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i got peyton beachdeath's book from the library and i might just read it on here

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i'm so tired of antisemitism in fantasy and i can't wait to write my own jewish fantasy novels that deconstruct the bigotry of fantasy

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also btw i'm back to using this blog lol. i'm not filled with the rage of my past but i feel like this could be a fun place to talk abt book drama

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not only is the sandra newman book transphobic, it's also deeply intellectually boring. we've seen this premise before, in so many ways, and it's never executed well.

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how reductive can u be

i haven't posted on here in so long but i recently saw a pro sjm post that made me so annoyed

i just feel like...why r u so proud that ur stories center white ppl. also maybe examine why ur stories center white ppl. also very brave to proclaim urself not a racist when all ur stories center white ppl

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i'm sorry?? this is the bar?? as long as u don't say the n word ur okay?? also this is SO arbitrary. like yes it's fine to sideline your characters of color and kill them to further the white protagonist's journey, but just don't do this [very specific instance of bigoted writing]

i haven't posted on here in so long but i recently saw a pro sjm post that made me so annoyed

i just feel like...why r u so proud that ur stories center white ppl. also maybe examine why ur stories center white ppl. also very brave to proclaim urself not a racist when all ur stories center white ppl

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i haven't posted on here in so long but i recently saw a pro sjm post that made me so annoyed

i just feel like...why r u so proud that ur stories center white ppl. also maybe examine why ur stories center white ppl. also very brave to proclaim urself not a racist when all ur stories center white ppl

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guys trying to gage interest:

who would be interested in a webcomic about 4 ppl in their 20s returning to the magical world they went to as kids? it would have:

the ghost of cs lewis

magical green goo. that sparkles!

a woman lighting a cigarette with a snap of her fingers. i know this isn't an important plot point. but it is important. to me

the return of magic to magicless lives

a meditation on growing up

a meditation on growing up while also carrying enormous trauma

false gods

a woman stuck in the body of a child. seems sweet and innocent but inside she's rotting

stoner magicians

talking animals with bad advice

amazing art by my best friend

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I’m DEFINITELY going to lose followers for this, but since this blog is basically an archive at this point, I don’t really care. In high school, I ended up getting really into anti SJM shit. I hated her books because they were sexist, racist, and overall, just bad. And I hated on anyone who read them. The antis had some valid arguments because yeah these books sucked lol. So I ended up joining them. I made this blog, I gained some followers, I even did one of those chapter-by-chapter snarks of City of Bones, bc CC was not off the list. 

Then I had a ✨traumatic experience✨ that really hurt me. My ire soon became directed towards the inaccurate ways that SJM portrayed PTSD. I ended up making friends with some other antis.

And you know what I found? They were incredibly, shockingly, horribly toxic. They thought they were better than pretty much anyone else. They mocked SJM readers relentlessly from their oh-so-high vantage point of Tumblr antidom. I have never met such narcissistic people in my LIFE. Maybe SJM’s books suck, but her readers were definitely having more fun!!

I realized that I didn’t want to be part of a community that was so effing toxic. I was sick of their god complexes. This sounds funny, and, yeah, it was pretty funny having a first-row seat to their egotism. But I would not recommend it for long term mental health. 

People can read what they want! You are not a better person because you engage in other problematic media (bc EVERYONE engages in problematic media) instead of SJM. Yeah, it could be fun to make fun of her writing, and I don’t mind reading a few antis’ posts every now and then bc I think some of their deconstructions are pretty good. But the community as a whole, or at least the people I fell in with, were such goddam assholes.

Anyway. Peace and light ✌️

So....are u still active on here? I heard ur not an anti anymore- what made u change?.

That's correct.

I keep the blog active as documentation, and as a reminder to myself of the past.

I've been meaning to make a post about this on here for a while now, but I never could find the exact words to express what happened. But now is a good a time as any.

First let me explain why I became an anti. I became an anti Reylo after Reylo shippers harassed me after The Force Awakens was released, for making a joke about the possibility of Kylo and Rey being related, because of what happened with Luke and Leia in the original trilogy. I was sent death threats and told to leave the fandom! If that hadn't happened, I wouldn't have ever felt the hatred I felt towards Reylo and it's shippers. I was only 19 back then, after all. So when anti Reylos came to my defense and validated my emotions, I clung to them like glue. I took on the rhetoric, and used my own feelings and experiences to add validity to it.

I'll admit, I was super toxic on here. However, in my defense, the toxcitiy went both ways. Shippers were intrusive, posting their content to unrelated tags, and made avoiding their content almost impossible. That's how it all started, you know? By asking for them to tag their content responsibly. The other stuff- the harassment, the doxxing, the death threats- that all came later. And eye for and eye and tooth for a tooth. Just a lot of back and forth, fueled by tumblr's PC culture and the argument of fiction affecting reality and how problematic fiction shouldn't be condoned.

But I digress...I took part in some super toxic behaviors, and have grown enough as a person to recognize that both sides were spewing toxicity, and everything that happened...Could've been avoided had we all minded our business and respected one another more.

So...After The Rise of Skywalker dropped in 2019, and Reylo was officially a canon ship, I guess you could say all the wind was pulled from my sails. I was disgusted, revolted. How? How could this ship that I hated so vehemently become canon? And worst yet: Reylos were unhappy with how it came to be. So basically, both sides of this ship war lost. It was...A pitiful end to 5 years of my life, that left me feeling? Lost? No...Drained? Absolutely.

It made me think about the entire 5 years I had spent hating on this ship, and all the things that had happened. I had poured YEARS of my life into highlighting all of the ways Reylo was "terrible story telling", and at the end of the day, it meant nothing all because Disney wanted to capitalize on the hype. My energy wasn't worth it, and it kinda ruined the sequels for me, when I could've just minded my own damn business.

I also joined the Voltron fandom around 2018, and as everyone knows, the Voltron fandon has its own issues with antis. And as previously stated, I was just an anti Reylo. I wasn't anti every ship. I just hated Reylo so much I didn't want anyone to enjoy it! And then Voltron comes along, and I had posted pictures to my Instagram of me and my now ex girlfriend, cosplaying as Shiro and Keith, and sharing a kiss. This anti came along, and harassed us through FIVE accounts, accusing us of being pedophiles and shit. It was the first time I'd ever had anti rhetoric spewed at me, and it was eye opening. Was that really what I had sound like???

So...When that last movie dropped...And anti Reylos scattered to new fandoms, I reflected on myself. It was never about protecting people from problematic fiction. It was about making others hurt for hurting me. I fell into the cult-like mindset of anti shippers, all because of a personal vendetta against toxic shippers. And that revelation disgusted me, so I unlearned all of the rhetoric (which was extremely false btw), and finally...FINALLY listened to what shippers had been telling me for 5 years.

Their consumption of fiction has nothing to do with me, and only I am responsible for cultivating my online experience. Took me long enough to figure that out, and now I try to teach antis on Twitter that same lesson.

Anyways, I've learned a lot from my past mistakes, and I want to use that to help others change their perspective. I want to try and end fandom toxicity. However, the only way to do that is by recognizing toxic behaviors, being kinder to one another, and promoting responsible media consumption and accountability.

The fiction people choose to consume is not a measure of their morality. There's no such thing as problematic fiction. And neither shippers or antis are better than the other. They're both prone to toxicity, and we need to do better to put an end to it.

I hope that answers your question.

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Okay so not to be dramatic, but when I read over this blog I’m actually embarrassed by the things I’ve written. I hate SJM, it’s true, but the complete echo chamber created by the anti community is ridiculous. If you enjoy her books, like, I’m judging you, but I’m also no longer going to hate you bc what’s the fucking point. Bye all. 

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helpp i don’t know if i imagined this or not but i had a sudden memory of a fancast of A/dam D/river as Riceman. like i don’t think it’s cool how ppl shit on him for his looks but oh my goddddd can u imagine

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Honestly I will always be grateful to Brooklyn 99 for giving us “cool motive, still murder” as a quick, no-frills response to all these weak white boy villains with woe-is-me backstories that fandoms inevitably try to woobify.

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@acotarnet​ EVENT 7: One Death → NESTA ARCHERON

What if I tell you what the rock and darkness and see beyond whispered to me, Lord of Bloodshed? How they shuddered in fear, on that island across the sea. How they trembled when she emerged. She took something—something precious. She ripped it out with her teeth. What came out was not what went in.

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N\esta’s not a child where the f does cassiass get off dragging her to the mountains with him what the F

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Why. Why is there so much bs in this fandom. It’s like. Why

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N/essian is abuse apologism thanks