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I like Alastor's designs that include more deer details, but I've noticed that I'm not thinking on the same deer as the rest or something? Or that everyone uses the same base and ideas, but which are not necessarily correct? (I write this just to talk about deer, everybody can draw him as they want without having to take into consideration real biology, just have fun <3)
I guess most people are using the white-tailed deer, right?
(I love that in most of the photos, deers are looking at the camera; it's not surprising that Alastor knows when Vox is watching him).
It is, after all, an American species. And people tend to draw him with a tail with white details, so I guess we're going this way. But a few details:
I have seen that it has become very popular to put a lot of fur on his chest and I really want to know who started that?? Because yes, there are deer that have a lot of it, but it's usually on the neck. And as far as I remember right now it's another species, Canadian maybe? (I'm not that well versed in the species on the other side of the pond, sorry, but it sounds like a thing for a colder region). For me, the fact that he has a broad chest is because that's the way the designs of the series are, but in his case it's also because the deer are built like way lol
I am guilty of this too, but normally deer have their tails down when they are relaxed. If it is up, they are alerted, signalling danger to others.
Which would make sense with him, because I imagine he lives on constant guard, but don't be afraid to make his tail relaxed once in a while. Also, I don't think he would be happy to show the white part, because it could be interpreted as him seeing you as a danger.
Okay, I admit it, I love it when people draw dots on Alastor's fur or like freckles. That said… Only fawns have that. It's adorable, but I feel like he'd die of embarrassment if he had those marks and would hide them.
He was still a man in his late thirties or early forties when he died, if I remember correctly from the file they found with information for auditions while they were looking for actors? Just as I feel his human designs look too young (please, someone add laugh lines and wrinkles on him; in Hell he clearly looks younger (not a rare thing according to Helluva Boss), but I guess he pursued his hobby as an older man too), the dots on his fur make me think of him as a child orz
There are some species that do have spots when they are older, such as fallow deer (different antler shape) or sika deer, but they live in other parts of the world.
A lot of redesigns I see give him more elaborate and bigger antlers, because deer have them like that, don't they?
Can I offer you the roe deer in these difficult times?
Wrong continent? Yes. Beautiful antlers just like he has when he's not in his demonic form? YES. Also, red fur.
And the detail that makes me laugh the most, in the debate of whether Alastor has a tail or not, roe deer have super small tails, so in this case the anatomically correct answer would be no lol
Wrong part of the world too, as it lives in Latin America, but I simply love the marsh deer.
Beautiful species in a vulnerable state of conservation :( But every time I draw Alastor's arms and legs with black fur, they always come to my mind. It's literally what happens to these deer. And they have a beautiful reddish colour.
But then again, these are just ramblings. Thank you for reading this far. I just really like deer lol It's always a magical experience when I travel to Cazorla and I come across them in the forest.
#hazbin hotel#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#radio demon#deer demon#hazbin hotel meta#just me losing my mind about#deer
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me lately once again
#my personality lately is being a good omens fan who waited 4 years for season 2 and now is about to lose their mind in just a few days#don't count on me to anything#i'm too busy#good omens#neil gaiman#salem shut up
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Hate (affectionate) how it's made so clear from the very beginning of part 1 just how loved Paul is by his family and household. Both his parents, Duncan, Gurney, Thufir, even Dr Yueh all clearly care so deeply for this kid, and we're shown that time and time again.
Cut to the end of part two, and almost every one of those people is gone. The only ones who remain are a weird, came-back-wrong version of Jessica, and Gurney who has gone from mentor to worshipper. Paul goes from someone deeply loved and valued for who he is by a small but caring group of people - to someone followed and worshipped and feared by thousands. They're obsessed with him in a way, as a leader and "messiah", but nobody loves him.
The only one remaining who loves him for who he is is Chani, who leaves him because in the end that love isn't enough to bring who he is back.
#dune#dune part 2#paul atreides#i am losing my MIND#upon rewatching part 1 it struck me just HOW loved paul is. and then you contrast that with his horde of followers in part 2#none of whom will so much as touch him when he's injured badly enough that he can barely walk#he's not human anymore. he's just an idea.#i am in physical pain#something something it's about parasocial relationships & celebrity culture#like idk if that was frank or denis' intention but. i see a bit of That.
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every now and then i look back on this GIF i have of nalu during tartaros arc and cry about how this particular scene alone solidifies the beauty of their relationship (natsu holding lucy's hand gently in the face of chaos and panic did wonders to my heart)
#i make it a commitment to rewatch this whenever i miss them#this was The nalu moment for me#my roman empire#no because obviously if they didn't want to get separated natsu should've grabbed her hand a bit more aggressively. locking fingers and shi#BUT NO. he shifted his approach and took her hand GENTLY AND THE BEAUTY OF THAT CLOSEUP GETS TO ME EVERY TIME#he was so gentle 😭#it gives me so much butterflies. i love this scene so so so much#YES I MISS NALU and in going crazy about them Again because 100YQ is back#it's his hand istg. the way his hand desperately tries to reach her and then it shifts to hold her hand like that#because what was bro trying to hold... he didnt grab her hand. he just held it. and i lose my mind thinking about this every time#i lvoe them in case i wasnt clear enough#nalu#fairy tail#natsu dragneel#lucy heartfilia#natsu x lucy#ft thoughts#mine
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just thinking about hair and faces
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#i don't THINK this counts as face horror but just in case#face horror#for your daily dose of me losing my mind over anime characters#i don't know why the hair thing surprised me so much. i think because i thought it was funny that lilia named silver after his hair color.#like ha ha lilia is hilariously bad at names how cute and silly!#oh. oh it's kind of a Thing.#anyway i am excited to see where the heck all of this stuff with silver's various dads ends up!#we still don't actually know who killed meleanor!#we still don't know literally anything about dad draconia! (dadconia? dradconia?)#we don't know what happened to the macguffin gem with its magical dad-saving powers!#(surely this will not come back to save a certain dad at a later point. of course not.)#man i was not expecting episode 7 to be all dads all the time#i mean i'm here for it but#hey remember when the highest stakes were who was gonna win the big talent show#then robots started kidnapping people and now we've just escalated from there#episode 8 our cat is going to turn into a drippy ink kaiju and we're going to have to mecha battle him to save the world or something#each member of diasomnia pilots a limb and we gattai into a giant robot dragon and hold on i gotta submit this spec script to aniplex brb
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Concept: Fire Lords traditionally dress like the stages of the sun to match their reign.
When Zuko is first crowned, he dresses in the colours of dawn. Bright yellows and pinks and even purples. He starts to wear more traditional crimson-and-gold robes after a few years, the colours of midday when Agni is at his strongest. And towards the end of his reign, when he's getting ready to pass the crown onto Izumi, he starts dressing like the setting sun.
#i haven't been able to stop thinking about this for DAYS please free me#avatar#atla#i imagine this was something that went out of style with sozin's era#because fire lords refused to wear anything but the colours of midday#because they believed that was the only way to signify that they are strong#anyway i'm just losing my mind at teenage fire lord zuko dressed like the rising sun#my posts#atla headcanons#au ideas
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We were separated.
#yes i did just post a nearly identical version of this#but my brain is aflame#and i could not decide between them#choose your own adventure#i am literally about to lose power#so i rushed to finish this before my computer could die (for a third time)#but the forces of nature are not enough to prevent me from losing my mind#star trek tos#star trek unification#star trek#spirk#kirk x spock#spock#kirk#grissomesque edits#trekedit#Kirk & spock
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Being a batfam fan is funny because people will make a post like “here’s my headcanon-“ and it’s just something that’s directly canon to the story then post about major canon events and get everything wrong.
#this post was inspired by me remembering the experience of reading death in the family#after only knowing the fanbase version and realizing oh none of that shit happened okay#like girl you don’t understand it’s so bad#Jason wasn’t even fired as Robin#He’s not accused of murdering anyone by Bruce#He’s not trying to prove himself at all he’s just looking for his mom#The reason Bruce didn’t go after him right away is because he was tracking down a goddamn nuke the Joker stole#Then after he finds it and handles the problem he helps Jason track down moms 2 and 3#Also Jason died in like 20 minutes?? even less??#He died in less time than it took his mother to smoke a cigarette#Bruce literally went ‘wait here I’ll be right back’ and was gone for less time than a trip to the grocery store#and then you go into the Jason Todd tag and they act like Bruce pulled the damn trigger on him#Like besties I don’t know how to tell you this he basically did everything right he possibly could have#Even him benching Jason from Robin temporarily happens so that he can get Jason into therapy about his trauma#Like the whole point is that neither of them did anything wrong bad shit just sometimes happens#That’s the tragedy. The drama.#Bruce couldn’t have made better choices in the position he was in and Jason was never going to make different ones#It was inevitable#Anyway rant over please read death in the family before I lose my mind#batfam#batman#jason todd#tim drake#dick grayson#damian wayne#bruce wayne
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the fact that nora made Jean gentle at heart is so special to me. despite everything that’s happened to him and although he’s a bit abrasive, he still cleans the damn dishes and puts away leftovers without being asked i love him so much
#i just finished the whole book and i’m gonna have to reread that shit again#i’ve loved Jean for many years now (catch the username) and i just feel so special about him#and i can’t get over the fact that he’s 19#which means he was 18 during the events of the foxhole court series#and the parallels between him and neil#WHEN HE SWITCHES OVER FROM CALLING NEIL NATHANIEL#that part made me lose my mind#tsc#tsc spoilers#the sunshine court spoilers#jean moreau#my love and light
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Not Them still haunting me even on my hike.
More than one hundred miles away from home and I am still unable to escape Them. Not even physically.
I can't anymore. THEY WON’T LEAVE ME ALONE.
(watch me lose my absolute mind in the tags💀
#this is literally the physical manifestation of my subconscious. or consciousness more like.#can you imagine how utterly dumbstruck and BEWILDERED I was when this first whizzed past the car??#I was physically frozen in my seat cuz WHAT THE HELL IS THIS#WHAT DO YOU MEAN HOLMES LAW&WATSON LAWYERS???#WHAT DO YOU MEAN HOLMES BEING THE LITERAL LAW AND WATSON BEING THE LAWYER FIGHTING FOR HIM#like sksjskskdjsksksk HELLO?!?!?#there’s me losing my mind over this existing and actually happening to ME and also just how mind bogglingly funny this is#(and yeah no we’re not talking about those two morons breaking the law for each other and being literal partners in crime on a daily basis.#I can’t do this anymore.#I actually want to walk in and straight up tell them GOOD JOB ON THE SIGNBOARD#consulting. lawyers.#somebody write a fic please.#bbc sherlock#sherlock bbc#sherlock#sherlock holmes#john watson#johnlock#acd holmes#acd watson#acd johnlock#johnlock headcanon#buckingham-ashtray
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#ep 2 but upgrade every parallel 😳
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#marveledit#loki spoilers#once again we're only on episode TWO??#and since that was a peak of the first season and now they're infinitely more married and equals in every way!!#as someone extremely unwell about parallels this ep has me losing my whole damn mind lmaooooooooo#bc theres's honestly like a dozen more to add except they're multi scene#and i'm running on fumes being unable to stop giffing them as is so these are just the first obvious ones i remembered 😅#loki s2 spoilers#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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wednesday was the 1000th day since the fateful afternoon my roommate asked to see the space cowboy show i apparently used to talk about a lot and i wanted to do a big illustrated piece to celebrate but my job keeps me from drawing anything at all !!!!!!!
anyways i've been missing vash so so so so so bad u guys can anybody hear me it's so dark in here.
lines also cuz i really like how his hair turned out :3 reminds me of the couple shoujo manga i read as a kid teehee
#trigun#trigun anime#trigun fanart#vash#vash the stampede#this is just extra details over an old doodle i posted before i haven't had time for anything else#i'm losing my mind <3 it is all so bad you guys <3#okay but really i could NOT remember ever talking about trigun at all but i can even look back through old dms#and see how many times 2018 forward id just randomly bring it up to ppl fhdjdjjd#even with insane memory loss problems apparently trigun keeps its hold on me For Ever lol
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wait wait wait, so we had: a gorgeously diverse, complicated story about the folly of the Jedi, set against the backdrop of truly fascinating Force witch lore and a potential deep-dive into the real fallout of suppressing emotion, complete with totally rad lightsaber fights, grayscale characters all around, and the coolest fucking helmet in the history of the franchise, all tucked into the world of Star Wars, which makes money simply by existing--and they cancelled it?? i am going to explode
#star wars#the acolyte#the acolyte spoilers#genuinely this is the most interesting thing they've done in this universe in YEARS#and yeah yeah there was the moment at the beginning where they for some reason decided there could be Fire in Space#but are you KIDDING me?? are you KIDDING#jacinto in this show is what kylo stans have been dreaming about for AGES#the twins are fucking FASCINATING#just the scene of a possessed wookie with a lightsaber alone should have yeeted this into the archives of Coolest Shit Ever#and you fucking wasted it?? you cancelled it?? are you out of your goddamn MIND disney???#a genuinely scary villain who somehow isn't the scariest thing about the show. complexity all around. lightsaber FISTFIGHTS.#i am going to lose my mind#i am so mad#you'd think i'd be used to this shit by now but come on dude
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mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
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i think one of the biggest scams i've seen in my lifetime is the idea that it looks better to have to have all matching mugs, preferably that match your dishes
reblog and tell me about your coffee mug
#i never want to see a dish set come with mugs again#(actually i change my mind i just realized i could give them away as gifts#and my friends would have mugs that match my dishes#but only for fancy dish sets not the soulless ones from walmart)#i trend minimalism and matching aesthetics in real life so i AM the target audience for that kind of thing#and theres honestly nothing i love more than asking my friends about their unique things#and you lose that when you all have soulless matching mugs#my favourite mug is a 20oz thats half glazed and unglazed pottery#reminds me of living in yellowknife with miles and the coffees we made during covid#my previous favourite mug was a gift from my mom#an awesome 20oz mug with a cute downward dog with dog drawing
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Sometimes I think about Aventurine in the moment he first discovered his Pathstrider abilities. The moment he first realized he could shield not only himself but also others. The very first moment he realized he could be a source of safety, rather than a burden--than a curse.
Sometimes I think about the hatred he must have felt for himself in that instant.
Where was this power when their camps were burned to the ground with every last one of their meager possessions? Where was this power when his mother died begging as he cowered, playing dead in a bath of the blood of everyone he knew?
Where was this power when his sister stood tall, a silhouette against the lightning, and used her body as the shield? Where was this power in the maze, when it could have spared the screaming child who was the first to die?
You could have saved them. You could have saved them. You could have saved them.
#honkai star rail#aventurine#it's Aventurine angst hour!!!#come get your pain!#sometimes my thoughts on Aventurine are just#“Try not to cry.” “Cry a lot.”#but in particular I think about Aventurine unlocking Preservation powers a lot#canon doesn't tell us whether it happened before or after becoming a Stoneheart#and either way I think could be great#like if it happened right when he first got free#how useless and late it must have felt#if it happened after he became a Stoneheart#how much would he question it#is he a true Pathstrider or just piggy-backing on Diamond's gift#will he lose that protection if he leaves the Stonehearts?#then he can never leave because that's the best tool he has for saving people he loves#don't mind me#sometimes I too want to torment the best boy
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