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astrobei · 6 months

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UNHEARD????????????????????????

#just kill me now i would die happy #spent abt 3 hours today screaming at link to stop falling off cliffs and/or freezing to death #taking a hozier ep break and just died a more painful death than all of link’s deaths combined.#goddaWHATT HE FUCK I IKKWNENN #HOZIER #EMPIRE NOW??????KILLING MYSELFLFFRFFWHATS THENCU K

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marionmorse · 2 months

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MARIONMORSE, DROP ANOTHER HELMETPARTY SCENARIO AND MY LIFE IS YOUUURSS 🙏🙏🙏🙏

do u think... Do you think sometimes when the team has a movie night, when they watch those 60's action war movies like "Von Ryan's Express" and "Battle of the Bulge" or spaghetti westerns like "The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly" and "Death Rides on a Horse," Soldier pauses during or right after fight scenes or duels or whatever to obsessively overanalyze them. Like, he'll try and turn them into strategies to use on the job, takes, uhm, 'notes', (tactical doodles,) sets up nerdy models using a whiteboard map and improvised figurines, uses these examples when he does those psyche-up pre-battle speeches or during strategy meetings.

'Cause I bet he does, I bet he does that, and it completely kills the momentum of the movie to the point where the rest of the team gets disinterested and slowly leaves him behind to do their own thing.

I genuinely bet Engie wouldn't though, nah, I bet he's enough of a patient kind of gentle kind of man willing to stick through these pauses 'cause he's just that into the movie. And maybe he's just a teeny bit into Soldier's dissections of actiony chaos. Maybe gleans a bit of an understanding of Soldier's thinking that way. Admires the guy's passion about his 'research,' how thoughtfully he gathers details in an effort to help the team. Starts mixing in tapes for these sorts of movies more regularly to their movie night pool maybe subconsciously, maybe on purpose. The rest of the team doing their own movie night. losers.

#soldier being autistic about 60's action movies #just like me fr fr #the original die hard would fucking KILL him oh my god can you imagine #engie sitting with sparkly eyes watching soldier go off about the duel in a fistful of dollars:#tf2 headcanons #tf2 #engineer tf2 #helmet party #engiesolly #eftanz u are a hero genuinely your art killed me then brought me back its crazy #praying to the time and space gods to let me airdrop reels of die hard indiana jones and robocop to the red base like a hunger games sponsor #guy gets shot in a movie:#soldier tf2 with his jaw wide open: holy shit... did you see that..?#when u asked this i though “oh god oh no this well is dry what am i gonna do”#but then this happened. ily #solly is over here developing advanced attack methods inspired by war epics #engie over here like: waow... he's so passionate... sighs...#maybe hes just happy somebody else loves cheesy spaghetti westerns #j....just like me.......fr.....#romcom trope where they reach for the popcorn bucket at the same time and touch hands #romcom trope where the characters in the movie fall in love and engie looks up at soldier like “wow....thats crazy haha...”#the onesided movie date. engie is too nervous to ask him on a real one so this will do.#for now.

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a-star-that-burns-brightly · 8 months

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Okay so after reading a bunch of theories on Deep Cover and rewatching the MV about 30 times, my only coherrant thought is that I want Kotoko Yuzuriha to be fucking okay

#{ ⚖️ after knowing all I wonder. can you really forgive them? 👁️}#She really do be thinking that there is no going back huh #that killing that serial killer cursed the rest of her life and that she can only be this huh #I was excited for her in Trial 3 but now I'm just afraid #I know that none of these guys are going to get a happy ending. At best they'll get a bittersweet one #But there is zero happy ending in sight for Kotoko because she literally refuses to let herself have one #And that makes me so??? damn sad???#Honestly the only hope I have now is that she doesn't die but I honestly can't even feel safe believing that #In fact from a narrative perspective I think she is the character that would make the most sense to die at the end of all of this #And that scares me !!! Jesus Christ !!#milgram project #milgram #kotoko yuzuriha #yuzuriha kotoko #milgram kotoko

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delightful-69 · 1 month

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#I do genuinely feel jealous at those who managed to move away from their dickhead family and forever not associated with them.#Like. It's stupid. I should feel happy for them #But i'm also a dickhead myself so...damn. wish that could have been me #Everyone in this family is just...worse and worse...including me #Like. How many times i vent and finding reasons to talk shit about them #I'm still the loser that stuck here #Instead of...idk...actually working up the skills and courage to move out #Now i'm just being a moron sitting here and listen to their “i'll kill myself” jokes #It's not jokes. Cuz' 65% they will do it. Or just die to natural causes. Pffr #But they keep confessing it to me out of the blue that i feel like it's a running gag #Like. Man. I'm trying #Or am i????#Just...looking for motivations from every small joys from messages or stupid things i did or said to coworkers #But in the end. I'm still here #Will i ever get out????#Maybe?????#Man. Either i died in this shit hole. Hopefully before them.#Or died outside due to proverty but maybe i would feel a bit of happiness of not being with them anymore #Blergh. Whatever happens happens i guess #Or however people say it #Back to liking tumblr post or playing video games because i literally has no other hobbies

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lilowoof · 22 days

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ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD

Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!

#I want NO MESSAGES regarding this. let me just be upset and alone #you spend most of your life trying to not succumb to sick brain but honestly I don't think it's worth it in the long run #my life is for better or worse....decent. but I've lost the drive and happiness to really DO anything a long time ago. like whats the point #the only reason I havent killed myself yet is cause Im too lazy (and dont have access to a gun for a quick getaway)#and I'm saying all this DESPITE having stuff to look forward to in the near future. it's like AUGH whats the POINT IM always gonna suffer #why does mental health take such a toll on ppl. this shit sucks ass. and I still feel excited for things in the future too? somehow?#but I also really want to die so. idk man. idk. maybe if I fall in love with someone then I can be distracted but all my walls are up #what's the point in anything anymore. *I* have to take the steps to improve myself and my situation #and I'd rather die. anyways who wants to make a pact that once we reach 40 we will marry each other #that might be fun #also my brain has gotten so bad that I am literally considering joining a hiking club to get out more and I FUCKING HATE HIKING #but I should probably do something out of my comfort zone to push myself and who knows maybe I will find a new passion #but let me tell you about the anxiety - oh BOY it's starting to act up again. hahahha #ah well sometimes you just need to scream your feelings out in the tags to get a lil clarity from the brain fog #one day I will fucking die/kill myself but for now I'll just try to make the best out of. whatever the hell this stupid life is. *shrug*#(but hey if any professional hitmen are reading this. feel free to. heh. you know ;) )#also I need to get back to art #gotta do my paid work and that one pic I lined months ago. and clay stuff *continues to bed rot another week because hahahahahahaha*#ah I wish I didn't fail all those years ago. then I would be free. I wish I was free #ok goodnight I promised myself that I would do paid work when I wake up tomorrow so hopefully no more migraines -pray emoji-

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months

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#shout out to my nana for saying my dad spends money like water #my dad who struggles with the idea of spending money bc of obsessive compilation thoughts but is making an effort #bc whats the point of saving up all your life just to die. nana? my dad whose wife is literally dying of cancer and is beginning to circle #the drain so hes deciding he wants to start spending his retirement money now while shes still alive. u old witch. Jesus christ. my mum #isnt gonna live forever. shes getting her bladder removed in February i think. imo ill just b happy if she lives past the end of my 5year #program. like holy fuck. i mean. its not really nanas fault. she probably has 0cd and probably has 0cpd. but like this is y u wanna try to #get better. so you dont grow into a miserable old fuck whose family hates u bc ur awful and killing ur husband thru ur illness. just saying #as someone whose can see their own behaviors mirrored in her. this is y i cant go on like this lol #hopefully i hit my rock bottom last year. ugh. i just wish i could sleep. when im not super depressed i cant seem to get a normal amount of #sleep and im exhausted all afternoon. im awake at night and early in the morning. it makes me nauseous too. insomnia i guess #but ive always slept rather little. maybe it was compulsive and now im just old and cant take it #hate it. wish it would stop but at least i dont feel like dying anymore i guess. im guessing the meds r exacerbating thr sleep issues if not #causing it. ugh symptom management i guess #unrelated

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yellobb · 6 months

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I love learning that my dad is a genocidal fucking maniac

#m rambles #I mentioned offhandedly the stuff going on in Palestine #I’m not shocked that he’s a Zionist #I mean he’s a trump republican so it really isn’t a shock #but to hear him say ‘if they offered me a ceasefire I wouldn’t have taken it either. I would kill them all.’#and ‘the peace will come when they’re all dead’#that’s a whole other thing #I was fully prepared to argue against all his points #and good god did I #for once I didn’t have a breakdown when talking to him #I just explained why he was wrong and gave him the evidence and stats #but in his words ‘I don’t need to research because I already know everything’#jesus fucking christ #I said ‘maybe I’m just a radical but I don’t think anyone deserves to die’ and he said that yeah that was radical #then two seconds later claimed that I would have been happy if hitler killed all the Jews in Germany????#please make it make sense #like that would literally be your position. that the peace would come after everyone was dead. that’s literally what you said #I’m fuming right now #he’s the only Zionist I’ve actually talked to in two years #and the only Zionist that I know of that I still talk to #I used to think that the man could change if he got off of Fox News for two fucking seconds #but no he’s apparently just as bloodthirsty as the rest of them

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wfuckshit42 · 2 months

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here's my hot take

#your boyfriend game #i forgot who the other characters are but heres little miss cockblocker and my beloved TK 💚✨💕💖🫀💔#i call him that becuase he keeps COCKBLOCKING me by committing murder and thats crine.#cringe #i like thinking about the high school au because i have confidence that if he went to school with me i could drive him to suicide.#i have the opposite of rizz. like instead of making people want me i make them hate themselves. only when i want to tho #and it's not like i have anything against bald people or violent criminals. the warden from human centipede 3 is both of those and i want #him so fucking badly. all day all night no lube no protection god is dead and we have killed him knock me out and attach me to the prison c #ntipede.#anyway i tried to play this game because he reminded me of said warden. but i got kind of attached to the landlord character #and when i found out theres no way to have sex with him i got so mad i threw up & punched a wall & now my real landlord is mad at me for p #unching a wall.#god's whims are cruel and i am a plaything of life😃#and its all this eggcel (pre-trans femcel) (my headcanon) 's fault i hope everyone die slowly and painfully #except TK i want them to live. they deserve to be happy 💖#anyway i wish p*t*r was real so i could send him this image. i think he would kill himself if he saw this. i would if i was him #i would also kill myself as soon as i found out i was named after a f*mily g*y character tho. so obviously he's not very similar to me.#hate. let me tell you how much ive come to hate you since i began to live. tehre are 387.44 mi9llion miles of #hey if you censor f*m*ly g*y like f***** g*y people will think you're just being homophobic instead of a show hater #gonna start censoring it ike that. teehee #anywway #miku binder the joker and vivziepop heffley. fight #my posts

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sysig · 1 year

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Dying about stick figures rn (Patreon)

#Doodles #AvA #Decided that since all of AvM Season 3 is out and compiled that would be a good thing to watch - and also all of Part V to start on Part VI #Because eating a whole bunch of A Thing at once is totally not a recipe for Things To Happen in my brain lol #Nah I'm happy about it ♪ I keep Meaning to do other things and then- :P Such is the way #Anyway it's been too long since I've drawn them <3 And I realized I have everyone's colours in pencil now! Not just ink!#Makes for some chunky lads at times - Red probably got the worst of it overall lol - but it's decently fun :D #My drawing teeny-tiny was amped up since y'know. They're stick figures - but did not take into account that my pencils are a little wide #Did not change after discovering this either lol you cannot remove me from my love of doodling tiny #Love 'em ♥#I still hold my fondness for The Dark Lord/The Chosen One! Yes I've seen all of Part V I just mentioned that! Lol #They are husbands I'm not in denial you're in denial #And then The King and Purple just kinda completely took over my attention lol ♪ I love them <3 #Flawed lads both of them! Puzzle pieces shaped like each other's broken hearts #Nothing kills me faster than adopted kids crossing the touch barrier with their adopted parent and being open and safe with each other I die #I'm quite happy with Purple's hug there ah <3 For that reason but also the way his arms are wrapped around his dad haha #It's cute! :D I'm pleased ♫#I can imagine a lot of these in the animated style and honestly it's got me a little itching to give it a go #There's a reason stick figure animation is so popular! Beginner-friendly haha

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immamapletreekid · 8 months

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i am the most predictable person with the most predictably pathetic tastes in the history of predictable pathetic taste

#give me a character that is just in it for a good time. problem and conflict free #living their best life unbothered. moisturized. thriving and absolutely glowing #but is also like an actual big deal. has a reputation making them equal parts feared and admired #and give them the weirdest most incredibel fashion choices. bonus points id they are goth #and give off vampire wine aunt vibes #sprinkle in a pinch of middle aged man who somehow ends up the adoptive father of 2 and #pls he is so unserjous. he is living his best life in that fucking tiny ass boat. great unit of a black bejeweled sword on his back #lace sleeves and high heels sailing across the ocean chasing a pirate fleet bc he wanted to kill some time #he is peak gothic wine aunt malewife energy to me #HE LIVES IN A FUCKING CASTLE???? ? HIS FAVOURTIE FOOD IS RED WINE HE LIKES TO READ HE ONLY WEARS A SHIRT WHEN HES NOT WORKING #wheb i started this series i did not know who he was #and my predictions for top 3 favorhite characters were in no particular order zoro law and ace #now two od those i have not met yet. but for now #the tentative big 3 are mihawk nami and usopp #nami bc i care about her i adore her i cherish her i fuckijg love her she is so silly #usopp bc the vibes are immaculate #mihawk bc. actuslly no explanation needed im not foing to embarras myself further #but also i love all the strawhats ive met so far #they are one big happy family and they love each other and would die& kill for each other and they have a place to belong next to each other #and i think thats beautiful.#rambling about stuff

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transgenderfivepebbles · 1 year

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finished spearmaster (using warp mod to get out of garbage wastes because it sucks). goddamn. someone sedate me

#ramblings #riv ending and then THIS? i'm only going to get worse from now on #these two campaigns have taught me one thing and it's that i would kill and die for moon #she loves so much it's unreal #'thank you everyone. i am happy to not be alone.' OKAY . OKAY YOU JUST WANT ME DEAD HUH #THANKS ANDREW

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uniformbravo · 11 months

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when u thought the webtoon was too het to get ur hopes up for the gay ship but then one of them wakes the other from a sleeping curse w a true love's kiss

#hmsnngnsng i would die for damien from hooky & if anything ever happens to him etc etc #(webcomic where characters can die im SWEATING. tfw ur boy has all the makings of a tragic son of a bitch auaouaghhgogh)#definitely things will end well. i believe #retag later #webtoons blogging #ive been reading hooky for like 2 or 3 weeks now and i am.... hehe.... u could say im.... lmao get ready for this.... lol....... im hoo #its a daily pass series since its completed so im gradually making my way thru #october's almost over tho im scared what the deal's gonna be for next month (since it seems to change monthly)#rn its 2 daily passes plus 3 ad unlocks per day & i think i will dry up like a raisin if its anything less #pls webtoon dont kill me i need it. i need u #i need my gay son damien 😔😔😔#i need him to have one (1) happiness just one. maybe more

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goldiipond · 2 years

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sometimes i think abt how ray was originally intended to be successful with his suicide attempt until the editor essentially said ‘no dont do that. that’s stupid’

#skye's ramblings #i could say i owe him my life but tbh that man fucking confuses me. every new thing i learn abt this series thts related to him is like. huh #i do owe him this fucking year long hyperfix bc i know for a fact i wouldnt have bothered w the manga if he died like that #like not even situation of 'i cant go on without my blorbo' but just. ray was so traumatized and hurting aqnd like. the death he chose?#was fucking brutal. if they made such a deeply traumatized kid die like that ithink that would have just felt. gross to put it lightly #and it just would have been a shitty way to end his character arc. ray's story is such a beautiful story abt healing #SO much more powerful than saying heres this abused damaged child we're gona kill him now without showing him a glimpse of happiness sory <3 #anywaya i feel very strongly abt this. surprising no one #suicide mention

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smoothoperador · 1 year

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#sorry i need to vent ignore this #my new years resolution for 2023 was to work out consistently and get fit #bc i was really embarrassed at how physically weak i was last summer #and for the most part i did but with prepa and stuff i couldnt exercise as much as i wanted #but i still lost a bit of weight and was somewhat happy with the results for a while but #now i hate it again i hate it so much #ive been dancing a LOT (like 4h/week min. which is a lot for a fulltime uni student) bc it's convenient and good cardio and most of all FUN #and yeah the weight i lost is due to that and my cardio is good and im definitely much more fit than last year but #i still hate the way i look. so viscerally. and i know its my brain telling me nonsense bc it's not like a body can 'look bad'#and i'm lit a healthy weight im just a little thicker than french standards?#but i need to exercise more i want to lose all this fat i pinch my skin and wish it would melt beneath my fingers #but i dont have time or money for the gym and no buddy to go with and im intimidated so i just work out from home but #it's not enough i feel so discouraged. body dysmorphia in the summer really doesnt help my seasonal depression #like i truly believed this year would be my 'summer body' or whatever shit that means and its not and idk what to do i just want to be #in another persons skin. have another persons body. anyone truly #to the point that dancing isnt even fun for me anymore it's just competitive w myself i want to maximize the calories i burn and #i sometimes record myself cause i want to see the steps i miss and i did and i saw my body and it killed all my joy.#made me wanna die and cry. i stopped dancing immediately and i just swallowed back the tears cause theres no way i look like that.#so repulsive and nowhere near where i wanted. and again i know it's in my head there's no such thing as a 'repulsive' body due to weight!?!#but i cant apply that reasoning to myself. and i hate myself so much rn #im being called for dinner rn but i'd honestly rather not eat. i think i'd feel horribly gross if i ate anything right now #i told my friends i'd stop using hunger as a form of self-punishment but it almost feels satisfying in a twisted way... like i deserve it #clara tais toi #like ia m SO obsessed with my appearance in a way that is borderline unhealthy i am SO #preoccupied by how im perceived (physically) if i look hot if i look pretty if i look cute at any and all times and #the answer is never ever satisfactory because other ppls judgement of me cannot fix my own but like #it's so exhausting. i'm so exhausted #dl later

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robotic-maid · 1 year

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I’m gonna vent in the tags but I promise I’m chill

#sometimes after working for 12 hours straight I want to cry but my antidepressants make it really hard to so I just get a migraine #is it bad I feel bad for feeling bad #like if I could afford to not pay a bill I would be hospitalized right now for sure #but i just don’t have the luxury #I have vacation coming up… our mandatory overtime is almost done but even the vacation doesn’t seem worth it #how do you keep going when all you do is sleep and work and sleep and work and sleep and work #it feels like hell #but this was my reward for growing up #I don’t want to make my friends feel bad for me #I don’t want to disappoint my family anymore #but it’s not like feeling this way will kill me so that’s how I justify letting myself say any of this at all #oh if I say it then it won’t stay inside me #but it’s like a broken faucet there’s just so much #just shut up about it if you’re not gonna quit your job or emit yourself or die #just be happy you get to keep trying and that this isn’t forever #wait for the meds to kick in and go to bed and tommorrow you’ll wake up with a lighter chest #and maybe just maybe the you 5 years from now will be grateful #and then I’m happy.#saying these things somehow just cheer me up #I’m not upset that I’m alive I’m upset that I have bills and. a stupid job with hellish hours and I’m too scared to do something wrong #to move the wrong way and start a landslide that makes things worse again #but I’ll be fine because I’m always fine #and this bad situation will end because it always ends #thank you for letting me be born

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orcelito · 1 year

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Honestly I find it hilarious that I've accidentally made it a thing of Vash being a horse girl (gender neutral) bc I'm writing his tomas as a weird horse

Chica the tomas was an accident. She was unplanned. I just tossed her in on a whim, realized I loved her, realized VASH loves her, & now a bunch of readers love her too

I've also gotten a few comments like "man I hope nothing bad happens to her!" And I'm over here just Sweating bc like

Objectively? That Bird Cannot Stay In The Story. If Vash keeps her, she will die. There is no WAY a normal mount would survive the utter chaos of his life in the coming months. Either he gets rid of her, or she dies. There's really no middle ground.

Which makes me sad :( I love Chica the tomas and itnl Vash loves her too

#speculation nation #itnl shit #ive so far answered the question about her fate with 'haha (nervous sweating)' or about that equivalent #bc like. genuinely. ive thought about a lot of things.#even beyond the abject chaos of his life. the destruction of cities. the Explosions. the EVERYTHING that could kill a bird.#imagine for one moment. that Legato catches wind of how much Vash loves his emotional support tomas.#that bird would be dead. Legato would kill her in a Heartbeat. easily. GLEEFULLY. she would not live.#and i thought about doing this bc Objectively if Legato is wanting to break Vash's spirit (he does want to) it'd be a quick way to do it #but Vash is not dumb. he's aware of the risks. and as much as he wants to keep her with him. he doesnt want her to die.#he's unwilling to let her die even if it means letting her go.#and to be fair. the time he truly needed her is over. he can pass her onto a place where she can be happy and peaceful #and he'll be okay. bc he has his friends back. he can go without his emotional support tomas.#she was so good for his mental health during his years of solitude. giving him company and cuddles during long lonely nights.#but he's okay now. he's ready to move on. and she can be happy elsewhere.#this will of course be addressed in the story but I ASSURE U READERS. i do not want to kill Chica 😭😭😭😭#i did damn think about it but it made me sad :( so i decided not to lol #she Will have a happy home for sweet toma. vash will make SURE of it.#i have smth in mind. i gotta look into this thing. for now just know she will be okay in the end.#animal death ment/#also horse girl (gender neutral) vash is such a great concept that i am More than happy to uphold #considering how on point his rein handling in tristamp is perhaps it has some basis. i like the headcanon tbh.

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