#izzy tag yaps

[philshotcocoa]

Dans little gestures :)

[pixiedust-poppers]

If you would’ve told my younger self there were more Jizzy non-shippers now she would’ve been ecstatic and then promptly disappointed as to the reasonings of why lol.

[someprettyname]

✨GF FC INDIGO AWARDS 2024 PT 13✨

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7 | part 8 | part 9 | part 10 | part 11 | part 12 | part 13 | winner's list | after party

Some points to note before you move to the event visualizer : 

🟣 My anchoring style is highly energetic and bubbly so you can imagine me doing a lot of hand gestures, changing pitch and tones of my voice, moving around on the stage a lot, etc. Hehe.  

🟣 The theatre/event venue has been engineered by the best engineers of the world, with the most modern technology. The petals of the lotus can close or open to hide or reveal the night sky. It can also change its colours. For tonight, it's indigo!  

🟣 The "OUTFIT CHECK" were clicked in different places (according to where the member was spotted first) hence the different background. 

🟣 I didn't want to write too dialogues on yall's behalf but I can't really bother you with every small detail, so I hope whatever dialogues I've made up are not too out of character! 

🟣Ignore the contradiction of same blue locker entering the scene multiple times, pretend there are a few copies of each member 🥰👍🏻

🟣 Ignore the outfit mismatch in the edits (any edit after the outfit checks please, our editing skills only go so far 🙏🏻 ) 

🟣 I highly suggest that you listen to songs as you keep finding them being embedded in links for added feels and extra hype! 🔥

🟣 The performances where multiple songs have been used is supposed to be a mashup. You can imagine the mashup to be as you please! The songs I've bunched together are for the sole purpose of creating a particular vibe, so as long as to they are fulfilled it's all good! 😌🤝🏻

🟣 The posts are scheduled at a gap of 3-4 hours each, this event is going to be spread throughout 2 or more days. Feel free to go feral in the comments/reblogs/community my mates. 🔥 

🟣 I hope you enjoy this! Tagging all the attendees here : 

@blue-thief  @getosugurusbangs @bueris @soleilonthesun @galaxynajma

@sid3buns @mariyumemi @pinkinsect @refrigeratedboombursts @satosuguhastakenovermylife 

@10renz0 @simp-simp-no-mi @boinin @sharkissm @milkteansugar 

@thebestsetter @merlucide @jujutsustraycats @kurona-theshark @nskiyuriz

@asarajaa @writingonthewalls1832 @hooudie212back @sadao-tsuki @milaisreading 

@8-xnny @licoririce @rinitoshisgirl @luvingshidou  @duckydee-0

@kuro-min @gojoracle @marcsnuffy @filecurropt0 @riririnnnn 

@wroophruh @sanaexus @melodiclune

Previously on GF FC INDIGO AWARDS : 

Soleil and IZZY were awarded with GF FC INDIGO GRAND AWARDS FOR BEST ALL ROUNDER! 

Savage performance by TEAM VENUS VIXEN AND DAZZLING DIVAS!! 

"Sorry for all the trauma :p" 

>>> Riri [ winner of GF FC INDIGO GRAND AWARD FOR BEST LORE WRITER.] 

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Soleil : Was that about your breakup era? 

Nami : I'm not answering that 🥰

Soleil : It definitely was. 

Nami : i don't know~ 😗

Soleil : Anyways. Gossip aside, we have to now welcome @/thebestsetter for GF FC INDIGO GRAND AWARD FOR BEST META ANALYST!! 

thebestsetter : Well, I'm not the one to create suspense. We all know "#雪 ranting" has some of the best meta analysis posts under it, so let's put our hands together for...

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Thebestsetter : RIRI!!!  (@/RIRIRINNN) 

[*once again the camera cuts to a very happy looking RIRI. Others pat her back and cheer on her as she leaves to go get her well deserved awards.*]

Riri : Best Meta Analyser? Me? Ohmygod, this feels so unreal! I really can't believe it. I'm so honoured and happy and ohmygod, all my emotions are going crazy!! Oh god! Thank you so much to everyone who reads and interacts with my analysis rantings! I tend to yap too much 'cause I want to address EVERY point and when I first started it, I daily feared that someone was going to say, "Just shut up already!" Hehe. So thank you so much! This awards is for everyone! You guys were the ones who gave me the courage and motivation to rant and say what I think! I'm so grateful for everyone! Thank you so so so soooo much!!

Nami : (*gasp*) I'd actually go through 5 stages of grief if you decided to shut up. Please never do that. 

Nami : Your analysis post are so fun to read! I remember when I was new on bllkblr your posts were one of the first that i saw and it constantly kept showing up on my dash until I noticed your account and IMMEDIATELY thought "wow what a cool blog" before following it! Haha!! 

Soleil : well, well. What do we have here? 😁

Nami : 👀

Soleil : Before moving on we have another performance coming up 😎

Nami : ayyy! 🤩

Soleil : LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!! PLEASE WELCOME ON STAGE, TEAM RHYTHM ROYALTYYYY!!! 

Nami : Can you feel the sparks running through my veins? 😙🎶

Nami : WHAT ABSOLUTE ANGELIC VOICES OH MY GOD!!! 

Nami : Anyways~ moving on~ 

Nami : We all need content you know? It's very important. It's so obviously important that some of you might be thinking "eh? What is she talking about?" 

Nami : Heh! Well, look at it. If all the rant blogs, artist, meta analysts, fanfic writers and just.... disappeared. The fandom would be just dead. There would be fan but the fandom....no. That's why it's important to praise all the content that we're graced with. And hence, the next award category : GF FC INDIGO GRAND AWARD FOR BEST CONTENT CREATOR!! 

Nami : Cheers for ELLLLLEEEE!!! 

[*A pleasantly upbeat theme plays over speakers and bounces off the walls as ELLE (@/kuro-min) makes her appearance.* ] 

Elle : I mean, after feeding us with so many interviews, lores, and FUN MOVIES!! It's quite obvious who's truly deserving of this isn't it? Ladies and gentlemen PLEASE put your hands together for....

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Elle : SOLEIL!! (@/soleilonthesun) 

[*Soleil grins, enveloping Sae in a warm hug (he pats her back. Softie Sae?! 📸) and moves to the stage.*] 

Soleil : Ladies and Gentlemen, esteemed colleagues, and beloved supporters,

Soleil : Wow, what an incredible honor this is! Standing here tonight, receiving the Best Content Creator Award, feels like a dream come true. First and foremost, I want to thank the organizers and the judges for this recognition. It means the world to me to have my work appreciated by such a distinguished group.

Soleil : Creating content is a labor of love, a journey filled with highs and lows, and I wouldn't be here without the unwavering support of so many incredible people. To my family and friends, thank you for your endless encouragement and for believing in me, even when I had doubts. Your love and support have been my rock.

Soleil : To my amazing team, this award is as much yours as it is mine. Your creativity, dedication, and hard work behind the scenes are what make everything possible. Thank you for sharing this vision with me and for bringing your best to every project.

Soleil : To my fans and followers, you are the heart and soul of my content. Your feedback, enthusiasm, and loyalty drive me to keep pushing boundaries and creating better, more meaningful content. This award is a testament to the vibrant community we have built together.

Soleil : Finally, I want to thank every content creator out there who inspires me daily. This field is filled with incredibly talented individuals, and I am grateful to be part of such a dynamic and innovative community. Let's continue to inspire, uplift, and support each other as we share our stories with the world.

Soleil : Thank you all once again for this incredible honor. Let's keep creating, dreaming, and making a difference together.

Soleil : Thank you!

Soleil : *walks over to the MC corner, setting down her award as the crowd cheers on her*

Nami : *grins and hugs her* 

Nami : That was certainly heartfelt! 🤩 Good to have you back! 😁 I'll let you take the lead for the next part 😙🎶

Soleil : Gracias!! The next award category is GF FC"s MOST VALUABLE PLAYER INDIGO AWARD!! 

[*camera zooms through the trophy*]

Soleil : While i think every member is really important and valuable on their own, i also agree that the most active ones who contribute A LOT to the community and keep it alive should be appreciated!! And, I don't really think i need to explain too much here, do I? The name itself is self explanatory!! But!!! Just like the other award categories, before we move on to announce the winners of this award, we have a FABULOUS performance coming up, to mark the end of GF FC GRAND AWARDS SECTIONS and  announce the start of this new category!! 

Nami : So ladies and gentlemennnnn, the applause shouldn't stop!! PLEASE WELCOME ON STAGE @/PINKINSECT!! 

Nami : hmmm 😌

Nami : WHAT A PERFECT SET UP FOR THE LAST AWARD CATEGORY OF THE NIGHT 🤩

Nami : Right, Soleil? Right? 🤩

Soleil : Indeed! Indeed! 😄

Soleil : Sooo~ 

Soleil : it's about time we announce the winners of GF FC MOST VALUABLE PLAYER INDIGO AWARD. 

Soleil : the first and foremost is.....

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Soleil : NAMI!!! Of course. 

[*Crowd cheers and applauds.*] 

Nami : ayyy (͡⁠°⁠‿⁠ ͡⁠°⁠)

Soleil : You're quite active in the community, play along with lores, all the chaos you spread, coax people into the cult, and of course! You have organised this award show!! Nami, thank you for your effort. ♡♡

Nami : Aww 🥺 my pleasure of course 🥺♥️ 

Nami : Well, it would be a shame if you weren't to be a winner too isn't?

NAMI : (*turns to the audience*) ISN'T IT GANG?  (*Turns the mic towards them*) 🎤

[ *The crowd hoots and applauds in approval.* ] 

Nami : See? They totally agree ;) 

Soleil : (*is blushing*)

Nami : The next winner is ...

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Nami : SOLEIL!!! 

Nami : The interviews, movies, lores!! We are nothing without you <333 thank you so SO much for all your contribution!! This is on behalf of the whole community!! 

Soleil : MERCI BEAUCOUP!!!

Nami : OH AND YOU'RE OUR MULTILINGUAL QUEEN 👸🏻💃🏻✨

Soleil : JSJSJJS. 😭✨😭✨😭✨❤️

Nami : awww 

[ *they share a hug* ] 

Nami : Before I move on, it is to note that the order I'm announcing the winners in has nothing to do with magnitude to their importance!! Just because someone was announced before the other it doesn't make them any more important than them or something! All the 6 winners stand at the same level and are equally valuable!! 

Nami : Well, the next winner is....

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NAMI : IZZY!!! of course!!  First of all she keeps things lively in the community!! And then, have you seen her meme collection? Her humor?! She KNOWS how to play along with all our silliness perfectly well!! We love her ♥️

Soleil : Agreed! The next winner would be...

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Soleil : NAJMA!! 

Soleil : Well, she's one of the OG founders, is pretty active in the community, her jokes are top class. Oh! And her pinned post is SO helpful to every new comer in the cult!! She's just really interactive and nice to talk to in general!! 

Nami : Couldn't agree more, Sol. I wouldn't know whom to sim-...(*clears throat*)....uhm....discuss my taste in men with if it weren't for her!! Everyone needs a friend like her 😌✨

Nami : Welp! Hehe. The next winner is of course.....

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Nami : RIRI!!! (@/RIRIRINNN) 

[ *The crowd breaks into loud applause, hooting and cheering.* ] 

Nami : My absolutely beautiful daughter 🤩 what is our community without her posts but dead?! Posts like "Let me wake you up with the thunderclaps of my cheeks"...

Nami : What a humor. I taught her well 😌 Other than her day brightening posts in the community which helps keep things interesting, she also creates amazing lores and plays along with them. Really interactive and fun to talk to in general!! 

Soleil : So true!! The last winner would be...

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Soleil : KIRA!!! (@/MERLUCIDE) APPLAUSE PLEASE!! 

Soleil : First of all, thanks to her we have a backup community! her lore summary posts, her contribution in the AIKU ARC. She basically carried it all on her back. Absolutely a sweetheart and pleasing to interact with!! 

Nami : Agreed! Agreed! All these winners, they all definitely deserve it.....😌

Soleil : Including us~

Nami : Including us!! 😄

Nami : DON'T YOU AGREE FOLKS??? (*turns the mic to audience*) 🎤🎤

[ *The crowd replies with enthusiastic cheers and somewhere at a distance Shidou is spotted throwing his jacket and zooming around happily. Sigh.* ] 

Nami : So now! What's the wait for? Let's invite on stage our beloved BEN FOR HANDING OUT THE GF FC'S MOST VALUABLE PLAYER INDIGO AWARD!! 

SOLEIL : THE APPLAUSE SHOULDN'T STOPPPPP!!! 🥳🥳

[ *Kira, Najma, Riri and Izzy join each other on their walk to stage, hand in hand and hand around waist. Laughing and complimenting each other. The camera cuts to each of their blue locker partner and they look proud and pleased!*] 

Kira : (*takes over the mic enthusiastically, even before accepting the award*) OMG STOP!!! SHUT UP!!! YOU'RE MAKING ME SO GIDDY SHHSJSISHWHS!!?!?? I'M GLAD IM VALUED HERE AT GF FC 😭🫶

Nami : (*hugs her*) now! Now! You definitely deserve it wifey~ 

Izzy : (*slings arms them and jumps between them with a grin*) Yeah, no I think I am a pretty valuable member !!! But if I'm being honest I think everyone is valuable in there own silly way (੭◌ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ♡‧₊˚

Nami and Najma : *nods* 

Nami : (*pulls Soleil with a playful grin*) Come on now, Soleil! Your turn 😙😃😁

Soleil : (*takes over the mic. Izzy and Kira step back respectfully.*) Today a special day for each of us, thank you, Thank you and thank you again to everyone who is here. ( *Starts crying* ) 

Nami and Kira : (*pats her shoulder and back*) 

Riri and Najma : ( *rub her arms affectionately and soothingly*) 

Izzy : (*thumps her back encouragingly*) Come on you got this! 

Soleil : N-No, I haven't thought about getting a lot of love and camaraderie among the Blue Lock fans, it just started by giving away a shield for the CF GIRLFRIEND. Again, thank you very much for the support, but especially to my brothers and sisters. My dear parents, grandparents and great-great-grandparents. Many thanks to my dear aunt, and her cousin. Above all, to my dear children, and my adorable husband. (*Dry her tears* ) 

Others : 😄😄

Soleil : This award is dedicated to all of you for reading my reports, analysis, films. I LOVE YOU, ARRIBA CF GIRLFRIEND!

Riri : (*gestures Najma to step up with a grin*)

Najma : "Honestly I don’t know how I’ve won this award since I feel like I could name members that deserve it more but I’m of course really grateful for all of you."

Nami : (*circles arms around her shoulders with a playful grin*) DAWWWW too bad our empress is too humble for her own good. Tsk tsk. (*Shakes her head jokingly*) 

Nami : Well, about me. Since I'm awarding this to myself....(*grins sheepishly*) it'd look pretty  narcissistic if I go on giving a long speech haha!! But if you really think i did deserve it you can always affirm me in the comments mi amigossss (͡⁠°⁠‿⁠ ͡⁠°⁠)

Izzy : Now, pookie! Don't go hiding!! 😁

Riri : (*steps up*) Most valuable player? Ehehehe, my cheeks are going to burst 'cause of blushing so much. Ehehe.. hehe. Thank you for this precious award. I-I don't know what to say, I'm that much happy right now! Oh god, my cheeks hurt, hehe. Thank you so much for this and I would like to share this award with EVERYONE in Girlfriend FC because, well, EVERYONE is a valuable player. This team is incomplete even when only ONE player is missing, so yeah—it's all for you guys! I might be holding this award, but this is meant for everyone! And you too, Hooudie! Thank you so much again, MUAH!

[ *they all hug each other and shake hands before leaving the stage* ] 

Nami : (*with a satisfied smile*) Phew! Man....I'm so speechless. I can't believe all this is coming to an end already. 

Nami : We started as a small community and look how far we've come today.... (*Sighs in satisfaction*)....

Nami : But everyone starts somewhere isn't it? We all started with just 3 members too. We all have our ups and downs. Sometimes we feel worthless and as if we can't reach our goals. And not just Riri and Kira, our honoured warriors, but everyone who's sitting here has achieved one or the other thing and I'm sure we all went through that phase where we were just....broken and tired. 

Nami : Exhausted. 

Nami : Where we just needed that one person to believe in us. And since our journey has only begun I'm sure we are going to be faced with those feelings again. But you know what's different this time? The difference is that we have a community who's got our back. A community which is nothing short of a family itself. And this one last performance shall stay with you all as a remainder for that. 

Nami : Please put your hands together for the TEAM BEAUTY AND BELIEVERS!! 

*The curtains falls*

*The curtain rises to reveal all 5 of them standing at distance with standing mics. Beats, rhythm and beautiful melodies of their voice fills the atmosphere and the curtains falls when their performance is over.* 

*The curtain rises again, revealing the Nami on the stage alone.*

Nami : (*grinning*) WELP!

NAMI : That's it for now, ladies and gentlemen. This was the last for today but DEFINITELY not the least. We will be back with this next year, and the year after that, and keep going! We might be near the end of THIS year's award show but we've barely started on our journey as a huge and successful team. 

Nami : I'd like to thank Soleil for being the sweetest, understanding, eager, enthusiastic and the most easy going person to work with. This was in no way possible without her. I can't express in words just how grateful I am for all help in editing she gave me, without her skills, bringing my ideas to life was impossible. We all also know how she keeps the community alive and shining with her amazing movies and interviews. Can we all, please have a HUGE ROUND OF APPLAUSE FOR HER? 

[ *The audience applauds and cheer for her. I smile and join them too.* ] 

Nami : YAY!! 🥳🤩😁

Nami : Thank you! I'd also like to thank Lune, for proofreading the script and providing helpful insights. You all might know I don't have the best history with typos...my Sister, my love (*points to lune*) THANK YOU for saving me from potential embarrassments. 

NAMI : A thanks to all the blue lockers for taking time out of your busy schedules and accompanying our members! You really did all shine to our glamour. It'd have been incomplete without all of yours presence, really!! 

Nami : And lastly I'd like to extend my gratitude to EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU for your kind cooperation. Without your encouragement, motivation and enthusiastic replies I wonder how far I'd have gotten in organising this event. Thanks to all the performers tonight who worked hard to learn the dance routines and practice singing, all for the sake of adding extra joy! You all really made enthusiasm and joy course through our veins with your rhythm! It was a lovely LOVELY experience working with you all and I had so much fun reaching out and interacting with each one of you! 

Nami : BUT! 

Nami : Before I go, let me tell you about the....AFTER PARTY!! Of course there'd be one! But it's optional, of course. Shortly from now, there'd be several Limousines arriving, few at the front gate and few at the back gate. Those of you who wish to join us for the after party, please continue to the back gate, while the others can proceed to leave through the front gate. The ones who are attending the after-party need not worry about dinner or night accommodations, we have it all arranged for you! 

Nami : Once again, a HUGE THANKS to all of you for making this night possible. I hope you all enjoyed it as much as I did!! Till the next time keep shining! This was your anchor for the night - Nami/Miki/Viha, signing off. 

[ *Does a graceful bow and walks away to the back stage while the audience break into cheers and applause. Fire works and confetti works are seen on the stage as "Judgement" plays over speakers.* ] 

*camera zooms out*

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After party memory book coming up!

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[ organiser : @/someprettyname

script writing credits : @/someprettyname

proofread by : @/melodiclune

editing credits : @/soleilonthesun ]

[ghostkingart]

Doodle idea or general ask/prompt! I saw Our Flag Means Death as a fandom you’re into. How do you think Astarion or one of your OCs would look or function in that universe? Would they prefer Black Beard or Stede as a captain? What would their job on a pirate ship be? How would they dress?

What a beautiful prompt! I absolutely adore pirates and, fun fact, I've got an ongoing Black Sails fanfic on my ao3 🤭 kinda on hiatus due to BG3 brainrot but it's out there!

I'm gonna put up a trigger warning here for: discussion of abuse, prostitution and sadomasochism, and I'll put my reply under the cut (it turned out very long yet again).

P.S. OFMD friends I'm sorry this is showing up in your tags. To briefly explain we're talking about a crossover between OFMD and Baldur's Gate 3. Feel free to skip 🫶

I do think Astarion would prefer the old school Blackbeard as his captain, maybe Valeriy would also, but Veles would definitely prefer Stede. However, at the same time, with learning vulnerability being a big theme for all these characters, I think either captain would be fine for all three of them.

Tangent but I think Veles being in Stede's crew would help him so much with his feelings of inadequacy and his desperate need to be useful at any cost. Stede would show him that it's okay to just exist and be yourself.

I imagine Astarion and Valeriy would have followed Blackbeard until he meets Stede (where Veles would be) and then, just like in the show, Stede and Veles's side would teach Blackbeard, Astarion and Valeriy's side to be gentler, kinder and more vulnerable.

I can see Astarion, Valeriy and Veles being in a polycule in this AU but get this: Valeriy and Izzy. I'm obsessed with it now omg.

Fun fact: some of Valeriy's original backstory versions include him being a pirate. This never fit into the overall story/lore however, so I scrapped it.

I'll yap about this more later but let me tell you what I think each of them would do. First things first, I'm honestly not sure what Astarion would do, I don't think he'd be ranked too high, but I also don't think he'd be ranked too low. Somewhere in the middle imo.

Valeriy would be like Izzy's own right hand man and/or ranked just below Izzy. They have a similar ruthlessness to them.

Veles would be a master of navigation on Stede's ship I think.

I think I'll draw them in this AU actually, but I'll come back with that later.

I think Izzy and Valeriy in particular would work so well together because, just like Veles is distinctly a masochist due to his backstory, Valeriy is a sadist, except that Valeriy has a much healthier approach to his sadism than Veles has to his masochism. I've talked about this sm already but Veles's masochism transcends sex and he most certainly sees himself as an object. Valeriy is nothing like that, he's very careful, gentle and communicative if there's any sadomaso play going on, and he keeps it all in the bedroom.

I don't think I need to explain why Valeriy's sadism would work well with Izzy, OFMD fans have talked about it enough for me haha. But I wanna reiterate that I imagine it all being consensual and mindful, honestly very much unlike Astarion and Veles where at times it gets super messy due to them both being messed up in their own right.

How about how I imagine they became pirates? I mean it's a pretty simple answer. Historically it's pretty accurate, to my knowledge, that people on the margins of society escaped to become pirates. It checks out because Astarion, Veles and Valeriy are all a flavor of queer (bi, gay and pan in my hc). But also, all three of them have some type of abusers to run away from as well as an overall bad life situation (think Valeriy who's already escaped his father, but has only landed himself in prostitution instead. he'd like to leave that behind).

Random bit of a headcanon here, I think Veles would be a person of color in a non-magical AU, and I think that because of the racism towards drow analogy in DND. I'd probably completely redesign Veles for a non-magical AU, but all in its time.

I think Veles would be super cool with the rest of Stede's crew. He'd be very shy at first I think, but he'd find acceptance within the ranks.

I'm also thinking about, once the two crews join, Valeriy would really enjoy listening to Stede or Lucius read to him. Another fun fact: Valeriy reaaaally likes books, he simply can't read them on his own. Meanwhile I don't think he'd have many opportunities to be read to in Blackbeard's crew (this isn't an Ed is illiterate thing btw, this is an Ed has a reputation thing).

I think that's all I have for now! If you have any more ideas for this AU pleaseeee send me another ask!! This was so fun :D

[blossoms-phan]

Blossom please keep making long text posts and writing and yapping in the tags of reblogs I love reading your thoughts so much 😭🤍 . They’re always so well put, and detailed, i love it.

Izzy you are the loml for this 🥹🫶 thank you sooooo much that literally makes me so happy to hear, dnp occupy way too much of my brain space and have for like 10 years so having detailed intellectual chats about them on here is something I didn’t even realize I needed in my life until I started and it’s been so fun reading others but I’m so glad my thoughts and rambles are well received too apparently :’) will continue to share if for nothing but lovely expressions of support like these 💜✨

[dibbydibdib]

THE TAGS LMAOO

someone on Pinterest has STOLEN my job... 👿👿👿/silly

[the-astral-fairgrounds]

(blinkies made using blinkies.cafe!)

hiii we're the astral fairgrounds (banger system name ik) and we're a minor, audhd, bpd+npd, system (+ more)

just basic dni, endogenic system or supporter, you fakeclaim traumagenic systems, narc abuse / any disorder abuse believer, support dteam / wilbur / delilahdied, that's about it

(blinkie made by us in pixel studio, credit if you use.)

our tags and frequent fronters below the cut!

our tags:

#yapping - text posts

#neg yapping - vent posts

#un whites your pine - whitepine posting

#lifestealphobia recovery - lifesteal smp posting

#mercy art - art posts (we now have an art blog so we don't use this often)

#sys - usually talking about things headmates say/do

#rasbi rambles - same as yapping but for Rasbi (🪫) because she's special I guess

#val's monologue - same as yapping, but specifically for Val (⚖️) because ze doesn't like the word yapping

more to be added but it's messy af

frequent fronters

🪓 - Clown - he/it - 22? - IWC

🏵️ - Marigold - he/him - mid 20s - IWCare

🕊️ - Graecie - she/they/life - 23 - OTI!

🧨 - Kab / Kit / Malware - ask - 17 - PIWC

⚖️ - Val/Ash - any - who knows - OTI

☄️ - Izzy - they/she - 23 (253 human years) - OTIG

[mythicalmagical-monkeyman]

Mmm, if you can’t tell who my fav is at this point your lying to yourself *snort*

undercut as always @murkystarlight

Summary:

Cooper gives Mateo a gift… yapping ensues

Additional Tags:

Author remembered how old they were and wrote this. Author Is Sleep Deprived. some gays just yapping about life. minor projection. Aged-Up Character(s), post high school graduation. no beta we die from bad financial decisions. headcanons. minor feels but like moving on feels. Ficlet, just some thoughts

No, no Mateo wasn’t eating cereal in bed. 

Ok he was, just a simple bowl of bland and dry cornflakes that had gotten a grossed out look from Izzie when he poured it, but it wasn’t like he would admit to it. No if anything he’d deny it. Deny that he was eating food in bed, deny that he hadn’t put milk in with his cornflakes, and deny that his back hurt from his nasty shrimp posture that he had taken up so that he could draw. 

Yes, the sensible denial. 

Nodding happily to himself, Mateo straightened up. He placed his pen down and then grabbed his bowl of cereal so he could shovel a spoonful of cornflakes into his mouth. 

A small thud like knock came from his bedroom door and he swallowed before responding with, “Yeah?” 

“‘Teo!! Mi sol, hallo it’s me,” 

Mateo snickered lightly as Cooper’s muffled voice came from the other side of the door. 

“Hola frijoles,” 

There was a happy hum and Cooper pushed open the door. He quickly walked over and Mateo noticed the envelope he had in hand which was apparently a gift for Mateo as once Cooper had reached the bed he handed the rather chunky looking envelope over before wedging himself in between Mateo and the headboard of the bed. 

Mateo used his legs to slide himself forward a bit and then handed his bowl of cornflakes back to Cooper as the blond changed his position to get more comfortable on the bed. Cooper placed a leg on either side of Mateo and set the bowl down carefully on the bedside table. He then rubbed at Mateo’s back with his knuckles for a little bit. At some point Cooper then wrapped his arms around Mateo’s midsection to pull him into a semi-laid back position as Mateo looked the envelope over. It was sort of heavy, and thick like someone had stuffed stacks of thin strips of paper inside. What in the world was in it?

Curiosity won over in the end and Mateo opened it and peaked inside. 

In an instant Mateo was struck by utter bewilderment, inside were four separate stacks of paper bills, pure hard cash. Mateo carefully took each of the four stacks up and went through them, quitely counting up the sum total.

“This is three thousand dollars,” Mateo said, shock rittling each word like bullets. 

“Yep,” Cooper agreed, hugging Mateo a little tighter as he rested his chin on the other’s shoulder. 

Mateo swiveled around in his grasp and pushed Cooper back slightly with a hand to his chest, “ Where did you get all of this money from?”

Cooper blinked, “It’s a portion of all the money I got from the scholarships at graduation,” 

“Your scholarship money?” Mateo wondered aloud as he glanced down at the cash in hand, suddenly it felt a lot like holding a rigged bomb, “Why are you giving it to me then?” 

“I don’t need it, figured you could use it to buy art supplies,” Cooper explained easily, like it was the most logical thing on earth. 

Mateo looked back up at him and stared, mouth slightly agape, “Wha-I can’t take this! You earned this fair and square,” 

Surprisingly as Mateo tried to trust the money back into Cooper’s hands he just as easily pushed it back towards Mateo, “It’s fine ‘Teo seriously,” 

“IT'S A LOT OF MONEY, I’ll feel bad-“ Mateo trailed off, pushing the money back towards Cooper again. Cooper was just as quick to push back however and the two ended up in a small round of reverse tug-of-war. 

“I’m giving it to you, you're not stealing it.” 

“Still! I don’t- just keep it!” Mateo argued, starting to draw blanks on proper words to counter. Still Cooper persisted. 

“Nuh hu, you need it more than me,” 

“But you can use it to fund … whatever!” Mateo exclaimed, finally giving up on trying to win and flopping backwards where his shoulder landed on his tablet. He cringed, “Or help pay admission fees or rent fees or travel fees!” 

“I’m not-!” Cooper started, only to cut off his loud protest with a sigh, “I’m not going to college.” He admitted. 

Mateo sat back up abruptly, “What!? Why not!? Did something happen-?” 

“Nothing happened, I'm just …” Cooper trailed off, turning his head down to watch his lap as he found the right words, “not going, at least not for now.” 

There was a pause and Cooper rubbed at the back of his neck before looking back up, some soft and sad little look in his eyes, “I haven’t decided what I want to do or where I want to go yet, plus Mrs. Castillo offered me a pretty decent job at her food truck since Zoey’s moving back to Cali,” 

“Oh,” was all that came from Mateo. 

“‘Sides someone needs to keep Izzie outta trouble,” Cooper added with an awkward half smile. 

Mateo leaned forward and poked Cooper in the chest, “Last I checked you two are the ones always getting into trouble and I’m the one that always has to bail you out,” 

“ Wow, ” Cooper breathed, “no faith! Remind me to tell you about the time we won the Dream Speedway 55 by ourselves ,” 

Mateo hid a chuckle behind his hand and once it had died he grinned at Cooper, “The same race where you both fell down a hole and crossed the finish line on fire?” 

Cooper gasped, placing a hand to his chest as an expression of offense crossed his face, “They called it a blaze of glory I hope you know!” 

Mateo placed both of his hands over his mouth to keep from laughing but as Cooper bit his lip and the two watched each other, trying not to laugh. Eventually a snort slipped from Mateo and triggered the two of them to collapse into each other as they shook with laughter. 

When the laughter had finally died off enough that Mateo could sit back up and look at Cooper without another round of giggles coursing through them, Mateo pressed a small kiss to Cooper’s jaw. 

Cooper hummed politely.  

“Sounds like you two will have some fun adventures up ahead Frijoles, and thank you,” Mateo added, tapping his finger against Cooper’s chest, “so much, I’ll definitely put every cent to good use.” 

“Heeeeey,” Cooper drawled out, his eyebrows pinching together in concern as Mateo started to pack the stacks of cash back into the envelope, “why do you suddenly sound all depresso expresso,” 

Mateo let out a snort but Cooper continued, “you’re going to Pratt that’s like… a couple minutes away at best,” 

“I know,” Mateo shrugged, putting the last of the stacks in and placing it beside his tablet on the bed, “I’m just going to miss you guys,” 

The corner of Cooper’s mouth quirked up for a split second in a seemingly amused smile, “We see each other like basically every night though,” 

Mateo chuckled slightly as Cooper wrapped his arms around Mateo again and pulled him into his lap. With a “murp,” sounding noise, Mateo relaxed before returning to the conversation, “It’s still too much time away from the both of you… and the others.” 

“Aw what? Are you sad to lose time hanging out with Logan? Hahaha,” Cooper laughed, shaking the both of them. 

“Mmm, maybe,” 

“Yeah… lucky son of a bitch,” Cooper swore, “can’t believe he worked out how to spend an entire year in Europe!” 

“Pffff,” Mateo found himself smiling in amusement as his boyfriend then went on to mutter something about Night Bureau and a system hack. 

“Te amo, you weirdo,” Mateo muttered, shifting so he could hide his face in Cooper’s chest and hug him. He had just started to close his eyes when he felt a pat on his head. 

“Weirdo boyfriends,” Cooper echoed back, leaning down a little and squishing Mateo, “The sun and his beans… “ as if an afterthought Cooper muttered, “why am I always on fire?” 

Mateo choked on a laugh. 

[sticks-stones-sonic-insanity]

sticks I missed seeing your tags on stuff it made me smile to see them again! ^v^ I hope you’ve been well and continue to hydrate and be safe

:000 Hello there Izzy!! Im so glad to hear that omg thank you 🥺💕 I'm doing alright! Bunch of stuff going on at the moment so my activity level is a little all over the place haha. What can i say, I love yapping about your stuff when i see it <3 You too!!

Here, a warmup Amy for ye 🫴

[philshotcocoa]

This is my niche.

[rakassauce]

welcome, and howdy!!!

yo, I'm raka. an artist who adores the scene subculture, anime/cartoons, and the old internet. been a while since i did an intro, and I don't particularly enjoy my current one. so, i thought i'd fix that!

but before i get into it, lemme begin with some ground rules:

DNI if you are/support ANY of the following:

a proshipper/comshipper

a terf/truscum/transmed/transphobic in any way

anti-palestine (however, that doesn't give you the right to be an anti-semite, that shit ain't cool)

Are a pro-lifer, this is a pro-choice zone babie

anti-neopronouns

ableist

a MAP/YAP, get that pedo shit outta here

a neo-nazi/on some type of white supremecist shit

a zoophile

...they gone now? yeah? cool, let's rock n' roll. (quick heads up for flashing blinkies/images, and eyestrain. that's gonna be a constant on this blog.)

name: raka/alex/izzy

age: 16, turning 17 on JULY 14TH!!!

DOB: 07/14/2007

pronouns: she/he/they

current hyperfixation: YU-GI-OH!!!!

favorite color: hot pink/red/neon green

favorite song: party like a millionaire - millionaires/i also like genres like rock, electronic, and pop

favorite games: sims (4 and 3), touhou project, legend of zelda

hobbies: scouring the internet, watching anime, drawing, spending time w/ my bf

favorite food: menudo!! my nanny (that's what I call my grandma ^^;) makes it for me occasionally and on my bday nearly every year

dislikes: assholes, unnecessary internet discourse, instagram comments, my horrible sleep schedule (help lol)

favorite movie(s): yugioh the movie: pyramid of light, bill and ted's excellent adventure, idle hands

likes: the night, old internet vibes, art, magical girls (SAILOR MOON), scene kid stuff

loves: my dad and my boyfriend!!!

rando facts: i'm half mexican :] i wanna learn more spanish to be in touch with my mom's side of the family. i've only ever finished one anime despite starting a few, and that would be Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood. even though i'm on ep 27 of the 2003 version of FMA (it's on hold since it isn't my current fixation), i honestly prefer it. my favorite vocaloids are hatsune miku and kagamine rin and len)! now if we're talking utauloids: yokune ruko and kasane teto.

my tags:

#raka's sauce (my art)

#other people's awesome sauce (reblogged art)

#raka reblogs!

#raka's brain dump

#raka's cc finds!!

so, i'm raka. i've lurked around the internet for a little while now--since I was about five. restricted internet access? don't know her. i only started really participating in online communities when i was about 10, on quotev and amino (rip, it was a shitshow but i had a good time for the most part). at some point i just kinda...fell off of trying to find internet spaces? it didn't really feel fun anymore, y'know? i went back to lurking, looking at stuff i enjoyed/making things in silence.

well, fuck that. if i wanna have fun, i'm gonna make it fun. i love drawing, i always have!! i've been drawing since i was about five or six. it's always been an escape for me during REALLY rough times--it made me happy to draw my favorite characters, and even create my own! i love interacting with fandom spaces too, finding folks who are into the same stuff i am. connecting with strangers is fun, when you don't really know anybody irl who shares your exact interests!

i wanna make/reblog fandom art on here, and maybe make moots/friends. i also have OCs i love and adore that i'd like to share--with lore, of course.

i hope y'all have a wonderful day or night!!! take care of yourselves!!!

with all that said, blinkie/stamp dump time!!! a further insight of myself, if you will

sources for a few stamps:

Mel-Rosey on Deviantart

StarriiChan on Deviantart

kas7ia on Deviantart

blinkies.cafe for blinkies

YukiMiyasawa on Deviantart | another stamp from them

hissatsugirl on Deviantart

Papikari on Deviantart

Magica-28 on Deviantart

RaptureCyner on Deviantart

and feel free to hmu on other things such as:

discord - rakassauce

artfight

spacehey (i need to finish up my profile :/ sorry for mess)

instagram

[penandswords]

/Plot Rambling/

I'm STICKING this under a read more, because it might be spoiler territory for some.

To Long didn't Read: I am YAPPING about ideas I have for Rima during the war and Post WAR.

Things might change because I'm doing a re-watch and all that stuff! Essentially this is a running list of things I want to explore with her in this time period.

DURING war!

I have played with the idea of Rima doing a number of different things!

Helping with First aid. (she does have first aid training)

Helping with dispatch stuff at the agency

Going On her own, and trying to help other civilians get to safety. I also Kind of want to have izzy @crimsonskvader (my other Oc to be tag teaming with her. Idk yet though since izzy works for hawks and BOI does that man go through a lot)

I DO know, that I want Rima to start getting the idea for her own agency during the War. Based on her own experiences, and from hearing and observing others experiences. (which muses experiences will vary depending on threads and stuff)

ALSO I do know, rima has at LEAST 3 family members in the prison that had all those escapees. WHICH means there is a high chance she has at least 3 people who might come after her. so OH BOI.

4. I want to TRY and keep Rima out of the main plot, because i'm trying to not have her be TOO involved, HOWEVER I am so down with her running into villain muses, and getting stuck in a situation with them. I am ALSO okay with the idea of her getting wounded. good Interactions / Bad Interactions.. I will take it ALL. Tbh I am very drawn towards Rima getting into dangerous situations right now.

Post war! Post war, RIMa starts building the road map for her own agency! her agency's goal is to protect KIDS from being used / put into situations they ahve NO business being put in. (Both from villains, and from other heroes.)

I have a CRACK headcanon that she's acquired some reformed villains who liked her cause, and ended up coming to her to give it a try. (I AM so eager to plot this with people. If you are interested PLEASE come say hi I will be so excited to talk ideas with you.)

[johnnyzzzzz]

Ughhhhh fart, im making tag things for my acc

[izzy yaps] - Me talking

[johnnyzzzzz art 🧪🦠] - Art Tag

[Reblogging] - Reblogz

[julia-writes-things]

tee hee get ready for hatchetfield overload

three non-romantic duos: Paul Matthews and Ted Spankoffski, Zoey Chambers and her theatre friends, Gemini Tay and Pearlescent Moon.

2. A ship that might surprise others: Melissa x Woman (I do not regret watching Hey, Melissa)

3. Last song: The Summoning - Nerdy Prudes Must Die

4. last film: OBC cast Into the Woods (1986)

5. Currently reading: Of Melodies and Martyrdom (Steph x Peter fic but its secret identity and band and the music references make me so so so happy)

6. Currently (re)Watching: Nerdy Prudes Must Die

7. Currently Consuming: Coke Zero

8. currently craving: writing motivation bc I'm writing a CCRP does a bonding retreat and Melissa kills everyone <3 gah i love women. more hatchetfield content...

TYSM FOR THE TAG ILY TERRENCE TY FOR LETTING ME YAP ABOUT MUSICALS <33333

tagging: @cricksterz @melinda-and-izzy (haha go post something)

nine people i’d like to know better

tagged by @metroidspeedrun !!! thank you 💋

1. three non-romantic duos: every batkid and alfred, michael cera and kieran culkin, marty mcfly and doc brown

2. a ship that might surprise others: not sure if there’s anything that’ll be surprising but a ship that’s one of my favs is harley and ivy!

3. last song: i wish you love by laufey

4. last film: beetlejuice beetlejuice (2024) it was really good, highly recommend. very campy but like very beetlejuice and i loved it

5. currently reading: percy jackson and the titans curse but i haven’t read it in a long time because i gave up on reading over the summer

6. currently watching: scrubs, season 4 of solar opposites, recently finished the bear and the cliffhanger was so annoying

7. currently consuming: 7-up zero sugar

8. currently craving: food in general cause i’ve had one donut today and that’s it

tagging: @drunkenkissesatdusk @loganspuppyboy @azrael08 @booksandbirdsandstuff @altea99 @unknown-entity-tm @ageofshadows666 (idrk nine people it’s close enough 😭)

[the--blackdahlia]

Edge of Seventeen Chapter 1 (Izzy x OFC)

Title: Edge of Seventeen

Summary:  When the boy Karen Williamson loved left home when she was seventeen, she figured it was just a childhood crush. She had her own plans to get out of Indiana. But when those plans fell through and now she’s trapped in Lafayette with a degree that’s getting her nowhere. That is, until Jeffrey Isbell came home.

Warnings: Language for now

AN:  This is just something I'm playing around with. I'm not sure how much I'll do on it, or if anyone will even like it. Thanks to @callme-kaz2y5-baby​ for the help!

The alarm clock was blaring. The room was still dark, and not due to the curtains Karen used to cover her small window. It was November in Indiana, and the sun didn’t carry the same amount of shine that it did in July. Well, that and it was also 5:30 in the morning. Karen groaned as she ran a hand down her face. It was Saturday. She didn’t really want to get her ass out of bed, but this was her Saturday to open the library and stay until at least noon, and she did have a lot of things to do after she got off work.

And if she was going to actually make it there, she had to get up and get in the shower now. Groaning, she finally pulled herself out of bed, letting the coffee start up while she got in the shower. After waking herself up with that, she got out, smelling the coffee and smiling. If someone would’ve told her ten years or so ago that coffee would be her blood, she would’ve laughed at them.

She made her first cup and popped some toast in the toaster. As she waited on the toast, she started to figure out something to do with her hair, deciding after fussing with it for longer than she felt necessary, that she was just going to run a brush through it and call it a day. The rest of her routine flew by; eat her toast, get dressed, put on some quick makeup, and water her plants before she headed out the door.

Six years of college left her driving a 1987 Firebird with a few too many miles, driving around a town she had always vowed to get out of but never quite made it.

“You’re listening to the Bob & Tom Show,” Karen was greeted as she turned on the car. “We’re getting some word from the Guns n’ Roses camp. It seems that it was announced that original guitarist Izzy Stradlin has had enough of Axl Rose and called it quits.”

Karen froze as she got ready to put her car in gear. She had to have misheard it.

“Rumors are swirling that Mr. Stradlin is returning to his hometown for a big project, but the fact that he had the balls to tell off Rose is astounding to me.” There was laughter and some jokes thrown around before they started playing a Guns n’ Roses songs in honor of the great hero, Izzy Stradlin.

Karen headed to work at the Lafayette Public Library. Kids from Purdue would be there, doing some studying off of campus or the ones that lived off campus would be there at least. But her mind kept drifting as she headed the ten minutes to her job.

Izzy had finally quit. She had been following the band ever since Jeffrey left Indiana. The night after he graduated with a D average, which honestly was thanks more to Karen and less to that fucking Bill Bailey. She gave him his graduation present with a smile on her face. He handed her a mixtape, kissed her, then left her behind.

She still had that mixtape somewhere at home. No matter how many boyfriends she had had in the eleven years since her last kiss with Jeffrey Isbell, she couldn’t throw it away. She’d bring it out once in a while when she missed him, but then she’d remember that he probably didn’t remember her, especially after all these years.

She pulled into her spot and opened up the library. She went through her morning routine as she waited for her assistant to show up. Empty the drop box, check them in, put them on the cart to reshelf, all the boring things that came with her job. It seemed like it was the same thing everyday that she was the in charge librarian. She broke up her routine by going to see a movies about once a week, and sometimes she’d splurge and head to Indy for a concert, but that wasn’t a common occurrence. She had accepted a long time ago that she wasn’t going to have the glamorous, rock star life that her friends had gotten when they broke free from the cornfields.

After the afternoon girl took over, Karen went to gather up the things that she had on her list. She drove towards the other side of town, where the older homes were. She smiled as she pulled into a driveway that she knew very well. Gathering up the couple books and VHS that were on her list, she knocked.

“Come in!” A woman inside called out. Karen made her way in to see Linda Isbell sitting on the couch, crocheting and watching a game show. Linda’s eyes brightened and she smiled as Karen made her way in. “Oh Karen, sweetie! How are you?”

“I’m good mama Isbell,” She kissed Linda’s cheek. “The book you wanted came in. And I got you An Officer and a Gentleman.” She sat the handful of things on her coffee table. There was a yapping noise then as Linda’s little dog, Astair, came running towards Karen. “Hey there little guy.”

“He loves when you come over,” Linda smiled at her. “He likes the car rides and walks.”

“I love those too, don’t I baby boy,” She scratched his ears and played with him for a minute. “I’ll get your grocery list after I walk him, okay?”

“Oh honey, you don’t have to do that,” Linda told her. “One of my boys went shopping for me earlier in the week. I’m set for now.”

“Oh really?” Karen asked. She figured that Joe had come to see his mom, finally. Because she figured if it was Jeff, Linda would’ve told her. But then again, she knew about how Karen’s heart had been broken by her eldest, and she was pretty good about not talking about him too much to her.

“Well, then Astaire and I will go on an extra long walk. Maybe a nice drive too,” Karen smiled as the dog yapped and ran around in circles. Linda laughed.

“He loves you Karen,” She told her, making Karen’s heart swell. After talking for a few more minutes, Karen got Astaire’s leash and took him for a nice, long walk around Lafayette. The dog was so happy, especially when she parked her car and they walked out through some of the abandoned fields around and he could chase the birds that were still there.

She looked out across the fields and noticed the large house that set among them had a moving truck in front of it. No one had lived there in years, and Jeff and Bill used to argue about who was going to live there someday. Karen highly doubted if Izzy ever moved back to Indiana, that he would come back to Lafayette, not when the Carmel area was flourishing, and attracted more of the wealthy that lived in Indiana.

“Come on Astaire, let’s go home,” Karen told the dog. He barked once more at a bird before running off with her.

****

Izzy stepped out on the front porch of his new home. Back in the day, when he was dreaming of being a huge star, him and Axl would argue over who was going to live in this house. He honestly never thought it would be up for sale, and he wasn’t sure what compelled him to buy it when it went on the market. Maybe it was a chance to say fuck you to Axl. Izzy adjusted the hat on his head as he looked at all the space he had. He was honestly glad to be back home, and he felt like a weight had been lifted off his shoulders.

He was pulled from his thoughts then by a dog barking. Looking out across the fields, he watched as a small dog chased some birds and a woman stood there, watching. She looked over his way, and even though Izzy couldn’t make out her face, he felt something as he watched her. They didn’t stay much longer, but Izzy couldn’t stop watching as she left.

“Maybe I’ll see her around,” Izzy grumbled to himself before he headed inside to pay the movers so he could get settled into his new home.

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[rockinthebeastmode]

Sabotage

A/N: This isn’t completely finished but I have just enough for a first part and I’m hoping expecting to work the rest out fairly easy. I’ve made some cuts/changes overall (some details and notes seemed superfluous) and based on the second outline I did, we’re a quarter into the story--so I’d say at least two more parts, depending on where things cut off. I really hope you enjoy! I apologize profusely if it’s not what you expected but we’re finally rolling 😁 

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Sabotage

“--you hear about this?”

Rae Earl awoke abruptly to her best mate Archie’s voice growing steadily closer as he entered her bedroom. Before she could speak, he shook out his paper and began to read. She tuned him out the best she could, her eyes straying to her laptop on the other side of the bed. She stretched through a yawn, glancing at the bedside clock.

“Aren’t you late?” she cut Archie off, his tongue sticking out at her. He rolled the paper up and swatted it at her before kissing her cheek and backing out of the room.

“I’ll see you tonight, yeah? Laters!”

Rae waited until she heard the front door slam shut before she reached for her laptop and opened it, tapping the keys lightly as it started up. Her desktop appeared and she clicked on her email, a smile playing on her lips as she read a new message titled, ‘Digsy’.

fknhangthedj78: Have I mentioned my dog, Digsy? She’s an old girl now but back when I was a lad, she was my partner against all the monsters under the bed and thunderstorms--always up for an adventure. Nowadays, she spends her days sleeping on my side of the bed and stealing my chips. Man’s best mate, right?

Don’t you love Stamford in autumn? Reminds me of my college days, back when the only thing you had to worry about was A-levels and who you’d ask to the leavers’ ball. Of course, had we known each other then, I reckon I would’ve asked you ;)

***

Finn Nelson’s eyes fluttered as he poured two tea cups full to the brim, his girlfriend’s monotonous voice flowing over him like a blanket. He shook his fringe out of his eyes, dropping the teapot to the table with a loud clunk. Olivia jumped, her voice tapering off. He smiled sheepishly.

“Soz, Liv,” he said through a yawn, reaching for the milk and sugar. She looked at him curiously as she reached for her cup.

“Did you sleep alright?” she asked, Finn meeting Digsy’s eyes from across the room. She blew out a sigh, side-eying Olivia before returning to her bowl. Finn coughed through a snort and nodded. She stirred sugar into her cup and took a sip.

“What day’s your dad’s rehearsal dinner again?”

Finn grimaced and rubbed his jaw.

“Sunday,” he replied, “D’ya think he’d take an early wedding present so we don’t have to go?”

“Finn, it’s your father,” she chuckled, shaking her head. Finn groaned and rolled his neck. He was thrilled his dad was getting remarried and his bride-to-be Felicity Stringfellow was perfectly nice but the thought of his college ex being his step-sister made his stomach turn.

“Don’t forget to meet Stacey Friday at noon, yeah?” she continued. Finn nodded with a pout and looked at his watch. He finished his tea off before leaning over the table to kiss Olivia’s cheek.

“Gotta go get ready,” he said, standing and going towards the bedroom, “See ya tonight.”

Finn cracked the door behind him and Digsy slid through, jumping to the bed. He sighed with a smile as she sprawled over his pillow and he sat down next to her, pulling his laptop from the side table. He sat still and waited to hear Olivia’s heels clicking down the hall and out the door before he opened it, running a finger over the mouse to wake it. His email appeared, a new message notification flashing, and he clicked it, biting back a smile as he started to read.

snakebitesupernova: Isn’t it bizarre how we never crossed paths all these years living in the same town? It feels like we’ve known each other forever, despite only having met on an Oasis fansite.

Imagine if we hadn’t argued over their best album (it’s ‘What’s the Story’ in case you forgot). Now, all I can think is, ‘Wonder what bollocks fknhangthedj78 will come up with this time!’

Unfortunately, I wasn’t quite lame enough to go to my leavers’ ball--but I reckon I would’ve made an exception for you ;P

***

Nothing could remove the smile from Rae’s face as she walked briskly to Town Records. Not spilling coffee down her front two minutes before leaving the flat. Not the neighbor’s yapping dog barking at top volume all morning. Not even the Green Lane arseholes who harassed her every other day.

“Burn down the disco,” Rae sang under her breath as she unlocked the door and entered the shop, “Hang the blessed DJ.”

She bounded around the shelves, straightening and preparing to open and Izzy, her mate and the shop’s social media manager, watched her wide-eyed.

“What’s gotten into you?” she asked, laughing a bit. Rae only winked, moving to her side and linking their arms.

“Don’t you miss our college days, Iz?” she sighed, smiling as she ran over the email in her mind again. Izzy raised her brows and laughed again.

“You hated college, Rae.”

“Right,” she replied, a nervous laugh bubbling from her throat. Izzy’s eyes narrowed at her and a sly smile came across her face.

“You’re in love, aren’t you?”

“Yes, Izzy, I’m madly in love with my gay roommate, the one and only man in my life,” Rae scoffed, scrunching her nose at her.

Izzy shook her head, her smile widening.

“What about your online friend?”

Rae bit her cheek, cursing the time she’d had too many Tia Maria’s and let slip her pen pal secret.

“Don’t be ridiculous...we’re just mates—not even mates! More acquaintances,” she said hastily, waving a hand, “I don’t even know his name.”

Izzy went to speak again when the front door bell chimed and her best mate Chloe shuffled through the door, her arms wrapped around herself.

“It’s bloody freezing out there,” she started, coming behind the counter and shedding her jacket, “What’re we talking about?”

“Rae’s online friend--”

“Izzy!”

Chloe tutted and shook her head.

“Y’should try meeting people organically, babes, that internet stuff is dangerous.”

“If I did that, I’d be alone forever, Chlo,” she retorted before clapping her hands, “Let’s open up, ladies!”

***

“--electrician is gonna be late because his wife’s in labor,” Chop said, ticking items off a clipboard, “The record shelves as well--some infestation on the truck or summat.”

Finn nodded along as he continued listing issues and plans throughout the worksite, not hearing a word.

“We also got a ticket for a few workers pissing off the roof,” Chop finished, shaking his head and pulling at his tie.

“Nice one,” Finn replied, “When’s the electrician in?”

“I knew you weren’t fucking listening,” Chop groused, smacking Finn in the arm with the clipboard, “His wife’s in labor, knobhead.”

Finn reddened and he grinned sheepishly, shoving him back.

“S’pose I’m a bit distracted.” Chop waggled his brows at him.

“You finally proposed to Liv, huh?” Finn’s head snapped to him and he shook his head with a furrowed brow.

“Of course not,” he said hastily, Chop’s mouth twisting at him, “I mean, she’s great and I proper fancy her and all…”

“When she’s not boring you to tears, y’mean,” Chop continued, dodging Finn’s cuff to his shoulder.

“We need to announce ourselves,” Finn changed the subject, clapping his hands as he looked around their almost finished entertainment store.

No Crap Entertainment, better known as NCE, was set to open Saturday, provided he and Chop could work out all the kinks. His father, Gary, was trusting him with this one, since he’d proven himself well enough helping him with other business matters over the years. He’d brought Chop on as his partner and fully planned to make this the best music store in Stamford.

“There’s not much competition--we bought out that tiny reggae shop across the way. And then there’s Town Records, of course.”

Finn bit his cheek, thinking of his old college stomping grounds. He loved Town, loved the atmosphere...it hadn’t changed much since then but he knew it was under different management since Rob had passed away.

“They’re gonna hate us at first but we have the better package. We’re multifaceted,” Finn assured, clapping a hand to Chop’s shoulder, “We’re not just music--we’re an experience.”

A grin slowly grew on Chop’s face before he ruffled Finn’s hair, his nose wrinkling.

“You’re so full of shit!”

***

fknhangthedj78: My dad’s getting married again. His mates keep warning him off of it, saying he should cut his losses after the first time. He seems happy though, so I can’t complain.

Rae glanced up from her laptop, her head tilting in thought. She couldn’t imagine getting married once, let alone twice.

She looked over at Archie on the other side of the lounge, his finger twirling a ring around on his left hand as he watched the telly. She felt her throat burn and her eyes fill but quelled it when Archie met her eyes, giving her a curious look.

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing...love ya, Arch.” He snorted, reaching over and squeezing her knee.

“I love ya too, Rae.”

***

snakebitesupernova: Since you mentioned college the other day, I’ve been rereading Pride & Prejudice. I can’t get over how they used to talk back then! So proper and stuffy but I love it...have you read it?

Finn opened the book to a random page, grimacing as he read a few lines. He felt Digsy next to him and he scratched her behind the ears, shaking his head at the book.

“Jesus Christ, can you believe this, girl?”

He went to the fridge for a beer and cracked it open, taking a long pull as he opened the book at the beginning. He skimmed the first page before tossing it to the counter, shooting a frown at Digsy.

“Shit’s for the birds.”

***

“Now, don’t freak out, Rae--”

“Those fuckers have some nerve--”

“It’s just a sign,” Chloe reiterated, rolling her eyes, “Y’don’t own the word ‘town’.”

“It was deliberate! ‘Best record deals in town,’” Rae ranted, crossing her arms, “This is bullshit.”

“They’ve got nothing on Town,” Archie assured, his hands going to her shoulders.

“Look at all the discounts and promotions they’re offering,” Izzy gushed, scrolling through NCE’s website in awe. She looked up when she felt the others’ stares on her and she bit her lip, setting her phone down on the counter.

“She’s right, guys,” Chloe sighed, “They have more variety as well.”

“It’s nothing but mainstream crap. They’ll come running back,” Archie countered, not sounding entirely convinced himself. Rae’s face lit up slightly.

“Exactly! We’ll be the niche shop, yeah? If they don’t have it, we do,” she exclaimed, a sliver of hope creeping back.

“And vice versa,” Chloe commented, Rae raising a brow at her.

“Right. Supply and demand.”

Chloe raised her hands, exchanging shrugs with Izzy. Archie rubbed Rae’s shoulders and gave her a reassuring smile that she could barely return.

snakebitesupernova: I can’t help but feel like I’m wasting time. I live a simple life. I made it out of hospital and college and barely made it through uni and for what? To have the same job in the same dead end town? I sometimes wish I could go back and do it all again but what would change? Change is supposed to be good... I know I should be brave and ‘roll with it’ but I’m so fucking scared

You don’t have to respond to this, I don’t mean to bang on about my existential crises but I know you’d understand better than anyone else would. You always do :)