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Kendra help my friend just went through a really bad breakup and has been venting to me about it and between stuff I noticed before and things she saying now I realized that she is 10000% the problem and I don't know if I should bring it up when she already so upset. But she does not think she's the problem at alllllll and if I say nothing then she's just gonna keep making the same mistakes.
.............whats her zodiac sign? just out of curiosity? but yeahhhh bringing it up rn when everything is super fresh may just make her more defensive bc she's in the nursing her wounds stage of being upset. you'll probably have to start sowing the seeds of looking at it a different way once she starts feeling more open to different opinions. be sure to reaffirm that her feelings are valid but there are sometimes better actions to take 😭😭😭😭 and it might be easy to breach the idea that she was the problem when in the near future y'all have a heart to heart u can ask 'okay in your next relationship what do u want to do differently? what do you feel like you were meant to learn from this?' and then kinda nudge her/drop small suggestions to get her to admit even a littleeeeee bit of fault on her own bc it's easier to be honest if you can get the person to believe it was their own idea first lollllllll. all u need is that one opening of discussing her accountability and then u can relay your thoughts in a gentle way and if she's got any sense she'll internalize it 🤗 and if she doesn't have sense well.......you'll see her next cycle i guess lmao
#asks#ive gone thru this before....#the key is to let them get thru the heartbreak#and a lot of times ppl can reflect on their own once the wound is a lot less raw#but just be there for her and whenever she opens the door gently guide her <3
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A little 15 min doodle but first post of the year has to be Bingqiu!
#ok its time to get mushy in the tags because I doubt anyone would read them too closely#I’ve had severe art block for YEARS before I got into danmei in 2024#and it wasn’t that my skill was gone it’s just that I thought nothing I did was good enough#I started reading danmei around the summer of last year and I got SO INSPIRED#I dived into the fandom side of things (I haven’t been in a live fandom in years) and was so excited about all the art people were making#and writing! and music! and animatics!#everything was so bright and colorful and beautiful#and everyone had such cool designs for these book characters that I’d grown to love#so I took a chance and doodled a little Luo Binghe and posted him on here#and I was so taken aback by how welcoming and sweet the fandom was#it made me wanna keep taking chances and posting my art— because I think that’s one of the hardest things I’ve come to accept#that even if it’s not good enough for me#someone else may enjoy it#and ain’t it crazy that ive come to enjoy drawing again too#sure the interaction has been fun but it’s been even more fun experimenting with my style and experimenting with colors and rendering#and grayscale and angles#and composition and expressions#ahh!! art is so fun!! I forgot how fun it was!!#I had forgotten how much I loved to draw!!#and the fandom— so many ideas are exchanged and I’ve met some of the loveliest people thru the sv fandom!#tgcf too but they’re a little less chill lmao#anyways#I’ve set up a little spot in the fandom and I plan to keep at it here it’s very nice and cozy and funny and warm#huge thanks to everyone for being so kind and welcoming#and an even bigger thanks to anyone who’s interacted with my art#I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that someone took the time out of their day to like/repost these silly little doodles I post#incredible. ok bye for now :)#svsss#bingqiu#hoot art
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Leaf's Mom
(⚠personal interpretation/headcanon)
#trainer leaf#pokemon frlg#leaf's mom#blue oak#daisy oak#tangela#headcanon post#rival blue#green oak#rival green#i dont think ive ever seen official art of her ingame sprite appearance before#i sort of see her as a woman who had gone thru lots of hardships and thus has more of a stricter personality when younger#she overworked a lot so leaf was often lonely#she was also worried abt her daughter cuz she was more prone to getting into fight with bullies aaah#green was leaf's best friend tho and her daughter became a lot more happier and talkative afterwards#she was definitely thankful for that haha#ookkkk thats enough rambling lol#kashart
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PLUSHIE: PURCHASED
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#(text says 'kinito-kun please come home. hurry')#(and 'assignment subjugated' on the right but thats smth else)#i was very desperate bc there was barely any info abt time or span (<-has gone thru war before)#課題討伐委員会#<-this is part of my assignment subjugation committee series (basically 1 doodle every time i complete an assignment)#so tagging that too. even tho i dont plan on posting the rest until the weekend#ive already put one up on cross-cunt anyways#my art#kinitopet#kinito pet#kinito#kinito the axolotl#'choccy stop drawing takahashi issey plushie memes' no<3
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u know when youre bored of everything and it feels like theres a hole that youre trying to close but it just keeps sucking everything up
#pissing me thefuck OFF#Ive tried everything ive gone for swims ive eaten snacks and drank water I went for a walk#every time I pick smth up it jumps to smth else like some sort of itch I cant scratch#and stuff that doesnt take a lot of energy like going thru pinterest reading old messages playing Tetris#I haven’t even listened to music in almost 2 weeks wtf. I cant sleep#I wanna talk to ppl but smths stopping me like I get exhausted before I can even come up with smth to say#like oh I have free time I should try this game someone recommended me its already on my ds but I cant even get past the menu#is this some sort of creative block or smth. sigh#maybe i wanna play with someone but it feels like a huge list of tasks and commitments that I can’t keep up with#and I don’t want the other person to have to read between the lines being wishy washy abt it even though I asked to play#yapping#diary#ffffffuuuck
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really good new years eve activity: compile the 3~10 drawn-on pages of every sketchbook youve kept since you were literally 11 years old by removing them and turning the rest of the literally clean book into usable scrap paper again. and then compile a scrapbook of raw psychic damage .
there are so many ponies in here. there are so many ponies and so many of them are also gamzee makara. does this count as mindfulness .
#all my oc stuff starts properly in like 2015 so theres like 4 straight years before it of like: pony pony pony creepypasta homestuck#pokemon dangan ronpa pony pony pony mortis ghost's off tf2 pony pokemon madoka magica pony homestuck. its rlly funny#very likely wont show much of it here because its too actually cringe. but this isnt the first time ive gone thru all my books#recently so im familar with it. but the box is too big i need to pair some of these down and just make a scrapbook organised by date#lucabytetalks
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“I’m sorry,” Drals said, his voice just above a whisper. “Yesterday, I… said some things. Things I didn’t mean, but… I think I wanted to be true.” “Why would you want those things to be true?” Azandar turned to him, leaning his head against the opposite side of the window frame. Drals sighed, mirroring him, no longer avoiding his eyes. “It’s easier, isn’t it? When you know people don’t want to stick around. When you don’t have to look at yourself in the mirror and face the things you’ve done. It’s easier being a fuckup when you’re alone. Now I feel like I’ve got an audience.” “Ah,” the corner of his mouth turned into a smile. “Introspection is a cruel mistress.” “Never knew her, before I met you.”
a scene from my fic that I really wanted to try drawing. I just love them a lot :')
#yans art#elder scrolls online#tes fic#tesblr#azandar al cybiades#idk if i'm using the right tags for fic#its kinda weird bc i've been sitting on this for like a month now and it's gone thru sooo many changes#ive never edited a piece THAT much before#anyways look at my gay old men#drals arano
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literally figured sorcerer!kristen's freshman year design out the moment I sat down and attempted to brainstorm (rubs hands together fly style) we eatin good today boys
#not art#riz is my specialest boy whom I love dearly everything I do I do it for him but kristen is like instant kinship to me#adhd haver to adhd haver communication. adhd haver to adhd haver comprehension#and ohhh I'll have a Lot of fun with her design esp. freshman year bc shes diametrically opposite to how she looks in canon#which is to say: slightly maximalist#off the top of my head I'm already thinking pippi longstocking influence so mens size 40 shoes and mismatched socks#and matilda a little bit (at least on first day she's trying so hard to figure out business casual) so dress or blouse#and of course she's kristen so cargo shorts#if this sounds deranged to you: yeag#I think the only thing holding me up rn with her is her arcane focus#I am thinking. very hard. I dont think she'd keep the shepherd staff given its connection to the heliolic faith#but I do think it has to be 1/decently big 2/of an eye catching color 3/attached to her pretty much 24/7#Ive been thru this rodeo before babeyy if its not chained to u it will be Gone in the blink of an eye#. wait. I think I have an idea. it will be fun to harken a Little bit back to ally's other sorcerer character#it would also be like a vibe flashbang. I think we got it. stay tuned
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i know its only been 1 month but if instead of improving/curing my pmdd, birth control just spreads the symptoms out so that i can get hit w them anytime instead of just during Hell Week, that will. not be ideal
#kcqt rambles#i KNEW my body wasnt gonna have the Expected Reaction to these meds my body doesnt have the Expected Reaction to fucking ANYTHING#like yeah sure all my symptoms have been *milder* than they got during Hell Week#but its been (checks notes) two weeks and counting since they started#two weeks of mild symptoms sucks just as much if not more than one week of severe symptoms#esp since i cant anticipate when theyre starting/stopping like i cld before#like. i knew when my cramps started id be out of commission for the next 48-ish hours#and then theyd be gone and id be (relatively) good again#but ive been getting random contractions for TWO WEEKS NOW#thank god i waited till i wasnt working to try this thats all i can say#if id tried to work thru this. well. i simply wldntve been able to#PLEASE let this just be the initial adjustment period#PLEASE let things get better as time goes on#sigh i need a separate kcqt whines tag for stuff like this#kcqt whines#there we go lol#anyway i still have Bad Brain so im gonna go disappear again goodbye
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i am such a Physical Media guy but reading fanfiction is also Extremely Important to me,, so,, at the very least,, i want y'all to know that i keep a folder on my ao3 email called "Sentimental♡" where i save emails from ao3 of comment replies from authors/friends that made me happy/emotional/feel-loved/love-in-return. i advise anyone looking for a little bit of dopamine to do the same: stockpile these random internet interactions,, just to know they are there, u are alive, and sharing moments with others online <3
#i am full of so much love#commenting on fanfictions is so important to me. and ive made lil friendships and bonds thru ao3 that im So grateful for#and when a friend & i have a sweet exchange i always save the email. i have to#i dont think ive ever even gone thru them before but. i know if i need a reminder that im alive and love is real#ill find it there#love can be big things and its also all the small things#<3#ao3#fanfiction#fanfics#reader#.txt#maria is literally just rambling. hi
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Sometimes I can’t possibly show my love for Tron and Beck’s relationship through traditional art. And instead I explode and do this
#the timing is so off dw#IVE HELD ONTO THIS EDIT FOR SO LONG and I’ve posted it on my yt before but I feel the Tron tumblr fanbase must see it#this isn’t like a ship edit or sumth I just rlly rlly love the… idk the desperation in their relationship?#tron secretly wants tight relationships. beck is on the verge of losing them. so they’ve only got each other at the last episode :(#on top of that#Beck hasn’t gone thru a fraction of what Tron has so when he gets involved in all of the terrible shit that’s linked to Tron#it just breaks my heart. these two deserved a better life#the found family is so so real#tronblr#tron#tron beck#beck tron uprising#tron uprising beck#tron: uprising#tron uprising
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Ok also so I got my eyebrow and nose piercings back in... march, I think? I was supposed to go back in to get the bars changed out some time ago but I never did. Largely bc my eyebrow piercing has Not been healing smoothly (keep accidently banging it and getting it caught on things so it doesn't wanna heal) but I think the long bar has been actively hindering my healing (making it easier to get caught on things) so I decided to change it out Myself. Bought some new smaller jewelry online and it got here today and
I'm not generally squeamish when it comes to my own body. Like pain, blood, whatever. Don't rly care.
That, though... that took some effort.
But I did it! Smaller jewelry to hopefully make healing a little smoother from here on out. I also got some new jewelry for my nose stud that'll get here tomorrow. That one at least won't be a huge deal, since the nose piercing has healed so much more smoothly, thankfully.
(Preemptive warning for Gross Details in the tags. Lol)
#speculation nation#for the eyebrow piercing it's like....#ok this is kinda gross hfkshfks but i think i. at one point when it got caught on something#i think i like. tugged the piercing. um. smaller#?#like the area of skin that the eyebrow piercing runs thru is. smaller. bc it literally tore some of the actual pierced skin.#hurt like a BITCH i'll fuckin tell you that lmfao. ive been a lot more careful since.#but thats another thing with why i wanted a smaller thing. the prior one was fucking Massive in there. way too much#but now i have smth smaller. thinner too. which i hope will help with healing.#downsizing while healing will reduce the amount of variation in jewelry i can stick in there#but tbh i think itd just be wiser to stick to small things anyways. with the thinner patch of skin there.#i dont WANT to rip my eyebrow piercing out. which that was part of what made changing it so hard hfkshfm#these new ones r like screw on ends. but the one before was a pin i had to pull out.#and Let Me Tell You. i was so fucking scared of accidentally ripping it out when trying to pull that bitch. holy shit.#i got it without ripping anything. it still hurt and it bled a good bit but i got it.#switched out the jewelry. which eugh that part was pretty rough too. like not to be gross but rootin around in ur own skin is. somethin#hfksfhksbfmd but it's done and i dont intend to change it until it's healed more. so hopefully it will be. easier then.#i actually took out my nose piercing.. yesterday? to try to switch out with a shorter back#didnt work bc it was thicker. had to put the old one back in. which THAT was harrowing but mostly bc it was so. fucking. hard to do#but the new nose jewelry i got is supposed to come with a thing that makes it easier to put the nose jewelry on#(the hard part is trying to put a flat back base in from the inside of the nose. cant see SHIT in there 😭)#man. facial piercings really arent for the squeamish. good thing im not scared of pain but it has even me like Eughhh#couldve been mitigated has i gone back to the piercer. but oh well. fuck it we ball 💪#ummm should i tag for this lol#gross/#😂
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screaming in the club
time for another vent in tags
#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO#i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe#n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th#ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a#utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai#ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell#like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc#then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no#food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it#harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now.#the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats#fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS.#all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY#SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf#the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther#es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much.#i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the#bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and#no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh#it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression#i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat.#im so close to snapping on them at this point#i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT#everything has gone to shit#vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.
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i want a boy to teach me how to do something he loves. i want to learn how to do something with him that he's passionate about.
#like an instrument or a game or something. anything.#man im. ugh. christ.#i said id take time after my breakup before fully putting myself out there#its been months tho. i think ive moved on enough. i mean who knows but i dont wanna get into it all on here bc theres so much#theres soooo much that happened with it and im tired and ive gone thru it a million times but still. ugh.#idk man im tired and i miss being in love#mlm#mlm yearning#mlm post#mlm love#gay mlm#mlm thoughts#t4t#trans mlm#mlm blog#t4t yearning
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ugh time loop aerith my beloved
#( ooc. )#also ive decided there are some times where shes gone thru the events of advent children before she was sent back#which those suck the most bc she always thinks shes managed to get out of it. NOPE.#i think the only way to break it is if sephiroth doesnt kill her. but yadda yadda the inevitability of fate#so i think he has to figure out that he cant kill her else things always play out the same#love aerith being sephiroths ultimate adversary like yes babygirl
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actually sso baffling to me that there are still somehow dhurkedatz fics i havent read yet
#I SWEAR IGE GONE THRU THE TAG 40 MILLION TIMES.#and yet i just found like A good handful from 2020 or so that ive never read before#like. how#am i just stupid do i not know how ao3 works#oh well.#Bc i know im not picky w dhurkedatz fics.#there are a lot of klavdar fics ive skipped bc of how they write it but ill read absolutely anything for the dragons#sooo weird
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