#just realized this is the most i have said fucj

[dragonlapis]

FABULOUS BREAKING NEWS BESTIE!~

YOUR LADIES ARE UP NEXT!

ABOUT FUCKING TIME

The art is so soso gorgeous oh god...the wait was so fucking worth it. You can't believe or do how fucking happy I am to see this

Aaaaaaaaaa

What a wonderful thing to wake up to

Everything in the art is so fluid and the coloring is so soft. I love the movement in both the Seika and Leila art. The fish and water is sooo good and I love how gem spiked up like that. The fire around Leila and the lighting...god...Finally I just love seeing all three of them together like that

Do expect art from me sometime soon considering this sparked my creativity again. I'm thinking a redraw of that final one in my style. I will struggle ,but it will be fucking worth it. I'm open to suggestions too! You know what? Fuck it! I will start taking requests for them. If there's something you wanna see them do...let me know! Drawing requests for the apartment trio is now open!

[floofeeeeee]

Rereading everblaze has been so interesting and I could talk about it for so long but I’m goin to talk about this specific part that had me SOBBING when I first read it (and again the SECOND time I’ve read but for a different reason)

And this is also a reason to complain about the council (I hate them all) (yes ALL of them)

Tw mentions of eating disorders and suicide 



“Instead, all we find is wrong." He turned to stare at Sophie, making it clear he included her in that wrongness,”

I want to talk about this part first before the rest because I find it really interesting. (And because the other parts will be longer) It’s clear to me that the cancel is afraid of Sophie in some kind of way they find her threatening even though she’s proven all she wants to do is help. They’re scared because they know her existence threatens there’s she’s the savior that’s supposed to fix’s the wrongs of their world.their wrongs they know there’s another group out there they know that’s the group that kidnapped Sophie and Dex but instead they fixated oh the black swan because to them it threateners there power and control. they feel the need to keep Sophie under control they need to keep her under their control.

“Sophie foster is not normal.” She closed her eyes as the words rattled around her mind”

This part comes a bit before the first one but that’s because I knew I wanted to talk more about this specifically it hits heard for a couple of reasons I’ll get into.

Gosh…. This part man :( ok let’s start with the fact that the lost cities was a place that was supposed to be where she belong it was supposed to make her feel normal and safe but instead she met with same kind of hate that she got from the humans. Sophie to me feels like a fallen gifted kid someone who was able to get to the top of her class now at the bottom and shamed for it. It wasn’t her fault that she could read minds as a kid and not know how to stop them it wasn’t her fault that she never grew up in the lost cities to learn the ruins everyone grew up learning. And yet they still shame her, for not being normal not being like them because she grew up with humans because she some kind of lab rat someone that’ll hurt there kids and them

They never see her for the child that she is the smart brave funny individual who’s saved their lives more then once no. Because she not normal. she doesn’t act right���

As someone who neurodivergent this hits really hard I was constantly told when I was younger by my peers that I was weird. And I’m sure most people who are neurodivergent have a similar experience of being treated differently just because you’re not normal.. 

 “She closed her eyes as the words rattled around her mind”

For so long she been called not normal by almost everyone around her her human mother (even if she never said it to her face) her classmates in school and her classmates now In The place she was told was perfect and safe and were she belong.

GOSH I JUST WANT TO GRAB THEM AND THROW THEM AT THE SUN DIE

She deserves to live a happy life for once :(

“It wasn't until he raised it over her head that she realized what was happening.”

“Two of the Council's bodyguards rushed to her sides, holding her in place as Councillor Emery clamped” the silver band around her forehead.

“The circlet was Dex's telepathy restrictor.”

“The Council was trying to take away her abilities.”

This part makes me sick SICK this was the part that I cried at when I first read it. The realization of what was happening to her felt like I was being hit by a truck. The fact that the council had there bodyguards hold her In Place …… UGHHHHHGGH I want to fall them to in a ditch I swear. they were trying to make her talentless in a weird fucj up way to control her if wasn’t for the fact that her powers are so strong they would’ve forcefully made her disabled. Because that’s what talentless elf’s are to them. It’s how they treat them. It’s how they treat Dexs dad it’s how they treated Brant

I can’t imagine the horror and fear Sophie felt in that moment they had other options but no the reason they chose this one is because they knew it was the best way to keep her under control.

“She knew it was slumberberry tea even before she saw the purple color, and she drank it gladly, downing the whole thing and hoping it knocked her out for a few years—decades-the rest of eternity.”

How do you fuck up so badly that you get a girl WHO REFUSES to drink any kinda of sleeping drug do to the trauma of being kidnapped and drugged against her will. To DOWN like ten of them because of the pain and trauma you’ve brought her.

HOW CAN YOU CAN YOU NOT SEE HOW F UP THAT IS

“Edaline tried to get her to eat something, but she wasn’t hungry”

“All she wanted was more tea.”

I’m thinking back to this post I saw were someone mentioned that Sophie shows a lot of signs of eating disorders. And here it pretty prevalent. Her avoiding eating and avoiding the waking world to me in way makes me think she could be suicidal. She obviously depressed and ashamed. She feels like she should be disowned by her friends and family because she useless now. Or well in her eyes she is. 

“begging begging begging her to wake.”

“So she dove deeper into her drug-induced haze, wishing she could find her way back to the nook in her mind and stay there forever. She'd been happy there.”

“Safe.”

This is where I see it most. All she wants to do is hide in this drug-induced haze, wanting to go back to the nook in her head were she felt Saft warm and happy. But once the drug wears off she back in the living full of a pain and heartache. Where she feels utterly useless and broken. All she want to do is be happy. But because the council are all absolute idiots they decided to make her life a living hell!!! I’ll still never forgive Bronte for inflicting her In Exil still one of the most F up things he’s done.

Anyways I’m tired and if I try to write more it might not come across right oop just know I hate the council !!!

Thanks for reading my nonsense I hope I made sense or a least made a good analysis :D



[th3-ann0unc3r]

***********MAJOR ARCANE SPOILERS PLS DONT READ IF YOU DONT WANT TI BE SPOILED**********

*****YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED********

*****GO WATCH IT ITS REALLY GOOD I CRIED VERY HARD****

THEY REALLY KILLED JINX OFF LIKE THAT??!?!!?!? SHE WAS TOLD HER WHOLE LIFE YOU DO EVERYTHING WRONG AND THE ONLY FUCKING 2 PEOPLE WHO DIDNT BELIEVE THAT SHE DIED FOR UGHHHHHHHHH I LOVE IT BUT DAMN I WISH SHE GOT A BETTER REDEMPTION ARC!!!!

also isha DIDNT need to die at all. SHE DIED THE EXACT WAY JINX DID PROTECTING PEOPLE SHE CARED ABOUT FROM THE SAME FUCKING MONSTER.

ALSO FUCJ JAYCE HE CAN GO TI HELL. IF HE WOULD HAVE JUST LEFT HIS OWN SHIT ALONE AND SAID WAIT MAYBE I DONT NEED TO KILL VIKTOR NOBODY ELSE WOULD HAVE DIED. THEY ALL DIED BECAUSE OF THE STUPID FACT HE “WASNT GOING TO FAIL” I HATE THAT MAN. LIKE WE GET IT YOUR JELOUSE YOUR BOYFRIEND IS LITERALLY EXTENDING HIS POWER TO THE UNIVERSE BUT GOD DAMN MAN.

i would also like to thank the wonderful writers for cativi BUT YOU WILL BE GETTING MY THERAPY BILL FOR KILLING ISHA!!!!

THEM GIVING MEL POWERS WAS THE BEST TJING EVER LIKE SHE WAS ONE IF THE MOST POWERFUL PEOPLE IN THAT FUCKJNG CITY AND SHE HAD LITERALLY NOTHING BUT SOME WAR SKILLS???? i kiss the ground of the writer who thought to give her powers!!!!

I also hate that vi literally went against every moral she had becoming an enforcer but idk it just felt wrong watching vi track down her sister after saying her whole life she cared so much about her and her well being

🤭🤭��🤭🤤🤤🤤🤤eye patch Caitlyn 😝😝😝😝😼😼😼😼

IM ADDING ON AFTER IVE ALREADY POSTED THIS EKKO MY BELOVED HE WAS ON OF THE BEST WRITTEN CHARACTERS AND HE GENUINELY IS A GOOD PERSON I LOVE THAT FACT HE LITERALLY HATED JINX AND THEN SAW HER IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT WHEN HE REALIZED SHE WAS A SCARED KID IN A MANIC WOMENS BODY!!!!

ALSO THE ALTERNATE UNIVERSE EPISODE IS ONE OF THE BEST PEICES OF MEDIA TO EVER EXISTS THANK YOU!!!!

ADDING MORE AGAIN the way vi saw humanity in jinx after she slapped isha and the first thing jinx did was check on isha HURTS MW SO MUCH IT WAS SO BUTIFUEL UGHHHHHHH.

also maddie hate club

Thank you all for listening to my rant!

[gasmeros]

Regarding the ask game what’s the S1 solstice to boat au about???

hi foamyyyy! i talked about it a bit in this post

it's basically a winter solstice au where. it's like. im ficjign struggling how do i explain this quickly. fucjing. fuck it, my snippet is half the fic notes, i dont have much of any proper writing to share for this one anyway

content warnings include mindless rambling, zhao, and threats of violence/execution

s1 winter solstice episode au, very much adjacent to that tumblr post (linked) about zuko getting locked up with sokka and katara and them figuring out about Zuko's fucked up family life.

similar but we bypass the actual verbal conversation by having zhao do taunting stuff cuz he be like that. he says stuff like episode 3 about ozai not wanting zuko back, about him failing his 2ish year long search, about how when they drag him back home, there might even be a public execution for his crimes, wouldn't that be nice? nothing but the best for the prince. and maybe zhao will even get to watch. ("he wouldn't." "can you really be certain, my prince? after what he did to your face? and just for mouthing off, too. how would he punish a real crime?")

then zuko showing how desperate he is to not get dragged back to the fire nation by doing some fucked up dangerus type of fighting back. like, wiggling, screaming, biting, full on child in a grocery store who has learned how to glue themselves to the floor type of reaction to being arrested, except this child has fire and no limits. good chance for that idea where zuko superheats a metal gag and bites through it, burning himself in the process. would be neat to have zuko spit a shard of almost molten metal at zhao cuz fuck him. maybe keep the whole scene chained to the pillar instead in some other room like these fics usually go?

so water siblings realize that something is most definitely Up based on zhao's words and Zuko's reactions, and when roku starts to tear the temple apart, they hit a wall where they realize that zuko's been trapped by the lava flow like them, and while they have appa to hop onto, he doesn't have an escape. so cue these kids being Kind and promptly yanking him along cuz the alternative is zuko burning alive

so we get Bison Time, wherein zuko's still not a fan of anything that's happening, but compared to how he was acting with zhao, he's downright pleasant. which is not to say that he's actually pleasant, he is very much being an angry brat who's like one second away from trying to fight them while still on the bison. the siblings have a lot of questions, because what zhao said about banishment and two years searching and public executions was fucking wack and they need to know why he said that, why zuko fought so hard that he thought burning his mouth as bad as he did was an acceptable trade off. they know why, but they need to hear it.

zuko does not let them hear it. he yells and doesn't answer any questions and demands they put him down or else. bits about the mouth burns obviously bothering him, just cuz im me and im predictable

they end up going to drop him off at his ship cuz his crew wont attack without a command, and zuko's not so dumb to make them attack the bison he's on. they end up making him swear to not do anything until after they fly away

potential bit where they fly over to Zuko's ship, still in fire nation waters, and find its got a zhao shadow. so zuko, while not at all wanting to actually say it out loud, does not want to go back to his ship until the shadow leaves or they're out of fire nation waters, cuz he will absolutely be arrested. cue more gaang being concerned about the arresting thing, and zuko basically pulling his own teeth to ask if he can wait on the bison until it's safe.

Eventually theyre able to land on zuko's ship without risk of zuko being arrested. zuko keeps his word and doesn't let anyone attack until after they leave, and THEN. aang is a smartass and takes advantage of that by just. not flying away :) so zuko can't do anything, cuz then he'd break his word!! that's pretty fuckin dishonorable!! zuko would like to murder aang.

(really aang needs a moment to talk with the siblings because if what he gleaned from the conversation is true, he can't in good conscience just leave zuko to his fool's errand for an abusive father. they need more information, and they have to do something, cuz this is not ok. the siblings agree, though with much more caution because that's been forced into them by growing up in a war)

cue s1 gaang and zuko tea party

and so the whole fuckin fic takes place on zuko's ship cuz aang is be a pedantic little snot and zuko's autism sense of honor wont let him break a promise

i have maybe 300 words of actual writing for this, and im not sure how i feel about those words. this is like one of the first fics i tried to write for atla, which, like most of my atla fics, has dug itself a very comfy hole to sleep in. i'd love to get anywhere with it, if only i had the motivation

[eddiexmunsn]

yeah I think Quinn's social is literally only his agent has access to. Keery deleted his, I mean I guess he still has his band but, and this may be me, I'd feel its performative as fuck just to suddenly post on that

For example there is a band i used to love who has a song on their most recent album about media profiting off of wars and exploitation etc, and there are more songs that talk about how things suck like that and imo I thought the songs kinda said fight that mentality....but then they have been radio silent about Gaza or Congo or etc

Yea i can't stand will anymore. Pisses me off because I used to have a soft spot for that kid

Noah is old enough to know. I cant stand him. I hope he gets sense knocked into him eventually, regrets his actions and publicly apologized and turns a new leaf. I doubt he would, but I do believe people can change (again doubt he will). But honestly deatform the mfer. Dont give him any more roles, since this contract was signed you got to go through with it. But fuck him.

Didn't realize David did that gross

Just because it doesn't involve you doesn't mean you can't speak up. Voice for the voiceless and all that. Fucj those who continue to like his stuff

Also, yeah I remember when it first came out that it was widely condemned in the people I followed on here, but like I havent heard it as much recently. I still do at times just not as much

nah if djo suddenly posted about that stuff i’d be very confused. cool that it would bring a lot of attention to it, but still weird. and it’s definitely odd when the support comes out of nowhere and then nothing about it ever comes up again, but if a celebrity kind gets a wake up call and starts to dedicate some of their platform to keeping attention on these sorts of things, who am i to complain?

that’s kinda how i feel with pedro pascal. he’s been a vocal activist for so many human rights movement right from the start, and yet all he can muster for a genocide is a couple posts about DWOB that don’t even name Gaza or the DRC. and how he only posted the first one conveniently on the day of a casting announcement for something he’s gonna be in. i mean it’s better than nothing like i had mentioned before, but he also has many people in his lives who are staunch zionists….yucky.

also he literally is a main money maker for a company that has deep connections to israel and has publicly donated $2+ million to the ethnic cleansing going on right now. what a GROSS look

i guess that’s what happens when the boot on everyone’s necks kinda loosens on yours, or they’re waving money bags in your face to distract you from your morals.

and while i also think people are capable of change, i’m not holding my breath for any of them. maybe after S5 comes out and the contract ends one of them will speak out finally…that’d be juicy 😋

srry this wasn’t supposed to be about pedro 😭

will byers is now my enemy. i’m bullying him for his bowl cut so hard rn it’s not even funny

[hanjizung]

𝕂𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕥𝕠𝕓𝕖𝕣  𝕕𝕒𝕪  𝟙𝟠:  𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕓𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟.

Hyunjin x Reader.

Word count: 1.4k

♡ Warnings ♡: Smut, virgin!Reader, masturbation (f), established relationship.  

【ｐｒｅｖｉｏｕｓ　ｄａｙ　||　ｎｅｘｔ　ｄａｙ】

【Ｋｉｎｋｔｏｂｅｒ　ｍａｓｔｅｒｌｉｓｔ】

It was a beautiful evening with nice weather when you finally decided to advance a step in your relationship with Hyunjin.

You had yet to talk to him about it, but you’ve been thinking about if you’re ready to get more intimate with him or not, but you knew you were. You loved everything there was to love about him, how he treated you, his little scenes when he decided to be dramatic, his looks…

You and him have been dating for a while, almost 8 months that have been completely wonderful where you got to know what you hoped was almost everything that he liked or disliked, his routines and other trivial stuff. You were satisfied with how well you got along.

The only things that you hadn’t tried was because you were afraid. Afraid of pain, afraid of all the things that could happen.

But Hyunjin was your first serious relationship, all the ones you’ve had before never lasted more than 4 months, because you used to date garbage men.

That was until Hyunjin came into your life and suddenly you visualize the world in a pink filter when you’re with him, absolutely whipped for him.

You waited for him to arrive at your department. Yoh prepared for him all the day before today to make sure he wouldn’t be disgusted with your bare form, waxing and erasing all the imperfections you saw anywhere on your body.

The doorbell rang and you stood up quickly, walking excitedly to open the front door. There he stood shining in all his glory. The most beautiful man you’ve ever seen, right in front of you holding a bouquet of roses in both of his hands and smiling like a dumb when you opened the door.

“Jinnie!” you giggled like a schoolgirl, throwing yourself at his arms. He was quick enough to move the bouquet from between you two to wrap both of his arms around you. You clung to him, making him chuckle and he carried you through the door frame, closing the door behind you.

“I missed you too, baby” he said, letting you touch the floor and bending down to kiss your forehead. Your cheek flushed when he did that. It was such an innocent action that carried so much love, you adored when he did that to you, it always made you feel protected just like when you were in his arms.

“Here, I got this for you. I saw them and thought that the most beautiful woman should have these beautiful flowers, their beauty reminded me of you” he gave you the flowers. You almost teared up at his words, he always knew what to say to make your heart flutter and made you realize that you were the luckiest person to be able to be with someone like him.

You took the bouquet from his big hands and placed them with the ones he had given you a few days ago.

“Thank you, Jinnie. I also have a surprise for you” you turned to look at him, he had an arched eyebrow, ready to hear what your surprise was.

You took his hand and guided him to your bedroom, turning on the light and sitting on the side of the bed you liked to sleep the most. He sat in front of you, waiting for you to reveal your big surprise.

But you didn’t know what to say, your smile too big on your face. You opted to show him the item you had bought the day before.

“Close your eyes first, please” he did, his eyelids tightly shut, a smile that you contagie him with on his face. It went away when you placed the unfamiliar thing that was supposed to be his surprise on his hands.

“You can open them now” you murmured. He did, eyeing the box on his hands and reading what it was. You decided to explain why you were showing this.

“Hyunjin, I’m ready. I love you so much, I want you to be the one” you said. He looked at you with adoring eyes and moved closer to you. You thought he was going to hug you, but he placed the box on the nightstand and took your hand. You looked at him with worry in your eyes.

“Are you sure you’re ready?” he asked, tone soft. You nodded, moving to the middle of the bed and gesturing for him to crawl closer to you.

He did, towering over you and kissing you sweetly, his hands roaming all 9ver your body to your legs, separating them and positioning himself between them. He looked at you again to confirm that you were okay doing all of this, getting another nod from you and he pulled your skirt and underwear down your legs, groaning when he saw your most sensitive part.

You looked away, feeling strange being all this exposed to him, but a hand on your chin made you look straight at Hyunjin’s lusty eyes.

“Don’t be shy, baby. There’s nothing to be embarrassed about, you’re beautiful” he leaned to kiss you, his hands resting on your knees before he pulled them apart, exposing your pussy to him.

You were lying to yourself if you said you weren’t nervous. You’ve never gotten this close to anyone else, making love was a pure act of trust and you wanted to do it with the right person. Luckily, you found Hyunjin and felt prepared to give yourself to him, you loved him that much.

Hyunjin passes his finger through your slit, making you gasp in surprise at the touch. He separated your folds and pressed your clit gently, making you gasp again. He rubbed your clit with his thumb, his other hand taking out his cock and stroking himself, you biting your lip at the sight of his pretty cock.

Moving so you could take off your shirt and then your bra in a moment of confidence, Hyunjin looking up to admire your exposed breasts and grunting again, pumping himself with more effort when he checked your erected nipples.

You realized he was staring too much at them, and decided to play with your boobs, pinching and squeezing your nipples to hear the beautiful noises of pleasure he got when he jerked himself just by looking at you.

One of his fingers teased at your entrance and you froze, looking at him with a little fear in your eyes, he collected your wetness and removed his hand from your core, licking his fingers and ready to enter you.

He inserted one, making you gasp again at the sudden feeling of intrusion inside you. It was weird, having something you weren’t familiar with inside you was strange and a bit uncomfortable but not at all.

Hyunjin’s moan brought you back to reality.

“Fucj, baby, you’re so tight” he said, moving his finger inside you and making you moan as well. His eyes were concentrated where he was connected with you, looking at his digit disappear in you. He looked beautiful like this, he seemed like he was enjoying making you feel good.

“AH! Hyunjin, right there!” you screamed when he hit a particular spot inside you. You squirmed when he hit it again, bucking your hips to feel him so deeper. The feeling of intrusion changing to one of pleasure, an unknown sensation in your stomach becoming stronger and stronger as Hyunjin worked his magic fingers, until you couldn’t take it anymore and before you knew it your whole body was shaking when a wave of pleasure washed over you and your walls tightened even more at Hyunjin’s middle finger.

Hyunjin moaned, still thrusting you over your orgasm and moving the hand wrapped around his cock faster, a white liquid spurring out of him a few moments after your orgasm.

You calmed down, looking at your beloved boyfriend with tired eyes.

“Are you okay, baby?” he asked, removing his fingers from you and licking it clean.

“I’m fine… That… felt amazing” you said, blinking when you finished your sentence to confirm that this had been real and not a dream.

“Do you want to continue, princess? Do you need anything before we do anything else?” his worried tone made you smile, he cared so much for you and it showed in the way he was treating you.

“I’m okay, Jinnie. We can continue, I’m dying to know how you will feel inside me” you sighed, your gaze fixed on his cock. Hyunjin’s expression changed drastically, not that you would know since you weren’t looking at him, but he was ready to make you scream his name.

“You’ll find out soon enough baby, are you ready?”

“I’ve never been more ready for anything in my life.”

[hunbomb]

roommate! jaemin

i hope u guys like this one! i do :) 

warning: not proofread LMAO

jaemin: a huge flirt

like we been knew sis okay bUt its not like it defines him ya kno??? like yes he is a flirt but its not like he does it purposely

however that doesn’t stop every single girl from liking him

except for u cause you’re ~not like other girls~

jk you are 

cause who wouldn’t find na jaemin attractive?? tf???

okay but like the dealio between you and jaemin is that you are best friends 

and you have a fat crush on him (u have since the beginning of highschool LOL)

luckily for you, although jaemin is a flirt, he isnt interested in any girls so he doesnt bring any to your dorm

and even if he did, he would tell u because it would be shitty not to 

anyway

so u met in grade nine and yalls friendship popped TF off right away like you joined nomins duo and made it a trio in the span of 4 months and everyone was like???? this mf got that close to them that fast???? mastery

jeno was like ur brother from another mother fr

you and him told eachother everything and sometimes he would tell you things he wouldnt even tell jaemin. like everyone has those people that although theyre close w, there are some things you’d never tell and that goes for jeno and jaemin

jaemin never told jeno he listens to taylor swift

and jeno never told jaemin that he watched all of my little pony friendship is magic on netflix

but since you and jeno shared some personal things w eachother, you obviously told him about your crush on jaemin

and since you had a crush on jaemin, you never got like super super close with him just cause ur feels got in the way 

mainly just you never got as close to jaemin as you did jeno

sure you were bffs, but it wasn’t on such an intimate level

cause everytime jaemin would look your way you’d be gasping for air

so timeskip to senior year

everything is great

your friendship is still strong af and you guys are all planning for post secondary

jaemin and you get into the same uni right.... and jeno gets into the one the town over so your friendship wont take that much damage

but!!! jaemin wants to room with you!!! and ur like!! fucufejdsk!!!

cause like ofc you want to who wouldnt????? but you have such a massisve crush on him you dont want it to get in the way of not only yours but also jaemins university experience

you say yes tho and next thing you know youre unpacking all your stuff

the dorm is kind of small like there isnt a lot of space,,,,, theres two bedrooms but the beds literally take out the whole room HAHHAHA and then there is a chill space with the kitchen connected and u and jaemin have to share a washroom LOL

“jaemin what the FUCK did you eat??? beans??? i bet it was beans this shit smells so bad i-”

“it really do be ya own friends sometimes” -jaemin 2020 :((((((

anyway so like university life is good you and jaemin invite jeno over every weekend for a sleepover and vice versa its so cute GAH

but like,,,, here’s where the drama comes in

one day you are facetiming jeno and youre telling him about how you really like jaemin and blah blah ya know the usual

and youre not really looking at the screen cause youre doing your homework and focusing on that but jeno sees in the back that jaemin has fully entered the room

and you dont notice cause hes silent and your still talking but jeno is trying to get your attention UDHSJIA

and when he does you see in your part of the screen jaemin just,,,, standing there

cue you ending the call with jeno SO FAST and turning around like oH i thought you had classes right now?

“.... they ended early”

“i see” ://////////

you like get up super fast and just walk around him and go into your roomm shutting the door 

poor jaemin is just like “what”

cause to be honest he never really considered this situation ever happening yah he thought you were prettier than most girls and he liked the way you were able to talk to people so easily but he never would have thought you harboured feelings for him

so he kind of just leaves it be cause he knows that you def dont want to talk about it and is willing to wait for you to be the one who brings it up

so time skip to dinner youre both just eating in silence but you dont like it,,,

“what i said was true” you say and jaemin looks up and he knows where this convo is going but he lets you speak

“i didnt ever plan on telling you because i really like our friendship but i guess i wasn’t careful enough”

your heart is beating hella fast but you try to look unbothered and its going pretty good until jaemin asks you something

“how long have you felt this way?”

OKAY like it shouldnt be a big deal to tell him bc you already exposed yourself but for some reason that question just hit you deep cause you realized that youve liked him for so long and he never felt the same ya know

“i dont know,,, since the start of highschool? when we became friends i always thought you were cute and it just turned into a full blown crush”

jaemin just sort of nods in response “oh okay”

so that night your just laying in your bed full of regrets

you know things are about to be super duper awkward between you and jaemin and you wish it didnt have to be like that

so over the next couple of weeks its more awkward than it has ever been before and the sleepovers with jeno seem so divided 

its either jeno and you or jeno and jaemin its never the three of you anymore :((((((

jaemin isn’t ignoring your feelings though, dont worry! hes just trying to sort his out

because your confession kind of opened his eyes

he doesnt want to force himself to like you but he cant help but admit that when he first heard you talking about your feelings a huge warmth spread through his chest and he may or may not have uncovered some feelings

these feelings were always there but he suppressed in grade nine cause he thought you’d never like him and you just wanted to stay friends

so he pushed them down and never thought about it again

but obviously that didnt happen because now youre on his mind 24/7 and he wishes that he could just talk to you but hes kind of nervous

so after taking advice from jeno he tries to talk to you more, like asking how your day went and starting up conversations

youre  kind of like “what u playing at son” but you leave it cause you know jaemin would never do you dirty like that

it stays this way for a while until one night theres a particularly bad thunderstorm and jaemin is scared of thunder

and so when youre just playing on your phone jaemin opens your door slightly and has this scared look on his face

and you know that jaemin is scared of thunder so you open your arms without any words being shared

a huge boom of thunder makes jaemin squeal and jump into your arms

and he gets comfy under the covers as youre holding him, no words shared between you two

he starts to feel much better and this sense of comfort washes over him like,,, youre his home

and as hes falling asleep he softly mutters

“im sorry it took me so long”

and youre just straight confused like what does that mean is he talking about his feelings or just the fact that yall havent had such an close encounter in a while 

the next morning you wake up and jaemins arms and you guys are facing eachother

and hes already awake so when you oepn your eyes you find him already looking at you

“thank you for last night, youre the best” he whispers and youre like all good fam i understand

but then he leans in closer and is like “i should have told you this so long ago, but i am in love with you”

your eyes widen and youre like wh AT the FUCJ your heart is beating at like 420 bpm and ur shooketh

he just smiles and pulls in you in closer and its just a super soft moment and no words have to be said

that night you guys are cuddling on the couch after dinner when jaemin just asks you be his gf

OF COURSE YOU SAY YES! you have been waiting for this moment for god knows how long

jeno is all like damn fina-fucking-ly i’ve been watching this romance play out for like 5 years! 

its super cute

its even better that you guys are roommates because youre already living together so you get to see eachother everyday

jaemins room as become a guest room for sorts as he now shares a bed with you

jenos happy af hes like YESSS I DONT NEED TO SLEEP WITH JAEMIN IN OUR SLEEPOVERS ANYMORE

jaemin: >:(((((( tf is that supposed to mean

you just laugh and youre like im not complaining hahaha and jaemins heart just stutters so bad 

he really does love you and he cant believe it took him so long to accept his feelings

and one night he tells you about how he pushed them down and youre like “exCUSE ME we could have been dating all this time u pussy”

sad jaemin :((((( 

anyway ya its so good its a win-win situation 

you get to room with the love of your life and its just magical there are so many soft moments between you two and just UGH relationship goals

i need me a jaemin

[ms-hells-bells]

literally my reaction. and now armys are praising this shit and say toilets shouldnt be gendered. how dumb do they have to be not to realize that toilets are seperated by sex and not gender. toilets dont exist to make their gender indentities feel appreciated but instead to fucjing shit there and throw away ur used tampons.

i think bts are just normies that don’t wanna offend anyone and think accepting everything is good, and a large amount of western kpop fans are gender freaks that are probably starving for their special unique selves to get any sort of  attention from their faves so bring it up constantly, essentially forcing idols to become aware of it lol. even if anyone in bts or any kpop group weren’t about it, they’d get attacked en masse if they ever said anything. i think that a red velvet member or something already got attacked for mentioning reading a feminist book. and then that female trainee that straight out denounced trans activism and got DESTROYED.

i’m not super surprised about taehyung being the one to bring it up though. he’s very supportive of lgbt and outsiders and people unaware of the politics tend to just accept anything to do with it including genders because “i don’t understand it but it seems important and i want people to feel validated and happy”. namjoon and maybe yoongi have that feel too. it’s how most average straight people feel because they’re not actually invested or affected by what happens. 

[thepringlesofblood]

thoughts on stranger things three  (spoilers. so many.)

this is just me yellin into the void as usual, but I like recording my opinions on things even if no one will read them 

good:

- every single scene w/ the robin, steve, erica, dustin gang, especially!!! the coming out scene. scoops?? iconic. steve and dustin’s secret handshake? transcendent. the drugged out back to the future scene? perfect. 

- eleven and max say fuck the patriarchy. love el’s new look 

- more competent women is always a win

- funhouse fight!!! carnival fight!!!FIREWORKS??!??!

- the destruction of the mall (sadly the only anticapitalist symbolism I could find)

- the scene after jonathan and nancy get fired where they’re angry about their separate marginalized identities making this loss worse. I really liked how it went into the ways it will impact both of them, and I especially liked when nancy got home and talked to her mom. 

- joyce going buckwild and getting shit done. 

- the portrayal of hypervigilance as a symptom of PTSD. All of these characters have seen some shit, and all of them pick up on the littlest things the second they present themselves because subconsciously, they’re always on edge, always aware of bad it could break. 

- most of will’s character arc. not all, but most of it. the queer experience of watching all your friends get dates and feeling like you’re missing out on something? trying to regain their interest because you feel lost and left behind? worrying that you’re not “growing up” because you don’t recognize romantic interest in yourself? not realizing you’re falling for your best friend until they get a romantic partner and suddenly you hate the partner even though they haven’t done anything wrong? a poignant, beautiful, very painful portrayal of queer teenhood. I really, really wish there was a moment that the audience realized will was in love with mike though. Like, it’s been building for a very long time. Also, a more thorough confirmation of will’s queerness would’ve been nice. I think they meant mike saying “you don’t understand bc you don’t like girls” to be that confirmation, but I want to hear it from will. Robin’s moment is so so so good though. 

- domestic fuckery 

- getting someone on the inside to help them/alexei as a character. not the symbolism or larger ramifications of his character arc, but how his knowledge and personality interacted. 

- mr clarke!!!!

- el going into someone’s memories again

- how prepared everyone is to fight because they’ve seen this shit before and robin and erica are just like ‘this might as well happen’ 

- keeping with the stranger things pattern of having a bunch of different groups of people all in different genres and then together they all meet up and go ?????

- I know every says billy didn’t get enough of a redemption arc but tbh I did not see his character development as redeeming in any way and I liked that. It didn’t excuse his abusive actions, it just explained them. There was no “oh he was secretly good all along”, no dramatic total character reversal on his death bed, just him deciding that he had enough of being controlled. Max didn’t get full closure with him, he didn’t say some big speech about being wrong or realizing the ramifications of his actions bc he hadn’t reached that point yet. he just said “I’m sorry” and died. that could mean “i’m sorry for how I’ve treated you”, “I’m sorry for how many people I’ve killed”, “I’m sorry for not being able to stop the monster”, anything. we don’t know what it means. we don’t get an explanation. It speaks to how survivors of abuse often don’t get to know why, don’t get closure, don’t get all the answers. 

- steve finally won a fight before getting the shit kicked out of him

- the whole no one knowing anything about each other bc no cell phones and/or wasnt there when It Happened. 

- Erica getting the DND set was poetic cinema 

- when joyce sees will on the firetruck and they run towards each other because finally, for once, will is completely unscathed, will isn’t the one who got hurt/possessed. I was already crying but this is the part where i had to get tissues bc I was sobbing. 

Bad:

- the red scare bullshit and glorification of capitalism. this show started out as “the US govt is doing shady shit” and now the big climatic “everything’s alright” is the army getting there?? what the fuck. There’s being accurate to the time period and then there’s sending a message. they could’ve subverted that trope in so many ways, but they just went for straight up “capitalism is great! fuck russia!” and I hated that. also, talk about one-note villainry. there weren’t even any dramatic monologues to make up for it, it just kinda sucked. 

- Hopper’s character in the beginning of the season. the scene where he gets wasted after getting stood up? shitty. not talking to el about his vaguely sexist overprotective actions? shitty. blowing up at joyce for no reason? shitty. he pulls it together in the end but it was OOC for a bit there. Plus I would kill for more “hopper and el work through their trauma together”, rather than “friend group splinters bc hopper did a yell” 

- I don’t know what to think about hopper’s death. It just hurts, and not in a satisfying, last harry potter book way. 

- why the fuck are the byers and el moving?????? did they ever give a reason???? WHY?????? WILL AND EL’S ENTIRE SUPPORT NETWORK, THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO KNOW WHAT THEY’VE BEEN THROUGH AND CAN HELP THEM, IS IN HAWKINS!!!!!

- the ads. omg the ads. lucas idc about your fucking coke. there’s so much goddamn product placement. christ on a goddamn bicycle. 

- previous seasons have had body horror, but it was all black goo so it was removed from reality and conveyed a psychological, otherworldly horror. and I liked that. WHY WAS THERE SO MUCH FUCJING MEAT IN THIS ONE??? THE MIND FLAYER LOOKED LIKE IT WAS MADE OF BBQ SAUCE AND I HATED IT!!! STOP!!!THE MEATS!!!!!

- can el not be injured......for oNCE?????

- also can people stop standing around staring at shit so much? theyve seen it before. it’s not like it’s a huge shock. people stand around for like 5 minutes before Doing Things and it annoys me. with the New Kids like erica and robin it makes sense but like....whenever theres a monster mike just sits there like :o cOME ON DUDE YOU’VE DONE THIS SO MANY TIMES GET A KNIFE OR SOMETHIN!!!

- WHAT. WAS. THE GREEN STUFF?????????????????? IS IT FUCKING PLUTONIUM OR SOMETHING???? WHAT THE FUCK!!! IF YOU NEED A MACGUFFIN BE LESS OBVIOUS ABOUT IT!!!

- idk about you but murray yelling at them about sex kinda rubbed me the wrong way. 

- speaking of, you caNNOT convince me that murray, 4 locks on the front door lives in a bunker murray, would take a goddamn enemy of the state to a carnival and leave him alone for any period of time. seriously????????

- look.....it was adorable.....i’ll give you that.....but.....the song dustin and suzy sang slapped me with secondhand embarrassment and genre disconnect so hard I found it impossible to enjoy. also...planck’s constant??? you could/......idk........call mr clarke????????? you’ve interrupted the man’s life for less!!!! I was also half expecting it to be joyce who remembered it from all the studying she did on the magnets. I did enjoy the whole “i met a girl at camp” story being unbelievable until it was but like I was expecting the thing she wanted him to say to be like a famous star wars love quote or something not an entire song jesus christ 

- if hopper turns out to be alive I will face god and walk backwards into hell. I suffered through supernatural, I will not be caught in a cycle of fake deaths again. 

- i get the whole “we’re growing up now” thing but aren’t they like 13? theyre still so young??? also like i dont rly care for the vague soap-opera-y vibes the core squad gave off. 

- the only people who got flayed were either a. already pretty shitty or b. completely unknown. like. it just made it less scary????

- hopper just fucking standing by the machine looking at joyce instead of running the 5 seconds up the steps into the room. seriously? was that supposed to be slow motion or was that real time??? 

- the whole thing with cerebro not working at the beginning sucked ass. 

- hey does mrs wheeler have eyes??? like??? there were exactly two (2) scenes she had with mike and nancy and both were Big Conversations like they live there right/????tbh i forgot she was their mom until those scenes bc of the whole billy thing, which i decidedly do not have an opinion on but like....do they eat breakfast there??? 

[the-golden-onion]

I'm gonna need you to elaborate on the professor situation it literally sounds like fanfic

GOD FUCJ DXKXXNBXNDBZNZNDHF

hhh. okay. OKAY. so like, I took one of his writing classes my first semester and each class was a three-hour lecture and I always sat in the front because I’m a nerd but also because he’s cute af. his SMILE oh lord he’s an amazing writer and is so wonderously eloquent in his lectures like how could I not get a crush on him??? he always goes off on these elaborate metaphors and gets super lost in the poetry sauce - god it’s amazing - and one day he stopped in the middle of one and said “I always know I’ve gone too far when Madeline looks at me like that” and i SCRVRNEJEJEJEH i still haven’t recovered

I took literally all of his classes even though none of them actually apply towards my major and tbh I would take them all again if I could

I’m 10000000000% his favorite student

most of the other people taking his classes were annoying gross dudes (I low-key despise male film students) and every time one of them said something particularly problematic/stupid my professor would roll his eyes and/or give me a look like “I know Madeline I know” before I blew up on them. he’s super intersectional feminist and always called those guys on their crap, if I didn’t do it first

it often felt like I was the only one in his class because of how often we would exchange looks silently judging those guys or referencing some inside joke, and I love to debate and was one of the most vocal students and I have absolutely zero guilt about dragging him into debates all the time - it was glorious. (the only student who talked more than i did was this idiotic asshat who wrote one of the most horrific lines i’ve ever read in my entire goddamn life: “save the commie pillowtalk for your waifu” god i could write a whole post about him but that wouldn’t be fair to humanity)

one day he told us that he also teaches a form of martial arts and we didn’t believe him because he’s like this sweet poetic nerd, so he did a demonstration (again let me remind you that I always say in the front of the class) and DAMN okay okay he really has it all I’m a goner for life

I would always get there early & stay after class and we would talk about writing/books/anything until one of us had to go. we love all the same books and movies & got into a lot of literary debates which is like the key to my mf HEART

I have several health issues and he always emailed me checking in & asking how I was doing, and god he writes the most beautiful emails, I stg he just breathes poetry - I have them all saved fjfkc. this past semester I asked him to write me a letter of recommendation for a scholarship and god like imagine having an excuse to ask the love of your life to write about how great you are

I can’t even describe how kind and compassionate and soft he is, not just to me but to all of his students

we got tea at this local market after I finished his last class and it wasn’t a date but to me it was go madeline GO! I had asked him if there was a time I could visit his office hours or something, but our schedules never matched up so he suggested tea instead. it was so nice to see him again & just chat. he complained about his current students and how much I would hate them, and I said I wished I could take his classes again he was like “You already know everything, there isn’t much more I could teach you” and I was like 😏

after that I looked up “how to date your professor” as a joke and then realized i had already done literally everything on the wiki how except actually date my professor fjfkck

we still keep in touch & like I’m convinced that this is going to happen one day

[5starnaptaker]

Have I even mentioned how much I fucking hate my ex?

Because I FUCJING do. Two years of bullshit and gas lighting, now I send my partner a text at one in the morning asking to hang out later and I know, by all logical expectations (since I know they're awake) that they read the text, but because they don't immediately respond I immediately panic thinking they're angry at me or they're ignoring me. It's completely responsible for them to wait till the morning to talk to their parents to double check they're free and even knowing this I still freak out. Jesus I'm fucked up with shit like this. I didn't even realize how fucking paranoid I am until they mentioned something off hand about me being overly defensive (among other things but that doesn't trace any bearing on this) and then my mother confirming that I realize how bad it was. Today I went into work, and because my coworker didn't immediately say hi or really react to my presence immediately I thought she suddenly didn't like me anymore, because that's what he would do! Either he would be really excited to see me and super affectionate right when we first saw each other or he would ignore me or push me aside and I could tell how he was going to act for how ever long we were together based off those few minutes (unless he got pissed or freaked out later but either way it was either bad, good, or started good and got bad) so now I react that same way to other people! I do this with my partner and one of my closest friends especially because I think they're cool and awesome and most of the time I don't feel like I deserve to be with them so if they don't immediately come over and talk to me to let me join their conversation I assume they don't want me to be there that day. Hell, the only person I don't do it with is West, but I think that's because I knew them before Kith fucked up my sense of relationships. Actually it's kind of amazing because I know Wests focus is on another of our mutual friends but for some reason this doesn't bug me or make me jealous????? But mine and West's relationship is a WHOLE another can of worms, but I think it boils down to my trust in my place in there world??? Actually I don't do it with Chanel either, but again, I know EXACTLY where I stand with Chanel just like I know EXACTLY where I stand with West. I've known those two so long and they've been with me for so long I'm just comfortable with them. It's my own sense of worthlessness and fault that stops me from opening up to the people I want to completely. I love these people so fucking much I would actually die for them but sometimes I feel like I don't know them and they don't know me?? (actually that's something my partner once yelled at me very angrily lol there's a lot of yelling with us) idk I think it's just a time thing, I've known west and Chanel for years and years and they've never once given me a reason to regret that trust and they were with me through some of the worst times in my life (lol I wonder why that was, idk maybe the gaslighting and the emotional abuse who the fuck knows) and the others I just haven't known as long? I love them to death and would do anything for them but I just don't feel secure with my place with them sometimes (some times after three years of friendship I still have to ask Claude if he actually likes me or if he's just putting up with me because I can't tell sometimes and I've never had the courage to ask Leni or Rae that. I spent two, almost three years with my most precious person hinting to me on an almost weekly basis that I wasn't as important to him as other people (he even once flat out said it on a tumblr he forgot I had) that now unless I'm absolutely one hundred percent sure that the person likes me or wants to spend time with me I panic and think they don't and don't want to. And it makes it hard in my current (platonic) relationship sometimes because they get a little mad over little things and my first reaction to think that they hate me now and don't want me anymore but in reality they've forgotten about it fifteen minutes later. I'm not used to being forgiven for minor transgressions and I forget that that's a thing that happens in healthy relationships, that people get mad some times and that's ok, it's not me hurting them and they won't ignore me or scold me for weeks after the fact. I forget that in a normal healthy relationship I don't have to watch everything I say or bend over backwards to make them forgive me because my DnD characters dislike of half elves or my forgetting to comment about the new color of their hair because we talked about it the day before isn't going make them hate me or make me loose all my friends. Jesus fucking Christ I'm messed up. Sorry about the rant I've just been doing some soul searching and that led to me cry typing this at one in the morning. Pls ignore me