#it's times like these that i know im not neurotypical

[roaenexists]

I'm so hyper-fixated on tarot and occult mysticism that if I want to socially connect with someone the only way I can manage is by offering to read their cards or conversing on the nature of divinity. It's embarrassing. It's somehow even less socially acceptable than my last hyper-fixation, The Sims 4.

[d1sc01nf3rn0]

I'm seeing a lot of people with neurodivergency, specially under the autism spectrum say that "Laios is annoying, never shuts up, is insensitive, and I can't stand him"; and the irony is not lost on me lmao.

[junkartie]

I think the most crushing autism experience is friends/romantic partners eventually figuring out youre masking bcz if you keep it up long enough its also off-putting & unnatural and then insisting you act like yourself- only to realize they in fact do not like your real self and make comments about how annoying/different youre acting all of a sudden. ❤️🧎‍♀️

[autisticlee]

sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

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[13eyond13]

Is it actually THAT hard to be polite and considerate to other people online... Like is it just the Canadian in me having unreasonable expectations or what

[buildarocketboys]

Man nothing like talking to other writers to make you feel like you're not a proper writer

[stararise]

omg my dear friend dr. watson finally sent me another email!!!

they moved in! side note but i'm seriously wondering where the bedrooms are in tgaac's 221b because? there are no doors in the living room??? (unless of course they're attached to the fourth wall) where do iris and herlock sleep

holmes sleeps and gets up early?? 'his habits are regular'???? this is ABSOLUTELY not what i expected

watson thinking holmes couldn't POSSIBLY be addicted to drugs because of the 'temperance and cleanliness of his whole life' lmao

interesting how in his description of holmes, he never mentions, like, colors. i guess to let the reader form their own mental image, on a doylist- wait. WAIT IS THIS WHERE THE TERMS DOYLIST AND WATSONIAN COME FROM. HOW DID I NEVER REALIZE

watson immediately taking an interest in holmes and welcoming the intrigue because of his monotonous lifestyle is so sweet

oh. so that's what people were talking about when they said sherlock holmes is autistic coded. adfbshg watson saying no one would ever go to such lengths and learn so much information about something unless they had a Purpose for it... listen my dear friend sometimes the brainworms just strike without warning!!!

NOT EVEN THE SOLAR SYSTEM FJSGGSGS tbh holmes has so much power to be able to forget things at will

'i could not help smiling at the document when i had completed it' aww

wait holmes is good at swordplay? i never knew that!

'i threw it into the fire in despair' is a very humorous line

absolutely punched in the face by the reminder that the original inspector lestrade is, like, a middle-aged man

'with the unreasonable petulance of mankind' is such a good phrase

not watson insulting holmes to his face! i would be so embarrassed. in his defense, the premise does sound pretty ridiculous, though

*herlock sholmes voice* i'm a great british consulting detective, the only one in the world! fjsgsg that was the only thing i could think of when reading that line

i like how holmes's deductive reasoning method is literally just making a ton of (admittedly, fairly logical) assumptions about people. and it works

i also wondered why watson couldn't simply be tanned from being outside, and then i remembered this book is set in london, england

watson is SO upset over his blorbos being insulted lmao

'brag and bounce!' is such a funny exclamation

[batemanofficial]

aren't we tired. aren't we all tired

[merlions]

The day of travel I had today is indescribable and the only thing that could possibly have made it even more un fucking real is if it were preceeded by the 3 days I had prior lmfao how do you describe "from never missing a flight to missing three in one weekend" and "three two hour naps over three days, and also trying to be normal at a funeral" and also "how many times can myself and each member of my enormous extended family, and any combination thereof, get trapped in an elevator" do you call your mother if you get trapped in an elevator on her birthday? Opinions may differ! and "I was so deranged at the funeral I at first genuinely thought my father's estranged brother was the ghost of my grandfather's brother who was there to attend his funeral" and also "I can still sight read hymns? I didn't know I could do that but I guess I'm the song leader of this cry party now" and "mathematically, how many distinct times in any given recurring 25 hour period is it possible to experience nicotine withdrawal, to really maximize suffering both physical and mental" and also days are 25 hours now and also I just came back from a 59 hour long single day and I had an asthma attack in an airport so bad my mouth tasted like it was flooding with blood and I actually thought it might have been a real heart attack the chest pain like a fucking knife my lower jaw cramping my legs shaking at the limit of my physical strength trying to stay upright trying to seem normal while asking a gate agent if I could still get home somehow or what, the fucking denver airport designers revealed now to be supervillain level cruel (I have long suspected this) I think my blood pressure is like 12/140 and my veins are pooling so bad ive got these crazy perma worms lookin ass vessels visible in my arms and hands, tried to see if compression socks would help and they did but I just noticed they also literally friction burned a huge portion of my leg hair clean off lmfaooo, each day of travel meant to be ~8hrs and getting home at 5pm, but turning out instead ~17 hours and got home just recently to feed the animals and am waking up for running off to class in around 4.35 hours from now. I'm not letting myself get mad at myself for taking like two hours to relax while awake for the first time in days and days. My blood is a thick soup in my eyeballs, in this house we call that shit "Saturday disease" 🤕🤧😵‍💫

[ishouldbedoingalright]

i do dislike having friends sometimes and in turn i do dislike that people don't understand that not everyone will understand each other in every interaction. whether this reflects badly on me or on my friends I just don't know. I suppose it comes down to tone indicators. e.g. I sent a message via teams to my friends, they proceed to call me a moody arse... now to me, nothing about what I said was 'moody' in the slightest, at the most, it was deadpan. tell me why then 2 of my friends double down on the moody vibe I'm clearly putting out to the world. "what's up with you??? you've been an arse all day" all the while I'm sat here genuinely wondering what I have supposedly done wrong. all I did was send a message saying 'i don't understand what you're saying' and that indicates I am being an arsehole. okay. and yes, I am still confused.

[sea-buns]

fuck colleges that dont give you the schedule info until literally the day before the semester starts

as someone who needs to know the start and end times, approx size, setting details, etc., WELL IN ADVANCE of every function i attend/activity i take part in just to keep myself from ripping my chest open i cannot comprehend how ppl can live SO last-minute

its not even just about a person living this way. how is it okay for an academic administration to run this way? did someone greenlight this and say yeah thats no big deal? or did we all collectively agree its insane and just no one has said anything?

[bmpmp3]

I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

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[trafficpan-ic]

Ready to fight everyone that says people dont need a diagnose

Meanwhile it saved my life

[autisticlee]

when you're so awkwardly autistic and bad at people and talking that no one will even trust you to do a thing that's a special interest/you are passionate about/work harder than anyone else at/are actually really good at 😔 i wish my skills and hard work woukd speak for themselves, but the undesirable autism traits seem to permeate through and overshadows everything.

does this happen to anyone else? is this a common autistic experience? or is this a me thing?

[kienium]

i have such a hard time with tone indicators still because i don't know what the fuck i mean either. how am i supposed to fake it until i make it in these conditions