#its such a good way to spend time together while still being your own individual person.

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Moments in bed with Levi are often filled with cuddles, kisses, and everything else. There are moments when the two of you are solely together. They're filled with laughter and love, everything either of you could ever want. They're moments of unity, of affection, of an evergrowing relationship. Moments like those are special.

Just as special are the other times spend in bed with Levi. The times where both of you are doing your own thing, simply next to one another. You are scrolling on your phone, and he is playing a game. Even though you both are doing something entirely different, the connection is there.

The way his head is leaned against your shoulder. The way your legs are somewhat entwined. The soft noises coming from either of your current interest. They create a comfortable atmosphere. A place where nothing is nor has to be said. A place to simply relish eachothers being.

These quiet moments create times where just being together is fulfilling enough. Being in proximity of eachother is what makes them good. You could do the same thing in your own space, away from everyone. But both of you chose the other. Both of you prefer being together over everything else. Even if it's for nothing special. Especially if its for nothing special.

[cosmos-coma]

Hi i was wondering if you can do a Bucky fluffy angst (modern/college au if possible) where basically him and reader are friends through steve and both have a crush on each other but don't do anything about it considering bucky is sort of a playboy and thinks reader is way out of his league and reader is sort of shy and quiet and thinks bucky is way out of here league but get together in the end

College Crushes

A/N: WOW, I'm so sorry, This has been in my inbox for like 2 months and I just didn't realize???? sorry!! So I tried to write this one out as quick as I could!

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Words: 3011

Warnings: Little editing, Awkward goobers

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“Y/n, did you hear what I said at all?” Your blond friend asked a small snort of laughter hidden in his voice. 

“Hmm,” you hummed, in something akin to agreement as you lifted your mug to take a sip. 

Steve smiled, but gave you a knowing look, even if you were too distracted to receive it. He knew your painting was due at the end of this week, hence why you had been spending so much time in the studio after class hours, getting lost in the smell of acrylic and the smallest brushstrokes.

“I said: ‘You know you’re drinking paint water, right…?’” He said, barely holding back his snicker.

“Uh huh…” You mumbled, “Yeah, I totally hear what you're saying….” you continued, taking a large sip from your mug, to which your face immediately soured, and quickly spit out the paint-clouded water back into your mug. “Oh, gross! Steve!!” you complained and wiped the dribble from your face, almost undoubtedly replacing it with yet another smear of paint.

Steve was fully laughing now, shaking his head at your accidental antics, “I tried to warn you…” 

You punched his shoulder lightly, delving into your own laughter as you reached for your actual drinking mug now, “Don't laugh at me…. Punk.” you grinned and took a much-needed sip from your new mug. Steve always had a good way of putting your shyness at ease. 

He only grinned and brushed off your ‘devastating assault’, “I really do think you’re just about done… I know you still think you have a lot left, but I’d hate to see you overwork something like this.” Steve nudges you, and he would know. The two of you met not long into your freshman year, the both of you being art majors and all. While Steve tended to focus on graphite and charcoal as his medium, you had your heart covered in paint splatters from the very start. Whether oil or acrylics you found your home smoothing them across a canvas even if they didn’t always end up how you liked. 

You were thankful to have Steve, not only for his friendship which brought you out of your shell,  but also for his artistic eye; Because of your difference in mediums, Steve was always one of the first to be able to tell you if you were beginning to lose your themes by doing too much and vice versa. 

You sighed and leaned back from your painting, looking over the piece as a whole instead of its individual parts, “You’re probably right…” You scratched some of the old paint off your hand and tilted your head to the side as you continued thoughtfully, “and I can always add to it after it's graded…. Okay, you’re right… You’re right!” you held up your hands in surrender as you started packing your things away. You knew a break was for the best, and your rumbling stomach firmly agreed. 

Steve snorted and stood up with his things, “Come on, let’s get lunch before our classes start. I’m buying.”

“Well, I’ll never say no to that,” you grinned and headed out as you finished packing up the last of your things.  

You smiled as you two walked down the busy sidewalk and out of campus toward your favorite lunch spot. You finally spoke up, “Sooo, What’s the catch here?”

“No catch,” Steve smiled at you simply, “I’m just trying to be a friend worth their salt, you know?”

Steve was always a great friend, but today he was being awfully nice… maybe even too nice? As you glanced over you could see the smallest glint in the corner of his eyes. “I dunno…. “ you drawled out as you bumped him, “buying me lunch at my favorite spot when it's already so far out of our way..? Seems suspicious to me,” you observed casually with a quick shrug. 

For a moment his perfect smile faltered and his far-too-honest and good-hearted nature got the best of him, “So… I know you’re not really a party person…”

“Steve…” You groaned.

He held his hands up, “But hear me out! It won't be too loud, and there���ll be plenty of people there…. Chances are you won't have to talk to anyone if you don't really want to, but I thought it would be a nice way to get out on a Saturday night…” Steve tried to argue. 

Pursing your lips you gave him a long look, searching him for something else, “Why do you really want me to go, Steve?” 

The blond man sighed as if he really thought he might’ve had you that time, “Bucky is gonna be there….”

You shook your head so quickly you thought you’d get whiplash, “Nope. No. I’m not doing it. Sorry Steve, I can’t. I think I would actually rather drink the paint water again.”

Bucky had been, hm- how do you put this lightly? From your very first meeting, Bucky had consumed your thoughts and shaken your heart. Steve had introduced the two of you a while back now, wanting the two of his closest friends to finally get to know each other. But once you two finally met you just clammed up. You didn't even mean to! But you saw those unbelievably blue eyes and you heard his full-bodied laugh and you haven’t caught your breath since. But of course, you weren't the only one who felt this way, and you'd be silly to think so. Everyone wanted a piece of Bucky, whether for just a night, a week, or something longer and you knew you had nothing on your competition. You were far too quiet, you always had paint somewhere on your face, and you were anything but a party person. You preferred to spend your evening in with whatever takeout you could afford that week- and maybe a small game night if you were feeling especially social. But You were leagues away from what Bucky deserved, let alone from the people he’d picked and chosen from before. Yet Steve still seemed relentless in his will to bring you two together since you’d confided your feelings in him. 

He sighed and plucked out his wallet to pay for your food, “Y/n, please? I know you’re a little nervous when it comes to Buck, but there’ll be plenty of other people around to buffer and It's been a long time since we’ve all been together…” he said, looking over at you.

God, you shouldn’t have looked at those big blue golden retriever eyes…. And following a moment of hesitation, you nodded, “I… I guess I can- yeah, okay, I’ll go… just for 20 minutes,” you finally caved with a sigh, thinking only, “What am I getting myself into?”

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Taking a deep breath you stared at the house before you. The party wasn’t crazy or overflowing yet, but there was still a handful of people outside already trying to get a break from the noise and crowd. 

“Just 20 minutes?” Steve asked beside you, his well-meaning smile giving you an iota of comfort.

You nodded, giving him a small reassuring smile and a thumbs up. You smoothed out your sweater beneath your hands, it was your favorite one- comfortable, didn't have any smudges on it, and you thought the color looked rather nice on you. It was just 20 minutes. You could go in and awkwardly talk about something for 20 minutes, right? And if not- Well, there’s always punch.

With a short breath of confidence, you headed through the doors. A small sea of people spread out about as far as you could see, with little gaps here and there for people to sneak through or join in the already existing conversations. You bobbed your head gently along with the music, searching the crowds as you made your way through the dimly lit rooms.

It was an achingly slow start to 20 minutes, most of your time being spent sipping punch while Steve talked to anybody and everybody as if he was personally running for mayor. So you stood quietly, nodding and smiling when people laughed and making expressions that seemed to match the conversation as you looked around for anyone you knew. The whole buzz of endless conversation seemed to get monotonous and verge on overwhelming as you listened in, until a particular laugh rang out, one that was hearty and familiar and made your heart rattle in its wake. 

You turned to confirm your suspicions and lo and behold there he was. Across the room, through the sea of people, you could see Bucky standing there like a lighthouse promising safe harbor.   His blue eyes squinted with laughter as he flashed the whitest smile and made some retort you hate that you couldn’t hear. Just the sight of him made your whole body heat up pleasantly, your lips splitting into a wide smile as your eyes just refused to leave him. 

It was only when he happened to glance over that you realized you were still staring, but he didn’t seem bothered. No, he simply grinned and raised his hand above the crowd to get your attention, urging you to stay where you were while he made his way over. 

Only his path got intercepted. 

A bright, bubbly girl maneuvered up beside him with no problem from the crowd, her arms wrapping around his bicep as she pulled him in possessively close. If that didn’t make your stomach turn enough, the kiss she planted right on his cheek surely did. 

You couldn’t even think enough hide the way your face fell, your whole posture deflating beneath you as your stomach dropped to the floor. “Hey, Steve…?” your voice squeaked out, your throat closed like a vice as you couldn’t pull your eyes away. “I’m gonna walk home, okay? I’ll see you later, I just- I need to go…” You managed to get out, not waiting around to hear out whatever argument he had to urge you to stay. 

“Y/n? Y/n, wait-” The blond urged as he looked around, immediately spotting Bucky and the unfamiliar girl he was trying to shake off, “Wait- It’s dark out, don’t walk alone!” Steve called back to you, but his only answer was the click of the closing door over the murmurs of the crowd. He went to say his briefest goodbyes and run after you when he felt a familiar hand on his shoulder. “Buck?” 

“I’ll go after her,” Bucky assured him, his face worried and serious as you ran off into the night by yourself, “You stay here, I’ll walk her home.” he finished before quickly making his own way out the front door and down the dark street. 

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You huffed an angry sigh and shoved your hands deep into your all-too-shallow pockets. “Why am I even upset?” you thought to yourself with a biting tone, “you’re the one who's out of his league! You’ve said so yourself! Shouldn’t you just be happy he has someone that will be better for him…?”

“I hate parties…” you mumbled as you passed beneath the streetlight, pulling your foot back to kick the small rock resting on the sidewalk. “Aaaand of course I missed…. ” you think bitterly as your foot whiffs right past the rock, not even a bit of movement to prove your effort. 

“Hey…” A low familiar voice sounded out behind you, its owner coming closer as they jogged up to your side “What did that rock ever do to you?” Bucky grinned at you, half joking as he fell into step beside you. 

“Bucky…?” you breathed, your mood already lightening at the mere presence of it, but you quickly tamped it down, “Oh, right well… The rock…uh, tried to mug me” you half-heartedly joked, “ Really put me between a rock and a hard place, if you know what I mean. But don't worry, I beat it off.” You said with an awkward laugh, internally kicking yourself for such a bad joke and with a pun to top it off at that. 

But Bucky still snorted a laugh, his thumb jabbing back in the rock's direction as you both continued on, “You want me to go back there and kick it for you?” 

You grinned and shook your head, “No, No, that's okay… I think it's learned its lesson…”

You two walked in comfortable silence for a moment, a small smile resting on your face, but inside your heart still weighed heavy upon you. 

“Why did you leave...?” Bucky finally asked and for a moment you swore you heard something akin to hurt in his voice, “I had finally gotten a chance to see you again.” he said, quickly adding, “I just mean… it’s been a while since you, me, and Steve got to hang out. I, ah… guess I’ve sort of missed it with everything going on…”

You tried to ignore the way your heart squeezed in your chest and looked down at your wringing hands as you answered, “I just… It was getting too much for me,” you lied, thinking back to the confident kiss that girl planted on his cheek, “and I didn’t want to distract you from your time with… other people.”

Bucky furrowed his brow as he listened and stepped in closer to you as you hit a dark stretch of broken streetlamps. He was so close now, you could smell the faint scent of cologne coming up from his jacket. Your hands, both chilled by the late fall air, brushed together as you walked in time, though neither of you were brave enough to reach to the other. 

“You mean that girl from before?” He motioned back to the now-distant party as he spoke, “I’m not even sure who that was.” He laughed a bit, “she said her friends dared her to kiss me, but I’m not sure….” 

The weight of your heart eased significantly as you took in a quiet breath of relief, “that seems… huh…” you said as you frowned and rounded the corner, you could see the porchlight your house now and the keys jingled around your pocket as you tried to fish out the right one. 

“I agree…” Bucky said, letting out an exaggerated shudder. Despite the lights now populating your last few steps home Bucky’s protective presence did not waver, his shoulders brushing against yours now and again as you stepped up onto the porch and took out your keys.

Despite fumbling with them you finally manage to open the front door and take half a step inside, “Thank you for walking me home, Buck,” you smiled, “and threatening to beat up a rock for me...” 

That pearly white grin nearly blinded you despite the dark of night, “Of course, I’m always happy to rough up a pebble for you- but uh, I might draw the line at boulders, just so you know.” 

You bit your lip as you chucked, feeling butterflies bounce around your stomach uncontrollably, “Noted…. I should probably let you go before Steve does something stupid and heroic… But I’ll see you soon?” you proposed as you leaned into the doorframe, “Goodnight, Buck…”

He couldn't restrain the grin that parted his lips at the prospect of seeing you again so soon, and seemed to stumble over himself as he backed down the short staircase, “Right… right, I should- Goodnight, y/n…” His grin never left as he finally turned to leave…

… But something stopped him at the bottom of the stairs, “Wait-” He interjected into the silence. His lips tightened as he seemed to fight with himself for a moment, before finally turning back to you with a look of nervous determination in his eyes.

“Y/n, I…” his words paused as he searched for the next ones, his whole demeanor had shifted, not quite the suave confident soul you had always seen, but an endearingly awkward version of him. “I don't know if I’ll ever have the guts to say this again, but I- Y/n, I really like you…” Bright blue eyes met yours as you continued. 

“You’re thoughtful and genuine, and you always have paint on your face- even now-” He laughed softly, pointing to his ear.

“Oh, Shit-” you mumbled, rubbing it off quickly. 

“But it’s what I love about you. You do what you love and you pour yourself into it every time. And even though you’re quiet, when you do speak your words say volumes. You're funny, and kind, and just… so far beyond me that I know I don’t have a chance, but I just had to try why I still had the nerve.” He rushed to finish, ending with a deep breath as he urged himself to wait for your answer. 

Your face burned with the full heat of the sun as you tried to take in Bucky's words, He thought you were out of his league????

“You… I…. “ You had to laugh, your heart so unbelievably light as it all really hit you- he liked you!  You! 

“Bucky, are you serious..? I’ve had a crush on you from the moment I met you. You smiled and laughed and I haven’t been the same ever since.” You rubbed your blushing cheeks, trying to will away the embarrassing hue as you continued, softer, “But you could have anyone- there’s always people falling at your feet, I just figured I could never compete with the likes of them…” 

Wait, you liked him too? You said you liked him too?? With newfound confidence Bucky took another step forward, his fingers reaching out to you in invitation, which you gladly accepted. “You’re right… You could never compete with them,” he started, “ It simply wouldn’t be fair to make them compete in something they could never dream of winning.”

Your cheeks hurt from the sheer force of your smile and as you looked down at your linked fingers you swore your heart would fly away. 

“Um… Bucky, can I-”

“Please” He rushed, his own grin spanning from ear to ear as he leaned in for a kiss.

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hihii!

this is my first request ever, but I really love the way you write abt fyodor! I would love to request more of fyodor as a high school lover, not necessarily w a selective mute reader, just high school fluff!!

I hope you do well on your exams, good luck, and take care! ♡

hello anon! i’m flattered to be the blog you first request :0 thank you so much for liking how i write him, it makes me happy to hear it ^_^! i’m so sorry this one took a while, but thank you for requesting ♡

my only love Fyodor D. x reader

involves -- high school au. for more click here, here & here

headcanons

His dedication to studying makes you a little jealous

But who even admits that sort of thing? It's embarrassing, and it makes you seem selfish. Not to Fyodor though. Since he's a really smart guy, he can also read your emotions. Whenever he just sees you sulking as you sit beside him — head turned away from him on his desk rather than nagging him to stop studying since you two were supposed to hang out right now in his home, he'd find it so adorable.

“Is it the door you're pretending to look at or are you just sulking?” Fyodor questions you suddenly, earning you to turn your head around and up to stop being so lazily pressed on your arm.

“Huh? I- I was just zoning out.” You mutter with pink painting your cheeks, him laughing at the sight. “You can't be jealous over paper, are you?” He asks.

“Say that again and I'll hug you tight!”

— But instead of being quiet, your lover usually takes the dares you spew out every time the conversation follows that path. With your pride do you end up sitting on him, but it does end well as Fyodor doesn't mind your warmth surrounding him. You had your arms around his back with your head resting on his shoulder, Fyodor a little closer to the table now so the gap you might leave was gone; allowing you to sit properly, and feel safer too. Silence mostly happens after these jokes, but it was a comforting one with each other in ones embrace. So maybe your 'jealousy to paper' can be a good thing sometimes.

Studying together in tea shops

first, Fyodor was a little hesitant to your idea. Not that he doesn't want to spend time with you — in fact he'd spend hours with you on the weekends if you simply said please, but he found the idea of a tea shop study date... unideal. Why was this? For a man so intelligent for his hard-work, the reason was simple.

“No, milaya. If that was right, then this part of the solution would be unnecessary.” Fyodor whispers with his head still turned to you. He couldn't meet your eyes however, all focused on the paper you had just written on.

“Oh. I see.. so I have to reconsider this part with the base of that section?” You ask, almost nudging your own beverage as you reach out for the eraser. Strands of your hair would fall on your pretty face as your fingers tighten its grip on your pen, the light illuminating from the window in front of you two accentuating your features.

“...Mhm.” Was all he could say.

You were just so distracting, it makes even the most focused of individuals focus on you instead. Exhibit A, your lover himself.

Questions can still be a remedy for overthinking, you know?

There can be times where you'd feel a little overwhelmed in school. Face it — you downgrade your smarts more than you'd like to believe in them. And while it's good not to be so cocky, it's also good to believe in yourself. Yet you sometimes fail in doing that. But it's okay, since you have your loving boyfriend to help you in his own way.

“That's an easy question!” You giggle out with a smile, all sitting down on Fyodor's lap as he sat on your couch, eyes on you. “The answer is simply no, because a vertical line rises up, not sideways like it claims.”

“...That is correct.” Fyodor chuckles out, pressing a kiss on your cheek. “The statement would be invalid then. Good job, (Name).”

He asks you easy, simple questions. Of course, not 1 + 1 or 2 +2, but rather scenarios or situations that require your overthinking brain to focus on thinking upon the factors given so you can instead itch out answers that were right. They weren't hard, yet by the end of the day do they make you feel a lot more smarter. Because you already were, and he was just making you remember that with questions he knew you'd know.

Borrowed clothing in school

Cardigans are a common thing in schools. Every gender can wear one, for not only does it look cute — it also warms up a student if they feel cold. And who else do we know who hates feeling cold? Your lover. But he's not one for bringing a cardigan to school, surprisingly.

“Fedya, I already told you to bring one.” You sigh out, frowning a little as you see him simply wearing your schools uniform. “It's going to get colder nowadays, do you not own one?”

“I do, but it is unnecessary in my opinion.” He replies, closing his textbook on his desk. “I assure you I'm alright, milaya- ..?”

But you don't believe them so easily. You end up wrapping your own cardigans around Fyodor each circumstance where he doesn't bring one during windy atmospheres and you've started to wonder if he's doing this on purpose. He barely returns your cardigans, only doing so when you ask for it. But maybe he also likes borrowing your clothing... so sometimes you don't mention it. The thought of him washing your clothes kept you awake and blushing at night too.

“I need your attention right now. Let me indulge.”

Neither of you always get to hang out at the others home, so it feels a little lacking majority of the time. Sure weekends were there, but you both also had things to sort out yourselves. So whenever you two do hang out are times you both need to savor a lot. Well, unless he breaks one rule or two. Namely in school.

“Mm? But isn't a program about to start at the gym?” You mumble quietly as students were already making their way to said area, your lover watching the walking people with the corner of his eye as he kept you hidden, pinning you against a wall that was near the rooftop staircase.

“You're right.” He whispers only when nobody was near, looking back at you. He leans in to suddenly start pressing hurried, almost needy kisses on your cheeks, making you melt a little and hold onto him. “F-Fedya, you're gonna end up missing the program...”

“It doesn't bother me. Move away if you don't like this.”

Which is his own translation of asking for your affection. Even if the situation was risky. But would you deny it either?

Your discreet, comforting fan

Sometimes, presenting in class — or even in front of the whole school can feel really scary for you. You knew that if it was done it'd be away from your problems, but you still find yourself shaking and probably even crying from the thought of speaking in front of so many people. Whenever you end up crying after just succeeding in your own part however, there's only one student in the crowd who will bring you somewhere else and make you feel better.

“You did so well,” He whispers in your ear as he continues to press soft kisses on your skin, trying to soothe you down with his words and touch. “I'm very proud of you, milaya. It's okay now.”

“I'm sorry..” You stifle out as you rub one of your eyes, Fyodor momentarily pausing to look down at you with his hand on your cheek. “You're going to miss the other reporters... just because of me.”

“And why does that matter? When it comes to a crowd, I'm only a fan to you and will treat you as my priority.”

And he always manages to fix that teary look in your eyes. Just give him a quiet, secluded place in the school for you and he'll pamper you with what he can.

⚘

p.s to the lovely anon who requested this (or you, too!), i actually made a fic about highschool fyodor x reader, but i did not use that because you just asked for fluff, meanwhile that fic had a whole plot. >_< if you want to read it, you can check it out on my profile or simply click here!

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So I remember you saying that you're a fir tree branch (correct me if I'm wrong on the tree species, my memory isn't the best). Would you mind telling me how that feels like? Do you retain some individuality as part of a larger tree? Would you consider the other branches to be family, close friends, you/a part of you or something else? I am also really fascinated by the panpsychistic implications of you being a tree branch: Not only is everything sentient, but every single part of everything is sentient, a neverending fractal of consciousness. I really like fractals

I am always grateful for people with genuine interest and open for dissection and ofcourse I’ll tell you about my experience!! Thank you for the questions!! Although I do understand how strange it may seem to some haha.

there’s a very familiar sense of home from the entire tree, similar to how a child may have a pull towards older people both in a paternal sense of like an older brother - that overwhelming sense of it being beyond your understanding but also a knowledgable responsibility of being beside them, that although they may not give you their attention, their presence is overly comforting and strangely intimate even if it may not much of a choice - either you’re all lost or have a belonging, and wherever that is, then it’ll be home. There isn’t a “tree vs me” it’s more so that everyone acts as apart of a whole, without one, the place will ofcourse remain empty, but there won’t be much suffering. For some to bloom is no different than a person putting on jewlery or decorating their house. Just like some needles overlap with others, it’s like a gentle reminder of comfort. the main point of awareness must be the way the breeze affects you differently, that the rain and snow are the primary causes of any difference in the peaceful life of sun, wind, and the everything of nothing. The environment is the most beautiful of embrace and a branch is so sensitive to that life with its little size in relation to all else around, but even then, holding such a beautiful importance! So important, so deep, and beloved.. but the biggest delight is to lovingly cherish, grow and spend energy and time into cultivating some berry or pine cone, and to share the gifts with the critters of the forest is beyond what any reasonable human explanation can transfer. To possibly have all your focus turn into a little treat for some creature also on a journey of their own is so much a pleasure!

Plus life doesn’t end with being broken off a tree or drying up/burning, although it mostly is gone there, but for some time after that source is shattered, there’s still a slow process of healing within the destruction, and to have someone or something carry you a little while longer, see the world beyond where life has been in so far, is well alright, and a good way to say goodbye to life. The bark and leaves turn to rot and decompose to fuel the other organisms around, from grass to shrubs and bushes to fellow trees. How beautiful!

other branches are more so distant family, some more friends and distant relatives, and some more work together but more or so it’s all from the main trunk, where all nutrients stem from, and it’s apart of one bigger thing.

Beautiful beautiful !!

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hii its amorette—can i just say i freaked out when i saw capillaries updated?? i loved the latest chapter so so much!!

i love how you characterize dottore and wanted to ask if you have any tips on how you write him / things you keep in mind while writing him, since your fic really inspired me to try writing my own! i hope you have a nice day :DD

Hi Amorette!!! Glad you liked it!

I saw this right as my first break at work ended and suffice to say, it’s been on my mind all day. You’ve opened a Pandora’s box, you’re getting a whole character analysis, because Dottore is actually a royal pain to write about so I have to REALLY study this bastard. The first half is going to be just purely on his canon traits, and the rest are my interpretations and headcanons.

So canonically, Dottore is very prideful and driven by the pursuit of knowledge. No subject is off limits to him, and he doesn’t care about how ethical or moral his research is. Whatever he needs to do, he’ll do it, the ends justify the means. He’s been obsessed with surpassing the gods since he was young, which is why he was ostracized by society. Sohreh’s notes describe him as initially “frigid,” but then she goes on to say she had a good time working with him and is looking forward to spending more time with him (Rip Sohreh). He created segments of himself from different ages as a way to surpass the limits of human cognition, and because they could offer their own individual contributions to his research. Omega is described as more selfish since he was the one to nuke the other segments for the gnosis, and Webttore/Beta is more manic and prone to mood swings. Also, none of the segments like each other.

That’s all the canon stuff. With that alone, you already have a pretty solid start for how to write him. He’s a man who views himself above the people who rejected him and wants to surpass the gods that ignored him. He doesn’t really care about keeping company and he barely gets along with himself. He’ll do anything in the pursuit of knowledge and doesn’t care if someone has to die for him to get it done. If Sohreh’s notes are anything to go by, he may have been antisocial but not completely opposed to finding connection, but that’s up to how you personally interpret her notes and subsequent death. He’s very calculating, and though he does resent the gods, he’s at least mature enough to hold it together for a conversation.

Now, onto my personal take on Dottore, which I’ve sprinkled through the fic already but it won’t hurt to share here :3

So the one key thing I have latched onto personally is his name. Zandik. By this point we all know it means “heretic” but really think about that for a second. That is the name of a man who was born in a world where gods are not only real, but they actually interact with the populace. Maybe it was because my bestie got me into Ethel Cain, but I started thinking about the implications/potential of religious trauma. What sort of homelife would a kid have when his own parents named him heretic when god is actually real? Certainly not a very pleasant life. Of course at some point he’d develop a hatred of gods when he’s been seen as a blasphemous monster since he was born. Of course he’d despise society as a whole, they’ve despised him from the start. This isn’t something he asked for, but it’s all he has. He did no wrong and yet all the world hated him for being born, what did they expect him to turn into?

As a result, my personal interpretation of Dottore is that he is still that prideful, cold and calculating scientist that hates the gods and isn’t afraid to do awful things to prove it, but he is also, deep down, motivated by validation. At the very least, that’s how this all started. At this point he’s become more callous, but there’s a part of him that wants to be appreciated, genuinely, by someone or something. This would have been especially prevalent in his younger self/segments, because he’s not as “mature” as he is now. If you cut through the 400 years of his callous cruel ways, you might find a little boy full of pain and anger asking what he did to deserve all of this. 

… TLDR: He’s very smart, very callous, thinks very highly of himself, and I write him as one of those “they treated me like the villain so I became the villain they feared most” characters with a splash or religious trauma for flavour.

If you want to, you're more than welcome to use some of my characterization if you ever write about him! Honestly, for as big a pain in the ass he is to write, he's really interesting to explore as a character! It's actually why my favourite chapters/moments so far are the backstory ones, or whenever he's reflecting on his relationship with widow. He's a bastard and I love him.

[purple-plum-petals]

Hello! Please forgive me. If its alright with you, can I get a romantic fnaf security breach matchup? I want to change some matchup details

My pronouns are she/her and I am an introvert. I am straight and prefer guys but if that doesn't count than you can ignore. I don't really like revealing much about myself so you can say that I'm shy and mysterious. My hobbies include dancing (especially ballet and sometimes kpop) and video games like Street Fighter and Mobile Legends. My talent is fitting into kids clothes because of slender my body is. I am a little pale and I get cold very easily, and I guess a little fragile (my bones pop often). My expression tends to look very distant and sad. I cannot emphasize enough how much I want to look like a Ball Jointed Doll, so I try to get as many sweet lolita dresses as possible. I love candy (especially strawberry flavoured ones), but I love tea and coffee more. I also like wearing (and buying) anything pink. I don't like heavy or gourmet meals (or food in general). If I were to be an animatronic, I'd be a cat.

Thank you so much! Feel free to ignore this!

Thank you for sending in a match-up; I think that either Sun or Glamrock Freddy would be good matches for you! I also incorporated the love languages you had mentioned in one of the other asks you had sent me.

Sun is nearly the complete opposite of you personality-wise, but I think that could be something that could benefit both of you in different ways; he could help brighten up your day while your more reserved nature reminds Sun to hold back a little when it comes to his own outgoing (and occasionally overwhelming) personality. Sun loves seeing you smile, so he'd do whatever he can to turn your usual resting frown upside down. Sun also enjoys dancing much like you do, and he would love to watch you dance or even dance with you if you were alright with that! He may look scrawny, but he's actually very strong and could lift you up into the air with no problem. Sun also tends to run on the hotter side so, if you ever needed to warm yourself up, he'd be happy to be your personal heater. I feel like Sun would adore your sense of style as well, always excited to see what cutesy and frilly outfit you put together; he'd be your #1 cheerleader and would be sure to hype you up whenever he had the chance! You and Sun also have very similar love languages (physical touch, words of affirmation, and gift-giving), so you'd both be able to express and receive what you need out of the relationship easily.

Freddy is a very understanding and caring individual who will always be there if you want to talk or need any kind of support; this animatronic is the king of affirmation. While not being very light on his feet (or paws, in this case), Freddy would still want to dance with you if you ever wanted to show him first-hand your love of dance; when not dancing with you, though, he'd be happy to play some music for you and simply watch you from the sidelines. Despite not being that great when it comes to video games, he'd be happy just being able to spend time with you playing the games you like while you most likely completely destroy him in Street Fighter; he's a great loser, though, and always makes sure to compliment you on your amazing wins. Freddy would also keep a stash of candy on his person at all times just in case you got a sudden craving for sweet treats, always making sure he's stocked up with strawberry-flavored candies as they’re your favorite. Freddy also makes sure to compliment your outfits every time he sees you, almost in awe of your style; he doesn't have the opportunity to change much about his appearance, so he loves seeing what outfits you manage to put together whenever he sees you.

[system-of-a-feather]

how did you do the wooma art study? whats ur sketch process? im trying to learn how to do art studies next year and urs was rlly rlly rlly good so i wanna know ur process...

*slams through* DID SOMEONE SAY WOOMA ART?!

Ok ok tho like I literally haven't been near the front for like a month or so cause our systems been working on other things and me and the trauma parts related to our trauma tend to 'pause' when were not being actively set off or when we don't have mental capacity to deal with our Stuff but I like popped up like an excited little mole rat cause y e s (and this is not a problem or me being mad, very thankful if anything cause this shit is one of my few dopamine topics and i usually only front for negative shit so WIN)

But thank you on the compliment ^^ I'm the Wooma kiddo in the system cause Wooma's art gives me dopamine and comfort and I just really like it so it means a lot that you liked it.

Our system parts that do art actually have very different processes, but the only parts that do proper studies are Riku and I and even in that we have different approaches so they'll probably reblog and add on their process as well BUT AS FOR ME

A lot of art studies (the Wooma one included) starts with a lot of just looking at the art and multiple examples of it to find some tendencies and similarities. You can do this physically by like drawing notes over some of the art that they've done or just mentally take notes as you look through it. A really good thing Riku and I would talk about when they were helping me figure it out when I doubted art as a hobby was that its really important while doing this to make take note on the things you ESPECIALLY like and find really cool about it because those notes should be mentally starred as inspiration for how you might like to modify your own personal art style

But like a good place to start is to google the style you like or look through their media / portfolio and just spend a good time browsing it and interacting with the source art itself and try to pick apart the question of "How do they do this" which we tend to look at line thickness / quality / brush type, proportions, major shapes and how they represent things (eyes, noses, facial expressions and the individual ratios of them), etc.

I usually don't actually draw over / draw notes directly over since I just like to browse and take mental notes and reference as I go but for the point of this ask Ill do a bit of an example pulled from Wooma's Instagram (I got lazy since I don't usually actually physically do much of this type of studying and got bored)

So

Collect a number of references, I just pulled from instagram thumbnails; then pull out thing that seem unique / stand out to the style to look more closely at

2) Lower the opacity and try to draw over the general base structural shapes and take notes on how things work together and the "steps" done to draw the basic structures

3) Doing the above gives you a general idea on the "rules" that are principle to under lying a style. Cool thing is to then make the layer below invisible so all you have are your notes and you have some general good guide lines to reference for later

Then after you did that you can try to do an emulation / try to do and study a specific one you like so like I did a few but one I think I still remember the specific image I studied from was this one [link]

Which became this one

And from here you just kinda plug the art that you are directly trying to emulate and breakdown free hand to the side / corner to regularly look at and reference how the original artist handled doing one thing and decide how you want to apply that to your own

Follow the notes and "rules" you found below and do it as well

Another note I like to add though is that you should never be afraid to go "I like that but I prefer to do it this way / apply my usual style" cause Wooma tends to use a more pencily thin solid / cleaner line but I just like the brush I used, I like the sketchy messiness and I also like coloring in the way i did which is not Wooma style, but just how I like to do things. The eyes are inspired and studied from wooma particular in size and general shape, but I prefered the more fluid and less clearly parallelogram shape and did that as well + my way of handling hair is not studied off of Wooma but rather inspired by the over exaggerated angular style / expressiveness of Wooma's overall art

They actually tend to do hair a lot more in a - for lack of better words - normal anime style but I was like noooo i like the angularness and "dramatized stylized" proportions and shapes so I was like ok im applying that to the hair even if you dont

Like I really like Wooma's art cause of how expressive it is due to how it breaks a lot of typical proportion rules and uses very sharp and dramatic shapes as a foundation sooo

Oh and regarding sketching, I don't sketch I just immediately draw and start with the foundation shapes and just add it directly over. I might erase a few lines that go over but I dont really have a sketching layer. Sketching would be a thing Riku or rather XIV would probably know how to explain better cause I just don't.

But ANYwAyS we have a movie to watch with fam and all soooooooo Ill have to give up the front but THANK you for the prompt to GO OFF cause it was nice to be back after a month or so to do something so fun and just info dump and sdlafkjlda

Love you anon. Riku will probably add their version of this when they get the down time and energy (if they get the downtime and energy, a lot of what I put here was partially advice they gave me)

Hope this was helpful!

-Lin (I am really ad at shifting over from Rin rip)

[superemeralds]

🌷How will they deal with saying goodbye?

👯‍♀️How often do they see the others? Their other friends, too?

🖤Free space! Ask what you like, or request a random headcanon

<- hit us with your weirdest shot?

🌷shadow and omega b oth have very complicated relationships w the concept of good bye. they don't really age or die? omega specifically has the advantage of having very limited emotion and a highly logic mind, so he would not waste energy mourning and accept when things end. Shadow is def still trying to figure it all out. as of rn in universe ofc he doesn't have to think abt it much yet, he's doing his best to prevent his friends from harm right now, and he'd rather just face the problems as they happen. especially in shth he learned that theres no use thinking about the what ifs, because there's a right now that needs to be dealt with. the more he thinks about what differenciates him from others the less he can concentrate on what matters: the things he's got in common. like the ground beneath their feet, the star they orbit around, the wind that blows in their faces... He knows about the inevitability of death enough through maria, and he will try his best to not make the same mistake twice. he's determined to move on. ofc its easier said than done, especially in the conceptual event that rouge would fall in combat or even worse.. because of a mistake that he made.. but there are so many possibilities that i could analyze we'd be here for ever.........

rouge herself i think hasdealt with loss before, and she might have had some history with people that she has cut out of her lives. it might seem cold but i think she as a person has mastered the art of severing. whether its healthy is not the question rn... she def has a very soft spot for shadow and omega, tho as stated above these two are really hard to kill so there's not much to worry about in that regard, if anything it's a worry that might not plague her right now, but eventually she's going to think about what it means to be the one that's being severed by forces beyond anyone's control

anyways i dont wanna get existential this morning so this is where i stop

👯‍♀️I headcanon rouge has some friends she regularly meets in her bar (i'll let it be open if it actually belongs to her or if she's just a regular) and she would def visit knuckles every now and then. not saying she'd like. actually talk to him tho. might just lurk in a bush and stare at the master emerald

omega is a tough one to think about tbh. i admittedly don't have too many thoughts on him outside of being part of the team... this is telling me i need to dig more into his individual character tbh. what would he do for fun? when not with the otehr two?? Maybe he actually is like a gamer playing shooters and made friends in voice chat. no one believes him when he introduced himself as killermachine, they think its just a nickname

shadow likes solitude, but i really like that one bit in the recent twitter take over where he and knuckles stood in the forest for hours watching the plants and animals and hwo the light changes throughout the day while going through the leaves etc etc... theyre both very connected to nature in their own ways and i think they could bond over that. also about how they both prefer solitude. they can be alone together! they dont need any words, they can just exist next to eachother for a few hours and feel good about it. he also most surely hangs out with sonic every now and then. hangingout being racing and having a good fight together. though im sure sonic can eventually convince him to spend proper time together. for example making a race into a trekking tour where they go random places sonic knows or doesnt know yet, and they learn about the culture and obviously the food. shadow does seem like someone who'd like to learn about the planet, and sonic's the type of guy who's super eager to have someone to show around and explore with that can keep up!

🖤oh man idk weirdness is super subjective. uh. i wrote a fanfic once about how team dark and team sonic have a bowling competition

[dawnofplumeria]

I'm a bit curious about this (don't hate)

Why do you ship Kokunaki? While they don't have any interactions and moments with each other?

Even I see some of its shippers always say that it is canon but it has never been confirmed like that, which makes me somewhat displeased with the ship.

If you like it then I'm fine with that because I respect everyone's preferences

(You can scroll down all the way to the bottom for TLDR if you're short on time😉)

Sorry it took so long to answer...🙇🏻‍♀️😓

I'm glad you asked! In the past, i had a few people asking me why I ship Kokunaki, I'm happy to answer this one! This response will be a bit long since I have so much to say on Kokunaki 😊

Kokunaki is not my first rare pair, so I've been a believer that characters don't need to interact in order for the ship to be valid or good. True, we never got them to see them appear in the same scene together at all. The only time we ever got to see the two next together in any official kny media is in kimetsu gakuen chapter 20 (and they didn't even talk to each other). However, there's so much potential between them to explore in fanworks that I simply can't ignore.🤔

I'm not even sure what source these other shippers use to say that Kokunaki is canon. As far as I know, I couldn't find such source and none provided any. I'm guessing you highly prefer canon ships over fanon ones (which, is your choice and that's ok🤷‍♀️).🤔

At least you're a pretty good sport.🙂

Oh right, here's why I am obsessed with Kokunaki...😊

-I find them appealing to look at together from a visual standpoint. 6 eyes and one eye? So adorable🥰. Pretty much the first reason many people (and myself included) find themselves to ship Kokunaki💕. Also, the height difference is cute(Ik Nakime's official height is unknown, but I'd like tot hink she's 5"0 tall)☺️.

-They share similar personality traits. Both are aloof, quiet, stoic introverts who are surrounded by idiots😆. Due to both of them being the more sane or normal among the UMs, I'd like to believe they at least don't mind each other's company in canon. They'd love to talk to each other and overall spend time together. Their similar personality traits leads them to think and act similarly-so, they'll rarely fight or have major disagreements between them.

-We get to explore sides of both characters that the canon couldn't. In canon, Kokushibo does have very tiny bit of humanity left. If he doesn't have any humanity at all, he would've dispose of that flute that he managed to carry with him for 400+ years. At the very least, Kokushibo does indeed love and care for his brother the entire time (even though he won't admit it). As for Nakime, it's difficult to tell if she had any humanity at all since we the audience don't know much about her. The story has not presented us with any redeemable or sympathetic qualities for her. It could be argued that her ex-husband might've been abusive. Even then, we don't know much about her ex-husband either. What I'm trying to say is that by putting these two together in a relationship together, we can explore their human sides individually and together. Love in any way among demons is extremely rare,so imagining Naki & Koku as romantic partners can help bring out the softer, gentle nature deeply buried in them. Exploring the idea that they aren't 100% heartless monsters can do wonders to their characterization in fanon.

The potential of them as a power couple. Kokushibo has been UM1 from the start and has kept his title since. In Nakime's fight, two hashiras struggled to land a single blow on her. We haven't seen Nakime fight outside of the infinity castle, so we wouldn't know how much she'll do well outside of her domain. However, she's a powerful demon in her own right, and Kokushibo might see potential in her. Under his guidance, Nakime might still get to be powerful outside of the infity castle. With her and Kokushibo side by side in combat, they can operate as an offense and defense duality. Nakime can be the offensive force, while Kokushibo can be the defense force. Ultimately, they'll have someone to fight for😍

-Both were in unhappy marriages. Although not explicitly stated, it can be implied that both were in arranged, loveless marriages. I find it hard to believe Nakime willingly chooses to tie the knot with a gambling addict. From what we can read of her backstory from the fanbook, her ex-husband did nothing to contribute to household finances. In fact, he usually flushes Nakime's earnings down the drain-which is why the two are poor. Nowhere does the fanbook ever mention any positive memories the two have together. Given that the reason Nakime murdering her ex-husband is because he gambled away her only nice kimono, it must've been the last straw from her. Nakime pretty much had to put up a lot emotionally (and perhaps physically) to being stuck with a man who has trouble with money.

As for Kokushibo, he has a stronger case for being in an arranged, loveless marriage. He's the eldest son of his clan with a lot of expectations placed on his family. Of course, his family would set him up with a daughter from another wealthy family. Canonically, he did describe his marriage as "boring". This leads me to doubt he and his ex-wife lvoed each other at all from the beginning. Due to a lack of love or interest towards his ex-wife and kids from his memories, he most likely formed a family purely out of societal obligation (still not a free pass for him to go out and buy milk though).

During the times when Koku & Naki were humans, arranged, loveless marriages were the norm. Unfortunately for our unusual eye couple, divorce isn't an option in their human years. When the two become close and comfortable to be vulnerable to each other, they'll open up and relate to formerly being in unhappy marriages.

-The forbidden/tragic love aspect. They're not in a Romeo and Juliet type situation, but their romantic relationship can bring them a lot of risks. Like I said earlier, many demons don't even get along (mainly because Muzan makes it difficult for mutual bonds among demons to happen). Romance is highly unheard of among demon kind. Given as to their backgrounds and roles in the 12 kizuki, it's a perfect recipie for heart-wrenching angst. Due to them both most likely never having romantic feelings towards anyone before, it'll take them quite a while to realize or admit to such feelings (Kokushibo would be more stubborn and in denial in this aspect than Nakime). Kokushibo and Nakime are very lucky to be Muzan's favorites so that their relationship can be approved. Although Muzan trusts them to not backstab them, he'll secretly spy on them here and there. Since Muzan Witnessing demons being in love is a once in a blue moon phenomenon, he'll probably toy with our love birds for his own sick entertainment. One of the conditions Muzan would give them to continue being romantic partners is to always put him first before each other.

As if it wasn't enough to get Muzan' approval, Naki & Koku will have to keep their relationship behind closed doors from EVERYONE. Luckily, I don't think either of them would be into PDA. In fact, they strike me as a couple who prefer to be affectionate in secret. However, they're still gonna have to be cautious about potential spies and nosy beings. Afterall, they can' let their relationship get in the way of their duties.

-Ultimately, all they'll have is each other. One of the reasons the two will be drawn to each other is vulnerability. Think about it, Nakime is quite quiet, unsettling individual with a very strong "don't come any closer type of nature. As for Kokushibo, he's UM 1 and one of the oldest and most feared demons in existence. As much as both of them are content with their roles among the 12 Kizuki, it can get pretty lonely. Nakime does feel safe in the domain she created to her own liking, but her role as Muzan' lackey can get quite isolating and she'll be in her thoughts most of the time. As much proud Kokushibo is for being the apex predator of the demon hierarchy, he's extremely unapproachable to many.

Due to their similar personalities, they can easily listen and understand each other. When close enough, they'll even know what each other is thinking just by very subtle body movements. The start of a beautiful friendship turned romance is them realizing that they don't need to be completely alone 100% of the time.

TLDR: The reason I ship Kokunaki is because of the potential these two could have together. They are pretty similar in personality and thinking, interesting exploration for their characters and there is room for possibilities to explore demons in love. Kokunaki provides a potentially angsty slowburn fest as a result of two characters coming from troubled, broken backgrounds who are trying to navigate the unnerving world around them. I hope I answered your question successfully well🥰

👀👀👀💘👁

[r-ene]

Pros and Cons of being an Overloaded Student in Respiratory Therapy

during my 3rd year, where majority of the subjects are major subjects such as critical care management, airway management, mechanical ventilation and neonatal respiratory care, i took up more units than prescribed by the university due to being an irregular as a transferee (2nd year). and so i had 11 subjects with 31 to 33 units with 6 days a week of classes. i was leaning on writing how i survived it but rather i think "10 pros and cons" would be a bit better for those considering to undergo this kind of process.

this is from my own experiences tho, so... yk

Pros

you get better at time management. you drown, otherwise.

less procrastination. like #1, you drown if you do.

you get better at juggling loads of school work

you get better at putting boundaries - your body knows when it's time to study, time for family and God, time for rest (although you still need to get reminded), time to socialize

your focus becomes... great (most times)

you get disciplined.

you appreciate your early mornings, rest days, people and God (should you ever be a believer). i personally love my early mornings where i spend about 10 mins on average reading the Bible before classes, it helps me cope with all the stress and made me more optimistic. i also observed things are better (ex. grades are higher in quizzes) when i don't forget to communicate with God before starting my day

its a good practice. as a future healthcare worker, even for my internship there would be schedules of 12-16 hours aside from the regular 8 hour shift scheduled about 5 days a week, with saturdays being lecture or research days, it's a good help.

you are able to find ways how to study more effectively. i personally figured out what study style/s are best for me and when i should utilize study style A (standard) and study style B (for exams, quizzes) and so on.

you learn to compete only with yourself. most times we compare our progress and grades with others when actually, we do best when we only look at ourselves and compete with ourselves yesterday and move forward with it because you understand that you are a unique case and individual and so are others.

Cons

quick burnout = it takes a toll on your health especially when exams come where all classes would require a written one (practical exams such as in skills lab, performing airway suctioning or arterial blood gas were a blessing to me)

major subjects = major requirements. sometimes you forget that your minors need some attention too at times

i only had 1 day of rest (sundays). i love going on worship services but sometimes you just want to rest and sleep the whole day ??

you get very, very anxious and jittery when you dont have anything to do.

sleep gets put off when there are tons to do despite being good in organization and time management. i once went 38 hours without sleep on an exam week, i think it was finals ?

...it was very difficult to study for exams held on the last day, especially during finals. i loved pulmonary disease management and hemodynamics but i was just so exhausted i picked rest over studying otherwise my vertigo might act up

when bombarded with tasks (ex. case study + other major presentations or tasks all together), it's difficult not to spiral. therefore, i suggest to take a walk, especially if you have a baby doggo

if you live with your family, its a bit difficult when they fail to understand you have tons to do on a daily + need some rest. i live with my family of 6 members and sometimes we get into an argument with how im unable to help around especially while im resting after class

it is very difficult to schedule dates with friends or siblings or s/o (i don't have a significant other so that's one less thing to worry about, haha). oftentimes when my older sister asks me to accompany her to the mall for a date or just as company, i spend most of the time in coffee bean, studying. sometimes i rush there when there's an online quiz scheduled in the middle of the day even without lectures.

you gotta sacrifice a lot of things. as you can see above: you sacrifice good health, time with loved ones and yourself, binge watching or gaming (me personally i set a rule if im not on a semestral break i dont play games), good sleep, difficult to commit to other things (uni organizations or work, etc) and etc etc

this being said, i don't discourage or encourage anyone to become an overloaded student as it depends on your unique situation. with mine, my faculty wanted me to supposedly join my batchmates for this year's internship but i was still left behind because there were no offerings for the subjects i needed to complete everything during the summer term and so... yeah, hahaha

other than that, id say i did very, very well both semesters !! not to boast, but it was something i worked hard on and sometimes you just gotta be proud of yourself :)

[justanotherpersontryingtomakeit]

It’s weird sometimes…. It’s like my mind wanders and I wonder how you are doing…

I’ve stoped wondering if you’re hurt like I still am? Cause me and everyone else knows it’s not going to happen…at least for a while… it’s not like I ever expect you to think I was the one that got away… who we grew to be as individuals was never going to work out… neither one of us was ever going to be able to make other person happy in the long run…. I just hope one day you do at least feel guilty of how you treated me and went behind my back in the end. After all 8 years together and you did what you did…I always told you to just divorce me rather than hurt me….

Sometimes I think about that… like I think that maybe you had an affair to make your self the bad guy so it would be easier for me to say goodbye and leave the past 8 years of my life behind….. but then I remember you’re not a good guy….and I just get upset cause that’s a hard pill to swallow…. Because you once were a good guy… yeah I could have done more but it goes both ways…

Then I will go back to forgetting you even existed… which makes my life easier but then I feel guilty cause I don’t want to disregard the past 8 years… it’s been a hard mind battle to deal with. But we are slowly but surely getting there.

Idk my thoughts are just so cluttered…I’m being pulled in two different directions…. Part of me still wants to latch on to you still… not in like I want you back…no definitely not that…. It’s like latch on to the old memories is more like it… while the other part of me wants to take all those memories shove them in a box light it on fire and walk away and pretend you never existed… any memories with friends its like a white smudge…. Cause I refuse to let you ruin all my core college memories with your presence in them. It’s just like editing you out of the memory.

Anytime I think about the chance of seeing you again makes my stomach drop… cause it is inevitable at the end of the school year…. Do I just pretend you don’t exist…pretend the person I spent the last 8 years of my life with doesn’t exist? Like that’s the only option I can’t pretend you are a stranger… because you’re not… I know way to much about you for you to be a stranger…. So the only option is to pretend you don’t exist… but that’s easier said than done… because I know my self…. Unless I am actually having the time of my life or drunk off my ass I know I will try and spot you while we are out celebrating…. It’s an unconscious thing… don’t feel flattered it’s how I am in general with anyone who I’m trying to find or avoid… I just want to have a good time… make my last memory in that town a happy one… no drama just fun and celebration and spending time with people that care about me. But it worries me that you might try approaching me… cause the only reason for that would be to apologize… but we both know that won’t happen. Plus you’re too much of a little bitch to actually do that. But at the same time it isn’t a 100% guarantee you won’t… I am probably giving you more credit than you deserve since the right thing to do would be to actually and genuinely apologize to me… but you haven’t done the right thing all year..

Ugh idk it’s shit like that makes it hard to try and move on and try and put my self out there. I know I’m not ready for a relationship…. I got way to many trust issues and really don’t wanna deal with the bullshit of what the dating game it like rn. I just want to meet a new friend that I don’t work with that doesn’t know what I’ve been through someone to talk too. Share the random thoughts. I know i can with my current friends, but again I don’t want to be a burden. Idk it’s just they are all grown up… married or engaged… and happy and have their own things to deal with and priorities

I’ve thought about FWB or one nights but like how do I do that without making a fool of myself… oh yeah I’m a grown ass adult and idk how to do this because I’ve been a wife and in a long term relationship for majority of my life… and I just idk… my brain capacity just hit it limit. I guess untill next rant moment

[heresmaitake]

What was your biggest heartbreak?

I’ve seen a lot of people sharing their stories about this on x lately. The "tell me your biggest heartbreak?" challenges. Some are even making threads, and it’s been so fun to read. But me? I'm too lazy to type it all out on my non premium x account with its 140 character limit, so I thought I’d write it here on Tumblr instead. I’ve got no ongoing projects right now, so why not spend my night reminiscing?

Because honestly, my biggest heartbreak taught me how to become a better person.

So, what was it?

It wasn’t the time I broke up with my ex-partner. It wasn’t even the time my crush turned out to be unrequited (tbh, I’ve forgotten what that even feels like).

My biggest heartbreak was this: Realising how cruel I had been to myself by staying in a relationship that gave me less than I deserved.

Don’t get me wrong, I believe that every relationship’s end is the result of mistakes made by both people. It takes two to tango, after all. And in my case, that was definitely true. I’m not here to blame my ex. We’re strangers now, living completely separate lives, and I don’t know or care about what he’s up to. The past is the past, and honestly? I’m grateful for it. It shaped me into who I am today, a much stronger, more self aware version of myself.

But what I want to talk about isn’t him. It’s about me and the person I was in that relationship.

The heartbreak didn’t come from the breakup itself, it came from the moment I realised how much I had disrespected myself. I lost myself in that relationship. Back then, I was so insecure, but when I look back now, I can’t help but wonder: What was I even insecure about? Why was I so naive? Why did I think I couldn’t find a better relationship than the one I was in?

Of course, the breakup still left me heartbroken, but it wasn’t big enough to overshadow the deeper heartbreak I felt when I saw how much I had lost myself.

The truth is, we were completely different individuals who didn’t match at all. But when people found out about our relationship, they’d always say, “You guys look so good together!” which was ironic because, behind closed doors, we were the opposite of compatible.

He was someone who used silent treatment to deal with problems, while I hated it. He wouldn’t tell me what I did wrong, but he’d ignore me for days. I’m someone who likes to talk things out, to work through issues, but he didn’t see things the same way. And honestly, that alone should’ve been enough to make me realise how different we were in our relationship styles.

In the last few years of that relationship, I hated it when he said “I love you.” It was so hard to reply to that because it felt dishonest, not just to him but also to myself. I wasn’t even sure if he said it because he truly loved me or if it was just attachment. By then, the ups and downs in our relationship had left nothing but that attachment, not love. But we were young, and maybe we thought that was still love.

I hated when he talked about marriage with me in the year that relationship ended. In the first part of that relationship, I thought he was my person. Being married to him? That was initially something I once wanted. But as time went by, things shifted. Deep down, I knew we didn’t match to spend the rest of our lives together. At the same time, I hated myself for not being able to leave that relationship. Instead, I played along. I even acted excited about it sometimes. Looking back, I see how cruel I was, not just to myself but to him as well. It was unfair to keep him as my partner when I actually felt that way.

Our dreams and goals were also completely different. He wanted to stay, to live with his parents. I wanted to leave the country for better opportunities, not because I didn’t love my own parents, but because I wanted to do well for myself and eventually for them. I wanted to ensure they didn’t have to worry about me and maybe even give them a much better life than the one they have now, even though they’re doing just fine already. And no, I’m not saying one set of dreams and goals was better than the other, we were simply two individuals with different values, visions, and outlooks on life.

I should’ve spoken up sooner. I should’ve defended myself when he gave me the silent treatment instead of letting it push me to my limit. By the time I finally told him I couldn’t do marriage with him, all that was left was fear, not love. Fear of losing something familiar, not something that made me happy. But I bravely told him to find someone who wanted what he wanted a marriage because I didn’t think I was ready for that, at least not ready to do that with him.

But I’m not writing this to blame myself or him. Yes, I made mistakes, but I’ve learned from them. I’ve grown. And as my therapist once told me: “It’s okay. You might feel like you hurt yourself and were dishonest with your ex partner by staying in that relationship, but you did your best with what you knew and the resources you had at that time. And in the end, you found your light again at the end of the tunnel, and that light now helps you shine even brighter.”

So, my biggest heartbreak wasn’t the breakup itself, it was the moment I realised I had forgotten my worth. But that realisation is what set me free. After the breakup, of course, it hurt. Losing years of a relationship just like that felt almost like losing a best friend. We knew each other’s gag codes, laughed at the same things, and shared each other’s secrets. But three to four weeks later, things became so much clearer. Two months in, and it felt freeing. It felt right that it ended, it should have ended, sooner or later.

During that time, I worked so much on myself. By the end of those two months, I had found my happy self again. The separation freed me, and I realised how toxic that relationship had been. It left me feeling lonely, even when I was never someone who felt lonely without a partner. Letting it go was so liberating, and it’s what helped me grow into the person I am today.

And for that, I’ll always be grateful. The end. ✌️

[mayacakexo]

Groovy: A Vibe That Never Fades

"Groovy" is a word that takes you back in time, yet still feels very much alive today. It’s not just about the past—it’s a feeling, a vibe, a way of being that transcends decades. Originating in the 1960s and 70s, the word "groovy" captured the essence of a whole cultural movement, embodying the free-spirited, laid-back, and creative energy of an era marked by colorful clothes, experimental music, and a passion for peace and love. But groovy never really disappeared. It continues to describe those moments in life when everything just feels right—smooth, easygoing, and full of rhythm.

To be groovy is to move with the flow, to let life’s rhythm guide you effortlessly. Imagine walking down the street on a sunny day, your favorite music playing through your headphones. You feel light, confident, and completely in tune with the world around you. That’s groovy. It’s about being in sync with the moment, allowing yourself to enjoy life’s simple pleasures with a smile on your face.

The groovy era was more than just bell-bottoms and flower crowns—it was a cultural revolution. Music was at the heart of it all. Bands like The Beatles, The Rolling Stones, and The Grateful Dead created sounds that were experimental, soulful, and completely new. They blended rock, blues, jazz, and psychedelic elements to create music that felt as if it was pulling people together. Concerts became communal experiences, places where the groove of the music united everyone in a shared vibe. Even today, when you hear a groovy tune, it’s hard not to tap your foot or sway with the beat.

Groovy is also about style—vibrant colors, funky patterns, and bold expressions of individuality. In the 1960s, people weren’t afraid to stand out. Tie-dye shirts, bell-bottom jeans, peace signs, and headbands became symbols of freedom and nonconformity. The groovy look was playful and bold, a way for people to say, "I am who I am, and I’m proud of it." Today, this sense of bold self-expression is still alive, seen in fashion trends that embrace creativity and confidence.

But groovy isn’t just about looking cool or listening to great music. It’s a mindset. Being groovy means being open to new experiences, embracing positivity, and finding joy in the present moment. It’s about letting go of stress, not sweating the small stuff, and focusing on what makes you happy. In a world that can sometimes feel fast-paced and overwhelming, adopting a groovy mindset can help you slow down, take a deep breath, and enjoy the ride.

Imagine spending an afternoon with friends at the beach. The sun is shining, there’s laughter in the air, and the waves are crashing gently on the shore. No one’s in a rush; everyone’s just soaking in the good vibes. That’s groovy. It’s those carefree moments that make life feel effortless and full of light. Whether you’re dancing barefoot at a festival, chilling with friends around a campfire, or simply enjoying a peaceful morning with your coffee, you can tap into that groovy feeling.

In the digital age, groovy might seem like a throwback, but it’s more relevant than ever. Modern life is full of pressures—work deadlines, social media updates, constant notifications. Groovy reminds us to slow down and reconnect with the things that truly matter. Instead of getting caught up in the hustle, being groovy encourages us to find our rhythm and move at our own pace. It’s a reminder that life is more enjoyable when we’re present, playful, and in tune with our own groove.

Interestingly, the concept of "groovy" has even evolved in music and culture today. While the original groovy sounds of the 60s and 70s still inspire musicians, new artists across genres incorporate groovy elements into their work. Lo-fi beats, smooth jazz, and chillhop all carry that same laid-back, rhythmic feel that helps people unwind. Groovy isn’t stuck in the past—it’s adapted and found its place in modern culture, still representing that same sense of effortless cool.

Did you know that the word "groovy" originated from jazz? In the 1930s, musicians described music with a perfect rhythm and flow as "in the groove." This musical slang evolved over time, and by the 1960s, "groovy" became a popular term to describe not just music, but anything that was cool, exciting, or enjoyable. The word might have changed slightly over the years, but its essence remains the same—a feeling of ease, flow, and joy.

In conclusion, groovy is more than just a word from the past—it’s a way of life. It’s about finding your rhythm, being present, and embracing the beauty of the moment. Whether it’s through music, fashion, or your state of mind, groovy is a reminder to live life with a sense of freedom, creativity, and fun. So next time you’re feeling stressed or stuck, remember to find your groove and let life flow.

[watchesuaesblog]

Master Copy Watches: Created for Fashionable You

Introduction

In horology, where precision meets aesthetics, Master Copy Watches represent sophistication and style. These watches are carefully made to resemble expensive models while still being affordable and of good quality. The main focus of this article is on Master Copy Watches’ charm, the craftsmanship that goes into making them, their affordability as well as style and why they are a perfect choice for someone who knows what he wants.

The Craftsmanship of Art

The basis of a great watch lies in its craftsmanship. It is no different with Copy Watches in UAE. It has been proven that artisans who make these watches are knowledgeable in watch making. Therefore when one buys it, every part is put together meticulously with regard to accuracy and its life period.

Engineering Precision

The movements found in these watches are usually designed for high accuracy timekeeping. Most of the time these movements come from reputable brands known for their dependability. The process of assembling involves a lot of calibrations and tests to ensure that they meet the realistic standard levels.

Pay Attention to Minor Details

One hallmark that distinguishes replica Watches in uae from others is attention to small things. To mimic luxury brand designs, dials hands markers are always produced with utmost careness. Cases are sandblasted or polished until they achieve flawless finish while straps are made of highly durable materials ensuring the wearer’s comfort throughout its lifespan.

Beauty

These timepieces aim at serving not only as mere functional tools but also fashion items thus becoming pieces one can exhibit comfortably at any place. This makes them visually attractive even to those consumers who do not have interest in them in general.

Timeless Designs

Mostly, such watches borrow designs from top companies like Rolex, Omega or Patek Philippe among other brands known worldwide for their luxurious accessories; thus displaying classic look meaning wearing one does not imply fashion obsolescence hence ought to be taken as an adaptable item in one’s wardrobe. Whether it is a formal watch or a sports one, every taste is served by Master Copy Watches.

Personalization Features

On top of imitating prestigious originals, certain manufacturers of the Master Copy Watch have gone ahead to offer customization services. This way customers are allowed to make these watches their own and as such reflect their personal style through them. The range can include various dial colors, different types of engravings etc.

Inexpensiveness

One of the most significant aspects about Master Copy Watches is their low prices. It is possible to possess a luxurious item without spending too much money for it because it has replica options.

Cost-Effectiveness

You will get yourself an affordable luxury watch that looks and feels just like the real thing if you choose a Master Copy Watch instead of your average branded wristwatch. In fact, this does not mean that you’ll be getting an inferior quality product though. As such materials used for its production such as stainless steel and sapphire crystal are more durable hence providing reliable timepiece for long periods.

A Smart Purchase

To some individuals buying fine watches is regarded as an investment but because of exorbitant pricing many cannot afford them however. Hence people go for master copy watches which enable one experience luxury at relatively little financial output thereby building wide-ranging collection of fashionably stylish pieces at less cost.

The Perfect Choice for the Fashion-forward Person

Nowadays, watches are more than simple time-telling gadgets; they reflect one’s tastes and social status. To fulfill this requirement, Master Copy Watches has a variety of designs to suit different preferences.

Style’s Versatility

Master Copy Watch goes with your outfit whether you are dressing up for a formal occasion or going out for leisure. The watches can be comfortably worn on different occasions, thus enabling one to always look fashionable.

Confidence and Elegance

A Master Copy Watch enhances confidence when worn. These watches make you feel presentable and your whole appearance is polished and elegant. The certainty that crafters put much effort in making your timepiece will boost your confidence as it leaves a long lasting impression on others.

Ethical Considerations

However attractive they may be, the purchase of replica timepieces such as Master Copy Watches should be seen from an ethical standpoint. This debate revolves around intellectual property rights and effects on luxury brands.

Intellectual Property Concerns

Master Copy Watches have been designed to imitate luxury watch appearances thus raising questions about intellectual property laws violation. In order to help consumers make proper choices whenever they buy these products, it is essential that they understand this attendant problem.

Balancing Ethics and Desire

There are alternatives available for people who love the workmanship and design involved in luxury watches but are concerned about ethic issues. There are some companies that offer affordable watches which borrow ideas from high-cost brands without exactly copying them. Such products therefore enable buyers to keep their aesthetic appreciations while ensuring intellectual property rights remain intact.

Conclusion

Master Copy Watches bring together artistry, style, and affordability in a unique way. They represent an entry point into luxury world that everyone can afford so as to enjoy sophistication and gracefulness provided by luxury wristwatches at exorbitant costs. Although ethics cannot be ignored, these timepieces have irresistible charm for anyone who values both quality and money. For those who look for a combination of quality, fashion and price in a watch, Master Copy Watches are the best option. Whether you want to make a statement or just appreciate good watch-making, these timepieces are made specifically with you in mind.

[dramionenextgeneration]

10 Ideas To Give Consideration To When Taking Care Of Your Goldendoodle

Goldendoodles look so cute that it's hard not to fall in love with them. They have become some of the hottest 'designer' dog models out there right now. What this means is that every year, goldendoodle breeders are being owned by a larger percentage of individuals. Due to the goldendood being a relatively young breed, there is still a lot of confusion surrounding how best to handle their animal.

Does this dog breed receive the same attention and training that comes with owning a dog like a retriever? Although the hybrid circumstance may seem a lil challenging, it's all good. We are sharing some tips which will significantly simplify the process of maintaining your goldendoll, resulting in your whole family being happier and better-functioning.

1. Make sure to puppy proof your home.

The best way to properly care for your newly acquired goldendoodle includes making sure that your house is pup-proofed. This applies equally to you and the dog. You may not desire your miniature goldendoodle to engage in chewin', yet you'd like him not to engage in any that could damage him.

This involves scrubbing, organizing, stocking up, and ensuring that all equipment is securely stored, preventing unwanted plant life from invading the home, ensuring that no underwear is left behind, or ensuring that any pet-safe toys are removed. There's so much to be done when preparing a property to house a dog; it'd be better if you start early instead of later.

2. Start training your dog immediately.

Carering for a brand-new dog implies properly training him and guiding him around the home. Waiting to teach a puppy is not recommended. It starts immediately upon receiving the dog's home, just like it should be with any dog worldwide.  This dog requires understanding what'll be expected from him/her, which is why training becomes vital for bringing up a playful, content dog.

3. Remember This: Always Ensure That Your PUP Has a Toy.

It's basic yet often overlooked amongst newly acquired dog people. Your pup needs something that can be done when bringing home the dog but is unavailable to interact socially. He requires you also to provide some toys for you and your dog to enjoy playing together. Your puppy needs to have some toys. Any dog can play safely using all kinds of toys, as long as they're kept entertained while having fun.

4. Make time to spend quality time together as well as socialize your pup.

Caring for a goldendotte is much more involved compared to just ensuring that your pet remains nourished. It's all about establishing a strong bond between your dogs by demonstrating love to him, as well as giving him a sense that he is an important member of the household. This should be considered, so don't overlook spending time cuddling the canine. Play, play, play, cuddle- all of these are essential for establishing your pooch as a part of the family.

5. Establish a schedule that includes walks-ins, feeding, or both.

Don't you generally experience much greater happiness when things are scheduled? I understand the fact that we flourish when life is predictable. We don't feel reluctant to break it whenever it works, yet we prefer to maintain a planned day, a routine, a timeline, as well as boundaries. Having four children also implies its necessity. It's also required when having a pet housed. Your goldendoll will greatly enjoy following your schedule, particularly when it comes down to his food intake or walking. He needs to be able to determine when to venture out for a walk or a meal to be able to relax.

6. Have a talk with your veterinarian about your goldendoodle.

Your veterinarian has become your closest friend now that you own a goldendotte. He's your newest go-to resource. Your veterinarian will examine your pet, advise on a healthy diet, assess your pets' health, as well as insure you're not neglecting to care properly. You may consult your veterinarian anytime to ask any queries, request assistance, and to tell you how to proceed, etc. Being consistent is one of the greatest implementations you can make for both your goldendot and your dog.

7. Try to be consistent in what you do and when you do so.

Doggies, whether you know it or not, greatly benefit from being persistent. When a goldendot gets away today and ends up getting into trouble tomorrow, it can be challenging. He requires you know-how to reliably motivate, supervise, manage, challenge, enforce, maintain, encourage, create rules, communicate clearly, communicate effectively with him, as well as demonstrate affection. He requires patience and understanding, which is where you come in to help him. Our recommendation is to stay consistently organized to help your canine thrive.

8. Always be gentle when dealing with your dog.

Although goldendoodles may not be considered miniature, they're not considered to be as aggressive as mastiffs. Start by being kind to your dogs, then guide your children to behave similarly. We understand it can seem difficult to motivate children to behave politely towards an animist; however, they tend to follow examples rather quickly. That implies that you must act as an example here.

9. Try to get active.

Dog lovers enjoy going for a long-distance drive, walking, running, or living an energetic lifestyle. The Cocker Spaniel goldendoodle is no exception to this, which is why you should physically engage your canine to ensure that it is properly nurtured. This work works well for individuals and can be applied at numerous levels. If you encourage your dog to exercise properly, as well as offer him the exercise he requires to stay healthy, your pet is deemed properly cared for. Similarly, on another layer, your dogs are also assisting you to be more physically, mentally, as well as physically energetic. Accept this, then implement it diligently.

10. Socializing with your dog is essential.

Goldendoodle puppies tend to be very social canines that thrive on making friendships, playing together, as well as spending time together. However, they tend to behave far more proficiently when allowed time for socialization early on. Dog owners must be socialized to become proficient at behaving appropriately across environments, interacting amongst those they interact with, as well as bonding well with unknown strangers.

[seriouslydontneedyouhereanymore]

It’s not even a week but as days goes by, it passes really slow and mundane. Days felt like months and years. The silence is so deafening. All you can ever think about is how to be a better person, what’s the definition of being a better person and how do I actually achieve it and basically practicing it everyday on a daily basis. How can you knowingly unknowingly hurt the person you love so much. It doesn't make sense does it? Sometimes you feel like you're in control of your emotions and yourself but in reality, you're not. Not even a bit.

She wasn't asking for much in my opinion. To purely respect her in ways that I speak, no matter how disturbed I am in a situation and also on a normal daily basis. To be mature. To take leadership when she has done enough and its my time to do so. Respecting her space when she clearly needs/wants it... knowing she value and cherish her time alone so much, it means a lot to her… to recharge, to heal, to have her me time and etc. To also be understood during her tough situations and now that it is very crystal clear that she has more piling responsibilities to handle, you as a partner wouldn't want to be part of her burdens. I am in no position to help her with her responsibilities (as much as I would love to, and I will help with whatever I can) but the least I can actually do is to help her understand where she was coming from. And that my friend, was what all I went wrong in this very paragraph. I failed to do as so and I became too comfortable and selfish.

Blame yourself as much as you want kid but if nothing changes within you, you yourself is at the losing end. She has done all the things you would want for for you to be happy in a relationship with her, but you failed to understand the simple signs she was asking you for just so she could be happy too... with you.

It's weird because I have faced this challenges before and I managed to pull through but once she starts giving me the things that I want, I slacked. Slacked so much that I became comfortable and selfish. I, undeniably pushed her feelings aside. I became too dependable on her which I feel like it shouldn't be that way.

I believe that she and I, we are our own individuals. She has her own life and I do too as well. Being in a relationship means we are able to be who we want to be while still have the ability to grow as an individual as well, grow together as couple. Love itself is not enough. There's more to that. I need to fix this and I have left with no choice anymore. I'd know for a fact if I ever lose her, I'd lose it all and that will take a very long time to forgive myself because I know I let a good soul go by my own very foolish mistakes.

For all the time that we are having our time apart now, no doubt, she has all the rights to be angry, furious, disappointed & upset with me. Her feelings are valid and if I were to put myself in her shoes, I'd feel the same way and wonder how long more I can withstand this person. I don't blame her at all. Really.

As much as this silence is a real slow killer right now, I understand that we both need it. And I can't blame her if she never return back to me this time. It just shows that she was never the problem and that I was. But let's not go there and make myself even sadder if I was to lose her by my own hands. Sabar, understand, reflect and acting on it is my only options now.

If you are ever reading this, no apologies will suffice because they mean nothing to you anymore. I get it. I just hope you're doing well and that you're safe out there, not doing anything stupid. There's no one in this world that I have love so hard except for you and I would do anything to salvage this relationship that I messed up sooo badly. I miss you so much, I miss the sound of your voice, I miss the way we last spend our good day together having our own karaoke session i your room when we both initially wanted to go that night.

I don't know when you'll come back or if you ever will, just know that Im always here if you need anyone or any help. Even if you need to take some extra time apart due to your upcoming examinations, its fine. I know how important these are to you so focus on what you have to do okay? You'll always have my support.

God this time, I really did fucked up did i?

I love you so much... I do... with every corners of my heart and I always will. Despite your flaws, I love it all.

2.52am and signing off. Goodnight.