#its freeeeee

[jiiniix]

made a brush for fun (its free), link to my kofi shop here

and for the clips studio asset shop: https://assets.clip-studio.com/es-es/search?word=2128441&order=new

[moonrose252]

There is nothing that gives more fulfillment and joy in life than inflicting the worst possible scenarios on your little baby characters that you love as if they were real children

[jays-supersonic-dynamo]

so masters of wind amirite

[2deadboys]

its always very funny to me in fic where Edwin works out Charles has feelings for him before Charles even works out what his own feelings are. And is just. waiting for Charles to catch up. Maybe a few subtle hints and situations along the way....

knowing someone so well you can figure them out before they figure out themselves etcetc.

[kathegoose]

very specific personal art that very specifically caters to me, but i made it too much of a banger that i just gotta post it!!!

don't be so dramatic bro..... or maybe be dramatic, given that this might be the robot equivalent of putting a bandaid on an exposed nerve or vein.

separate panels for maximum zoomability or somethiiing

+ uncrusty ver.!

oughhhg.....

[crimsonender]

It's really funny that Lily is circling around topics that I'm covering despite me distancing myself from her. Get mad stay mad. 🖕

[dakotac0le]

i think every pd fanartist has that one winnebago drawing. its like a rite of passage

some closeups / details under

TOTAL MONSTER KILLL MENTION !!!

yeah vyn is playing w a credit card

the sillies :D

PRIME idiot instead of american idiot is very funny 2 me

beastie boys, harlem shade magazine, green day, lots of pictures, and sticky notes from tide !!

dakotas flanel, will shirt, vyncent undershirt i sometimes draw him in

a lot of theories on williams mystery board thingy come from shit they say in the rolleds LOL

[citrenecult]

Guess who's done with her graduation ceremony!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉

[rewritingcanon]

me re-reading my own fic that has over 100 kudos: erm… ok… that was something!! (i hate it so fucking much why do people like that i need to delete everything i have written)

me re-reading my own fic that has … like… 5 kudos: this.. is. a MASTERPIECE. (im genuinely an underrated genius trusttt meee)

[hometownrockstar]

the key to everything (in my experience) is to watch and read and listen to whatever you want. Like im pretentious sometimes, i like talking about obscure shows and books and music, but still i dont deny it if i end up liking a really popular thing, or a silly thing, or whatever. If you accept everything that makes you happy into your heart, then nevermore will you feel ashamed of your interests.

[voidbeau]

I've been thinking about this a lot and have ranted to a friend to varying degrees about it every once in a while since early this year.

On one hand, I don't want to sound ungrateful when I talk about this, but...

I feel like being in a fandom has ruined me.

Or to put it better, I've let it ruin me.

And to clarify, I don't blame individuals of a fandom.

Nor do I really blame the idea of fandom itself the more I think about it.

It is most definitely a me thing, but being in a fandon has definitely helped to shed some light on some upsetting things about my brain.

Being in an environment where you get to share ideas and art about your favorite media- Something that's supposed to be for fun and to find community with others who share your interest!

For me, it's been a huge motivator for getting back into my art- which I believe I've mentioned before.

Up until the twomp Fandom, I've had lots of difficulties staying inspired and motivated to keep doing art regardless of how much I wanted to do it.

So finding a reason to do it again has been great!

I've been able to make pretty good improvements in my art abilities which is really nice!

But on the other end of things, I've lost the ability to just appreciate things the way I could if I was just an outsider looking in?

And I hate it because for whatever reason, my anxiety looks at fandom art as competition rather than something a fellow [insert interest] enjoyer put out for me to enjoy along with the rest of fandom.

I hate that mindset so much.

I don't want fandom to be a competition.

I don't think fandom should be a competition.

Inspiration to improve is one thing, but there's something very wrong if you're feeling a sense of threat in some way??? Like hello??? Are you okay???

It's ridiculous!

But anxiety likes to tell me I need to constantly be creating and making sure it's "original" or "unique" or else my value as a "creator" is worth nothing.

Which, again, is also ridiculous, because I'm not out here trying to "become something", I just want to have fun sharing my dumbass AUs and headcannons cause I want to have fun with the characters and the world I fell in love with!

But it doesn't stop the rancid pattern of thinking.

No matter how many breaks I take, I can come back feeling refreshed but the grasping hands of anxiety and shaky self worth tell me I need to constantly be working to maintain a semblance of value.

I need to work to "keep my place".

And that's dumb.

A fandom is a little neighborhood where everyone has their own little house and their own little garden tucked safely behind their own little white picket fence.

We're not being lined up and graded like slabs of beef.

I'm so tired man. I just want to have fun, but as time goes on I feel like the only solution to this issue is to leave the Fandom environment entirely.

Like No Face from Spirited Away.

But if I lose the "pressure" of needing to create art than I'm scared i'll fall back into not being able to create at all again.

I dont want to lose what I feel like I only just got back.

🫠

It feels super embarrassing to be struggling with these kinds of thoughts personally.

Cause it's like, "bro, who tf you think you are???"

There's so much of it that feels self centered, like it's all about me.

I need to be the best, I need to have coolest art and the best ideas!!!

I don't think that at all, granted. But it feels that way sometimes.

I don't like the idea of comparing myself to others. I don't think anyone should be doing that.

Comparison is the joy killer!!!

I much prefer the variety that a fandom brings to the table.

Each individual with an individual take on a world and its characters.

Everyone is so creative it's really Cool!!

I think it's fun to read and to see people bring that to life!

But I can't fully enjoy it like I want to cause the thoughts always be like,

"Why can't you be like that, huh?

You could be doing something with your time right now, you could be working in that idea you were thinking of.

You could be finishing that drawing you started.

What about that other thing you said you were going to do, huh?"

And if I get working on something, it's still not good enough,

"No! Not like that! Your art style is DISGUSTING. Throw that one away!

No No, any readers who stumble on this will never enjoy this. It's awkward and stilted.

Take it again or leave it!"

Like bro please, give a bug a break. I'm trying. 😰

[biohazard-inevitable]

I love this format

[todayisafridaynight]

my finals are finally (heH) over who's ready for lost judgment

[suddenrundown]

what the fuck is up danger? no, what’d you say? what the fuck, dude. step the fuck up danger.

[blissfali]

I really thought idve had some kind of reality check at this point but im just smooth sailing. College really is just allowing me to live the life ive always wanted (free from my moms control. like almost completely sans financially in some regards)

[yooboobies]

TIRAMISU CAKE TIRAMISU CAKEEEE