#its 2023. yall should know better.

[bitchthefuck1]

The Bear fans stop being wildly misogynistic about Claire challenge

[starbcrnes]

Just gonna say that if you willingly racebend ocs or use barely legal idols, literally unfollow me now

[vvh0adie]

watching my friends leave tumblr is really sad

you literally can't win

at this point the writer's strike should just be a cultural movement

like ppl are writing for FREE and you're complaining about turn out rate and shit

we have lives and some of us (HELL ALL OF US) have some form of mental illness, so we can't be fucking cogs all day and churn out fics.

writing is suppose to be therapeutic and writers want to share that with you to ease the tension of this hellscape we live in

but some of these readers and even fellow writers are taking it too far with the bullying

like its mean and nasty. you don't know what someone is going thru.

instead of asking for updates how about check and see if your writer is mentally stable to do so. that right there is a booster, to have someone say "are you okay?"

and then the whole accusations of favoring a certain member/character. if that person is my muse or safe space then of course imma write for them. most solo writers i see don't even talk bad about other people. its a SOLO account. think of it as a shrine blog of writing if that helps. they're not there to trash, just share their writing for other's who might also share the same muse.

then you have readers who can't separate fiction from reality. just because someone writes a character with irl people faceclaimed onto them doesnt mean they actually think that person would be or do those things irl. i'll be the first to say that i only gave my characters bts faces cuz thats who im attracted to and they're who i imagine would be casted to play my characters.

then IN THE YEAR OF 2023 we still have ppl making fun of their peers writing and also THE FACT THAT ENGLISH MIGHT NOT BE THEIR FIRST LANGUAGE? that's nasty asf. majority of us dont even speak 'proper' english as our first language no way. you only shooting yourself in the foot. don't act like you dont have beta readers... like what are yall on?

and anybody who gets on THAT BLOG behind anon is an opp. not just to the writing community but in how you interact with the world all together. yall don't know how to talk to people anymore? it may have started as a place for critique and accountability but no one is bringing receipts or critical thinking anymore. its mainly for drama and not rehabilitation. yall serious scare me in how we'd see the reality of social change applied to the real world. like i'd be more scared to let yall around the prisoners with minor offenses cuz yall act like its the end of the world and that change cant happen. yall give nobody room to change ignorant stances but ignore the real egregious shit because you honestly dont have the bandwidth to take on actual fascist views.

also the plagiarism has got to stop too. if you need writing resources just ask. but practice makes perfect. so you're gonna have to write yourself. you may not like your writers voice but you will feel shitty in the long run when you don't feel like its you putting those words on the paper. it literally just prolongs your inferiority. make something you're proud of and don't hurt your fellow writers. we went thru the process just like you. we earned it. and most of us aren't gatekeepers, we will help you.

like its really tuff being on here sometimes. cuz if you not being hounded by readers its your own community praying on your down fall.

we have to do better.

[quitealotofsodapop]

Unless somebody's asked this before, what's would the swk's (minus 2023/netflix) react to Lin?

They probably think she's a really cool kid! Netflix/Cherry brings Lin around to a Wukongverse meeting (somehow), and the others SWK's are like "Oh thank Buddha, it's his one braincell besides the Stick."

Lin is rather confused, but figures that she should be used to it by now. Her monkey has dragged her along to different Realms before, whats a different dimrnsion compared to Hell?

She ends up hanging out with the other kids like MK, Mei, and HiB!Liuer, with the younger SWKs and LEMs chilling with her too.

Revelations occur when the other monkeys have questions...

Peach: "How do you know Lin exactly? Is she your tudi, or are you guys just good friends?" Cherry: "We're friends but its... complicated." Other SWKs: *sounds of interest/encouragement* Cherry: "So like... she's the first person to show me geniune empathy and kindness, buuuut she also sentenced me under the mountain. Soooo bummer." *cricket noises* Smokey: "What." Cherry: "Yeah it was kinda weird. I think I was power-drunk or something cus all I remember is that she became the voice of Buddha and did the Leap from my Palm trick. Then cue the mountain. She said bye though, so that was cool." *more shocked silence* Dasheng: "...thats not normal." Starfruit: "YEAH. Mortals don't just do that." Peach: "Wait... is Lin your monk?" Cherry: "No, I have a Tripitaka. He showed up like 500 years later." All the SWK who understand reincarnation: *deep inhales* Ace: "Your friend is a Golden Cicada. " Cherry: "A what now?" Smokey: "Seriously!? Don't you know any Buddhist lore?!" Cherry: "No. I was never taught it." Sugar: "Didn't your Master Subodhi ever teach you inbetween lessons on the Dao?" Cherry: "...my who teaching me what now?"

This is how the rest of the monkeys indirectly find out that Netflix!SWK/Cherry; 1: Was never trained for his power, 2: Has no idea about the chinese pantheon, and 3: Was never in the furnance?? Like??? Those are big details in a lot of their stories!

The SWKs who went through these trials feel really frustrated that Cherry hasn't felt the same pain they have, but also recognise his tale as being an equally tragic story of hubris/innocent ambition. Also this monkey had zero friends - no stalwarts, no brotherhood, no LEM likely, so he had no support system/something to fight for beyond himself.

Lin, meanwhile is hanging out with the LMK gang (canon and/or au) like;

MK, telling his origin story: "...So I lifted the Staff and boom! I have the Monkey King's powers!" *poses dramatically on table with his staff* Lin, clapping: "Thats pretty cool! Does your staff talk like Stick does, or it that an oddity just of my world?" Tang: "Your world, sadly. Imagine the tales those Staffs could tell..." Pigsy: "You have the monkeys, Tang." Tang: "The monkeys like to exaggerate and bend details." Lin: "Stick is not really that much better..." MK: *staff falls out of hand onto floor* "Dang it." Lin: "Don't worry! I'll get it!" MK: "Uh yeah, thats not possible-" Lin: *lifts the staff with some effort* The LMK Crew: (ʘᗩʘ’) Hib!Liuer: (◕▿◕) Lin: "...what?"

Lin has her own freak-out moment when the gang tell her that the Ruyi Jingu Bang/Staff is supposed to be over 17,550 lbs/7,960 kg(!!). Aka "girl how are you lifting a whole ass flat-bed truck with your hands"-heavy.

Cus I need to remind yall that Lin *can lift the Staff*, so either Stick deliberately makes itself lighter so she can move it, OR Lin has a major divine Strength buff.

Tang declares Lin his 2nd favorite Monk (first place taken by Liuer). Lin starts freaking out cus Netflix!Tripitaka basically tells her that she's dead in his time/one of his previous lifes as well.

[squeaksinc]

2023 creative year in review! 💦💦

The most stand-out thing to mention was this was arguably my most active and productive cosplay year...maybe ever? its incredibly uncommon that I can handmake 9 costumes in a year, but on top of that, 7 of the 9 were also custom designs, which is pretty wild.

costume-wise, i learned a stupid amount of skills and really pushed what i was comfortable with. IMO the best from the year are the collector, knives, pupet, and nekomancer at least just from a craftsmanship perspective. I try not to brag or be an ass, but I am genuinely very proud of those. they posed fun creative challenges that kept me engaged, and I'm happy with how they turned out!

the other side of the coin is although last year was my most dormant cosplay year, other crafts were super active....and the reverse happened this year _(:3」∠)_ i didnt really draw much at all other than making cosplay designs, and other physical media didnt get much time to shine either. I made some plushies, but they were lackluster, and I think I made maybe one unfinished figure lol. but I did try BJD making and loved it!! I made 4 this year and have plans to do more haha.

thats the upbeat overview, the readmore is going to be a more negative perspective so proceed with caution haha.

More than anything I wish i had more time to do art and build up Stitch in The Ditch/more OC work, but honestly this year was also objectively insane in the non-creative front. like i hit the worst patch of chronic pain i've ever had/found out my abdominals have been ripping themselves apart and bleeding for the past 10 years lol/had to go to the hospital like THREE!!!! goddamn times and now i'm dealing with the news i'm going to need abdominal surgery, got a teaching promotion/award, got my physics masters, utterly INSANE family happenings, had gastroparesis for 2 months and couldnt eat more than 200 cal a day in that time which caused all my blood levels to crash and i'm still reeling from it, and of course, have just been Cashually working goddamn 60-80 hours a week in an experimental physics lab in the background during all of this which is driving me to the point of madness- suffice to say i hit my limit like months ago lmao.

like looking back i know i should be happy and proud i did so much but i cant help but feel disappointed and wishing i had done better quality stuff. honestly, i know i goof about how hard work is, but its really really getting to me. i've always been happy with my ability to juggle so many things and preserve my ability to have a cool job, make cool things, and independently take care of myself, but work is month-by-month morphing into more of a monster thats just been suffocating everything else out. I really dont know what next year will look like, as i've been wearing thinner and thinner i'm noticing a trend where I just dont have the energy that I used to to do anything outside of my job.

I bring this up because on paper I should be happy with what I made, but I still feel like im in a stand-still. I made a lot of costumes, but tbh they were low quality/lackluster. like the number went up, but the quality didnt and I couldnt do much of any other art things. I couldve, and shoulve, been able to make much better work this year than I did, but it didnt happen as a combo of being snuffed out by my job physically and mentally.

in 2023 I got a head start/built up momentum from the beginning of the year that carried me through when things got insane in spring/summer/currently, but I'm already starting 2024 from a low point. yall. im so tired. im so goddamn tired. like its funny to goof about how much I do but its catching up fast and i think this is going to be the year when I just cant keep up anymore. Its hard to talk about since the "being crushed to death by your job" topic isnt one people want to engage with, and unless you're experiencing it first hand its hard to understand what living like that really means.

for 2024, i know theres no way I will be able to match this same number of costumes, but my goal is no matter what I want to start making things that are more solid on a construction level. fewer projects, more polish. also doing more non-cosplay stuff like world building and dolls would also be awesome. will that happen??? lord only knows. honestly usually these predictions/goals go haywire but this is also more of a response to external things outside of my control so ???? ??????? we'll see lads

[trinitytrilogy]

hi! i just noticed your patreon has no posts anymore? i don’t know much about patreon so i don’t know if that’s something that just happens but if you deleted all your posts on there, does that mean zeus’ dilemma is discontinued?

kfljdskljfk tdlr; not abandoned, i'll have a better post soon, im sorry yall :sob: i feel rly guilty, but there will be an update this month. more below the cut and tysm <3

hi! it's actually lowkey the opposite? i had a Bad Time at the start of 2023, and completely forgot like pretty much everything until i pulled myself out of that hole. i started writing again in july but i figured with the intense delay between my last post and now i should get two chapters out instead of one. anyway, chapter nine is kind of a quicker one (and i had already written the c romance lock and one of the other ro scenes, and chapter eight was previously drafted i just had to edit and add a few ro scenes spontaneously), so i figured why not. i'm also gonna release chapter five publically then, so ive been going back and making sure the first five chapters r as polished as i alone can make them.

if i simply cannot for some reason finish chapter nine by the end of this month, i'll just go ahead with posting chapter eight, so it won't be fully no updates for a while. it clocks in at about 20k words (and the parent scene is not written and will not be written), so its not unsubstantial i hope.

chapters 10&11 are both bigger than 8&9 in theory, but ive already written the romance locks for k&a (which take place in those chapters respectively) so there's a little work done there too. all in all, i'm about 75% of the way done w ZD and i have no plans to abandon it given how much it's taken to get this far,, im just bad w social media bc it gives me a lot of anxiety lol. im gonna log off again until ch. 9 is done (or aug. 31 hits lol), and im sorry if i havent gotten to ur ask, this was literally just the one at the top of my inbox. ik im rambling, but tysm for reading this far <3

i also have a separate message for patrons or anyone who used to be a patron, but that was dksjfkldsjk so i'm so sorry, just bear w me for a bit until i get the writing ready, i have a bad habit of letting guilt overwhelm me and making things worse.

[freshiegayboi]

tldr: im having a bad time lol but im working on it!

im not a huge fan of tell-all's in regards to my personal life

a lot goes on that i really only tell a specific group of people, my partner lollipopskele, and my besties pterosaursinspace, absurdmageart, sheewolf85 and thesinbubble being some of them

but the past year and really, the past about couple days/weeks have been a special kind of hell, so i thought id open up a bit and explain, so if i drop off the face of the earth, yall know why, and know ill be back as soon as i can!

tldr (again) is my family has been dealing with a Lot of major health concerns, so tw for a lot of talk about the Big Bad C and similar bad health stuff

so... around january, february of last year, my dad found out he had cancer. its a blood/marrow cancer, but they caught it pretty early so the doctors think they can take care of it good.

he goes in june of 2023 to get a bone marrow transplant. it goes well, hes home within two months, things are looking up.

they find out... i wanna say october, the numbers arent going up like they want. that december, they know the cancer is back.

they schedule another bone marrow transplant. my dad goes in the end of february 2024, and does chemo, radiation, then the transplant. hes currently in recovery, and his numbers look even better than the first time.

fast forward to last week. my baby sister, who is for all intents and purposes my daughter, has been using the bathroom a lot. every 15 minutes this kid has to pee. shes constantly hungry, and constantly thirsty. she sweats constantly, no matter the temp or what shes doing.

now, to some of you that will sound hauntingly familiar. shes 7, my baby is, so i start worrying about diabetes. im diabetic myself, but mine is type 2. hers is looking like type 1.

so i take her to the doctor, with our mother. they ask all the questions, and schedules tests. they test for uti's twice, nothing. the tests all come back negative for anything, except her sugars. her sugars when they check it are 131. for context, a kid her age should not have blood sugars levels above 100.

so we go to the doctor again. they check her a1c (which, for reference, checks her sugar levels for the past three months). theyre at a good, normal level, so they say shes fine.

im taking her tomorrow to see my doctor, who im hoping can give me a better answer.

im officially in charge of my siblings as of right now. my mother needs to stay with my dad until hes fully released to come home, which could be soon, or could be weeks from now.

ill be making sure all the housework is taken care of, that they get to school and do their homework. ill be making sure the bills get paid, and the groceries are taken care of. ill be managing my sisters health.

so again lol

if i fall off the face of the earth, feel free to give me a shout

ill be back though, not to worry about that <3 and ill be writing on things as im able!

love you guys, thanks if you read to the end lol

[theatrekidstatus]

The Schuyler sisters~

-8/1/1780 First day- peggy pov:it was MY first year of middle school and gelis last "COME HERE GIRLS" "yes daddy" "its our first day photo" "DADDY I CANT TAKE THIS PHOTO YOU POST IT EVERY and I always LOOK HORRIBLE" "ok ok ok how about i let you do your own pose and EVERYTHING" "ok better" eliza and daddy discussed liza got braces now shes MAD self concsiouns "GELI" "hi im ready" we posed "yes i finnaly look good" "Good lets go" "why are we at rias house" "shes moving to your school" "yes" i mumble she hops in the car "hi guys" "hola" we got infront of the buliding and HOLY SHIT WAS IT BIG... "WHOA" "yeah" "i dont wanna do this" "me neither" "COME ON GUYS WHATS THE WORSE THAT COULD HAPPEN" we walk in. I see Lafayette,Alex (my sisters crush for like ever),Hercules,John I run up and jump on johns back "OW FUCK" "POTTY WORDS ON THE FIRST IS CRAZY" "humping your best friend is crazier" "what ever" "No hi" Lafayette said with his thick accent "HIIIIIII BAGGUET" "HIIIII BURGER" "PEGGYYYYYY" ria yelled at me "yeah" i say while laughing "i thought i lost you" "CAN I SEE YALL SCHULDELE" "still together" "only one class" "BETTER THEN NOTHING" *BELL RINGS* "come on YALL we got p.e" "hold on i gotta meet my 'helper'" "see you and a few" i sit in my seat on the bleachers and laf and his helper came in he sat next to me and his helper sat in the coner he slid me a peice of paper it said "i dont like me astent person" "why they seem nice" "they're are annoying" "annoying or are you embarrassed" "both" "i know,promise you wont be rude" "fine" "oh my god" "what" "shes coming over here" "niceness"(-my language and literature teacher 2023) "hi Lafayette you need help with the coachs words" "NO" "ok call me when you do" "what are you writing" we had to write a card and do charades and guess "im short,wear yellow,and have two sisters" "nice" "do you still like geli" "shut up" "awww you should try to talk to her" "OK CLASS TURN IN YOUR CARDS" we did

*BELL RINGS*

I was in the hall ria catched me "i have second with your boyfriend" "i have second with yours AND i have 1st with mine" "oh theres my class" "bye" "LAURNES" "SCHYLUR" "do you stll like laf" he asked me "shut up bro" "so yes" "hello class im ms.earth" "MORE LIKE MS.BIRTH" john ADAMS yelled,damn that kid is annoying "YOU KNOW YOU CANT BE TALKING" "john that comment was very rude" "john im a grown lady who does not need someone to stick up for me thank you though" "hi sorry im late i got lost" "your totally fine please sit" "its you girlfriendddddddd" "shut up peggy" "may i sit here" "yeah" "of course" "bro pegs i missed you SO MUCH" "ME TOO" "OH HI JOHN" "h-i e-ll" "OK CLASS ATENDDCE"

*24 fake names later* "ok now take you trait card put it in a hat and were gon act it out" "wish we had done this last class" "whats your you next class" "science" "oh herc has that class"

-bell rings-

I sit down next to herc and his fiddling with his hand "is Hercules mulligan nervous" i ask with chuckle "i like this girl but she told me she likes someone else so i guess im sad" "dose this girl know you like her" "no way dude" "can i know who she is?" "maria" he mumbled "BRO" "shut up" "im sorry it is really cute" "thanks" "i need to confess before someone else "bars" he glared at me "MY BAD" "but maybe you should wait till shes over him,you have a better chance" "you're right" "im so happy we got lunch with alex man" "same i need his charisma tips" "thats my best friend and i miss him" "dosnt ria like him" "no eliza does" "hmhm ria told me last class she did" "oh my god they both do" "she also likes john right?" "mhm" "i think i have a chance,isnt there a ball tonight" "yeah" "OK LETS HEAD DOWN FOR LUNCH" "nice" we mutter i sit with my friends "yes same lunch" "nah really" "fuck off" "are we ready for the first ball" "yes ive waited years for this" "what ball?" Lafayette asked "the fall one we have a ball every season and no elementary kids around so we can be around mature adults. "Someone farted in my health class" herc said at the WRONG TIME i admit we laughed BUT only at the randomness "but what ever dont come over my house with no bull shit on" suddenly someone sits down it is eliza "why are you here" "no reason" WHEN I TELL YOU THIS GIRL SUCKED HER FOOD DOWN she threw it in the trash did her hair and make up "so whys the ball always at your house!" "highest but not to highest power" eliza answered while putting on eyeliner. Ria sits down "hey guys" "hey we're just talking about the ball" to be continued ~

[bawwsadface]

cohost is dead, long live tumblr (again)

in 2023 i took a liking to the independent blog platform cohost.org. it was a very cool, very principled website that offered a taste of the old internet with a splash of the posting-centric new net. it functioned very similar to tumblr, but attracted its own type of crowd. mostly millennials burnt out on the death march of the modern web. those of us old enough to have been on forums and been on irc and been in ancient aol chatrooms. those of us who remember a more decentralized internet. one that felt like a destination as opposed to an ever cancerous appendage of modern life.

cohost was cool. everybody on it was chill and we all used that space for different things. but all outlets were equally as expressive. it was a place to try new things, to do old things you hadn't done online in 10 or 15 years, to post like you used to pre-2010, and it was a place to find community. many of us migrated over there with a handful of friends and formed a comforting online space together. i know i very much enjoyed my time there.

and i used it to practice my skills writing. taking a crack at longer form blogs and formulating in-depth and involved writing projects for the future. i love the stuff i wrote on there, and it gave me the confidence to use that skill more often and on other ventures. i think i'm gonna start making youtube video essays. i think i was always destined to follow this path, glad my writing feels worth the effort of trying now.

cohost also made me realize that to have a decentralized web again, or to usher in a new age of the web that is untethered from algorithms and the prying hands of the devilish tech sector, you have to build your own communities. you have to work outside the major forces and try and grow an online coalition. or at least online spaces that aren't hostile. you have to build a website. you have to make a blog. you should start an rss feed. and you shouldn't use squarespace. it's time to learn html buddy. cuz the internet you want is not the one that gets venture capital funding. a better web is possible, but it's not going to be handed to us, we have to make it.

in the meantime tho, while i learn how to do all that, i'm coming back here. to the one social media site that will always have me back without judgment. at least for a little while. look forward to more writing. and thanks to those who still follow the blog and look at it all these years later. love yall.

[secondchoice-ragdoll]

Am I the only one who is a little sad that the moment Trixie was single she didn't take a second look at Katya and immediately went to the ex? She could've given her a chance. And I wonder how K really feels now that she wants kids. I know she doesn't want them herself, but I'm afraid this will change things between them and I really really hope they don't.

ugh okay first of all: im totally w u and i a 100% see ur point. these have crossed my mind too, and i can easily get to a place where these topics make me sad for a while. but genuinely i dont think we should worry too much abt any of it. at the end all i want is for them to be happy, no matter how that looks like🤝

on a further note, we cant be like *actually* sure abt any of what is going on? like yes it seems pretty clear, and it might as well be exactly as we think it is, its all spelled out, isnt it? its really just that we were the ones who spelled it out, and not T, or any other person who is practicipating in the situation. all im saying is that i wouldnt advise anyone to bet on whats going on w T rn (if for nothing else then just out of respect), and im sure eventually we will hear either a confirmation or a fully different story that will clear things up.

specualtion is free tho, and also pretty interesting, so as long as we keep it kinda hush-hush i think its okay that we entertain ourselves w these anecdotes. like im totally in, and i do think *the* ex is now truly an ex, like that much id even dare to place a bet on. the rest is just questionmarks😭😭😭 like i could see this new guy being actually something, or just a rebound-fling, or just a friend(?). and its also possible that he is the old ex, and then i do have even more questions, but the bar is under a frog's ass after the last guy, so im appriciative towards anyone who is slightly better than him, and it would appear to be a true challenge to be worse than him💀 sooo idk i do believe yall that that guy on the pics is really old KY guy, im just not sure if they r friends or fwb or dating or a secret fourth option? doesnt matter as long as T is okay and having fun. (also, i do think she could have spent some time being single IF she is in a relationship again, but hey, anything is better than how we were around a year ago, no? and as long as a guy doesnt treat her like shit im happy for her!!!) ((and yes. i am really sad miss K got looked over again if thats the case. even if i dont think we will ever get to live in a world they r actually legit dating. in another universe for sure. but in this one? too many hangups. these creatures cant even fucking talk abt the fact that they'd like to hang out more tgthr. like..... be fr😭 they r stooooopid, and thats okay. its sad, its tragic, but its okay, and they have a really special relationship regardless of whether they ever go that far or dont. there is always hope, and even if they fall out now, maybe they need it to break and actually confront the fact that they want to hang out? like there r so many ways for things to go. soooo many. i could sit here and spin this wheel on for hours with no end, i promise. i do think it could have happened in like 2020-2023? maybe even beginning of 24. but as things stand now... eeeh i think it wouldnt be such a clean cut, but they do tend to do things the more complicated way, at least thats how it seems to me. the thing is that they r such complex ppl and they have so many motives that i could make literal lists about what their excuses might be (such as work, but now that T says it doesnt matter that much maybe it changes, or such as age, or what-ifs, or fear of ruining what they have, or thinking that maybe they have missed their chance, new/old confidence issues, mental health states? ...these two...). on the other hand, do we really think K got looked over? Ts literal god? im not so sure, but only time will be able to tell wtf has been going on.))

i see ur concern, and yeah change is fucking scary, especially if such comforting things change. but u see, this could be exactly one of their hangups too. things keep changing no matter what, all we can do is hope they both r okay and happy and nice parts of each other's lives.

i understand that T keeps speaking abt wantimg kids, and sure, pop off! but like, i reaaaally doubt she would be actually having kids this year? like i feel like its maybe a new thing for her to think of having kids as an actual possibility she considers for her future, thus she speaks abt it openly since its one of the things she is interested in now! but like, having a kid is not this quick of a process, even a pregnancy takes 9 months😭😭 and also im pretty sure that her life isnt at a place where she could pick up a kid tomorrow and just go on and be her best self as a parent and i feel like she must be aware of that? T and K would both be at least okay parents, thats for sure!! but like, considering Ts past year... yeah i dont think it will be such a quick happening. once, in a few years, sure! even in 2, why not! but not tomorrow. she'd do fine as a single parent, she'd do fine w a partner, it will be fine, just really not as soon as some ppl r concerned it might be😭 let her just get that birdie first, i think that could be a logical and nice next step!

finally, i really dont think K would have such a problem w children? (even if she did, dont u think shed make an exception for T? im pretty sure she'd do almost anything for/with T.) like she absolutely adores her nephew as far as i know, so im certain she wouldnt delete T's contact info if/when she had a kid. im pretty sure T wouldnt block Ks number either just bc she became a parent, she also seems to know how nice K is to kids despite not necessarily getting them (see: her gifting a lot of money to her nephew's, like, 4th bday? but i could argue that thats a great gift, just more long term great😭). and what if T gets that kid and eventually calls K for help (more likely for herself and not the kid, but this is besides the point), and then K does help, and then they spend even more time together with this newfound excuse, and they realise how well they function as a family, and then they can finally move in together and be lesbians and be disgustingly in love and live happily ever after??? what then???? anyways, my point is that even if they r in a tiny bit of a divitation i highly doubt it would be due to T wanting a kid. i think its more that they both were afraid during T's break that if they reached out more they would annoy the other one, bc "omg what if she needed a break from me too???" (like. T needed a break from her god. and K needed a break from the person who tethers her to this earth. sure jan. emotionally they do have some challenges, thats certain!). and maybe they need to drift a bit apart to then get back together and be even closer (if that is scientifically even possible). things arent as linear and easy as we would like them to be, and since our perspective is and outside one, im pretty sure that from their pov it seems or at least feels sooooo much more complicated. while i just sit on the floor and go "just date ffs its not that hard!!4!4 look back footage of ur faces while u look at eachother!!! thats all u need!!44!", and we r both right! it is very complicated but it could also be manageable. (what i think might be more painful here is if T has the kid w a partner, bc that seems pretty, uh, *certain*, or unchangable, final? obvi its not ***that*** drastic, but it is a bigger deal. so yeah, but i stand by my op that none of this will happen in the blink of an eye, we'll see as it unfolds ig and hope for smth real nice)

[dziedietmeitas]

hey guys, happy new year!

this is a late new year post (it's the first week so?? pass?) but december has been the happiest i've ever been in 2022, and where i felt at peace.

i also wanna thank yall who have sent me positive anons/messages whenever i feel down 🥺 i may not have been here much, but i feel rly loved and safe whenever i come back here.

so here are some important stuff ive learned in 2022.

never get attached easily, especially if it is someone you like - hate 2 disappoint yall but italian guy kinda led me on <//3 tho it's kinda my fault that i thought "oh we match personality-wise = instant like!". so now i have to tread new friendships (and romance if ever) carefully. even if the person seems promising, it's no guarantee they're good for you. make sure the person youre meeting is worthy of your trust and most of all, love. they should always respect your boundaries.

sometimes, closure doesn't give you peace - had a falling out with an old friend group. i was hoping that the talk between me and ex-friend would lead to reconciliation, but they were lowkey vindictive and vague. it really sucked. i could sense the friendships were falling in the beginning, but i was too blind to notice it i guess... i learned that if people don't wanna communicate healthily with you? it means you dont matter much to them. you can communicate things out, but slowly letting go is another alternative too.

don't isolate yourself too much. - its okay to get some space. we all need that time to time. but its ok to let people know you are not okay, and yes, you can ask some support. "hey, i'd like to take some space for now, but i also wouldn't mind some positivity too..." etc etc.

lastly, having people help you does empower you. - an important lesson i'd like to put in my future story. i struggle with asking for help/support, but i've met some kind souls who are willing to lend me a hand. it inspires me to do better. sometimes you get stuck and don't know what to do... and humans aren't meant to be isolated. we're a community oriented bunch. it's ok to ask for help!

im bad at ending posts but!! hopefully these 2022 lessons will inspire you. hoping that the yr of the bunny aka 2023 will be good to all of us ! 🐇🌸💓

[sushiwt]

website update log #7 (April 14th, 2023)

Note: all changes in the site are documented in github now :D

the only reason i havent actually worked on /index is because i cant think of any ideas of what it should actually look like..

my creative juices arent spewing out of my brain and into the site, so i gotta look for inspiration.

and what better site to look for inspiration than... neocities!

i know that i wont be using this site anymore for site hosting, but i realized that there are so much creative websites in neocities that are just out in the wild so i decided, why not use those sites for my struggling brain to figure out what my website index is supposed to look like :shrug:

when i was browsing the site for a bit, i came across this site called NOT FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION by sugarforbrains...

besides the colorful artstyle that i love so much, it made me contemplate some things about this site and mine.

well first, ive seen that same chatbox (the box on the right with the text “WEB SITE DO NOT EAT”) a couple of times now, and im thinking if i should add one as well, but like, there wont be activity for a while since only like 3 people know about this blog and website aghaha

second, im seriously thinking if i should replace the top navbar with a sidebar, as it appears here, since there has been a problem i havent been documenting as much...

...and it was centering the damn top navbar.

ok now that im actually looking at this it doesnt really look like its a problem since no one is going to use the site at 6400x3200 but it still makes me angry.

but even if i wanted to change the top navbar, thats not what im in neocities in the first place.

i wanted to find inspiration for replacing the “hello” textbox youre seeing now, but now im just getting pissed at something i already finished creating, which was the top navbar!!!

now, back to finding inspiration.

im not a fan of the grid lookin look, because of how inconsistent it looks, but ill think about it!!

oh btw if you have time, please visit the site!! it looks so visually stimulating its great!!! here

now, onto more exploration!

i found some sites by neoratz and keyzklubhouse (neo's HEAVENWURLD ଘ(ˊ_ˋ) and Key's Klubhouse) that piqued my interest ‘cause of one thing.. can you guess what it is?

if it wasnt obvious enough, its the characters on the side of the boxes!!! I wanted this thing to be the first thing you see when you enter the site! it felt good that i was actually making progress on this for once, but then i realized that...

i already did this already!!!

on my old site!!!

its the old me on the old site, on the side of the menu screen! what im planning to do here is that instead of giving one half of the home screen to the image and another half for the text box (which is shown here) im going to make it so that the box is going to be centered, and the character is going to be layered in a way where its still beside the textbox, but its layered!!

this is a visual representation of what i am talking about:

actually, ill throw another character while im at it:

probably add one more here just to fill some space:

ok this should be enough characters:

now that the overall concept of the first thing you see when you enter the site is finished, i was going to figure out what i wanted to show when yall scroll on the site, but then something just hit me.

i need a way to show the characters. how do i do that.

im actually planning to show one of my characters, slooshi (the icon of the website and my internet persona in general) but how do i present it to you??

this can go two ways. i can either 3d model the character, or draw it. the catch is that they both have to be pixel art as to match the theme of my site...

i could totally go for 3d modelling, with a more low poly 3d look, kinda like the style of pico-cad by Johan Peitz:

but i want to step outside my comfort zone, which brings me to my second choice, drawing.

its not like i forgot how to draw people, its just way harder now since i havent drawn actual people in a while. ive been focusing more on 3d modelling, game development, and school that i havent really been practicing on my drawing skills more, which sucks but its what happens...

ill think more about it, but for now i finally figured out what im going to do with the site! (atleast the first part of it...)

- sushiwt <3

[sharperandmoreprecious]

hiiiii holly .. did i send u numbers in the past probably but here are my own questions. what book would you recommend for a road trip. what book had a great concept but terrible execution. if you had to read the same book every week for 2023 which would it be. what book should i read next.

yall want to hear me talk about MORE books?? i am flattered, im cradling these asks gently in my hands road trip: the first that came to mind was peace like a river, by leif enger. it is a heartachey and magical journey that is unreasonably beautifully written. but if we're talking about audiobooks to play in the car, i have a crush on imogen church whenever she reads ruth ware's books, even when i don't love the ruth ware book. but i like the death of mrs. westaway and one by one. great concept, terrible execution: imagine a book pitched to you as "a couple struggling with their relationship goes on one last mountain hike to try and patch things up... but when their tour guide mysteriously dies, both believes the other person is responsible. and theyre determined to get the other to confess before they part ways." i heard that and went out and bought it immediately. its called fish swimming in dappled sunlight. and i had a real hard time with it.

rereading the same book every week in 2023: look you know i gotta say little weirds by jenny slate. she keeps me sane. or bone gap by laura ruby... i get catharsis from it every time. and for you?? hm. tell me your top 5 from last year and i'll have better recommendations... but salt slow, if you hadn't read it already. last true poets of the sea is a gay YA retelling of twelfth night that i loved. maybe why be happy when you could be normal by jeanette winterson, in terms of memoirs that split me open like jenn shapland's <3

[talaxyan]

hello from 2023

hiiiiiii

it's so funny to think that all the posts from this tumblr are all just for me in the future but I hope it's gonna be another good reflection to see what I was like in the past.

but let me give you a little update since the last time I was here ((THERE WERE A LOT!!!))

ok first of all. im unemployed now, I graduated college 4 months ago and still haven't been able to land a job- I'm on my last round of interview for this pharmaceuticals company tho and I REALLY HOPE I GET THE JOB BECAUSE IM DESPERATEEEE. if I don't get an offer soon my OPT might expires meaning it'll be harder for me to escape indo.

as much as i love being at home and spending most days with my nieces and having no worry at all, I miss doing something intelligent like doing all the academic weapon I was supposed to be doing. it was hard landing a job yall, I swear I've applied to at least 400+ job but still 0 offer. IM REALLY HOPING THIS PHARMA JOB WORKS OUT I REALLY WANNA GO BACKKKKKK I wanna live in city I can wander around please

anyway, on the fun part ((my nonexistant love life))

in 2022, i went for a semester abroad in LONDON AND IT WAS WILDDDDD like really good experience and I love london so much I wish to go back there again and visiting my london fam innit- it was surprising really good like i had a solid friendgroup in just a month of settling down (shout out to SHAIMA LOVE U SO MUCH GURL) i went travelling to edinburg and Stonehenge. it was a surreal experience.

oh and i was on dating apps while in London and I got the taste of love (a little bit). my first ever date was really good, i'd give it 7/10 I wasn't that attracted to this dude but he was smart and caring at least before he became annoying and called me a self-obsessed girl- like dude HOW CANT I BE OBSESSED OVER MYSELFF? anyway I didn't continue talking to him because I really thought I should give an ugly guy a chance just bc he seems nice personally but he really wasn't so I went to 7 more dates after that--- ND I GOT MY FIRST EVER KISS??? LIKE HELLO? this dude I kissed, we met on tinder and I went to his place the night I first saw him and I gave him a glockglock3000 it was crazy-- but after that night I learnt why people like dick- and he got a pretty one too and it tasted sweet?????? maybe from the lube he was using but we didn't do the full thing cuz I was kinda hesitant cuz I BARELY KNOW HIM OFC??? but yea I learnt some things but my experience with men in general wasn't really working out bc ALL I WANT IS LOVE and it seems like u cant really find that on dating app.

other than that, i cut off some people from my life. it was sad but I think its about time. this girl I really wanted to befriend with since freshman year, we ended became bestie and even lived together in the apartment, but I think it was really toxic tbh- it think the more I knew people, the more I feel like I withdrew myself form them.thats kinda scared me because I really wanted to accept people the way they are but it was really not good having her around- for some reason in social settings, everytime I spent time wth her, it just irritaes me more and that made me realize that friendship wasn't supposed to be like that, it shouldn't cost you your mental health to be living with your friend so yeah, after graduation, I never contacted her and she also never contact me either so it's mutual I think

my time at skidmore was overall fun, I went to typical college parties, got drunk and wasted but it was all really fun. i love my girl friends my bbygurl I love them so much and they made my time at skidmore 100000x so much better. i would be a lot more miserable if it wasn't because of them. there was rough patches along the way but we are good friends so I was able to let go everything and keep our friendship eventho now w graduated and harder to see each other but I really hope to meet them again<3 I love them thao kim connie rebecca and my isu babies<3

my plan now is hoping i land that job in Boston > lease an apartment > fly from jakarta and meet natan > relocate to Boston and get my stuff at Uhaul in Albany > starting working and getting the sense of really world > SAVE A LOT OF MONEY SO I CAN SPOIL MY LOVED ONES AND MYSELF

i think i can do it. delusion is the key and I quite frankly believe in myself. i really hope so I wish.

so yeah, thats mostly the update from me. hopefully in the next post I can give you a better news and more GOOD STORY FROM MY LOVE LIFE yea. ok goodbye for now and I see u later

[theories-just-for-funzies]

Here’s a list of Sherlock theories I came up with and that stuck in my brain for these past years of slowly losing sanity. They’re nothing extremely exciting, most of the time it’s just different interpretations of pre existing things.

No I will not write any meta on these for the foreseeable future, if anybody is truly cracked in the head and ends up wanting to write metas on any of these: good luck folks.

1) STAIRS:

a) There are 17 steps to get inside 221b, therefore there should be a total of 17 episodes before we actually know what’s going on behind the curtains.

b) Based on point A, going up the stairs means getting closer to the truth, going deeper. Descending the stairs means going outside of the building, looking at the facade of something. (See the “Mary building” in HLV has no stairs because “Mary” is a lie, there’s nothing to get inside of) (see also scary insane Moriarty at the end of the stairs in Sherlock’s mind palace in HLV, who’s just the stereotypical crazy bad guy with no human trait, Sherlock goes there because he needs to calm down, and there’s nothing more comforting than having a bad guy that’s just a bad guy instead of a complex, full human)

2) MARY, MUGNASSEN AND MORIARTY:

Yall already know how magpies are associated with Moriarty on multiple occasions. They’re also the theme of John and Mary’s wedding, Mary works for Moriarty, that’s a fact, not a theory. Good, now that we’ve established that: Mary works WITH Moriarty, not for, since s1, she just has something in her own interest for staying in the game now, John. I’m guessing somewhere along the road of aiding Moriarty (after the wedding, because as the magpies in the decorations suggest, the wedding was also part of the plan) she actually grows attached to John/manipulating him. She strays or plans to do so, from Moriarty’s plan because she wants to keep John alive and for herself, Magnussen finds out about this “pressure point” and threatens her to tell Moriarty, who would most likely kill her, hence why HLV.

Also I said she works WITH Moriarty because I believe magpies to be indications not only for Moriarty, but mor specifically Mary and Moriarty both working together.

3) BLUE / WATER

Any time there is a dead body there’s a blue detail in the scene, the skull painting’s background is blue, when Sherlock jump the trash bags are blue, ecc. Blue equals death. (I remember reading a blue meta a couple of years ago, but I don’t think it associated blue with death)

Carl powers died in: water. Also according to s4 Victor was drowned as well. Water = death.

There’s a lot of blue and water in s4, especially in TST, it’s like a Hannibal episode but with blue and water instead of black. That’s because I believe either Sherlock or John are dying in a hospital, as supported by a LOT of other theories. Depends on whose point of view is s4, because the stairs (see point 1) in 221 are 10 steps, a platform (TAB), and 6 steps, so something must have changed in how we see things when we turn on the platform.

4) 13th

You can just take a look at my last post . 13 years after bbc Sherlock started would be the same year when ALL canon Sherlock Holmes stories would be copyright free. In TST Mycroft (aka Gatiss) looks at the note and then says “Put me through Sherringford, please. Yes I’ll wait”, meaning the prison will last 13 more years, meaning no s5 till 2023.

Also why should anybody name a secret super-prison after Sherlock when the one contained is his sister. It doesn’t really make sense.

5) GREEN

In the first few minutes of ASIP this is very clear, more specifically the entirety of John’s solo apartment is green, the same green we also see on the wall facing the streets in 221b, the same wall that makes its way inside shots like John reacting to Sherlock and Janine kissing. So yeah, I believe the acid yellowish/green tint/color stands for (in lack of a better word) loneliness, with maybe a bit of bitterness, longing and sadness peppered in. Bonus point in TEH in the restaurant, John has a reflected white light on the side of his face, but as soon as he knows Sherlock is alive the white light takes a subtle green tint. Bonu bonus point John and Mary’s bedroom is green. Ok now I’ll stop, but you get the idea, a lot of green.

6) MOLLY

Based upon the last picture in the “spoiler” chess photoset for s4.

Sherlock black-horse Holmes is alone doing checkmate, but on Moriarty/Mycroft side we still have 4 pieces: the king (Moriarty), the tower (knowing/willing Mary), Mycroft knowing/unwilling-white-horse Holmes, and a pawn, that I believe to be Molly. Why Molly you ask? First of all, her name starts with an M and that’s sus, but also she dated Jim so she had onscreen direct interactions with Moriarty, and that’s more than I can say for everybody else. So yeah, I believe Molly may be part of Moriarty’s plan but she’s not aware and I would argue it also goes against her will

7) REDBEARD / MORIARTY / VICTOR / DRUGS

Now this is where my tin hat really shines, to the point where I wasn’t even sure if I should’ve put it in here, but alas, for the sake of fun times and maybe sparking somebody else’s genius, here we are. Also bare in mind you can read these points collectively, individually or anything in between, since I repeat, these are just for the sake of it and I didn’t give them too much thoughts.

b) Based on point A Victor is the birth name of Moriarty. Something happened to/ with Victor (most likely something very traumatic) causing him to leave. Victor “died” and was reborn as Moriarty.

a) Redbeard is Moriarty, as acknowledged by Eurus when she greets him in TFP.

d) Like point C but Sherlock and Victor didn’t even know Moriarty was part of the school

c) Victor, Sherlock and Moriarty were best buddies in school, Moriarty was jealous for the lack of attention because we all know Victor wasn’t Sherlock’s friend, and killed him, causing Sherlock’s trauma

e) Moriarty had a crush on Victor, Victor died in the fire in the country house mentioned in TFP, Moriarty wants to ���burn Sherlock’s heart” in revenge, therefore “I owe you a fall”

f) Whatever happened to Victor, Sherlock is now traumatised and gets his first overdose, as bonus gift he also gets memory issues.

g) Moriarty is the one getting Sherlock on drugs and therefore causing the overdose

BTW just so you know I believe point F, G and Moriarty killing Victor to be the only actually valid points in this last bunch, the rest is just me throwing ideas like it’s a sticky hand on the wall

K I’m done, bye

[writer-workshop]

WIP Introductions (now with graphics)

Referred to as ‘DAGN’ in tags

Think of if Euphoria met Supernatural wrapped up in a Kill Your Darlings type setting

This doesn’t have a name just yet, but when I get one so will yall 

Set in present times (2020- without any of the present time happenings) 

Synopsis: Bev loved her brother. Right until the day he decided chasing monsters was more important than her and walked out of her life some odd 10 years ago. Now, at 27 Bev attends Institute Auréole D’or where her father, Mr.Mystic, is currently dean, but that hasn’t, and won’t, stop her from living her best life. But now her brother is back and he’s hunting something big. Something that could be the end of him and he wants his little sister help in stopping it. The only problem? She’s told everyone, including herself, that her brother had died. And she doesn’t have much longer to decide if he’s going to stay that way or not. 

Character introductions to come later. 

Progress: Because this is my first time doing both a graphic novel and dabbling in Dark Academia, it’s taken some research to make sure I’m getting this right. With that being said, this is all in the very, very early planning stages. Yet, as I go I’ll keep yall updated as well

Story Type: Graphic Novel

Genre: LGBTQ+, fantasy, supernatural, mystery/thriller

Warnings: graphic (both sexual and gore), mention of drugs, sex, overdosing, hospitalization, mental illness, emotional abuse, trauma (i did mention it was a mix of Euphoria and Supernatural), adult content

Pinterest board: to be created

Apple Music playlist: to be created

Referred to as ‘SSS’ in tags

This actually does not have a time period. I don’t think it’ll have one at all. It also won’t mention any major time plots so like just put whatever time period you want.  

Name is not finalized and probably won’t be for a while

Synopsis: The island of Winterfall, Isle has known peace ever since Alatar Wintergreen found it back in late 1806. Banned from the United States, and really the rest of the world, after the practice of magic was also banned. Now an idyllic little place where the inhabitants practice magic freely. That is until a jealous prince decides he is tired of no being in the spotlight. With a dead general, a court whose loyalties are divided, and a missing king it’s up to Ikiair’s, the king's youngest, to stop the sure destruction of their home. Will he stop his uncle in time to also marry the love of his life and live happily ever after? Or will greed and vengeance lead him to an early grave?

Type: Novella

Character sheets to come later

Progress: There are several chapters written to this but I took another break from this. 

Genre: LGBTQ+ (secondary character), fantasy, romance,  

Warnings: mild sexual content, mental illness (depression), death (heavily mentioned

Pinterest board: https://pin.it/4Ss2Ga6

Apple Music playlist: https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/short-story-series-soundtrack/pl.u-XkD00bRFoZ6XmE

Referred to as ‘Happy Ending’ in tags

Set in the year 2023 

Name is kind of finalized

Synopsis: Welcome to Malacity. The perfect city to raise your family and advance your career. With no (at least to the citizens) crime rate, beneficial city placement, and a town built specifically to meet the needs of its citizens; you won’t find a better town in this US of A. The catch? The government spies on you and does routine “health” checks on all citizens. Also, disobeying rules could mean something worse than death. Enter Jaime who is trying to live her best life. Even if it means fighting feelings for her best friend, going at it with the one person who knows who she actually is, summoning a demon that now doesn’t want to leave, all while taking down a corrupt government and learning the true nature of her parents death. Yeah, so she’s living her best life. Or trying to. At least before the government gets her

Type: Novella

Character sheets to come soon

Progress: I wrote 75% of chapter one but then took a break because I really need to find out where I’m going with this story.

Genre: LGBTQ+, fantasy elements, realistic fiction, dystopia kinda  

Warnings: mention of COVID and it’s after effects, police brutality (implied/maybe mentioned), sexual assault (implied), drugs, adult content, mental illness (depression/anxiety/personality) gore (not heavy)

Pinterest board: https://pin.it/2kbWINS

Apple Music playlist:https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/happy-ending-soundtrack/pl.u-yZyVP2lsDqeb0R

Referred to as ‘Something Like’ in tags

Set in current time (not really 2020, but somewhere between 2018-2021) with no real time mentioned. Also, nothing that’s currently (or have been) going on will be mentioned. (I may make every other chapter flashbacks and if that happens then it’ll also be set during 1990-1999 [ish]). 

Name is finalized

Synopsis: Alisa Matthews has always gone above and beyond for both her school projects and while documenting life. So why should her senior Documentarian project be any different? Cue Dr. Banks, former Aubrey School of the Arts student, turned professor. She’s been taking the school by storm since she stepped onto campus back in 1991. Although a big name on campus, no one has ever gotten a full blown interview about how she actually got a start. This is where Alisa comes in. She wants to talk about Dr. Banks' early years. How love of life and friends and a certain French man changed her perspective on how art should be, how art could be. Yet, Alisa can’t shake that Dr. Banks is hiding something about her early years. Will Dr. Banks warm up to her before the premiere of the documentary? Or will the truth about the passion behind Dr. Banks stay hidden forever? 

Character introductions to come later

Progress: There are about five to six chapters already written, but I’ve taken a break for a while. I’ll be circling back to this one shortly. 

Type of story: novella 

Genre: LGBTQ+, romance, historical fiction, 

Warnings: mention of historical racial abuse, mention of homophobia (implied), secondary character mention of physical/sexual abuse (sexual abuse is implied not described)

Pinterest board: https://pin.it/62uITaN

Apple Music playlist: https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/something-like-a-love-story-soundtrack/pl.u-qxyllZBt8GeNjk

Referred to as ‘My Own Undoing’ in tags

A collection of poems & prose that explores the author’s struggle with religion & relearning to love her body. Broken, much like her faith & her love, into two parts; the collection tells of how her faith is shaken. Shambled. Non-existent. How she is waiting for God to answer questions she didn't need to ask. For ones she shouldn't have asked. Tells of the struggle it's taken to love a body that she abandoned long, long ago. Of the body's silence when she is being asked, no begged, for forgiveness. Of the body's acceptance for all she has put it through. Even if their body doesn't want it. Even if the body knows it's what's best for the both of them. 

Title will remain the same

Type: Poetry

Genre: Non-Fiction, Religion

Warnings: n/a?