#its everything else that sucks

[balkanradfem]

some complaining about my temporary caretaking job, not feminism related

I'm missing my garden. I miss being free outside, going out on a whim and foraging randomly. I miss going swimming in the cold water. I miss collecting and drying mushrooms for the winter, and collecting wild chestnuts for the laundry. I missed out on most of the chestnuts this time, and it was difficult to let that go.

I've had to get used to these people's routine, and I'm having a poor time standing it. It's getting up at 8, cleaning rituals, then drinking coffee, sitting around in tense silence followed with few uncomfortable words. Then waiting for lunch (these people don't eat breakfast!) and either someone is delivering it, or I'm being instructed to make something. The rest of the noon is structured around dishes, tidying, laundry, cleaning. There's an afternoon nap, then back to tense sitting around. Eventually at 8pm there's a show on the television the the woman likes to watch, and I watch it alongside her.

It's the tense sitting around that kills me, why are we doing this to ourselves? Shouldn't we all remove ourselves from this situation and do something fulfilling and happy? Don't we all have better things to do? What kind of ritual is it when you sit and feel bad? That is a nightmare. I started reading a book just to have something to do.

I'm itching to go outside and be inside of the river, or a forest, or walking barefoot around the cold grass. Yesterday I enthusiastically asked to go outside for a bit, but the woman got upset and asked me if I could do that another day. I was crestfallen, felt like a prisoner. I understood it was because she needs me to be around all day, because she can't take care of herself on her own. But I was upset. My freedom was taken away.

She noticed how upset I was, and waited for the time of the day where she felt a little better, and could go around on her own. Then she told me 'you can go outside if you need to do anything', and I explained I didn't specifically have a chore to do, I just couldn't handle being inside all day, i needed to be in the sun. She nodded and told me to go. I had an hour.

First I called the plant lady and asked her if she was home, because I got an extra stick mixer the other day, which I didn't need, so I was told to 'pass it to someone', and plant lady is the someone. I handed it over, and she looked at me in surprise 'Mine had just broken! This is perfect timing.' and she told me about her daughter leaving for college for the first time. I left there happy, and then ran to my own apartment, to collect my foraged herbs. I didn't have access to any medicinal teas in the other place! I grabbed a few bags of my favourites, and then ran out, and headed to the riverbank.

I took my shoes off beside the river, and walked barefoot, letting my feet soak up the damp soil and dewy grass. I sneaked around the big walnut tree, and gathered a whole bag of walnuts. Then I stood inside the river, feeling elated by how cold and energizing it was. My feet were happy!

Then I climbed a tree, once again feeling free from all laws and obligation - after all, I'm no longer on earth, there's no policing my behaviour here. Nobody could see me either.

At this point, I still had 15 minutes of my time left, and the sun was setting. I decided to grab my bike and find an open field where I could watch the sunset properly. I whirled around houses and roads, until finally reaching the end of a street, with an open field that gave me full view of the sky. I stared, mesmerized at how brightly the clouds were glowing, thinking how it's the most fantastical, unreal sight I could possibly see from this planet.

I went back then, feeling light and happy. I think I used my hour wisely! I wouldn't usually try to do so much in that time, I needed to fit as many good activities as possible in there. I'm feeling better now.

On the other side, I have way more food here than ever at home, my appetite came back and now I'm hungry all the time, and I can also eat almost always, as these people eat only 1/3 of their meals and then doom everything else. I'm not used to throwing food away! My mind is doing some odd thinking like 'yes I'll get all that food stored in me now, and then, I won't have to eat as much this winter' and I think that is deranged but is it true? Can people plan like that? It's funny.

The woman sat me down the next day and decided we needed to discuss my pay, and we did, and I'll have enough to pay rent the next month so I'm pleased! I did not, in fact, find a roommate, so it was bothering me, but it's going to be fine. I have another month to do the search.

[lotus-pear]

the dialogue choices in this game should be more diabolical

[bacchuschucklefuck]

pygmalion and galatea for aroace people

you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.

[canonkiller]

many people believe they can tag that they are denying themselves care on my art and think I will let this stand in silence. jokes on you i love my best friend Direct Message

[charmac]

How are you feeling about S17? I'm getting reaaal worried that it's going to be terrible. No Glenn in the writers room? A crossover episode?? Rob's gradual transformation into pondslime??? Help

Pondslime 😭Lmfao

I'm feeling more than fine about 17, really truly. I don't think anyone should be worried at all.

I think sometimes my interactions with Glenn come off a little more serious or abrasive than they really happened in real life (because we have to shout due to how loud it is in the bars), and my immediate transcription is just to get people *information*, which really doesn't convey tone.

For example, reporting that Glenn said "you don't want to know" in response to me asking for any teasers (as to plots this season) was met with a lot of "oh so this season is gonna suck" on Twitter, and that could not be further than the truth (sorry to the people I split-react blocked for saying that lol). In hindsight I get the reaction, because written out it's a response that can be easily misinterpreted and reads as potentially concerning, but know that when Glenn said "you don't want to know" he looked like this:

And when I was genuinely just asking for script information (regarding writers of individual scripts after he mentioned they had broken already) and mentioned Nina (Inflates) and Ross (DTAMHD), he gushed about both of them and then said, transcribed word for word, "It's been a good room, I'll say this it's been a great room. It's been an all-star room, it's been...like, breaking the stories this year has been really fun. [Me: Yeah?] Yeah. [That's great, that is great to hear.] It's been really fun."

So the idea of "no Glenn in the writers room" is really much more akin to Season 16 than 13/14. He was there to break stories (meaning he was in the room when they were brainstorming plot ideas and when they settled on which plots would be turned into scripts) but Rob and Charlie are taking the brunt of writing their (RCG's) scripts because of Sirens. This is the same thing that happened with The Gang Goes Bowling. Glenn's name is on the script, but Rob and Charlie wrote the majority of it while Glenn was shooting Blackberry. (I remember originally being convinced it was a mistake Glenn was listed as a writer for Bowling, lmfao). And Glenn is definitely still contributing, will be on revisions for the non-RCG scripts, and will classically change or improv whatever he thinks is best for Dennis when he's on set (see: the Risk E. Rats script).

Also, I know the crossover is concerning to a lot of people just given the nature of it, but as of what we know right now it's only on Abbott, so it's really just as if this season's The Gang Cracks the Liberty Bell or The Janitor Always Mops Twice took place on a different show instead of ours...

I promise promise promise Glenn was clearly holding his tongue for good things coming up, and Friday night very much restored my confidence that Season 17 will be good. (But..if you don't think Glenn has good contributions to Sunny or understands the agenda, then sorry this response probably sucks lmfao)

[spaciebabie]

at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!

[torahtot]

you can always tell when someone doesn't have maga men in their life and god it makes me angry.. "if you're nice and compassionate you can be the one woman that makes them realize women aren't mean!" my mom bent over backwards for my dad for 25 fucking years he has plenty of other women kissing his ass and it never changed anything. do you really think that before being radicalized they never knew a single kind woman? they were never friends with a nice girl? alt-right men's problem with women isn't just that they've experienced too many mean women and they need to be shown that women can be nice, it's that they think women are inferior and don't deserve rights and don't understand anything so you can do what you want with them. and it takes a lot more than being nice to show someone that you aren't inferior. this isn't a case of being nice even when it's hard for the sake of deradicalization, it's about spending every fucking interaction with someone trying to get them to see you as a human being with value and a functioning intellect while they just laugh and show you that's never going to happen.

i cannot stress this enough: random women are not just going out and Being Mean to men. ur average guy interacts with plenty of women throughout his life- close women amongst their friends and family, casual interactions etc. most people don't start out being shunned by women, they start out being treated as NORMAL. & when they show their disrespect in normal society, it isn't tolerated, but when they go to alt-right spaces (which they're pushed towards online) they're told they're allowed to be as horrible as they want with no consequences because they're entitled to everything. it isn't "women aren't welcoming and the alt-right is so friendly so i'll become alt-right," it's "women don't let me disrespect them and the alt-right tells me fuck them, do whatever you want, you're entitled to it all" and why would you choose the group where you have to be a normal accountable person when there's a group that will reward you for being a shithead who gives no fucks?

the alt-right can afford to be more friendly and welcoming because they can allow bigotry. this can't work the same way for progressive spaces because we can be as kind & welcoming as possible but at the end of the day we have lines where we have to say "this behavior/speech isn't allowed in this space," and for certain people, that just can't win against a space where you can be as nasty as you want. these posts always end with a disclaimer saying "of course being kind doesnt mean you need to tolerate their bigotries" but what they don't realize and what drives me crazy is that women not tolerating bigotry IS the "women are mean" that radicalized them in the first place. they perceive you pushing back on any bigotry or bullshit as you being a meanie and treating them like they're ontologically evil. the 'kindness' they need to be deradicalized is you letting them walk all over you.

idk what the answer is to deradicalizing them and im sure relationships are part of it but you can be as kind as you want and all it will do is destroy you ime. i cant stand to see people (who have never even successfully deradicalized any man by being nice btw they always speak in hypotheticals and not from experience) double down on telling women to do things that will see no results and only hurt them, especially when any woman who has tried can tell you exactly how it went

[luck-of-the-drawings]

!!! FLASHING LIGHTS WARNING!!! [IM NOT FUCKIN AROUND!!]

REACHED THE CUSP OF 'THIS MAY NEVER BE ABSOLUTELY FINISHED N IF I DONT SHOW IT NOW, IT WILL NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY.' SO HERE, A PROJECT IVE BEEN ORBITING AROUND UHH SINCE 2021 OR SO.

[theposhperyton]

All evidence suggests yes

[cluescorner]

I cannot imagine being a Damian stan right now. You've got both Zdarsky's bullshit (where he clearly doesn't give a shit about your boy) and The Boy Wonder (where Juni Ba clearly gives so many shits about your boy) coming out on the same day. The whiplash must be insane. I hope y'all get some nice warm soup for your efforts jfc

[svampira]

posting wip cause its the only thing that'll get me to stop drawing and study👍

[chiprewington]

POV: he asked for Motul 8100 5W-30 in his Cogfee. He tasted store brand 5W-30.

[circusk]

just spent HOURSS!!!!! of my day . making fop family tree. its got 63 people rn uhmmm yeah

i think i have everyone . maybeee missing a cousin or two idk

[scatterpatter]

What if I presented a whole complicated Megaman Classic AU except I didn't give a SHRED of context

Haha, just kidding!

... Unless?

No these aren't being presented in the order they were drawn in but they ARE presented in AU-timeline chronological order so like im at least a LITTLE kind with throwing these all at youse

[skenpiel]

are u sick 😢

omg actually. ok its a good thing u asked so i can post this 4 all my other followers and frieands as some sort of a. update or somethifn. anyway i have been feeling Not Good 4 the past week Like not leaving my bed not talking to anyone and stuff. i didnt eat a single thing for 4 days and then my mama had to prescribe me meal replacement drinks…….. anyway Um i dont think its anything genuinely serious, i just finished my last semester of school and now im out in the big wide world and also a few other small things that made me feel bad has happened so i really just think i just need some time to adjust and stuff BUT!!!! i wanted to say that so u all know why ive been so inactive recently. BY THE WAY EVEN THOUGH IM NOT FEELING GOOD IM DOING FINE!!!! as in im not in any danger ive got my meal replacement drinks im staying hydrated my mama (doctor btw. good to mention) is making sure i still get everything i need even if im like bedridden or whatever. so anyway SORRY IF I WORRIED ANYBODY BUT IM GANNA BE FINE..!!!! just need some time to decompress Much like george costanza at the start of the Summer of george. so no im not sick in the sense u r thinking of im just like. temporarily depressed i Guess

[eebie]

really feeling like drawing right now. not actively, not right this second, but on a deeper level I feel like I could draw if I wanted to which has not been the case for a while. I do want to after I finish running an errand... I need to focus on something else, turn off my brain for a bit