#its. its mostly laughingstock.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

misc. silly low-quality scribbles that didnt make the cut <3

[steakbones]

ranking noble titles from most to least vampiric:

1. countess

2. baron

3. baroness

4. viscount

5. count

6. lady

7. prince

8. lord

9. duchess

10. marquis

11. duke

12. empress

13. emperor

14. queen

15. princess

16. king

17. earl

this is of course not a comprehensive list but just what i remember. if anyone disagrees please kindly prove you arent a vampire of a lower-ranking title first

[sneezemonster15]

I have written a little about how Sakura is written to be irrelevant throughout the narrative by Kishi, and as a result, demeaning her character through the literary tool of subversion. Here's another example of how Kishimoto makes Sakura's character redundant and very intently makes her the laughingstock of the manga. Like I have mentioned before, he gets some kind of perverse pleasure out of showing both Hinata and Sakura down and he would go a painstakingly intricate and at times, long way to do it too.

I will be publishing a longer write up about this subversion that Kishi uses for Sakura as an answer to an ask but I am writing this particular post separately because this bunch of chapters portray a series of incidents where Kishi really does it without any subtlety and is pretty in your face about it too, like you can viscerally feel his disdain towards Sakura's character just wafting over and it has made her a huge target for ridicule, it has become a ubiquitous topic for very popular jokes and memes even outside the fandom, lol.

Okay, so the chapter I am talking about is chapter 675 where Sakura has just been kamui'd out by Obito from his space time dimension to protect her from Madara's attack after she fails to stab his rinnegan eye. But she never had much determination to speak of unless it had to do with showing off to Sasuke and Naruto, mostly Sasuke. What is interesting to notice is that it also pointedly harks back to something else that she did (or didn't do lol) with her kunai which resulted in a frustrated and (greatly) annoyed audience, courtesy Kishi.

Her nervous expression, the trembling kunai just centimetres away from its target but unable to reach it, failure to do it anyway, giving an opening to her opponent that could have easily been avoided had she been a little more resolute (no one really asked her to take on Sasuke though, that was her own decision given her poor sense of judgment, fighting strategy and skills), getting attacked by the opponent and then getting rescued by someone. Mostly Naruto.

#Redundant

Anyway. She couldn't do anything, having failed to stab Obito's eye so she is transported back by Obito and she joins Kakashi and Sasuke who are waiting for Madara to return. She sees Kakashi's condition and starts to heal him. Naruto leaves his clone to hold Madara's shadow captive with his sage of six paths staff and returns to Sasuke's side, his better half of the 'main act' of the war which has already been established at this point.

So seeing Sakura healing Kakashi, he takes over from a resisting Sakura and heals him. The ONE thing that she could do and not feel redundant in the trio is taken away from her, lolol.

He not only heals him, he gives him a brand new eye, something that is beyond the reach of prevailing medical jutsu itself. How can Sakura even hope to compete with this? Lolol. Kishi, you sadistic so and so! You won't even let her catch a break.

Naruto can't explain and doesn't even understand how he did it and it took Sakura years of effort to learn medical jutsu and achieve a stage where she could even use her mitotic regeneration jutsu. Hahahahaha.

#Redundant

Okay, now then, Sasuke tells Naruto to keep his guard up while Sakura is acting like her usual pointlessly high handed self trying to condescend to Naruto who just made her presence utterly pointless, and Kakashi starts to reminisce about team seven dynamic. Kakashi, a man who has a very shallow understanding of his team members (he thinks Sakura's love has changed from what it was and that she is kind and gentle lol) and not at all about Sasuke, which he thankfully admits.

But what's funny to me is that Kishi was totally focusing on showing Sakura down, mercilessly. So Kakashi is seen reminiscing about their first day in team seven.

Sakura squealing like a typical immature fangirl crushing over an entirely disinterested and quite embarrassed boy, while having no other goal or objective. While Naruto announces his goal to surpass the current hokage, Sasuke divulges his ambition of restoring his clan's honour and killing Itachi, Sakura just blushes and squeals.

Kakashi thinks she is kind and gentle (because of course he has never seen Sakura treating Naruto, at times even a badly injured Naruto, like a punching bag and manipulating him and everyone else for her ill conceived plans), she has grown and her love for Sasuke has matured because she still cares about him even though he tried to kill her in kage arc. Oh sure, running after a boy and begging for his attention no matter what the circumstances or timing is totally what a mature woman would do, lol. Thing is, he has got blinders on when it comes to Sakura because he obviously very conveniently forgets that Sakura attacked Sasuke first, in fact, she went there with the sole intention of killing Sasuke, while not knowing the truth but suspecting something, after having orchestrated a plan that included fake confessing to Naruto (#rejected lol), drugging her team mates and armed with a puny poisoned kunai which she didn't have the presence of mind to deduce would be pointless against Sasuke who trained with Orochimaru for years, some medical ninja, lol.

Kakashi treats her with kid gloves and doesn't understand Sasuke's feelings or motivations given his own lack of perception and failure to understand the intricacies of emotions and relationships, he makes a lot of faux pas when it comes to his team seven members. Kishi knows that these are the questions any reader would ask since these elements were given such consistent visibility in the manga and such consistent characterisation to the players, he is not an idiot. So he uses indirect and subtle techniques and narrative elements, and forces the reader to ask questions and then provides the answers. How? By showing, not telling. Okay, a little telling as well.

Kishi has already established, through Kakashi's interactions with Obito, that Kakashi is definitely flawed as he writes him to admit that he tried his best but he made mistakes.

And that it can be contributed to his past, when he lost his father so cruelly along with his team mates. He also admits that giving false hope to Sakura when Sasuke is about to abandon Konoha was wrong. And what this proves is that Kakashi isn't infallible. His hypocrisy is very apparent when the core of his principle is to cherish his comrades and yet couldn't even attempt to understand Sasuke, given Sasuke's excruciatingly disturbing and scarring past. And even at the end, he expects Sasuke to behave and acts like it was all Sasuke's fault, not having understood him at all. The reason Sasuke gave up at the end was due to the revelatory experience he had with Naruto in chapter 698. Kakashi is emotionally stunted, perhaps which is why he is so good at being an ideal shinobi. A shinobi doesn't cry, doesn't emote, doesn't complain, doesn't break orders and protects his village with his life. Anyway, what becomes clear is that Kakashi's emotional perception is quite affected and far from accurate for sure.

Anyway, so Kakashi reminisces about what he perceives as the team seven dynamic after Naruto heals his eye and then reminds Sasuke of the first lesson he taught them when they were rookies. Sasuke remains meaningfully silent and only grunts. He obviously has a very low opinion of Kakashi, justifiably, as was established in kage arc and the succeeding chapters after this one emphasize it even more. Heh.

So what does 'Team Seven' decide on?

TEAMWORK.

Where was this notion of Team seven teamwork emphasized on the last time before this? Here.

Where Sakura is seen nursing her past insecurities and ramping her ego to join Naruto and Sasuke in the fight because she can't tolerate being protected by them anymore like a damsel in distress.

She thought she was a full fledged kunoichi after passing her genin exams, lol.

Anyway, so she doesn't want to gaze at the boys' back, meaning being shielded or protected by them, as they proceed to take on their opponent. And she manages to punch and make a dent while insulting her own sensei, like some badass that she definitely thinks she is, it becomes quite clear from her body language and expression.

Problem is, her feeling so good about herself (I have finally caught up to them) and acting like a badass is very disproportionate with her actual actions and contribution to the battle. Which is why it creates a dissonance in the reader's mind. As she keeps pulling the same shit over and over without changing or improving things, even after having certain realizations, she creates a negative impression of herself in the audience's mind. She doesn't evolve to be better in a manga where characters learn and grow as a rule which then contributes to the main plot, this is a coming of age story as well after all. Same with Hinata.

Btw, Hashirama saying her strength might be greater than Tsunade doesn't mean shit. Because he actually hasn't seen what his grand-daughter is capable of. Her strength is greater than Raikage, as Madara notices after fighting all the kages. Someone as strong as Naruto struggled to fight against Raikage when he tried to stop him from joining the war effort and so Bee had to intervene on his behalf. She couldn't even fight average cloud ninjas Omoi and Karui, lol. Like c'mon, they aren't even portrayed as some super strong, special ninjas, they are a hardly more than comedy fodder. But Kishi won't even let Sakura take some fodder level ninjas, lol, it's embarrassing. And what happens? Naruto comes to her rescue, as always. Heh. No way Sakura is stronger than Raikage, lol.

Why does Kishi do things like these? These obvious contradictions that he knows are very visible to anyone who pays attention? Especially with Sakura, where other characters like Kakashi, Shizune, Hashirama and Jiraiya remark positively about Sakura? To build expectations, make the reader anticipate some awesome action from Sakura, something that would actually justify these positive remarks in the narrative, building the premise of the action, escalating it, but then right at the moment of dramatic and narrative payback, 👎. He makes Sakura fail pathetically (he does the same thing with Hinata) by subverting the narrative development and tropes, by not satisfying the readers' expectations that he so painstakingly develops, by writing the most anti-climactic of actions at the end. No payback whatsoever. What does an actual payback look like? Cue Might Guy's opening all of the eight gates, when he smashes Madara's ribs in as he breaks his own bones in the process. Cue Tsunade grunting like a warrior goddess as she thrashes Madara's clone beyond recognition. Even Sakura when she punches the ground real hard and takes out little juubi soldiers.

He sadistically wastes all that effort that builds up the anticipation.

And what does doing that achieve? Simple. It makes the reader get really annoyed/dissatisfied with the character. And they feel compelled to berate or ridicule her character. And why won't they? They invested in the character and his/her actions in the narrative for a grand payback, watching multiple episodes or reading multiple chapters carefully, and when they don't get it, they would naturally be frustrated. Kishi consistently pulls this shit over and over again with Sakura and Hinata. And why would he go to such lengths to do shit like this? Well, it's not because he wants to make these ladies look credible or worthy. Heheh.

This is exactly why fans who don't see everything through rose coloured glasses, shipping lenses or have a good taste and a good understanding of characters and the human condition, and actually pay attention to what they are watching or reading, are so annoyed by these characters. Notice I am not saying disgusted or hateful (although some of y'all are) but mostly really annoyed and frustrated. Sakura and Hinata, more than anything else (although they are all those things too, like distasteful, boring and cringey lol), are simply annoying. Because of the reason I explained above.

Kishi is fucking relentless about it too. After this sense that he gives the reader of team seven dynamic, he pulls this shit here. No Sakura, no team. Just Naruto and Sasuke being the main act.

After which, we see Naruto and Sasuke fighting together or separately, but not with the team. But after they are given the sage of six paths power by Hagoromo, they fight together, well in sync with each other. Like they are meant to be. Sasuke bosses Naruto around, like usual, Naruto complains nostalgically but you can see he is totally enjoying it to the hilt. And both of them get shit done. Naruto stops Madara's shadow successfully as Sasuke skillfully slashes Madara's physical body in half. But before he can react further, Madara flies to Kakashi, steals his sharingan and just shoves it in his socket, because it really is that simple lol, enters Obito's space time dimension and attacks Sakura. Now Sakura has no idea about Madara's powers, not having fought him at all directly, and definitely not having fought with the juubi jinchuuriki Madara. So where on the one hand, you see Sasuke and Naruto thoughtfully device strategies to fight Madara, Sakura actually is totally clueless. But Kakashi reminds them of 'teamwork'.

So then Madara finally appears and then this happens.

Hahahahaha. Teamwork? What teamwork?Sakura doesn't even know what Madara's strengths or weaknesses are. And just as expected, he stabs her in the chest and stops her punch with his Limbo jutsu. Payback? What payback? Readers who sympathized with Sakura? Disappointed. Readers who wanted returns on their investment, disappointed. But people who understood what she was really like? Vindication. Lol.

She did the same thing here that Hinata does in Pein arc, when she charges at Pein without putting any thought into it. Hinata did it to attract Naruto's attention. And why did Sakura do it?

And what happened in both cases? Long build up resulting in them getting struck with a single hit and then being rescued by someone else. Naruto doesn't even acknowledge Hinata and Sakura droops because Sasuke ain't paying attention to her. So much for team work. Lol.

But what impression does it give to the reader?

1) Sakura's love for Sasuke didn't really evolve did it? It's the same when in part one, she climbs the tree by gathering chakra in her feet to impress Sasuke but Sasuke doesn't pay attention to her and she slumps, highly disappointed. Same as here.

2) She makes it look like she is creating an opening by using a diversionary tactic, but it's quite obvious she is really scared, but is still trying to show off to Naruto and Sasuke because she doesn't wanna stay behind, gazing at their backs again. So she attacks Madara blindly. Her desire to show off and strut around trumps her desire to actually defeat Madara. What a shinobi, lol. This is a freaking war, and she is fighting against a super strong villain who is bent on destroying their world as they know it, but she is more concerned with nursing her own shortcomings. Self centred, yes. And definitely not a badass. Just ass. Hehe.

After getting rescued by Naruto yet again, she wallows in sadness when Sasuke doesn't even glance at her but immediately calls for Naruto, who btw totally gets what he is indicating at without needing to say it out loud. Yay, team seven. Lol. So while Sasuke and Naruto get into form and fight Madara, what does Sakura do?

Precisely nothing. Just sitting there in awe of Sasuke and Naruto. Spellbound at Madara's jutsu and power, that she didn't know zilch about. Kakashi is pretty pointless here as well, but he wasn't the one who just proclaimed they remembered the teamwork lesson and jumped in a fight without any plan. At least, he had the presence of mind to stop Sakura from joining in the fight when Naruto and Sasuke charge at Madara and she again finds herself watching their backs, as he tells her to not do it unless she has a plan. And she does stop, lol. She doesn't have the power or strategy, just ego. All she wants is to impress Sasuke and show off to Naruto and others, who cares there's a war going on? Lol.

3) It becomes pretty clear who the real team is here. And Sakura is very pointedly missing from it. And it stays that way till the end, staying true to the real team seven dynamic. The Main Act.

So after hyping up the team work element, Kishi discards Sakura's inclusion with a ruthless but consistently written treatment and makes her...?

Redundant.

She couldn't heal Kakashi, she couldn't punch Madara. And she didn't mature, like Kakashi believed. Still pretty useless. Lol.

I am aware that her stans only read the most surface level. How else would they justify something they invest so much in? But unfortunately, it's a fact and not a matter of opinion that Kishi never intended to portray her positively and he certainly puts a hell lot of effort to do so in a clever manner. It's not a coincidence that she (along with Hinata) is such a hated character. It's because she has been portrayed that way. Storytelling and visual language are intuitive by nature. All I am doing here is decoding them. I am writing here what you already know. I am just explaining the how of it. Excuse the digressions lol.

[jeffgerstmann]

You think AEW is in its death throes?

Most of their top people are either hurt or driven off, attendance is down, and Tony Khan is awful at both booking and business with no sign of ever improving at either. Not to mention he's a laughingstock whenever he goes on one of his Twitter tirades.

I mostly wonder if his ego or self-awareness will let him bow out and put other people in charge of the company. Would he be willing to just be the money guy and sit in the back smoking pot with the wrestlers or keep at it until his dad cuts him off or whatever and the whole thing shuts down?

It's kind of crazy that the "wrestling boom" is ending up with AEW, New Japan, and Stardom all imploding while WWE and TNA of all things have more momentum than ever.

This seems like a fake question, do people actually think this? Seems like an impossible point of view to actually have but I've been reading completely bizarre takes on Xbox stuff for a bit today so I can't really tell what's real and what isn't anymore. AEW seems fine. Collision, I think, has surpassed Dynamite as my favorite wrestling show of the week.

[hitlikehammers]

PART ONE: Fail-Pirate!Eddie/Castaway!Steve (Pirate AU)

🌊Under the Water (Our Hearts Will Dream Again)🌊

Chapter One: Man Overboard

You’ve gotta understand: the truth about Eddie?

He’s shit as a pirate. Like: an absolute disgrace. Of all the bad names associated with the trade, if trade is what it can be called?

He might just give it the worst.

So, y’know. That’s nice.

Like, he knows his knots, he is excellent with his hands thank you kindly, and he ties those motherfuckers like a pro, too! So what if he just sometimes confuses his hitch for his stopper, they’re both knots, they both do the job of knotting.

(Mostly. They only lost a boat the one time.)

(As in lost-lost, not the ones that were retrieved in time but landed Eddie on scut anyway.)

Which doesn’t touch on his absolutely abysmal record at the looting end of things. He doesn’t mind taking from the well-off, but he does mind adding it to the ship’s take every time they make land; he maybe lies about how bad he is at the stealing, the all-important plundering of the job, because he ends up finding the people outside the center of town at every port, the ones who line the edges and he drops what he takes with the ones who need it there, where they can’t escape on the water, can’t live in motion on the whims of the waves and find their needs in the flux of a life unanchored.

So he’s not the worst thief, for the right victim. But his spoils never make it back to the ship so: it probably makes him pretty shit at the job to hand, in the end, either way. Add a mark to the tally.

And then, gods: don’t get him started on the taking of…other things. Who aren’t things, they’re fucking people and they deserve respect not…what the other people sailing under his colors seem to believe them useful for instead.

Eddie’s been sick over the edge of the stern, hidden by shadow even if it’s unnecessary because fuck, the rest of the crew is full-occupied with their plundering, and that’s the reason he spews over in the sea, the waves always feeling a little extra angry for his pollution of their waters and that’s fitting. It’s fitting that he’s defiling something sacred with the weakness of his stomach—but not his soul, not his morals or his sense of humanity, fuck’s sake, so: at least there’s that.

He guesses.

Admittedly, though: Eddie doesn’t care so much that he’s a shitty fucking pirate. It’s not piracy that led him here, that charted this course for his life.

It’s the Ocean.

Which, sure, that may strike either cliche or obvious, too soft and poetic or else just downright pointless to underscore because he made a conscious choice to live at Sea, especially given the laundry list of reasons he’s absolutely abysmal at the life-on-the-water thing. But it is the truth. The best and biggest truth he’s ever known, rooted deep enough to fuel his steps and guide his path to here, right here, being exceptionally bad at luring fucking fish in a tiny little dinghy that the crew who hates him decided was perfectly fitting for the anticipated catch and okay, fine, if you were going to base expectations off of prior performance then maybe, and also, also maybe being here, ending up precisely right here—laughingstock of his profession, maligned by his crew, foisted upon barely-a-boat to catch barely-a-fish because y’know what, he’d have become a goddamn fisherman in the fucking first place if he was any good at that—but maybe right here, like this would look like failure to anyone else, to everyoneelse but, y’see—

Eddie Munson was a boy, once.

And he remembers, crystal clear, from the touch of his mother’s hand on his shoulder to the smooth slide of the menacing-but-magical looking shell, with its pointy end for tiny hands to grasp and hold to, and it’s big spiky cone of a head to hold to his own, up against his ear as his mother guided his elbow up and whispered just listen, you’ll hear the ocean tell you its secrets—and he loved the ocean, loved the feeling of the soft foam of the tide on the hidden sands far from the harbor, loved the little creatures that scuttled in and out of the water when the waves crept up, loved the hint of a big fin, maybe real or maybe just imagined something that big, that dangerous, that beautiful breaching the horizon: Eddie wanted to know all the ocean’s secrets.

And when he’d held the shell of his ear, he’d heard them: whispered close and roared fierce alike and he’d felt weightless, giddy; just just floating.

Magic, like the shell in his hands.

And it didn’t matter when his father found him years later, stumbling drunk from the tavern where he spent money they couldn’t afford, finding Eddie with the conch pressed tight to his ear, almost too small now as he’d grown but still desperate for the secrets, the sound of the waves that seemed to reach out and know when they needed to break louder, faster to drown our the shouting, to wash over the way his father had hauled him up and thrown the shell to break a window and sneered your idiot secrets, boy, there’s no ocean in that fucking shell, s’the echo of your own coward heart that you hide in, there, stupid fucking—

It didn’t matter. It didn’t matter, not because Eddie got knocked to the floor much like his shell, after; not because it made a kind of sense, because if the secrets of the ocean were the mirror of his heartbeat then of course they were faster and louder when his father came home drunk, sometimes he chest got sore over how his heart raced on those nights; and not because when he finally gets his feet back under him, when his father’s wood-sawing snores signal the coast is clear and he can creep out and search in the dark for his shell and find it, cracked from the spin of the handle-like bit so he just has to cradle the wide bell careful in his palm and ignore the slice of the spires into his skin, ignore it for the sake of finding, finding—

The waves. The secrets. His own heartbeat like the thunder in a storm and it doesn’t matter because if that sound is his own heart, then, then it’s like the ocean’s secrets are in his own chest, a little.

Like if the ocean had a heartbeat, there’s something of it pressed inside his own.

And for all that his father tried to whip that wonder away from him, straight out of his hands? That reality is somehow more magical. And Eddie’s been drawn to the pulsebeat of the sea—devoted, even, almost like a lovesick longing—ever since, so.

Failing at pirating, including the fishing part? Isn’t a failure.

Because he’s on the Sea. And that’s all he’s ever really wanted.

It’d help his pride if he got like, one fucking fish, though. Even a tiny one. Though they’d probably mock him worse for a minnow than for nothing so: small mercies, maybe, that he’s pulling up untouched bait.

Still he sighs, and takes a moment, rakes his gaze over the setting sun on the water—they’re far enough out now that there’s no sight of land, just the ripples nearby that smooth into pure water stretching aft and aft further out and Eddie doesn’t have a shell but if he presses his hand to his chest and over his ear at once it’s almost, almost—

He both hears and feels his pulse jump, like the secret is a warning, and he believesthat’s it’s both because it’s the only explanation for the way he turns, at that precise moment that the water moves uncannily agitated, and lifts up something weighty, a heavy shadow, and—

“Man overboard!” Eddie’s voice cracks as his hands reach for the oars and he rows before he thinks because the Ocean told him to look—and maybe it’s childish, and foolhardy, and a silly winsome fantasy he should have left behind ashore long again but…

He can’t tell if the man—because it’s a man, indeed, he can tell now that the water has calmed, and how else to explain its sudden surge to command Eddie’s attention, to call him in close and then ease the way to the waterlogged body—but Eddie can’t tell if the body moves at all save at the water’s own whim, can’t see yet if the flesh is too pale or worse, too blue, and—

“Man overboard!” he cries out with feeling, now; he’s far from the ship but not so much that no one will hear screaming if not yet discern the words and he just needs them to know, needs them to be ready, especially if it’s somehow one of their own and he just repeats it, too of his lungs, shrieks it to the sky as he reaches the man’s form, facedown in the water, and that alone seizes in Eddie’s chest—why tell him a secret if it’s only a heartbreaking one, yet he cannot, will not be picky, he will never reject the confidences of the Ocean no matter how it chooses to disclose its mysteries, even its tragedies; he curses his crewmates for the pitiful size of his little vessel, a joke upon his lacking hauls but now he has need for size and sturdiness as he reaches for the body—broad and leant further mass by the water itself and far more precious than a hundred fish for feeding and for trading, this is a life and he strains to balance the boat and heave the man aboard so not to capsize them both and leave the circumstances worse for his help—

“Man,” he manages to screech before he tumbles back, but with the man in his arms to drag along into the dinghy and he knocks his own breath a little for the fall but the man’s here, and they’re upright, and Eddie scrambles on his knees toward his new charge and he—

Should not have wasted time trying to steady his lungs, really, because this man, on his boat, dragged from the waters, he, he is—

He’s absolutely breathtaking.

Eddie gapes at him, at the play of the sunset on his soaked hair, his skin—pale, but not blue, not dead yet—he is stunning even like this, what unimaginable beauty must be possess when he’s not—

Oh hells, yes, right; he—

Eddie probably needs to fucking check if the breathtaking man is breathing, before he contributes to losing something at sea far more precious than an improperly-knotted boat.

>>>CHAPTER TWO

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[the-bar-sinister]

Star Cross (3016 words) by thesavagesabretooth

Additional Tags: The Cross Guild (One Piece), Backstory, Nostalgia, Getting Back Together, Fluff and Angst, Missing Scene, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence Summary: In years gone by, Dracule Mihawk was once the right arm and swordsman of the terrifying Captain Crocodile. Their relationship lay dormant for more than a decade while the two of them were biding their time as pawns of the World Government. Now, with the warlord system dissolving before their eyes it's time to 'get the band back together', reunite, and recapture what made being together so amazing.

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Mihawk so rarely got a chirp on his transponder. There were precious few people who had the means to contact it.

As the psychic snail shook and chirped for his attention, he lowered his glass of wine to stare at it for a moment of hesitation. The World Government…the former warlords of the sea…and the young swordsman and the Ghost Princess.

Those were the only people in the world who had access to his private number. He prided himself on solitude, after all.

As it chirped and chirped in his hesitation, he abruptly silenced it by grabbing the receiver and answering. “Speak.” 

"Mihawk." It was Crocodile's voice. Thick and curt in its greeting, with an undertone of an emotion he couldn't quite yet place. "Have you seen the news yet?"

There was always news. There was lots of news.

“I still do get the news coo out here, Crocodile.” Mihawk folded his arm against the cross that lay draped over his chest. His sharp eyes lidded as he stared out the window. “I’m assuming you mean the mess in Dressrosa…where the Straw Hats lead to the ridiculous flamingo’s downfall?”

"Yeah, that's the news I mean alright, Hawk," he grumbled. "Glad we're already on the same page in that case."

Mihawk identified the tone in his voice. Part of it, anyway. It was anxiety. He'd long known whenever Crocodile was particularly anxious his normally loquacious speech got clipped down to sentence fragments.

Mihawk leaned near the window watching the mist as it swirled outside the castle he’d long since stolen…curling like fingers over the sea. There were many times, once upon a time under the endless stars, that she heard Crocodile’s voice take on that quality.

Times when trouble caught up to them, mostly. Or the time just before the moment that shattered both men forever.

“Of course…it was rather surprising, wasn’t it?” 

"Sure was. Almost as surprising as the first time the government threw one of the warlords in prison, eh?"

Two years ago. Crocodile meant himself, of course. When they'd thrown him into Impel Down after the same category 10 disaster that had just hit Dressrosa had hit Alabasta.

Mihawk tutted his tongue. 

“It was a surprise then as it is now. “ He’d thought about visiting Crocodile in Impel Down– carving his way through the laughingstock they called a guard unit and grabbing his former captain…his former partner…from the depths of the government’s darkest secret.

The news of Crocodile’s escape hit his desk almost before he could rig his ship.

“Though I fear a lot more will be joining him soon enough.” 

"Funny, that was exactly what was on my mind. I was thinking maybe you didn't want to wait for the third time to be the charm."

This was peak Crocodile behavior. He was winding Mihawk up. Dancing around an idea he was already dead set on proposing, but leading Mihawk to it, rather than just spitting it out.

“You know me…though admittedly if they dissolve the system entirely, I almost look forward to the fight of it.” Mihawk drawled, unrattled as usual by Croc’s particularities. Once upon a time he played the perfect straight man to Crocodile’s theatrics. 

"Well, if you wanna keep waiting around, I won't stop you. But I was cooking up an idea. Haven't had one of those in a while, eh?"

Once upon a time, Crocodile had lots of 'ideas'. Sometimes, they'd led to something profitable. Often to something fun. Always to trouble.

It had been more than a decade since Crocodile had come to Mihawk with an idea.

His heart skipped a beat, but he urged it to calm. It was far too wounded to get caught up in such excitement now…so instead he placed his hand on the window. “You know most of the time you came up with an idea it wound up costing us. A ship. Precious time. Dignity.” 

Crocodile huffed softly– a self-effacing laugh. "Might cost us more than that, this time. But it's not anything we wouldn't lose anyway. I don't want to talk about it too much over the transponder."

Crocodile had always hated them on principle. No way to know if someone was listening in. He only used them when the message was inconsequential, or he felt like he had no other choice.

Mihawk closed his sharp eyes for a moment. “Where shall we meet? I’ve sent my…” he wouldn’t call Perona a guest at this point…but.. “Companion…off for the moment. There’s no harm in me leaving the island for a time.” 

"Meet me just short of paradise, Hawk. We'll get this idea cooking when you get there."

'Just short of paradise'-- another nostalgic turn of phrase. It was what they'd called one of the small islands in the new world just past Fish-man island– the one they'd used more than once to regroup and gather strength.

“Hah…” Mihawk was glad Crocodile couldn’t see the sharp smile that inched across his face. “but of course. I’ll meet you there, Crocodile. Try not to get lost without me.” 

"Try not to get distracted on the way over." Crocodile couldn't see his smile– but maybe he could hear it, the same way Mihawk could hear his grin. "I'll be waiting."

Crocodile didn't say 'it'll be just like old times' before he closed the signal. But the smell of the phrase hung heavy in the air like the old captain's cigar smoke.

Mihawk waited until the line was well and truly dead to laugh, dropping the transponder snail’s receiver back onto the hook as he pressed his hand to his face with a ferocious smile.

“My captain’s back at it again, is he?” He mused as his fingers dragged down the front of his face. “...I wonder what finally lit that faded spark back to life.”

Grabbing his coat from the rack by the door he threw it over his shoulders with a last glance at the gloom out the window. “I suppose I’ll see for myself soon enough. For old times sake, Captain Crocodile.” 

-

There were no marine ships visible in the harbor of Mystoria Island when Mihawk sailed into view of it, which was a good sign. There were no ships he recognized either, but that wasn't a surprise. Crocodile hadn't sailed in more than a decade– whatever ship he was sailing now wouldn't be the one that had made their last voyage.

That great ship had long been sunk. Sunk so deep it dragged Crocodile’s love of the sail down with it. It was little surprise it drove him to the safety of land in the same way it drove Mihawk to sail upon the sea in a simple ship of his own.

The small, coffin shaped ship drifted to the docks as he snapped his book shut and folded the sails.

HIs eyes scanned the shoreline, his keen vision still as sharp as ever as he looked for any sign of hidden danger or his former captain.

“I wonder if he’s been feeling nostalgic.” he drawled under his breath. 

Few could have blamed Crocodile for being nostalgic here, if he was. The shoreline was much the same as it had been the last time either of them had set foot on the island, nearly 20 years prior. The rambling, scatter-shot shipyards, and the harbor bars, leading up through the town with its mismatched architecture styles.

Mystoria was one of the first three islands after crossing into the New World, and it was the lawless providence of mercenaries and pirates. An autumn-locked island it was cast forever in a gloomy haze that softened rough edges as much as it hid lurking danger.

Just short of paradise, indeed.

Mihawk adjusted the strap on Yoru and flung it over his back with a pensive hum.The nostalgia clawed its way inside his chest as he walked down the creaking old plank towards the ramshackle town.

Mystoria was a hive of backstabbing pirates and crooked mercenaries– but they were infinitely more trustworthy than the damned navy, down to every last man on the island.

The sense memory played in his mind as he strode past the weathered old signs. Back when he was a younger man, the hawk-eyed marine hunter, he’d walked through this town with the swagger that came from a life that had yet to have the dreams beaten out of it.

He smiled thinly at the memory of the blood splashing his cheek as he struck down some no-name coward who’d tried to get a drop on the recently increased bounties on Crocodile and Mihawk’s heads. 

Many of the buildings that had been there when he was there last were gone or changed– but just as many of them remained. And one that did remain as he swaggered through the streets was the Ogre's Head. The pub was a favorite meeting place for pirate crews– and had been Crocodile's preferred meeting spot many years ago.

The titular 'head' was a faded wooden sign, but it was a point of local lore and pride that the original had once been an actual head, possibly that of a giant.

Mihawk chuckled once more to himself, pausing outside the pub with a wry edge to his smile. “I wonder if the old fool still runs the place.” He murmured as he pushed the door open to step inside.

As always the smell of the place hit him before the sight of it– dim and firelit. It smelled of charred grease and spilled beer and rum, of sweat and sea salt and bootblack, and a hint of gunpowder. The hall– its proprietor would never call it a 'dining room'-- was full of scattered rough hewn wooden chairs that could be replaced as needed, and stone and iron tables that couldn't be idly destroyed.

It was less crowded than Mihawk remembered it– but maybe that was because of just who was in it. The chatter between the scattered colorfully dressed and idiosyncratic patrons sitting around the tables mostly stopped when he walked in, as all eyes were on him. There were only two men at the bar, and both of them were Mihawk's fellow former warlords of the sea.

As Mihawk entered, Crocodile and Doflamingo both turned around from where they were drinking. Doflamingo– hunched in his enormous feather coat– stood and gave Mihawk a carefree salute, gesturing to the rest of the 'patrons' who all stood and made their way toward the stairs to the pub's back area.

The meaning of it was clear– not a threat, but giving him and his old captain space.

Crocodile was the only man left at the bar as he grinned, and raised his mug.

"I see you made it, Hawk."

“And I see it’s quite the grand reunion, Croc.” Mihawk glanced towards the retreating patrons and the flamboyant Doflamingo.

He walked over, and dropped onto one of the rough stools beside him. He turned, framed by the guard of his legendary sword as he leaned on one elbow with the trace of a smile. “You know, this takes me back.” 

"Didn't seem right to start anywhere else," Crocodile grinned. He waved at the man behind the bar– far older and greyer than Mihawk remembered him, but still the same old man– and Mihawk was furnished with a drink. "Besides, this is where I knew you'd be able to find me without me saying."

Mihawk chuckled. “Yes…there’s no way I’d ever forget our time just short of paradise, Captain.”

Once he’d stood as the sword to Crocodile’s ambitions. Before they were warlords, they were a captain and his ferocious blade– but time and grief had whittled them each down into the shape the World Government had expected of them, to a point.

It was easy to remember the old days of the Marine Hunter and the ferocious Captain Crocodile here in this pub of memories. He raised the drink to his lips “if I remember, the last time we were here together, your nonsense set fire to the western district.” 

Crocodile chuckled along with him, and slipped his hooked arm around Mihawk's shoulders "My nonsense, he says. As if you weren't right there with me trying to burn the louse out of his hidey-hole."

“I always had a problem being drawn into your nonsense.” Mihawk snorted softly, letting himself lean lightly against Crocodile– something he hadn’t done in all the years they were Warlords. It was a sign to the World Government…a dangerous sign of one Warlord with some presumed power over the other. It was a physical intimacy he hadn’t allowed himself again until very recently. “And we did flush him out in the end.”

"Damn right we did," Crocodile laughed. He leaned closer to him. He'd always respected Mihawk's aloof refusal to show intimacy where it could be seen by the world government– but it was clear that was done and over with. "And now here you are getting drawn into my nonsense again, eh?"

Mihawk’s arm reached out to wind his fingers through the scruff of Crocodile’s thick coat, meeting his gaze with his own sharp eyes. 

“It seems. Like that whole mess with Roger’s golden coins…given the flamingo’s here too.” He chuckled, low and rumbling under his breath “and I still have no idea what asinine plan you’ve got up your sleeve this time.” 

"Had to break the bastard out of marine custody– I'm damned if I'm gonna let him out of my sight after I went to the trouble." Crocodile shook his head. He pressed his cheek to Mihawk's and murmured. "As for my new asinine plan– you ready to hear it?"

“I”ll suffer his foolishness then. For you.” he mused with wry humor “...but I’ve been absolutely dying with curiosity , Crocodile. Especially after you neglected to include me in that little Utopia plan of yours.” 

"Neglected to include you," he clucked. "When I told you I thought we needed an impregnable home base you told me to come to that miserable rainy island of yours. But hey, I'm giving you a second chance."

 Mihawk sipped his wine.

“Kuraigana Island is beautifully defensible, Croc. It would have been far less lonely if you’d been there.” He leaned on his hand with a soft snort and a smile. “...you’re giving your old swordsman a second chance, hm? Another shot at your ‘utopia’?” 

"Something like that, yeah," Crocodile nodded, still holding him close. "But I'll admit, I learned a valuable lesson when I got my ass handed to me two years ago."

“Not to make an enemy of a punch-happy princess?” Mihawk asked as his fingers brushed through the coat’s ‘fur’ before looping below to press against his back. 

He laughed roughly. "Not exactly. Hell– that princess? We're friends now, you believe that Hawk? … friends."

Crocodile leaned into Mihawk's touch, and there was something vulnerable on his proud face.

Mihawk felt his expression soften as his fingers trailed against Crocodile’s back. 

“I wouldn’t have expected that, Croc, not at all. Hah, I’ll have to ask what changed.” He closed his eyes “though, I’ve made unexpected bonds, myself.” 

"That kid you were training?" Crocodile grinned. "Funny, him and the princess are on the same ship right now, unless something's gone sideways."

“That’s right.” Mihawk chuckled. “and Moria’s ‘Ghost Princess’, who I only just managed to convince to step out of harm's way.”

He leaned over, his hat bending to accommodate as he rested his cheek against Croc’s shoulder. 

“It’s funny how fate conspires to give us a connection to the straw hats, hmm?” He chuckled softly “I’m pleased you patched things up…lesson learned, hm?”

"Lesson learned," he nodded. "That's why instead of looking for a super weapon, I'm going to build an army. An alliance. And we're gonna go after the navy, instead of waiting around for them to go after us. Sound like your kind of party?"

Mihawk’s sharp, hawk-like eyes focused in on Crocodile’s face as a vicious smile crawled over his lips. 

“...my , Captain…no more waiting around and biding our time? No more cheap tricks?” He looped his arm around him to draw him closer “an all out war against the hated marines, making our stand like men? It sounds like my kind of party indeed.” 

Crocodile put his hand to Mihawk's cheek, rubbing his thumb over the edge of his beard. "You were the first one I thought of when I decided. No more hedging my bets, Hawk, no more playing it safe. I'm ready to gamble– win or lose."

Mihawk’s eyes lidded, as he relished the long forgone intimacy they shared in the unchanged pub of their memories. His fingers traced down his back in thoughtful loops. 

“If you’re ready to gamble it all, Crocodile…I shall gamble it all right beside you.” He smiled sharply “besides, I haven’t had a good battle in ages. Not since that mess in Marineford and my protege…if we’re going all in, I’ll wade into hell beside you. Just like the old days.” 

"Just like the old days." Crocodile smiled a sad, nostalgic smile as he leaned his face in close, lit by the firelight. "Sorry it took so long."

“I’ll forgive you for it, Croc,” the swordsman hummed as he looked him deep in the eyes, noses nearly touching “as we make up for wasted time.” 

"Cheers to that, Hawk." 

Crocodile pulled him the rest of the way to his chest, and kissed him soundly on the mouth, not waiting for any further urging.

Mihawk’s lips met Crocodile’s, the taste of wine mingling between them as he leaned bodily into him with a quietly satisfied murmur.

It’d been a long time since they’d traveled together– a long time since the two of them had allowed themselves to be close to anyone, much less one another. His arm tightened around him as he deepened the kiss with a tingle of excitement in his long-cooled heart. It seemed once more they’d be facing the world at one another’s backs. 

[impossiblyatomictiger-blog]

I agree with this post on Reddit: “

For context, my immediate family has a private blog we use for fun updates on our lives. Today’s SC ruling spurred me to action and I posted this- I thought others might find it helpful when talking to religious and/or conservative family members. My family is mostly believing Mormon and Republican/reluctant Trump voters. It gets more Project 2025 specific about halfway through.

I’ve hesitated to write this for a very long time. I didn’t want to inject politics into what is supposed to be fun updates about the family. I didn’t want to offend parents or siblings whom I love and care for deeply but who disagree with my positions or opinions, as is their right.

But I can’t be quiet anymore on this. My conscience won’t let me. When all is said and done, I want to be able to, at the end of my life, say I tried everything that was within my power to prevent the destruction of my country and its people. So here goes.

Please recognize this in the spirit it was written. I’m not trying to offend, hurt, or wound. But I do need to be clear, because the stakes are monumental. If I come across as undiplomatic or histrionic, I apologize for the tone but not the underlying message.

In Germany in the early thirties we had some distant relatives who were upset with the failings of the German government. The economy sucked, inflation was rampant, and armed leftist gangs roamed the streets. They didn’t like what the mustachioed man was saying, they thought he was over the top, but they also thought that he made some sense about the importance of Germany rising again, of being respected on the world stage and stopping the subversives in their own country who were hurting and holding the people back. They and others thought that there would be responsible people like Hindenburg and Von Papen who would rein in the worst of this guy’s tendencies, and direct the energy of him and his supporters to only the good stuff. What do we call these people, reluctant supporters of Adolf Hitler?

We call them Nazis.

We do not remember or care about their reservations. We aren’t interested in their feeble protests that this isn’t what they meant to happen, that the Socialists scared them or Germany was seen as a laughingstock. We don’t care that near the end of the war, as Hitler was throwing fourteen year olds in front of Soviet tank treads, some of them protested. They were Nazis. They were complicit. They voted for a Nazi.

No one outside of Hitler’s inner circle knew what he was going to unleash, at least not fully. The people who voted for him can rightly say they had no idea where this would lead, that they thought the system would stop the excesses of the Nazi movement. They didn’t have the benefit we do of history, to see what Hitler was from the very beginning. No one in their own story thinks they are the bad guy, no one thinks they are doing something evil. But they voted him into the chancellorship and it cost them everything, and plunged Europe into destruction and horror and holocaust, and then consigned half of it to Soviet tyranny.

You know where I am going with this. You might think I am being ridiculous or hysterical. But someone in 1932 screaming that a vote for Hitler was a vote for death camps, the gestapo, mass murder, and destruction on a level never before seen in human history would have been similarly dismissed. Except he wouldn’t have been hysterical or exaggerating. He would be correct in every respect.

I was told as a child decency in public life mattered. We should only elect moral people. Bill Clinton was pilloried and denounced by my friends and family for cheating on his wife and lying about it. He was unworthy of the office of the Presidency. Those same people then excused the behavior of a thrice married adulterer who was caught on tape admitting to and joking about sexual assault. They voted for a man who oppressed the hireling in his wages, paid for abortions and mocked disabled people and women.

If I may be blunt, many people I know surrendered their religious convictions on the altar of political power. The fact he was a Republican mattered more than the fact he was the exact opposite of what their Savior and Redeemer was. Power mattered more than Christianity.

I told friends and family in 2016 that Trump would try to stay in office even if he lost, that he would commit acts of illegality and criminality without regard to ethics, morals or the law. I was told I was being hysterical, that experts around him would prevent it.

Over the next four years that wicked man enriched himself by abusing his office. That wicked man broke the law to punish the nation of Ukraine by withholding congressionally ordered aid from being delivered unless they announced on live TV they were prosecuting Hunter Biden. He even admitted he did exactly that. That wicked man banned religious minorities from entering the country – something that happened to our ancestors. That wicked man separated families at the border and placed children – CHILDREN – in cages, and did so deliberately, admitting it was happening as a way to “discourage” future immigration. Some of those families were broken permanently – the children were never reunited with their parents. That wicked man repeatedly attempted to use deadly force on peaceful protestors. He gave security clearances to his son in law who was ineligible, a son in law who received massive kickbacks from the Saudi government. That wicked man supported the Saudis in a campaign of famine in Yemen that killed millions. This wicked man sicced military police against his own citizens so he could walk across the street and wave the Bible upside down and backwards as a bloody shirt. This wicked man so catastrophically mismanaged a pandemic that over a million Americans died, we stored corpses in freezers and states were left on their own to find ventilators. “Stop the testing” he thundered, and continued to hold rallies that killed his own supporters.

Finally, and unforgivably: This evil man lost a free and fair election, and attempted to remain in office. This wasn’t just hyperbole, he wasn’t just speaking. He was meeting with lunatics and loons in the Oval Office. Orders to declare martial law were drafted.

Do you know why our democracy survived? It wasn’t because Trump didn’t try or suddenly had a change of heart. Three people refused to follow his unlawful orders to seize voting machines, deploy the military to shoot protestors, and overturn the certification in Congress. Three people. One at the Department of Justice who threatened to resign, one in the Defense Department who organized a shadow military government to prevent Trump’s orders from going through, and the Vice President of the United States.

We were three spines away from losing our constitutional system, a system friends and family claim is divinely inspired and worth fighting for.

When those three refused, Trump sicced a mob on the Capitol, where raving bands of terrorists came within feet of a Vice President and Speaker they were trying to kill. The man tried to get his own Vice President killed.

This isn’t hyperbole. We all saw it on live TV. I’m not making this up. These facts were discovered by a bipartisan congressional investigation and by a prosecutor in the DOJ after the fact.

I’m not even touching the classified documents case, the fact that 44 members of his Cabinet have stated he is unfit for future office, “very fine people” in a crowd full of Nazis, or illegal payments to a porn star here.

So what about now? What about this election? We survived one term, we can survive another, right?

In his first term there were people around him who prevented catastrophe. There were “regular” Republicans like Pence, Nikki Haley, and Generals Milley and Kelly who managed to hold off the flying monkeys. Not completely, as I pointed out, but the system held; just barely.

There are no adults in Trump’s campaign. There are no “regular” Republicans anymore, because Trump will not stomach someone telling him “no” this time. He is surrounded by sycophants and true believers, many of them convicted criminals.

Trump is going to implement something called Project 2025. It was dreamed up by think tanks and was endorsed by his campaign and Trump personally. Among other things, it will, on January 20, 2025, involve the mass firings of federal bureaucrats who have ALREADY BEEN IDENTIFIED by the campaign as people that will resist illegal orders. They have ALREADY selected replacements who will rubber stamp whatever Trump says. Independent organizations will lose their independence, including the FTC, FCC, SEC and others. Trump has stated repeatedly he will revoke the licenses for “liberal” outlets like CNN, MSNBC, and others. Under this plan he can do it and the underlings will not resist.

It also involves the FDA immediately banning all forms of birth control. Pregnancy will be carried to term even if the mother dies. It’s already happening in red states like Idaho!

Public expressions of gay or trans behavior will be reclassified as pornographic – and pornography will be outlawed. THIS IS NOT A HYPOTHETICAL DISCUSSION FOR ME. THERE IS A TARGET ON MY BACK.

Detention camps will be set up and mass roundups of anyone suspected of being illegal will occur – without due process. Forgive me, but imagine that [half hispanic relative] is picking up her kids from school and ICE does a raid. She “looks” Hispanic, as do her kids. Into the van she goes, and she is unable to prove her citizenship because THERE IS NO DUE PROCESS.

If liberal states resist, the Insurrection Act will be invoked and the National Guard will be federalized. American soldiers, reporting to Generals handpicked by Trump for loyalty to him, not to the law, will be allowed to roam free in liberal cities, opening fire on “seditious” protesters and replacing local police departments.

I am not making this up. This isn’t some wild-eyed fantasy by a liberal who watches too much CNN. They are saying they will do this out in the open. It’s on Trump’s website, he has talked about it, it’s in the social media posts of his campaign and his staffers, it’s being refined and added on by his think tanks. There are dozens of more points I haven’t even touched about Project 2025.

Who will stop him? The courts? They quite literally this morning said he couldn’t be prosecuted for official acts – one of the official acts cited by the Chief Justice was meeting with the DOJ and ordering them to carry out illegal orders. If Trump says it’s an official act, he can’t be held accountable for it.

Congress? The Senate failed to convict him two weeks after he tried to have them murdered.

The people? He lost the popular vote in 2016 and still won.

Prosecutors? They just got their cases gutted by a 6-3 Supreme Court.

Please, listen to me. I am your son, your brother. I am not a wild eyed loon shouting about fluoride in the water or contrails in the sky. I am telling you plainly (and perhaps rudely) that my existence and the existence of other people you love is at stake here. You have family members who are discussing plans with each other for self defense, for ways to protect themselves from the horror that may descend this winter. You have family members discussing the possibility of fleeing the country.

Do you want your granddaughters, your nieces, to grow up in a world where they cannot divorce abusive husbands (another part of Project 2025 is the elimination of no fault divorce), they cannot use birth control and must carry even non-viable pregnancies to term? Where their role is to serve as breeding stock for the next generation of taxpayers? Do you want a world where your son, your brother, is arrested for flying a pride flag or because he has a boyfriend? (I’m not asking you to approve of my life choices; just asking you to respect my right to make it).

If I may be even more blunt: What the hell has Biden done or Clinton would have done that compares to this? You paid a little more in gas, so the constitution must be terminated? You disagree with some of the protections given to sexual minorities, so they need to be herded into camps? What has Biden done that even compares to what the Trump campaign is promising to do? Are our lives really so bad, are we really so oppressed by Joe Biden and Nancy Pelosi, that we will vote for literal fascists?

You cannot count on decent people to surround this monster and prevent his excesses. They tried it in Germany, and fifty five million people died. We tried it in 2016, and over a million people died from Covid and we came within moments of losing our democracy.

Please. I’m not asking for you to register as a Democrat and support gay marriage or abortion. But do not vote for this monster. For some people in the family it is not a hypothetical exercise. It’s our lives.”

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

hey frank!! could i get some advice?

i was really jazzed to see that youd opened an advice column. i know you probably get a lot of questions already but i just wanted to throw mine in in case you had any spare time.

ive had this problem for a while now. when i was little, i made my sister sign a contract saying that she would turn into a dog. its been years and years, and not only has she stopped turning into a dog, but now the social dynamics have completely shifted such that im the laughingstock of her and her friends every time we hang out!! which is like fine i guess but i feel like i should do something about it. i never had much dignity in the first place, nor did i see the value in maintaining it, but you can only be dragged across the floor so many times before you start to question how the hell you got here, you know??

i find myself wondering if letting people mess with me like that is a sign of low self esteem or if it's just my natural good humor and easygoing demeanor. i don't actually mind being the butt monkey most of the time, i just sometimes wonder what lead me to end up in this position.

should i try to pull a power move on them or something? (if so, what should i do?) and how can i learn to value myself more while still engaging in self deprecating humor?

thank you so much for reading!!

-fated to be farce fodder friend

Frank's reply:

I have long thought that I am "an easy target" -- I mean, I feel like my sense of humor isn't especially good, but even when I try to use my actual comic sensibilities to write comedy I find it falling flat and boring. Anyway, I do think I'm an easy target for jokes, and I do think that affects my self-esteem -- in some ways I really feel like a clownish figure, and being unable to "pass" as normal makes me feel like I have nothing to offer the world except being a funny and loveable screw-up.

To combat this, I guess I do try to combine a strong sense of humor with a strong will. I know myself well enough to know that if I try to become a "serious" man, it'll just be an act, and I'll end up looking "too cool" and completely inhuman anyway. But I can go out and assert myself by, say, getting a job, getting involved in social issues I care about, making a name for myself as a scholar (which I'm half-heartedly doing), etc. It's hard to know whether I should try to make myself as powerful as possible to counteract the "clown" aspects of my personality, or work to reduce those aspects.

This is a whole separate issue.

But I'm getting far from the central topic. I think there is no easy answer, but I would caution against trying any power move -- if I try to power-move people who torment me, I could wind up making myself even more of an outcast, and then there would be no way out. So I guess I would advise "learn to value yourself more?" but be careful with that, because a lot of that comes from your friends. I have met lots of people who don't like me because I'm not very cool, and if you are too cool, it'll come off as false and strange -- so you have to walk a careful line.

Luckily I have mostly found people who value my "oddity." To quote a John Waters line, "I want people to like me, but not for the wrong reasons." It's a fine balance.

-- Frank

[feelmir]

On this occasion of the tenth anniversary of Ukraine's neo nazi coup, the West, its mainstream media and its corrupt politicans are strangely silent about their orchestrated coup in Ukraine 10 years ago, bringing to the then brotherly people of Ukraine and Russia, death, destruction and huge sufferings, as did in their previous deadly and bloody wars of aggression , over the past two decades, in Yugoslavia, Iraq, Afghanistan, Libya, Syria and today the massacre of thousands of Palestinians mostly children, women and elderly committed by their proxy state in Palestine. in the slavish western mainstream media, on the eve of the second anniversary of Russian special military operation, there is no more political buster nor thundering statements predicting the imminent defeat of Russia crumbling under heavenly sanctions, the 19000 sanctions imposed by the West following the Russian military operation. The foolish French minister of economy, Bruno Le Maire, becoming laughingstock by French public after publishing pornographic autobiographic essay intitled “the American night”, stated that Russia would be brought to its kneel within months, but the opposite has happened as current Russia economy is stronger than ever. Two years after Russian military operation in Ukraine, the corrupt political establishment is realizing that its proxy war has failed and because of this failed proxy war, it is rather the western economy not the Russian economy which has been brought to its kneel after losing the Russian cheap energy, a structural factor in the rise and development of European economy.     

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

heya, i have to wake up in three hours but! here's another lil human au snippet! ft. lightly implied Laughingstock! disclaimer i am so so tired so don't come at me for typos or strangely worded sentences or missing info <3

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Before heading home, Eddie swings by a charming little store he’s been to once or twice before. He usually goes to the chain store by his house, but he doesn’t feel like dealing with the hustle and bustle and the endless aisles. This little store is quiet, nice, and strangely has everything anyone could need. 

The lot is mostly empty at this hour, so Eddie claims a spot right at the front. As with the other times, the windows are littered with displays and stickers - half off on this, sale on that. Eddie enters Howdy’s Place with the chime of the door’s shopkeeper’s bell. He’ll get what he needs and get out, quick and easy and peacefu-

Boisterous laughter slams into Eddie like a hammer, so sudden that he jumps in place. An employee stocking cans nearby glances weirdly at him. Eddie clears his throat and hurries into the nearest aisle as the laughter tapers off. The silence barely lasts a second before loud chatter starts up. It’s too fast and muffled for Eddie to understand, but he can pick out two distinct voices - one deep, one less so but still decidedly masculine. 

Eddie tries to tune it out as he gathers what he needs. Toothpaste, some paper towels, shampoo. For the hell of it, he nabs a box of classic bran muffins from the spacious food section. He lingers for a moment, enjoying how far-away the conversation seems at the other corner of the store. Unfortunately, theft is illegal, so Eddie is forced to move towards the noise.

A strange thing about the store - it’s a combination general store, antique shop, and diner, complete with a miniature gift shop separating the two. One long checkout counter stretches from the open store area, behind the gift shop, and into the diner, where the conversation is coming from. An interesting setup, but an understandable one. It allows anyone behind the counter to move fluidly between customers and sections.

As Eddie approaches, the conversation becomes slightly clearer. 

“-said, no wonder you didn’t get her number!” the deeper voice barks, and the two dissolve into that almost-too-loud laughter again. 

As it tapers off, the other voice says, “Sounds like a real charmer! But really, you oughta be careful, Barn. One of these days someone’s gonna throw a right hook at ya.”

Eddie’s eyebrows shoot up. A transatlantic accent? He hasn’t heard that anywhere outside of real old movies and a queen he once knew. It sounds natural too, like the man was born to sound like he belongs on a 1920s radio show. It nudges something in the back of Eddie’s mind. He’s started to get really sick of that nudge.

“Oh, this guy did.”

“No kidding? I don’t see a shiner.”

“Well, yeah. I went left.”

Both of them laugh again, and Eddie feels a tiny tug at the corner of his mouth. That wasn’t funny enough to garner an actual laugh in his opinion, but it wasn’t unfunny. 

Eddie steps up to the counter and quietly puts his acquired items on it, not wanting to interrupt. He chances a glance to the side - walking space in front of the counter’s length lets him see right down into the diner.

A large man with dyed-blue hair and an interesting fashion sense is at the bar, talking to an employee leaning against the other side. The employee doesn’t really catch Eddie’s gaze, but the other man… Eddie swears he’s seen him before. He studies him from the corner of his eye, not wanting to be rude but unable to mind his business. 

“Our bouncer didn’t even get a chance at the action - the idiot knocked himself out tryin’ a second swing!” The customer says. His deep voice, wavering with humor, only adds to the sense of familiarity. Metal glints in his right ear. Eddie knows this man from somewhere.

The employee shakes his head, tutting. His busy hands polish a vintage pitcher. “I swear, you get all the crazies.”

“Makes for a good story, though.” The customer takes a sip from his tall milkshake and scoffs. “Though if it wasn’t all well-ending, amusing bull, I doubt I’d be so tolerant.”

Minutes drag by as the two keep talking. Eddie goes from patiently waiting to awkwardly trying to get the employees attention. If only there was someone else behind the counter, but the only other staff member is elsewhere, likely still stocking shelves. 

The two men are too absorbed in their little world, even though both are facing Eddie’s way. The customer has both elbows on the counter, one of them bent to prop up his chin. The employee has his hip leaned against the edge as they chat. They’re obviously very familiar with each other, and clearly deeply enjoy each other's company. 

Still - and Eddie is sorry to say, but it’s bad customer service. He’s not in a rush, but he’d still like to be on his way home. He could be fishing out the complex keys right now. He checks his phone - he’s been here for nearly fifteen minutes. Picking out the items took less than five. 

Eddie sighs, staring at the various cigarette packs displayed behind the counter. He’s never seen the appeal in smoking, but as the laughter starts up again, he almost wishes he did. He’s going to treat himself to a very long shower once he gets home. 

The store’s other employee walks behind the counter, carrying a box. Eddie lights up. Finally - she pointedly clears her throat and heads into the back. 

The constant conversation stalls for the barest moment, and he looks over. The customer grins at him for a second - lord he’s handsome - before turning that grin towards his friend.

“You’re losin’ your touch, Howds,” he teases, bringing his shake straw to his lips.

“I resent that statement. You’re just distracting.”

“Lil’ me? Distracting? C’mon, you can just tell me I’m pretty to my face. I’ll take it like a champ, I swear!”

“Ha, good try.” The employee sets the pitcher down and starts to mosey in Eddie’s direction. “Your ego is big enough for the both of us as is. One more compliment and your head’ll pop like a balloon.”

“Well, given that most balloons don’t really pop, they just kinda deflate slowly-”

“Sorry for the wait!” the employee says loudly in a glaringly obvious customer service tone. He stops in front of Eddie with a cardboard smile. At the other end of the counter, the familiar man snickers and hides his grin behind his drink. “I trust you found everything you did - and didn’t! - need.”

Eddie just stares up at him for a moment. At six-one, Eddie hasn’t felt small in a very long time. He usually stands at least a full inch above other people. This employee - Howdy, his name tag states - has several more on him.

“Uh, y-yes, I uh, I did,” Eddie stammers, glancing at his items. 

“Wonderful! And again, my sincerest apologies for the delay. My friend makes a game out of keeping me from my job.” Howdy shoots his ‘friend’ a glare with enough heat in it to make an ice cube sweat. 

“No worries.”

Howdy scans the items at an almost frightening speed. Beep, into a paper bag. Beep, in. Beep, beep - “Oh, no.”

“What?” Eddie says, dread plucking at his ribs as Howdy holds the bran muffins and shakes his head. “Is there somethin’ wrong?”

“Indeed there is! You’re making a mistake with these. They’re absolutely horrible, I tell ya - and bad for you, too!” Howdy tuts and puts the box to the side. “No, no, you don’t want those.”

“I… don’t?”

“Not if you knew better! Lucky for you, I’m here to set you straight. What you need is-” he snaps his fingers, “Barnaby, be a pal and-”

“Already on it,” ‘Barnaby’ says, appearing next to Eddie.

If Eddie weren’t already paralyzed, he’d jump right out of his skin from how Barnaby towers over him. He has to be a scant inch or so shorter than Howdy, but he still makes Eddie feel tiny. Unfortunately, Barnaby is even more handsome up close. 

“Here ya go.” Barnaby hands a plastic container to Howdy and taps it, smiling lazily down at Eddie. “I’d take his advice on this one. Those bran-named muffins may sound fancy, but they’re pretty crumby! You want muffins of quality. Real breadwinners!

Eddie can’t help a soft laugh. “Breadwinners, heh, that’s a good one.”

“Are you selling these or am I?” Howdy says, raising a bushy eyebrow. 

“Hey, I’m just doin’ what you asked! I’m bein’ a pal.”

“And I - I’m sorry," Eddie interjects, "but you’re awfully familiar. Do I know you from somewhere?”

“Eh, I’ve been around, but uh… you ever been to [INSERT GAY BAR NAME HERE]?”

Howdy clears his throat. “I’m trying to make a sale here, Barn. You can flirt on your own dime when you’re not costing me mine.”

“Didja know your nose gets redder when you’re jealous?”

Howdy rolls his eyes and shoves Barnaby in the diner’s direction. Barnaby goes with a hearty snicker. Despite the joke, Eddie thinks it has some merit as Howdy scans the final item and rings him up, considerably frostier than before.

Belatedly, Eddie realizes that he didn’t actually agree to the different muffins. Too late now. “Say, what kind of muffins are those?”

“Poppyseed-lemon.”

Eddie relaxes - that is a lot better than boring bran. “Y’know, my mother loved poppyseed-lemon muffins.”

“Did she now,” Howdy drawls.

“Like you wouldn’t believe! If baking was so much as mentioned, she’d jump right on houndin’ us to whip some up for her, or send us to go buy some. We’d never even get a taste! They’d be gone the moment they hit the air, I tell ya.” Eddie chuckles. “Took me a while to understand what all the fuss is about, but man was she right. They are good!”

“Uh-huh. Well, we have a fresh batch delivered every morning. They’re not the same type every time, mind you, but I can promise that they’re all of the highest quality.”

“Breadwinners, right?” Eddie jokes. Howdy doesn’t blink, but Barnaby snorts. He’ll take it. “I might have to come by more often, if that’s the case! Thank you kindly, sir.”

“Mhm, have a good day.” Howdy hands him the bag and strides away without a glance. The dismissal is clear as day. “Say, Barn, did you hear about the racket one of those cult crackpots stirred up at our dear friend’s tearoom?”

Eddie doesn’t catch the tail-end of the sentence as he hurries away, but he frowns. Cult? What cult? There’s a cult? He certainly didn’t hear of one before moving here, and none of his background checks had turned up anything of the sort. He hopes it was just a figure of speech. 

The door chimes again as Eddie leaves. It isn’t until he’s in his car that the embarrassment of that whole exchange catches up with him. If he had a nickel for every time he’d made a fool of himself in front of a gorgeous, strangely familiar man, he’d have three nickels. At the rate he’s going, he’ll either be rich, or he’ll have to move. 

Eddie subtly tries to peek around the store’s window displays from the safety of his car. He catches a scant glimpse of blue hair - come to think of it, it’s a similar shade to Wally’s. But where Wally’s had, to Eddie’s memory, been uniformly dyed right down to his eyebrows, Barnaby’s rich brown roots were obvious. His beard and eyebrows weren’t dyed, either. 

As Eddie relaxes back into his seat, he re-reads at the store’s name. The color drains from his face and he barely restrains himself from slamming his forehead against the steering wheel.

Oh, of course. Of course he made a fool of himself in front of the owner. Eddie can never come back here again. And it was such a nice store…

[suraibru]

Emma & Aubrey- Girls of the Future. Part1

         Emma looked herself in the mirror, she was in her favorite dress, a black overall dress with a flowy white blowse beneath. She brushed out her bangs and set them with citrus oil. It was a big day and she wanted to look her best. Emma and her sister had been invited to a technology convention in the city. Her Father was well known in the medical and tech business and had taught them everything he could. A blur of orange flashed across the mirror along with a mostly undiscernible flurry of words. "Emma, have you seen my ribbons? Mama wants to do my hair and I don't wanna to the tight braid buns thing she likes doing, I wanna to it myself because shell do it way too tight." Aubrey ran her hand through her un-kept messy red bangs. They looked more like its own layer of hair. no matter how Aubrey would do it, it would look messy regardless. 

    Emma pointed to the drawer next to her where the two kept their selfcare items. "Are you wearing that? Mama will make you change." Emma said in a soft voice. "Dad won't care." Aubrey said as she furiously brushed out her hair. "He's the one driving, by the way you look so cute today! I hope the crowd likes us. I heard people some Russian politicians with be there. I can't wait to see those commie faces when they see that two schoolgirls beat them to color TV." Aubrey let out a maniacal laugh. Emma giggled. "Just don't say that, dad would laugh but I don't think the people would. and thanks, I feel like I look good today so I'm glad you said that. I was kind of worried if I should wear stockings or not." Emma started tying up her hair in a ponytail and tied the bow. 

      "Girls, are you almost ready? We need to go soon it's an hour drive to the convention- Aubrey please change your clothes. shorts aren't really appropriate in the city for girls." Aubrey groaned and made her way to her room to get a dress. As she walked past her dad he smiled softly. "I know dresses are uncomfortable but there are creeps, it's still a big day and a good opportunity for other girls, you guys are opening up a spot for women in the industry." Emma giggled and their dad's attention switched over to her. "Awe, you look so pretty." Her dad stood behind her and ran his hand across her back smoothing out wrinkles. "I'm so lucky to be you two's father. I have two amazing, inelegant young girls. you and your sister will change the future. " Emma turned to face her dad for a hug. "I'm worried." Her dad looked down at her. "what's bothering you sweetheart?" Emma buried her face into her father suit. "What if they laugh." Her dad chuckled. "I'll be there right next to you, they respect me. if they belittle my darlings at all they'd be made an example of." Emma didn't understand the example part, but she'd been around long enough to guess they'd be fired.

         Aubrey walked back into the room in a blue sundress, the only one she had. her socks were at different heights and her shoes were scuffed. " Is this better. am I covered enough." Aubrey's face was a grimace, dresses were her least favorite thing in the world and she hated she was expected to wear one. "You look like an angel." he said, pulling her into a hug.

     The ride to the city was boring, the radio played the newest top song and the host's voice bleed out to nothingness tor most of the hour trip. Emma held her own had to calm her growing anxiety. her head would replay scenarios of her tripping on words and the crowd laughing. She'd look over to her dad and he wasn't there. Aubrey would stand up for her and say something rash, and their family would be a laughingstock of the US. Emma looked over to her sister, her hair was coming undone, and she was passed out against the window. she smiles, no matter what happened she would still have her, Aubrey was her best friend, her only friend. but she made up for it by having the energy of ten fiends.

      Suddenly Aubrey jerked awake. "Are we here?" Their dad chuckled. "Almost, Emma will you redo her hair?" Emma shifted closer to Aubrey and combed out the loose strands. Aubrey cringed she hated people touching her in anyway, hair or otherwise. "Be careful okay." Aubrey said kind of begrudgingly. "I would never hurt your hair, it's so beautiful." Emma hummed their song. Aubrey rested her head on her hand and looked out the window. As they pulled into the parking lot a large building their dad straightened out his suit and combed back his blonde hair. He looked in the rearview mirror at his girls. "Are you loves ready?" 

      The inside was crawling with men in fancy suits and women in expensive dresses. TVs, radios and new telephones were displayed across tables where people struggled to get attention. "Come on loves the interesting things are near the stage." They walked through the crowd, Emma held Aubrey's hand, it was defiantly sweaty and would make Aubrey uncomfortable, but she didn't seem to notice, she was probably nervous too. "Hey, James it's been a while." Their dad cringed at the man's high voice and faked a smile, he was good at feigning excitement. "Oh hey, Jeremy, was it? the new guy?" The man, Jeremy's eyes glanced over to Emma and Aubrey. his eyes bore holes into their heads. He made the uneasy, he wasn't trustworthy. Emma squeezed Aubrey's hand and she squeezed back. they felt the same way, he was the afore mentioned creep. 

     "These lovely ladies are my daughters Emma and Aubrey. they're the ones presenting today." Their dad put his hand on their shoulders and squeezed them. He must've hated him because it felt as though he was protecting them. "I'm sure it'll be great." The man said with a sour tone. Emma looked up to her dad. his eyes looked menacing, and his grin sent ice through her veins. "It will certainly be, they did something never seen before, my girls will change the industry forever." His words dripped with venom. Emma smiled; dad would do anything for them, even if it meant terrorizing interns.

        The stage was set, and the lights dimmed. someone on stage was introducing some new medical Tech, advanced x-rays. The girls were in the back getting their words together, they agreed that Aubrey would do the talking and Emma would be next to her working the TV set and the color capable live camera. "Darlings, I'll be out there introducing you guys, so sand by. If something happens talk to Mrs. Collins here, she's, my assistant. she knows all about you guys." He lowered his voice. "If you need feminine items, she has them ready so don't-" "dad!" Their dad got flushed and chuckled. "Sorry, just wanted to make sure you'd know." He pulled Emma and Aubrey into a bear hug. "I'm so proud of you girls!" Over the speakers called out His name. and he ran his hand through his hair and straightened his suit. "I'll meet you girls back hear aster your set, knock 'em dead Aubrey, and Emma" Emma met his eyes, he had a warm smile. "You look beautiful, you'll do great, even if you say nothing. Aubrey needs you out there. I'll be off stage, if you need me. I'll be right here cheering you on."

      Emma and Aubrey listened to their father talk through the speaker. "Well, most of you know me but for though who don't I'm James Walker. but today isn't about me, I organized this convention to show you something never seen before, and I think you'll be surprised by who created this new advancement. -" Aubrey looked over to Emma, her legs were bouncing on her toes. Aubrey reached over and held her hand. "We got this Em, Well do great." Aubrey hoped her own words were true. if it did, they would send their family back into the limelight. Their dads voice chimed back in. "So, without farther introduction, my little geniuses, Emma and Aubrey Walker." Aubrey helped Emma up. "You ready?" Emma nodded and they stepped onto the stage still holding hands. Aubrey's hand was sweaty, but so was Emma's. "Hello to you all, I hope you've had a good day." Aubrey's voice was a little shaky but smoothed out as she got comfortable.

[girderednerve]

i did find some writing about sports RPF & it's annoying so far

as many others have observed, academic writing about fandom is mostly conducted by fans (theoretically fine) who are often more interested in recuperating fanfiction from its social position as a sort of laughingstock than in saying anything i find particularly engaging. all the writing about sports RPF that i have found is immensely interested in masculinities, especially contrasted against the (generally) queer, feminine space of fandom, which is just not what i wanted to read about! (not necessarily enjoying these assumptions about who composes fan communities & how they operate, either.) i am curious about what sports RPF and the sort of secondary not-quite-RPF fandoms (check please, ted lasso, &c.) imagine about labor. how do we think about work! obviously masculinity is relevant here but when you're writing a made-up story about a guy who you only know about because of his job, you're necessarily working around some idea of careers, labor, wages, contracts, job responsibilities. the union is mostly not present, but these guys are unionized. what's with that? when it does appear, what do we hear about it? what parts of sports business shape & structure the possibilities of RPF, and which are ignored, distorted, or discarded? they absolutely are not the same as mainstream/non-RPF sports fandoms, which are themselves some of the only high-profile popular discussions about labor negotiation. someone has probably written about this in RE the famously wild assertions that the one direction fans made about the relationship between the band & their management but i simply cannot bear to read about larries, and anyway the relationship between bands & record labels isn't a straightforward employment agreement. but i do think there's a commonality there in how RPF fans, whose whole project is pushing on a visibly managed public persona, imagine that public persona is produced & maintained, & at what kind of personal cost. actor RPF, and the sort of almost-RPF that often happens where people read a character's feelings in an actor's press tour appearances (or whatever), has some of the same stuff going on. labor!

i was thinking about sports RPF again (fascinated by the idea of labor going on in there, among other things) so i put "sports RPF fan" into g*ogle scholar & discovered that someone published a law review article entitled "TINHATTING THE CONSTITUTION: ORIGINALISM AS A FANDOM," which is so cursed & terrible & deeply funny. obviously its author is on the OTW's legal team

[memento-morri-writes]

Some Friendly Advice

Kris beats the shit out of a practice dummy, and gets some advice from a Real Adult.  Rather angsty.

ATQH Content Masterpost | Referenced Scene

Wordcount: 1,280

Trigger Warnings: Swords (?) 

Taglist: @enchanted-lightning-aes​ @ink-fireplace-coffee​​ @inkingfireplace​ @rose-bookblood​ @italiangothicwriteblr​

Kris woke slowly, becoming aware of the sunlight streaming in through the window.  His head throbbed, but he only vaguely remembered why. Carefully, he sat up, looking at the clock.  It was after noon.  He swore quietly. Getting to his feet, Kris looked around the room.  His eyes landed on a dark stain running down the wall and the events of the previous night came rushing back.  Closing his eyes, he could see Fallon in front of him, eyes glistening with tears as she scolded him. ��He’d done it now.  If Fallon wasn’t going to send him home before, she certainly was now.  After all, it wouldn’t do for the Queen to marry the laughingstock of Oryn.  He swore again.  His stomach growled, reminding him that it had been hours since his last meal.  If he was going home, he might as well get one more meal beforehand. After changing out of his wine-stained clothes, Kristopher opened the door to his room and was met with the back of a guardsman.  The guard turned around, seemingly surprised to see the Prince upright.  Probably expected to have to drag me out of bed later, Kris thought.  “Is there a reason you’re blocking my way?” He asked, voice flat.

“Your Highness!”  The guard exclaimed.  “I am under orders not to let you out until you are presentable.” Of course, Kristopher thought.  No one wants to be embarrassed by one of their guests.  Better to keep them out of sight.  Straightening his spine slightly, he said aloud.  “Well, I’m not naked, am I?” “N-no.” The guard stepped aside, allowing the Prince to pass.  As he walked down the hall, Kristopher realized that this whole routine felt oddly familiar, and not in a pleasant way.  Upon reaching the dining hall, he was relieved to find it empty.  He ate quickly, eager to be gone before someone came along. After eating, he meandered around the Palace.  He needed to think, but wandering aimlessly wasn’t helping.  He needed a distraction, but one that would clear his mind rather than impair it. After a moment’s thought, he set off towards the garrison. The training yard in front of the building was empty of observers, much to Kristopher’s relief.  He had never thought of how he would explain his presence if someone asked.  However, there was one issue.  Suitors had not been allowed to bring any weapons to the Palace.  He glanced around, hoping that some foolish guardsman had left his sword behind. He was lucky.  After making a lap around the training yard, he located an old sword left in the grass.  Though it was showing its age, it was of good quality and would serve its purpose.  Hefting the sword in his hand, he faced the training dummy in the corner of the yard.  Its body consisted of a burlap sack, likely filled with sand, with two protruding sticks serving as arms.  He lifted the sword and swung, slicing a mark across the dummy’s chest. Kristopher hacked at the dummy over and over again, elegant strikes turning into a chaotic flurry of blows.  Not exactly top-tier fencing, but it felt good.  It had been months since he’d last held a sword, and years since he had been so chaotic with his strikes.  Lately he’d found other ways to ease his frustrations.  And those other ways were exactly what had gotten him into trouble now.  With every blow he pictured Fallon’s expression the night before, heard her words in his head.  As he stuck, the sand began to emerge from various cuts in the sack that held the dummy together.  Soon its body had been mostly eviscerated.  With one final swing he decapitated it. He stood there, breathing heavily, sword still held firmly in his grip.  “It appears we are due for some new training equipment.”  Kristopher whirled around to find Captain Blackthorne standing at the gate of the training yard.  His chest tightened.  Technically the suitors weren’t allowed to have weapons on them at any time. “My apologies,” he said hurriedly.  “I was merely…” he trailed off.  How was he supposed to explain all this? The Captain merely laughed.  “No need to apologize.  If I got angry every time someone beat up one of those things out of frustration, I’d be angry every other day.  And that’s too much effort.” Kristopher’s face flushed with embarrassment.  “I’ll get out of your way now,” he said, setting the sword aside and heading for the gate. “Actually, I was looking for you in particular.”  Kristopher froze, heart sinking.  Of course.  He was going home.  His thoughts must have been plain on his face, because Captain Blackthorne continued.  “You’re not in any trouble.  I wanted to offer some,” He paused.  “Words of advice.” “Advice?”  Kristopher asked, trying to steady the tremble in his voice.  He wasn’t sure what the older man was up to, but there had to be a better reason for tracking Kris down beyond offering advice. Blackthorne nodded.  “Don’t take your anger out on yourself.  Or anyone else for that matter.  It’s not fair to you or her.  And knowing Her Majesty, she’s likely taking it out on herself already.”  Kristopher blinked in surprise.  Clearly word had spread of the previous night’s events. “It’s not her fault,” he said suddenly.  The words bubbled to the surface, tumbling from his lips before he could stop them.  “I acted like an ass.  She would be well within her right to send me home, and I wouldn’t stop her.”  He gulped.  “But I don’t want to leave.”  It was true.  He couldn’t go back to Oryn after this.  And more than that, he didn’t want to leave Fallon.  He blinked at the realization. Captain Blackthorne nodded. “I’m well aware of that, though I’m not certain Her Majesty is so eager to send you packing.” “Why wouldn’t she?  I wasn’t very kind,”  Kristopher said bitterly. “That’s the other piece of advice,” The Captain said, not unkindly.  “If you regret hurting someone, tell them so.” “I’m not sure she’ll want to listen,” Kristopher said, looking down at his feet. “I think she will.”  Kris looked up quickly, and Blackthorne met his gaze with a smile.  “Good luck, Kristopher.”  He walked to the gate but paused, looking back.  “And by the way.  You are welcome to come and spar with my men whenever you wish.  I’m sure one of two of them would be eager for a chance against the best swordsman in Oryn.”  Kristopher’s eyes narrowed, certain the Captain was mocking him.  But the man merely smiled warmly before turning and walking away.  Perhaps he was genuine after all. Kris stood there for a moment longer, starting after the Captain.  Once he was certain the man was gone, he walked to the gate and looked around the corner.  The Captain was nowhere in sight.  Slowly, he swung the gate open and set off towards the Palace, in desperate need for a bath. As he passed Fallon’s rooms, Kris wondered for a moment what she was up to.  Whatever it is, she certainly smells better, he thought.  Once inside his rooms, he stripped off his sweat-soaked clothes and drew a bath, steam filling the room.  Once the water was warm enough, he stepped in, sinking gladly into the steaming water. As the sweat and grime of the past 18 hours washed away, Kris pondered Blackthorne’s words.  Apologize — it seemed simple enough.  But how the hell were you supposed to phrase it?  How did you say ‘I’m sorry for getting drunk, embarrassing you and overall being an ass’?  How did you say that to someone like Fallon?

[amostimprobabledream]

I can't write a comment in tumblr for some reason but I wanted to say that I loved your post about Stella and his brother and "it's all about Stolas". I'm a big stella fan and I'm so tired of her being so 2D dimensional and so unappreciated :/... The bias is real and I bet there will be so many fan arts of him to the point of being more than Stella.... I am so done. I love her so much but her character is just "Stolas' wife" ergh... Why waste her beautiful character design??

Helluva Boss fr has a problem with pushing its female characters to the wayside so the men get all the attention and character development. You could outright remove Loona from the show and it would barely change and Millie's entire character is basically "Moxxie's wife". I love Millie but she barely ever gets to do anything that doesn't revolve around protecting Moxxie - even the episode where we meet Millie's family focuses more on Moxxie, Striker and Blitzo than Millie. I know Vivzie came up with Blitzo and Moxxie first and they were originally meant to be in Hazbin Hotel, so it makes sense they get the initial focus, but it's not a good enough reason to give Millie no identity outside of being Moxxie's wife or Loona just being Blitzo's adopted daughter.

And you also have Octavia, Stella and Verosika, who are also all solely identified with their relationship with a man. Octavia doesn't seem close to Stella at all and admits to Stolas her worst fear is her dad abandoning her for Blitzo, yet she's conveniently written out of "Ozzie's" because it's Stella's turn with Octavia, even though we never see mother and daughter interacting or know if Octavia realises that Stolas is the reason Stella has been so angry. Stella is painted as nothing but Stolas' vengeful wife and she's consistently depicted negatively even though...you know, Stolas has been cheating on her for whoever knows how long, but everybody goes out of their way to pile sympathy onto Stolas while demonising Stella, even before Stella is revealed to have hired Striker. (And tbh I still can see why she'd do that since Stolas is still seeing Blitzo even after she find out and the family seem to now be something of a laughingstock in Hell because Stolas cheated on Stella with an imp. Yes, it's classist and extreme, but it's not like Stella is the only person in Hell who considers imps to be a lower class - even Stolas seems to partly think that since he hid his face when Asmodeus recognised him at the restaurant and Blitzo was clearly hurt by that. Even Striker points out this discrepancy and comments that Stolas treats Blitzo like a plaything and Stolas word-for-word calls Blitzo that in "Truthseekers".) And Verosika is also defined by being Blitzo's bitter ex girlfriend and Blitzo spends the entirety of her debut calling her a "slut", "whore," etc, even though the show make it clear he was a shitty boyfriend and hurt Verosika quite badly when they were together. It seems like Blitzo is the one who's bitter that Verosika is a famous pop star now, but she's still mostly known as "Blitzo's ex." I'm hoping Season 2 does more to rectify these issues and I feel like the female characters all do have potential (except for Loona, I really don't like her), but they are clearly of secondary importance compared to Blitzo, Moxxie or Stolas, which is pretty unfortunate.

[marypsue]

Anyway! While I’m on the subject of big-budget franchises with David Harbour and extremely affected Russian accents in them (she says, several days after making the first such post), I have a number of (mostly uncomplimentary) thoughts about how the Russians in Stranger Things season 3 are constructed and written and framed, but they all pretty much boil down to “Steve knocking out the Russian guard in a fistfight is classic propaganda”. 

The villains of s1 and s2 can best be described as, well, sometimes the bad guys are smart too. The Lab and the Mind Flayer are competent. They are threatening. When they work in secret, they’re very difficult to detect. Their motivations appear to be largely internally consistent, and to exist independently of Our Heroes (well, up until s3, anyway). Their actions have logic behind them and are intended to help achieve their goals. They pose a genuine challenge to and even frequently outwit or outfight Our Heroes - except when it really counts.

By comparison, the Russians in s3 are cardboard props for Our Heroes to knock down. Not a single one of them has a distinct personality beyond ‘funny accent villain’ (except maybe the Terminator expy, who is a Terminator expy). They act as plot devices, not characters; their actions don’t always seem to have a consistent internal logic behind them, and don’t always even benefit them or move them toward what poorly-defined goals they might have. Rather, they’re reduced to whatever the writers think will, in the moment, make them look Big and Bad and Scary (or Cute and Funny and Likeable, in Alexei’s case), oppose (or, again re: Alexei, assist) Our Heroes’ goals, and/or move the plot forward.

That’s plain old bad writing. By itself, it’s unremarkable. Lots of writers make these mistakes when they construct antagonists. 

But also: the Russians - who, again, are not written or presented as full, individual people with goals, motivations, and coherent internal realities - are framed as simultaneously a terrifying, irresistible, insidious threat to everything the viewer is assumed to hold dear, and weak, incompetent, bumbling buffoons. And that’s where we tip over into propaganda.

I’m sure this has been talked about at length by people more knowledgeable than me. But this, to the best of my understanding, is one of the primary ways propaganda works. It presents an enemy, defines them as an other - not a person, like you and me, not really - and establishes them as a clear and present threat. It has to make them dangerous. It has to make them scary. It has to make its audience feel personally threatened and endangered by the very existence of this other, so that its audience wants to see that other defeated, subdued, gone. They could be in your unassuming Midwestern town! They could be hiding under your crowning symbol of capitalist success! And you would never know until it was too late, and they’d already unleashed unimaginable horror on the world and way of life you treasure, destroying it forever!

But also, propaganda can’t give the enemy too much credit. Too much fear plays into your enemy’s hands, leaves your own people afraid to move against them. And, if the enemy looks competent enough to pull off the kinds of atrocities pinned to them, then they might start looking smart. Like people who might have good ideas. Like people who might be able to win. 

So the enemy also has to be shown to be weak. Pathetic. A laughingstock. Easily outwitted and defeated by, for example, four bored kids - because the least of us is still smarter, stronger, better than the best of them.

So you might show that enemy as cunning and devious enough to build a secret base and laboratory under a shopping mall in the heart of enemy territory without anyone noticing - but too stupid or lazy to outfit it with any kind of security system. Powerful and unstoppable enough to hunt down and murder a man with impunity in the middle of a crowd - and it’s notable that the only person the Terminator expy actually manages to kill is one of his own - but weak and useless enough to lose a fistfight to a teenager who has, every other time he’s fought another vanilla human, had his ass absolutely handed to him. Terrifying and insidious - but ultimately powerless and pathetic.

Anyway, that’s why I’m worried about s4 trying to take Our Heroes to Russia.

[egelantier]

Tian Guan Ci Fu

where is it and what is it

it’s a chinese webnovel by mxtx, the same author who did untamed; it exists as a webnovel, finished and kindly translated here, the manhwa, the donghua (animated adaptation) happening right now, and there’s a live action adaptation in plans, directed by the same guy who did untamed. the donghua is gorgeous, the adaptation i’m unsure about but prepared to be hopeful, the manhwa seems to be very pretty. but all the adaptations only cover the very beginning of the novel for now, so i went ahead and read the novel, and i have no regrets. it helps that the translation is very good - not without awkward translatorese, but it has consistent and engaging flow and style, and it’s also pretty good at conveying mxtx’s humor without awkwardness. it reads pretty well.

what’s it about?

the world is split into two parts: mortals and various ghosts and demons and entities share the land, while ‘heaven officials’, aka gods, live in the heavenly kingdom in the sky. pretty much anybody can become a god if they do something really heroic or memorable and/or cultivate (meditation, training, virtuous behavior) really hard. when above, the gods rule their domains and fulfill their believers’ wishes; they work sort of like pratchettian gods, dependent on their followers’ beliefs and getting influenced by them. heavens are strictly hierarchical, with their own economy and pecking order, and the gods aren’t particularly sinless or benevolent; mostly it’s a question of scale.

our hero, xie lian, is a prince of a prosperous kingdom who’s been on a fast track to ascension for most of his very short life; he’s talented, he’s virtuous, he’s kind, he’s strong, and his only peculiar flaw is (somehow naive, but well-meaning) obsession with equality and value of human lives and so on. he becomes a god, unexpectedly, at seventeen, after slaying one especially dangerous god, and rises in heaven at the peak of his faith, influence and happiness.

…and then he finds out about drought and incipient trouble in his own kingdom, and, being a young and righteous god too close to his mortality, eschews heavens and returns to save everybody. it, to put it lightly, does not go well. at all. in fact, it goes catastrophically wrong, and, having lost everything, xie lian ascends again, only to get into a fight with the heavenly emperor, and get banished again, this time for good. he roams the mortal lands for next eight hundred of very lonely, luckless and hard years, technically immortal but not invincible, with his powers and his luck stripped away, and leans to make do, eking out a living as a scrap collector. his temples are desecrated, his name is forgotten, his kingdom is long gone, and - well. so it goes.

so it goes! until one day, to everybody’s great surprise, he ascends once again: a humble, gentle, immune to embarrassment, unflappable man, an embarrassment to heavens, a 'laughingstock of three realms’ who just wants to be left well enough alone. he’s Tired.

instead of rest, he gets sent to investigate a dangerous ghost stealing brides who pass through its mountain, and there, during the course of the interrogation, has his first (he thinks) meeting with a terrifying, old-powerful and vengeful ghost king named hua cheng, who likes to terrorize heavens from time to time. but said ghost king seems to be very benevolent and very interested in helping xie lian, and xie lian is pretty instantly smitten… with knowing what’s the cause of such interest.

…and meanwhile, in the beginning, there'was an unlucky boy, born under the worst stars, whom xie lian saved from falling once, while still mortal, and promptly lost track of. a lot of things happened to this boy, who wanted to be the most devoted worshipper to xie lian the god of the sword and the flower. as one does, you know.

that’s the beginning! from there on: investigations, heavenly secrets, old friends and enemies and acquaintances, thematic parallels, old tragedies, more pining than you can shake a stick at, grand acts of love.

is it good?

it’s very, very good. it’s the first fantasy cnovel i read (aside from the hilarious one about a guy traveling back in his own timeline and becoming a sugar baby to a mafia boss, which was in a very different league), so i don’t know which things are baseline and which things are unique, but it had a very solid foundation: ambitious multilevel, multi-timeline plot coming together in the end both events- and emotions-wise, beautifully iddy main relationship, maybe multifaceted characters who change and grow and clash together in fun ways, a clear and heartfelt understanding of its own core themes.

it’s also, unexpectedly, very funny, in this visual, slapsticky, begs-to-be-adapted way - i found myself laughing out loud over it a lot of times, and it possesses this gift of swerve between understated but earnest emotions and all-out jokes that i associate with… a bit of prattchett and a bit of gintama, honestly. take it as you will.

(oh my god the mecha. i will laugh over this one until i die.)

it also made me cry several times; granted, it’s not like it’s this time, but those were very heartfelt tears.

and the main duo?

first let me say that xie lian was lifted out, wholesale, out of my deepest character preferences. he fell really, really far, and did some bad things, and some very horrible things were done to him, and by the time we meet him he went through everything and achieved this effortless kind of traumatized, humble, accepting, wryly self-deprecating, utterly competent chill that makes a character incredibly appealing to me. he’s kind, and he’s sweet, and he’s gotten any possible embarrassment at least a couple of centuries ago, and he kinda made peace with himself and kinda didn’t. i love him.

and, thankfully for me, hua cheng, the ghost king, loves him a whole damn lot, a ridiculous amount, an epic, over-the-lifetimes, life-shattering amount, and he’s a terrifying presence to everybody else and a shy, protective, sweet dork to xie lian, and every time they’re together on page my entire heart is just. it’s AMAZING. he’s a great combination of playing the obsessive protective yandere stalker-lover trope straight and putting it on its head, by making hua cheng not just revere but respect xie lian, in all his good and bad decisions.

they are just so - good for each other, holy shit. they get each other so well. they’re the best ever power team. i love them.

(the rest of canon is various character reenacting “really? in front of my salad?” meme at them. it’s hysterical, and it’s the best. everybody teams up to tell xie lian that his boyfriend is Problematic way, way before xie lian clues into the fact that he does have a boyfriend, and he’s having none of it. i love it.)

and the themes?

okay, so. roughly half of this novel is ridiculous iddy pining, and a fourth of it is various tropes (off the top of my head: soulbond, sex pollen, body switch, de-age, various shades of identity porn… crossdressing…) played very shamelessly. but it also really benefits from having an overarching set of ethical questions, and while it deals with them a bit shounen-style, it still deals with them, and it makes the whole text fresh, and sweet, and bold.

is it possible to save everybody? should you try to save everybody? if you lack the powers to back your convictions, does it make you complicit? when is it possible to stop the cycle of suffering, what can you do if you want to but can’t? if you tried and people you failed turned on you, whose fault it is, where does the blame stop?

Detailed spoilers begin from here, and i would REALLY advise to stay unspoiled, because the domino reveals are very fun

i loved the various ways the novel sets all those pieces up and then overturns them and then returns to them. xie lian wanted to save everybody and it was arrogant naivete of an untried, untested, privileged young man who never had a real challenge before; his presence made things escalate quicker, and yet everybody around him pretended it was his attempt to make things better that ruined everything, and not a combination of factors outside of his control. and yet he accepts the blame, because it dovetails with his shame at not having enough powers to back his intent up; and yet his triumph over bai wuxian is that he doesn’t, after all, renege on his initial drive to help people.

my most favorite part of this novel is that its turning point, the lynchpin of the whole novel, the moment that keeps xie lian’s soul and safety intact, is not his personal purity and drive; it’s not even hua cheng’s devotion and sacrificial love. it’s just a moment of little, grudging, human kindness from a little, petty, rude man whom the history will sweep away soon. the bamboo hat in the rain. the rest of the plot keeps twisting and turning and coming back to itself, but this? this was unquestionably, beautifully clear, and i loved it. it’s never about the gods, it’s all down to - fallen human is human, ascended human is human, and human is not some state, virtuous or sinful, you get stuck with - it’s a multitude of choices, and there’s never a final one.

and incoherent spoilery screaming for people who read it already

oh my god i had SO MUCH FUN. i’ve been flailing on meme for days, because somebody just finished reading there too, and i’m still bursting with ALL THE FEELS. ruoye origins oh my god! that hat! jin wu’s backstory and ultimate end! e-ming’s praise kink! pei ming’s little shippery 'hoho’! hua cheng’s horribly handwritten stick and poke tattoo of xie lian’s name! the lanteeeeeeeeeeeeerns. feng xin and mu qing on the bridge, making up with each other and with xie lian! hua cheng trying to explain to xie lian that his habit of using himself as bait and pincushion at any given moment is deeply emotionally upsetting to him, and succeeding! banyue’s learning from xie lian to be a truly horrible cook! the entire deal with shi qingxuan and he xuan and the wind fan in the end. THE CAVE. THE GIANT MECHA. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and aaaaaaaaaaaaa and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and i am beset, beset by feelings. come scream with me.