#its a licensing thing i think

[rose-n-gunses]

ROUGH CUTT'S ALBUMS REMOVED FROM SPOTIFY?? MY DISAPPOINTMENT IS IMMEASURABLE AND MY LIFE IS RUINED

[definitelynotshouting]

You have synesthesia?? How does that work for you? Is this how you manage to use the word “meat” in a way that makes me go “holy shit that’s good and cool i need to read that sentence four more times” instead of “ew”?????

I do!!! Letters, numbers, and words all have colours and sometimes visual textures for me-- and while numbers and letters on their own are generally only a single colour (7 is a bright, grassy green!!! while "K" is a pale peachy pink, for example :] ), when i put them into words they often take on entirely new colours, some of which even bleed into each other like watercolour paints. Ironically, its why i use the UK spelling of "colour" in the first place-- the "u" turns what looks like a dull, desaturated blue into a smeared blue-and-purple that i find really pretty to look at :]] so when i say i like to paint with words, i kinda mean that literally 😂😂😂😂😂

But yeah, i'd imagine thats why my writing is Like That™ to some degree-- a lot of what im doing behind the scenes involves matching the colours and visual textures of a given word with all of the others in order to evoke a particular vibe or image in my writing. There are a lot of layers to how i write, but this is probably the one that takes both the most time AND is the one i happen to talk about the least WKDJWKSJEJ

[cherrywhite]

One thing I love about Hayward in s1 is ya, sure, he's a cop. But most notably, he's not even a good cop. 

Hear me out. This isn't saying Hayward does not have the intuition one would associate with your typical, glorified cop from tv shows (in chapter 40, Hayward is absolutely right in that he immediately figured Carpenter out the moment he spotted her in Marcel's Crossing) and other instances, like chapter 43, shows that he has good reflexes for moments under fire (is the first to notice Brother Philly and co. at the door and pushes Carpenter out of the way). Not to mention that Hayward was on the force since he was 19, and to survive on the force for that long means he surely had plenty of solved cases under his belt, regardless if pressure has slowly built up by the time we're introduced to him.

No, when I say he's not even a good cop I mean in the sense of: he's not good at what cops actually do. 

One of the very first things Felix reminds him is to not "forget his gun this time." Implying that this has happened before, enough times for Felix to sound audibly tired about it (and he does have to go back for his gun at least two times in season 1). When Mr. Finch points a gun at him, he sits on the ground for a conversation. When asked, Hayward is confused as to why Daggler would need a knife when they find Carpenter and Faulkner's abandoned car, the thought of slashing the tires never even crossing his mind. And instead of immediately taking her into custody with no warrant whatsoever aside for his hunch, he sits down with Carpenter for an amicable conversation and a meal; only later showing his hand long enough to warn her that he's a cop and he's on to her. He's a cop and he has the Stink on him; because s1 Hayward is a bad cop. Because he does not immediately resort to violence. 

(And this isn't to dismiss his role as a cop entirely, something we're never fully privy to; chapter 3 alone shows us how his mere position as a cop was enough to cause a death that could have easily been avoided, because that role prevented Hayward from providing Mr. Finch with the actual help he needed.)

Daggler is such a ridiculous, exaggerated character but he's also the picture perfect cop. The Lieutenant-Colonel sends Daggler of all people, when they think Hayward can't solve the case. And, look, we don't really know what Daggler's position on the force is compared to Hayward, but he's clearly trusted enough to be sent, to be the exception to personal gods and keep a rhetorical god. Clearly trusted enough to close the case efficiently. Yes, Daggler is utterly ridiculous when put next to Hayward but that's because Hayward is a bad cop. Daggler is the ideal: he gets results quickly (by losing patience and immediately assaulting the bookseller), he takes perps to court and wins (with the use of The Coiling Speaks, not a liar's god btw), and he knows how to tell a compelling story (because of course Carpenter tried to attack Hayward. And of course the Good Cop shot and killed the Heretic to Protect His Partner). Good publicity all around.

S1 Hayward shows that there is no "good cop;" because being "good" is antithetical to what's expected of cops. There was no way he could continue being good and being a cop, it's why the Stink was beginning to creep up on him. "You're one of them nice coppers." says Mr. Finch. Nice. Not good. Because so-called good cops are probably the first to get sacrificed; because these institutions are not built with morality in mind.

[skunkes]

have now been trying to speedrun mastering driving and its not working because on the off chance that i DO want to go somewhere (rare) then it's never worth Actually Driving to get there.

I've been wanting to go to the mall for 2 days bc i wanna look around, and its like you'd BE DRIVING just to go somewhere and walk around for a bit and maybe spend money? And then have to drive back? For that? For walking around and spending money? I'm good, I'll just stay home. The desire to go out immediately killed by the reality of having to drive there

(this user has had his driver's license for 7 years)

[ra-vio]

one last rune for the year end!

zoom in for a surprise

[spocksgotemotions]

it’s absolutely fuckin wild to me that doctors can commit malpractice that leads to someone’s death, ADMIT IT, and then face very few consequences? Like they don’t even pay for the malpractice stuff their insurance does. And like they don’t need to go to courses or anything? Like admittedly I’m not a doctor, but if I let someone die from something easily stoppable I feel like I’d be fired. Like when I worked at a daycare, one of my kids ran into the street and if he got hit by a car, I would’ve DEFINITELY been fired. Because I was watching him and paying attention, I immediately grabbed him and held his hand very tightly until we got inside and had a talk about safety around roads. But sometimes doctors can see that a person is dying and they send them home and don’t call them and tell them their heart is failing. And they keep being employed as doctors but with slightly more expensive insurance

[sometimesanequine]

i think going fishing would fix me

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

im so infinitely stressed rn i need to get off here

[joelletwo]

v theee [boring car selling in nc details] theee to junk ur car the company wanted me to go ahead and sign the title and leave the buyer info blank which is having an open title (bc if u drop it on the way to sell ur car anyone can pick it up and fill in their info and own ur car) and is like. STUPID illegal in nc. like people still do it esp in just third party-to-third party sales. and junker services do it so if they can sell the car again they dont have to deal with two transactions of paperwork and fees [<- which is why its illegal so nc can capture those fees]. but like. they shouldnt be able to tell me on their publically available site that they want me to break nc law

and also nc law wants me to get that title notarized which because of open titles being illegal. most notaries wont notarize u if the buyer isnt also there filling in their info.

most notaries are also. either like banks or other m-f 9-5 type businesses. or just some random person in their house. and random person in their house is more likely to break the law for me but i dont want to ask some random person to break the law for me

(the dmv will also notarize and anecdotally from reddit some of them totally will just shrug and let u do it with only you the seller/you the buyer there instead of needing both but thats arbitrary depends on getting someone who doesnt care lol)

AND also. even if im selling to a person not trying to get me to break the law just buying my car regular. and i work m-f 9-5 or we both work hours where theres no way to get us both in the same place and certainly not a bank or a dmv except like, sunday evening, when no banks or dmvs are open.

do we just go fuck ourselves????????? like what do they want. they want me to die?????? i think my government wants me to die and sterilize myself

[nerdie-faerie]

Just when I think the day's going well, I crash a golf cart

[suntails]

i'm spinning in circles and giggling maniacally. i'm working on a super SUPER ambitious silver animatic and i've made so much PROGRESS i'm so EXCITED!!!!! i started it just abt a week ago and i finished the full rough pass in 2 days and by now, i have 40/60 shots fully sketched out. i want. blinks. i want to fully color it. i'm GIDDY

[j-esbian]

i don’t have a single device for which the charger works perfectly and not to sound like a boomer but i feel like that is. pretty indicative of Where We’re At Technologically

[penisbilt]

the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

[raventhekittycat]

I know it's Ryousuke but I genuinely thought it was a woman there for a hot second

[shimmeringshel1]

there's a sudden jump between not wanting to do something and not being able to do something at all

either it's procrastination that gets me or just general self sabotage (procrastination but I feel worse about it) but either way it puts me on my ass

If I don't want to do something outside of school there's a large chance I won't do it

even if I worry it'll disappoint my friends or family

Like for example, I've wanted to join the gardening club for forever, but volleyball in the fall always had conflict with the garden dates, but now I have no conflicts (except track tryouts, which I'm not super set on) and I just don't do it

I don't know why I can't just push myself the extra inch and get on my feet to work

or do something

Is it the possibility of another opportunity? Maybe

Is it just laziness? I like to think that it is

Could I have something going on with me? I want to think this but I know it's just an excuse

maybe if I'm a loser in highschool like my sister says she was then I can get a job like she did

but no one hires this time around

I'm just bored, and I desperately want to do things but the second I try I give up, and literally what the fuck I need to commit! I can't give myself excuses! But there are too many things I want to do, and it's all one or the other

Why can't you have a part time job while being in highschool while being involved in sports or clubs? I thought this was the time of opportunities? Don't make me commit to something I'm not even sure I want to do

total ramble, my bag guys :P

[daisies-on-a-cup]

shoutout to the president of the aviation club at my uni who's cubicle is right next to mine. who, also, within the same conversation, handed me his phone so i could look at his officer group chat that was basically a boy's club, tried to cut my fingernails while i was holding his phone bc he didn't like the length, said goodbye to be very swiftly after and turned around to do some stuff on his laptop, and then 5 minutes later tapped me on the shoulder and said "hey, you're smart, could i get your advice on something? what do you think girls think when i talk about aviation to them? should i not do that? like should i keep that to myself so i don't turn them off? i'm just not sure how much i should really explain myself and the fact that i'll be a pilot one day, because, you know, i don't want to attract the wrong kind of person." the wrong kind of person being someone after his "future" money that he isn't anywhere near close to getting yet