#just don't be an asshole

[manipulatedstars]

Whoever didn't reblog that fic they enjoyed:

Your mom's a hoe

[thelastsliceofcake]

A perspective on fandom reaction to MHA ending (Part 1/?)

I think it's funny that this is my first post on tumblr, but at this point I have a lot of thoughts that I need to get out of my head. (mha spoilers, obviously)

There's been a wide variety of reactions to the recent epilogue chapter of mha (some positive some negative), but what I want to focus on in this post is the relationship between Midoriya and Bakugo and how the fandom views it online.

First, I want to preface this by saying that at the end of the day, you can ship/headcanon anything you want. No one can tell you what to think or write about, you do you. With that in mind, a common sentiment I've seen online is that the story should have ended with Midoriya and Bakugo getting together romantically. Even outside of that, many believe that the ending was (to a degree) character assassination for the two of them (Mido in particular). With how vocal the community has been (though it might also just be a vocal minority), I recently decided to read through the entire manga, start to finish, as well as the School Briefs light novels to see what supports this conclusion with fresh eyes. Here are some of my thoughts and answers to certain takes on this relationship.

1: "Midoriya rejecting Bakugo's offer to join his agency is OOC, they've been wanting to do it since they were kids!"

This one is pretty easy to address, so I'm doing it first. They do mention wanting to work together in an agency, true: when they're four, before they've gotten their quirks (or lack thereof). Besides that flashback, there is never a single moment where they mention wanting to work together in this way, even after they've made up (and by made up, I mean Bakugo stopped taking out his inferiority complex on Mido, and Mido stopped just taking his shit. They still don't exactly hang out and do things together, even by the manga's end). The closest we get is Bakugo saying he wanted to compete for the rest of their lives (while an admittedly touching scene and showcase of his development, not inherently saying they need to work together), and a translation of Bakugo vs AFO where he calls himself "Kacchan of the Bakugo's!" (later translations I read just had it as "That's Kacchan Bakugo to you" or something like that). The last one isn't even related, aside from an acceptance of his childhood nickname. Them working at an agency together was a childhood dream destroyed by the inherent inequality between the two and their feelings (mostly Bakugo's) on this. Even if they're both better now, it doesn't mean the bad blood just vanishes, and even then, priorities change. Midoriya's not the same bright eyed kid who thought he and Kacchan would take on the world together forever, he's a grown person with new thoughts and a sense of responsibility towards the next generation.

"But if that's the case, then why did Bakugo offer?" There's a pretty simple answer to this. Consider: He wasn't sure what Mido planned on doing now that he was back in the game; did he wanna go full time, or stick to teaching? By this point, he's feeling remorse for the crap he did pre UA, so he wants to support him to make up for it. So, he asks about Mido's plans. If he wanted to go pro again, he'd let him join his agency to get his feet back on the ground. If he didn't want to stop teaching, he'd let it go. Mido chose to stay a teacher, so he accepts it and moves on without mentioning it (Kirishima is the one who brings it up). And that's fine. Midoriya not joining his agency doesn't automatically invalidate the growth of their relationship; they can still be friendly, and they are! Midoriya even invites Bakugo to come help teach, so it's clear he wants him in his life still. Again, these are personal thoughts, maybe I saw things differently than others, so take from this scene what you will.

2. "He spent 8 years trying to revive Mido's dream, how could he just be rejected!"

Similar in nature to the above, this is a big argument for why they should have gotten together. To this, I have a simple counterargument: No one is entitled to be loved, no matter the grand gesture. If that doesn't work, then here's another: He did do that, after having spent a literal decade being a horrible person for a shitty reason, destroying Mido's self-esteem and dreams. At best, the suit makes them even, a net neutral.

On a related note, there's a certain idea going around that Bakugo was such a huge contributor to the suit that he practically single-handedly funded it (hopefully a vocal minority, but then again the internet isn't renowned for its intelligence). All I have to say on that is, with how famous (and likely wealthy) the other members of the class are, by the time he got enough money to fund it to that degree, the rest would have done it several times over (his income can't be that much higher than 18 other high ranking pros combined, plus however much Mei, Melissa, and All Might added themselves). It's an interesting idea for fanfiction, but for the main story? Eh.

3. "They had so much more development and chemistry, why didn't they get together?!"

This is technically true, especially in regards to other relationships in the series (notably Izuocha, which admittedly could have been a lot better). This is actually a particular favorite argument of mine, because there's a great in-series quote for it: the final exams arc, where All Might says something along the lines of "Someone who starts at level 1 will grow a lot faster than someone who's level 50". Yes, Mido and Bakugo do have a lot of development. Because their relationship is absolute dogshit at the start of the series, and it tries to end at somewhat friendly at minimum. That takes a lot of big moments and conflict to get through smoothly, so it's natural these two have so much more than anyone else. By comparison, most other relationships Mido has (except Todoroki, which also begins somewhat antagonistic and as such has more development than most) are much healthier and usually friendly. We don't exactly need a 3 chapter section on Mido and Uraraka working through their issues with each other because, from the start, they're friendly and supportive of each other. They don't have any particular problems with each other, so not much happens (though I do think there needed to be more between them).

As for chemistry, that's also technically true. But chemistry, much like relationship development, isn't inherently romantic. There's a lot of moments where their dynamic is interesting and well written, and that lends itself well to shipping. But, and I speak having the entire manga fresh in my mind, there are zero moments where I saw romance even subtextually between the two of them. Neither ever mention physical or emotional attraction, blush around the other/while thinking about them, or even express interest in doing anything besides heroics together. Bakugo regularly insults Mido for his general personality and Mido (surprisingly enough) regularly snarks at and insults Bakugo's personality back. They're never shown doing anything like small talk in the dorms or classes, or just hanging out. They barely have friendly chemistry, let alone romantic. Maybe I'm blind when it comes to this, but I also didn't see much romance in other relationships either, so who knows?

4. "Bakugo literally died for Midoriya, how is that not romantic"

This argument is the one I like least, because its a great example of a thing I personally hate: taking great moments that showcase character growth or relationships and making them about love. This doesn't just apply to bkdk, other relationships have the same issue, but for now we're talking Bakugo. So here's my interpretation of his death scene: a bit before it, Shig4One beats the shit out of him and effectively tells him that "compared to OFA, you're just a bit extra who'll never measure up". For Bakugo, who has the defining character trait of constantly trying to be the best, this is something he can't let stand. Even when the others are telling him to retreat, he keeps pushing himself forward in pursuit of his goal, and at that moment, the image he has of strength is Izuku (just like Izuku's image of victory is him). He starts doing the same things he knows Izuku does (mumbling, a self destructive method of fighting) and realizes first hand just how hard Izuku worked to get where he is. Recognizing this, he wonders if he can pull ahead again before he takes the fatal blow.

This is a great scene, showing how Bakugo has grown to respect Mido for his talents and hard work, and trying to emulate him the same way Mido emulated Bakugo. It's a "bit extra" trying to surpass the legends of his world with all he's got, even if it kills him. Because he's Bakugo Katsuki, the man who'll be number 1 no matter what, who'll never give up. Making this scene about him being in love with Midoriya cheapens Bakugo's greater character arc (his acceptance of help from others and learning to respect his peers while handling his relationships in a non-abusive way), and is part of a general issue bkdk has:

5. Everything Bakugo does has to be about Midoriya

Bakugo can't just die reaching for his dream, he has to die for Midoriya's sake. Bakugo can't just want to make up for his lack of support in the past, it has to be a confession of love. Bakugo can't just respect Midoriya and want to work with him again, it has to be deep love. Bakugo can't just be friendly with Midoriya, they have to be life partners forever in everything. For better or worse, these two are treated as a package deal. A lot of this also applies to Midoriya too; for example, Midoriya can't just be pissed that someone he is somewhat close to is dead/grievously injured, it has to be because it's Bakugo and he's in love with him! I honestly believe that both the Jaku "Get down Mr. President!" moment and the death on the sky coffin moments would play out the exact same for Midoriya if say, Iida was the one who got hurt there instead. Bro cares a lot, feels a lot, and gets real angry.

6. Final thoughts

I wanna end this off with a general personal opinion on the ship and what I think when I read or see fics about it. Again, ship/headcanon as you please, I can't dictate what's "right" for you to like. With that in mind, I dislike bkdk for a lot of reasons, but here are two of them:

Reason 1: Because at its core, it's a ship about putting an abuser together with their victim because the abuser "got better". This doesn't inherently make it unshippable to me, but it makes it a hard sell. It's also a solid reason for why they don't have much of a romantic relationship in the main story: Why would they fall for each other after all that?

Reason 2: Most fanfics don't sell "Bakugo" dating Midoriya, they sell something called Bakugo doing it. A lot of the time, he's wildly different compared to how he is in the main series (gentle, a real softy, kinda tsundere but otherwise nice). Again, nothing wrong with this, but most of the time he's just like this without any reason given for the differences. If you need to change a character this much to make a ship work, I don't think it's that good a ship (Related, I actually think Kiribaku is great because of this: you don't need to make Bakugo not an asshole to make it work). Of course, there are exceptions, and even without them, there's nothing wrong with writing what you like or want. This is just my personal opinion on the ship and why I can't get into it.

Thank you for reading my mammoth of a post. This took like 3 hours to make and you can really tell by how the quality dropped in the end (or maybe that's just me). Once again, I'd like to reiterate that no one can tell you what to ship or headcanon, these are just my own thoughts and interpretations on the whole shebang. Feel free to come up with your own ideas and do your own thing. I might do other posts on other things I have strong opinions on later, though.

[pebbles-in-the-core]

Guys look at this cool place. It looks cool. I think I'm gonna go n' visit it. I'll bring back a souvenir or something.

[sinofwriting]

Also this is me asking about the Lando, Mclaren, Max, Red Bull thing

(I enjoy seeing other people’s perspectives and what they think)

@ireadthensuetheauthors

Oof, okay @ireadthensuetheauthors. Buckle up because I have thoughts. Also for anyone wondering this is being asked because of my Oscar fic, lover.

Thoughts under the cut

So, in said fic, I kind of brought up the perception of Max being called a teammate killer, despite Red Bull being the obvious issue, and in that fic parallels were drawn between Max/Red Bull and Lando/McLaren.

Now, let me preface by saying that I love Max and Lando. I love pretty much all the drivers on the grid:

I'm genuinely shocked however that Lando has not been labeled as a teammate killer or in the beginning of coming one. I don't know if it's because he's still somewhat new to f1 or it's just that while talented, he's not Max levels of talented.

But lets face it, Carlos left for Ferrari (on good terms which also is a difference between say Pierre and Alex leaving*cough* redbull),after two seasons. Daniel was forced out of McLaren after two seasons, despite being a more experienced and an arguably better driver despite the 2021/22 season being what they were.

Also, Carlos since leaving McLaren and joining Ferrari has been interesting at Ferrari. It's clear that he wants to be first driver (and lets face it as long as Charles is there, no one else will be first driver), but is also unable (unwilling?) to push the car for everything that it can give. Which while it does give him good results, makes him a bit disappointing compared to Charles who drivers the car to it's rails. He is able to get in the points and even on the podium sometimes, but it also took him a long time to ever get on the podium (4/5 seasons) and took him a bit longer to get a win (7/8 seasons).

Daniel joining McLaren was very good for the team. A proven good experienced driver who had 31 podiums under his belt and 7 wins. And in his first season with McLaren he proved that Mclaren could be a race winning car, by giving them their first win since 2012 (8/9 seasons!). And yes Lando was doing very well, in the points more often than Daniel and placing higher than him in the standings for both seasons, but Daniel was still performing well, even after admitting that he was having issues with the car.

The decision McLaren made to break contract with Daniel to sign a rookie, is something, it's a very interesting decision. And Oscar is showing a lot of promise and is doing well for his rookie season. But that's not the point.

The point is, McLaren is showing like Ferrari and Redbull they heavily favor a driver, and will as long as he's there. Lando, Max, and Charles, are always going to be the priority at McLaren, Redbull, and Ferrari respectively. And like I kind of stated in my fic, I do think that if somehow Oscar gets a win before Lando at McLaren, even earns more points than him or is just about equal to him, they still will favor Lando.

This is just my thoughts (some of them at least) on the whole thing. I don't mind some healthy discussion about this in the replies/reblogs of this post, but please be kind. On my other blog I already had to delete an f1 post due to some anon hate messages and I'm honestly just here to have fun and occasional real deep thoughts.

Also, Max is not a teammate killer neither is Lando. The teams themselves are the problems. And this post was more about the perception and potential parallels of them.

[carbonateddelusion]

[generalsmemories]

hi , I was wondering if u had any dni ?

I don't have a definitive one no, i do allow most people on here and they're free to interact with me or my works in whatever form they wish !!

But if i had to give a few:

Just the general basic dni, don't be an asshole to me or my followers and follow my very basic rules and we're good!

If i ever do suggestive or triggering (rarely) work or borderline nsfw i will properly tag it and then I'll just have to trust that whoever consumes it knows what they are consuming. I can't stop you but whatever you decide to read is fully your own responsibility.

[butchfalin]

some things to remember:

if you see a popular post where two people are jokingly giving each other shit, it is both possible and extremely likely that these two people are friends messing around. if you approach a stranger with this overly familiar hostile energy, you are not being funny. you are just being rude.

remember that it is both extremely possible and highly likely that op will see everything you add to their posts, including tags. don't say things you would not say to their face.

a post urging people to not be rude to strangers is not a wink-nudge suggestion that people should actually be rude, nor is it a sign that op just needs to toughen up. asking people to be kind is not an outlandish request. if you find yourself offended or see it as an opportunity to show how funny you can be by being mean to someone you don't know, you're just an asshole.

it is much easier to say nothing than to go out of your way to be rude. blocking people is good and healthy. block whoever you want!

posts were more often than not made to express one's thoughts, feelings, experiences, etc. they are not intended to be directed at you, nor should they be taken personally

every account has a person behind it who can see and respond to your actions

if someone stating these things makes you angry, think about why that is

[inkskinned]

idaho is already moving to repeal same-sex marriage. they say it's an overreach of the governmental power, and that the law should be determined by "state's rights".

trump is expected to sign an executive order banning trans women in women's sports. in the article i've linked there, he notes that the "biggest hand" (most applause) he gets is when he attacks trans women. isn't that interesting.

i know my own father voted for him. my own father, radicalized by podcasts and bad youtube, voted for this; felt smug about it. he genuinely believes the dems want to "put christians in camps." as if the dems could ever get off their silken asscheeks and actually do anything. i wish they had strong enough messaging to be misattributed like this.

my girlfriend and i worked the polls on election day, counting ballots. my father was eating noisily beside us. "see? you're freaked out about nothing." after all, i live in massachusetts: beautiful, expensive, no-working-transportation MA. the only state to go all-blue.

"if it's state's rights, you'll be fine," he said. i'd been sworn at a few days before this. a year ago almost to the day, i got hit in the head with an empty beer bottle. he said i was being dramatic. after all, first-adopter "the gay state" Massachusetts would rather explode than get rid of same-sex marriage. so what should i care, after all.

this man is a deacon. i guess he expects me not to get out of the car in any red state. i guess he thinks my relationship dissolves across certain borders. he doesn't see why it's concerning that i can't leave, because why would i want to. who wants to go to idaho? who cares about the real, living, breathing people in idaho.

(but then again: who cares about the real, living, breathing humans on deportation planes. they're not us. after all, my father came here legally. i am an american citizen because of birthright citizenship. i am even debating this because he immigrated.)

i texted my mom about it. i feel sick. no matter how much activism and research and outreach i do: it's always shocking to see a room full of people who hate you so much that they take legal action against you. on my small ex-work-laptop, i watch the shaking hands of people in idaho begging their representatives to reconsider. the fear in their voice is palpable. no person should have their relationship threatened this way. the motion still passes, 46-24.

it's all just happening so fast. i feel i am pushing my hands through glass pieces, watching the cuts before i feel them.

people often reference "first they came for..." when stuff like this happens, and while that's fair - there's a very quiet part of me that always says they're already at your door, you complete idiot. the same force that governs trans women's bodies will also be used against cis women. the censorship about supposed "DEI terms" will also be used to stifle science in general.

it won't just be idaho.

[farshootergotme]

Occasionally I picture Nightwing calling Red Hood "little wing" in front of others and people looking between this huge, 6'0 feet tall man with growing white hair, and then Nightwing, a shorter man who has flawless skin, probably around his 20's, and a fit but not too buff build and they just- don't know what's happening. Is it some kind of inside joke they aren't aware of? Why is Nightwing acting as if he's years older than Red-fucking jacked-Hood?

Nightwing: Little wing, you actually were decent in that fight! I'm impressed.

Hero, who was helping during this fight as well, listening in to the conversation: little...?

Red Hood: Wow, feeling very appreciated right now. Got any other backhanded compliments in there?

Hero: Wait, excuse me-

Nightwing: As a matter of fact-

Red Hood: Nope! I'm outta here. Screw you!

Nightwing: You know you love me!

Red Hood: In your dreams, dickhead!

Nightwing: Hey! We don't use that-

Red Hood: Not listening!

Nightwing: Jeez, kids these days...

Red Hood: I'm an adult and fuck you too!

Nightwing: What? Thought you weren't-

Red Hood: See you never, I'm out.

Hero: ...

Hero: what the actual fuck?

[mokeonn]

"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.

But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.

[ratbastarddotfuck]

if you're a white person taking pleasure in the idea that Trump voters of colour are experiencing racist violence from white trumpers because "they got what's coming to them" I don't think you're anti-racist at all, I think you were just waiting for an acceptable target, and you're also fucking weird.

Bad Person Deserves Punishment For Their Sins give me a fucking break and get yourself out of the fucking catholic church. you're all prison abolitionists until you see someone you don't like.

[asoftunkindness]

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

Someone's probably done this before, but crappy valentines are my favorite part of the holiday so here you go!

(Also I just used the cover art since I didn't want to steal anyone's fan art but you're welcome to take them and add your own art if you want!)

Edit: thanks to @ilovedthestars for the quote in the second one! I love it so much (post)

bonus

[kettlefire]

Prepare for the unexpected. (DPxDC)

Everyone knew about the reign of Pariah Dark. Even those who did not dabble in those realms have heard the tale of the tyrant. A power-hungry man who ruled over the dead with an iron fist.

Following the rise of Pariah Dark, his realm had been effectively cut off from communication. Many mystics and magic users knew better than to open the door of nightmares that could arise if Pariah Dark's reach went further than his own realm.

Except, the universe had plans to bring the realm of the dead back into the cards.

A new opponent, one that had all of Earth's heroes scrambling for options. A being with powers of a god over weather, destruction was on the horizon. A world ending threat.

It's the only reason the Justice League was doing this. In a deep bunker, far from close civilization as a precaution, the heroes looked on with grim expressions.

The world was already being threatened. It would be destroyed regardless of what the league did. So it only made sense to make the last ditch effort. To summon someone strong enough to defeat the threat.

No one wanted to do it. No one wanted to be the one to pull the realm of the dead back to the living. The consequences were untold if this succeeded. If Pariah Dark was freed and defeated the threat, whose to say he won't want control?

That was a problem for later. For the aftermath. For now, the league could only watch on with bated breath as Constantine completely the summon ritual.

They watched on as the shadows in the room seemed to darken and grow. As the sigil sputtered to life with a glow that was growing increasingly brighter. A sudden gust of wind rushed through the room, the temperature began to drop with eaching ticking second.

And then it was all gone.

The room stood perfectly still. Just as it had been moments before. Nothing changed. No giant king standing before them, no sign that the ritual worked.

The room stood deadly still for another beat before the murmurs started. The team trying to make sense of the situation, figure out what went wrong.

Constantine swore up and down that this was the correct ritual, taking offense that they would even think the problem was on his end. It only made it better when it finally happened.

A loud sound ripped through the room, pulling everyone's attention back to the summoning circle. Just in time to see a tear appear in the space above the circle.

A thin tear that ran the length of eight feet. The fabric of the dimension seems to curl at the edges, pulling back to reveal a deep glowing swirl of greens. A dark gloved hand reached through, fingers curling around the edge of the tear, stretching it even further.

A portal. The ritual had worked, but there had been a delay. A delay that had every hero nerves on edge. Each team member tensed, weapons at the ready as they watched the being stretch the portal to the right size.

Then, a foot stepped out with a heavy thud. A dark boot that looked otherworldly despite its similarity to mortal clothing. A deep black that seemed never-ending. A second foot quickly followed before a full body emerged from the portal.

Not many people in the room have ever seen Pariah Dark, let alone know what to expect. Based on what Constantine and Zatara had said, this wasn't Pariah Dark.

A man had stepped out of the portal, standing at almost seven feet tall, and built like a brick house. One glance at the glowing white hair, deadly red eyes, and shard teeth was enough to know this being was not to be messed with.

But there was no giant show of armor or royal garbs. There is no large crown at the top of his head or jewelry from the infinite realms laced around his neck.

Instead, the man stood before them in combat boots, worn-in ripped jeans, a graphic t-shirt, and a spiked leather jacket. Despite his almost normal clothing choice, the man's jacket seemed to be a never-ending depth of the dark night sky. If one was to look closely enough, the cosmos could almost be made out in the sea of darkness.

None of that would have prepared them for when the man spoke. His tone sounded more bored than anything as he took a step forward.

"Oh, so now you need the help of the dead." The man had spoken, running a hand through his hair. When Batman took a step forward to speak, the man raised a hand. Immediately commanding silence in the single gesture. "I'm on babysitting duty and have yet to have a cup of coffee. I'll be right back."

Just like that, both the man and portal vanished into thin air. Leaving behind a group of stunned heroes. Not only was the man not Pariah Dark, but he was also supposedly babysitting.

"Did that just-"

The Flash had been the first voice to speak up, his eyes trained on where the man had once stood. Except he had barely made it through the first few words before the man was suddenly back.

The man that now had a child hanging off his shoulders and another teen being held up by his scruff. Unlike the man, these kids looked human.

Too human for Bruce's liking. The dark black hair and bright blue eyes had every heroes eyes flickering to Batman for just the briefest moment.

"This isn't fair! I'm not even the king. Why do I have to be here!" The teenager had been complaining the moment the man had reappeared. Arms crossed tight over his chest and seemingly used to being held dangling. "Besides, who brings kids to a show down! Wait til I tell mom about this."

"Aw, come on, Danny. This is gonna be fun!!" The younger girl seemed in much better spirits than the teen, Danny. She had climbed up the large man, sitting on his shoulders and resting her arms on the mess of glowing hair. "It's like take your kids to work day! Ooo, Dan! Can we fight too!?"

Unlike the two kids, the man looked purely exhausted and annoyed. The man, Dan, dropped Danny like a sack of potatoes as he took a long drink from the travel cup in his hand.

It didn't take a genius to recognize the look of an exhausted parent in Dan's expression. A look many of the league members were well acquainted to. A look that even had Batman grimacing with sympathy.

"Can it, little shits. You two were grounded, remember." Dan had growled at the kids before shifting his focus back on the team of heroes before them. His glowing eyes set in a deadly glare. "Pariah Dark isn't coming, and he never will. He's been dethroned and banished. We're the best you've got."

A summoning that started with a group of on edge and scared heroes looking for the ghost king, ended in a way no one expected.

No one was even sure if it made any sense. They weren't sure if they should feel hopeful or in despair.

Because truly, what was a ghostly man with two seemingly human children against a godlike foe with the control over the weather?

The unspoken question of power and ability seemed to vanish following Dan downing the metal travel cup of coffee, and crushing it in his fist.

He tossed it to the side, straighting up his posture as he looked over the heroes. Dan might not be a hero, but he's been playing family for too long.

An almost feral, bloodhungry grin spread across the man's face, sharp fangs on full display. The look made the man suddenly look even less human. He looked closer to a demon from the pits of hell rather than the exhausted parent he looked just a few seconds ago.

"Point me in the direction of this bastard. It's been too long since I let loose and had some fun."

[chappellrroan]

defending megan isn't enough i need a gun

[brainrotcharacters]

makes me giggle to think of X2 Logan meeting dp&w Logan when this is a thing

[royalarchivist]

Bad: I don’t think people understand the effect QSMP had on some of the streamers in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. [...] Imagine that you were given a friend to play Minecraft with — like your best friend — BUT if this person dies, if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Can you imagine what that’s like?

Bad: If you did not live through the QSMP, if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience the Eggs were. They were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with.

Bad: I’m not saying I regret it. To this day, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. [...] I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, it was just that fun.

Earlier today during his stream, Bad shared his experience and thoughts about the Eggs and the significant emotional (and traumatic) impact they had on him and his fellow QSMP members.

This clip a very edited-down version since his commentary was ~13 minutes long, so I highly recommend checking out Bad's VOD if you have the time. (Timestamp: 47:36 - 1:00:14)

[ Full Transcript ↓ ]

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Bad: To be fair Chat, I really think the QSMP... I don't think anyone really can relate to it, Chat. It's something that's so... I've told people this before, like– but it's hard to understand. Right? Like...

Where was I? Sorry Chat, I'm losing my train of thought. Look, let me explain Chat– here's the dealio, ok? Here's the dealio, and this is what I mean when I say like, it's important to keep this in mind, Chat. Ok? It's important to keep this in mind:

I don’t think people understand the effect that the QSMP had on like, some of the streamers, in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. This is the analogy I’ve given to every person who I’ve like, shared this with. Imagine you meet somebody– [He hears a strange noise] What the fudge was that? Did you hear that?

Anyway– Chip! The story I was just relaying to Chat, Chip, was this: I was sharing this story with them, I said–  I was giving them an analogy. 

Imagine Chat, for example, imagine that you were… playing Minecraft, with like– you were given a friend to play Minecraft with, Chat, like your best friend, and [unintelligible] were like, “Hey, you get to play Minecraft with this person, right? BUT if this person dies – they’re currently your best friend, Chip – but if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Ever again.” Can you imagine what that’s like, Chip?

I don’t think a lot of people understand like, what that does, right? I’m not gonna say that like, it creates this situation, Chip, that like, messes with your head, but it– Chip – but it totally, totally does, Chip. It messes with your head! It literally puts you in a position where you’re second-guessing and thinking about everything, Chip! You’re thinking about EVERYTHING Chip! Ok? And that’s the problem, Chip– is you turn into a paranoid monster because of it, Chip! Like, you don’t understand Chip– I was- I was so afraid of every dirt block, I used to carry a shovel with me Chip, and I would specifically right-click dirt blocks that looked suspicious because mines, Chip– mines could not be shoveled! Like, I was crazy, Chip! But here’s the problem, Chip: that craziness is still there. I’m genuinely like–

I remember thinking Chip, that I would one day– I was like, “I’m going to move past–” here, let’s go up here, Chip. I remember thinking one day Chip, I was like, “I’m gonna move past the underground base, one of these days. You know, one of these days, I feel like I’ll be able to grow and achieve the desire to build a base that doesn’t have to be underground.” But I don’t think it’s possible now Chip, because I think… I just don’t know. I feel like the paranoia– there’s still like, residual leftover trauma from that situation, Chip.

But here’s the problem Chip: I don’t think I don’t think– I don’t think people understand it. Like, I just really don’t. But I also don’t blame them Chip, ‘cuz I don’t think it’s possible to fully understand it if you haven’t lived through it. Like, if you did not live through the QSMP… I’m talking about the QSMP, I don’t- I don’t know if that was obvious– if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience like, the Eggs were. Right? I don’t think people realize it. Like, they were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with, Chip. So, it’s just one of those things that–

[He’s interrupted by a loud rumble of thunder above them]

Did lightning just strike here? Is it thunderstorming out…? But anyway, Chip. That’s the food for thought.

But that’s the problem– Like, every time it rains in Minecraft, I have to like, look at the sky, and I get this weird, like, second--hand vibe because of the trauma. The trauma, Chip! The trauma is real! But that’s the point– I’m not saying I regret it. I, to this day Chip, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. 

[He falls down] Dangit, don’t come over here Chip, ‘cuz I’m coming back up! Ok.

I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering  and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, Chip, it was just that fun. I really wi– I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible, Chip, to give people that same energy, like that same experience. You know what I mean, Chip? I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible again. Like, EVER.

Because… because like, one: I will say on one level Chip, I will say on one level, like– it’s sort of emotionally like… It’s emotionally devastating, and I think to actually go through that– and this is where like, if I ever do end up going to a– see a therapist, if I ever do end up going to see a therapist at any point, I’ll talk it over with them and be like, “Hey, what do you think about this?” Because I genuinely think on one level, like– it’s created this fear of forming attachments because of like, how things can go. You know what I mean? Like, the fear of getting attached to something and then potentially losing it. Like, it’s- it’s a genuine thing. I think people forget about that.

Like, at the end of the day, everything was RP, right? On the server. You know what I mean? Like, everything was RP, Chip. BUT at the same point, even though it was RP Chip, it was still like– there the reality of you were still playing like, with another person, and you were still getting that experience, and it felt like you were genuinely attached to someone and you didn’t want anything bad to happen to them. It was GENUINELY stressful, Chip.

But at the same point, I don’t regret it, and I don’t think it was a bad experience. I’m– 

Sometimes in life Chip, you go through stuff, and maybe you have a certain amount of like, things that like, can happen, that you’re like, “You know what, maybe this wasn’t a good thing that this happened,” but at the same point, you still aren’t necessarily upset about it, because… it’s like growing as a person, right? Here’s the thing Chip; even bad situations, Chip, can lead to an overall good outcome. Like–

Even if you’re going through something bad Chip, just because a bad thing happens doesn’t mean that only bad things have to come from that. That’s one of the things I tell people all the time, Chip, is that if you go through a bad situation, you can learn from it, and you can use your experience to help others. And you can be that– you can be, at the worst-case scenario, you can be someone for other people who are going through that same experience to lean on when they go through that.I think there’s a certain amount of comfort that comes from that; from knowing no matter how bad your situation is, you’re not the only person who’s experienced it. You know what I mean?