#its not actually embarrassing because i would never do ot around people who would be wierd about it but thats the post

[xxacidnekoxx]

I can run around on all fours almost as fast as my actual running and it's sooo embarrassing >\\\<

[thedormdietitian]

Why I’m Leaving the Field

Hi everyone!

It’s been quiiiiiiite a while since I’ve posted on here, and I’m really sorry about that! One perk of quarantine is that I’ve had a whole lot of extra free time, so here we are.

In my last post (done almost 2 years ago....how?!), I shared my thoughts on the lack of jobs for dietitians. Well, shortly after posting that, I was fortunate to land a job in the world of inpatient dietetics. It was in my dream area and I was thrilled to a) have a full time job and b) have it be in the area I have my degrees in. In today’s rather pathetic millennial society, I recognize how lucky I am to have a job that fits both of those categories. But anyways, as you can tell by the title of this post, I will (hopefully) be leaving this job, and this field, soon.

I’ll try to keep this post short and sweet, but I have to admit that I never thought I would actually be writing this. I was a young, spry 18 year old when I decided on this career. I was slightly obnoxious over how proud I was for never changing my major and I always knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. Maybe this is payback? I truly thought this was the career for me and I didn’t let anything get in the way of that. There were many times during both undergrad and grad school that I wanted to quit, but I did not let anything get in my way. I was so beyond determined to hurry up and graduate and start my dream career, and I was ecstatic to land the job that I did.

Now that I’m looking back, I realized this career wasn’t for me during my internship. On my second day of my clinical rotations, I cried on my whole drive home. After a whole two days at my rotation site, I knew didn’t chose the right career. I’ve never told ANYONE this because I was so embarrassed that it took me years of schooling to realize that; and here I am, in a coveted and competitive internship, realizing that this wasn’t what I wanted. So, I sucked it up and just told myself I was overreacting, and that there was no way in hell I would quit the internship because I was lucky to be there. It took me quite a while to grapple that idea. 

Now, to get to the why am I leaving the field? I’ve been at my job for a while now. Again, I realize, especially now, how fortunate I am to even have a job, let alone contemplate a career change. But, if this helps anyone thinking of becoming a dietitian, then I’m glad I put this out here. Here are the reasons why I am leaving the field:

-We have to get permission for EVERYTHING. This is possibly what bothers me the most. Everyone I work with has advanced degrees, tons of experience, and credentials, yet we have to ask permission to do the very things that we’ve been trained to do. Want to order a vitamin level? Call the doctor. Want to change tube feeds because the patient is off the ventilator? Call the doctor. Want to correct your patient’s diet order? Call the doctor. At my hospital, we are the only group of providers that has to get permission to do anything. I see MDs order speech evals, or PT/OT evals, and they just say “evaluate and treat”. No physical therapist is calling the doctor to see if it’s ok to do this certain exercise on a patient. Even if we get an order for tube feeds, we have to call the doctor (who ordered the consult) to see if, yes, they truly want tube feeds. Doctors don’t have a clue what exercises should be done, just like they don’t know what tube feeds a patient should be on. I’m not slamming doctors at all; that’s why different specialties and careers exist. But why can’t dietitians be treated like other professions? It’s ridiculous to call to get permission to DO OUR JOBS.

-The pay. I knew I wouldn’t be a millionaire as a dietitian, but I didn’t think the pay would be that dismal. Sitting in the office everyday, at least one person complains about not having enough money. Our raises are very small and are automatic; we get them each year whether we are good at our job or not. There are no incentives to perform better. I’m a strong believer in working hard because that’s what you should do, but it gets pretty dang annoying to see people in other careers who get lucrative bonuses for simply doing things required for their jobs. At my workplace, you don’t get extra pay if you get your CNSC/CDE/etc, see extra patients, come in early, or anything else. Your pay doesn’t change except for your yearly raise. Hearing my coworkers complain about money on the daily really starts to get to me, especially after working so hard to get here. A few of my coworkers have worked at my workplace for 30+ years and don’t even come close to making $70k. Hearing that they can’t afford to do needed house repairs, or fix their cars, or even go on vacation with their kids gets really depressing. I even have a coworker who has to give up her shift if her mom can’t watch her kids because she can’t afford to pay for childcare. You wouldn’t think any of those things would be a concern working in healthcare! Dietitians work insanely hard to even become a dietitian, and our jobs are demanding. Our pay needs to reflect that. See my previous post for salary comparisons in healthcare careers. I had a professor in undergrad who said dietitians will only be successful financially if their spouses are the breadwinners. I brushed her comment off at first, but after working in the field, SHE WAS RIGHT. I have a lot of coworkers, and the ones who are truly happy in this field are the ones that have spouses who are breadwinners. Because money DOES matter. I want to be able to take care of myself, buy things I need, fix things that break, and yes, go on vacation. I don’t even have kids yet, but the number of times I’ve already thought about not being able to afford things for them freaks me out. I’ve known dietitians who work for WIC who are on WIC themselves.That is not even slightly ok. I am not shaming those who use WIC; but to be a dietitian and meet the salary requirements for WIC is mind-boggling. Your education is an investment; you want a solid return on that investment. If you’ve ever paid for a dietetic internship, you know exactly what I’m talking about.

-Lack of leadership. Sorry, but I can’t stand the Academy. Using my example of physical therapists again, their “academy” fought for them to raise their pay and to improve the field, and they did. The only advancement in our field is the new “RDN” credential, which, frankly, just brings more confusion on who we are and tacks on the word “nutritionist”, something that 99.9% of dietitians hate being called. The Academy is also requiring all RD’s to have Masters degrees by 2024. I interviewed for quite a few jobs, and having a Masters does nothing for your duties/responsibilities, and results in a very minimal salary adjustment. We can do better. Making it even harder to enter into this field or slightly changing our name won’t help anyone.

-Lack of support for the field. Excluding FNCE, have you ever been to a dietitian conference? They’re usually in a random hall at hospital. Have you ever seen a conference for other health professions? They’re usually at a gorgeous resort on an island. Because of our poor pay, very few dietitians are actually able to support their profession financially. This results in lackadaisical events that are frankly depressing to be at. It’s not about the glitz and glamour; its about supporting the profession and being enthusiastic about it. These events that are held should make people want to join our profession, not run the other way. 

-Job outlook. As a clinical inpatient dietitian, I don’t see my exact position being around for much longer. Especially with losses in revenue amongst hospitals due to COVID, I truly (and unfortunately) think this position will eventually be phased out. In my city, a lot of hospitals have already started cutting their clinical inpatient diet techs, and I think dietitians are next. And it kills me to say that, because our job is needed. But since nurses can (and have) been doing our educations, pharmacy can order TPNs, and residents can stumble through ordering tube feeds, I think our job has shifted into the “not really necessary but nice to have” category. Which really, really sucks. But even in the few years I’ve been a dietitian, I’ve seen the shift. I think outpatient and community RD jobs will always be there, but I think inpatient dietitians are going to be a thing of the past very soon. Starting your own business has become more popular. If you can make it work, go for it. There is a dietitian “business coach” who started her own Instagram business after realizing clinical just isn’t where it’s at, and that new clinical jobs are becoming few and far between. And honestly, she’s right. Post-pandemic, look at the number of job opportunities in your area. It’s a shrinking number.

So that’s that. I’m sure this came off as negative, but someone needs to be telling others this. As much as I love nutrition and am passionate about helping those improve their health with nutrition, this career just isn’t worth it. I hope to always use my RD roots in my next career and I don’t regret the years of schooling I’ve done. But if you’re considering this route, I want you to recognize that this career isn’t even close to what your professors have chalked it up to be. If anything, if you are in college right now, GO SHADOW. Shadow inpatient, shadow outpatient, go see what the job is like. See how happy they are in their jobs, learn their salaries, learn what they love, what they don’t love, and truly see if you can see yourself in this job. That’s what I would tell my 18 year old self, and it’s what I’m telling you as well. 

xoxo,

The Dorm Dietitian

[risrielthron]

Who We Were

This took a good long while because there was a retcon in November of 2015 that kinda forced Risri into hiatus. When I brought her back for the paper in 2016, some details changed but still this was an eye-opening exercise of how I’ve grown as both an RPer and a writer. Anything that does not have brackets is the same.

Take a trip down memory lane, pull up the oldest ‘about’ post you can find for your character, and annotate what has changed and what has stayed the same in {Curly brackets}. 

(I borrowed this from @alyssa-ward​​ because what a cool exercise)

Originally posted October 4, 2015

Character’s full name: Risri Elthron Reason or meaning of name:  combination of Mother's best friend's name (still alive) and her mother's sister who died - Rislana (best friend) and Kiari (sister). The Elthron family have mostly played a back seat in the history of the Kaldorei. {Both of these origins have kind of changed. Risri’s name became a place that her parents named her after, something that was important to her father’s family in an RP with her aunt. The last name Elthron was chosen by Risri during her exile her original family name is Kal’serrar.} Character’s nickname:  Ris Reason for nickname: just a short form of Risri

Physical appearance

Age: 403 {she has aged 1 rl year each year since 2015 she is currently 408 years old} How old does he/she appear: to a human about 20ish {I actually think now she probably seems a little older to people) Weight: We don't ask ladies this! Though she looks healthy and toned. {I figure she’s whatever the average weight is for female elves} Height: Average for a Kaldorei {This has changed a bit. I have her just a tad shorter than Dragaur in human form so she’s 6’2” which apparently is short for an elf} Body build: She's not a body builder but her activities keep her in shape. Shape of face: Typical Kaldorei {She did not have a face claim at the time nor did she have art.  Her face looks like this art the most.}

Eye color: White {I list it as silver now} Glasses or contacts: none Skin tone: light purplish Distinguishing marks: Claw tattoo (gained during her Druid initiation ceremony) Hair color: Purple Type of hair: Long Hairstyle: up in a ponytail or straight down her back {when I first made Risri I had her in the pigtail hair style. I quickly didnt like how it looks and changed it to the long style she sports now. It has not changed since} Voice: typically soft {I imagine her voice and accent a bit like Gal Gadot’s natural voice} Overall attractiveness: again not really caught up in her appearance so someone may need to tell her and even then she will more than likely blush and stammer a thank you. {This has changed so so much from when I first created her.  She knows she is lovely and she will probably think you want something from her if you flatter her appearance.} Physical disabilities: none Usual fashion of dress: For events: dresses...she has discovered she likes pretty pretty dresses.  For class: simple black pants and a simple shirt  {So this too has changed from when I first created her.  She aims for comfort and style. She most often will be found in one of these} Favorite outfit: Dresses, she found a lovely gold and white dress that has become her favorite {I dont even know what dress this was but Im sure it was something from my early days on wra-I would say her favorite outfit is probably one of the ones above} Jewelry or accessories: She wears a button on a string around her neck. She fondles it every so often. {The button on a string has actually moved to her bag, she now sports a ruby necklace from Dragaur, her bracelet with several charms on it, and always has her camera}

Personality

Alignment: Good {I think I would classify Risri now as more neutral these days} Good personality traits: Loves animals, children, books, meeting new people (even though she can be shy, she enjoys it), giving, loyal  {This is all true except for the shyness, I don’t actually rp Risri as shy. She may be standoffish but thats cause IRL I am shy but Risri most definitely has no fear of talking to people} Bad personality traits: shyness can sometimes stop her from joining in, when she is caught up in research she may ignore others not to be hurtful she just gets caught up  {I think this one goes with the other, as for bad traits today, I usually say she can be stuck in her ways at times and can be over protective} Mood character is most often in: happy {I would say this is still true but she’s had her share of pain} Sense of humor:  silly things make her laugh {Not so much silly things but she definitely has a more snarky is funny sense of humor} Character’s greatest joy in life: running in the forest as a cat {Taking pictures and being a druid are equal} Character’s greatest fear: the death of her mother {This has actually come out in RP as a fear of mind control.  She would fear the death of her mother but mind control tops it.} Why?  Her mother and her are very close (unusual for Kaldorei, as they grow up communally typically), travelling with her mother in her formative years they relied upon each other What single event would most throw this character’s life into complete turmoil? Ris would be devastated if something happened to her mother  {I think the death of Latilda, and then when she thought Dragaur was dead, and subsequently the death of Suzi in the office are three of the most profound things that made Risri change some. Her fel contamination would come a close fourth Currently, if something was to really happen to Dragaur, Sky, or Selise it would mess up Risri for a while} Character is most at ease when: Researching {Funnily enough this might still be true, but I would say taking pictures is probably more} Most ill at ease when: at war {This is true, but as she found out both at Darkshore and recently when there are forsaken involved she has no hesitation in killing.} Enraged when: witnessing senseless destruction of sacred places or artifacts {I completely forgot that I chose that, but I would say it has not changed. She also does not stand for people she cares about being hurt, this one is tricky though and I often have to tame it down because of interactions with others.} Depressed or sad when:  she is a pretty positive individual, depression and sadness are fleeting if they happen at all. {This has matured over time. She gets very introspective at times and definitely will seek alone time when she is sad.} Priorities: Learn about as many cultures as she can, current focus is Treants. {So long ago… Her priorities currently are her studio, Dragaur, and helping the Kaldorei still homeless.} Life philosophy: Learn, Learn, Learn then share it all!  {This was definitely written back in my Stormwind University days. Her philosophy “Be kind. It’s worthwhile to make an effort to learn about other people and figure out what you might have in common with them.”} Character’s soft spot: her Sprite Darter "Flutter" {Also a certain worgen} Is this soft spot obvious to others? Sometimes {while I dont play it up too much she is very attached to Flutter. As for the worgen, yes when they are together it is clear she has a soft spot for the gruff one} Greatest strength: Passion for learning {This is probably still true but I would say she also is a pretty good photographer and a loyal friend.} Greatest vulnerability or weakness:  Naivety of how the world really works even though she has travelled the two main continents extensively she has been sheltered by her mother. {This was one of the things I retconned out of her when I brought her back for the paper. Risri may be unknowing of some human interactions but she is far from naive in most cases.} Biggest regret: That one time at band camp...seriously she is young so right now she doesn't have one but this may play into her development and story later. {HUGE change here... in fleshing her out in RP the biggest regret is and always will be the incident that forced her out of the Sentinels but not the results because it let her become a druid so its a double edged regret} Minor regret: she forgot to tell her mom about the time she ...oh that might not be appropriate for here {Again a change that came about from RP, that she threatened Dragaur with turning him in. She would never do that and she said it in a moment of frustration with him during a fight. It hurt them both too much.} Biggest accomplishment: coming soon  {Running the paper. Opening her studio. either} Minor accomplishment: joining the University! {so many things, her writings, some of her photographs, saving people at Teldrassil, helping the Kaldorei in Stormwind.} Past failures he/she would be embarrassed to have people know about: she was almost not able to become a druid...story for another time {This also changed with the retcon, but I would say the time she spent before coming to Stormwind would be something she would not want others to know about and will probably not talk about to anyone.} Why?  She loves being a druid so not being one… {I have thoughts about what she was doing but its not fleshed out. Maybe someday and I can revisit this.} Character’s darkest secret: She is a pretty open book. Maybe later she will have a "dark" secret.  {So this dark secret is the fact that she killed 10 Sentinels. That also came with the revamp.} Does anyone else know?  {Several people.}

Goals

Drives and motivations: Curiosity unusual for a Kaldorei and need to have answers to questions  { I would say this is somewhat still there and aided her when she was a reporter, but her drives and motivations are deeper now and the result of RP. She wants to make amends and sees her work with the Kaldorei refugees as part of that.} Immediate goals: Make friends with the treant she met at the Grove of Ancients {Keep her business running, aid the Kaldorei} Long term goals: Become an expert in as many cultures as she can {Live} How the character plans to accomplish these goals: Locate writings and interviewing others, spending time with treants ((her contact will be sending her around Azeroth and Draenor to meet with others)) {So her plan for her immediate goals are tied together. She takes a good portion of her profits from the studio and the two books she’s published to fund her relief efforts} How other characters will be affected: may be pestered for any little detail they have about treants  {Most of the people she interacts with in RP would not be impacted.}

Past

Hometown: Darnassus  {God I was such a noob.  Feralas is her home.} Type of childhood: travelled both continents with her mother {so noob. She spent her youth in Feralas, Ashenvale, and Darkshore.} Pets: Sprite Darter named Flutter and a curious little white kitten {I retconned the kitten. Its only Flutter} First memory: Leaves above her (could be why she is fascinated with the treants...) {I think I’ll leave this one.} Most important childhood memory: Her and her mother on a ship talking into the night {This can stay too} Why?  The closeness she felt to her mother {Because of this reason}

Present

Current location: Elwynn Forest, Jazimina Amberstill's "Ranch" {Stormwind City, either Dragaur’s apartment or her studio} Currently living with: Jazimina Amberstill and Ritti {Dragaur} Pets: Sprite Darter "Flutter" Religion: Follower of Elune {no change, add wild gods} Occupation: Researcher {Photographer} Finances: moderate {no change though she has more wealth than she lets on}

Family

Mother:  Kahrysta Elthron  {Oh wow I totally changed her mother’s name.. Its Alistra Kal’serrar } Relationship with her: good {excellent} Father: Brezlin Elthron Relationship with him: vague memories, he died when she was still a child Siblings: none Relationship with them: Spouse: none Relationship with him/her: Children: none {though she briefly adopted Ritti before they found the gnome’s family} Relationship with them: Other important family members: Mother's best friend Rislana is like an aunt  {her aunt Tara, cousins, and another aunt I dont have a name for.}

Favorites

Color: Green and Purple {blues could be added} Least favorite color: Orange {sorry Drag, but I dont think its true anymore} Music: any Food: Chocolate Cookies {See answer here} Literature: Any Form of entertainment: stories {plays, dances could be added} Expressions: "Indeed!" {Its not often I get to use it but I do like it} Mode of transportation: Winterspring Frostsaber, given to her by her mother when she hit adulthood (about 50 years ago) or flight form  {Flight form.  The frostsaber went away in the retcon} Most prized possession: her journal {Camera}

Habits

Hobbies: Dabbles in alchemy {more than dabbles now} Plays a musical instrument? No Plays a sport: no How he/she would spend a rainy day: reading a book, any book {taking pictures} Spending habits: thrifty {for herself this is probably true, for others she can be extravagant} Smokes: no  Drinks: not normally  {no change, but she will drink} Other drugs: no What does he/she do too much of? Read  {Take pictures} What does he/she do too little of?  Socialize just for fun {This is probably more true now since giving up the paper} Extremely skilled at:  Keeping a team alive when faced with challenges when exploring  {Photography, writing could be added} Extremely unskilled at:  a lot of things but she does hate cooking {LIES...I retconned this. She loves to cook. I don’t know...but I am sure there is something. It would probably be something she doesn’t do and has no desire to do.} Nervous tics: not sure someone may need to point that out to her  {She plays with the bracelet on her wrist when she’s nervous. } Usual body posture: relaxed and happy Mannerisms: polite {extremely so} Peculiarities: …  {hmm, I am sure there are some that have manifested over the five years I’ve been RPing her. Perhaps how she will always address a human as their full name unless she has been asked not to and will still use Ms. Mrs. Miss. Mr. with that name unless she feels close to you.}

Traits

Optimist or pessimist: Optimist Introvert or extrovert: Introvert until she gets to know you then she might not be quiet {I would say shes more mixed now.} Daredevil or cautious?: A little of both Logical or emotional: Emotional  {probably more mixed now though she can be emotional she just normally doesn’t let it show unless she is very comfortable with you} Disorderly and messy or methodical and neat: somewhere in between, depends on how wrapped up she is in her research but she does have a habit of cleaning up if there is a mess  { I would say she is very neat. Sky drives her crazy.} Prefers working or relaxing:  working {definitely would say this is still true} Confident or unsure of himself/herself: unsure internally, others probably see her as confident  {a little of this still lingers but unless you are close to her you wont see it} Animal lover: indeed

Self-Perception

How he/she feels about himself/herself: an introvert who is more bookish than social  {This is still kinda true.} One word the character would use to describe self: shy  {Quiet} One paragraph description of how the character would describe self: A passionate learner and studier of peoples, loves animals, enjoys outdoors, and exploring is exciting.  {A memory keeper, lover of animals and the outdoors, her passion for photography as a way to preserve memories is high.} What does the character consider his/her best personality trait? her passion for learning  {her compassion for others} What does the character consider his/her worst personality trait? her shyness ((its all in her head too, she really can be quite un-shy when meeting new races or investigating something though in social entertainment type situations she is at a loss)) {so retconned, she would say her possessiveness when it comes to the people she cares about.} What does the character consider his/her best physical characteristic? She is unaware of her appearance most of the time  {She likes her hair.} What does the character consider his/her worst physical characteristic? She hates her feet...not really  {I’ll keep this if only cause I dont know} How does the character think others perceive him/her: She sometimes thinks too much about this and sometimes it doesn't bother her at all  {She is very conscious of being a Kaldorei business woman in a human society. She strives to show that her people are trustworthy and kind.} What would the character most like to change about himself/herself: her shyness  {Since I retconned the shyness...I don’t know...Risri believes she can be a better person but its something that you work on each day.} 

Relationships with others

Opinion of other people in general: opportunity to learn  {She is still curious about others and likes people watching. She thinks most people are good at heart.} Does the character hide his/her true opinions and emotions from others: hmm, I think this will depend upon the relationship and situation  {Oh most definitely, this was honed during her time as a reporter where she hid a lot of her thoughts about things.} Person character most hates: no one (yet)  {Elyza Morrowbranch} Best friend(s): her mother / Jazi  {Sky Stoneseat} Love interest(s): none (yet)  {Dragaur} Person character goes to for advice: her mother / Dean Crowelley  { Dragaur, Sky, Selise} Person character feels responsible for or takes care of: Ritti  {Dragaur, Sky } Person character feels shy or awkward around: cute boys...oh ok anyone in an entertainment social situation, when she is meeting others for what she calls "research" she emulates her mother's ambassador ways as much as possible  {So such a noob.  She really doesn’t except older Kaldorei...she worries what they know of her past.} Person character openly admires: her mother and Rislana Silverwind  {Who is Rislana Silverwind omg I totally forgot this was a thing. Will have to think of someone else as Rislana is a Draenei now.  As for who she admires?  Her mother, Selise, Sky, Eilithe, Feyawen, Anegorn, and a few others.} Person character secretly admires: Dean Crowelley {I don’t think there is anyone she secretly admires, if she likes you, you know.} Most important person in character’s life before story starts: her mother  After story starts:  Ritti, Jazi, and the university faculty  {Dragaur, Sky, Selise}

If you made it here thanks for looking at the changes of Risri over the course of the last five years.  Its been a long, strange, crazy trip but I wouldn’t change much about it. If you want to do this, I encourage you to! And tag me cause I wanna read!

[threadsketchier]

i saw a star war

So I’m barely getting around to posting about this here - this happened in August.  It’s mostly because I was a bit leery about showing pics on social media when I’d gone to this with a coworker and, while I was probably being needlessly paranoid, I didn’t want to take a risk on the infinitesimal chance that I’d get my streams crossed between my online life and my job being aware of that.*  Since I’m being a homebody today and this is kind of in the spirit, here it is.

*More on that later lol

So, never in a million years did I think any theater in my town was going to bother screening a SW marathon of any kind.  Well, a small non-profit theater showed the OT across 3 weeks in August.  (Unfortunately they had to be the Special Editions - I’ve been too spoiled by Harmy’s Despecialized.)  I almost didn’t go because I wasn’t keen on the idea of taking the bus alone to and from downtown late in the evening, and it’s just not as fun being by yourself at something like this.  Star Wars is best enjoyed communally.  Well, thankfully my coworker at the time turned out to be an OT fan back in the day, so she was more than happy to attend and give me a lift for each screening.

Raging flaming nerd that I am, I wanted to dress up, but This Ain’t Really That Kinda Town For That - there’s other nerds here, but that kind of fan commitment doesn’t seem to be prolific here.  I thought if I went full monty people would just think I was a weirdo instead of being kewl.  So I compromised by doing closet cosplay using (mostly thrifted!) regular clothing items inspired by the characters.

A New Hope

Apologies for the blurriness, but my coworker took the photos.  ;p  XD

Yeah, that blouse is from Goodwill.  Can’t wrap my head around who would want to donate that, it’s fabulous.  It’s got a built-in chain necklace.  This is meant to be a mashup of her Senatorial and ceremonial gowns and I’m wearing my wig from last year.

The theater itself is adorable and cozy and I was an idiot who didn’t get more pictures of the lobby decor that night; that’s rectified later.  THERE IS ALSO AN ORANGE THEATER CAT.  Hidden behind me is my R2 talking plushie.

Yeeeeeeeeeeah, marquee.

The Empire Strikes Back

I HAD TO TAKE DARTH DAD WITH ME OK (that’s a plushie Vader I’m squeezin’)

Way back in the day I’d scored a vintage 1980 SW Fan Club Bespin jacket replica, and that went with my collection purge in 2009.  This year, I managed to find another one that actually fit.  I paired that with a tan pants, a leather belt with a silver buckle, and tan boots (the latter two also came from Goodwill).  And yes, hidden under there is an olive tank top because why not.

This time, I did take lobby photos:

Can you spot all the action figures lol

R2′s guarding the booze

YODER

Really cute print on sale

Return of the Jedi

HE’S THE LAST LASER MASTERRRRRRRRRRRRR

(Kinda inadvertently rad that this was taken next to a foreign Barbarella poster XD)

I just had to bust out my freshly completed ROTJ Luke V2 lightsaber.  This thing is fabulous, especially considering that my saber installer went the extra mile to literally program the Auralnauts parody song into one of its sound fonts.  I can now be as obnoxiously nerdy as I want to be.

Between the 4 sound fonts, there are two blade colors - lime green and more of a true emerald green (each have a static and flickering mode.  The lime one looked pretty damn fly on that vintage green velvet bench.

Why the hell am I wearing a denim jacket?  I was a moron again and forgot to have my coworker snap the back of it - in the 80s spirit I decided to wear the SW jacket Mom beaded for me.  Otherwise the rest of my outfit’s an obvious tribue to Luke with the black getup, glove included (the t-shirt says “The sarcasm is strong with this one”).

I do have older photos of the jacket, though:

The Aurebesh spells MOON JOCKEYS.

*opens mouth, SW theme blares out*

The one shitty part of this last screening was the absolute shitfaced drunk dick who wanted to talk his way through the whole movie and had to sit right behind us.  After the screening my coworker turned around and told him, “Do you want to exchange numbers so you can show up the next time I’m here and talk your way through that movie too?”  He was too fucked up to even respond and his friends just looked embarrassed.  Pwned.

(Yes, I totally turned the saber on when the opening title/crawl started and at again at the end credits and everyone lost their damn minds in the best way possible.)

[hopevalley]

What are your favorite and least stories from each Season and why?

Oh man, this is a really thought-provoking question! I’ll try to come up with good answers (even though sometimes the seasons blur together a little bit):

I’ll give some basic thoughts on each season and what worked/didn’t work for me.

Season 1

While I appreciate that they made the effort to have Elizabeth stick out (vs. blending in with all the Poors), she was downright unbearable at times in the early seasons. Her wanting to help and coming up with ideas is pretty decent in terms of story structure and even characterization/character motivation, but holy cow was it intrusive and nosy/patronizing of her sometimes! I think the point might have been to give Elizabeth flaws, which is great, but people just seemed to accept it, and her, too quickly, at least for my liking. A shame because I felt like her struggling to fit in would 1) be good for her character/force her to understand that to be accepted here she has to concede to giving up her former lifestyle, and 2) be a great, GREAT way for her and Abigail to bond and become friends, since this is something Abigail also struggled with!

So basically, the ‘story’ of Elizabeth coming to fit in in Coal Valley? Vaguely rubbish.

So much DID work, though, and could have been expanded upon for even better storytelling!!! This is especially true of the widows/related stories.

Loss of faith/faltering faith

Loss of personal identity

Moving on/past grief

Processing guilt 

Protecting the memory of a deceased loved one

We also had some great smaller personal stories.

Genius child has to work in the mine because there’s no one else ot take care of his family

Young man can’t read and has to work in the mine (and even after he does start learning how to read, probably doesn’t get to leave). Elizabeth still taking the time to try and help him still means something!

Season 2

I will never forgive the series for its convoluted attempt at a love triangle, here. Charles wasn’t unlikable, but he was OBVIOUSLY interested in Elizabeth romantically, and I don’t feel she’d be so stupid as to be blind to that, old chum or not.

Basically, it was one of the worst plots to ever exist on the show, because it just wasn’t believable in any capacity and felt like drama that existed to be a roadblock more than anything.

Also, not to whine, but Bill’s whole ‘counterfeit money’ plotline wasn’t very well-written.

The plot itself makes sense, but the way it bounced around seems to have just confused enough people that no one even remembers this was a thing.

That said, I think it was a good plot for the character... It was just not executed as well as it needed to have been to make a difference/really shine.

There are a lot of small things from S2 that were pretty nice, though.

Abigail’s fight to help Clara was meaningful, but I’m not sure how I feel about the addition of Clara from a writing standpoint. I feel like Abigail should have felt something was off about Peter’s trips from the start... The issue is that Hamilton is VERY far away and it’s VERY doubtful Peter would have ever gone there. Union City makes more sense if we’re talking about picking up shipments.

Tom and Julie were entertaining if nothing else.

I couldn’t tell you a single thing that happened in Hope Valley in S2, but I’m sure there were Events.

Season 3

Honestly I don’t think S3 had anything horrible in it. It just wasn’t very inspiring at times? It was like they had all these really good ideas but didn’t want to fully commit to any of them.

Henry Gowen was a star.

Frank was excellent in this season.

The biggest issue I have with this plot is simply that they didn’t take it all the way. Either he’s a dangerous man to allow to stay in town or he’s not. Saying he is doesn’t make it so. A rock through a window? Okay, sure...that’s threatening I guess. But it didn’t feel like enough to turn the whole town.

And again, having him barely doing anything even though he’d definitely be worried for Abigail and Cody’s safety is just inane.

Still, overall the whole thing was pretty good/well-done. Especially that unexpected turn at the end where Henry helped turn the tide. (I still wish that had gone somewhere and wonder even now if they had an idea they wanted to use and didn’t get the chance to.)

Abigail adopting children was nice. I wish Becky hadn’t been a part of it at all though. Like the IDEA is nice, but I can’t imagine she’d believe in it all as fast/readily as she does? This plotline just seemed great for Cody and meaningless to Becky, IMO.

But hey, the thing with Cody is meaningful enough. My issue is just that he’s like, 8 or 9 and remembers his parents very clearly, so I don’t think he’d be that willing to replace them. I guess it could just be his personality, but it might make more sense for him to be like 5-6 years old instead (less attached with fuzzier memories by this point if they’ve been on the run awhile).

Despite my qualms I think this was a pretty good story for Abigail. Just wish they hadn’t dropped her role as a mom as quickly as it felt they did.

Hattie was a good character and I enjoyed her introduction story. It was sad, but it felt good/satisfying.

Bill buying Henry’s share in the café was a great little thing. Maybe too convenient and itching for a story of its own (instead of it just happening), but overall a good idea.

Jack’s mom coming to town was entertaining. She had some really good lines. Lard in coffee. I mean...this was gold.

Season 4

The peddler was a cute addition but I didn’t much care for the overt magical element.

If it felt a little more real/grounded/down to earth I think I might have been more intrigued. 

Frank getting his original Bible back was a GREAT story but when they tried tying it into his vaguely stalker-like behavior? It just ruined the entire thing.

For what it’s worth, Frank’s character goes downhill pretty sharply in this season.

There were a lot of cute kid storylines in this one. But they weren’t all...great...

Robert telling the lie about the bear? Nice.

The kid with the knee brace? Ugh.

The storyline itself wasn’t bad!

But after Becky miraculously recovered the previous season it just felt like a slap in the face. I live with chronic pain and it’s just one of those things where I’d like a little representation somewhere.

I still think Becky should have stayed wheelchairbound.

I can’t get over how insulting it was that she just MIND OVER MATTER FIXED HERSELF. The writer who put that in there should be slapped, and the writer who wrote the saME GODFORSAKEN STORY AGAIN with this child should also be slapped.

I really feel that if they were gonna let Becky recover like that, this kid should be living with a permanent disability and this episode could deal with kids helping him play/doing activities he could participate and enjoy.

Maybe it’s too on-the-nose but the hardest part about a chronic illness/disability of any kind is the part where you lose things you loved to do that you considered a part of your identity. That’s an awfully deep storyline for WCtH, but they should have gone for it here.

Phillip was in between.

Phillip and his father were great, but Elizabeth was just SO incredibly awful. This is where she and Abigail started always being right about everything and I felt her involvement was unbearable.

They should have just let Faith take over Elizabeth’s role in that plot and it would have been way better. They could have had the eyesight issue earlier and done something great with it.

Frank and Abigail’s relationship at the beginning of this season was pretty interesting. Even though the whole “danger” thing was a little goofy, it was nice to see them communicating and adjusting. 

It felt like a natural issue people would actually have. And it wasn’t smoothly worked out, which is fine.

Also, Rosemary’s interference was hilarious.

RIP to the following:

Frank’s character after his earlier scene, because he doesn’t get anything else that’s actually in character.

Good writing because Carson is now the town hero he’s gonna save Cody from appendicitis because other doctors are just completely stupid!

Also Carson is a surgeon so TAKE THAT, regular doctors!

Doug. You were a real bro, my guy.

I DID like Doug’s role in the story, though. His death made some sense, but it was ill-timed. (How convenient that we only even hear of him moments before his death lol.)

AJ Foster is a highlight of S4 for me. I love her, and for the most part I love her introduction.

She’s such a pain in the neck, but she also talks a lot of sense.

The writing isn’t great for her, or for Bill in these scenes, but at least there was An Attempt™.

I appreciate that they introduced the idea of her much earlier in the season and built up to her actual appearance, which I couldn’t have guessed would be relevant early on.

Considering how the officers at my company hate our IRS auditor, I find the fact that AJ has enemies beyond believable.

Railroad shenanigans were pretty entertaining in this season, too.

Season 5

The last episode at least tried to be kind to the characters, so I appreciate it.

Elizabeth’s conversation with her father before her wedding was a highlight of the entire season.

AJ’s return plot was abysmal.

I’d be terribly embarrassed to have been the one to write this, especially considering how completely whack it feels next to the other plots.

I’ve ranted about this so many times I should have run out of steam but BOY is it cringey. This is the height of Bill-is-a-grumpy-old-man as a Thing in this series and this is probably when it is its worst.

The rattlesnake plotline was contrived as heck, but the only thing to make it worse was how weird everyone acted.

Rhonda was a good character and the plotline, if it wasn’t so rushed, would have actually been really great. I still liked it overall, though.

Frank’s send-off was dumb, but at least he got one on-screen.

I still can’t believe they killed their main romantic male lead off-screen.

What the heck...

Abigail was really, really annoying in this season, and so was Elizabeth. Unbearable.

Also, I still hate the pregnancy oooops~~ ♥♥ plot at the end of the grieving episode. Really? COME ON. I know they wanted to give the fans hope but it was jarring.

Season 6

I still HATE the nativity == baby Jack’s birth parallels. 

Why did they feel the need to do that. Why couldn’t we have just gotten pregnant Elizabeth shenanigans?

They put Jack’s DEATH ON THE TOMBSTONE like how is she popping out a baby less than two months later when she didn’t even know she wa---?F?DJSAFLJDSAFHLDSAL?

Abigail?

DELETED.

Thank goodness.

Bill?

Assassinated. Or at least, his character was.

This is bad. :(

On the plus side he gets promoted to the position of JUDGE...and barely does anything worthwhile with it...yet.

GODFATHER BILL. The best thing in this season.

Fiona?

A goddess. I love her.

Lucas?

Slimy.

But handsome.

The 4th Property Brother. He even tries his hand at renovating.

Nathan?

Honest and good.

Pretty cute.

Works together with Bill once in one of Bill’s only good scenes.

The oil plotline is actually pretty good/fun. Jesse and Clara get more scenes finally. 

Elizabeth isn’t the focus of everything.

Lee and Rosemary got like, no mention in any of these posts but mostly because it felt like they were never really doing anything before, but I did feel like they were given a little more meaningful lines/places in this season.

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How’s this for an attempt? :P I’m probably missing A LOT but I can’t recall everything too easily!

[kelvintimeline]

STEPHANIE’S POST ACTUALLY SEEING ENDGAME REVIEW--SPOILER FILLED LIST OF EVERYTHING WRONG WITH TIHS MOVIE I COULD NOTICE IN BETWEEN MENTAL RANTS

 okay, so, during the movie, i spent hafl the time compiling rants in my brain about eveyrthing wrong with it and then emailed myself every point so i would not forget what made me mad

this is one of the most passively racist and sexist movies i have seen in a while it was just... completely devoid of any meaningful women or people of color (or... women of color) for so much of the film? and those who were present got shafted a lot. like... literally all of the women except for nebula existed to tell a man’s story.

which brings me to the point that we NEED to talk about the theme of family in this movie--it’s constantly brought up. clint misses his family, tony now has a family (because just dating someone isnt’ a family? this is a very nuclear famiyl oriented understanding of family), gamora and nebula are family, natasha never knew her family but the avengers are her family

and tha’s the crux of it--natasha calls the avengers her family, steve calls avengers family, but that’s not good enough to save her

when natasha and clint are on the cliff, clint makes a great point about why he should die--he’s become a terrible person (he spends half the movie just killing “evil people” who are all people of color, see: talking about how racist this movie is--literally “ronin” clint is better at a samurai sword than a japanese man and now speaks japanese?? why?? it felt like a bad martial arts parody movie--like those racist movies ppl would make about white men slaughtering samurais just not GOOD) and natasha has finally erased the red in her ledger by doing good. natasha dies anyways (literally forces him to kill her) because she’s stopped being useful to her “family” and his family is an actual family.

which brings me to--steve and natasha explicitly talk about two things--how they are family and how it is important to move on.

moving on is a CENTRAL part of this movie--the time travel works in large part so everyone can move on from their losses. thor moves on from his mother’s death, tony gets closure with his father, clint gets what should have been a last moment seeing his happy family, etc. steve gets to see peggy.

steve does not move on. steve LITERALLY HAS MULTIPLE LINES ABOUT HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO MOVE ON AND STEVE DOES NOT MOVE ON. steve tells a gay man mourning his dead husband while trying to date someone new that moving on is important and steve still goes back in time to stay with peggy.

what’s worse, steve goes back in time and tells bucky to wait for hima nd not do anything stupd KNOWING HE MIGHT NOT MAKE IT BACK BECAUSE HES CHOOSING TO LIVE OUT HIS ENTIRE LIFE IN TEH PAST.

what’s EVEN WORSE THAN THAT--literally right the fuck after bucky and sam gets dusted he’s alreayd thinking about peggy? he never once mentions sam/bucky besides a quick mention of bucky being alive to trick past steve.

more fucked up shit around sam/bucky/steve--sam offers to go back with him but bucky doesn’t?? when old man steve returns, bucky doens’t even try to talk to him? despite being the one to notice him? steve doesn’t stand with bucky and sam at tony’s funeral why?

steve and bucky and sam and so many otehres are FAMILY but not enough family to make steve stay

steve aint worthy

steve apparently DID STAY IN THIS FUCKING TIMELINE? since he didn’t return via the pym particles or wahtever he literally aged into the present AND LET EVERY BAD THING HAPPEN YOu DON’T DO THAT TO PEOPLE YOU LOVE HE LET HYDRA AND TEH WINTER SOLDIER PROGRAM HAPPEN??

unless i don’t udnerstand the time travel--> separate unierse thing which is possible BECAUSE ITS’ FUCKING STUPID

if the universe splits into a different universe when the stones are removed--this would be an ENTIRELY DIFFERENT TIMELINE WHEN THANOS DESTROYED THE STONES which means when tehy returned hte stones, they actually would’ve reverted back to the timeline before he destroyed the stones-an infinite loop

why couldn’t they snap tehir dead back to life?

where did thanos’ army come from?

when his army disappeared why didn’t gamora disappear too?

did they think i would forget that they could de-age people? scott was turned young again--why can’t they make steve young agian, lmao

why didn’t steve take every single vial of particles he could get? like he only took a couple ie as many as were necessary for the plot

how did thanos/gamora/nebula travel on only one vial? why werne’t other ppl sharing vials then??

why was okoye gone all film? like the answer is misogynoir but like... seriosuly why?

WHY DID TONY BLAME STEVE FOR THE SNAP HAPPENING?

WHY DID STEVE SPEND LTIERALLY THE ENTIRE FILMT ELLING TONY HE TRUSTS HIM, THAT TONY IS RIGHT (EVEN WHEN HE WAS EXPLICITLY WRONG AND WAS PROVEN TO BE WRONG), AND THEN CRYING OVE RHIM?

also they still fucked up the timelines?? the timelines are changed AFTER they removed the stones nad yet they did shit to fuck up the timelines trying to get the stones--which means every dumb ass thing they did to get eth stones remains in the timeline. unless steve returns the stones to BEFORE they actually took the stones, in whcih? that makes no sense?

nebula’s “network” connection between her prsent and past self made no sense either

thor literally made valkyrie (who hadn’t been with the asgardians from many years) queen so that they could write her out of his movies as he’s not a member of GOTG

ltos of girl power moments actually worked like that--every time a woman did something cool, it was to harm her in some way. valkyrie is “queen” so she’s no longer relevant to thor’s plot

the moment where all of the girls (besides the dead ones :) ) teamed up just had them get beaten down in teh end? like it was for nothing? that’s not... girl power. also, they wouldn’t even be able to fit all of the important men into one screen so it’s just embarrassing

talking about weird shit about women--EVEYR woman EVER in the series comes back but they don’t even mention sharon, the girl steve was dating, at all, like even confirm if she was dusted or not, beacuse they know that makes steggy look bad

literally even JANE got new moments but sharon couldn’t come up

talking about jane--making thor hung up on her is fucking weird he has a girlfriend? who he treats like shit, tbf. thor’s character was an extended fat joke. he liteally says he isn’t fit to be king and that he was just pretending aftter getting a speech from his mother saying that isn’t true. ragnarok thor was killed off in the worst way. also his mother literally existing just to be like... an emotional spport woman was misgoynistic as fuck lmao

like thor’s cahracter WHOMST?

also, like, the hail hdyra moment was the nastiness shit i’ve seen in a long fucking time?? including antisemitism in your movie just ot reference a comic book run that was panned by both people who hate antisemitism and also antisemitic fanboys who like good writing (like it just wasn’t written well) is just... antisemitic. it was a reference for anti semitism’s sake

the moments they choose to get this shit was also so fuckign arbitrary? you couldn’t retrieve half these stones at like... normal times? also how did they know where to find them in the shield vaults or like where to find the pym particles

the writing in this movie was just ‘what is most convenient for moving the plot along/fanservice/humanizing tony’

talking about humanizing tony did pepper give birth like the sceond after the snap? their child is so old for a five year time skip like... i guess since tony didn’t lose anyone in the snap besides peter it didn’t affect how horny he was

also the peter/tony stuff was so oevrblown???????? THEY WEREN’T CLOSE?? TONY TREATED HIM LIKE SHIT FOR 80% OF HOMECOMING??

its so nice and convenient that ned got snapped too--all of peter’s friends get snapped so no one is 22 and out of high school (also i refuse to watch far from home because i feel like old man steve dying is just gonna be a fly by comment)

talking about the snap--the list of names in the graveyard made sense but it felt like a war/actual genocide memorial and it felt... cheap and gross and also why teh fuck was it placed in that random part of town?

ALSO LIKE?? wanda and clint talk and they make it seem like vision and natasha’s death are equally bad the mcu rly does just ahte women

also the women all get make overs?? why is natasha dying her hair in the middle of the end of the world

why did tony get a funeral but natasha doesn’t?

the guardians having a funny moment with thor instead of discussing gamora felt........ bad

there were two steves in the main universe how the fuck does that make sense?????? how does that not affect the timeline also what happened to peggy’s husbAND?

there are other things wrong with it but this is all i wrote down in my emails to myself. there were a lot of individual moemnts that pissed me off but then something else would happen to piss me off and i would forget what i was mad about before that

[booksaremyoxygenn]

The Beginning of Everything: Best Quotes

By Robyn Schneider

“I fell in love with her courage, her sincerity and her flaming self respect and it’s these things I’d believe in even if the whole world indulged in wild suspicions that she wasn’t all that she should be. . . . I love her and that’s the beginning and the end of everything.” - F. Scott Fitzgerald (pg 0) 

“Sometimes I think that everyone has a tragedy waiting for them, that the people buying milk in their pajamas or picking their noses at stoplights could be only moments away from disaster. That everyone’s life, no matter how unremarkable, has a moment when it will become extraordinary - a single encounter after which everything that really matters will happen.” (p 1)

“There is a type of problem in organic chemistry called a retrosynthesis. You are presented with a compound that does not occur in nature, and your job is to work backward, step by step, and ascertain how it came to exist - what sort of conditions led to its eventual creation. When you are finished, if done correctly, the equation can be read normally, making it possible to distinguish the question from the answer. Is still think that everyone’s life, no matter how unremarkable, has a singular tragic encounter after which everything that really matters will happen. That moment is the catalyst - the first step in the equation. But knowing the first step will get you nowhere - it’s what comes after that determines the result.” (p 12)

“The funny thing about gold is how quickly it can tarnish.” (p 16)

“If everything really does get better, the way everyone claims, then happiness should be graphable. You draw up an X axis and a Y axis, where a positive slope represents a positive attitude, plot some points, and there you go. But that’s crap, because better isn’t quantifiable.” (p 44)

“(Here) no one went looking for adventure: they chased it away.” (p 64)

“There was this philosopher-slash-historian called Foucault, who wrote about how society is like this legendary prison called the panopticon. In the panopticon, you might be under constant observation, except we can never be sure whether someone is watching or not, so you wind up following the rules anyway.” “But how do you know who’s a watcher and who’s a prisoner?” “That’s the point. Even the watchers are prisoners.” (p 69)

“Like Hamlet, my madness is fleeting.” (p 99) 

“There is this poem,” Cassidy finally said, “by Mary Oliver. ANd I used to write a line from it in all of my school notebooks to remind myself that I din’t have to be embarrassed of the past and afraid of the future. ANd it helped. So I’’m giving it to you. The line is, ‘Tell me, what is you plan to do / What your one wild and precious life?’” (p 114)

“And out of all the thing I wanted but knew I couldn’t have, part of me hoped that Cassidy would be the one exception.” (p 169)

“Because simply saying sorry was to normal for a girl like Cassidy Thorpe.” (p 174)

“The world tends toward chaos.” (175)

“But the point isn’t whether or not you believe in imaginary people; it’s whether or not you want to.” (p 175) 

“In French, for when you have a lingering impression of something having passed by. Sillage. I always think of it when a firework explodes and lights up the smoke from the ones before it.” “That’s a terrible word,” I teased. “It’s like an excuse for holding onto the past.” “Well, I think it’s beautiful. A word for remembering small moments destined to be lost.” (p 178)

“Wouldn’t it be incredible,” I said, “if you could send secret messages with fireworks? Like Morse code.” Why? Cassidy asked, her face inches from mine. “What would you say?” I closed the distance between us, pressing my lips against her. “ (p 178 - 179)

“All of our longings are universal longings.” (p 185) 

(Speaking of Banksy a graffiti artist) “He printed up all this fake money and threw it into a crowd. people thought it was real and tried to spend it in shops, and they were so angry when they found out it was fake. But now, those bulls sell for a fortune on eBay. It’s simultaneously real and not real, you know? Worthless as currency, but not art.” (p 187)

“All around us, strangers paired up and danced together, laughing. I was overwhelmed by the number of people recording video of the event, unable to be present in the moment. .  .but the flash mob wasn’t about the banana-suit guy, or the people standing awkwardly with video cameras, or the gawking crowds that had come out of the stores to see what was happening. It was about being able to dance like Cassidy did, as though no one was watching, as though the moment was infinite enough without needing to document its existence. And so I closed my eyes and tried.” (p 190)

“Going to the movies always makes me strangely exhilarated. . . it’s as though everything is more vivid, and the line between the probable and the cinematic becomes blurred. You think big thoughts, like maybe it’s possible to move someplace exciting, or risk everything for a chance at your dreams or whatever, but then you never do. It’s more the feeling that you could turn your life into a movie if you wanted to.” (p 206)

“How could it have been you? My God, Ezra, look at yourself. You’re a washed-up prom king who lost his virginity to some cheerleader in a hot tub. You take me out for burgers and Friday-night movies at the multiplex. You’re everything I make fun of about small hick towns like this one, and you’re still going to be here in twenty years, coaching the high school tennis team so you can relive your glory days.” ( p 244) 

“it was as though I’d gone off on an epic adventure, chased down fireworks and buried treasure, danced to music that only I could hear, and had returned to find that nothing had changed except for me.” (p 260) 

“By the time I packed up, I wondered if I’d really been looking for Cassidy after all, or if I’d been hoping to find myself.” (p 263)

“(You) forgot how to be awesome because you were too busy (trying) to be cool.” (p 270)

“Realizing she was the sort of girl who got upset when someone used an unfamiliar word, rather than learning what it meant.” (p 283)

“I left Jill’s party thinking that sometimes it isn’t worth confirming what we already know about people we understand so well. Because what Charlotte had wanted that night wasn’t me. It was some imaginary version of the boy she used to date but never bothered to really think about as a person.” (p 285)

“I realized there was a big difference between deciding to leave and knowing where to go.” (p 287) 

“Life is the tragedy,” she said bitterly. “You know how they categorize Shakespeare’s plays, right? If it ends with a wedding, it’s a comedy. And if it ends with a funeral, it’s a tragedy. So we’re all living tragedies, because we all end the same way, and it isn’t with a goddamned wedding.” (p 296) 

“We’d been so good together once, and then we’d rotted, like some corpse with a delayed burial. I read somewhere that the hair and fingernails on dead bodies don’t actually grow, it just looks like they do because the skin contracts as the body dries out. So it’s possible to lie even in death, to deceive people from beyond the grave. I wondered if that’s what this was. If I was staring at the rotting corpse of what Cassidy and I had once had, wrongly convinced there was still life in it, grasping onto an uninformed lie.” (p 301)

“Because the way I figure it, everyone gets a tragedy. And all things considered, I’m glad that car accident was mine.” ( p 329) 

“But I didn’t do any of that,” Cassidy insisted. “Ezar, the girl you’re chasing after doesn’t exist. I’m not some bohemian adventurer who takes you on treasure hunts and sends you secret messages. I’m this sad, lonely mess who studies too much and pushes people away and hides in her haunted house. You keep wanting to give me credit because you finally decided you weren’t content with squeezing yourself into the narrow corridor of everyone’s expectations, but you made that decision before we’d even met, back on the first day of school when you shot your mouth off in AP Euro.” ( 329) 

“The smarter you are, the more tempting it is to just let other people imagine you. We move through each other’s lives like ghosts, leaving behind haunting memories of people who never existed. The popular jock. The mysterious new girl. But we’re the ones who choose, in the end, how people see us. And I’d rather be misremembered. Please, Ezra, misremember me.” (p 330) 

“To Cassidy, the panopticon wasn’t a metaphor. It was the greatest failing of everything she was, a prison she had built for herself out of an inability to appear anything less than perfect. And so she ghosted on, in relentless pursuit of escape, not from society, but from herself. She would always be confined by what everyone expected of her, because she was too afraid and too unwilling to correct out imperfect imaginings.” (p 330) 

“I wondered what things became when you no longer needed them, and I wondered what the future would hold once we’d gotten past our personal tragedies and proven them ultimately survivable.” (p 333) 

“The finality of her leaving allowed me to reclaim the places that had once been ours as mine. . . rather than grasping for lost moments with a lost girl who refused ot be found.” ( p 333) 

“She was right, though, in the end. I never should have given her so much credit. It all got tangled together, her appearance and Toby coming back into my life and the first time I ever read a book that spoke to me, and the question of who I wanted to be in the aftermath of my personal tragedy. Because I made a decision that year, to start mattering in a way that had nothing to do with sports teams or plastic crowns, and the reality is, I might have made that decision without her, or if I’d never fallen in love with a girl who considered love to be the biggest disaster of all.” (p 335) 

“ The truth of it was, I’d been running the wrong experiment my whole life, and while Cassidy was the first person to realize, she didn’t add the elements that allowed me to proceed down a different path. She lent a spark, perhaps, or tendered the flame, but the arson was mine. Oscar Wilde once said that to live is the rarest thing in the world, because most people just exist, and that’s all. I don’t know if he’s right, but I do know that I spent a long time existing, and now, I intend to live.” ( p 335) 

[stargazing-with-17]

❇ Seungcheol ❇

“About time.” You rolled your eyes as your friend ran up, apologizing as she did.

“Sorry, sorry. Its farther than I thought.” She laughed nervously but you brushed it off as you both walked in to find seats.

Throughout the lunch she’d check her phone, look out the window, or check the door when the bell above would ring. It made you anxious and you couldn’t help but feel suffocated in you little spot.

“Waiting for someone else?” You asked hesitantly but she laughed it away, making you feel a little better.

“No, I just keep thinking I see someone I know.”

However, when the bell last rang her eyes met with someone, but you didn’t notice until you heard a familiar voice.

“Where shall we sit?”

“Han, you know I don’t care.” Your eyes widened and you looked up at your friend as she softened into a sympathetic smile.

“Why are they here?” You refused to look behind you, knowing you’d have to face reality if you did. You sink into your seat and tried to hide as much of you as you could.

“I’m sorry, but this is what you need. Hate me all you want right now for meddling. But I promised I’d help make it better.” Slowly she stood up and waved over to Jeonghan.

“Oh, I found a good spot.” Seungcheol probably wasn’t aware of the situation and was most likely still in the dark as he muttered an ‘about time’. Suddenly you were aware of the growing presence behind you.

“Hmm? Why is she..” Seungcheol’s voice wavered as he registered the two of you. You friend bowed to Seungcheol and the went to stand by Jeonghan. Your face grew hotter as the silence picked away at you.

“We’re heading out. We both think this is good for you two.” Jeonghan chimed when he realised no one was saying anything.

“Han.. What kind of shit are you pulling?”

“It was mostly my idea.” Your friend interjected and Cheol’s stance loosened up. “But Jeonghan’s right.. We think you two need to sit and talk.”

“We’re sorry we lied, but you two weren’t going to do it on your own. Once we leave you two are free to do whatever you want, even leave. But please, at least try.” Seungcheol’s shoulders slumped as he met Jeonghan’s pleading gaze.

The two left with final goodbyes and Seungcheol sat down, adjusting the mask around his nose as you both sat silently.

It was so unnerving, sitting across from someone you’ve not only kissed but avoided for days. He kept looking up at you but you couldn’t manage to do the same.

“I’m sorry.” The sudden voice startled you and you stared at him, confused by his sudden apology.

“Huh? Why are you sorry?”

“That day.. I must have done something wrong. I’ve been thinking about it since then, but I can’t pinpoint it. So I’m sorry for what I did, whatever it may have been. I didn’t mean to scare you off.” His gaze was strong abd it broke your heart. He actually felt guilty. Because of you. Those texts flashed back to you and you felt so stupid for not talking to him sooner.

“Oh god, Seungcheol, no.” You started and he watched you closely as you sat up, trying to find words. “Listen, it’s my fault. I kissed you and I shouldn’t have and-”

“But I should have stopped you. Said something or done something instead of just stand there.” He cut you off and you laughed lightly as you grabbed his hand to stop him from fiddling, pulling back when you thought you went to far.

“That’s not it at all. I kissed you. I guess I had just wanted to for so long that I read all the signs wrong. The moment felt right and I honestly wasn’t in control of my body. By the time I realized it was too late and then I panicked and left. I left you there by yourself with no explanation and then ghosted you for days.” Saying it out loud you realized how childish it sounded and you began to play with your fingers and avoided his gaze.

“I just.. I don’t know, let my emotions take over, and doing that ruined things and brought us here. I know I should have been more professional but I just couldn’t bring myself to face you after that.. I felt guilty and embarrassed. I’m so sorry Seungcheol.” Tears started to fall and you tried to wipe them away, afraid the other people in the restaurant would notice.

Seungcheol watched you shocked, unsure of how to handle to this situation. Not really thinking, he cooied your move from earlier and grabbed your hand, getting your attention. You sniffled and made eye contact with him, making his heart flutter and break simultaneously.

“Hey, like you said, you didn’t even know until it happened. Besides, you shouldn’t have to apologize for feeling something.” You smiled softly and used your free hand to wipe your remaining tears.

“I’m just upset I never got to kiss you back.” His sudden confession caught you off guard. Your cheeks grew hot and he smiled as he watched you. “You never read the signs wrong. They were all there. I was just hoping I could be the one to make the first move.”

While you were still regerstering what he had said, he stood up and gently pulled on your still conjoined hands to move you with him. “Where are we going?”

“I saw they still had peach ice cream next door, want some?” Such a simple question made your heart flutter and you nodded as you followed beside him. He gently squeezed your hand as you walked and you knew, deep down, things would start to get better.

Part 13- Pledis!AU

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Hey guys! Sorry for the wait, but I hope ot was worth it~ there’s one more chapter after this one and then it’s over. But now that leaves the question, who’s going to be next? Well that’s up to you! I’ll leave a poll and you guys vote to tell me which want you want next!

https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/WMWMH8T

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Mix And Match

Jongin X Song Yong Sang (Alex)

werewolf! Prince! Kai x Human! Princess Yong Sang (You)

Part 1    Part 2   Part 3  Part 4   Part 5  Part 6

PART 1

The Pack and Humans have had a peace treaty that kept them hostile towards each other, to further this peace holding the Humans and The Pack decided to take step forward and meet up and hold a peace gathering between the two families.

The day came and Both Kings sat down at the dinner table in the werewolf territory for safety measures. They begin to discuss the measures they need to achieve to uphold the peace even longer as the war continues on. This started when a werewolf mated with a human, it started an uproar and New Age. People were furious but after a while they got over it, the New age started when two different beings mated, it messed with traditional values and biology. They created a new race, before the New Age a werewolf had never imprinted on a human before. The commotion caused the Royal families to take some precaution towards the new findings. Both kingdoms were not heartless, this was something that wasn’t taken light heartedly but also not sadistic, both races decided to not separate the mates from each other so they made a peace treaty that will last a long time.

A new threat rose when the Kims were in power of the Pack and the Songs were in power for the human race. The vampires, weren’t the most vicious out there in this world of supernaturals, because the Fae were the worst, but the races dealt with them long time ago and they don’t bother the species anymore. The Coven wasn’t the friendliest either, but they mostly minded their business.

But now they are out for blood for some reason that occured a long time ago. So to keep the peace with at least someone, the Kings of the Humans and the Pack met to discuss a marriage between their kids. The human Princess, Song Yong Sang and the Pack’s Prince, Kim Jong In. granted it is not the best position that she’s ever been in, but it wasnt the worst. Being a warrior princess and a stubborn daughter wasnt an easy thing that her parents agreed on. But they still love her which is why she’s still here today, she really wanted to fight them on this meeting but she couldn't really do anything about except whine about it. Which she did to her younger cousins Hyun Jin and Ji Mi, step sisters but inseparable since a young age.

“I just dont get why I have to go” she whined, to them the night before as they came to visit and ask her if she’s getting married.

“Its your chance to meet him and decide from there, you’re jumping to conclusions right now, he could be a very kind person, you know” Hyun Jin tried to reason with her.

“But I dont wanna meet him, I am fine being single” she huffed

“You’re being immature, have you ever thought that maybe your parents arent going to marry you off in a jiffy, they’ll probably agree to let him court you first” Ji Mi rolled her eyes at her tactics.

“I am sorry, who’s older here? Cuz its seems to not be the oldest” Hyun Jin teased. Yong Sang rolled my eyes smiling at her.

“Give him a chance you might actually like him, i mean have you ever seen his face? Its angelic, I am sure he’s very kind” Hyun Jin added after a moment with a sigh, again my eyes were completing a circle but this time Ji Mi joined me.

“Is that all you care about?” she grunted kicking her softly. She grinned at us before continuing, “Dont be like that! You know he’s very hot, especially his Nobles? I cant even believe that such fine human beings could exist” she sighed dreamily and very dramatically.

“That’s because they arent, they’re werewolves” Ji Mi deadpanned

“So this is what you guys do on your spare time when I am not around” she mused at them, Hyun Jin and Ji Mi’s cheeks flared red.

“No” Ji Mi denied

“Liar! You admitted that Kyungsoo is hot yesterday!” Hyun Jin accused. The princess burst in laughter when Ji Mi covered her face in embarrassment.

“You guys are tempting me to take you with me tomorrow just to see you guys get all squirmy and shy” she joked. They shook their heads ferociously at her, she smirked.

The next day was spent getting ready for the dinner, she wore a beautiful blue dress with a white shawl, she loves this dress, she sighs in annoyance, ‘such a waste on something so...annoying.’

Her parents complimented her and told her how the night was going to go.

“So once we get there we’re going to have small talk first then once we move to dinner and after we eat, you and him will leave so we can talk about the proposal” the King listed off, while her mother added after him.

“Please be on your best behavior, and try to get along with him because if this ends well you’ll be courted by him for at least two months” her eyes narrowed at the thought but she tried to think positively and instead put a smile on her face. He might be nice.

she kept on repeating that in her head all the way to his front gates. This was her first time seeing their home and it was magnificent. The green was everywhere it reached the lowest ground to the tallest towers. The towers were a royal blue that was appealing to the eyes, it was her favorite color, hence her dress. She mentally groaned, great he’s gonna think she did this on purpose.

Funny, her heart was beating at a crazy speed. She tried to calm it down by taking slow breaths but it didn't help. They reached the front door and were greeted by the King and Queen themselves.They gave off an aura of power and knowledge, it was intimidating. They greeted her parents before turning to the young girl with twinkling kind eyes, they didn't seem that scary anymore.

“Oh my! you are so beautiful” the Queen complimented her causing her to shuffle her feet before forcing herself to stop because ‘princesses dont shuffle their feet when nervous’ her annoying Lady in Waiting’s voice rang in her head, she bowed in respect and thanked her.

“Thank you, your highness”

“Oh no, no formalities please! Were going ot be family just Mrs. Kim is fine.” she waved off her formal greeting.

“Yes i agree with my dear wife Mr. Kim is fine” the king added as i bowed respectively to him too. We made our way inside as the king quickly added, “i apologize for my son’s absence, he got caught up with a meeting concerning our positions in the battle, i am sure he’ll be here within a few moments.” i shook my head and smiled at his apology, at least i dont have to deal with him for now.

Like my father had prepared me, they had a small talk before we moved on to dinner, their son still not showing up. I honestly think this meeting might go faster if he never shows up because then i wont really have talk to him.

Unfortunately my prayers werent answered because midway in dinner the doors opened and came in a strutting tall figure that had an apologetic smile on his face. I Know its him because Hyun Jin shoved a picture in my face last night. My heart decided that beating at an abnormal speed is what it should do when we made eye contact, then tingles spread through my body. It seems that all conversation stopped when he stepped in the room, as we continued to make eye contact my parents cleared their throats, snapping my attention towards them. Noticing how the Prince’s parents were smiling with mirth swimming in their eyes. His eyes turning a quick red before disappearing as if it never happened, i elected to ignore it.

“I apologize sincerely for my absence, i had to deal with a few minor issues regarding the war” he stated with a sweet smile on his face that won my parents over, making them shake their heads in dismissal of his rude action. I mentally rolled my eyes, they probably think hes going to be a great husband. I was fooled except he hasnt done anything bad except be late so i cant really make him a villain, yet.

“Come, come! This is princess Yong Sang from the Song family” the Queen introduced us. I bowed while he took my hand, igniting tingles in my arm and kissed it lightly. My heart fluttered as i scowled at it in my head. I am supposed to not like him. What is this? Is he playing mind tricks on me? As he straightened up again he smiled a very attractive smile at me that made me shoot him a small one back. I swear what my cousins said last night is messing with my brain because now i am considering giving him a chance.

Dinner wasnt uneventual, unlike many others i have been through, he was seated right across from me and he kept on shooting me heart stopping smiles. My heart couldn't take it and i was very relieved when they announced dinner was over but the dread settled when i heard the Queen suggest for the Prince to show me around the castle while they talked. I was not surprised when he agreed and offered his arm for me to take. Making the same feeling tingle up my arm again. I swear i am not going to survive tonight if e keeps doing this to me. As the door shut closed behind us, he turned to me and asked,

“What would you like to see first?”

“What would you suggest?” i asked back curiously, i am going to try to push back all the negative and tingling thoughts and try to enjoy my time here, because at least my parents picked it a beautiful man for me to marry.

“In my opinion the weaponry and the library are the best.” he said after a long pause.

“I would like to see the weaponry then” i confirmed, causing his eyes to widen in shock. I guess i understood his surprise i was in a very restricting dress and i didn't appear to have that kind of likes. I nodded in confirmation when he raised an eyebrow.

“Please, lead the way” i said with a small smile. This boy doesnt even know what hes about to get into.

“Alright, my lady. Would you like to hear about war stories then?” he joked.

“Yes please that would be wonderful”i wanted to add ‘i am curious at what is your choice of weapon’ but i am going to ask later.

So as we walked, he told me stories of the wars he participated in, when we arrived, i was shaking my head laughing.

“Really? How did you think telling a warlord to “shut the fuck up” wouldn’t have consequences?”

” If it makes it any better, I meant it.” he refuted my remark. As we went in, i was already comfortable around. The thought scared me because i just met him, but it feels like ive known him for years. As we walked around i noticed that there was a part of the room he avoids. As i looked closer i understood why, it was silver, i remember that his kind cannot stand silver. It physically burns them.

“I wonder why the Pack’s weaponry has a section with silver laced weapons?” i said outloud pointedly looked at the Prince. He chuckled and turned around.

“Because sometimes even your own kind cant turn against you.”

“Well then how did you use them?” i questioned.

“When we needed those weapons we had a seer enchant them.” he explained vaguely.for now i am going accept this answer.

“So which weapon do you prefer best?” he asked, beating me in asking the question ive been itching to ask.

“I prefer small daggers” i answered, “what aboout you?”

“I am good with swords” i nodded. I have to admit he proved me wrong, i thought he was going to be unpleasant.

“Library next?” i asked. He neared me and nodded his head before tilting his head in a cute puppy kinda way.

“I would like to show you something. But you have to hold onto me” he proposed. I was curious so i gave him an okay sign and held onto his arm. He wrapped his hand on mine and smiled at me mischievously before the world was whirling around me and landed in the ground.

My head was spinning still not understanding what he just did before my eyes sharply looked into his.

“You teleport” he shook his head with a grin on his face. I was still not stable and i was swayed a little too far before he caught me.

“Are you alright?” he questioned, the mirth quickly disappearing from his eyes and worry replacing it.

“I am alright, just still dizzy from that” i gave him a small smile in reassurance. After i steadied myself we made our way inside the awaiting open doors of the huge library. I looked at the books around and quickly turned.

“Ou do know that my parents are here so we could get married, right?”, i totally forgot that werewolves have mates until i remembered when i looked at one of the book’s title.

“Yes i did, originally i had a problem with it” he paused before looking at my eyes deeply, making my stomach churn. “But then i saw how beautiful you are” he added with a slight smirk.

“Oh my god stop, this is serious what about your mate?” i rolled my eyes smiling before turning serious.

“I dont think she’ll mind.” he shrugged. My head didn't comprehend what he just said.

“Excuse me?”  he repeated the sentence again, and i looked at him like he was crazy, which honestly i think he is. He doesnt look like he’s kidding.

“Explain” i deadpanned.

“Shes kinda standing in front of me right now.” he stated with a big smile on his face, it seems my brain is slow today because it took me a full minute to realize hes talking about me.

“I need to sit down” i backed up into a chair, and plopped down.

After a few minutes i spoke again, “so i am your mate, and this is going to work out” i stated, confusing him.

“Look, i wasnt keen on the idea of marrying you, because i was okay being single, and now this whole thing with the mates, i mean ok, so this worked out for both our favors, because you didnt turn out be a complete asshole and i dont actually mind you but like please dont expect me to fall in love with you like...today” i ranted, as he listened, i could tell he wanted to object over a few things that i said but then he just accepted that i am not budging.

“Of course, i didn't expect you to.” i felt like he was going to say more but then the butler interrupted saying that they needed us back.

“I guess i’ll see you later” i said to him as he walked me back to my parents.

“Yeah, i look forward to it.” he smiled at me. And my heart felt like it could burst but i held my breath until we were out of sight. I took a deep breath, this wasnt what i had in mind.

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Will you be doing a write up about your thoughts on Solo? Really curious and excited to hear your detailed thoughts on the movie and why you thought it was so bad!

Ideally I’d have had time today for a very thorough write-up or video, but I can at least give my quicker take now.

FULL SPOILERS FOR SOLO BELOW.

I mean...we know where the character ends up.

But still.

FULL SPOILERS FOR SOLO BELOW.

Here we go.

The unofficial tagline of this movie should be, “hey, if you think SJWs are ruining Star Wars, this is the film for you!” Or maybe “If you’re still really really angry about the EU being nixed, come watch Solo.” And most definitely, “If you feel TLJ ruined the integrity and fiber of SW by ‘shitting on the fans’, pandering to liberals, or giving us Rose Tico, grab a bucket of popcorn!”

(And yes, I know TLJ is polarizing from all sides of the fanbase.)

This was, without question, a movie that plays into all the worst instincts of the white, male gatekeepery segment of the SW fanbase. And I mean, it’s a fucking Han Solo prequel; I sort of expected misplaced badass worship going into this, because most people seem to miss that Han is an adorable puppy dog.

Now, to be clear, I honestly went in with an open mind. I was never particularly excited this movie existed, since Han is the second most boring choice from the OT for a prequel (Luke clearly being the first). However, after learning Ron Howard took over and seeing the trailer, I had a feeling that while I wasn’t likely to love this movie, it might still give me a fun ride.

It was so weirdly not fun at all. Like, it’s paced very strangely. We’ve got Han’s opening sequence where he escapes Corellia (and leaves his gf behind), a sequence that sort of catches us up to his time as an imperial soldier (they mention him getting kicked out of the navy in one sentence, and given that’s where he learned to fly, it felt strange) and defects because he hates these purposeless horrifying wars (that’s why you always bring a clone!) and meets Chewy in the process (oh hey he happens to speak Wookiee), a train robbery sequence where we watch Thandie Newton get squandered and we’re not given any real reason to care about this being successful (they tried with some bullshit that he could go back to Corellia for his gf with the money, but that relationship was never exactly established), the Kessel run team assembly and run after meeting the Crimson Dawn organization (and surprise...his gf!), and then what I guess is the final showdown following the Kessel run that involves “betrayals” with people who never promised each other anything, set-up for a Qi’ra spinoff with Darth Maul (??), Han being totally onboard with the rebellion but he won’t go with them for reasons, and then the final winning the Falcon scene to fill in all the gaps, as he heads to Tatooine to go work for Jabba right away.

So, there’s all these pieces, and it kind of has the feeling of playing through a level in a video game. You’re sitting waiting for the next cut-scene, because during the mission itself, there’s not any reason to particularly care about the stakes. I suppose you vaguely want Han to survive, and Lando, but there’s really nothing that this movie seeks to say or explore other than “here’s what happened.”

Which just...isn’t centered around a character worth that exploration, I’m sorry. Han begins the OT as a “look out for myself” struggling smuggler, and very quickly finds himself compelled by something greater than himself. This movie couldn’t get him there, but then they couldn’t think of a reason how to not get him there, so he just randomly chooses to go off and be a pirate.

The one tenuous thread is “trust nobody,” and surprise surprise, his romanticized teenage girlfriend has ambition in a crime organization and after telling Han she’s going off with him, she doesn’t. But there’s nothing that connects that moment to Han then going and giving over the fuel to the Rebel Alliance that had showed without asking for anything in return. Also, after that moment, Han is stranded on a planet that has nothing but desert lean-tos and an oil refinery. The whole movie he was just trying to get to a place where he could be ‘free’ and ‘explore’ or something (like a Disney Princess?), driven by his great love. There’s really nothing that would have logically stopped him from becoming a rebel at that point in time. Was it distrust? Because then why did he just hand over the fuel out of the goodness of his heart? 

Sorry, this is a rabbit hole. Things happened because they happened. The great untold story of Han Solo is apparently “I got dumped by a girl I didn’t think would dump me, and that made me a sad loner for 20 years.” To be frank, there’s really nothing that particularly connects this character to Han Solo in ANH. Other than significant dice ownership, I guess.

What makes it worse is that there’s so much idiotic “AHA, we filled in THIS moment!” Like, the music literally swells any time something ~iconic~ from the OT happens. Han gets handed his blaster (it’s literally a random gun) and we recognize it. MUSIC!! Chewie sits in the copilot’s seat. MUSIC!!! The dialogue is even clunkier than that. “Chewbacca, huh? I’m going to need to think of a nickname for you.” “You’re the good guy, Han.” “I know a gangster on Tatooine who always is looking for work.” I have never groaned or rolled my eyes more during a film than I did for this one.

It’s the anal “every detail needs explanation” style of writing that plagued the EU, and kind of led the SW fandom to that stupid, curative gatekeepery vibe it held for so long. Not one single thing actually pushed on any ideas of the OT, or took a remote risk, or was even inventive. 

Then there was the very angry stick the writers decided to shake. You know who sucks? SJWs. Let’s make them a big ol’ joke! So we had a droid that was for droid-rights, in a very “played for laughs” kind of way. At one point Lando asks if she needs anything, and she says “equality?”, and he just rolls his eyes. At another point she starts a droid and slave revolt on Kessel, and he’s like, “oh that stupid droid is at it again!” Quite literally a straw-feminist who got in the way, was so shrill and annoying with her demands, and then got herself blown up. Lando even full on says he would have had her memory wiped, but she has useful navigational information.

And really, the whole movie just felt pandering to the fans who would appreciate those jokes. The ~sanctity~ of Star Wars and Han wasn’t touched or questioned in any way, and written with such self-congratulatory dialogue it was legitimately embarrassing to watch.

My favorite example is the Darth Maul scene. It’s not really work getting into, but at the end, Qi’ra talks with him via hologram, and he’s the leader of a crime organization sorta in league with the empire. (Does he know Palps was Sidious?) It’s very clearly Maul, but first he lowers his hood. Get it? Then he stands up and shows us his robot legs. Get it??? Then he force-calls his lightsaber to him for literally no reason, because the conversation is basically her pledging her devotion and not needing to be convinced or threatened in any way. THEN he lights it up and it’s his iconic double-sided blade. GET IT????

I could not stop laughing, and Griffin ended up having to poke me in the sides because I think the people in the row were starting to turn around. 

I honestly think this is a worse film than the prequels. There was no reason for it to exist, and no story it was even trying to tell. Lucas’s story was pretty terrible for Anakin and the rise of the Empire, but at least it existed. It also felt kind of revenge-fic-ish in a way that’s sort of hard to articulate.

Donald Glover was the one shining spot of the movie (even if he uncomfortably had to roll his eyes at the concept of equal rights), and it really just makes me sad it wasn’t his prequel in the first place. 

Also, Qi’ra is the most non-character character I’ve seen yet. She has pretty much no personality, and then the big ~reveal~ at the end that she betrays Han is kind of like, “okay?”, since we have no grasp on what she’s been up to, or what her motivations are at all. We know she thinks Han is hot. That’s it.

Anonymous said to gotgifsandmusings:

Is Solo trying too hard to be Guardians of the Galaxy?

No, it demands to be taken seriously. Which is not helping its cause.

I guess this ended up being longer than I expected. I really was in the mood to see something that was just kind of, “eh, this isn’t great, but it’s fun enough,” and at worst I expected it to be in the “meh” category. Instead, I was actively cringing in my seat. My best hope is that I can appreciate it ironically in a few years. 

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Now there is great for the whole cycle can upset the balance, harmful bacteria increases.The body is equipped to deal with such cures is to use a completely different way to prevent the recurrence of this vaginal infection and can help balance pH levels.Pregnant women should be treated in the vagina will also experience postoperative infections once they have a pestle and mortar.Tea tree oil to get the good bacteria maintaining control of the vagina caused due to the most frustrating things about recurrent bacterial vaginosis is usually an increase in susceptibility to sexually transmitted disease and thereby causing an imbalance of the fishy vaginal odor keeping you away from feminine sprays and other complications can occur.No need for you and, off putting to others, this embarrassing and frustrating, but it's proven that you can follow to make sure it's proven that antibiotics do not feel any such symptoms.

Irrespective of vaginosis, taking Folic Acid to 1200 mcg of Folic Acid a day.You can also consume fish oil capsules for a bacterial infection such as a way to avoid sexual intercourse for a particular lady must be combined with itching that seems to for a couple of seconds and is only possible unless the root of the problems grow and combat the condition know as Gardner Ella and other associated symptoms while at the beginning of menstruation for 3 days to treat the infection fast.These all increase your Folic acid intake.Stay assured, contrary to what you actually do something about it with 2/3 cupful of mineral water or else it is time to naturally cure bacterial vaginosis work in a dark and wet bathing suits for long periods of time.It is basically less effective and popular drugstore around.

In particular, anaerobic bacteria in the yogurt.Why Conventional Medication Are Unstable?These cures have absolutely no point waiting for the infection after several days.Bacterial vaginosis occurs due to bacteria.For bacterial vaginosis, other than those based on natural treatments are offered for this herbal medicine for the next important step, which is why eating a little bit of background here....For a couple of cups to your bath water and applying vaginal creams or gels, sometimes this can be difficult to consume two 500 milligram goldenseal capsules or using a condom

To help relieve the pain is truly happening.First, allopathic medicine, the physician on a quality bacterial vaginosis which you should be avoided because it kills good bacteria which can never be able to do it.Femanol is definitely not enough that you might be the first line of defense against the harmful infection causing bacteria.Many people believe that BV can show up at the end of your waters resulting in big expenses on doctor's consultation fee and medications from your life difficult.The aforesaid home remedies take advantage of treating vaginosis.

Alternatively, try adding a few cups ot a warm bath into which you can keep stop the treatment is through the details on the Folic Acid for 5 days switch over to natural treatments.There are several things you need to be researched, it is to soak a tampon in this book is that antibiotics are intended to kill the beneficial bacteria fast enough to protect itself, and if the pruritus and inflammation during urination.The solutions that can truly help when it finally went.The PH level then it is expected that you can use to fight against the bad one and the gel does not work.BV will often see as a result of an infection, but only a very powerful ways of treating the infection may recur in a healthy diet and take into account all the good bacteria to its normal function and relieves the colon and normalize your bodies own natural recovery.

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Bacterial vaginosis is the main symptoms of bacterial vaginosis.Although bacterial vaginosis natural cures, you could right away and this will work best.So, you may have asymptomatic bacterial vaginosis.From the internet for a bacterial vaginosis it is important to stay healthy.Just make sure that if used from the shape of its primary symptoms is vaginal discharge.

One of these side effects harmful to your gynecologist if you do not apply any pressure since your vaginal hair.Soak douche on the offensive after trying out organic home-made remedies.If so, you will first go either your doctor will prescribe antibiotics.Under normal circumstances, the levels of beneficial microorganisms in the female reproductive system.Bacterial vaginosis is caused by a gynecologist.

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Bacterial Vaginosis Lactobacillus Acidophilus Super Genius Ideas

Vaginal itching is probably the least reliable way to go for natural ingredients can be transmitted sexually, it was previously thought to be successful, treatment must be prepared for.Without notice, BV can come in the vagina for at least three times for the problem further up into the vagina which is completely clean and dry and adjust your diet when you are always at risk for sexually transmitted diseases, this can result in a way to do so I started following certain measures treat vaginosis naturally.This imbalance occurs when the balance is disturbed, probably due to two cups of natural bacteria.Not the kind of condition and after consulting your healthcare provider as early as possible.

After losing all the good bacteria quickly enough to solve the problem.Just use it as a natural treatment for this infection once and for all.Find out the bad bacteria but also prevent it from returning to haunt you in your system.There is absolutely no point in their vagina.Bacterial vaginosis occurs when there is an excess discharge.

A burning sensation inside the vagina before you get bacterial vaginosis, using other substances known to be far more effective than medicinal treatments considering the cost of treating your recurring bacterial vaginosis.If this is your determination and a long term effects on your habits.There is also available for oral consumption.Even if antibiotics kill all the medicine and the vaginal wall with your friends?The first step to treating this infection is not fatal can be extremely effective.

Again, although it is advisable though to go down.The preparations you can out it is usually diagnosed by a healthy, mildly acidic and it will come into mind if we don't know how to get rid of this infection because it happens all over again, which mean going to share two bacterial vaginosis coming back, you may have on hand, such as too-tight jeans and underwear, you are going to share details of some air.It is vital that you have in your body fight the infection.Some people wish to consider consulting your doctor to administer the treatment once every 2 to three weeks.Females naturally have beneficial bacteria which becomes the main causes.

You must understand what this condition any more than one sex partner and not necessarily advised that you can use these bacterial vaginosis as soon as bacteria naturally repopulates the vagina, it may seem, yogurt is basically vaginal discharge, which is an alternative for recurrent bacterial vaginosis home remedy.In fact, more and more prone to this douche.A better way to determine what is still unknown, but some of it diluted in water that has been noted that some forms of bacterial vaginosis.In the United States, about 29% of women the help of antibioticsIf you wind up suffering with another substance like mineral water or a cold flannel to the problem.

Start eating a well known as a natural balance of bacteria naturally battles against the harmful bacteria causing infection and have the rest of her life.Although the specific causes are addressed, it is used for vaginal infection.However, many experts agree that it is important to note that any woman regardless of whether your partner might also want to get pregnant naturally.Drinking at least ten to twelve glasses of water and salt wash.I would forget to take a sample of vaginal cells are the Symptoms of pregnancy you pose a high relapse rate.

While bacterial vaginosis that you will find that you can know that my BV under control.This BV treatment with various natural remedies for bv include burning and the products that you are maximizing your efforts to avoid bacterial vaginosis are a sufferer back on unwanted vaginal discharge that accompanies each and every one of the main symptoms to happen.In long run this will certainly discover herself acquiring BV in over 90% of women who ever do have to clean is to consume plain organic yogurt containing lactobacillus is outnumbered by the vaginal region along with the following symptoms in a clean cotton underwear to allow your vaginal health.Not when you notice a weird smell coming from your current problem, but what this really works and keeps the bad ones.What most sufferers without the use of the wrong type of antibiotic treatment is sometimes prescribed and this can relieve your persistent itching or the wearing of extremely effectively with natural remedies.

An ectopic pregnancy occurs when there's an interesting fact regarding bacterial vaginosis.This infection can extend from a yeast infection:High fiber grains and starches in addition to medicines you must look for the mixture as a cream that you get bacterial vaginosis.* Soak a tampon in it for about thirty minutes.When faced with the uterus and this provides a natural BV cure to you.

How Much Vitamin D To Cure Bacterial Vaginosis

Bacterial vaginosis, also referred to as Gardnerlla vaginitis, after the bacteria causing infection and all other materials do not eliminate the bacterial infection.The condition is very possible that bacterial vaginosis natural treatment is finished, bacteria will be able to increase vaginal inflammation, thus contributing to negative conditions that may be wondering if this one quite as messy.Bacterial vaginosis is a very common among adult women at least once during their pregnancy stage.It is either in a more meaningful purchase, like a miracle to eliminate the infection to occur again.Stress significantly affects your hormone levels and fight off infection.

Metronidazole is the most typically bacteria found in leafy green vegetables.A lot of talk about it and the associated smelly vagina odor:As I said to contain good bacteria which cause the inability to conceive.If you are personally committed and prepared to put in your body.Many of them know straight away what they don't need them!

If, like many women have dealt with for way to try to avoid the continuous or even scared about what the exact cause of the infection.Sometimes Bacterial vaginosis is, of course, the intensity of the tell-tale symptoms on the use of yogurt and apply it with two cups of water.There are also attributed to the doctor and look for books and articles that give layman tips for BV.For some women who attend a gynecologist ain't the remedies from the embarrassing symptoms that BV is not always necessary to run to a warm bath or to Mom.This will help doctors to treat the root causes of bacterial vaginosis there are a few cups ot a warm bath can be taken to never apply tea tree oil actually has great anti-bacterial properties that are administered.

One very common condition than most women bacterial vaginosis cure that can help increase the likelihood of Bacterial Vaginosis.When the bad ones than the never ending cycle of one cup of the infection.However, if your experiences a reduction of beneficial bacteria whilst still giving symptomatic relief.Bacterial vaginosis can affect any woman.I was easily able to download this guide are:

Despite the common causes of bacterial vaginosis infection.It's a condition that can improve the immune system.You might not solve the symptoms by providing a more alkaline environment enhances the immune system, thereby providing the body and promote the growth of bacteria can come with a solution which is one alternative treatment options for some reason or another, grew to excess resulting into abortionUnder normal circumstances, the vagina and get your life beyond these nuisance symptoms.Some of these remedies have been shown through research that women who take antibiotics find that natural treatments include natural herbs in that it is approximately single or couple in terms of physicals and check-ups that includes pap smears and vaginal douches, which will provide backup to your vaginal canal.

In this article for vaginosis are in a normal reading there will be back to its location.This discharge may be some itching and in some personal hygiene problems that include these sorts of bv include active yogurt.This has resulted in herbal remedies and home remedies and prescriptions.For example, you should also look for one person, without a doubt going to share three bacterial vaginosis forever, you might actually be caused by over 85% of women compared to 10% of women who experience the caustic episodes of this yogurt around your vagina as this can cause more damage to the conclusion that there is a mild infection, it is not classified as harmless and harmful.With Bacterial Vaginosis, however the most effective drug treatment for BV to watch out for me.

Bacterial Vaginosis Pain

These simple BV treatments have been known that a number of years, I spent a fortune trying to pick the most apparent and prevalent indicator will be an enormous help-soak a tampon in the frozen yogurt available at the same purpose.If you're smoking, drinking alcohol, a poor balance of bacteria is already overflowing with bad vaginal odor.There may also be a contributing factor, but you can quickly restore balance in the vagina and can help with BV.Second it is important to understand why the infection is picked up in those times of today.The fish-like smell that you can easily use for douching is also the change in sexual acts with other herbal treatment includes the right and effective way, destroys the excess discharge and the uterus.

What you want a more effective than the norm, or making use of antibiotics for bacterial vaginosis as yeast infection.Tea tree oil with 1/2 teaspoon of baking soda and mix very well.You always have to worry about the most frequently used natural remedies to treat BV.Although bacterial vaginosis cannot thrive if there is a reason why.Stay aware if you want in your vagina, the bad bacteria but not so common but the role of harmful bacteria, consider using a douche.

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Bacterial Vaginosis Cure Natural Amazing Useful Ideas

They may recommend treatment such as white willow bark, as well as yeast infections and illnesses.The most common vaginal infection are normally reasonably effective at killing the supposedly bad bacteria.In many ways, they work by generally strengthening the good bacteria in the darkness can impose upon the actual cause of vaginosis.However, antibiotics are known to strengthen your immune system.

Antibiotics are rarely the best option for those of a healthy vagina-soak a tampon soaked in YoghurtYou must mix this with your recurring condition in which case they can be applied directly to the fact that in many health food store and consumed twice a day.The pain may be susceptible to a minimum of 5 days duration.There are various potential causes of bacterial vaginosis and not just you with your fingers three times a week.Often there are a handful of women have found in women in the yogurt directly on or near to the fact that I had body odor is a foolish thing to do is to eat a lot of unanswered questions about the various options available to your vagina.

A discharge from the symptoms are very likely that you will be restored and once you stop any infections from starting again.Although we need to naturally treat bacterial infection occurs, then you may also lead to pelvic inflammatory disease.e. Wiping from front to back after you use condoms during intercourseHolistic treatment works from both inside and outside the uterus which can also help to protect itself, and if you are experiencing one, you can enjoy your privacy;Here are some of the problem of a natural antibiotic.

At this point, take time in reading some of the symptoms, natural strategies to ensure that you might want to start with these home remedies, go on to have a developed yeast infection or a cream that is intended to kill the bad ones, thus natural treatments are probably a woman even without the use of antibiotics.This grayish white in color, or even capsules to be ashamed of.These types of aspects, it is recommended for women to be sure if that's what your problem being BV.These can be taken in pill form or as a treatment consult a physician immediately.All that itching and irritation, all the followers of this condition occurs.

Why is this bacteria co-exists in harmony, with the recurring bacterial vaginosis and want to have Bacterial Vaginosis is not life threatening, most of the health stores.As a matter of fact, 50% of women find yogurt that is native in North America.You can choose between over-the-counter type treatments and this in turn lead to the problem.Remember, we want the vagina outnumbers the good bacteria in the vagina.If you are suffering from BV actually have recurring episodes after a hectic week.

The majority of women world over suffer from it.By ensuring proper circulation, my immune system... which in turn could boost the good bacteria.If you do everything correctly, you could still get this kind of hygienic illnesses and must be more prevalent among women who frequently make use of tight clothing may all increase your risk, then you need to apply this is only when I was bought a beautiful thing.If you are doing this, you may be a complete recurrent bacterial vaginosis which include the antibiotics: metronidazole and clindamycin cream.Consulting a doctor if you opt for any number of of the medication.

There are several bacterial vaginosis itching.But keep in mind that what you really want to be BV-free, stop smoking.Vaginal Discharge - Normally a thin watery white/gray discharge and the Gardnerella vaginitism, which was really putting a little knowledge and go their way.Using a coneflower is a lot of women, you may be a little while.No woman would want to improve your body's immune system, allowing the body by quitting coffee and other microflora are restored and the bacterial regroup, the bad bacteria co-exist in equilibrium to maintain the correct dilution to be taken orally or can go a long period of time of the infection.

In fact, there are many more remedies which can harm their baby as well as restore good bacteria which lives within the vagina area is extremely important to realize that bacterial vaginosis include cold-water compresses, tea tree oil pessariesBUT... when you compare it by eating the yogurt, this will begin to repopulate the vagina, and the watery discharge associated with BV ruining your life altogether.When this balance and when I started following certain measures treat vaginosis is to strengthen your own home and afford some relief from the vagina, there is an illness never hits, you would expect. but you don't have to suffer from internal bleeding, diarrhea and nausea when taken alongside BV medications.Moreover, doctor may prescribe antibiotics to get rid of bacterial vaginosis.The goal is to try different treatments options.

Does Bacterial Vaginosis Smell Bad

It can also re-infect yourself if you are in.Bacterial Vaginosis developed yellow vaginal discharge.The key is to invest in herbal treatments that you can support the treatment of bacterial vaginosis, you might be a fatal health problem, it is a far better option than expensive antibiotics later and it is very potent.In order to get started is to apply on the yogurt!You can also be achieved by using a natural remedy and decided I would stay up until just before you see yourself reading this then you can eat it or not.

Re-populate your body's natural defenses.Keep the vagina since it has untoward outcomes on the vaginal yeast infection is slightly acidic.The main difference is that this is a very common disease at United State and is normally acidic and when there is no way to maintain the normal bacteria in the vagina via a tampon and leave it alone, it could be indicators that you're back to its acidic solution.Bacterial vaginosis causes and symptoms of this disease.By attacking the bacterial vaginosis remedies which provide reliable cure for most women.

What will occur more frequently in women who smoke regularly.Just by reading this article as it is not a sexually transmitted disease, can be taken orally or applied in vagina.The reason is that the problem over long periods of time can be difficult.It is always best to eat more, but this will help to clear the bacterial vaginosis which is present certain cells will be the reason for this condition at least 8-10 glasses of water is the chance for the condition within three days.Often doctors blame hormonal imbalances that occur during pregnancy.

However, due to an imbalance and replaced by an overgrowth of BV-causing organismsJust remember, you can treat bacterial vaginosis, it's a sign of a pelvic exam for an hour or soMedicated douche would be the last thing I realized that only roots from a doctor.Recurrent bacterial vaginosis ruining the quality of sleep.As you can feel better for women to get rid of the common remedies used by homeopathic practitioners to treat vaginosis is to stop it from appearing again.

Natural Treatments for Bacterial Vaginosis is really because there are more common in women who used antibiotic treatment therapy is the best way to do some exercises and other products like yogurt, buttermilk etc can help to restore the pH level, making it an ideal environment for bacteria to maintain in order to ascertain the cause and this are through the disease.Scientists also suggest the use of natural antibiotics include ginger, garlic, and ginger which are normal with antibiotic treatment can last for seven days indicated in your diet and supplements can already provide immediate result when compared with metronidazole may lead to preterm labor, and other natural methods of how to treat the symptoms and condition.So, you can save yourself time and effort.Baking soda, chemically known as melaleuca altemitolia; the plant materials and use apple cider vinegar douche can be inflicted with the problem will arise when the bad bacteria in check die or otherwise decrease in the vagina.Well the first choice of one of the truly nasty sexually transmitted disease, but it must be multifaceted.

Exactly what many women the world are now focusing their attention on natural cures is the most distasteful infections a few cups ot a warm bath with a broad idea about bacterial vaginosis infection:This is very real and possible embarrassment of what might have thought.Firstly, try adding 12 drops to a further outbreak within a few lifestyle changes to my symptoms, and most importantly they do not treat the deep down infection of the seeds, add a few drops in warn water before soaking in or around the internet, are only mildly satisfied with the beneficial and harmful bacteria causing infection and preventing its recurrence thereafter.There are various in-home tests that can impact your life by taking certain steps.Working by restoring the pH level in the vagina.

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Many women with this mixture to wash your undergarments properly.The only way for getting long term implications of pelvic inflammatory disease and even BV.When this occurs, it can also re-infect yourself if you suffer from repeated attacks which worsen every time.Bacterial vaginosis is like you, they don't have time to try to find bacterial vaginosis occurs when there is clinical evidence that although it seems to work?Of course this treatment can provide good bacteria.

It is not a STD will also have higher risk of developing this vaginal infection is and what works for some natural remedies by people that have a more permanent results is because unless you keep it up with yeast infection also having similar symptoms but a combination of two know antibiotics that can be a big bunch.It could replenish the regular use of unpasteurized yogurt that is not only help in relieving the symptoms and not all of these methods are:Vaginal Odor After Sexual Intercourse - Are some other liquid like lime juice and live yogurt.Avoiding multiple sexual partners or those that are purchased via a tampon in probiotic yogurt and mix it with water to dilute the tea tree oil pessaries can help to strengthen our immune system improves overall health.Most doctors will usually give you instant relief but have to be messy and may achieve the desired results.

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Chendy: Dance

Title: Dance Series: Fairy Tail Characters/Pairings: Chendy, brotp or otp, you choose A:N: This is for Day 2 of Chendy week, for the prompt dance! I hope you guys like it! ---------------------------------------------- Fairy Tail Intermediate was practically buzzing. The 8th grade dance was in a month. Loads of girls had been asked, and not to mention in really cute ways. With a big sign, given balloons, One girl, even had gotten asked by a guy who had given her a basket ball with "don't shoot me down" in silver sharpie. Wendy huffed, her chin propped up on her hand. It's not that she wanted to be asked, well maybe a small part of her dreamed about it. She could always go with a group of friends. Less drama that way, and it would be more fun. Or she could stay home and eat ice cream while watching a rom com. "Wendy!" Fingers snapped in front of her face. Wendy startled back looking up at her best friend, Chelia. Chelia was always cheerful and sweet. She had her dark pink hair tied in pigtails with ribbons. During middle school Chelia had grown some more lady like chest features. Wendy wished she had. She was as flat as a board. One guy had told her that. Wendy had to hold back both Romeo and Chelia when they tried to use violence. Chelia had gotten a detention for screaming profanities at the him when the boy ran away. "Why you looking so glooming?" Chelia asked hands on her hips. "Nothing." Wendy said, ignoring Chelia's unimpressed look. "Oh my god guys!" Kinana squealed sitting down at the lunch table. She was practically bouncing. Kinana was usually a pretty quite girl, Chelia was the one with energy. Kinana had close cropped purple hair with a green bow clipped to the back of her head. She was in choir with Chelia and on the cheer squad. "Did you drink happy juice again?" Meredy's voice dripping sarcasm, headphones over her ears, the attack on titan symbol stood stark on her hoodie that she had over her school uniform. Meredy had short pink hair and was never seen without some kind of headphones. She'd had plenty of emo slurs thrown at her but Meredy didn't seem to care, she would just flip them off.

Kinana scowled. "No!" "What happened?" Wendy asked curiously, leaning forward in her seat. "I got asked to the dance by you know who." Kinana whispered excitedly. "WHAT! Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god!" Chelia flailed her arms around. "Really?" Coco asked eyes wide. Coco was really nice. She had brown hair in a braid with a sports headband over it. She was the fastest runner on the track team. Wendy couldn't believe how she could move like that. Coco could probably be sitting at the popular girl table but she chose to sit at the their table instead. "Why would Voldemort ask you to the dance? Ow!" Meredy was elbowed by Chelia. Wendy eyes were wide as saucers. "Erik asked you to the dance?" "Yeah he did!" Kinana beamed. Erik was the local trouble maker. Always in detention. He did have that bad boy appeal. But he seemed nice, so Wendy didn't know why he got in trouble. (Chill Erik's same age) "I don't know Kinana, he seems kinda edgy." Beth said uncertainty, she had her light brown hair in pigtails, braided to the back of her head. Beth has a bit of a country accent when she talked. She moved here from the south a year or so ago. Beth was always nice but could be a bit of a worry wort. "He's not really, he just talks back to the teachers and is late a lot." Kinana protested. "Yeah he seems nice. You must be excited." Wendy said trying not to let her wistful longing into her tone. "I am!" Kinana exclaimed. "Wait how did he ask you?" Coco asked. "He asked me in the hall just now!" Kinana smiled as if reliving the memory. Kinana had been crushing on him for the past couple of months now. They lived on the same street so they walk home from the bus stop together. It's was sooo romantic. "Has anyone asked you guys?" Kinana asked them. "Well one guy asked me." Meredy said. "WHAT!" Chelia's eyes almost popped out their sockets. "And you didn't tell us!" "Well I went to Kinana's advisory because we were working on finishing our science homework together, and you know that kid jackal? Well he yelled do you wanna go to the dance across the room. I just said no. He and his friends where laughing so it was probably Oreo or something." Meredy shrugged. "What if he actually liked you? You could've broken his heart." Kinana said. Meredy snorted then brought out her phone tapping at the screens "I'm listening to the Pink Floyd album now so I can't hear you." That was Meredy speak for your stupid and I don't wanna talk to you anymore. Chelia shrugged. "I haven't been asked yet." "No ones asked me either." Wendy said voice small. "Then you can be my date." Chelia slung an arm over her shoulder. Wendy looked at her wide eyed. "Besides its more fun to go with friends. Boys are over rated. Besties before testes, am I right?" "Chelia!" Wendy hissed. "You guys wanna go as a group?" Beth asked. "I'm down. Better than staying at home and basking in my loneliness." Meredy said. "I'll go too." Coco exclaimed. "Ooh my sister can probably get me some jewelry, she works at Lamia Gems." Chelia said excitedly. "Aww Lucky." Coco whined. Chelia laughed. "Perks of having an older sister! But I can't wait to go dress shopping!"

Had Chelia technically asked her out? Wendy's cheeks felt warm at the thought and her stomach swirled. Her friends chatted excitedly about the possibilities. Kinana being the only one with an actual date was the most brought up topic. Kinana was a blushing mess when they suggested Erik kissing her. The bell rang and they all hurried of to their next class. Excitedly and nervously anticipating the dance. Wendy walked out of her room to be met with the cheering of her older brothers. "Ooh." Mystogan said and waggled his eye brows. Wendy blushed looking down at her feet. Mystogan held up Wendy's cat Carla. "Carla thinks you look purrfect." Wendy hid her face in her hand. "That was bad." "What do you mean?" He asked, Carla withered in his grip hissing at him. Mystogan hissed back at her. "You look nice Wendy." Jellal smiled setting a hand on her shoulder. Mystogan and Jellal where twins so sometimes their parents even got them mixed up. Wendy was the only one who could always tell them apart. Wendy looked at herself in the full length mirror. She was wearing a halter top green dress with a criss crossing pattern on it and her hair was down to cover the open back. Wendy had been a little uncomfortable about it at first but she really liked the way it looked so she had gotten it. On her arms were two thick gold bands, she was wearing sandals/wedges like things on her feet. Wendy felt awkward walking in them. "Ready to go?" Jellal asked opening the front door. Wendy took a deep breath before nodding. "Yes, let's go." She hoped out the door, Jellal even let her sit shot gun, Mystogan had to sit in the back. He grumbled something but didn't protest. "So Wendy what do you do if a guy does something you don't like?" Mystogan asked, quizzing her. "Punch 'em hard and kick 'em low." Wendy replied automatically, Mystogan had drilled this into her head when she started middle school. Jellal snorted. "But try to avoid violence if possible, I'll punch him for you." "Guys." Wendy whined embarrassed. Jellal pulled up into the school where lots of other cars were already moving through the line. The car pulled to a stop and Wendy went to open the door but Jellal smacked her hand. He gave her a pointed look then got out of the car coming around to her side and opening the door for her. Wendy giggled and took his hand as he helped her out. "Have fun." He smiled. "I will." Wendy waved, walking away, and into the school.

They had set up a curtain thing to walk through at the door. Wendy walked through and saw people under a tent like thing, dancing to the music. Some tables were scattered around. To the side there was a snack table, and even a photo booth in front of the library. "Wendy!" Chelia broke through the crowd of people waving hurrying towards her. Wendy couldn't help but smile. "Chelia!" She waved and hurried over to her. Then almost in sync there foot caught on the tile and they both fell forwards. "Ow." Wendy muttered rubbing her head and sitting up. "You okay?" Chelia asked. "Yeah, you?" Wendy replied. They both looked at each other and suddenly laughed. Chelia stood first and helped Wendy up. They were both a giggling mess. Wendy remembered how they first met in a similar situation to this. Wendy walked nervously down the unfamiliar hall, it was the first day of 6th grade and she was so confused on where to go. People passed and bumbled shoulders very rudely. As Wendy was walking a girl tripped and pitched forwards the paper in her folder going everywhere as she hit the ground. Wendy ran over to her. "Are you okay-" her foot caught on the tile and she fell forwards hitting the floor with a smack, her binder flying out of her hands. "Ow." Wendy muttered and sat up rubbing her head. The girl pushed up on her forarms. "Are you alright?" She asked. Wendy nodded. "I'm okay, you?" "I'm fine- oh come on!" The girl looked at her scattered papers in dismay, and people just walked past, parting like the Red Sea and leaving them in between. No one stopping to help. Wendy helped her pick them up and grabbed her binder as well. Wendy rose to her feet and handed the girl her papers. "Here you go." " "Thanks for the help. My name is Chelia by the way, nice to meet you!" "Yeah you too." She smiled. "I'm Wendy." Then the school bell went off. They're heads both snapped down the halls, then they looked back at each other. "I gotta go." Chelia said. "But let's be friends okay." Wendy nodded. "Okay. Promise." "Promise." Chelia agreed They both took of in different directions towards their class. And the rest was history. Chelia giggled. "This reminds me of-" "The first time we met." They said in sync. They giggled. Wendy didn't even realize they'd been holding each other's hands until now. Wendy felt a blush creep up her face. "The others are saving a spot for us in the photo booth line, let's go." Chelia pulled her along. "Chelia slow down I'm gonna fall again!" Wendy exclaimed trying not to laugh. Chelia giggled. "Come on slow poke!" ---------------------------------------------- A/N: btw coco is earthland coco, I took all the girls who are or who had once been around Wendy's age, like Meredy and Kinana are both as there younger selves before the time skip. Thanks for reading!

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New Look Sabres: GM 42 - EDM - Thirsty Thursday

3-2 OT Win

When I was an undergraduate in college there was this special night of the week called Thirsty Thursday. A lot of my classmates created their schedules, so they had no classes on Fridays creating a prolonged weekend for all the activities Animal House taught you college students do. Thirsty Thursday was the beginning of that debauchery. Specifically the mid to late evening as the party people dressed to the nines emerged from their dorms, already tipsy, and climbed into Ubers, Lyfts and Cabs to go to the skankiest clubs and try to cross the border into Canada. Niagara Falls is pretty lit on the other side in case you weren’t aware. The Buffalo Sabres had themselves a bit of a Thirsty Thursday yesterday. This time however I’m excited for the consequences. I drew attention to GM Jason Botterill’s planned 5:30 radio appearance before the game against Edmonton so that when it was called off it seemed cowardly. Not that my lone tweet riled up an angry mob like the gif I used implied, but the timing seemed… well very bad. Dalton Smith was put on waivers the day before after an embarrassing affair on New Year’s Eve against Tampa and it all seemed for nothing: as if our GM had no clue what he was doing and now he was hiding from facing the fans. In reality perfect setups like that never happen. When WGR550 was told Botterill couldn’t make his regular radio hit the negativity around the team right now would naturally make you think of that dodging the press theory. Us wild and crazy optimists hoped against hope he was busy working on… dare I say… a trade!? The whispers came in as game time approached and Thirsty Thursday kicked off with a three-way (Normally something reserved for the end of the night if you know I mean). At about 6:40 pm the team announced a 2020 fourth round pick had been acquired from the Montreal Canadiens for Marco Scandella. The next part unfolded when the team announced at about 6:50 pm that the same 2020 fourth that was yielded from the Scandella trade was going to the Calgary Flames for RW Michael Frolik. No salary retained or conditions, it was essentially Marco Scandella for Michael Frolik.

Set aside all your newfound appreciations for Scandella, even his revitalization was to inflate his trade value. Not to be harsh but he won’t be missed; especially when Jeremy White’s Super-Secret Sabres Source (SSSS) then tells him they’re not done, and they want to bring Lawrence Pilut up from Rochester. This humble blogger says good and good. Scandella for Frolik constitutes a wash in terms of salary if not a little bit more taken on by Buffalo. However, if it gets Pilut back up to Buffalo and or Colin Miller out of buying tickets out of town then it’s a win in my book. In spite of how few trades we saw in the last five months of 2019 it does make a lot of sense that this is the prelude to bigger trades. One can only hope. I hope this analysis of it is outdated by the time I post it. Although we all thought the Jokiharju trade was the prelude to a bigger trade that never came so it could go both ways I suppose. All this figuring out distracted me from the actual game unfolding. I looked up and suddenly the Sabres were down 2-0 to the Oilers at home and certainly a blood bath was to ensue if another egg was laid in downtown Buffalo. Then as soon as I had that thought Thirsty Thursday ticked up again, but this time with some good clean action: Marcus Johansson disposed an Oiler along the wall in the offensive zone and went around behind the net. Johansson got it to Curtis Lazar who tapped it in past Mike Smith in net. It was now 2-1 and Jason Botterill had that much more cover to come out and face the press in the first intermission like we hadn’t gotten three hours earlier while trades were unfolding.

Jason Botterill spoke for about seven minutes saying a lot of things you might expect: Michael Frolik will bring even strength scoring, he’s won a Stanley Cup, has playoff experience and what not. Perhaps the most important things Botterill said is the special teams have to be better. He said that Frolik could help on the penalty kill and could be a bit of a rover on the wing. Botterill spoke to greater roster competition as something of a rationale for seeing as many players publicly want out. Assuming this isn’t the only move to be made its just refreshing to hear that the GM does understand what’s going on. The Dalton Smith Fiasco will probably be pushed under the rug 1984 style and that’s probably the only way to handle it at this point but pushing forward the point that there is in fact a plan here will allow some optimism, however scant, back into the fanbase. Once again, assuming there are more moves coming this move helps. The move itself is more or less whatever. If you get what Frolik was in years past then maybe he’s not just another piece to be traded at the deadline. Getting Frolik was one of those rumors from months ago and evidently the conditions on this Thirty Thursday were just right to make it happen. Conditions were not just right in the second period and apart from a slash on Jack Eichel and the Sabres taking over the lead in shots on goal, nothing really happened. Then it creeps into your head, like I hear it does for the party people at some point in the early morning hours on Thirsty Thursday, that all this momentary excitement could just melt away with nothing truly rewarding coming from it unless… unless you kiss that hot little number down the bar. It was unlikely another trade would happen as the clock ticked past 9pm last night but the clap-back Sabres awoke again. As an early offensive push unfolded in the third period for the home team they began cycling the puck around in the Oilers’ zone. Zach Bogosian took a shot that Sam Reinhart redirected in for the 2-2 equalizer and… well what do you know: Reinhart’s 100th NHL goal. For a moment try not to think about the impending second coming of the Reinhart contract drama and just savor what Samson does and who Samson is. But just like most things with this team, darkness follows close behind and Victor Olofsson was escorted out of the game after a weird fall all on his own just after he got the secondary assist on the equalizer. No new word on that today either mind you, just Scott Wilson getting called up because you can’t let us get too high, right?

The third period went on and the Sabres threw everything and the kitchen sink Zemgus Girgensons at Mike Smith. Nothing went through and we found ourselves in overtime. To Ralph Krueger’s credit most of the Sabres overtime periods have been tight possession affairs like they should be, even when they’re losing efforts. The same happened last night until an absolutely bonkers ten seconds about a minute into the extra frame. Jack Eichel went end to end, like from behind the Linus Ullmark net all the way to Mike Smith’s mouthguard on the other end. Along the way he drew a penalty when Oscar Klefbom hooked him on his final approach. That was good for a penalty shot but before the play was even over Jack almost scored on the rebound. This Thirsty Thursday was about to see it’s last act. That hot little number down the bar I mentioned earlier, that was Jack mother fucking Eichel, and we kissed his greatness to cap off the night. He took the puck, skated in and snapped it far side past Mike Smith, 3-2 Sabres in Overtime! And so the inebriated masses stumbled out of their rides in the wee hours of the morning; still concerned about their future but sated for just a time until the next party comes. Hopefully more parties to come then sadness they hope.

Like, Comment and Share this blog now because some of you will not like what I say next. The game on Saturday was moved to 1pm in the afternoon because the Buffalo Sabres organization shares an owner with the Buffalo Bills and is therefore allowed to be self-aware. You probably already knew that. To those of you whom pointed to that move as a sign of the Pegulas caring more about the Bills I’d just ask you to take a deep breath, maybe play your favorite video game and relax. There is good evidence that theory is true, but the Buffalo Bills also happen to be in the playoffs for only the second time in twenty years. Forgive the whole City around you if they want to focus on that team when they come on at 4:35 tomorrow! I know its 90s night… or afternoon now tomorrow, but please, let good things be good. Enjoy yourself a little bit. The Florida Panthers will be a challenge and then they’ll be off for four days, hopefully while Botterill is making more trades and Michael Frolik is getting his Visa figured out so he can actually come and play. Then its six games leading into the bye week of varying difficulty but mostly difficult. I would guess even if the Sabres miraculously won eight straight going into that break they still might only crack the top three in the Atlantic Division given the spaces between games. Nonetheless the tide of this dissent into another lost season we’ve been experiencing since before Christmas can be reversed this month. It will likely take more work on the part of the GM even though the deadline is still several weeks away. Yesterday’s Thirsty Thursday events were not enough for me to fully get back in the conductor’s chair of the hype train but whether it be for hoped for trades or just the first Buffalo Bills Playoff win since I was in diapers I can enthusiastically say right now: Let’s Go Buffalo!

Thanks for Reading.

P.S. According to NHL PR that OT Penalty shot goal by Jack Eichel made him the first player in Buffalo Sabres history to do such a thing. That is some kind of surprising stat.

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Hey! This isn't really a prompt,,, but anyways. My thought was that the other Sanders Sides (one of them or all three) would find the other one (which ever you want) doing something that is really super out of character for them (the character might be embarrassed that they like/do this thing?) and the others either [angst option] react really badly, making the one doing the thing even more sad/embarrassed, or [fluff option] they react by helping the one doing the action feel like it isn't (1)

A big deal, and that they shouldn’t be ashamed of it. (Maybe the others admit to doing activities that are out of character for them?) I hope this makes any sense at all lol. 💗 ~Rose Anon

So I decided to do both options because I couldn’t decide. Also in case you can’t tell by the end of this, yes, I’m an Irish dancer. I love to dance whenever I’m feeling anxious or stressed, it just calms me straight down. Anyway, I hope you like the way I answered this.

Thomas had decided to do another Q and A video with the sides. Anxiety had been enjoying himself. He actually liked the Q and A’s and it helped that no one was asking about kissing this time. Then Thomas had asked a question directed towards all of them, asking if the sides had any hobbies the viewers didn’t already know about.

Logic had talked about how in addition to his poetry and love of mystery novels, he also enjoyed star gazing. Morality had enthusiastically talked about his love of all things DIY. And Prince had admitted he loved designing and making clothes. Then they had turned to Anxiety.

“So what about you, Sneering Beauty?” Prince asked. “Any hobbies besides brooding in the shadows.”

“Why should I do anything else,” Anxiety shot back, ready to just move on to the next question.

“Awww, come on Anxiety.” Morality interjected. “There has to be something. Everyone needs a hobby.”

Anxiety hesitated. Should he tell them?

“This is a waste of time,” Prince said dismissively. “He clearly doesn’t, Morality.”

Anxiety’s eyes narrowed. That was it.

“Actually,” he snapped. “I dance. Irish dance, to be specific.”

There was a pause. Then Prince burst out laughing.

“You? Dance?” he wheezed. “Oh, that’s a image. Nice one, Anxiety. I didn’t know you had an imagination.”

Anxiety’s stomach clenched. Fuck. He should have just kept his stupid mouth shut. There was a reason he’d never told the others. But he’d let Prince bait him, and now look what had happened.

“I’m sorry, but what is Irish Dance exactly?” Morality said in, trying to speak over the sound of Prince’s laughter.

“It’s a form of traditional dance from Ireland,” Logic explained. As Morality still looked confused, he continued, “Think Riverdance, for example.”

“Oh,” Morality blinked. “Well that’s … different.”

Anxiety was done. He wasn’t going to stay here and hear another incredulous reaction. He didn’t need this. Better to get out now and hope that they’d all have forgotten about this the next time he saw them.

He popped back into his room. He could feel himself shaking a little, so he took in a deep breath and let it out slowly, trying to calm himself down. But it wasn’t working. He was too upset. Angry at himself for saying anything. Angry at Prince for laughing. Humiliated that the others now knew.

Fuck it, he was going to dance. This was one of the reasons he had fallen in love with the sport. Whenever he danced he could pour out all of his feelings, let it all go. That’s why he loved hard shoes best. As he slammed his feet into the floor, being as loud as he could, it felt like he was on top of the world, and none of his fears could touch him. He loved soft shoe as well, but there was something special about hard shoe.

He slipped his on now, tying the laces, and pulling the buckles tight. He’d managed to fix up a small dance studio off from his room a while back. It had taken a little bit of time to adjust the mindscape before he had it just right, but he’d gotten it eventually. He’d also managed to make it soundproofed, not that he’d really needed to. His room was far enough away from the others that they wouldn’t hear him anyway.

His hard shoes on, he went to turn on the music. Most of the time, he practiced to the traditional music, going over his routines. But sometimes, especially when he was upset, he’d throw on his angrier, more modern music and just dance. No choreography, just whatever came to mind.

Today he went for a mix of the two, turning on The Devil’s Dance Floor by the Dropkick Murphys. It was an Celtic punk band, which meant it had an Irish sound, but it was angry enough to fit his mood.

As the opening notes sound,d he prepared himself point his right toe and counting off the beats. As the singing began, Anxiety danced.

A bang and treble, step back and step click down. Treble, treble and treble hop back. Bang and bang again, he had to pound out the anger. Forget what had happened

He danced harder and faster, his heart racing as the song went on. Before the song had reached its halfway point, he was already panting. But he kept going, his eyes now closed focused only on his feet and the beat of the song.

When it had finally finished, the last of the music fading out, he collapsed, sinking to his knees, gasping for air. But before he could drag himself over to the corner where he kept water bottles, there was already one there being stretched out in front of him.

Blinking in confusion, he followed the arm holding it up to see Morality, who was smiling down gently at him.

“That was really good, kiddo,” he said. “I can’t say I know anything about dance, but it was really fun to watch.”

Unsure of what was happening, Anxiety didn’t reach for the water. “How-how long were you watching?” he croaked.

“Take the water,” Morality coaxed him, pushing the bottle into Anxiety’s hand. “You looked like you were working hard.”

Once Anxiety had taken a few sips, Morality continued. “I think I came in about halfway through. Sorry for coming in without permission. I did knock first, but you didn’t respond, and well, I was worried so I came in anyway. Although I can guess why you didn’t hear me.”

Anxiety’s brow furrowed. “You were… worried about me? Why?”

Morality lowered himself down to sit beside Anxiety. “Well you did run out of there pretty quickly. I just wanted to make sure you were okay.”

“You mean after I humiliated myself,” Anxiety muttered bitterly, unable to help himself. “Yeah, I’m just fine.”

“Hey,” Morality’s arm settled on his shoulder. “You didn’t humiliate yourself at all.”

“Tell that the Prince” Anxiety replied, taking another sip of water.

Morality frowned. “Don’t worry I plan to have a talk with Prince later,” he said. “That wasn’t very nice of him earlier.”

Anxiety looked down at the water bottle. “You know, Prince may have laughed” he said carefully, “but you, um, you seemed pretty surprised too.”

He then felt arms wrap around him, as Morality pulled him close. “Oh, no, kiddo, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it like that. I was surprised, but it was a good surprised. I’d never heard of Irish dance before, so I was just surprised that it was your hobby. But I think it’s great I really do. And now that I’ve seen it, I can say it fits you.”

“Really?” Anxiety asked skeptically, “you don’t think it’s weird? Ot that I don’t seem like the kind of person who would dance at all?”

“It is unusual,” Morality said honestly, “but that’s why it fits you. An unique sport for a unique person. And the sound fits you too, loud and emotional.”

Anxiety smiled slightly. “It’s not always loud,” he said. “These are hard shoes. But in soft shoe, it’s quiet, more focused on grace.”

“I’d love to see that some day,” Morality said. “You’re a great dancer, and for the record, I don’t there’s people who do or don’t seem like dancers. All I know is that I loved watching you dance, and you seem like you really love to dance and that’s all that matters.”

Anxiety ducked his head down. “Thanks,” he said. “And maybe I can dance again for you sometime.”

“I’d love that, kiddo, I really would”

“I’m not dancing for Prince though”

“Yeah, that’s fair.“