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For seven days (non-consecutive) I'll be posting Valentine's Day themed headcanons for each House in Tokyo Debunker!
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Valentine's Day in Jabberwock
Haru
how does he show affection?
Through his touches and his words. Haru is extremely touchy, constantly squeezing you in a hug as soon as he sees you and always holding your hand. He likes to pinch your cheeks, boop your nose, and call you all sorts of cheesy nicknames. He's open with his affection and has no qualms with saying how much he's in love with you. Sunshine in human form.
does he like hugs? what are his hugs like?
LOVES hugs. Sometimes you need to remind him he spent hours under the sun, doing heavy work and he's SWEATY, because his base instinct when he sees you is to give the biggest bear hug. He even rubs his cheek against your hair while he talks about how much he wanted to see you and all the things he needs to show you.
is he good at flirting? how does he flirt?
He's good at that type of silly flirting where you can't help but be endeared by how goofy he is. He'll be saying things like "you know what's in the menu? 'Me n u' gyahaha!" while nudging you with his elbow. You may roll your eyes and slap your forehead, but you always give in to him in the end.
is he good at gift - giving or does he struggle to get it right?
He's kinda bad at it. It's best if you tell him what gifts you expect. Otherwise, he will give you some random home appliances that he wanted to buy all along and will use you as an excuse to get it. It's all in good heart, though, because he genuinely believes you'd like it as much as he does. Now, if you tell him what you'd like as a gift, he'll definitely get what you asked for.
is he quick or slow to give his heart away?
Quick. Haru thinks being in love is a great thing. Why make things difficult? He just walked up to you after he realized he was in love and let you know about it. If you don't feel the same, that's okay. He'd be sad for a little while, but life would go on. It's a good thing you feel exactly the same as him, huh?
does he findĀ āi love youā easy or hard to say?
Very easy. He's very open with his emotions. When he's sad, he's openly sad. When he's angry, he's explicitly angry. When he's in love, he's gonna let you and the whole world know about it. There's no mystery to it.
does he get jealous in a relationship?
Not really. To be honest, Haru has a hard time noticing when someone might be taking a pass at you, so it usually flies over his head. And he feels very secure in his relationship with you because he trusts you the most. After all, you're his partner, so he's completely sure that you won't hurt him ever.
what is his ideal date?
Just spending the day with you without the burden of his whole House on his back. Jabberwock is constantly in Haru's mind, the animals, Towa, and Ren. He would love to have one day with you in which he didn't need to worry about anything. It doesn't matter what it is, he just wants to be fully present, with just you in his mind, for once in his life.
would he ask the big question or expect their partner to?
Haru will propose, but it's not due to him wanting to be the one who does it. It's just that he's impatient ā if it depended on him, you two would be hitched from the very beginning. He just decided to wait a reasonable (not really) amount of time before popping the question so he wouldn't scare you
how does he feel about valentineās day?
Great for creating a special Valentine's Day safari and getting some extra cash in Jabberwockās empty vault. He tells you beforehand that he'll be busy due to the influx of people and apologize for not being able to spend all day with you. He'll give you special treatment if you visit him during the day though. (Offer yourself to help him with the tours and he'll basically cry out of happiness).
does he get protective easily?
Very much so, which is why you have a bunch of apps you've never seen before suddenly installed in your phone. Haru is busy, so he can't be constantly around you, but he makes up for it with the most obsessive surveillance known to man. If one of his apps beeps, alerting him that you might be in distress, he's immediately at your side (because he knows your location 24/7, obviously).
does he believe in true love?
Yes. He was always sure it existed all throughout the world, even if it never came to him. But once you two got together, he believes in it even more.
Towa
how does he show affection?
Through himself as a whole. Everything he does is a way to express his love for you. He's constantly hugging you, kissing you, giving you flowers, and looking into your eyes as if you're the prettiest human being he has ever seen. And during the night, he tells you exactly that.
does he like hugs? what are his hugs like?
Loves them. He always tackles you plenty of times per day, every day, in the tightest hugs known to man. He always leaves you breathless, with a few leaves stuck on your hair and clothes, and the earthy scent of wildflowers. He loves even more when you take the initiative and hug him first, though. It always ends up with him whining because you said that no, he can't just keep hugging you all day.
is he good at flirting? how does he flirt?
He's good, but it's not really intentional. Most times, when he wants something from you, he just explicitly says it, like saying he wants a kiss or attention. But then when you two are watching the stars and he looks at you and says you're cute, you can almost believe he knows exactly what he's doing.
is he good at gift - giving or does he struggle to get it right?
Well... Towa is just gonna give you flowers. He'll make offerings of all the prettiest flowers with the most romantic meanings, but it'll always be flowers. If you tell him you want something else, it probably won't work and he'll be pouting, thinking you don't like his offerings.
is he quick or slow to give his heart away?
Very quick. If he falls in love with you and decides you're his soulmate, he'll immediately let you know that you're his. There's no sense in dilly-dallying. Time apart from his soulmate is time wasted.
does he findĀ āi love youā easy or hard to say?
Easy. Why would he think that he can't say 'I love you' to his partner? Isn't it the whole point? Avoiding his feelings is the last thing in his mind.
does he get jealous in a relationship?
He's jealousy personified, to the point that he might be an actual danger to your friends and colleagues. Towa hates when your attention isn't on him. He hates when someone tries to steal you away from him (aka a teacher required your presence while you were hanging out with Towa). It's a good thing that the stormy clouds are quickly dispelled just by having you back at his side.
what is his ideal date?
He has his ideal date with you every day. He just needs you, fully focused on him, laying down beside him under the starry sky. To make it even more perfect, maybe you two could be surrounded by his favorite flowers, but he's plenty satisfied with things as they are.
would he ask the big question or expect their partner to?
Surprisingly, he doesn't think too much about it. His fairytale-like dreams always stopped right when he found his destined partner and decided to live happily ever after. He never got to the wedding part of it all. You might be the one to ask first, and he's fine with it. If you want to make your bond even tighter, he's happy to oblige.
how does he feel about valentineās day?
He knows about it. He thinks it's fun to see Kaito getting all flustered about being confessed to, but he genuinely thinks that's all that Valentine's Day is ā a day to confess to crushes. Since you two are already together, he thinks it isn't important anymore. You have to explain to him that established couples also celebrate it, and as soon as he finds out, he'll be pouting. Why didn't you tell him beforehand?
does he get protective easily?
It comes with the awful jealousy. Everyone is a threat, everything could take you away from him. The only way to quell his worries is by letting him stay by your side 24/7. There's no other way around it.
does he believe in true love?
Of course. Otherwise, soulmates wouldn't exist. You two are proof of it.
Ren
how does he show affection?
Through his actions. He's bad with words and emotionally constipated, but he shows he cares for you through little actions he would never do with anyone else. He'd pick up medicine and food for you if you're sick; he'd quietly spend time with you if you need company; he'd try to make you play his games and watch his movies and do the same with yours. Textbook tsundere.
does he like hugs? what are his hugs like?
He acts and says that he hates them, but immediately sulks when you let him go and apologize for the sudden hug. He loves YOUR hugs, but no one else's. His hugs are awkward and stiff (he might even give you some pats on the back) but you make up for it with enthusiasm.
is he good at flirting? how does he flirt?
Terrible. Doesn't know what he's doing, can't flirt to save his life. Incapable of winking and would die before asking for a peck on the cheek. Most times, you're the one flustering him because even if you're bad at flirting, you're not as bad as he is.
is he good at gift - giving or does he struggle to get it right?
Kinda good, actually. He listens to you when you're talking about your hyperfixations, so he knows about your tastes. His gifts might not be very romantic, though, unless a Lego set or some rare doll you mentioned twice is romantic to you.
is he quick or slow to give his heart away?
SLOOOOOOWWW. Ren will deny his feelings for you until it is physically, mentally, spiritually, and metaphysically impossible to deny that he's madly in love. He'll be blushing, leaning towards you, looking at your lips with a hand over his racing heart, but he still has the gall to say that maybe he's just sick.
does he findĀ āi love youā easy or hard to say?
Terribly hard. If he's that bad at admitting his feelings to himself, how would he admit his feelings for you? Again, he tries to compensate for all the times he can't voice his love openly through acts of service, but it's all very annoying and frustrating to him.
does he get jealous in a relationship?
It's a dangerous mix of jealousy and self-deprecation. He thinks you'd probably do better with someone who isn't a shut-in like him or someone actually in touch with their emotions. So, any little interaction between you and another person triggers his jealousy. He gets passive-aggressive and sulks until you finally get tired of his antics and slap his head to snap him out of it. Having a tsundere as a boyfriend isn't always cute after all.
what is his ideal date?
Just being able to spend time with you without Haru interrupting would be enough. He wants to have a date in which you two watch all your favorite movies together and eat the best snacks to your heart's content without being suddenly jumpscared by a red-headed man barging into the room.
would he ask the big question or expect their partner to?
He didn't even know he was going to date someone ever, so a wedding was out of question. Not that he minded, he always thought the ceremony sucked. However, now he feels like proposing to you first is a way to show you how much he cares and how much he genuinely loves you without using words. A ring to represent all the times words shouldn't have failed him.
how does he feel about valentineās day?
Hates it. Ren thinks it's a capitalist holiday that wants to bleed couples dry of their money, not to mention that the atmosphere is awfully cringey and he would never be caught dead buying overpriced chocolate and ugly plushies. Well, that was until he started dating you (he still thinks all that but now he buys the things).
does he get protective easily?
Not really, because he usually feels like he needs protection as well, what with all the unfortunate events that tend to happen to him. He will try his best if you're in imminent danger, but during his day-to-day life, he just trusts in your capability to stay in one piece.
does he believe in true love?
CRINGE. he kinda does because of you
#tokyo debunker#tokyo debunker headcanons#haru sagara#ren shiranami#towa otonashi#SORRY IF THIS HAS TYPOS AND GRAMMAR MISTAKES BUT I DIDNT REREAD IT YET#tokyo debunker x reader
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Mingi A-Z
Nsfw, astrology based, entertainment purposes only
A=Aftercare
Mingi is good with aftercare, heāll run you a bath, give you a massage, give you his clothes and do your hair.
B=Body part
On himself he likes his dick(no surprise) and on you heās an ass man, so ass, hips, and thighs.
C=Cum
Heāll cum anywhere and everywhere, he doesnāt care. You want him to cum in you? He will. You want him to cum on your face? He will.
D=Dirty secret
He might have a thing for foreigners(?) hes also into a lot of assplay.
E=Experience
Has enough to know what goes where, but he still needs guidance.
F=Favorite position
Doggy, missionary, spread eagle, any position you want really.
G=Goofy
He can be, depending on the situation but he wonāt opt out for it.
H=Hair
He keeps himself somewhat groomed and on his partner he doesnāt care, heās going there either way.
I=Intimacy
He doesnāt necessarily need it, but he craves it.
J=Jerk off
He does it often, too often. Thereās never really a moment where his hand isnāt in his pants playing with it.
K=Kink
Heās a kinky boy, and heās a maladaptive daydreamer so his imagination goes wild. Everytime he thinks, another fantasy pops up. So just hard, rough sex, role playing, those types of sorts.
L=Location
Bedroom, he likes the security of it. But he also wouldnāt mind doing it somewhere else either.
M=Motivation
Doesnt take much, literally just look at him and heās ready to go.
N=No
He wonāt say no to anything, heās pretty experimental. The only time heāll say no is if heās tried it and he doesnāt like it.
O=Oral
Heās really good in this department, he likes giving more than receiving though.
P=Pace
He likes to jackhammer his dick into you, so shallow and rough.
Q=Quickies
Heās not opposed to them and wouldnāt reject it, but theyāre not his favorite.
R=Risk
He would, depending on the situation.
S=Stamina
Can last two hours max because his dick will start to hurt.
T=Toys
Yes! He loves both giving and being on the receiving end of this one.
U=Unfair
Eh, it depends. He can be when heās dominant but when heās submissive, he wonāt.
V=Volume
Not the loudest, a few grunts and some whimpers.
W=Wild card
Hes into taboo, meaning friends mom, friends sister, maybe cousin? That one came out of nowhere.
X=X-ray
Heās quite big, around 8-9 inches and quite girthy.
Y=Yearning
He has a high drive, always horny.
Z=Zzz
He doesnāt sleep after, he wants to talk, he wants the emotional connection while cuddling.
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i love when characters have defining color!! for me it all started with purple guy being purple and i remember myself in middle school literally tweakin when i spotted a purple item š£ļø u know that stage when u just entered a fandom and everything around u suddenly is a reference .
so i thought since Scarlet King and mr. Scarletella both have scarlet as their defining color i might as well draw them together. i think they have kinda father/son dynamic, because how many kids does the scarlet king has? like nine? maybe 8 i dom't rember.
and also they both are more of an idea-embodied-entities than real creatures (depends on what canon/scp proposal you read) i think yatsunagi in her twitter said about mr. scarletella being bourn from an urban legend, so like from human beliefs,,,
i though it would be funny if one of them embodies the color red as a symbol of blood, war and everything sinister and the other... embodies the horny.
mr, scarletella has british accent if he was to speak english
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until we meet again
#homicipher#scp#mr scarletella#the scarlet king#crossover#art#father son dynamic#my sillies#pookie#mr. Scarletella has british accent#mr. Scarletella#sketch
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go ahead and send fandom related drawing ideas for me!! check tags fore more info i guess lolol
#i wanna draw something thats not my ocs#i will do sailor moon tsubasa reservoir chronicle chobits uhhhhhhhh any magical girl stuff rly i like it a lot#hmmmmm#oh miraculous too! but be warned im very picky about my ml art these days#i wont do just anything like it rly has to inspire me#be warned i am not caught up on s5 but i do kinda know whats going on#i just look at spoilers lolol#but also i will draw for quite a bit more if u ask#just depends on what u think i might like!#u can ask for ocs too idm#but not affinity because im getting a little bored of it in this very moment
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saying this as respectfully as possible but. Do not put fandom content creators on a pedestal. We are also just fans contributing to a community just as you are. We have boundary on our own work and thatās it. What I say is not and should not be considered sth the whole fandom should listen to. Iām just a normal ass person ranting about things on my blog. If it does not have a fandom tag for others to engage in, do not make it out to be me trying to start fights or addressing the whole community. Because itās not.
Iāve said it before and I will say it again, my art, my lore talk, is biased. Iāve never tried to hide that I view Marika a certain way and will always develop my theory following that base assumption.
Aside from translation stuffs and pointing out in-game items, everything else I say you can look at it, agree or disagree, and move on to form your own opinions. Just because I draw stuffs doesnāt mean you get to saddle me with responsibilities about managing fandom expectations. What the hell? Iām a fan artist, Iām the last person who you should look at for āleaderismā (?) WHAT?
I can and will be a hater in my own space, like I know sometimes other artists will just post their stuffs and not engage too heavily with fandom, and for a while I did try to do that here (because Iām already a dramatic ass on twitter), thatās just not me though.
You will get art and you will get my opinions as well.
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#asking ppl to [celebrate different takes] is... WHAT?#different takes as in well I think she likes apples and you think she likes grapes. yeah thatās some fun discussion to be have#but different takes as in the fundamental of a characterās drive and personality??? NO#letās put that down very clear here#I can still read fics where Marika is cold and calculate and manipulative as long as I can see thereāre layers to it and the author#set it up in a way that I can see they got her backstory and build those layers based on that#and then there are ppl who literally only portray her as omg evil girlboss 101 letās blame everything on this cardboard character#then I click back.#and there r ppl who might not vibe with how i portray her and they can ignore me. THAT'S OK TOO. we r in our own space.#itās as simple as that!#ever since the dlc is out i literally could see the amount of ppl blocking me go up and im just āokā because i do go around muting ppl too.#that's normal fandom space managing experience. pls do that#lore discussion is for ppl to engage in so u say ur piece i say mine and we can continue or not depending on situation#but FANWORK? leave each other alone or be a hater in ur own space ok?#personal#also where are these ppl who have been defending Marika at... because if u exclude me#and some others i can count on one hand. where are these ppl?#ppl saying headass stuffs about the HS aren't even Marika fans or engage too much in fandom to begin with#meanwhile u can't even find one youtube lore essay that says anything good about her#ppl are even trying to give Messmer's mother position to GEQ for no goddamn reason#like where is this overwhelming support for Marika at cuz as the active Marika stan around im not seeing it
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also i think if roleswap laios and canon laios met theyd immediately start fighting.
#canon laios would blurt out 'why do you look like our dad' and fisticuffs ensue.#shuro........ is a little more complicated#if canon shuro doesnt think too hard about it and just treats the other him like a stranger then theres no problem#on the other hand i imagine he holds himself to high standards and if he sees his other self doing things he considers improper or uncouth.#i imagine hed only speak up if he saw it happen A Lot like hed pull him aside like hey... what the fuck#thered be a bit of 'holy shit i woulda turned out like THAT??' on both sides#roleswap shuro would often get frustrated but i think hed understand that like. thats how the culture is like he lived it too#but i think similarly hed watch laios steamroll og shuro and eventually be like. DUDE. just say something#shorter fuse lmao. anyways still turning this AU over in my head#how much more forward can shuro be before hes unbelievably out of character...#and what if they switched universes!!!!#if laios switched. it would be immediately obvious something is up in the og universe but it may be chalked up to like#a weird mood..... though maybe the party starts to wonder 'hey... is it not possible this is a shapeshifter' š#but og laios in the roleswap universe...#tbh havent thought too hard on what the party dynamics in that universe might be like assuming all else is the same save for the roleswap#i imagine chilchuck would still get on alright as long as hes being paid upfront and laios is still attentive/ recognises his abilities#and limitations also. marcille................................... hmm#she might treat him more formally and be less close.... may perceive him as more threatening at first meeting#(in terms of like. 'taking falin away' i mean if that makes sense)#but well. u kno how in canon laios Does notice a lot of things about his companions and has a very pragmatic view that surprises them#and they dont tend to notice until he says it aloud because its often overlooked cos of his. everything else.#well. id imagine roleswap laios still notices things but simply would not say it aloud.#the party would also be like .. dude... did he hit his head#if SHURO swapped...................... well it depends when exactly it happened#i imagine it could be a bigger issue with the retainers#im losing steam cos my lower back hurt so bad adgfsdfg i cant get a good position on this chair#but for shuro himself i imagine it would be nightmarish lmao.#roleswap (henceforth RS) shuro would wake up as an adult with the retainers like. ??? was that all a dream?? did i never make it out#meanwhile og shuro ending up god knows where..........#if he ended up with the retainers again he might not immediately realise somethings amiss and try to act normally
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This is how I imagine the reveal of sev and nikki being back together is going to go
#infamous IF#seven lawless#i dont even know what else to tag this as LMAO#its like a reverse parent trap but the parents are the bands#FDSFDSFDSFSDFSD#listen to me do you see my vision#i just think a reveal w both the bands present where the bands r talkin to sev/MC but also getting into it a lil w eachother wld be soo FDS#do u see my vison#hey are u listening#LMAOOOO#listen sev and mc are healing but theyre not healed YEt so i cld see a scenario where the bands find out on accident FDSFSDF#and i just think selfishly it wld be funny#yk who i think nikki might tell since i have u here#jazzy bc shes not here yk#ok bye i just had to share this FDSFSDF#oc: nikki#also perhaps rowan#rowan nd him are besties yk#or i could see a situation where he tries nd then doesnt fdsfdsfsdfds it all depends yk#anyway i am v excited for this story to really get goin#if u cant tell
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ā¦ngl the Ilana & Rick dynamic was more interesting before they fucked
#creature commandos#rick flag sr#simuās two cents#dc#listen. listen. ik u can chalk that pairing up to old men getting their power fantasy of the pretty young woman liking them#but LISTEN. the entire relationship was ilana initiating it. and maybe u could argue thatās part of the fantasy#but that reads as moreā¦emasculating imo#rick flag sr said no like 5 times the first time she tried to make a move on him and ultimately backed off#then the second time ilana made a move on him he said no again before she kissed him. and then ultimately he was shown to be into it.#BUT LISTEN TO ME#i think theyre going to do smth interesting with ilana#she was described as a ādisney princess femme fataleā#i think sheās manipulating rick flag sr to do smth. to what end? who knows#anyway i do like rick flag sr a lot from what iāve seen of him so far tho so i might be biased#ugh heās just weirdly honest and endearing idk. i like his mannerisms.#anyway i stand by my statement that it was more interesting when he was saying no while the princess kept making moves#u couldāve had some interesting subversion/parallel to the bride and victor and that weird grooming thing#except with more of a power dynamic rather than an incestuous grooming one?#when ilana said sheās to be the queen and she gets what she wants? hmmmmm#depending on how the rest of the series goes i might write a little drabble exploring what couldāve happened if rick flag sr kept saying no#yk. depending on how much thematic mileage that gets me.
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reblog to slap her bald head
#my art#my ocs#imach quality MIGHT be assš„ but whatevs#her weapon is a jjk refrance btw .. if anyone even cares ā¦#tojiās epic sword thing that he used to [REDACTED] gojo is called the inverted spear of heaven :]#it nullifies cursed techniques yay so thatās why Adonaiās sword does the same š but with just .. extra powers(tm)#like classpect powers u kno.. basically u would only have ur physical strength n shit left. all weapons you wield also loose their effect#if ur super weak then itāll last one minute ! then up to six depending on how strong u are#it can also be re-inflicted as many times as they deem necessary#umm what other Adonai facts do I have#ouhg yes they like wing flight better than god tier flight cos their extra wings help them do CRAYZEE aerial movesš#think of how a cheetaās tail helps it make really sharp turns n stuff. like dat#I calculated his height based off how tall Mary is haha sheās 6ā1 and I have a rlly old height comparison picture of them#her and Mary are moirails btw :D or at least they were until .. the incident#ššš#theyāve always been a dersie (LAAAAAMEE!!!) since I created them but I was thinking of like how sollux dual dreams š¤Ø liek#they r a little different since . itās just one fucked up guy and idk how it would work LMAOOOO but . I decided. it doesnāt matter#like. At all. since the dreamself died LOOOONGGG before canon#Adonai might b my most well thought out oc tbh#I could yap forever abt him ok enough yapping. my head hurt
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i love my friends so much. i feel like yesterday i had a lot of shit going on in my head and i woke up to my friend explaining things in a way that put my mind at ease. i dont feel as anxious anymore because i know i was overthinking. i think my dad said it best when he told me that he thought my wonderful brain of mine just wants to think problems are bigger than they actually are. he is right! im just inexperienced in life and half of the time im scared im doing something wrong but- HEY. i need to be more confident in making mistakes. making mistakes doesn't define me as a person!! i need to stop worrying about doing life right and just live for the sake of living and doing what makes me happy!!!!!!!
#thank u blake. u really helped#also nessa!! thank u for that reblog about your perspective on my one post about feeling lost career wise#it helps me to know im not the only one living this life because holy fuck i can feel confused sometimes because.. am i doing this right?#and you know what? theres no correct path that i think there is but im just not good without a direct direction. it makes me a little#anxious about things#i dont know if its because i have some form of a disorder but i function better when i plan stuff out and give myself something to#decompress the problems and thoughts because in my brain theyre just all stuck and clumped together#and that can get a bit scary and overwhelming!!!#im just glad i have people that care about me. it means literally everything to me#so even if i dont 100% reply dont think i dont care because literally any ANY advice or kindness you show to me means the world#we're all just living this little life and we might as well make the best of it#people care..... thats just.... its good... it makes me feel less alone that people do#i love my friends so much#evennnn if we dont talk every day or are only mutuals in passing!!! it literally means a lot if people show me kindness#like holy shit!!! your older than me? and your dealing with a similar experience??? and your telling me that its okay??? and that itll be#okay?????#like#just the reassurance that things will be okay and work out and that im not the only one dealing with a feeling like mine#idk sometimes i just feel like im crazy and like my thoughts make no sense?? you know?? but yall get it#im glad that i have people who are older than me in my life cause yall have experienced stuff that i can use to be better#like your life experiences can help me in a way that can make a difference on my perspective on things#its why i like talking to my coworkers. because theyve seen things and done things i havent and their perspective can teach me potentially#i just dont feel so overwhelmed with life when i talk to people who understand#i feel so young and yet old enough to know but even the people who are older dont know so im sort of on the right track i suppose depending#on how you look at it#so- im just gonna live my life and smile because!!! you gotta.#you gotta surround yourself with people who can enrich you and teach you things for the better and make you want to grow#some of you are like that#you may not know that#but that kindness means so much
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i feel a little bad remembering how in my mother days there was this rly common perception of thinking 'well lucas would be so pessimistic after what happened and he would hate flint cuz he sucks and he would hate everything!!' and i would believe it just cuz i was still relearning a lot of things i didnt know if that was what i was supposed to think but it always felt like people who saw things this way wanted to force others to do too
#ur on ur complete right to think well he might be depressed after all that cuz that'd be natural#or to think he would feel weird about flint#it's just that some fans would take these things to the extreme and be rly mean about it#idk if thats still a thing#im glad i dont do that now and just create my own conclussions#i mean im always making happy art of one of the most suffered girls in the world(lisa) just becsause i wanna#and my opinions on lisa stuff are all my own#also on the same topic i rly do not forgive wess's ass but i'm fine with duster doing so#not to say you need to forgive your parent because theyre your parent and shit i think someone could live perfectly without doing so#but you also have to understand people who decide to forgive them#or decide to not fully leave them. treating them at a safe distance and stuff#fully distancing from a parent is maybe one of the hardest things in the world to do#idk maybe it's because i played lisa and have seen even worse parents#wess had his funny moments but anytime hes mean to duster i go grrr grrrrrr#especially because he caused duster's limp i think#anyway all this stuff is very abstract and everyone interprets it differently depending on what is in their heart and how they handle thing#no point in forcing anyone to think like u ok goodbye#going from liking mother and antagonizing flawed parents to liking lisa and going .hmm this guy is kinda dad coded. and the guy is horrible
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(going to sydney's house except that u get the chance to improve ur housekeeping skills bc none of these mfs has the time nor energy to keep things tidy around them.)
#very very dependent on sirris' love bc confidentiality of (student) records and all that#u can do what a typical housekeeper does but at sirris high love u might get a chance to#mm#compile/arrange records/future reading materials for her class?#hell maybe you can make dinner for them too#HOPEFULLY#hypothetically.....#letting a student stay in a teacher's house at around 9-10pm is unethical ofc but hypothetically#if at high hiiigh love#u can stay#and around that time you can make dinner for them too bc i doubt these mfs eat healthy at most days#u can stay for dinner but i think u wont get the chance to stay for the night whoopsies#bc: sirris#goshe dol rambles#sydney the faithful#sydney the fallen#sirris the science teacher#ALSO I LIKE TO THINK#that maybe if u pass out from exhaustion/fatigue u'd wake up in either one of their beds#but maybe that's the sirris fucker in me speaking#edit: SIRRIS CAN COOK#and sydney likes their cooking omg#now i just wanna imagine learning from sirris how to cook.......
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ant mill wip #1536 so i can talk in the tags
#without context this is just some guy I KNOW but i promise it's scout. maybe not THE scout but A scout.#my scout. not an oc scout but the scout from my little story#one of many scouts i guess#i am not sure if this will ever see the light of day because it's so removed from being like. canon/fanon recognisable#BUT. but. i am actually trying to do perspective#i wish i could transfer my brain into a 100k novel so u could understand the context but.#just know i am thinking powerthoughts. if you could see it u would think it was so cool#smoking out the bay windows... top floor of a three decker... the only sibling at the new place... BLARGHHH#sorry#youll have to excuse me#ok .#might uhhhh might.#if this disappears it's bc i got lucid#ant mill is the weird placeholder name i am using to refer to this au! the more you know#need to digitise some of the engies in my planner.... hes my favourite hoohooheehee#i have the opposite of same face syndrome bc i have no concept of consistency.#also depends what tools im using! painting is very different from lineart#NOTE TO SELF : face dip cheekbone forward
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#oh my goD could my mother stop stealing all my fucking stuff for even 1 fucking week jfc#im gonna scream#she thinks that bc she's the one paying the majority of the rent and is technically my caregiver bc im too disabled to do certain chores etc#that she is simoly entitled to everything in the apartment and can do whatever she wants#steals my food steals my drinks steals my products steals my laundry card etc#now she's stealing my clothes and pyjamas#the fuck dude#i have severe skin allergies and have very selective clothing i can wear w/o a painful reaction#and now she's just. taking that too#the same way she takes the select few foods that don't set off my issues or allergies and steals the drinks that keep my blood sugar up#and steals the unscented hypoallergenic products i have to use#it never fuckin ends this woman is so self-absorbed and arrogant i rly cannot handle it sometimes (most times)#the irony is that she's a teacher and regularly works with kindergarteners who can understand 'don't touch what isn't yours'#and gives regular lectures to her students of all ages about respecting other ppl's belongings and never assuming u can take something#gives a big ol spiel about attentive listening and boundaries and respect on a daily fuckin basis from 8 am to 8 pm for her 2 teaching job#then comes home and immediately disregards that to take everything that isnt hers / disrespect my belongings and space#and yell at me when i tell her not to / get mad at her for doing it#ma'am.#ur 5 yr olds understand this. so do ur 8 yr olds. u r 60 MF YEARS OLD WHY CAN U NOT COMPREHEND THIS#nah actually the worst part is that she *does* understand it. she simply doesn't care#she would never do this to anyone else just me. bc im disabled and a burden and she hates having me depend on her for things.#idk if its vindictive or bc she feels like i owe her for basic care and decency or if she just enjoys lashing out like a petty bitch#i stopped trying to figure it out a long time ago#all i'm fucking asking is for her to STOP STEALING MY SHIT#is that so much to beg for. is it#ugHdjddjsk#someone find me a wall i need to bash my head against it#(or maybe hers. that might be better)#ask to tag#negative
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For anyone keeping track (no one), I have started watching the first Avengers film (MCU not the 60s TV show) but only while eating lunch so it's gonna take a while. So far Nick Fury has been assembling the Avengers (the film was initially released in the UK as Avengers Assemble - because of that 60s TV show - but it's not called that on D+ so I'm calling it what the Americans called it, just FYI) even though there's not yet anything for them to avenge as That Suit Guy (j/k I know his name too!!) isn't dead yet, and now they're on THE FUCKING VALIANT FROM DR WHO and I assume we're gonna continue assembling for a while as they're not all there yet.
MEANWHILE Loki (who is neither an alligator nor a woman in this???) is in a SECRET UNDERGROUND LAIR with a bunch of his stans who are... idk something technobabble that involves irridium and anti-protons. He is there looking for the tesseract on behalf of ???? who I know will be revealed 47 films from now as... no, wait, it wasn't, was it? That was just announced on a website or something? So it could be LITERALLY ANYONE. The Avengers (in-progress) also seem to be after that thing, but I have already forgotten why everyone is wanting it, assuming it was mentioned (it probably was).
Thor hasn't shown up yet, but Arrows Hawkeye is working as a Loki Stan and there's Steve Rogers and THE HULK and The Only Woman One, whose power is that she's a Cold War assassin (??) and I think this one is the film where she gets called a cunt (!) and honestly I am not sure which of the men she's getting officially shipped with, I think Arrows Hawkeye though? Fairly sure, as the alternative is that a man and a woman like each other as people but not in a lusty way, which would never happen obviously. (Hey I may ship mostly het* pairings but I don't always like it!)
Based on the Valiant (if u don't know who she is get da hell out of here!) I am guessing that the film ends with Loki dying in Thor's arms romantically but then I remembered that I know it can't because one of Loki got kidnapped from... either the end of this film or the start of the next one or POSSIBLY just from a later film's time-travel bit (???) but like... maybe they've edited this film secretly and I was right after all? But nobody else has watched it on Disney + recently so nobody knows yet? IT COULD HAPPEN.
Not sure what to make of this film so far, a lot's been going on yet also not much has been going on, and the one I like best so far (Suit Guy) is gonna die (NOT EVEN IN THOR'S ARMS ROMANTICALLY) and god Iron Man really hasn't aged well now that we have that one tech billionaire being a twat in public all the time to remind us what such people tend to be like. WHERE IS THOR????
*I say het but everyone in everything is bisexual, I know this because I thought of it and announced it on tumblr and will now say "I don't make the rules" to make it an objective FACT. I don't make the rules!!!
#the avengers (mcu edition not the 60s one)#(though if u close one eye and tilt ur head the black widow looks a wee bit like emma peel maybe?)#i like to think the lair of loki stans exists after this to post angrily on social media about how actually he did nothing wrong etc etc#let me know if loki's just working from a subway station that's still in use in this that'd be hilarious he'd be so annoyed by it all#torn on the tortured-by-thanos issue so far he does look messy but he might just have the flu and didn't want to back out#a lot of people are depending on him to jumpstart a movie superhero franchise he can't just take the day off can he#if loki took care of himself thor would be LITERALLY UNEMPLOYED how could he? how could YOU?#(the 'god of thunder' thing isn't a job he doesn't get paid for it so it's just a hobby)#(he doesn't even monetise that hobby! you think iron man would give you storms for free? EXACTLY. he'd have a patreon AT LEAST)#(āif you enjoyed this torrential rain pls tip me on ko-fi which is not pronounced like you think it is because it's a really BAD punā)#and whatever the fuck my loki character tag was#like i said i really do need to categorise my lokis more it's been bothering me for a while#reminder: i am here because they cast a woman in a previously-male role and SHE'S NOT EVEN IN THIS FILM. OR ANY OF THEM. D:#don't think the alligator's gonna turn up here either :( :( :(#otherwise it's just kind of fascinating what this film assumes i do and don't know about these characters#nick fury's a goth right?#mcu tag
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looking up info on keloid scarring is so helpful. thanks man I didn't think of trying that one
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#well actually that kind of is relevant bc ive been trying to find more info abt tattooing keloid prone skin#which is effectively opting to wound urself. but everywhere is just like if ur keloid prone ummm. Don't do it š#theres not enough known abt keloids to predict if theyll be triggered or not by the healing process like it depends on so many things#i mostly get them from acne scars. but they dont always immediately appear sometimes its weeks or months after#n once u get them theyre permanent. treatments for them have a 100% rate of recurrence n will grow back bigger if u try to excise them#and they cant be tattooed over like other scars bc they dont hold ink n the irritation can cause them to get bigger too#it depends a lot on the tattoo artists skill/experience ig like u have to know Exactly how deep ur tattooing + how the wound will heal#bc if healing triggers keloids. well ill just end up with permanent scarring instead theres nothing i can do if it happens#which honestly might still look cool but its unpredictable bc they tend to extend past the original wound. n it wouldnt scar uniformly#urgh. i should probably talk to a gp n an actual tattooist abt it. i could ask to get like a rly small tattoo to test how my skin reacts#pointless thinking abt rn anyway cuz im not gonna get one any time soon i have some other shit to sort before that#but it would be so frustrating if i cant i have so many tattoo ideas i do rly want them.... :-(#ah well whatever.. im just procrastinating doing shit i need to crack on bc i cant spend another entire weekend doing nothing#after a month n a half of being on meds i feel like theyre becoming less effective. my task paralysis n focus is getting worse again :(#like its taking more and more effort its been rly noticeable at work. hoping its just bc of general mental health or poor sleep or smth#and not that im building tolerance or smth bc man. what else can i even do if that happens#this is gonna make me miserable to think abt so lets go do smth else!#at least i woke up feeling tons better today šŖšŖšŖ storm passed baby#.diaries
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