#jayden you were insane for that

[briscoelily]

screaming crying thinking about hozier's like real people do being on jayden's charles playlist... charles' first thought upon learning that ghosts can't feel objects being he'd miss kissing... not being able to feel crystal's kiss... he just wants to kiss like real people do

someone edwin give that boy a kiss he can actually feel t.t

[vivelegalite]

dear dead boy detective (especially paynland) enjoyers: have you yet heard of the biggest gift bestowed upon the fandom so far, aka jayden's charles playlist? the one he mentioned in interviews? well, he dropped it on twitter at 19th of may. and man, do i have stuff to say about it.

there's a lot of 80's bangers, for sure, great to get into the mood and character, but some of the choices...

i'm gonna focus on a few of my favourites, songs that made me go insane when i saw them. honorable mentions: - category 1 (so devoted the lines blur): ain't no mountain high enough by marvin gaye and tammi terrell, there is a light that never goes out by the smiths, inkpot gods by the amazing devil - category 2 (family life): family line and summer child by conan gray, seventeen going under by sam fender, matilda by harry styles, father by the front bottoms - category 3 (being queer in the 80s): smalltown boy by bronski beat, boys don't cry by the cure - category 4 (there's no heterosexual explanation for this one): good luck, babe! by chappel roan, yellow by coldplay, fight or flight by conan gray (is this about monty? the cat king? i need answers!), the prophecy by taylor swift, arms tonite by mother mother, sweet by cigarettes after sex, head over heels by tears for fears

this list is by no means complete or comprehensive!

and now, the songs that made me go the craziest: (they're predominantly in charles' pov as it's his playlist)

found heaven by conan gray

the only reason this song made it into the list and not the honorable mentions instead of smalltown boy is that it makes almost the same point, just so much more explicitly. i don't think i have to say much about it, it's a story of a young person griping with their queerness, being forced to leave home, a common theme of the playlist. "you're in love, you found heaven" when he chose edwin over his own afterlife, heavily implied to be heaven, and built his heaven with him on the mortal plane? ouch! (and we see this same notion repeated in another bop from the playlist, heaven is a place on earth by belinda carlisle).

2. like real people do by hozier

"i miss kissing" charles rowland, 202X romantic meaning aside, the verses show a sort of a common understanding the boys have around the manner of their deaths and their lives before it. we already know from the show they don't really talk about it, with edwin not knowing about the severity of the abuse charles suffered. it feels like one of them saying "let the past be past, we're together now, yeah?". but also, jayden: can there ever be a platonic explanation for this? ghosts can't touch, can't feel, so they wish they could just kiss like "real" (alive?) people do?

3. flaws by bastille

not the most romantic song, but i absolutely love how well it fits their dynamic. despite his edwardian brand of repression, edwin truly is the one that's more open about his feelings (recognising of course that in this case, the bar is so low it's in hell. haha, get it). edwin has worn his flaws upon his sleeve, and charles has held them buried - eg. bottling up all of his anger and resentment towards his family and his own death. the song presents a very sweet outlook, in which their flaws are brought up to the surface (for example, charles' outburst against the night nurse in episode 4), but they learn to accept them as they are, an extension of themselves.

4. a pearl by mitski

you know it's gonna get intense if there's a mitski song in the mix.

the song is about a person who finds love in their partner, someone who treats them way better than they've ever been treated - and yet they cannot bring themselves to reciprocate the affection ("it's not that i don't want you, sorry i can't take your touch") despite reciprocating the feelings themselves because of the trauma. charles is known to bottle things up ("you're growing tired of me and all the things i don't talk about"). the person in the song recognises the love the other person holds for them ("you love me so hard and i still can't sleep"), which reminds me of charles' response to edwin's confession. not a "no", but a "maybe, as time passes".

5. fair by the amazing devil

this one made me genuinely gasp when i first delved into the lyrics. it's simply so sweet, such a genuine and domestic portrayal of love. at first i thought it was way too open about being a love song (normal text instead of the subtext i'd be used to) for jayden to choose it with edwin in mind, but... there's no one else it can really be about. it's far too domestic, too "established" to refer to crystal. refers to a relationship that's laster for a longer while.

the narrator in the first verse is a person deeply in love with the other person, someone who loves to make his lover laugh and simply drinks in their presence. the "he" in the song i believe is charles, while the "she" refers to edwin. edwin promises to fight off anyone - or any feelings pulling charles down (we can see this in the first episode: "you ever think... what if death did catch us? she'd force us to go to the afterlife and split up" "i will make sure this never happens."). charles feels left behind by the world (seeing as he clings to crystal at first, refering to her as "someone their age who's still alive") and believes edwin to be so much stronger than he's ever been. i'm not going to break down the song verse by verse, but if you read it yourself while subbing out "he" for charles and "she" for edwin you'll see just how sweet (and... strangely very in character?) the song is.

6. work song by hozier

if the previous song made me gasp when i saw the lyrics, this one made me go "NO WAY" out loud when i saw the title. the first one verse is just pure toothrotting sweetness, but the chorus is what i want to draw attention to:

when my time comes around lay me gently in the cold, dark earth no grave can hold my body down i'll crawl home to her

HELLO? charles, who keeps escaping death and afterlife to be able to stay with edwin? charles, as he literally takes his last breath with edwin right there, choosing to be by his side rather than move on? charles, who keeps choosing him despite night nurse's promises and threats? charles, who literally crawled through hell for him?

verse 2, to me, can be interpreted as referring to when charles died. edwin found him at his worst, and he "woke" up with his presence comforting him. he was shivering due to hypothermia and his injuries. edwin didn't ask him about what happened or pushed him, he simply listened. the lines "i didn't care much how long i lived, but I swear, i thought i dreamed her" are pretty self explanatory.

in verse 3 we still see the same attitude of "damn the afterlife, at least we have each other" as charles portrays througout the series. they're free, and heaven and hell are simply words to him.

7. orpheus by vincent lima

i literally have no words for this one. it fits too well. if you want commentary for this one, just... i don't know, rewatch the staircase scene.

8. francesca by hozier

(cracks knuckles) this is the big one. the album francesca is from, unreal unearth, is based on dante alighieri's divine comedy, a fourteenth century poem about a man venturing into hell, purgatory and eventually heaven. the eponymous francesca is one francesca di rimini, a woman who was politically married off to a man older than her, called giovanni malatesta. francesca didn't love him, and eventually fell deep in love with giovanni's younger brother, paolo. the two carried on with the affair for years, before being murdered by giovanni upon his finding out. francesca and paolo are mentioned in canto v of the first book, inferno, as two souls damned in the second circle of hell, lust. their punishment is to be permanently locked in a hurricane, swept away by the winds the moment they manage to get close enough to touch one another.

as opposed to their portrayal in the poem, the song is from the perspective of paolo, explaining that no matter the punishment, he wouldn't change anything about his life because he got to know, and love, francesca.

the first verse brings to mind the scenes in hell, especially on the staircase ("do you think I'd give up? that this might've shook the love from me? or that I was on the brink? how could you think, darlin', i'd scare so easily?" as an echo of charles' "sorry. no version of this where i didn't come get you"). "my life was a storm since i was born, how could i fear any hurricane?" could relate to charles' tumultuous family life, an assurance that nothing he has to deal with while by edwin's side will faze him given the things he's lived through. no, despite everything he's suffered through, charles wouldn't do anything differently - because his (admittedly shitty) life led him to edwin ("i'd tell them, put me back in"). we already know charles would choose him over heaven, willingly sacrificing his own afterlife to stay with a boy he's known for hours, someone kind enough to keep him company as he drew his final breath. all of it - his father's abuse, his schoolmates' bigotry, the pain of his own death, as well as everything he's gone through since - he'd do it all again, for edwin.

"for all that was said of where we'd end up at the end of it" could be taken as an allusion to the fate the boys would meet at "at the end of it", when they're finally caught by death and separated, or as more of a general "if you sin, you will go to hell when you die" (up to you to decide what the sin itself would be - an interpretation that would work with other songs on the playlist is that one such sin would be same sex attraction). then their hearts ceased, they never knew "peace", nor did they want to find it in death. their deaths were too soon, them being ripped away from life, but even though it would break his heart: charles would ask to do it all again.

the outro, i think, beautifully pulls it all together: heaven is not fit to house a love like theirs.

to wrap it all up:

jayden, what were you cooking in there? what do you know??

[brainddeadd]

Worries (pt 3)

Nico Hischier x Hughes!sister reader

Jack Hughes x sister!reader, Quinn Hughes x sister!reader, Luke Hughes x sister!reader, Trevor Zegras x platonic!reader, Jayden Williamson x ex!reader (OC)

Warnings: fluff, angst, surgery, and injury mention

You can hear Nico before you see him. The frantic tone of his voice as he practically yells at the poor nurse just doing her job.

"I can't let you in. You're not family-" her voice is calm but you know it won't do much to relax Boone.

"Fuck that, she's my-" Nico cuts himself off, and you can hear the sharp intake of breath as he remembers where he is.

"She's my sister and his girl," Jack supplies, a long suffering sigh leaving his lips. "Idiots think I don't know."

"Yeah, cause everything about Nico right now just screams really good friend," you can practically hear Luke's eye roll.

"Look man I'm sorry we were gonna tell you but right now I don't care all I care about is seeing her before I go fucking insane ok so lady please let me in the room." Nico's voice turns desperate and pleading and you can hear someone pat him on the back.

"Ma'am, that's my baby sister in there, and I really need to see her, please," Quinn's voice is polite, but there's an edge to it you recognise. He's not going to take no for an answer.

"Jack, Neeks-" your voice is weaker than expected, but they both hear you, and Nico barges past the nurse, shoving the door open with a bang, his eyes settling on you in the bed, blood on your face and arms, leg bandaged around your calf.

"Sunneschi," Breathlessly, Nico moves towards you, purposely going around the bed, eyes scanning for anymore injuries before he takes your hand and places a tender kiss on to your lips. "Fuck baby, you scared me."

Your brothers watch the scene with fascination, unable to process the tenderness Nico is displaying. Eventually, Jack grins, head falling backwards in disbelief.

"Can't believe Nico here's gonna be my brother in law," he mutters, coming over to take your other hand. "How you feelin'?"

"Sore from the fall, but ok."

~~

It's three days later when Jack knocks on your door, Quinn and Luke in tow, and scolds you for not telling him about you and Nico. He stands there with his hands on his hips and a frown on his face, looking like a perpetulant child. He settles down when Nico walks into the room, a tray of food in hand, and your medicine ready for you to take.

"Ok, I've got you- oh hey guys- I've got your meds and then I made you some toast with your favourite strawberry jam on it, which is surprisingly difficult to find but I managed, and a hot chocolate cause the coffee machine broke," Nico places the tray down on the small table in front of you, "and I've got your.. where is, fuck hold on-"

Nico rushes from the room, leaving a smiling you and a dumbfounded Jack, only to reappear a few seconds later with a book and a special pencil case he got you for your sticky notes, highlighter and pens.

"Your book," he huffs, placing it beside the tray, smiling as he turns to your brothers. "Hey guys, you want anything?"

"Nah nah, I'm good, thanks," Jack turns slightly, hesitating before shaking his head to himself and leaving, "see y'all later!"

Quinn and Luke give you quick kisses on the forehead before they follow Jack out the door.

Nico turns to you with his eyebrow raised in question, and you shrug, opting to hold your arms out for a hug instead. Nico willingly slides into the hug, careful not to press on any of the places he thinks could hurt (he memorised the list).

~~

"Nico.."

"Yeah baby," his voice is muffled from the way his cheek is pressing to your head. "You ok?"

"M'great," taking his hand in your own, you bring his fingers up to your lips, his fingers flexing slightly from the contact. He presses a kiss to the top of your head, humming contently when he feels your breathing even out.

[fan-a-tink]

My favourite lyrics from Jayden’s Charles playlist (because I am still going absolutely insane over it):

I’d walk to the depth of a world down below, and demand to get back what some circumstance stole - Orpheus, by Vincent Lima

How do you know which memories to save? Like the very last footprint that Orpheus made. Cause the last ray of sun made Eurydice cold, did she know, did she know, did she know, did she know? - Orpheus, by Vincent Lima

But I opened the door and I went down the stairs, I turned back one last time just to prove you were there. You said, ‚If you can see me, it’s all in your head‘, but it feels real to me now, it felt real to me then - Orpheus, by Vincent Lima

In the low lamp light I was free. Heaven and Hell were words to me. When my time comes around, lay me gently in the cold dark earth. No grave can hold my body down, I’ll crawl home to her - Work Song, by Hozier

Do you think I’d give up? That this might’ve shook the love from me? Or that I was on the brink, how could you think, darling, I’d scare so easily? - Francesca, by Hozier

If someone asked me at the end, I’d tell them put me back in it, darling, darling, I would do it again, ah, ah, if I could hold you for a minute, I’d go through it again - Francesca, by Hozier

Heaven is not fit to house a love like you and I - Francesca, by Hozier

I say they’re just the ones who gave me life, but I truly am my parents’ child. […] I can run but I can’t hide from my family line - Family Line, by Conan Gray

And wonder what I did to deserve this, how could you hurt a little kid? I can’t forget, I can’t forgive you, cause now I’m scared that everyone I love will leave me - Family Line, by Conan Gray

I was a kid but I wasn’t clueless, Someone who loves you wouldn’t do this - Family Line, by Conan Gray

And you laugh and you dance in the wind, and you sway and you hug and you cry, but there’s darkness behind those eyes even when you smile. Oh, summer child, you don’t have to act like all you feel is mild. - Summer Child, by Conan Gray

Stay together, no matter what the weather, even if the winds are changing everything that you are - The Mates of Soul, by Taylor John Williams

My love, there’s only you in my life, the only thing that’s right, my first love, you’re every breath that I take - Endless Love, by Luther Vandross & Mariah Carey

You are, you are, home, home, where I wanted to go - Clocks, by Coldplay

To die by your side, well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine. Oh, there is a light that never goes out - There is a Light that never goes out, by The Smiths

Well, fight or flight, I’d rather die than have to cry in front of you. Fight or flight, I’d rather lie than tell you I’m in love with you - Fight of Flight, by Conan Gray

Bonus, from Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance

Son, when you grow up, would you be the savior of the broken, the beaten, and the damned? 

We’ll carry on, we'll carry on, and though you're dead and gone, believe me, your memory will carry on, you'll carry on

I just love how it is so clear from every. single. song. that Jayden understands how much Charles loves Edwin. He is the biggest payneland shipper and I love him for it!

[midnightfantasiez]

Twisted Love | 둘 (chp. 2)

SUMMARY: you were certain that you would never find love nor ever lose your virginity throughout university, that is until a man named Lee Sangyeon came into the picture and offered to become your tutor; in exchange for keeping your grades up, and most importantly, teaching you everything you needed to know about sex. it was all just for fun & games, that is until one of you started to develop feelings for the other.

PAIRING: tutor!Sangyeon x afab!reader

GENRE: smut (18+ MDNI!!)

WARNINGS: dirty talk, petnames (princess, sweetheart, baby), public sex, p in v sex, kissing, swearing, blowjob, breast play, praise, so they made a pact 😃, and Sangyeon is insane 😮‍💨

WORD COUNT: 2,250

A/N: jayden lee sangyeon. that's all you have to know.

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This has got to be the worst day of your life. 

Not only were you late, and you were pretty much unpresentable (in your eyes, that is), but you also just had to cross paths with the guy who literally took your virginity hours ago. 

To make things worse, it was pretty obvious that Sangyeon had been glancing right in your direction every few minutes whenever he could while trying his best to stay focused on what your professor was teaching in class. You could’ve sworn that there were a couple of times he had actually raised an eyebrow whenever he would catch you looking right at him, not focusing on your actual lecture of the day.

This is why you avoid attending parties, and it is also why you avoid drinking alcoholic beverages outside of the comforts of your apartment because the next thing that happens, you actually end up doing things that you’re going to regret for the rest of your life. 

Wait, rewind that. Maybe it wasn’t all too bad. You weren’t going to deny that Sangyeon made you feel so good, and you wouldn’t mind doing it all over with him again—

Wait, what? 

In the blink of an eye, two hours have passed quickly, all while you have been daydreaming or thinking about what happened last night.

Or rather, him.

As you tried shaking off the unnecessary thoughts, you quickly packed all your belongings away messily into your bag, not bothering to organise them as your main priority was leaving the room. When you followed the footsteps of your classmates, you tried your best to fill your mind with simple things to help distract you—what to eat for brunch, if you should head up to the library to do a little bit of work, or if you would instead go for a little walk outside of campus near the local park. 

Before you could even decide on an activity to keep you busy for the next couple of hours before your following lecture, you felt someone grabbing your wrist, stopping you in your tracks as you watched each classmate leave the auditorium individually. 

As you turn your head to see who it is, you are met by the same lustful grin he portrayed the night before, knowing that this will not look good for you.

“Let’s have a little chat, shall we?” 

Oh, hell no. 

Just as you thought, he would not let you off like that, especially when you both exchanged glances throughout the lecture. As the final student left, he reached his other free hand towards his back to close and lock the door, leaving you trapped in the hall. 

“It seems like you have not forgotten about me, huh? Was I really that good, darling?” he teased, leaning closer to you. 

If you thought yesterday was bad enough, today might be much worse. He was styled neatly yet seductive in your eyes. How could someone be so effortlessly good-looking? It shouldn’t have affected you much; plenty of guys dress like this on campus. Was it because you had sex with him last night that changed everything? Probably, but also, there’s something about him that makes you crave for him, for his touch. 

“I-I umm…look…what happened last night…was all a mistake, I swear,” you said, trying to save yourself from embarrassment, trying your best not to bring it up again because you might genuinely throw up thinking about what you did. 

But clearly, it seemed as if Sangyeon had business with you. “That wasn’t nothing, sweetheart. It’s more than that, don’t you think? Especially since you were the one who made the first move against me.”

God, Y/N. What exactly have you done while you were drunk? 

“N-No! It must be the alcohol, and I’m so sorry for what I did. I promise it was an accident!” 

Unfortunately, he wasn’t convinced in the slightest bit. “There are no such things as accidents.” 

Suddenly, he wrapped his fingers again under your chin and lifted your head slightly to ensure you had all eyes on him. You swore the tension in the air swiftly, making breathing harder each second. Something in your gut just tells you that whatever he was going to bring up next will probably not be good. 

And you were absolutely right. 

“Say, princess. I heard that you needed to pass this semester with at least a GPA of 3.5 and above to be able to move on to the next. Why not I’ll help tutor you to ensure you keep up the grades?” 

“But…aren’t you just supposed to help the professor prepare class materials for each lecture?” 

“Oh, honey. Teacher’s assistants do more than just that.” 

Sangyeon began taking a few steps forward, all while his hands were still under your chin. His other free hand slowly wrapped around your waist, pushing you backwards. 

“You see, we do more than just helping the professors prepare the class materials. We also keep an eye on all students to ensure that nobody is falling behind or failing classes. It just so happens that you will definitely need some assistance, especially after your performance from last semester, as I have seen.” 

Both of you were still moving backwards slowly, and all this time you kept your gaze on him. As much as you felt slightly terrified of the whole situation and also of Sangyeon, another part of you was entranced by him.

“Besides that, I think you owe me a little something, don’t you think?” 

“W-What are you talking about?” you questioned before you felt your back bump against the podium located right at the centre of the stage. Immediately, Sangyeon moved both of his hands to both sides, cornering you to ensure that there was not even the slightest chance of escape for you. 

“Who did you think actually carried you all the way back to the comforts of your apartment last night?” 

Oh, him. 

Looking at how you immediately connected the dots, a somewhat devilish grin was plastered on his face. Now, you weren’t sure if you would want to hear his proposal. 

“What are you suggesting, Sangyeon?” You tried your best not to shiver, but it seemed that your tensed body movements gave it all away, making the grin on his face grow wider each second. 

“I’m giving you a special package, sweetheart. I tutor you, and you repay me by making me feel good.” 

Wow, that was direct as hell.

You tried your best to straighten up and retaliate. “W-What makes you think I would have sex with you again? Don’t you know the phrase ‘whatever happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas’?” 

“Let’s be real. It was your first time last night, and you clearly have no experience in all of this. You’re eager to find out and learn more about it anyway.” 

“H-How did you know it was my first?” 

He chuckled. “Baby, it was pretty obvious with the way you cummed.” 

Right, the first time was always different. Your roommate told you so when you talked about it the previous semester. 

With that, you shut your eyes tight, not wanting to face reality at the moment. You just wished you could fly yourself out to space, not wanting to return again. 

“I’m helping you out in both ways, princess. It’s basically killing two birds with a stone. I’d say it’s a pretty good deal. So, what do you say?”

You had no idea how whatever happened thirty minutes ago led you into the situation you are in right now. 

Everything happened so quickly, and you both were having a pretty heated make-out session at the podium. Sangyeon immediately crashed his lips onto yours, savouring you like he did the day before. Obviously, there were no traces of alcohol left on your lips, but there was just something about them that lured him in, licking and kissing them as if it was his first time. 

There was no way you could back off, especially when his lips tasted so good, causing you to whimper slightly throughout the kisses. Naturally, you wrapped your arms around his neck and tilted your head, wanting him to deepen the kiss. 

One thing led to another; you both then proceeded to the back room, where it was pitched black and quiet. Next thing you knew, Sangyeon pulled his pants down vigorously and made you bend on your knees, positioning your mouth right at his cock before placing his thumb right at your mouth, opening it before making you take in his whole length. 

You could tell that he was already hard as fuck, especially when his bulge was pretty much evident through his pants as you both were making out as you felt it hit against your thigh. But now you were finally tasting all the goodness; this was the monster cock that he inserted into your core last night, making you feel as if you were on cloud nine. 

You sucked on it for a while before you naturally decided to move upwards a bit and circle your tongue around his tip. That was when you heard Sangyeon’s groan, and you opened your eyes to see that he arched his back and his head tilted backwards, indicating that he was enjoying this whole situation that was going on. 

“Fuck,” he hissed, “You’re doing so good for me, princess.” 

“Am I…doing a great job?” You asked in between the kisses. 

“More than ever, baby. God, you’re taking my cock so well,” he groaned before he grabbed hold of your hair and decided to push you in deeper, to the point that his tip reached the back of your throat, making you whimper slightly. 

“That’s it, baby. Keep it coming,” he growled, pushing you at a faster pace now, his cock getting deeper down your throat. In return, you could only shut your eyes tight, keeping up the pace until you finally felt his body twitch.

“Fuck, I’m going to cum inside you, princess,” that was his final warning because seconds later, he released all of his liquid into your mouth, the excess dripping down from the corners of your mouth. Sangyeon made sure that you didn’t waste a drop, making you swallow them all in front of him.

“Tell me, how does it taste?” 

“I-It tastes so good…” 

As soon as he heard that, he quickly pulled you up and slammed you down on one of the tables nearby, quickly pulling down the cargo pants that you were wearing before he had a little moment of admiring your ass, his hands moving in circular motions around them. 

“You’re so pretty, princess. And this is all for me,” Sangyeon praised before he grabbed hold of your underwear, pulling them down before positioning his cock at your entrance and pushing it all the way in, earning a yelp from you in return. 

He didn’t even give you time to adjust this time, it was as if he had gone ballistic, and all he wanted to do was to fuck you deep and hard. 

“Did you miss my cock, baby?”

“Hhngh…v-very much, Sangyeon…”

“How does it feel for me to be in you again?” 

“It feels…so good…” you whispered as you tried to catch your breath in between each thrust. 

“Take it all, baby. Take all of my cock,” he picks up his pace, thrusting in you harder and harder each second. He was basically just tearing your walls apart at this point, and he just continued to push in deeper with each moan and whimper you let out. 

“S-Sangyeon…I’m not going to last…” you cried. 

“Then cum with me then, do it together with me, baby.”

Leaning down to grab hold of your neck as he diverted your direction towards him, he crashed his lips onto yours again, all while he was fucking you like there’s no tomorrow. The kisses continued, and you were certain he was out of his mind now, not letting you breathe properly through it all. 

Eventually, you screamed into the kiss as you both finally released both of your liquids together, now slowing down the pace as you both broke apart for a breath of fresh air. Throughout the heavy panting, Sangyeon was slowly massaging your breasts, resting his head with yours. 

“So, Y/N. What do you say about our proposal?” 

It was the first time you heard him say your name, and it definitely sounded so good coming out of his mouth. 

So many red flags went through your mind. You knew very well how this was all a bad idea. There’s no way you could accept a trade like this; it was absolutely insane and out of the question. He was just a one-night stand, and now, your teacher’s assistant. Whatever happened between you two should’ve just stopped right there and then. It was far too risky and dangerous to keep this going. 

Saying no is the only probable answer at this point. There was no way you were going to agree with all of this.

No, you couldn’t. 

Ever. 

“You know…you’re umm…actually pretty good…with all of this…” you stammered, mentally wanting to slap yourself for even blurting out all of that. 

That comment only made Sangyeon grin much wider than he already did before, causing him to pull you up as he kissed you deeper and continued fondling your breast roughly. 

“I knew you’d say yes, sweetheart.”

Oh, god. Whatever have you got yourself into? 

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[jaydens-blue]

A Less that Unique Look at Transplural "Systems", and Why it is Offensive

Hi, my name is Jayden, and I am an alter in a system formed due to childhood trauma.

For reference, pluralpedia (oh my gosh, I hate using this website as a source, but I really needed a definition for this) defines transplurality as: "a term for those who may not be plural currently, but believe they are or were supposed to be plural."

So, let's get into this.

First of all, alternate identities (aka alters) are a symptom of DID and OSDD. It is not an identity, it is a forced trauma response in an attempt to stop a child from losing all hope. This makes the brain split off into different sections to create barriers between the child and trauma.

To look at these disorders and only see a "system" is a wildly inaccurate, and completely disregards the actual issue at hand. Having several different voices/ alternate identities constantly in your head is disorienting and terrifying. Many systems have su1c1dl3 (I don't know what all tumblr bans) ideation, and also have severe anxiety and depressive issues.

I assure you, if DID was just having a bunch of little friends in your head who live your life for you and make everything easier, your brain would have done it naturally. Splitting is traumatizing and tiring, and your brain will not do that unless it feels it must.

You were not supposed to be plural. No one is supposed to be plural. Being a system of people is shitty, your brain does not enjoy breaking itself apart, and because of that, you will never be a system. You can not force systemhood on yourself.

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Another part of this I wanted to talk about past the definition is the community and their views on systemhood.

One of the first things that came up when I looked up "transplural" into tumblr was a person talking about how all "transid" (I will come back to that on a different day) systems have the right to be fun and quirky.

I do not know how many times we need to say this, there is nothing fun nor quirky about being a system. There are happy times when it comes to being a system, but to say that any system has the ability to be fun and quirky EVER is absolute insanity.

It is crazy how many of these same people are "transracial", so it just seems to me like all of these people do not have any empathy or nuance.

It is strange to me how all of the people in the "transplural" tags want only alters from their plurality. They do not want to have the memory loss, ptsd, anxiety, depression, or su1c1dl3 ideation.

Ultimately, these people are creating a spectacle out of real, genuine systems and making real systems stories and experiences less impactful. They also portray DID and OSDD entierly incorrectly, and they do not acknowledge the struggles and trauma that makes DID and OSDD form.

I will likely add more onto this at some point, but thank you for reading this. <3

source list:

https://pluralpedia.org/w/Transplural

[prince-simon]

AIGHT I thought DBD was gonna be a fun lil show. You have: two dead boys with AMAZING chemistry (I LOVE their different accents/slangs/outfits to reflect the times they're from), two living girls with AMAZING chemistry (deadass thought Crystal saw the lights around Niko because maybe she liked herrrrr and the lights were psychic related instead of LITERAL SPRITE INFESTATION), two wildly horny demons who I believe need to get it on and leave Crystal and Edwin alone please and thank you (David and the Cat King), TALKING CATS, a witch cosplaying as Cruella de Ville (I thought she was MURDERING her poor bird Monty!!!!), the cutest adorable most precious little astrology nerd I've EVER SEEN (the aforementioned Monty who wasn't a victim of animal abuse after all), a cursed walrus (still salty Edwin interrupted Tragic Mike's story of how he was cursed, I was INVESTED) OH AND A SUPERHOT BUTCHER LADY!!

ANYWAY this show was supposed to be fun. I watch Supernatural and yeah there were scary episodes but I can't think of anything as traumatic as the Devlin House episode! 😭 Just... watching the dad murder his poor family over and over was awful, seeing how affected Charles was broke my heart, the dad having a secret room to spy on his family was creepy and disturbing and OH MY FUCKING GOD?!?! THAT MISERY WRAITH?!?! I ALMOST THREW UP!! I NEARLY DIED!!! ABSOLUTELY AWFUL TERRIFYING 0/10 WOULD NOT RECOMMEND I NEVER WANT TO SEE IT AGAIN!!!!!

I can't wait to watch more DBD tonight!

PS sorry for the essay

okay okay first of all. i'm so excited about this ask. don't apologise haha i've got things to say!!! (i hopeee i'm not spoilering you for anything with this longgg reply lol)

the chemistry between all of them is soooo insane i'm so happy about it!! and yeah lol i think the entire fandom thought it was gay lights for crystal and niko lmao (and you know what? just bc it was parasitic lights who's to say it's not ALSO gay!! sksk i was spoilered about this particular thing before i watched the show and when i saw that scene i STILL thought it was gay lol

sksk thank you for clarifying that by demons you mean david and the cat king bc i was like ??? david and edwin's demon??? interesting take but sure. let's go with it slfjsldfj but yeah calling the cat king a demon works too lmaooo i just love how pathetic the cat king is kssksk

the talking cats are sooo iconic hahaha

omg i totally thought esther was killing monty too. when i first watched it i did a bit of a live reaction with friends and i literally was like noooo not monty!!! he doesn't deserve it!!! i was FLOORED when he turned human skjdflsj in general esther is such a good villain. like i fucking hate her so so so much but man. i LOVE to hate her she just steals every scene she's in ("ouch my ghost skin" lives rent free in my head tbh)

SUPERHOT BUTCHER LADY yesss i love jenny so much. her "oh my fuck" cracks me up every time. fun fact before i watched the show and only saw stuff on tumblr i thought she was gonna be the bad guy sksksk

the show is so camp one second and then soooo devastating the next!!! the devlin house absolutely broke me!! fun fact- or actually not fun at all, idk if you noticed but when the camera is on charles when they're watching the murder happen, you can hear him begging his father to stop hurting him in the background. also another not so fun fact i was listening to jayden revri's charles playlist and the song that's playing in that episode is on there and when it came on i literally had to skip it after a couple seconds bc it triggered me sooo much lmfao but yeah omg don't get me started on the misery wraith!!! the first time i watched it, i was binging and i'd started pretty late already so when i got to that episode it was already dark and i was supposed to go to bed soon and i literally had to cover my screen bc i usually can't do horror at all!! so i was like nopenopenope this isn't happening nope

enjoy the rest of your watch and you're always welcome in my inbox for more yelling!!

[fruity-legos]

JETT LORE !!!! (my dreamzzz oc)

Jett goes to the same school as the rest of the main cast, but he's closed off and quiet. He only has a few friends: Nova, Dallas, and Jayden. He used to be best friends with Izzie and Mateo in elementary school but ever since his dad left it hasn't been the same. He thinks its his fault. He wasn't god enough for his dad, why else would he leave. Right? When his oldest sisters was his age, they were coding and hacking computers like it was nothing. But Jett wasn't his sisters. They think of him as the failure child. Maybe he was.. what if his only purpose in life, was to be the failure.

OMG HOLY SHIT!?!?

POOKIE WTF THIS IS SO EPIC

Bro. Mi timbers are shivering. And not only cuz I'm freezing

This this this is Sooo RHAJFJDJJAJCNNCNZNX *eats it*

Lore lore lore lore I'M. GOING INSANE. BALLISTIC. HOLY FLIP

Also omg thanks for lore dumping in my askbox I feel so honored yippee hugs you <33333

[littlesiren79]

I think I remember you mentioning the Lauran had a roommate that caused her mouth scars once??

Forgive me if I got that wrong, but if I'm right mind sharing some stuff about them?

Ohhh ok so this roommate of Lauren's let's call her Jayden (like the hated character Jay) and well um they actually have a really really bad history of harming others over jealousy or anger and they had done what they did to Lauren because of jealousy and anger towards Lauren and when she and her were roommates,Jayden never respected Lauren's privacy or boundaries she had set because she didn't like the fact that Lauren was her roommate so she was doing everything she could to make Lauren feel miserable there and actually went as far as causing harm to Lauren like the fact that she had basically made two slits that almost reach to her ear on her cheeks with really sharp scissors and that's how Lauren got the slits on her mouth and after that incident Jayden was sent to a insane asylum because of the fact that Jayden wasn't actually mentally stable and was actually very much likely insane which is why she caused those things to others and Lauren as well

[cabalxcalamity]

◟✧⡀ ( jayden revri. omnigender. they/he/she/king/queen/majesty. ) … there’s a figure off in the distance, do you see it? wait is that … TSATHA ? how long have they been standing there? if that’s really them, i believe they’re TWENTY-FIVE.  do i know them?  no,  but i hear they’re UPBEAT and POSITIVE, but also FOOLHARDY  and IMPULSIVE. i do know that they’ve been in the City for TWENTY YEARS. it’s crazy that they’re just standing there … shouldn’t they be working at STOKER’S CRYPT as a LIBRARIAN? maybe they’re off today, i couldn’t tell you. hope they get moving soon. i’m starting to feel like NYARLATHOTEP is peering over at me … 

and where Nyarlathotep went, rest vanished, for the small hours were rent with the screams of nightmare.

( when even the avatar to nyarlathotep will not write its name for fear of drawing its attention ...., so he removes the t in "tep" and adds an "h" ... just in case. )

status: eager to meet more people powers:

escape artistry: core skills of an escape artist: picking locks, slipping out of handcuffs and escaping from straitjackets and other restraints. arcane ability to bypass locks, phase through thin physical barriers and increase darkness to their escape. knowledge of eldritch symbols to weaken locks or distract.

shattering: metaphysical: shatter minds, cause psychological breakdowns, hallucinations or insanity. low level reality distortion to force others to see small things that aren't there. environmental impact: decay and shatter of physical objects through corruption and destabilizing by touch. psychic assault: infection of visions and horrors that endanger sanity.

sanity theft: psychological manipulation: influence thought/perceptions/emotions to sow doubt, fear and paranoia as well as create vivid and terrifying hallucinations. nightmarish visions: inflict horrifying visions that drive the victim to the brink of insanity. trauma induction: unleash memories of past trauma or traumatic events to overwhelm the psyche. gradual decay: erode sanity over time through whispers, dreams and touch which can implant obsessions, or compulsions to push someone to destructive behavior or madness.

weaknesses: vulnerable to ancient rituals and seals, weak to banishment, strong willpower/deep-rooted sanity, counter-magic (divine magic).

mythos: the first mention of nyarlathotep appears in a 1920's poem. Nyarlathotep is described as a mysterious figure who has come to Earth to sow chaos and madness. August Derleth developed Nyarlathotep as a servant to the Outer Gods. It is a harbinger of cosmic dread and is a symbol of incomprehensible and terrifying existential fears of humanity in the face of cosmic indifference and outright malevolence. **a note regarding h.p. lovecraft**: h.p. lovecraft was a racist xenophobe. he was afraid of those from non-Anglo-Saxon descent. his writings include derogatory depictions of people of color and he perceived people of color as racially inferior - he was afraid of interracial relationships. hp lovecraft was a product of the 19th century and attitude towards same sex relationships were condemned and stigmatized. the bipoc & lgbtqia+ community have used the laws of public domain to write within the lovecraftian mythos to both add people of color to the mythos without the derogatory depictions and to develop lovecraft's themes of forbidden knowledge, existential dread, the horror of the unknown to discuss supressed desires/anxieties related to sexuality. important: while this writer is using nyarlathotep originally created by h.p. lovecraft - the writer is drawing from victor lavalle, kij johnson, cassandra khaw, and craig laurance gidney among others. the goal is to make lovecraft spin in his grave.

brief background: tw: religion (judeo-christian)

tsatha was born in the city - his first breath was city air, and he was a child of the city. his mother could not take care of another mouth to feed - she was lost in the bottle and in drugs, anything to make her life easier. she dropped him off at the orphanage and left a note pinned to his baby blanket - it simply had a word tsatha written on it. his caretaker believed it was the mark of the eighteenth letter of the Hebrew alphabet and the passage from the Bible, psalm 119, line 18 "Open my eyes, that I may see wondrous things from your law". their caretaker also believed in the power of numbers and saw tsatha's name as the number 90. the number 90 was the number of the cosmic warrior, the dance between man and the universe. to the caretaker, the number (tsatha themself) would be seen as uncompromising and blunt.

tsatha was not loved by this caretaker, but used as a conduit for summoning powers beyond human comprehension. tsatha learned sigils before they could read -- and they survived only through sheer force and a desire to continue living. it was an accidental scribbling that unlocked their abilities - or at least, that is what they think did it. they had been drawing a summoning circle to an unnamed god and ... then there was power.

the first ability they awoke was the ability of shattering. they forced upon their caregiver the pain and agony that had been forced upon them. then -- their caretaker laughed, patted them on their head and told them to grow stronger if they thought that they could escape them.

over time, they grew better at managing their abilities and was able to escape through developed use of escape artistry. they began to live on their own, free finally -- yet the use of their abilities came at a price. they know that they are an avatar for nyarlathotep and in their mind, the cosmic horror is trying to find a way back to this reality through them. in order to combat nyarlathotep, they steal and devour the sanity of others. they are still on the run from the one who "took them in" - though they found a job as a librarian so he could continue to channel and learn... and then they fell into the role of a private eye ... always trying to find more information on the caretaker.

wanted connections:

the one who takes care of them, a soulmate (for what is little left of their soul), the best friend, the one from the high side of town

[brainddeadd]

Worries (pt 2)

Nico Hischier x Hughes!sister reader

Jack Hughes x sister!reader, Quinn Hughes x sister!reader, Luke Hughes x sister!reader, Trevor Zegras x platonic!reader, Jayden Williamson x ex!reader (OC)

"Nico, two of your teammates were taken off ice during tonight's game. Do you think that affected how you played and eventually led to the loss?" The interviewer asked, his microphone being shoved into Nico's face.

"Uh, it was a shock to all of us. It's rare for players to be pulled for personal matters, but we all knew they had to go, and uh, we didn't want to uh," Nico sighed, letting his shoulders slump slightly. "Yn, Jack's twin and Luke's sister, was rushed to hospital, and there wasn't any information given over the phone to ease our worries, so of course they had to go."

"What about the rest of you? Were you all affected?" The interviewer pressed.

"I mean, yeah, we're all friends with Yn, and we were all worried about her." Nico leaned back from the microphone slightly. "She's such an important part of all of our lives, and I think we all felt it when the news dropped that she wasn't well. And when I was told on the bench that she was having surgery, I panicked, we all did."

"Was it fair on your part to disappoint the fans?" He asked, and Nico frowned.

"I'd lose every game for the rest of my life if it meant she was ok." Nico walks away before the interviewer can process his words.

nicoynfan: me rn cause nico really just said that

tagged: nicohischier, ynhughes

liked by jackhughes, user, and others

user: that was CRAZY

user2: he's actually insane for that

user3: WHAT DID HE SAY

user4: "I'd lose every game for the rest of my life if it meant she was ok." OH MY GOD NICO

user5: jack lurking in the likes

nicohischier: I meant it.

[gunsli-01]

For the Milgram oc thing- an oc that's 17? And questions 3, 7, 9, 11 and 16 :- 3c

Curse the lack of anon...!

Yay~

3. What is their reasoning behind their killing(s)?

"It was getting really troublesome. There's just so much a person can let slide; ya, know?"

Jayden's reasoning behind his actions is whatever causes the least problems while solving the main issue. If that happens to turn out to be killing somebody he's not oppossed to doing it.

7. If they hadn't been put in Milgram would they have continued killing?

"No, it's stupid to make something like that a daily thing if one doesn't have to."

9. How would their prisoner outfit change depending on their verdict?

"Changing your clothes just because of how people view you is stupid."

If he was voted Innocent his clothes would get more dishelved and he'd outwardly seem irritable. However, his hair would still be well maintained and he'd appear well kept outside of the state of his slovenly attire.

His mindset would frankly be,

"Fuck trying to make these prison clothes look nice. I don't want to even be here."

So, it wouldn't be because he was actively changing his clothes to display that but simply because he wouldn't really care or be interested. If he were voted guilty his clothes would be more well kept but not really change aesthetically and he'd seem a lot more calm. Regadless of how many times he were voted guilty or how restrained he was.

11. What recurring themes present themselves throughout their music videos?

Police, criminality, vilification, ostracization, surveiling, self-policing, and interrogations (in a this isn't my first rodeo type of way).

16. Do you have any minigram plots for them?

Jayden is in the same Milgram James is in. So they'd continue to interract well off each other.

James: *writing dreamily into a journal*

Jayden: Oooo you look like you're writing something good let me see.

James: Sure, here you go!

Jayden expression getting bleaker as he flips through the journal. Before closing it.

Jayden: Ya, know you're really calm outwardly but yeah somethings-

James: Uniquely wrong with me?

Jayden: Pleasantly unhinged about you. I will be reading this again when you add more. Because I could never fucking imagine feeling as much emotion as I read here. Great job keep doing what you're doing regardless of what anyone says.

(The journal ammounting to literally multiple pages about discussing everything great about his victim and how he'd certainly do it again and she's a god to him. As ephemeral in memory as she was in life.

Jayden: This is so unhealthy god I wish that were me. I wish I allowed myself to go that insane in the privacy of my own mind.

Jayden is simply the definition of I will support my homies unhealthy fixation.)

This would lead to James continually coming up to him when he adds on more.

3. What is their reasoning behind their killing(s)?

"They tried really hard didn't they. They tried really hard and still... How about you try now? Try really hard to keep breathing for as long as you can. After all you were the one who had fun watching people struggle in vain first. So, keep having fun."

7. If they hadn't been put in Milgram would they have continued killing?

For work purposes yes. For personal reasons no.

9. How would their prisoner outfit change depending on their verdict?

If she's innocent, she'd have a very preppy outfit underneath her prisoner uniform. Kind of like that of a bubbly college student. She's the sort to order clothes simply because she's bored and not because she genuinely plans to wear them. They just look cute in the moment, and she can imagine wearing them. She'd request clothing catalogs to the prison first thing and have a laundry list of clothes on order.

Other prisoners can find her trying on clothes in her prison cell as if modeling for herself regularly and she will invite people to watch and ask for their opinion on the outfits.

If guilty, the color pallete of the clothing she chooses would be different and more muted, leaning into pastels instead of bright colors. Yet, it'd still be noticeably preppy. She would, however, start accessorizing with jewelry, and it would probably be the first time anyone noticed she had piercing simply because she wasn't wearing earrings before.

11. What recurring themes present themselves throughout their music videos?

Revenge, fairness, games, collective responsibility.

16. Do you have any minigram plots for them?

She'd be in the same Milgram as Luna, which is downright hilarious given what incited her crime. She would bother Luna to regularly watch her try on clothes simply because she's an actress, and Celia believes she has good taste because of that. Luna keeps telling her actresses have stylists for that, and she rarely picks out what she's going to wear. Yet, Celia just ignores it. It's heavily implied she has another personal reason for bothering her, and the topic of boys keeps coming up.

[wolfspero]

Hey, I don't want to bother you, so I'll write to you here (and you don't have to reply, of course) I just thought I should say thank you for interacting with my old post, it made my evening- <3

Every time it’s nice to see that there are a few who are interested in this game in one way or another.

Hello! Oh no, I'm not bothered at all - quite the opposite, actually. This is such a sweet message. You don't owe me any thank you, but that's nice from you.

I was glad to see your post too. I was only looking for Heavy Rains' fan arts and gifs (well, especially those about Norman Jayden, but I think that I was open to a lot of things), but I didn't expect to learn anything about the next (unfortunately abandoned) game.

The potential was insane. The fact that it was centered on Norman already got me, but Jack Reilly's existence and their life together? Like omg? First, that means that Norman is canonically gay / bi, which is both awesome and unexpected.

I really had a great time with this video game. It probably was my first narrative game (and more specifically, a game with choices, but I don't know how to say it in English) and I loved the experience. I played it a few times and also watched some let's play (I just finished one today, because a very well known French streamer just discovered Heavy Rain and I wanted to live this experience again). It's always cool. A lot of feelings, several linked points of vue, endearing characters... bref, it works, and it's hard to just move on after the end.

However, it's really hard to ignore how the whole game shows a typical straight male gaze. Like all the time, and it's not even subtle. Women are objectified for no purpose - just because they can do it, I guess? This is not just about David Cage's shower obsession (like really, how many shower scenes? is it a kink or something? for real, it happens too often to be ignored ahah), but how he portrays his female characters. It's quite painful to watch. How many sexual aggressions? We even have a particularly scary agression in a dream? Was any of it really necessary? Did they exist in any other way?

Oh, yes, we had Madison Paige. I liked her, but she was not an exception at all. She also was over sexualized - not surprising, at this point - but that's not all. Yes, she is smart and brave. But that doesn't erase the fact that she only exists to be here for Ethan Mars. She was the nice nurse that helped him every time he was hurt, because that's how women are supposed to be.

Gender roles are very stereotyped and it even starts in the firsts minutes of the game, when Grace is depicted like if she was so boring. She took care of the children all day, managed all the organization herself and is basically exhausted.

And when she comes home, what? Ethan didn't do anything. He has to wait for his wife to tell him what to do, to remember that yes, it's his kid's birthday and he should be more invested. So a very hard task, to get the table ready... except he doesn't even know where the plates are, how to open the placard (I don't remember the English word, sorry) and can't even take care of the material. But he did it, so I guess we should applaud?

And after that, Grace continues to set up everything, without any consideration, while he goes out to play with the kid. It brings him the good role. I guess that Grace would love to spend fun time with her children too, but she can't since she is the only one to be invested in his son's birthday organization.

So when I read that Norman Jayden had a boyfriend, I was just confused. Wtf David? Were you drunk or something? How could you even not think straight? I know that sometimes a strong enough misogyny can involuntarily become gay, but still. This is so far from what we saw in Heavy Rain. I was not expecting it to be somehow canon. But it is, and I take it. It's just so sad that we'll (probably) never see it as a game.

The fandom seems to do the job for all of us. It doesn't appear as dead as you say, really. I saw some AO3 fanfictions... but didn't read any of it yet. It's not that easy to start an English story when you're so far from being fluent. I already struggle to read in French due to my attention issues (or at least it is the main reason), so starting a story in English is something else - and way harder. I already did it, but not many times and my level stays way too low for me to don't see any difference. Anyway, I hope to be able to start some of them. I saw a lot of potential in a few Norman/Ethan stories and I don't want to miss it.

Well, now, I also hope that Norman/Jack fanfictions exist. I guess not, according to your post? If so, what a waste. We don't know much about them (or at least I do not), but already enough to write a very entertaining story. Jack Reilly obviously was a very skilled scientist. He worked on advanced technologies and Normand used them on the field. This is both revolutionary and fascinating.

Also, we have the whole addiction to triptocaine part. They unfortunately had that in common - Jack even died for it. That brings a deep meaning to all the times we saw Norman fight against his addiction. The fact that he couldn't stop and was sure to die because of it. It's even more significant to know that his love died from it. It's awful and dramatic. But for the same reason, I think that it has - again - a huge potential. A story about their common addiction and how they deal with it would be amazing.

It deserves to exist, really. Oh, and of course, Jack also deserves to survive. I want to see Norman and him happy together. Our poor FBI guy wasn't very lucky until now, so it has to change. I'm not sure that I couldn't support anything else ahah.

Well... This answer starts to be long (or at least, way more than what I expected), so I should stop here. Just thank you for your kind words and your implication in the fandom. It's really pleasant to see. And the fandom doesn't need anything else to be alive.

[jaydenlucas]

CHARACTER INTRO:

NAME: Jayden Timothee Lucas

AGE: 29

GENDER/PRONOUNS: Male. He/Him.

SEXUALITY/STATUS: Heterosexual | Single.

OCCUPATION: Quarterback for The Black Saints

BIRTHDAY: March 29th, 1995

HOMETOWN: Wilmington, North Carolina

NEIGHBORHOOD: Carriage Falls

FACECLAIM: Michael Evans Behling

PINTEREST | BIOGRAPHY

BACKGROUND:

TW: CAR ACCIDENT, DEATH, DRUG POSSESSION.

Born to Daniel Lucas and Andrea Grant-Lucas, in Wilmington, North Carolina.

The moment Jayden was born, Daniel knew exactly what his future would look like, and since Jayden was naturally talented, his future would look just that.

Jayden would attach to sports, any and all kinds. But football was his biggest passion, and the sport he'd build the most in.

Growing up, Jayden would have a best friend by the name of Soren, this girl was not only his best friend, but would become his first love. He was insanely in love with this woman. Even willing to turn down colleges that were too far, as well as proposing to her after graduation, when his dad found out about this, however, he began to form a scheme to make sure his son stayed on the path he wanted.

Tampering with his son's car, the night before graduation, Jayden and two friends would find themselves in a car crash, where one of the friends would not survive. On top of this, drugs would be found in the car, causing the teen to look at manslaughter and drug possession charges.

His father, a powerful lawyer, would offer him a deal. In order to make this go away, he'd focus back on his football career, and forgot about marriage and girls. With no other option, he'd take that.

The next day, he would leave Wilmington, and attend the college in California he had attempted to deny. He'd go on to graduate with honors, and be drafted straight out of college to his first team.

For the next couple of years, Jayden would make a name for himself in the sports world. And not only that, but fans and girls all seemed to adore him. He was living a famous life, although, something was always missing.

At 27, he'd be drafted to The Black Saints in Wilmington, and he jumped at it. As he missed his home town, and his sister had had a baby, and that meant he could be closer to them.

Having been back in Wilmington for about 2 years, Jayden keeps up appearances, and only deeps his mark in the world of football.

SOME HEADCANONS:

Second son to Daniel, but first child to Andrea.

Has a older half brother thats been somewhat of a rival to him growing up, and a little sister.

Has a nephew named Tanner via his little sister.

His jersey number is 23.

He is always wearing a chain of some kind.

Has tattoos.

Has a notoriously bad playboy rep behind him. Despite being a great football player, this is something that does taint him. He has broken many hearts along the way, but for him, it's always been one girl, and one girl only.

Has yet to find out that his father is the reason for that car accident all those years back.

The friend who was with him that night that didn't die, they don't speak anymore, and blame each other for that night.

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

FRIENDS: He's super cool to be around, and easy to get along with.

HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS/FOOTBALL TEAM FRIENDS: His football team when he was in school. Could be friends still, could've fallen out, could just be catching up again. Either way, they were close and on the team together.

THE HIGH SCHOOL BUDDY WITH HIM THAT NIGHT: The night of the car accident, it was him and two other guys. Only 2 of them came out of that crash alive. The other passed, and this guy was super close to him. Neither of them understand what happened that night, but they both believe that the other is lying about how it went down. They haven't spoken, and presumably hate each other.

ENEMIES/I DON’T REALLY LIKE YOU: Not everyone likes everyone.

PEOPLE WHO KNOW HIS FATHER: His dad is a big shot lawyer in Wilmington, and hes not really a good dude. So, this could be a whole thing where someone doesn't like him because he's his father son. Or maybe they've had him work his case.

FANS: Anyone who enjoys football, and would watch it.

HOOK UPS/EXES THAT ENDED NOT SO WELL: Jayden is a fuck boy by image, so he's been with a lot of different women. None of these would've ended well if it went longer then a night. He's just never been emotionally available.

PARENT OR FAMILY WITH KIDS THAT WOULD KNOW HIS NEPHEW: His nephew Tanner is about 3, so possibly they've met through kids.

TRULY ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING, FOR REAL. I JUST WANNA LOVE ON Y’ALL AND BE LOVED. OK THANK YOU

[isadorajaneschaos]

10 Ships + Lyrics That Make Me Think Of Them

(feel free to ask me why in the comments, I'm happy to try and explain)

1. Trent Fernandez-Mercer / Kira Ford / Ethan James / Conner McKnight (Power Rangers Dino Thunder)

I used to float, now I just fall down I used to know but I'm not sure now What I was made for What was I made for? "What Was I Made For?" Billie Eilish

2. Katie Gardner / Drew Tanaka (Riordanverse)

Look at you, strawberry blond Fields rollin' on I love it when you call my name Can you hear the bumblebees swarm? Watching your arm I love it when you look my way "Strawberry Blond" Mitski

3. Lorna Dane / Marcos Diaz (The Gifted)

This scene feels like what I once saw on a screen I searched aurora borealis green I've never seen someone lit from within Blurring out my periphery My smile is like I won a contest And to hide that would be so dishonest And it's fine to fake it 'til you make it 'Til you do, 'til it's true "Snow On The Beach" Taylor Swift

4. Jayden Shiba / Antonio Garcia (Power Rangers Samurai)

'Cause I can see you waitin' down the hall from me And I could see you up against the wall with me And what would you do, baby, if you only knew? Oh, oh, oh That I could see you throw your jacket on the floor I could see you make me want you even more What would you do, baby, if you only knew? That I can see you "I Can See You" Taylor Swift

5. Mary Bromfield / Kara Zor-El (DC Universe / Young Justice)

You go down just like Holy Mary Mary on a, Mary on a cross Your beauty never ever scared me Mary on a, Mary on a cross “Mary On A Cross” Ghost

6. Lucy / David Martinez / Rebecca (Cyberpunk: Edgerunners) 

And I'll go Sit on the floor wearing your clothes All that I know is I don't know How to be something you miss I never thought we'd have a last kiss I never imagined we'd end like this Your name, forever the name on my lips “Last Kiss” Taylor Swift

7. Isuke Inukai / Haruki Sagae (Riddle Story Of Devil) 

Now I'm gettin' in the car, wreckin' all my plans I know I should stop, but I can't And I told my friends I was asleep But I never said where, in his sheets And I pull up to your place, on the second floor And you're standin', smiling at the door And I'm sure I've seen much hotter men But I really can't remember when “Bad Idea Right?” Olivia Rodrigo

8. Silena Beauregard / Charles Beckendorf / Clarisse La Rue / Chris Rodriguez (Riordanverse)

We're gonna be timeless, timeless You still would've been mine We would've been “Timeless” Taylor Swift

9. John Proudstar / Clarice Fong / Sonya Simonson (The Gifted)

When the silence came, we were shaking blind and hazy How the hell did we lose sight of us again? Sobbin' with your head in your hands Ain't that the way shit always ends? You were standin' hollow-eyed in the hallway Carnations you had thought were roses, that's us I feel you no matter what The rubies that I gave up “Maroon” Taylor Swift

10. Mike / Kevin (Power Rangers Samurai)

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain And it's 2 a.m. and I'm cursing your name So in love that you act insane And that's the way I loved you Breaking down and coming undone It's a roller coaster kind of rush And I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you “The Way I Loved You” Taylor Swift

[threephantomrey]

the fact that i’ve NEVER heard Asamad’s voice is insane. ME. rey aka Jayden aka threephantomrey and also previously threedaysrey who has had him living rent free in my head for almost 4 years and has been writing fics about him for 2 years now doesn’t know what he sounds like??? doesn’t know his personality???? i’ve never heard him talk to Vincent or even say his name. there was one scene which was a flashback in which he roared once but that was it. anyways what i’m trying to say is that i NEED to hear him talk to Vincent. when will they talk??? these two have A LOT to discuss with each other. i so want to hear Vincent keep asking “why did you do everything that you did?” and “where were you all these years?” “why are you here now?” “what happened to you?” and Asamad keeps trying to explain himself. OOOOOOH would that be SUCH a good scene!!!!