#jesus fucking christ I rambled

[wynandcore]

Saw the sonic 3 trailer are you telling me the movie based on Sonic Adventure 2 is Not anti-military??? No anti-authority theming here?? Nothing?? The game where a kid gets gunned down? Where Shadow’s grief and hate for humanity is BECAUSE of the military?? Where Sonic runs from the cops and is consistently annoyed at their existence?

[liauditore]

do you guys ever think about that time she said her backstory was that she was only partially zombiefied and was fully conscious mentally while she ate and killed her family. and that she was a princess. i do alot.

[nebuladreamz]

chat the voices are loud again

[gojoest]

i wish ppl would respect selfships more and stop acting like they’re going to die if someone selfships with their fave

[abrahamvanhelsings]

agreed to have a student interview me on my usage of chatgpt for studies/work (bc i hate it and want to air my grievances for an hour) and then they send me the list of questions beforehand and the first question is deadass "which generative ai tools do you use". and all the followups don't even consider the idea that someone might not use these programs at all. like we're truly at a point in time where the usage of ai in academic work isn't just allowed, it's expected. hell world.

[sideofdust]

Something my friend said to me out of nowhere yesterday at lunch

[mochinomnoms]

HELLO????? TREY'S VOICE???? TREY CLOVER'S MORNING VOICE??????? HELLLLOOOOOOO????

SCREAMING

(you have to click and watch the video cause i cant embed twitter videos BUT TRUST IT'S LVOELY)

[chialattea]

I WANT TO LIVE

I WANT TO BE FREE

EVEN IF IM WEAK

I LOVE ONE PIECE

I LOVE MEGUMI ISHITANI

I LOVE THE STRAWHATS

I AM GENUINELY DEVASTATED

YET SO FULL OF HOPE AND LOVE

MOOTS YOU WERE RIGHT

WHAT THE FUCK

[a-sketchy]

persona misogyny is so fucking wild. ignoring literally everything else about the entire rest of the games, every single s.link with a female character is like “entirely for having been born a woman i have had to work twice as hard for a fraction of the benefit. even now, i am stripped of my agency in a position i never wanted in the first place” and/or “i’m put on a pedestal by the people in my life because of my looks. men see me as an object to be conquered, women hate me for ‘stealing’ ‘their’ men. if i’m withdrawn i’m a bitch, if i’m friendly i’m easy. because of this, i’m alone” and/or “because of my personality or hobby or lack of cooking skills, i feel like i’m failing at femininity. if being a woman is something i can fail at, then where does that leave me? i’m scared at the loss of my identity and place in society”

like very consistently they present female characters with complex thoughts towards their place in society as women, femininity as a whole, and facing issues stemming from misogyny, and then the payoff is always “my problems were entirely my own fault. i wasn’t strong enough, i was a coward. but now, i’m gonna work hard to be exactly what society expects me to be (which is what i want to be)! i’m gonna do better at femininity (which is still something tangible i can fail at)! i’m going to try hard at making friends (which was my fault for not doing)! all my problems are solved through personal responsibility (that im totally culpable for), effort (which i previously was not putting in), or you, a man! i am Happy and Satisfied with this outcome, can i be Your woman?”

and like hello? why are we here. what the fuck are we doing. why do we keep doing this every single time. can we not do the constant lukewarm attempts at criticizing misogyny so you can jerk off to your own thoughtfulness, while ultimately reinforcing patriarchal systems and brushing off any deeper misogyny-bred issues as a lack of deference to one’s rightful place in society? like maybe don’t do that? for fucking once? just an idea

[canduscata]

The other day, I posted this scene...

Which made me think of this scene...

So, what do I see is the difference between both?

For once, the first one feels more intimate, naive... they are testing the waters. Eddie is starting to feel he belongs to this world, and she makes him feel nervous. 😍 That's why he blushes when she says, "You prove yourself useful." And he sees she's proud of him. So when Jack arrives, it seems he has interrupted a date. He uses the word "lovebirds"... so it's something that everyone is noticing. They like/ are attracted to each other.

The second one, on the other hand, is full of lust. 🥵 The atmosphere there is heavy, they are not only attracted to one another but they also respect each other... Eddie is sure now that he belongs here, and she feels he has proven himself enough. Equal partners... Which makes the flirting more obvious, how they drop their voices when speaking, how she looks at his lips after shooting.

What are your thoughts fandom? Can't wait for season 2!!

[one-awesome-beetle]

sherlock season one analysis ramble (feat. johnlock. a lot of johnlock.)

ok so i had a sleepover with my best friend and she may or may not have introduced me to bbc sherlock and i may or may not have gone on an hour-long tangent (after watching ONE EPISODE) about johnlock that i cannot FOR THE LIFE OF ME REMEMBER but im just gonna keep typing and see what bullshit i end up with. also i have only watched season one, and we are going to rewatch it before moving on to season two because!! I JUST WATCHED LIKE FIVE HOURS OF TWO MEN FLIRTING. THEY ARE SO IN LOVE ABHUDFGNZMRNCGAJBghnsccbHVHAUVHAAAAAAAAAAAUGHH

shit ok so, ahugsabhfbdn okokokokok so i'm going to yap in two sections (mainly, they will cross over and blur at one point and i will not apologise for that), one regarding mainly sherlock and one mainly regarding john, because both their characters are so incredibly complex and interesting (aaaaahhh)

firstly, sherlock

he is... so incredibly interesting. he investigates crime because it excites him, not because he's concerned for the wellbeing of others- no, he wants to get into the criminal's head, to understand. he states that he is married to his work, but what i see there isn't love; what kickstarted it was likely this need to know what was off about a case, like an itch he desperately needed to scratch, which then developed into a habit, a passion, and then a(n unhealthy) obsession - at least, that's how i see it. venturing into more johnlock territory, to me, john is definitely his first love. i see him with past relationships, but i think he would've had them because that is what is standard and expected, but it was never truly love, you know? this is why we get the flirting-but-not-flirting when he's talking to john, because he's used to flirting, he knows how to, he just has to get accustomed to the new feelings that now come with flirting. i also believe he's definitely not a virgin, he gives far too much power bottom energy (the way i see it, john def tops and sherlock is being a flirty brat until he actually gets flustered and gets hit with the "oh shoot, he's hot")

this kind of brings me to john, though i'll probably get back to sherlock when i actually remember what else i have to say

john was immediately my favourite character, he's... i lack the words to describe him properly in the moment but HES INCREDIBLE AND I LOVE HIM. having been a soldier and a doctor, he is more stoic and reserved than sherlock, definitely braver, while sherlock is just stupid but never has to face the consequences due to his brilliance; how my friend put it was "if he was an average person, he'd die first in a horror movie, but since he's sherlock holmes there's no way he wouldn't survive". this gives us a lovely contrast of character which is wonderful as it paves the way to so many corny ship dynamics and tropes that i will be taking advantage of. firstly, i want to draw attention to the fact that while john makes himself as small as possible, sherlock wants to occupy and cover as much room as he possibly can - this also leads to john being more sturdy and reliable while sherlock spreads himself just a little too thin.

i do think it's interesting that in hindsight, throughout this section i have mainly analysed john's character by comparing him to and showing the contrast between him and sherlock, which, ironically, also tells us a lot about him as an individual. he is always second to sherlock, to others, because without someone else to bring attention to him he'd be able to live practically unnoticed by anyone - this can be attributed to his trust issues and lack of people he can, or wants to, rely on. this is especially funny when you consider his hesitance to trust people in the context of sherlock. because while he may not trust him, completely, he's definitely already developed this form of unwavering loyalty. one of my favourite scenes where this is shown is in episode one (i think ?) where when sgt. donovan warns john about sherlock, he is so quick to doubt her, his "why?" is so fast and delivered with such intent and confidence it shook me, and left me with such a lasting impression it is still such a core line i associate with him.

next i want to touch on just how much gay (johnlock) subtext there actually is, especially in the first and third episodes, because trust me when i say there is a lot. i obviously won't be able to explain and analyse all of the gay scenes as there are far too many but i will try, and will spend the most time on my favourites. firstly, within 24 hours (i think) of meeting him, john watson has killed a man for sherlock. what the fuck.

[insert 15-ish minute break where i paced around the kitchen muttering to myself like a lunatic]

this man is, somehow, in a way that even he can't comprehend or understand, completely devoted to helping sherlock. "why??" you ask? because he is also a fucking madman. he isn't traumatised by, but rather misses the war, and to get back to that sense of adrenaline and excitement he is willing to go around with a (technically) unqualified, unemployed detective who is thrilled by serial murders and bombings. though he might look at sherlock differently, or even so much as get scared by his attitude towards his their line of work, he gets off on it as much as sherlock, and the only reason he hasn't left, like a normal, sensible individual who values their life would've is because he too indulges in the thrill of the chase, and is very content to be able to marvel at sherlock's skill and hang onto his every word*, though he refuses to admit this to himself, as he seems to value independence pretty highly. this is interesting in contrast to sherlock because while he too values independence, he seems to not mind relying on others - that is, until you consider his refusal to trust in or rely on the police, professional organisations, other detectives, etc. this is when you notice that the people he doesn't seem to mind relying on are himself, and john.

*again with the complete and utter devotion. also half of season one is just john listening to and being in awe of sherlock's rambling.

i just got very sidetracked, though i'm still technically on topic (and still typing) so i count that as a win. in episode one, when john and sherlock go to the restaurant (i vaguely remember it being for something relating to the case but that's besides the point), their conversation basically goes like this:

john: so... do you have a girlfriend?

sherlock: no, not really my area (im gay haha) (...but why is he asking me this? [gears turning]

wait.)

john: (oK, OK OK)... do you have a boyfriend? that's cool btw im uh... ally! woo (im gay. i'm GAY)

sherlock: (oh sHIT he's hitting on me) *fast* i know its cool (I KNOW YOU'RE GAY)

john: (ah, ok *resignation*) so you have a boyfriend-?

sherlock: *way too quickly* no

john: (OH, :0) so you're single - i'm single btw too (what the actual FUCK am i doingggg)

Then we have 1) sherlock just rocking up to john's date

and 2) THE MORIARTY POOL SCENE

i can't even EXPRESS how incredibly i was giggling and squealing and kicking my feet im sorry??? as soon as he thinks jim is gone and he can drop the calm and composed act he- i-

[thoughts then proceeded to refuse to let themselves be expressed in writing so here have a video clip]

moriarty: i am going to burn, the HEART, out of you

sherlock, completely apathetic/used to people telling him he's too heartless/cold/etc.: i have been reliably informed that i don't have one

moriarty, after seeing him completely flip out (internally) when he saw john in the bomb vest with a sniper pointed at him: but we both know that's not quite true

(^^ i don't know that quote just stuck out to me. a lot.)

another thing, that, now having rewatched i am able to string into coherent thought, is sherlock as soon as moriarty is gone is concerned with nothing other that is john okay? is he alright? will he be alright? he doesn't seem to be able to recognise that his life was on the line as well, because he doesn't think his own safety is nearly as important as john's. (godAMMIT THIS MAN)

alright, thank you for coming to my ted talk, i have more thoughts that didn't make it to this rant that i will likely post over the duration of the next few weeks, but that is the majority. thoughts? :)

BONUS FOR READING TO THE END

screenshots of texts i sent while writing this:

[jazzyblusnowflake]

i hate to be that person but from now on im writing on my info page that people who mass like and spam my notifications WILL. BE.

BLOCKED.

i have written countless times how spam liking makes me get panic attacks because of constant notifications and i cant turn my phone silent and i cant turn tumblr notifs off either cuz i need my messages- and in hindsight i guess the post got drowned out and nobody could see it on my page but i guess we are doing this-

im sorry but mass liking makes no sense and youre only annoying the person who has to check for 99+ likes on posts that arent even theirs- you just liked everything in a ROW- like whats the goal here-??? [and before you say it, NO the accounts are not bots]

thanku for reading have a nice day.

[i allowed to be angry on my own damn page for once as a treat]

[umemiyan]

sometimes i think about how it must've felt to be toji—no cursed energy, put through the absolute fuckin wringer because of it, tries to get away and be free just to have a kid who gets the damn prized technique

luck like that just makes you feel so goddamn pissed and beat down by the entire universe. a dead wife, a kid that ties you back to the shitty family you can't seem to get away from... obv not an excuse for wild behavior but like you can see why an individual might make some choices lmfao

of course he shut it all down mentally/emotionally. of course he reverted back to some self-preservationist ways. there's only so much you can take sometimes before you're like "oh yeah what was my kid's name again?" because you trick yourself into not caring enough to remember. lowkey been there done that myself and i haven't even been through the same shit as him. bro had to fight for his life just because he was born different so that's his fucking default

i just. imagine the pain and anger that has to be expunged somehow because you aren't allowed (and don't know how) to be vulnerable. but the little bits of love and kindness that once touched you still surface in the final moments. like FUCK dude i'm not a "lovergirl" but goodness and kindness is everything and it cycles forward

[depravitydotexe]

ok so for thursday date night yesterday he took me 2 build-a-bear again n then 2 korean fusion but i cant believe im saying this but. building a pochacco plush paled in comparison 2 the freak shit he did 2 me after. i said i wanted 2 push my impact play limits n HOLY SHIT. i got kicked arnd on the floor. i had 2 beg him 2 punch me. i got choked so hard that when he let go i hacked up drool all over myself like 3 fuckin times. n getting all ur air cut off w a butch hand arnd ur neck is fucking fantastic n all but have u ever had a boot press so hard down on ur chest that THAT stopped u from breathing entirely??? fucking christ. he refrained from wearing those new boots outside JUST so they can b for stomping n kicking n begging at. he bit me until it bled n left swollen bumps. MULTIPLE kicks 2 the crotch. i had told him at dinner "im not rly feelin the knives or toys 2nite just impact" n then during sex he goes "i dont care what u want. i want the knife." that itself almost made me cum but then he carved DADDYS GIRL n COCKSLUT n DOLLFACE n DYKE BAIT in2 my skin. i was screaming so hard i was pounding against the living room floor n he had 2 gag me which made me even droolier but that wasnt even enough so then i had 2 get almost suffocated w a pillow on top of that. i dont think ive ever cried so hard during sex its some of the hardest ive ever cried that kinda cry that distinctly reminds of when u were a kid all deep n guttural n trembling n uncontrollable. i had put on extra mascara right b4 w the express purpose of crying it all off n by god did i do just that. n then of course when he was done with that he had me crawl 2 the bed where i promptly received the best strap hes ever given me. that mating press worked s2g im knocked up now. im literally gods favorite painslut bc i asked him 2 grab the biggest cock we got n he shoved it in and it was so fucking huge it hurt so much i had 2 immediately shove him out and FUCK I LIKED IT. MIGHT DO IT AGAIN ON PURPOSE. promptly got boycunt all over my face after. straight up the most euphorically agonizing sex ive ever had. i could barely move after n the big plug in me prolly didnt help. god.

[melodyofthevoid]

Ocean Idiots question:

What is the currency like?

Do the different nations use their own currency or do they all use the same thing like gold and silver coins for example?

Anon, bless your heart. I have been trying to figure this out for some time but I think about economics in relation to the pirate world and my brain goes blank.

I did have the thought that because piracy is a thing, most ships don't tend to carry cash directly, only cargo and a secondary "coin" that's essentially... useless? Or that's what it was meant to be. It's more of an IOU that trading fleets would reimburse merchants for to keep their vessels fed/supplied but it wound up as a black market/secondary currency anyways.

Monetary matters are. Weird.

[once-in-a-half-life]

hm. so it turns out I've been using the rocket launcher wrong in hl2. you're supposed to point the laser where the rocket needs to go... 🤯

no wonder I was struggling so hard with the gunships and striders on my first playthrough skjdjdsk