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[bluepr1ntyy]

Raven brainrot,,,

My human Raven and @yeloenk’s human raven + credits/tagging under the cut,, TW because showing wound

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Lux by AlainaPrana

Raven by @echoiarts

PaperJam by @7goodangel

Palette by @lasseutblogo

Shino-Hana by @blue-kohina

the rest (-Hino, who belongs to a deactivated account) belong to @pepper-mint

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[cloudyjamjohn]

Egbert, Gender, Disappointment, and Freedom.

This is my house and I will say what I want, but to start here is a disclaimer: This is a big long rant of my thoughts! I don't mind explaining stuff in further detail but be kind! June Egbert is canon and nothing can change that. But if you're going to act like Egbert can't be read as transmasc or nonbinary in the original texts I do think you're being deliberately obtuse. The idea that the transmasc and genderfluid john headcanons that persisted for years before the popularization of June Egbert were all a result of projection and had no substance or reasoning is disingenuous. If you firmly believe John and June can NOT coexist and are certain you won’t change your mind this post isn’t for you. Now then this is my rambling thoughts on why I love genderfluid John and believe his existence would save him. When June first became popularized as a headcanon many of the points people brought up, akining them to their personal trans fem experiences were some of the same points other people used for trans masc john- but, for lack of better wording, it was like looking at these experiences through a funhouse mirror. Where some people perceived June as clinging to the toxic aspects of masculinity to cope with what she thought she needed to be and just remaining miserable for it, others perceived trans masc john as doing the same. Overcompensating for different reasons in a sense. Did June cling to it because it was what her dad wanted? Expected? Did John cling to it as a comfort? Something necessary to be a “man”? The original comic gives us no definitive answers, but something everyone can agree on is these ideas of being manly, strong, and (maybe) insensitive/jerky do Egbert more harm than good. Is this entirely intentional though or is this a result of people not perceiving John as a whole?

Outside of moments where John verbally reasserts his manliness and toughness, where do John’s interests lie? Jokes and practical japery, magic, video games and movies, and paranormal lore. Dissecting these only one of them may really explore John’s inner feelings of gender in Homestuck- his love of movies. John loves action and apocalyptic films, expressing his love of the traditionally masculine, rough and manly male leads with admiration for the female characters sprinkled in here and there. For Con Air he projected heavily onto the male lead, idolizing the idea of being a strong hero, standing up for what’s right, and (most interestingly) being reunited with a loving wife and daughter. While someone could brush this off as June looking for a role model in what she thinks she is supposed to be, or perhaps misattributing some kind of romantic attraction to a feeling of “wanting to be him”, I think it goes deeper than that. If we were to remove the concept of gender from this entirely it shows that Egbert wants to be strong, a hero, and part of a loving family- specifically in the role of a caretaker who is desired and respected. John only ever defends his adoration when other people mock or belittle him for it. His hatred for the film only manifests during a time John’s own self hatred and grief were at an all time high, his denouncement of ConAir not really being targeted at Cameron Poe but himself and his frustration of being (mostly) isolated and confined. 

Is this even about gender anymore? Let’s look further.

While some people do think Dad was abusive, or June hated him, I have to disagree. Because despite young Egbert perceiving their father as this pinnacle of manliness, is that what you actually saw? Because despite dad Egbert being sharp, strong, and gentlemanly he did a lot of things that weren't traditionally masculine. A single father raised by a single mother, he baked often and taught John the art of pranking- one of their greatest joys and something June stopped doing in the epilogues/BC despite it being one of her favorite things and an integral part to her character. Dad never belittled John, each of his letters full of praise and support, almost heavy handedly so. While he would often use gendered language- such as "son", "man", etc.- the idea that any of it was malicious, as if to curb any femininity June might show, seems a bit of a stretch. Dad Egbert remained silently worried, perhaps the only true poignant evidence of toxic masculinity, when John suffered from nightmares and scribbled his inner hatred over his posters in the colors of those he considered his friends.But maybe he did ask, and maybe John didn’t understand because he couldn’t see his own writing on the walls. Which led to the miscommunication and Dad Egbert trying to support his child’s “interest” in harlequin dolls with matching gifts.

The truth of dad egbert is he is a man who was loved, whose corpse John discovered at the tender age of 13, and was never properly mourned.

How does gender play into this???

It doesn’t, and that’s the issue. Egbert, despite their quirks and the uniqueness of their circumstances, is a character people project onto and relate to. They are a trusting character who despite their skepticism loves their friends and does their best to believe in them. Personalized cards on their birthdays, gifts catered to them, thinking of them fondly, listening to them not because they want to but because they TRUST them- even when their friends belittle them, mock them, blame them. Karkat projects his own self-hatred onto John. Dave projects his bro’s expectations onto John. Vriska projects her entire EGO onto John.

And they take it. Because John struggles with their identity, their grief, their communication, their responsibilities, and their own self hatred.

Because John HATES himself and he doesn’t want to disappoint others and have them hate him too. They expect him to be a leader when he just wants to be their friend. They expect him to be a “man” so he tries to fit that role. They expect him to take care of himself and he doesn’t know how, having always followed what others asked of him even if they wouldn’t do the same for him.

And even not Egbert can not meet the expectations of the audience. There will be people who are disappointed if “John” ceases to exist, and people who are disappointed if “June” isn’t all she is. There are people disappointed with June’s clothes and figure despite her being nothing more than a nameless silhouette. Too feminine. There would be people who would be disappointed if she was too masculine. 

While people criticize the genderfluid John headcanon for its “only” root being set in John’s aspect of Breath- freedom and change- I think they’re missing the mark. Because it can also mean to be unbound. Unbound from the expectations and the worries of others, shifting on a whim to whatever feels most right. Freedom of expression, a shift from role to role, a trickster god who stands center stage as whatever they wish rather than a stone-stiff silhouette.

While genderfluidity may sound like a compromise to some, a cop-out to not disappoint anyone, I think it would save John from disappointing themselves. It’s not just about expression after all, them being a woman or man may bring personal euphoria but it doesn’t fix their destroyed relationships. It won’t suddenly make them a more sensitive person, a less anxious person, a person unburdened by responsibilities no matter what some people might think. That would take work.

But, while it may be hard to empathize for those of you who aren’t nonbinary or genderfluid or even trans, feeling free from the burdens of a binary can be invigorating. Not having to worry about how well you present, how “right” or “wrong” you are, is freeing. I truly believe John cutting ties with these self/peer-imposed expectations would leave him room to grow, to look inward, to not worry about changing on the outside but rather on the inside.

That’s my take on the matter at least. At its core I really do believe Egbert’s biggest issues aren’t their gender but rather their grief, lack of support system, and possible undiagnosed autism. I think genderfluid john would be awesome, but therapy would probably be better. Either way June is awesome and I hope she stands center stage with John one day, like Roxy and Roxy. Either that like army of John and Junes lead by a single John that has shed their flesh and moral form, that would be super cool.

Be kind to others and don’t spread hate! <3

[nonbinoclard]

someone’s keeping watch

[chandralia]

I’m being dead serious when I say the new chapter has taken away my ability to SPEAK like I don’t even know what I can allow myself to feel IM STILL IN SHOCK

over a year since he died, almost 600 days since bkdk last saw each other… and they reunite in the most intense, dramatic way imaginable with wordless communication, locking eyes, making the world come to a halt, and everyone’s reminded what this story’s really about.

“their feelings become one” HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE THIS???????????

[hyohaehyuk]

our_shadow_flag: THE WAY I SCREAMED OH SAM 🥹

Video: TV Guide - Interview with the Vampire Cast Breaks Down Claudia and Lestat's Love-Hate Dynamic

[asukiess]

I can’t imagine a worse hell than having an ex’s parent call you. wait, yes I can—having lunch with both of your ex’s families.

[jollyreginaldrancher]

Casual reminder that Misty Quigley carries around handcuffs and brass knuckles

[cake-chad]

Something something Gideon always inevitably wakes up with Kremy on or curled up next to him because being cold-blooded he seeks out the literal furnace sleeping next to him every night.

Frost is usually nearby too, but only if they're sleeping outside and not in beds, he's not cold-blooded but he is a cat, of course he likes to be near a heater too.

And now that I think about it, Torbek would be there too, having gone through what he has and severly underweight, his circulation is terrible and despite having his own layer of fur, he just can't stay warm on his own, so he sleeps sandwiched between Gideon and Hootsie

Just. A whole cuddle puddle of all of them, Gricko curls up next to Hootsie, Twig sleeps under Gideons arm, and when Pigtunias around she acts as a pillow for him

I love cuddle puddles and I love characters who naturally make everyone more comfortable to sleep around them 😭😭

[hauntingblue]

Rewatching act 2.... yeah ISHA WATCH OUT FOR THE CYCLE ISHA!!!!! NOOOOO

[headfullof-ideas]

Do you guys think Ant ever hates being compared to Alpheus? Has a dilemma over all the things they have in common? How Alpheus might have been like him, once? And if things had been different, he might have wound up like Alpheus?

Do you think he lies awake at night, unable to sleep with the burden the Scepter has given him, thinking about all the lives he’s responsible for protecting from a dozen giant, angry sea monsters? Pondering over his interactions with Alpheus and Proteus, all the things the other Guardians have said about him being the Chosen One? About how some random person six thousand years ago, that he’ll never meet, said he’d save the world? How a semi-inanimate object thinks he’s the best chance the world has?

Do you think he lies awake at night thinking about Alpheus. About what led him to being the way he is. If it’s all a product of how he was raised or if he was always a little bit like that, deep down? Do you think he gets scared thinking about some random person he’d never met before the day he decided to push himself into Ant’s life insisted they were connected? They were rivals, that Ant was the only person who could understand him?

Do you think Ant is ever scared to think of Alpheus as right, because Alpheus tried to control the world under his own objectifications of help, tried to use a bunch of giant sea monsters to do it, and threatened Ant’s family so many times? Do you think Ant is scared to consider him and Alpheus connected in any way, similar in any way because Alpheus was a terrifying situation for a thirteen year old kid to deal with. He was someone who was the opposite of everything Ant was raised to believe in, and the idea he might be remotely similar or connected to Alpheus in the way Alpheus insisted they were scares him because of Alpheus was the first option. He was who the Guardians picked first. And if Alpheus was the other option for the Scepter to choose from, if Alpheus is the other side of the coin Ant is bound to by a six thousand year old prophecy, than what does that say about Ant?

[papyrusmybeloved]

What thing do you wish more people knew about papyrus

(Guy who asked for asks literally getting asks voice): you guys 🥺😊🥰

Okok really honestly I wish they knew he is silly On Purpose. There are obv like SO many moments that have been done to death by better bloggers than me about how he knows more than he seems to and he acts a certain way but is sometimes lying and he is smarter than people give him credit for and that is great stuff! It really fucking is! But all this adds up to say he is a goofy guy out of choice! Papyrus WANTS to be whimsical!! He WANTS to believe in and love himself and every other person he meets! He WANTS to fuck around and be oblivious and be a fashion fucking icon!!! It's despite, not because! This is the energy I feel everyone should carry.

[chaos-has-theories]

Not so good news: the only Dracula adaptation in production is Besson's Dracula A Love Tale.

Dontchu worry Nonny I am in for the LONG HAUL. I want to see what they make in twenty years. I'm relying on the teens and young adults on here who don't have a job yet, after all, who can have white-hair kukri Jonathan and Train Fiend Mina on a low simmer for a while.

Also - I haven't listened to any of it yet, but I'm assuming @/theholmwoodfoundation has some of the "new" interpretations of the characters in their podcast. @/lxgentlefolkcomic making a comic that essentially picks up League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, but the Dracula crew are still besties and wife guy kukri Jonathan is absolutely there (it's great). I expect there's already books being released that pick up on things like that!

It's just going to take a while to get the idea all the way to Hollywood. Maybe less long than I think; maybe longer. Either way, it'll be interesting to see how the motif spreads.

[antibeachballsociety]

I fear the reason Capcom didn't let us play as Athena for most of Turnabout Countdown is because if Athena was the one to take down Ted Tonate it would result in the autism battle of the century™ and the public just wasn't ready for that in 2013

[themmatennant]

why do so many ppl hate on Fear Her?? that episode is incredible and I think about it all the time

[daltonsnightmare]

MacGyver (2016) s4e08 - Father + Son + Father + Matriarch | Cold Open

[freckliedan]

anon is stupid poly people are oppressed you can only file taxes with one other person you can only get married to one person its probably the same for buying a house getting a mortgage AND THEYRE BEING OPENLY HATEFUL TO U LIKE WHAT DO U THINK DISCRIMINATION AND OPPRESSION IS 😭😭😭

no i KNOWWWW it's honestly funny to me how wrong they are 💀 you can't argue with stupid and i wasn't even going to begin to try LMAO they were not worth wasting energy on