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ive been thinking recently. adam's soul is like well over a thousand years old. he obviously remembers his time in the cage, and it definitely counted in at least some sense. like he remembers it.
but when michael possessed him, he was 19. his brain wasnt finished developing. his bones werent finished fusing. in more than one way, he was still a child.
i wonder how that would appear. because adam isn't aging, at least in the typical sense. i would assume that extends to his brain as well. but hes also had over a thousand years of life experience. those two experiences contrast each other.
#yeah idk#its been on my mind recently#idk how well worded this is tho#adam milligan#midam#adam milligan x michael#michael spn#spn#supernatural#hex posts
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Absolutely fucking stupid that my schools suicide prevention protocol is to basically to put someone in house arrest until a professional can write and āproveā that theyre okay so that theyre sure that they can let a student back in. Yeah. Sure. Just force someone to be in the house where they are even MORE at danger when there are literal sharp objects makes it easier to do it
#jesus fucking christ sorry im having anxiety palpitations again#its not fair#guidance counselor isnt even fucking. doing shit. not replying or making any fucking meetings with my therapist#just fucking great#its been on my mind recently#i never accepted it because i never realized it#i knew it wad unfair but i never realized that until now#just like one week before school starts#its not fair for them to basically put me in house arrest for a year while my anxiety brews every day while they sit on their fucking asses#and just. not do anything. be slow with arranging everything. isnt that your whole job?#literally fuck you#this was supposed to make me feel ābetterā ive literally gotten worse#nothing has changed and i have become a worse person than i was before#i wasted a whole year rotting in anxiety AGAIN. its literally just like the pandemic happened again but im stuck watching everyone be free#and yeah! im bitter about the whole fucking thing! i think i deserve it#maybe i shouldnt talk like this. maybe im just overreacting#all i got out of this was heart palpitations and an english essay topic#just needed to type this out to ground myself a little#anyways ill go back to my regular insane posting after this. maybeā¦#who knows? maybe ill just be gone one day#whatever#im deleting this later#tw suicide#vent
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could i perhaps request a wolf hybrid gem one day ^^
i just realized you said wolf hybrid gem and not werewolf gem . oops,,, but i hope this is okay!
#geminitay#hermitcraft#ive been trying to draw her for days#also i hope people dont mind ill be using my art reqs as practice for my new tab T__T its kicking me in the ass with the learning curve#eydireqs#my art#hc#mcyt#im basically using all of my recent mcyt art as practice for things i just dont normally draw now lmao
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On this Otober 9th I'd like to wish a Happy Birthday to the person who likely saved my life.
A little over 10 years ago I was a heavy user of drugs and alcohol... I was either drunk or high at all times. In many ways I was self medicating for my mental health issues despite being prescribed actual medication that I wasn't taking.
This person, my friend, came to me one day and told me it was either drugs and alcohol or her. I quit that day, cold turkey.
Had she not done that for me there's a good chance I wouldn't be here today.
Unfortunately, our friendship ended eight years ago when she became engaged to a man who hated my existence, going so far to call me his nemesis. I made the decision to walk away, but I'll be forever grateful for our short time as friends and what she did for me.
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This is a fan comic inspired by Cass' Apocalyptic Series and is just my own little fan art of how Donnie and Casey could have gotten closer!
The creator is @/somerandomdudelmao
hebehjeabaje I did a warm up doodle of Mikey on the canvas and liked it so much I wanted to incorporate Mikey somehow (literally made up an excuse just to drop a bunch of easter eggs for fun).
#just my own silly ideas#cause all i think about is cass au#also dont mind tap and cass fighting on the monitor lol#i was going to add some of their extras but they have been silly lately so i made a cameo#in honor of all their service to the rottmnt community#like have you seen tap's recent animation????#it probably doesnt matter when you read that cause tap is making animations all the time!!#i dont even know if don would actually watch fights cuz i know casey's fight was special but he's got monitors and its the apocalypse#also if this is a cass au fan comic its gotta have donnie being crazy in the background somewhere#this is the silliest it gets#rottmnt#rottmnt casey jr#casey jr#future donatello#future mikey#future leo#cass fanart tag#What Are You To Me? fan cas
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abjectly refuse to romanticize weight loss and malnutrition. that shit kills you. to starve yourself is cripplingĀ¹ even in the ""bearable"" "well I'm just hungry less" / "other people have it worse" / "it's only a few skipped meals" / etc ways. you have this fucking life and that's it so please if you do nothing else allow yourself to actually be alive in it. do you hear me? take your supplements and multivitamins and eat breads and meats and vegetables and fats and sugars and shit that just fucking tastes good okay? thank you
#Ā¹ i am severely physically disabled as a result of prolonged malnutrition i am using this term in this way on purpose#there is no amount of weight loss that will make people respect you#i have walked into doctor's offices for appointments about the fact i am literally starving to death and my body stopped making blood#and been CONGRATULATED on my bmi . its an unbelievable level of cruelty and disconnect to literally praise#DYING. AS AN IDEAL BODY WEIGHT.#so please. take your indulgences and your health and your joy when you can#i promise its bettef than going blind + muscular atrophy + hemoglobin deficiencies + osteoporosis + neuropathy because you starved.#cws:#eating disorder#disordered eating#weight#sorry its just on the mind a lot recently.#not art
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linktober day 22: npc
nabooru! i realized i dont think ive ever actually drawn her before but she's one of my favorite oot characters :)
#in my mind shes like a reluctant older sister to link. she doesnt want to be here but hes fucking 9 so shes gonna be#linktober#linktober 2023#oot#loz#skribbles#unrelated but ive been getting a bunch of like corny oot pmvs on my tiktok fyp recently and all the comments are like kids#who played it on the switch vc being like THIS GAME IS SO GOOD ITS UNDERRATED!!! and its so fun to see. everyone should play oot
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a flock of birds, a crow family ā everything aside, despite viago's frosty, stern demeanor I think both he and teia care about rook like family, in a way that goes past the pretenses of being a crow or just part of house de riva, they're literally found family to meeeeee
and while you have time, please consider finding a family on op. olive branch š and supporting / sharing their campaigns, especially the ones with low funding <3
#hehe dont mind me drawing my rooksona in there its been tough recently so i couldnt help but let myself be self indulgent#like its so crazy though viago isnt beating the sibling / father figure energy anytime soon#and teia so obviously being viago's partner (that man is down bad for her) so shes a part of the family too WAHAHA#viago: im complaining about your troublemaker ass#and teia literally spilling the deets 'viago was worried sick abt u thank god you're back'#also viago: if you dont come back from this i will get you from the fade myself#viago de riva#andarateia cantori#teia cantori#antivan crows#rook#dragon age veilguard#datv#veilguard#veilguard spoilers#just in case#datv spoilers#rook de riva#ibon oc: rook#rooksona#ibon draws#pose reference by mellon_soup#dragon age#artists on tumblr
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ive been so sick past week but seeing the new disney trailer for Wish awoke something petty inside of me. So petty I went bout redesigning the protagonists look cause Iām sorry but her outfit...? Kinda bland. Wanted to try adding lil bit more āoomphā to the design.
#disney#disney wish#like its so blatently designed with the toy in mind#i do like her hair and i like purple but shes not giving me much#redesign#i guess#on twitter i tried being nicer but in tumblr im tearing into it i ranted to my friends online#how much i dislike recent disney designs cause theyre so safe#then again the god damn mouse has always been safe
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Ngl my fav thing to think about, is immortality and nations. Like, over multiple centuries and hundreds of personifications, do you think the nations themselves started having traditions? Maybe some that were specific to certain regions of the world? Like maybe personifications in Asia have different traditions on how they do treaties and alliances than the traditions for nations in Europe, like its fr so interesting to think about
#sorry im a freak but I've been looking into south asian mythology recently and looking for certain ways#how immortal demons were incapacitated/cursed and then use those stories as ways that#South Asian personifications have been incapacitated/killed and oughh#its been on my mind a lot JHVJH#hetalia#hws#aph#my takes
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so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi prime defenders spoilers#jrwi pd spoilers#jrwi pd#william wisp#vyncent sol#THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it.#BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece#i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW)#that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that#if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles.#open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho#BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses...#lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH#FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE#i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony#recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day#ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw-#-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM-#-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS#its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not#well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i-#-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!!#i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i
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i have been a ball of depression lately as well as my physical health worsening pretty severly this past week due to stress and so my friends have been. trying so hard to get me to get out and do things and its very sweet but i feel bad because the whole time iām just a total mess
#they say they dont mind but i need to really. stop#im stuck.#and i know itās hard on my friends to see me like this since iāve been doing a lot better and now am back to my old habits#but i felt bad because they took me out shopping and to dinner tonight and i just had a headache and was limping and couldnt stop talking#about the recent death in my family and all the stress from classes and socially and how lost i feel#and i just wanted so bad to just. enjoy myself but i couldnt#but my friends know about how severe my depression is and are all very used to it#its in fact more normal than not. but i was really. feeling at my best for several months so the crash back down to not eating and sleeping#and being unable to fully tidy my room and all that stuff has been. difficult for me as well as those around me#itās been normal for me for so long to live terribly that taking care of myself for a while and then losing the drive to has been. hard#im trying to get better but i slide back down#i need to work on my constant self loathing but i keep walking around just. conviced im such a burden and being sad makes it even worse#i just. am always overcompensating for my lack of#ability to love myself with just. constantly showering everyone around me with love and its. hard for me when i dont have the energy to do#even that anymore. its hard to let people take care of me when i just want to take care of them all the time
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in light of tedtrent becoming so real, im also jumping on the tedtrent epilogue š
there's just no way ted wouldn't keep in touch with the others (and have weekly zoom meetings just like in the christmas special) and I just love the thought of the whole team having reunions once in a while.
and going back to trent's arc in s3, the sunflowers conversation, "And your daughter?" "She's never been happier." I think it could go the same for ted.. we've never really properly saw how henry felt about his dad being in london, it's always other people that told ted his son misses him, who's to say henry would rather see his dad happy because that in turn would make him happy too? he was there to win the whole thing, right? I just know tedās story isnāt done yet when he still hasnāt learned to let others take care of him in return and who else to pair him with than the man who blew up his career because a man was nice to him (and also because they were so. so cruel for the fakeout tedbecca scenes for that finale) š„ŗ
I'm no writer so just pretend these are snapshots of a slow burn fic where ted visits london for their team reunion and slowly realizes that trent has a crush on him and they kiss about it š
#ted lasso#trent crimm#tedependent#ted lasso fanart#tedtrent#ted x trent#I HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH MORE THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS BTW its just that its 4am rn and i cannot type down my thoughts for the life of me </3#im just so not over that ending and how weird it felt for ted to end his story like that.. not like he can turn back to michelle since#dr. jacob is right there.. i want this man to feel loved and cared for and actually have a place he knows he can call home and that was#richmond for me.. to the family we were born with. and to the family we make along the way etc etc etc#ted lasso spoilers#<- FORGOT ABOUT THAT.#i can finally say i loved the ending for all the callbacks and stuff but I NEED THIS MAN TO BE HELDDDD!!!!! *everything explodes around me*#he even went back there WITHOUT BEARD :( his bestfriend for sooo long who was there for all their ups and downs. i dont like beard and jane#being together but the fact ted didnt even go to their wedding too like ...??! what is going onnnn#also graying lasso is just something so indulgent for me . hush#pn.art#JUST YKNOW!!! I HOPE YALL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING ITS REALLY REALLY LATE I PROBABLY SHOULDVE WAITED TILL LATER TO POST THIS BUT JAHJVAKDG#my memory is really bad too so i could also be misremembering scenes and im too eepy to check the scenes i had in mind so u_u#ALSO apologies that its taking me sooo long to draw things i recently joined a mc server and ive been playing it all day and night HFSJGFSH#im sooo scared of making these type of posts because i dont have the balls to make the wrong choices in other people's eyes but GRAAH!!!!!#<- i love tedtrent bUT WHAT IF PEOPLE THINK IM CRINGGGEEEE!!!!!#THATS ALL.... i have more drawings in mind that ill get around to later.. for now goodnight <3
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"Divinity takes many forms, in the softest sea foam that kisses your heels and in the jagged rocks that can take your life. It is up to the believer to decide which is worthy of their worship. Life and death- both are Divine, but often only one is praised."
#kay's edits#lnds#love and deepspace#lads#l&ds#love & deepspace#rafayel#lnds Rafayel#rafayel love and deepspace#abysswalker rafayel#god of the tides#my little ravioli#he's been on my mind a lot recently#Rafayel is a very interesting take on the āfall from graceā narrative and I love it#and its sad the fandom treats him like a helpless kitten
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my arcana headcanon pet peeve is when people exaggerate how much Julian drinks. He's not shown to be an alcoholic, as far as I know in-game he's mostly shown to drink socially or when he's absolutely in the depths of despair.
The scene in his route where he's day-drinking in the rowdy raven is literally right after he tries to break up with the apprentice. Of course he's gonna be drowning his sorrows. But it happens exactly once in the entire route. (not to mention Barth would probably stop him from drinking more anyways)
He's never really shitfaced after that and I just find it weird that a handful of hc writers and arcana fans just take that moment and crank it up to 11 :'T
#the arcana#the arcana game#julian devorak#shut up rae#its just been something weighing on my mind recently dont mind me sdkjfsad#this isn't and shouldn't be a hot take
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hello tumblr its been a while š¹
disco elysium art be upon ye
#leithart#disco elysium#kim kitsuragi#de half light#de volition#de electrochemistry#not tagging harry in this one bcz there like. One small harry.#is hand eye coordination not a tag???#distressing..#also sorry for not posting in for fucking ever???#Lots Of Things have been happening recently and its been kicking my ass#dont mind the little.. note my friend left on the pic of kim š#shes very helpful i love her#probs gonna post my other DE art soon bcz ive been stockpiling like crazy
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