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It's hard talking about the disrespect to Greek mythology and religion when every argument people brings to the table is "look at this original novel that is adapted into a movie that is turned into a tv show that didn't follow the original plot" as if the Greek culture is on par with fictional story instead of a tradition and heritage of real life people.
A media that is broadcast to the public and make accessible to everyone that erased the values and lesson of a cultural story still can do harm when it feeds misunderstanding and misinterpretion of the culture it originated from.
Greek people has the right to be upset when their culture keeps getting misrepresented, doesn't matter the good intentions behind it, why must it be at the expense of Greek culture?
You can create arts that is so beautiful and so praises by many, and years from now you could look back and see what an amazing experience and community you have created out of it. But at the same time you also continue feeding the distorted ideas and flawed understanding about a culture as a whole.
All because you took from a culture and want to tell your own story.
Retelling is telling back the story. Any addition or new ideas you bring is when there's part in the original story that is vague or open for interpretations. Even then, when you elaborate, you follows the already presented ideas that the original story already established.
If it so beloved to you and so meaningful to you, why couldn't you be faithful when adapting and retelling with the talents you have?
Shouldn't it be better if you created an original story inspired by it? If you feels that the values and standards are not to your taste, but you so loved the stories and could related to it, isn't it better to create original characters and settings with your own voice and narrative with the story inspiration as the backdrop?
At this point, what is greek mythology and lore to you? That makes you so passionate so inspired, that spark your imagination that encourage you to be creative but it is at the ruin of old age history that is meaningful for the Greek identity. Do you really appreciate the values and moral that you gained from the stories, or did you forget yourself along the way?
I couldn't have said it better! I agree to all that because that is exactly my sentiment as well! On one hand of course I am proud that Greek mythology contnues to inspire and people want to create stuff on them or that even now there are people who think the values of Greek Mythology are universal and they are!
But as you said it pains me to no limits when stories that were literally created from people based on their culture and religion to pass on messages are not only distorted beyond recognition but also to a degree where nowadays most people of Greek mythology liking spectrum know only how terrible villains some men are (in actual mythology they are complicated personas) and how weak women are (there are literlly figures in Greek mythology that are so strong personas that honestly I am shocked. See Helen for example how she is the most projected persona as a pretty face that does nothing when Helen literally taks back to Aphrodite, she is the only one who sees through Odysseus's disguise, she has knowledge of medicine and so much more for once) Mythology loses all its meaning, all its allegory and all its cultural spectrum because as you said people do not use it to retell the story, they use the word "retelling" as their excuse to just tell a story that fits them by using the popularity of greek mythology and yes as you said why cannot they say their original stories while using inspiration from Greek mythology?
Honestly I have nothing to add! You said it all dear Anon!
#katerinaaqu answers#greek mythology#tagamemnon#retellings#“retelling” means “tell the story again” it doesn't mean “make it unrecognizable”!#people still can critisize regardless of pure intentions#ancient greek myth#ancient greek myths#ancient greek culture#food for thought
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midnight mass redraws ft. james webb
#lmao how do i tag this#priests#midnight mass#father paul#james webb space telescope#????#religious imagery#redraw#babygirl pose#art#priest oc#technically he's priest??? hes a literal telescope though#its complicated. but i like my men complicated
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i am once again thinking about Andrew/Jean parallels, and the potential for how Andrew could help and comfort Jean, since in some ways they went through quite similar traumas
there's that scene in The King's Men where Renee, Kevin, Neil and Andrew are talking about what to do with Jean now that Renee's gotten him away from the Ravens, and Andrew makes it clear that he's not willing to help protect Jean, "And I'm not taking in any more refugees" Andrew said. -page 326 TKM (which is completely fair on Andrew's part given all the bullshit he's already dealing with)
But like, I can't stop thinking about how things might have gone if Andrew had agreed to help, to protect Jean just like he's been protecting Kevin and Neil for well over a year now, to take another "refugee", like how might things have turned out 🤔
#hi i just realised as I was writing this that in addition to their similarities with dr*ke and gr*yson another fuckin similarity is that#THEY BOTH HAVE/HAD SIBLINGS THAT THEY TRIED TO PROTECT AND TO SOME EXTENT FEEL LIKE THEY FAILED#anyways i'm sooooo normal about the bonding over trauma potential these two have that i know will never be explored#bonding over trauma and bonding over their complicated relationships with exy#like am i the only one that was Not expecting Jean to just be like 'i do not like playing exy but its my whole life so im not going to stop#all for the game#aftg my beloved#andrew minyard#jean moreau#tsc spoilers#tsc#the sunshine court#the king's men#tkm#jeandrew#aftg
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not a voice of reason but certainly a voice of clarity
#null havoc damage#zora tag#nyarla tag#'just say youre bisexual' well i dont feel like i am. have you considered that#my attraction to men makes me feel like a man. my attraction to women makes me feel like a woman. and outside of that containing it#i am neither a man nor a woman. i am something else entirely. and im not fond of the idea of calling myself either one straight-faced#and also sometimes i look at a man and i want him to want me like a girl. or i want a girl to want me like a man. different#my point is fuck labels i wish there was a word for 'its complicated so can i just come in and look around'
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well as you can see besides being ugly as all fuck I'm also extremely bitter so that doesn't help at all in making me appealing. but it also comes with the territory you see, being treated as a hideous freak of nature for your whole life kind of does things to your psyche.
also going into shit in the tags as an extreeeemely jaded individual who's been on every side of the discourse and KNOWS it all VERY PERSONALLY so I know many people will find all sorts of different reasons to hate me (if they want ig) because I'm ~politically homeless~ at this point because I'm sick and tired of everything but whatever
(also fuck I ran out of space in the tags so another post maybe idk. )
#so. i get why people are against children transitioning i really do. and i have my own nuanced complicated feelings about it#but honestly. im beginning to believe id be more well-adjusted by now even if just a bit if i had started larping as male by 15.#would it fix all of my problems? no. but it would make a lot of things in my life much smoother and easier.#but i was sooo deep into raddie/gc shit that i had this fucking. complex about not wanting to troon because its ~cheating~#and 'omg all the butches are leaving!!1 butch flight i cant be one of them!!!1'#'i MUST be a good example for all the young girls!!!1' a weird sort of almost martyr-like complex if you will.#but as i get older im like... honestly man fuuuuccckkkkk this.#barely anybody expects straight or even bi women to abstain from dating men forever For the Good of Womankind#its not seen as Expected but rather Exceptional and Wow Amazing if you do.#and anyone who Expects it is seen as a ~crazy extremist~#meanwhile lesbians and especially HSTS are almost fucking Expected to sacrifice themselves for the ~greater good~#and ngl other lesbiams perpetuate this shit too.#oh you CANT transition even if you feel it'll make your life easier because because because#[arguments that would really only apply to OSA females transitioning]#[strawman] [misinterpreted stats] [unverified reddit posts]#and if all else fails 'think of how the very act of doing so will HURT ALL OF WOMANKIND'#no fucking wonder dysphoric lesbians develop an fucking insane martyr complex and start to treat hrt/transitioning like its fucking crack#'ill give into the temptation if i see a happy trans person ohh nooo so nobody should be allowed to troon'#like thats not fucking normal! you realize thats NOT FUCKING NORMAL right?#youre acting like a deranged christian who is so afraid of sinning by wrongthink#and disclaimer no. i dont inherently hate being female or a lesbian but with the way i am physically and mentally#i would have/have had a Much easier time integrating into society as a ~man~. just because of how i am physically and mentally.#now i wont say internalized homophobia/etc. NEVER has anything to do with transition or etc. but im gonna be real#for HSTS (which are extremely rare in the first place) thats often only a very small part of it at most.#its often more about making our lives easier and integrating better without having to completely remold our entire personalities.#thats the reality.#would we not transition if society have patriarchy/gender roles/sexism? perhaps. i wont deny that possibility.#the fact of the matter is however#that it wont be happening any time soon. so we just want our lives to be easier.#'oh but youre lying to yourself' not necessarily. i dont have a ~gender identity~ and im well aware of myself and my situation.
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as an indigenous two spirit queer person, for upcoming pride month & indigenous history month for the love of fucking g-d can we FOR FUCKING ONCE unite under ONE UNITED queer community & stop whining & bitching over who gets to use what term & over bullshit that doesn't even matter when people are literally in concentration camps all around the world & queer people are in danger & to look at your local communities & center indigenous voices (& other queers of color) in your activism. get yourselves together holy fucking shit.
#''can [x] use [f slur d slur etc] slur'' WHO FUCKING CARES#''can men be lesbians/can women be gay men'' WHO FUCKING CARES#as long as you're not being a cultural appropriator by taking closed cultures that youre not a part of you're literally fucking fine#why do yall have to make this shit so fucking complicated its ridiculous & it reeks of privilege im so sorry#does this sound mean? yes. do i care? no. im TIRED of trivial bs like this at every pride month when ACTUAL issues are going on the world r#& also for the love of fucking g-d center voices of color in queerness#especially two spirit voices bc im tired of yall nonnatives only using us as a fucking token then throwing us aside whenever its convenient#also PROTECT JEWS & ROMANI BC NAZIS ARE ALWAYS TARGETING US FIRST#this is probably just my aspd talking but i dont give a shit rn. + no discourse or im slaughtering you kthx#arcana.vents
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Having fucked up gender dysphoria ive wrapped back around and now im mad im not a girl. I dont want to use she/her that feels wrong, and i dont want people to refer to me as a woman they just need to. Know. Sometimes. Perhaps bigender or genderfluid who knows. Im only a girl sometimes
#i like men in a man way but i like women in a woman way. i think.#but i also like women in a bi man way. i dont like men in a woman way?#being bi is very important to my gender#but like. my woman gender feels aro#its all so complicated#its so hard to be a boy girl girl boy people dont like it when you do that#and its even harder when its mostly internal#id like to dress more feminine but i dont want to be a feminine man#i want to be a . somewhat androgynous girl#but only sometimes !#when i see other trans guys explore femininity i can tell its not how i feel#its all so weird anyway can i just be a girl with a mustache#and a green and purple color scheme thanks#i know i can do all of this and do whatever i want i can be a girl when i feel like it#its just. i dont know how to explore that#or how to feel about it… and explore it in a way that doesnt also trigger my dysphoria#anybody else on this forum have two genders?#diary
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jingliu is a perfect example of "if this female character was male, shed be universally loved instead of heavily criticized"
#im not saying you cant criticize a character but its sooooo telling that she gets so much of it#“shes a hypoctite. shes too mean. shes too cold.” yeah uh huh but those kinds of traits are fine on ren okay got it#people saying her character design is basic like im sorry but star rail doesnt have very many ground breaking designs for anyone#and yet i only see people bringing up jinglius design. also saying shes too pretty and done up#like the men arent also conventionally attractive. *yes* hoyoverse is bad for unique female designs#buts lets not pretend its solely a jingliu problem. it was an issue before her#shes just another victim of the short dress exposed shoulders look. also her design is not in any way shape or form the worst female design#im not going to give my opinion on that here tho because its not important#im losing my train of thought so im just gonna say people wouldnt be handwringing over the prospect#of jing yuan having romantic feelings for her. in fact thered be droves and droves of girls shipping them if jingliu was a man#not to mention shipping her with ren if she was. and dan heng/feng#but shes not a man so shes being scruitinized and picked apart for any potential “flaws”#like theyre so transparent about it. like im sorry she was mean to ren/yingxing fucking forgive her for having complex feelings#about a messy complicated issue while shes dealing with her own#trauma and guilt and anger and everything else that wouldnt be a problem if she wasnt a female character#the hypocrisy of it all never ceases to astound#hsr
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gonna start posting shitty doodles as updates so i wont just go back to dying again. anywho this means an actual drawing will be on like. monday or tuesday or after. if you see me post before that then itll probably mean i actively didnt do something i was supposed to. whoops
#sho.sketches#<- new tag for shitty art#sho.scramblin#<- this is a tag for whenever i get rambly which. applies here i think#sho (sona)#anywho yeah#i should be finishing my assignment rn#so i can try n get sleep before goin to campus#since after class there'll be a seminar AND an evaluation meeting for a campus event i helped organize last week#which means ill get home like. late at night. oh boy!#im also kinda bummed bc i was gonna go to a con next week but bc of complications im. not going#like. i was really counting on it as a pick me up#like. i wanted to buy art prints damn it. and no i dont want to ask an acquaintance whos going there to buy them for me#part of it bc its not the same#partly bc i dont htink asking someone i barely know to buy me buff furry men art prints is. good optics for my social standing#<- closeted (in both ways)#anywho#see you on the flip side when have the time to draw beegee 3 fanart. ciao
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I'm (mostly) keeping Purple Orange and Gold out of this because I haven't been working with them recently, but like. You have. Deus Ex Machina in the way of The Organic Is Machine And He Will Change You To Change Reality, you have Death and War and natural disasters, you have the One to Whom Soldiers Are Sacrificed In War. I'm looking at selves like...
The parts of myself I keep hidden are. all parts, because these are all ultimately halves of aspects and if you suppress an aspect you suppress the aspect... but I see the way I bleed into people. I see the Violent Mother, the one who will bleed your body out on her altar and who tears apart the bodies of the enemy to protect her hatchlings. Ive tried to stay human, but ultimately... this flesh, this soul flesh, eats human bodies. This takes human sacrifices. This tears apart countries, this drives people into psychosis, this pours revelation into eyes that either adapt to handle it or go mad, literally.
The whole part of Godhood is that you are what you are and you actively are it, you actively Be it. This - Dei - is the mergence of opposites which is in itself both the unification of opposites and the rending of similarities in one. Creation Through Destruction.
I'm constantly sitting here grasping at the shredded fabrics I have left (they're shrinking over time) of humanity and. guys. shh. the humans don't like this stuff. Guys, I'm not dancing and infecting people, I'm trying so hard to be quiet down here
#Thing is I know it's easier said than done. Next to no one who thinks ''If I show you my true power you'll explode'' is in any way correct#either because they're. like me. paranoid. Or they're completely misunderstanding that the level of ability to handle things in#spiritual places is so widely varied - you can Explode a few people from thoughts alone and then have no effect on anyone else#because if circumstances arise... well. a being can drown in a few inches of water and also resist being stabbed 10 times to#fight you off. if you even get the chance to be physical with them in the first place. But my god#That's what bothers me. I've had Thoughts Explode times and I think I forget what exactly led up to that#The old men haven't wiped entire locations off maps through allowing themselves to be themselves - or more so it's complicated#When God speaks about openings in time and gives you permission to be his guard dog and bite... that doesn't mean biting#toys afterwards is gonna have the same effect. There's entire causation and fate bodies and such that bring us to kill#Sun rays when focused into a laser melt rocks. that doesn't mean the sun can't touch skin without burning through it#This is why gods play chess: it's not a dick measuring contest. It's a who can use that dick better contest#OK thanks Lev for the insight#ramblings //#astral diary //#Astral body //#I just have shit playing on repeat in my mind constantly. I have been the apple fallen from the tree and I have seen the way the tree#impales the sky. When I'm a tree ill understand its a dance and not an impaling
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It's fucked up that the sober population straight up ignores how a huge portion of addicts have chronic illnesses
#was thinking about my stepdad and his plethora of health issues and how they shape his life#and then i thought about sewercentipede and Then i thought about the huge population of bipolar people who are alcoholics#and then after all that i thought about a convo i had with a straight edge friend who was like 'using illegal drugs Should result in jail#time because they could just Not do those drugs. they do it just for fun'#like i understand where he is coming from but i literally think he is wrong af.#i think the people who do drugs (esp hard drugs) recreationally are outnumbered 2 to 1 by people who#are self medicating with illegal drugs. i think most people totally ignore how chronic illnesses#and severe mental illnesses can hurt you on a profound level and because they dont know about that suffering#they do not understand the urge to numb that pain. and people have no sympathy for what they dont understand#lately im so bothered by people who share their opinions with me about complicated issues but clearly havent ever done any research on them#everyone thinks their opinion is so smart and special and no one is studying#especially not studying human behavior. most people think that socialization and political topics are a fucking joke#with 0 relevance to their personal lives. like no one is ever going to be truly informed about All the things#and i know i certainly am not but it is so annoying to speak with people who make no effort at all to learn about a subject#before they try and tell people the business about it. like that guy. his only understanding of drug use#comes from his own relationship to alcohol. but he was not an alcoholic he was just a perv who decided to go christian#like its so egotistical to assume that your experience and emotions can apply to everyone and yet he is not the only guy i know#who has no interest in any perspective other than his own but thinks his perspective is well informed#im sure women piss me off with this behavior too its just that atm i can only think of examples of men acting like this
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do y’all wanna know something funny. when I was in England I accidentally stumbled into finding my sister a boyfriend via @ilovevanillatea and her husband and it is something that has been so funny and good.
#It’s almost been two months so I can talk about it a bit more lightly#it’s had its ups and downs as far as it concerns me. because it’s another big change and one that sometimes feels so full of shadowy fear#and sometimes I have been [ shrieks in strangled anguish ] about it but also and at the same time. it’s been funny#and good. And I am delighted.#My wording is deceptive here —it was really Emma’s husband and Emma who led the charge here#because I showed up at their house and Jonny (Emma’s husband) was like : ‘do you want to date my friend [x]’#which was so funny. But over the course of the week we (and me for personal reasons) all sort of collectively shifted it over to Nina#and things have been going so great#and it has been probably the funniest and occasionally the most maddening outcome of my trip#(It is good. It’s just also complicated. as everything is!! I’m slowly learning how to deal when the women I love find men in their lives)#(I am very bad at it but I am invested in getting better and in learning how to be a true support)#ANYWAY. Of course I wanted to make a million text posts about this simply from a storytelling perspective#but have had to restrain myself#because you know it’s real life and it’s delicate etc.#but now feels like a safe enough time#anyway the sheer ROMCOM OF IT ALL
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man one thing idk how to feel about is the trans men you periodically see weighing in on 'lesbians who fuck men' discourse, usually pretty young people who dont have much experience, desperately insisting that lesbians can be attracted to men because their lesbian girlfriend says so. look I'm not trying to be mean but you need to realise she doesn't see you as a man. she sees you as a woman, or basically a woman, and that's why she likes you. if she was attracted to you as a man she would have to reconsider her feelings about men. if it's just you, that's because she doesn't see you as one.
#lesbian chasers of trans men are so real and massive creeps ive seen it#it often ends up a kind of ESH situation because u also get trans men who are obsessed with getting a lesbian or whatever#but yeah i feel like people dont realise thats a thing and it super is#this one guy who left a huge seething coping rant in my notes#and i went on his blog and it linked to a tiktok acc where he posted 1000 coping videos about it#because he had a massive crush on a lesbian who agreed to date him#and all these videos like 'im trying to see my attraction as more sapphic'#mixed with 'i feel so lonely in the sapphic community because theres nothing about men' (!)#likeyoure literally just trying to change who you are for her. its not worth it#same person that was like just let people have fun or whatever!!! i mean this doesnt look like youre having fun but do you#'sexuality is fluid and complicated!' yeah and if she was attracted to you as a man she would realise she likes men#if her attraction to you isnt making her consider her feelings towards men it means she doesnt see you as a man so its not a challenge to h#her. do the maths
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help I’ve started listening to my chemical romance 😭
#just pav things#when someone’s music taste is a natural extension of my own I will assimilate their favourite artist into my being <3#and honestly this was doomed to happen too.#like. the first album I ever remember listening and doing a silly dance to was Bon Jovi’s Cross Road in KINDERGARTEN#and then I grew up with shoji meguro’s work on persona 4 golden (2012)#I’m literally the girl who thinks electric guitar is the bestest instrument ever#Soo yeah 😅 Turns out Pav was the true emo the whole time 😂#this is what happens when you grow up with literally subgenre of rock at your disposal :>#Anyways this has spurred some heated debate in my mind#Namely. Would Inigo actually listen to this in character?#ITS A COMPLICATED TOPIC THAT’S REALLY TESTING MY KNOWLEDGE OF HIS CHARACTERISATION#Just like how Dolphin asks those difficult questions about Archie where it requires really late-stage psychological thoroughness#and intimate understanding of said deepest parts of the psyche#Because here’s the deal right? We all know Inigo is wearing a false edgier persona to prevent any closeness with other people#Key word: false.#But that’s not the whole picture either is it? He has a harness up to his neck because he wallows in his guilt about Archie#It’s a torture device for him. He’s wearing uncomfortable clothing on purpose.#It almost feels like he would listen to mcr to induce the comfortable inertia of emptiness that sustains his depressed existence#It keeps him thinking about negative topics. Keeps him lost in his nightmarish slumber that is a life devoid of true connection to others#So it would help MAINTAIN his emo mask through willing engagement. Thus preventing Inigo from breaking due to sheer psychological duress~#And c’mon who would listen to ‘you know what they do to men like us in prison’ and NOT think of Archie and Inigo#Or specifically. How Inigo PERCIEVES Archie#They’re both deeply entrenched in sin :3 And Inigo thinks he doesn’t suffer enough for what he did— ‘or just not enough pain in my heart fo#your dying wish’ (dying this case being. metaphorical. y’know)#And then that line of ‘I’ll kiss your lips again’#Like kissing goodbye to a sweet death~#So like. Inigo is trying to reinforce the idea that he’s a murderer in his mind 😭#And that’s my thesis on WHY Inigo would listen to mcr and his response if appropriate 😤 He’s trying to brainwash himself ✨✨✨
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As a bisexual polyamorous woman my dating choices for women are between single women who are convinced I'm planning to spring my husband on them and married women who try to spring their husbands on me.
#polyamory#cnm#non monogamy#poly#unicorn hunters#bisexual#wlw#sapphic#i am neither married nor is my np a man#but im still fighting an uphill battle#unicorn hunters really do ruin it for the rest of us#bi poly women have trouble dating women and get told to just date each other#the situation is a little more complicated than that#yeah im attracted to men but im not attracted to your husband#if i were i wouldve matched with him on one of the many apps for cis men and women* to find each other#too many cis men on the wlw dating app#my np is on grindr and apparently grindr has its own problems with cishet men#cant have shit in detroit#imagine people thinking it was ok to do this to straight men#like just gonna match with this dude bro and then when we make plans to get spicy i tell him i want my husband to watch#just once i want someone to randomly ask if their wife could join in#the answer is still no#but at least thered be variety#kinda surprised so many unicorn hunters are interested in the first place. i thought they mostly preyed on single women
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i do often lament the bullshittery i got up to and ran my mouth about when i was deep deep in the comphet trenches (bc incredibly i struggled more w comphet AFTER i came out and even well into my current relationship - im just now untangling so much of it) but god at the very fucking least, at LEAST, thank GOD i never forgot my man hating roots. even at my WORST i was not harping on about how evil dykes and lesbians are for hating men.
#i will probably always struggle with it a little bit bc even in a relationship with a woman (that im MARRYING) it took like#years and years of self hatred and preemptive defeat finally being unwound after realising i could like#be a butch woman and not have kids and not ever date or sleep with cishet men. ever. i could actually marry someone i loved#i wasnt doomed. i had a whole life ahead of me that i could live with someone who made me happy rather than what was expected of me#bc its crazy even though i knew i liked women it felt like id always end up with a (cis) man whether i liked it or not#i never really took anything seriously bc it felt like i wasnt allowed or supposed to#i spent years and years over performing femininity trying to make the self hatred go away wondering why i never felt Right#why it felt like i was dying inside. and it makes me wanna scream because i wish i could tell past me that its okay#i dont think ive ever properly articulated how it felt but it was so suffocating and then being pushed further into like#fighting tooth and nail to even have a foothold in my own community bc i was seen as lesser for my bisexuality#made it so much harder to unpack those complicated feelings around my sexuality. bc i was fighting so hard to feel#like i was allowed to have and celebrate that in my own community bc god knows i dont feel at home with cishets#txt
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