#it's not the end of the world

[beardedmrbean]

[0xeyedaisy]

It seems I have lost all of my art on my computer. Very unfortunate

[ingo-ingoing-ingone]

A Personal Post

Hi guys, I'm finally making the post I kept telling myself and my best friends I'd make but wanted to put it off until I felt better. That hasn't happened and with how things are going I thought it was best to just post it now.

So for a while, since probably late 2023, I've felt less like my blog is for me, and more like it's some kind of fandom archive. Which, if you use it this way as-is, great! I'm glad my blog could make you happy like that! But that's not what I set out for it to be.

I'm the sort of neurodivergent person who likes to categorize things, including my interests. All my tumblr blogs are specific to one thing, and this one was no exception.

I began tagging things soon after I made the blog because I saw a lot of people were sad about the twins, and I thought "well since I love both sad and happy stuff, and I'm really good about categorizing things, maybe I can try and help!" And according to many, it did help!

But I think that also gave off the impression that I was making this blog for other folks, and that isn't the case. I'm sorry I never clarified. It's not an archive; I do not reblog shipping posts, posts from people I've blocked, AUs I don't click with, and sometimes just not everything I see.

I've gotten popular in the fandom, and for the most part I do, from the bottom of my heart, enjoy it. I have people who care about my hyperfixation! That's amazing! I have people who love my cosplay and want to meet up with me. I've made so many friends of all shapes and sizes and it's probably the most incredible thing I've ever experienced, truth be told.

But yeah my blog being mine has gotten away from me a bit, I think.

I want to keep tagging my submas tags, that isn't going to change. I will tag triggers when asked, unless it's kind of impossible due to the blog's subject (trains, for instance) or a name or really common word (like the word 'head' or something). Other than that please reach out and I'll do my best to remember. But other tags? Those will be up to me. I don't want to tag when OCs show up. I love OCs and like seeing them, and don't want to have to remember that one person who visits my blog doesn't.

I had anon off for a while because honestly ever since making this blog, there have been anons who really made me unhappy. (Also yes, non-anons but that's been fewer and far between). I've gotten misinformation, accusations, horrible and disgusting explicit asks, and criticisms and complaints, and I'm just... Not here for that. Keep the explicit things and misinfo out of my inbox, I am no arbiter of morality or personal decisions, and I am not here for you to share your negative opinions of submas or the fandom.

Anon is on for people who are too self conscious to chat face to face, for people to send fun headcanon ideas (remember when people did that back in 2022 when this blog started? I miss that, it was sweet and wholesome), to share song recommendations... That kind of stuff. If you have an actual problem, please, PLEASE talk to me off anon, whether that be DMs or a non-anon ask that I can answer privately. Especially if we're friends; please, please just talk to me about stuff. I don't bite! I swear!

But yeah the bottom line is I'm here to participate in fun (and sometimes heartbreaking!) fandom stuff. I'm here for FUN, not as my job. I know that we're all a bunch of neurodivergent folks and sometimes interactions can be a swing and a miss, but please try to be mindful. Please treat me like a person and not just like a museum curator for this blog.

Truth is, I haven't been okay for a while now. It's gotten worse this year for sure, and due to life stuff I cannot see things feeling better for me for some time. I need to go day by day for a lot of things, and I am trying to get better about needing to set boundaries and all that sort of thing. I suffer from intense paranoia too, and having so many eyes on me is genuinely terrifying at times. I'm trying to manage that as best I can, but I do ask that folks be kind.

NO I am not going anywhere, my blog is staying and will continue on as normal, but I really, really needed to get this posted.

Please continue to interact with me and chat and everything like that! But also please remember to treat this space, my blog, as my space. Thanks for reading!

[audreyrose7]

But still surprises me sometimes what a massive relief it is that I was so wrong about the end of the world. When I was a Christian I spent so much time stressed and scared and worried about it and now it's just another scary story that I don't have to think about.

[thescarvedinsect]

I just realised that my OC Ash looks a lot like the "Everyone is so mean 2 me" meme, so, as an idiot with constant art block, I decided to draw it. XD

Sorry if my signature's blurry. I used ntscQT for the VHS effect, and it just made it mostly illegible. :-(

Alt. 4:3 version below the cut!

[malinastharlock]

Welp, time to dive into my inbox, my anxiety has finally chilled the fuck out. Also sorry to all my unread fans. Love y'all, I'm just weird about talking to people's sometimes when I'm under too much stress.

[apollos-olives]

evil eye is shirk, just a heads up

maybe i just like it cuz it looks nice. i don't care. i don't believe in it or worship it. as long as i know allah is one and only then i think i'm fine 🤷‍♂️

[lynntheninja]

[songforten]

job interviews are so fucking evil i'm so stressed for literally no reason

[aniseandspearmint]

oh !@#$%^&*% I FORGOT GINGER

[pickletrip]

Oh, and I'm afraid that's just the way the world works

It ain't funny, it ain't pretty, it ain't sweet

Oh, and I'm afraid that's just the way the world works

But I think that it could work for you and me

Just wait and see

It's not the end of the story

Watching 'The Eighth Sense' gave me an inkling of hope that in this messed up world there is always beauty and love somewhere. Kinda hard to find... Sometimes it's really hard to hold onto. But it's not the end of the story.

[aventvrina]

@zorkaya gambled...

The game is over before it reaches the climax, the end is here and the person who stops is none other than the bodyguard herself. The men scatter away, picking up their coats and storming out of the playground of her client. However, it's not what Aventurine wished for, he is a gambler but she doesn't know yet how far he's willing to go. Eyes scan the premise before turning to look at the Stoneheart. "It was dangerous, if you lost they would've pulled out their guns." Her frown is evident as she looks at him. Why is he not glad and letting out a sigh of relief that she stopped an eminent danger? "It was an unnecessary risk, sir. Are you hurt anywhere?"

Aventurine's gloved fingers scrape wood as everything comes to a halt. Since of tender age he has realized that survival takes immolation. Something must always be burnt in order for continuity, be it his family, be it his people, be it his own self. Survival demands it's fuel and sometimes, that's just the price, to have the head beneath the guillotine, extortionate or not, it must be paid. As Jade had so eloquently put it, such is the fate of a gem, to be desired, to be chased, to be cut, to be sold. It's easier to accept it if it has always been decided since the beginning. Even easier if he had carefully crafted it in such a way that the guillotine will always be there, wanting to quickly kiss his neck but never quite falling. He was prepared for this, one could even argue he was born for such a role. So why did it burn so much to have the cycle halt.

He glares. His eyes feel as crystals, clear enough to see intent, sharp enough to feel the unseen cut they make on Zarina's image. It's been nearly a life time since he has felt this livid. It's almost uncharacteristic, the Aventurine image has been curated to such a point that his hoax as Jade's dupe is flawless even in temperament. Yet, his hands tremble, clutched fists over the table that was to be the podium of his grand play. The final act was upon him, he had been so close to the final call only to have it spoiled. And all in the name of what.

Danger?

It was dangerous?

He has to laugh, short and dry, oozing with disbelief.

"Unnecessary risk..." The chair shrieks with him standing, a calm stride, near stalking as he crowds her. An unnerving contrast to his inner rage.

"Unnecessary risk, do you hear yourself?" Where was this concern when he had taken the test. Where had the cold gold wondered when the gun had been fired six times, six empty chambers, six missed chances. The gun ends on his hand as planned. She had been there, she had been witness. She knew of the lengths the stoneheart would go to achieve results.

"Did you forget who you are?" No, that didn't feel quite right. "Did you forget who I am perhaps?"

It was only logical, cause how else was he to explain this other than Zarina forgetting that the gem is to be cut. In that moment he wishes he'd see repent, he wishes his words would crack ice and cold gold would turn molten with regret. It's hard to remind himself of the role. All his careful work wasted, all the exuberant thrill chilled in his veins, whatever satisfaction he might have gained if he won was ripped out before he could even grab it. She had deprived him of it all.

"Look at what you've done. They're all gone." Resentment finally takes over, cooling the fury inside him as he reminds himself of their mission. Diamond wants results regardless of the means, he has to deliver something. Even if that something is sloppy in comparison to what he had forged, it'll have to make do. They can't leave empty handed. The thoughts of a gem are guiding, they're structured, he can fall into this again. He has to forget, momentarily, that his fun was ruined.

The bigger picture demands his attention, even if now it's impossible to ignore the giant stain that covers it.

"You are not to intervene like this again." It comes out petulant but he feels that he's allowed. This is why he tends to work alone, while all chips are worth a miracle, the ones who think themselves as more tend to throw the ball out of the roulette letting it fall to nowhere. He had expected Zarina to behave much as she had when she worked with Jade. Perhaps that had been his mistake, to think that he had perceived her. To think her vow was as empty as the pockets of her jacket had been that day.

He stares at the door which the guys had ran to.

"You wanted orders did you not?" She had made it impossible to ignore her suggestion. So often had she repeated she needed his words, words that would service only him. At first he had found it amusing, to have a shadow at his command can be empowering but it's not Aventurine's style. He had dismissed it, thinking it as nothing but a passing promise that she'd grow bored to repeat. Now however, he could see it for it's true value, and right now the less he saw of her the better.

"Catch them. All of them."

"Bring them back here, our business isn't finished." He takes his seat again, trying hard to ignore the disarray the stage was left in. "They have to forfeit themselves to us."

The mission was far from over.

[luimagines]

Hiiii I love your stories and I think I've re-read them a hundred times :3 , you're sooo talented!!!

I don't know if it's okay for you to write something other than Lu but I'd like to suggest it anyway '^' I recently met this au with Links with a different personality and I was wondering, obviously with a free theme of your choice if you could write something about them ^^

I especially love something about Grumpy Time and Twilight ♡ The Au is @zelda-the-sacred-realm

If you can't I understand thank you for all the beautiful stories you write!! ♡♡♡

Oh thank you!!!

I didn't know it was a whole other au!!! I've only seen the art for Twilight and Wind <3

Requests are closed right now but I don't mind writing for other Links. I'd need to just do some research first on how the other people are portraying them. It wouldn't seem fair to just copy and paste the same thing when their storylines are different due to the au.

Such is the nature of the beast.

I'll have to check them out though!!! I had seen the art but didn't know it was it's own story. :D

Now I'm excited! New stories!!!!

Just send this in again when requests are open <3

[whchwitch]

so taringail is officially booted off the show?

[arielmagicesi]

Guaranteed way to get myself to read something fucked up at night is to say "hey, I'm gonna go to sleep early tonight. How nice will that be" I will always end up reading something horrifying. Tell me why I reread Preludes and Nocturnes tonight for zero reason despite setting everything up nicely to go to sleep early