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i think i actually owe my life to sony's noise cancelling headphones like quite literally
#its not just them saving me from sensory meltdowns etc#its that when i was like. at the edge of it. like when i was seriously like yeah death means the discontinuation of this suffering and#i want that. like when i was truly like...Wanting To Die. abt to do it. etc. id listen to one song#loudly . w my headphones. and the detail and emotion etc would sink in . and like id just be lost in sound#and then living was worth it again just to hear another song#im convinced if the music quality was any lower and the noise cancelling was any worse i wouldnt be#left alone with the music in the way i was which means i wouldnt be alive#like music saved my life and im sure it saved a lot of peoples lives but specifically the thing that channeled the music to me ..#its an object but i am thankful to it#those were the xm3s and now i have xm4s which r even better but i literally think of those xm3s every day like truly i miss them#im sorry i lost you :( u got me through so much#i took better care of those headphones than i did of any other possession i have ever owned i think#the only imperfection on them after yrs and yrs was a few holes in the fabric from my cat#deciding to make bread In The Headphones once#i stopped her but she still left her mark 😔 but it added charm and a story to the headphones so its ok
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Hello GT, I absolutely love Lionheart!
I published my first fic and have been dealing with some criticism; it’s not anythjng super hateful, but it’s not anything meant to make me improve either. I’ve been feeling sort of down because of it. My question is: have you ever dealt with hate or criticism before? What is your attitude towards it?
I find your work and answers on here super insightful and inspiring! I hope you have a nice day ❤️
Fuck em. Like, seriously, just fuck em. There's a time and place for writers to take critique and be strict with themselves; it's necessary for any artist to grow. That place is with a chosen group of creatives whose work you admire and whose judgment you trust. A rando on the Internet, while they may in fact be the next Marcel Proust, probably isn't. And I was raised to believe that while it's appropriate and kind to pay compliments to strangers when they're performing — just as you'd smile at a busker on the sidewalk, and or compliment a chalk artist — it's not appropriate to criticize them when what they do isn't to your tastes. They're providing you with their art for free. No one forced you to read it; no one forced you to listen. If you don't like it, it costs $0 to shut the fuck up.
Also — that thing I said about artists taking critique? That assumes that you're doing this out of a desire to improve your writing, which, while noble, is not actually a thing you need to do if you're a hobby writer. I like trying to improve; it makes me feel good. But at the end of the day, I do this for fun. I do this because in my real job, I am ruthless and self-critical and try really fucking hard to do well, and you need parts of your life that Aren't Like that. You need parts of your life where you're not worrying about whether you're Doing It Right. And living without that anxiety of critique is, paradoxically, the only way you'll find the artistic courage to take risks and develop new skills. Everyone is a little bit rough around the edges to begin with. (Not saying you're a beginner — you merely said "publish," and I certainly wrote a lot of things before I started publishing! But every artist is always trying to develop new skills and techniques; in the grand scope of things, we're all beginners.) Giving someone blunt critique when they're in the beginning phases of their journey as an artist is about as helpful as screaming at your six-year-old kid because he can't swim the butterfly.
And the thing is, these people will bluster and say "well, I'm just being honest, I'm just trying to be helpful," but like: mmmmmmno, you're not! You're not. And it's disingenuous to say so. Because if you were actually trying to be helpful, you would introduce yourself, offer your skills as an editor/beta reader, and start building the relationship of trust that grounds any meaningful co-creative partnership. People do not just accept random critique that comes flying at them from the blue nowhere. And issuing it in that form is the best way to make them hostile, defensive, and unreceptive to it. Delivering harsh feedback without a context of care and support is almost sure to fail as a method of actually changing behavior, and either (1) you know that, and are doing it anyway — presumably because you want people to know how Terribly Clever and Better At Writing you are, or (2) you sincerely have never thought about the effect that context and word choice have on how other people receive your meaning.
Which tells me you are the last fucking person on the planet I want writing advice from.
#basically: fuck them and fuck anyone who doesn't come to you with kindness when they're offering critique#i don't care if they're a nobel prizewinner. no one is above offering kindness#and if someone thinks they're above giving kindness then you should view them with derision and pity#imagine being so sad you spend your free time shitting on other people's art.#like you're not a critic. you're not the new york times book review buddy.#you read something that someone put their whole heart and joy and free time into#and then held out in their hands eagerly to share with you. because they thought you might like it.#and you sneered at them.#Anon I think you should keep writing forever. I think that the merest sentence you have ever written#is worth more than anything that the authors of your criticism could conceive#and it's you. it's you! if it brings you joy then it's fulfilled its purpose#people mean more than art. you mean more than art. your satisfaction is the object of making it#and finally THANK YOU so much for your very kind words.#they mean a tremendous amount and i am grateful for them.
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Blorbo's Eepiest Soldier
Thank you everyone for your kind words, I'm doing better and am back to it <3
#helloo!#thank you all for the well wishes#I have really appreciated every kind word#I'm doing better now and have gotten back to school work#i am so eepy though#eepiest soldier#im also being overworked on my capstone game team and the team lead even told me shes over working me so thats#fun#counting going to this capstone class and meetings and such im putting like 25+ hours in a week for it#and i do have 2 other classes#and a social life i enjoy having#haha#but im happy to do the work cause its good portfolio stuff#except when my producer comes up to me and says "yknow how ur in charge of all the 2d art and concepting and branding and ui and pr? yeah g#make a 3-4 page detailed comic for plot at the start of our game cause we dont wanna cut plot (even tho we dont have time for it) and we#dont wanna show plot through interactable objects and dialogue/text so more work for you even tho u legit dont have time for it#ngl tho i have genuinely been enjoying designing icons and doing model concepts#i made some fire designs recently#please hire me a game company tm#anyway enough of capstone talk#love you all!!!#im excited to graduate and finally be able to change my bio!!#hope you all have a very lovely rest of your day <33#furry#fursona#digital art#art#eepy
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the objectum/ficto overlap of having objects that represent or embody your fictional other, comfort character, kinmate or soulmate... the objectum/alterhuman overlap of having objects that represent or embody your true form, your packmates, your companions or just your kintypes where you can see a familar face again... thats the most special to me i think...
#i think everyone should have objects that remind them of what they love...#or objects that just are what they love...#objectum#ficto#alterhuman#fictionkin#fictoromantic#fictosexual#otherkin#therian#therianthropy#its 2023 and i still love being fictionkin. im so blessed i can remember who i am and who i loved.#btw thank you everyone who responded to my last post guy with a truck who was their sister was my favorite
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Hi Uncle Neen! HYH! It sucks to see you struggling cuz you are a big inspiration of mine :( but you said you did your makeup the other day. Can we seeeeeeeeee maybe?
d'awwww ksahdlkdss, you are so sweet, nonnie! thank you so so soooo much, baby! xx i really needed this. i hope i heal ( i will...i have to, i am too much of an asshole to let god win, fuck him ) and i hope you heal from whatever harms you as well! you can do it! mWAH!~
-- also brb crying ;-; <3333 whenever y'all tell me i inspire you, it seriously makes me want to cry; you mean SO much to me, so to mean so much to you; it's Everything to me, my love. thank you for believing in me, know i believe infinitely in YOU and will keep fighting the good fight, living authentically and modelling pos behavior on this blog bc i take being a role model very seriously. :')
BUT ANYWAYS! sakhdlasd oh my god aaAaaAAAaa please!!! YOU ARE SO CUTE, THIS IS SO CUTE OF YOU, hELP AAAAA!!!!!! but yes, of course, of course. considering i am super bacteria nina right now and had to resign from my ( admittedly ) trash job and am no longer, at this moment, an education girlie ( besides on here, ofc, educating you on my two gay sons in love ), i can freely exist and post pictures of myself again! thank you for for giving me a safe place to do that. <3
i'll elaborate on what 'safe' means to me down below, but just for context i took this...sigh...last week, when i was told i would 'all better', just trying to feel like myself again after a month of being unmadeup and unfitted and ugly and troll-like and on death fucking row and fucking miserable as hell, i had my new hair appointment lined up, was about ready to take life by the balls again...and that shit BLUE BALLED ME SO HARD AND SAID *ravenstan vc* JK, BABY!
okay, sorry i have some really bad scarring and wounding up there by my neck so i had to cover her up but...there she is! the she beast!
as for posting pictures of myself just...please...PLEASE BE KIND. and i wish i meant that as a joke, i mean it very, VERY seriously. i am at a point right now, where i look my very fucking worst, i am weaker than i have ever been in my life, there are abrasions all over my body, which per the results of my culture ( i was right...several fucking times and no one would listen to me ) my body is trying to kill me and right now...it is Winning. ( i'm not gonna lose tho, dw, i am a nasty bitch from hell and i refuse to die this ugly, i fucking won't; choke )
tldr; I AM VERY VERY VERY SENSITIVE ABOUT HOW I LOOK. I DO NOT FEEL PRETTY, I AM LIKE ONE BAD COMMENT AWAY FROM TEARING THE SKIN OFF MY FACE AND I AM TELLING YOU GUYS I CANNOT DO THAT, I CANT CREATE ANY TEARING ON MY BODY OR THE BACTERIA WILL TUNNEL AND ITS HARD ENOUGH AS A BITCH WITH DERMATILOMANIA.
PLEASE BE NICE TO ME.
i know we shoot the shit on here and are funny and clown eachother, you guys are my family; it's what families do, but my boundary is that you can say i am pretty and be objectively kind or Please do not send me anything At ALL about how i look; i CANNOT take it rn. i know were just joking, but please, please, PLEASE Do NOT compare me to any ugly creatures, make me feel weird about any part of my face, tell me i look blurry, say anything is too big or too small…
please don’t meme on me abt my appearance...Ever.
it’s a very sensitive spot for me and makes me v anxious.
all this to say, i love you; thank you for being my home.
HYH.
-uncle nina, single ravesey mother and human petri dish
#idk what the face tag is ill make one later#but there she is#this is so sweet thank you guys for caring i swear i want to post more i am just so weak rn that its hard to keep my head up#ill talk about it more later but the test results were kinda hard for me bc they were scary and it is pretty serious#and very fucked up bc they could have caught it at er number one but they didnt catch it until my fifth drs appointment#and i had to beg...and lo and behold i am very fucking sick now and everything sucks but i am gonna beat it don't worry#anyways sorry for momming you guys i miss my kindergarteners i didnt get to say goodbye i am devastated#but i am actually very sensitive about how i look and do think i am ugly most days especially rn so please be kind to me#i only say this because i had a couple of anons who had good intentions send me anons joking with me about how i look#and it put me in such a bad depression that i like couldnt look at my face for days and it devastated me i am very sensitive#so please only kind words like objectively positively kind please don't make jokes about how i look or try to be funny#not in a good place for it but sigh...my hair...it is falling out rn so that sucks i'm out of comission for a week and a half#up to a month...assuming i get better...I WILL DW SORRY I WILL and i have stuff i'm working on right now#ask memes and i am trying to write so hang in there i love u#HYH <3
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I enjoy II but I think I enjoy your “hate” of the show more, I enjoy reading the critique and it’s a total breath of fresh air watching someone deviate from the norm and say “well no this actually isn’t very good writing” then go on to EXPLAIN WHY! It’s great and opened my eyes to being more critical of the show ^^
Thank You So Much!!! I'm Always Happy to Hear People Appreciate My Posts Even if They Themselves Like the Show. I Know I Talk Bluntly But Genuinely If You're a Fan That's Your Perogative and More Power To You :]
I Also Hope Its Clear My Posts Come From a Place Of... Not Love Exactly But Attachment. I Talk About ii so Much Because There's So Much to Say and I Enjoy Thinking About It and Peeling Back the Layers and Encourage Others to Do the Same, Even if Their Takeaways are Different :]
Ultimately I'm Not an Authority Nor Do I Fancy Myself as Such. I Just Like Posting and Talking About a Cartoon I Watch.
#I Also Think Arguing Doing This for ii Cuz Its a Kid Show is Worthless is a Bad Take#Because if You Are Enough About It You Are Angered I Am Posting Tjen Its Clearly More Than a Kids Show to You#So Why is That Only Allowed to Manifest in Uncritical Positivity?#Anyways Thank You SM Anon 🧡#dreamy.txt#Objective Criticism
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it's actually, genuinely, honestly hilarious that in a fandom where popular ships include characters who are biologically related, characters with a 10+ year age gap who met when one was a teenager or even a child, and characters who have tried to kill each other, people hate on a friends-to-lovers ship with a <2 year age gap where the characters have a deep emotional bond and plenty of romantic subtext, because "they're siblings". my brother in the force they are literally not.
#i'm just saying. out of all the ships in the star war; sabine and ezra have one of the healthiest dynamics#right up there with kanera and bail and breha and obitine and maybe a few others. there are SO few 'problems' with it.#not that those 'problems' make a ship BAD when it's written well or in certain context.#just that out of all the ships to pick on; people choose THIS one?????#the one with character growth and found family and mutual respect??#the one with self-sacrifice and decades-long loyalty and obitine parallels and a jetpack chase scene????#what's there to hate???#and i would add a disclaimer about how if you dont ship them its fine as long as you dont bully but honestly?#i am so so tired of having to qualify my statements.#this is about the targeted hate. this has always been about the targeted hate.#and i don't care if someone loathes something i love as long as they they keep that loathing out of my personal space.#this has been a tag rant. thank you for reading.#btw i'm not being sarcastic about it being hilarious. it genuinely cracks me up to see people get SO hateful over this#for a reason that does not exist#as opposed to several other ships which DO IN FACT HAVE THAT OBJECTION.#like. oh my gosh. are you even listening to yourselves.#if u wanna have the don't-ship-siblings fight then puhLEEZE bring it to someone who ships siblings.#jessica's controversial star wars opinions#sabezra#(don't worry that this post is a vent because i'm getting bullied or anything. im not visible enough for that i guess lol)#it was written in humor not in hurt :)
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Can you tell us about the structural quirk? Im interested!
YAY im so glad you asked! i hope your ready for several paragraphs of object show conlang silly stuff annon.
this got pretty long so i put it under a readmore. i also added a couple doodle is there for fun and to hopefully make some of it a little clearer hehe
(btw this ask is in reference to my notes on this abt a quirk with a word i used in the drawing)
So! Something of relevance to keep in mind about Roadspeak, as ive taken to calling it, is its function in the world of fwd: itself. in-universe it is kind of similar to something like Esperanto, both being kinda constructed languages that arent spoken by any one country or group as a main language (nor are they meant to be). The creation process for both, though, was different. While Esperanto was created explicitly for the purpose of being a lingua franca (or universal second language, if you prefer) Roadspeak, despite becoming one, uh, wasn't.
It developed among traders, travelers, merchants and similar groups as a means of bridging gaps in communication between both customers and peers when out on the road. This is where the name Roadspeak comes from--its the speak of the road! it is a very clever name i know.
(in particular, it formed by means of just...smashing languages together and jumbling up their sounds, words, and grammatical rules. into a big melting pot of mess. not going into detail on this for brevity's sake but it makes for some Mess lol)
As such, Roadspeak is considered first and foremost a language of travel and commerce. Though its used for many, many other things now, thats is what its purpose was and is deep deep down at its core, which gets reflected in its vocab and rules. One particular quirk is in the way some verbs are sort-of conjugated.
See, Roadspeak is a gender neutral language (as objects in fwd dont have genders) as well as an object-type neutral one. Rather, verb forms are decided by the position and/or direction of the subject carrying out the verb relative to the direct object, or the tlaow and lors as they call it. usually this is done by using one or two prefixes slapped onto the base/non-finite verb.
the tlaow (position) comes first and is also generally the less important one. you pull from a different prefix set depending on what your direct object is: if its a person/animal/inanimate thing, youd use something more like below, above, left, right, in front, so on. for a place though you use cardinal directions like north/south/east/west while concepts like numbers or thoughts are exempt from tlaow conjugation all together. some dialects of roadspeak kinda just forgo the tlaow entirely sometimes, this one is a liiiitle be optional, but still get used and taught.
the lors (direction) comes second. Unlike tlaow, this only pulls from one set of prefixes regardless of what the object is: forwards, backwards, sideways, around, upwards, and downwards. this is also seen as more of a requirement when conjugating in most applicable circumstances.
Its worth noting that not all verbs get conjugated on the basis of tlaow and lors. Generally this only applies to action verbs, and only ones that are viewed as being more physical, for lack of better term, or as occurring in a direction as a necessity. run, jump, fall, reach, grab, dance, all these kinds of words would be conjugated. think, sing, blink, dream, sell (sometimes), be, words like this dont really need to be conjugated. you still can, but its not ungrammatical or anything.
as an example, look at the sentence "Sweet sits with Mp3."
plopping this into Roadspeak's structure, you'd need to figure out what sweet's position is relative to mp3, and what direction she moved when she sat. if she sat down alongside them, (and also noting that, in roadspeak, the position of the subject and object are flipped in a sentence) then the sentence would literally translate to "Mp3 beside-downwards-sits Sweet". Meanwhile, if she sits up in front of them, it would be "Mp3 front-upwards-sits Sweet". If all you know is that she sat down, though, then youd just say "Mp3 downwards-sits Sweetie".
does that make sense? I hope it does! heres another example, this time using actual Roadspeak:
(yes this is just the daily that spurned this ask lol)
the letters there read "jodit mi pavirrthol me!" with the verb in this case being "pavirrthol," or forward-give. "thol" means give, which is considered an tlaow/lors verb. When you present someone with something, you are giving it to them in a forward-facing, direct sense, so you would use "pavirr-" for the directional/lors. However, while the use of 'you' would imply the use of a tlaow prefix, theres no way for them to actually know what their position is relative to you when speaking here. Are they below you? in front? its impossible for them to know! so instead, the tlaow prefix is skipped entirely due to that lack of info. this leaves us with the word "pavirrthol" !
and thats the long and short of it! tldr: the quirk is that the word "pavirrthol" is conjugated on the basis of direction and position, but doesnt technically follow the formal rules required for doing so.
id rattle off more details, like the rest of the prefix list or contexts in which youd tlaow/lors conjugate non-directional verbs (like think) but i think this post has perhaps gone on long enough hehe.
#if you are an actual linguist or have knowledge of linguistics pls spare me. i know. i am playing with my toys here#you can fuck up verbs so bad. tense also gets in there sometimes. its fun this language is so silly :3#thank you so much for asking! i was really really hoping someone would lol. I absolutely love roadspeak. its such a fun part of fwd to me#osc#object oc#chaos gang#conglang#ask#if anybody ever has any more questions abt it pls feel free to ask them!! i promise not all my answers will be nearly 1000 words!!!#probably that is. lol.
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the desire to do comms vs my inability to remember that i got a message FIGHT-
#its like 'oh a message! i will respond later'#and then later never comes cause i have no damn object permanence Or working memory#then its like... what do i even say#'hi sorry i ghosted your simple question for two days i forgot you messaged me' AGH#or especially lately#i mean to do things and then i get a New piece of distressing information about the way my life is going#which then consumes my thoughts and leaves no room for anything else#ahaha thanks! ill claw my eyes out now!! wow!!! FUCK!#trying to keep up the things i enjoy is. so tough rn#but ill flounder w/o em so! hard work that i am mostly failing at but i Keep Trying#yes i wanna do comms. yes i wanna draw. yes i wanna talk to people. can i? mmmmm......#can't wait for this chapter in my life to be over. goddamn.#ive been in a perpetual state of intense stress since early childhood#but my fucking duck things lately have been taking the cake#absolutely unprompted#oh no this is turning into a vent post Look Away#well my mother called again last night and was all 'im getting you a car'#and uh. i started physically shaking while profusely thanking her (lying through me teeth)#GIRL!!! I DONT NEED A CAR THATS TOO MUCH RN!!!#she's always mentioning how the collective We are tight on money#and that rn i need to focus on making decisions and getting a job ill hold for like. a month#and then she slams this down outta left field??? thats so much extra stress i dont need right now???#now i gotta worry about parking and maintaining it and gas money i dont have And And And-#i cant exactly tell her Dont Fucking Do That bc then she'll blow up in my face and call me inconsiderate & ungrateful again#me and my stepdad dont have the fucking TIME to get one! and then she was like 'oh i can always come down to help'#please dont. do not do that. i cant deal with you in person right now that sounds hellish#anyway. case in point#cant even think about messages and stuff i Want to think about bc all this bullshit is taking up my entire mind#metaphorically slamming my face into a brick wall till theres nothing left. aaaghhahsbkjadadj#its too much its Too Much everything is so much and its too much and can i be let be for two fuckin seconds please
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hi!!! I saw your bfdi high fantasy au and I am insane so could you explain to me each of the like,,, roles/classes/skills the DPA guys have!! I could tell Pie was a knight/paladin looking gal, Tree was an archer/ranger, Black Hole looked magical (sorcerer of some kind???) etc but I’d love to hear you go into more detail about it :DD
Yes!! Id be more than happy to :D
Pie - Paladin/Knight, which was exactly what i was going for :3 this was mostly an excuse to put pie in a suit of armor/j but i can see her swearing an oath to preventing death or something like that
Tree - Tree is definitely a ranger! hes very in tune with nature (natural perk that comes with Being A Tree) and is great with directions. out of all the DPA guys i think tree would probably be the best at.. keeping people alive
Black Hole - Sorcerer! Black Hole specializes in destructive (possibly necrotic) magic, which isnt the best when you're trying to prevent death, but it's not entirely their fault. in this au, black hole is cursed! anything they touche starts to decay
Marker - WIZARD! hey guys im so normal about wizards. did you know this? Marker uses (you guessed it) a purple marker to cast their magic. (he also uses it to write runes and such) generally theyre very artistic and like playing games. silly little guy
Lightning - Barbarian, maybe with elemental magic as a bonus? Lightning can't hold concentration on spells but he can absorb elements and shock the hell out of people, as a treat. He has anger issues hes trying to work on. generally very inquisitive & asks for clarification a lot
Fanny - ROGUE.... the most rogue coded girl ever to exist. i dont know why she gives off those vibes, she just does. I think of fanny as being rebellious & having strong ideals that she sticks to. also she gets to stab people. it just feels right to me
Remote - i can see her as maybe an Artificer, on top of generally being a Girl whos a Robot. her transgender swag. I imagine she's pretty smart & i think its fitting for her to build little gadgets (and or bombs bc of that one time she sent robot flower a bomb) her whole character revolves around the amount of control she has in her life (yes thats a pun) (i like her a lot)
#rambles#bfdi#bfb#tpot#battle for dream island#battle for bfdi#the power of two#bfdi high fantasy au#AS SOMEONE WHO IS ALSO HYPERFIXATED ON OBJECT SHOWS AND DND WE CAN BE INSANE TOGETHER 🤝 WHEEEE#i am impressed u managed to guess all three right heheehehe#thank you for the ask i am smiling grinning kicking my feet#also Fanny gets a tail bc i want her to have a tail have you ever thought about that#AUGHHHHH not every character translates directly to a dnd class i think but most of them do#for example i think snowball would be an oath breaker paladin for reasons. reasons i have concocted in my head.#theres like a whole sideplot with snowball and ice cube in another part of goiky thats like a winter kingdom. its cool. grassys there too#my brain... auuhh... ohhh#im planning on turning this into a fic i think. ive been working on the first chapter today... expect to see it#sometimes soon. maybe#tptbu
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cant believe i got myself addicted to wow again
#and thanks to radiant echos i went through and leveled at least 10 of my alts#but i also have been working on loremaster so i WANTED to level alts in specific zones to multi task objectives because its boring#to go back and do it with a max level#but now I am almost out of low level alts and i already have like 1 of each spec of each class so I guess i will have to max level through#here we go im gonna ramble#now with the talent trees that i have essentially missed out on i can make multiple chars of the same spec but be slightly diff :)#aka this evoker uses blue only and this one uses only red hee hee#or a fistweaver vs normal mistweaver - idk if fistweaving still viable? surely..#i play on EU across three servers where each server has 1 of each class at least and thus a diff spec#GRRRR I WANT TO PLAY BUT IM AT WORK 😡😡😡#i made kaiioar and nyeatue on all three of my realms#they are mostly evokers so i can use the dracthyr model for them because it is shhh very applicable to them#but in my heart they wouldnt be similar to evokers as a class but rather rogue and monk respectively#so dracythr other classes when? please? soon supposedly?#i made them as rogue and monk anyway on one server and am hoping to see if i can race change them if i weigh my options of bothering to pay
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JUST RECEIVED SOME OF THE NICEST AND MOST THOUGHTFUL AND DEEPLY IMPACTFUL FEEDBACK ON MY WRITING I’VE EVER GOTTEN I’M SO EMOTIONAL OH MY FUCKING GOD
#pointy objects#HAVE NEVER MEANT ‘CRYING AND THROWING UP INTO MY HANDS’ MORE THAN I DO IN THIS MOMENT#pointy objects has amassed so many kind lovely readers and like i say ‘pointy objects nation’ as a joke but genuinely . so so so so so#thabkful and grateful and awed constantly by the little community that’s developed around jt. ive gotten very lucky that this happened#first with jump and now with pointy objects and it just Makes me so emotional and sappy and just really makes me feel good#i love writing its what i want to do forever and ever whether it be fanfic or original fiction and like. i recognize i am a talented writer#despite my own hashtag Insecurities but when people are like Can i commission you or Can i buy a physical copy or Can i financially support#you for yohr writing because it deserves it alongside the feedback im much more used to even if im still left speechless by#idk. it makes my heart feel warm. makes it hard not to smile.#there will definitely be (at least privately made and distributed) pointy objects hard copies and ill post commission info One day and#maybe even make a k0fi even though that sounds crazy like WHAT ⁉️⁉️⁉️ but for now i am just very thankful. sobs into my hands forever and ev
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i've been having some trouble falling asleep lately
#art#i'll be yapping in the tags#its not that im depressed or anything. it is the opposite actually#ive been using this medicine for quite some time. and it made all my negative emotions disappear#“oh wow huh but isnt it great you don't feel bad anymore”. this is the same thing my psychiatrist told me when we were discussing this topic#in hindsight it was kinda silly of her to say. i can't believe i pay a ridiculous amount of money per session just to hear shit like that#but she's cute and im a pathetic homosexual who'll seethe at the sight of other specialists like a beaten dog so I will let it slide i guess#we see each other twice a year anyway and all i need from her is the prescription for happy pills. anyway the happypillen#i would fight god if it means i can use stertraline for the rest of my life. thanks to it i can and i do live#but I don't really feel like myself anymore. do you get what i mean#the things that have been giving me anxiety attacks or flashbacks not so long ago? i feel almost nothing about it at this momet#it still haunts me to this day but the intensity of my feelings and emotions does not reach even 1/5 of what it was before#i do not want to disclose more specific topics so i will use a simple example. i used to be afraid of dogs#the fear was so severe that the mere sight of the tiniest little barfing creature was enough for me to freeze#now i can pass one without any problem. the fear i feel today is nothing more than a shadow of bygone times (something i do out of habit)#but i guess this example is not objective enough since my close irl friend has a dog that i became fond of#im still pretty sure this dog of her is capable of biting my ass off if necessary but im not afraid of it#because fear is not an option in this brain of mine at this moment#i don't feel any anxiety sadness or anger anymore. even if something close to it begins to rise in me it shuns down within a few minutes#i can't even cry. i am craving emotions that i was so eagerly trying to dispose of back then#i feel the most mentally stable I have ever been and at the same time i feel pretty much dead.#perhaps i just got used to the fact that sorrow accompanied me for a very long time and i should learn to live without it#perhaps sorrow is just as important as happiness and its absence is a mere side effect of the happy pills#and i have to put up with it in order to have a functional brain#perhaps we people are never happy with what we have in our hands. also i hate drawing#one's can tell since the picture i attached is raw as fuck#but even despite my praised mental stability if i were to stay alone with it even for a minute longer i would go insane#next time i will draw something lighter and cuter. like my favorite kpop boy or fortnite. maybe in the next century#thanks for coming to my tedtalk. bye#i made a typo in the word “sertraline” but im too lazy to fix it i would fight god for you but i will not do this im sorry zoloft
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you are the only persom who understands how incredibly fuckable n'zoth is
dont get me wrong im not an old god simp but like. theyre so simpable. how do they not SEE. their eyes are not OPENED
their eyes remain closed to the true path 😔 "...not like you, my devoted chosen."
actual N'Zoth voice lines:
"You have always been mine"
"I claim this flesh"
"Such magnificent flesh"
"We are bound together... forever"
"Shun all who do not share our bond of flesh"
"My gift offers countless delights"
you CANNOT tell me he isn't dtf. just listen to that purr. just look at those bedroom eyes also... tentacles. got me like
need i say more
#using this hearthstone art because it charms me#genuinely crazy about him its very annoying#like i cant get over him. this ancient powerful eldritch god who seeks you out specifically#because he knows everything about you past present and future#and proceeds to just romance you to his side#giving you a special gift. telling you special secrets. giving you special quests. only you. because you're special to him 🥹#lemme tell you.#i am not immune to old god dating sim#sorry for being thirsty on main. it will happen again#anyway thank you for this ask i think you sent it a very long time ago and i am so sorry#my inbox has no object permanence to me#but i appreciate it very much#freak speak#n'zoth my beloved#nsft txt
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👍👍the new chapter of on a Friday!,, keep going. Very talented!
Ahhhh thank you so much for reading! I'm so happy to hear that you enjoyed it! I was very nervous about posting it because it was very out of my usual comfort zone and I am just so grateful for and blown away by all of the support and kindness that the chapter has been met with! Thank you so much for not only taking the time to read it but to send me this ask! Thank you so much for the continued support and I hope you continue to enjoy On a Friday! I hope you are having the very best Wednesday and that you have a fantastic rest of your week!
❤️Ally
#allylikethecat#ask ally#anon ask#fanfiction#keep it kind#matty fic#fanfic#gatty#on a friday#omegaverse#omega verse#i know i sound like a broken record#but i really am just so grateful for the support and encouragement and kindness#i was so nervous about this chapter and not confident in the slightest in my smut writing#(its hard to be objective when its your own work lol)#and i am so so blown away but how supportive and encouraging people have been#so thank you from the very bottom of my heart
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so fun fact! the current ratio of male to female characters i have done for my dailies is 14 to 8. and that kinda! Bugs Me. Where are girl.
there's only been two instances at all in which the wheel has given me two girls in a row (record -> naily and match -> spacebar) WHICH IS ALSO ANNOYING!!! to me!!! Where Are Girl.
so!!!! i have made a decision about the next seven dailies im doing
im rerolling the wheel until i get girls!!!!!!!!! that's all. Thank you. you will get girl number one later today Becos im at work i cant do it rn
#there's been five nonbinary characters total#and. one of them was my own oc#(it's tissues / 2ds / animatic / michael / one if you were curious)#which is also really unfortunate but i mean. i was already pretty aware of how few nb characters there are#but i became recently. Pretty obnoxiously aware of how many shows have more male than female characters by a noticeable margin#i am squinting at ii3 mostly . But its defs not the only one#and like . it's objects it shouldn't even matter. but if it doesn't matter then why do so many shows do this#this has been further reasoning for girl week. thank you byebye#non art
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