I loved my sketch of Moomin and Snufkin on their midnight swim?

I COLOURED IT!! GONE BACK TO MY DIGITAL ART ROOTS FOR THIS!!!

Honestly I don’t think I did that great but I did this on iBisPaint, and there was a version where he had brown hair… until I read a section saying he has red hair so I quickly changed it to how it looks currently.

I also realized too late that the scales on his cheeks weren’t actually scales but freckles… which…. You know what? Fuck it. His freckles turn to fish scales. And they’re shiny :3

I also decided to make his scales glow but then remembered that doesn’t happen till Chapter 13. But hey, I think it gave it a calm feeling with how warm it must feel to be snuggled up like that on the water. Heck even my sister agreed.

Overall, Moomin fanfics have really helped with my art block.

And sorry for the really long yapping session. I like talking about my thought process on these things, and I genuinely can’t wait for the next chapter whenever or if it ever comes. I understand you’re busy so I don’t blame you but… damn you really left it on a cliffhanger huh? Still love it though! :3

Also I’m not sure why the link for the fic isn’t working properly cuz normally it would be automatic but… I’ll see if I can fix it at some point (update, I fixed it!)

[overdecorated-furniture]

Writing Playlists: A Rough Guide.

As someone who can mentally visualise my story as I’m writing it - rather like a film playing in my head - I find it helps me to have a soundtrack to accompany it. That way I can work on specific parts of a WIP by listening to specific parts of my playlist. So, here is how I set up my Writing Playlists. There are many variations I use, so here are a few.

Follow the Outline, Damn your eyes!

One of the more common setups I use is to find a song that reflects the mood of a specific chapter, and then create the playlist off my story outline. I have done this with my Echoes of Eternity playlist, and it gives a nice sense of the story arc. I have a list of the songs in my world-building notebook, as it was useful to refer back to the outline when planning it. Overall, this has resulted in a very clear - if somewhat mixed media - playlist.

Did Someone say My Name?

Equally, you can just go off character vibes. Songs that remind you of what your character’s childhood was like, what they eat for breakfast, their love life, their death… This usually ends up being somewhat vaguer in terms of acting as accurate backing, but does allow an insight into the character’s mind. As well as having playlists for Characters from my WIPs, I have a lot for my favourite characters from fanfic and history.

Overtures

Finally, you can create a playlist that introduces the setting. Nature sounds, bardcore folk, fantasy rpg and tv series music for a fantasy world, for example. Or a mix of classical music, Victorian drinking songs and Assassin’s Creed sneaky music for a Victorian detective story. Creating the soundscape a character would hear is helpful for describing scenes and action shots. I haven’t done this as its own playlist, per se, but I do a lot of background music for my fanfic and short stories.

Hope this helps, and Happy writing! 🌿

[getsuuna]

ok so here's my complaint of the day!

I wrote this during the moment I felt like complaining and I was sleepy so it MIGHT be a little dramatic 😇

every time I'm devouring a SaneGiyuu fic because I like its plot for a while, here goes a smut scene that never fails to make me sigh and mayhaps roll my eyes

most of the times I know I'll get icked but decide to read because "what if it's not that bad",, then it's almost always the same shit over and over: Sanemi topping, bonus points if there's even just slight roughness (yikes😬...), Giyuu being loud and being described in degrading terms [and basically none of this was told beforehand in tags nor notes, almost as if it was the "normal" perception of SaneGiyuu for most people...??? shut UP??😃]

respectfully, it's ass.

I'm tired, these tropes are overused and fucking inaccurate dare I say, unless there's a reason in the fanfic's AU specifically but I still find it to be too common and weird. if you want a somewhat accurate SaneGiyuu pay gorn (/hj /ref) it must be them switching AND being romantic. where the FUCK is the romance,, the last one I've read now wasn't that bad because it still mentioned adoration, kisses and love overall, but there's almost always something that icks me even just in the few fics I've read so far, and it makes my reading experience sm slower and uncomfortable afterwards even if I initially loved the fic

now, as I've stated multiple times, I hate the "rough daddy dom Sanemi" and "submissive twink Giyuu" headcanons with every single inch of my entire being in&out including my whole soul /drm,,, and not just in sex scenes but in their overall dynamic, it's so enraging I don't care if someone disagrees I'd just stare and judge??😭😭😭my main purpose when I complain abt this stuff is to look for other people with my same mindset (thank GOD I saw lots of them so far though)

the disrespect, and the fetishization of queer couples in which one "has to look/act more like the opposite gender" and inevitably the one who has more apparent feminine traits has to be the sub, bc they associate femininity with submissiveness. heteronormativity and borderline patriarchy-inducted stereotypes?? woah./neg

let Sanemi receive, it won't make him any less of a man nor threaten his masculinity I promise🥺 same goes for Giyuu if he was actually written like the manly strong man and SOLDIER he fucking is? I still wouldn't really really prefer it but I would respect the preference in that case.. heated arguments about who tops or bottoms are inherently fetishizing and stupid, however if I see a (weird) pattern I'm gonna hate it sorry not sorry😭🙏🏻

also please if someone can recommend SaneGiyuu fics with NO smut or actually well written sex scenes with them preferably switching (it's the only actual realistic trope and I stand by this fact) I'll be thankful, and I'm taking the occasion to also recommend "You And Me, Alone Together" by Katz3 (yes there's also occasional sex scenes and yes they're perfect in every possible way, the whole fic is!! I have yet to find a better fic and I know I won't, despite it being underrated); or maybe if you have fic recs in which Giyuu exclusively tops if there's NSFW scenes, out of nothing but pure spite, I would be thankful as well🥰

one last thing bc I usually get heavily misinterpreted whenever I complain abt anything: I'm NOT saying "GiyuSane is better" (even if that's what *I* personally think, due to how I interpret their writing and how I headcanon their relationship dynamic which has nothing much different from most, I just don't twinkify/overly-feminize/infantilize Giyuu nor I over-sexualize/booktok-fy Sanemi), I'm just saying it's more realistic if they switched: it's more accurate, more inclusive, less mischaracterizing, less stereotyped and therefore less heteronormative and less fetishizing...

and about the degrading and roughness and all that I mentioned, I just despise it. for every ship and every trope, whether m/f, f/f or m/m. it takes romance away imo and I won't be sugarcoating it with "oh but it's consensual so it's fine" nor negotiating it in order not to piss off the people who like this kind of content; I'm sorry, keep your preferences, but I won't be shutting the fuck up if I have to read it every goddamn time I naively think there's normal and loving sex scenes. put tags to warn readers who don't wanna read that shit so they can skip it if they still gave the fic a shot, please🙏🏻

[booksandpaperss]

idk who exactly on this tag needs to hear this but it’s definitely a lot of you:

it is perfectly okay for a fanfic writer to have Mike and Will having physical and sexual thoughts about each other. They are teenagers and it completely normal for allosexual and even acespec teenagers to have sexual thoughts about the person or people they like. Yes adult fanfic writers can do this too it’s literally not weird as long as it’s written respectfully and accurately, and I’m actually so fucking tired of all this discourse that is so clearly rooted in people feeling uncomfortable with two boys being sexually attracted to each other, or even queer teenagers in general having sexual thoughts about each other.

I do think it’s weird to write explicit sex scenes between minors and especially in this case when these characters are represented by real people with real bodies who were minors while filming the vast majority of the show, but honestly anything suggestive between two 14/15 year olds and up that’s not explicit and/or sexualized is normal. And before any of you come at me saying I’m sexualizing minors, you can fuck right off bc I am 17 and I am sick and tired of teenagers and especially queer teenagers being shamed for sexual thoughts that are perfectly normal.

I understand if you personally are not comfortable reading and writing anything suggestive, that is fine bc I have a solution for you! Wanna guess what it is??

Just. Don’t. Read it.

If it’s content u don’t like, simply don’t interact!!! No one is forcing you to read or write anything that you don’t want to, so simply don’t. It’s that easy 😱

I will say though, that if reading an even vaguely suggestive thought in a byler fic makes you extremely uncomfortable, maybe you should take a moment to ask yourself why that is. Bc love between teenagers is not all fluffy and pure and innocent, and its honestly way weirder to have that ideal than to write teens having sexual thoughts, so maybe do some self reflection. If you’re ace and suggestive content in general makes u feel weird then that’s different, but if that’s not the case then if you’re allo and u still feel this way… idk just take a moment to check and see if you’re internalizing anything before complaining about it and spreading legitimately harmful discourse.

So, to recap:

-it’s normal for teenagers to have suggestive thoughts about each other and it’s normal to write it

-writing teenagers having sexual thoughts and making out with each other is not sexualizing, fellow queer ppl who think this literally why do u hate ur community so much 😑

-anything short of an explicit smut scene between minors is fine as long as it’s done accurately and respectfully

-it is still weird to write explicit smut in the byler fandom specifically (and any other ship between teens in ST) just bc you’d be describing the bodies of real people that were minors until very recently with actors who have stated that they’re not comfortable being sexualized like that, but first and foremost…

-…if something makes you uncomfortable or you don’t like it, simply don’t interact

-stop shaming queer teenagers for being physically attracted to each other, and stop idealizing teenage queer love as something completely pure and innocent, if you’re going to do that, please keep it to yourself

If after reading this post you 1). want to block me bc you think this whole post was sexualization or 2). plan to use this argument as an excuse to actually sexualize minors and write hardcore explicit smut between them, block me. Weird reformed purity culture is not welcome on my blog and neither are people who enjoy sexualizing minors. Fuck you ❤️