#it 10000% is a fanfic scenario and im dying

[the-golden-onion]

I'm gonna need you to elaborate on the professor situation it literally sounds like fanfic

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hhh. okay. OKAY. so like, I took one of his writing classes my first semester and each class was a three-hour lecture and I always sat in the front because I’m a nerd but also because he’s cute af. his SMILE oh lord he’s an amazing writer and is so wonderously eloquent in his lectures like how could I not get a crush on him??? he always goes off on these elaborate metaphors and gets super lost in the poetry sauce - god it’s amazing - and one day he stopped in the middle of one and said “I always know I’ve gone too far when Madeline looks at me like that” and i SCRVRNEJEJEJEH i still haven’t recovered

I took literally all of his classes even though none of them actually apply towards my major and tbh I would take them all again if I could

I’m 10000000000% his favorite student

most of the other people taking his classes were annoying gross dudes (I low-key despise male film students) and every time one of them said something particularly problematic/stupid my professor would roll his eyes and/or give me a look like “I know Madeline I know” before I blew up on them. he’s super intersectional feminist and always called those guys on their crap, if I didn’t do it first

it often felt like I was the only one in his class because of how often we would exchange looks silently judging those guys or referencing some inside joke, and I love to debate and was one of the most vocal students and I have absolutely zero guilt about dragging him into debates all the time - it was glorious. (the only student who talked more than i did was this idiotic asshat who wrote one of the most horrific lines i’ve ever read in my entire goddamn life: “save the commie pillowtalk for your waifu” god i could write a whole post about him but that wouldn’t be fair to humanity)

one day he told us that he also teaches a form of martial arts and we didn’t believe him because he’s like this sweet poetic nerd, so he did a demonstration (again let me remind you that I always say in the front of the class) and DAMN okay okay he really has it all I’m a goner for life

I would always get there early & stay after class and we would talk about writing/books/anything until one of us had to go. we love all the same books and movies & got into a lot of literary debates which is like the key to my mf HEART

I have several health issues and he always emailed me checking in & asking how I was doing, and god he writes the most beautiful emails, I stg he just breathes poetry - I have them all saved fjfkc. this past semester I asked him to write me a letter of recommendation for a scholarship and god like imagine having an excuse to ask the love of your life to write about how great you are

I can’t even describe how kind and compassionate and soft he is, not just to me but to all of his students

we got tea at this local market after I finished his last class and it wasn’t a date but to me it was go madeline GO! I had asked him if there was a time I could visit his office hours or something, but our schedules never matched up so he suggested tea instead. it was so nice to see him again & just chat. he complained about his current students and how much I would hate them, and I said I wished I could take his classes again he was like “You already know everything, there isn’t much more I could teach you” and I was like 😏

after that I looked up “how to date your professor” as a joke and then realized i had already done literally everything on the wiki how except actually date my professor fjfkck

we still keep in touch & like I’m convinced that this is going to happen one day