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does anyone else get that sinking feeling when a friend gets really into something you absolutely adore/have been hyperfixating on, but when you mentioned it, they ignored it (and kinda just ignore you unless and will talk over you to talk to their actual friends to the point where you're not even sure if y'all are friends or just acquaintances) and now they're really liking it and you just. want to gatekeep it bc that interest was (and is!) important to you...
or am i just being childish lol
#shut up k#forever frustrated with how people will act like they're in a clique online too#it's even more annoying when no one was mean necessarily#just kinda snubbing that same interest#and now you're like oh this is v interesting#this is about a twt only oomf btw not anyone here#or anyone on here and twt#but i'm just kinda annoyed bc like. link click was my thing#and i was so ready to share#but when i was you just straight up launched into talking over me to your other friend#it's the first time i've felt too old for that kind of drama#and you're both older than me so this really shouldn't be happening#but anyway i watched all of your favorites first and was excited about all of them to you first#and you ignored them all only to turn around and scream about them to your bsf three days later#which is cool#this is a rant i'm aware i sound childish i'm majorly stressed over an orgo final and this was my final straw#but it's also a pattern#idk the most childish part is wishing you never got into lc#bc now it's not just you ignoring me to talk about it#it's you AND your bsf#which is totally cool#i'm v cool with this#y'all are freaking 23 and i just barely turned 20 and this feels so middle school ugh
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what are some upcoming xiyouji media that youāre excited for?
Here are a few!
2020 Journey to the West: Conquer the Demons č„æęøøééēÆ - I think this is like a re-write of the whole Chow Xiyouji films into a tv series!
2020 I'm Not a Great Sage ęäøęÆå¤§å£ - the Six-Earred Macaque being seen as a hero when he is trying so hard to be a villain. (Correction there are two movies with the same name and I got the poster for the wrong one whoops)
2021 Seven Sages äøå£ - a movie all about Wukong's brotherhood like with Snub-Nose Monkey King or Flood Dragon King!
2021 Sun Wukong: Heaven Devourer Monkeyåęē©ŗä¹å¬å¤©éē“ Trailer - the animation for this looks AMAZING AND I CANT WAIT!!!
2022 King of Confusion: The Rise of the Great Sage / Four Monkeys in Confusion ę··äøä¹ēļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ę··äøåē“ /ę··äøä¹ēä¹å¤§å£å“čµ· - Super excited to see Wukong and ALL THE SPIRITUAL MONKEYS!!! FINALLY THE WHOLE GANG IS HERE
2022 Bajie: Movie Preview å
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ē - I am a huge Bajie fan and this just looks ADORABLE!
2022 The Lower Boundary of the Canopy of Bajieå
«ęä¹å¤©č¬äøē - Another Bajie love story and honestly this one looks precious, he really trying to just get his weapon back but oh no he is being WOOED!
2022 Red Boy: Newborn Calfēŗ¢å©åæä¹åēēē - super fun animation! Really want to see the back story in this one!
2022 Monkey King and JJ大å£åę±ęµåæ - I NEED THIS I NEED THIS LIKE WATER I NEED HERO IS BACK WUKONG TO BE A FATHER PLEASE
2023 The Legends of Monkey King åäŗåæ - This was based on like a web novel and it sound more insane that it should be. can't say it is "good" but it def sounds interesting at LEAST.
2025Monkey King: The Havoc in Heavenč„æęøøč®°ä¹å¤§å£é¹å¤©å®« - I have heard that THIS is going to be a prequel to the 2015 Hero is Back Movie SO !!!!!!!!!!!! WOULD LOVE TO SEE MORE HERO IS BACK WUKONG HE IS LIKE MY SECOND FAVORITE!!!
2030Monkey King: Flame Mountainåęē©ŗä¹ē«ē°å±± - the animation here just looks so interesting and Wukong looks so uncaney valley I'm really interested about this one.
NullThe Monkey Prince - this one is kinda a cheat but it is a WUKONG-inspired character and honestly, this looks like a lot of fun!!
NullJourney to the West - I can only PRAY that the art style of the poster for this movie is the same as the animation. I have NEVER seen a Xiyouji movie done by the French but if they make it this whimsical and colorful attitude I'm HERE FOR IT.
Needless to say, I'm excited about a lot of things.
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iambkay Thank you starlightboulevard for inviting me to host tonightās Nomination Ceremony. Congratulations again to all the nominees for Fall Accolades and Celebrity Tile placements this year! It still feels like a dream to see my name amongst the legends on the Boulevard and I wish all of you can feel the same one day. I am also so very honored to be the first recipient of the Global Innovator Award. I hope to continue to live up to such a prestigious title. š¦
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simshaderoom Nominations are out for the Starlight Accolades. #BaileyKay hosted the event and collected new bling she won earlier this week. Noticeably missing from the list once again was #DizzyDes. Everyone thought this was finally going to be his year to get on the Starlight Boulevard, but looks like he will have to keep waiting.Ā Y'all think this has anything to do with the BK vs Dizzy feud??? š¤
d-lo Congratulations Queen!!! Who do I have to speak to so I can get my ā next to yours?! #Vybez #Winning š§š¦
dizzydes Where is that conspiracy guy because this shit is crazy! Snubbed again by the Boulevard when my success speaks for itself. The numbers donāt lie! And now weāre making up awards because the spoiled princess canāt win anything for the actual music??!! Real interestingā¦
rubberbandshan Congratulations Queen BK! We know you donāt need awards to tell you how great you are but that bling still looks good on you.
rubberbandshan Also D-Lo returns to the top spot!!!!!! Can't hold him down. Congratulations on making it to the Boulevard!
kingb I love this Fucked Around and Found Out Tour that Dizzazter is on! Getting my š¦ Hive liiiiiiife. Congratulations to the Queen and King!
anon I swear I'm not on Dizzy's side but this random ass award is kinda weird. It seems like the Starlight Academy is trying to make up for BK not getting the awards she used to. Just a thought.
wildbutterfly I mean this with all respect but daaaaamn the girls are SITTING in this dress and BK is looking so... luscious. I just want to be in the room. Just want to observe. That's all...
c.spiracy I heard I was summoned but I don't work for you Dizzy. I was also too busy looking for clues and you almost made me miss an obvious one. The necklace... one large mama butterfly and her four baby butterflies surrounding her. Sighs in I'm always right.
#did you scroll back up to check on c's theory?#š¤£š¤£#too much fun with these sims...#your boy is back on top!!!#we missed you d-lo#i need more dumb desperate d names for dizzy#suggestion box is open lol#bklegacy#bklgen2#bailey kay#simshaderoom#dizzydes#rubberbandshan#c.spiracy
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Analyzing the Dethklok boys and their relation to Gods
So I've recently gotten into Metalocalypse and was kinda upset that no one in my vicinity has either not heard or cares about this show enough to yap and analyze it with me but then I remembered that I have a Tumblr just collecting dust and this is a perfect place to just...talk. But anyway going back to the whole purpose of this post I wanted to touch on the boys pretty literal godhood presented in the show and how it reflects on their character and their backstories starting with...
Toki Wartooth
Starting off with one of the easiest to analyze since he arguably has the most lore present to the viewer. Throughout the series, toki is presented as the most childish as well as the most emotional of the group with parallels to the angle of death sprinkled everywhere. It's prophesized that anyone he loves or finds dear kicks the bucket with the boys being an exception (since IMO their prophecy and own godlike powers kinda cancel it out). Whether it is that child fan whom he was unironically doing the favor of declining her until the last second or his own father- everyone he loves either dies or never progresses in life (i.e. Dr.Rockso). By nature he is a bad omen who particularly gets canceled out by another member- I'll get into that shut up- but also has weird relations with the big man upstairs, Jesus Christ. His appearance is even similar to that of him and in scenes of his childhood where he's being heavily abused by his parents, you can see parallels of the lashings on his back. When being tortured by Magnus alongside Abigail they are crucified and put into the position Jesus once was in. [Also, sidenote I find it interesting how he deals with stressful situations either by tweaking or age-regressing by having Pickles be his caretaker. Since you can see him slowly regress through the series (no he did not regress all of a sudden after being saved you can clearly see how he regresses throughout the series, and I stand on that bruh) but regresses hard during the aftermath.]
Skwisgaar Skwigelf
Being the adonis he is, I think Skwisgaar represents life to counter Toki's roots in death. His appearance replicating common ideals of angels paired with his height and canonical attractiveness, Skwisgaar is truly a seductress of all sorts. To the point, I get huge Zeus feelings from him (hell it was kinda pushed into our faces during the episode showing how many children he's fathered). His learned skill contrasts itself with Toki's raw talent and has a constant clash- going back to the fact that they represent death and life respectively. I think their constant fighting kinda represents the back and forth between life and death, and those small tidbits where they do show compassion towards each other are a display of how one couldn't exist without the other. It's the fear of Toki possibly getting better than him that pushes Skwisgaar to be on top of shit and it's Skwisgaar's superiority complex and constant snubbing of Toki that pushes the other to battle for the same position. It's another interesting thing how they both deal with their traumas differently. as I truly believe Skwisgaar is prolly hypersexual due to being constantly exposed to well.. sex. And when he's not pondering on that aspect of his life then he's parading around his guitar skills as another coping method. I mean his guitar is LITERALLY part of him 24/7.
Nathan Explosion
Saw a bunch of discussions/debates on what Nathan could be, ranging from power, love, and rage (tbh that's more William than anything). And I think it's a mixture. Nathan is the only member of Dethklok to actually seem to have a stable background out of all of the band, also being the only member consistently in non-one note relationships. And while he does divulge himself groupies he seems to be genuinely interested in having long-term relationships as seen with him getting ready to propose to Abigail (which I honestly think he didn't really want to, he just felt something was missing and hoped a woman he had something with could fulfill that purpose). All of this makes me think he has some domain/relation to love as well as power seeing his influence of thousands being the head of Dethklok. His power is so insanely strong that whenever he doesn't deliver or even when he does via performances the area goes to shit and he strikes up chaos. A little part of me wonders if that's because all of the boys performing is like some Leviathan event but I digress. And in this role, it is Nathan who counters...
William
William arguably has the least info bout his background other than how his two parents died and how he was treated harshly in school, there's not jack about him. However, I do feel like he has domain over hate, pride, and chaos. I mean this man's hatred is so intense that it extends to every part of himself and is an essential part of Dethklok's sound. Without him, they are positive, which funny enough is pretty reflective of the role of bass in a band. It's the link between the drums and everything else. So no matter what the rest of the instruments are doing at that moment the bass sets a tone and is fundamentally dictated by him. He's a mean, vulgar, and brash force that in a weird way counters everyone a tad bit. (love lil bro for that tho).
Pickles
Quite literally being dubbed the mother of the group by fandom and cannon I think Pickles represents the maternal figure of the group kinda. But at the same time he neither counters nor has a specific role in the group that isn't being the drummer. (though drummers act like the temporal glue i.e. wrangling his stupid bandmates to the right path) He takes on this id personality yet also acts brash. The closest thing I could compare him to being a Dionysus figure. Specifically how he represents overindulgence which can be seen in his multitude of addictions but his insanely high tolerance, other than the relation to alcohol Dionysus also has 2 sides just like pickles. One minute he is the most stable and mature of the group and the next he is thrown into a jealous or petty rage. (which can be seen in fatherklok of with Abigail and Nathan)Most often being spurred on by his family history of being the scapegoat for all their problems. And if you subscribe to the pickles is trans propaganda (which I fully am fucking down for) then the weird parallels between Dionysus's split presentation between femininity and masculinity interacting with each other is interesting to see. Especially when he becomes a maternal figure for toki, Skwisgaar, and William- but a pseudo partner for Nathan who also kind of represents the patriarchal power in the home. Paired with Dionysus having domain over theatre and entertainment is interesting with his roots in glam metal being the frontman for Snakes and Barrels.
anyways little shitty rant is OVER! I love this series so very much and I'm sad I just got into this fandom.
#metalocalypse#pickles the drummer#william murderface#toki wartooth#skwisgaar skwigelf#nathan explosion#character study#professional yapper#character analysis#RAAAAAAH LOVE THESE FUCKS#i could also go into how they rep different types of metal#AHHHHH'#grinded writing this listening to MF DOOM gfvgx
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Hey Booky! Marketing anon here.
So I had thought and I wanted to share with you something thatās not marketing specific related. I confirmed that TMZ did indeed crop fish out of the post with Chris of stars at the CAA party.
So, hereās the thing. Since Iāve already mentioned I work in marketing and PR, and my role very strictly aligns with legal, youāll notice why I choose my words carefully and even if people want me to bash Fish I donāt. Not because I like her (I do not) but because Iām well trained in my job. I only say what I feel has concrete evidence to support my arguments. Fans hatred and opinions while valid cannot be the source of justification. Unless thereās hard evidence I will stay away from saying anything directā¦
Just like those shady fuckers at TMZ š
Pay attention to TMZ. ET, JJ, ENews, etc are all paid to push a certain narrative because thatās how it works. But the fact that TMZ continues to be subtly shady is very interesting to me. Two years in and itās still this way.
āChris confirms he got marriedā - TMZ. Why didnāt they just say TMZ confirms? Becauseā¦they canāt. Two kinda ceremonies and sometimes rings and alluding based on IG follows is not confirmation. He said it, yes. Thatās why they can write he confirms. But they canāt confirm it was with her because he didnāt say it. And even if he walks around with her and they wear rings - lol, they still havenāt said they married each other. Do you see why TMZ has to refrain? Itās a little silly at this point because most ppl have come accept Occamās razor, but it is Hollywood. What happens here stays here but also doesnāt but also can be anything and nothing at the same time.
TMZ knows this and they also know out of anyone the shit that goes down in Tinseltown. Donāt yāall find it odd theyāve been so reluctant on this whole SS - barely choosing to report and only doing it when they absolutely have to? Iām not saying that this means they donāt think the two got legally married, but I am saying they have reason to believe in reasonable doubt.
Look at TMZās website and IG. Theyāre basically deuxmoi most of the time. Reporting on Kanyeās wife wearing assless pants to an industry party??? Theyāre no better than daily mail. Except TMZ is founded by ex/lawyers if Iām not mistaken and they know how to cover all the loopholes. They can say with confidence Kanye and his wife because I think they found the wedding certificate. They can sit here and make posts about Timothee and Kylie and Travis and Taylor despite the very very obvious PR element because both sides have acknowledged each other publicly more than once, have been seen in public attending and pda-ing at industry events, and theyāre honestly more entertaining to write about.
Chris on his own can be interesting and when something pertaining to him happens TMZ may report on it. But itās painfully clear TMZ does not care about fish. Iām pretty sure this latest snub by them sort of confirms that so I can at least say that. I wonāt say sheās blacklisted or anything because sheās clearly not. But I donāt believe sheās far from scraping the bottom of the barrel either. Oops
Again, TMZ is no better than the rest of them but they do know how to work their way around a legal loophole and make sure they cover their grimy asses. Iāll give them that.
Bye love ā¤ļø
They're smart.
No wonder they're extremely opinionated š they're founded by ex/lawyers š and how they manage to stay afloat, even with their words.
And the way they do it is mighty impressive to me. Plus, they win points for the shade.
And Marketing Anš«¶n, you're doing great! Anyone who's read your messages can attest to that. It's why we look forward to your replies š helps us see and learn something that we didn't understand before you told us.
So, once again... Thank you š„°
#Anš«¶n asks#Hi Marketing Anš«¶n#Marketing Anš«¶n asks continued#booky reacts#booky answers#chris evans#chris evans fandom#continue to slay ā¤ļø
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Alright bestie, second chance bracket now that weāre down to the sweet 16, who you got?
Cos rn i got (and iām actually mostly using my singular brain cell this time):
Elite 8
SC vs ND (i think Oregon St could upset ND but i hope not)
Texas v Stanford (i could see nc state potentially upsetting stanford but i think stanford holds on)
Colorado vs UCLA (wvu came sooo close to that golden upset, and so in jaylyn i trust to actually get the job done. UCLA and LSU have both seemed a bit shaky to me so this is a toss-up but no way in hell am i gonna choose milky)
USC vs UConn (of course)
Final Four
SC vs Texas (idk, stanford hasnāt given me a lot of confidence lately but i could be wrong!)
UCLA vs UConn (going with ucla marginally since they swept colorado during the regular szn, and huskies restarting that final four streak plus paige reminding everyone thatās still doubting, why sheās the best. Like i love juju but itās still paige>>>)
National Championship
SC vs UConn
Champion
I want to say UConn, babes, I do but i just cannot see anyone beating SC rn and us even getting to this point with our (lack of) depth would be a heck of an achievement but beating SC is one too many hail marys i think š
Ngl though, i kinda donāt wanna see us lose to SC again in the championship game and so a part of me would actually rather us lose in the final 4 if that was the case š¬ (unless we play iowa or lsu then fuck that iāll take the loss to sc)
I'm scared to predict at this point cause my brackets was in shambles and lowkey you and I are on the same wavelength with most of these but here we go:
Elite 8:
SC vs ND: SC obviously (and I need them to destroy those zionists) and I think Oregon St. could make something happen but I think after the Naismith "snub" (quotes cause I'm 50-50 on this) Hannah is gonna be on one and Oregon St. doesn't have anyone who can stop her.
Texas vs Stanford: Texas because Gonzaga does nothing for me and Stanford v NC-State is gonna be really interesting, but ultimately I don't see how NC-State stops Cam and Kiki.
Iowa vs UCLA: Listen I think Colorado can beat Iowa. I just don't think they can beat the refs+Iowa+the narrative the networks want. The same honestly could be said for LSU-UCLA because the LSU-Iowa rematch is what the NCAA wanted but I think UCLA can overcome that (as opposed to Colorado) because they're a better team and because LSU has been unimpressive to me
UConn vs USC: Baylor does not impress me at all and well the UConn-Duke matchup *pray pray pray* I'mma shut up about it because I'm not in the mood to jinx things
Final 4:
SC vs Stanford: I think the ND vs SC game will be a lot better than the one in Paris but SC is just too much at the end of the day. And again with Stanford-Texas, I could see it go either way but I just don't see Texas stopping Cam-Kiki both
UCLA vs UConn: UCLA is a better team but again there's a narrative and refs and even despite that as we saw last year, it could still be Iowa, but I still think it's gonna be UCLA. USC vs UConn, Juju vs Paige might cancel out but I'd like to think the rest of the UConn team (if they show up) is better than the USC also just who's gonna guard Aaliyah?
National Championship
SC vs UConn: I do actually have Stanford in my bracket but as you said they're kinda not giving me the greatest vibes and well SC is SC. On the other side though, fuck it, in Paige Bueckers we believe. But also, I think this is a much better team than the one that faced UCLA in November. We were figuring things out and the team's morale was really low, I think we'll be much better. Also never underestimate Cori Close's ability to be outcoached especially if it's Geno of all people. A
Champion: I'm not gonna say it but y'all know what I'm thinking. Does it make sense to pick SC? Yes. If you're a betting person, do that. But me I'm here for vibe so once again, fuck it, in Paige Bueckers we believe!
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to me probably the most insulting part of Carrie as a character is the way she has the same voice actress as Bridgette so like why not just bring back Bridgette?š why make up a new character with the most lackluster gimmick ever instead of fleshing out a character that consistently got the short end of the stick. may be a hot take but id probably prefer Bridgette in the place of Geoff because he got further in island and had an actual arc in action unlike her. Sure she was in world tour as well but she got snubbed the hell out of there too. I just want to see a Bridgette independence arc and carrie kinda shoves in your face that we didnt get one LOL
yeaaa that wouldve been interesting! i was thinking if carrie was still lackluster, at least just get her and devin out of the season a lot sooner. why keep them so long š
but if someone else like bridgette was there, then it wouldve been a lot better use of that time! if they wrote geoff a lot better than they had for a while there, then surely they wouldve done a great job w bridgette
also bridgette being in the race instead of geoff kffbdkdn im sure she wouldve brought her own friend but my first thought was that its still brody. and she likes him fine enough! but geoff RLY wanted them to bond even more and brody sometimes gets a little too silly for her but she doesnt wanna be mean to her bfs bf(f) yknow!!! automatically a better team idea than carrie and devin. this team name could still be "the best friends" bc theyre geoffs best friends !!!!!! wah
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7-08-024 man, i fucked up.
today,tomorrow,toā¦
Ive been vomiting for the past 24+ hours now. i like to say āhahah iām vomiting SO MUCH but idk why..ā i know why. Rome makes me sick, rome makes me want to relapse, rome allows me to relapse. I know itās no romeās fault here, i wish it was. I wish all of this was anyone else fault but mine, but here we are, with all the faults in the world i guess.
i have to say tho, among all of the european capitals, rome is the least chic one by a mile.
Yesterday a bought me some Ketamine. I have a complicated relationship with K since the first time i tried it almost twelve-thirteen years ago and not knowing how to use it i just decided to open the bag and snort the whole thing in one line. Bad idea, i spent the night hugging the service toilet at my highschool with a friend making fun of me during the whole thing. Then after that day, i snubbed it at practically every occasion i had, i just wasnāt interested in that devilish thing again, and now, since a few years iām again at it. I donāt want to talk about this tho, kinda boring, kinda useless.
8-08-024 somebody save me from myself
the purge
i tried to force myself to post, but i started writing then said āfuck it, why should anybody care?ā then said āBuT IM DoInG tHIs FoR MySeLf sO whY dOeS it maTTeR if people enjoy it?ā and then again āiām lying as usual, few are the things i do where iām not concerned about how i will be perceived, social media isnāt one of them.ā so iām here now, less whiny than the other day, but more sick.
I keep vomiting, crying, then trying to drink lil sips of water then vomiting again the same water i just drank. Atp this night i felt like a dry prune, without water, without anything substantial in me, wrinkled and all, i was literally crying hugging my garbage bin: i want to note that the garbage bin is literally kinda a wicker basket, so lot of holes and whatnot. I said to my dad, that because of my āpuking problemā maybe we should pick a new one that doesnāt make everything messier every time this happens, and he bought another binā¦. a DRILLED metallic one, so now i have a little drilled bin inside a wicker basket, a nightmare every time, now i have to also clean them after iām finished!
i donāt think i have an ED, or at least not in the way it is usually explained. Ive always been skinny and kinda minature, and always ate whatever, but i have to admit that while once i believed ( and sometimes said myself ) the whole āi eat whatever and whenever and i stay sKiNNnYyYyYyā , i know understand this whole thing better. While i have a fast metabolism and a skinny/petite corporature, and itās true that sometimes i eat McDonaldās four days in a row, i donāt put weight on cause i eat nothing during the whole day tho. like, i wake up and drink latte macchiato ( idk outside Italy what Latte Macchiato is, here is just like 1/4 coffee and 3/4 milk with maybe a lil sugar ), then mid morning i drink Latte macchiato, then i skip lunch, then in the afternoon you guess it! Latte macchiato! ( if itās summer sometimes it gets changed with a cold Cola in the glass bottle, love it ), and THEN i eat McDonaldās. But if you consider the fact that iām pretty active as a person , always moving even if iām home in bed, and that i only drink coffee and milk the whole day, itās not weird not gaining weight if you have a crispy mcBacon for dinner 4 nights straight.
So yeah, i think that whole āeat a lot donāt put on weightā itās a little bit of a fairytale, but iām sure that there is always a girl swearing that for them is exactly like that. Good for you Veronica.
Sometimes is also happens, that because i donāt really eat during the day, i end up having less hunger than if i ate ( i always ate slayāØ), and then the hunger makes me nauseous, so then i vomit but i vomit absolutely nothing but slimish green bile, and then i am even more āhungryā- the problem is that iām not, even when i am atp, iām not hungry, i feel nauseous and i know that itās because i need to eat, but i would rather not- it becomes a cycle, and every time is exhausting, this night i felt like i just wanted to die. I just wanted to be put off of this misery. Now itās kinda better, kinda, rn here is 12AM, i woke up at three AM to, you guess it, vomit and it went on until almost two hours ago, i feel like shit.
I bought a watermelon at the store/supermarket, there is a real market near the store with better watermelons but i donāt want to enter that lively place, vade retro lol, so iām okay with a watery and less red watermelon. iām now eating in very small bites a small pizza no topping and all, but iām far from feeling fine.
ok ill stop writing for now, IM DYIIIIING- i wish i was - aaaaaaaaaghhh somebody save me fucking please
xx emma
#diary#writing#outfit#i hate it here#i hate this#dear diary#blog#blogging#life series#life sux#tired#mentally exhausted#mental health#sickness#sick#cant do this anymore#cant do anything#anxienty#im sorry#kinda depressing#writers on tumblr#my diary#im so tired#day in the life#rome#tw drugs
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ATLA spoilers/Azula stuff. Kinda big mad now, why does this fandom suck so hard.
I posted something in the ATLA fandom for the first time and was super excited about participating. Then I was immediately grossed out by how much ship hate and toxic discourse there is oml.
The ship wars surrounding Zutara are bad enough, especially when I ship all the things. But on top of that, apparently if you think Azula can be redeemed (not in the sense of being forgiven, but more like coming to terms w her past actions and sorting out her very, very obvious baggage), or are even ambivalent to the idea, you're a fascist sympathizer?!
I don't even care what happens to Azula. but some people really gotta chill with the attacks and tbh, totally reductive takes?
For starters, Azula was literally groomed to become a child soldier by her father. It doesn't excuse her actions at all, but there are so many signs in the show to explain why she is like she is, and why her finding some kind of closure wouldn't be out of the blue. The whole point of her and Zuko's backstories were to show how things came to be how they were. The writers and animators didn't put that stuff there for no reason.
That look on her face when Ty Lee was speaking during the campfire scene, for example? She was obviously sympathetic to Ty Lee, but as soon as Ty Lee looked at her, she snubbed her! She wanted to care, but she didn't want to show it. World's most obvious 'tough guy' act, and how much do we wanna bet it was because her father didn't let her show weakness, and she was just more receptive to indulging it than Zuko was, for whatever psychological reasons? She came off like she was hard-wired for self-interest, which probably predisposed her to all of Ozai's bs. But I also see people calling Azula a psychopath, and I'm like bruh, did we watch the same show?! A psychopath would feel no emotions about hurting people, Azula clearly does feel stuff, even if she takes pride in her war-related work, which does involve hurting/killing people. She's not a psychopath by definition, plain and simple, calling her that is reductive af.
I don't even think 'psychopath' is the right term to use in general for people like that, so there lol. Credibility points -1.
Then she apologized to Ty Lee during the party. Her apology could've just been a way to keep Ty Lee on her side, but then she went a step further and openly admitted to being jealous of Ty Lee. What purpose did that serve in the initial apology? None! She just did it because reasons, it had no functional or tactical purpose. Her interactions with all the party people screamed that she wanted relationships, too, but she didn't know how to communicate, and it obviously bugged her. She was upset about it.
She's shown she cares for Zuko at many different times, for example, she finds out he's been visiting Iroh, but she doesn't tell anyone even though she should. She's 'looking out for him'.
She also had a total breakdown at the end of the show. Again does it excuse her actions? Nah fam, not at all. But her emotional turmoil was super obvious. She'd built up an identity around being strong and winning at all costs, and she lost it, and she never got closure with her mom, so she didn't have anything left and she just.. cried. That doesn't sound irredeemable to me, that sounds like a scared fucking person who is wondering why the f everything they're doing, which they've been told to do from day one, is falling apart.
She's a 14-y/o child soldier, and I'm not about to say child soldiers are all irredeemable (again in the context of finding self acceptance and closure) in spite of the horrors they've done and the brainwashing. She's also a product of her environment and her abusive father, of generational trauma, and I'm not about to say people who grew up in abusive households can never get better from all the harm that was done to em! I've seen some really shitty people totally turn over a new leaf.
One of the best quotes from the show is something Aang says: 'Roku was just as much Fire Nation as Sozin was, right? If anything, their story proves anyone'sĀ capable of great good and great evil.'
So I'm not buying the narrative that Azula is pure distilled evil and has nothing going for her, not with what the show has given us. Ozai had virtually no redeeming qualities, but there are so many hints with Azula that it really pisses me off to see so much garbo talk around her.
Anyways that's my complaining for today.
I really don't wanna go near this fandom. I don't know what the tags are for discourse/harassment free stuff, where people can just ship what they want, and want what they want, without being heckled or shit on. If anyone knows a tag or some blogs like that, hmu.
(Inb4 all the people without nuance interpret this as 'I support Azula's war crimes', who are the main reason I sure as f won't be letting this loose with reblogs. I guess people can still screenshot this and take bits out of context, but idgaf. Their problem not mine!)
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I think the most fun ones to think abt this for would be the rly repressed/touch starved ones like Diluc, Xiao, Scara, and Albedo. Iām also adding Childe cos I think heās neat <3
warnings for genre typical unhealthy portrayals of relationships, and implied kidnapping
Being affectionate with Diluc is often like trying to coax a stubborn turtle from itās shell.
Diluc is stuck in a rock and a hard place of wanting nothing more than your attention and affection, but being painfully self aware that youāre just like that, meaning you touch other people like you do him. He knows he hasnāt exactly been forward with his interest in you (partially because he doesnāt know how to express himself without being overbearing), so he bottles it up, only voicing an issue if you ask about it. Heās also very shy about it in public, not wanting to be observed being too close with you, because in his mind that means he absolutely has to take you and lock you away and thereās no way he would do that other than as a last resort.
Being affectionate with Albedo is comfortable and welcoming.
Albedo doesnāt mind at all initially. He knows youāre just affectionate like that, and it helps him feel closer to you, so he enjoys it, focusing primarily on you and him before letting any darker feelings take over. Heās not exactly happy when he observes you being affectionate with others, but he tolerates it all the same, since you will end up with him once heās gathered enough data about how you act when left to your own devices.
Being affectionate with Xiao feels like earning the trust of a neighborhood cat.
Xiao has a pretty big problem with receiving affection at all initially, leading to a different problem at first. Heās not at all used to it, and doesnāt really know how to react except with cold indifference. He doesnāt hate it, he just has a hard time with articulating or even understanding his own feelings. He doesnāt want to discourage you, at least until he notices that youāre affectionate with your other friends. He feels childish being jealous but anger gnaws at him when he thinks about you being so kind to others, and quite dramatically feels like youāre cheating on him. Is there a relationship in place? No, but heās already devoted himself to you, and you had clearly shown interest, so heās hurt. Heās going to be the meanest about wanting affection after he takes you, frustrated that youāre now somehow not as willing to be affectionate.
Being affectionate with Scaramouche is like gaining the trust of a feral neighborhood cat.
If youāre close enough with Scaramouche to be affectionate youāre way too close and itās way too late. Scaramouche is going to staunchly reject any affection at first, but then also angrily confront you when heās noticed youāve listened to him and respected his wishes and ceased all together. This all in private of course. Even approach him with positive emotions in public and heāll snub you, but in private heās living for it (secretly, but you can hear how he hums when you squeeze). Donāt let him find out youāre affectionate with other people. Heās going to remove them or you immediately, and similarly to Xiao, resent your friendly and affectionate way of being and slut shame you.Ā
Being affectionate with Childe is something akin to merely stepping into the ocean and getting swept up by a tide.
Childe is so entertained by it. Heās kinda shocked heās managed to get this close to you without setting off major enough red flags, and is so endeared to the fact that you naturally are so expressive with the people you care about. Every friend you hug on the street puts another target on another personās back though for when you start wising up to his true nature, so Childe tolerates it for now. He is openly greedy after a while, demanding your time and attention. He does plan to control every aspect of your life, and knows during the training process, getting your willing affection will be rare, so heās enjoying you as much as possible.
#yandere genshin impact#yandere genshin x reader#yandere diluc#yandere albedo#yandere xiao#yandere childe#yandere diluc x reader#yandere albedo x reader#yandere xiao x reader#yandere childe x reader#aerosiderwriting#kinda different than what ive been doing but hey#im also actively working on an actual piece so keep ya eyes open for that#oh whoops forgot scara#yandere scaramouche#yandere scaramouche x reader
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I think a comprehensive list of Genshin characters matched with each MBTI type would be really interesting! Maybe then Iād finally know what character would be able to deal with an INFJ like myself š
DO I DO IT... do i bite the bullet... i kinda want to make two separate lists ā one that pairs up each MBTI type with what is considered to be "their natural partners" (aka having the same dominant function but if it's extraverted you'd be paired with introverted, or vice versa) and another that has my personal take. i actually have a compiled list of the former, buuuut looking at how some MBTI types get a bunch of characters while some hardly have any makes me know i'm aboutta get hate anon'd to hell and back if i post it. š the ISFPs and INFPs in particular get snubbed on this list because there are so few genshin characters that fall into their natural partners using this method. i don't want the introverts coming for me in the night .
another issue that i have personally with this list is that i'm referring to the personality database's typing of the genshin characters just to be consistent, yet i actually disagree with a few of their categorizations (i see eula as more of an INTJ than an ENTJ for example).
so. this leaves the other option of me just making a list off of how i interpret the vibes or what i'd find an interesting dynamic. thinking emoji ......
#it sounds fun but i feel like if i post this i need it to be academic paper quality#answered#Anonymous
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I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE TO REITERATE SOMETHING
Yes, letās circle back to the beautiful performance of Edge of Great. More specifically the BODY LANGUAGE, particularly Julie and Lukeās, which I will be analyzing with gifs.
Exhibit A
Jealous Luke looks over at Julie and Reggie vibing
Julie is aware that sheās avoiding Luke, which she is doing so bc she realized her feelings for him thanks to Flynn earlier in the episode.
Since Julie has put the task of ignoring Luke upon herself even though she has no obligation to, she ends up failing her own mission. She sees Lukeās reaction to the lack of her attention.
She literally FREEZES. Sheās emotionally worried to confront what sheās feeling and itās beginning to manifest physically.
Exhibit B
It gets better yāall. After Luke finally has even a crumb of Julieās attention, he beckons her over with his signature head tilt. This is important bc he did this with his longtime bandmate during the soundcheck of what wouldāve been their biggest performance. If he feels comfortable enough using that body language with a girl heās only known for, what, a week and a half(?) then you know this puppy boyās got it BAD.
Julie is well aware that Luke is getting jealous. But in classic Julie fashion, she will try to tune it out instead of addressing it. Our wicked beauty doesnāt like confrontation and would rather just deny and avoid than potentially make things awkward, especially when she knows Luke would ask her about it at a later time.
The look on Julieās face. Her eyes widen and the classic tight-lipped awkward smile is present. Sheās literally saying āok enough of that letās get back to work doo doo dooā with her face. The way her body SWINGS back into performance mode as she faces the audience again. It may have been a split second, but when youāre deliberately trying to avoid looking into the dreamy (dead) eyes of someone you shouldnāt be crushing on, any amount of time feels too long. Plus, she knows Flynn is watching and doesnāt want her to lecture her (but she does anyway bc Flynn is observant and knows her bestie too well to let any action slip past her).
Exhibit C
Keep in mind; NONE OF THE GUYS KNOW WHY JULIE IS AVOIDING LUKE. Flynn, Alex, and Reggie have noticed the Juke chemistry, but itās still too soon for them to get past the āwe like each other but weāre too clueless to notice that we reciprocateā phase, so even though their respective besties know, they are still denying. Besides, Reg, Alex, and Flynn know better than to keep pestering if they want to keep their kneecaps. In reality theyāre both smart enough to tell by this point, but for the sake of the plot and to make everything more adorably frustrating, Flynn has the collective brain cell under lock and key, leaving Juke to be like *dog tilting its head and making that āa-roo?ā noise*
Anyway, Reggie notices Luke being snubbed after realizing that his extra dose of Julie time was slightly out of the ordinary. Luke is clearly concerned (look at his eyebrows and how his eyes travel from Reggie, to Julie, then to the audience to trying and get his mind off it and bring his focus back to the main goal; the performance.) If he canāt have the moment of connection with Julie that he so desperately craves, heās gonna fill that void as best he can by connecting with the audience. >:ā)
But Reggieās trying to help Luke brush it off by conveying his reaction as ālook at julie coming into her own! i told you she was a star! and you thought you were the lead singer? think again buddy this girlās got you beat!ā
But since Reggie isnt a master at hiding his feelings yet, especially around Luke, āwho was able to get under his skin earlier (āgirls, am i right?ā)āLuke was easily able to see through that and interpreted what Reggie was saying as ālook at julie go, she all in the zone. youāre literally making heart eyes at her get a grip youāre slacking lmaoā (hence lukeās right eyebrow quirking at reggie like ādude seriously gimme a break u know i need attention like tinkerbellā) even though Reggieās true message was a bit less harsh and more lovingly teasing, but itās Luke, he sees things through his eyes and at his intensity, regardless of who itās coming from. (This is one of the reasons why Luke comes off as selfish at times.)
Exhibit D
Poor Lukey boi canāt seem to catch a break today! Not only does Julie ignore him, then has a cute lil (platonic but itās luke so it still makes him jealous >:P) moment, but now she has the AUDACITY to interact with Alex? The guy who was out learning Ghost 101 with this Willie guy instead of rehearsing with the band? What gives?! Whatās he got that your moody ghost bf doesnāt? >:ā(
He literally just watches, and even glances back in a way that, to me, screams ādid i see that right? did i just see what i just saw with my own dreamy (but dead) eyes? say sike rn.ā \_(*_*)_/
Meanwhile, Alex pays no mind. I like to think that Alex is fully aware that Luke is an angry boy rn, but has learned to ignore it, especially this bc literally NOTHING happened. Either that or Alex has no clue and just truly thinks nothing of it and is having too much fun to think about Lukeās moody and childish behavior. Either way, Alex is just straight chilling and we love to see it *^_^*
Notice how Reggie is right there vibing with Julie and Alex. Luke feels a bit betrayed like ānot you too! i know you were the first to turn on me but i figured since youāre such a golden retriever youād be loyal and come back to my side!š š„²ā
Also; Luke approaches the rest of the group, wanting to be included in at least SOME of the vibing, but when Julie starts dancing and smiling with her buddy Alex, he backs up like
āyou know what? nope. nevermind. not doinā it.ā
and the groupās like āi mean hey itās your loss, but luke we want you to-ā
āno, bc you chose to piss me off right in front of my face so no luke time for any of you! no cuddles, no hugs, no nothing! you made your bed, now lie in it and perish.ā
Exhibit E & F: This is where it gets a bit interesting and theorized hehe...
Now we all know that this moment is just fucking ICONIC
WEOWH NEOW NEOW!!! WEOW NEHR NEHR NER-NER-NER NEHR NEHR NEOWHR!!! (wer nehr-nehr-ner-ner-nehr-nehr!!) WUEHNER-NEUHNER-NEHR-NEEOW-NEOWH! DLOOLOODDUH-DOODLAH-HOOBLUEH-NEOWHR-NEUEHR-NEEEEEEUOWRH!!!!
But hear me outā HEAR ME OUT!
What if... now donāt shoot the messenger who just so happens to also be the theorist... but what if...
WHAT IF!!! Luke didnāt!! plan this?!!!
Listen i know youāre probably thinking:
āWell uh Nicole, isnāt that kinda the whole point? It literally wasnāt planned until Charlie realized Madi was gonna be standing on the piano so he suggested the idea for the guitar solo to Kenny.ā
And youāre right! But hereās the kicker:
What if Luke THE CHARACTER, just decided to do this as an āAlright thatās it! You wanna be like that? Well what if I just hit you with my super awesome radical totally cool wowza guitar skills & make a moment between us? Huh? What do you think about that? Hmm? HMMM???!!!ā
He licks his lips & that to me read** like he was nervous (**read rhyming with bed just to clarify) so that means it couldāve been a spontaneous, spur-of-the-moment thing.
In the second gif, you can see that Julieās head is tilted, as if sheās a bit confused, but sheās also delightfully surprised.
Julie is quick to smile and scrunch her nose at Luke, something she does often. It tells Luke his impulsive action garnered a positive response from his favorite girl. Julie also starts to shake her head, but doesnāt go through the motion in full, which means sheās still a bit nervous to let her guard down. This is probably because she doesnāt know what heās thinking or what he will do next. The lopsided smile mixed with the suave, gliding steps towards her probably brought her back to her daydream lol.
Lukeās happy bc Julieās no longer ignoring him. He smiles like a GOOBER bc this chump is simping HARD for our Julie. So cute! :ā)
Exhibit G
And hear me when I offer this:
What if Luke poofed the guys out???
I know, I know. Itās a bold claim to make. But the boys are special, considering they are a threat to Caleb (3 gay-variant himbos vs. a gay magician that couldāve been on broadway but decided to make some sort of deal with a devil so he just entertains capitalists who most likely sold their souls to get into the hgc which i will probably elaborate on in a future theory so dont do that bc im gonna lmao idc we all have big brains) So itās not too crazy to think that they could share some ghost powers.
We know Caleb transported the guys during You Got Nothing to Lose. And the guys have left a place at the exact same time on more than one occasion.
And you may be thinking āwell what if the guys poofed out to give juke a moment alone together?ā And to that I say...
Look at Reggie. He isnāt looking back at Alex like ādude letās give them some space.ā
The timing of him turning around, at least to me, makes me think Reggie was surprised by Luke approaching the piano. (But also he lowkey was waiting for Luke to prove him wrong by doing something to get Julieās attention so Reggie isnāt mad. Neither is Alex but he doesnāt like being told how or WHEN to ghost) Luke doesnāt even give his bandmates a warning eyebrow quirk, a hand signal, nothing. Reggie turns to Alex like ādude what is he DOING?ā And before he can even really convey that, they go *POOF*
This man had a plan and he was gonna do it, so he did. Whether itās the power of love, they stopped performing, or Reggie and Alex actually poofed out, the odds worked in Lukeās favor so he and Julie could have a super special moment, a moment special enough to make an actual living person (Nick) wonder if a āhologramā has a better chance at connecting with Julie than he does.
Again, regardless of who made them poof or how they poofed, they mf poofed so Lukeās a happy hamster. (Idk it just sounded fitting instead of happy camper lol wait what if someone had 3 pet hamsters and named them alex reggie and lukeš„ŗ someone buy some hamsters and let me be their godmother or their aunt and iāll love them from afar.) Anyway, Lukeās thriving, flourishing, his crops are going to grow in time for the harvest.
You can see Julie lean back as she turns to see Luke. Itās... almost as if... She. Wasnāt. Expecting. Him. To. Be. There..??
Honey badger Luke bc he DGAF <|:) Bitch, itās Luke mf Patterson and heās gonna,, GET! IN! YOUR! FAAAACE!!!
You CANNOT tell me heās not doing the absolute MOST to try and seduce Miss Juliana Mariposa Rose Molina.
Yes Iām making a headcanon that Julie has TWO middle names and that one of them is the spanish word for butterfly and that the other is her motherās name. Also yes, I believe (i believe that weāre just one dream away from who weāreā oh, thatās not what weāre doing? okay, sorry!) that Juliana is Julieās full name.
In this house we love and respect Juliana Mariposa (Dahlia)** Rose Molina
**Iām just putting Dahlia there for fun bc I can. :) Whether Iād consider it a possible middle name of hers depends. Anyway I just thought it was a cute thing to add bc it goes along with the other middle names I gave her *^_^* Also, I feel like I made a post giving a bunch of the characters middle names lemme see if I can find it later)
Ok iām done this took me basically all day from like 10am until 4:08. I obviously took breaks in between, but not long ones...š¶
#jatp#julie and the phantoms#julie molina#madison reyes#luke patterson#charlie gillespie#alex mercer#owen joyner#reggie peters#jeremy shada#jatp theory#jatp headcanons#carrie wilson#savannah lee may#jatp flynn#jadah marie#sacha carlson#edge of great#nick danforth evans#music#jatp netflix#jatp cast#jatp hc#juke#crybabyddl has a theory#i spent way too long on this#crybabyddl
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here's the thing that people don't discuss (which its a musical its not gonna use up precious time unnecessarily for depth) but gl.eb finding the THREE OF THEM IN PARIS. More below the cut-
like....paris is fucking massive and clustered and packed with people and he is ONE MAN trying to find three people. he detectives his way through paris and hitting street after street and asking all the questions and trying to figure out where they might head. like....can you IMAGINE trying to find three people in the entire city without a clue about where tf they are without our modern tech help?????? THIS WAS IN 1928. the same year sliced bread was invented. yeah folks take THAT in.Ā
back to gleb; his only clues is that if they're in paris & they're going to try to get to the former dowager empress which isn't much. you try figuring out where a royal might be crashing in a city without tech i remind you. i'm just imagining all the tea shops and neighborhoods and russian clubs he scoped out till he hit the Neva club to finally get something of a hint with Vlad and Lily which IF I MAY REMIND YOU he's never technically seen Vlad and if he did it was just a rough sketch. it was ALSO just sheer luck that lily was there that night and that they dropped the ticket stubs.
and lets also remember how gleb is treated by the other russians in paris. the guy at the door was a frickin ass though i suppose he might have been trying to be semi-helpful in an upturned nose kinda way for a door-greeter. "only just off the train russians wear shoes like yours." which honestly really hit me from a cultural perspective because i often see that reaction with other hispanics who were here in the states longer by a few years and turn their noses at the newer immigrants as though they were less-than having forgotten their roots of being just like them. like OOPH. but can we clap gleb for handling that snub politely and respectfully???? (...at first at least the second time he got snippy which tbh i donāt blame him for)
and lets not also forget that in the convo at the club the guests said swan lake was 'next week' - like gleb had to stay in paris for a week in between the neva club and the ballet which makes me wonder what he did with his time aside from narrowing down anya's whereabouts.
i just have thoughts about gleb in paris okay. it ought to be a novella in itself with his detective-prowess in all this. yes i know i know his intentions weren't great, but he's a complex character trying to save a girl from self-disaster, live up to his father's legacy and protect his country from a world shattering possibility that could destabilize an already unstable order. its not a black and white story folks and i just love positing this conundrum to my younger cousins because there's always two sides to a story than just the story that's being told. that in the end the story is about family, fear, love and humanity which is why i love love this story.
if you're interested in something adjacent i HIGHLY recommend the Inspector Pekkala series by Sam Eastland at least the first two books which REALLY solidified a majority of my OCs for this fandom because liesel, ruslan, and stefan would not be who they are now without that series.
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Itās crazy to think about how snubbed pd actually is. I mean I know itās a procedural drama and they are always kinda ignored but itās one of the most watched tv drama on tv that airs on NBC, majority of the episodes are compelling and even when theyāre not so interesting the actors performances are top notch. Every time. All of them are amazing. The cinematography is stellar.
Iām not just referring to awards or stuff like that but more things like promotion, magazineās shootings etc
The talent on pd really is phenomenal - the actors, the writers, the production crew, and everyone in between. The love and passion everyone has for the show/for one another really shines through in every episode. Looking at all of the oc shows, they continue to do so well despite the way promotions for them have dwindled over the years. Itās pretty impressive if you think about it. I wish we could see the actors on talk shows/interviews again like we used to, because it feels like we only get these things for specific episodes/special occasions (like oc day or milestone eps). As you said though, pd & the rest of the trio continue to hold the place of most watched dramas for their time slots, so even without the promotion theyāre still doing something right to have the following they do - however, it does suck to not get the same recognition/promo as other shows seem to get
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(F/H) =favorite hobby.
I have the weirdest crush on this freaking duck and I donāt know why, so Iām taking out my confusion on this matter by making him yandere. Sorry that this is so long, boring and slow but Iām a sucker for slow burns and just dislike instant love. This went from just from headcannons to a freaking long ass story. I think Iāll make more on how the reader reacts when they find out just how mentally fucked Scrooge became.
Who knows, maybe Iāll write one for good olā Flinty. I have a feeling heād just drop kick any rival he spots without much qualms about it. Meanwhile, Scrooge has a full on psychological derailment.
TW: manipulation, dependent behavior, stalking, and more.
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ā¢To be honest, the likelyhood of Scrooge turning into a yandere might be higher than you think. Heās capable of self defense and can fight. He literally hunts treasure for a living. He also has a trillion dollar stockpile sitting around begging to be used for cover ups. His determination is pretty crazy, and heās seen a lot on his adventures, things that would kind of instill a paranoia over time or an unhealthy me mentality. He can easily hide behind a professional front. Oh, and if he so wanted, he could travel and bury any evidence under a volcano. :)
ā¢Since this is a yandere AU or, Iām gonna go with the idea that this is a what if the show had a TV-14 rating as well, so much darker themes can link and be explored.
ā¢After pretty much a century of adventure, most of which includes violence and fighting through perils, human or not so, Scrooge is desensitized to quite a bit of violence and the dark and greedy side of the world. Heās seen the best of people and also the worst. This plays majorly in anyone who becomes a yandere; how exposed they are to peopleās bad side or their own dark tendencies.
ā¢Scrooge himself is not perfect and has demonstrated some traits of greediness, paranoia, and general distrustful behavior which is perfectly reasonable considering his work and the things he exposes himself too during it.
ā¢Even though he loves adventure, there are a lot of bad things that happen on them that he seems to bottle up or keep to himself. Bottling up things causes a negative buildup in anyone, especially Scrooge because he expects that loving his lifeās work will repair the same damage it sometimes does to him.
ā¢Most likely, Scrooge developed an affinity with you through your similar drive for adventure. Maybe you worked for him in some way and he saw you defend someone or maybe you outsmarted one of his adversaries on an adventure he decided to bring you on. Regardless, youāve caught his attention and this is only the beginning.
ā¢A rival love interestās biggest mistake is mistaking his age for a weakness. One minute heās complaining about someone being on his lawn, the other theyāre buried under it.
ā¢Scrooge would probably connect most if heās seen that you used to be in his shoes before, or at least a similar situation. Maybe youāre struggling financially but working your ass off to stabilize your income. As someone with the humble origins of a shoeshiner, Scrooge understands perfectly. Despite his incredible stockpile of wealth, he knows whatās itās like to be at rock bottom.
ā¢At first, youāre probably obviously very suprised with Scroogeās involvement in your life. Heās from an entirely different world than yours after all, the top of the pyramid. Depending on your origins, you might react quite differently. Currently, you managed to find yourself stuck in a job you hated, working for someone you despised. It was a miserable, repetitive job that brought to your life a void of boredom.
ā¢You craved adrenaline, even if it would get you killed, you finally figured that at least youād go out with a spark. Putting on a smiling face, you accept a position at McDuck industries thinking that it was going to be another office job. By your luck, (or, later on, unfortunate luck), you managed to score a position that required you to be near Scrooge quite often.
ā¢This gave both of you time to acquaint with eachother and the opportunity for him to see the potential in you as an adventurer instead of just an employee. Scrooge rarely lets people in beyond family, and is quite reserved so he himself questions what he sees in you at first, distrusting you even.
ā¢When you are taken on your first adventure, you nearly boil over with eagerness. Thereās a worry at first of the treachery involved but eventually, as you venture on more and more explorations, that fear dulls and you think the adrenaline as far more important than the possible loss of your life.
ā¢Craving adrenaline is the main reason at first as to why you to want to stay around Scrooge. Despite his repeated attempts to brush or push you away, you find yourself excited every time you get to explore and finally get to see a world that you thought youād never visit.
ā¢Still, Scrooge remains cold and you canāt figure out why beyond the reason that heās just a pessimistic old capitalist. As much as you want the adrenaline, you kinda canāt help but eventually enjoy his presence as well despite his temper and general grumpiness. Having been alone for over two decades without friends does that to someone. You needed warmth again.
ā¢Maybe you grew attached to all the times you felt you were winning when you snubbed an artifact. Also, after collecting and sneaking a few gold coins into your own pocket, you were finally getting out of debt and on track to actually start your own business involving (F/H). You had the dream that you could travel where you wanted and finally find peace from your own mind and problems.
ā¢Scrooge, despite his own warnings to himself not to persue, canāt help but offer you a job working for him. You made adventuring a million times better and were a great addition to the team, providing your own perspective or plan for the times he and his family would journey out. Oh, and heād finally get the opportunity to be around you more. It was refreshing to see how optimistic you managed to remain despite your current financial predicament. (Which he contemplated solving.)
ā¢Soon, however, Scrooge began to see that you were not as happy go lucky as you pretended to be, at least not when you werenāt on another treasure hunt. Something appeared to be gnawing at you. Deep down inside, it appeared to plague you and Scrooge began to worry for your well being and as a too curious for his own good duck, he needed to know what was going on. Especially when he had caught you quickly wiping away tears while you began to head home. What could possibly be causing you this pain?
ā¢He had to find out and to his own realization, he had to know now. After all the times you saved and helped him, he wanted to make sure you were at least doing alright in return. He ordered Launchpad to tail you home and Launchpad, oh so very loyal, doesnāt question it much.
ā¢Most yanderes might suffer from the constant delusion that their victims love them back or that theyāre in the right but thatās not the case with Scrooge. There are times where he does try to justify himself, but this is mainly due to a fit of rage or to play innocent to you. Most of the time, he knows his actions are wrong and the burning temptation is causing a war. Very early on, he suppresses his curiosity and the growing feelings he has about you. Especially when they begin to boil into something far darker. Although heās done this to nearly everyone, being cold to you and pushing you away seemed to be his way of trying to ensure your well being instead of his. He was finding it hard not to think about you sometimes.
ā¢Soon enough though, he begins to grow inquisitive about your personal life as you open up to him and define yourself as a person instead of another blur. You were always quite genuine to just sit around and talk to him and despite denying it to himself, Scrooge was lonely, especially after the Spear of Selene. Sometimes youād joke to him, sometimes youād think philosophically. Sometimes it was just a mutual, comfortable silence.
ā¢Scrooge might make excuses aloud to you, but doesnāt lie to himself. All the times heās made you work later or given you an extra dose of paperwork was because he wanted to keep you around and in his line of sight. 12 hours without you was turning into a painful reminder of how isolated he was, even with Beakley around. You were a warmth, a cool, calm warmth.
ā¢ āIāll eventually need to know her address later on in case sheās attacked by one of my adversaries anyways.ā Nope, Scrooge wasnāt fooling himself with that sentiment. He knew he was invading your privacy, but he also knew that he was too nosy to care enough.
ā¢The main problem is that although Scrooge knows a lot of what heās doing isnāt right, he begins to care less and less. (Though this process takes quite a while.) Youāre a valuable and positive part of his life, you had stayed when everyone else had abandoned him for his admittedly awful mistakes. He canāt lose another person he treasures. Especially not you. Youāre becoming the shiniest yet. Losing you might mean losing himself in some sense.
ā¢Scrooge tries to shake off the guilt but only finds that maybe itās better to punish himself by feeling it. Heās currently following along your path to wherever your destination currently is.
ā¢Of course, his iconic shiny limousine would be a sore thumb sticking out to both you, the media, and Duckberg in general so he makes sure to either trail far behind or to have another mode of transportation available. Regardless, Scrooge never hires another person to watch you in place.
ā¢Scrooge doesnāt even install cameras. Heād rather experience your life from his own two eyes and not as reported from another bird or screen. He rather liked tracking you himself. It gave him a place to go and at least heād be able to bask in your duality himself. Sometimes you cried, he found to his own breaking heart. Sometimes youād smile, (mostly only in his presence, to his delight.)
ā¢Most of all, though, you seem caught in the present of life. Distracted, even. It seems though, that sometimes youāre so distracted that you donāt even notice something is off. Or maybe you yourself are too unable to break the cycle of adrenaline adventure to see it. Maybe you yourself were actively creating excuses, at least at first as to why you sometimes ran into Scrooge McDuck everywhere.
ā¢If thereās something else Scrooge is a master at other than money, itās with keeping up the detached and reserved persona of a wealthy individual. After all, who would suspect him of such crimes like these? Heās just a selfish, greedy businessman that only cares about his wealth, right? Heād never bother with other birds unless he was shaking hands at a conference table.
ā¢Wrong. As you and him grow to become more like mentor and student, Scrooge begins to insert himself everywhere he possible can in your life, especially after seeing the shitfest that was your social group, what little of it there was. Apparently, youād finally made a few friends over the years working for him and there was only one out of all of them that Scrooge approved of.
ā¢Two of them, both identical Peacock twins appeared to be fascinated with your link to him and nothing more. It made some sense. After all, who could say they were a close worker to the richest duck in the world? The other one, a tall and lanky chicken, was getting far too handsy with you, and the final, a feline male was nothing but gossip and drama.
ā¢To add to insult, you were a pretty big pushover outside of work which meant that they would drag you to places you didnāt even want to go and pressure you to have drinks you didnāt want to taste. They were in love with the mask you put up, not the complex and amazing face behind it. The one that you were beginning to let Scrooge see.
ā¢ Scrooge watches from a distance as your laugh reverberates. The laugh appears to Scrooge as unwavered and solid, mechanical in nature like it was a reoccurring script. Gazing at your face, he could see that your smile was strained, beak scrunched. You just wanted to go home and nothing more.
ā¢The chicken next to you he was sucking a cigarette and the smoke blew in your direction, replacing your laugh with coughing and the others cackled with drunk glee, their solo cups tipping as they did. You blew it off as an accidental push in the wind which, by the way, wasnāt even blowing.
ā¢Out of all of them, Scrooge hated the lanky chicken, whoās name he learned was Gale, the most. You deserved far better than that. Surely you saw through his sleazy act, right? Why were you hanging around such a ratched group of birds? Just how blind were you to their usage of you?
ā¢Almost without even realizing it himself, Scrooge had tailed you the entire way home. After having to torment himself with an hour of seeing you torment yourself, he figured that maybe youād find something that made you happy other thanyour little flock of āfriends.ā
ā¢So he was admitting to being a stalker to himself. Did that mean heād be able to admit it to oblivious olā you? Well, no. At least, not for now. Not until you trust him completely. Oh well, heāll never go further than then that, right? He was watching you, but not engaging in any way. Nothing worse could come out of it..
ā¢Wrong.
ā¢After a while of having you working under him at McDuck Industries, Scrooge began to realize just how much financial control he had over you. Not only did you depend on him cod for paycheck, your landlord worked for someone who worked for him. In other words, the spot of land you were living on was an apartment company that belonged to him. You were living under one of his roofs. All heād have to do was shift some circumstances and youād either be homeless or debt free forever. Scrooge of course, plays the benevolent route and lowers it significantly for you. Why antagonize you?
ā¢After having taken that action, Scrooge noticed more and more of a smile on your face as you realized that you didnāt have to depend paycheck to paycheck for food on the table. He had also been aware that you had a side hobby now, involving (F/H.) sometimes you joked youād start a business and go off parting ways with that hobby. It was source of entertainment to watch you be..Well, you. There was this genuine behavior about you that just drew him in.
ā¢If Scrooge wasnāt adventuring with you or at a meeting also with you, he was still with you. You just didnāt know it yet. Interestingly however, youād begun to pick up the signs that there was a presence in your life. Whereas you didnāt close the blinds before, you did now. Or maybe that was from all the adventures youād nearly died on fighting others off. Maybe it was paranoia.
ā¢Eventually, Scrooge managed to break into your apartment under the guise to Launchpad that heād been invited by you. A ludicrous lie, of course, but Launchpad is gullible to a fault when it comes to Scrooge. Heās loyal like that, and his friendliness to you plays into Scroogeās emotional manipulation later on.
ā¢As Scrooge sneaks in while youāre still home, he makes his way behind the kitchen counter which seperated your living room. He didnāt expect you to be right there in the living room, but you were, just five feet away from him and the window he snuck in. The window was to your right. He had carefully parted the curtains. Your couch was sitting approximately five feet from the window balcony, facing a corner of the wall with the T.V off.
ā¢Peculiarly, you hadnāt even noticed heād entered by rigging the door. You were right there, not staring at his direction, but he should have at least appeared in your peripheral. Just what were you doing to be so disconnected to the reality around you? It was worrying.
ā¢Now hidden behind the counter directly to the left of you, he observes your desensitized form. For a moment, Scrooge thought you were a corpse until he peered closer. You were still there, physically. Mentally you looked as if you were in a whole other dimension. In a rather bold move, Scrooge slowly stands up and positions himself in the archway, watching you from his spot.
ā¢You were still, so very still unlike all the times youād fidget at work or with those āfriends.ā You still breathed and your hands shook slightly and there was color to your eyes but you yourself didnāt even seem present whatsoever. Your eyes were glazed and far away. It was just your body sitting there in that couch. It was worrisome and yet there was a blissful smile to your face seconds later.
ā¢It was you, daydreaming about something. Something you obviously enjoyed. Scrooge, to his own shame, hoped it involved him. For a few more moments, all you did was sigh like you were meditating. It was haunting how easily you had lost yourself within the confines of your tumbling mind. Somehow, you were blocking out the world beyond, maladaptively.
ā¢ Scrooge knew he was taking a huge risk. All youād have to do to spot him now was swivel your head a few inches or wake up from dreamland. It would take a few inches to ruin what you thought of him.
Just then, to Scroogeās horror, you had slowly picked yourself off the couch. Your body shuttered as your head snapped up. He knew he was taking a huge risk with this and began to think that maybe it was a terrible idea after all. (Who was he kidding, it was terrible in the first place, he knew what he was doing.)
ā¢He quickly fell back to his crouched position behind the counter, silently and expertly as you turned around and made your way closer and closer. There was a tense moment in which Scrooge contemplated just knocking you down completely and rendering you unconscious. All it would take was a few seconds. Maybe youād forget or maybe heād give you the dreamland you seemed so desperate to reach. It would certainly give him peace of mind to know where you are 24/7..All heād have to do is knock you out and take you to the manor. Youād be secure and have everything you need thereā¦
ā¢Your presence was setting him alight, in the good way and bad way. He loved being near you. But hated the idea of you getting any closer right now, because you getting any closer would ruin your trust in him entirely. A few more steps is all there was between the idol you saw Scrooge as and the monster he was growing to be. You were like a fire. The heat scorched his feathers. Then, when you were away, his thoughts.
ā¢Your steps were louder than theyād ever been. Then, to Scroogeās unbelievable luck, you turned towards the hallway away from the kitchen. Scrooge knew not to push his luck trying to follow or stay, so despite his clawing urge to figure you out, he hesitantly snuck out with unanswered questions on your concerning mental state.
ā¢It had been a months since that incident and Scrooge was moving onto bigger and bolder actions. Sometimes heād swipe you away from any conversations you had with your friends by calling you in for a task. Sometimes heād eat up all your time by keeping you in late, and taking you to places far away that required days of travel.
ā¢Sometimes heād drive bad influences away by financially ruining their life forever.
You noticed Galeās downfall quickly, but you didnāt have any idea it was Scrooge who was responsible. Gale lived actually, three complexes from you and oh so suddenly, rent had begun to skyrocket in the particular room he had to himself. This led to him being presented with an eviction notice. You didnāt even have the chance to say goodbye. (Not that you wanted to, though.) deep down you were glad he was gone and Scrooge knew it. Gale had to move far off to find an affordable spot. It was a mercy considering how often Scrooge had dreamed of just throwing him into the ocean tied up for the sharks to find. He was a toxic influence.
ā¢Maybe if someone pushed his button just right, Scrooge would end up killing them, and who would care? There were seven billion fellow people on the planet. Scrooge could just get rid of any threat he wanted and no one would notice or ever suspect it was him. After all, heās just a grumpy old man with a cane.
ā¢It turns out, Scrooge had picked up on your plans to possibly quit your job. He had never felt his heart sink like it did now. He was fighting off his initial shock as you stood in his office, masking it with a detached face. You hadnāt even confirmed the statement. All youād said was that maybe youād found a company within your favorite hobby.
ā¢It was just a small implication. But, Implications could become statements, which could turn into actions, and Scrooge couldnāt let the thought even be a presence in your mind.
ā¢You had stayed with him throughout the years of his loneliest moments, had confessed secrets, had confided in him. You were like his pupil, learning from him and you were like his partner, fighting alongside him. Maybe you were something different altogether.
ā¢...Was it a friend that convinced you? It had to be. Scrooge knew how much you enjoyed galavanting around the world with him. Thereās no way youād just fly off without him.-
āI promise Iāll still occasionally go with you, Scrooge. (A first name basis. This was devolving from anything normal.) I found my passion. We can still adventure together, but I found a path that also makes me happy and doesnāt ya know, get me killed.ā You chuckle as if it were nothing. A light joke.
ā¢So you were leaving. You were going to go. Why? You had a great paycheck, (an expensive one that took a lot of money,) you had the opportunity to travel the world. You had the best job youād ever get. Who else was going to be as good as him? He wonāt let you destroy your future by applying for a Mediocre position at some dumptruck company.
ā¢As it turns out, the bird responsible for swaying you was none other than one of the peacocks, her name was Shelby. She and you laughed, and for the first time, your laugh was genuine. Genuine with her and not with Scrooge. You both shared each otherās stories, and she in return had encouraged your little dangerous fantasy of being independent.
ā¢Now of course Scrooge realized how ridiculous this all sounded. He had willingly allowed you to go on perilous adventures with him, but at least then, you were with him. How could he keep an easy eye on you if you just moved off to some rando spot? Plus, he was plenty good as saving you. He was your hero.
ā¢Bad influences needed to go away.
ā¢Scrooge might lie to himself about how much it digs under his feathers, but to see you around other people really dug wrong. He itched every time you decided to take advice from other people, or confide in them instead of him. He was the one you could go to, not them. Your secrets didnāt need to be shared with anyone else but Scrooge. All those rare and precious things that made you yourself didnāt need to be snatched by thieves like Shelby or Gale or whoever else.
ā¢He knew that his criminal actions would scare you. Even with your growing trust and dependence on him, he knew it was too early for you to want to stay with him if you knew what heās been doing. If he wanted your presence, heād keep it through lengths youād find terrifying.
ā¢Scrooge found your biggest flaw was that you always attracted the wrong crowd, and it was primarily because you were always trying to impress others when they really didnāt deserve the magnificent canvas you painted yourself to be. To his even greater detriment, you were beginning to spend your time more and more with Shelby. The canvas you painted was beautiful, as always. But it wasnāt for him, and he found that he was not happy with this new development.
ā¢Donāt you know people take advantage of kindness? It happened to him all the time and still does. It happened to you over and over and yet you kept venturing forth giving out your trust like it was nothing. The world is a sour place if youāre not careful. Cursed kilts, you were already naive about Gale. Who knows how badly future people would hurt you, even if they were well intentioned.
Scrooge could tell that, despite him insisting otherwise, you thought leaning on his shoulder was burdening him. He wanted to make sure you knew it was anything but that. As a matter of fact, he wanted you to lean on his shoulder every moment he possibly could get you to. What was just you occasionally asking for advice on impersonal things becomes entire sessions with Scrooge encouraging you to reveal every personal detail of your life.
ā¢You had revealed that many times, you just wanted independence. A company of your own to possibly build so you could pursue life your own way. Scrooge knew these dangerous thoughts were one of the final roadblocks. Scrooge had to prevent them. Be it through roughening you up financially or discouraging you. Be it from murdering outside influences, too. Who was going to miss the miserable miscreants that plagued your life anyways?
ā¢It is three days before the date you had decided that you would resign. Instead of being merry, you were miserable. The opportunity you had to get the job was burned by them not even calling you for an interview. After your resume, why would they reject you? You had the word of one of the finest businessmen out there to back you up. Scrooge himself promised to put in a good word for you! You were perfectly qualified for the job you were looking for. In your days of being rejected from the position you wanted, you confide in Scrooge. You donāt know it but as he pats your shoulder, heās thinking of the next way to sabotage your efforts of leaving him.
ā¢Shelby ends up going missing. She was one of your closest friends and the only one who finally treated you well. Your devastation causes a major setback in any ambitious plans as you isolate yourself from anyone else but only the closest person left in your life; Scrooge.
ā¢Currently, you were enveloped in a warm hug, the side of your face leaning in the crook of Scroogeās neck as he calmed your crying form down, patting your back and promising you his presence would remain forever. You wept at Shelbyās funeral, so did her twin sister and their parents, who, upon seeing Scrooge, had nearly fainted in shock.
ā¢Despite your tumultuous relationship with Shelby, she had actually begun to redeem much of her previously antagonistic actions towards you. She was in a rough place when you had developed a connection with her. So you wept in your bossās, or rather, your best confidantes arms. You wept.
Scrooge, however, did not.
#yandere#obsession#yandere ducktales#scrooge mcduck#headcanons#yandere x reader#reader insert#platonic or romantic#ducktales#cartoon#yandere Scrooge McDuck#minors do not interact#murder#this is weird I know#dt 2017#ducktales 2017
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Six of crows by Leigh Bardugo
So, I have a funny story about this book. Itās not really funny, but it kinda amuses me how I snubbed this book and its saga from years now, tv show included.
The first time I heard about it, it was years ago and a friend of mine just told me that I had to read it because there were characters I would have definitely liked to draw. I never read it back then and, in my defense, I was going through a sort of break up with reading: since uni, I had always less spare time and I spent most of it drawing, preferring easier and far more immediate tv shows to relax. For a while I blamed it also on the genre (not because I was, in fact, tired) because growing up my interests changed and I tried new genres, new authors, new themes that sometimes I enjoyed (sometimes not), but that anyway convinced me that fantasy and YA were a closed chapter of my childhood. Before SoC, I havenāt read a fantasy in YEARS.
Last year, though, my best friend told me I should have watched Shadow and Bone and I postponed the same way I did with the book. Really, I blamed again on the genre: I wasnāt into fantasy anymore, or not like before, so I told her that I would have watched when I would have felt like it. When I was in the mood.
In the end, I started it with a dose of courage and I finished the show in a couple of days, brought the book of the Crows (despite telling myself to finish the ones on the nightstand first) because I got obsessed over them. I read it like a drug. I loved every single page, every single character and Iām sad already that Iām ending Crooked Kingdom.
You can understand when a book, or a show, has my heart when: I reread/rewatch spasmodically, or when I do tons of illustrations about it. Iāve started already, but get ready.
#six of crows#grishaverse#kaz brekker#inej ghafa#jesper fahey#wylan van eck#nina zenik#matthias helvar
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