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solplease · 5 months ago

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here’s rowan

#num draws #rowan posting #yandere #digital art #male yandere #yandere oc #oc art #oc posting #i saw this really cute pic on pinterest #and i was like yeah okay and then i drew rowan 💀#sorry if its bad #still bad at drawing hands lmao #there were a few similar pictures like the reference i used #…maybe i could draw other characters like this haha #anyway its 2 am im sleepy #going to bed after i post this teehee #if i forget some tags ill add em in the morning

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genekies · 6 months ago

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tag vent

#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas #and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when #we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates #just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night #ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me #ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but #she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening #he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by #people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again #i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends #and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer #than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they #helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that #they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient #im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk #tag vent #vent in tags

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fadeintoyou1993 · 6 months ago

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having to explain to people things like. if i have to go out to do something and run errands i need to have it all mapped out and planned w like. at least a week in advance. and if i go out that day i cannot do anything else because That will be it. if i have multiple commitments that cannot be put on the same day i need one full day in between those commitments so i can rest and be recharged for that next thing otherwise i might have a breakdown in the middle of the street (again) and then That will render me unable to function for like a whole three days. and then people look at me like i choose to live like this?

#txt #audhd tag #just venting a little #its crazy because ppl around me are like I understand your limitations However why dont you-#So you dont understand my limitations?#like okay yeah i understand that it must be Weird for people that are not Inside my brain and hard to understand that i PHYSICALLY CANNOT>#do things that they dont even think about. alright! but to sit and tell me Yeah we get it! but then try to either fix it or >#> come up w a New Incredible Way To Fix Me as if half of what i talk abt w my therapist isnt Exactly This #like yeah i dont fucking like it either. i wish i could do shit like other ppl do. i wish i could remember things.#i wish i didnt feel exhausted all the time i wish simply leaving my bed wasnt the most difficult task every single morning #but it pisses me OFF when people try to talk me through these Limitations i have that They Understand<3 like. can you be accommodating or no #one of my closest friends and oldest friends since i was like 5 had her bday on friday and she ljterally messaged me like #Hi we r having something w my family but theyre rly loud and extremist on the right wing side and i barely wanna be here u dont have 2 come>#> but i wanted to invite u anyway so u dont think ur being left out! and i was like Yayy nice thank u bc lbr i probably wouldnt go anyway.#and she KNOWS that. and she literally was talking to me like she alwahs does and That felt accommodating and understanding and i felt loved #cut to my mom last night trying to make me feel guilty for not going because Shes my friend and i should have gone anyway.#i told her off and she backtracked but thats still innmy head like. that shit is so irritating #okay sorry vent over im just aboht to get my period so this is making me sick #want to yell into the void and forget about it. Hits post

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periipheral · 3 months ago

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hi gay people

#i havent been on here in a while #moved and started college yippee #i like my roommates theyre super cool #the quarter system is also wild #like its week 2 i got midterms #we havent even learned anything yet #i also think im gonna have to take 20-22 units for the next 2 years so thats fun #i really want to get back into sim but i am so exhausted #i miss my sims and my fake online friends #i hope everyone is doing ok #i also got prescribed vyvanse so lets go gamers #40 mg to da dome every day #but it also makes me not want to eat anything which isnt good bc i keep doing all day without eating and then i get a headache at like 5 pm #and am like oooohh #which i hate #but i try to take the med in the morning when i wake up or else i cant get out of bed #i hate the way my brain functions #maybe i can figure out how to fix it #anywhoooo #sorry for the rant i am so very irritable and twitchy i feel like a crack addict #maybe i should stop drinking caffeine #ok bye guys i just wanted to say hi

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prettycottagequeer · 2 months ago

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#ok tag rant time yay #cus i need to process some shit #soooo the big thing is ajdhfnfhdk pretty girl!!! yay!!!!! and first time for that!!!!!!!! we matched on an app last friday #got coffee the next morning then met up again monday night (implied fun things) then in the wednesday morning shit show she came over just #to sit with me and so everything could be ok for a while and i felt the safest I ever have #which is a big deal because last time i had that feeling i was with the guy i like and one of my best friends sleeping on the floor because #little tiny college beds dont fit three people and then they left me on the floor to sleep in one bed together and i cried a lot #then they essentially kicked me out of the polycule and started dating soooo :) yeah #good to replace that with a (absolutely fucking gorgeous) pretty girl holding onto me while the world falls apart #and yeah she's sosososo prettyyyyy she has such nice dark long hair and really pretty eyes and she's literally #6 feet tall (which. ajdhdjfndbsmdjcjfj.) and she's the biggest nerd omg i had a like 2 hour conversation with her and her gf about star trek #its great #we're moving sapphic fast lol which is a lot but im obsessed with her a bit #did i mention shes so pretty? its fr like that one tiktok sound about a hot girl and her little gay boyfriend #oh and she came over again last night and i think im gonna dieeee lol i never realized how much of a physical touch person i am before #i mean i knew i liked it a lot but i just do not want to let go. at all. ever. i miss her #this is what i mean by bisexual so gay for men and women and it happens liek the stereotypes for both #sadly she's already mentioned maybe having to move because of everything and i really don't want that #but i guess we'll try it for as long as we can #overall though yay yay yay!!!!!!!!!!!!

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#love that my body decided to incapacitate me the weekend before i have to read 5 different papers for classes #and it would b one thing to just read them but no for 3 of them i have to give detailed interpretation and 1 i have to present on #ive already failed to read one bc i forgot we had to do 2 papers for monday. oops. not that i could have done it anyway. i barely got 1 done #and im on track to fucking up the one due Tomorrow as well #im just fucking tired of reading fucking chemistry driven papers that i dont understand no matter how many times i read them #and everyones like oh itll get easier but no it fucking wont bc i cant fucking read right #its so fucking frustrating. why do i even bother? im so tried #i don't even have the paper im supposed to present on so ill have to do it all tomorrow. cool. great. not that i could do it today anyway #im just. this is gonna b a difficult week #and i misused my whole day by doing extractions bc i scheduled my training a week ago when i thought i would b fine over the weekend #nope. its fucking bullshit. this is y im like. y do i even want to b in academia?#how could i b a prof if i cant read well? its fine to b dyslexic as a math person but im like i have to read so much and so little gets thru #but then what the fuck else am i supposed to do? idk. im just gonna write down something for all these questions and go tf to sleep #ill get up at some horrible time in the morning to finish this. damn the consequences. ill see my therapist tomorrow anyway #and meet with my advisor like 🤪 yo guess what i made zero progress this week #sorry u got stuck with me while im going thru a year of fucking health problems #but whatever cant get rid of me now im already here. here and tired and i wanna go to bed #unrelated

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labradorite-princess · 8 months ago

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I bitched so much I got what I wanted!

#v true #im so excited #no more leaking roof #it leaks right over my bed #so it drips on my chest and arms while i sleep #and if i don't notice it will get the bed all wet #but my mom finally called the roof ppl #then we have to call the bank for a loan #and i couldnt do that bc the house is not in my name and the loan will not be in my name #i complained to my dad over the phone #and i think my mom has had enough #she doesnt like when my dad gets involved with our house.#bc he doesnt live with us #im so glad she called #its been like 2 years of me complaining #and i keep getting more cracks #you would think shed have called the day after i had to sleep with her bc of the leaking #but she did not #so i complained to my aunt t #who did nothing #im just so excited #ik its gonna raise the bill prices #but i dont care #i wanna sleep in peace #i was woken up again this morning by water dripping on me #and the next two days is suppose to be bad storms #so im going to be real cranky #i straight up told my dad no one cares bc it doesnt affect them #shut up nicki

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aromantyczno-liryczna · 8 months ago

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Pmdd is actively fucking ruining my life fuck fuck this shittt

Why do I have to live with the consequences of things I do when I'm like this and why do i only get one good week a month if I'm lucky

#ive messed up really bad bc now my teacher just thinks im making excuses when i want to explain everything and why its not so easy for me #well i didnt say anything but i said i will send her an email and i left in a hurry so now shes worried abojt what it is im going to say #its related to when i was posting about how i tried to be truthful about the situation but again it was only half #and i dont have an official diagnosis i havent beem abck for a checkup yet fuck this #i left in a hurry and now im in bed i didnt mean to but my default is reaction is flight and i had to get out #this whole day i thought i was going to die the anxiety got so bad i almost cried at lunch arghhhh #tldr i deleted a bunch of work when i got too overwhelmed and just wanted to see it again and now deadline is wednesday #i dont have time for this my exams start in 2 weeks #and i got my period this morning #i need to kill someone why do people not understand the difference between an excuse and an explanation when im literally trying my best to #be honest here #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #pmdd posting #lasar being incoherent

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parkinglothater · 2 years ago

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just me alone in my room against the horrors

#renee rambles in the tags #the worst thing abt bei.g friends with 2 men exclusively is i cant have an enotional breakdown without serious fall out #theyre just not used to dealing with emotions gently #so now its me alone #anxious about the bugs in my bed #zack asleep without saying goodnight #seth lost his mind at me and i told him i went to bed hours ago #i just barely made it into my room #bam cockroach right there by the door #there was one in my jewerly box this morning #and another on my bed this evening #and i just want to go to sleep i literally am so tired #so mentally exhausted from crying all day #but i cant get into my bed i cant #i took all my stuffed animals off of it #and im moving them to my bfs place #bc im so afraid theyre gonna get full of bugs #and then ill judt have bugs forever wherever i go #or be forced to get rid of all my beloved stuffies from the past 20 years #its like im just #so tired of being so anxious in my own home #stfu renee

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labratgirlz · 2 years ago

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half broken japanese by ewy btw if you even care

#i do not like any of their other discography but half broken japanese hits different #alsp hi remember when i said i was going to bed. yeah i fucking lied its 2 in the morning im bored as hell

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ilovedirt · 2 years ago

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#ive been in pain for like 3 or 4 days and its not goin away #actively getting worse actually #i cant move without something in my spine relocating #i just want to home and lay in bed honestly #trying 2 b o k this morning and failing #someone say something nice to me or im going to cry like a baby plz

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tarantula-hawk-wasp · 2 years ago

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devil on my shoulder saying i should just stay up all night bc i got 9 hours of sleep yesterday and thats twice as much as i usually do so that counts for 2 nights

#help its almost 4 and im not tired at all ive had a nightcap and ive been listening to asmr for 2 hours and im like #not ready to sleep ugh my sleep schedule is even more wrecked #its spring break so i dont need to wake up early tomorrow but i want to be PRODUCTIVE and that only happens if i wake up before idk 10 ish #but i need to shower in the morning so i was gonna try to wake up at like 8 but if im not going to bed until 4 that's not gonna #happen so i guess i will set my alarms for 9am and hope for the best but

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cyphyra · 2 years ago

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-to a random tune- a chuuuuunk of plaque broke off one of my teeth n i dunno if that's good or not. im gonna be cautiously optimistic that it's just because ive been taking excellent care of my teeth lately bc i cant fuckin afford a dentist rn~

#cyspeaks #idk what tune this'd be to but i feel like im going insane #can we please go like 2 days without something happening to my own body my house or my dog #idek if ill be able to focus on enjoying TotK once it drops if im gonna be worrying abt losing teeth or w/e else is going on #its one of those days where im just fantasizing abt having a sugar mommy/daddy who will just pay for shit for me cause i just cannot rn #not like any place is willing to hire me or anything either #god. im spiraling so im just gonna go to bed. hopefully ill feel better abt things in the morning #no way to know if its bad rn so no use dwelling on it or w/e

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ventcode · 2 years ago

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currently gathering evidence for the insanity plea.

#im going to bed.#i am NOT about to get more angry and upset at 2 in the fucking morning. no.#i just. need to sleep. instead of being so upset over nnothing!#( no shift. still upset from earlier. pissed over minor things. )#i just need. to sleep. not like anythings. happening.#why now. honestly im going to fucing bash someones skull in atp. god. god god god.#this shouldnt bother me. its time for bed.#im shaky but im tryingnnot to be. i dont wanna be #i dont care

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pardonmystardust · 2 years ago

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I wonder what it would be like to go one day without at least one song fragment stuck in my head

#but usually its 2-4 #last couple of weeks it's been The Way You Look Tonight by ol Frank #peppered in with The Luckiest by Ben Folds #but also Goodnight Moon by Go Radio hasnt left my head for 8 years #and its been about 6 for Broadripple is Burning #my brain be like: some day when im awfully low...#*30 seconds pass*#I... dont get... many things right the first time #*pause*#and don't go to bed yet love i think its too early #*beat*#well children broadripple...#cause ive been trying way too long to try and be the perfect song #yes you're lovely....#if my wall clock tells me that it's four in the morning I'll give it hell #I KNOW #WHERE YOU STAND #....and like it doesnt stop its just this background noise CONSTANTLY #i love it usually but god its A Lot

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wisconsindean · 2 days ago

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do not look at this i’m just gonna be throwing a fit in the tags and i need to feel like its going somewhere

#look. i love my roommate. p much my best friend. i am also this close to fucking killing them dead #the way they live. stresses me out #like i work 40 hours a week. 4 10 hour days. in the medical field #she works like… 16 hours a week. 4 4 hour days. basically babysitting #doing crafts and watching children in an after school program #so tell me why the fuck i’m doing like 95% of the work around the apartment #and shes stressing me out rn in particular cause the hours she works are like. 2-6 pm #and when i’m off work i dont see her wake up/come out of her room until like 1 #but the thing is. is that instead of doing things she needs to do before going to work #shes decided to do her laundry after she gets home #so its 10pm and im trying to go to bed so i can go to work in the morning #but im just listening to the fucking washing machine which is on the other side of the wall from my head :)#bestie :) do you have thoughts :) in your head :) ever #and she barely does her dishes she never takes out the trash #she leaves food in the fridge and pantry for way too long and instead of eating stuff she has she just buys more stuff #shes so messy her shit is everywhere and shes like boarderline a hoarder actually #girl you have enough stuff. its time to stop i think #she does not think before she buys anything #she loves vintage/antique things #and she basically just sees something and goes ‘i like that’ and buys it #without thinking if she actually needs it or is gonna use it #i swear 90% of the time shes forgotten that she bought anything by the next day #its just abandoned somewhere among her stuff #im like girl. im begging you to try and get a normal sleep schedule so you can be up and doing adult things during the day #bc i pay for half this apartment and im about to bite you #and she doesnt seem to understand why i want to sleep at night #it like. confuses her #she tries to get me to watch like three movies in a row with her after work and when im like okay i need to go to bed she actually like #pouts at me #and ik from experience if i dont sleep enough i get really mean and dysfunctional. so

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