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bigfatbreak · 1 year ago
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one more warmup: shadybug and swarm hanging out
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago
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#aaaand thats a 3rd doctor. a psychiatrist. who listened to me ans thought: mm sounds like bip0lar lol#me: wow its so easy to get diagnosed as bip0lar. thats bc u r exhibiting lots of depression and a limit amount of mood elevation. that's#like. thats what bip0lar is. she was like yea ppl with bip0lar 2 spend like 75% of time being depressed and a lil elevated mood... which#sounds like what u r describing. me:#...yeah. but again its complicated by the 0cd and spectrum issues. but she independently brought up 4dhd. just when i was like no its all#0cd. here we r again. stuck back in the messy overlap. but whatever i got proscribed bip0lar medicine. lam1ctal. we'll see#bc everyone i talk to is like. we need to control the mood 1st. like so u dont die. and im like hm yeah good call lol#she seems super cool tho. like i would love to just talk to her. ugh. she wants to get a handle on the mood and then maybe add a stimulant#bc shes had it happen in thr past where someone comes in with debiltating 0cd and got treated with lam1ctol and a stimulant and the#obsessive rumination stopped. so well see. idk if ill actually qualify as 4dhd enough. well see. fingers crossed#my mood is a lil elevated rn so its all fun. well see if we tip off a cliff bc im getting less sleep and go go going#unrelated#ugh im scared to start the medine tho bc the ssri i got proscribed fucked me up so much. which is also an indicator of bip0lar#god dammit. if this works im gonna have to actually accept the idea of being bip0lar. i mean. it makes sense being on that spectrum#is just sounds insane and i was not expecting it despite my fucking obsession with understanding wtf my deal is#idk. whatever. doesnt matter
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waywardsalt · 2 years ago
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Linebeck is the Maui to Link's Moana. Or more accurately the Peter B Parker to Link's Miles Morales. He could have the most interesting and heroic past, but he has the vibes of Just Some Guy. I'd kill for a game set after Phantom Hourglass (but before Spirit Tracks) where we learn more about Linebeck's history, and how it plays into his newfound parental relationship with Link
Linebeck being more or less Just Some Guy compared to Link being this weirdly competent pre-teen is a fun part of their dynamic a lot of the time. There is a lot of time between PH and ST and that obviously is an opportunity for more storytelling between those characters, plus considering that we have very limited information on Linebeck's history or... anything, exploring him further is always a lot of fun, and could make for an interesting subject for anything before or after PH (or during), and further going into his relationship and dynamic with Link has a lot of potential for... a lot of different stuff!
#asks#anon#aaaa idk what to say here but yeah linebeck is such an enigma since he doesnt really have a backstory or any supplemental info#as the local ph fandom blasphemer however i dont actually like father/son linebeck and link any more so i got nothing on that#i lean into like. weird brothers or something akin to that?#not to be a jojo fan here but ive compared it a little more to the deal between kishibe rohan and koichi hirose in diu#but ive been making it more of its own complicated thing. leaning into weird brothers or something with similar vibes#and since i like to play with au stuff ive found out that they are really fun to put in different roles and dynamics#they have great base chemistry and it really allows for some cool stuff to be done with them#part of me does want to see like. a post ph pre st game but i also kind of like having that time being blank#so we can decide for ourselves what can happen in that time#ive got my own ideas for a post ph concept/story and i do have more or less a full backstory for my interpretation of linebeck#but uh yea. i can't really say much about linebeck being parental w/ link bc i dont. actually view it that way#to me its like. linebeck is dependent on link for mental illness reasons and link made the executive decision that theyre brothers#its messy but the bottom line is that they rely on each other and do make a good team#so yeah sorry i cant say a whole lot on the topic of them having a father/son relationship thing#loz#legend of zelda#phantom hourglass#linebeck#link#also very little on the character comparisons you made sorry abt that. you're right tho#salty talks
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whomturgled · 1 year ago
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i have so many feelings and i hate it
#and regrets of any time ive acted up or feel like in hindsight it wasnt cherishing the time i have w them as i shld be and#and things i want to do with them still and ways to love them and be loved and understand their way of loving and#i think we can be so good together and. i miss them. and i hope they miss me.#i really hope theyll miss me soon and want me again and . ik its maybe a little messed up but i want to believe and trust and#its hard and it hurts but. i really feel theres a great connection and if i need to chill out a bit and remember myself more thats fine#and on me for getting so like. moody recently. altho i kinda feel like part of that is med changes but u__u still i need to be able to like#be better and i think they make me better and so happy and. im so comfortable with them and i love them and i wld want to make it work#even if it had to be distance but i dont think i want to just be their friend like maybe but it would hurt a lot bc i love them so much#and i hope they wanna be with me too still and will allow me to romance them yknow flowers and adventures and love and take care and... yea#and maybe some of this was just them going thru a lot rn and im sorry for adding pressure to it and i want to be the comfortable respite an#auurgrgghfhdhdhhfhfdhh i miss them#i just keep thinking abt them like ill have periods of not but then i do again and. idk.#theres also a lot of complicated feelings and thoughts and its like i want to like. idk. know some of their friends n stuff n. :^( idk#i dont feel well from the stress and emotions and ow of it all#i really hope it isnt just a way for them to let me down i really hope they come back eventually like i wanna believe they will but#ourgsghthfhdhfhghghdhdhwkelftk4bfbhwiwjtjejAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#i love them a lot. and need to listen more abt more alone time stuff bc it is good for both of us but not like this u_u#ok sorry for rambling i needed somewhere to write feelings so here we are#i guess part of me is hoping theyre thinking abt me at least a bit and maybe will check this and see it and be like wow i do miss them too#but ik thats silly and eitth3u2ieigjtb4jirifjwji24jgntn aahhhhhhhhhhh. i say a lot of things wrong esp when scared or overly emotional and.#urgevshehrhtjrjeitjtnjeeitjtjwjeiigvjiw9384847rhfbwjoe4j4n4j289djrnrnf#i just really really hope they come back soonish and like want me and are like yes i do want you sorry for that but not a huge sorry bc#like i understand where theyre coming from and. and. yeah. idk. soon doesnt have to be today or tomorrow but maybe a week or 2 idk#i just realy miss them and it hurts and i really dont want them with someone else or to just throw it all away andni want to prove i can#like. idk. love them and be better and more positive i guess we've both been dealing w a lot of stuff and i do need to learn to accept and#more patient w how we communicate differently and we do have to face that but its a difficult topic to confront ig and aurh4hwhshhrlffff#i think they love me i want to trust and i really hope they dont try to make any decisions for me or like based on what they think best 4 m#bc i get to decide that :^(#when i said let down i meant like. leave my life and never talk to me again and stuff.. ;^(. idk how to feel abt some things but. idk. idk.#theres so many feelings and that all is just a pretty vague tip of the iceberg ugh
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bcneheaded · 2 years ago
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*screams loudly into an empty paper towel roll*
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aahsoka · 2 years ago
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cant quite figure out words for this but calling critique of the white supremacist tendencies of like cottagecore tradwives ‘america centric’ is like. what the fuck. idk
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cepheusgalaxy · 8 months ago
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FINALLY I CAN GO HOME
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ilwonuu · 8 months ago
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hiii love all of your work btw!!
hear me out please!, this might be a long one😭
okay so you and jaehyun (or whatever idol you may want to use) are best friends. and have been since childhood! your a dancer and he’s a idol so your schedules are complicated. your very close with each other’s families. so one day you visit his mom like usual and surprisingly he is there with his group visiting home too, which you didn’t know he was visiting. you guys are excited to see each other and everyone can see your chemistry ( you get introduced to everyone) but you guys say y’all are “best friends” even his family see it. y’all flirt. (a lot) boom spend the night smut and boom😭😭😭.
(ik it’s a lot i’m sorry😭)
thank u for saying u enjoy my work ily<3 NO NO ITS NOT A LOT ITS OERFECT KSJSHA,,, i love this idea and of course i love rhis idea with jaehyun ehehshs!! i hope u enjoy,,, thank youu for requesting <3
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⤑ jeong jaehyun
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𖤓 pairing- best friends to lovers, idol!jaehyun x nonidol!femreader, softdom!jae x sub!reader, established friendship
𖤓 warnings- lots of cringe flirting, kissing, fingering(f receiving), dirty talk, slight smut heheheheh(dw lmk if you want another smut part), lmk what else<333
𖤓 a/n- hiiiii im fulfilling my lovely anon’s ask!!! im so happy that u requested something!! i based this fic off of some of the lyrics from this song<3 thank u for reading🙃🙃
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you almost cry after finding out about your 4 days off. you’ve been working yourself to the core with dancing. of course it’s something you love but you really need a break. you decide to go your best friends house. you know he isn’t going to be be there but it’s fine because you’re just as close with his family. his mother always being there for you whenever you needed. today you could use the company. you knock on the door a couple times waiting for her to open the door. to your surprise your very handsome best friend opens the door with a big smile.
“get in here.” he pulls you into a big hug. “jae? you didn’t tell me you were free!” you roll your eyes at him, letting go of him to greet his mother. you hug her with a smile. “i came to see you.” you smile getting comfortable a little more. you wave to the other guys in the room. “hi guys! i’m y/n nice to finally meet you all. i’ve heard a lot.” jaehyun smiles as he introduces each of the members to you.
“yea we have heard a lot too!” haechan smirks at you and jaehyun, causing johnny and mark to snicker at him. “you’re so pretty!” jungwoo says after you compliment his outfit. you smile knowing that you two will be great friends. exchanging numbers with the guys as you and jaehyun basically have the same friends. jaehyun pulls your attention back to him when he grabs your hand.
“so you guys are friends?” yuta asks looking as you guys intensely. “yea- best friends.” you smile at jaehyun. they see right through what you guys are telling yourselves. “definitely.” doyoung says as he laughs at how red jaehyun got at the question. “okay! are you guys hungry?” mrs. jeong cuts the silence with a smile.
after dinner, you and jaehyun spent the night watching your favorite childhood movies laughing and fucking flirting. how could you not flirt with the boy? it’s hard having a hot best friend (a lot of people suffer from this!!!) he has you in his arms as he mindlessly rubs your sides. you are melting in his arms. “i missed you.” he says taking your attention from the movie.
“i missed you more jae.” you smile at him. he blushes hard at the gesture. “no like i seriously couldn’t wait to see you. i couldn’t stop thinking of you.” he holds you tighter. “ew you’re being cheesy all of a sudden.” you playfully push him away. “shut up you love it baby.” you choke on your spit. baby?? what the fuck he never calls you baby. obviously because you guys are just friends,,,,definitely! “im just messing with you.” he smiles at you innocently.
“you’re annoying.” he shakes his head. “you don’t really think so, you like me too much.” he kisses your cheek and at first it seems sweet until he moves his kisses down your jaw. “is this okay?” your breath hitches as he holds you in place. “jaehyun- what are you doing?” you look at him nervously. “tell me you don’t want this and i’ll stop right now.” he rubs your side gently. “no- i want this.” you nod at him and he smiles.
“relax baby.” he helps you out of your shorts leaving you in just your panties. your back is against his chest as you rest between his legs. “look at me- good girl.” he smiles at you pulling you to kiss him. “i’ve wanted you like this for so long.” his voice is quiet as it leaves his lips. he’s been trying to ignore his feelings as were you. anyone could see that you guys were more than friends.
“kiss me again.” you sighed against his chest. he chuckles a little kissing your cheek before turning your head to kiss your lips. you moan into the kiss as your legs spread. his hand snakes to your thighs rubbing it gently.
“jaehyun- touch me.” you whisper to him. he nods at you pecking your lips. you grab his hand to move it higher against your thigh. he just smirks at you teasingly. “you’ve been thinking about this for a while huh baby? my hands touching you like this?” he teases as he moves your panties to the side.
“look at how wet you are just from me talking to you.” you nod shamelessly laying your head back on him. you feel one of his fingers sink into your aching cunt. “dirty girl, you are soaking.” he smirks at you as he adds another finger inside of you. ��feels so good.” you sigh at the feeling. he scissors his fingers inside of you making you moan out his name. “mm jaehyun-“ you start to squirm as you get closer to your high.
“yea, you gonna cum baby?” he kisses your neck as he curls his fingers. you cum undone on his fingers with a sigh. “fuck you’re perfect.” he pulls you into a kiss. “do best friends finger each other?” jaehyun asks with a laugh causing you to roll your eyes at him. “you ruined the moment.” he smirks at you. “come here baby.” he pulls you into his arms before smothering you in kisses. “i want you to be my girlfriend, not my best friend.”
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reidsmouthbabys48 · 2 years ago
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make your move baby
Summary: spencer and y/n have a complicated friendship, spencers imagination overpowers him one night and y/n teases him because what he was imagining made him hard.
Warnings: sub!spencer, virgin!spencer, nerdy!spence, sexual themes, leg humping, slight mommy kink, coming in pants, other small things.
18+ minors do not interact (unless you do I dgaf)
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"hi spence" y/n says, walking up beside me. I give her a hopefully subtle once over, she's wearing tight black dress pants and a pink long-sleeved shirt the sleeves are rolled up to her elbows, and her long black hair is pulled back in a ponytail, she's the most beautiful girl I've ever layed eyes on but i can't tell her that, we're to close and the last thing I want to do is ruin what we have.
"Hi, how'd you sleep?" I ask giving her a small smile, she ruffles my hair and I blush as I move my head away, she laughs "you are adorable" she says and i blush even redder.
"Hey guys" Penelope says as we sit down at our desks, "Hello sweetheart" y/n says, quickly looking over at me then smiling at Penelope, I almost didn't see the hint of, amusement? in her eyes.
Almost.
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Me and y/n are driving to my apartment to hangout and watch a movie, I want to ask why she looked at me like that but I know I shouldn't.
"Why did you uhm look at me like that when you were talking to Penelope?" I ask turning so sideways so I'm looking at her, she shoots me a questioning glance "what are you talking about spence?" She says, her tone is teasing. Maybe im just thinking to much about it.
"Actually N-never mind" I say moving to look back out the window but she puts her hand on my thigh, "what's up with you Spencer? You have been so short with me the past few weeks, did I do something?" She says looking at me, her eyes are filled with hurt and it breaks my heart because that's the last thing I want to do. I need to tell her, we've know each other too long for things to completely fall apart if I confess my feelings.
"No no, y/n you did nothing I would never be upset at you and not tell you why. you know that, it's just I've been trying to figure out my feeling for the last few weeks, I didn't think k I was being short or anything" I sigh, she squeezes my thigh tightly, i know it eas mean in a co.forting wat but its to close to whenr ive imagined her hands at, I grab her hand, "d-dont do that" I say trying to compose myself, she looks at me questoningly then looks down at her hand, removing it from my thigh.
I try my best to think about anything but her squeezing my thigh like that but my mind drifts off and I lose control of my thoughts, I imagine myself under her moaning as she kisses my neck, and rigid me. if only this shit would really happen- "spence?" I hear her voice ring through the air and I jump a bit.
"Y-yea" I mumble praying that she couldn't tell what I was just thinking, she looks at my crotch and a slight smirk appears on her face but she says nothing, I blush.
"Were here, I'll give you a bit to take care of that" the says still smirking, I let out a whine of embarrassment.
"No need to be embarrassed baby it happens to all of us it's natural to have dirty thoughts." She says winking at me, dammit.
"Unless..." she says moving her hand back to my thigh, "you want some help with it" she finishes squeezing my thigh roughly once again, I let out a whimper and bite my lip, embarrassed of the sound that came out of my mouth.
"Yes or no baby?" She asks and I nod "y-yes please, help me" I whine the end of it cutting off into a moan as she palms my bulge over my slacks .
"So responsive" she says and I whimper bucking my hips into her hand for more friction.
"No no baby, get out and go to your apartment" she says and I nod opening the door and immediately slide out of the car.
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You get out of the car a few minutes after spencer and slowly walk into the apartment complex, giving him some time to regroup.
Once you get to his apartment you knock on the door, "it's me baby open up" you say and the door immediately opens and you're being pulled inside and shoved into the now closed door, before you could protest his lips are on yours hungrily, you return the kiss, turning you both around and shoving him into the door, he moans at the roughness of your push and you grab his hair causing a low moan to rip from his throat.
You move backwards to his couch, your lips still on his, we both fall onto the couch, he moves to straddle your lap and he starts to kiss you again, "i-i uhm I haven't done anything like this before so I'm sorry if I'm not good" he says looking down at your lap, "baby it's ok" you say and he nods starting to hump your thigh, he moans loudly at the friction provided by your leg and you bounce your knee in time with him coming down on you, making the pleasure he feels almost unbearable, "f-fuck mommy I need to cum, please please I need it so bad" he moans and your eyes widen at the word 'mommy' mixed with his begging, his humping beame quick and frantic, his moans getting louder and louder, "come on be a good boy and cum for mommy baby" you whisper in his ear, moving down to kiss his neck. That's all it takes for the boy to fall over the edge, filling his boxers with his sticky release.
He leans his head into your neck, panting as you card your fingers through his soft hair "mommy?" You ask and he whines.
"Shut up" he says lightly kissing your neck.
"Hey no judgement here baby I just didn't think you were so... kinky" you say and he laughs, "you should see some of the stuff that I imagine when I'm wanking" he says, now you're the one laughing.
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Ok I'm sorry this probably sucks I haven't had motivation for a long time and I wanted to write something before it left again lmao
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helloiamadrawer · 6 months ago
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Goku/Reader Fluff and Comfort Hc's
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Big sweet saiyan loves to cuddle after a hard day of training (ofc he's going to wash up first before he hops into bed with you) and he's like a big warm teddy bear to hug and snuggle with eeee 💕
Finds it cute/funny when you try to be the big spoon, you're just so smol compared to him its adorable
Coming in frustrated from a complicated day at work? Goku will sit you down and let you vent about it to him or if you want to let out some anger maybe some sparring or needed training to boost your power level, it reminds him of another friend he has who always tries to surpass him and has a big attitude (cough cough Vegeta)
If baking is your outlet for stress or if you just like doing it as a side hobby, Goku makes it a bit more fun, I mean trying to maneuver his big, muscly body around yall's small kitchen, bumping into everything, taking caution to not knocking anything over cause it might make you mad is really comedy gold!
"Oh crap! I broke one of the plates again, sorry baby 🥺" "It's fine Goku, that one was just one someone gave to me when we moved in, I didn't like it anyway." 🤣
9/10 for help though, although you had to tell him the difference between a baking spatula and a spatula tho but that's about it. He'll go fetch some ingredients for you if you don't have any or ran out. You two did make the most awesome peach cobbler though uwu
The biggest pair of puppy dog eyes he gives you when he asks you if he can lick the spoon 🥺
Gives gooood shoulder massages 💯 if you're really tense/tired after your daily life activities, he'll even offer to give massages after training and you're here thinking: how does this man have the energy?? we just sparred for a good hour '
One time you asked your sweet bf if you could touch his hair, it went something like this:
"You want to touch my hair?" Goku=cutely confused "yea..I understand if you don't want me to, I was just wondering cause it looks so soft." Goku:"Well, you can go ahead :) I don't mind."
Your hand rises up to the top of his head (he has to bend down halfway to meet your height level cause he's almost 6 foot 😂) as you pet his jet black hair, and to your surprise it was really soft, just like you had hoped for.
"What kind of shampoo do you use babe?"you asked curiously. "Umm..it was actually one of Bulma's new conditioners, I accidentally used it instead of my usual hair hair soap." he chuckles, "What is my hair like super soft now--huh?"before he could finish his sentence, your whole face was in his hair lmaoo, you couldn't help it, it was like you were in a cloud, a fluffy cloud that gave off the scent of linen and waterfalls.
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Speaking of waterfalls, he flew you to the most beautiful nature trail, you never even knew that this universe had one until Goku mentioned to you that there was a Namekian who literally knew the whole status of the universe along with the supreme kai. But wow, was it amazing to behold with your own eyes, vibrant flowers were scattered across the land, along with the mingling sounds of birds and let's not forget the waterfall..
You two trudged upon a hill and there it was, you could not believe your eyes, it had to be the most biggest one in the whole multiverse. "Isn't it awesome?" Goku asked, "I was thinking I could take you here since you like nature a whole lot.". The Saiyan sure does think about you a whole lot which is sweet. You hum in agreement and sit down to watch the endless display of nature's art, your boyfriend follows suit and swings his arm around you pulling you close to him. "We should do this more often" You sigh in content leaning in to the Saiyan's touch. Goku gives you a peck on the head as you two sit back and enjoy the sounds and each other's company.
enjoy! thank you for reading!
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emrikae · 1 month ago
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i feel like eren would be surprisingly good at cheerleading.
how do we know that?
his girlfriend mikasa is the best cheerleader in the squad and sometimes her seniors have her doing the complicated stunts that often times require their handsome line of strong male members to hold her up. and sometimes (all the times) seeing their thick grabby fingers dented in his girls skin has our boy dumb and seething.
“k try doing it with me then”
“-heh?”
“get up miks, lets fucking go. that thing you did with pigface where youre in the air and shit-
“- a toss cupie?”
“-yea wtv that. its easy shit baby, galliard did NOT need that extra half hour of practice trust me”
“erennnn can we not. im exhausted and practice was so fucking long today my ankles hurt. can we just go to bed and cuddle? pretty please baby? 🥺” her warm hands gently caressing his arm.
and for a split second erens willing to drop it, absolutely okay to massage her poor aching ankles and maybe slide his hands under her shirt and delve into dreamworld with his dream girl.
but then he remembers fucking porco getting a little too handsy with his lady today. he watched from the bleachers his sweet girl being so nice to accept an additional half hour of cheer practice because poor porco says hes been a little rusty on the edges lately, been having family problems and he needs her. fuck out of here, dudes a star cheerleader, did he really need those extra rounds of practice to finesse a fucking toss cupie tf??? eren could swear the perve was looking up her skirt that bitchass motherf-
“princess, jump” he promptly manhandles her in front of him, her back to him
“eren, what-” before she could twist back erens warm confident hands are already gripped to her hips powering her down and before she knows it, like the superstar she is, the golden girl of the cheer squad shes flying into the air twirling like a fairy landing perfectly perched on the steadiest base shes ever had. holy shit. holy fucking shit.
mikasas takes a glance at their reflection through her backyard sliding door and her mans form is really impeccable. one straight strong arm carrying her entire length hardly breaking a sweat, like the very act comes natural to him. like his very role in life was to lift her up. honestly dude, hes taking the piss on all the guys on the squad
she looks down in shock and smug face and all ofc her boyfriend is already shamelessly checking out which undies shes got on today.
“you know pigface was right about one thing miks, the view from down here sure is exquisite”
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witchinatree · 6 months ago
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magnus protocol episode 21 ramble
i'm so normal about this podcast btw for sure
EHEJEEHEHEHE SHE'S BACK ITS THE MAGNUS PROTOCOL SHE'S BACK
i love these guys but where's gwenny
lena does care she's just like that i love her sm
EVERYTHINGS EVIL IN LATE STAGE CAPITALISM!!!!
oh yea sam i'm sure you can quit babes why don't you give that a shot
"better from the inside" celia is that your strat rn.. no.. get out of there honey..
LET'S NOT TALK ABOUT ATTEMPTED MURDER AGAINST YOU SAM? LET'S NOT
oh it's The Magnus Archives COMPLICATED IMMIGRATION STATUS?????
IS SHE STAYING FOR JACK OR WHAT. WHAT. WHY ARE YOU HERE. ARE YOU IMPLYING YOU CAN GO BACK?
hiii che. CO FOUNDER OF THE INSTITUTE GOD. GOD. was there a co founder with jonah in tma????
GRAND EXPERIMENT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
constellations are related too? oh that's cool i think
THEY WERE GONNA END THE WORLD IN Y2K OH YOU'RE KIDDING. THAT'S SO FUNNY
what the hell is The Dome. what the fuck.
LOCUST?? WHAT IS GOING ON LIKE ACTUALLY
...i still miss gwen... i'm like so concerned about this but i am concerned about my wife also
DIG!!! DIG!!!!!
😧
being watched.... reference 😱
wtf WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF??? WHAT????? HUHHHHHHH????? WHY ARE PEOPLE CRAWLING OUT OF THE DIRT????? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I DON'T LIKE IT 👎👎👎
very professional way of saying "absolutely not what the fuck"
oh hey alice!! woah she just deleted it from sam's comp.. "colin was right about you" HOLY SHIT???? "who's in there" HOLY SHIT.
ALICE YOU NEED TO STEP AWAY FROM THE TRUTH ❌❌❌❌❌ RUN AWAY RUN AWAY
WHERE'S GWEN? SORRY LIKE WE'VE HAD EVERYONE HERE EXCEPT HER. WE EVEN GOT LENA??
NOOOO NOOOOO NOOOOOOO HAVE YOU HEARD FROM GWEN NOO NOO SHE'S WORRIED NO. NOO. NOOOOOO. ONLY ABOUT YOUR CASELOAD WITH THE AUDIO ERROR NOO. NOOOOOO.
GWEN HOLY FUCKING SHIT NO MY BABYGIRL NO MY BABYGIRL
NOOOOOOO HONEY RUN HONEY PLEASE INK5OUL I'M DIVORCING YOU. LEAVE HER ALONE.
who is that? oh he's dead then. DID HE JUST FALL ON GWENS PHONE. NO WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK. GWEN PLEASE HONEY GET OUT OF THERE. I'M UPSET I'M DISTRAUGHT I'M LOSING IT. A SCORPION? GWEN?? GWEN?? IS SHE EYE'ING RN?? WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT? AND DID IT SAVE GWEN JUST NOW? ELSEWHERE ELSEWHERE ELSEWHERE BAWLING?? WHAT IN THE FUCK
GOD DAMN????,?
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago
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parkkiablah · 1 year ago
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Teasing game - pt. 2 (Zevlor x Tav)
part 1 part 3 part 4 part 5 part 6 part 7
The next time you met Zevlor was when you were just buying food for the day.
You were on your way to the merchants, still thinking about what kind of food you were craving. It really shouldn't be a tough decision to just figure out what you wanted to eat, but honestly it felt too easy, too much like a normal life to you.
Your mind was still stuck on trying to survive a war against the Absolute and deciding what to eat was never part of your thoughts back then. It felt like such a luxury problem to you now.
Your mind cleared when you saw Zevlor standing at one of the merchant stands, picking up vegetables.
A smile instantly found its way on your lips when you saw him and you found yourself walking over to him already.
I linked my arm with his, which startled him slightly.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.", you said laughing. He smiled at you as soon as he realized it's you.
"You didn't scare me, I was just surprised. It's good to see you." His gaze fell onto your arm linked with his, but he didn't comment on it. "I guess you are here to buy food, too?"
"Yea, even though I can't really decide on what I want to eat. It really shouldn't be such a tough choice.", you said while you casually gazed around the vegetables the merchant offered. All of them looked fresh and probably tasted just as good as they looked but still your stomach didn't seem to show any interest in them.
"If you don't mind me offering, you are welcome to join me. I am not the best cook, but eating in company is always better than eating alone.", he stated and you couldn't help but be caught off guard by his offer. He was still looking at the vegetables in front of you, which you read as him not seeing it as a big deal, while he was actually just to nervous you might say no, that he couldn't look you in the eyes.
"Sure, I would love to.", you responded once you got over the surprise.
You still had your arm linked with his, which you claimed to be a brave move of yours, when actually he had just startled you with a simple invitation for lunch.
When you arrived at his home you weren't suprised to see it very clean and organized, yet it seemed to hold a certain warmth that made you feel welcomed.
"Do you want to drink something?", he asked after he had put his bag down. When you said yes he took two cups out of the cupboard.
"Water or wine?"
"Water. It's only noon.", you responded laughing.
"Fine, we will save the wine for later.", he laughed and handed you the cup with water.
You blinked a few times taking in what he just said.
"Can I help you with the food?"
"Feel free to just take a seat and relax, it's noting too complicated.", he said as he started cutting some of the food and preparing it.
You did sit down for a few minutes but you were too curious to what he was doing, still looking for inspiration for the next time you couldn't decide what to make.
You walked up behind him, putting your chin on his shoulder to look over it.
He turned his head to the side to look at you and you noticed how close his face was to yours.
"What are you making?", you asked him. It made you nervous how close he was but you weren't gonna back down now.
His eyes stayed on you, locked with your eyes but you noticed how his gaze was falling to your lips for a moment.
"Just a dish, that I learned how to make while traveling. You'll see.", he stated while turning his attention back on the food.
"Are you on the menu, too?", you asked.
He immediately stopped and looked back at you. He seriously didn't trust his ears today.
"Uh-.. what?"
You smiled at him sweetly like your simple question didn't just make his heart stutter and took a step back.
"You heard me."
He paused for a moment, trying his best to remain calm on the outside and find a fitting answer.
"I'm not so easy to chew." He quickly avoided your gaze.
He was in disbelieve, you can't seriously be flirting with him. You are the most beautiful, smart and brave person he knew, so why would you be flirting with him? You obviously had a dozen better options than him.
"What a pity..", you said and leaned against the door frame still watching him.
"Seriously feel free to just sit down and relax, the food will be ready in a few minutes anyway."
"But I enjoy watching you.", you stated.
He laughed to hide how nervous he felt.
Just as he calmed his heart you got him flustered again and he was as thankful as he could be for his skintone perfectly hiding his blush. What was he supposed to do? He tried to focus on the dish he was making while he could feel your gaze on him. You were gonna be the death of him for sure.
"Do you ever knock something over with your tail by accident?", you asked noticing the movement of it while he was leaning over to pick up some of the ingredients.
"It honestly happens more than I would like to confess.", he sounded amused by your questions but he would probably be just as curious. "It usually happens when I trip over something and use it to catch balance."
He looked over his shoulder at you and noticed your eyes taking in his form. If it were for any other person looking at him like that he would have been uncomfortable. It's probably because he saw the genuine curiosity in your eyes and the fact that he knew you wouldn't judge him for anything. Thats something he adored about you. No matter what he did, you were always certain he had a good heart and it showed in the way you treated him.
He noticed your eyes finding his again and you smiled at him.
"Any more questions?", he asked amused.
"Not for now.", you answered.
A few minutes later you were sitting in front of him at the table with the food in front of you. It smelled amazing and you couldn't wait to try it.
"I hope you like it.", he said when you shoved the first bit of it in your mouth.
It seriously was the best meal you've had in a while. Probably the best you ever had, to be honest.
"Didn't you say you aren't a good cook?", you asked in disbelieve.
He nodded.
"Liar."
"Excuse me?"
"This is amazing. Do you seriously think you're not good at cooking?" You couldn't believe it.
He laughed quietly while looking down. You weren't going to get tired of hearing his laugh ever.
"Thank you. I rarely got the chance to cook for anyone else but me, so I'm very glad you like it."
"No, thank you for inviting me." You reached over to his hand and gently held it.
He looked up at you at the sudden touch.
"Anytime. It's much better to eat in good company."
"Very true."
(I just can't stop writing about Zevlor, there aren't enough stories about him fr 😭
I hope you enjoyed the new part! 🧡)
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brucethegirl · 1 month ago
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Fave season of ouat. And y. Go. (Mine is 3 bc that’s when you see hooks softer/ but still flirtier side and the relationship growing). Although 5-6 come very close bc they are stronger and the proposal and wedding. Ahhhh. But omg when he asked for David’s blessing. That ep had me. But all the kissing in season 3. Oh wait, there’s other people other than hook and Emma in ouat? Nah.
Oh gosh.... (edit: i wrote like two paragraphs of this before realizing you just asked general favorite season, not favorite CS season, but I still turned this into a CS post.)
Season 2 is not bad. There's so much there for background to understand where emma was coming from, versus season 1 which was mostly us as viewers learning who everyone was in the enchanted forest and how the story we know was being reinterpreted. Now it was learning where Emma was coming from, where Killian comes into the picture and some of his background, where Cora comes from which lays the groundwork for how she raised Regina and where she is coming from. How they became the people they became today, the steps of their recent history. The continuous choices and situations that led them to where they were when they all came together. I love straight up evil Killian. It's fun. Him trusting her immediately, him being sassy flirty, him saying "just a I'm done with you" (pssh, okay my guy). but at the end, despite it being good writing, I'm just okay about it. I mean yea its got Tallahassee.... but I also am not a fan of how they handled the neal/emma relationship when they were young. Michael Raymond-James is NOTICEABLY an older man well into his 30s, and I could buy him being a rough 20 something, but Emma is VERY MUCH meant to be late teens and that entire casting situation and its implications followed by the pushing in later seasons for her to be with Neal by her family just makes me so very uncomfortable.
Three is honestly such a fair choice. I love season 3 with Hook starting to realize he needs to change and wants to change. But also still actively having to purge his villain tendencies. Rolling his eyes while volunteering to help Belle research. His snarky comments constantly that no one laughs at cause they're a little on the meaner side. But also the way he and Emma so automatically can read each other. She just has to tilt her head or nod and he knows what she wants him to do. The longing looks, the declarations. Nothing beats "when I win your heart, and I will win it. It will be because you want me" NOTHING. "I'm in this for the long haul" after saying he'll back off to give Henry the chance at a family, and won't inject himself into that. But also knows Neal will mess it up, knows he'll be on the sidelines for the second of an oppertunity. Knows that he DOES stand a valid chance if he wanted to fight. Like, just fuck me up. The shift in Regina's character and how she learns to become good, how that is different from Hook's journey but they both recognize it being the same journey. Her teaming up with Rumple to fnd Henry and it markedly NOT being villains teaming up, but her willing to do anything to save her son and the second she realizes its no good, she's gone. Learning more about the emotional backstory and early character moments in their lives, Hook, Emma, and Regina especially. Learning the complicate pasts, and seeing the steps they took to get here. I feel like actual writing wise- its the strongest season for them. Its also go the best lines. Like Regina and Robin also is SO GOOD in the flashbacks and I forever regret not getting more of them in that weird flirty hate each other stage but what we did get was SO GOOD. "Where you come from, they bath in the river and use pine cones for money" Lana... ma'am.... that is THE BEST LINE in the entire show for me. This season had all the potential, and for that it gets a lot of points. A lot of what was built didn't get delivered on as well as it should have, but that's not the foundations fault. And this season was the foundation.
Season 4 is prime them in love. I love the relationship part of most shows when they handle it well, and I think THAT aspect was handled well. Him obviously in love, her coming to terms with what that means. So much angst in a good way of him being the reason for some of the problems she has. Of him not having his heart. Of him realizing he can't keep making the same villain mistakes if he's going to be with her, if he's going to change. If he's going to be a better man. This is a great season just like... FOR him. You see the realizations that he's made these mistakes and he can't even blame his past self. His current self did this to himself. You see the beginnings of his self-loathing and how that builds the reasoning for the choices he makes. He's had his hook for centuries, he's learned how to work with it and around it. But for the date, the internalized ableism got the better of him, and he thought in order to be a better man, and the man she deserved, he needed to be 'whole.' Which is IMMeDIATELY disproved when she doesn't even realize he had his hand until its pointed out, and also doesn't notice its a hook again later because she loves HIM she sees HIM. Those outward shifts and changes are not important. She notices his clothing change because it represents so much more about him embracing this weird strange land and showing he's sticking around. But his hook? Well thats just part of him that she accepts because its part of him so when he changes it its not something she notices. (sorry, i have a LOT of feelings about this episode) And then the whole darkness inside him and the hand and him being a villain and being afraid of losing his happy ending. 4b is weak we all know that, but the emotions of it are so strong. "Don't you know Emma? It's you." MY GUYYYYYY. The kisses we got this season, the emotional leaps and bounds. Him admitting having her in his life is what keeps him on the side of the heroes. Him saying he hopes its his job to protect her heart even when no one is actively trying to steal it. Her discovering more about her past and really starting to share her history with someone, showing her past and being vulnerable with someone and allowing them to scale the fortress she's put up to protect herself. Learning that someone is there begging to be let in, and isn't going away, and even when she ignores him he says basically that he's not deterred so easily, she's worth it, he recognizes that, and he'll just wait patiently for her to be ready. He will always put her first. Will put her family first. Often at the expense of himself.
Now season 5. Look. Do I think its strong? No. It's some of the saddest writing (season 6 is the worst in my opinion) in that it had SO MUCH POTENTIAL. But it Never delivers it. Season 4 was their love story, so there's no need to focus so heavily on them in season 5, sometimes having them not even interact in scenes that make NO SENSE for them to not interact. Despite the fact that she's just told him she loved him before being taken over by the darkness and saying she trusts him to be able to reach her and save her. Despite the entire ARC being ABOUT THEM for BOTH HALVES, the actual day to day episode to episode is not about them at all. So little focused on them, on them interacting, on their story. It was such a mess. So much promise with so little delivery. Nothing was allowed to breath, nothing was allowed to sit, no one was allowed to have a single thought to work through what they were going through. He's evil for what? a single episode? and in the middle of it there's this entire hour about a character we don't know, with no one we care about, about something never mentioned again that holds zero bering on ANYTHING that happens or has happened. So much wasted time. I LOVE what 5 could have been. I LOVE the implications, and the shifts in narrative and expectation. I LOVE the discovery and acceptance of their relationship and the confirmations we get. I HATE nothing is ever discussed on screen. Everything is implied to happen off screen "like I told you" Did you tell her when the cameras were off? We're given nothing we should have. Everyone else is just set dressing, and yet have all the focus. Its disjointed and just lazy, and its only saving grace is whoever had the initial idea on the brain storm board and then the acting itself. But damn if this season doesn't give me inspiration.
Finally, season 6.... I'll leave at saying when its good, its great. All three singular scenes that are good. There's no follow through from whats already happened to these characters. There's no acknowledgment of their past selves, their past experiences. Hook is GENUINELY shocked that Emma understands why he didn't toss the shears knowing she'd hate him for doing 'the one thing that could save her' WHEN THAT WAS THE ENTIRE CLIMAX OF 5A!
All of this to say, I guess 3?
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degrees-of-fuck · 1 month ago
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I don't usually post as many in-depth OC thoughts on here anymore, but I thought I'd hop back on, even if only for a lil one. csa ment under the cut. Rambling about Lettie and Sydney today.
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I really really need to do something with them interacting if i get more confident writing Sydney because there's just. So much. I think they'd like each other a lot and be really close and good for each other were it not for their positions almost sort of pitting them against each other.
They're both close with Jordan and at the temple a lot, so they probably interact quite a bit, but I think it's always? With Airs On??? idk.
She feels bad for it but I think Lettie secretly dislikes Sydney because of all this IUOJFLK;DL,/jilkl, it really Stings to watch them exist.
However, I do think their shared ISSUES with one Doctor Harper would break those walls down a bit... We all know how Sydney feels about the good doctor, even if not. Why. But yea, Lettie is basically chronically ill dependent on her doctor! so cute and deeply deeply doll coded in a way that I realised makes her great Harperfodder, n being someone that's very good at reading people and such, on top of having earned herself a very quiet and polite distrust of most doctors and authority figures, does N o t think highly of Harper............ anyway something something Sydney notices Lettie having to see Harper a LOT. I think them actually talking about that, in the limited capacities they'd be willing to would break down a lot of their existing notions of each other and make them see each other more as just like. People - people each with their own hidden depths and surprises and all that. I think they'd BOND !!!! As much as I Love Lettie being a petty little fuck, I do also want this so so much.
In the timeline with fully pure Sydney that goes on to become high priest/ess and Lettie stays with the temple, I like the idea of silly silly wise-beyond-her-years, knowing-all-too-much-of-this-wretched-place Lettie advising Sydney a lot,,,, HOWEVER, the little part of me that wants them actually healthy and happy wants the process of them bonding to make them both realise and acknowledge how damaging the temple's doctrine and culture can be so they can both ollie outie byeeeeee xxx I think that can be its own timeline... Based on how Corrupt Sydney is, I think they at least would go for developing a healthier relationship with religion maybe. Idk about Lettie.
but yea
i need to think of them more because i think they have the makings for a fun and complicated kinda relationship
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I mainly ship Sydney with Clara as far as my OCs go, but then again I also ship Clara and Lettie sometimes so I'm not exactly one to be tied down to my ships
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Maybe this too can be yuri
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