#ive seen neither of these shows btw

[eeveelynx3]

crappy doodle that may or may not be based on @yuukirita 's deceptibee au art/fic <3

[buddyapologist]

comment if something else

[emero0]

Ight im analyzing Bake no hana or “flower of transformation” cus its in my brain

Spoilers for mizu5 (obv but heres your warning)

(Lyrics from project sekai wiki)

This is mostly line distribution but feel free to add more

So the first lines are about mizuki (obviously)

Probably about people looking at them weirdly and how they’re used to it — and how they’re cute but its “wrong” its “a sin”

Also this is a music thing but enas lyric “its off” is off beat with the song as well

Then more about mizuki crumbling and breaking sown with their secret because it was revealed before they could reveal it themselves

Next, i find it interesting how every time this lime is sung its by kanade, mafuyu, or both (+kaito)

Which could be in reference to the fact that neither of them were there when everything went down

They also seem to take on more narrator roles like in the beginning

Following this, Ena sings this line every time as well — likely in reference to her not being able to say anything to mizuki and being unable to take back the look on her face when mizuki found her—a face that could be seen aa disgust or “ugly” - “makeup” because its not how ena truly feels

(Which btw—i believe was mainly in part to “oh shit i just found out the secret ive been patiently waiting for before i was told and now i feel awful” and not “oh my god mizuki is trans” or whatever your interpretation of that is considering THEY STILL HAVENT CONFIRMED ANYTHING—which is slightly frustrating but alas we can wait)

Next, either mizuki not wanting to go back because they are tired of running—or even (and im leaning towards this one) they cant go bavk to being a kid, to being “how they were”,

“Blossoming” into this flower, they cant go back and not be trans, theyve bloomed into who they are, even if its “off” and “a sin”

(Im trying not to push trans stuff (NOT /neg) and just look at it as it is but its really hard to see it another way for me /lh —a trans person)

Next, another song thing—when mizuki tells everyone to disappear—they do

No one else sings except kaito, and then when they sing “stay with me” they come back

Then they repeat lines with kaito which could mean something-but it may also just be adding kaito to make it different the second time around because music theory

Nearing the end—this may very well be 1: mizuki not knowing the future and mafuyu-ing into sekai

But it could also be a nod to the player—not knowing the future-and until they do mizuki not showing up in the “real world”

And finally—the curse of being born the way they are, they’ve had enough of running (away from their problems, their mistakes) and have essentially done the game equivalent of —well— disappearing

Overall i really want a full version and i think what we have so far is very interesting—i dont have jpsekai so im probably missing some stuff-but i have seen mizu5 so thats where most of this came from

(Will be avoiding most social media tho cus the arguments over this are—interesting… tumblrs been good so far tho ^^’)

[caruliaa]

atla fans acknowledge that iroh is both textually a nuanced character and while mostly a positive sympathetic character at times written in a shitty ways/to do or say shitty things while still being portrayed as in the right instead of either just uncritically hating him or uncritically loving him challenge !! (impossible!!!) extra hard challenge mode! thin atla fans acknowledge that part of the shitty ways that iroh is written includes the amount of fatphobic jokes tht are made at his expense that arent portrayed as being particularly wrong or that the audience is even meant to find funny !!! (even more impossible !!!)

one of the worst phenomena in fandom is when theres a character that everyone loves so much and thinks is the greatest guy ever who only ever does nice good things and then some other people start to point out examples of that not being true and then their narrative starts being that that character sucks forever so much and is only ever awful and the worst and we cant have any nuance about literally anything ever yayyy yipee !!!

[jadethetransfem]

ARCANE S1 AND S2 SPOILERS!

ok so i just finished arcane (s1 and s2) and i have some thoughts also

tw: mentions of suicide and some nsfw stuff neither are that bad though

first off this is a sfw blog but i will be talking a bit about the caitvi scene because i'm the loneliest sapphic to ever live x3 ive never made a review like this before so idk what i'm doing but i'm gonna try my best!

so first off Vi and jinx/powder's relationship really hits deep for me being both a older and a younger sister i mean just the fucking dynamic is incredible! so i give them full marks for that

and oh my gods the fucking music i mean tøp with 'the line' linkin park with 'heavy is the crown' its all so fucking good i dont recognize anyone else on here but both s1 and s2 have some really good songs i genuinely cant stop listening to 'playground' its all so good!

ok heres the kinda nsfw stuff: the caitvi scene in season 2 episode 8 (i think) was clearly made by a longing sapphic, no straight person could make this i mean everything, every frame meticulously crafted the way Vi fumbles with the belt ah fuck its soo fucking good also ive already talked about music but the song matches sooo well (its called 'fantastic' by king princess btw) and the best part about the scene is that none of it is unrealistic and i'm still waiting for someone, anyone to find the extended cut of that scene one last thing about this is that ive seen people *cough cough* penguinz0 *cough cough* say that they feel like this scene was kinda placed poorly and well i see where theyre coming from, i disagree Vi desperately needed a distraction more then ever because this is the most stressed shes been maybe ever i mean if my sister told me that she was going to attempt suicide and i physically couldnt stop her i dont think i would be able to think straight(hehe get it) either one last thing before i move on to other things, when cait takes off Vi's shirt she inspects her wounds which is subtle and could be missed or just ignored if you arent paying attention but it shows cait's care for Vi (this is just one of the many small details in this scene)

ok ok i'm done being a sad lesbian now (not actually i physically cant stop but i'm done talking about that scene) ok the endings for s1 and s2. theyre both really good s1 ends with jinx blowing up the council killing like half of them and s2 ends with jinx dying to save Vi and anyone who can feel real emotion (lucky bastards) will cry during both of them. ive seen people asking if there will be a s3 and i think that they should just let the show die, dont beat a dead horse and all that. so in conclusion arcane is an incredible show and in my opinion is a must watch. also the sesbian lex is cool too! thats all i have today make sure to drink water lovelys!

[mages-ballad]

some stuff regarding dawntrail now that ive finished and had time to collect my thoughts, spoilers up to the very end inbound of course. sorry if its long i have many MANY a thought.

ok so i wanna preface by saying i DID like dawntrail. i love wuk lamat and i cried like 3 or 4 times, tural is a great location and it was very fun to meet all the different kinds of npcs there

HOWEVER theres some things that kinda feel awkwardly paced? if i can be completely honest, it feels like the first half and the second half of the msq are two entirely different plotlines that were smushed together. and this isnt even saying that everkeep/sphene/s9 are "too different" because its not even an aesthetic issue for me, its moreso the themes presented first half? a little slow but in a GOOD way, helps you get a feel for the land and the people and shows wuk lamat's growth. the succession plotline feels like a whole, coherent thing. i like it. as soon as thats over and you hit shaaloani though, its slow and quite literally filler aside from a few tidbits for erenville. it felt awkward how it was trying to show xak tural culture, but also heavilyyy favored screentime for the "cowboy" stuff over the hhetsarro (who also very much live in shaaloani and are part of tural), who we spent practically 1 quest with and it was to ask them for lumber. and THEN it goes right from that to a high-stakes plot with zoraal ja's attack and heritage found and everything progressing after that. on its own the plot has potential... but by living memory i got the impression that everything from the end of shaaloani and refitting the train to running through the memories of alexandria, it just felt like it was trying to be Shadowbringers 2/Endwalker 2. and it wasnt really working out the same. "a society faced a calamity and a leader figure cant let go of the past and will gladly sacrifice other worlds to keep the memory of their people alive/go back to how things used to be. theres also a city full of people that arent alive and are just memories. also you get to run through a dungeon that shows the destruction of the past world that said leader figure cant let go of." like thats just the ascians and emet and amaurot right there. we KNOW how this stuff goes. from endwalker and venat we learned that its impossible to strive for absolute peace and perfection and that suffering and death are unavoidable, and the importance of maintaining hope and being able to go keep going forward at those lowest points. the whole time between solution 9 and living memory i was just sitting there thinking to myself like??? have we not seen this same stuff before??? why isnt anyone saying anything??? i knowwww this is mainly wuk lamat's story and development but it felt almost wrong to have these plotlines and themes and neither the wol or any of the scions even point out how familiar it is. i was under the impression that dawntrail would be a point for the wol to take a backseat, but to ALSO use what weve learned from 1-90 to help others. i genuinely feel like they pushed the idea that this is a fresh start *too hard* and everything weve gone through as the wol emotionally feels pretty ignored. aside from the whole "oh yeah btw were super strong weve been to the edge of the universe lol dont worry lol" like i hope this doesnt come off as me hating dawntrail. because i dont, and im interested to see the extent of travel between reflections and how thats handled going forward. but i cant help but feel like something was missing in that 2nd half of the msq. i can only hope some of this stuff gets addressed in the patches, because as it stands rn, even with sphene gone solution 9 still feels weird. the theme of dawntrail wants us to respect their culture, but from past xpacs we already know that a society like that is factually not sustainable, especially when multiple npcs have already pointed out its flaws (declining birth rate, for example.) maybe thatll be resolved later, but as it stands rn, the contradictory of themes is confusing. this is getting reallllyyy long and rambling now but WHEW i just needed to get this all off my chest. on a positive note to end this, im very much enjoying the dungeons and combat so thats been good.

tl;dr, 1st half of msq good, 2nd half confusing, combat good.

[most-canon-non-canon-ship-poll]

literally hoping they break up in the last season

Why Mileven is shit - a submission-based essay, part 2/3

Mileven - a currently canon het ship from the Stranger Things fandom between Michael (Mike) Wheeler and Jane (Eleven) Ives/Hopper/Byers/IDK

they NEED to breakup (AGAIN) in the final season let's start w their character arcs rn. el was born in a lab and was raised VERY strict to be a weapon and shit. she escapes and now her whole arc is finding herself and being who she is separate to what people tell her she is. mike comes from a lowkey conservative family with parents who are married only to fit into the normal, not because they love each other. his arc, similar to his sisters' struggle in earlier seasons, is to not fall into conformity just because you feel like you should. both of these stories line up with the main moral of the show: be who you are even if it isn't "normal" ot whatever now how does mileven go against this? mike, and a bunch of ppl around el, in the earlier seasons keeps telling el what she should do/be. even in the later seasons we see mike refering to el as a "superhero" (which she doesn't like). neither of them feel free to be themselves around the other (shown by el lying to mike and mike being WAY out of character around el, etc). mike literally can't tell el he loves her while not under pressure. mileven sometimes parallels mike's parents' and sta.cy (a failed conformity relationship) and other bad relationships ANYWAYS it also reallyyyy pains will byers (who's been canonically in love with mike for like years, and mike's best friend) to see this. also, milevens keep harassing will/mike shippers on anon even months after the last season. like they have a hate discord server just for it. anyways i love mike and el but ohhh my god there is still SO much i haven't mentioned about how bad they are together (and how bad shippers often are, sometimes being violently homophobic and calling bylers delusional and shit)

OOOH IT FUCKING SUCKS THEY ARE SOOOOOO BAD FOR EACH OTHER JESUS THEY DON'T COMMUNICATE LIKE EVER THEY ARE BOTH CLEARLY IN IT BECAUSE OF THE EXPECTATION OF A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE THEY CAN'T CONFIDE IN EACH OTHER THEY DON'T SHARE ANY INTERESTS THEY'RE HAVING CONFLICT MORE OFTEN THAN NOT THANK *GOD* I AM UTTERLY CONVINCED THEY ARE HEADING FOR A CANONICAL PERMANENT BREAKUP. NOT TO MENTION THEY ARE BOTH GAY AS HELL TO ME. YOU SEEN THAT "THIS SHIP IS SO CANON AND IT'S A LESBIAN AND A GAY MAN" TWEET? YEAH. FUCK THIS STUPID FUCKING SHIP NOT TO MENTION THE SHIPPERS ARE FREQUENTLY OPENLY HOMOPHOBIC. UGHHHHHHH KILLING BITING (this is my fave btw)

they have no chemistry or buildup unlike the other st couples. they kissed season 1 right after she asked if he would be her brother. hes very obviously compensating for something. i think i gagged when they made out in season 3. speaking of. thats all they do. make out. they dont really have meaningful conversations. this also comes from the fact that when mike met her she was fresh out the lab that abused her for like 11 years. she was not socially ready to understand the bounds of a platonic relationship let alone a romantic one. anyway mileven break up s5 will happen i believe it. if nothing else. cross ur fingers gamers

the sheer homophobia and general toxicity that the fans of this ship create is absolutely insane when their perfect (read: mischaracterized) straight (read: homosexually-coded) couple is judged for having toxic or incompatible elements is insane. the only good romantic aspect between these two characters is in a cringefail "wow this really doesn't work at all" i-want-to-put-this-dynamic-under-a-microscope-and-study-it-because-it's-an-absolute-trainwreck" kind of way. el has been abused and cut off from society her whole life and at 12 years old she immediately gets together with this guy at whose earth shattered after his best friend went missing who then has surviors guilt after she almost does which is misconstrued as romantic rather than unhealthy obsession and trauma. and so on and so forth.. there's just so much wrong they lie to each other So Fucking Much despite truthfulness being very important to them and they ignore their friends to make out (which is filmed in a way that is meant to feel uncomfortable btw lmao) and el doesn't understand mike's trauma from bullying and he doesn't understand how she doesn't want to be built up into being a superhero etc etc. and it's just so increasingly bad I want to rub my temples just thinking about them. they're just so bad for each other and their relationship has done nothing but make them worse in general but for some reason their ship is viewed as fluffy or cute or whatever the hell. anyway mike is so heavily coded to be fucking gay and in love with his best friend (and el can be interpreted to be lesbian coded) and I just need to get them out of there amen

I'm gonna make a list bc the reasons are many: 1) their first casual interaction they get together but in the same conversation she asks him if she can be like a sister to him 2) all their "cute moments" are them making out in the 3rd season with still absolutely no chemistry 3) their only actual cute scene is them dancing at the snowball yet in the same scene they portray the same way two couples that are not romantic 4) mike becomes a terrible person when he's with eleven 5) eleven literally GOT OUT OF A LAB SHE WAS RAISED IN and this is the first guy she dated 6) she can't even say he's a good kisser 7) mike can't tell her that he loves her (bc he doesn't) and the only time he does he makes this whole ugly ass speech up about how she's his "superhero" even though she doesn't want to be seen only for her superpowers 8) in said speech, while listing the things that he loves about her, he only names her superpowers + he lies multiple times 9) EVEN AFTER SAID SPEECH she is still mad at him and won't talk to him (probably bc she saw right through his bs) 10) she spent a whole 6 months lying to him about all of her life 11) mike is clearly gay and is meant to be with his childhood best friend will 12) mike idolizes her and doesn't see her as an actual person 13) eleven needs to be her own person (ffs she just got out of a lab) 14) the ship sucks and even the authors and actors say so

they have NO chemistry. they kissed after one week of knowing each other when they were 12 and eleven didn't even know what a romantic relationship was at the time, given the fact that right before mike kisses her she says "will you be like my brother?". they spent the entirety of season 2 apart with mike calling el on his walkie and el watching romantic movies on the tv for a year (then will is in trouble and mike says 'fuck it' and goes full protective boyfriend mode but this isn't about byler so i digress) and start dating soon after they meet again even though they haven't had a SINGLE conversation and are barely friends. season 3 comes along and the writers do their utmost best to show us how incompatible they are. their makeout scenes are uncomfortable, they break up at the beginning of the season and neither one of them seems particularly bothered that their first relationship is over. in fact, the happiest we see el in the entire series is during the time they're broken up, when she gets close to max (who she actually has chemistry with, by the way) and finally experiences freedom, being a teenage girl and etc since mike had been "keeping her all to himself" for like, a year. aside from that, he doesn't go after her at all after she dumps his ass (literally) but when he and will have a fight, he bikes across town in the rain just to apologize, that boy is GAY. finally, the theme of season 4 is lies and once again, mike and el spend the season apart (once again, mike spends the season with WILL) and right before they part ways, they have a big fight about mike being unable to so much as WRITE "love, mike" on his letters to el, let alone say it, and he bullshits his way through it and refuses to say the actual reason until vol. 2, when he apparently "confesses" that he's afraid he'll lose her if he says it (okay, amigo, you're gonna lose your girlfriend who was literally begging you to say 'i love you' not even a week ago, aham, totally valid excuse). conclusion: they don't know each other and they don't act like themselves when they're together. mike hides his nerdy nature, el feels like she has to be the amazing superhero he's always viewed her as or else he'll lose interest and it just feels like they're both grasping at straws because this relationship has been dragged on for too long that they don't know how to break up permanently. they are afraid of losing each other, but not romantically, as mike was el's first semblance of family after escaping the lab and mike feels like it's his duty to protect and care for el. also, mike is gay. in other words, FREE THEM.

[interstellarflowers]

FREE PALESTINE from a small fanfic writer and uni. activist returning to tumblr.

i just wanted to hop on to say that as someone who writes for things such as stranger things (or rather has written) that i encourage you to consume other peoples work ethically and to boycott the show or at least do what you can to not allow profit, block accounts, do not stream it via netflix or otherwise. i call out specifically stranger things just because i have written for it in the past, and some of their cast members have displayed some of the most heinous acts of racism, colorism, and colonialist support that i have seen. i will never accept this as something i can look past, and neither should you. genocide is never excusable, and apathy and support of it should never be tolerated. i am strongly anti-zionist, and if you're someone who believes in humanitarianism, or someone who identifies as a leftist, or someone who is also BIPOC or LGBTQ*, then i implore you to educate yourself further on the liberation and history of Palestine, and to get involved in whatever way you can whether this be through donating, supporting Palestinian creators, sharing content and information, protesting, or otherwise. also before someone even TRIES it with me, my family is jewish, i went to hebrew school growing up, i was adopted from the system into a judaism practicing household, and what israel is doing right now, is not jewish, even insinuating that this killing spree, hatred, genocide, and racism is jewish absolutely twists my stomach into knots. genocide is not a jewish value, the israeli government is incredibly incorrect, they have no right to do what they're doing now, they had no right to displace people, they are not indigenous to Palestine. despite common american and eurocentric historical events, no, you can't just show up somewhere decide its yours, give it a new name, and get offended when people say that its colonization and stealing. it is. you have colonized, you have stolen land, you have become the oppressor, you are the oppressor, and now youre committing a mass genocide. never again means never again. they must be held accountable, this is evil. i consistently come back and leave writing fanfic i battle a number of health issues which end up impacting my mental state and i was working on graduating university (graduated this semester btw, heading to johns hopkins now for grad school) but another reason why ive found myself less active is because of the ignorance i see on this platform sometimes. its extra difficult to want to return to a platform and community when i come back from witnessing and experiencing police brutality and force on my campus in response to our encampment, witnessing my friends, peers, and professors be arrested and physically harmed, be verbally assaulted, assaulted, abused by admin, etc. and then come on here and see people refusing to partake in even the bare minimum. its is crucial to the survival of the remaining Palestinian people that we give this cause our all, and fight for their lives, they have been failed and abandoned time and time again, do not turn your backs to them, do not ignore this.

the Palestinian struggle intersects with issues of race, colonialism, state violence, and human rights, in supporting Palestine it means that we are advocating for human rights overall and challenging the overarching system of oppression. recognizing the ongoing systemic oppression, genocide, and attack on Palestinian people and working towards resolution means working towards a movement of ending colonialism and other systems of oppression. as someone who is in both communities, BIPOC and Queer people are familiar with systemic racism and colonialism, the fight for Palestinian liberation against the Israeli government is also a fight against settler colonialism and racialized violence. by supporting Palestine, Queer and BIPOC individuals affirm their opposition to all forms of systemic racism and colonialism.

justice is not a zero-sum game. justice is a shared goal where freedom for one group contributes to freedom for all. in supporting Palestine we foster global solidarity, demonstrating that collective liberation is intertwined and it has been proven to be in multiple BIPOC and Queer liberation movements throughout history. find resources below, and if youre in the nyc area, feel free to reach out to me if you want to coordinate or need someone to attend protests with:

https://linktr.ee/columbiasjp

[tarotdeana]

do u think its better to not always put urself out there so to speak cause u know the saying about loud mouths its the loudest ones are the emptiest? and with so many people always sharing so much about themselves online is it not a bit of a giveaway that they may be lolkkng for validation in others not to sound hollier than thou or anything but some people really do overdo it and im like if i ever did want to meet someone romantically its prolly harder to do for me than for someone who is always posting online cause they at least have an audience to go too. cause ppl be like ur so quiet and talk softly but if i talked loudly id be told off for that too and so i can never seem to find balance and usually just give up trying to blend in if others dont want my attention, they can sod off elsewhere then.

i think people generally find quiet people to be a bit unnerving lmao and yet i find loud people really hard to connect with especially in social settings because they like to overpower others all the time so u cant really find a normal interaction these days when so many ppl are about themselves.

is it best to have limited dating experience or to have had several failed ones? ive had neither so is it genuinely seen as weird if you have never really actively sought out a relationship? is single people still a thing? lol. thanks for any advices in advance! really love ur blog btw! or if other anons have any advices as well thatd be helpful.

Hello, thank you for waiting. You're speaking with a very quiet person who enjoys being single, so I can relate to how you're feeling. Let's see if the Tarot has any advice for you:

The Empress card came up, and it shows that you are more popular among people than you think. You have qualities that others notice and appreciate or admire in you. They often perceive you as distant, which may be why they don't dare to tell you or approach you. However, there are people who see you in a positive light. The Empress also advises you to stay true to yourself; don’t be afraid to share things with those who inspire trust, they won’t hurt you because you are very strong (in fact, people see you as someone strong and hard to manipulate).

Regarding people who "talk too much about themselves," as you mentioned, the card shows that these types of people want to feel powerful through validation.

The card shows you as an intelligent person who sometimes makes others nervous (many feel they’re not as smart as you, which makes them distance themselves). The Empress advises sharing a bit of yourself through artistic or creative activities and connecting with others through that medium. Also, those types of activities can be a great way to relax and connect with your inner self. The Empress also says: don’t change anything about yourself, never give in to pressure, because just as you are, you are wonderful.

Thank you for your comments, and I hope the Tarot has provided the answer you're looking for.

[theoxenfree]

heyheyyyy i absolutely adore your writing and i've read thru pretty much everything on your masterlist at least twice whoops,, (a few of your links don't work tho, just thought to let ya know! not that that stopped me lmaoooo) honestly i think you've honed your craft rlly well and it shows! settings and characterization never miss, neither do the interesting storylines or impressive and immersive worldbuilding. it's sad to see your works don't get the reach they should. :( entirely up to you but i rlly recommend you should check out the #yandereoc community, and explore using some of those tags maybe. folks over there would adore what you write, and i reckon you could branch your writing out to a similar niche that goes hand in hand with the monsterfucking community. (lots of overlapping blogs already) that aside, i hope you keep writing because you've truly captured me! opaque was a masterpiece that made me feel really sad, and the worldbuilding (descriptions of the cyberpunk-esque city and society) blew me away. montague was a fav as well, with how seductive and casually cruel he felt. and the scholar husband??? wow a classic fantasy executed so well, truly. something about the swirling darkness had me clawing at my walls btw. totally normal about it. yep. totally. thanks for doing what you do + have a lovely day <3 - 🌈

heya! first off: I'll definitely check those links shortly when I get some downtime, but it may because most of the pieces listed don't have stories to them yet. they're just there as placeholders under actual pieces are done.

but, nonetheless, I'll go through them and check it out to make sure I didn't goof the links somewhere at some point 💕

second: ive thought about applying the yandereoc tag to try to expand my reach, but I'm not entirely sure if that is a niche that I exactly fall into. with some of my stories, absolutely: montague from blood catalase, father shaw from a flesh sin, possessed!husband from imposter—but not everything I write does fall into that, y'know? I'll probably tack those on as an additional attempt tho! thank you for the suggestion!

as for the reach, I knew that starting an OC x reader blog wasn't going to have much reach at all most of the time.

I knew feedback would pretty much be shit unless the right people came along to reblog (which it's garbage smaller blogs like me have to rely on that to get seen).

I'm grateful to have a handful of my very kind, supportive moots from my fandom days who still follow me here and my writing and leave me feedback and talk to me to help me as best they can.

also grateful to a lot of new moots and folks who follow who have been amazingly supportive and share their thoughts and such 💕💕💕

but, yeah, I kinda knew my stuff wouldn't reach very far which is why I don't get up in arms about it anymore. but, which is why I am aggressively in the fucking tags bc I don't deal well with being swept under the rug lmao

as for the feedback on my other stuff, thank you SO MUCH!! I'm always so glad to hear that people like stories like opaque and blood catalase bc those projects take me months of hard work and losing my fucking mind.

"casually cruel" is such a good way to describe montague too, lmao that's CRAZY 💀💀

the swirling darkness had me going feral writing to, believe you me.

I appreciate you tremendously for leaving me this ask and sharing your thoughts. like, comments like this absolutely make all my efforts and time put into my work absolutely worth it. and it reminds me why I love writing as much as I do

I still have a long way to go as a writer, a lot more I can learn and hone and improve. but, these sorts of messages let me know I'm going the right away 💕💕🫂🫂

[lunatic-fandom-space]

So, Im working on making german subtitles for one of the takarazuka productions because my parents and I are having a movie night for christmas where each of us picks aomething to watch and I really wanted to show it to them but neither of them can speak english (thats why youre unlikely to get my full thoughts on all the productions ive seen so far btw, Im very busy trying to get this done in less than 3 days) and I noticed something interesting that I have trouble really putting into words but Im gonna write it down anyway

In the takarazuka productions he gets introduced as "Der Tod, otherwise known as Death" as though 'der Tod' is his actual name instead of like, idk, a title maybe?? Its not really that either, its more just like what he is ig, but again Im having trouble really putting it into words. In english, I think its essentially equivalent to the difference between just calling him death and calling him Death with a Capital D, where the latter could easily be misconstrued as a name while the former could not. My point here being, in german he does not have a name or anything resembling a name because hes very clearly not a person, like he is just the embodiement of death, down to the fact that he doesnt actually have an identity (thats especially true if we're talking about the original 1992 production), but he does have a name in this, and Im fairly certain it is used pretty consistantly throughout the entire play, like, basically all the english subs I have just translate it to Death after the introduction but I can hear them say it

And idk, I dont really have any smart thoughts about that, i just thought that was kinda interesting. I think it does speak to the way that death is a lot more approachable and human in the takarazuka productions because we do get a lot of insight into his feelings and he seems to have a lot more agency

[sandinmybed]

ive never used femboy either, but there is definitely a problem in the fandom with people taking f1nn’s modelling side (a small % of who he is, and even then it’s his job. He’s given things to wear that suit his features) and twisting with it. neither mike or f1nn behave like the way the fandom makes them. just because of looks. again I don’t use language like femboy, that criticism is fair, but the trend of f1nn’s treatment for example affects will’s fanon too. People need to detach actors! we’re in a fandom people can head canon what they want, but i hope people dont get upset when they rewatch the show and see how Mike actually is. or see f1nn post on insta and see he’s so unlike how people treat him. And this isn’t just byl3r stans btw! f1llie stans and others of his stans do it too.

I've never seen anyone actually project any characteristics onto Finn because of his looks. Mike yeah maybe but not Finn. All the posts where I've seen people complaining about this, they're complaining about something I've never actually seen. At this point it just seems like people are mad that other folk find him attractive in a way they personally aren't into.

I don't really want to debate this tbh I've said my piece, there's not much way to debate this further without someone inevitably saying something weird about Finn/Mike's appearance or features and I'm blocking anyone who comes into my ask with that

[ugly-sweater]

i have got to complain about this im sorry

so last January my dad turned 65 and retired. he sold his business and moved to west Virginia with his girlfriend (who is not retirement age?? but she worked for him so) (yeah) (she's like 25 years younger than him too) he was apparently planning this for a while because he already had bought a house and gone down to do some work on it before then. he took my grandma out to dinner to break the news to her. she seems fine with it now whenever i talk to her but my brother said she was kinda pissed at first. ok. thats fine whatever. except that i haven't seen or heard from him since my uncle's wedding last june. he did not send any of my siblings a message on christmas. we didn't even know if he was coming up or not. he didn't send me a birthday card - presumably my older brother either but i don't talk to him. my birthday is the beginning of june, fathers day was yesterday. my grandma, my only relative to send me a birthday card, asked me to send him a father's day card. but I'm mad at him! he just retired and dropped off the face of the planet! he wasn't like, a very communicative parent before that, but he sent me birthday cards and i saw him on holidays. i didn't send him a card but i did text him. he's not a big texter but i didn't even get a reply. idk if my younger brother is mad or not its hard to tell. he has resisted my familys nasty temper lol.

but. like of all people he deserves to be the most mad. he lived with my dad up until he sold his house here, he didn't find out where he was moving until like right before it happened. they are like. presumably closer than the rest of my siblings? theyre similar in personality and he's the only one who has lived with my dad since 2006 and like. my brother got him a christmas present and when he found out my dad didn't come up for xmas he kept it for himself like.

to be fair even before he moved he has been especially bad at communication there's lots of family events ive missed because no one told me about them, probably because they expected my dad to. i remember a couple years ago we had a birthday party for grandma in july in his backyard and my brother texted me the Day Of to ask if i was coming and i said no i had no idea it was happening and what did he say? me neither i just got home (when he lived with my dad) and people were here.

like. i know don't diagnose other people with things etc etc but my father is the most undiagnosed autistic man alive. also at my uncles wedding he looked like he had aged 10 years or something it was wild. idk. im mad. my mom sometimes talks about how he was so bad with communication when they were together like he would just show up at his friends house and be like oh hes not here i wanted to see if he wanted to go fishing. like. call??? btw this particular friend owned my dads business and was his boss until he retired and my dad bought it from him, and is like, 25 years older than my dad. also my dad only has one other friend, a guy he's known since high school, they go to car shows together.

idk i don't need my dad to be a lot of things. as far as dads go he is not actively harmful. i don't doubt that he loves me. he just absolutely doesn't know how to maintain a relationship with anyone. and i don't like feeling like its my responsibility to maintain it when he has just like given up or gone off to live in his own little world.

also not to complain about my own autism but i feel so much like there are things people expect me to do but have not explicitly laid them out or shown me how to do them ever so i don't do them and then i feel anxious because i don't know what people expect of me!!! also its sexist because clearly theyre not expecting it of my father. ok im done. might update in September for my younger brothers birthday (hes the baby and hes very doted upon) (the favorite but like. he is my favorite too its not a weird thing)

[nancyboy1997]

alright art project info dump coming through

brief warning lots of trans talk ahead

so we have a big project cause its senior year and the theme is "Tiny Man" basically we have to make a doll and put it in a situation that represents an issue that bothers us a lot. and then we have to connect it to an artist

so i knew my issue but didnt know how to picture it, so naturally we start using special interests for inspiration. which are all musicals taking place at least a century ago

now the issue is the trans debate and how gender is seen in society which gets us so the fun part........

THE COSTUME cause gender isnt defined by clothes but society says differently

so for easy distinction for the cishets ive decided to use the old gender roles and dress them historically its like a dashing pirate with a feminine aura (not my words btw)

so now we get to SYMBOLISM so the shirt and pants have been neutralized so they will be in a nice fabric thats not see through

and the vest oh the good old vest so its not that neutral to me, tis kinda masc, but alas agab and society's views, so i wanna make it a mix of masc and fem by using organza (yes i know i need to use a backing fabric) but according to my grandma its a nice mix cuz of the dark color but shiny fabric the back also looks like princess seams and i plan on making them look sewn together kinda corset-like, you know with the lacing (itll be a pain to sew)

then my favorite part the crinoline cage, which i need to make out of some time of metal, now my dad suggested copper which i really like cuz the saying is "speaking is silver, silence is gold" (maybe its only a dutch one) but i feel like being trans speaking or silence are neither seen as good therefore i also like the copper.

lastly the head, it doesnt have to be human just has to have a face, so i wanna make mine a moon, cuz of the phases and different names, also for some musical reference

whoops this is pretty long, but oh well

OH MY GOD. THIS SOUNDS SO COOL MAN IM LITERALLY ALDJALENKWNEWLDNKDND YOU HAVE TO SHOW ME WHEN YOURE MAKING IT/FINISHED!!!!!!!!

[b1nightwing]

ive been thinking about wandavision and how the whole sitcoms thing is very... american. it has nothing to do with neither comic wanda or mcu wanda

wanda and pietro both lived in eastern europe where they were born and they ARE south-eastern european. based on the marvel fandom wiki they have both  american and serbian citizenship.

when u ask someone in southeastern europe hey what did u watch on tv in the 60s? the answer is nothing or news channels bc there was nothing or news channels. i got no idea how many channels we had but when asking the people born in the 60s how many channels did u have they answer we had a tv, u turn it on, watch the news and turn it off. my parents would tell me stories about how a family in the neighborhood would buy themselves a tv and the whole neighborhood would come to their house to watch a movie with them bc a television was really expensive. im in my early 20s btw.

but they all had radios and listened to the news, radio dramas, talk shows and similar stuff so the possibility of wanda knowing any of the sitcoms wandavision is referencing is hilariously small. she maybe heard about them but non of us care about any american tv shows that came out before the late 80s. wanda probably knows some radio dramas that at that time were popular (detective shows or some westerns). wandavision would’ve been more accurate if her show was a bad detective parody or even a replica of a book she read in the 90s (agatha christies books being a huge influence on the people here).

after more households got tvs, sometimes in the 70s, the people got local tv and local dramas. only in the 90s did we get more channels, more content and got english movies and tv shows with subtitles. the most popular ones being the hercule poirot series, x-files, westerns, more british crime dramas, etc but still not many people watched those bc everything was so very different and the people stuck with local stuff. the most prominent sitcom that i can think of that was running for a long time here is fresh prince of bel air (and the simpsons). i just had to search 90s sitcoms to see if there are any other shows that were popular here but i dont know any besides fresh prince.

so yeah. whatever wandavision is, it isn’t accurate at all. i don’t know much about scarlet witch and only after wandavision did i find out that she is actually serbian (from people posting about how inaccurate the show is) but whatever they r trying to portray in wandavision isn’t it and i, a person from the balkans whose country had a socialist regime, dont vibe with whatever “american patriot and lover” mcu wanda is. ALSO northeast europe is a whole different story from southeast europe, the only thing we have in common are the excessive cursing, love for adidas track suits, we were under socialism (<3) and the languages? sexy and harsh sounding.

also im writing this as a white southeastern european person. wanda and pietro as romani people have it harder to be more seen in our society and to be taken seriously if they do not pass as white. we have romani singers and actors but if you search for romani scholars, professors or doctors you probably wont find any if you dont search really hard.

btw consider donating to E-romnja, a romani rights association/organization in europe that is in need of more funding to support covid19 relief funds for romani communities.

[crossovereddie]

Actually, here is an alternative thing for you to occupy your time with, and a question I have been meaning to ask you for a while. I have finished 911 finally! So I'm ready for the new season. And I wonder, realistically, what do you think the roadmap would be for a buddie endgame?

I absolutely see how their story has been framed and filmed in a lot of parallels to how a romantic storyline would be set out. But there has been no outright mention of either of them being bi - although the conversation about Maddy setting Buck up with whassisface was very casual and could very easily have been an example of canonically bi Buck - and they are both at the end of season 4 in 'relationships' with women.

So, in your estimation, what's the timeline? What's the transition? How do they go about this and how long does it take? I wanna know your thoughts 👀

okay yes i have lots of thoughts on this and it's actually one of my fave questions i get asked. I've always watched a lot of tv shows so I'm just estimating on what I've seen before and what I would personally do. IMO this love story is a slow burn. We only have four seasons so far and only three of those seasons have Eddie in them. This unsurprisingly got long so ill put it under the cut.

So I'll go by seasons bc to me its important to look at everything that has happened so far by seasons and by love interests and not as a whole. Its the best way i can form a timeline that I think would make the most sense and why

S1: So we don't get any hints at Buck being anything other than straight and I think this is because he was supposed to be. They hadn't planned for Eddie yet and they definitely hadn't planned for the chemistry Oliver and Ryan were gonna have. S1 Buck was this reckless kid who didn't take anything serious. He was definitely super immature. Then he meets Abby and he starts to get serious about his job and his love life. I'm not gonna say "Abby changed him" because she didnt. He saw the person he was and the person he was becoming and decided on that change himself.

S2: Eddie!!!! So we get introduced to this army medic turned firefighter in the least heterosexual way. Then Buck is angry because Eddie is hot and really good at his job. they work together and Eddie compliments Buck and now they're smiley bffs. Seriously wtf was all that? Anyway this is all sus bc from what ive seen before in other shows when a main love interest leaves and a new main character replaces them, that means something. JLH replaced Connie Britton as far as big name actress but i really believe Eddie replaced Abby as far as importance in Buck's life. Do i think they brought him in with the intentions of turning him into a LI? No but they sure fueled the narrative from the get go. I think they saw fans reactions and started testing the waters.

Moving on to LIs in this season. We find out Eddie has a kid and the mother is not in the picture (eddie made sure buck knew that right away). Then later on we find out he's technically still married. shannon comes back and we get Eddie finally getting to confront this head on. He tries to get his family back together for the sake of his son. Its big for Eddie's character bc all he does and all he's ever done is for his son. Then Shannon asks for a divorce then she dies bringing this arc to an abrupt end and leaving eddie heartbroken.

meanwhile Buck is still waiting for Abby. Then he finally accepts that shes not coming back and decides to move on. He goes right back to being "Buck 1.0" with Taylor and feels bad about himself because that really isnt him anymore. He wants a real relationship. So then Ali calls and asks him on an actual date and he agrees. This is his first try at a relationship after a heartbreak. in tv these don't usually work out but are used to develop the main character's growth. We don't really see much of her but she breaks up with him so.

S3: This is Eddie finally dealing with his feelings/guilt season. This is also the season I think we really see how important Buck is to the Diaz boys. S2 had cute buckley-diaz family moments but those could still be interpreted as a best friend and his best friend's kid. This season though... after the tsunamic episode was when i really started to fully believe buddie was going canon. This season is solidifying their bond not only as Buck and Eddie but as Buck Eddie and Christpher. As I'm writing this I realized neither of them really has a love interest in this season do they? Ana is introduced but then is clearly presented as definitely NOT the right choice for eddie and especially for Chris. Then they counter that with Buck helping Eddie build a skateboard for Chris that he can use as opposed to Ana's ablest remarks about how he can't do it so just move on to something else. Then we get Buck's reaction in Eddie Begins. Buck has seen his team his friends his family get hurt on the job before but he has never reacted the way he did when it was Eddie in danger. Again solidifying just how much these two mean to each other. Don't even get me started on this season being when Eddie changes his will offscreen. Anyway we get Abby back and Buck finally gets the closure from that relationship that he needs to move forward into a serious relationship.

Now S4: jfc s4....IMO this is the only logical season to get the ball rolling on Buddie and they sure did that with 4x14 despite everything else. So i never thought they would be the first serious relationship for each other after the heart break theyve both experienced. It wouldn't be fair to their character developments. Buck tries dating Veronica and that clearly doesnt work but we know hes now open to dating again. We get Buck Begins where we see why Buck is the dare devil he is. The only way he got his parents attention as a kid was to put himself in danger. They bring back taylor and how to they ultimately get together after she friendzones him? She thinks hes in danger and suddenly wants him. As much as i hate it this is really gonna be a relationship where Buck finally stands up for himself and sees his own worth and realizes he deserves more. He deserves someone who sees him and loves him for who he is. He deserves to be chosen, something Abby Ali his parents dont do and what i think taylor wont end up doing. I feel like shes gonna choose her career over him. Maybe not in a "I'm breaking up with you" way but maybe she takes a new job and want to do LD (hes tried that twice and it didnt work for him. hes not gonna want that) or she could ask him to go with her but he wont. His family is in LA. His job is in LA. Eddie and Chris are in LA and he won't leave them. Then we have Eddie finally deciding to move on and try dating again so they bring back ana. To me it's not gonna work out so I'm not bothered at all lmao. It's interesting that they'd choose her though. Someone we already know Eddie doesn't trust with his son. There's also more buckley-diaz family scenes of them being coparents. The hildy episode, Chris running to Buck when hes mad at eddie, Buck being the one to tell Chris Eddie got hurt, then Buck staying with Chris and taking on the guardian role without him even knowing just how much that role really does belong to him. He didn't do it out of obligation. He didn't do it because he was asked to. He did it because he thought it would be best for Chris. Finally to 4x14. This is by far the biggest "Oh shit this is it. This is the beginning of buddie". We find out Eddie changed his will a year ago and has just been sitting on this info. I think Eddie knew back then what it meant but he wasn't in the right mindset to accept what it means so he kept it to himself. I think he finally started allowing himself to go there during treasure hunt. The man was jealous yall. Carla coming back and her comment about doing whats best for him and not chris is his oh shit moment. I think he wouldve broken up with Ana a few days after that if he had the time lol. He gets caught up in the mother/son sl then this poor mf gets shot by a sniper. The way that whole scene was filmed btw was not in a bff way. That was a lover watching his beloved almost die in front of him. Buck again puts himself down and Eddie decides this is the moment. He needs Buck to see how important he is. He wants buck to know how loved he is. So he sits there talking himself up to it and finally lets Buck know just how big of a part he is in Eddie's family. Buck's previous scene is him saying he wants someone who wants him back then here is Eddie saying he needs him...Chris needs him. wtf.

So with S5: I think Eddie knows and Buck has a feeling but he's not sure so what i would do is spend s5 with Eddie basically showing Buck his feelings but not exactly getting in the way of Buck's new relationship because Buck has to be the one to make that choice. Id also have chris feeling the different shift with buck having a gf like he did with Eddie. This newfound info wasnt just dropped on us for a "Aww so sweet" moment. This will business is gonna be a part of a bigger storyline. I'm hoping its with Eddie's family during maybe 5b.

So what I think would be the best timeline for canon buddie is 5a eddie already having either broken up with ana or is gonna break up with her, Buck choosing himself and ending things with Taylor by midseason finale, them bringing in Eddie's family in 5b and maybe then being when Eddie confesses his feelings for Buck. Then 6a we could get them walking on egg shells around each other not really knowing what to do bc this is all so new for both of them. This could bring just the right amount of comedy and angst especially them awkward and flustered around each other at work. A big blowup can happen between them for added angst (maybe an arguement before one of them or both of them is put in danger) then a midseason finale kiss. Then trying to find the balance between their personal relationship and their work relationship during 6b.

I don't know how long Fox shows last but procedurals can last a long time. I'm not sure thats gonna be the case for 911 especially with all the main cast staying that long so i think this would give us at least a whole season (S7) of canon buddie.

As far as then being presented as straight, there's been more seeds planted about buck being bi. A few i can remember off the top of my head: all of 2x1 lmao, maddie's comment about bucks boy crush on eddie, buck hinting at thinking eddie is cute when he thinks maddie is talking about him, the christmas elf, the comments on the instagram livestream, idk if youve watched it or not but TK's comment to Buck in the crossover episode, and like you mentioned Maddie's casual comment about setting him up with Josh. All we really know about Eddie's love life is he married Shannon when they were young and is trying with Ana so it could turn into a whole storyline for him.

I'm so sorry this is so long and took forever but i I hope i actually answered your question and didnt just get lost in rambles lmao.