#its from 13 years ago too😭

[biancasolangelo]

Anyone relate to the feeling of looking for a fanfic you read a very long time ago and then just *find* it 🤌🏻

[ayukas]

r/UberEATS 21 fate is real

r/UberEATS posted by

u/sakumyaegi・16 hr. ago

i'm dating my uber eats driver!

hi reddit!

a year ago, i made a post asking for advice on whether i was in love with my uber eats driver or if i was just insane and i received tons of responses on it. well, i finally remembered to come back and update… and guess what? turns out, i wasn't as crazy as many of you thought, because i'm now dating said uber eats driver!

it's actually insane looking back at all this. i spent an entire month giggling and kicking my feet every time he delivered to me, convinced i was just a delusional customer with a ridiculous crush. but after making that reddit post, we actually talked for awhile, got to know each other and even went on our first date! >O<

fun fact: while we were talking, he actually made a reddit post about me too, trying to help me out with my problems despite saying he didn’t like me like that (i know who you are finickydriver141.)

we match each other's freak SO hard, we're basically soulmates, and i'm so so so in love with him. to everyone who told me to shoot my shot back then, thank you! and to everyone who said i was insane… my boyfriend loves setting houses on fire…

anyways, tl;dr: i was in love with my uber eats driver, he was secretly (VERY obviously) in love with me too, and now we're disgustingly happy together. fate is real :D

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u/rainsinheaven・16 hr. ago

its been one year since that post??? omg

u/back2u・16 hr. ago

congrats op!! i remember those two posts lol u guys are so cute

u/finickydriver141・15 hr. ago

i love u so so so much too

u/cooingpenguin・14 hr. ago

i wanna fall in love with a cute uber eats driver too :|

u/jendiggity・10 hr. ago

im not an uber eats driver but im cute dm me

u/rrremmm・13 hr. ago

he was definitely in love with u dude he had a whole ass account on twt dedicated to u

u/sakumyaegi・13 hr. ago

oh?

u/finickydriver141・13 hr. ago

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH U BRUH

u/creativehamster・12 hr. ago

called it from the start I KNEW HE WAS IN LOVE WITH U TOO

u/ynisafreak・10 hr. ago

genuinely cant believe ive been suffering for over a year already

u/yuwushi・10 hr. ago

same

u/ynisafreak・10 hr. ago

stop interacting with me

u/sioningz・9 hr. ago

finally omg. its sion's time to shine

u/jwisung・9 hr. ago

jisung's* time

u/yuwushi・10 hr. ago

the both of u suck. its actually YUSHI'S time

previous / masterlist

notes the 😭 end 😭😭😭 thank u everyone 4 reading my silly little smau and sticking till the end, im so extremely grateful for all the love and support ive received, ur comments and reblogs meant the absolute world to me :') ill cherish this smau forever… please dont forget user sakumyaegi and haejjang everybody… 🥹🤍

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[sofs16]

just us- cl16

!! smau and real life

pairing: charles leclerc x celebrity!fem reader

summary: in which charles doesn’t know who y/n y/l/n is and yn doesn’t know who charles is

yn •••

liked by taylorswift, kyliejenner, and 7,202,686 others yn paris fashion week content upcoming <3 have a great day babes

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ynfilmz MOTHER WILL SERVE !!!

givenchy 🤍🤍🤍

honeymoon Beauty ❤️

emmachamberlain see u lovely

yns16 AAAAAAAA LEETS GOOO HAVE A GREAT DAY 2!! august 13, 2023

yndaily •••

liked by ynstagram, and 3,282 others

yndaily 📸 | Y/n arrives at the Givenchy show for Paris Fashion week!

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august 14, 2023

leclercupdates •••

liked by clec16, and 1,567 others

leclercupdates Charles just got inside the Givenchy show for Paris Fashion week!

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chacha1655 you’re doing great hunny 😄📸

sainzleclercf1 serve

august 14, 2023

yn •••

liked by pierregasly and 8,292,697 others

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leclerccccyn MOTHER ARE U BESIDE CHARLES?!?

august 14, 2023

leclercupdates and yndaily •••

liked by 16yln, and 10,5839 others yndaily 📸 | Charles Leclerc and Y/n Y/l/n sitting beside each other for the show! via @ voguemagazine and @yn’s post ! view all 1,010 comments

leclercpiano WHAT YNDAILY AND LECLERCUPDATES COLLAB POST????

user48393 WHAT THE FUCKKK

user9653 was not on my bingo card but YES

author lets pretend its them in the pic, kay? (:

august 14, 2023

yndaily •••

liked by 9,292 others

yndaily 📸| yn at the givenchy show! view all 684 comments

august 14, 2023

charles sat down quite early for the show. he had been invited to a few fashion shows this year and wanted to attend some as a break from racing. he was honored to be sitting first row.

charles was chatting with the people beside him when a girl took her seat beside him. he turned his head to her and he started to stare as you sent a smile to him.

he suddenly wished he took pierre’s advice and wore a suit seeing as you were wearing a stunning backless dress with a black train.

“charles leclerc” he smiled nervously “y/n y/l/n” you extended your hand and he shook it.

“y/n! can we get a photo of you!” 3 photographers rushed over to her and she nodded with a smile. she soon nudged charles, who was staring at her, to lean in and join.

“have a good night, boys” you turn back to charles “so, you go to these shows often?” “no-no not much, work keeps me busy. you?” “fashion week is my favorite week of the year so.. yes”

“you- are in fashion?”charles tilted his head “Oh, no! I’m just some actress” “ah really?” “mhm, but i’ve been on a break for a while now just enjoying things” you shrugged “can’t take breaks like that where i work” you laughed “what do you do?”

“Just a racer” “you look like a Mercedes or Ferrari guy” you squinted your eyes. “Ferrari forever, belle” charles let that last part slip but thankfully the show was starting and you both just smiled at each other.

yn •••

liked by charles_leclerc and 10,696,707 others

yn truly exquisite

@givenchy honored to be here

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charles_leclerc Just some actress? 😂

⤷ yn @charles_leclerc just a racer? ⤷ charles_leclerc @yn You started it, belle.

⤷ yn @charles_leclerc je suis désolé, chérie. i’ll have to make it up to you next time

[liked by charles_leclerc] ⤷ f1yln @yn @charles_leclerc what the fuck just happened.

⤷ charlesupdates @yn @charles_leclerc the charles was too stunned to speak. SHE CALLED HIM SWEETHEART 😭

august 14, 2023

charles_leclerc started following yn. 2h ago

yn started following charles_leclerc. 1m ago

leclercupdates and yndaily •••

liked by 10,697 others leclercupdates y/n and charles both now follow each other! view all 2,697 comments

ynleclerc next thing u know they’ll be married 😏

ynmother not vroom vroom man stealing MY wife.

august 14, 2023

yndaily •••

liked by leclercupdates, and 1,607 others

yndaily 📸| yn arrives at the ysl show! view all 59 comments

august 15, 2023

leclercupdates •••

liked by ynupdates, and 1,060 others

leclercupdates Charles arrives at the YSL show!

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ynleclerc my man squaring up knowing yn will be there 😭

gaslyleclerc SERVEDDDD

august 15, 2023

yn •••

liked by charles_leclerc, and 7,110,707 others

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august 15, 2023

charles_leclerc •••

liked by yn, and 2,202,292 others

charles_leclerc Wow! @YSL ❤️

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ynloml AHAAHHAA YN GOT CHARLES TO POST FASHION WEEK CONTENT DUBSS

yn told you u should post this ;)

⤷ charles_leclerc @yn It seems you’re always right 🤷‍♂️

[liked by yn]

august 15, 2023

yn •••

liked by charles_leclerc, and 11,586,596 others

yn winky winky

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pierregasly winky winky

⤷ yn @ pierregasly alpine

⤷ pierregasly @yn @charles_leclerc taught you well

⤷ carlossainz55 @ pierregasly @yn winky winky

⤷ yn @ carlossainz55 forza ferrari ❤️

⤷ carlossainz55 @charles_leclerc she’s a keeper

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⤷ yn @ carlossainz55 @charles_leclerc is that so? august 16, 2023

yn •••

liked by charles_leclerc, carlossainz55, and 20,292,9494 others

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charles_leclerc ❤️❤️❤️

⤷ yn charles_leclerc thanks for the racing lesson❤️‍🔥

⤷ charles_leclerc yn Anytime ;)

carlossainz55 Come to the paddock?

⤷yn carlossainz55 kinda wish the other ferrari asked me, but sure carlos!!!

⤷carlossainz55 charles_leclerc

⤷pierregasly charles_leclerc

⤷lewishamilton charles_leclerc

⤷landonorris charles_leclerc

⤷maxverstappen1 charles_leclerc

⤷danielricciardo charles_lecler

⤷scuderiaferrarri charles_leclerc❤️🏎️

f1griddd bro summoned the whole grid

august 17, 2023

Charles Leclerc ✓⃝

charles_leclerc

august 17, 2023

Charles Leclerc

Apologies, belle.

Would you like to come to the paddock at Netherlands next week? :)

yn

charles, if you’re asking because half of the grid just spammed you, please don’t feel pressured to do so. I was just kidding but if you want me there, i’d happily go

Charles Leclerc

No! I want you there but I was not

sure if you’d like to come

yn

25th, correct?

Charles Leclerc

Yes, belle❤️

yn

you better win leclerc❤️

Charles Leclerc

I’ll do my best, it would be a shame

if I lost within your presence 😂

yn

mhmmm in your dreams

night leclerc

Charles Leclerc

goodnight, belle

[ yn reacted with 💤]

yn •••

liked by chares_leclerc and 17,293,382 others yn red isn’t really my color but it’ll do for today

congrats on pole position leclerc charles_leclerc

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f1rrari OH HE DOWN BADDDD LOOK AT THAT EYE CONTACT

charles_leclerc What are you talking about, you look great in every color, especially red❤️

⤷ yn charles_leclerc i guess you’ll have to invite me to more races so i get to wear it more 🤷🏻‍♀️

⤷ charles_leclerc yn I guess I will

august 26, 2023

yn •••

liked by charles_leclerc, and 30,181,595 others yn he said he’ll do his best…

i don’t know much about f1 but apparently leclerc got p1 (is that correct)?? and i could not be more proud of this silly guy! keep it up monaco’s princess 🏎️

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scuderriaferrari Nice to have you at the garage ❤️

charles_leclerc Very proud you know what P1 is! Thank you, belle ❤️❤️❤️

ynbabes she really said fuck soft launches 😞

august 27, 2023

charles_leclerc •••

liked by yn, and 5,697,797 others charles_leclerc Very glad to be back on the podium! Congrats to carlossainz55 on P2! Thank you to yn, I could hear your screams a mile away even if you don’t know what is happening❤️😘

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yn oops.. was i that loud

⤷carlossainz55 yes

⤷danielricciardo yes

⤷landonorris yes

⤷charles_leclerc yes but it is the thought that counts🙂

august 28, 2023

charles_leclerc •••

liked by yn, and 7,394,696 others

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august 29, 2023

charles_leclerc •••

liked by yn, and 3,689,595 others

charles_leclerc P1! Great race with everything maximized today🙂 Thank you to everyone, the team, and yn for screaming much louder ❤️❤️❤️

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yn ❤️❤️❤️

ynleclerc YEAH THEYRE DEFO A THINGGGG

august 30, 2023

abbie🏎️ ynsleclerc • 1h

no bcuz why was charles spotted with a brunette a while ago………… YN BABY IS YNCHARLES STILL ALIVE??

yn •••

liked by charles_leclerc, and 43,282,585 others

yn my bad, i’ll stop coloring my hair so you guys don’t get confused ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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charles_leclerc Only woman for me, belle❤️ Don’t get too jealous 😂

⤷ yn charles_leclerc my man, guys! my man!!!!!

pierregasly thank god it’s official. you’re all charles talks about

⤷ charles_leclerc what the hell, pierre!😂

ynleclerc should i change my username to reserve it for you?

[liked by yn]

charles_leclerc •••

liked by yn, and 16,373,595 others

charles_leclerc My belle ❤️ I do not know much about fashion but thank you to the person who seated us together. I will listen to you talk about which shirt matches which skirt for hours as long as it’s you talking. Te amo, Je t’aime, I love you in all languages ❤️❤️❤️

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ynleclerc giggling silly gf x poetic bf

leclerc1655 THE TEXT ON THE 2ND POST??

⤷ charles_leclerc Just a joke but one day❤️

yn wait i feel bad for making my caption silly now..

⤷ charles_leclerc but it’s true… brunette, blond, or dark hair, you’ll always be the girl with me :)

yn je t’aime chérie, i’d learn f1 mechanics for you anyday and scream till my voice gives out<3

[violetsiren90]

Evergreen | Bang Chan/Reader

Pairing: wolf hybrid!Bang Chan x human!f!Reader

(A Nothing But You universe fic)

Genre: hybrid AU; one-shot; established relationship; domestic fluff; slice of life; mountain living; pregnancy

Word Count: 1689

Summary: Seasons change, life moves on - but some things stay the same.

Content Warning: PG-13 for themes but my page and all its content are 18+ (minors, dni); wolf hybrid rut; mentions of knotting and marking; mentions of rut symptoms that include insomnia and lack of appetite; deep emotions; the use of "your" and "belonging" in the sense of committed love NOT ownership; pregnancy; mentions of different states of undress; domesticity and shared domestic responsibility; homesteading; Chris being the sweetest and most caring 😭💕; Chris chopping wood 😳; mentions of food and eating; implications of sexual intimacy, parenthood

Author's Note: I guess I went and fell in love with these two. This is a companion one-shot to Nothing But You. This one-shot is a different flavor, not as soft and cozy all the way through - there are more notes here, I think. Some sweeter, some sharper, but in the end, it's still them. I wanted to peek into their lives and see how they lived and loved. 🥰

If no one has told you yet today, please know that you are so loved, and so worthy of love! 🧜‍♀️💜

~January~

Snow burdens the branches of the pines, the bitter North wind whistling between the trees, through the darkness, and over the blanket of fresh powder shrouding the forest floor. The mountains are sleeping, but your wolf is awake.

He nearly collapses, sinking to his knees as he shuts the cabin door. You spring up from your place by the fire to rush to him, but he holds up a hand, a growl rumbling low in his chest. You freeze. Panting, he slowly raises his face. Snowflakes cling to his lashes and dust over his head and shoulders. The dusky circles under his brown eyes speak of weariness, yet their expression is dark and wild. His nose is flushed from the chill. Beads of sweat quiver on his brow.

The fever still hasn't broken.

It appeared two days ago, with other sudden changes. Christopher has grown restless and short-tempered, and won't sleep in your bed. He smells intoxicatingly of cedar wood and amber.

You've been through it all before, his annual rut at the end of winter - four days of watching him endure the throes of primal agony. He would steal away at night, to hunt, your proximity far too overwhelming for his heightened senses and desires. Unchecked he would fail to stop himself. He would take you, mark you, knot you.

He hadn't in the four years you'd shared a bed and the comfort of the other's flesh. You'd spoken of the mating rites, but he always held off, afraid to break you. So protective of you always, and without a second a thought to himself.

You respected his space, his wishes, attempting to help him navigate the torment of his natural longings as best you could.

But this year it had taken him like a wild fire. The fever wouldn't break. He wouldn't sleep or eat. And now, here he was, half frozen and shivering on the floor.

No more.

You slowly cross to pull him up against his weak protesting. You peel away his frost-damp clothes and drag his heavy frame to rest upon the bed. With his last strength he tries to push you away, but you slip under the blankets beside him, pulling him into your arms.

His eyes flutter shut as he curls against you and nuzzles into your neck, whimpering that when he wakes it will be too hard for him to hold back.

You tell him not to try.

You tell him that you need him, want him - all of him. This part too, with all the others.
You assure him softly that you're not afraid, nor should he fear to make you his...you already belong to one another, after all.

You whisper that you love him.

Christopher exhales, tears trickling down his cheeks to mingle with the sweat and melted snow. You hold him to your breast, brushing soft kisses into his hair.

Cedar wood and amber.

~April~

You shake out a flannel shirt, crinkled and bunched from wringing to hang it on the line that stretches from the side of the cabin to a young yellow birch within the clearing. You smile as you fasten it with clips. He had worn it on the first day he visited the diner. It was faded then, and it has grown more timeworn still. But the fabric is thick, the seams hand-sewn, and if the dye has begun to abandon the thread it is only ever the softer. 

Strong and soft, like him.

The warblers are singing in the branches of the white pines as they busily fashion their nests. You stroke a hand down over the little bump of your belly, musing over the nesting that has started to change the trappings of your own little home. There's still plenty of time, but Christopher's excitement has poured forth in the form of hard work, and you're certain that when your time comes he'll have stored by enough for the next three winters yet.

You hear the rumbling of his truck a ways off. He left in the wee hours, the bed loaded down with wares to sell to suppliers in town. By the time you've strung up the last piece of washing he's already at the mouth of the trail, his arms laden with flowers and parcels wrapped in brown paper. The light wash of his denim shirt brings out the early kisses of the spring sunshine on his honeyed skin.

You follow him into the house where he puts your wildflowers into a vase and insists that you sit while he tends to lunch. Unwrapping the brown paper packages you find a set of pretty maternity pajamas, a box of chocolates, and the goat's milk soap you like. 

He's already eaten half his sandwich when he sets yours down, and you tug his wrist, pulling him into a chair to prevent him from setting out to work yet again. 

When the dishes are cleared you won't let him leave. He'd work every second of every day and well into many nights if you let him. But today you want him to rest. It's a mild and lovely afternoon and the chores are done. Other things can wait.

You sit across his lap on the porch swing he built two summers before. Your arms encircle one of his as you rest your head on his shoulder. 

His lips brush your forehead as his thumb caresses the little curved scar where the slope of your shoulder meets your neck. The one that means you belong to him and no one else.

The birds sing and the swing creaks.


~July~

He calls you from around the other side of the house. You draw an arm over your dripping brow and struggle up from where you're crouched to spread a batch of plump, ripe blackberries between the screens of the drying rack. There are still so many. Some you'll turn into jam. Christopher will eat the rest. He loves them. You rest the colander still half-full with berries against the full swell of your belly, wrapping an arm about the rim to keep it in place. 

You're hot and uncomfortable these days. But, when the morning's work is through, you'll go down to the lake together to shed the day's heat in the cool, still waters. You'd been every afternoon that week. Christopher was a strong swimmer, and would stay in far longer while you sat on the shady bank with a book. When he finally quit the water yesterday, he'd never found his clothes - instead he'd pressed you back into the lush green grass and made you sigh his name. 

As you round the far side of the cabin your eyes catch his form. He stands under the sweltering sun, stripped down to pair of fitted khaki work pants and thick suede boots. His muscular chest is slicked with sweat and he stands, panting, with his weight pressed into his right hip. He holds an axe in his hand.

His mouth pulls up at the corner and his tail swishes at the site of you. You tuck yourself against him wrapping your free arm around his damp waist. Oh how you want to swim. To hold his strong body in the dark water.

He gestures with the axe at what he's fitted together with stripped pieces of soft pine. A little cradle. He nudges it with his foot, setting it to rock. You bring a blackberry to his lips and he accepts it.

You kiss him.

Salty skin and summer fruit.


~October~

Your eyes flutter open to the sound of little cries. You sit up and stretch, blinking in the softness of the early autumn light.

You inhale deeply. Cinnamon and hickory smoke.

Outside the air is growing crisp and the leaves of the deciduous trees are blushing and abandoning their hosts, covering the floor of the wood in their pageantry. Fruit and game have begun to grow scarce as the forest prepares to enter the long slumber of the colder months. Nights require fires more often than not.

There is a small fire crackling now. A little black cauldron hangs over the flames, and you can smell the porridge simmering within. The man you love sits in a rocking chair near the warmth, a little bundle in his arms. He looks up at you as you rise and he smiles. He's been all smiles lately. In fact, you don't think the little dimple has left his cheek since he met the tiny she-wolf in his arms two weeks ago.

He says she looks like you, but all you see in her beautiful little features is Christopher. She has two tiny fuzzy ears and a darling little tale.

You reach down to stroke her fat cheek and your heart aches.

It aches from love, so much of it.

When the doctor placed her in your arms a part of your heart that you hadn't known existed burst to beating. You thought you loved the man who had knitted her inside you as much as you were able, but you had been ignorant in that respect as well. When he took your daughter in his arms and looked down on her face you thought that there wasn't room in your chest for things so vast, so deep.

You named her Hannah, for the sister her father had lost. It meant "grace".

So fitting, you think.

You move your fingers into Christopher's curls and he looks up at you. His brown eyes are soft and warm. The��lovely eyes you saw that first day at the general store - the same through every changing season.

The maple and the birch will wax and wane, but not the cedar, not the pine.

Some things will remain.

And he is evergreen.
 

-Fin-

[apurpledust]

some crappy photos I took from this Napoleonic magazine I bought (only because it had Junot as its cover 😭) . it was published like 13 years ago but holds up pretty well I think

There's a few pages dedicated to Junot too🥺

[thephantomcasebook]

Last scene of Alicole was so weird 😭 what are they doing to my parents??

It's because Condal and Hess are acting like Pretentious middle schoolers with no emotional intelligence in their writing.

They've sat around and cooked up all these scenarios and patted themselves on the back about how "complicated" it all is. When, in reality, they've made an incredibly less human experience than ever before.

They've taken the emotion and intimacy out of sex for Alicent and Criston. The two characters in the show in which love and romance would play an incredible part of the reason their doing this. If Alicent and Criston are going to break their vows and their moral code it's not because they're feeling fucking horny. If that was the case this shit would've happened years ago.

It's a vey, very, immature meditation on sex from people who spent way too long in Hollywood. They want to explore Alicent's sexuality as a repressed religious type person, but they leave out the emotional and romantic element that would be the absolute only key to the door of that person entering that place.

Now, they're just basically writing pornography.

Alicent is a strawman understanding of what dumb ass progressive writers would think a Conservative woman's sexual awakening looks like, skewed in a very unrealistic point of view of sex and human relationships. It's like a fucking abomination of retarded sexual revolution logic that has been proven to be unrealistic and detrimental to women for decades.

Alicent and Criston would not be having sex if they didn't love one another, because, the characters have been set up by Season 1 of not giving into base desires. For this storyline to work and make sense, they have to portray Alicent and Criston as being in love, like really - really - in love. This idea of Alicent falling apart and feeling guilty while getting railed in secret is basically the plot of about 35% of pornography.

Alicent is basically the protagonist of a Spicy Detective pulp from the 30's-40's of a good girl turned wanton and getting drawn into crime. But those stories were directed at 13-25 year old males to masturbate too not to tell high art.

Its sex without a story and without understanding human relationships, written by a bunch of progressive political hacks that write like they've never been in love before or have never made love to anyone in their life.

Which, to be honest, wouldn't surprise me in the least.

From one writer to another, "Messy" isn't a story. Messy is code for having a half-ass idea and doing it anyway without justification. Mess is fucking lazy.

[dearly-somber]

Rain Dance | h.js

-> pairing. non-idol!han jisung x wolf shifter!reader (f)

-> genre. strangers-to-???, werewolf/wolf shifter!au, horror elements

-> rating. 13+

-> w/c. 2047

-> warnings. y/n’s kinda creepy in this one ngl 😭

-> a/n. I did a choreo to this song when I started dancing years ago and I loved it so I was like “huh.”

-> collection. songfics

-> started. ???

-> fin. Dec. 15th, 2020 @ 12:05

-> edited. Mon., Nov. 20th, 2023 @ 07:23

Your hair stuck to your neck and cheeks as rain poured from the heavens, water sloshing loudly down the streets as it made its way to the sewers in the large city of Seoul.

Your clothes hugged your body tightly, almost see-through with how wet everything was. Blood was running down your arm, trickling off the tips of your fingers with each step. You kept your head down, hoping that it'd hide your eyes, which were currently glowing a dim gold. Your hands were shaking, and everytime someone walked forward to ask if you were alright you pushed past them. You had to get away from their territory, unless you'd like to get into another fight. Which of course, you didn't.

With each extension of your legs, your breathing became more and more labored, but you moved with steadfast determination. You had a destination and you wouldn't let anyone stop you from reaching it.

Or at least, that's what you had been set on.

You hadn't realized that a man from across the street had looked at you and saw the blood running down your forearm, leaving not only a trail of it on the sidewalk but also drawing onlooker’s eyes to you. This man's hair was brown, like his eyes. He had an ear piercing and held a pure white umbrella over his head to shield his outfit from the rain: a white collared shirt with a fluffy jacket hanging around his shoulders, tight black jeans matching his combat boots nicely. He looked angelic with the water cascading around him, as if it were forbidden to touch his skin.

He wasn't alone, however. He had a chaperone with him; a man in a fully black suit with an earpiece and sunglasses hiding his eyes. He looked more like a bodyguard than a chaperone, though the fact that he was standing in front of a black limousine gave off the impression that he was being chaperoned.

"Jisung-ssi, aren't you getting into the car? You'll catch a cold if you stay outside." The suit -man said, leaning down slightly to talk to Jisung over the rain.

The man nodded before turning to his friend. “Stay here, hyung. I'll be right back."

"Jisung—“

It was too late to stop him as the man, Jisung, jogged over the street towards you, stopping you cautiously.

"Excuse me? You don't look so good." Jisung called from behind you, making you turn around. Your eyes went back to their natural color when you saw his face, your shoulders tensing.

Instead of answering, you just nodded slowly. Jisung walked forward hesitantly, not wanting to frighten you. "Why don't you come with me? I can give you medical assistance back at my manor... And a new pair of clothes,” he added with a reassuring smile, putting his hand on your uninjured arm, walking closer and shielding you from the rain. You took a moment but nodded, not having found your voice just yet.

After the confirmation, Jisung rushed you over to the limousine and an anxious looking guard, tense as he watched you.

"Jisung-ssi, why would you—"

"She's injured, Minho hyung. We're helping her." Jisung said firmly, opening the car door for you and letting you slide into the back of the car. The back was spacious, and it felt as if it could be it's own little room. Jisung closed the door with a smile before turning back to his bodyguard.

"We can't take her, Jisung. She needs to go."

"But she's injured!"

"She must've gotten it in some sort of fight then, no? She could be dangerous." Minho pleaded, putting both his hands on the younger's shoulders for emphasis. Jisung bit his lip before pressing it into a thin line.

"She's coming with us, and I will help her. End of story. Tell Hyunjin to look for some comfortable clothes. She can use some of mine. And get Chan hyung to run a bath—"

"Jisung—"

"That is an order, Minho,” Jisung said sternly. Minho sighed in frustration before nodding stiffly and opening the door for him. With a thankful nod, Jisung got into the car, watching as Minho took out his phone before sliding into the passenger seat.

You were looking at Jisung curiously, your eyes glued to his form. You had one hand over your still bleeding arm.

"I'm sorry about that. My name is Han Jisung, it's a pleasure to meet you." Jisung smiled at you, his eyes drifting from the blank expression on your face to your arm.

You followed his gaze and winced slightly. "I'm sorry about your car. It might need cleaning,” you said, your voice gravelly from not talking for the last few hours or so.

"Oh no, that's fine, really! The bigger issue here is your arm..." Jisung waited for the car to start moving before he got up from his seat and crouched in front of you. He grabbed a scarf that had been laying in the corner of the car which you hadn't noticed until now, taking your arm and wrapping the cloth around it, tying it firmly.

"This will be all I can do until we get to my house, but it should be enough to slow the bleeding."

"You're the son of those two doctors, aren't you?" You asked in a low voice, meeting his eyes as he looked at you slowly. With a sigh he nodded, smiling half heartedly.

"I am, yes. My parents are the best doctors in the country." You nodded slowly. That explained why he was good with injuries. Clearing his throat after a minute of silence, he looked at you curiously. "I don't think I know your name?"

"Right. Sorry. My name is Y/N." You tried to mimmick his smile, fighting against your urge to lean forward and sniff him. Jisung nodded and smiled, lurching to the side when the driver hit the breaks.

You laughed at him, helping him up and gently patting the seat beside you. Embarrassed, he sat next to you while running a hand through his hair, trying to strike up conversation.

By the time you got to his manor, it was around 22:00 due to terrible traffic. And when you said manor, you were being serious.

It had at least three stories and a gorgeous garden leading up to the garage. The main gate was a pure black and from outside the car window you could see the pure white house and large oak door leading inside. You took a small road leading away from the main entrance to the garage.

The doors inside opened automatically and once you were parked inside, you saw how many cars they had. It seemed like they had an endless amount. A beautiful red Ferrari, a Grey Porsche and what you think was a black Bugatti. Jisung led you into the actual house, with it's carpeted floors and large fireplace in the center.

A seven inch flat screen TV was mounted above the fireplace. On it's mantel, there was a neat row of what seemed to be family pictures, a small, maybe five or six year old Jisung in each picture. As he led you further inside towards the steps, you saw their kitchen, all white with tiled floors and birch cabinets. It smelt like cookies and cream and milk.

Off to the left of the kitchen was the dining room, a beautiful rectangular glass table lined with ten chairs total. Jisung shouted something about a guest and being in his room as he took you up the stairs to the second story, leading you down a series of different hallways before finally turning into his room.

Though you hadn't noticed him before, you finally saw Minho trailing after you and Jisung, his glasses in his jacket pocket. You looked away while he glared at you suspiciously.

Walking inside Jisung's room, your jaw dropped.

It was a gorgeous beige color with a king sized bed in the middle, a large carpet at its feet. There was a birch desk to the left of the bed, a PC sitting neatly in it's center. The door to his bathroom was ajar, the smell of strawberry scented bubbles wafting through the air. A man walked out of the bathroom, looking curiously from you to Jisung.

"Your bath is ready, sir."

"Call me by my name, hyung. Thank you, by the way. Did Hyunjin hyung get the clothes?"

"Yes. They're in the bathroom."

"Wonderful!" Jisung turned, beckoning you over. "That'll be all. Minho hyung, you can wait outside. This won't take long." Reluctantly, both men left the room, closing the door behind them.

"Who was that man?"

"Oh, Chan hyung? He's a friend of mine." Jisung said with a smile, walking over to his desk before taking out medical supplies and patting the edge of the bed. You sat down and held out your arm, watching curiously as he untied the scarf and started doing doctor things you didn't understand.

"He seems more like a servant than a friend..." You said thoughtfully, nervous as to Jisung's reaction. He merely laughed, however, easing your nerves.

"I guess. They, all of my friends I mean, are more or less bodyguards to either myself or my parents. Since we're all worth quite a lot of money we do have to deal with a few attempted attacks once in a blue moon." You nod, mind racing. Who'd knew that a family of renowned doctors faced the fear of assassination?

Either way, you didn't care. You looked over Jisung again, and felt your heart leap like it had before.

He must be him, then. You didn't think you'd ever find him, but you guess it was true when they said it would be a chance meeting. "All done! There should be a pair of clean, dry clothes in the bathroom along with a nice, warm bath. Take as long as you'd like. I'll send someone up when dinner’s ready."

You nodded speechlessly, watching him leave before walking over to the bathroom. Suddenly aware of how much you were dripping around the room, you made a mental note to dry the floor before you left.

After a nice long bath, you were called downstairs for dinner. You were escorted by a young looking man, though he still towered over you, as most of the men you'd met so far did. When you got downstairs jazz music filled your ears and the lights were all on in the kitchen and dining room. Jisung ushered you over with a smile, patting the arm of the chair next to him.

You shuffled over hesitantly, bowing to everyone already at the table before taking a seat.

An older man and woman sat at each end of the table, looking at you curiously. "You're Y/N, I presume?"

"Yes. I'm sorry for causing you all such trouble... Your son was kind enough to invite me inside,” you explained softly, meeting Jisung's eyes before looking away once more. The urge to smell him washed over you again, but you resisted easily enough.

"It's quite alright, dear. We're glad you're looking healthier. Now let's eat!"

You thanked everyone for the food before eating as if it were your last meal, the eyes around the table keeping close watch. There were a good amount of unfamiliar faces sitting around the table eating with you, though you recognized Chan, Minho and the boy, Jeongin, who had escorted you down. You assumed the others were the rest of the bodyguards Jisung had mentioned.

"Why're you wearing Jisung's clothes, by the way?" Jeongin asked after swallowing his food, a brow tilted curiously.

"I'm not uh.. I'm not sure... I didn't know these belonged to him—"

"I leant her some of my older clothes since I don't think Mom's style would fit her."

You laughed awkwardly, listening into the conversations starting all around you now.

When the meal ended you insisted on cleaning the dishes, as a thank you for Jisung’s help.

Jisung came to you a bit after, smiling. His hair was damp, probably from a recent shower, and he was wearing a pair of silky black pajamas.

"Yes?" You probed. He stood there quietly, staring thoughtfully. He huffed before clearing his throat.

"Right. The guest room you'll be sleeping in is across from mine. If you need anything at all, just ask. We're happy to help."

"Thank you..." You mumbled, bowing. You held eye contact with him, both of you sharing the moment in complete silence. "Uhm, Jisung?"

"Yes?"

"Why are you helping me?" You asked in a small voice, tilting your head to the side. Jisung shrugged thoughtfully.

"I don't know. There's just something about you that makes me want to help."

You nodded, pushing back the feeling of your eyes changing color.

"Goodnight, Y/N. Sleep well."

"Goodnight, Jisung."

You creeped out into the hallway, your feet completely silent.

Your eyes were glowing a faint gold, your vision as clear as if it were still daylight. Since you couldn't see anyone, you walked across the hall, opening the door to Jisung’s room quietly before stepping inside.

Quiet as a mouse, you watched over him, his breath even as he slept, completely unaware. You crawled on top of him, somehow not waking him up. In the cover of darkness you leant in and sniffed at his neck, a blissful feeling making its way down the back of your throat. He was the one for sure.

Jisung's eyes opened, before widening. As he was about to scream for help, you covered his mouth with your palm, putting your finger over your lips in a hushing motion. His eyes were wide and fearful but most of all questioning. With a small, toothy smile, you leaned in towards his ear.

"It'll all make sense soon."

Your eyes glowed just a bit brighter, Jisung's mind going hazy as he relaxed underneath you. You used your free hand to tilt his head back, exposing his neck. Easily sensing the vein pulsating with each beat of his heart. You straddled him since he was already awake. You brushed your lips over his neck, chuckling as a chill ran down his spine.

Biting down onto his neck, his back arched up, gasp muffled by your hand. The last thing he saw was a flash of pure black fur and glowing golden eyes before going limp.

[cainightfics]

hello.

Hope u r doing well! I love ur fics!

In one of ur asks u mentioned that you read Manga for fun. So any mangas u like or recommend ( besides berserk, already read it)?

thank u! hope ur doing well too

i haven't been reading "good" manga much recently. i read random yaoi for a laugh or easy entertainment, same with fic, but it's been a while since ive really dug into something. a lot of this has to do with grad school killing my creativity, tbh....

but to answer ur question, i really like naoki urasawa, i think hes written the most "literary" manga out there. everybody knows about monster, but 20th/21st century boys and pluto are also worth checking out. urasawa has the most consistently good body of work ive encountered from a mangaka. like, i would say fullmetal alchemist probably has my vote for manga that remains strong throughout and is just undeniably a classic, but urasawa has so much breadth across his body of work. there's shit in monster and 20th century boys i still think about, and i read them like 13 years ago.

i am keeping up with the summer hikaru died, though the plot is at a bit of a lull and i get the sense the author isn't completely sure what to do with their own success. i absolutely love the concept nonetheless though, and think the first few chapters are great on their own.

a lesser known, cult favourite of mine is homunculus. really really different than most manga you've probably read already. can't say much more than that without spoiling.

i think vagabond is worth checking out, even though the story is probably akin to many things youve already read, and it remains unfinished. same with the climber. not super unique stories or themes, but generally well executed.

my guilty pleasure manga is kuroshitsuji lol. its my opinion that yana toboso is kind of a genius but.isnt even really aware of it bc shes cursed with gooner mentality. the story really really sucks right now and has for the past 2 arcs lol but i could write an entire thesis on my various marxist readings of kuroshitsuji. and im not even joking. it's sooooo stupid but it's fascinating to me bc yana is making this like insane pastiche of victorian literary conventions AND contemporary victorian anachronisms that is honestly really camp and interesting but it's just like. FULL of her weird fetishes. not even the obvious pedo stuff but like once you get into it you start seeing her vomit fetish and foot fetish and dollification fetish and it's just really interesting to analyze 😭 like i wanna put her in a lab and study her idk. a little known fact to u all about me is im like obsessed with ppl who are weirdly horny and i conduct what i call "goonvestigations" on them and to me yana toboso is like a top tier gooner to investigate. omg notice how this is already the longest paragraph in this reply... i wouldn't say i recommend reading it lmfao i just think it may be hilariously shocking to you all that i follow that slop. not even just follow. i read the LEAKS 😭

anyways. i would also say oyasumi punpun and blood on the tracks (moreso the beginning bits, it does kinda fall off) are things u might like if you were into the "darker" aspects of berserk (and im not talking the shitty rape scenes, moreso the emotional toxic entanglement of fucked up characters). obviously ya gotta read junji ito too.

i also read saiki k, one punch man, and mob psycho 100 for fun. i think when you read enough of the same thing, eventually you get to the point where all you wanna read is parodies of the genre lol. i read sooooo much manga when i was younger that now its all the same to me, and i just wanna see people make fun of it. that's kinda where im at with manga lately... none of the new stuff interests me unless it's self reflective satire of its own principles. this is why i like mr robot too btw. it functions as satire of both online political movements and their material impotence, and how they are shaped by 90s american capitalism-critical media like american psycho, the sopranos, fight club etc that are about protagonists essentially so caught up in themselves their worldviews totally occlude reality. but don't get me going about mr robot or ill go on forever...

[moxielynx]

@whatudottu hihihihiiiii so ur ramblings about tetrax has me wanting to talk about tetrax cause i will take any opportunity to talk about him

d-23 tetrax is cool even if he didnt speak much in the episode, honestly d-23 ben deserved to be smacked around a little (/J /J that kid is like 13 😭), the twist that they were actually the good guys this whole time was great, especially since sixsix was also working with azmuth, which was a nice perspective

i like to imagine that d-23 tetrax is actually a total sweetheart and didnt actually like fighting ben since ben is just a dumb kid who doesnt know any better (even if he is a stubborn brat)

im pretty certain that petropia in the reboot is perfectly fine because for a while Vilgax wasnt. Vilgax, so he couldn't have hired Tetrax to steal whatever that crystal was from petropia then destroy it, so reboot tetrax is just what happens as a result of Tetrax not facing the consequences of his actions so now he's a MEANIE!!! but the dad instinct is still there judging from the way he interacts with Ben in "Mutiny for the Bounty"

as much as i prefer classic tetrax i really like that they went with a completely different approach with reboot tetrax, and like it makes sense too considering theres no way petropia would be destroyed in the reboot as well if vilgax couldnt do it (if petropia were to also get destroyed in the reboot then that would be so funny cause that basically means the planet is fucked no matter what 💀💀), its really cool to see that this might be what tetrax was like before working for vilgax and makes me really think about how different each version of tetrax is, and only makes me even more depressed that we never got prime tetrax in Omniverse, especially since there could've been so many moments where tetrax could've showed up

classic tetrax obviously isnt as cruel and uncaring as we see in the reboot or as he said when he was telling ben about his backstory because if he really didn't care as much but was like "okay this is fucked up i need to get my act together" then he wouldn't have looked so distraught watching his planet fall

i refuse to acknowledge the change in reaction in uaf tho cause it fucking SUCKED they cant just turn him into this stoic fucking guy after he literally shows up and shakes ben like a rattle, that and also they obviously didnt gaf about his backstory cause in the og backstory you can tell petropia's destruction was YEARS, probably decades ago cause he had those back spikes and even a different outfit but in the uaf version its just the same exact model THEY DONT CARE ABOUT TETRAX LIKE I DO!!!!!!

uaf tetrax made me so sad because i was already insane about the idea of dadtrax because of Secret of the Omnitrix, but when tetrax first showed up in uaf he picked up ben and for some reason my first thought was "omg is he going in for a hug" only to have that ripped away from me when he just straight up starts shaking ben around like a ragdoll 😭like imagine you dont see a guy for like 6 years, last time you saw him he helped you save the world/galaxy, and the first thing he does is fucking shatter you for no reason (or at least appears to be no reason), and all you get from it is a "sorry but i had no time to explain", like thats crazy, the REAL tetrax would never harm ben that is his SON !!!!!!!! and then after the single episode we had of tetrax and even petropia we just. never see him or the planet ever again. like we could've had so much world building for petropia and they decided to just throw it out like it was nothing

tetrax is genuinely such a cool character and its horrible how underutilized he is in every show, like yeah he was in 2 (technically 3 counting the reboot) movies but that doesnt really make up for how little we really saw him, especially since like i mentioned earlier prime tetrax wasnt even in OV which is probably the biggest missed opportunity in history, and the strangest part about it is that we got plenty of episodes exploring different planets and even a whole other system (galactic monsters special) so it was literally the perfect opportunity to write an episode about petropia and how its holding up

also never apologize 2 me about rambles, especially rambles about tetrax, i fucking LOVE reading people's silly little thoughts on things they like :3

[madamescarlette]

A few years ago I did a full-length version of this tag, which I thought would be a fun thing to revisit for this NYE! (You should do this too, if you feel so inclined! count this as me tagging you.)

share your favorite memory of this year.

I can't really tell you anything but multiple flashes that I hold close to my heart-- my mother sitting up in bed laughing over something I said about my brother, my whole family dancing at my brother's wedding hand-in-hand, one of my friends saying wistfully it was so good to hear me & my teammate's voices on the phone, me driving home the first evening it felt like fall and watching the leaves swirl around the street, me seeing a tiger (!!!) in the spring. A beautiful year, if a hard one!

2. what was the highlight of your year?

Most likely my brother's wedding! It tinged the year in such a golden light.

3. list the top five books you read this year.

In no particular order (except for the Q love u Q), The Q, The Carrying, The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane, The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating, and the entire Frieren series tbh.

4. list the top five movies you watched this year.

Past Lives (movie of my HEART), Twisters, Miss Potter (my first rewatch since childhood and 😭😭), The Fall Guy, and tbh Return to Me (I think of it often!)

5. list the top five tv series you binged this year.

Hmmmm....this is always difficult! I would say, Abbott Elementary (my beloved), Psych (extra points for watching with my brother), Summer Strike (peaceful show of my heart), ??????, I rewatched Makanai which I love dearly but I swear I cannot remember off the top of my head anything else I watched, liked, and finished.

6. what is the one new thing you discovered this year (could be a place/hobby/song etc)?

I started learning SQL and that somehow to me was such a joy! And after reading The Hurting Kind book Ada Limón finally got into my heart for realsies this time and I think that's magical.

7. top three albums that you played this year?

I think I'm going to do a ranking on all their own, but peeeeersonally I think the albums that most were There for me were Charm by Clairo, Vertigo by Griff, Positive Spin by Gretta Ray. (Honorable mention to TTPD that has been with me through it all, it just feels too vast for me to really put a pin in it for just this year, you know?)

8. your spotify wrapped #1 song

These Walls – Dua Lipa, which I don't fully know what to say about it except that the shiny sparkly sound somehow makes me feel so bright and emotional at the same time.

9. your spotify wrapped top artist

Taylor forever.

10. your personal song of the year.

It's not even from this year! But You've Already Won by Gretta Ray song of all time to ME. It can simply hold a whole life in its hand and I love that so. Also a little shoutout to Down Bad which can still make me cry 8 months 10,000 listens later.

11. what is an achievement that you are proud of this year?

not necessarily any singular achievements. I'm proud of how much time I've spent with my mom, I think. I'm proud of how much I've grown in regards of my work. It's been a year of quiet (if grueling) growth and I'm proud of that.

12. what are your goals for the next year?

My goals? I think mostly that I'm setting some writing goals (daily journaling, quarterly chapbooks, 20k of a book draft) and I want to pick up boxing again as I've let it lapse this month.

13. any three book releases you are excited for next year.

I'm soooo out of the loop here, alas. There's new Maggie Stiefvater that I will read, there's new Emily Henry I will probably read.

14. any three upcoming movies/tv series that you are excited for next year.

tentatively excited for new Superman, tentatively excited for second half of Wicked, always excited for more Abbott Elementary.

15. if you could change one thing about the past year what would it be?

very little! I had to go through it to come out of the other side of it. (And when it shines out it'll shine all the clearer or something of the sort.)

16. did you manage to stick to your new year’s resolutions this year?

Not even a little! I was going to use this year to try to draw something every day, which I failed horribly at, but I think that's only to be expected. Still, I want to use my resolutions to create more little spaces of FUN in my life again. I've missed them horribly.

17. do you have any new year’s resolutions for the next year?

My only real, true type of resolution is simply to have FUN. While I've still had lots of big, beautiful joys this year, I've not delighted as I ought to, and I want to bring that part of myself back. Learn some new dances, learn to make sourdough, things along that line. Just get back into the motions of living and find myself swept up by the verve of it all. That's my one bit of resolve.

18. favorite meme of the year?

I could not tell you the name of a meme right now if you told me my life depended upon it. I love the bit we have of using substitutes because we don't do suicidal ideation anymore here babes. I love the resurgence of the children's hospital red meme.

19. which month was the most fun this year?

The most fun?! I mean, probably...October? It's hard to tell because there were challenges in so many! But I laughed the most in October so it must be then.

20. if you could tell yourself something at the beginning of this year based on what you know right now, what would it be?

I mean...I think more than anything I'd just want to reassure myself of the past that it's really, really okay, and you have more strength and power within you than you might think. Also, even though it sucks and it's uphill work, if you want this to be a place full of love you have to be the one to put it there, you can't just luck your way into it, you yourself have to put your heart on the line and become love itself to the people you're given to care for. And that's something wonderful to take part in!

21. favorite viral trend of the year?

I looooove the international Mikus with ALL my heart. They're what make life worth living 💛💛

22. list any three new things you learned this year (could be recipes, a new skill, etc.)

This is the hardest thing for me to recall. I learned how to make arrozcaldo at last? And I started learning SQL as I said. I started properly, FINALLY learning the different forms of poetry at the beginning of the year (I know, I know, I'm shamefully self-taught) but a lot of it has fallen out of my brain. I need to set it more in my bones, I think.

23. how would you describe your year in a word?

Enduring, is a good one I think. It's been quite a year for gritting my teeth and bearing it, alas. But it's also been a year of fruitful, beautiful friendship and fellowship, a year of becoming greater company to myself and to others. Luminous would be another fitting word, actually! There's been a lot of beauty and grace granted to me, and I am very, very grateful. There's something bittersweet in leaving behind any year, and this year just as much as any! I'll never live it again. But I can live a new one, and that's just as magical in its own right. I hope I'm brave enough to meet it!

[ae-neon]

Memories of Ice bookmarks except there were so many twists and turns I kept forgetting to take notes

1. Draconus, of Tiam's kin. K'rul, Opener of the Paths.'

Who is Tiam🤔

2. Treach is a First Hero, a demigod, a Soletaken ascendant—'

Demi-god?? Is Rake that? Who is Rake's father?

3. Artanthos

I fucking knew something was up with him, welcome back Tayschernn

4. memories of ice.

Noice

5. The Son of Darkness was joined by Lady Envy, and the Soletaken known as Osric.

Another Osric mention, reveal him!!

6. Are there not slaves in the Malazan Empire?'

👀

7. 'I yield to no-one, Toc the Younger.'

Tool, I love you so much

8. 'Memories of ice.'

Again???

9. Turned the eastlands into molten stone that cooled and became something that defied sorcery.

OTATARAL!!!!!!!!!!

10. Dassem Ultor, who was broken by Hood's taking of his daughter at the Time of the Chaining – this was a devastating blow. Dassem Ultor, the First Sword reborn—

I'm confused, when was the chaining, I thought it happened thousands of years ago?

11. 'Fener shall be the first casualty in the war with the Crippled God. The Boar shall fall – and none can save him.

Damn

12. do you dare challenge a servant of the lord of death?' The T'lan Imass's desiccated lips peeled back. 'Why would we hesitate, Jaghut? Now ask of your lord, does he dare challenge us?'

HYYYYYYYYYYPE

13. I feel the need for Silannah's comfort.'

Is this...am I reading this wrong 😳 are they having dragon sex?

14. 'He is the Shield Anvil. Fener knows grief, so much grief that it is beyond his capacity to withstand it. And so he chooses a human heart. Armoured. A mortal soul, to assume the sorrow of the world. The Shield Anvil.

Steven Erikson is gonna make me cry again, I think

15. In your shadow lies honour.'

🥹 Itkovian getting the respect he deserves

16. Aral Gamelon—'

17. the House has found, in a distant land, its Mortal Sword.

👀🤔

18. And what of you, Felisin?

😭😭😭😭

19. 'First among the Bonecasters. Eleint, the First Soletaken.

Raest said something about Eleint in GotM

20. 'Shall I drown like Crust and Urko did? Shall I be seen to be slain then have my body vanish like Dassem did?'

Why did they all jump ship. If they're as good as they say - why not challenge Laseen? Whiskeyjack knelt for stability cool, why did the others run from duty then? Some of these old dudes like Duiker are so angry about Kellanved but almost everything we learn about him shows he wasn't that great of a ruler, idk. Bult was making too much sense

21. K'Chain Nah'rhuk – the ShortTails, misbegotten children of the Matrons

22. Emperor of the Edur, this Tyrant of Pain, this Deliverer of Midnight Tides!

Midnight Tides you say...

23. High Marshal Straw, of the Mott Irregulars.'

Someone to watch I think

24. Itkovian Otanthalian.

Absolute Legend

Also apparently Hood's Mortal Sword is Baudin?! So much was going on I missed that entirely

[bloodmaarked]

lord of the flies // william golding

first published: 1954 read: 04 october 2024 - 13 october 2024 pages: 176 format: e-book

genres: fiction; classics; psychological; dystopia (ish) favourite character(s): justice for piggy least favourite character(s): jack merridew (WHEN I GET YOU-!)

rating: 🌕🌕🌕🌗🌑 thoughts: as many people did, i read lord of the flies years ago as part of my high school english class, and i remember thinking this book was brilliant. i was curious to reread it as an adult to see if it captured my attention in the same way. whilst it's not amazing in the same way i remembered, it still holds up very well. repeatedly, though, i couldn't help but wish that another author had written it, or would take a stab at retelling the story!

the premise has all the ingredients for a story of psychological intrigue, a look at the basic elements of human nature told through a microcosm of society made up of prepubescent boys. i think this part of the story is done the best, because, through characters like ralph, piggy, and jack, we take a look at who we may become when we're not restricted by authority and societal rules. do we stick to our values, or do we abandon them in favour of our base instincts? there are some moments of conflict between characters that are pretty well written and kept me engaged.

i think where it fell a little flat for me is in terms of the excitement of the book outside these moments. the boys are stuck on a desert island and there's a lot that could go wrong and cause tension or fear. i think william golding tried to lean into that at times, but i think he didn't lean into it enough! hence why i think that another author might've ramped up those thrilling moments and given this book the edge that i feel it needed. i have heard and read a few times that others found this boring, and while i never found myself bored, i do agree that it was lacking a little something something. not too much thrill and terror that the book is transformed into something beyond the psychological study of human nature at its core, but enough that there were moments of greater excitement in between.

i don't recall this from my first read, but i did detect a racial undertone in how he described the kids' descent into "savagery". i thought i might be overanalysing, but then it culminated into one of the characters using the n-word 😭 i don't have a direct quote but something like "are we going to act like those n----?" casual racism in those classic books is gonna get you every time i guess.

overall i'm glad i reread lord of the flies, and it was a pleasantly quick read too. however, i would love to see someone take and reinvent this material - in fact i'm surprised a version with an all-female cast hasn't been done already! i think it's worth giving a read if you haven't already, but don't go into it thinking it's a dystopian adventure full of excitement.

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[komohine]

What do you think of James being trans? (Obviously a headcanon haha) I might just be projecting I'm definitely projecting, but I think it makes sense.

I hc him has having an inferiority complex when he was younger, which is something me and a lot of fellow transmascs can relate to! The feel of having to aggressively outdo your AMAB peers because you're constantly being fed the idea they're somehow inherently better.

I also think it would be very silly if he hated Keith as a kid for this reason, reasoning he's a "real boy", only to learn Keith is trans too. T4T jaith or smthn idk lol

Also James is gender.

(also I really adore your art! Thank you for taking the time to read my silly headcanon)

I think hell yea 🫡 Even though it’s not my personal headcanon (in my personal headcanon their cis and transness is ambiguous). Withij my headcanons, both canon compliant and college au, there is never really a situation that arises where the distinction of their cis/transness becomes necessary or significant so i really just never mention it and leave it up to the interpretation of the reader

Its probably bcs my prior fandom space has traumatized me so if im gonna be honest i dont really think about characters genders beyond what they express themselves as 😭 you are boy? Ok! Sorry transfetishization haunts me hetalia and genshin were horrific spaces to be in… i have nightmares about people making one character from an mlm ship trans just for “realistic mpreg”. Oh my god mpreg keith is genuinely so disturbing i get distraught when i think about it. Also this may just be a precaution because of the voltron fandom? Because I came into this fandom like a month ago with the prior knowledge that this place is a literal minefield of fetishizers and weird people. Like do you get it… if i, for example, mention explicitly that my keith is trans theres gonna be people fetishizing that. If i mention he’s cis there’s gonna be people fetishizing that. So my defence is to just not mention it! Schrodinger’s gender!! 30 year old women stop writing crazy p0rn of highschoolers challenge.

Its the same with freaky headcanons like i will occasionally try to think of some for writing and metaphor purposes but i will get flashbacks to when a 13 year old asked me “whos the top and whos the bottom” about my ocs on discord and then my train of thought just stops there. Its like a kill switch. “Freaky jaith? Uhh well-” “whos the top and whos the bottom” “ok nvm 😇” like i personally love artsy and tastefully done innuendo art pieces but i do not trust the fandom to have a great enough level of critical thinking to see past the freaky to see the angsty metaphors i pack my art with.

But i think T4T jaith is fire james can now have internalized homophobia AND internalized misogyny or something!! Yay!! Adding more shit onto his need for perfection and to be a “real man” or something whereas keith dont gaf! And keith can teach james to not gaf!!! Yay!!!

[mazzystargirl]

ok living up to pinned post w some true confessions/dark secrets… so basically after i tried to kms in 2021 fall and went to the hospital i entered a really intense slut era and like started impulsively spending money and stuff too and i didnt have a job so i was like oh omg having a sugar daddy would work out really well for me and also i wanted to do things that would be like damaging or whatever idk why i did it rly. but anyway i engaged in some sugar baby behaviors. and then that winter break i went home from school and met up w some of my friends who ive known since i was a kid. now i have to give a little bit of context here cuz its important. so i have these 3 friends, one of whom ive known since i was 3 years old (N) and the other two since i was like 7 (S and J). and we all live in a very tight knit neighborhood/cultural community where mostly everyone knows everyone. and so my 3 friends parents know my parents. i guess you can see where this is going… but anyway i told them i had a sugar daddy or like it came up in conversation idk. and that was that. then literally the following AUGUSTTTT my mom comes to me and is like oh so some people in the neighborhood have been saying that you’ve been engaging in risky behaviors with older men and that youve been meeting them in hotels. so obviously i denied it very emphatically and tried to pry out who tf she heard that from and honestly i was like what like who could have even spread that and she said J’s mom told her and was lowkey rly cagey about it bc she didnt want to “break her daughter’s trust” and had asked other aunties about the situation like wtfff… and then i remembered i had mentioned to them over winter break so she must have fucking told her mommmm. i decided to assume best intent and chose to believe she was worried abt me and thats why she told her mom so i messaged her like hi did u tell ur mom abt this and i appreciate ur concern but i would have appreciated it if maybe u came to me directly and checked on me it would have been better and u lowkey hurt my feelings cuz now im stressed and anxious and don’t know whos saying what abt me etc etc. and then…

she fucking LIEDDDDD she said she didnt say anything to her mom AND that her mom didnt say anything to my mom!?? which i know is fucking bullshitttt 😭 like it makes 0 sense like if no one said anything is my mom just pulling shit out of the air and if she was how would she land straight on the money like that it just doesnt add up. so i was like um ok ?? uh have a good day. and decided to let it go and i lowkey don’t speak to her anymore and i told N and S that im not speaking to her but they can hang out w her if they want. and i forgot abt it.

but now i just moved back home after finishing school and its lowkey been eating away at me. it hurts me that she was my friend for 13 years and its all up in flames and i never got any closure or an apology or even her to admit or acknowledge the situation?? it hurts me to be at home worried abt what people are saying or thinking about me. i know i shouldnt care but what other people think of me bothers me. im not ashamed of myself and my choices but i don’t want other people to think less of me. i don’t want to reach out to her bc what if she doesn’t care at all about the situation ??? i don’t want to be like this has been eating at me forever and it really hurt me and her to be like what r u talking about i don’t think about you at all. she also just got into med school and im happy for her for real like glad shes doing well its just like. she hurt my feelings really bad :(

anyway if you read this far… what should i do 🥲 is the only path forward trying to let go… tbh i think i just need someone to validate my feelings like am i right to be hurt or is it all my fault and should i beg for forgiveness 😭 like my friend N got coffee w her a couple weeks ago and brought it up to me twice what does that even meannnn

[ranposgirlboss]

~HCS FROM MY BOOK!!-PART ONE~

THIS IS MULTIFANDOM!! also most of these are either slander or made for being a silly joke <333 so please don't take this seriously

fandoms: genshin impact, bungou stray dogs, and honkai impact

genre: fluff, slander, and sillies (it progressively gets less and less serious)

enjoy my shitty hcs from like a year ago <333 (they are actually older lol) ALSO ARE EXTREMELY SHORT SINCE IM LITERALLY JUST TAKING WHAT I WROTE WITHOUT CHANGING IT AND PUTTING IT OVER ON HERE LMAOASBHJAS (there's only so much space on paper </3)

chara list!!: albedo, kazuha, xiao, diluc, heizou, fu hua (sentience), scaramouche, aponia, dazai, ranpo, poe, ANDDD nikolai!!

FIRST TIME HOLDING HANDS!!

ALBEDO

-"its all for an experiment" he says

-lil bitch ok sure

-probably gonna study what this feeling is when he holds your hand and "why he feels so warm on the inside"

-acts like he doesnt care that much but bros probably gonna draw yall holding hands like a 13 year old drawing in her diary 💀

KAZUHA

-i love him but

-probably would make a poem about how your hand feels 😭

-he would be so cute tho ngl

-i mean just as always but also like

-please hold his hand he just loves you so much and along with words of affirmation physical contact seems to be his thing

-UGH MARRY ME

XIAO

-"wow y/n when you hold my hand the voices cease their calls for me to go to taco bell, thank you y/n."

-TAKE ME HIGHH AND ILL SINGGGG YOU MAKE EVERYTHING OKAY OHKAY OHKAY OHKAY (if you know that song here's your free kiss <33)

-and then you get married the end

-W H Y D I D I W R I T E T H I S B Y E -

DILUC

-could give less of a shit

-but for the sake of being a gentleman he says thank you and then continues bat manning sillily.

HEIZOU

-"y/n holding hands is cool but i think we should start an investigation of how fast we could make it to my place ;)"

-KILL YOURSELF. (please dont lead the way my silly detective <33)

-this gif makes me want to impulsively eat vanilla cake.

FU HUA

-YAAAATTAAAAA

-*holds hand* look at the beautiful sight ahead of us Y/N! no i did not make that fire-"

-fu hua arsonist era

APONIA

-MOMMY bjnEBHEKHBWJSK

-"y/n holding hands is great but why don't we open our arms and eyes to god"

DAZAI

-I APOLOGIZE TO ALL MY BSD READERS WHO HAVE TO SCROLL THIS FAR JUST TO GET THIS SILLy

-"i can always hold more then your hand~"

-a flirty bitch, but yall got chuuya knocking on your door asking you to "control your dog"

-ironic how chuuya is the one who says that

RANPO

-UGH I LOVE MY SKRUNKLE DOODLE PUSH POP SILLY SKRUNKLY CRUNKLY MUMPLY SILLY (yes i wrote that WORD. FOR. WORD.)

-will hold your hand for payments

-affection?? candy??? candys nuts fit in your mouth because they sure are about to <33 (i want to erase what i write sometimes)

-gets so happy omg

-not only does he have candy, you, but NOW he gets to hold your hand too>!1/!?!?

-wow he might as well steal from a candy store at this point

-might as well

-he swears it was an accident

POE

-poe held your hand with such sweetness, care, tenderness, love, and affection

-karl pulls up in his Mazarati, ready to throw hands once and for all, how DARE someone get more attention then karl

-poe has some explaining to do

-(i wonder how high i was when i wrote these)

-(i think i was 5'5)

NIKOLAI ( I FUCKING LOVE THIS ONE)

-so you go to hold his hand in y/n fashion

-suddenly you almost get hit by a bus

-"shit my bad wrong item"

-you stare in utter confusion at the bus as it suddenly vanishes like a fucking mob from minecraft or some shit

-nikolai god arc confirmed real

-so anyways you suddenly feel warmth on your hand on you see another fucking hand gripping yours but its literally just the hand detached from the body

-you are extremely scared and concerned why there's another hand gripping yours out of nowhere but with nikolai anything is possible so you just accept it and hold his hand back

-he giggles and nikolais away with the hand still holding yours

-(I ASKED HOW HIGH I WAS WHEN I WROTE THE LAST ONE BUT WHAT IS EVEN HAPPENING HERE.)

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the voices

ALOS THNAK YOU FOR READING THIS PIECE OF SHIT IM SORRY. SHE WAS ME FROM A YEAR AGO I DONT KNOW HER 😭

alos my reqs are always open

I ALSO APOLOGIZE FOR THE TAGS