#ive never felt more validated
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
dragons-and-yellow-roses · 11 months ago
Text
A group of gays just said they really like my hair!!!!!!!
7 notes · View notes
trickstermadness · 7 months ago
Text
this weeks episode of dungeon meshi was Laios experiencing ableism and then just starting to throw punches.
26 notes · View notes
casawio · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media
i genuinely dont think we talk about this post enough
78 notes · View notes
ieirisms · 3 days ago
Text
i CAN’T get over van-del’s to be so fic like— the sheer domesticity of nanasho amplified the tragedy in such an acute way. the scene of her sitting in his kitchen, eating the meal he prepped then thinking to herself that she might not want to eat it all at once because it’s the last thing he made with his own two hands?? ARE YOU KIDDING ME????
1 note · View note
thebigqueer · 3 months ago
Note
Your breakup really really reminds me of my first (and only) wlw relationship/breakup everything you're saying hits home a lot. You will get through it but tbh it's so hard to heal and it still grinds my gears when I think about her and how we broke up. Idk if that helps but I understand what you're going though
YEAH MAN ITS TOUGH OUT HERE FR!!! its not my first queer relationship but like something about this is genuilnely the most world-shattering romantic experience ive had cuz we went into this soooo head over heels for each other like we were literally moving SO fast. and at the time i was like is it ok for us to even be moving this fast (probs tmi but we were literally making out shirtless by like 2nd time we even made out) (probs not a big deal to most people but i experienced a LOT of new things with her that id never experienced befoer & the fact that i was so WILLING to do it so fast was what surprised me the most) but then i was like okk whateverrr i really like how fast we're moving. and i was like 'damn if were moving this fast & if im feeling so good it has to end soon right like theres no way life is going to let me just be happy w this' and then i was like 'no elts not think about it' and then what do you know 5 months later she brekas up w me. and neither of us did anything wrong but it was so random??? like i dont understand how one moment shes telling me how excited she is to spend the entire semester with me and then literally 36 hours later tell me shes not feeling an emotional connection but wont even give us the chance to work it out. i know she also broke it off for personal reasons but its like... this was something we could have TRIED to work out you know!!! maybe it wouldnt have worked in the end but literally nothing felt off to me at all & if id known she was feeling this way i wouldve done my best to make things better. the entire breakup was so sudden and honestly im really not mad at her because i know how nerve-wracking it is to be in your first relationship. i think its just that im really dispapointed she gave up on us so easily you know??? didnt even give us a chance to figure it out
#sorry you didnt ask for a rant but man im not even going to lie the main reason i even rant about this on tumblr is cuz its so much easier#than talking to my friends#not cuz theyre not kind & underestanding and stuff. i mean just generally ive always been better at saying things by writing anonymously#like i never cry on my friends but this was the first time ive ever done that and even then#every time i tell someone i broke up with her i generally dont feel anything i feel like im just retelling a story#other than that one time i cried on my firend#like its just so much easier ranting on tumblr than telling my friends. also if eel really bad ranting to my friends#cuz i know they care abou tme but also like how much of 'i want her back' are they going to take yk??#every time i get tipsy i start complaining about how much i miss her and these past few weeknds my friends have heard an earful of tipsy me#like i jstu dont wnat to burden them like that#but yeah anyway. i feel you anon this shit is so hard#and i feel like the other thing is when its a hetero-presenting relationship friends find it easier to be like 'fuck him / her!!'#and obviously thats not always going to make the person feel better cuz EVERYONE is complex but in a way its nice feeling that support from#friends. but my dating experiences have always been queer and i feel so guilty any time someone says 'fuck them! youre out of their league'#because like the thing about queer dating is i feel so much more understood and it all feels so much more intimate#and when you cant even get a 'fuck them' from your friends it just feels so alienating in a way#idk how to explain it#obviuosly if the ex is a cheater then its valid to be 'fuck them' but in my case none of them have cheated & theyre both very copmlex peopl#weve all done probelmatic things to each other yk#i think its just like. how am i suposed to get over her when our relationship doesnt feel like it should have ended at all#like it was NOT our time!!! NOTHING felt off or wrong or anything!! i thought we were really happy!!#i think she broke it off in part because she was afraid of the moment things went wrong but man this hurts much worse#cuz at least if things started going wrong it would make SENSE to break it off. but BEFORE things go wrong? this pain just feels unnecessar#anyway heres to hoping my insta stories trying to look hot convince her that she messed up and she should totally date me again#and well live happily ever after for at least a few more months#anon tag#asks
0 notes
notravian · 9 months ago
Text
2 more years i guess
0 notes
adoroborosgoth · 1 year ago
Text
they got crowley looking like one of those 1950s style sock advertisements you use to see in some weird purchasing catalogue that sells everything from dildos to kitchen appliances.
everyone's allowed to draw crowley however they want forever because the official comic book's got him looking like ben shapiro
215 notes · View notes
sakebytheriver · 1 year ago
Text
...
#looking back at that friendship and its felt like for years now that she would never take responsibility for anything#that i was gonna constantly be the bad guy and constantly have to swallow teeth because speaking up and confronting her was something#she just couldnt handle and she would see it as grounds to end the friendship entirely#and how she would compare me to her abusive ex and say that i triggefed her but then when i ask for more info when i aske her to explain#she breaks down until i just have to capitulate her and apologize without being able to have a conversation about it whatsoever#how she turned the one time i confronted her about how she hurt me into a 'im sorry you feel that way' and then made it about how i hurt her#for even being upset about her actions and that i wasnt happy for her turning it into me apologizing for even speaking up at all#how she held her friendship hostage and made me feel like i had to walk on eggshells and that any errant comment meant shed leave#how it was always about her and how she felt and that ive been feeling for so long now that i cant tell her shit about my feelings#that whenever i was with her i had to be on guard and that anything meant she wouldnt want me around#how i had to validate her every feeling and make her the center of the universe that i could never criticize her or her behavior#because her insecurity and sensitivity was so intense if i didnt constantly make her feel like she was in the right even when she was wrong#it would spell the end of the friendship#and now i said the wrong thing i made her feel bad and triggered her insecurity and her toxic positivity so after 5 years she decides#that shes 'done with second chances' as if i was the only problem in this friendship and she for sure has convinced herself of that#has convinced everyone im this bitch who couldnt help but hurt her when in reality basically anything would hurt her#there were times when i wasnt sufficiently happy enough for her and shed make it into a big thing and make me apologize for not validating#her enough shed make me overly congratulate her and capitulate her feelings while she never once reciprocated the same treatment for my shit#and its like thats not how friendship is supposed to work its not supposed to feel like im one mistake away from being left#its not supposed to feel like i have to give her everything to receive basically nothing in return#its not supposed to feel like im waiting for the moment she tells me she never wants to talk to me again (WITH ONE TEXT TOO AFTER 5 YEARS)#its not supposed to feel like i have to constantly make myself the bad guy and over apologize while she can treat me any way she wants to#without being confronted about it because she 'cant handle confrontation'#like what kind of friendship can even be built when one person has one foot out the door at all times and builds the relationship in such a#way where they can talk to you anyway they see fit and tell you anything they want but you cant talk to them the same way#i look back at so much of what she said to me how one time she said the way i treated her wasnt fair and its like the way she treated me#wasnt fair that after five years of friendship she wasnt a safe place for me at all that i had to be on my toes or else id be left#and now here we are i didnt articulate myself right i made her feel bad i tried to explain and make my point better she didnt want to talk#at all and instead ghosted me for weeks before playing phone tag for a week when all she planned to do was send one text and cut me off#i look back and i really was just fighting to keep her around just to say that someone stayed but she was never one i should have kept
1 note · View note
todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago
Note
FIRST EP OF TSUMA CLEARED... GODDDDDDDDDDDDD WHY IS KEISUKE SO CUTE HE'S GOT ME SQUEALING THROWING A FIT KICKING MY FEET CLAWING AT MY FACE TEARING MY HAIR OUT RIPPING MY SHIRT OFF [<- CUTENESS AGGRESSION] [NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING I DID ALL THAT] [ALSO REGULAR AGGRESSION. CAN YOU STOP SAYING INSANE SHIT IN PUBLIC]
The music is so lovely too... and the direction and set dressing and Overall Production... chef's kiss... ALSO THE LITTLE GIRL WHO PLAYS SHIRAISHI IS SO TALENTED WHAT THE HELL WAS ANY OF THAT... Tsutsumi is amazing though for real, he makes Keisuke seem so much older post-timeskip and it's wonderful to see his old self starting to show again EVEN IF HE IS. BEING A DUMBASS. Huge fan of Tsutsumi playing depressed motherfuckers... I LOVE Takae though... I understand why he was so obsessed with her I get it...
See this is why I can't be too hard on Akira I'm a grown man acting the same way about Tsutsumi😭😭😭I'M GLAD YOU LIKED FIRST EP... THIS IS A RELIEF... Yoshizawa is a nice young man don't worry about him <3
ALSO THRILLED TO HEAR YOU SEEMED TO ENJOY THE MOVIES TOOOOOO ACAB except the team and Ogata nobody does terror|sm like you king... I wish more Tsutsumis could escape prison and/or death But Fair Enough... Oh and this is what Ogata's letter says if you were curious, it's manga only:
Inoue, You weren't crazy at all, in my eyes. You'll make a fine SP. An SP is a police officer in the Metropolitan Police Department Public Security Bureau assigned as a full-time bodyguard to people who don't deserve protection. That job description assumes they are, without exception, willing to throw their life away in a crisis if it means acting as a shield for those people. That's what it means to guard another's life.
ALSO at one point Tsutsumi was at a panel for something else and a couple members of the audience were being unruly and trying to get on-stage to get to his female co-star, but he and another co-star held them off... I think he actually fell off the stage in doing so but he was fine and he joked that SP would start filming that day... I love himmmmmmm
NO THAT'S WHAT I MEAAAAAN HE'S SOOOOOO CUTE IT DROVE ME INSANE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) 'tsuma' was the first tsutsumi show i watched and the impact it left on my brain was monumental... i loooove keisuke so much i cant stress that... SO IM GLAD YOU WATCHED THE FIRST EP IM GLAD YOU GET TO SEE WHAT I MEAN !!!!!!!! CUTEST OLD MAN EVER I PROMISE !!!!!!!
nono maida is SO good considering her age, i was so impressed with her performance throughout the show... AND YEAH TAKAE IS AMAZING she really is an epic woman, no wonder keisuke and mai cant let her go (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) unfortunately 👁️👁️;;
OH BUT YEAH THE SHOW'S SO CUTE SO FAR I JUST FINISHED THE SECOND EPISODE !!!! tachibana looking right RIDICULOUS but its cute (❁´◡`❁)
AND THANK YOU FOR SHARING THE LETTER MAN so real.... i love that..... chaotic good kind of behavior i fucks with him.... he's valid in my opinion for his methods.... nishijima was lame anyway...
poor tsutsumi at that panel tho im glad he protected his co-star and im glad he was able to make light of the situation- im mortified for him but id also be totally mortified if i was one of those rowdy people like please be civil hes a guy just like any other guy (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
#long post#snap chats#i could go on a mile-long ramble about tsuma its so cute......#its so funny tho ep 2 onward because its like. its SO awkward because he's the definition of Wife Guy but he CANT be a wife guy cause...#yk..... FUCKED UP but hilarious too#fr tho i was so happy at the end of the first ep when mai and keisuke realized she was telling the truth... oh my god... that was precious.#AND THEN ALL THE KIDS PULLED THEIR EMERGENCY STRINGSLGJRAJLVKAJ STOP THAT WAS FUNNY#LIKE VALID BUT ALSO LMAOOO#if you continue watching i hope you enjoy the rest of the series as much as i did !! it gets REAL good#its already good ep 1 but it gets even BETTER and UGH. i should rewatch it...#OH BUT AtR !!!!!!!! ITS SO SWEEETTT ive never had the experience of having a crush let alone on someone older#but the trope seems cute from a distance-so long as the older party is. Not A Freak obviously#theres a certain innocence in it yk what i mean.. i cant explain it but when It Isnt Freak Shit its cute#so im glad this anime's being cute with the trope instead of weird and gross#KONDO IS A VERY CUTE OLD MAN I UNDERSTAND HER BUTTERFLIES hes so silly..#AND IM GLAS YOSHIZAWA ISNT A JACKASS HE'S FUNNY AND A DORK#he needs to chill but he's just enthusiastic so i cant be mad... Give Her Space but also He's So Ernest#ah but yeah with SP..... ogata's morals are based- when he couldnt protect ohashi anymore i felt so bad...#i also like characters like that- characters that want to do whats right so bad but cant for one reason or another#even MORE based when they start to do Cracked Shit to do good.... amazing.... 11/10....#IN ANY CASE.... EP 3 OF AtR TIME !!!!!!!!!
1 note · View note
kermiekermie · 2 years ago
Text
i want a gf sooooo bad
0 notes
theslayerbrother · 1 year ago
Text
Lol
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
“shwoop de doop i don’t have the energy to do art” proceeds to meticulously, unnecessarily crop headshots of all these characters just for alignment memes lskfkskdkmsk..
730 notes · View notes
hihellomy · 6 months ago
Text
SAHSRAU IDEA
WARNING:Religious themes, cult themes, semi existencisl crisis, Boothill leaks(backstory)
Now listen ever since Boothill leaks dropped of his backstory i hated the IPC, and then i went on to learn more about them and damn. If Sahsr were real theyd be dead by now.
Like i take my hatred seriously, i just started Topaz's quest and i was nitpicking the most humbling options and the ones that were most pessimistic towards IPC, i decided to not pull ANY IPC CHARACTER, Topaz, Aventurine, Jade, Im not pulling any of them, f the shield and f the treasure, and my love for Boothill is visible, hes the reason i redownloaded (i was still very much in the tutorial part) and kept the game this time, and while my saving could have been bigger(i got a bit greedy on standard pulls) their at 110 with no pity on both character and weapon banner, i am getting that mf
And thew self aware lenses the Astral express is debating, the IPC arent perfect, yes, but they have friends there, they DID help places, but their grace refused to have anything even remotely positive towards them, should they...cut off all ties? If it pleases their grace maybe, and they cant deny how valid your concerns are, they are bad people, they have disapointed their grace, in fact youd be happy if they got wiped wouldnt you? No, youd want them alive. To torture them, and then... For their last breath will serve as a suficient offering
The IPC meanwhile are sweating bullets, some of them are aware of how rotten they are, some genuanly believe they are good, Topaz unfortunatly falls into the second category, she and Numpy are reaching high and low for only the best treasure for your offerings, pleading, begging you to forgive their actions, and maybe you could, if she felt and never looked back, burning away what was left, Aventurine's hands better off being choped off, its vibrating from panic, hes pacing back and forth, chewing on his glowes, can he even leave if he wanted to? who would he turn to? what would he do then? He may have been blessed by Mama Fengu but you... You are anything else, he doesnt like the IPC either but he knows that if you could, youd travel back in time and give him the coldest responses, and death threats behind that beautiful, safe screen. Jade, Miss Jade, Powerful and in control Jade, knew she was the most screwed from the three, it was no secret, what she did to Aventurine, her slaves, they held their usual expressions but she knew they were smilling on the inside, awaiting your rescuse from her hands, she knows turning over a new lief wasnt an option, youd just laugh at the idea she could reddem what she did, all she can do is call Diamond and seek a solution, what else is there
Boothill, Ive never seen him happier, he cant wait for hes release, for you to come pick him up, get him a brand new gun, give him all those thingamagics to make him stronger, to better make you happy, you care so much about him, hes your favorite, he hopes youll be happy w ith his trial and still choose him, hell do his best there! Oh he can already hear and see it all when the prophecy comes true, for when that stupid, cage breaks.... The wedding bells... The little rascals.... He already has a few names planned! Isnt he so great?
378 notes · View notes
woofs-silly-ships · 25 days ago
Text
Oh. Oh holy hell
HEAVY WARNING FOR THE HAZBIN LEAKS. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DO NOT BE MAD AT ME IF YOU WILLINGLY CLICK ON THIS AND GET SPOILED.
Tw: Mentions of Poison/Angel Dust’s abuse, Aphobia (from Viv and Hazbin, not me. Frick Aphobes or any kind of queerphobe /srs)
This is almost certainly real and that makes me
I think I feel worse than when the Poison leaks happened
And that was bad
Yet I think this might be worse… because at least some survivors do relate to and find comfort in Poison and Angel as a whole. At least people knew he was suffering from and dealing with this abuse. This… people couldn’t have seen this coming.
Alastor and Rosie’s relationship was one of the few actually well written ones in this freaking show. And they just screwed it the hell up
Alastor being owned by/selling his soul to Lilith made so much sense. Of course Lilith would care about his child’s dream, of course she would hide him away in heaven after a (likely) bad fight with Vox, of course if he was in heaven nobody could find him, of course he’d be so fearful of the literal Queen of hell.
If Alastor is owned by Rosie, why the hell would he actually be genuinely comfortable around her as shown in season one? Rosie wouldn’t give a shit about the hotel as well, I’m sorry but like huh??? She has 0 relation to the founders or guests besides Al??? Also there’s no freaking way that Rosie would be able to hide Alastor IN HELL FOR 7 FREAKING YEARS AND AVOID ALL DETECTION. If Vox’s cameras didn’t catch him in a HEAVILY POPULATED TOWN, there’s literally no way some random diner didn’t catch a glimpse of him or something??? And Al is probably on the level below Rosie power wise, there’s no way he wouldn’t have rebelled at some point, even if he lost???
But yeah, I’m beating around the bush here. Elephant in the room time.
The whole song and animation and everything leans WAYYYY too into the aspect of Alastor being Rosie’s pet, and that creeps me out so much. Because it again feels fetishized. Way too reminiscent of pet play and such, which I already don’t like on its own but I’m not getting into that. I wouldn’t even have an issue with it if
1. Rosie was portrayed as an actual big bad and not “secretly silly”, same issue as Val
2. ALASTOR WASNT FREAKING ASEXUAL. AND ROSIE WAS LITERALLY THE ONE TO CONFIRM THAT IN CANON (the “ace in the hole” scene was one of my favorites and now it’s ruined for me. Of course.)
I know k!nky asexuals exist and are completely valid and yall are awesome, and I’d be fine seeing that represented if, you know, ALASTOR WASNT SHOWN TO BE FREAKING SEX REPULSED?? HAVE WE FORGOTTEN ABOUT THE FREAKING
Tumblr media
^^^ THIS???
AND GOING BACK TO WHAT I SAID BEFORE: AT LEAST SURVIVORS WHO RELATE TO ANGEL KNEW THAT HE WAS A VICTIM LONG BEFORE THE RELEASE OF POISON AND S1. MANY FELT BETRAYED BY IT AND THATS VERY VERY VALID, BUT IT COULD HAVE BEEN FAR WORSE (as in, Addict could’ve never existed, Angel fans including survivors could’ve had no idea of what he was going through before being thrown into the mess that is Poison). THERE WAS ABSOLUTELY NO FORESHADOWING OF THIS WITH ALASTOR. IVE SEEN SO MANY ASEXUALS LOVE AND RELATE TO AL AND TAKE WHAT LITTLE REPRESENTATION THEY GET IN STRIDE, AND IM SO SCARED TO SEE THEM DEAL WITH THE FETISHIZATION OF THEIR SEXUALITY. THAT WILL HURT ME MORE THAN WHATEVER THE PLOT DOES. IF YOU ARE ASEXUAL AND RELATE TO AL THEN I AM SO FREAKING SORRY FOR YOU, ESPECIALLY IF THIS ENDS UP HURTING YOU AS MUCH AS IT DOES ME /GEN
ALSO, APPARENTLY VIV IS DOUBLJNG DOWN FROM POISON BECAUSE THERE’S SOME CHEERY UPBEAT AH MUSIC BEING SUNG ABOUT ALASTOR BASICALLY BEING CHAINED AND ABUSED FOR THE MAJORITY OF HIS AFTERLIFE AND ALSO BASICALLY BEING SHOVED INTO A PET-PLAY KINK LIKE THING AS AN UNWILLING AND UNCOMFORTABLE (AND ASEXUAL) PARTICIPANT
Urghhh, I’m sorry I just really needed to get that out. Posting this on my selfship blog since it’s more contained and I have 2 Hazbin f/os anyway
Since I’m here anyway, yeah my Hellaverse AU won’t have any of this crap. Alastor will be owned by either Lilith or Roo, whichever one makes more sense when S2 comes out and we see more of Lilith and see if Roo was scrapped or not. Right now he’s owned by Lilith in the AU and his relationship with Rosie is exactly like in S1: genuine and comfortable. I’m sorry but I’m not letting Vic’s awful plot direction here ruin one of the few good relationships in the show.
And I’m sorry if any of this is exaggerated by accident, I’m just, er, very passionate about minorities being disrespected this badly and this is kinda just me dumping my thoughts and rage into writing /gen
On a small but light note, the other clip is actually really cool!! Makes sense for Heaven to have Goitia as well as Hell, and as long as this bird doesn’t turn out Stolas then I’m pretty happy with this :D
172 notes · View notes
freyito · 4 months ago
Note
Hi! Not a fic request but I’m just interested in what you think messmers love languages are? Since Elden ring isn’t really commonplace for romance how do you think he’d fare in that department?
✧ a/n: (evil grin) its gonna be treated like a request anyways cause ive thought abt this a lot. a lot a lot a LOT thank you for enabling me anon
✭ pairing: messmer x gn reader
Tumblr media
🗒 cw: gn reader, just fluff, not proofread
✎ wc: 447 (short n sweet)
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
I think he’s a pretty quaint mix of all of the love languages, but three stand out to me the most. Physical Touch, Words of Affirmation, and Quality Time. Acts of Service is a big one for him as well, but doesn’t match up to those three.
Let’s talk Physical Touch first. Messmer tends to shy away from it, yet crave it heavily. In a land scarred with war, it is hard to accept a kind hand when all you’ve known are those that dig daggers into your flesh. With you, however, it’s different. He doesn’t fear your hands, scarred as they may be.
When he’s comfortable, he seeks out your touch every time he gets the chance to. He’s quite fond of holding your hands whenever, especially when your hands are cold. He takes great pride in being able to use his flame for something other than burning. He also quite loves to cuddle, as funny as it sounds. He rests easier when he’s with you, although he’s still a very, very light sleeper (which is common in the Lands Between as a whole).
With Words of Affirmation, I believe he genuinely quite likes to be praised and at least told that he’s doing a good job, since the very praise he had been looking for was kept from him for years upon years. To hear such validation practically makes him putty in your hands. But everything with him stands on equal ground, and he will praise you right back.
How brave you are, battling in the Lands Between, an admirable soul. In fact, he almost showers you in praise, sometimes it’s a little uncanny. He isn’t the most vocal, and yet when it comes to you, he’s quite the poet. He finds it easier to love you through words rather than touch, as much as he seeks it out.
Messmer is more than happy to spend his free time with you, actually. When he fails with his words and his hands, he is content to simply share the same space with you. Often times he will be content to be in the same room, either reading together, or even napping together. Something he felt he could never afford then.
Quality Time just means a lot to him, to have someone that doesn’t mind being around him, that isn’t afraid of him, that could be devoted to him in a way his Fire Knights aren’t, it’s a blessed thing, really. He will show you the same devotion, perhaps even tenfold, when he is confident that this love is true. To have someone show him that love does exist, it’s a beauty he never even thought of.
Tumblr media
© freyito, 2024 | masterlist | queue | kofi | star header by roseschoices
DO NOT REPOST AS YOUR OWN OR USE FOR AI/AI CHATBOTS.
192 notes · View notes
the-sound-of-her-wings · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media
Hi friends I made a very silly quiz <3 there's 72 results so some of them may not have descriptions beneath, i'll add those eventually lmao
Fully inspired by this quiz
566 notes · View notes
theunholybastard · 2 months ago
Text
Kinktober: October 15th - Virginity (Papa Emeritus IV x Female!Reader)
Tags: Ghoulette!Reader, Loss Of Virginity, Cunilingus, Fingering, Gentle Sex, Praise, Friends With Benefits, 1st Person POV
I don't remember much of my summoning, only the feeling of a phantom hand reaching down and grabbing me by the tail, pulling me up painfully. I remember the whooshing sound as I ascended to the earth at incomprehensible speeds. When I arrived at my destination, my skin still felt like it was searing from the flames of the Pit. Then I remember a tall, shadowy figure approaching me, stepping into the light.
Papa Emeritus IV.
It took me a while to get used to my new physical form and the world around me, longer than most other Ghouls and Ghoulettes, but once I did, I've never felt more at home. Papa was nothing but patient with me, pulling out countless accommodations to make me feel more comfortable. Because of this, it wasn't long till he became my first official friend in the ministry.
But because of my late blooming, paired with my crippling shyness, I've yet to experience the thrills of physical intimacy. Sure, I got up to my fair share of devious activities during my time in the Pit, but that was different, when my form was nowhere close to human like, nothing more than a swirling orb of darkness beyond mortal comprehension. But now that I've been released from my hellish binds, I have been reborn, with a whole new body to lose my virginity in a second time. Something all my fellow Ghouls have accomplished within a week of being summoned, usually with each other, has taken me months to even consider. But now that I was considering it, I had only one person in mind.
Coming to Copia made me feel a little ridiculous. Though I trust him deeply, part of me feared he would laugh at my request. He of course, did not, validating my feelings and happily agreeing to be of assistance. He deeply loved and cared for all his Ghouls and Ghoulettes, past and present, and I was no exception, he told me.
Despite the countless sexual encounters I've had during the hundreds of years I have spent rotting in Hell, I was surprisingly nervous for my first time. Copia, if anything, found it endearing, noticeably spurring on his own arousal, and gently assured me that I'm in good hands. That I was already certain of, from observing the way his hips gyrate and fingers flick when he's on stage. If those moves are what he's willing to share with the public, what moves will he have in store for me?
He laid me down in his bed, which was surprisingly comfortable, despite all the crumbs that he graciously swept off for me beforehand. What a gentleman. He took his time, stripping me down, kissing every bit of flesh that became bare to him with every article of clothing he took off. He was patient, pausing in between every action till I gave him the go to continue. It was almost frustrating, the heat in my core becoming unbearable, yet he still continued at a painfully slow pace. For my sake, he claimed, even though I know he could tell I was losing my mind.
"Patience, doll. Papa will take care of you soon enough." He murmurs, pressing soft kisses on my nipples. My breath hitches at the feeling, black kiss marks from his paints littering my breasts, and everywhere else he had previously stuck his face. His hand, which was on my thigh, trails upward towards my sex, thumb delicately caressing my folds. I wiggle impatiently, causing him to chuckle against my skin. His fingers rub my clit, moving with such skill and dedication it would make Lucifer shed a tear of pride. My new body was much more sensitive than my form in the Pit, my tail waggling back and forth excitably, unable to contain myself.
"Someone's eager." Copia teases, my cheeks darkening as I start to feel a bit self-conscious. He tuts when he sees the flicker of doubt in my eyes, leaning up to press a kiss to my forehead. "It's okay, cara. I remember my first time. I came in under a minute." He laughs. "I was very eager, very nervous, put too much pressure on myself. I do not wish that for you, my sweetest Ghoulette. I want you to relax. Let's take our time to enjoy this beautiful experience fully, si?"
Finally, he starts to take off his own clothing, struggling for a moment with the tightness of his pants. He should feel lucky I didn't rip them off with my teeth. But Satanas Almighty, when I finally got to see him nude, it was all worth it. His curves, his thick tummy and thighs, his excessive salt and peppery body hair, it was all to die for. With both of our clothes discarded, I started to feel less exposed and vulnerable, more bold. I reach down to pump his cock in my hands, so thick and already twitching with desire. It made me feel flattered that this was all because of me.
He gently nudged my hand away, scootching down to where his face was hovering above my cunt. Feeling his hot breath hit my slick was enough to send a shiver down my spine, groaning softly. He runs his tongue up my slit, moaning into my pussy at my taste alone. "Papa!" I whine, attempting to squirm, but he grabs ahold of my hips, keeping me in place. "I know, cara. Papas here." He hums against me, the vibrations of his speech sending a pulse of pleasure to my clit. I need him carnally, like I've never needed anything else before.
He devoured me, tongue and fingers dipping deep within me to get as much of my wetness into his mouth as he could. If it didn't feel so fucking good for me, I would say he was doing this solely for his own pleasure. I have to hold myself back from digging my claws into his scalp, as my full, unabashed state would no doubt cause him to bleed if I did so. Instead, I dug them into the bed below me, knuckles turning pale white as I scratch holes into his sheets and his poor, goose-feather pillows. He didn't seem to care however, or at least didn't notice.
I warned him I was close, begging him desperately to stop his ministrations so my first orgasm will on his cock. But it's like he couldn't hear me, too pussy-drunk to care, or perhaps my thighs constricting around his head acted as ear mufflers. But alas, I came, the unbearable tension in my stomach finally releasing and crashing down on me like a building was just dropped over my head. I am truly the luckiest Ghoulette, I think to myself. I'm sure none of my other peers have received treatment from him quite like this, or at least, I'd like to believe so.
"Copia..." I sigh, panting wildly. "I w-wanted to cum on your cock..." I whine. A devilish smirk unfolds on his face. "And you will. You really think your Papa would leave you with just one orgasm? Tsk. I was under the impression you thought of me better, cara mia." Sitting up with a huff, positioning himself between my legs, rolling a condom on. Holy shit, it's happening. Suddenly, my nerves get the better of me, tail flicking to cover my hole before he can insert himself. His brows furrow in concern.
"Will it... will it hurt?" I shudder, worried about the fragility of my new body. Surely I lack the resilience that I had back in the Pit. And with the size of his package, I could only assume the stretch would be insane. He gazes into my eyes tenderly, his expression sincere. "It shouldn't. You're wet enough to where it should slide in easily. But if it does, you tell me and I will stop. Do you trust me?" He asked, voice quiet and earnest. I nod, moving my tail out of the way, readying myself.
He pushed inside slowly, mouth hung open and eyes shut tight in concentration, as if he was using every ounce of willpower in him not to cum on the spot. He inches his way in until hes fully bottomed out, strands of hair falling in the way of his face. If he looked this messy right now, I can only imagine how fucked up I look. This time I cannot control myself, my sharp nails finding their way to the supple flesh of his ass, digging in. Not enough to break any skin, thank goodness. I was already trembling, my last orgasm still deeply affecting me as my walls clung onto his shaft with immeasurable grip.
Once he starts, his thrusts are disappointingly shallow, giving me practically nothing. I wrap my legs around his waist. "Just give me a proper fucking already." I plead, him rolling his eyes at me with a cheeky grin. "Do you want me to last ten seconds? Calm yourself, you insatiable little minx, before I tie you down." He quips playfully. I know he wouldn't do so without my explicit consent, but the thought makes me clench around him. "I will give you what you want, when the both of us are ready to take it. I swear it, my girl." My girl. Why did that make me giggly?
He owns up to his promise. After what feels like forever of gradual build up progresses into tight, quick snaps of his hips, pounding into me like he paid for me. I hate to admit when he's right. If he started off like this, I would've came instantaneously, and most likely him too. Not to mention, I'd get sore terribly quick. "There you go," he gruffs into my ear, growling the same way he does on stage. "You got what you wanted, right doll? All it took was a little patience. There you go, baby. Taking me so good."
His praises sent a serge of pride through me, unable to help myself from smiling dazily as he grinds himself into my cunt, hitting the spot that makes me scream every time. This felt better than anything I've ever experienced, both on and under the earth. I felt truly blessed, the Dark One himself rewarding me for my dedication. When he decided to hook an arm under my leg, pressing upwards towards my shoulder to get as deep as possible, I knew I was doomed, another orgasm already building up.
"I'm- I'm close! So close!" I cry out, nearly in tears. He presses feverish kisses across my face, lingering when he gets to my lips. "Let go, cara mia." He whispered encouragingly. And just like that, the flood gates opened, another orgasm violently ripped from my body. If the last one felt like a building was dropped on top of me, this one felt like an atomic bomb, rendering me screaming and shaking like I was possessed. He follows soon after, emptying himself into the latex hanging off his cock with a satisfied groan.
As he pulls out, chucking the full condom into the trash, the room is now uncomfortably quiet without the sound of moaning and skin slapping. My ears are still ringing from the force of my orgasm, groggily turning my head to the side when I hear a rustling next to me. I giggle when I see where the source of the noise came from. A wrapper to a plastic straw. He got out a fucking juice box.
I love this man.
-
59 notes · View notes