#ithurtstobecome

[under-the-rainbow]

《I bury my heart here in this dirt I hope it's a seed, I hope it works I need to grow, here I could be Closer to light, closer to me I don't have to do this perfectly, yeah》 . . . . #song #lyrics #songlyrics #music #pink #courage #change #sometimes #ithurtstobecome #selfie #queer #transgender #trans #transisbesutiful #ftm #lgbt #lgbtq #pride #pridemonth #beyoubetrue #beyourself https://www.instagram.com/p/Byh6yzwiPnr/?igshid=1pdn1nar4h858

[transcendshame]

Lately, for a lot of reasons - I’ve been thinking about abuse. Emotional abuse; the worst kind in my opinion, and the hardest to recover from in a very literal and allegorical sense, whether we abuse ourselves (constantly underestimated as abuse), or someone abuses us / we abuse them - with our words (or lack of words), our body language, our unspoken “social speak”. . . . To provoke someone until they roar, and then get angry at them for becoming a lion. #emotionalabuse #emotionalabuseawareness #wordscutdeep It also wasn’t until recently that I realized I do have legit #PTSD from #survivingemotionalabuse , I go over it again and again in my head , trying to untie to knot in my stomach that proves so obviously the truth, but it’s undeniable. But #iamawarrior and #ithurtstobecome nonetheless #iamgettingthere #daybyday #instadaily one ☝🏻 tiny #self affirmation at a time, one tiny #selfcare moment. #lifeisaboutmorethanjustsurviving . . . . “The axe forgets what the tree remembers.” - African Proverb Sure. I can forgive but it is impossible to forget, unless someone has one of those brain wipe away memory things lol. #ichoosetoforgive for my own health and the health and benefit of those I love, but I will NEVER allow those who’ve taken me do granted, used me, invalidated me and so on to make ME feel as if I’m the crazy one. For the record, I was NEVER the crazy one. https://www.instagram.com/p/BoXwSB2Bdak/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1xnafge69dt9v

[therainbowtimes]

In this era of #MeToo and #believeinsomething Victims all men should support #women and #womensrights . . . #StopKavanaugh #AllWomen #EqualPay #NoToPatriarchy #feminist #lesbians @ppadvocacyma #bisexualwomen #transwomen #lgbtq #wearblacktoday #rainbowtimesmagazine #therainbowtimes downwiththepatriarchy #reproductiverights #equalpay #equality #womenmatter #rapeculture #prochoice #responsiblemedia . . #Repost @ithurtstobecome (at Downtown Boston) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoHQt4NA_VW/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gtl709228by8

[doubleshotofdepressoplease]

Don’t know the original source but this has resonated with me for years 🖤 Edit: “I Sing the Body Electric, Especially When My Power’s Out” by Andrea Gibson

[sweetleilani]

Are you REALLY honest with yourself?

Do you REALLY listen and ACT on your guts wishes?

You should try it.

It hurts but washing dirty laundry will always hurt.

Find out who you really are and find your soul.

You WILL flourish and FLY.

[therainbowtimes]

And #transwomen are champions for just living authentically and daring to exist. To trans women everywhere, you are beautiful and we see you! . . #mtf #transwomenarewomen #transwomenofcolor #transwoc #transgirl #transfeminine #ftf #hrt #estrogen #transwomenlivesmatter #therainbowtimes #rainbowtimes #rainbowtimesmagazine #transgender #transgenero #chicatrans #mujertrans . . #Repost @ithurtstobecome (at Boston Back Bay)

[transcendshame]

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#mustlovedogs #ftm #ftmtrans #ithurtstobecome #dogloversofinstagram #greatdanemix #pitbullsofinstagram #transcendshame #findinnerpeace #loveyourinnerweirdo #wearetheweirdos #transpandaclothing #transpandaorg #mansbestfriend🐶 #ilovemyfollowers #ilovemydogsomuch #almost10kfollowers #10kfollowers #jerseyshorelife #nycityworld #queernewyork

[transcendshame]

Everybody has a chapter they don’t read out loud - not even to themselves. Everybody hides pain inside themselves, FROM themselves, only later to find out they’ve been taking it out on others in some form or another. But the only way OUT, is through. Winston Churchill said, “if you’re going through hell - keep going.” . . . I feel like I’ve been on this ride way too long, mama. I don’t like rides. I’m not a thrill seeker. Those who know me well, know I’m a peace keeper. And yet, finding and holding onto one ☝🏻 second of inner peace is constant battle. I use that phrase a lot, lately. Constant Battle. I guess I have to read to whole god damned book. . . And when it’s all over ..... “Write hard and clear about what hurts.” - Ernest Hemingway ——————————- #thiscouldbeanyone #mentalhealthawareness #instadaily #read #whatifitwasyourkid #spreadlove #realworldshit #transcendthebullshit #livewithoutlabels #repost #educateyourself #dontlookaway #destroyyourlimits #thetruthhurts #depressionhurts #trendthis #nevercomply #youarevalid #ithurtstobecome #selfdevelopment #rainyday #oneofthem #transparent #igaddict #noshameintears #killsilencewithkindess #believeinyou #depression #anxiety #bipolar . . . . . •Peace ✌🏻Love ❤️ Humility 😌• - Jordan Ryan - Remember: Transcend ALL Shame; wear your “weird and unusual” like fhe crown it is. We are the heirs to the throne, and no one can take that away from us. https://www.instagram.com/p/BngZ_XjA5Xi/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=t1btokb5u3gh

[transcendshame]

#Repost @breakingtaboo ・・・ #Selfcaresaturday This was the purrfect picture for today 😻💟🎉 🖼- @livinglifeyellow . . . “Write hard and clear about what hurts.” - Ernest Hemingway . . . . . #ithurtstobecome #thiscouldbeanyone #educateyourself #mentalhealthawareness #transgender #protecttranskids #mentalhealth #instadaily #mtf #whatifitwasyourkid #realworldshit #blacklivematter #transcendthebullshit #loveoneanother #defyingorance #spreadtruth #livewithoutlabels #supporttrans #translivesmatter #spreadlove #openyoureyes #destroyyourlimits #trendthis #youarevalid #loveyourself . . . . . •Peace ✌🏻Love ❤️ Humility 😌• - Jordan Ryan - Remember: Transcend ALL Shame; wear your “weird and unusual” like fhe crown it is. We are the heirs to the throne, and no one can take that away from us. https://www.instagram.com/p/BnMYziUAnvY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3cns5928mzjx

[transcendshame]

. . . #transmasculine #breakthebinary #boyswillbegirls #pizzarollsnotgenderroles #girlswillbeboys #sushirollnotgenderroles #transfeminine #boyswillbeboysandgirls #fuckgenderroles #girlswillbegirlsandboys #motivation #loveyourself #thisismylife #liveinthenow #rememberwhoyouare #ithurtstobecome #loveislove #ftmfitness #educateyourself #transgender #mtf #ftm #supporttrans #thiscouldbeanyone #whatifitwasyourkid #trendthis . . . . follow @transcend_shame as well, our 501(c)(3) non-for-profit organization, founded by me (Jordan Santamaria), to help mentally ill people who fall under the Trans* umbrella. (at Hazlet, New Jersey)

[transcendshame]

Be exactly who you are, #noshame #fucklabels #transcendtheshame #gay #gayboy #genderqueer #transpandaorg #loveislove #gaycouplesarecute #shopwithacause #ithurtstobecome (at San Francisco, California)

[transcendshame]

This is by far the freshest piece in our end of summer collection. . . . #shopwithacause #transgenderbusinessowner #nonbinaryclothingculture #thisisyourshirt #neverconform #brandwithapurpose #gendernonconforming #ftmfitness #transcendshame #ftm #sexytransmen #transgenderboy #ownyourjourney #ftmofinstagram #transboy #transgenderftm #ithurtstobecome . . . . follow @transcend_shame as well, our 501(c)(3) non-for-profit organization, founded by me (Jordan Santamaria), to help mentally ill people who fall under the Trans* umbrella.

[transcendshame]

Oh dayum, but didn’t you already know? non-binary but also not a phase. Let the moon 🌙 do all that work. SNAPBACK5 . . . . . #fuckgenderroles #breakthebinary #boyswillbegirls #girlswillbeboys #boyswillbeboysandgirls #girlswillbegirlsandboys #instagood #transcendshame #transpride #beavoicenotanecho #ownyourjourney #outandproud #youarevalid #ithurtstobecome #lovelettertomypain #trandspandaorg #befearless #instagay #brandwithapurpose #shopwithacause #supportgenderlessclothing #gendernonconforming #nonbinaryclothing

[transcendshame]

My personal favorite, The Trans Panda 🐼 FtM tee. This one ☝🏻 is truly for my #ftm brothers, I made it just for y’all. On the sleeve, printed a trans flag with the symbol inside it in white. The main image is of a #transman (except he’s got a #panda head , because he represents all of us, all of the of #transpandaorg community and #transcendtheshame #nonprofit organization. . . . His body is #transandshirtless , with his #topsurgery scars clearly visible, purposefully put there - remember, these scars are part of our strength. It takes #courage to be authentically you, and - as my username now suggests #ithurtstobecome . In his hands he holds a needle and syringe in one, and a vial of #testosterone #HRT #vitaminT in the other. He is a #proudtransman , he is #oneofthem and he will never forget where he came. This design means so much to me personally, became I am #ftmtransgender #afab - but, never fear, Trans Panda and @Transcend_Shame intend to represent everyone in the non-typical cis-gender community. Bear with me while I prepare these designs myself, commission some designs from other artists within the community and then find time to post them all up. We are a VERY SMALL organization lol 😂 (two people, me and my fiancée @angie12881), and often due to my disabilities - I cannot work as fast as I would like to. . . . Nonetheless, thank you all who have been supportive so far and who continue to stand behind us. Furthermore, thank you 😊 so so much to those who have put enough faith in us and actually purchased a shirt or hat or phone case, etc. this is THE ONLY WAY we will be able to keep up what we’re doing, I cannot stress that enough. I’m not a rich man lol 😂, I’m about as poor as they come. But it’s okay, because I’m rich in spirit and love and as long as we can make enough money to upkeep the online shop until it becomes more popular, I can hold out and pay 💰 for it on my own and wait a few more months. I do not want to fail. I do not want us to fail. I WANT TO HELP PEOPLE IN ALL THE WAYS I LISTED in my posts from yesterday. I’m dead ass serious (there’s a Brooklyn term for ya). I love you all. Thank you for helping me have a CHANCE to help YOU.

[transcendshame]

“It’s important to remember that we all have magic inside us.” - JK Rowling . . . . . Picture and edit by. Me @ithurtstobecome and @transcend_shame “Do the universe a favor, don’t hide your magic.” . . . . . #heirtothethrone #magicalAF #crashingwaves🌊 #reachforthestars #magical #magic #wearetheweirdos #beweirdstayweird #alchemist #liveauthentic #definenormal #defineyourself #nostigmanoshame #authenticallyyou #fuckbullies #trueyoutribe #followyourheart #alchemisttribe #enlightenment #ninjastyle #authenticitytribe #embraceyourspecial https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn73ZMVh2Jo/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1stn6u2g7je6i

[transcendshame]

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#tiktok #musicly #cantsleep #igaddict #tiktokhot #transgender #fuckgenderroles #clapyourhands #cantstopthinking . . . #420 #fueledbythc #ftmfitness #heirtothethrone #isingthebodyelectric #motivation #beweird #definenormal #youareabadass #thisismylife #livefierce #respectyourself #ithurtstobecome #youarevalid . . . . . •Peace ✌🏻Love ❤️ Humility 😌• - Jordan Ryan - Remember: Transcend ALL Shame; wear your “weird and unusual” like fhe crown it is. We are the heirs to the throne, and no one can take that away from us. https://www.instagram.com/p/BnwkyaWhvbz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1td0sgzplw2b7